spent 3 hours last night panic searching for doctors to help me with my fibromyalgia. They are all either scams, extremely expensive boutique options (but are actually good apparently, if you have the money), extremely expensive scams, or have never heard of fibromyalgia and kick you out after 15 minutes.
Dammit, I'm being faced with a fun, albeit atypical, idea for a music animation thingy. Yet I have neither the skill nor the resources. And I can't even look at someone else's similar work because, as mentioned, it's an atypical combination.
becoming acutely aware of how much im letting my life pass me by while im in this like… braindead death spiral and sometimes i wonder if like im ever going to get to do the things i want to do with my life
this stupid cold really fucked up my weekend plans
i was supposed to have a fun pool day with the fam but nope
wanted to do some more photomode stuff but i have zero energy for anything creative
i'm so tired of these stupid little colds i get after traveling or doing a convention. pre-pandemic i almost never got sick from this shit and now it's like a guarantee every time
Sometimes i like to fantasize about someday being some kind of great well known comic artist as if the workload and pressure would not render me to tears