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psychiatricwarfare · 1 year ago

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i wish i could know everything. like, sure, it might break my brain but im just so curious about everything and how everything works down to mircoscopic and macroscopic levels. i want to know the history of every culture, every historical figure, every poet, everyone whos ever made a footprint in the sand. i want to understand the combination of chemicals and electric pulses throughout a brain that make up what a consciousness is and what it means to be a self aware animal. i want to dive into a black hole and come back unscathed. i want to die and come back. i want to feel everything and learn everything there is to possibly know. i want to understand the secrets of the universe and i will never have enough time. i will never be able to know absolutely everything and it kills me. i just want to understand

#bug talks #bug rants #i guess learning to crochet will have to do for now #npd #actually npd #npd safe #autism #actually autistic #this is what happens when you spend ur entire life incredibly existential #like my first memory was an existential crisis :-/#constantly asking myself 'who am i?' n 'why am i me and not someone else?'#etc and so forth #my most clear memories growing up i think are my daydreams and/or playing pretend w myself #and my laying awake at night wondering why everything is the way that it is #i was a natural born greek philosopher ig #little 5 year old me staring at the ceiling with bloodshot eyes thinking #'so if i can prove im me because i can see out of my eyes but i-#'-cant prove anyone else is real bc i cant see outta their eyes.. and idk if they have thoughts..'#like why #why did i do this #i still do this #and it makes me dissociate

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