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the thinking chair
#happy batman day!#neeeearly missed it holy shit ive been struggling to draw but cant miss completely random date festival for bats can i#yes i am indeed a froggy chair supremacist#batman#bruce wayne#batman day#dc comics#my art#ladies. gentlemen. you have eaten well.
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Can you draw something with Doom Patrol!Edwin and Netflix!Edwin?
Maybe something about Dp!Edwin talking about his feelings for Charles with N!Edwin?
It's just something I've been thinking of, make it a little angsty?<3
Glad you asked
ko-fi
#ask ask ask#dead boy detectives#dbda#payneland#edwin x charles#doom patrol#dead patrol#cw homophobia#i know there are a couple of people who enjoy my rambly tags so these are for u#first of all anon i'm sorry i used your request to continue my story lol#most of my comics are meant to be standalones BUT#the doom patrol and dead girl detectives are all happening in the same universe#and there is indeed series of events here!#this particular one is happening after dp!edwin's feelings were exposed but before they met the girls#with that out of the way#i know this is not as funny as most of my stuff#but dp!edwin's internalized homophobia is an important thign that can't just go away because his charles loves him back#and he does love him back! in this verse#dp!charles is the only one not struggling with his feelings for his partner#dbd!charles and charlotte still have ways to go#also dbd!edwin is in no way an expert in self-acceptance but he has learned some things#i considered having him mention simon but i decided it wasn't his place to out him#(even though he's dead u know)#so yeah what he says here isn't... great#he's still putting himself down and he's still not sure if his feelings for charles are actually a good thing#but he knows HE is glad he feels this way#because fuck it it's not like he'll go to hell for it#and even if he did... he would crawl his way out
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so, we know that abuse and victim responses to abuse are very central to aftg, but what i find interesting is how other characters respond to the victim’s reactions, especially when it comes to mourning their abuser. there’s something about kevin mourning riko, aaron mourning tilda, neil mourning mary, andrew mourning cass, thats so important to me because it really truly highlights how even when people are united through similar traumas, the differences in their situations makes it impossible to fully understand the relationship a person has to their abuser. neil, aaron, and andrew are united through the abuse, neglect, or - what the fuck is the word i’m thinking of? permit? condone? i mean, knowingly allowing it to happen and not intervening - stemming from a maternal figure. but neil can’t understand why andrew would hold on to cass for so long - he refused to let her go until aaron came into the picture. and andrew can’t understand why aaron would mourn for tilda, potentially viewing aaron’s grief as a betrayal of their promise. and they all ridicule kevin for his reactions to riko. of course, neil and andrew are also abused by riko, but they still can’t understand the complicated relationship between kevin and riko because, at the end of the day, they just weren’t there.
i mean this is primarily an observation but i really love how trauma and trauma response is depicted as nuanced, complex and overall just difficult to understand from an outsider perspective in the books. it reads as really real, and though it can be frustrating when a character doesn’t understand a different character’s response, you have to understand that their perception of said character’s response is warped by their own experience of abuse.
andrew bounced from home to home, never had stability, so obviously he held tight on to the first mother-figure that didn’t outright hurt him. his self-worth was probably low enough that he thought living with drake was a fine price to pay to keep cass.
neil only ever had his mother, and he’d willingly accept her harsh hands because he believed she was just keeping him safe from the very real dangers that were closing in on them.
aaron was dealing with an addiction, and so was his mother; he was equally dependent on her to avoid withdrawal as he was scared of her anger.
i don’t really have a point anymore but you get what i’m saying
#or maybe this doesn’t make sense at all#idk i am struggling with words today#but genuinely i love how there’s no perfect ‘therapy friend�� in the series because it’s so unrealistic when someone is dealing with trauma#and somehow someone with a completely different upbringing understands them perfectly and always says exactly what the character needs#to hear#it’s something you see in fiction too much#the way these characters share certain experiences but aren’t 100% united in their responses to trauma#makes them feel so real#even if it means they say the wrong things sometimes#aftg#all for the game#neil josten#andrew minyard#kevin day#aaron minyard#i do indeed ramble on too much ik what ur thinking
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this meme was made for him
#yeehaw im in my franklydear feelings tonight yall#turning them over in my head like a well-loved uh. Something. trinket. gift.#fuck me its 4am no wonder im struggling to add tags rn#and i am indeed Struggling#so no rambles tonight. i thought this would be a funny little scribble and i was Right#scribble salad#welcome home#welcome home puppet show#franklydear
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I am probably going to spam this picture on every social media I have sorry people who are subscribed to multiple
#homestuck#homestuck fanart#feferi peixes#nepeta leijon#fefnep#kinda i guess#fefeta#ok thats a fakeout this is indeed not fefeta#this aesthetic is so not for traditional art i am struggling
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Next bit of the pride project and this is yet another non-surprise: Jance for G :3
#not me struggling with the pose again again :'D#I got there in the end x'D#so it is not perfect but it is something :'D#getting the colours to work was quite fun tho :3#got so happy when I saw that Nace indeed has a blue bass (is seen in the weekly update from may 12)#jan peteh#nace jordan#joker out#pride#pride month#mine#my own art
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hannibal bagged such a good husband cuz WHAT DO U MEEAANN that Will regretted not running away with him and couldn't let him go yet so he built his own fucking boat, sailed to Florence KNOWING, SENSING he would be there, FORGAVE HIM and didn't meet him face to face UNTIL he learned more about Hannibal by literally going to Hannibal's home to understand him more??? all that after Hannibal stabbed him and killed his surrogate daughter after making Will believe she is dead and framed Will for her death????&!#)€(
#we are going to ignore how will literally tried to kill him again tho#for the sake of the post and cuz deep down will trying to find hannibal was genuine#he tries to kill him again for revenge and resentment but that doesn't mean he doesn't love him#he is just really struggling to accept that he is like hannibal cuz that would make him not normal when he tries so hard to be normal#anyway#if i was hannibal i would indeed cry too to my pretend wife about this.#all that cuz will loved hannibal and felt understood by him and didn't wanna lose that and actually regretted his actions.#i better not hear anyone say that hannigram doesn't love each other after this#yall weren't joking when yall said that season 3 is the gayest of the seasons#the most romantic at that#nbc hannibal#hannibal#will graham#hannibal lecter#hannigram#murder husbands#text post#my post
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macaque, denial is a river in egypt..
MASTER POST
Asks Start 💙
Previous 🩷
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#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#lmk macaque#monkie kid macaque#blue and violet#the most hilarious thing about this is the fact thay yes Macaque can swim#but even he doesn't know what this means given the context of this ask#do 'I' even know what it means?#lmao no I just thought it would be hilarious if Macaque just blurted this out thinking he was making a point#if you want me to come up with a deep meaning behind this on the spot:#Macaque is indeed in a river of denial but he can swim so he is content and fine#struggling but he can still swim so he isn't too concerned on trying to escape the river#but of course this silly monkey can only swim for so long - just like any other person he will eventually get 'tired' or somewhat#swimming in denial won't get him anywhere#but hey he can still swim so...#eh what am I even saying#this is all bullshit
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i got an appetite (you too, just maybe)
CHAPTER 2 POSTED! YEY.
Yes, this is the smut i was finishing. It is done. The lap fic is officially complete.
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From the fool who added handwritten notes on a non-fiction book of which the translation was lacking in useful context, we now present translating the entirety of the epic musical because my non english speaking family NEEDs to know how good this is by a writing point of view. And yes as you can tell I am that fool.
#do i have the knowledge and skills to do so? no#am i doing it anyway yes#i am actually struggling less than expected#a few sentences aren't as pretty but who cares the message is there#i am indeed realizing i don't know my own language because sometimes i just look at my laptop for 5 minutes before#figuring out what the proper italian word for a certain concept is#i know for a fact i will regret all my choices once i get to thunder bringer because how the fuck will i translate the word plays#this is an interesting past time tho and i am actually having fun#will update you both on the process and on what my parents will actually think of the lyrics#my dad is severly obsessed but i knew he would since he is the cause for my own obsession with the odyssey#and my beloved mother was easy to corrupt bc she loves a deep singing voice so i had to make her listen to thunder bringer once#when god games comes out we'll both die right there and then i believe#cris speaks#the---hermit
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Starting to think, going by the MXTX fandoms, that a lot of people are comfortable with being a bit terrible and not thriving for an ideal whatsoever, because they really really reeaaally want to believe Xue Yang and Jiang Cheng are poor cuties who weren't lucky and the heroes are a bunch of holier-than-thou arrogant bitches who need to be taken down a peg when the text says the opposite, because then it justifies their own faults and hatred of genuinely awesome people who seem to have it better in life and isn't that sooo unfair and isn't it fair that they should suffer to learn what it's like to suffer like them, poor tortured, petty, flawed humans who see themselves in the villains rather than the heroes.
#Bloom talks#I'm out of patience with people who have decided not to be better and won't take any responsibility for it#oh but I suffer so~#newsflash asshole most people struggle horribly at some point or another and yet some of us decide to be good#and also some of us are indeed gifted and impressive and it is something to be celebrated and yes admired on occasion#I love a good gifted person#who shines bright and leads an amazing life#the Wei Wuxians of the world are a treasure#you want to love Jiang Cheng because you feel you are like him and want to be loved?#I don't know man have you TRIED not being an asshole? people have an easier time loving you if you try you know?#you don't have to adopt it as your whole identity and make it everyone else's problem#so fucking tired of seeing people not even try#IT'S FINE TO BE CLEAR to relate to Jiang Cheng and be an asshole inside#we all are a little bit of an asshole inside!!#just stoop pretending he's actually good and Wei WuXian is bad!#yes I'm talking about a general thing with this very specific thing yes#mxtx#mdzs
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The never-ending saga of Matthew being bullied on set😞💔
#I've said poor Matthew so often lately#Matthew's biggest struggles were more about managing the cast indeed#imagine being able to create more chaos than the cake scene#only tzp(+nick) can relate#i just know Matthew was TIRED at the end of recording days#poor matthew#all jokey jokey Matthew loved the cast more than we do#red white and royal blue#rwrb#rwrb movie#firstprince#alex claremont diaz#henry fox mountchristen windsor#nicholas galitzine#taylor zakhar perez#tzp
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the angst in your zombie au bREAKS MY HEART INTO PIECES (I LOVE IT VERY MUCH)
okay, okay, so!! if the kagebros got separated from reigen and teru when mob is still fine, i imagine that their reunion would be hEARTWRENCHING also, i'm a bit curious, would mob still be able to recognize teru and reigen? or would he thought about them as strangers?
(tbh, following your lore, i imagine mob would act a similarly like nezuko from demon slayer? but instead of little hums, his zombie sounds would more like babbling and incoherent mumbles :"D)
the reunion is fuckin AWFUL man it's SO gut-wrenching. both reigen and teru feared this for Months while looking for the brothers; pretty much the worst case scenario was that mob or ritsu or Both turned—a lot of humans prefer death over being a zombie any day, so the idea of ritsu or mob having to go through that and wander around aimlessly until starvation or smth else gets them,,,
it hurts them so much to think about. teru forces himself not to dwell on it and he's pretty good at that but reigen thinks abt it a lot and he's honestly not sure what scenario is worse. best case is that they're both alive and unturned, obviously, but what's the worst case? you'd think it's both of them getting killed, or turning, but reigen also knows that if One of them got killed/turned, the other would probably lose their mind, especially if they had to watch. the fact that they're kids makes this all three times worse and reigen has to act like he's Not worrying himself sick over the brothers while he tries to keep teru in high spirits
the reunion itself is rly fuckin gut-wrenching for them. they see mob from afar, wandered off just a bit from ritsu and tome who are just around the bend looting a place, and they book it bc ofc they do, it's mob!! but then they see how pale he is, and when he turns around they don't see that light in his eyes that's usually there and the red is dulled and dead looking,, teru almost moves in for a hug before he realizes mob looks vastly different when he Rly takes him in, and mob doesn't rly react too much besides staring at them blankly. the obvious answer is almost too horrifying to even consider, so it takes them a minute to rly,,realize what's going on
tome comes around the bend and shouts, cuz when humans and zombies mix it's usually guns pointed at zombie heads. ritsu comes running out after her and when he sees reigen and teru his thoughts go, in order: holy shit is that reigen and tero ohmygod oh my god they're alive they're alive ohmy god i could fucking cry, and ohmy god they see shige ohno oh no oh no
ritsu sounds like a lunatic when he pulls mob away from them on instinct and says that he's safe to be around and that he's "still him" and he's "not gone" and he's very aware of that. he's very, intimately aware that he sounds fuckin crazy, bc ofc he does, this is what all the crazy people in zombie movies sound like. but he doesn't care, he doesn't care if reigen or teru dismiss him as nuts—he has to make them understand that his brother is still in there somewhere
and yeah, they both kinda think that ritsu's lost his marbles a little bit, but while teru is focused on that and the fact that mob doesn't look like he's rly tuned into Anything that's happening rn, reigen is a bit more focused on the fact that both ritsu and mob look awful? they're both very skinny and very dirty, obviously barely scraping by. they're cut up and ritsu's jacket is basically blood and dirt with a little bit of green fabric mixed in. and just by the look in ritsu's eyes, reigen can tell, man ... reigen can tell ritsu is like.not okay at this point he's kinda lost it.
i think the most painful thing about this whole reunion in general is that later that night, when reigen and teru r finally like ok we get it he's,, he's still mob. we believe you (they want to believe him... [they Do believe him, later, wholeheartedly]) and they settle down someplace safe, teru asks how long mob's been like this. and ritsu has to answer "since we got separated" and they both have that to stew over while everybody else sleeps
they realize that ritsu likely watched mob turn, watched the entire process, and that process takes a long time. it's at least a week of deteriorating motor functions and cognitive skill, and the fact that ritsu stayed for that to keep mob company is .ough. and it doesn't end there bc ritsu obviously stayed after that too
given how these things usually go, ritsu probably did think about killing mob. it probably did cross his mind, bc that's basically what everybody's been told to do. kill them before they have a chance to do any more damage. and it's obvious that ritsu did not have it in him
ritsu not only did not have it in him to kill him, he didn't even have it in him to leave him there. the kid fucking took him with him. a zombie. and he's somehow made it work, for months. and the next few days are filled with watching him still treat mob like a brother and take care of him and gently steer him away from a bird he tries to follow down the wrong street.ritsu is as gentle and kind as he's ever been with his brother. and even tho they're both hungry and tired and barely making it, ritsu is doing a rly good job taking care of mob with what he's been given
the kid obviously wholeheartedly believes in a cure and that mob is still There. he's gone through the trouble to take care of him, and the grief of continuously seeing a loved one that many would consider effectively dead, to get him that cure. to get him his brother back. and mob doesn't seem to be in any pain or distress, so reigen and teru think that this path ritsu has followed is probably infinitely kinder than the mercy kill method they've been taught to do
i think they have a new respect for ritsu, after that reunion
#qktalks#anon#zombie au#and also yes!! mob Would indeed recognize them and not attack them#i've never seen demon slayer but im assuming ur talking abt the main character's ??little sister?? smth like that#but yes i adore the idea of mob saying rly weird incoherent sentences that Almost sound like real words but like slightly to the left#bein a zombie rewires ur brain completely man .his mind is struggling a lot to say what it wants to say#it takes mob a moment to rly catch onto who's in front of him during the reunion but when he does realize there Is recognition in his eyes#fun fact; if u hug zombie mob muscle memory kicks in and he hugs back!#reigen and teru don't find this out until a few days later. they're a bit.. scared of him snapping at them for a while#but once they see that mob never once snaps at ritsu Or tome they're a little more willing to get near him and touch him#teru finally hugs mob and mob hugs back and it makes teru cry VGEAYEAV#(ritsu has hugged zombie mob enough to where now mob leans into his hugs.just giving u smth to sob over)#still related to the reunion but focusing more on ritsu:#after they reunite reigen notices that ritsu has a lot more..authority in his tone. he's a lot more comfortable taking charge#but he also notices that ritsu looks Exhausted and for a while he has trouble relinquishing the lead role to reigen aka the only adult#and it's entirely bc ritsu is just so used to doing things on his own now that he Forgets he has people to lean on#so it takes a bit for him to remember he has an adult to take care of him now#bro definitely overworks himself a lot in his haste to take care of mob :(#ritsu eventually lets himself lean on reigen when he's tired#poor kid melts into that kind of care after so long of not having that and being the sole provider for him and mob#when tome came around it got easier. but that also meant it was another mouth to feed so.only a little bit easier </3
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a surprise reboot of the show!
que the puppets fleeing while a heavy working crew fuckin snatches everyone up in nets to clean the place us
"should we muzzle sally?"
"she fuckin bit me!"
"doesnt answer the question"
"wally stole my wallet!"
"hes legally allowed to, travis."
yk what i'd really wanna see is how they wrangle the massive dog & the equally tall four-armed caterpillar. Wally would get netted and Barnaby would appear behind the person, about to ruin their entire career
#'hes legally allowed to travis' PLEASSSSEEEEEE#this ask is going to entertain me for a While#just picturing the puppets scurrying around and under things while all the big ol humans struggle to catch them#rambles from the bog#and then of course their intense fear when they Are caught <3#forcefully separated from each other and Home <3#who knows maybe barnaby and howdy have to be knocked out somehow#thats gotta suck!!!#for the puppets for obvious reasons but imagine having to be one of the employees Doing this and Listening to their distress & confusion#WAIT LMFAO wally would just eat the nets#blink blink blink there's a puppet-sized hole to escape through#ohhhh sad thought!#when barnaby is taken down wally breaks free and crawls into That net#but since he's too small to move barnaby himself he just stays in that net voluntarily#absolutely Devouring this concept....#the chaos and confusion the Fear the loss of control#wait. fuck was this a lights out ask? was it...? i dont know! i cant tell! either way i love it#though if it Is... and there Was a reboot... theyd probably just remake the puppets for a new studio#all the ogs are too 'outdated' and damaged to be used for a show. their colors are faded they're just... too old#inch resting concept indeed....
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Thanks to @musing-and-music for tagging me!
Rules: without naming them, post 10 gifs of your favourite TV Shows, then tag people.
Tagging (not sure who has done this already, and no pressure to do so!): @littlewitchbee @rizaposting @awesomedurraworld @fullmetalscullyy @koussevitzky @raisingmybanner @patron-saints and whoever else wants to do it!
#this was so difficult to choose lol#i struggled#help 💀#and obviously I didn’t include anime otherwise fma would be up there#tag game#i feel like my list screams millennial... but i suppose that would indeed be accurate lmao#nell speaks
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Ranking the life series seasons (excluding secret life cuz it’s not finished yet) from worst to best through a completely unbiased lens
4th: 3rd Life. It was fun and all and set a fun precedent for arson in the future but Joel didn’t manage to get any kills and was kind of a side character the whole time
3rd: Double Life. It pains me to put it this low because it’s so good! Boat Boys 🔛🔝 the only reason it’s below second place is because it’s a bite sized season.
2nd: Limited Life. It was Joel’s worst performance placement-wise but even despite that he was still the star of the show fr! He had such a good run no matter how short it was. Lots of kills, great alliances and rivalries, so many good moments.
1st: Last Life. Joel was literally the main character and he got top 5!!! He completely made up for his zero kills in 3L by getting the most here!!! He slayed fr
So yeah that’s my completely unbiased opinion of what the objectively best seasons are so far thanks for listening
#trafficblr#smallishbeans#life series#3rd life spoilers#limited life spoilers#last life spoilers#JUST SO PEOPLE KNOW: this is indeed a joke I just like Joel#this isn’t even close to what I’d actually rate the seasons personally. if you want an actual list from me GOSH I’ll struggle
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