#i want to work in classrooms and i want to be professionally addressed as my chosen name is that so hard? apparently yes

[egoborderline]

I don't know how much longer I can work at a Christian university before I lose my fucking mind completely I have got to get the FUCK out of here bro

[uponsometrainyard]

need a name change by july call that #expensive

[eybefioro]

Weekly fic rec, by yours truly...

Especial edition: BELOVED WIPS!

Hm. I should probably take out the "weekly" part of my fic recs lol I haven't been able to keep it weekly. The recs actually take a fair amount of time and mental space because I enjoy going in depth in what I feel/think, and these past few weeks have been 💫chaotic💫. But alas. I still want to share fic recs. Maybe I'll call them random fic recs or something. I'll see.

Anyways. Until now, I haven't recommended many longer fics (I have trouble being succinct and on point with fics, I ramble a lot. With longer ones it's even worse... how could I fit in a few paragraphs the experience when there's so MUCH to talk about?) and WIPs which is a crime. So this time I will rec 3 WIPs I'm following!! You have a 100% chance of finding me screaming in the comments of these works, bc they're truly marvelous!

Drive me to the moon by CaptainBlou and Elenthya

Rated E, ~23k words (for now!)

My tags: captivating, sweet, emotional

Summary:

At GOMENS, world-renowned sports brand and sponsor, one takes pride in endorsing the UK’s most talented athletes. On the other hand, one would like to ignore the fact that their two top of the bill, Aziraphale and Crowley, have heartily hated each other since the day they met. But what should be expected, when one knows these two? Aziraphale is a professional dancer, Crowley a rally driver. While the former switches between fierce competitions and prestigious stages, the other goes from one track to another across the world, clearing out every prize from behind the wheel of his racing car. Two beings, two worlds, two universes that everything should keep apart. But an unprecedented charity event is getting set up at GOMENS, and quickly, their own athletes will have to compete with and assist each other in turns. Two worlds, two personalities. But if they want to run for a cause that matters to the both of them, Crowley and Aziraphale are going to have to find an Arrangement.

THIS FIC. HAS ME ON CHOKEHOLD. I love it so much. I'm loving to read Crowley and Aziraphale finding eachother because they want to win a race. I didn't know I needed racer!crowley in my life, but I needed it. And the fact that they're nb speaks to me on another level. It is good to read a nb character being a loved, successful, and charismatic racer. And that doesn't mean they don't go through shit, and @captainblou addresses it wonderfully. And dancer!Aziraphale is so... amazing and human, honestly. I love the conflict he has between his craft/skills and his own perception of self. How he puts effort into being confident and brave despite his own hangups. Look, Blou's writing is a joy. It is really so good and emotional, and - I will stop now, JUST GO READ IT AND YOU'LL UNDERSTAND. The characters feel real and alive. Also!!! ALSO I CANT FORGET. THIS FIC HAS ILLUSTRATIONS BY THE AMAZING @searchingforakeythatdoesntexist . Her art is so good 😭😭😭 I can't begin to describe it.

Love As A Hallway And Several Novelty Mugs by holyflyingswisscheese

Rated T, ~25k words (for now!)

My tags: funny, light and sweet

Summary:

“You’re not…” Aziraphale trailed off warily, glancing at the hallway behind Crowley. Crowley nodded in grim confirmation. “E-33. Just next door,” he said with a sigh, motioning to his classroom a few paces down the hallway. “We’re fucking neighbours.” ... Science Teacher Crowley and English Teacher Aziraphale have hated each other for years, kept sane only by the distance separating Aziraphale's English classroom from Crowley's lab. When all that is undone because of renovations in the Science block, Crowley ends up placed right next to Aziraphale for the upcoming school year. What will it take to shatter the reasons behind their resentment and make them realise just how wrong they've been about each other?

I love @howmanyholesinswisscheese writing so much. The way he describes the feelings, the ambience, the setting is so lively, heartfelt. He says he doesn't write poetry, but he goes poetic so FAST. There's a paragraph in chapter 5 about Aziraphale's crow feet and laughter that just... is so beautiful. And this fic is so funny!!! I love how they bicker and are reluctant to share space but end up finding middle ground. How Aziraphale really tries to extend an olive branch and succeeds... how their friendship blossoms. It's such a good read, and so light and fluffy. I love it sm.

Sky Clear Blue by klikandtuna

Rated E, ~23k words (for now!)

My tags: enchanting, curious, emotional

Summary:

The collaborative brainchild of myself and @suzypfonne! This human AU features time travel/fuckery, neurodivergent Tenth-Doctor-coded Crowley, closeted Regency-era Aziraphale, lots of familiar faces, humor, angst, and FUN (both innocent and steamy). Join me on a new adventure! New chapters will be posted every Tuesday and Friday! (No, really. I promise.) Cover art by me 💛 (The Dream Team is back — myself writing, @suzypfonne beta-reading, and @sparkyshinymagpie coding the social-media conversations)

The first fic I've read of @klikandtuna was find the light (a recently finished wip! So double rec!) and it was delightful – such a hopeful story! So I was super excited to this one and let me tell you... it is so AMAZING. Really. The descriptions are magical, the concept is so interesting. I'm so curious to see we're this is going! I love how colourful Crowley is in this (as the author said to me, he has a lot from starmaker!crowley) while still being Crowley... and Aziraphale is caught in so many conflicts. Gosh I am so excited for the next chapters. Go read it!!!

These fics have been a source of joy for me 💛 reading them one chapter at time for some reason makes them even more special in my heart.

[missmilliegojo]

Ai No Saikyou

Prologue

A Jujutsu Kaisen Fanfiction (Gojo X OC)

Warnings -> SPOILERS for Jujutsu Kaisen 0

TOKYO, NOVEMBER 2016

The short heels of Millie's combat boots echo down the hallway as she makes her way to the first-year classroom. It's been years since her enrollment at Jujutsu High as a student, but the dim, depressing hallways haven't changed. They still sent shivers down her spine as if something lurked in the shadows, as if death was waiting around the next corner to swallow her whole. Though, really, that's not too different from her everyday life. Or what used to be her everyday life, anyway.

Coming to a stop outside the classroom, Millie takes in a deep breath before knocking on the door. The pamphlets in her hands suddenly feel heavy, anxiety squeezing her heart like a stress ball.

'This is so silly.' She thought to herself, tugging on the hem of her blouse. Was she dressed professionally enough? 'I used to exorcise curses for a living, and I'm nervous about addressing a classroom full of teenagers?'

The door slides open, and although she expected the man on the other side, the sight of him still made her breath hitch. Tall and handsome, dressed in black, fluffy white hair on his head and eyes hidden behind a blindfold made of white bandages, Satoru Gojo holds the crown for the most attractive man she's ever seen. Her heart leaps, but that's as far as it gets before she beats the emotion down.

Professional. For the sake of her job, she has to remain professional.

Satoru's lips curl into a massive grin, flashing his pearly white, perfectly aligned teeth. "It's my lovely wife!"

A chorus of groans spills from inside the classroom.

"Satoru." Millie scolds, narrowing her gaze. "We talked about this."

His grin drops, lower lip pushing into a pout. "But, honeyyyyy..."

Pushing past him, Millie flashes her kindest smile at the single row of students that made up the first-year class. Given how rare jujutsu sorcerers are, classes are, normally, rather small.

"Good morning, everyone. Pardon the interruption." Setting the pamphlets down on the corner of her husband's desk, Millie sets her undivided attention on the students: a platinum blond boy, a green haired girl, and a panda. "For the sake of formalities, allow me to re-introduce myself. I'm Millie Gojo, and as of today, I will be Jujutsu High's official guidance counselor."

So far, it seems to be going well. Maki Zen’in appears disinterested, Toge Inumaki is a more difficult character to read, given that only the top half of his face is visible, and Panda was leaning forward in his seat with a smile. In character for all three teenagers.

Seeing them this way shot a boost of confidence into Millie's system. "It's no secret that jujutsu sorcerers experience a lot of trauma in their line of work, and there aren't many resources available to help sorcerers process and work through their trauma. I want to change that. Speaking from my own experience, our mental health can only be put on the back burner for so long before it starts to catch up to us. Treating it sooner rather than later could mean all the difference in your survival."

Her words aren't as sugary as another counselors may have been, but Millie isn't just any counselor. She's a counselor for jujutsu sorcerers, children and adults who put their lives on the line to exorcise curses in hopes of a safer future. These people witness gruesome scenes, have watched friends and partners die, have lost parts of themselves to the job. It's terrifying work, and that's why she doesn't believe in sugarcoating. These kids already know what they've signed themselves up for, so why hide it behind pretty words? They know the truth of this world, and they'll be more trusting if she respects that.

"My office is located in the same hallway as the teacher's longue, the last room on the end. I'll be here Monday through Friday, from nine to five. I will also be working electronically with our sister school in Kyoto. If you would like to speak with me, you're welcome to swing by, or you can submit an appointment request through the mailbox outside my office. There is also a whiteboard that will display my availability throughout the week should you wish to book an appointment in advance. Everything we discuss will be confidential, however, safety is also my responsibility. Should a student show signs of being a danger to themselves or others, it is my duty to report it to Principal Yaga and your teacher. Any questions?"

Panda raises a paw. "Do you accept cursed corpses?"

Millie's smile brightens. "Every kind of sorcerer is welcome in my office, Panda."

Inumaki also raises a hand. "Mustard leaf?"

"I'm sure we can find an effective communication method that will work for you, Inumkai."

"I have a question!" Satoru exclaims from where he had been leaning against the wall, watching his wife give her speech. "Are you by chance open to faculty?"

Millie knows her husband too well to miss the playful notes dancing in his tone. She straightens and offers him an I'm-going-to-withhold-your-dessert-if-you-don't-knock-it-off smile. "Staff members are welcome to visit me, so long as they take our session seriously, Gojo."

The man gasps, sputtering as his hand flies over his wounded heart. "G-G-G-Gojo?!"

Ignoring his antics, Millie turns back to the students. "Thank you for your time and attention this morning, everyone. I'm looking forward to assisting you."

Millie slips out of the classroom and pats herself on the back. One class down, two more in-person and three more virtual speeches to go.

Hues of gold and orange shine into the cozy office through the open window, bringing with it a gentle breeze that makes the curtains sway. Millie soaks in the feel of her office again, wondering for the thousandth time if it was a calming enough environment for anyone who came by to speak with her. She repainted the depressing walls to a light beige that brought some brightness to the room. Potted plants filled each corner, a long comfy couch placed in the middle of the room with a matching chair across from it, a low set glass coffee table and a floral rug placed between the two. Her desk and a small bookshelf were set close to the far wall, a clock mounted above them to help her keep track of time The last thing she wants to do is rush anyone who came to see her, but she also has to make sure to be on time for others who request her help.

The end of her first day is almost upon her, and every meeting she had went better than she thought it would. Introducing mental health to jujutsu sorcerers, teenagers at that, was going to take time. No one has made an appointment with her yet, but Millie knows that these things can't be forced. When they're ready, they'll come to her, and she'll welcome them warmly.

A knock on the door catches Millie by surprise. Her day would be over in about thirty minutes, but if someone has come to talk to her, then she would stay late without question.

A sense of urgency has her rising from her desk and rushing to the door. She calmly slides it open, and the person on the other side both surprises her and doesn't. "Satoru?"

He's slouched over, that same pout from earlier still stuck on his face. "I don't think my wife loves me anymore."

Resisting the urge to sigh, Millie steps aside to let him in. She watches her husband flop down onto the couch before taking a seat across from him, crossing one leg over the other. "What makes you feel that way, Satoru?"

The man sniffles. "She hasn't kissed me since this morning, and she called me Gojo. Can you believe that? It's like I'm a stranger to her all of a sudden!"

Usually, this teasing behavior struck a cord of laughter in her. However, she's on the clock, and even if her husband is fooling around, she'd go about this as if he were anyone else. "Satoru, have you considered that maybe your wife loves you so much, she has to act professionally during school hours to spare herself from getting into trouble?"

His sniffles stop. "Do you really think so?"

"I do."

Suddenly, Satoru is kneeling before her with his head in her lap, his long arms wrapped around her waist in an embrace. "Oh, my love! I'll never doubt you again!"

This time, Millie can't help but sigh. Still, she smiles and rans a hand through his soft hair. "I love you, Satoru."

"I know." He looks up at her with a cocky grin. "I just wanted to hear you say it."

Playfully, she shakes her head. "You are so- mmm."

Satoru's sudden kiss swallows the rest of her words. Giggling against his lips, Millie cups his head between her hands and returns the loving gesture. The aquamarine stone on her left ring finger, held in place by a silver band, catches the golden light beautifully.

Millie suddenly remembers that they're in her office and tilts her chin up, laughing at the needy whine her husband lets out. "You can have more kisses at home. We promised Yaga he wouldn't catch us making out on campus again."

Despite the bandages covering his brows, Millie could tell he was wiggling them. "There are some spots he never found out about. We can go back to one of those."

"Yeah, no." She gently pushes his forehead. "I'm not trying to get fired my first day on the job."

Her husband grins, but this one is different from the one he showed her before. It's not as carefree, and the air around them suddenly gets a little heavier. "Speaking of your first day on the job, there's someone who could really use your help, sweets."

An invisible hand squeezes her heart like a stress ball. For as long as she's known him, Satoru Gojo has shouldered the burdens of their world on his own two shoulders. Despite being together for nine years, six of which as a married couple, it's still a rare occurrence for him to request aid on anything related to jujutsu. Satoru Gojo, after all, is the strongest.

Millie took his large hand in both of hers, giving it a squeeze. "What can I do?"

Millie Gojo retired from combat three years ago, but for her husband and the students she's come to love as her own, she'd go to war.

Masterlist

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[superconductivebean]

#1428

having replayed the high keep and the lost child reminded me of the parallels between natty and sebastian as characters. they are both impulsive and pushy about their respective narratives of dealing with the poachers and curing a curse

accidentally wrote a wall of text im sorry

either story deals with mindless approach to revenge as a way of dealing or coping with a trauma under the lights of the bigger, common narrative of Not Everyone Is What They Seem. i want to address that people tend to criticise characters for their handlings of their respective situations.

natty is easier to criticise—her quests are investigatory in nature. it's relatively simple for me to see the flaws in her arguments and overall reasoning (criminology and scene reading are my minor interests). from the hindsight, i know that archie was kidnapped and that victor hunts down rare treasures, but natty really doesn't have a compelling argument. any sort of investigation requires an amount of evidence—some of which must be substantial or present as substantial. you can't just say He Did This; an assessment must be done, everything should be looked at and analysed; running with a single explanation may lead to problems due to misinterpretations and worse, biases. this is the reason a working police unit may take a while to build the case; not everything counts as evidence, something may count for an additional case's evidence, and so on.

aka we cant really say archie's hideout was really ravaged by the ashwinders—the trail of steps going away from the tent doesn't belong to a running boy. the stark difference between the first chain of trails and the latter hints that archie had been followed until he reached the fork on the road where the pursuit had really ensued. that little detail—to which mc is oblivious somehow—could've been used to warn mc and natty that a trap could awaited ahead.

my scene reading of the place: the ashwinders came to the empty tent (judging by the muddy prints nearby). if you'd come to this locale early, the tend is already trashed; nothing is taken from it. so, the ashwinders came, then realised the boy wasn't there, and being professional trackers, followed him from behind to the fork. i also tend to think this because archie's satchel doesn't really look as if it had been abandoned; if anything, it looks like it had been carefully placed on the tree. thrown belongings usually land on the ground—and in the game next door, the witchеr 3, to empathise the hurry, the belongings are usually scattered about the place.

dont get me wrong, i don't have problems with 15yos being oblivious. they're not trained professionals, and even Trained ProfessionalsTM fail spectacularly as if they went to school only to skip every single class and to part with any common sense.

but i do have problems with the game 1) dumbify a character who is usually aware of their surroundings aka mc isn't as breadloafy 2) not playing around natty's luck by killing off more characters, creating serious problems for her, or mentioning her spying as a gazelle isn't the brightest idea in the scottish highlands.

curiously, the game isn't really unaware of the bias's influence.

when sharp says that rookwood-ranrok alliance is inconceivable, he falls for that bias trap. he has reasons to have that bias, yes—but as an auror, he can't have it when presented a lead by someone who perhaps knows more. it hints aesop also has a bias against fig—which isn't really all that enticing. as we know, aesop had a terrible miscalculation once, and he had nearly fallen for that mindset again.

all of this, however, does work for the aforementioned narrative. you see, aside from the game's lousy job, cleverness of natty's reserved for the classroom; out of the class, natty can very well mess up the case by not stopping for a second to think if her thought chain was welded correctly—or if her entire line of thinking is sound. take the high keep quest: you have an entire hogsmeade worth of evidence, local shopkeepers know the names of loyalists and ashwinders on the trade routes, but a piece of private correspondence will prove that harlow and rookwood are working together—so hear me out: that we know rookwood does illegal shit doesn't mean the legal code of the wizarding britain agrees with us or our ethics whatsoever, let alone it may count beasts as objects, therefore, to have legal action against rookwood, natty needs very substantial claims that may concern extortion, robbery, or breaching the statute of secrecy by smuggling illegal goods in and out of the country risking being seen by the muggles.

going back at aesop, he dealt in illegal trade. he was injured on the ship, and his partner died that day. poachers did risk being seen—so did the auror office by dispatching aurors to the site. then, we have a certain dinah hecat taken an entire ring in eastern wales. second half of the 1800s was an era of fast urban and rural development alike, people moved around lots, so the probability of something like that being spotted by the muggles was rather high. that being said, natty's letter argument was rather weak—there were more substantial claims and evidence left to be gathered than risking everything for a letter; it isnt to say they should had come, that quest was made to unlock highwing as a flying mount but still.

sebastian, at the other hand, has the narrative problems all the same.

a lot has been said about his obsessions, but my take on him is perhaps one of the most harsh: he doesn't have a fundamental understanding of how curses work—nor the game does a good job explaining if the lack of care for anne was the consequence of the current political climate.

if sebastian mentioned the wanded goblin to the healers, well. we already have sharp—a former but a well-respected, experienced auror—who'd say that is an inconceivable idea as well; its implications are also play into ranrok's favour a tad too much for his liking i imagine.

sebastian's claim is weak and unsupported, he has nothing to back it up with besides his detest for the goblinkind, which seems to fuel his every further claim. not to mention sebastian insists on his vision of events being the most truthful; he doesn't take in other opinions very well unless you had proven him wrong with something substantial.

by the end of the game we do not even know if the wand cast had taken place or not at all because rookwood saying something at the scene does not mean he casted the spell. it is what mc had assumed—as they are prone to do (for example, after coming back from the book's memories, mc skipped the part of only percival and isidora being wyrds in their recollection; instead, they claimed all keepers wielded ancient magic—which, again, wasn't true).

so you see the picture: we have a an unstoppable locomotive of thoughts that will crush your every bone because he thinks he is right and correct and has all the moral high horses to think and act the way he does—but dare you disagree or criticise or attempt to stop him for a short while, unless you have groundbreaking evidence for your own objection, you will be spoken to in insults and condescending attitudes.

the game doesn't attempt at presenting sebastian with the most shattering challenge on his journey to despair: his supposed friends' regrets, disagreements, arguments and in the end, rejection. his story also doesn't align well with the narrative: from the very first day, sebastian constantly hooks mc's curiosity and says he agreed to keep them company because it'd mean no detention or that he'd gain something from their acquaintanceship. he gets under the skin quite soon into the plot to consider him not being not who he really is: his uncle's nephew, a sprout of a vine that perhaps looks pretty but will tear down the wall that houses it. danger is immanent within him; there is no expectation play, only the depth meter for his detest. [*]

in contrast to natty, i'd say it works though. if we add poppy to the revenge show, you'll have three ways of how such a strong ideation can work out or be tackled, a triptych of sorts.

within the main narrative though, sebastian's story is not so much.

[*] — I must add: his plotline in terms of depicting what abuse can do to people in terms of screwing up their minds and perceptions and moods is done alright. Sebastian is weak and helpless, and he knows it, and it angers him to no end—and I'd call his story an utter fairy tale if he wouldn't act out so violently after hitting the Solomon's walls. It isn't Sebastian being fifteen and throwing a fit; it's Sebastian looking at his world shattering before his eyes and receiving only the most cruel answers: to keep together a wound burst open and splattering blood around without anybody's help and that it's his business not to die—very family much support, isn't it. By the time he casts Imperio, he crosses the last point of no return. I might get very personal going forward; I've seen and experienced lots of anger and hate in life to take any downplays or justifications of Sebastian's urges and actions. So I end this addition here.

[mapoyaj]

The recent events of my life are not a battle of self-esteem, love, and belongingness. It was a battle of passion and practicality. In life as a working individual, I gained self-actualization. I intend to do what my heart truly desires – that is, to be a psychologist. I loved teaching, don’t get me wrong… but psychology was my first love. I decided to leave teaching for a while to focus on reviewing for the board exams while taking up professional teaching certification. But I will go back to teaching. I just have a gut feeling. And I went back to teaching after focusing on what I intend to do. A needs assessment is an important but often neglected process of education. It is a systematic approach to understanding the state of knowledge, attitudes, and abilities of a group of audiences ( McCawley, 2009). As a teacher, I learned from my teachers. I use needs assessment methods to analyze what my students need. I start my lessons with pre-tests or pre-lesson questions to analyze their topic knowledge. This helps me plan how to facilitate the lesson and improve the teaching-learning process. But… this was just a simple need assessment. As a teacher, I want to create a systematic needs assessment for a whole program. This will give me an insight on how to improve the teaching-learning process from teachers to the institution itself. The needs assessment should always be a part of the institutional process. It gives the students a platform to voice their concerns. It gives the teachers the knowledge on the improvements they shall make in teaching and classroom management. It provides the institution with the knowledge on the improvement of policies and management. However, the value of needs assessment should be prioritized for students. Students are the ones who need guidance the most. Like how my teachers catered to my needs when I was young, I am bound to cater to their learning needs. Institutional goals are also important, but once you improve how you teach students, all else will follow. When I was younger, I didn’t realize the value of my needs. As I grew older and wiser, I realized that we need to address our needs, our students’ needs, and those of the people who rely on us.

[education-nation]

Self-Reflection - Final Word · June 12, 2024.

As educators, it is important for us to be self-reflective. With that said, there was a lot I learned in my teacher preparation program, and there was a lot I learned about myself regarding my process of learning, challenges, and what I will carry with me in my career. I'll detail some of what I learned below:

Organization. I am someone who definitely needs his own system, staying organized and flexible. Throughout undergrad, I often tried keeping a planner with deadlines and set times as to when I would work on things. However, I was "on" and "off" with it - more often keeping things in memory and saying to myself, "Yeah, I'll work on that Thursday and have it done by Sunday the latest." However, this did not work in grad school and I needed to write stuff down in a highly accessible place that I could check-in to every day. Keeping a planner, spacing assignments out, saved me and my grades. Furthermore, everything needed it's own binder or notebook, labeled too. When one binder is too cluttered, I find that so is my mind. It's high maintenance, but it's what works and this means of organization, along with the planner, is definitely something I will be keeping in my teaching practice. For example, I may have a binder for lesson plans, a binder for assessments, incomplete or late work, feedback, etc... etc...

Breaks. As a grad student, I found myself in constant need of taking breaks. Mental health days, or other means of taking care of myself. As educators, burnout is very real and we need to make sure that we're taking care of our physical and mental health. If we're not, then we can't possibly be effective practitioners. Therefore, I "chunk" my own work as I would when making accommodations for a student. I'll dedicate one or two hours to something, break, then proceed, break, then proceed. Of course, it is important to keep with a pace that will help me meet all my deadlines! Time management is key.

Time Management. I know I just mentioned this, but I wanted to include it as its own point because there's more to it. I found that it was absolutely necessary to give myself a cut-off, not spending too much time working on one task to the detriment of others. I needed to make sure that I was giving everything a fair amount of time, often kicking aside my perfectionist-self. As an educator, I am going to have to be content with what I am able to do within the time frame that I am given so as long as I know I tried my best and did everything that I possibly could to be successful without it taking away from other things. For example, there may be a time where each student is only afford 2-3 minutes conferences in a classroom of 20-30 kids. Or perhaps written feedback will be reserved for what is necessary, just to make sure that I am addressing every student fairly.

This is a separate list, but here are a few things I plan to carry with me in my teaching career that I picked up from UB:

Textbooks for professional development. Keeping up to date with the latest research and practices.

Lesson plan templates. While I understand that not many districts require full lesson plans, these templates are great way for teachers (such as myself) to organize thinking.

KWL, Cornell notes, think alouds, graphic organizers, storyboards, blogs, journals, etc... etc...

A quick note on journals:

As an English teacher, I loved the idea of journal prompts. They're a great way for students to voice their thoughts, feelings, and emotions while engaging them with a writing process. They can also be used to connect students back to the literature and the concepts and skills they're learning. However, I learned how it is absolutely critical to afford time in reading each and everyone. During my Fall semester at UB, a professor reminded the class that teachers are mandated reporters. Students often use journal entries to talk about very personal and traumatic things. While, as teachers, we want to establish that line of trust with our students we also have to walk a fine line, especially if a student discloses something that is harmful to them or anyone else. As a teacher, I will of course take this very seriously while giving my learners the time and space to write about the things they want to write about.

Best,

Anthony

[inkedandtears]

in the middle of a career crisis

still can't afford therapy so i asked chatgpt for advice:

It sounds like you are at a crossroads, with a mix of stable satisfaction in your current role and a strong desire to pursue other dreams. Here are a few steps and considerations to help you navigate this situation:

Assess Your Current Situation

Current Job Satisfaction: While you mention that you don't want to teach children, consider what aspects of your current job you do enjoy. This can help you identify transferable skills and interests. RE: I do enjoy making the classroom materials. It's tedious but fulfilling. It is a reminder that I am working to ensure my students get enough practice and attention they need to excel in school. Learning/education centers address this certain gap that schoolteachers aren't able to accommodate as they have more than 60 kids to teach in a day. I should remind myself of this value because I love to work in education. The end goal is to teach at a university, but I will stick this job out for the 1-year full-time teaching experience. The content development and editing experience is pretty handy as well!

Teaching in University: Reflect on why you want to be a professor of postcolonial literature. Is it the subject matter, the research opportunities, the adult student interactions, or the academic environment that appeals to you? The academic environment comes first, and my interest in postcolonial issues such as migration comes second. I love to read and discuss books – I want to change the world through literature. I still have my vision of ensuring local schools in Hong Kong have access to a wide variety of literatures from all cultures, to exercise their open-mindedness in a city that boasts its international cultue. That does not reflect well from the kids, so it is imperative we start in their classrooms. Little ways to elimate racism and ignorance, and to build a much more welcoming and safe society.

Exploring Academic Career in Literature

Qualifications and Experience: To teach at the university level, you typically need a Ph.D. in your field. Consider if you are willing to commit to this long-term academic journey, including potential research, publications, and teaching assistantships. Yes! I'm keen. Taking my MA at FSU is the next to achieving this goal. :)

Networking and Mentorship: Reach out to professors or professionals in the field of postcolonial literature. They can provide valuable insights into the realities of an academic career and offer guidance on how to pursue this path. UP Diliman conference on July 10, 2024! I hope to meet people in the Philippines I can stay in contact with.

Exploring Marine Biology

Educational Path: Research what qualifications are needed to become a marine biologist. This usually involves a degree in marine biology or a related field, and possibly a master's or Ph.D. for research positions. Exactly. I can't. The only answer is to work at a local secondary school, or university, and go on lengthy marine adventures on my holidays. That's it. And be a marine biologist when I retire.

Passion and Skills: Reflect on what drew you to marine biology as a child. Consider participating in marine biology courses, workshops, or volunteer opportunities to get a taste of the field and see if it reignites your passion.

Job Opportunities and Lifestyle: Research the job market and lifestyle associated with marine biology. This can include fieldwork, lab work, travel, and possibly relocating. Ensure this aligns with your personal and professional goals.

Making a Decision

Short-Term and Long-Term Goals: Write down your short-term and long-term goals for both career paths. This can help you visualize the steps needed and the time commitment for each option.

Financial and Personal Considerations: Consider the financial implications of switching careers, including the cost of further education and potential changes in income. Also, think about your personal life and how each career aligns with your values and lifestyle preferences.

Professional Advice: Consider speaking with a career counselor. They can provide personalized guidance and help you explore your options in a structured manner.

Experiment and Explore

Side Projects: Start small by engaging in side projects related to your interests. This could be writing research papers on postcolonial literature, taking online courses in marine biology, or volunteering in relevant projects. Volunteering for Marine Conservation Philippines! I get field and lab experience, as well as PADI certifications. So worth it. Just need to save up.

Informational Interviews: Conduct informational interviews with professionals in both fields. This can give you a realistic view of day-to-day responsibilities and future prospects.

Making a career change, especially one as significant as from teaching literature to marine biology, requires careful planning and self-reflection. Taking small steps towards both paths can help you make an informed decision without feeling overwhelmed.

[mileanecdote]

"Digital Learning : Exposing Online Educational Platforms"

Hello lilits welcome to my first ever blog. This blog is all about the other side of the online world. I will unpack a website that contains educational purposes. Enjoy reading lilits.

1.https://www.commonsensemedia.org/

INFORMATION FOUND:

(CSM) is on e of the primary source of entertainment in online world for school and family. In this 21st century this platform helps the parents to navigate the online world with their children. Together with policymakers, industry leaders, and global media partners, we're building a digital world that works better for all kids, their families, and their communities. Common sense is divided into two the common sense media and the common sense education supports K–12 schools with everything educators need to empower the next generation of digital citizens.

HOW WILL I USE THIS INFORMATION:

As a future educator, it is not hard for me to select educational materials that will align with my student's developmental stages and interests while ensuring their safety and appropriateness. Also, the parent's guide information will be a great help for me to give positive reinforcement as well as negative reinforcement to my students someday. With its community engagement features, I can also benefit from shared experiences from different shared thoughts and materials from different material work of life of the educators .

2.https://www.educationworld.com/a_lesson/lesson-plan-booster/cyber-ethics.shtml

INFORMATION FOUND:

The information provided how this generation and we students will behave in the internet space following the rules and regulations mentioned in the text above. This site also emphasizes the pivotal role of cyber ethics and appropriate online conduct, which includes resources to teach youth netiquette and tactics to combat cyberbullying

HOW WILL I USE THIS INFORMATION:

I want to make my students realize in my students that they are the future of our nation and should be mindful of their actions before clicking the button, I will use this knowledge to inform my tactics as a future teacher and encourage them to exercise responsible digital citizenship. As a result, I want to address these issues as a future leader and offer my pupils the tools they need to use the internet responsibly.

 

3.https://sharemylesson.com/

INFORMATION FOUND:

I learned that the American Federation of Teachers, Share My Lesson is a community of teachers, Developed by educators where teachers, students parents can collaborate, and inspire everyone. It has also a site that provides a wide choices, resources of high-quality resources for educators.

HOW WILL I USE THIS INFORMATION:

As a teacher, I will maximize resources that are accessible to all to create effective lesson plans and creative, innovative, and motivating strategies for my student .. I can also share ideas, get advice, and get inspiration from my co-educators from their experiences in the field of the digital world as a tool for teaching other educators. Nonetheless, this will help me build a supportive social media presence that will support my continuous professional development and significance as a teacher in a classroom.

[cynicaldesire]

Had a bit of a hard week.

So, at my job, I'm a tutor for the programming department. I got my Associate's in 2014 but I haven't had to keep up with programming ever since. Which ended up being fine because the only people seeking tutoring were in the intro to programming class that doesn't (shouldn't) use a real coding language. It's just all the concepts and stuff.

My boss asked me to screen record myself doing the assignments in the end-level course for his preferred language and I've been putting it off because I have no clue where to start. I haven't used this language in 10 years, and they're doing stuff I don't remember ever actually doing/working with. So I've been trying to figure out how to study it between everything else.

Everything else is all the bookings I have to tutoring sessions. I have removed availability for half of one of the 3 days that I work and the other half is completely full most of the time. This is on top of getting almost fully booked on the full days that I work. I'm busy and despite getting a second tutor in the form of a Federal Work Study student, people are still coming to me.

This is on top of all the other odds and ends I do around the office, helping people find classrooms, directing them to tutors, helping the admin assistant with things from time to time (personal and professional), helping coworkers with stuff, and even being one of two admins of the booking system itself (which comes with its own set of responsibilities).

And, you know, being a full-time student.

So I keep thinking I have time to work on the stuff that my boss is asking me to do, but when I do, I usually default to working on my homework for my learn!school instead. So my boss keeps asking WHERE ARE MY VIDEOS and I have to tell him, dude I'm busy and I'm not about to work on this at home. (I'm not supposed to work from home or whatever.)

Then my husband came to visit for Spring Break (his, not mine), and I was gonna work on my boss's homework. But then my husband bought a new game to play (FF7 Rebirth) and I had to watch it. Then I had a flat tire and the other car I had access to had a faulty electrical system so I couldn't go to work. So I went to work only 1 day that week. (I took off the day my husband came into town.)

I went back and I was SWAMPED with people talking to me, asking questions, booking me for tutoring sessions. It was BONKERS how busy I was. Then my husband left and one of my niece's significant others came into town. This was frustrating for me because I'm incredibly shy and they're trans and so I was afraid of misgendering, so I tried not to address them at all. But they're also shy, so they didn't wanna talk either. And then my niece refused to tell me anything about the visit, so I had to keep being confused at different intervals. -I thought they drove? -No they got dropped off. -Well I thought they were leaving on Sunday? - No, Monday morning. -You still haven't done like 6 essays in one of your classes. -I'll do it! (Did not.)

And then at the usual Saturday Family Dinner, people kept ignoring me. People asked me questions directly and then stopped listening to me halfway through. My mom especially kept getting distracted by the stupidest shit in the middle of me talking. I had to retell a story like 5 times before I finally gave up.

Then my husband was having a problem with another video game he tried to buy. His online order got cancelled. He got the points he used for a coupon refunded, then he bought it again and they shipped it to the wrong address. Not sure why that address was still there, set as default. Then he drove over there to pick it up and in the package wasn't the game he even ordered. So he went to a physical location and returned the game and just bought the one he wanted in person.

It wasn't until I was able to talk to my husband Saturday night that I was able to get any of my anxiety out. That I realized just how much anxiety I had. A lot of it was stressing out about finishing the game. A lot of it was about the stranger coming to the house right after he left. A lot of it was about being so busy at work, staying late, finishing the game, getting up to take him to the airport, coming home to take my niece to school, getting gas, coming home to get ready for work, having another busy day, then having to take my niece to work with me and navigate the stranger and my niece at work while also tutoring. And then going to dinner and being super ignored.

And my husband went back to some problems in his house and that made it so I couldn't talk to him until Saturday night. I got some of my stress out, able to finally spend a good time with my husband, things calmed down, etc.

Now I can work on that stuff for my boss. After all this other stuff I gotta do for my learn school.

[mcolliearts246-04]

Course Reflection

This Typography course provided a comprehensive exploration of fundamental graphic design concepts, emphasizing formal elements and utilizing both traditional and modern digital applications. The curriculum covered essential principles of visual communication, image development, and included diverse assignments ranging from experimental projects to a personalized logo assignment.

Looking into the future, I aspire to pursue a career in sports design at either a university or a professional program after graduation. The course significantly enhanced my understanding of typography, revealing its impactful role in my design work. Despite its seemingly long timeline, my favorite assignment was the logo rebrand, showcasing the practical application of learned concepts I can use for the field I want to go in.

I want to express my deep appreciation to Professor Khalili. You have been not only an excellent teacher but also an inspiring figure in my artistic journey. Your approach, balancing kindness with the necessary level of strictness, helped me stay focused on assignments even when mental health struggles seemed to get in the way of everything for me. Your comment on the first day of class, addressing a student who was falling asleep, set the tone for my respect, love, and enjoyable learning experience with you. I knew from the first class how much I was gonna benefit from your bold personality.

Throughout my three years at Clemson and this semester at USC, your influence has been the most unforgettable to me. Your honesty and constructive critiques not only humbled me but also highlighted the untapped potential I was lacking from laziness. While other students may share similar sentiments to you, I want you to know that you played a huge role in reigniting my passion for design when I was battling with mental health challenges and uncertain about my academic path after transitioning from Clemson.

I am sincerely grateful for your guidance and the positive impact you've had on me. As I move forward, I will carry the lessons learned and the renewed love for design into my future endeavors in sports design. Thank you for being an inspirational mentor and contributing to my growth in ways that extend beyond the classroom.

[rottenappleusach]

Honorary Mention:

“Chile, Where do we go now?” by Marina Vargas González

Have you ever found yourself wishing to bring something from the past to the present? Indeed, at a certain point, everybody has wanted to revive past events, things, or moments, but the question is whether this is worth it. Particularly, the poem Let America be America Again by the English writer Langston Hughes (1935) and my teaching motivation, made me reflect upon the past, present, and future of Chile.

In this retrospection, I remembered what my mother used to tell me about the past in Chile. Life, in general, was tough, especially for women who had fewer opportunities in every aspect of life. For instance, my mom always stresses the complexity of pursuing university studies. Furthermore, families in the past gave a prevalent role to the work of men only. When I hear my mother tell me these things, I feel glad not to have been part of that generation. I say this because today everybody has chances to study, men’s work and time is equally important as women’s, education is more inclusive and the spread and access to communication is faster. Now, as a future teacher and making the connection with a movie I recently watched by a Lebanese filmmaker, the question is what is next or ‘where do we go’ from here. From my point of view, there are three things that I yearn for in the future. 

More supportive families are the first element that I would like to see in future generations. Before moving on, it is important to note that the concept of family will be understood as a person or people who are responsible for and take care of another person. I claim this because as a pedagogy student I see the importance of the family in the students’ lives. A clear example of this is the saying that, in the past

I did not quite understand, states that education ‘comes from home’. If parents disrespect teachers at home, students will do the same in the classroom.

Consequently, acknowledging teachers’ work and supporting their pupils from home will make an important difference in the education of Chile.

I also yearn for a second element for our country: free education. Every single teacher or teacher-to-be is delighted to see how solid public education is in other countries such as Finland, Germany and Denmark. Undoubtedly, as a future educator, I am in the right to wish the best for my potential students. In my view, free education in Chile could end up with the segregated society that characterizes

Chileans. For instance, there is a Chilean educational book published in 2013 titled

“Tell me the school you studied at, and I will tell you your IQ”. This is the clear example of the notorious educational gap today, and therefore, which I would like to change in the future.

A third element would be more counselling. Chile should invest more on students’ and educators' mental health so that we avoid problems that later nobody knows how to handle. When I mean more counselling, I am talking about more professionals or experts since right now this task relies on teachers. It is common knowledge that counselling is part of the academic program of a teaching or pedagogy course, yet it is not enough in the face of the difficulties that both teachers and students go through in a changing world. Thus, I would really like to find more specialized support in the near future in all educational institutions. 

To conclude, it is evident that Chile has progressed in several aspects in the past decades. The Chile of the past is marked by hardness, which is not useful to bring back. Nevertheless, that past is needed to understand the present. In my own experience, I value the things that make our life better such as opportunities and more equality, but I am also aware that there are immediate needs that must be addressed such as family support, free education, and counselling for the school community.  These improvements will definitely lead us where to go and make Chile a better place to live. 

[houseofedtech]

Office Hours: More Podcasting Q&A - HoET224

EdTech Thought (3:02)

The Power of Community for Educators: A community is much more than a mere group of individuals; it serves as a robust support system and a platform for shared experiences and ideas. Within a community, we can find solace and encouragement during challenging times while celebrating our triumphs together. The realization that we are not alone in our struggles, achievements, and aspirations becomes a profound source of motivation.

Building a Sanctuary for Educators: By actively building a community of educators, we create a sanctuary where knowledge is exchanged, best practices are shared, and innovative ideas are collaboratively developed. This nurturing environment becomes a wellspring of encouragement, inspiration, and the fuel that drives us to strive for excellence within our classrooms.

Benefits of Joining an Educator Community:

Knowledge Exchange: In a vibrant community, educators can tap into a vast pool of knowledge and expertise. By engaging in conversations and sharing insights, we can enhance our teaching methods, discover new approaches, and refine our craft.

Best Practices: Within the community, educators can share successful strategies, proven techniques, and effective classroom management skills. This collaboration allows us to learn from one another and adapt these best practices to suit our unique teaching contexts.

Collaboration and Innovation: An educator community provides a fertile ground for collaboration and innovation. By working together on projects, lesson plans, and educational initiatives, we can amplify our impact and create transformative experiences for our students.

Support and Encouragement: The challenges of being an educator can sometimes feel overwhelming. However, within a community, we find unwavering support and encouragement from like-minded professionals who understand our journey. This support system bolsters our resilience and empowers us to navigate through difficulties with renewed vigor.

EdTech Recommendation (8:24)

I want to introduce you to a powerful tool that is revolutionizing the way educators deliver presentations. ClassPoint is an innovative solution that seamlessly integrates with Microsoft PowerPoint, elevating your teaching experience to new heights. Let's explore how ClassPoint enhances your existing PowerPoint presentations and transforms them into dynamic and interactive learning experiences.

Transforming PowerPoint into a Dynamic Teaching Platform: ClassPoint elevates PowerPoint from a basic presentation tool to a dynamic teaching platform. By incorporating ClassPoint into your digital lessons, you can enhance student engagement, foster interactivity, and create memorable learning experiences. Take your teaching to the next level by giving ClassPoint a try and experience the transformative power it brings to your classroom. Share your feedback and let me know how it enhances your teaching. If you're already using ClassPoint, I would love to hear from you too!

Featured Content (10:29)

In today's world, podcasting is becoming an increasingly influential tool in many educational settings. We delve deep into this topic, particularly the benefits of podcasting in schools.

This episode explores how podcasting contributes to students' development and growth in various subjects, boosting their communication and social skills. Whether you're based in Brazil like my listener Leo Calbusch, in Pennsylvania like Mike Brilla, or anywhere else in the world, this episode provides insightful answers to critical questions on the role of podcasting in enhancing student engagement and commitment.

Resources:

#1 Resource: https://chrisnesi.com/schoolpodcast

https://everything-everywhere.com/everything-everywhere-daily-podcast/

http://zebrapodcastnetwork.com

Topics and questions addressed:

What are the benefits of podcasting in school?

How does it contribute to students' development and improvement in different subjects?

How does it enhance their communication and social skills?

Does it help them become more organized?

Curious about student engagement and commitment

What do they learn and what skills do they develop or improve by podcasting?

Could you provide some guidance on how to distribute a podcast on major platforms such as Apple, Google, and Spotify?

How regularly do you meet with your podcasting club at school?

How can I introduce the concept of podcasting to students who may be unfamiliar with it?

What are some engaging topics or themes that students can explore in their own podcast episodes?

What roles can students take on in the production of a podcast (host, producer, editor, etc.)?

How can we ensure that students' podcasts are appropriate and safe for sharing?

How can we involve parents and the wider school community in our podcasting project?

Can you provide any examples of successful student-led podcasts or podcasting projects in schools?

Check out this episode!

[phantomtutor]

Final Projects: Submit by Saturday 11:59 m. Project 2: Create a Classroom Management Plan to outline your specific plans for your classroom to create an environment in which students can learn and teachers can teach. See Appendix for details and rubric. The 8 parts of this project are incorporated into Units 1 – 7.  (350 pts.)  Project B:  Striving for Personal Excellence in Classroom Management Considerations that Should Be Included in Students’ Individual Discipline Plans Topic 1: My Philosophy of Classroom Management • What is my definition of classroom management? • What is the primary purpose of a classroom management plan? • How do I want my classroom to look and feel, behaviorally speaking? What aspects of classroom functioning are most important to me? • What are my main responsibilities in classroom management? • What are my students’ main responsibilities with regard to behavior and classroom management? Topic 2: My Theory of Classroom Management • What are the necessary components of a classroom management system? • What is the purpose of each component? Topic 3. The Professional and Ethical Demeanor I Will Display • How will I comply with the legal, professional, and ethical obligations associated with classroom management? • What will I do to establish positive relations and develop trust with my students, my colleagues, and my students’ caregivers? Topic 4. The Kind of Behavior I Will Promote and the Rules That Support It • What behaviors, generally speaking, will I promote in my classes? • What specific rules, if any, will I use to guide student behavior? • What procedures (routines) do I want to use to manage the complexity of the school day? Topic 5. What I Will Do Proactively to Prevent or Reduce Misbehavior • What steps will I take to prevent or limit the known causes of misbehavior that might otherwise influence my classes? Topic 6. How I Will Support My Students’ Efforts to Participate and Persevere • How will I speak with and interact with my students? • How will I make sure students know what they are expected to do? • What types of activities will I emphasize in teaching? • How will I engage students actively when I am providing instruction? • How will I monitor and help students when they are doing independent work? • How will I use my personal charisma to influence behavior? • How will I use my body language to influence behavior? • How will I influence students to do high-quality work? Topic 7. How I Will Redirect Students When They Misbehave • How will I use influence and positive tactics that preserve students’ personal dignity? • How will I stop misbehavior and help students return willingly to appropriate behavior? • How will I deal with minor misbehavior such as talking or distracting others? 18   • How will I deal with more problematic behavior such as disrespect and apathy? • How will I deal with students’ refusal to comply with directions or do acceptable work? Topic 8. How and When I Will Communicate My Classroom Management Approach to Students, Administrators, and Students’ Caregivers • How and when will I explain my classroom management plan to students? • How and when will I communicate my classroom management plan to my administrator?   • How will I seek administrative support? • How and when will I communicate my plan to students’ caregivers?   • How will I request support from my students’ families/caregivers?  ORDER THIS PAPER NOW. 100% CUSTOM PAPER CategoriesEducation homework help Leave a Reply Cancel replyYour email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *Comment * Name * Email * Website Save my name, email, and website in this browser for the next time I comment. Post navigation Previous PostPrevious OutsourcingNext PostNext Media Studies Journal Entry

[thoodleoo]

How do you deal with a student doing stuff to make you uncomfortable? My friend recently became a teacher and since she's so short, she feels like some students see her as a diet coke version of an adult. This one student has been coming into her classroom right before her off period and making some uncomfortable conversations since his class is a few down from her. I told her to try reporting it to her boss or ask another teacher for advice, but she's so embarrassed and I'm starting to feel so bad for her.

first off, i am so sorry your friend is dealing with that, and thank you for trying to help her. it's incredibly difficult and often embarrassing for a teacher to come forward about this kind of thing, especially if they are worried about how others will see them for it.

if you can, keep working to convince her to report it to her administrators. if she has a mentor teacher or a teacher she is close to at the school, she can always go to them and ask for their support. it's extremely important to let admin know about this situation for both her personal and professional safety. admin can help address the situation, keep her physically safe, give her the emotional support she needs, and handle any potential allegations that may arise. the sooner she makes admin aware, the better.

in the meantime, she has some things that she can do in the classroom to help. the first is to never be alone with that student, or if she is put in a situation where she is alone with him, make sure the classroom door is open and she and the student are both visible from the doorway. there are a lot of ways to do this casually- act like she's taking down/hanging something up on the wall, cleaning the board, whatever puts her in a place where passersby can see. figure out an escape excuse. for me, this is usually either "i hate to ditch you right now but i've got a meeting to run to" or "i'd love to chat, but i've gotta run and make some copies" or even just "hey, i don't want to be rude to you but this is my off period and i've got to get some work done." i know it can be tough to set up those boundaries sometimes, but as a teacher, she is an authority figure and can kick students out of her room if she needs to!

as teachers it can feel bad to have to pull away from that teacher-student relationship sometimes, but it's really important to keep ourselves safe and sane while we work. last year i had a student following me to my car. not for nefarious purposes- he was a 6th grader and he thought it was funny- but it was 1. not in any way appropriate and 2. extremely dangerous, since he was wandering into the parking lot. i ended up telling my principal about it, since he wasn't listening to me when i told him to stop, and she handled the situation for me. there is nothing wrong about asking administration to help with a situation where a student is making you uncomfortable. it might suck to tell them- i'm not promising it won't- but there is no shame in doing it.

thanks for supporting your friend and reaching out on her behalf.

[shadowsepiphany]

Giving in| myg.

Synopsis: it should be simple. He was your professor and you were his student. But literature taught you both, that passion was a sensation, that overwhelmed rational thinking. Passion was a feeling that was made for giving in.

pairing: teacher!yoongi x reader

genre: smut, romance

Rating: mature.

warnings: mature language and content, sexual content, former teacher! x student (both are consenting adults), dirty talk, use of the nickname princess, soft dom! yoongi

word count: 2,1k / m.list

Your fingertips are staining his keyboard as you  type your  words down, nonchalantly and quietly, as if your last breath was to linger on your blood wine lips soon, as if the tempo of your heart was going down like the words on the paper. His eyes were reflecting the moon that sat above you two as he looked at his laptop, lost in thoughts and finger between his lips. You shouldn't be here, knees kept together with pressure and gaze fixating him too long, his little grin telling you that in fact, he did notice your little act. You couldn't look away, not even if someone would force you to, if someone would grab your jaw and try to shift your eyes away, you would return them to him, with new anticipation. How couldn't you? His nostrils flaring simple and beautiful breaths, his lips parted and painted with the wine you shared. 

“You're making this really hard”

His Voice awakes you in an instant as you try to concentrate on your work again, failing as his gummy smile makes your heart flutter. His expression was dazzling, how he was able to lose himself in his work, like he was made for it. A purple light, created by leds that were led one balcony away from his, were creating an intense contrast to his usual hard surface, an enchanting view to be straining after him once more.

“Why? You are the one, refusing.” 

Your reminder sits deep in your throat and his eyebrow raises as you bite your lip, not trying to tempt him, but simply being nervous and falling into this old habit of yours. It wasn't easy, sitting here and trying to act like an adult, when you were driven by passion for this man, ever since you saw him for the first time in an old classroom in college. His low mumbling voice, intellectual yet distracting to the point where you were unable to recognize any sense behind his words, only his tone striking you and his high setted standards, everyone complaining about him being impossible to please, events, still lost in your memory, lingering in your head like the sun above the sky.

 Now, you were barely 22 and he still was a professional teacher, just not your teacher anymore. Facts that made your barrier crack in completely while his was obviously still up. He was careful with his actions and words but even more with his desires, but somewhere amidst his innocent act, he was tensed and anxiety driven, by your bare leg and your soft gaze, a man was all he was in the end and he could feel it with every second that passed.

“You were my student Y/N, after all. “

“So? I have been an adult since the day we met, Yoongi.”

You, using his name instead of addressing him with mr. min, sparked some sense of interest in him and strong discontent at your behaviour at the same time, eyebrows knitted and shoulders rolled back, an hostile glare sending warnings through your body. He didn't know what he expected when he invited you, trying to teach you some things about literature when in reality, you resembled every page of literature he has ever read. So, even though he did not know what he expected, he knew what he dreamt of and the image of you crying out his name until sunrise was flooding his brain, no matter how hard he was trying to shut it off.

His urge to sleep with you wasn't exactly what caused the concern to be mirrored in his expression, mouth drawn back and his moral pained face was now near your own, it was rather how he wanted it to be: love, beautiful, sensational and slow, almost like a teenage girls dream and it almost caused him to sink to the woodend ground.

He watched, as you bit your lip, the white mark your teeth left on your lower lip disappearing in a second, making him wish that they were his, instead of your own. Your hand was resting on your skin, underneath the dress you wore, he salivated your figure whole and felt his pants tightening with every second your eyes were fixated on his hands. He could almost hear your thoughts and he was horrified, sour by how easy he could get you so worked up. 

“You know what? Fuck it.” he mumbles and your eyes spark up, suddenly feeling almost overwhelmed by his stern expression, shamelessly gazing at you, like you overstepped boundaries never to be crossed.

He wanted to devour you and give your body what it needs, fulfill your dreams and desires until you melted in his touch. Feeling like that made him mad. So mad, he didn't kiss you the way he wanted you to, he damned you for his concealed feelings and you had no idea of his inner fight when you kissed him back, satisfaction filling up your body, despite a sense of stern anger filling up his.

“What do you want, princess? Tell me-” 

He kissed you down your neck, goosebumps shaking up your whole being as his hand wandered down your leg, your core tingling rather uncomfortably as the passion you felt made your heart almost jump out of your chest. You tried to keep your calm, even as his tongue licked slowly over a deep red spot he caused. Your breath hitched and his hand stopped, just underneath your blue dress, sitting there waiting, just like his eyes, lips parted and eyes sly, patience thinning with every breath.

“Won't you speak? I need consent darling.” 

You felt like you were in a shakespeare play, your nod and quiet permission causing the tragedy to happen like a butterfly effect, you didn't know at the time, but you were bound to find out as his hand finally proceeds to play with your underwear, the rest of yoongi's Body being motionless, enjoying every sensation he could hear escaping from your now dark red lips. Wine on the lips you kissed, instead of the usual beer on guys, reminded you how Yoongi was different from the rest and he didn't shy away from showing you exactly that, as he grabs you, suddenly just going inside and closing the balcony door, smoothly with one hand and throwing you on his bed with the other. 

“Up.” he said, his eyes on the skirt of your dress and you understood immediately as you obeyed. Your cheeks were a flushed red and your skin was glowing under the full moon shining through his balcony door. Your expression was shy, obedient and Yoongi swore he could have just cum from you being so submissive for him, his bulge being so visible, it hurt. Humans can be so easy and every emotion that floods through him made him feel like some sort of animal, hands unable to rest, your body mischievous, dark eyes devouring every curve it showed.

“Where is your witty mouth now hm?-”

He lowered his head and before you could grasp what was happening, he was already licking your folds, leaving you gasping and moaning rather quietly, which he saw as an evil challenge. His velocity increases, you lose the ability to breath as his name was now lingering in the air, your first orgasm approaching, as your stomach hurt, pleasure never being so present in your life, like it was right now as he- just stopped.

His Face was now in front of you again, a shocked expression painting yours, a grin being displayed on his. His cheeks were flushed as you put your hand on it, lightly smacking him as his grin widened, piercing eyes and a cocked head shamelessly mocking you.

“Now now princess, let's not get violent, where are your manners?”

He grabbed your hand as you tried to smack him again, his grin now disappearing completely as he pinned both of them above your head, his pressure increasing with every motion you made, trying to get him off of you, without success.

You knew you were being bratty, but what you also knew was how turned on Yoongi got whenever you disobeyed him. You noticed it, on the first missed assignment where you were telling him that his teaching wasn't even good enough for the amount of assignments you got. His darkening eyes told you everything about this man that you needed to know and locked an ecstatic desire for your professor in your brain.

However, when his eyes darkened now, his body above yours and his hard on way too present, you feared that you crossed the line today. 

“There she is, the brat. Even though you're already suffering from loss of words, but that's alright. your body tells me everything baby.”

You clenched around nothing with every word he spoke, elegantly and haunting, his way of expressing of course above those of the general, as a determined literature teacher. He put his finger inside you, at first only his patient appearing fingertips as you let out a huff of frustration. 

“beg.”

“please-” you found your words again, your voice sounding as if someone else was controlling you, passion letting every part of your brain shut off. “please Yoongi, need you, please.” 

He shoved his finger inside you, filling you up and wasting no time in preparing you. He was a man of honor, wanting his partner to suffer from pleasure, but at the end of the day he was still a mess, a man impatiently waiting for his own relief, especially when he was being teased by your expressions and moans. 

“You think you can take it?”

His voice grew shakier, his cock throbbing as you eyed it and nodded. The moment itself was simple: two people having sex. But it was beautiful, the way he gazed at you with adoration and you looked back with admiration. Passion lingering in the air and moans escaping both of your wine tinted lips as he finally entered you, at first slowly, teasingly, as if him putting on a condom wasn't enough time wasted in your opinion. You needed him rough and deep and he noticed that, but he wasn't going to hurt you. He adored you too much for that.

As he increased his speed, finally giving in to his own needs, your gasping and grabbing only burned your image in his brain even more. He wanted you, not only now but forever, beside him when he woke up and underneath him before going to sleep, ultimately in each other's arms. He fought the urge way too long now, your private sessions with him teaching you literature only taught him that he was smart but a coward at the same time. He knew that you wanted him, the only thing he was scared of was you not wanting him like that. 

“Are you mine?” 

His speed was even faster now and his questions weren't left unanswered as you found out how to speak again. “Yes, I am.” you whispered as he sucked on your neck, like creating a proof of your own words, displayed on your skin for everyone else to see. 

“good girl.” he spoke against your neck, making you clench around him, his hot breath still tickling your spot as he returned his face in front of yours again. The position was intimate, his hair was falling in front of his face, sweat on his temple making him almost glitter, he portrayed a greek god. You wanted to kiss him again, as you felt your orgasm approaching and thankfully, he felt the exact same way.

He kissed you again, passionately and hard as both of you came, almost at the same time. It was too good to be true, as he pulled out of you, your eyes closing softly and his arm around your shoulders, pressing your body into collapsing into his own. 

Your heart was slowing down, as you felt Yoongi disappearing into the world of dreams, his heartbeat calming you down. You didn't speak a word to each other that night, but it wasn't needed. You told each other everything you had to say while living up both of your darkest fantasies. The only thing you were scared of was the sudden realization of what you did.

You didnt have sex with Yoongi.

You made love.