#i want my bio to actually make sense and stuff idk

[chloelouygo]

I really need to sort out my blog's theme and tags at some point because it's driving me crazy and I need a reason to learn html and what better reason than to better display mariks face on my lil blog ig

[catboybiologist]

Okay maybe it's time to make an actual designated pinned post

Edit: hiya! A new pinned post will come, but quick note that I am starting my transition MtF now. This pinned post, and all the pictures in it, predate that, however. General guide is that I'm referring to pre transition me as a femboy, and will be referring to myself as a trans woman to moment I start HRT. But I'm leaving this old pinned post up for now.

Hi! I'm CatboyBiologist. I'm a grad student in Molecular Biology with a passion for the ocean, nature, Fromsoft games, national parks, and weird tech stuff. I tastefully hornypost about men, women, and all others (so be warned), post spicy hot memes (fuck you I'm the funniest mfer alive), type out long rambles about science and nature, and play Fromsoft games. PLEASE send me cute pictures of your pets.

Oh yeah, I'm also a cis man who does this sometimes:

I also make shitposts out of myself sometimes

I've also made a couple guides on how to replicate these kinds of looks.

General overview of femboy stuff:

How I create cleavage looks from a relatively flat chest:

If you want a somewhat more realistic idea of what my figure looks like:

The best way to specifically see those posts and filter out everything else is probably to use the femboy tag on my profile.

Pronouns? Uuuuuhhhhhhhhh, idk dude just use whatever. It's far more gratifying to me to throw a look out there and see what people wanna use for it than to declare my pronouns. If that doesn't make sense to you, they/them or he/him is cool.

Asks and DMs are always open for science talk, cute animal pictures, casual non creepy flirting, or whatever else... With the SOLE exception of these two questions that I get WAY too often and will give final answers to here:

"Are you a biologist who studies catboys or a biologist that just happens to be a Catboy?"

Both. Do humans not study human biology?

(also I'm actually studying bio irl)

"why is it not catboyologist, hmmm? I am very clever"

To give a serious answer to a joking question I get way too much: This online persona (or whatever you want to call it) is about balancing and integrating two large parts of my personality: my career in and passion for biology, and my queerness and gender nonconformity. I wanted both of those parts to be clear, in a cute and fun username. Basically, "catboyologist" only has the same effect as my actual username if you already know my actual username- you can't interpret the "biologist" part from "catboyologist".

Plus, "catboyologist" has too many consecutive wide vowels. CatboyBiologist breaks it up so it sounds punchier.

Oh yeah and apparently I was a 196 microcelebrity? I never to thought I was popular enough for that but apparently some people do 🤷‍♀️. So uh, hi 196 tag, I'm abusing you for my pinned post LOL

I'll also abuse other tags I use somewhat frequently, so hi y'all

[velvetvexations]

transemasculation: for when you think freud was right about penis envy but ONLY for dirty little trannies (but seriously what the fuck is with this term? who thought this was a good ide- oh, right, ASSHOLES!)

it's really funny because I would make jokes about how TRFs don't want transmascs to make their own language without sending it in for approval to the Transfem Council and now the famous self-identified transradfem is like "here you stupid little boys I made you a word to use if you want one so bad."

That transemasculation shit is the most obvious set up to just keep making fun tmascs because people generally think emasculation is a funny and harmless nonissue maybe even #feminism. Like whats the bet if we did start using it how they want us to people would just immediately start connecting it to our “toxic transmasculinity” to dismiss it / continue to paint us as whiny MRAs anyway ?

it's so fucking belittling

One of the most frustrating parts of when a trans fem posts transandrophobic stuff openly for the first time is how any disagreement harsher than silence gets taken as "men abusing women" and held up as proof that she was right to be wary of trans mascs all along, because look how quickly we will turn on a trans fem and attack her—any negative feelings she has over the incident are just more evidence that she is a victim under siege and right to feel this way.

the wounded gazelle gambit is very popular

The thing that bugs me about transmasc on this site who called themselves TME is that I never see them doing any actual activism for trans women, they specifically just talk down on other transmasc users. Like it comes off so fake-

that's Feminist in Bio men for you

Kinda crushed to see bee/movie/erotica post that? Like??? Yeah white trans people can hold power over me but what the fuck do you think you're doing calling my maness the same as whiteness. my maness cant be the same as whiteness because I am not fucking white. hellworld.

I'm very sorry they let you down, anon. <3

You can tell TRFs are terfs because they do the same thing that terfs do where they point to people who call them baeddels and say that their critics are calling them slurs, and then a few days later will self-identify as baeddels again

they complained so much that I very generously got people to almost entirely saying TRF instead and immediately they just go "TRF is a slur to silence me :("

"the nefarious genderqueers think they're so much more radical and valid than us while the whole queer community actually caters to them, we need more representation for Real Binary Transsexuals" is a recurring theme in Whipping Girl so no wonder it's a common refrain for the "read a singular book" crowd

they do as they are taught

i really like your sense of humour btw

Thank you!

anyways all this patricia taxxon stuff is kinda just making me more motivated to make autistic transmasc therian video essays.

as you should honestly

because i love answering questions not aimed at me, re: is cheating abuse no, but it's a dick move that can be a part of abuse. abuse in a relationship is, for the most part, long term and actively emotionally/physically harmful to at least one person. cheating can be a part of abuse (for example, the fact the abuser cheated in the past, can be held over the abusees (? idk if that's the right term) head.) but alone it isn't. i hooe this made sense. i woke up two minutes ago and have thoughts! i would love to hear yours, because peoples opinions differ a lot in subjects like this

I think I agree with that.

Tall fat hairy women <3

<3

WOOFWOOF... HELLO BEAUTIFUL

;)

I’ve seen a few of your anons discussing the proposal of ‘transemasculation’ to replace ‘transandrophobia’ but I’m not sure that anyone has shared this info yet: https://www.tumblr.com/weepingfireflies/770239720162738176/im-not-even-transmasc-or-transfem-but-the essentially, ‘transemasculation’ was coined years ago by a transmasc user alongside other terms for related and adjacent discrimination/bigotry/etc.; the user who is trying to speak over transmascs about our our terminology and experiences apparently didn’t even bother to do a cursory check that what she posited was actually a new concept

I think it's been brought up but that is very funny, in a cosmic sort of way.

"trans men are men first!" gender essentialism is going to ruin us all like yes you're quite right if you're born a man no matter what your life experiences are, you are inherently more likely to be self-absorbed assholes who hate women. absolutely. the only thing terfs are wrong about it who counts as a man and who counts as a woman yep 100% i see no issues with this clearly our Man Brains make us evil

it's like yeah people who identify as men clearly have skull shapes that show an inclination towards misogyny

i rly appreciate seeing someone else who uses similar referential terms b/c i'm bigender and i honestly really like calling myself a male manwoman. it just feels right in a way nothing else does

I'm glad!

[goblinontour]

im actually curious. The way you write is soo amazing and deep and too deep even. what’s on your mind when you write those things i mean your insanely talented and it’s getting to the point where my whole day in school is thinking about every single word you wrote. I think about the words what it means and honestly the things you write makes my heart beat faster idk why. What’s on your mind and how do you actually think 😭 i know it’s weird but im genuinely too curious to know how do you see life things and everything like how do you feel and such yk. I like you a lot pls keep going im so amazed by your work

thank you. this went on pretty long and probably doesn’t make any sense so i’ll just leave it under read more.

i don’t really know how to answer this and at the same time i think that’s the answer to it. i’m a very closed off person, it’s been getting worse as the years went on, i feel. i think it started from just being self conscious about like normal stuff but then it turned into this constant feeling that’s there all the time, no matter who i talk to for the exception of maybe a couple people, i can’t help but feel that i’m not taken seriously and they’re either making fun of me for being who i am or making fun of me for actually being boring/embarrassing/etc and me just being oblivious to it. and that then turns into me being even more closed off. i was told once that i’m not “stimulating” in conversation. it’s really stuck with me and i’ve sort of just been avoiding getting into situations like that again by shutting up all together. so when i write i feel more free to express myself however i want knowing that no one’s forced to read it, and if someone does it’s because they actually wanted to. as for the writing itself i just…think of stuff. a lot. i’m not actually very experienced myself when it comes to the subject of my writing, so i think i invent an idealised version of things (when though some of the things i write wouldn’t be classed as ideal, i hope you understand what i tried to say). i’m also very scared of people and interacting with people, like i said above. and that fear made me awfully aware of every move i make and every word i say, and i mean with anyone. from a greeting to a hug goodbye, it’s all overthought in my head, i just try to avoid taking the lead so i don’t end up looking like the fool…so i resort to writing interactions and conversations and such. that’s like the basis of it. and then i often have notes for each individual fic before i write it. i have the main idea of what i want to happen in my head but sometimes it’s difficult to just go from that. so once i have the idea i start writing down random stuff i see/hear. mostly out of context stuff but when i’m already thinking of something it just automatically links to that and when i sit down to properly write it becomes what it becomes.

i’m also pretty obsessive when it comes to things i like and if i find something i really really like then that’s the only thing i can think about. not like actually the only thing but the only one i think about in that way. alex for example, it’s just him. i like other bands/artists but i literally don’t give a fuck when it comes to stuff outside of the music itself. i’m a fan of the 1975 and i find matty healy hot and i traveled to another country alone for the first time to see them live but i’m not affected by anything he does, i just don’t care enough. but for alex it’s…it’s alex! i think of him a lot and i think his absence is what makes me think of him so much actually. so it’s impossible for me to not have something to say when it comes to him. hence why i write so much about him, i have all these different versions of him in my head all the time.

and i don’t consider myself a writer in any way to be honest. it’s not what i’m in school for, it doesn’t have much to do with it, it’s (like my bio says) just fantasies, put down into words. i guess.

no idea if what i said makes any sense with what you were actually asking. i think i’m starting to say too much on here.

this is what i mean, lyrics, posts, just images sometimes, sentences i hear and like:

[bunnakit]

my stand in ep 2 thoughts, feelings, etc.

alright i wanted to write this up nicely but it took me... two hours to get through the episode bc i kept stopping to write notes, so i'll do my best i guess.

weird thing about me is when i watch shows and write notes for these posts i always write the notes on napkins? i have like 5 different notebooks in arms reach at all times but i really like scribbling on a napkin for the true unhinged effect.

anyway blah blah reminder i'm just a silly dude on the internet, idk shit about dick, i just like to say shit, don't take me too seriously.

also please DO NOT leave novel spoilers in my reblogs, tags, or replies without some kind of warning label. please? it seems to happen with every show i write meta for and i LOVE that people get hyped but there's no way for me to avoid it when it's in my notifications like that.

some before the actual episode stuff; after learning last week that some of the kinnporsche people worked on this it really becomes apparent, especially in the style of the intro.

the music choices also seem a bit reminiscent of kinnporsche (and a little bit of not me) which i really enjoy. it feels kind of familiar and comforting.

immediately i loved how soft this episode started, the slight stubble on each of them, the way joe speaks so softly as if afraid to shatter their little bubble of peace, etc. i also love that the show doesn't skirt around the topic of sex and the fact that sometimes sex is awkward and clumsy, especially with a new partner and doubly so when it's your first queer partner.

and then the peace was shattered with ming kissing his back yet again. ouchies.

"will tong be at the set?" he's just not even trying to hide it. he basically said 'yeah ur great and all but tong????' but DAMN if poom isn't the absolute king of microexpressions.

at this point i can't really tell if tong is being a spoiled prince (derogatory) or if he's tired of acting in general? judgement withheld until a later date.

and then we jump into this actress being a parallel to ming and OOF OUCHIES MY ORGANS. she's a fan of tong but has to "settle" for joe - just like ming. and yet joe takes the time to be kind, to soothe her worries and put her at ease, because he has a heart of absolute gold. "it's her first movie but she was left to drown by the male lead." it's ming's first love and he has been left to drown in it.

mek's acting is really endearing. this is my first exposure to him (ive seen some of his social media and really like what he stands for as a person) and i'm instantly drawn to his performance. he also pulls off a great balance of adorable/sexy.

OOH THE SHOW SAID BISEXUAL OUT LOUD. A WIN FOR THE BI'S WE LOVE TO SEE IT.

i personally find ming's jealously hilarious. what a little caricature of toxicity.

anyway, it seems to me that if ming could get over his feelings and enjoy what he has in front of him he could be part of and enjoy a very sweet family, as it does seem tong IS giving him love, just not the exact flavor he craves.

the cut to joe's training made me laugh. little oat lore dump but my bio dad was actually a stunt man for movies (which is another part of why i was so excited for this show) and i can promise you nothing like this was part of it. what do i know, though, maybe things have changed since the early 2000s lol.

(no, they're probably not any movies you know, aside from maybe wild wild west [1999]. he mostly did westerns, historical docudramas, and historical fiction.)

ANYWAY AGAIN. with this little glimpse into ming's home life we get to see that he's very accustomed to doing what he wants and getting what he wants, which makes a lot of sense when applied to his almost obsessive behavior regarding tong - and now joe. i did absolutely LOVE linin and her sassy independence (minus the 'i can buy anything i need'.)

but... girl... did you just spray perfume in your mouth?

your actions are strange and unsettling. i like that in a woman.

ugh getting into ming venting his frustrations on joe's body. listen. liiiisten. while toxic without prior discussion... i'm into it. it may or may not be one of my favorite tropes in fanfic. toxic and unhealthy as fuck and i'm here for it.

AND THEN DAMN POOM THOSE NOISES. ACTING FOR YOUR LIFE BBY -- and the SNEEZE AT ORGASM LMAAAO oh i hope that's a running bit for some comedic relief.

because we then make a SHARP pivot into "then stop me" and there's so much potential for pain and self loathing there, for joe to think "i can't blame ming, i didn't stop any of it." i'm sat.

a little side bar, but i'm enjoying the fact that while there is discussion of topping and bottoming as a narrative device there really aren't any stereotypes here. i think on a surface level people would think "oh joe is the top" (pit babe style) and the show said no actually he isn't. love that for us.

"you can even move in haha jk" but the thing is, not jk, because joe would do that for ming - for anyone - bc that's the type of person he is.

[i had to stop and have a lil snack here]

hold up is this wut out drinking with them? OH SHIT IT IS. OKAY. it didn't give us much but at least it's a little connection to him finally. we knew joe knew him from his first life, just didn't really know how.

"i missed you" and when was the last time someone missed joe? not who he's replacing or the space he's filling, but HIM?

love ming's goofy ass locking the door and going inside just so he can make a dramatic ass appearance like he's 'the other woman' or some shit LMAO.

"what's in you to make me jealous?" quite possibly the worst dialogue tree choice ming could've picked.

[joe's emotional well being -45]

[everyone hated that]

"don't be so full of yourself" something joe has never been a day in his life. "you're just a stand-in." he knows. it's not something he ever forgets.

but after all that toxicity we have ming back home, seeking out joe's food for comfort, and we finally get to see him interact with his sister. i LOVE that she knows the importance of being a little silly as a treat, one of my biggest life mottos. we also get to see more of how ming is surrounded by love that he misses out on bc of his own wallowing and self sabotage.

oh, the homoeroticism of sparring with your bestie.

[everyone liked that]

oop- joe is wearing the shirt ming borrowed while sol is wearing a shirt with the word 'fantasy.' i'm good, i'm fine, gwenchana, gwenchana.

ough. sol with too many eyes on him and none of them sincere and joe with nothing but sincerity to offer but remains invisible. oof ouch.

enter ming with more religious imagery to match last week's cross scene. something something the sin of greed? confessing your sins? coveting - idk man, i don't have any religious trauma, my family let me just do my own thing.

but with ming knowing joe's true feeling every toxic thing he does is going to be 1000x more painful and i'm here for it. bring it you fucked up little guy.

"we can't mess with each other's privacy" don't mess with MY privacy. "you can't mess around with anyone else" emphasis on YOU, not we.

and then it's driven home what a romantic joe is, both with his workout heartbreak poetry and this little lady and the tramp noodle moment. this man, again much like pit babe, wants to be domesticated so bad.

and i know we all have hated on ming, that's the point, he's been a caricature of a toxic relationship spelled out in neon letters --

but when was the last time ming laughed with someone like this?

ok im exhausted, i'm falling into bed to read fanfic, but i'm absolutely in love with everything this is doing so far. i haven't written anything as in depth as this since last twilight (pre-betrayal) so it's really nice to feel insane again.

[person25]

so… daminette

i honestly have no idea where this crossover came from but here we are

so, i think i’ll start with the stuff i actually like, kind of anyway

it’s not hard to imagine them in the same universe with them both being superheroes and all, not the most out there crossover that makes no sense.

also it definitely falls under the grumpy x sunshine which i do like, there’s a lot of soulmate au’s for this ship and if yk me yk those are my weakness (if done right).

this pairing has the least amount of explicit content in it than almost any other i’ve seen (thank goodness for younger me) so if i wanna read a long fic and i’m not in the mood for any of that i just look for these specific fics

sometimes it’s fun to see marinettes class get put in their place other times it’s weird and out of place, really depends on the author and how long the story is and where they wanted it to go.

now onto the things i don’t really enjoy

i swear everyone who writes a maribat fic is a miraculous fan first and the only dc content they’ve consumed is other maribat fanfic cause there’s no way

most of the time damian’s personality is that of his 10 year old self like ik that man’s personality changed over the last 8 years, usually in daminette fics they’re around 18

also, why are all of the family members at WE like sure maybe she’ll see tim or bruce but why is dick there? i’ve even seen jason? like no, i’m sorry that would not happen.

honestly most of my problems have to do with it not being realistic for batman but also, marinette would not be in the same class as any of her friends in high school, she probably won’t even go to the same school as them

i’m just gonna say damian would not fall in love that fast, it doesn’t matter who it is it ain’t happening, also just an overall focus on mari and barely any on damian

things i haven’t talked about but would if asked:

literally any other maribat ship, like this girl is shipped with everyone in dc

bio dad au, honestly never read any, i wanted that romance and if bruce is her dad we ain’t getting any, unless it’s with someone else? idk didn’t really look into these

honestly if you have any questions about maribat i could probably answer 😭

i’m don’t actively read it anymore but occasionally i get curious and i had to rant about it bc maribat is one of those ships that’s only on fanfic websites and none of my friends understand (i don’t blame them)

[sparkleboiswagger]

I need help crafting head canons and backstories for a BSD au I'm creating

I'm working on making head canons for a normal world no mafia no Ada or whatever au. For the most part I'm trying to take canon events and adapt them in a way where they could realistically happen, but for characters with more unknown or vague pasts I'm great for any HCs

Starting with Dazai, Dazai is not an orphan he was removed from his home by CPS when he was about 2. He was in the foster care system for a while, tossed around until he ended up in a home with Mori from ages 9-16. Mori was abusive, so Dazai ran away and lived in a shipping crate for a bit. Eventually he was taken in by Oda, who was a foster parent to mostly younger kids. He was there for 6 months but when he was out with Oda, Oda was killed in a mass shooting.

I know Dazai "improved" in canon after Oda died but I didn't give him a chance for this big long speech and there wasn't any reason for Oda to anyways, so Dazai completely spiraled after that. I have like a whole story written about that. But short things is his alcohol addiction got worse, he often spent days just not moving from Oda's grave and since you see him inject himself in season 5 and pop a pill in season 2, I have him experiment with drugs like fenty, shrooms, and heroin. Not addicted, just trying them out. Dazai is my most fleshed out in the au I'm creating, idk why.

Dazai bullies Akutagawa in school because of course he does.

Now for Chuuya I haven't finished stormbringer so my HCs for him might change. But.

He was also in foster care. I haven't fully fleshed out his life yet and I want some ways to integrate the sheep some how? But he entered the system when he was 8, I don't know why because I haven't finished storrmbringer. It varies from Verlaine killing his parents to them dying in a car crash so. Working on that. Verlaine went to a different home from Chuuya, he doesn't know him well he just hates him. I've been debating between having Kouyou be his sister or foster mother, but since I put Dazai with Mori I figured Chuuya could go with Kouyou and she'd just be a younger foster mom. I was also thinking I could find a way to make them in the same house? I really want the whole betrayal thing where Dazai leaves Chuuya and I thought it could be cool where Dazai left Chuuya in an abusive home to deal with it himself but I'm not sure, would it even make sense for him to have been with Mori?

Chuuya is in college, Dazai is struggling to get by. They still have their personalities obv so Dazai isn't like this sad mopey mess he's just a sad mess who mopes when he's alone and everyone doesn't really realize where he's at mentally

Mori has also fostered Yosano and Q, while having Elise as his bio daughter.

Atsushi and Lucy's backstories are basically the exact same as they are in canon

Akutagawa is homeless ofc, he just moves from place to place with his sister. His clothes are shit and he smells because he never showers so he isn't treated well at school. I'm tryna think if he'd go to college, also he's still got his terminal illness. I'm not sure how his need for Dazai's validation would come out in this au

Ranpo was adopted by Fukuzawa. His life was also basically the same. Yosano was also adopted by him.

I'm thinking Kunikida has a normal ass life with normal ass parents, just too much of an overachiever and on the verge of burnout but not allowing himself to burn out

Poe is rich. He was born rich, he's got money, that's all. I've got for him lol.

I'm trying to find ways to add the rest of the cast, I want to get all the characters in and get them lives and stuff made up.

If you have any suggestions to how I can expand this world I want to write fan fiction on it once I've fleshed it out a bit. Feel free to be like "actually no I dont like your idea, I think this would be better" because I'm open to any criticism on this, I just want it to be good and I'm not stuck on my ideas

[laughaprist]

oooooh golly

soo…. valley scientists…

been cooking up things for temps past in this au!!!

(this is probably gonna be all over the place and formated weird but please ignore that🙏)

stuff under cut i just didn’t want this to look really long🤑🤑

so, temp and laugh were assigned roommates in university. 

-temp majors in bio + chemistry (double major… freaking nerd…) 

 -he studied bio because he wanted to figure out  why he had that eye, and then chem because potion :o

-laugh is a business major, obviously

now, temp has never really had a friend, hes just a SUPER shy guy. and it doesn’t help that his parents are freaking rich and and always hosting parties and hes too shy to talk to anyone. he usually just sits in the corner and tries not to look at people.

temp warms up to laugh, and eventually asks him if he wants to go to one of these parties because he’s always bored there and needs someone to talk to.

(took a lot for him to do, good job temp!)

and laugh is like “heck yeah!” (hes a business man! what else can he say?) so yeah they go to parties together, yay!

and temps parents! golly!

PENELOPE LEMON (aka temps mom)

-temps mom is just ecstatic that temp has a friend, shes so happy.

-i have tried to put this into words but i feel like this describes her personality so well in a way i cannot explain

-she’s basically just the super supportive mom, “laugh’s so sweet! im so glad temprist found a friend!”

-uhm can’t figure out how to put this in words as well but here’s something ace said!!!!

“I can imagine like months Later Temprist’s mom is talking about a family dinner that their planning and randomly asks Temprist “Is Laugh coming?” And he’s just sitting there confused before saying “why would he? I thought it was family only” 

“Well he’s practically family sweetie, you need to invite him”

Idk when they would have this discussion because Temprist would still be living at University but maybe a party or something”

i love her so much💔💔 shes too sweet

JAMES LEMON (aka temps dad..)

-homophobia 

-yeah

-genuinely thinks laugh and temp are dating (would never… temp is so aroace…)

-“i think my son is gay”/ref

-he HATES laugh. doesn’t really know how to like get him though (like he wants laugh OUT of here)

-another ace writing because it was a really good (i forgot the word wtf) and explains what james thinks of laugh well 

“Temprist goes to the bathroom and Laugh is left alone 

Temprist father: so, raugh

Laugh: It’s Laugh actually

TF: Tsk tsk tsk, Raugh, talking back to your elders aye

Laugh: no- i just met-

TF: you know I don’t understand how my son could like someone like you

Laugh: huh?

TF: i mean, someone like Temprist, shy, introverted boy who has barley even talked to someone before “Friends” with someone like you, a rambunctious druggie

Laugh: haha, druggie? I mean im not-

TF: I mean, do you ever think that maybe he’s only bringing you here because your his roommate and he feels obligated to, i mean that could always be a possibility, he probably just didn’t want you to think he was getting drunk every night or have you think your getting left out

Casually leaves

Laugh: how the fuck does that make sense- does he hate me that much?

Temprist: Hey Laugh, everything good?

Laugh: hmm? Oh yeah! Im good”

(tf: temprists father, this was before we named him LOL)

ok i think thats all for temps university + parent stuff

hopefully i didn’t forget anything

❤️❤️

[navyciel]

H:SR CIEL MASTERPOST

a honkai star rail verse for black butler/kuroshitsuji canon character, ciel phantomhive.

Combat Type: Physical or Fire/Imaginary

Path: Erudition or Destruction

bio:

after losing his father to the war that raged between the family and the watchmaker, ciel has claimed his predecessor's role of sapphire among the intergalactic peace operation's ten stonehearts as well as their spot within the bloodhound family.

not many are aware of ciel's origin nor are the other stonehearts aware of his young age. ciel lives in penacony where he is seen as nothing but a villain who will do whatever it takes to get what he wants and they aren't exactly wrong.

harbouring deep hatred to the watchmaker who took everything away from him, ciel bullies and torments misha yet at the same time can't bring himself to truly hate misha himself and doesn't let anyone else hurt the other boy.

ciel struck a deal with a humanoid memory meme he calls "sebastian" at the mere age of ten years old that as long as the boy lived, sebastian would serve him and do his every bidding.

headcanons:

being the pure and innocent soul that misha is, I like to imagine he truly sees ciel as his friend. their relationship arc would likely be frenemies to actual friends or perhaps kinda frenemies but in the sense that they only act like enemies when in reality they are the bestest of friends ( think the actors of harry potter and draco malfoy when they were young and acting together in the films )

ciel is a counterpart to either hanu or boss stone. nobody in penacony is certain which one though.

I made up my own potential powers for the sapphire stoneheart I will use in this verse that includes potential future vision similar like to sapphire from steven universe. I could also see the stone containing the souls of ciel's ancestors ( bc of how in source, ciel once mentioned being able to hear screams when he closes his eyes and the way the family heirloom aka ciel's sapphire ring had been handed down from generation to generation until it reached him. )

idk the situation with double ciel in this verse yet. r!ciel may be dead or on an entirely different planet.

sebastian and ciel's relationship is still the same as in canon source ( servant and master, sebastian being ciel's main caretaker, etc. none of the gross sebaciel stuff that is only rumored to be true. ) I simply couldn't take sebastian away from him even if ciel hates the man's guts.

ciel likely is part of the entertainment department of the ipc but specializes in making games and toys for children his own age. some of these even make their way to penacony.

ciel makes for a very efficient dreamweaver and detective

sebastian works as a butler for the family

[osachiyo]

I finally changed my whole tumblr to where it's like an actual profile. I feel so proud of it. Do you think it's good? But I was really wanting to ask if you have any tips for me for writing? I really wanna make my own drabbles like you do.

i think your icon and header is adorable ! i love the fox dazai fanart <3 just a tip tho, you should add the artists @ on your bio !

for writing, im terrible at giving tips buuuut i'll try my best !

honestly the first thing i'd recommended is not using this font ↓

example! :)

for writing because most people don't like it (i especially don't !) it looks a little idk.. weird to the eyes?? if that makes sense lol

oh and also the onelook thesaurus is a lifesaver tbh. i struggle to find the right words for my fics all the time soooo this is so helpful

and like i said, never use the small font for your fics lol

and you should tag your stuff properly ! if you're writing for female reader, you should tag it or mention that it's female reader ! this goes with dark content and other stuff too :3

that's all i have right now lol, sorry if this wasn't much help </3

[sindumpster]

Any unbirth thoughts or ideas that appeal to you? Just in general. I currently have an ub-session and love your ub stuff. 💗

"ub-session" made me snort. I love it.

But hokey I'm gonna jot some things down so sorry if this ends up more of a jumble of words than anything. Also obviously this one is gonna be hella nsfw

-Ngl a lot of my go-tos with it involve the UB being orgasm-triggered. Because something something vaginal contractions which idk if I likened that to peristalsis or if someone else inserted that into my brain. It been...a while since I refreshed my sex bio. But if cocks can eat people then I can grasp at my straws and pretend it triggers the vaginal succ-tion.

-...which would also make sense if the pred(?) is a biiiit of a size queen. A dicking devolves to fisting. Could just be the fisting that triggers the succ. Also my humor is dumb so I like it when the other char is marveling over how far their arm can sink in. Mentioning its getting harder to pull back. Oblivious to all the warning signs before its too late.

-tho I will also die on my hill of pushy prey so someone actively being like my arm has gone past the elbow and this *still* isn't working. I guess I will just push myself in there. Because also, my humor is broken so this being the first most obvious solution the prey thinks of is hilarious to me. Post nut clarity is gonna hit hard (or they like it. Or it was the plan all along because they're a kinky fuck)

-forreal tho prey that's a kinky fuck. Realizing how stretchy the pred is and want to try it. Or has done it before. Just taking the initiative.

-I'm realizing a lot of these are about my broken humor so I will also raise you--pregnancy jokes. Because I like them with vore and other situations where the char isn't pregnant but will just go along with it because it is the easier explanation (and like, I say this as someone with a preg kink. The joke just doesn't hit the same when its actual preg tho lmao). Also UB being extra prone to this because the prey is sitting in the right place (as opposed to oral vore where stomach sits higher up. As if people would notice this and care but I will also die on my stupid detail hill)

-but also I'm a sucker for combo kinks and also I like my separation of different stuffed...organs? Compartmentalization kink? as in life so in kink IDK point is UB pred following it up with a stuffing session. Or oral vores someone (esp if they are not a fan of preg jokes). There's a bit of a power play there if the pred's like "well what are you gonna do about it~". Prey getting increasingly cramped or complaining about the growing weight above them. Or feeling each other's struggles. Two different prey poking at each other through the fleshy walls. I just think it's neat.

-also orgasm being a release valve as well. Because you can fuck (or fist) someone from the inside (There's a "cum out" joke here somewhere).

-Which could also be a power play on the prey's part. Or throw in some public humiliation where prey tries to pleasure the pred in public, and the pred must hide how flustered it is making them. They don't need to come out from it, they can just fuck with (literally) the pred.

-I like competitions of any sort but I do not care who wins. Even my bois I equally enjoy them losing to clever prey (or a pyrrhic victory). Or just kinky fuck prey. This isn't specifically a UB thing but for me it applies just as well. Could also be funny if this devolved from some kind of stupid sex contest. The "whoever cums first loses" where prey gets increasingly desperate to win and this results in them shoving themselves up there.

-also I like the "getting your hand stuck in the cookie jar" joke.

-MULTIPLE PREY. Because why the fuck not. Uterus party guys everyone is invited. Or smol prey if a large tum isn't your jam (but I am biased. Sorry. Not sorry.)

-MASC PREDS. MASC UB. NOT ENOUGH PEOPLE REALIZE THIS POTENTIAL JOIN ME OR POINT ME TO THE ART.

-which I like it doesn't have to be a sex thing but the "motherhood" or "age regression" sides of the kink aren't my niche so sex is usually how I go. It can be peril or even fatal, or warm wholesome safe vibes. I like both. And should go without saying but even the kinkiest sex can be wholesome.

-tho also the impressive side-eye in the afterlife when you admit you got digested by a snatch. Went out with a bang. Got your dick stuck in a living vacuum cleaner. This isn't really an idea.

-ALSO REFORMING PREY. If fatal is your jam. Idk man I'm still working out the kinks(lol) of how the fatal pussy would work without getting into the dark details of any internal pred/prey kinks where digestion is actually the least of your problems. Except my Space!AU where everything can be a stomach if you're brave enough. Alien anatomy you can do whatever the fuck you want so that's where my wackiest kink mechanics go. (Because I'm still working on this notion that I am "realistic" and will not break these stupid rules I made up in normal canon for some reason??).

-Tho I guess with reform you can have your "rebirthing" stuff. (Personally with the caveat they reform as an adult. I don't mind preg or even warm cozy vibes but again...parenthood loses me sorry. But feel free to use it lol)

-Oh and also face-sitting [GONE WRONG][GONE SEXUAL]

-Or I guess if you're really into dicks eating people can have a CV pred fuck a UB pred and the prey just gets kinda shot up there.

///and I'm sure there's a fuckton of things I'm forgetting. But this is already way longer than I intended lmao

[stevesbipanic]

My thoughts on the icon and name thing:

Firstly, I personally have just seen queer people changing the meaning of gay panic thing to something positive and I personally like the expression and do not have a problem with it. However it is a horrible real thing in its original meaning and I think people should be at least aware of it. And so like your blog name is fine. It's named after a character and something to do with the character.

Secondly, I check people's bios before following to decide if I want to and then honestly never again. So I don't even remember reading the ally thing. But what I see every time is the blogs icon. Personally if people have a flag on their icon no matter what other stuff there is (in this case steve) I interpret it to tell about the blogger and not whatever character is on the icon. (I repeat: I personally see it that way and if I interpret it wrong it's on me.) So to me the bi flag in the icon is "misleading" if you then say you're something else than what the flag says. (I repeat that I personally do this and actually just realised that maybe I'll want to stop doing that.) BUT it also connects to the character on the icon and to your blog name. It all makes sense when it's all put together.

Idk if this made any sense but I want to say that I don't think you've done anything wrong. I think your name and icon are fine. I actually like them.

I hope this doesn't blow up to a huge thing and you get to keep posting normally. You don't have to answer to/share this publicly, I just wanted to share my thoughts.

I really like your blog and hope you have a good day:]

-a queer person who is just trying to vibe

I totally agree that gay panic defence is an important part of history that needs to be condoned but yes I also agree that in its modern day meaning it's quite different and yeah no I get what you're saying about the pfp. I know some people use flags in the background as a general telling people what their sexuality is I think yes in passing if I'm randomly found somewhere on this hellsite people would probably assume I'm bi and that's very fair but I do feel that a lot of people do the same as you before they actually follow someone and that's check out their profile first and when put together I do agree it makes sense as a whole.

Thank you for ya vibes and adding to this discussion ❤️

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

hii this is the same adoptee anon from the adopted rant/post you answered a few days ago (similar tws I think?)

thanks for the detailed answer. It's rough 'cause I know that blood family isn't the only type of family, but growing up in the foster home I eventually was adopted into I have 8 foster siblings all who eventually were sent somewhere else where I've never seen or talked to them again.

My foster/adoptive parents are weird, like I know my history with my birth parents means that starting out in life my idea of being treated well was FAR below standard. But from what I've been figuring out and from the new information I've learnt from my foster/adoptive parents I am realizing that they're probably abusive and quite neglectful in their own ways.

I stayed with my adoptive aunt for a few months recently and that ended up with her starting off behaving decent before getting abusive and now I can't really spend time with anyone in my extended adoptive family because they've known her longer and trust her and she believes that I'm "a cursed devil child" and other stuff.

I wish I had more friends but I've never been good at making friends with school and with how things are now I don't really have chances to make friends, so idk I don't really have any sense of family there. (I think part of it was because I never really learnt how to be a kid. I was quite literally fighting for my life for years when I was younger so I've never had a sense of innocence and took things too serious out of self-preservation.)

I'm greatful for your response and it's very helpful, I guess I just feel that hey, at least my blood family would be obligated to be family right? but i know that that's not true. I'm just jealous of adoptees who ended up getting good parents and maybe found out their birth families weren't shit too. I wish there was some way to get a family now, or I wish at the very least my city did community events but it doesn't really do any. I've checked.

It sucks feeling so different compared to everyone else who had the chance to at least have a family, you know? Like idk.. I know there's nothing I can do about it now and it is what it is, but I hate seeing people with family and even friends and knowing that I've never really had that. idk I guess it's just something wrong with me, because I've tried getting help before and I've tried so much but idk i was born to not be liked.

sorry for being so negative but thank you for the help, I hope you all are doing well

Hi anon,

I'm glad I could help.

It's understandable to want that connection and support from your bio family. It's also understandable to envy adoptees with good parents or who were able to reconnect with their bio family. But it's important to remember that comparing your situations to those who have it better is not going to help you grow and heal. You are valid where you are. Also, you're welcome to be my friend if you want. My personal blog is linked in the "about the mods" in the pinned post. If anyone else would like to be friends, please feel free to comment.

I can understand how your experiences may lead you to believe that there's something wrong with you or that you were born unlikable. But neither of those things are actually true. You are worthy of love.

Please be gentile with yourself as you heal from everything you've been through. I hope I could help, and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

[glorioustidalwavedefendor]

This is so informative!!!

Your welcome <3

Yeah a lot of my stuff was missed because I was twice exceptional at school. My disabilities made me look like a really good student and hide them. Though my lack of having to do work and study made me struggle later on. I started off with straight A's and ended up average and struggling in school by the end,

Story as old as time :-(

I heard from so many gifted kids that they never learned how to study becasu ethey didn't need to ... until they did ...

It doesn't really help that you have both ADHD and ASD since they tend to balance each other out (same as ADHD and anxiety or ADHD and deperssion ... ) -- not enough to not struggle, but enough to, on the outside, seem just mostly normal (and maybe lazy) enough to not get either diagnosed ...

*sigh*

I personally wasn't exceptional at school, just average

With horrible spelling, massive trouble at math, and constant chaos

But I managed

There where kids in my class that had overall much worse grades

So idk ... I guess everyone just shrugged, decided I wasn't good enough to invest in me and not bad enough to need help and that was that *shrug*

plus I was starting to be aware of how much I wasn't like other people and how much my social needs weren't being met as a loner and weird kid.

Deffinietly

That's why I love the uggly duckling

It's such a nice tought to one day find out what one is and find ones own people :-)

Becasue yeah, I make a pretyt shity duck, no matter how hard I work

But I am not a bad penguin XD

-> Deffinietly not a swan though XD

Even though my mother had diagnosed ADHD and likely autism and definitely dyslexia, she was just happy that she had a kid that wouldn't be picked on for "being stupid" like her and unfortunately that made her, and everyone else, miss that I had them too.

Same here

I am so sorry :-(

My mom didn't have any official diagnoses, but she did suck in school and now that I have my diagnosis I am relatively shure that she has at least ADHD and dyslexia as well ...

SO wenn I had the same problems she just thought:

"Well, I shouldn't have had kids. I was a dum dum so obviously my kids would be dum dums ... "

And that was it XD

She DID notice that something was wrong with me wenn I was still little and did drag me from psychiatrist to psychiatrist

But they all decided I was perfectly fine *eyeroll* and my mom was just hysterical and wanted attention ...

*sigh*

You are so so so hot for all this.

Thank you <3

This may be annoying people with me re-blogging back and forth

Hey, your blog your rules XD

but this is shit that people need to read.

I am just giving back XD

I only got my diagnose beacsue of tumblr

Like I would never have thought I had ADHD

But I read the posts and then I thought maybe I have it?

And then I did some free ADHD tests on teh internet and though maybe?

-> there are some where you have to sign up but at least back then there where some that where free and imidiate

And I got that book "driven to distraction" and I thought I will highlight everything that happened to me too, or that I can identfy with

By teh end the whole book was mostly green and so much shit in my live suddenyl made sense

And I was so angry XD

But I also had enough "amunition" to get my official diagnose :-)

Thank you so very much random person. 😁

You're very welcome

Saddly I dodn't really tag my posts (the ADHD chaos is strong with this one), so looking for ADHD on my blog will give results but there is no rhyme or reason to it XD

But here is some stuff that might be helpfull

This is girl/women focused stuff, no sure if you will find it helpfull (I saw in your bio you use she/her/they)

But I am just gonna share it, in case you do

And this is a very god lecture (it's where I heard about "driven to distraction" I think?)

I started to watch it becasue I saw a post (this one) on tumblr where he talks about teh fact that ADHD kids have no friends and why and I felt like he was describing my childhood ...

It's what realyl made me wonder if I have ADHD

Becasue everyoen always talks about the hyperactivity and teh distractibility

But few people talk about teh socila isolaton ...

This is teh first part

The whole thing is realyl long but really good IMHO

I dodn' agree with everyting but it's very informative

few ... long post

sorry XD

Hope some of it is helpfull :-)

Oh wait

This one is also good

love Luigi Mangione looking like peak health with gnarly fucking back pain. it'll probably fly over so many people's heads but it's just great to see perfect examples of "looking healthy" don't mean Jack fucking shit especially in a shitty healthcare system.

because no one says it aloud but subconsciously everyone thinks you deserve bad health, that bad health is a punishment, that bad health is consequences that you brought upon yourself.

[heroquills-a]

( random realization of the day... maybe because he bottles up and ignores his bad feelings so much thats why sonic is so bad at expressing how he genuinely feels about things and also why he’s bad at catching onto emotional cues )

[hazbincalifornia]

The results of your mpreg poll was disappointing and sadly not unexpected. I had a feeling the results would reflect how the fandom usually is about Stolas. All attention on him, obviously he's the only one who gets to be preg... it just sucks for Blitzo. Where's the love for Blitzpreg? Hell, where's the love for trans Blitzo? I guess there are more Blitzpreg fics because there's more of a story to tell? But it's strange that there's no art to be found, almost seems to be due to peer pressure?

Also tfw I draw my Stolitz fanchild OC and people immediately assume they came from an egg like the others, because obviously only Stolas could have given birth to them? No?? My fanchild is the result of Blitzpreg, thank you very much. I feel odd about my OC being rounded up with the other fankids under the banner "Stolas's many eggs" because mine didn't come from an egg. I guess I'm taken aback by the automatic assumption. Do I really need to make it clear that I like Blitzpreg?

(These came in one right after the other so I'm pretty sure they're connected, putting my response under the cut bc of some salting 🧂)

I haven't been included in any of those roundups, but I'm not being followed by most of those people, so it's not like it's a slight against me or anything. I can definitely see how that would be frustrating, though, (if anybody did it with Stella I'd be pretty damn annoyed considering her being Blitzo's is kind of the whole point of my fic) and having everyone automatically group it into just eggs from just Stolas, I assume mostly because of Dani is... frustrating, yeah. (I'm not particularly a fan of Dani and have had her muted for something like a year now. This last week has been a very mixed bag of 'I'm glad people are having fun, but ughhhh.') There are other options- even if it wasn't Stolas, both Blitzo and magic are options if it's their bio kid. Magic took a pretty decent second place, after all.

I've puzzled over 'why are there a bunch of fics but I never see it outside of said fics/ao3' a lot- from what I dug up from the older years of the IZ fandom (and this wasn't extensive, by any means- I'm sure plenty of it was lost on old sites) there was a similar divide with Zim/Dib preg content, with Zim getting more fics and Dib getting more art. I think in both HB and IZ, 'there's more of a story to the one that gets the fics' is probably at least part of it, but it was a lot more... idk, even with Zim. Like, I still saw Zim art, and one of the biggest fics had Dib instead, (thanks Zadr Orange, for being incredibly OOC but also helping make me Like This) it was just the balance was slightly tilted towards one of them each way. Here, the fics are roughly 2:1 for Blitzo (although that may change in the coming weeks) but the actual fankids/art tilt way more heavily to Stolas.

I genuinely like the headcanon of trans Blitzo, (and wonder a bit why intersex Fizz is a thing but not any of the other main characters?) and y'all know I like to think of imp sex as a lot looser than it is for humans (and for humans, it's already a whole spectrum!). Plus, having to stick with cloaca 'because he's a bird' when he's a humanoid demon, anything would make sense, and a cloaca isn't actually a pussy, my dude... it's not something that should have really been argued as hard as it was. Sure, transphobic shitheads can choke and I have zero problems with it as a general headcanon/idea, but I've seen people who were told they needed to change their art because they drew Stolas with a dick because they weren't on twitter during the two days the Discourse was raging, like that's not inappropriate in itself.

Anyway. That was kinda off topic. If you want to shoot me a dm or something I'm generally free to chat, I just usually don't want to ruin anybody's fun so I just try and boost up mine and Emmie's Blitzo stuff more, and getting to salt a little was kind of cathartic.