#i was feeling really down about stuff and rhis happened

[kisscara]

gags* let's write angst (modern au)

notes: chalupa, me vs angst writers, scaramouche not soloing sadly, i'm scaraless, really bad angst, something something [y/n] and scarabae broke up recently in this work-ish. can we even call this angst???, scara pov/dialogue is in purple nd reader and scara and reader aren't talking to one another (written down are the events that happened after reader and scara's break up, say a few months or so. nd wow i write proper notes now??)

"huh? Kunikuzushi... are you serious?" (<- this was makoto lol)

"i'm dead serious, Ei."

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grace. gracefully. crying over an ex isn't graceful — it's awful. grace, elegance and other words of high praise are what you used to describe him. he seperates himself too easily from those words. he can't be what you say he is, so is that why you don't love him anymore?

he wants you back, even if you told him "you're too much", kunikuzushi yearns for you — not just your praise or just your company.

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(this bit is confusing; so basically these two, you and scara aren't talking, just,, explaining what they feel nd stuff. so they aren't talking eveybody !! +purple for scara, white/non-colored for reader)

why couldn't i take your words of affection seriously? whenever you say "i love you", i can't help but think that you're only joking.

i was insecure and i didn't know to say how i truly loved you. i was never mad nor unserious, i just didn't know.

whenever you say i should keep talking, it's always like you're being sarcastic. even when you comfort me and tell me i'm lovely as i am, i can't feel like it's for me; like those words are meant for someone else.

i was ignorant of how you felt. i should've talked to you, just like how you did everytime i came home. i dread each minute of that memory, of that argument — i can't walk through my doors without thinking about you, and what i said to you. you were never too much.

i wanna know how you've been and ask you about your day. just like before. you told me that you loved it when i checked up on you, is it still that way? whenever you have someone else ask you about your day just like i did, do you think of me?

i always cared for you, i still do. i wanna hug you everyday after getting up from bed, and care for you when you get sick. i'm sorry, kuni.

i miss you.

pssst everybody !! it's most likely going to be a month since i've written this by the time you'll be seeing it. if theres something like a typo i probably changed it lol -still with you anon

m. Y heart is hruting. whwy msut your hrut me rhis way

[orpheusredux]

My Li'l Eddie Munson Rec List

Just making a place to keep all my favs as I come across them...

NEW! Keep Sweet, Pray, and Obey by @phoenixwrites

Summary: Worried that her Evangelical boyfriend is pushing their relationship too far, Chrissy goes to the one person for contraception that she can trust--Eddie Munson. But she gets far more than she bargained for when he starts to awaken a lust she's never felt before.

Feels: Eddie and Chrissy feel so real in this story, and there is so much detail in the world building, it's just gripping. One last chapter to come and, but don't wait to get stuck into this beautiful story.

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NEW! Duality by @broomclosetkink

Summary: The Hellcheer bodyswap AU you didn't know you desperately needed.

Feels: Eddy is so great in this fic, you will be in love with him all over again. Honestly one of my favorite characterizations of our best beloved boy that I've read to date - like all the characterizations on this list are top draw (IMHO) but this is a fav. I felt for Chrissy so much, she's really wonderful too. Just... romantic and healing stuff.

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The Pain of Letting Go by @strangermarvelss

Summary: Eddie and you are separated, but trying to co-parent for the sake of your son, Chris. But things come to a head when Eddie starts dating.

Feels: Not gonna sugar coat it, Eddie is unpleasant in the first few chapters of this WIP. It’s actually a bit tough to read. But the premise is engaging and well written. I’m keen to see where it goes, and whether Eddie will pull his head out of his ass.

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Angel of the First Degree by @storiesbyrhi

Summary: You're struggling with mean girl bullshit, body image issues, and vile parents. Eddie wants to love you.

Feels: Jesus H Christ, this is the fic I didn't know I desperately needed. So sweet, so honest. It's killing me in all the best ways. WIP.

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Dead channels by @robiin-buckley

Summary: You hear a boy pouring his heart out on the dead channel of a walky talkie… it might be Eddie.

Feels: I think loneliness is one of Eddie’s minor themes so I enjoyed someone leaning into it here. I loved the way Eddie was drawn, vulnerable and affectionate. I loved the sense that he’d been crushing on the reader for a while. It’s a very romantic premise, deftly handled.

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Summer storm, by @lewisyellowhelmet

Summary: When you get caught out by a storm you have to stay the night at Eddie’s.

Feels: This is fucking sensational writing. I usually avoid virginity fic, but this was strangely moving. It felt very honest and real. It reminded me of my first time not in the situation, so much as the camaraderie, the openness. I loved it a lot, and I’d like to see more about what happens next.

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Siouxsie and the Soulmates by @storiesbyrhi

Summary: When you roll into Forest Hills Trailer Park, a white cat and daisy lines following you, Eddie Munson is just a little bit obsessed. A soulmate story featuring Eddie back from the Upside Down, a lot of witchy magic, and even more soft love.

Feels: They’ll try to tell you there’s no such thing as a perfect fic, but that’s only because they have never read this one. It’s… God… it’s so fresh. It’s so rich with detail, the characters are so vibrant, and the magic.. God. It’s so beautiful. There are secrets here too, it hints at a larger, richer world than we can even imagine, at mystical secrets our lovers are only just getting a glimpse of because they have found each other. And their relationship, the way it’s drawn, there’s no self doubt or pussy footing, they just need each other and so they gravitate together and trust and love one another, and the thought of that just has tears pricking at the backs of my eyes, because yes, I need love to feel like this. In short this fic is a delicate high wire act of a story, a sliver tiara of a story, and I would just love it if everyone would read it and cherish it, and tell Rhi how good the world is with artists like them in it.

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Meet The Munsons by @mypoisonedvine

Summary: your mom an Wayne Munson are getting married… which means you’re getting a new step…cousin? And he’s going To be sharing your room.

Feels: DE-FUCKING-LIGHTFUL! Great snarky You, perfect voice for Eddie. A slightly whacky premise, but the way it’s handled is so deft, and funny it works. Can’t wait to see where it goes!

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We Live For Love by @ladyfogg

Summary: Eddie is recovering in the hospital where you’re volunteering. The whole town may have shunned him but you refuse to do the same.

Feels: This is just the sweetest, most heartwarming li'l fix-it story. Lovely characterisation, lost of heart. An instant fav.

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Who Wants To Be Lonely by @ladyfogg

Summary: After the ground splits and sends you hurtling into the Upside Down, you come face-to-face with the notorious, and injured, Eddie Munson. Lost and hunted by otherworldly creatures, the two of you have no choice but to stick together if you’re going to find your way home.

Feels: LadyFogg is fast becoming an absolute favourite. This is, again, a great little fix-it fic, great action and characterisation. WIP.

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Teenage Dirt Bag by @havecourage-darling

Fic Summary: The English teach assigns Eddie a tutor to get him through senior year. It’s you.

Fic Rating: Fluffy+

Feels: Great writing! Great characterisation! Nice banter between Eddie and the object if his desire. Also great use a Whetus song as inspo. Very schmoopy.

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Vintage Reeboks by @storiesbyrhi

Fic Summary: The gate at the bottom of Lover’s Lake was meant to spit the quartet out in the Upside Down. But when Eddie comes to on the shoreline, you’re there. It’s not the Upside Down. It’s not Lover’s Lake. It’s not 1986.

Feels: Oh where do I even start... this is so good. Great characterization here, for even the most minor characters. Lovely writing, a very believable fix it and a very believable romance. Some sadness, but that just adds to the realism. Eddie is slightly more dour, here. He's traumatised, and so vulnerable, but it's beautifully done.

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Our Patron Saint if the Arts by @storiesbyrhi

Fic Summary: The reader finds a Motörhead patch and knows who it belongs to. (Hint: It’s Eddie.)

Feels: Rhi writes great characters. There an interaction in this sweet Fic that is both super, super hot, and quite innocent and it’s so deftly and affectionately handled it’s a delight to read.

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Wild Parts, by @xdirtyx

Summary: You and Steve dated before Eddie asked you out and Eddie couldn't help but feel like there was potential for some fun on the horizon. Shenanigans ensue.

Feels: Holy fuck. This is so intense, deeply erotic, and a very well observed depiction of what it’s like to suddenly realise your sexual boundaries are not where you thought they were. Very, very hot poly vibes

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Ride A Wave, by @luveline

Summary: When Steve finds out you’re going on a date with Eddie Munson, he devises a plan involving one pair of binoculars, one robin, four adopted children and an important question.

Feels: Some writers can deliver the relationships and tone of canon better than others, but I have not so far found any one quite as good at it as Luveline. This could be series of scenes from the show itself, if the show was a madcap romantic comedy from the 50s and Steve was Cary Grant. It’s sweet hearted and romantic and the You character is charmingly weird. Now, thus isn’t technically an Eddie Munson Fic, but he does feature prominently, and You gets to date him, so it’s here. What I love about this Fic most though, is that it’s really about yearning and love and affection, and being a good friend, even when it hurts… and I love it.

[lunaflvms]

Hi Luna. I will share what happened. I was home with my older brother, and my dad came home drunk and started accusing me of stuff i didnt do. and he got mad and took my blankets and pillows away and i was crying in my room. then he came in and hit me over the head, pinched my ear, pulled my hair, and tried to make my nose bleed by shoving his nail in it. i was crying and screaming for my mom but she was just laying in her bed. then i kept crying bc i didnt know how to calm myself down, and he came back and hit me again. so then he closed the door, and i felt really hurt all over, so i just wanted to end it. i tried choking myself with my hands, but it didnt really work:/ so then i tried stabbing myself with a pen but it wasnt sharp enough, it just left a mark on my neck. then i tried pushing down on my face with my pillow. then my sister came in and stopped me. i got called out to the living room, and my dad almost hit me again bc knot was coming down my nose, and out of my mouth. so i had to take a shower. i went to bed. under my sheets again. and it was super cold to. he put the air to like 50 degrees or something so yeah it was freezing. i felt uncomfortable sleeping bc my head hurt every time i rested my head on my mattress. and i kept waking up to being cold. i barely slept last night. i feel weak. and i dont want to be here anymore. my head really hurts like theres a big open wound behind it.

- lover anon.

hello lover anon :(( and oh my 🙁 im so sorry you have to live with rhis but please dont try to hurt urself 🙁 you dont deserve any of this, theres not much i can do 😭 but could u tell another adult about this? i mean ur dad physically hurt you and hes always drunk too 🙁 this isnt healthy for the both of you and does ur dad do this to ur other siblings to? 🙁 but please try and go get help telling anyone that can be trusted like ur school, local police, neighbours, other family members? ik u said u didnt want ur dad to go to jail again because hes been in and out but what hes doing is so wrong 🙁 ik i dont have much of a say in this but im just advising u to try and seek help ☹️ ur so strong and im glad ur sister did stop you, please try and keep going it’ll get better 🙁 ik it will

[seijorhi]

asks :)

i’m sorry i’m bad at answering these i love you guys

I just adore fics like these, outside characters seeing through yandere facades and putting the pieces together. Atsumu’s frustration at knowing something is wrong but not being able to convey it without sounding crazy or jealous (and then exactly that happens), and then his mental agony at realizing he’s right but powerless. Ugh and the piece de resistance was his own inner turmoil at his attraction, it was just *chef’s kiss*. Do you think Atsumu became a bit of a lowkey yandere in his own way just obscured with a savior complex? Poor reader if she ever ends up his clutches, swapping one crazed man for another only Atsumu will never see himself as the bad guy. Thanks for the time and effort you put into such amazing writing!!

poor atsumu, i really put him through the wringer on this one :(( he starts with good intentions, but you know what they say about those haha. i honestly think he’s kinda fucked, because on the one hand he has everybody telling him he’s being a creeper, making mountains out of molehills, because how could hinata possibly do anything like that? and on the other he’s got hinata who’s not only aware of his suspicions but kinda pushing him to snap but dangling the reader in front of him. which way he falls is kinda up to you, but i think the fact he jerked off to a blowjob she clearly didn’t want says a lot about what he’s willing to (temporarily at least) overlook.

(English is not my first language so if I make grammar mistakes i'm sorry :( )

I got chills while reading insidious! It was so amazing. I really appreciated how you wrote that in Atsumu's perspective and made him an unreliable narrator.

It reminds me of the old drabble that you did with BokuAka where they kidnapped their manager and wrote it in Konoha's perspective. In that drabble, while Konoha did act selfishly, I still felt that he was a good person overall.

But in this fic, despite Atsumu claiming that Hinata and y/n's relationship was toxic and wrong, he still felt jealous. He wanted to be in Hinata's place. He wanted what Hinata had with y/n. I don't think his issue with them was because their relationship was toxic (maybe it was in the beginning), he just wanted it to be him who's with her. And that's the brilliance of this fic, seeing not only how unsettling Hinata's relationship was but also seeing Atsumu also slowly becoming obssessed.

first of all, never apologise for your english or any language for that matter. you’re doing great bby! but i’m glad you liked the fic!! <33 i can’t resist morally corrupting a character with good intentions. poor tsumu. poor konoha :((

Oof Hinata is terrifying and you wrote him so so so in character, like damn. He’s so happy like he’s just not a dark person which makes it so jarring bc he himself might not even register his actions as bad. I would love to see more content with him bc you got a girl scared and horny! But just wow I was on the edge of my seat!

ahh thank you my love!!

this is kinda random but i’m happy that i finally don’t have to type your full @ on the search bar to get to your blog anymore!!!!! also your new hinata ft atsumu fic literally sent chills down my spine. it kinda disturbed me how nobody (except atsumu) is questioning hinata’s character because hinata the always positive bundle of joy and sunshine can’t be capable of doing such things right? and how hinata is aware of atsumu’s suspicions ANDattraction towards his girl so he plays these little mind games with atsumu while maintaining that happy go lucky smile on his face acting like everything is normal. i just love your writing so much i literally visit your blog often for new updates😭

ahh i wished i had more updates for you haha! it’s really the worst when nobody believes something you think is painfully obvious. and hinata’s sunshine and sweet and super adoring, so why would anyone think twice about his relationship with the reader? and it doesn’t help that he’s toeing the line (before jumping right across it) between genuine concern and a little bit of attraction, but that’s half the fun haha. thanks for the ask bby!

Ok but you write Atsumu pining for the reader in a relationship so well. Inescapable Atsumu vs Oikawa is so good, the desperation, the crying *chefs kiss* Insidious is a diff Atsumu, more caring but thirsty all the same. Bokuto and co.s reaction is so funny 😭 they literally said you need to chill a little Atsumu

(Maybe we need to make this a full circle and make Atsumu pine for Osamus S.O. eye-)

i’m so mean to atsumu in both of those fics. dw i’ll make it up to him haha <33

It’s been said before but your Hinata fic was AMAZING and just so scarily in character. Hinata is definitely one of the scariest yanderes because he’s so unsuspecting and who would believe such a cheerful person is capable?!? It was just so well-written, I loved how you wrote Atsumu’s rising suspicions (especially how he can’t really prove anything bc it’s Hinata of all ppl) and his own descent into obsession and everyone’s reaction to him. It was so deliciously twisted and you can’t help but pity reader in what we can assume is her little sliver of hope that she can be saved bc someone finally noticed. Just chills.

thank you so much, bby! hinata does give off those vibes, and who would suspect him because he’s so attentive and bright and bubbly. i’m glad you liked it!! <33

Rhi RHHHHIIII Insidious was spot on. Rabid was just 👌👌 mmm and I've just realized how good you are at capturing a character's pov, like Atsumu's was on the money for capturing the confusion and unsettling feeling and it was so effective i feel like 👀😳 @ hinata now lmaoo

I WAS THE LAST ASK TALKING ABOUT POVS BUT I FORGOT SOMETHIIINGG. DAICHI'S POV. DAICHI'S POVVVV 👏👏👏 I could feel myself feeling his frustration and anger (I wanted him to whip oikawa's ass so bad fr) and his piecing together of things made me feel so awful and anxious, but like in a good way!! Writing is suppose to make you feel things and your fics always, always accomplish that 🤍

ahh nonnie, thank you so much! i like to get inside of the character’s head and fuck with their emotions and stuff, it’s super fun so i’m glad you guys enjoy it!! ily!! <3

oo Hinata as a yandere is so scary bc he's so sweet and caring. BUt he's also sincere and earnest about everything and who's to say that passion won't carry into darker activities 👀

you get it anon haha. he’s honestly a little terrifying but i still want him to spit in my mouth y’know??

i just finished reading insidiuous--it was FANTASGTIC SHDFJDSHFJ the way that atsumu crossed a line he couldn't come back from and was just,,,, rightfully consumed with shame for it?? that was great. also loved reading how hinata knew what he was doing and was doing it purposely, but poor reader. my heart goes out to reader.

thank you so much, bby!! i’m glad you liked it <33 

God, you have no idea how much I loved Rabid. I read it probably like 5 times in a row the first time. How do you imagine what happens to reader afterwards? I wonder if he’d end up taking her back to his place, or how does he interact with her afterwards? I’m sorry if this is annoying, I’m just so in love with the story 🥺💕

ahh thank you so much! as for what happens afterwards, you’re definitely kyoutani’s girl. if you think he’s just gonna let you go back to your place, keep working your job, you’ve got another thing coming. he tries to be gentle. a good boyfriend. he’ll definitely pick up on you shaking after he’s finished up; but he’ll misinterpret it as you being cold and make you wear his jacket haha.

Have u permanently closed commissions?

not necessarily, just taking a break :))

[wildfl0wer-meg]

Angst prompt 50? With one of the guys cheating? Specifically Calum or Ashton

This is sad

warnings: cheating, drinking alcohol, sadness.

Ashton Irwin x fem!reader

Angst 50: I’m sorry that I’m not enough for you.

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It started with Ashton going out more with his friends, staying out later and later. You didn’t think anything of it, you were busy with your own work and when he got home you got to spend time with him.

Then he began to get more friends. You were happy for him, but suspicious of the few girls that he was starting to become friends with. “I promise baby, they’re just friends. You can ask Calum next time he comes over,”

You trusted him and let it go. One night you woke up to him sitting up in bed texting. “It’s just group chat we all made,” he told you and you watched over his shoulder as they planned where they were going the next weekend.

Rhiannon: be sure your wear those sexy pants Ash ;)

Your furrowed your eyebrows and he brushed it off, “it’s a joke because of my tight skinny jeans,” and once again you believed him.

“I don’t have too much to do this week, can I join you Friday with them?” You asked and he looked conflicted, you began to get suspicious.

“You don’t really like clubs, baby. You’re more of a dinner party girl and I love you for that,” he rolled over kissing all over your face and you smiled and giggled, “how about next weekend instead of us going to the club I’ll suggest everyone comes over and we can play some games or something after? Is that okay?” He sounded sincere, and like he truly was just wanting you to have fun, so you agreed.

When the weekend came and everyone came over you had fun. You made them all the best food that you could, but you couldn’t help but feel a little left out. Ashton, Calum, Luke, and Michael tried to make you feel more included, but eventually they also got distracted in their new friends and by the end of the night they were all hanging out while you did the dishes and eventually just went up to your room.

Then late nights turned into Ashton not coming home till the next morning. You’d be up making your coffee when he came in, “I slept at Calum’s he’d say,” or “I crashed at Luke’s because I didn’t want to wake you,”

You felt alone, you wished that you had a friend group to spend the weekends with but you’d never been able to form one and you were too depressed to do it now.

The night you tried to talk to Ashton about it was when everything crashed. You hadn’t been able to get out of bed all weekend, and unlike months before when Ashton would’ve asked you about it, he’d just walked by you as if you weren’t there.

“Can we talk?” You asked softly when he walked in, he thought about it before nodding and sitting down, and you weren’t sure what to say.

You had only been talking from a couple of minutes when his phone buzzed and instead of ignoring it he read it, a smile slowly growing on his face and you stopped talking, realizing that he wasn’t listening anyways. You leaned over to see that he was just texting Rhiannon and she sent him a picture.

He didn’t realize you were looking as he opened the image and your eyebrows furrowed as you looked at it, your boyfriend was obviously drunk in the picture but he was laying on top of her on someone’s couch. She was laughing, her blonde hair a mess, and Ashton was holding her close his head on her boobs.

It wasn’t anything terrible but it lead you to confirm that your fears were true. “Are you kidding me?” You yelled and Ashton jumped quickly dropping his phone.

“No don’t try to hide it now,” you stand up from the bed, tears streaming down your face already and Ashton looks frozen in place. You quickly grab his phone but he knows he’s caught and he doesn’t even attempt to grab it back and you look through hundreds of messages.

Rhiannon: when’re you going to leave her so we can be happy baby?

Ashton: I don’t know if I want to yet, I still love her

Rhiannon: but you love me more right?

Ashton: of course

You scroll through pictures of them that she sent, cringing at the few that weren’t appropriate.

“Fuck you Ashton,” you say standing up and you grab your phone, but draw a blank when thinking of who to call. Your best friend since getting to California was Luke, he introduced you to Ashton in the first place, but thinking about it you wonder if he knew too and you realize that you have no where to go as you break down again.

“(Y/N),” Ashton says and you turn to look at him, “look I’m so sorry,” shaking your head you try to stop crying,

“Does Luke know?” You ask and Ashton sighs shaking his head no,

“None of the guys know, the couple times that Rhi and I got close around then they were always so quick to pull me out of it, Luke was so pissed one time that I swear he almost killed me,”

Rhi, you sigh as you think of the nickname. “How long has this been happening,”

“About as long as I’ve known her,” your heart aches, he’d been going out with them for months now.

“How long were you going to drag this out Ashton! Why didn’t you just break up with me?”

“Because I wanted to stop!” Ashton yells back, “I want you! But I became so obsessed with her! She’s so much different than you and I guess I liked it, I liked the excitement that I felt with her,”

You choke out another sob and leave the room, going down to the guest room and locking the door before calling Luke.

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“Y/N’s calling,” Luke says looking over at Calum who’s sitting with him. A day of writing turned into them make food,

“What’s up?” Luke smiles into the phone, smile dropping when he hears sniffles and sobs. “Y/N? What’s wrong?” Calum stops cutting up vegetables, watching Luke closely for answers as to what’s wrong.

“That fucker, with who?” Luke looks angry, his hand tightening around the knife handle that he’s holding and Calum makes sure to stay out of the blond’s way.

“Rhiannon, of fucking course,” Luke looks at Calum as a look of realization crosses his face. Ashton cheated on her.

“I’ll be there to pick you up in literally five minutes, Calum’s with me so we’ll go talk to Ashton,” Luke stands up, Calum following suit. “Go pack up some stuff, you’ll stay with me,”

———

You walk into the room and Ashton’s still in the same spot, his head on the palms of his hand. He looks up at you as you walk in, his face is also tear stained but you don’t feel any pity as you grab some clothes.

“I’m staying with Luke,” you say as the door downstairs opens.

“You told him!” Ashton asks and you scoff

“Yeah, he’s my friend too,” footsteps coming closer and the door swings open. Luke and Calum look pissed but Luke tries to hold it back as he hugs you. Whispering apologies into your ear.

“You’re such a fucking asshole, mate,” Calum says and Ashton nods watching as you go to leave the room.

“Wait, babe,” Ashton calls and you look at him,

“I’m sorry that I’m not exciting enough for you,” you say and Ashton stands up and grabs your hand, Luke quickly pulling him away. “I’m sorry that I’m not enough for you.” And with that you leave.

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Masterlist

[gerudosage]

this week was stupidly busy with general work stuff & family birthdays, so i haven’t been around much, apologies ! with any luck i’ll be on tomorrow evening, but no promises. i have been working on stuff behind the scenes, though, replies going into my queue & a few big headcanons getting drafted up, but they’ll be posted when they’re ready ! 

in the interim, to keep things ticking over, here’s a silly little drabble involving n.abooru & her wife talking about their kids, & first loves :> it touches on a few heavier topics, so content warning for mentions of war, implied death, violence, allusions to contraception & mentions of alcohol, & a read more for length.

❛  -  & she’s nervous, i think, but i keep telling her, she’ll be fine. it’s not how it was when we were growing up, y’know ? ❜

❛ oh, i know, ❜

❛ between you & me, ❜ & if those weren’t her favourite words to hear, truly ! her head, which had been held, unmoving, as rhian’s now - stilled fingers weaved the hair upon it into a voluminous braid, turned just slightly sideward, tipped only so far back, to show how intently she would listen, as if she didn’t hang off of rhian’s every word already. with the slight dropping of the other woman’s voice, as though anyone was around who would dare listen in, it was probably for the best. ❛ i think she’s worried about who she’s going to find there, ❜

❛ oh. oh. that’s … ❜

❛ i know, & i’m not sure if telling her that it’s unlikely will make it better or worse, honestly. she’s never really asked about it, but i suspect that’s because she never thought she would ever actually leave, ❜

❛ well, did you ? ❜

❛ what, think she’d go ? ❜

❛ think any of us would go, ❜

❛ oh. oh, fuck no, ❜

a laugh bubbled up from within her at rhian’s nonchalant delivery, the involuntary tipping of her head undoing all of her beloved’s hard work, hair cascading freely down nabooru’s shoulders. the atmosphere of the room, which had begun to grow heavy, broke immediately, & if rhian minded that her effort had come to nothing, it was seen only in the gentle nudging of nabooru’s back with her foot, as she joined her wife in laughter, finding it infectious.

❛ what ? ❜ she asked once she had gathered herself, still smiling, feigning innocence. ❛ you asked, ❜

❛ i did, yeah, but you’re usually a little more, shall we say, diplomatic than that, ❜ nabooru retorted, smile growing across her own face. ❛ such a lack of decorum ! and in the chief’s chambers, at that ! ❜

❛ honey. i live here. ❜

❛ oh ? ❜ & the smile upon her face widened into a grin, already delighting in the inevitable wind - up. ❛ i don’t remember you asking permission to move - ow ! ❜

❛ serves you right, ❜ rhian hummed, withdrawing the hairbrush she had just so viciously attacked her wife with. it would be an injury that would never be forgotten, a war wound nabooru would moan about for months to come, but, really, entirely worth it. ❛ shut up & drink your wine, i’ll start again, ❜

❛ if you must, ❜ if awards were granted for acting, the fake sigh which was heaved from within her surely would have won nabooru all the accolades in the world, although she straightened her head, & her back, once more, shifting back into position on the pillow at her wife’s feet, though her wine, she left untouched. ❛ so, jeska’s overcome because she’s convinced she’s bound to run into him, & you’re, what, ninety per cent sure that she won’t ? ❜

❛ the last time we spoke, he was spinning some story about traveling to labrynna, & making a new life there, ❜

❛ ah, that classic. it’s almost like i’m there with you. twenty rupees saaaaays … he wanted either the glamorous life of a bard, or to settle down on a farm - with you by his side, of course, no matter what. he was drunk, yeah ? ❜

❛ … i didn’t actually agree to that bet, first of all, so i owe you nothing. but yeah, a little bit drunk. pissed, really. i’m pretty sure the ports were all still closed then, too. there’s no way … ❜

❛ … but you still hope he managed it, ❜

silence fell, nabooru’s hair running like waves through rhian’s fingers, & the fire crackling in the grate sounded, suddenly, much too loud for the room. there was a gentle tugging at her scalp as rhian worked, her focus having seemingly shifted entirely, & nabooru reached for the hand mirror by her side, angling it that she might see rhian’s face as she worked. her vision, as always, was somewhat blurred, but still, she could see the tell - tale tightness of rhian’s mouth, & the clench of her jaw, as if keeping a stiff upper lip could banish the feelings entirely.

❛ there’s nothing to say that he didn’t, ❜ she started, watching rhian’s reflection, ❛ maybe not then, but eventually. does she look like him ? ❜

❛ as much as any of the rest of us do, ❜ thank the goddess that rhian couldn’t properly see the sheepish grin which crossed nabooru’s face at her answer, having known, even as the question left her mouth, just how stupid it had been to ask. ❛ no, no, i know what you meant, it’s fine. &, well, she does, sometimes, though she doesn’t realize it. it’s the hair, really, & some of her mannerisms, honestly, it’s scary. you can see his influence, & it’s why she’s nervous, i think. she hasn’t said either way if it’s because she wants it to happen or not, but i think she’s afraid that she’ll be, well, recognizable, if she runs into him, ❜

❛ she should be proud to be recognized, rhian, she’s beautiful, ❜

❛ i think so too, ❜ rhian acknowledged, & despite the turn the conversation had taken, there was still a faint, unmistakable glow of pride within her on her daughter’s behalf. ❛ but just this once, it might have been better if she looked more like me, ❜ one hand stilled, holding the finished braid in place, whilst the other scrabbled for a ribbon to tie it with, their nightly routine almost complete. ❛ what about your girls ? ❜ rhian asked, then, & nabooru stiffened. ❛ do they take after their father ? i always thought makeela was your miniature, ❜

there was no reason for her to be so nervous, nor for the sudden pit to have opened up within her, & yet, she had no way of stopping it. she had taken rhian into confidence about many things before she had taken her as her wife, but their current topic of conversation had always been tip - toed around, a delicate matter neither had been eager to bring up. it was only fair for her to answer, considering rhian had spoken, so far, so candidly about jeska’s father, & yet, still, nabooru hesitated.

❛ oh, she is, ❜ she started after a moment, rhian listening carefully as she pulled the ribbon tight. ❛ she takes after him in the nose, i think, & in temper, sometimes, but otherwise, she’s just like me. they do call her a great beauty, don’t they ? truly, she should thank me for passing on such a magnificent face, ❜ humour always was a great deflector, & the air of ( not entirely fake ) arrogance which nabooru put on as she spoke was almost as effective, eliciting a snort of laughter from rhian as she finished her task, & let the heavy braid fall. ❛ she hates it when i say that too, grumbles about it all the time. i can’t blame her, really, but it’s just so fun, & so easy, to wind her up ! & vaiana … well, vaiana … ❜

❛ i understand, ❜ rhian said softly, filling the silence as nabooru trailed off, leaning down to squeeze her shoulders in an attempt at reassurance. ❛ it’s harder, i think, when they look alike. harder, still, when they ask about it, even after so long, after … well, everything. jeska’s terrified. she won’t say, but i think she does want it to happen, deep down, even if she won’t admit it to herself, & i think that’s almost worse, not knowing if you want to know. she’ll have no peace until she decides, one way or another, & i haven’t a clue how those dice will fall, ❜

❛ makeela couldn’t care less, ❜ nabooru confided, gently brushing her wife’s hand away so that she might stand up, her movement fluid despite the creaking in her left knee. ❛ or so she says. we haven’t spoken much about it, but when we have … she says she doesn’t need to know, because she’s had me. not - not always, but … enough of me, that it didn’t matter, ❜ it was reminiscent of her relationship with her own mother, & how, when the subject had been tentatively broached, she had been fiercely insistent that vashti was the only parent she would ever need in her life - but still, at times, she had wondered, & she was sure that, no matter what she said, on some level, makeela must have been the same. ❛ she’s still so kind about it. i don’t know where i got her from, truly. vai, though … ❜

❛ wait, ❜ realization shot through her like a bolt of lightning, & rhian sat straight as nabooru sank down on the divan, making herself comfortable atop the small mountain of pillows on her end. ❛ is that why she’s leaving ? she thinks - ❜

❛ she won’t find him, ❜ nabooru interrupted quickly, confidently, mournfully. ❛ i told her as much, but she’s determined, & stubborn as an ass about it, about everything. what else am i supposed to do ? she’s a woman grown now, & she’s more than capable of looking after herself out there, i know that in that, she’ll be fine, & i can’t - i can’t blame her for wanting to know, & i don’t, but i … i just … ❜

❛ it’s hard when you can’t protect them, even when you know they’re going to be hurt, ❜

❛ i swear, rhi, if i’d known it was going to be like this, i’d’ve taken the fucking purple potion, ❜

it was rhian’s turn, then, to snort loudly with an unexpected laugh, nabooru’s weary exasperation resonating strongly even as her delivery caught her off guard, the other woman having reclined on the divan with her head buried within her hands as she spoke, the picture of regal aggravation. she would have hit back with a quip of her own, had her laughter not been cut short by a heavy knocking at the door of their chambers, & nabooru immediately rose, though her eyes went not to the door, but to her wife. an interruption this late at night could only mean one thing, & they lingered only a moment, savouring the last of their peace, before nabooru rose, & padded across their chambers to answer the call.

❛ an emergency, i hope ? ❜ she called out as her hand fell upon the door handle, & she half turned back towards her wife, pulling a face all the while, eyes rolling upwards into her head, eliciting another snort of laughter, this time muffled by the goblet rhian had just raised to her lips.

❛ not quite, ❜ through the heavy wood of the door, the pair could already hear shula’s smirk, no doubt relishing, if not the chance to interfere with their evening, the trouble she was about to drag nabooru into, ❛ but enough of the problem that they need your guidance, boss, ❜

❛ chief, ❜

❛ nabsy, ❜

❛ shula, i swear - ❜

❛ it’s a bust up at the training grounds, ❜ shula continued, ignoring her chief’s exasperated muttering, & behind the door, nabooru frowned.

❛ this late ? ❜

❛ apparently it started earlier today. someone didn’t quite make it, but they, uh, well, they claim the whole thing is rigged, so they came back to get what they deserved, apparently, & ran into dayaan on the way. hilarious, really, that they even thought - ❜

❛ alright, alright, i get it. they’re fighting, then ? go separate them, take charge until i get down there, i need to find my shoes, ❜

there was a shout of something that could have been an affirmation, & then silence as shula took off down the hallway, leaving the women alone once more.

❛ do you think they do this on purpose ? ❜ rhian asked, setting aside her goblet & rising from her seat.

❛ they absolutely plan it, i’m sure of it. things getting too quiet ? sure, let’s mess that up, but let’s wait until the chief is on a date, first, then make such a fuss that she has no choice but to come running. honestly ! ❜ nabooru huffed as she bent at the doorway, swapping her slippers for her khussa, as rhian closed the gap between them.

❛ well, it is nice to see you take charge for once, ❜ her wife’s hand found its place on the small of her back as nabooru straightened, & nabooru immediately turned to face her, reaching out to pull her close.

❛ oh, just this once ? ❜ she asked, her indignation mostly fake, ❛ well, miracles can happen, i guess. frankly, they should be giving me a reward for this, we both know damn well shula could’ve handled this perfectly fine on her own, ❜

❛ mm, yes, but then wouldn’t you have complained of missing the action ? ❜

❛ shhh, ❜ nabooru ordered, hands coming up to cradle rhian’s face. ❛ you’re not allowed to be right on date nights. we had an agreement, ❜

❛ i can offer rewards, though, ❜ both women were smiling as their heads came ever closer. ❛ & a good luck kiss before that, ❜

❛ only one ? ❜

❛ well, it is technically - ❜

❛ shhh ! ❜ it was all too easy for nabooru to cut her off, their lips meeting as rhian’s arms reached up to drape around her neck, pulling her deeper into a kiss neither seemed all that eager to end.

❛ they’re going to think you got lost, ❜ rhian murmured, when at last, they broke apart, making no effort at all to disentangle herself.

❛ let them, ❜ nabooru replied, already leaning in for another. ❛ i don’t feel lucky enough to face them yet. guess you better kiss me until i do, ❜

[whorefordazai]

(trigget waening suicide menrions if u r uncomfy u csn delere rhis its ok) i am a mwss righr now and im trying eeally hard ti tyoe cirrwcrly right now. i feel so bsd with tmsekf. im trhinf veey hard tokeep a somewhat positive nidnset but when stuff like rhis haooens i come down ceumblibg so hard and i genuinekybjdudt want to end things . to sum it up i ws in a livestfeam and it was fun but tthen i felt stupid becsude nobidy wss answering my messages bd rhet were ignoring me (there were few owople talkibf so its not bc of msgs disappearinh fast) and i felt so irrelevdnt nd sad. No one lsujed ar my jokes nnd no one answered ny commetns i feltbkike an iutsider. U know how in hs u got bullied snd ur "friends" ignired u whenecer u tried to tslk about sonething? Same feeling. I feel so humillisdted and slone snd i cant help but thibk mahbe i sm irrelevanr sfter all msybe i donr deserve to be slive righr now - ❤️🌷

bae listen to me, take a deep breath.

I’m not sure why your friends are being like that, but the people on this blog including me, love you so much. literally every time you pop into my inbox it makes me smile so hard 💗 you do deserve to live, and a few people’s opinions or actions won’t change that. shit happens, unexpected things happen, but we have the right and power to control our emotions.

I love you so much bestie 💗 I really hope you feel better.

[buckyreaderrecs]

Bucky Barnes and the Girl With Too Much Power: Chapter 4/?

Summary:  Nobody knows about your power. You’ve never really wanted to use it, let alone hurt someone with it. But, someone has figured you out, and now they’re following you. There’s only one place you can go for help - The Avengers. Good news is they’re good people. Bad news is your power is entirely relevant to soft, sad, recovering, broody Bucky Barnes. Chapter 1. Chapter 2. Chapter 3. 

Chapter 4: You have to leave behind the life you knew. 

Pairing: Bucky Barnes/Reader Characters: Bucky Barnes, Steve Rogers, Natasha Romanov, Sam Wilson, Tony Stark, Wanda Maximoff, Peter Parker Additional tags: Bucky needs a hug, recovering Bucky, mostly canon compliant (Infinity War and Endgame didn’t happen, Stark Tower still exists), angst, possible future smut (who knows, not me), mutual pining, reader has powers / enhanced!reader, she/her pronouns, more tags/characters to be added with future chapters

Notes: I haven’t updated this fic in months and monthssss. Let me know if there are any continuity errors, and if this is still a fic worth me plugging away at. Thank you for any and all support! xo Rhi

Bucky Barnes and the Girl With Too Much Power Chapter 4/?

There was nothing comforting about having Stark-employed agents tailing you. Logically you knew that besides maybe a well-placed and patient sniper, nobody would be able to get close enough to hurt you. Not with spiders and witches and falcons watching over you. Certainly not with the last remaining Howling Commandos on your side.

Although you couldn't see him, even when you tried to covertly spot him, you could feel Bucky. You could feel him watching you and you knew it was him because it wasn't like before. It didn't make you feel sick with dread.

All of that was probably in your head though.

More tangible aspects of the situation were the beads of sweat rolling down your spine and pooling in the small of your back. Very real was the awkward pace you were keeping - definitely faster than a casual walk but a solid attempt to appear calm and normal.

It had been decided that you would walk the entire way home. It was doable, but you'd usually catch the bus. The people who wanted you would have to see the future to know when and where you'd catch a bus, but that wasn't outside the realm of possibility. Not anymore. So, you walked for 40 minutes.

…

Unless he wanted you to see him, Bucky Barnes was invisible. He'd always been good at camouflage, but programming by Hydra included 'how to disappear 101.' And under your power, it was like that again. Not a single soul saw Bucky as he followed you block by block. There wasn't even a gust of wind left in his wake to alert people that someone… something, had gone by.

Entirely focussed and keen eyed, Bucky watched your strange gait. If there was no power clouding his mind, he would have smirked a little; even Hydra couldn't take the sass out of him.

After he climbed through an unlocked bedroom window and landed on the floor behind you, Bucky stood up straight at attention. You were on your hands and knees, pulling things out of the bottom of a closet. There was a duffle bag in there somewhere, you were sure.

"Yes!" you whispered to yourself, standing and spinning around. The yelp that escaped your mouth sounded through Bucky's earpiece to the other Avengers situated in, on, and around your apartment building.

"Buck?" Steve asked, muscles already poised to move.

"Package is safe," Bucky replied, no emotion in his voice. The lack of it went unnoticed by Peter Parker - who was still too new and in awe to know Bucky beyond reputation and limited interaction. He didn't mean to, but Bucky had avoided Peter; he reminded him too much of pre-serum Steve. However, Wanda, Sam, and Steve all heard the tone, and all frowned to themselves from their respective positions. Nobody did anything though.

"You scared me," you said as soon as you yelped. When he didn't move, speak, or even shrug it off, you were reminded of your spell. A small, sad, "Oh," was uttered. "Stop. You can stop your… mission," you ordered him.

It didn't work. Maybe it wasn't specific enough. Without a lot of practice, you really weren't good at using your power when you actually needed to. You realised that you shouldn't have given Bucky a complex and prolonged order in the elevator.

"Ah… Relax. Be yourself…?" you tried. Bucky's blue eyes simply remained fixed on you and he went to speak, but you cut him off. "Oh! Ignore my previous order. Do not… feel compelled… to… Fuck. What did I tell you to do?"

"Make sure I get to my house safely. Help me get what I need, and bring me back here," Bucky said, repeating your command word-for-word. It was unnerving.

"Yeah… Don't… Don't do that. Unless you want to. Only do that if you want to."

When his posture gave (by only the slightest amount), you breathed out. It had worked, but you weren't sure exactly which part.

"Bucky?" you asked gently. Bucky smiled and it felt like rain in a drought. "You okay?"

He nodded, being much more used to giving non-verbal responses. Sam's voice was in his head though, encouraging him to speak, pushing his recovery forward faster than Steve's love alone could do. "Yeah, I'm fine…"

You could hear it in his slow drawl- that slight cognitive lag people sometimes experienced after your power left their minds and they were free again.

"I'm sorry,"

"No, darling', you don't have to keep saying that. It's alright,"

"But-"

"Please," he interrupted. He shook his head slightly, but it was enough for you to see he didn't want to talk about it. "You did good,"

"I just… walked," you replied.

"Yeah, but that isn't easy when you think someone's about to kill ya,"

"Wow. Reassuring. Thanks," you said sarcastically, moving around him to put the bag on the bed.

Bucky chuckled, then sat down next to the bag.

"Aren't you gonna, like, check the cupboards and stuff?"

He raised an eyebrow. "Christ, how unprofessional do you think we are?" From the dresser you were digging through, you looked over at him and shrugged in confusion. "Stark had people in here as soon as he figured out where here was,"

"Guessing that was pretty quick?"

"Yep," Bucky replied, popping the P sound purposefully.

"So, random people have been going through my stuff?" Looking around, nothing seemed out of place. It was unnerving, actually.

"Not random. People Stark trusts,"

"Do you trust them?"

But he hesitated and he saw that you'd seen. He couldn't but smile a little. "I don't not trust them."

Thinking for a couple seconds, you decided on, "Probably fair…"

Bucky nodded, and you continued to pack. He decided it wasn't worth telling you that in the very early hours of the morning, after the city was asleep and just before the sun woke up, he'd gone to your apartment too. Clues in the cupboards. Secrets under the seats. Anything really. Steve had been awake when Bucky slipped out. He'd thought maybe Bucky was checking for Hydra. Or possibly, Steve hoped, his best friend was driven by the fact that you looked a lot like a couple of the girls Bucky had charmed before the war meant anything to them.

Bucky followed you as you went room by room, filling the duffle, then a backpack, then an empty shopping bag.

"You planning on never coming back here?" he asked, mostly joking. When you stopped, moving like a deer in the headlights, Bucky realised. "Oh…"

"Am I? Am I coming back?" you asked, on the cusp of hopeful. The glimmer of it in your eyes killed Bucky.

"I don't know," he answered, voice a little too soft to be comforting.

Looking around your apartment, you tried to look brave. "I guess… it doesn't really matter. Hadn't really built much of a life anyway,"

"Of course it matters, Y/N."

Before you could say anything else, there was a loud knock on your door, followed by the shrill voice of your neighbour. "Y/N?! Did I just hear ya come home?! Where've ya been?!"

You and Bucky turned to each other at the same time, both expecting the other to do something.

"She's not gonna go away," you whispered.

"Make her," Bucky said.

"I don't want to use-"

"No," Bucky interrupted. "Just talk to her…" His tone implied the 'obviously.'

As soon as you swung the door open, Barb went to step in.

"Ah, sorry, Barb. Bit of a mess in here… Did you need… something?" you said, stopping her.

She eyed you suspiciously, tried to look past you. "You didn't come home last night,"

"Stayed at a friend's,"

"That's lovely… Which friend? That nice Lisa girl?"

"No, um, new friend. James."

Bucky almost laughed.

"A boy? I didn't realise you were dating." She emphasised the last word like it was taboo.

Normally, you'd be better at dealing with Barb; she meant well, but was incredibly nosey. Normally, you didn't answer all her rapid-fire questions immediately, but you were nervous.

"It's not like that. He's just a friend,"

"That you spent the night with,"

"Barb, it's 2020. We can be friends with guys now,"

"So defensive, Y/N! Must really like him," she said with a knowing smile.

"I'm just on my way out, actually,"

"Such a social butterfly all of a sudden. I was just coming over to see if you're alright,"

"I'm alright. And I appreciate it. I really do. I'm just… a bit busy right now,"

"Alright, alright," Barb said, holding her hands up in surrender. "I know when I'm not welcome-"

"No, Barb, it's not-"

"No, no, it's fine." She took a step backwards.

"Barb-"

"When will you be home then?"

Fuck.

You tried to look over your shoulder into your apartment as casually as possible. Glancing at Bucky, all he could offer was a shrug. You realised then that you would have to lie, really lie.

"Actually… Might be gone for a while. Got family upstate that need me."

Barb was quiet for a second, searching through everything she knew about you. "I hope everyone's alright," she settled on. She wanted to say that she didn't know you had family upstate… or any family at all, for that matter.

You'd lived in the apartment complex for five or so years. Barb had always looked out for you, especially since her kid went off to college. She'd met a couple of your friends, heard about work, but never once had you spoken about family. Barb hadn't pressed, although she very much wanted to. Something inside her was keeping her from doing so.

"Yeah, yep… They will be," you replied, nodding.

"Okay… Well, you'll have to come over for tea when you get back?"

"I will. Thanks, Barb."

She left.

Bucky watched you close the door, lock it out of habit.

Your eyes were full of tears. "I can't come back here," you whispered to him. "If someone is after me, I can't bring them here,"

"They probably already know where 'here' is," Bucky replied, almost immediately knowing it was the wrong thing to say. "But," he quickly added. "If they were gonna do anything, they'd done that already."

Bucky didn't believe that to be true at all. More likely, the people following you, upon discovering your sudden disappearance, would try to draw you out. If they knew Barb was a friend - it could make her a target.

You watched Bucky's expression. You read the lie. You didn't need to force the truth out though. You let the fact that he was trying to reassure you, reassure you.

"We'll keep surveillance here."

You nodded, moved slowly to continue packing.

Bucky stayed quiet, watched, tried to remember all the details of your apartment. Maybe they'd come in useful at some point.

"Okay, I'm ready," you announced.

"There's a car downstairs waiting for you," Bucky said.

"You're not coming?"

"I'll go out the way I came," he answered. When you didn't move, he added, "You'll be okay… Steve and everyone… they'll look after you." He wasn't lying that time. "Go."

Slinging bags over your shoulder, you nodded and left Bucky Barnes in the apartment you would never return to.

What would happen to the rest of your stuff? Would Stark pay for a storage unit? Pay your rent? What about work?

By the time you got to the car, you were again, on the verge of tears.

Upstairs, from a window of your apartment, Bucky watched you leave. He made a note to tell someone to teach you not to get into cars without checking if it was safe first. You hadn't even asked to see the driver's ID.

"She's aboard," Bucky relayed into coms.

"Copy that," Steve's voice came back. "Buck?"

Bucky was in his head.

For longer than Steve liked.

Chapter 5 is coming soon...

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SaboxReader: Chapter 3 :

Time passed, and the hunt continued before the four finally caught a massive wild boar for Dadan to skin and roast. 

As Ace and Luffy carried the boar back to the hut tied to a stick, Y/n carried Luffy on her back, who was fast asleep. Sabo looked over to see her carrying him and grinned. 

"Hey I think he really likes you." Sabo smiled. 

she smiled softly "well the feelings are mutual… he reminds me of my little sibling back home…" Y/n grinned. 

"Watch out, Sabs! You might have competition." Ace joked. 

Sabo blushed "w-what does that mean?" He hissed. 

"Oh don't play dumb! You know exactly what I mean. All day while we were hunting you were tryna show off to her." Ace teased. 

"Was not!" 

"Were too!" 

Was not!!!" 

"Were too!!!"

"Guys!" 

"What!?!" 

"Luffy is napping." Y/n stated in a hushed tone. 

The bickering ceased and before they knew it, they were back at the hut where Y/n saw her parents and Rhi sitting with the bandits, once they sat down, they waited for Dadan to finish preparing the meat. 

"So Y/n you're gonna be a medic?" Luffy asked

"Yup!" the H/C replied "I hope to travel and help sick people." she grinned. 

Sabo smiled at this "that's an awesome dream! I hope to travel the world and write about all the things I see!" He smiled. 

Y/n smiled happily at this "you're a writer too? That's so cool!" she complimented. 

"Well I got you all beat, cuz I'm gonna be king of the pirates!" Luffy announces. 

Y/n is shocked but smiles "that's awesome, Luffy!" She grinned. 

"Wait, you're not scared?" Ace asked. 

"Why would I be? It's a dream that fits him. I can see it happening for him too." she stated before sipping her water. 

"So Y/n, Sabo likes you a lot, does this mean you're my big sister?" Lufy asked innocently

the girl practically spat out her water and so did Sabo. 

"Ummm come again?" Y/n ask softly with a smile

"Are you my big sister? I'm asking cuz Sabo likes you." Luffy asked just before the meat came out, ready to be eaten. 

Sabo then proceeded to stuff Luffys face with meat. "Okay! Please excuse my little brother, he gets a bit… talkative when he's hungry."

"Mmmffmmm!" Luffy protested before swallowing the meat "no I don't! You said it yourself!" Luffy defended. 

"Open the tunnel here comes the sea train!" 

"But I-" 

"Choo-choo!" Sabo put another comically serving of meat onto Luffy's mouth to shut him up, stuffing his rubbery cheeks. It's super effective!, and hunting sure builds an appetite.

Once dinner was finished, Y/n parents decided to let her sleep over due to Rhi needing to go home early and rest. 

"So it's a nice night out, how about we camp outside?" Luffy asked. 

"Yeah!" 

"I'm down for that!" 

"Sounds fun." 

they set up their makeshift camp before laying out in their sleeping bags on the soft grass. 

Laying on the sleeping bag, and staring up at the stars, Y/n smiled in awe. Not once in her life had she seen so many twinkling stars in the sky. It's like the whole universe just held a billions of tiny sparkling gems in the velvet sky of night. 

"Never seen so many stars before?" Sabo asked while sitting next to my laying form. 

Y/n smiled and nodded "never." she confirmed softly. 

the pair both sat there watching the stars hanging up above in the sky, before Sabo shifted and began to lay beside her. 

Y/n blushed being so close to him but allowed it. 

"About what Luffy said earlier…" Sabo began.

"Don't worry about it, Sabo." Y/n reassured him with a smile. 

"Wait what?" He asked confused. 

"I know he was just excited. I also know he just wants his brothers to be happy… that's so pure" she smiled warmly. 

"Well yeah… he is." Sabo concluded, sounding a bit bummed out. 

sensing his change of mood, Y/n turn to him, and smile softly before holding his hand in hers. 

"You know… I wouldn't have seen the sky this way if you guys hadn't come to save me… I still feel like saying thank you isn't enough… words can't express how grateful I am to have met you guys.." Y/n admitted. 

Sabo blushed bright red and looked at Y/n "it is… trust me seeing you here, with us… with me." .

Both blushed harder as their fingers interlocked, but shared a smile as a loving glow was found in their connected gaze. 

"Sabo…" 

"Y/n…" 

"would it be wrong if I told you-"

"I like you." Sabo cut her off. 

"Wait what?" she asked. 

Sabo blushed and gulped "I said…. I like you. Everything Luffy said was the truth. I do like you… a lot… Ace gave me crap for liking you cuz I'm younger than you, so I wanted to know… is it weird that I have these feelings for you?" 

Y/n blinked before smiling softly. 

"I don't think so…" 

"Oh." His face bore a relieved expression before he grinned, showing his gap tooth. 

"Is it wrong that I like you?" Y/n asked. 

"Wait, you like me back?" He asked incredulously. 

She nodded in response.

"I don't think it's wrong at all…" Sabo smiled as they curled up together for warmth, fending off the cool air of the mid-summer night. Their hands and eyes are still connected. 

"So… pirates huh?" Y/n asked. 

"Yeah…"  

"I hope you guys will travel safely-" 

"Come with us." Sabo stated. 

"I'm sorry what?" 

"Come with us… come with me. I don't want to leave you behind…" Sabo confessed. 

Y/n’s long lashes fluttered over her  E/C orbs before she turned bright red and grinned once again. 

"I will." she swore before falling asleep with their hands intertwined. 

My name is Y/n, I'm 12 years old, and…

Y/n look to see Sabo fast asleep next to her while holding onto her waist. she blushed and smiled before stroking his soft hair, resulting in him smiling in his sleep.

she could feel her heart flutter at the precious site before noticing Luffy and Ace had fallen asleep closer to her as well. Seems they need warmth. 

"Sis… please be my sister…" Luffy whined in his sleep. 

Y/n smiled softly and stroked his hair as well "I will, little monkey." 

And I will protect my dearest most treasured friends for as long as I live.

[kinktae]

I’m so proud of you for not only finishing the masterpiece that is Bitchin *chef kiss* but also getting the final chapter out when you were hoping. Every little win should be celebrated so make sure to give yourself some credit x

bitchin 10 asks (finally!)

thefouranemoi said: just finished bitchin! it was soooooos soooooooooo good! im a sucker for a really good slow burn but this wasn't dragged out or overly dramatic. it was perfect and im so glad y/n and jk have each other. thank you for such a series!

sadlemonboy said: i read bitch’n 10 on the bus and was trying so hard to just not cry. i was so good i love it so much. just like thank you

Anonymous said: WHAT'S WITH YARA AND TAE??? ARE THEY TOGETHER??? WILL WE EVER KNOW???

Anonymous said: Buttt just out of curiosity what happened with Yara and Taee, did they became fvckbuddies or smth

forvever-ddaeng said: STOP IM FUCKING SAD ITS OVER :( WHEN I READ “I SLEPT WITH ERIK” I WANTED TO STAB MY EYES OUT LIKE WTF BUT THE PAPER WAS HONESTLY SO FUCKING CUTE IM SO HAPPY WITH HOW THIS TURNED OUT I LOVE YOU AND YOUR BRAIN 🥺 p.s. do you think you’d ever do a drabble or epilogue where we get more of yara and tae? Totally cool if you don’t want to I was just wondering

O.O

Anonymous said: BITCHIN PART 10 WAS SO GOOD!!!! I WAS CRYING LAST MIGHT, THINKING THAT Y/N AND JK WERE JUST GOING TO PART WAYS,,,,HEKDHBFKD FUCKIN HAD ME SCARED. OMG SUCH A GOOD SERIES!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT ONE.

Anonymous said: AHHH I LOVED BITCHIN SO MUCH!!! This has always been one of my favorite fics right from the beginning and probably will always be one of my favorites. You did such an amazing job. I’m sad Bitchin era is over but I’m excited for whatever era that will be next:) Thank you for writing this, ILY

Anonymous said: THANK U FOR BITCHIN IT WAS AMAZING

Anonymous said: Bitchin was one wild ride 😭😭 I loved it and can’t wait for more of your rewind series 🥺💕💕

Anonymous said: 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💜💜💜😩😩😩😩- my reaction to bitchin final (for now)

Anonymous said: REST IN PEACE BITCHIN AAAAKAAKK.,?!@ FOREVER IN MY HEART GOD DAMMIT I CANT STOPCRYING ARE U HAPPY ROSE DID U LIKE CRUSHING MY FEELINGS LIKE THIS OIOOHNMY GOD 😭😭😭😭

jessiejellybean said: The only thing I can say about bitchin finale is GAJSOSLALHSISSAOWLLANSHSJAKA SERIOUSLY ITS SO GOOD THIS SERIES AS A WHOLE IS UNBELIEVABLY GOOD 10/10 WOULD RECOMMEND

Anonymous said: bitchin was so good😭 i am BEYOND devastated knowing that ill no longer be getting notifs on another update🥺it was so fun to be a part of this journey consisting of having to anticipate for another part to be posted for as long a month! but never have i regretted any second of waiting bcs the result came out so well written and interesting u might as well make it into a hard copy or a movie and get paid loads🤩 keep up the good work❤️

Anonymous said: Funnily enough, you were the first EVER bts blog that I followed because I thought you were funny as hell. Then, you posted part 1 of bitchin and on god I swear I signed my life away for bitchin!jk 🤡. I've officially lived through an era 🥺🥺. I'll miss them but I'll always be the biggest yaraxtae whore 🥵💦 -♒

sydney--chan said: This might sounds totally stupid or whatever, but bitchin' means a lot to me and I'm so happy that you decided to share it with us. Not to get all sad n shit but I started reading this during a really rough period in my life. This story allowed me to forget about all the stuff that was going on, even for just a little bit. This story means so much to me and seeing it end is like making me 😭😭😭 this is the perfect story and I love you and thank you for creating such a beautiful story 

Anonymous said: THAT WAS SO GOOOOOOOD the way u wrote about jungkook’s feelings tugged at my heartstrings like my heart physcially legitimately hurt ur writing was so spot on!! all the details!! Totally worth staying up even though i have class tm

Anonymous said: miss rose i just wanted to stop by and say thank you for always giving us such masterpieces. as a jk whore (ot7 whore in general but ya know) bitchin was just *chefs kiss* i literally looked forward to Sundays bc I knew there was a chance a new chapter would be posted lol. I am sad to see bitchin end but am also suuuuper excited to support your new fics and anything else you come out with. you’re the best. love ya 💕

Anonymous said: Bitchin' 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I'm going to say this for the umpteenth time... IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD. It's one of the best fanfictions out there and I'm gonna re-read it at least five more times. Thank you so much for blessing us with this bounty! Take care! 💜💜

koru-rhi said: I should really be asleep but I had to finish Bitchin & I went back and reread it from the beginning to the end and I just want you to know how much I loved it! It was a beautiful smuttyfluffyangsty ride and I can’t wait to read more of your writing! I totally lost it at Everything I Didn’t Say 😫 btw.

Anonymous said: Wow bitchin is over... what is there to look forward to now on this app :(

Anonymous said: I AM NOT CRYING, YOU ARE ALL CRYING I CNA IT THE END DNDMSM MY POOR HEART. AGHHHH SNAMAMA PLEASE,WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME. YOU ARE KILLING ME. I DON'T KNOW IF I AM SAD OR HAPPY OR BOTH.

Anonymous said: UGH! bitchin 10 was amazing *chef’s kiss* I sobbed, I felt their earnest love for each other. A real roller coaster just like my emotions rn. Ngl I sound like a middle aged white mom giving a book review 💀 anygays I just wanted to say that I love ur stories and they’re always so well written

betysotelo18 said: Bitchin'...has me in tears! For some reason I thought this was going to have smut...Who needs smut! This was PERFECT! The damn piece of paper made tears roll down my cheeks! I loved every single chapter. Thanks for sharing

deewhalien21 said: Waiting bitchin part 10 was hell, couldn’t imagine living without them now😔 I’m going to miss them, like a lot. And thank u for good memories with these people mam, thank u for making me experiencing heart break that I could never have. I’m waiting another great stories❤️😔

lalumaia said: That was just perfect, Rose. Thank you, I love you

Anonymous said: hi, bitchin was soooo good and every time you uploaded i felt so happy and excited for the next one, thank you for all your work!

Anonymous said: when i saw the warning said “angst” i was so worried they wouldn’t end up together :( thank you for this rose this was such a beautiful story and experience!!! love u lots angel

Anonymous said: ROSE HOLY SHIT THAT WAS SO GOOD !!!!!!!!

unknowntalesx said: ROSE IM CRYING WHAT THE FUCK I LOVED THAT SO MUCH MY HEART WAS BEING SQUEEZED AND TORN AND I HAD/HAVE LITERAL TEARS RUNNING DOWN MY FACE

Anonymous said: OMG CANT BELIEVE BITCHIN IS OVER 😭😭 i loved everything from the beginning till the end 💜 THANK U FOR WRITING SUCH AMAZING STORY

Anonymous said: On god bitchin is the best series I’ve ever read on this app. The ending was great too! Just sad that it’s over :( thanks for writing it

Anonymous said: FAM YOU GOT ME CRYING IN THE CLUB WITH BITCHIN PT. 10! I absolutely adore your work so much and Bitchin was absolutely beautiful and so fantastic to read. I love it and you so much! Thank you for giving us something so beautiful ❤️ P.S. now take a long break girl because you deserve it

Hi friends! I can’t even begin to explain how much every single comment/like/reblog/ask in regards to bitchin has meant to me

[rhiannondeclermont]

Linda Thrombey-Drysdale

Rhiannon and Meg had gone to Boston while Ransom was doing his east coast book tour. Rex was with him so there wasn’t much to worry about. Between Meg and her they could handle the nearly three year old and the four month old that required so much of Rhiannon’s attention with Ransom missing that sometimes she just had to lock herself away in the bedroom and have a good cry. It was after a particular day when Meg had gone out to pick up their dinner that what she’d been expecting to happen did. 

“You will not believe who was there when I went to grab out food.” Meg said as she set the containers on the table. Royce sat in his highchair, watching his aunt as she fixed him a place and handed him his kid’s chopsticks.

“What?” Rhiannon asked as she settled Raegan against her shoulder. Meg was being too good to her as she fixed her a plate and broke her chopsticks for her. “You know you don’t have to do all this.”

“You have made my cousin do a complete 180, Rhi. Yes, I’m going to.. Especially since he’s busy with his book right now.” She finally settled in her own chair as she fixed her plate. “Linda was there.”

“Do what?”

“She was there. And she gave me a letter.”

“Ransom won’t read it.” Rhiannon shook her head as she began picking at her food. 

“It’s for you.” Meg bit her bottom lip looking at the woman. “She asked me to give it to you. I was going to throw it away, but she looked kind of desperate.. Not like she was needing money, but like she’d realized how badly she screwed up.”

“You’re too good, Meg.” Rhiannon smiled, knowing it had probably been hard on her to see it. Whereas if it had been her mother, she probably would have pretended she didn’t exist. “Once we get the kids down for their nap, I’ll at least humor her with reading it.”

And when they finally did, she disappeared into the room that Marcus had claimed as his office - not that it had seen use since he moved to France with the rest of the family. She settled into the chair, using the letter opener to rip the envelope open. She had to give Linda something, her handwriting was beautiful. The leather chair enveloped her as she read. 

“Rhiannon,

I don’t deserve to ask any of this from you after how I’ve treated you. Seeing you with my son… Seeing him happy in a way that I had never seen before was startling. And finding out that not only were you married to one another, but expecting. 

No amount of apologies could make up for what I’ve done. Even the thought of apologizing to Ransom seems as if it would never make up for so many years of ignorance. I thought I was doing right by him, to give him everything. But I realize now that all I did was teach him that money fixes everything when it doesn’t. 

But with you… He’s a completely different person. He’s become the man that I had always hoped he would be, in no thanks to myself. You’ve done what I could never do. 

I know by now that you two have two littles ones. I’ve seen the few photos that have been released to the press and they are perfect, beautiful like their mother and father. I was hoping that, if you felt comfortable, I could meet my grandchildren. If not, then I understand. I don’t really deserve to after that day in the restaurant.

Nothing I say will ever change that day. And I hate myself for it. But if possible, give my office a call and we can set something up. If not, then that is fine.

Sincerely, Linda”

Rhiannon read it over and over again. Linda was asking for a second chance. And she’d promised Ransom that she wouldn’t do this until he was ready. From everything they’d talked about, he wasn’t ready. But what was she supposed to do? Go behind his back? She picked up her cellphone, calling him even though she knew this wasn’t going to go well.

“Hey, babe.” His voice was like honey to her ears. “How are the beans?”

“They’re good. They’re piled up with Meg watching a movie right now.” She answered staring at the letter. “She ran into your mother today when she went to pick up dinner.”

“And what did my darling mother have to say?”

“She gave her a letter to give to me.” Rhiannon continued, biting her bottom lip.

“Burn it.”

“Too late.” She was going to regret this. One day she would. But right now, they needed to address this. “I’ve already opened it and read it.”

“And what does she want?”

“To meet her grandchildren. But at our discretion… Well my discretion. I suppose she thought that I wouldn’t bring you into the conversation.” She sighed, folding the letter up and stuffing it back in the envelope. “Ransom, I know we said no. I’m not asking you to reconsider.”

“Then why are you calling me about this?” He asked, sounding almost angry at her. 

“I want to meet with her. Just me. I want to talk to her, to see if she really has learned her lesson.” She answered, sighing. “Baby, I hate what she’s done to you. The more we unearth in your therapy, the more I want to make her feel like the dirt she is. But, I need to know. I need to know we’re still doing the right thing.”

“Are you asking for my blessing?” He returned, and she could feel the anger now.

“Yes. And if you say no, then I’ll throw the letter away and never bring it up.” She needed to know he was okay with at least her checking this out.

“Baby, I don’t trust her.” He was defeated though, knowing she’d go ahead and do it anyways. “Go on. Meet with her. But don’t trust her.”

“I won’t, Ran. Call me if you need me. I’ll cancel and come to you. Meg can handle the kids.”

“No she won’t. Raegan is still breastfeeding.”

“And I have plenty of milk for her here. I’ll come if you need me.” She was regretting bringing this to him, but she also needed him to know without her doing this behind his back. “I love you, Ransom.”

“I love you, too. I’ll see you in Boston in a few days, okay?”

“Okay.” She smiled now, relaxing as they said their goodbyes and hung up. She waited until Linda’s reality office was closed before calling and leaving her a voicemail. She told her to meet her at the restaurant where they’d ran into her the last time. It was public enough that if it didn’t go well, then she wouldn’t be worried about Linda trying to turn it on her.

Rhiannon was early, sipping quietly at a glass of wine. It would mean dumping what she pumped later, but it was worth it for the moment of escape. Linda arrived on time, settling herself across from her.

“I didn’t think you’d want to meet with me.” Linda spoke first, looking over the blonde. “Motherhood looks good on you.”

“Thank you, Linda.” Rhiannon answered looking at her. “I would say it’s nice to see you, but…”

“Under the circumstances of last time, I can’t blame you. I won’t even try to begin to apologize for how I acted.” Linda hadn’t even reached for the menu. “Are you hungry?”

“I’m always hungry. Growing to tiny people and then breastfeeding them makes me hungry.” Rhiannon picked her menu up, glossing over it for a moment. “Why now?”

“Because I wanted to respect my son’s wishes for once in his life.” She could tell Linda actually meant it. “If neither of you want me to be part of their lives, then so be it… But I had to try. I’m not saying that I’ve changed enough to be around them. But I’ve realized what I’ve done wrong with Ransom… The touch starvation…”

“Trust me, that’s the least you’ve done to him.” She answered looking at the woman. “Linda, he’s in therapy. He’s been dealing with so much of the stuff you have done to him… I can’t dress our daughter in the color yellow because of you. Yellow. Because of the closet you used to stuff him in as a child.” 

Linda’s face changed instantly when she heard the words come out of Rhiannon’s mouth. It was as if she’d broken her again. It made her remember the day it had first happened when she’d seen them there at the restaurant. 

“This was a bad idea then. Considering all the trauma I put him through…”

“Linda, that doesn’t mean we’re going to say no.” Rhiannon watched as she stood. “Sit back down so we can talk. Or it will be a no.”

Linda sat back down, looking her in the eye. She now knew exactly why Rhiannon was perfect for Ransom. 

“I understand that you’re feeling bad about this, Linda. But feeling bad about it isn’t going to get you anywhere near your grandchildren. They have a grandmother who loves them. They have a multitude of uncles who would probably prefer I never let you into their lives. Their father didn’t even want me meeting with you because he doesn’t trust you.” She was angry as she stared at her mother-in-law. “You reached out for some reason.”

“I know that I can’t apologize for what I did.” Linda was nervous, and she knew it was obvious. “I just want the opportunity to know my grandchildren. Even if they never call me grandmother. I would like to be in their lives in whatever way you or Ransom will let me.”

Rhiannon believed her. She knew that Linda had realized that she’d done something wrong and she was starting to realize that it had larger consequences than she was ready to give up.

“I’ll have to talk to Ransom about it. I can’t promise anything, Linda.”

“I know. And I’ll do whatever you two want to earn this.” She was desperate at this point. “Please, Rhiannon?”

“I’ll talk to Ransom when he comes home from his book tour.” Book three had recently been released and he was busy promoting it. “Would you like to see pictures of them?”

“You don’t…”

It was too late as Rhiannon pulled her phone out, quickly moving to the photos section. Since Royce’s birth, her phone was constantly filled with pictures of Ransom and their children. She handed it to Linda, watching her flip through the photos.

“That was the day we told Royce he was going to be a big brother. He wasn’t very happy with that.” She smiled, reminded of how sad he had been that day when they’d told him. Linda flipped to a video next. As it played, Royce was sitting next to her in bed, his little sister slightly lying on his lap. Meg was filming as Ransom came over to pick their daughter up. Royce shooed him away though, protective of his little sister. “Now it’s hard to separate the two of them.”

“Ransom was supposed to have a sister.” Linda spoke softly, looking through the pictures. “I lost her when I was around five months along… He was young so he wouldn’t remember. I’m not saying that’s why…. Why all of this happened….”

“Linda, some people aren’t meant to be parents. But I will have to say despite everything, Ransom is a very good man. I don’t know what any of you had to do with that… But I am grateful.” Rhiannon looked at Linda. 

“I owe you an apology for what I said… What I insinuated when I saw you two here before…. I wish I hadn’t. I wish I had given you a chance.”

“Then let’s start over.” She offered a soft smile. “I can’t promise that Ransom will be okay with you seeing the kids.. But we can try to change that.”

“I would like that, Rhiannon.” Linda smiled back at the blonde. “What is Royce like?”

The two ended up spending a solid two hours as Rhiannon told her about Royce and Raegan, showing her pictures.

@magickisafoot​ 

[spnfanficpond]

November 2018 Pond LiveChat Recap

We had a great time chatting with Rhi, @kittenofdoomage!!! Thank you so much for joining us!

We talked about getting readers, interacting with readers, and how Tumblr has made it more and more difficult with their changes for new writers to get noticed. Details from our discussion with Rhi under the cut, as well as notes on what we’re working on in the Pond!

Q: Do you wait until you are done writing a series before you begin posting, or do you post as you write?

I wait until I'm done writing a series. At some point, the idea will catch me and I have to write the entire thing, which will take about three days. Editing for another 1-2 depending on my betas and then it gets released in its entirety on Patreon (my patrons like reading the entire fic in one go, they're paying for it so I'm not gonna make 'em wait) and comes out in chapters on Tumblr about three-four weeks later. I hate feeling like I'm making people wait too long and then shit happens like it did with three of my permanently hiatused fics.

Q: Well, as for why we're here, Rhi, you get so many asks every day. How do you have such involved readers?

A lot of my readers who respond are regulars. I have those who pop up with the odd "this is awesome" and those who will write long involved reviews which I love!

Q: Do you think there's anything in particular that you do that encourages people to interact with you?

Yeah, I'm open with people and pretty approachable. I like discussing things, plot points, characters, anything really. There are very few things that trigger me, too. I have only three specific things that will turn me away from a fic. I think my lack of triggers helps with people who need someone like that to talk to.

Q: Do you ever ask around and try to figure out what people are looking to read to try and help boost your reader count or do you just draw inspiration from your own ideas?

At the moment, I'm mostly working on commissions, so it's other people's ideas. I'm lucky that most of my Patrons and commissioners are very patient with me and know up front that I have no specific time limits. I will write it but I can't force it. And I won't force it because that leaves everyone with a shit story.I never put an idea away forever though. I write them all down. If inspiration hits for something, I write it there and then because I never know if I'll get that mojo back.

Q: Has there ever been an Idea that has caught you by surprise when you start it as one thing but it ends up as something else?

Only about six thousand times.

Over The Hills And Far Away that I'm writing now, was supposed to only be a Dean x reader but my reader decided to go and have chemistry with Sam too.

Q: Have you noticed a bump in followers after you do anything specific?

I always have a bump in followers after Sinful Sunday. Unfortunately, I always end up with a bump in unsolicited dick pics and porn bots, too, so a purge usually follows. When I post new characters or fandoms, too. I've recently picked up a bunch of Marvel followers.

Q: As a big blog, you must also get some hate. How do you deal with that?

They don't like me because I play with them and their insults are like water off a duck's back with me. Unless they bring my kid into it. I shut an entire set of blogs down when that happened. That's also why I no longer post anything to do with my daughter. I will avoid using her name wherever possible. If I'm in a bad mood, I ignore it. If I'm feeling like an utter bitch, I'll tear them a new asshole.

Q: Rhi, it sounds like you have a lot on your plate with family, work, and writing.  Is there anything in particular that keeps your creativity flowing so you don't burn out?

I try and do something different every day. Painting, gaming, going for a walk - it's important for me not to spend all my time on one thing. Even if it's just cleaning. I also listen to a lot of music - Classic Rock on Absolute Radio is my fav. Actually, my favorite time to think about fics is when I'm about to go to sleep.

Q: I'm not sure how to even ask this, but I came into the spn fic fandom a little late and so I'm finding it difficult to gather new followers. Do you have any advice? I have a master post with the few pieces I've written but I've gotten a lot of flack for writing OCs...

Tumblr is not helping with regards to gaining new followers lately. Tags aren't working if you're an NSFW blog, no one can search anything. The only thing I can suggest is reblogging, asking other authors if they'll read your work.

[Other suggestions from the chat included submitting fics to @dirtysupernaturalimagines and the Pond, joining other people’s writing challenges (The Pond’s S14 Challenge is here, @thing-you-do-with-that-thing is always running challenges, and @mrswhozeewhatsis has a tag #writing challenge on her blog). Also, “Tumblr loves porn” and the fandom loves Dean, in particular, so writing more Dean smut will get you more readers. Just adding “Dean x Reader” to the tags, even if the relationship is barely mentioned, will get you more readers. Sam will get you the same result, but to a lesser extent. Rhi got bigger writing ABO fics, and carved out a niche for herself with them to the point she’s considered the ABO expert in reader insert fics. Another tip was to strip OC’s of names and defining physical features, since OC’s don’t get a lot of love. Many “Y/N”’s are actually just OC’s without a name. Also, if you’re writing a story that will eventually have smut, list “eventual smut” in the tags.]

Q: Random question:  a bunch of us smaller blogs have noticed a drop in reblogs over the last year or so, and I'd be curious to know if, as a bigger blog, you've seen anything like this as well?

Absolutely. A year ago I was getting about 10-20k notes a day. Now, if I hit a thousand, it's a good day and I'm expecting to take a massive hit because of Sinful Sunday, if they don't entirely delete my blog.

Q: Does anyone have any idea why the notes have all dropped so much?  Is it a glitch in notes?  People being more apprehensive to reblog nsfw things because of all the nsfw fear going on?

Community responses: The posts with outside links not showing up in searches is related to bots and porn blogs that only reblog posts to add a link to a sketchy outside web page. Several months ago, though, Tumblr started the “best stuff first” algorithm (which can be turned off in your dashboard settings, but not everyone knows this), and that pushed posts with few notes to the bottom of the dashboard feed. Since you never really get to the bottom, those posts never get seen. Tags and reblogs to build up note counts are the only way to combat this. Now, messing with the search functions means that there will be no new readers without blogs that just reblog fics, like the Pond and @dirtysupernaturalimagines and such.

[Editor’s Note: Rhi told us she’s working on a UPS Driver!Sam fic!! I’m excited. “What can Brown do for me?” YES, PLEASE!]

What’s coming up in the Pond:

Angel Fish Award nominations are due by the end of the month, so you have less than a week to submit yours and gain an entry for every nomination into the raffle! Win fabulous prizes just for spreading love! HOW COOL IS THAT? (Also, don’t forget to submit your own fics to the Pond so that other Pond members can easily find them and nominate them!)

Note: Please use the submission form to submit nominations. Asks do not allow you to include a link to the fic, and sometimes we can’t find what you’re nominating, especially now that Tumblr searches don’t work.

Design contest to find a Pond graphic! Entries are due by the end of the month, so less than a week away! So far, we have ONE (1) entry! (I mean, it’s a pretty fabulous entry, but still!) Winner gets their choice of swag with their design on it!!

SPNFanFicPond Season 14 Weekly Episode Writing Challenge - Since we didn’t have a new episode this past Thursday, the previous week’s challenge is still collecting submissions. (Honestly, there’s no deadline on any of them. Post a fic using a prompt from any week, and you’ll still be added to the masterpost and reblogged on the Pond blog.)

New Member Spotlight Post coming soon! Check out last month’s post here!

Still accepting additions and discussion about the Warning Tag List (tags to be used to assist folks in avoiding triggers and protect their mental health, not be confused with tags to help people find or avoid preferences). Reply or reblog the post itself, or send an ask to the Pond with suggestions!

Plans are in the works to try and make the blog more app-friendly. Please be patient with us in the meantime!

Plans to expand the beta program to make it easier to find the type of beta you need are also on the to-do list.

Housekeeping Note: If you send an ask to the Pond and do not get a response in a couple of days, please notify one of the admins (Michelle - @mrswhozeewhatsis, Mana - @manawhaat, or Kale - @aprofoundbondwithdean) via IM and let us know!

Thanks to everyone who joined us this month and made it an awesome conversation!! Can’t wait for next month!

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Be there Dec. 15th at the usual time!  (Los Angeles - 2PM, New York - 5PM, London - 10PM, Melbourne - Sunday 9AM)

[the-little-red-noodle]

12/6/18 12:49

I want to write but i dont know what to say.

i feel so much but im not doing anything. i have feelings that i want to talk through but i cant grasp them yet. 

im so tired and my eyes hurt and my heart wants to love so much more than im being given opportunity for. i have so much love to give but nowhere to put it where it will be received in the way i really want. i’ll never admit it, but i just want someone who will mirror that love. i just want to feel like im appreciated and that those efforts are seen and appreciated. 

I just want to love and be loved in an enthusiastic way. And i feel like this a lot more when spencer and i are apart and i have to rely on his text voice to fill that little space in my head where i overthink about our relationship standing. That’s not to say that i never get my feelings hurt when we’re together in person, because yeah it happens, he’s a boy and he says dumb shit sometimes. But it’s so much less.

When we’re together in person, at least i can guage a little more where we stand. I can feel that he’s happy and i excite him. Sex is always good so i don’t really worry about that domain. I’m a very sexual person and i usually initiate things and will be more verbal about what i want or complimenting him and making it feel very explicit that I’m attracted to him and enjoying things, etc. so i feel like sex is coming easy to him. Like we don’t have any sexual inhibitions other than just like timing or if I’m on my period. But whenever I’m on my period, like today, i just go down on him anyway because it’s fun for both of us, and i think a little bit subconsciously it’s because i want to make sure he stays satisfied with me.. like i don’t want him to feel like he needs to go anywhere else for that kind of satisfaction because he can always get off with me and that i do things enthusiastically, which i do. I genuinely have a good time being sexual with him in any context because i do feel so attracted to him and so like.. into it.. like even on my period when i usually feel the least sexy, he comes over and makes me feel like such a queen.. like we’realways touching each other and so close and it’s always pretty high attraction energy between us which keeps me pretty enticed all the time..

it’s weird but it’s not. Cuz like i know that I’m a very sexual person. I like sex. I enjoy having sex for me, and i like the physical feeling and the connection to people. I like being intimate and i love being intimate with spencer for a lot of reasons.

I think a big part of it is his aloofness most of the time keeps me pushing for it. Like he’s so precious and beautiful and giggly and all that. Like he’s adorable and he looks at me sometimes like I’m so gorgeous.. like today he came over for like 2 hours and we just cuddled and teased each other.. the entire first hour was a standoff of who could hold out longer, which is funny because if i weren’t on my period, 100% i would lose first. But since he didn’t know i was on my period, i just ran with it and played this game with him. It’s so fun to tease each other and taunt the other person to make moves..

i just like messing with him cuz theres an innocence to him that i really like.. and part of that is that he is just objectively attractive, like conventionally but also just like to me, he is so perfect.. like his bone structure and his cute little features, and he’s tall and thin and i just think he’s crazy attractive. It’s honestly kind of annoying tho because i can’t ever keep my hands to myself. Like i just want to touch him constantly and have my arms around him..

Now i miss him..

Ugh wait i want to talk about jealousy. Because this is something i got back and forth on a lot in my head but overarching isnt an issue, because i don’t bring it up. Like i have insecurities, who doesn’t. And something i worry about is just him finding someone else that he likes better, and in reality, i feel like that would come from a friend confessing to him, and he’ll either be in love with that person or he’ll be a pushover and be with them cuz he cares about people and wants to make them happy. I worry that i won’t have as strong of a hold on him as id like to think that i do. And i mainly worry about this with his friend Ali, because they are super close and I’ve seen a couple times now where she like needs to talk to him and talks about anxiety and needing him.. so when i hear about it theres a twinge of jealousy because i imagine her like confessing that she loves him and that seeing him with another girl was too much and he should dump me amd be with her..

Yes i know i sound crazy, I’m aware. But that’s why i write this shit on tumblr so these thoughts never see the light of day. Because of course i would never bring this up to him, because expressing these insecurities does nothing but put tensions on his friendships, and i would hate if he did that with my friendships with guys, or girls (don’t bi erase me) and it would be annoying if i wanted to hang out with someone that he was jealous of because of course i would want to make sure he was super comfortable and that would probably cause me to see them less, and that’s not what i want for him because frankly i like his girl friends more than his guy friends, and theyre better influences on him anyway.

Still, theres something about this girl that makes me nervous sometimes. I think it’s just that she seems affectionate with him and expresses needing him, which seems like the way you treat a boyfriend or a guy you are affectionate with because he likes you but you’re friendzoning?

That too, i don’t know how these girls friendzone him. Like he is so gorgeous it makes me angry. He is so gorgeous, how do people look at rhis gorgeous man and go ya he’s just a friend. Like what?

Anyway, idk what to do about my feelings about ali. Part of it too is that i find her attractive, and someone i was low key crushing on last year, so now i see her super close with my partner and I’m like silently growling because i know shems attractive, and she would know what a prize spencer is, so that’s the insecurity.

The reason i don’t say anything is because i feel like at our age, theres a level of maturity and understanding. Enough to where if you are in a relationship, but develope feelings for someone else, and those feelings suddenly have an outlet and that person wants you back, you should be honest and breakup with your partner and pursue that other thing. Like ya being cheated on would suck, and getting dumped would suck, but at the end of the day, we’re all just people and romance is messy and i feel like if this girl confessed to him and he wanted to be with her, he should be. Cuz like theyre friends for a while and must know each other pretty well, and if he had strong feelings like that for someone else, who am i to hold him back?

But the point i was making is that even if this girl or any other girl expressed interest in him, that doesn’t mean he instantly sleeps with them and dumps me. Because id like to think that he and i are doing pretty well at the moment and id like to think he’s happy with me and wants to be with me.

When i get insecure about this stuff, i like to think about this thing he said a while ago. He said that he was single for 2 years, and just wasnt dating, and that when he saw me, he was like “her”.

I like to think about it in a serious way that like he’s known these females for those 2 years, and that if he wanted things to happen with them, they probably would have already happened. And i like to think that he was immediately attracted to me, and that first night when we met and kissed and he asked me about italian food because he wanted to take me on dates when we got back to school.

Those two things he said mean a lot to me and keep me relatively grounded when dumb insecurities want to carry me out and get lost in the sky.. i want to believe that he chose to be single for a while, or just didn’t hard pursue anyone for a while, but then with me he just wanted to date me or knew i was girlfriend material. And honestly that’s so fucking cute..

And i feel good about us now in that sense too when we talk about being friends. We’re both pretty adamantly like i think of you as much more than a friend and when i was jokingly like oh so you want to be just friends? And he was so sad like i mean.. if that’s what you want.. but I’m very happy with this” and just hugged me so tight..

Like i know I’ve got him, ya know? Maybe that sounds confident, but i feel like i got him.. i feel like i suit him pretty well and that I have the qualities he wants in a girlfriend. Or at least id like to think so.

So when i get insecure, i remind myself of these things and remind myself of when we were both complaining about exes who got jealous of our opposite sex friends and how annoying it is to be accused of sleeping with your platonic friends. So i know how dumb it would be to ask if he likes Ali, or if he ever has liked her in the past, because what if he has? I used to like Patrick, and he used to like me, but that doesn’t make us incapable of being just friends right now, so it would only hurt me to know that. And if he did currently like her, maybe he’ll say something. Or it’s not a big enough deal to him to mention it.

I just gotta trust him. I gotta let myself trust him and trust that we’re both adults and that he is capable of having platonic female friends, the same way i am capable of having platonic friends with anyone.

I think that’s as much as i can write for tonight. Gotta get sleep and get work done tomorrow.

Xoxo gossipgirl

[italicwatches]

Animal Sentai Zyuohger - Episode 31

So my weekend plans didn’t so much get killed, so much as bloodily beaten with a crowbar until they stopped moving. Anyways, it’s Animal Sentai Zyuohger, episode 31! Here we GO!

-PREVIOUSLY ON Animal Sentai Zyuohger, Bunglay tried to go whaling. And made a whale very, very mad.

-PRESENTLY ON Animal Sentai Zyuohger, everyone’s trying to recover in the cabin, particularly Sela and Misao. After a brief comedy bit with Mario, Tusk’s got a traditional remedy, but a lot of this is just going to have to be slept off…

-While Cube Eagle searches the night skies, with Eagle at the helm…Why would Cube Whale turn on him like that…What happened to you, Cube Whale?

-Opening!

-Episode 31: When the Mega-Beast Stands

-Back up in the Big Bow, Genis lays out how he started secretly looking for whatever Bunglay was wanting…And seeing it as a very viable tool for the game. But to think Bunglay was willing to use something so base and vulgar as poison…Something must be making him impatient, don’t you think, Kubar?

-And Naria reports that Cube Whale has finally stopped in a lake…So it’s time for her to go out, in a custom GIFT mech…

-In the morning, Eagle finds Cube Whale in turn…And Sela and Misao are both forced to stay behind. The others just got flesh wounds, they can fight, but you two need to clear this shit out of your system.

-So Misao and Sela are left on their own, and of course, Misao’s dealing with tons of guilt as per usual. Not just his usual stuff, but…He feels like he’s the only one not contributing. Like he needs to do more, somehow…

-And Sela…Well, she can at least respect that. But it’s time they had a real talk.

-Bunglay, meanwhile, is looking for his prize…When Kubar comes to chat with him. And reveal what he knows…

-As Yamato finds Cube Whale…Whoooo is completely ignoring him.

-Back at the cabin, Sela lays out that Misao is, ultimately, trying too damn hard. She gets the drive to self improve. She gets the anxiety about not being respected. And she’s not saying don’t work hard, just…You’ve got to be willing to calm down, to breathe, or you’re just going to end up flailing at your problems without actually solving them….And that’s when they both realize they don’t feel weighed down by poison anymore. The toxins have been neutralized! They’ve got to get out there!

-As Yamato is trying to figure out how to get through to Cube Whale, who’s put up a literal wall of water to block him out…While across the lake, Naria prepares her tools, only for Tiger, Lion and Elephant to arrive! The fight is on immediately, with them trying to get to Naria, and force her into combat…Combat that she’s plenty good at.

-Yamato thinks, and thinks…And realizes his mistake. Cube Whale did not choose Cetas. No, he was born of Cetas’s will, and of the Earth’s strength…They were forged as one…Cube Whale has never known another…And he realizes just how far he’ll have to go, to be worthy of standing beside Cube Whale…

-Which is about when Bunglay finds him, and Instincts Awakened! Eagle splits a shot from Bunglay apart, keeping it from hitting Cube Whale, as the fight is on! Eagle won’t ask you to fight by their side, Cube Whale…But know this! You’re under their protection! He’ll keep you safe! Bunglay calls bullshit, leaping past Eagle…

-Only to get snared by Misao and Sela, who haul him in! And oh, now they’re mad. This just got personal. Instincts Awakened! Shark and The World(Crocodile ver.) leap into the fray, furious and full of will…

-As Naria manages to knock the other three back long enough to kick the mech straight to big formation. She lands it right into the lake, ready to snatch Cube Whale up! And this isn’t just the same GIFT they fought before…It’s a custom variant, made specifically for this, as it bombards the entire coast! And to make it worse, Bunglay still wants his prize, as Eagle is forced to unleash the Gorilla and hold him back…Everyone, get a mech going and hold her off! He’s got Bunglay!

-And so, they’re quickly marching in with Wild Tousai King, as the mecha fight begins…And this Custom mech is strong enough to stand against them, as Gorilla continues his fight against Bunglay…Both fights just turn into utter slobberknockers, with our heroes getting put down hard…Eagle even forced to take shot after shot to keep them from reaching Cube Whale, as Naria puts Wild Tousai King on the ground and prepares to finish them all off…

-And through it all…Cube Whale watches. And sees how these six youths fight. As Eagle brings up both his swords, blocking one ferocious slash from Bunglay, holding the energy back…As the other five climb and haul themselves back onto their command cubes, forcing their mech to rise…!

-This planet. And this great creature. Are UNDER THEIR PROTECTION!

-And that…That is what gets through to Cube Whale, as it sees the same honor as its old partner in young Eagle…A humble human, with a heart the size of a whale’s…A single shot of his spout fires out a massive spear to land by Eagle’s feet, a spear that he takes up as the music swells…And which can match up against Bunglay’s anchors, not just holding him back but overpowering him! In fact, the weapon’s large enough, strong enough…That he can throw it and manage to knick the shoulder on Naria’s mech! Cube Whale, now’s your chance!

-CUBE WHALE! The spear locks into its spout once more, as the great whale rises, calling up the Grand Champion Symbol….

-And so, Instincts Awakened! WHALE! Infused with its power, the Champion of Champions steps forth to join this noble beast of the sea…To stand together as one! They take to the sky, beginning a barrage upon Naria’s mech to force it back…But that’s not the only trick this old whale has! Charge up the Symbol…

-And forge, DODEKAI-OH! With the spear at mecha scale, the champion’s armour stands once again! Strike after strike crash into Naria’s mech, forcing it to stagger…And despite Dodekai-Oh’s bulk, it’s a fast thing, able to block everything she can throw at it and finally force the mech back! To give enough room to crunch that spear down into a crossbow shape, line up the shot, and…Dodekai-OCEAN SPLASH! The spear tip fires as countless bolts, cutting through the mech, as Naria struggles to hold the line…

-And Genis makes the call. Retreat, Naria. Leave the mech to fall. She returns, bringing a memory device with her, as the mech bursts into fire…

-Leaving Whale to give thanks, that Cube Whale so honored him with this opportunity. Thank you, for everything. And Bunglay slowly, but surely, staggers away…He’ll be back…

-In the aftermath back at the cabin, Cube Whale has joined the other Cube Animals, massive even at the small scale. And also Misao is too forward with this great creature.

-While up in the Big Bow, Genis accepts the memory device…And now, he has what he needs. They don’t need to capture Cube Whale now…Not when he has the data from it…

-Credits! Sou-wolfully! You rhi-know just what to do!

I’m not gonna lie, Dodekai-Oh is a little clunky, but that had some really good character beats. It’ll be interesting to see how they work it into the dynamic, and if it can be more than just another big stomp Minecraft-mech. I guess we’ll see next time, in episode THIRTY TWO of Animal Sentai Zyuohger! Wait for it!

[seijorhi]

asks :))

a bunch of fic asks below the cut <3

Hi Rhi! I just read the usual suspects and ITS AMAZING. I was legit so immersed 😭 it’s so good, I couldn’t put it down. It was intense. I could feel Daichi’s stress and with every bits and pieces of info that was being revealed, AHHH had me shooketh. I adore your writing so much 😭💕 ahhh hats off to you!! And me being a Makki lover, I legit gasped when I read the past part!!

-nette 💕@mulberrysilk

ahhh thank you so much, bby!!! tbh i couldn’t resist throwing makki in there, once i had the idea for how i wanted to end it there was no going back and i love deceptively soft makki 

THAT RECENT FIC WAS SO GOOD. I didn’t realize it was refreshing to read a yandere story but from a different point of view. It was so good, the suspense, the crippling fear. May I ask, is this connected to one of ur fics? And would there be a part 2 to see what would happened next? Thank u so much for blessing us with your talent!

thank you! but no, this one is entirely separate from any of my other fics, as for a part two ??? who knows :))

that fic was sooo good. the writing kept me on a edge fr. daichis desperation to solve the case was portrayed so well. AND I DIDNT EXPECT MAKKI TO POP IN AT ALL

well you see the trouble is i am a complete whore for seijoh and makki in particular so?? i had no choice haha

I’m in shock. How does your writing just keep getting better and better and better holy shit

thank you, bby!!! <33

Rhiiiii!!!! Your writing is always so amazing, the newest Oikawa and Iwa fic was so good!!! And the plot twist of goddamn Makki holding you captive until the boys walk out without Daichi finding a lead was so smart!! Just a quick question about your commissions, are you willing to do something with Kawababy and Stockholm syndrome? It’s okay if you don’t, much love 🥺💞

hiya bby! so first of all thank you!! I’m really glad you liked it! as far as commissions go they’re closed atm but i wouldn’t be against writing something like that when/if they open up again :))

lawyer oikawa?? babe, you SPOIL us 😭

ain’t it hot tho? imagine him in a courtroom just wiping the floor with the opposition, it’s sexy

I love these 2 lines - “Have you found my girlfriend yet, Detective?" and “Of course I knew, but you misunderstand, Sergeant. She was never going to leave me.”

Just worded so well. hints that poor mc hasn't gone anywhere!

i was low key proud of those lines, subtle, but they were there from the start hehe

Your latest fic omg you’ve done it again 🥵🙏 I love the mystery AU, you really had the reader guessing and constantly thinking about what happened! I have to ask though...was this all just Makki acting out on his own and using the situation to his advantage or did Iwaizumi and Oikawa (maybe just oikawa LOL)get Makki to do this?

haha, as much as i love the idea of makki being a rogue agent, he really was just helping out two of his pals :)) such a good friend :))

Gaddamn. The preview you posted really made me think that Daichi is the bad guy.

ok ngl i had a few people send asks and stuff believing that iwa was innocent/being wrongfully accused and it was absolutely hilarious. like no, this time he’s an absolute piece of shit and for once, daichi wasn’t a bastard cop 

The usual suspects was so good! It read so much like a crime novel! For some reason I was suspecting daichi the whole time. I was convinced reader came to him in fear and he just kidnapped her for himself and was now trying to frame Iwa and Oiks.

love this theory, bastard cop daichi would’ve been a fun twist, but he was actually trying :(( i also love how none of you trust anybody in my fics anymore, it’s amazing

Omg. unusual suspects was just 👌👌👌imma just pray that daichi found something to lock those two up cuz god I'm scared - @yandere-writes​

i mean :)) if that’s what makes you happy :)) skhbrndjshfghjdks but thank you, bby!

oh. oh, this is one of the fics where i feel sorry for the reader. trapped between an obsessive, controlling ex and her creepy boss at work- she never had a chance, did she? and i cant help thinking that she fell into the the same mindset as daichi- that iwazumi just cant handle his ego being bruised, that oikawa just wants her for sex. she has no idea how obsessed they are with her, and thats her downfall. and theres daichi (who i loved in this fic), but i dont think he can find anything

and makki! i did not see makki coming. how did he get roped into this? is the reader being held at his house, at least temporarily? does he, at least, feel any guilt? sorry if im being annoying, but i loved this fic so much and i have so many questions.

it would’ve been hard enough to escape just one of them; the two together and poor reader never had a chance :(( as far as makki goes he’s an absolute piece of shit too. he genuinely likes the reader - out of all of iwa’s friends he was probably the one she got along best with, but makki’s morally grey at the very best, and he’d do anything for his friends. does he feel guilty? not really, after all she’s better off with the two of them anyway.

rhiii can i ask youu? do you ever write or maybe want to write reverse yandere fic?👀

hiya bby, thanks for the ask but reverse yandere fics just really aren’t my jam :(( sorry!!

[hmubangtan]

BTS Reaction to their S/O having squishy thighs

Here is the request my lovely anon! <3 Sorry it took so long to complete!~

Jin:

He had been pretty shocked when you had invited him to sit in your lap after there were no seats left.

Of course, he wasn't complaining but it was pretty awkward for him sitting there, feeling your gloriously thick thighs beneath his bottom.

You got startled when Jin suddenly stood up and ran to the bathroom. It was only when you saw the blush on his face that you had realized what happened and blushed yourself.

The rest of the boys seemingly didn't notice but the rest of the night had an awkward atmosphere to it.

You felt your phone buzz in your pocket. Checking it you noticed a text from Jin.

“You better be ready for a long night tonight (Y/N).”

Yoongi:

Sitting on the floor Yoongi sighed. The rest of the boys and (Y/N) were all on the couches because tonight was movie night. They had picked out the newest Kingsman movie and while he was interested, Yoongi had something else on his mind.

You had decided to just wear a pair of boy short boxers instead of your usual pajama pants because of the heat. And it just so happened that you had thick, squishy thighs.

Yoongi gulped as you patted your lap when you noticed he had nowhere to sit.

He gulped. He put on a brave face and made his way over, sitting in your lap.

He could hear you giggle and he sighed as he realized getting him on your lap had been your plan all along.

‘Oh well, might as well get comfy on these glorious thighs.” He thought to himself as he snuggled you more.

“I want to marry these thighs.”

J-Hope:

“Hobi sit on my lap.”

“WHAT?!” Hoseok yelped out as he was roughly pulled onto your lap from where you were sitting.

“I need someone's back to use as an easel while I finish this piece up because someone broke it.” (Y/N) glared at Namjoon as he walked by, giving him the evil eye.

“Uh okay. Sure I guess.” Hoseok gulped as he slowly got comfortable.

Oh god, could he feel your amazingly squishy thighs. He blushed as he felt you slightly flex one to get a cramp out.

Squirming slightly he tried to get comfy on your lap.

“Yah! Hobi stop moving around! I can't draw good if you do!” You complained, jiggling your legs in a tantrum like manner.

Hobi blushed harder as he sprung up from your lap like a tightly coiled spring.

“I'm sorry (Y/N) I can't! They're too thick!” Hobi screamed dramatically as he turned and ran away.

“HOBI! Too thick?”

Rap Monster:

To be honest he wasn't completely bothered when you had asked him to sit on your lap. You had a habit of having stuff on your lap. Usually, it was a heavy throw blanket or a large pillow but that wasn't enough.

Namjoon sat himself down gingerly on your thighs. He worried that he would accidentally crush you with his weight. Although your thighs were pretty thick and strong.

“Yah Joonie sit all the way down! You won't hurt me.” You laughed as you pulled him all the way onto your lap.

He laughed as well and settled on your lap.

It was moments like these that he could never get enough of. The both of you were just so comfortable in each other's presence.

You reached your hand around and grabbed his larger hand, tracing patterns into the flesh. Bringing his hand back you kissed the top, smiling against the skin.

Rap Monster smiled and grabbed your hand kissing it as well. He settled back into your lap and just relaxed.

The both of you spent the rest of the day like that.

Jimin:

Usually, it was you who liked to do the lap sitting which is why he was surprised when you requested that he sit on your lap.

Jimin was a bit embarrassed, to say the least. Finally, he gave in after you used your puppy dog eyes on him.

“Why do I have to do this?” Jimin whined as he pouted from where he was standing in front of you.

“Because I always sit on you so you should return the favor!” You argued.

Jimin just sighed as he slowly sank down into your lap, giving up trying to get out of it.

When he was fully seated you leaned forward and wrapped your arms around his torso, laying your head on his back.

“Hey, Minnie can I ask another favor?” You asked, your voice muffled against his back.

“I guess you can since you already have me sitting on your lap,” Jimin answered back, secretly basking in the warmth of your body (namely your thighs) pressed against his.

“Can you… Uh… Can you sing for me?” You asked meekly.

“I guess.” He shrugged a bit as he started singing.

You leaned your head against his back, feeling the vibrations. As he kept singing you slowly drifted off to sleep.

Jimin stopped singing when he felt your body go slack and turned a bit to look at you.

He smiled when he saw your peaceful sleeping face.

He squirmed a bit in your hold and against your thighs. Your thighs were pretty comfortable. He decided to just relax and sleep as well.

“I could get used to sleeping on her thighs.”

Taehyung:

Taehyung sneakily peeked out from behind the corner of the living room.

You were on your phone playing a new video game that came out. As you played you became more and more focused on the game and less on your surroundings.

Taking his chance he raced over and plopped himself down on your lap.

You grunted as you felt the extra weight on your lap, missing a couple of notes in the rhythm game you were playing.

“Tae! I would've got all combo!” You complained to him as he snuggled himself into your lap.

“But I wanted a cuddle!” Taehyung pouted as he pressed himself into your thighs.

“I would've given you a cuddle after!” You fake cried as you saw you had failed the schedule because you missed those last few notes.

As you whined and mumbled to yourself Tae gazed at you with love in his eyes.

You noticed him staring and pouted.

“Yah what are you looking at Mr. I-Ruin-Video-Games!” You exclaimed.

“Just looking at your beautiful face while sitting on your amazing thighs,” Tae responded honestly.

You sputtered embarrassed.

“My amazing what?”

Jungkook:

“KOOKIE NOOOO!”

The boys stopped and paused what they were doing before they all wandered into the living room.

They stopped and stared when they saw you holding Jungkook around the waist, getting dragged behind him as he struggled to move forward.

“Uh, what's going on?” Namjoon spoke up as he watched in confusion.

“I just want Kookie to sit on my lap for once and he won't!” You pouted as you struggled to keep hold of Jungkook as he shifted an inch forward.

“I'm not sitting on your lap (Y/N) that's weird!” He argued back as he struggled to free himself from your vice-like grip.

“I don't get why you wouldn't want to Jungkook. (Y/N) has pretty amazing thighs. Imagine sitting on the worlds best pillows.” Yoongi spoke up from the doorway where he stood uninterested.

Jungkook whipped his head around to stare at him in shock as you blushed heavily under the not so obvious compliment.

“Hyung! You can't say that!” Jungkook growled out.

“Why not Jungkook? Her thighs are pretty nice. Maybe I should sit in (Y/N)’s lap instead of you.” Yoongi stepped forward with a glint in his eyes.

Something in Jungkook snapped as he stopped struggling and threw himself backward into your lap, making you both land unceremoniously on the couch behind you guys.

The rest of the boys laughed at the awkward position the two of you were in and left the room. Yoongi left last after giving the Maknae a thumbs up (to which Jungkook responded with another finger of his own).

“There I'm on your lap now! Happy?” Jungkook mumbled out.

“Yes!” You chirped back as you snuggled him.

“God (Y/N)’s thighs are really like the world’s best pillows…. Wait how would Yoongi know this?!” Jungkook blanched in anger.

“YOONGI!”

So I’m currently in Florida so updates may be few and far in between but I will try to get the ones I have finished posted! Also in Taehyung’s reaction here I hid a little thing. Whoever can guess the game I was talking about gets a shout out when I post my next reaction later! Sorry some are long and some are short but once I’m on a roll I can’t stop haha. Let me know what you guys think of this please! I hope you’re all having a wonderful day/evening/night!

-Admin Rhi