#i want to redo the dogs because theyre bad

[cabaretofwords]

I'm casually doing a character design challenge with my art, and realised today that if I want, I currently have 15 new OCs I could develop. Not all of them are good, but they exist.

[cryptideye]

the ceaseless watcher’s special  👏 little  👏 boy  👏 !!!

(more anthro tma stuff under the cut!)

ok a lot of these are taken directly from my instagram story so the cropping is Bad. sorry

heres jon first ! i based him off of this specific image of an oriental longhair cat bc YEAH. this is exactly how i imagined him. i debating making jon some sort of corvid while martin would be a scottish fold cat but i decided on cat for jon and dog for martin.

martin next!!!!! i based him off of some cocker spaniel / golden retriever mixes i found on google. but hes mostly spaniel.

:)

ummmm ok elias next! his eyes are like that because [spoilers]. debated making him a vampire bat or assassin bug but they were hard to draw so hes a fox. i feel like a fox fits his aesthetic more anyhow.

the distortion is a cuttlefish not only for their ability to mimic other animals but simply because they are neat :) i thought their colour changing fits with the distortion well also

tim next.... just a magpie. debating making him a fox but decided against it.

sasha! lyrebird for their mimickry and cuckoos for a certain behaviour they exhibit regarding their young. foreshadowing? decided on a cuckoo because theyre easier to draw.

daisy and basira! basira is a german shepherd and daisy a grey wolf. when she gives into the hunt she just goes on all fours, full wolf mode

georgie and melanie! georgie a honey badger for their fearlessness and melanie a snow leopard because of their independence. plus snow leopards are cute and fun to look up reference photos for.

annabelle is a pink toed tarantula bc obvious, oliver is a hyena. i wanted to doa  scavenger for oliver bc end avatar but hyenas are cute so thats what he is.

jude is an echidna, gertrude is a blue jay (thought i should have made her a hare!!!!!! i might redo her design). echidnas do this funny thing during wildfires that made me think of jude and blue jays are sometimes known to imitate hawks...... i wanted a “looks innocent / cute but is ruthless” vibe for gertrude but WHY i didnt make her the obvious choice of a rabbit i have no idea.

yeah.

GERRY my beloved raccoon......... mary keay is a hairless dog and eric is an axolotl.

ALSO! [redacted] is a sheep / ram :)

here is the ref i used for jon!!!!! i should have made him more menacing but im bad at art so

[mar-bluu]

Just finished my 2nd day of work experience :)

It was strange but i loved it! Sorry this is so long :p Some high points over the 2 days:

Day 1!

Very nervous!

Very very nervous!

Got there at 8 and knocked on the door which a really nice guy opened for me and let me in

We introduced ourselves amd he told me his name was S, then he showed me the break room where i put my stuff away

Met K! Shes very nice and i helped cleaned out the puppy room while she did the kittens

Was then sent upstairs to cut up some fruit for the birds and guinea pigs

Fed the quails and budgies, then moved onto the cockatiels and other birds

Two of the alexandrines loved the apple and carrot, while the other two (in a different area) didnt want to eat unless i hand fed them (i slowly moved it to the bowl where they shared a slice of apple and aah!! 💖)

I annoyed the sun conures cause i went to feed them but they were climbing on the door so i couldnt open it properly, so i moved onto the other birds. They screamed at me for a while after that

Gave the guinea pigs some orange and saved a few slices for the two upstairs and are sick/unhappy :(

Washed up the bowl

Restocked the birb toys!! Very cool and made out of thicc sticcs and pinecones

Restocked chicken mince and dog bones

Went to the freezer, didn't find chicken mince, did find yoko, a bearded dragon in a freezer bag with the frozen rabbits/mice. Bag said "Yoko, passed after laying eggs :(" made me very sad

Did see Yoko's enclosure-mate who was sunning on a rock just vibing. Made me less sad

Eventually found chicken mince, but no bones

There was another employee who really scared me

Like a lot

Literally for no reason! He just makes me super super nervous

I think it might be because he looked very vaguely like this guy at school who also scares me (also for no reason, we talked once and he was super nice but he still scares me)

Anyway i did algae wipes on the plant tanks but also was super nervous and when i was done, couldn't see S and didn't wanna annoy the other employees so i just kept redoing them, like 6 times

Eventually found S who got me to clean the fish tank lids

The glass fishtank lids

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Other dude had hoses running that went through where i was so the whole time i was going "dont drop the glass, dont drop the glass, dont drop the glass, do not drop the glass, please please dont drop the glass

Did about 4 lids then it was time to go

All in all a pretty good day maybe a 7/10 :p

Day 2!

Got there just before 8, still nervous

K let me in and we put our stuff away upstairs

Met A!

A was a little sick but also super kind, made me a little less nervous

I cleaned out the kittens room while she did the puppers

One pupper was super loud and attention seeking so i stopped and said hi everytime i passed

Kinda felt bad that i kept asking A questions cause i could tell she was close to losing her voice

Finished up just as the store opened

Vacuumed the store

Felt bad while vacuuming near the birbs and guinea pigs cause they didnt like the vacuum but it was very very dirty so i spent quite a bit of time there

Would do one spot then turn around to see a more feathers and sunflowet seed casings (i have a feeling that the sun conures were still upset)

That took quite a while and there were still more feathers!!!!!!!!

Anyway K asked me to wash the outside of the puppy and kitten windows

That took about 20 minutes (smol kiddos kept touching the cleaned glass >:( ah well :/ )

I asked K if i needed to do anything else and she said to ask D (manager(?)) If he had anything, and if not i could,,,,,,, b r ush the kitten s

:O

Ho ly hecc ye!!

Put the bucket/cloth/water away and asked D, he had nothing

Y E S

KI TTE N S

K gave me a brush and the guy who kinda scares me asked if i knew the code to get into the room, A told me before so i was good

But not for long

It was only 4 digits long and i knew the numbers but then forgot the order

I tried every possible order but nothing worked

I went back to the counter and asked again "the code? oh it's 1234"

Okay! I go back to the door "the code? oh it's 1uwje82k"

F r i c k

As im standing there hoping that this door will magically open for me, cause if i ask 3 times uhh I'll die ?

A and other scary dude were walking past and i tried to make eye contact with A and silently ask for help

But A wasnt looking, however, other dude was!

He came over and opened the door for me and had like a 10 second convo

Anyway he seems super heccin chill and nice but still scares me

Anyway

K i tt ies!

I went into their room and said hi then sat down with the brush

I will be honest, i was expecting some resistance whether it was playful, or frightened of the brush, or wriggly

What i did not expect was to be attacked by a fluffy blanket of pure anger

I named them the Shoe Siblings

There were 6, all with names from me

KL (knee licker), Panic Attack (a poor scared bby with HUGE eyes), Rat (just an asshole), Gentle Giant (big boi ! Thought he was most energetic, but was a good boi!) Mini M (Mini marshmallow, the tiniest bitch! Looks like a toasted marshmallow), and BWB (Black and White Bastard, stupid bitch, annoying, a pain, wishes only to cause pain, i love him) theyre all ragdoll kittens)

Literally no matter WHAT i did, i couldn't brush them

They tried to eat the brush so m an y t i me s

Attacked my fingers

"Please get off my shoe"

Play fighting each other and me

Let me do 1 brush stroke before turning around and chewing on the bristles

I let them smell the brush and my hands so i didn't freak them out

"No, thats not for kitty consumption"

Ate my shoes, ate my ankles, ate my arm, ate my shirt, ate my back

I COULD N O T BRUSH THEM! At all!!

"Leave my shoes alone please"

BWB was the WORST!

He bit onto my shoe grabbed the top and r a k e d his legs across the bottoms again and again and again, trying to tear them to shreds! Scratched the shit put of my arms too

I tried to get Mini M over by gently patting on my leg

THIS BITCH

Swung at my hand and stabbed my finger! I bled a lot, but I was fine

Panic Attack ate the fur that i had managed to brush off

KL and Rat wrapped around my leg in a ball of fury

BWB actually crawled into my lap and curl up into a ball, 'aww,' i think, 'he's giving me a hug! Maybe he feels bad'

Nope

This bitch was eating my pants >:(

Anyway another 30 mins later i was rescued by me being able to leave

(The cats were v cute tho)

And thats it :) thanks!

[rqs902]

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more random thoughts as i finish season 2....

some of my favorite moments are when the kids are cheering each other on, its the cutest thing!!! 

he yifan and zuo qibo fanboy screaming over liu ye’s rap in ‘boy in luv’ and yu gengyin and cai xukun’s relay chanting “jin ming!” “jia you!’ and ofc “dai jing” “yao na ka!!!!!” hahahahhaha i love their friendship and i love silly gengyin!!! literally even when getting off the car this ep he was so silly and when he was about to go on stage and he was like aight kids i got this, i love seeing him being less stressed ahhhh

OOF THEY LABELED IT AGAIN 

awww HE WONNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH when it got announced, i literally clutched my chest and was like ‘my childdddddddddd’ aaaaaahhhhhhhhhh honestly i wasnt gonna be surprised if zuo qibo won this round but IM SO PROUD OF XIAO YU awwwwww he did so well!!!! he like worked really hard to give off a mischievous/ bad boy aura and i think it was such a refreshing and well-executed change for him that it left a strong impression c: whereas qibo is normally already very flower boy / nice guy so i dont think it was as impactful for him to continue playing a role he already embodies normally, altho he was very good-looking on this stage!! but gengyin really went out of his way to try to act cool and carry himself with that kind of aura of handsomeness / arrogance that he’s not really used to portraying and im super proud of him for pulling it off :’) continuously saying ‘我不夠壞’ hahhahhaa but similar to in the sakura stage where he was commended for his powerful stage presence, he’s continuing to build on his new improvements and im super happy he’s still riding on this high c: last ep ‘on rainy days’ i was thriving on hearing his voice smooth over those high notes and this ep’s song wasnt as lyrical, but he still managed to get some vocalizations in and im loving all this extra camera time and focus on his eye smiles. watching gengyin just smile and seeing his eyes crinkle up just makes me so happy inside c: oh! and then when he walks back into the waiting room and hes like “yaayy 努力沒有白費 yaaaaayy!!!!!” im just ooof my heart im so happy for him :’) 

also i gotta say, huadi’s attitude towards liuye is kinda scary? I know theyre all being competitive and thats the nature of this show but like liu ye kept telling him to back off basically (and not even for his own sake, but bc he knew huadi’s dancing intensity was negatively affecting jin ming and also the cohesiveness of their group overall) and huadi was still like ‘i need to show myself off so i can win’ and i felt like his attitude was off, like ‘obviously im the best, thanks’ which later became ‘i cant believe i lost, what did he do better’ whereas liu ye was also very confident but to me he came off as less intense and more calm. like ‘i know im the best, so you can go ahead and try to upstage me, but ill just do my best on my end and quietly watch you sabotage yourself’ at least thats how i perceived it .-. but idk yea i enjoyed watching liu ye more and it felt like huadi was trying too hard. but i am glad that huadi and muti resolved their issues last ep 

daidai’s stage presence during ‘overdose’ tho? he was really handsome!!! i dont normally react much to daidai’s performances but idk this time i really noticed him in contrast to jeffrey and yongju. i think he just seemed more confident than usual and all the little smiles helped. his hair flipping reminded me of muti and his sass LOL 

its really interesting to see cai xukun’s progression through this show and how everyone around him reacts as he goes through this growth process. i would say he wasnt given an absurdly greater amount of screentime but you can tell hes been building up credibility and holds a strong rank among the rest. i would say its not realllyy until the last few eps of season 2 that he pulls ahead of the rest by a significant amount. i was always thinking wu muti was a strong competitor to him but after seeing them and he yifan’s stage, it was pretty clear to me that cxk had successfully exceeded everyone else and ascended to his own level. watching the process through which he gradually builds his now-signature stage presence and now-signature voice is really fascinating and near the end of the season, he already can overshadow everyone else. it seems like huadi is very vocal about how handsome kun has become on stage, yifan doesnt hesitate to admit how good kun is, and gengyin has already admitted early on that they all should learn from kun. zuo qibo is also quick to commend kun but then it seems like muti avoids it? i can kinda guess he might be a bit jealous bc hes always been complimented and lauded on stage but then after he lost so significantly to cxk, im guessing that would be a blow to him. on the show, cxk and wmt both seem very very eager to promote themselves and are very willing to fight for opportunities that they each deem best for themselves. unlike some of the other kids who are more willing to work for the team as a whole more. not that the two of them are bad at teamwork, but i think they definitely arent afraid to demonstrate that they want to stand out and i think thats important in this industry and likely part of how cxk got so ahead. its just interesting to compare this cxk to the cxk on idol producer who knew at that point that he didnt need to fight to stand out because he already did, and he tried so hard to help the other kids around him. 

i feel like i should redo my current ranking list, but i guess with the kids who are on the show this time? (minus the s2 kids, bc lets face it, theyd be at the very bottom anyway) rn its mostly tiered like 1, then 2-7, then 8-10. i appreciate liu ye being a good teacher and leader and the way he yifan seems to be able to joke around with everyone and keep their spirits up. muti’s fireiness kinda scared me in the last few eps but i appreciate that he was mature enough to talk it out with huadi and admit he had been too stressed/riled up lately.

gengyin 

muti 

liu ye

cai xukun

he yifan 

zuo qibo

zhao pinlin (gosh im sad hes so injured) 

dai jingyao

huadi 

yongju

HAHAHAHHA THE PART WHERE ZFZ CHALLENGES THEM TO AN AB BATTLE AND YGY STEPS UP AND EVERYONES IN SHOCK BUT HE JUST RUNS DOWN THE LINE TO PUSH DAIDAI TO THE FRONT HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA i love a true silly boy 

its just so interesting bc the latter half of this season (after ygy gets nominated for elimination i guess) feels like they enjoy giving ygy camera time and attention and esp ep 8 onward hes gotten so much positive feedback ive just been amazed and so happy. and now at the end... you can tell hes really pushing himself bc hes seen that he can do well and that if he really goes above and beyond he really does have a good chance, and seeing his confidence go up with each stage that he performs well is really gratifying and im so proud of him, seeing how determined and driven he is. i just find it funny how confident he is about rap all of a sudden HAHHAHA i mean he did do very well rapping during the sakura stage and the judges did compliment him a lot for it so i cant blame him. 

omgosh the part where the teacher tells muti that he’s already lost to cxk bc cxk got picked during the first round and he hasnt yet....... oof if this is how they talk to him and they keep comparing him to cxk saying their styles are alike but cxk is better, i can see why he’d have some negative feelings towards the matter. the kid’s literally a child, i dont think this is the right way to motivate him....... liu ye patting his head to comfort a pouting muti aw 

because now its my duty to screenshot every time they label his smile !!! and this one even labels it as his “cute signature smile” ahhhHHHH THEY KNOW 

HAHAHHAHA SO I WAS TALKING TO MY SISTER and she sent us pics of her new boyfriend and i was like lol im still single BUT ive been watching a new show and i have a new bias HAHAHAH and i proceeded to show her pictures of yu gengyin i have saved on my phone HAHAHAHHA and she was like “he looks just like your type” HAHHAHAHAHAHA SHE KNOWSSS but yea i was like ‘LOOK HOW SMILEY HE IS!!!” and she was like “the dog is cuter” AHAHAHAHHAHA but its ok shes used to this. and it just reminded me of the time i showed her the ip PPAP perf with zhengting and she like straight up guessed zhengting was my fav in that perf and i was like LOL YES and she was like hE LOOKS LIKE YOUR TYPE hahahHHAHHAHahahhaAHAHAHAH my type is somewhere along the lines of zhengting and gengyin yes. 

huadi’s never-ending battle of fighting to be seen as more than a dancer... to be continued during afo :(

zuo qibo’s struggle of feeling the pressure of being an old man..... feels bad :(

aw he yifan is really so cute. hes def really improved and really doing well, but i feel like his stage presence could still be stronger. its nice to know that during afo he does really shine stage presence-wise and grows to become more mature, more respected, and a group leader as well. 

man its so nice to see daidai really thriving and confident and owning these stages because honestly i feel like on the shows ive seen him in since, including produce camp, hes given me the impression of someone whos lost his confidence and doesnt get to show his skills. i really hope he still has this super-idol version of himself in him because he really shines here, and i think it makes him seem even more handsome than just his appearance alone. oof its just hard bc this show really loves him and the judges really love him and hes so well-supported and encouraged and i think it makes a big difference in his confidence level. i feel like on other shows he hasnt been valued nearly as much and its really sad bc the kid just seems so much less confident. 

HAHAHAHA IM SORRY EVEN THO I KNEW IT WAS COMING BC OBVIOUSLY I KNOW THE FINAL LINEUP OF SWIN BUT OMG EVERYONE WAS SOOOOO SURPRISED HE YIFAN MADE IT OVER ZUO QIBO AND IM LAUGHING AHHAHAHHAHAHAH EVERYONE’S LOOK OF ASTONISHMENT IS TOO MUCH AHAHHAHAHA NO ONE HAD FAITH IN HE YIFAN ISTG HAHAHAHHAHA EVEN HE YIFAN HIMSELF IS LIKE WAT HAHAHHAAHHHAAH BUT THEN HIS ADORABLY BRIGHT SMILE IN CONTRAST WITH EVERYONE’S SHOCKED FACES IS ALSO HILARIOUS HAHAHHAHA this situation is just terrible but hilarious at the same time /sigh/ rip zuo qibo im sorry youre old but cant win :( honestly tho i can understand why they picked he yifan bc he does have more to offer the group than qibo :( considering they put daidai in and they already have yongju (and im assuming yu gengyin will be the last one) and even muti and liu ye sing (and i guess pinlin can also be considered a backup lol).... having another lead vocal isnt gonna to contribute much versus he yifan’s low tone rap. he yifan is really a cute little bean tho. oof the way he runs straight into cai xukun’s arms oof friendship

sigh so i guess its after this that yongju gets kicked out bc china (poor kid...) and then at some point daidai leaves and they randomly add in pinlin after he recovers? even tho he wasnt in like half of season 2? lol but i guess he was never eliminated.... so technically that puts him ahead of zuo qibo in terms of next-in-line to be a vocalist? but i guess honestly everyone knows that if pinlin hadnt left the show due to his injury, he wouldve been the main vocal of leo’s group, not zuo qibo. so i guess in a way as long as pinlin recovered in time, he would be considered the best vocalist to add to swin-s. and then they pull some eliminated kids to become swin-e..... going back to watch the “new world” mv is really a trip every single time. i feel like i watched it for the first time after watching ip and literally only recognized cai xukun, and every time after, i recognized a few more kids, after afo, after pdc, and after finishing super idol 1, i finally recognized all of them. but now, after watching season 2, it feels like i finally actually understand why they got picked and i truly appreciate all 6 of them. I think its really amazing to see yu gengyin go from being ranked #1 in the very first audition on the first season, to being so close to getting eliminated in season 2, to being the last one chosen to get a super card at the end of s2, to being a main vocal in “new world”, and truly truly owning that song. i mean besides cai xukun obviously upstaging everyone with his stage presence as usual, but i mean now when i listen to the song (not even watching the mv) and im really paying attention to who’s singing what part, whose voice really gets to shine and gets to dominate the song, its yu gengyin. maybe im biased or maybe its just expected since he is the main vocal, but i guess it just amuses me that i never noticed that before when i watched this mv without knowing him. now i know whose voice it is that is carrying their debut song and it makes it so special. from listening to later swin songs, i feel like zhao pinlin eventually gets himself a much larger cut of the main vocal position (to the point of surpassing gengyin even?), but i mean that is a whole other story, and i think it does flow into zhao pinlin becoming the ultimate main vocal once gengyin leaves. interestingly zuo qibo never does seem to redeem himself from being any more relevant of a vocal within the group, even tho he was def main vocal of leo’s group on s2 after zhao pinlin left... its like as soon as pinlin leaves he’s needed but when pinlin is there, he’s ignored :( gosh as soon as they announced all the winners and qibo wasnt included, his eyes just became so empty you could see his pain. 

but yes this ends my essay about the last few eps of super idol s2. LOLL i just started compiling my thoughts into larger rant posts bc i didnt want my whole dash to be littered with a bunch of small random posts, so i started collecting my thoughts on a draft as i watched and waited until it got unbearably long to post, such as now. but watching super idol 1 & 2 has been really an eye-opening experience. ive learned a lot about these kids and its truly made me appreciate the year long training they had in korea and the many many struggles and setbacks and unique experiences they had. honestly i feel like swin couldve easily been 8 people aka swin-s plus huadi and zuo qibo, because honestly theyre all very skilled and capable at this point, and huadi and zuo qibo are really on a different level from gouhao and zhu yunlong (sorry kids, i still appreciate yall tho!) since they werent on like a majority of season 2, but i guess it really doesnt matter in the very long run bc of what happened to swin anyway. such a sad sad history for them to bear, but i do hope they can all achieve some kind of success in the future, because theyve really suffered and worked so hard. ill look forward to watching old swin clips for the time being, as i wait not-so-patiently for afo2 

ps: random update, i did in fact make a gengyin gif into my phone lock screen HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH i gave in to the feels. but its the hair flip from that one ikon song he won his individual battle for, and its a historic and important moment okay HAHAHAH