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trevination · 3 months ago

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sink to black from blue (a marlie drabble)

(for those sadly uninformed, marlie is micah foster/charlie torres-moore aka trevor & josh’s greaser characters who are basically our ocs <3) (just scroll the #marlie tag on my blog lmao

inspired by this post! canon universe, post-rumble! shout out to @elisadoreyou & @wassupmygays creating these guys with u have been so fun omg

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Micah winced at the alcohol sting. The cut on his temple was nasty, probably could use a stitch or two. The thought was almost funny ‘cause he sure as hell didn’t have enough money to afford stitches. It’d leave a tough scar. Good.

“I said I’m fine, okay? This ain’t my first rumble,”

Charlie’s face was pinched tight, lips pressed in a thin line. He was kneeled in front of the toilet, where Micah was leaned over himself. One hand on Micah’s knee with his thumb rubbing back and forth.

He hissed at the next sting. It did nothing for his bitch of a headache.

The rumble did a number on him, he’ll admit it. He could hold his own fine — more than fine. And he did— but those football Socs could throw a hard punch. It made something rough boil in the pit of his stomach.

“Don’t care. You shouldn’t go out getting all hurt like this.”

It felt like a stab to his pride. He’s been doing this for seventeen years— yearly eighteen. He can handle himself. He don’t need taking care for.

“I fight, Charlie, that’s what I’ve always fucking done. I don’t need a babysitter,” He bit it out in quick barks. Everything felt red and hot.

“That’s not—”

“I’ve done this a million times alone—” He tried to swat the bottle out of Charlie‘s hand, but Charlie pulled away quick. It just made him madder. “And I don’t need someone to fucking lick my wounds for me.”

“That‘s not what I’m trying to do!” Charlie snapped back. Blood rushed in Micah’s ears. He could feel the anger on face through heat and the strain on his scraps. It burned

“It fucking feels like it,”

“I’m trying to help, okay?”

Micah couldn’t even process the sweep of desperation in Charlie’s tone before the dam burst.

“I don’t need help, damn it!” He was too loud, he was gonna wake the kids up. Fuck. “I’ve been out in Tulsa my whole damn life, and y'know who looked out for me? No one. I sure as hell don’t need someone to act like I’m some baby! You weren’t out there fighting with me so you can fuck off trying to help now!”

He knew he didn’t mean the words as soon as he said ‘em. Charlie didn’t need to fight in that rumble. He didn’t think he wanted him to. That night was ‘bout the bloodiest night that he’d seen in a long time. He gets why. Ponyboy and Johnny Cade’s face are still circling the papers every morning, calling for their arrests. Those Socs aren’t letting ‘em go for nothing.

He didn’t want Charlie caught up in that at all.

The blood in his ears and pounding in his head was so loud, Charlie had to squeeze his knees for Micah to realize he’d been talking.

His jaw was set hard and his eyes were so damn sure. But trying to get through a brick wall with words did nothing. Something inside of Micah ached. Was that all he was now?

“I ain’t a fighter, Micah,”

He swallowed hard. He hadn’t met what he said. “I don’t need you to be one, Char. You just—”

“No, look, I— I don’t get this fighting stuff. I wasn’t raised with it, I’ve never fought a fight like— like that shit in my life, okay? That’s not ever in the cards. I’m useless right now and seeing you all beat and bruised makes me feel sick or somethin’. I gotta…” He swallowed thickly and the frustration on his face broke into something raw. His breath trembled. “I gotta do something to help. I can’t fight and I care about you so—”

They both paused at the confession. Charlie’s brown eyes were wide and Micah was sure his were too.

What’s been going on between ‘em hasn’t necessarily been left unaddressed, but it’s been left unspoken. They both know. It’s obvious as hell to the both of ‘em. It hasn’t been spoken not because of fear, but survival.

“I know,” Micah whispered, almost a croak. Hope sparked to life in Charlie’s eyes. “I do, too, I…”

He didn’t know what else to say. He didn’t know what he could say without crossing some unspoken line.

Micah has only focused on the important things— his family and their survival. That’s the whole point of his fighting, his work, his life. He’s never wanted. Not like this. Not in such a selfish, indulgent way that feels like something stabbing through his heart.

Nothing else could be said from him.

Charlie smiled tentatively. There was something fragile in the air.

“Just let me do this.” He whispered. “For me. Seeing you like this all alone makes my heart feel like it was in that rumble, too.”

Charlie’s eyes practically pleaded with his resolve. He wanted to shut the door in his face and gasp through the pain and slip into bed next to his siblings and pretend like nothing hurt until he couldn’t anymore. He was used to being alone. What was one more night?

But another part, something so deeply pushed down, he barely even knew it was there— longed. For Charlie’s smile, his touch and soft hands on his face, his lips on his head, whispered words only the two of them knew. It was a terrible part of him but Charlie didn’t care.

So. Against all his seventeen years of fighting, Micah let his wall break down and he nodded.

“Thank you,” He croaked. He wasn’t going to cry, but the emotion was there all the same.

Charlie’s smile was gentle, so sure, so caring. He could tell Micah all the world would be fine and he’d believe him. He picked the bottle of alcohol up off the floor and raised a hand to Micah’s cheek.

His palm was soft. It just grazed against his face, but for once, Micah let himself lean into the touch until Charlie’s hand cupped his cheek. Charlie rubbed a thumb over his cheekbone. His dark eyes reflected the bathroom lights.

God, Charlie could break open Micah’s every defense and he doesn’t even know if he could put up a good fight.

“Thank you,” Charlie whispered back into Micah’s eyes. His lips parted— and he picked up the wash rag.

#the fact my first posted outsiders fic is basically oc x oc is so funny to me lma #these guys have me in a fucking CHOKEHOLD tho i’m so obsessed with them #the outsiders musical #charlie torres-moore #micah foster #marlie #the outsiders #the outsiders oc #i guess???#trevor wayne #josh strobl #blue’s writing #blue’s faves #might edit this and spruce it up more and post it on ao3!!!#with a second chapter about when charlie gets jumped for the first time… hehehe >:)#pls hype this guys omg

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lavenoon · 2 years ago

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(I was gonna start this with a scream, and then realized I am, uh, very hyped for these chapters knowing full well it was Sun suffering times kjfhdkgh)

Ok, ok, so first Sunset!

I was laughing so much at the fact that Sun is already so competitive on the caretaking side of things XD Since his love language is acts of service, it's so freaking funny that he's like "Mealtime is my territory, back off partner" in a lighthearted manner kdjhfk And then offering to make breakfast for them, this competitive goof XD

(Sidenote: The worry at the commitment issues dksjhgkjfdhg I could practically hear him worrying about that possibly meaning that dating wouldn't be in table after all (well actually my first thought was marriage but then remembered oh yeah, they aren't even dating yet kdhgkjfdh))

But ahhh, as soon as he mentioned breakfast I knew he wouldn't be back for it. Robin just looking at the clock in worry knowing something must be wrong.

Ohh, and the little reflection about them not really being intimidated of Dawn, but being scared that him taking pride in being a good agent would make him disapprove of them (cough cough, hide reverse AU under the rug, don't let canon Robin in this point of the timeline see how that goes regarding that specifically because uuuuuh, yeah XD, there was an adjustment period in that one)

And ahhhhh I know Moon gives them grief for it later, but I found it so touching that they DID eat something, thinking about how Sun wouldn't want them to work on an empty stomach ;o;, getting better at taking care of themselves because of the people that care about them!!

And gosh, River! I find her so interesting, because she genuinely seems to care for the agents, not just as workers but as people, even though in her position she probably has to be really careful about it. This time there is no option to turn a blind eye, or dance around the subject though. Whether she was implying that getting fired was a very real possibility or not, she did want Dawn to come back to be able to hear about it, better than not having him return at all even if they did.

And omg, Abra Fez is quite harsh. Not to say The Agency TM isn't but they really roughed him up. Ha, the pep talk comment got a chuckle out of me though XD He keeps calm and was sure he would get out on his own, even if he was nervous, which is expected given he is a star agent! (My morbid curiosity makes me wonder if Moon was awake to see the moment they tore his ray off, or if that was what woke him up maybe, since keeping his composure might have been a bit harder on that one gkldhgkl) And awww, Sun. Even when he is the one being rescued, he worries about not letting the backup get hurt. I assume he feels responsible for them, since even if he was taken by surprise, it must sting that he got caught at all.

And gkdfjhgkjh poor Robin must have been so distraught as they searched all the rooms for him, and the reunion was touching, but also I laugh at how you switched the roles compared to the comic you made because Sun was the one swooning, and Moon was like "focus, lover boy". But you know, Sun had a rough day, he can simp as a treat XD

And aaaahhh, when they get back! River really is putting herself on the line for this one, even though she's trying hard to stick by the rules. I imagine it must be a tough decision either way because in a way, when this gets to the higher ups, she would also be questioned on why she didn't separate them at once and instead let this go on. Seems she really has a soft spot for Robin, hehe. And Sun commenting how he needs to learn from them, because it's true! He might be the smooth talker, but Robin is the one that has been at this place for long, so they know how much they can push and how to deal with River too!

After, what caught my attention the most was Moon though. Sun was trying to deflect, maybe automatically because he's on edge from everything, going for banter about how Moon wants to be with Robin now, but Moon is having none of it. He knows what Sun went through, and he's being very direct about him getting a break. It's just... so sweet of him? We've seen them banter over their worries before, but the fact that he was so direct about this got to me dfkñgjhfkj

Hehe, the comment about getting Robin to take care of themselves being the hard part though X3 But ahhh, y/n really needs those days off, since it's obvious such a risky event so close to the last one has shaken them up a lot. Moon is on caring duty tonight.

And maybe Sun will try to make up for the missed breakfast the next day as well haha

All around, awesome couple of chapters Luce! <3

I just realized I can still start answering in the morning, even if I won't have time to finish

So without further ado, let's get into it!

Spoilers for Sunset and Nacreous Cloud under the cut, though if you've read Chaotik's ask it's already too late gfdhsj

It was also a little time for scary agent Dawn, so he got a little bit of revenge for the hurt! Grab and squeeze <3

Sun: I actually cook for you, you know? I don't just slap some cold ingredients together - Y/N: Sun, honey, I'll have a light dinner (sandwiches) and you can spoil me for breakfast, it's not a competition I promise Sun: That breakfast is going to be so good (and then it wasn't </3)

It's not even that he feels territorial about it, a good bunch of it is just him joking around and teasing Moon behind his back! But there is that crumb of fishing for reassurance - "You still like what I make you, right? This isn't going to replace that because it's easier?" And Y/N, in love with two idiots and unaware, so readily replies "I'll eat anything you two make for me whyever would I not"

(The worry is also the thought "Wait, are you not actually oblivious, just pretending to be because you're scared? Do we have to change tactics?" meanwhile Y/N is like "Wait why did I say that he'll think I'm scared of relationships! ... Why is it important that he doesn't think that." and then neither of them actually analyses it more because they get distracted <3)

I had a lot of fun with that whiplash - the joking and soft promises to Y/N alone, waiting, knowing something is wrong... Had to do it, you know? <3

And yeah, definitely! We all know that what we approve and disapprove of is biased - that one person that could say "I like soup!" and we go "Yeah I bet you fucking do" - so Sun now looks at little dangly charms on bloody batons and thinks "ahw they're so adorable" meanwhile in Reverse AU (and oof, Hatchling!) Dawn is just mentally picking it up with two fingers and flinging it far away from him </3 That's how it is sometimes, and so their anxiety isn't quite unfounded! And they think so, too, making it worse

Moon gives them grief for it, but when they get home and quietly explain that they simply couldn't eat more, he softens, too. It's easy for him to only focus on nutrition and the lack of it, because he's never had anxiety twist his stomach into knots and nausea making swallowing anything impossible. They tried, because they didn't want their boys to worry (and because yes, the loved ones override is strong in Robin - something I admittedly projected, but also felt like it would resonate!)

River is my blorbo from my brain fr - I never planned to make her that much of a presence, now I'm so so close to making a ref sheet for her. If I get to work on the Glamrocks, I might just make a reference for her, too gfhdjs She's been a supervisor for a good while - and she's always been Robin's supervisor. She watched a greenhorn agent first butt heads with the established work force (and with her, too - baby Robin didn't have the fear that everyone else had for the "if you have her full attention, you're fucked" supervisor) and then harden at the continued rejection. Rise the ranks, complete missions, and yeah, it's not like they're friends and River felt that need to intervene at the isolation. But when Dusk (and Dawn) show up, and the former starts working with Robin, she sees them warm up to the newbie. By the time Sun moves in with Robin she's already aware that Dusk is a good influence, and together they tackle missions that no one else would dare to complete. They have a few bumps, where they distract each other more than they focus, but all in all? River looks away, and decides to let things play out. She keeps testing them, just a little - fishing questions, until the breaking point in First Aid, when she wonders just how little these three share (she assumed they would find out much sooner), and gives Robin the information they're missing. It's intentional. She still has to follow protocol - Simon Says is not a merciful employer. But she has enough credibility within the agency that her plan can work - so when there's no hiding anymore, she helps her idiot trio. She doesn't want to be involved much more, she's not a mentor - but she cares, and she sees these three care for each other, so so much, and so she helps them in the way she can. Pretty sure if Dawn hadn't taken the lead, she would have suggested the three take the fall, but stay in town - "Let's talk again in a month, after Simon sees what kind of bullshit firing you would invite." She'd frame it as a unpaid leave being sort of its own punishment, so after that they'd be fine. She didn't need to, obviously, they found another workaround - but she's on their side, more than the elusive and distant big boss

The rays sure are sensitive (: I do think Moon woke up with the very sudden, very uncomfortable pain from the dislocated shoulder though. That happens before the ray, when Dawn first got overwhelmed, so he's been there for the entire interrogation, including the very cowardly "Okay, dodging the one still functional taser hand, let's make this hurt" ray ripping. Until then Dawn tried smooth talking (threatening) his way out of the situation, but after that they, uh. They kinda activated the mule kicks, oops. But even so, yeah, Dawn is a star agent for a reason - he would have gotten out on his own, too. It would have taken a bit longer, and wouldn't have been as easy, but he stayed calm and has good motivation. As impressed as he is with the quick reinforcement, he immediately feels responsible - those are agents (as he assumes plural) who are only in danger because of him, and now that he can prevent it, why would he let anything happen to them? Especially if it's just ground support, who doesn't see action as often!

(And then it's just one, feral in their concern neighbor, and he has to process that a little. Oops <3)

Fez is harsh, because they caught a hostile agent in their new (attempted) branch office, someone with a lot of info on their rival agency. They don't hold back - but Dawn doesn't either. He didn't just go down with the first hit obviously, and there's a reason they decided to keep him as immobile as they can. It's the rougher side of their job, and one I haven't touched much before, but it was fun to explore!

So I explained some of River's reasoning already - but yeah, once the even higher ups hear? She'll definitely receive some scrutiny, even if she gives her full reasoning. They did good work together, none of them seemed to realize, and separating them after the address change would have been obvious, too (see Zugunruhe, lmao. River was not the higher up who greenlighted that transfer in that timeline). So that's why she has to be more careful with the cover up, and get some results to also use in her argument.

And yeah, Sun is very used to his own scripts, but he doesn't know River like Robin does! Because Robin spent a lot of time testing the limits (more or less unintentionally), something Dawn never dared and Dusk never cared to do. Gotta sprinkle in some of that senior agent and newbie dynamic still! (Though Dawn and Dusk are pretty established at this point, too)

Moon... Moon was stuck the entire time, during a time when he should be out, and then even later for that talk with River because he's just not good at that kind of stuff, and he has a lot of pent up frustration. He felt useless, barely a backseat driver, stuck in that uncomfortable situation, all while his routine would demand he do something, because it's his time. So when Sun is deflecting Moon has no patience for it. He had to watch, without being able to intervene, for most of it all - he was awake before the switch time because of the pain Sun endured. By the time they're out and safe and got to keep their jobs it's around 2AM, maybe - and he's been up for around half a day already. he felt all those seconds tick by, too. He's feeling restless, and not in the mood to entertain bullshit. Too much pent up concern, and both Sun and Robin get the brunt of it.

I also just... I really wanted some Moon time, after these chapters were very Sun centric. That's how it is sometimes, yes, sometimes one boy gets more attention than the other. But for something so major in the timeline he couldn't be uninvolved, even though that sucked for him (sorry Moon </3)

And yeah, they're all taking that time off, and it'll be some funny "No you just cared on me, now I get to fret" switcheroo as they're all pretty rattled and need to feel in control again. Lots of cuddles that still don't clue Y/N in, but it's fine, we know they'll get there, soon! <3

They definitely get that breakfast though, you know it <3

And ahh, I'm so glad you enjoyed it!! I had so much fun writing it (especially once the dam broke on Saturday - before that, words were kind of hard, though also honestly still fun), and I was very hyped for all these little things - explain how HQ finds out about the identity reveal, set up the introduction for the Glamrocks, Simon says namedrop, and exploring that post reveal pre confession dynamic between the idiot trio! I'm really happy with the reception so far, glad it's hitting well <3

#answer let luce #chaotikanvas #accidentally undercover #1.7K words of a reply and im guesstimating (im bad at that) another 1K for your ask #879 words that's not too bad for a guesstimation #but yea yea yea I was so so hyped to get this out it just kept getting more and more important fhdjs #went from “canon Dawn love” to “oh hey what if I revamp that doodle page -” to “omg HQ finds out” to “A B R A F E Z”#sucked at keeping it all a secret given how talkative I am on discord but it still hit well!! im so happy!!#thank you for your thoughts I am still chewing on them <3

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