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he said, "when we're married ..."

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in the middle of a career crisis

still can't afford therapy so i asked chatgpt for advice:

It sounds like you are at a crossroads, with a mix of stable satisfaction in your current role and a strong desire to pursue other dreams. Here are a few steps and considerations to help you navigate this situation:

Assess Your Current Situation

Current Job Satisfaction: While you mention that you don't want to teach children, consider what aspects of your current job you do enjoy. This can help you identify transferable skills and interests. RE: I do enjoy making the classroom materials. It's tedious but fulfilling. It is a reminder that I am working to ensure my students get enough practice and attention they need to excel in school. Learning/education centers address this certain gap that schoolteachers aren't able to accommodate as they have more than 60 kids to teach in a day. I should remind myself of this value because I love to work in education. The end goal is to teach at a university, but I will stick this job out for the 1-year full-time teaching experience. The content development and editing experience is pretty handy as well!

Teaching in University: Reflect on why you want to be a professor of postcolonial literature. Is it the subject matter, the research opportunities, the adult student interactions, or the academic environment that appeals to you? The academic environment comes first, and my interest in postcolonial issues such as migration comes second. I love to read and discuss books – I want to change the world through literature. I still have my vision of ensuring local schools in Hong Kong have access to a wide variety of literatures from all cultures, to exercise their open-mindedness in a city that boasts its international cultue. That does not reflect well from the kids, so it is imperative we start in their classrooms. Little ways to elimate racism and ignorance, and to build a much more welcoming and safe society.

Exploring Academic Career in Literature

Qualifications and Experience: To teach at the university level, you typically need a Ph.D. in your field. Consider if you are willing to commit to this long-term academic journey, including potential research, publications, and teaching assistantships. Yes! I'm keen. Taking my MA at FSU is the next to achieving this goal. :)

Networking and Mentorship: Reach out to professors or professionals in the field of postcolonial literature. They can provide valuable insights into the realities of an academic career and offer guidance on how to pursue this path. UP Diliman conference on July 10, 2024! I hope to meet people in the Philippines I can stay in contact with.

Exploring Marine Biology

Educational Path: Research what qualifications are needed to become a marine biologist. This usually involves a degree in marine biology or a related field, and possibly a master's or Ph.D. for research positions. Exactly. I can't. The only answer is to work at a local secondary school, or university, and go on lengthy marine adventures on my holidays. That's it. And be a marine biologist when I retire.

Passion and Skills: Reflect on what drew you to marine biology as a child. Consider participating in marine biology courses, workshops, or volunteer opportunities to get a taste of the field and see if it reignites your passion.

Job Opportunities and Lifestyle: Research the job market and lifestyle associated with marine biology. This can include fieldwork, lab work, travel, and possibly relocating. Ensure this aligns with your personal and professional goals.

Making a Decision

Short-Term and Long-Term Goals: Write down your short-term and long-term goals for both career paths. This can help you visualize the steps needed and the time commitment for each option.

Financial and Personal Considerations: Consider the financial implications of switching careers, including the cost of further education and potential changes in income. Also, think about your personal life and how each career aligns with your values and lifestyle preferences.

Professional Advice: Consider speaking with a career counselor. They can provide personalized guidance and help you explore your options in a structured manner.

Experiment and Explore

Side Projects: Start small by engaging in side projects related to your interests. This could be writing research papers on postcolonial literature, taking online courses in marine biology, or volunteering in relevant projects. Volunteering for Marine Conservation Philippines! I get field and lab experience, as well as PADI certifications. So worth it. Just need to save up.

Informational Interviews: Conduct informational interviews with professionals in both fields. This can give you a realistic view of day-to-day responsibilities and future prospects.

Making a career change, especially one as significant as from teaching literature to marine biology, requires careful planning and self-reflection. Taking small steps towards both paths can help you make an informed decision without feeling overwhelmed.

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third week of school

I just got back to the dorms, Monday morning. The ride here was peaceful. It made me wish we had a car here in Hong Kong, it would take me less than an hour to get to school. Public transportation sucks the energy out of you, and I refuse to get on after experiencing Uber. I need to find time to work, I haven't been to Ryze in two weeks and I've missed it dearly. I'm also anxious to go back; I realised the more distant I become to someone or a certain place, the more hesitant I am to reach out / go back. I'm not sure why. It's an interesting observation.

I have a lot to catch up on for class. I'm too tired, I think I would have done better if I were in science. I love literature but sometimes, it's too creative and open-ended. I'm starting to miss memorising facts and being practical.

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i'm much closer :)

for my bday wish this 2021, i pray to overcome my insecurities and be my true self

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i'm scared to continue rereading Americanah because this is one those rare times the words are speaking to my soul

and i'm tearing up bc i rmb highlighting these sentences wishing i could be Ifemelu and bitch, i hope to not jinx anything because i want Tife so so much, but i think i found my Obinze

i found someone i can be comfortable with, someone i can say anything to, someone i can hold and know that everything will be okay.

i'm falling in love and i'm afraid.

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so thankful and happy

thank you God for everything you've given me

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this mf is the embodiment of a tumblr motivational quote blog 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

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having to come to terms with the fact that love is not an everlasting performance in which you attempt to retain the attention of your significant other but rather a release of control and putting faith into them and trusting them to choose to stay with you no matter what you have to offer

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for my bday wish this 2021, i pray to overcome my insecurities and be my true self

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ZOE LOWE OH MY GOD

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chismosa kayong lahat 🤡🤡🤡

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you're just a kid

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you're not worth it. you're actually a narcissistic, selfish prick

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don't like being on social media anymore

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fell from grace

before pride month ends, i'd like to officially announce that i am crushing on my boss

goodnight my fellow gays

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maybe in another life

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i'll be okay, i just need this to pass then i'll be okay with him being on the other side of the world