#i want something that says im here…beyonce!

[b1mbodoll]

staring longingly at the lil jake thought sitting in my drafts

[overnowsfcb]

even if they talk; trent alexander-arnold smau

pairing: trent alexander-arnold x nepobaby knowles!model!reader

face claim: taylor russell

summary: people will criticize everything, but there is someone who will never fail you, and that was trent.

warnings: mostly fluff, angst (bit of hate and critics towards reader).

note: this is my first smau i hope it's not too bad! i would love to hear your thoughts or suggestions, also requests are open! — venus 🫂💐🫧

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trentarnold66 🤷🏽‍♂️

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user1 the best out there

user2 unreal 🔥🔥🔥

user3 let's go reds!

ynknowles congrats! is there some secret routine helping you before the game to be that amazing? 🤔

↪trentarnold66 Maybe.. But I can't share any details here 🤫

↪user4 ARE WE MISSING SOMETHING????

↪user5 whats so interesting??? share with the class????

user6 yn and trent interacting??? i- wow

↪user7 if i hadnt seen it with my own eyes id say everyones tripping

user8 are they implying something or is just me

↪user9 I THOUGHT EXACTLY THE SAME

user10 YOU BETTER EXPLAIN YOURSELF ynknowles

user11 LET HER COOK

↪user12 girl i think they've already had a feast

user13 wtf is yn doing here

↪user14 she ruins everything good

user15 i hope trent doesnt distract w this... cant even say it

↪user16 yeah we know what she did to her exes so...

↪user17 put some respect on beyoncé's daughter's name and inform yourself before talking, mind you

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user trent can do so much better than yn. she just wants to stay relevant

user shes using trent because she has no talents to show

user i've heard rumors about how yn's exes have ended. trent, watch your back, my man.

↪user you talk as if she murdered them??? plus she never did anything to any of her exes you're just talking bc it's free

user i just hope that trent can open his eyes asap

user what a disappointment from trent. i thought he was better than dating a spoiled kid with too much time and money in her hands

user y'all are just jealous that she has what many desire 1. money 2. fame 3. beauty 4. trent's dick

user why is everyone jumping to conclusions though? we should give them the space to tell us whenever they feel ready

user i love how haters act like they know everything about yn's life and they dont know shit

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ynknowles paris you are the vibes ⭐️ so damn proud of my little blue and this mind-blowing tour, i love you momma beyonce !

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beyonce Love you endlessly, my angel. You know how much your support means to Blue. 💙

bellahadid Prettiest fairy in the world.

troyesivan mmm alright??? why are you so perfect???

user18 no trent here though 🤷‍♀️

user19 this is the confirmation about how yn just uses trent

user20 ugh. i hate these nepobabies who think the world revolves around them

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ynknowlesupdates Yn Knowles in Anfield today with friends! This is the first time we've seen her in public in three months.

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user1 i cant stand her 😒 smile or smth if youre gonna see your "boyfriend"

↪ ynfan1 if you cant stand her then poke your eyes with a spoon and dont bother 😁

ynfan2 omg this will be the first match that she attends. i hope she enjoys it!!!! (win please)

ynfan3 I MISSED HER SO MUCH IM GLAD SHES WELL

ynfan4 baby looks tired of people taking pics of her 😕 i wanna hug her

↪user2 but shes there for that??? she loves attention

↪ynfan5 or maybe just MAYBE she wants to support her boyfriend??

ynfan6 TODAY I WAS MISSING HER MORE THAN ANYTHING SHE LOVES ME

trentfan1 WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE DOING THERE?? i though we had gotten rid of her 😩

user4 if we lose today you know who is to blame...

trenfan2 over and over again i will repeat it until trent leaves her, shes with him for fame

↪ynfan7 yeah cause trent is soooo worried about what you think right???

user5 i bet shes there just for the cameras

trentfan3 yn trying to be a wag is so cute and laughable. she doesnt even measure up to the real ones.

↪user6 ikr? shes trying so hard poor girl

trentfan4 the fact that she goes with her friends 💀💀 i bet no wag would want to be seen with her

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trentarnold66 Just clever people can handle how flawless my queen is. Happy first anniversary, my love. I love you madly, always. No need to demonstrate anything on social media when we're tellin' each other how much we love at every hour. ❤️

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ynknowles i love love love you so fucking much you dont have an idea

↪trentarnold66 i love you more more more than you could imagine

ynknowles thank you for being the most perfect man ive ever known t ❤️❤️❤️❤️

↪trentarnold66 i just try my best to be on your level, lovely

beyonce You are such a gentleman, Trent! Grateful for the way you take care of my angel.

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ynfan8 A YEAR??? BUT IF WE FOUND OUT FOUR MONTHS AGO

↪trentfan5 i feel so stupid how did they hide it so well 😦😦

trentfan6 shut them up trent

trentfan7 THATS A GOOD MAN!!!! men just take notes rn

bellahadid Thank you for taking care of the purest woman in this world, Trent 💖

ynfan9 not bee and bella thanking him 🥺🥺

↪trentfan8 im gonna cry he must be so cute

↪ynfan10 no bc she surely spent some tough months with the hate towards her and he sure was the supportive boyfriend as he should 😭😭

trentfan9 WHY NO ONES TALKING ABOUT THE BATMAN KEYCHAINS???

↪ynfan11 nonononooooo i love them best couple in the world

ynfan12 the pics he takes of her, the caption, everything 😪😪😪 god send me a man like that

trentfan10 the people who said they were going too fast must be regretting it 🤭

ynfan13 im afraid we'll find out they have kids when they're in uni, lmao. happy anniversary you two!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[mebeindelulu]

He calls you clingy - Im Changkyun

bf! Changkyun x fem! reader . a little bit of angst, fluff .

After a whole day spent at the university, finally you could meet your boyfriend Changkyun. So you picked up the take out and rushed to the studio where he was working on his new album.

When you arrived, the door was slightly opened so you quickly noticed that two people were talking inside.

"Uh... I can't go with you bro. Yn will be here in a minute. We spent littleraly the whole day yesterday but she can't live without me." You heard him ironically laughing, "I love her but Jesus... She is so clingy sometimes that it is annoying".

You were so so confused. You've never heard something like that from Changkyun. Yesterday you both had really a good time from coffee date, cooking dinner together to watching your favourite movies and walking around the Han river at night. And the whole idea about spending almost the whole day together was his idea, so hearing that you are "clingy" and that he has enough of you really got the worst insecurities out of you. Tears started to form in your eyes as you turned around and stormed out of the building.

In the bus you texted Changkyun that something in the university came up and you have to stay longer so you won't come to the studio today. When you arrived at your tini apartment you decided to drink the sadness away with wine.

To give Changkyun more space that he "needed", you thought that it will be a good idea to not text with him too much and to not meet with him as well this week. And the word part was that it looked like he is totally fine with that.

After one day that you declined his phone call saying that you have classes, he didn't call you anymore. And after two days instead of replaying to his "Good morning baby, how are you?" as you usually did sending him selfie or describing your day by the voice message, you only replayed "good, I'm just bussy" and he stopped to text you first. So you both were barely texting at all.

After a week of going to university and spending all your free time sitting alone in the apartment, your best friend could tell that there is something that is bothering you, so she told you to get ready because you are going to a party Friday night.

At the party you drink a few drinks and had fun dancing with your friends. You need that kind of distraction from overthinking your relationship and crying every night because your biggest fears came true: he got bored of you. At least that was what you thought.

One of your friends took photo of your group on the dance floor and posted on Instagram with caption "the single ladies", which could get interpreted wrong. Most of the girls in your group were not single. But the song that was played at the time when you were dancing was Beyonce's "Single Ladies" and that's why she added that caption. It had nothing to do with if you are taken or not.

When you were at the party, Changkyun was working at the studio, just like for the last couple weeks, working on his album. And he even wouldn't know that you are at the club if not his friend sent him a screenshot of your friend's "Single Ladies" post.

He suddenly got jealous and betrayed. You said that you will study all night and that's why you can't meet with him, when he asked if you want to spend the evening with him. It hurt him that you avoided him last week, but also he tried to understand you since you were studying so hard for the exams that are coming next week.

He couldn't understand why you didn't even texted him anymore like you used to. A single selfie and "good morning jiagi" would be enough for him. But there was only silence for the past week. And when he texted first you gave him only short replies.

But also deep down he knew that sometimes you need some time alone to isolate yourself from others and be alone with your own thoughts. And he thought that after isolating yourself from people you will come back to normal life and spend a lot of time with him.

But after seeing that you are at the club instead of being with him, he thought that something must be wrong. So he decided that it's enough. Changkyun put on his coat, took his car keys and rushed to the club that you were in (thankfully your friend added a location to her post).

You was standing by the bar with a drink in your hand when some tall guy joined you.

"Hi, what are you doing here?... Alone?"

You could tell that he is handsome, but weren't interested. Your friends were dancing on the dance floor but you were not in the mood to join them do you stayed here, drinking. But you didn't wanted to give such a classy answer so you decided to be a little bit cocky since you had nothing to do.

"And why are you asking, hmm?" He laughed at your question and tried to lean closer to you. But you took a step back. It was too much for you.

"Because a beautiful women like you shouldnt be alone in a place like that." He said putting his hand on your hips, which you immediately shaked off.

And at this moment someone pushed the man away. It was Changkyun. "Don't come close to her, she's mine. Understand?" You could see his jaw clenching.

"Okay, okay. Got it. Chill man." The guy said laughing and walking away.

You were happy that he was here but at the same time you were confused how he knew where you've been.

"Changkyun? What are you doing here?"

"I should ask you the same question!!!" He yelled at you. "What was that? Who was this guy?" He was really mad. And you didn't like that he yelled at you like that... especially when you didn't do anything wrong.

He was angry seeing some guy that close to you, especially that lately you distanced yourself from him.

You suddenly become anxious, tears forming in your eyes, you lowered your head down. When Changkyun saw that you become tense, he shook his head and sadness took over his anger. He hated seeing you crying. And he knew that you really badly endure if someone is yelling at you.

"It's okay, I'm sorry. I didn't wanted to yell at you. I'm sorry." His voice soften as he took a step forward and took your hands in his. You relaxed by his touch.

"Let's go home, Okay?" You nodded your head to his question.

"But first I have to tell girls that I'm leaving" and as you said you quickly swiped of tears and went to the dance floor where girls were dancing and said that you are leaving with your boyfriend. Of course they wanted you to stay and tried to hold you but Changkyun intervened and they let you go.

You were driving in silence for the most of the ride. And it wasn't a comfortable silence. You both could feel the tension.

"Sooo you still didn't answer my question. What you were doing at the party? I thought that you were studying tonight." He asked looking at the road and avoiding an eye contact. You felt so terrible. You didn't want to lie to your boyfriend but you still was sad that he thought that you are clingy. And studying was an excuse to not to spend time with him and give him space. But right now you started to have doubts about it.

"I was but Mia decided that they can't leave me alone so I had to go with them." You answered mirroring Kyuns behaviour, looking ahead on the road.

"Oh, so you have time to go out to drink but you don't have time to give me at least one call, huh?" You could feel that he was hurt. But so you were too.

"I thought that I'm a burden to you so I decided to give you space..." You put your head low and started to play with your fingers.

At that time you arrived at your apartment parking.

"What? I've never said anything like that. Where did you get this from?" Finally he turned to look at you.

"But you did say something like that. About a week ago, when I came to the studio the door to your room was open and I've heard you complaining about me to Soobin. You said that you have enough of spending a lot of time with me and that I'm clingy. So I decided not to come in and instead I went home." Holding his both hands on the wheel he listened to you carefully as you quietly explained your point of view.

"I don't even know what to say right now YN." he looked at you with mixed emotions. You couldn't say if he is angry, sad or just disappointed. "Then don't say anything" that proved that he didn't care about you so you wanted to get out of the car as quick as possible but his hand on your shoulder stopped you.

"Don't. Please. I'm sorry, listen..." When you looked at him with teary eyes he thought that his heart stopped. It really hurt you what he said a week ago. Changkyun took your hand and hold in his both hands.

"Yn, baby. I didn't want to say that. I didn't mean that, really." He hold your chin and put it up so you were looking at him. "I love you and I love spending time with you, please believe me." A tear went down your face and he swiped it with his thumb.

"I just had a hard day. We are finishing my album and everything is just stressing me out. I know that it is not an excuse but I seriously had no idea why I said that, I'm sorry."

"Can I hug you?" You asked shyly and Kyun immediately hugged you caressing slowly his hand on your back and the other hand patting gently your head.

"If I ever say something like that again just punch me in the face" He said, which make you laugh.

"Do you want me to stay with you for the night?" He asked While still hugging you. You pulled out from his embrace. "Yes, if you can..."

"Of course I can baby" he said kissing your lips.

And that's how you both spent the night drinking wine and talking about this whole week. He said sorry to you a couple more times and promised that you are his favourite person and he will never have enough of you.

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[golden-barnes]

So I have this concept in my head I think I even shared it with another writer. But anyway here it goes. Reader is the cook at the avengers tower and Bucky is convinced she's working for Hydra. He thinks she was sent to trick him and spy on him. His reasoning is she always where's these aprons that reminds him of his ma. Different aprons for every occasion. She always has 40s music playing and is always singing along and dancing. She's this soft feminine bundle of sunshine. And her chocolate chip cookies taste just like his ma's. He knows she's evil but she's really just wonderful. He has fallen for her but doesn't realize it and is constantly trying to get her to reveal that she is a Hydra agent. She just wants to make him happy because she saw what he was like when he was healing after what Hydra did and harbors a huge crush. She actually got the recipe from his sister before she passed away to make them to help Steve adjust and started making them for both of them. Anyway I'm done rambling.

Your freaking BRAINNNNN. Ugh if this starts a series in my page Im blaming you because I am obsessed but also don't have enough time to write a full story so I might do something longer later with this idk. (also I'm envisioning a chubby plus size reader because it just felt right) Hope you like it!

Warning: swearing

"Hey, Robocop, could you stop glaring at our new cook?" Sam joked, noticing his friend glaring at their newest cook.

"She's a spy, Sam." Sam scoffed at the ridiculousness of Bucky's words.

"Bucky, she is baking an upside-down pineapple cake and wearing a pink and white apron while dancing to a Nat King Cole song. If she's a spy, Beyonce is my wife." Sam tried to reason with the soldier, but Bucky glared at him.

"Maybe that's what Hydra wants you to think. They are trained to be unsuspecting and blend in." Bucky whispered to Sam, looking at the cook, who was singing the lyrics of the song that was playing. He was transported back in time when his mom and sister would do the same thing. And there she was, (Y/N) in his mom's summertime apron, singing one of his mom's favorite songs. Hydra was getting sloppy with their spies if this was what they were sending.

After his therapy session, Bucky arrived at the compound and noticed a plate of chocolate chip cookies on the kitchen counter. He didn't think much, but he grabbed one and ate it.

He paused and looked at the cookie. It was exactly like his ma's recipe. He could feel his eyes water because he hadn't realized how much he missed these fucking cookies.

"Hello, Sargent. Like the cookies?" The alleged spy asked. She was wearing a very familiar floral apron. An apron he used to laugh at, saying it looked like his nana's curtains. His ma would always stick her tongue out in retaliation. Maybe he should try and see if she has the same reaction...

"Nice apron... Kinda looks like my grandma's curtains." (Y/N) laughed at his joke.Like a full belly laugh. She looks cute, Bucky thought. But immediately shook his head. Nope, this girl that looks like a warm hug personified is evil.

"It does kinda look like that. My grandma had the same one." She said, twiddling with the edge of the apron. Hydra really trained this one well.

And every day it was like this. Bucky would find her singing and dancing with an apron that was exactly like the one his mom would wear. It was driving him insane. Sam had tried to reason with him, but everything felt like a trap. It was like Hydra stole his memories and was recreating them with a beautiful lady that was just Bucky's type.

But today, it was Bucky's last straw. (Y/N) was wearing his ma's favorite red apron. And he knew it was his ma's because he could see the J and R embroidered in the apron's hem. Bucky had bought the apron, and Becca embroidered it as a Mother's Day gift.

"Cookie?" She asked, showing him a plate of freshly baked chocolate cookies. They smelt exactly like the ones ma' used to make. It angered him.

"What's your deal? How did you get this recipe and that apron?" Bucky growled. (Y/N) took a step back, but she didn't look scared.

"You know the bakery in Queens called Paulie's?" She started saying; Bucky nodded. His mom used to bring them there anytime they were going to celebrate something special in their family.

"I used to work there part-time in high school. So did Rebecca, your sister... She was the head baker there and taught me all the recipes I knew. A lot of them were your mom's. When she retired and moved in with her grandson, she gave me all these beautiful aprons. I am sorry if it made you uncomfortable. " She said honestly.

Bucky kept looking into her eyes to search for a lie. But there wasn't any there.

"Steve went to Paulie's and tried my cookies. He said it tasted like your mom's, and that's when SHIELD hired me. They thought having a familiar aspect would be easier for your transition." She confessed.

"And the music?" Bucky whispered. He felt kinda nice; she wasn't a spy. She was just a woman who had a connection with his sister. Maybe he could find out more about her last moments through her.

"She wouldn't work if she didn't have music playing in the background. I think I just adopted that habit." She said sheepishly. Bucky chuckled; his mom was the same.

"Would you like to learn how to back?" She added and Bucky nodded, holding back the tears.

"Sure, I would love to." The smile that she gave him was worth a million dollars and he would gladly pay it if it meant he would see it again. To think he thought it was a fucking Hydra spy.

[ja3yun]

okay i woke up an hour ago but GOD BE DAMNNED i won’t give you the best reactions or as much as i can of them BUT AH OKAY HERE WE GO

“All you get from Heeseung is knowing stares and a sly smile plastered on his face.” now me kinda needs evil!heeseung 🧌🧌🧌🧌 LIKE JUST IMAGINE man🫠 i shouldn’t imGine..

im gonna be so sad abt yn and jaeyun 😭 (ive been feeling emotional abt jake lately too and hearing well reading this makes me sad helpp but anyway jaeyun doll is mine)

naur ure so stupid yn 😭 what r u doing in his room

“His room is dull, his curtains remaining shut despite the summer weather outside. Come to think of it, you haven’t ever seen him sit out the front with the others, only ever being in their presence when he has to be.” A VAMPIRE ?

😥😥soonyeol barely in this fic and idk she gives me the ick is it bad lmaoo

🧌 now . angels and demons . ? I WAS EXPECTING SOMETHING THAT SAYS BEYONCE U HAD ME FOOOOLEEED (im not disappointed i just thought u were inventing some new supernatural creature out there by how u were saying we were nothing of sort close)

HELP THE SUPERNATURAL REFERENCE SJSKDKSKS love that

JAEYUN AN ANGEL SO RIGHTT hes so 🥹😭🥹😭🥹 woah . let me get a grip (ill steal jaeyun doll)

“If Jaeyun was an evil spirit, that would have destroyed any perception you had of him,” that would’ve been fun 😭💀 HELP

wait . guardian angel . they feel a connection. jake was supposed to be her guardian angel . mystery solved.

SUNGHOON DEMON OMG OK “Honestly, you should have known, he fucks you like he was part of the incubus club” real ! we need more sunghoon!tdh now i have barely seen anything of that !! (jk)

WHAT TBE FUCK HEESEUNG THE THREATNING BROO GTFO

Heeseung flashing eyes ermm AJ did u write heeseung with crowley in mind 🤣

aw jay is a guardian angel too :( or was 🧌

wait but if hes a guardian angel why he called hell 😥 oh for fuck sake why is everything ABOUT THIS SONNY BITCH

(can i pls have a jaeyun!guardian angel fic now bc 🥲🥲 im deprived)

gorl. gIRL . GIRL . PRINce oF HELL NAUR BC I WAS KINDA CLOSE TO IT WHEN I ME TIONED CAIN 😭😭😭😭😭 BUT THATS A MF PRINCE OF HEAVEN BUT IN SUPERNATURAL HE WAS A MF PRINCE OF HELL I CANT I WANT TO DIE but holy fuck kskakdkekdnelxe

oh god yn how can u be horny when u found out all of this odlwlfkwlf

“Don’t you see it? How you took Soonyeol’s place so easily, falling into her role like you were born to be ours, like we were made for you.” i mean that was kinda the plot yn had to take over bc she was looking for someone to take care of yall its ur fault u guys got exposed 🕴️

“Are you going to fuck a Prince from Hell?” girl if he was heeseung me too get on with it !

NO BUT JAEYUN URE NOT RUINING JAEYUN FOR ME MF !!! i am so serious give me doll jaeyun rn wtf

"I am your God now." im sat 🧎🏻‍♀️

This might only be for tonight but he will try and make it last an eternity. oh🤣OH CMON lets just kill the sonny bitch

“I’d love to rip that soul from your body and stuff you in a doll suit so I can fuck you forever.” is this foreshadowing 🧌😥

“look at you baptising me” IM SORRY I SNORTED 😭😭😭😭

“Say the word and she's gone, baby," WELL PERSONALLY . im saying the word . please . please . please give me doll jaeyun

I KNEW IT JAKSKDLALD I KNEW IT HE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE YN GUARDING DMKSCKLWKFLE JAEYUN SOULMATE SMSKSL i hope u know u implemented smth in my mind rn and im gonna expect a soulmate!jake epilogue or smth 🧌🥲

okay i love the ending but i still think we should kill the bitch and have yn go back !

ok seriously this was REALLY AMAZING SJSKD im so happy 😭😭😭😭 my jaeyun 😭😭😭😭 i was in a heeseung brainrot which quickly changed to jaeyun im so serious i need myself jaeyun doll will u give him to me plz 👉🏻👈🏻

OKAY AJ ! YOU OUTDID AGAIN !! im really serious when i say that this whole fic was really REALLY amazing !! 🙂‍↕️ i loved it and i don’t usually read like supernatural fics unless its a vampire one SO reading this was like a new door opening to me too 🧌

SKDKD ANYWAY SLAY ! jake endgame 🩷🩷🩷☺️☺️☺️🩷☺️ i love a jake endgame . please epilogue with jake!soulmate endgame 🫶🏻🩷🎀

soonyeol still giving you the ick 😭 i even tried to make her nice sjdhkashd

if i had the mental capacity, it would have written og demons or whatever but the research i was doing let me just tell you, there is a demon and angel for everything like literally everything so it was so difficult

when you mentioned cain it had me sweating! (also yes i was thinking about crowley bc you know thats my man and i love him 😘)

the amount of people that love the 'baptising me' dialogue is so funny bc i was wondering if it was too cringy but personally i find it hot idk

baby ilysm for enjoying this series with me! i can grant you the jake doll but you'll have competition so just be aware (i'll start manufacturing them) <3

[souliebird]

hi !!

i know you're not asking anyone's opinion but i think the skull tattoo w the mushroom crown would be so cool! idk i like the idea of that the best. Hopefully you get a tattoo soon tho! I just got my second tattoo and im in love

i came here to say that i loved Addicted. the silent drop was crazy (it's giving beyonce dropping lemonade and walking away) i was like oh ???? interesting indeed. after i read it ? i was like oh... how interesting 🥹

i honestly loved how you wrote that fic. the way you so clearly wrote depression was almost scary 😭 it almost had me wondering if YOU are okay lmao

but seriously, the writing was amazing. the way you obviously portrayed depression without stating what it is, even once, was really impressive. i feel like that's an emotion that's really hard to describe in any capacity, so reading it in Addicted really had me feeling for the reader. A+ writing for that alone.

i also really liked how Addicted included the hardest part (in my opinion) of that kind of relationship, which is those small glimmers of hope you get that keep you going. It's like those small crumbs of matt that reader was able to get was enough to keep reader from the brink of starvation. enough to keep reader from wanting more/wanting anything different. idk if that makes sense but i hope it does.

anyway, i could go on for longer but i don't wanna bore you. i really liked the fic and i hope you keep going!!! thank you sm for sharing it!!!

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Thank you for such a wonderful ask!!!

First for my tattoo, I probably won't be able to get anything until later this year, but the idea is a crow skull someone would find on a forest floor that's got new signs of life on it. A mushroom crown frown and some spider webs and such.

I get nervous talking about my work bc I believe ppl aren't interested in hearing it. I also get nervous if I mention I'll do something, I'll disappoint ppl if I don't deliver. If no one expects anyone, only I can be disappointed by it :')

You are the second person to ask if I'm okay based on this fic and the answer is I'm not!!!! But it helps me have the words and description to portray it, so crippling depression is good for something.

I'm glad you enjoyed the fic!! I am actually rather proud of how it came out. I love the cycle that Reader and Matt are in and I like imagining the different explanations of why this is happening and what will happen after. Will Matt take her out of the apartment and get her help or will it continue until something breaks.

I love angst and @bellaxgiornata inspired me to do some heavy Matt angst. I don't think this will be as popular as other fics, but sometimes you just need a good hurty one.

[bluemoonjayy]

𝗥𝗢𝗟𝗟𝗘𝗥𝗖𝗢𝗔𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗥 𝗢𝗙 𝗘𝗠𝗢𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗦

[𝕸𝖆𝖙𝖙 𝖘𝖙𝖚𝖗𝖓𝖎𝖔𝖑𝖔 𝖝 𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖊𝖗]

𝘚𝘜𝘔𝘔𝘈𝘙𝘠: ʏ/ɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ ʏᴠᴇ ɢᴏ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴀʀɴɪᴠᴀʟ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴇᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏᴡɴᴇʀ'ꜱ ᴋɪᴅꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴀ ᴄᴀʀᴏᴜꜱᴇʟ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇʏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ

[PART 1] [PART 2]

PLAYLIST

Long way 2 go by Cassie

Not around by Nova

I wanna be yours by arctic monkeys

Donk by Beyonce

Favorite by Isabel larosa

9 am in Calabasas x vixen by Ayesha Erotica (fanmade)

Video games by Lana Del Rey

[I RECOMMEND THE SLOWED VERSION]

BEFORE READING

- English is not my first language so I apologize for any mistakes :')

- please tell me if you like it 🫶

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-what’s your name by the way?- we sit -i never asked you, sorry-

-i’m y/n and don't worry!- with all the courage that I have I take his hand

The boy frozes for some seconds and I see him blushing

-i-i think you already know b-but I'm Matt…- he clearly is embarrassed by the situation and honestly I feel the same since i never flirted with anyone before

The waiter brings us our ordinations and we detach

-do you want some beer?- I decline the offer

-im 19, you know…- the brunette looks at me shocked

-i thought you were 21 like me- he says pouring the beer into the glass -you look older-

-they always tell me this- i say chuckling

We finish the drinks and Matt offers to pay but I try to stop him

He still pays and I hit him on the shoulders jokingly

-next time I'm gonna pay- I say in a fake offended tone

-sure sweetheart- he smiles and I do so too to hide my embarrassment

we walk trought the attractions

-oh my god!- i head to a stand and Matt follows me -my favorite character, Leon Kennedy!-

-you have great taste, I see- I look at him -i would love to have this plushie but I can't shoot unfortunately- my face gets sadder

-i'll do it for you- Matt suddenly says -what? Really?- he nods

-aw! Thank you so much!- I hug him

The boy takes some seconds to process what just happened but still proceeds to hug me back

I am so happy!

He pays the man and some shoots after Matt wins the Leon Kennedy's plushie that he hands to me

-here you go- the brunette winks

I take the plushie and hug it, clearly happy to have it in my hands

-thank you again, really...- i try to take my wallet -i should give you your money back- he interrupts me -honey, listen...I don't care about the money- the boy takes my hand -your happiness is more important to me-

I smile softly not knowing what to say

-you're really sweet!- our eyes interlock for a moment that feels like hours

He seems to close the distance from us

Suddenly my phone rings and I answer

-y/n, we have to go home! Unless you wanna sleep here- I look at matt for a second -okay, see you at the entrance- I hang up the call

The boy waits for me to tell him something

-i have to go...- his eyes sadden -you'll come tomorrow again, right?-

-i'll try- I look at him a last time -see you- I wink at him and run to my friend

-you have to give me explanations- she says

-ugh, right- I tell her about Matt, the fact that I might like him

At first she's surprised but waits for me to finish -thats amazing, y/n!- Yve hits me on the shoulder -im really happy for you-

I thank her and we head home while talking about what happened

MATT POV

-Matt! Where have you been?- Chris walks towards me

-i was just going around, you know- I didn't really want to make him know about y/n since my brother usually makes fun of me

-i saw you with a girl actually- he raises an eyebrow -something happened?-

"do I really have to tell him?"

-fine...yeah, I was with a girl and no, nothing happened-

-ohhh! I'll be an uncle?- as I'm about to reply Nick arrives

-what? we'll be uncles?- I rool my eyes

-guys, we just met- I tell them -she's amazing but...-

-you don't know how to tell her how you feel?- my eyes open and I look at the ground -yeah-

-listen...- he lays his hand on my shoulder -dont be afraid of telling her anything or you might regret it in the future-

I smile, maybe after all asking my brothers for help isn't a bad idea

-thank you, guys-

-i just came here but yeah, you're welcome- Nick says and we all laugh

We close the carousel and go to a hotel

"tomorrow I'll tell her everything" I think as I lay on my bed "I can do it"

My eyes close and I peacefully fall asleep thinking about her

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞

SORRY IF ITS A BIT SHORT :'(

[flhoarder]

Calling you JV the way you say 'don't make me seem like a Lana fan' and then give him *Fishtail* instead of a more popular one <3

(which if anything in this hypothetical modern day billboard 100 AU is possibly even more incriminating than him doing Young and Beautiful or something he can just blame as a random earworm from the radio because they kept playing it)

Also potentially cursed version of that ask, new karaoke place, but they (if you want to do the rest of 41st as well go ahead) only have the top 10 pop singles from like 2000s onwards. What songs are they singing (or forcing themselves to sing). Who demostrates their Lady Gaga knowledge, pulls out some quickly forgotten 2005 hit, or reveals apparently the only popular songs they know are Gangnam style and Pineapple pen of all things ect.

NONO I CAN EXPLAIN

...Okay, Norman and Ocean Blvd are pretty cool. And possibly Chemtrail. Possibly. And Lust for Life. IM NOT A FAN

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Aha it is cursed and I like this a lot, upon first glance it's embarrassing how many of these songs I can still sing along to

...Alright then, 41 C wing (supposedly and mostly, anyway) karaoke. A handful of people agreed to go. Pryce is paying. They left the station all at the same time but somehow some of them are still late.

Sorted by the order of their arrival time:

McCoy: First one to arrive because he has discipline and he makes his partner do a song with him. Threatens to do WAP but no one is surprised by the choice of song coming from fuckboy McCoy, which discourages him. He ends up doing Circus by Britney Spears and Starboy by The Weekend instead. One is a feel-good confidence boost for him, the other is just straight up truth. He is a motherfucking starboy with the highest body count in the whole building. Competition? He don't pay attention.

Vicquemare: Doesn't want to come but knows Harry's going to be here so he's here too. Annoyed that McCoy's on time but Harry isn't, even more annoyed to see McCoy doing a song with his partner. Goes on to get out a few dry lines from Show me the meaning of being lonely in the name of soundcheck before the second group come in. He's got the right vibes for the song, but he waits until Harry gets here and goes on to do Without me by Halsy, the entire time not breaking eye contact with Harry. It’s probably the most downbeat and grim version of the song anyone has ever done in history. He also doesn't hit half of the notes even after dropping 5 octaves from the original vocal but its the message that counts. The only people who don't find this unnerving are Harry and Ptolemy Pryce. Actually it’s so uncomfortable that no one even brings up the question as to how he even knows about the song, they are just happy to see him pass the mic.

Minot: Arrives with Jean. She's not against coming here but it's not one of her top 3 places to be. Thinks its a good idea to get the song out before the second group show up. Puts out a few solid lines from Formation by Beyonce before calling it good. Jean is the only one who's not surprised by how much she rocks the song and how well it works with her voice. She slays.

Kitsuragi: That's right, he's here because Harry literally called up 57 every other day for a whole week just to ask him to come. He finally caved on the 7th day and said yes to that. Does Maps by Maroon 5 and before anyone is shocked, he explains that he doesn't dedicate songs but if he had to this would be dedicated to his partner. Jean rocks back in his seat when he hears that but an insider tells him just in time that Kim is referring to his previous partner at 57. Kim drops 3 octaves from the original vocal and manages to make the song sound mournful with a hint of wistful longing. There's not a dry eye in the audience when he's done, and he knows it. (RIP, Eyes. You are missed.)

Pidieu (Jules:) Was planning on doing This I promise you by NSYNC because he's heard it way too much when he used to drive Apricot to school. Last minute changes to I want it that way by Backstreet boys, a song he's also heard way too much during that time. The reason for the change is because Apricot told him that young people nowadays actually still liked that song. Turns out she’s right and the song becomes a group effort as soon as Jules hits the *my fire* line.

Pidieu (Apricot:) New Rules by Dua Lipa, some of the boys are curious as to why she cuts into this song like nobody's business, a brave one almost jokingly requests Hips don't lie, but one look from her shuts them all up. Not everyone can handle Pryce's business like she does, and it certainly shows.

Torson: Alejandro by Lady Gaga. He says he's doing it for a joke and makes a really bad attempt at the accent, but after passing the first two lines he gets really serious about it, at the end it almost makes him choke up. He actually really likes the song, it makes him feel some kinda way. He's not afraid to admit it, there are two women that no one can make fun of in front of Mack Torson, one of them is his mum, the other one is Lady Gaga.

McLaine: Super Bass by Nicki Minaj. Somebody tell them who the fuck he IS. Its a good attempt and he gets Mack to join in on the chorus to give the song a boost. A for effort and the energy is off the fucking roof, even though he doesn't hit many notes.

Heidelstam: Is late because he had to drop Mikael off home and make dinner first. Gets on the stage and whips out Positions by Ariana Grande. He heard this song on the radio and liked the tune, played it a lot on his commute even though he couldn't make out most of the words in the song except something about kitchen and bedroom which he felt spoke to the depth of his soul. After a while he finally looked the lyrics up, it didn't change his opinion, but he doesn't play it when Mikael is in the car anymore. Anyway, he kills the song, even though there's mumbling in between where it gets a bit more explicit. Gotta appreciate a dad's attempt, though. He also benefits from having a relatively higher pitch in his voice comparing to the rest of 41.

Du Bois: When Harry gets here he's already got a bottle of red down. Crawls up the stage to sing Perfect by Ed Sheeran, dedicating the song to EVERYONE in the audience. Jean is very snarky about it but becomes visibly less annoyed after Harry mentions his name on the list of people he likes during his drunk chat on the mic. Kim doesn't comment on it, but he thinks Harry does the song solid.

Gottlieb: Shows up close to the end, off his face drunk. Chooses Swimming Pools (Drank) by Kendrick Lamar to sing. Even at his drunkest he knows his voice and knows exactly how to use it. For most people it's a tough song to do, and not many can get the song exactly right, but he does. It's not like he's going to remember this tomorrow morning, but he woos the crowd tonight.

Pryce: Oh yes. Did you think he was going to miss out on this? Sadly he has to go because Captain duties. The song he put in the queue earlier on was We R who we R by Kesha. It's not clear whether he intended to sing or just queueing it up for when the timer ran out. Don't ask.

[leonsliga]

A tour through Leon’s Facebook:

Thank you, FC Bayern München! Mona Lisa will be jealous. 😂😎

#derPokalhatseineganzeigenengesetze #puh — #thecuphasitsownlaws #puh

Ein Bild sagt mehr als 1000 Worte. — A picture says more than 1000 words.

The eagle has landed. 🚁🙏👊

🕶️ -gefunden ! 😜 — 🕶️ -found! 😜

Wer weiß wofür es im billard ne blaue nase gibt ? 😜 — Who knows what a blue nose is for in billiards?

Hexenkessel abgekühlt und eine gute Ausgangslage geschaffen 💪🏼😊 jetzt gilt es sich gut zu erholen, um Sonntag in der Bundesliga wieder mit vollen Akkus starten zu können ! — Witches cauldron cooled down and created a good starting position 💪🏼😊 Now it's time to recover well so that we can start Sunday in the Bundesliga again with full batteries!

Zu viel Kuchen gegessen ?! 🎂 Ate too much cake?! 🎂

Die nächste Aufgabe wartet schon 😊 — The next task is already waiting 😊

Max Meyer & Ich sind sowas von bereit 😉😜 — Max Meyer and I are so ready 😉😜

Grüße von da, wo die Sonne scheint 😉☀️ —Greetings from where the sun shines 😉☀️

Die Vorbereitung auf Samstag hat heute begonnen ! 💪🏼⚽️🔵⚪️ Benedikt Höwedes will weider drängeln bei den Koordinationsübungen 😅🙈 — Preparation for Saturday started today! 💪🏼⚽️🔵⚪️ Benedikt Höwedes wants to keep pushing during the coordination exercises 😅🙈

#seidihralleaufdemweg #wieisteuertipp — #areyouallonyourway #whatisyourtip

Ich: Kein Tor gemacht 😡//Er: 2 Tore gemacht 😀🎉🎉🎉 — me: no goal scored 😡//him: 2 goals scored 😀🎉🎉🎉

#schnippschnappnewcut 😛

Überragendes Konzert von Beyonce 🙏🏼✌🏼— Outstanding concert by Beyonce 🙏🏼✌🏼

Bei über 30 Grad und einer Luftfeuchtig von 89% - viel trinken !! ☝🏼😜 — At over 30 degrees and a humidity of 89% - drink a lot!! ☝🏼😜

Ich fahre nächste Saison den Mannschaftsbus ?! 🙈✌🏼😜 🚐💨…🚓🚓🚓 — I’ll drive the team bus next season?! 🙈✌🏼😜 🚐💨…🚓🚓🚓

Der neue Wachlöwehund 🙉😳😍🦁🐶 — the new guard lion dog 🙉😳😍🦁🐶

Cooler Typ, cooles Bild 👉🏼👈🏼🙉🙈 — Cool guy, cool picture 👉🏼👈🏼🙉🙈

Kreditkarte glüht 💸 — Credit card glows 💸

Kleines Käffchen nach dem obligatorischen Vapianobesuch ! 🤓😉 — A little coffee after the obligatory Vapiano visit! 🤓😉

Mussten wir was gegen die juckenden Füße tun 😍⚽️ — We had to do something about the itchy feet 😍⚽️

Auch hier nochmal. ab sofort bin ich für euch auch bei snapchat unterwegs 😉✌🏼 — Here again. From now on I’m on Snapchat for you too 😉✌🏼

Germany’s next top model 😂

Erst Training gehabt und jetzt in der Sonne entspannen. ☀️ Was macht ihr? — First had training and now relaxing in the sun. ☀️ What are you doing?

Kleinen Lauf um den Ümminger #catchmeifyoucan — Small run around the Ümminger #catchmeifyoucan

Ich habe heute die Gelegenheit genutzt um mal wieder die alte Schule zu besuchen 🤓😂📝 — I took the opportunity today to visit the old school again 🤓😂📝

Hatten einen schönen Abend mit den Jungs in Hamburg ! 😊 super Musical, sehr empfehlenswert! — Had a nice evening with the guys in Hamburg! 😊 Great musical, highly recommended!

✌🏼 Leute ! 😊 Ab sofort werde ich diese Facebook-Seite selbst führen und euch persönlich mit Neuigkeiten aus meinem Leben nerven ! 😁 — ✌🏼 People! 😊 from now on, I will run this Facebook page myself and annoy you personally with news from my life! 😁

[kakiastro]

Astrology of

Beyonce

This going to be a long post cause im breaking down her chart as much as I can so get comfy

Shes known around the world and is the biggest entertainer right now! But what does her chart say and can it reveal how she became the biggest idol in the world? Well lets have a look

This is a chart on astro seek

Lets start with her ascendant + chart ruler since that represent you.

-She a libra rising which means her chart ruler is venus which is also in libra conj her rising. So this means seen as a very creative and beautiful woman. Libra represents other people especially close relationships. So this tells me that the public will feel like they have a personal relationship with her through her creativity. Shes also a fashion icon as shes always on the cover of the biggest fashion magazines

Now i want to talk about her sun and moon/4h

Shes a virgo sun 11h. Shes known to have a crazy work ethic and she takes her work seriously. With her sun being in the 11h, shes gained mass popularity. Wherever house the sun is in, thats where you shine. The 11h rules over society and mass population. Even if she didnt become a singer, she would still leave her mark in this world somehow. Now lets talk about her moon.

-Shes a scorpio moon 2h. She puts all of her passionate energy into her work. Remember scorpio is traditionally ruled by Mars and modern Pluto. Her moon is in the house of wealth, investments, and the throat/voice. This explains why people are crazy in love (yes thats a pun) with her! Her voice stirs something deep within themselves.

-The moon represent the mother and also the 4h in general. Now she has a Capricorn 4h with south node there as well. I remember reading one time about how beyonce is a descendant of a few french aristocrats, which wouldnt surprise sense Capricorn rules over that. She has south node here at 29°. South node represents pass life so I would argue that maybe shes an incarnation of one of her ancestors and with the 29° shes close to completing a cycle within her bloodline. Also with cap 4h, her dad was her longtime manager, so he became a close figure in her life.

Now i want to talk about her mercury, Mars, Mc

So her Libra Mercury is in the 12. Shes very private and doesnt talk to the media for interviews that often and when she does, she still private about certain topics. The 12h rules over music and mercury is communication so her music is hypnotizing to people. She also has a strong intuition but she’ll never tell you what shes really thinking. Shes also very charming and likable, she may actually be really shy when you talk to her.

-Her Cancer MC is in the 10h. Her family was going to be in the spotlight one way or another. This also explains why her loyal fanbase defends and go to war for her. Cancer is known the mama bear, very protective of there loved ones and on a public scale that would be her fans. Ive noticed her Leo Mars is closely aspected to her North Node(fate/destiny)and Mc. she does get a lot of hate (mars energy) as being “. “overhyped”, or “shes too much” but lucky for her she has a fanbase whos about that life and not afraid to go there😂 i also love how shes nicknames as Queen Bey and mars is close to her mc in leo which rules over kings and queens

I hope you enjoyed this reading and I plan on doing celebrity post in the future!

Hope you have a good day

[taegularities]

Rid you're crazyyyyyyyyyyy

just finished cmi11 IM FUCKING CRYING holy shit that was so good oh god

first of all the conversation between oc and her mom made me cry so hard- it hit home for me, as a girlie with mommy issues, that part felt so real to me. Oc's courage to stand up for herself like that and tell her how much she hurt her own daughter is something i dont have in me. It broke my fucking heart, that yearning feeling, i cant believe you put that specific feeling into words rid [are u part of the mommy issues community as well🧐 or are u just that amazing, a true fucking artist (i saw that anon calling you the beyonce of ff and i agree 100%)] idk how to describe my feelings rn, that part definitely left a mark in my heart, ill never forget it

second the domesticity in these two dorks oh my goddddd they're driving me crazy, theyre so cute and in love and im in love with them and i want to cry bc i want what they have but bc irl men suck the hopeless romantic in me is gonna have to live through fanfics for the rest of my life and that makes me fucking miserable but bless the fanfic gods like you that keep my soul alive, idk what id do without you

lastly that scareeeeee oh god like i knew itd be a negative but it had my heart beating out of my ass (idk if thats a phrase) but the way they handled it oh god, the emotionsssssss the fears and insecurities, just reminded me that theyre human, even if theyre the most fucking adorable characters ever, theyre still human and i loved seeing such nuance. You really are doing an amazing job rid, not only writing the story, scenes and dialogue, but also the way you write these characters in such depth, its so fucking refreshing to see.

i want to kiss your beatiful head that holds your beautiful brain, seriously ive never ever been so enchanted by a piece of writing before (and i read so much fanfiction its like an addiction) you are by far my strongest fix. For real tho, your writing, and particularly cmi has touched me deeply and I'll never ever forget it. So thank you

Rest assured and stop doubting yourself bc youre seriously incredible and so fucking talented. Now rest up and take care of yourself, i imagine its not easy to birth such work (i mean 36k you monster, i loved every second of it but damn girl take a break before you burn your brain out) but no srsly i hope youre eating well, sleeping well and doing things that make you happy and relaxed. You deserve all the best of this world rid🫂🩷

sincerely ~ 🐼✒️anon

panda hi hello oh my gosh, sorry for being late, but you mentioned so many important things, so i wanted to take my time HELLO!! never stop sending these lovely af reviews 🥺

i know... she really is inspiring bc the courage to stand up against someone you feared for so long is admirable. i'm part of both the mommy and daddy issues community even though it's gotten a lot better lol like i wonder why it's such a recurring theme in my fics 🤣 i'm so sorry you could relate to oc :( but i'm glad you liked the scene so much.

and ahhh the domesticity 🤧 it's been so so fun and relaxing to write!! real life romance can be hard to find, yeah :') so i guess writing these scenes and chapters has been extra cathartic (although it drives me crazy, too — the next chapter has been making me so jejfhdjjsgd), but here's to finding a cmi jk irl soon :') much more to come!!!🕯️

the scare was one hell of a ride 🥺 i cried a lot!! and even i have been realising lately that i sometimes try to make my characters flawless, but that's actually not what i wanna go for. i always snap out of it and then try to make them flawed bc they're human, and i think the cmi couple, despite how endearing they are, is definitely vv flawed :') thank you for pointing that out 🥺

your strongest fix?? girl PLEASE ILL CRY 😭💔 i love you so much, you're so sweet for saying that and seeing me in such a way, pls i want you here forever <3 i rested a lot after cmi11! but ngl, cmi11.5 almost burned me out ksjdhehd gonna rest even more after that hehe. tyssssm, i hope you're well and healthy and i appreciate you so much for your kindness, reassurances and love for this series/me. love you so much 🤍

[the1975attheirverybest]

Hi!! Just want to share a hard time i've gone through this last month and I think only another the 1975 fan can understand (maybe).

I have to explain that I'm really really into music since as a little child, been through my emo fase and all hahaha. So I'm always that friend that people see as kind of a reference about music, you know? And the thing I like the most is going to shows. It always seemed to me the most wonderful experiece. I have severe FOMO when I can't go to a show of some artist I like.

I had to give this context cause I became a 1975 fan after the whole TS thing on tiktok. It felt very weird that I didnt listen to them before, because they are the kind of artist I tend to like.

The fact that I didn't know them before this made me feel so bad, like I was some kind of fraud? How could I miss this?? And so I found out they had come to my country several times, actuallly they came here this year!! And it gets worse! They played at Lollapalooza in my country several times and on days I was there and I didn't know them, so I didn't watch their show.

It made me so, so sad and anxious, I had to talk tô my psychiayrist about this hahaha I know It sounds soo silly but the FOMO is so real to me. Plus I was on vacation, so I didn't have much to do and my days were basicly listening to them, watching interviews and being here on Tumblr talking to you and another fan accounts.

My husband is the only one I can talk to about this but since he isn't into music he doesn't understand me haha. And I am ashamed to talk to my friends about it and they say something like "you just heard about this band, how can you feel like this?".

Sorry about the long text, I just wanted to get this out of my chest and I wonder If anyone been through something similar, so I don't feel like a crazy 12yo even though I'm 30yo hahaha.

no no no I can TOOOTTTAAALLLYYY understand. and as bad as you feel, its completely normal. But i have 3 things( maybe 4, idk, lets see where i go with this) to tell you:

When I first found the band my first reaction was THIS IS THE BEST THING I'VE EVER HEARD. immediately followed by "im so sad I missed two album drops with this band. all that time i felt weird and out of place and like i had no way of expressing myself, this shit has been under my nose all along and i missed it???" I was so upset. Cuz, like you, I love music. And im not afraid of mixing it up either. Like I listen to Hank Williams, Bob Dylan, Beyonce, The Beatles, Miley Cyrus, Talking Heads, AM, 1975, you name it. and im pretty snobby about it. like its "my thing" that keeps me sane. AND my academic specialties being philosophy and literature, its basically the crossover of my dreams, this band.

When I first got into them, I kept asking around to see if any of my friends had already been fans. Nope. Then I remembered Matty's "we're the biggest band that you've never heard of." which is sooo true. they have such a strong following, but it's mostly fans. no casual listeners who sort of know them and know his but couldn't name the drummer or couldn't name an album. you know what I mean? they're a very specific case.

MATTY TIMOTHY HEALY. THEEEE MATTY HEALY! who's knowledge of music rivals my own didn't know The Mountain Goats existed until Feb. 2023. that SHOCKED ME TO MY VERY CORE. They're very much up his alley too like how come????? these things happen! the 1975 are your mountain goats. and thats okay!

Rob Sheffield (terrific music journalist who writes for rolling stone) once said "the music will find you when the time is right" like sometimes if you force yourself to sit down and really listen to Leonard Cohen, you might just be like "meh. i dont see the appeal. not for me," But one random day, years later, after you've gone through some experiences or expanded your musical palette or whatever, you might encounter him again, totally accidentally, and it'll allllll make sense. It'll find you when you need it. The 1975 found you at the right time. And now you have them in your life. if you'd been forced to listen to them years ago maybe you would've been like "nope. not for me," and then kept that impression of them so that any time you encountered them you'd have brush it off like "ooh yeah. tried them. not that great. no thanks." so its better that you waited.

WELCOME TO THE FANDOM. SOO SOOOO GLAD YOU'RE HERE. AT LEAST SOMETHING GOOD CAME OUT OF THE WHOLE TS THING!

[kithtaehyung]

You won’t hold my hand (and you don’t have to thank you thank you thank you! Like still some angsty shit ahead but god am i relieved holy fuck), but you will read my live reactions… though i think i misunderstood and misinterpreted the brother reveal…

- Holding on to the order of angst, fluff, smut, idk if its the same order every time in the description but with the rest of the tags, if smut is last, there has to be plenty of fluff

- IT’S NOT NAMJOON!!!!!!!!!!!

- IT’S NOT HOBI!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- “If you can focus on your work shit, he can, too.” All up in his mind like Beyonce

- I saw her!!!!!!!! - biting my hand to not scare my neighbors

- Oh god, Ryen, dont take this from us: “Yoongi decides that he wants more of it. In a lot of other aspects of his life.”

- Jungkook no!!!! It better be Dom, please be Dom!!!!!

- “You were able to pull him upward.” Baby please continue to pull through oh god no fuck ahhh

- “If he’s gonna bow out, he’s gonna do all the shit he wants to do first. One last time before reality fully severs the string that shouldn’t have tethered to your heart.” No he’s going to break her… no no no no no

- ITS NOT JIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OHMYGOD!!!!!!!

- “If it was Yuri instead…” oop!!

- “Of course, this could just be another byproduct of your worrying, so you blaze past it. No more of that, remember? He’s proven himself over and over that you don’t have to second guess.” Ryen no!!!! How could you!!! Worry, girl worry!!!!

- “Kook said he saw you today.” YES YOONGI!!!!!!! TALK IT OUT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!!!!!!

- “Told him I’m seeing someone.” YES!!!!!!!!

- “He didn’t say no. He didn’t say no. Don’t assume anything and just follow his lead.” YES!!! RYEN THE BACK AND FORTH!!!! THIS IS TOO MUCH!!!

- “I could answer for him.” God this is so sexy… Ryen my emotions are all over the fucking place!! Im shaking!!!!!

- “Without even knowing if your feelings would reflect off the Moon.” Oh god, so painfully beautiful

- “Realizing that the last conversation you’ll have here mirrors the very first.” I’m really holding on to the hope that since there is so much angst already this will end in fluff 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

- “before going back to the table. // Where Yoongi hasn’t moved at all.” Ooo he’s replaying that convo from the other girl that happened there too isnt he… oh god

- “This old, silly man.” God i love her, please turn the tables and realize the power you have!!!!

- “I want all of it.” YEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSS!!!! COMMUNICATIOOOOOOOOOON!!!!!!

- “And you’ll be okay. No matter what happens now, you’ll brave those waters.” Ryen, I can’t, this is everything! Everything!

- “Your dick is big and I wanna suck it.” Ryen!!!! I love her!!!!!

- “The whole world needs to hear that.” I know there are still problems, and that they know there are… but they are so in love! Oh my god!!! 😭😭😭😭

- “But you won’t say them tonight. Partly because you don’t want to overshadow his vulnerability, and partly because there’s still a slice of you that needs a little more assurance.” Ah! Good for her!!!!

- Oh my god Holly!!!!!!!!!

- “You make me feel safe.” Yes boo tell her!!! Oh my god!!

- “Holy fuck, what else has he been screaming without a word?” shit

- “His hold on you gets tighter, and you feel the warmth of something sliding down your neck.” Shit shit shit shit shit shit oh god can i handle his tears??

- Ryen… the overstimulation… the riding… hands down the best smut i ever read, so filthy!!!

- “Gonna warn you now: you might get tired of me, doll.” 😭😭😭😭 thank you thank you thank you thank you

- Of fuck we’re doing Friday too??? Oh god… please dont be more angst oh god!!!

- “Because you’re a princess, he would say. And every princess needs a guard.” This is so fucking sweet i love this so much!!!!

- “Where’s my hi?” Bitch! Is he fuckin insane?!!?!?

- “Maybe telling him about Yoongi will be somewhat okay.” Oh god it’s going to be terrible oh my god

- “Feel like y’all can pick up where you left off.” Oh shit, oh god please dont send Yoongi back oh fuck

- “Yoongi [10:06pm]: It’s all good. I got us” oh thank fuck

And Jin is the brother?? For some reason i misread the convo and thought bro was saying his name like another person was in town. But he was talking in the third person… which is on brand lol

And for the record i did cry it was so beautiful. Just, all the dialogue as she is bravely stating what she wants as he’s eeking out his own confessions. Fucking masterful! I’m in awe, man. You’re so good at this! 💕

Now I have to go eat because I havnt yet lol

As always, just thank you!!

-🚌

Ooooooooh, I read things right the first time then! It’s not Jin, got it! -🚌

AHHHHH BUSSS i'm finally getting able to respond to the spoiler heavy reviews so let's get it😤

You won’t hold my hand (and you don’t have to thank you thank you thank you! Like still some angsty shit ahead but god am i relieved holy fuck), but you will read my live reactions… though i think i misunderstood and misinterpreted the brother reveal… Holding on to the order of angst, fluff, smut, idk if its the same order every time in the description but with the rest of the tags, if smut is last, there has to be plenty of fluff

that's correct!! i said i wouldn't hold any hands bc the fluff at the end :))) i wanted to spoil everyone but of course, we had to go through some TOUGH shit first ughhh. and i love live reactions! they're so fun to read lmfao i don't mind at alll. you ended up being right the first time, yeah dkdfjd it's none of them!

i always put it in the same order (angst, fluff, smut) since it's alphabetical :D putting it in different orders for the fic would be wayyy too spoiler-y !! wanna keep y'all on ur toes ehehe

- IT’S NOT NAMJOON!!!!!!!!!!! IT’S NOT HOBI!!!!!!!!!!!!! “If you can focus on your work shit, he can, too.” All up in his mind like Beyonce

ITS NOT THEMMM just rapline in the studio doing their thing :DD and he's still thinking of reader.. sigh..

- I saw her!!!!!!!! - biting my hand to not scare my neighbors Oh god, Ryen, dont take this from us: “Yoongi decides that he wants more of it. In a lot of other aspects of his life.” Jungkook no!!!! It better be Dom, please be Dom!!!!!

as soon as the her came out, it was all sorts of overthinking for us! and the quote that you put for yoongi :(( ughhhh yeah.

IT BETTER BE DOM DFHKSDHFSDF SDF

- “You were able to pull him upward.” Baby please continue to pull through oh god no fuck ahhh “If he’s gonna bow out, he’s gonna do all the shit he wants to do first. One last time before reality fully severs the string that shouldn’t have tethered to your heart.” No he’s going to break her… no no no no no

gosh, yoongi's and jungkook's whole conversation was full of unspoken feelings on both of their parts. and it's so sad to think that jk sees this as a beginning of sorts and yoongi sees it as the beginning of an end.

- “Of course, this could just be another byproduct of your worrying, so you blaze past it. No more of that, remember? He’s proven himself over and over that you don’t have to second guess.” Ryen no!!!! How could you!!! Worry, girl worry!!!! - “Kook said he saw you today.” YES YOONGI!!!!!!! TALK IT OUT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!!!!!! “Told him I’m seeing someone.” YES!!!!!!!! “He didn’t say no. He didn’t say no. Don’t assume anything and just follow his lead.” YES!!! RYEN THE BACK AND FORTH!!!! THIS IS TOO MUCH!!! “I could answer for him.” God this is so sexy… Ryen my emotions are all over the fucking place!! Im shaking!!!!!

the whole first kitchen scene took a long time to write. not as long as the second kitchen scene that took all of my brain power, but this one also took some writing and rearranging and editing/deleting. like the 3tan9 scraps docs is 3k+ words. i had to shave off a lot that didn't seem like it fit right! but i'm proud of reader for telling yoongi what she said to jk. like. that's a huge admission (aND it's literally reader's last thought in sundress season!!!! this wasn't a surprise but it is to yoongi :')))) )

yoongi saying "i could answer for him" got me good i'm glad you pointed that line out too LMAO

- “Without even knowing if your feelings would reflect off the Moon.” Oh god, so painfully beautiful “Realizing that the last conversation you’ll have here mirrors the very first.” I’m really holding on to the hope that since there is so much angst already this will end in fluff 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 “before going back to the table. // Where Yoongi hasn’t moved at all.” Ooo he’s replaying that convo from the other girl that happened there too isnt he… oh god

i'm glad you like the sun/moon analogy!! and i wanted to tie back to it with yoongi's kiss being moonlight. because.. what is moonlight? :'))) god i'm emotional all over again SDFKDFH

oh my goddd your last point i'm gonna fcking flip this gd table!!!!

- “This old, silly man.” God i love her, please turn the tables and realize the power you have!!!! “I want all of it.” YEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSS!!!! COMMUNICATIOOOOOOOOOON!!!!!! “And you’ll be okay. No matter what happens now, you’ll brave those waters.” Ryen, I can’t, this is everything! Everything!

old reader would've never called him silly. this was such a simple yet really hard hitting line for me.

COMMUNICATION BABYYY WE ARE ADULTS AND WE'RE GONNA FCKING T A L K. AND WE LOVE IT. yoongi's a straight-shooter. we know this. but after everything he's been thinking about himself? this was huge. and reader's braving the waters of her ocean<333

- “Your dick is big and I wanna suck it.” Ryen!!!! I love her!!!!! “The whole world needs to hear that.” I know there are still problems, and that they know there are… but they are so in love! Oh my god!!! 😭😭😭😭 “But you won’t say them tonight. Partly because you don’t want to overshadow his vulnerability, and partly because there’s still a slice of you that needs a little more assurance.” Ah! Good for her!!!!

I LOVE READER TOO i legit cackled when those words came out lmfaoooo and her saying that to yoongi, a very private person that doesn't show anyone his shit? that meant the universe, i feel like. she's so genuine and he just. i. don't even have words atp....

- Oh my god Holly!!!!!!!!! “You make me feel safe.” Yes boo tell her!!! Oh my god!! “Holy fuck, what else has he been screaming without a word?” shit “His hold on you gets tighter, and you feel the warmth of something sliding down your neck.” Shit shit shit shit shit shit oh god can i handle his tears??

HOLLYYYYYYY YESSSS and the feeling safe conversation?? like. psychological safety is incredibly important, and yoongi gives that to reader. we knew this. but she does the same for him and now that she knows what's going on in that brain of his? oh. i am so fcking excited to explore even more growth for the both of them.

- Ryen… the overstimulation… the riding… hands down the best smut i ever read, so filthy!!! “Gonna warn you now: you might get tired of me, doll.” 😭😭😭😭 thank you thank you thank you thank you

wait are you fr?? the best??? no wait that's too much praise i- thank you so damn much!!

and of course we have one of my fave lines from yoongi bc what did he say in a previous 3tan ask/tell? THISSS.

- Of fuck we’re doing Friday too??? Oh god… please dont be more angst oh god!!! “Because you’re a princess, he would say. And every princess needs a guard.” This is so fucking sweet i love this so much!!!! “Where’s my hi?” Bitch! Is he fuckin insane?!!?!? “Maybe telling him about Yoongi will be somewhat okay.” Oh god it’s going to be terrible oh my god “Feel like y’all can pick up where you left off.” Oh shit, oh god please dont send Yoongi back oh fuck “Yoongi [10:06pm]: It’s all good. I got us” oh thank fuck

we were doing friday too yessss!! i was about to cut it at the night at yoongi's, but i was like.. nah. we're doing this fck it lmao. i think it turned into a much more fitting ending spot, too.

AND HOBI I KNOWWWWWWWW but then. then. yoongi. i wanna box him so fcking bad put me in the ring right now.

finally we have the reason bro wanted reader to stay for the party. he wanted to surprise both of them. so that should say something about his feelings towards jungkook..

I GOT US. USSSSSS. GOODBYEEEEEEEE

And for the record i did cry it was so beautiful. Just, all the dialogue as she is bravely stating what she wants as he’s eeking out his own confessions. Fucking masterful! I’m in awe, man. You’re so good at this! 💕

argh you are so so nice for this amazing live commentary! i laughed, cried, everything. sending you tissues and a hug ASAPPP i'm honored you think it's masterful.. kinda blushing kinda shy kinda hiding in my hoodie hahahah thank you endlessly, bus!!!

[nanabannanna]

Honest.

I’ve thought about what to say to myself and how to forgive me for the things I've let happen. I think the best path to forgiveness is to recognize the mistakes or the lessons we’ve learned. I have learned to love you, when i say you i mean myself. I am not a stranger when i look in the mirror, when i brush my teeth, when i do my make up, i am not a stranger when i force myself to drink water, to eat, to wash my face. Why i feel like a stranger when i think about the moment we have shared together? It does not bother me how much, i mean, how little i think about you in comparison to a few weeks ago. It still haunts me when i think about it, but in weird little ways, as when i think about making a joke that you would laugh, or when i stare at something long enough and you would ask what am i thinking. But not in a sad way, at least not anymore. All the love songs have felt like a burden after we parted ways, but now when i listen to them i think about myself more than i think about others falling in love with me, i have this lovely way of think about me in a fond way that i get giggly, i am not kidding. I learned how to appreciate myself more than you did, or ever will. It bothers me how many times i go back to you while i write this, but i guess you are still haunting my way of seeing myself, but i am grateful. All this was a lesson, a lesson i shall carry with me till my last day breathing. I am not gonna carry you, but this lesson.  I caught myself the other day thinking about love and i came to the conclusion that i am, in fact, love. Not in this idealized way but in “i will make this little life that i have the best i can” way, and realized i actually like myself and my presence. I still need to do some healing of course but still, i have carried myself till this far in life. I made so much stuff, using stuff because of the lack of understanding in this language, but yes i accomplished a lot in life and till this day, i did not give myself credit for them. I used to put them in a box in the back of my mind and never remembered them, my fault i guess. Because who’s gonna remember and cherish them if not me? I made the choice of remembering me and the things im proud of. I was thinking, like right now, that the song Flaws and All by Beyonce is, of course, a love song, but i dedicate it to myself, i indeed have caught myself when i fell, and i have loved and do love myself with flaws and all. And that’s why i love me. You. But this time i know why i love me. It is nice to know myself, i am actually funny and lovely, i have thought about it before but never admitted it. When you are so deep down in negativity and drowned in other people’s perceptions of yourself, you never give yourself a chance of explaining why you are nice and cool, and explain how you see life and find beauty in all things. You have to give yourself a chance, you have to let yourself explain why, how. All things matter when it’s about finding you inside of yourself. Never give up on yourself, never let other people dictate how you see your self, how and why you feel things, you are universe experiencing life, let yourself feel what you need to feel and then work on it, work on things that you feel and you know does not vibrate with your heart. You should always work on yourself at all times. Maybe i went off track here, but still.  Anyways, i wanted to talk about love and myself. I need to work on that. I feel like i am so much different now, but still the same person in essence. Guess it’s just evolution.

[pilotheather]

OK god ep 2 since WHY would you DROP 2 EPISODES AT MIDNIGHT FUCK YOURSELF OTO HELL that little shit looks like eric remember eric from ep 1 ok i

henners get it together

guys we get it youre being fantastical this time roiund theres whimsy and theres horrors and theres sa CHRIST ON THE CHROSS

HENRY ARBINGER. HARBINGER?

RIGHT YEAH SURE FULL FUCKIJNG CAMP LETS GO FINE SURE

these effects can somenehep me

OKAY THE PIANO INTRO SLAY OR WHATEVER

boys do you want anything

WHYS THE BEATLES UJSUT THERE

RTHETES BEATLES YAOI IN MY FUCKING TV SHOW

whats the faces for that shit slaps my dog ive got a dog

musics shit innit

why is john lennon kinda beefy. was he like that for real. gets scared

SORRY IM LIKE KIND OF SO LIKE SO DETACHED FROM THE CORNBALL SHIT FOR REAL SORRY CAN WE CUT THE MUSIC AND JUST TALK TO THEM NORMALLY AGAIN LIKE I FEEL LIKE THIS SUDDEN SHIFT WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER IF IT JUST FELT MORE-

right ok but maestro is not... you know. it snot the master is it true

I WAS GOING TO SAY ARE THEY GOING TO EVEN MENTION THE YEAR IT IS

SUSAN MENTION IS INSANE?

MAYBE IT KILLED HER TOO? XD HEH HEH HEH

SORRY SUSAN

can i also say the Power Of Music is something im nevergoing to get as a person im just not musically inclined whatsoever i think i could hear nothing and not much would happen

THAT WAS THE GIGGLEEEEEE

WE'RE STICKING WITH THE GIGGGLEEEE SURE

TEEHEE

somewhere nearby ian and barbs are just vibing

wow. holy shit. the sonic screw driver doing some sonic shit. thats epic af

these pantomime fucking antics theyre behind you bitchhhhhhh

The Pantheon YEAHHH SUREE LETS GIVE EVERYTHING SOME DUMBASS NAME I LOVE IT WHEN HE DOES THAT YESSSSS THERES THE TOYMAKER THERES EVERYTHING WHO GIVE A FUCKKKKKKK

it ripped me in half i cant survive that again - HILARIOUS. SET THE PRECEDENT. SURE.

BEYONCE AND SAM FENDER IS FUCKING HILARIOUS SORRY BIG UP THE NORTH OR WHATEVER

> the world if the beatles did not have sex with each other

THE TOY MAKEER FUCKSSSSS??????

i dont know how i feel with the more abstract stuff i really dont i feel like it works once in a while but if the whole series is like this i dont know how i feel. i tjink it loses something. i cant say SHIT i know rtd loves that shit and its not at all the first time but look- JUST A SECOND OK- JUST.... A MOMENT PLEASE. i settled with rtd's like goofy teehee its the power of this but LOOK.

GRNATED I MEAN THERES ALWAYS SOME DORKY SHIT GOING ON I SHANT EVEN LIE

i do actually love jinx monsoons performance though

again with the pacing of this and it being so fast all the time and everything forcing itself to be a big bombastic moment im sat here thinking of the most impactful moments in doctor who like slow or BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE. I DONT KNOW. do you remember rose eating chips after nine sent her back. im just sort of imagining that scene with some insane score underpinning it and some big loud speech that everyone focusses on and listens to . it would not have fucking worked.

or like the slow, chill conversations between people. CAN WE JSUT HAVE THEM ABCK. PLEASE. JUST.

THE GMMMM. MUSIC BATTLE. SORRY I DI DLAUGH AT THEM LITERALLY JUST SAYING. MUSIC. BATTLE.

like again sorry im kind of tuning out at this point because again with it bbeing so abstract its sort of that vibe fo theres nothing im holding on to here like the toymaker worked in a sense its like youre kind of following that deterioration . i really do not rhink it works to sit in it constantly like this like can we

BEATLESS YAOIIIII CONQUERSSSS ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

hell yeah mystery box shit .

WAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING

IS THIS A FUCKING OPPORTUNE MOMENT TO SAY IM DEATHLY ALLKERGIC TO MUSICALS SHUT UP ITS TOO MUCH NOW PLEASE HLEP ME SORRY IM

[tapesfrom1980]

look after you | finn hudson

bold & italic: flashback

italic: lyrics

i knew it’d be a matter of time before i had to leave my room. i wish i could stay here forever, grieving in peace.

none of this felt real. like it was all just some nightmare that i would awaken from with my beautiful fiancé next to me. when i woke up, i would be next to him and he’d be alive and well. i would shower his face with kisses and watch as he woke up with a big smile.

how did it get to this point? one day me and finn are planning our future together and what our children would look like and then all of the sudden i’m getting a call that he’s gone.

there would never be the right amount of words to express what i’m feeling. no amount of words could tell what i felt about finn. i knew i’d never find someone like him ever again. he was the type of person you just cant replace, no matter how hard you tried.

i wasn’t planning to go back to lima anytime soon. i could barely handle the funeral and i knew that just being in town would break me.

part of me felt selfish for that, because i know others are hurting too. they might just miss finn as much as i do. but i couldn’t get myself out of bed.

how could i?

waking up doesn’t seem so bad until i touch the side of the bed out of instinct to reach for finn and i realize he’s not there, and he never will be.

i had the blessing of getting to meet him, nevertheless fall in love with him. and have him love me back.

i had never lost someone this close to me. nothing in my life couldve ever prepared me for the pain and grief i was feeling. it was like someone had taken my heart right out of my chest and stepped on it over and over again till it was nothing but a raisin.

this was something i was never gonna get over, i knew that from the start. finn would live in my heart for a lifetime. i wish i could’ve told him how much he had really helped me through the toughest times in my life and how i truly wouldn’t know where i would be without him in my life.

there’s a lot more i could say about him, and how much of an impact he made on my life. but right now, it just hurts a little too much.

so standing here, singing me and finn’s special song, in front of my friends and past classmates, would have to do for now.

“if i don't say this now, i will surely break

as i’m leaving the one i want to take

“hey y/n, you look really nice today.”

“thank you finn! that’s really sweet, i think you look nice today too.”

forgive the urgency, but hurry up and wait

my heart has started to separate

“woah y/n! i didn’t know you could sing! you’re amazing!”

“i usually just sing in the shower, i’m not THAT good finn. but thank you.”

“no no, no. you have the voice of an angel! seriously- you could be the next beyonce or something.”

oh, oh

oh, oh

be my baby

oh, oh

oh, oh

oh, oh

be my baby

i’ll look after you

“hey y/n wait up!”

“finn, hey! what’s up?”

“i was just uh, wondering if you wanted to go to breadstix or- something.”

“like a date?”

“well- yeah. i mean only if you want it to be it’s totally fine if you-

“7 pm, breadstix. it’s a date.”

there now, steady love, so few come and don't go

will you won't you, be the one I always know?

“is this okay? are you sure you wanna do this?”

“yes finn, 100% sure. thank you for making sure, i really appreciate it.”

when i’m losing my control, the city spins around

“it feels so good to finally be able to call you my girlfriend.”

“ditto, boyfriend.”

you're the only one who knows, you slow it down

“hey finn, do you believe in soulmates?”

“if you asked me that a year ago, i probably would’ve said no and laughed in your face. but now that i met you- yes.”

“i hope you realize you’re the only one for me finn, you’re my first and last love. im never gonna find someone like you again, and i don’t want to. not as long as i have you.”

oh, oh

oh, oh

be my baby

oh, oh

oh, oh

oh, oh

be my baby

i’ll look after you

“i cant believe we won prom king and queen. who would’ve thought huh?”

“it’s crazy, i know. but i must say, you look dashing right now my king.”

“oh stop.”

and i’ll look after you.

“i’m so glad i met you.”

if ever there was a doubt

my love she leans into me

“it’s going to be okay y/n, i’m always here for you. i love you so much.”

“thank you so much finn.”

this most assuredly counts

she says most assuredly

“hey y/n, do you think i’m ugly?”

“no, in my eyes you’re the most handsome man i’ve gotten the chance to see. you finn hudson, are the closest thing to perfection.”

oh, oh

oh, oh

be my baby

i’ll look after you

after you

“you think we’ll be together forever finn?”

“for as long as we live, yes. i don’t think i could leave you even if i tried.”

oh, oh

oh, oh

be my baby

oh, oh

“will you, y/n l/n, make me the happiest man and become my wife?”

“oh my god yes of course yes!”

it’s always have and never hold

you’ve begun to feel like home yeah.”

that, was when i broke. all the emotions i had been holding in when i arrived in lima came crashing down on me. i had acted so strong, as if i could handle finn’s death by myself.

but the truth was, i couldn’t. i was hurting more than ever and i was too upset to realize i didn’t have to go through it alone. he was loved by many, and i know they shared my pain.

so in the arms of my grieving friends, i poured out everything i had been holding in. finn was gone, for good. right now it hurt more than ever- but with the help of my friends i was gonna get better.

i would never get over his death, but i could make the pain ease. and as time passed, it did get easier.

i told his story to anyone who would listen, because finn died far too young, and i know that not only would his story inspire people- it would help them realize how short life really is.

you never know what day’s gonna be your last, so you gotta live every one to your fullest.