#i want him so bad. i dont need him. i dont need him. i dn

[sciderman]

lord i am always thinking about him

[away-ward]

im sorry for this rant KO, but why on earth is the bonus content for nightfall is the start of the horsemen? Like omfg. I really dont need it to exist because i like the mystery of them. Why can't we just have a willemmy bonus 😭 i'm so fucking upset. I initially wanted to pre-order the paperback but thinking about that whole alex drama in BC, i didn't, thank the lord for that! But i was still hoping for a willemmy bonus or maybe a will or emmy's back story, but we're getting to see Damon, A-FUCKING-GAIN? How many fucking bonus do we have to see him??! Fuck, i'm so upset, idk who to rant this with because i don't talk about this series to anybody irl.

Excerpt from PD's insta:

DAMON GRABS HIS JACKET OFF THE COURT AND PULLS IT ON AS HE LEAVES.

"YOU OKAY?" MICHAEL ASKS KAI.

BUT KAI JUST GESTURES TO DAMON WHO PUSHES THROUGH THE HEAVY DOUBLE DOORS. "I TOLD YOU, MAN," HE BLURTS OUT TO MICHAEL. "HE'S TROUBLE."

"NO," MICHAEL QUICKLY RETORTS, LOOKING IN THE DIRECTION DAMON LEFT. "HE'S AN ENFORCER, KAI."

HIS FRIEND STARES AT HIM.

"AND EVERY TEAM NEEDS ONE," MICHAEL ADDS, DROPPING THE BASKETBALL INTO KAI'S HANDS. "TELL THE COACH I'LL BE RIGHT BACK."

end-

🥲 ngl, i'm so sick of damon's appearance, at this point not only his character wasn't my fav, pd over-pushing him makes me really hate him now. "He's the enforcer" ughhhh, and when did this branding ever came up in the devil's night series? I only remember this point being discussed here on your blog of your meta about damon's character and his implicit role in their friend group and family. Istg i really never saw his role being discussed and branded like this anywhere, so the only place it could happen was in the private chat's of their pendragon fb group or between PD and their editor/most trusted beta readers. Istg the pettier side of me feels like some of PD's fb group fans saw your discussion posts here with other anons and told on PD, then they got inspired by you ideas about "his role" in the family. Which in theory, i don't see much wrong from it, but truly, where did this role establishment and branding came from? And ofc in PD's fashion, they had to rebrand Damon's role to be positive and borderline inspiring 🙄

and fuck, who cares about logic right? Definitely not PD when they kept on writing A and meaning B in their stories, but kept on being pissed off when readers understood it as A. 🤡

at this point, i'm not even excited anymore for this bonus content. I genuinely thought something good will come out of it, but with their opinion of willemmy a few weeks ago, and now with this. Idk. But I just know and fully sure now that PD just wanted to avoid the alex-aydin-will-emmy qna discussion extra materials, because they knew they fucked that one up, and many readers hated it, and so they probably want to just bury that shit and move past it. So of course, we'll never gonna get a willemmy bonus content. Ugh. I can't fault them for wanting to move on, but for someone who wnats to move on so bad and ignore the uncomfy parts of their own mistake in writing, they sure as hell is still be talking and hinting at this series from time to time especially for their most fav characters 🙄

but fr KO, it really left a sour taste in my mouth when an author behaves like this. Penelope Douglas is just so, ugh, idk. At this point ideky i'm still hoping for them to be better tbh when they've always been known to be problematic, like they're always just so disappointing. I need to detach my feelings for books i like to read with their authors, because i'm just gonna end up upset like this. But it's so hard!!! Especially when they're indies and you like some parts of the things they put out, and can't always find it anywhere else. Ughhh. i heard that series by Monty Jay was giving DN, so i might check it out, and i really hope it's better.

+ when you get a reach of the bonus materials, will you be sharing them here and share your thoughts and opinions about them? I'm a big yapper and i just wanna yap with somebody about it frfr.

Hey. Oh man, I feel your pain.

I really dont need it to exist because i like the mystery of them. Why can't we just have a willemmy bonus

Ohh, I wish I was with you on this but I’m actually excited about it. As someone who wants to understand these characters better, and who absolutely goes bonkers over character origin stories, this is right up my alley. I never expected any kind of Willemmy scene, so maybe I’m not as disappointed as I would be otherwise.

From what I heard, there are some willemmy scenes in this origin story though! So not all hope is lost (although I don’t know how it’s supposed to make sense, since I’ve also heard that this starts during their freshmen year and Emmy’s a year younger so… but whatever. I’m just happy for the moments!)

I am so sorry that this isn’t what you wanted!

Istg the pettier side of me feels like some of PD's fb group fans saw your discussion posts here with other anons and told on PD, then they got inspired by you ideas about "his role" in the family. Which in theory, i don't see much wrong from it, but truly, where did this role establishment and branding came from?

As much as this idea tickles me, the fact is that this was probably written months ago, and I only really had that discussion with in the past few weeks. More than likely, we were just picking up on something PD was implying the entire time.

But I just know and fully sure now that PD just wanted to avoid the alex-aydin-will-emmy qna discussion extra materials, because they knew they fucked that one up, and many readers hated it, and so they probably want to just bury that shit and move past it.

I’m still holding out of that pinterest board and discussion questions (though, it may be a lost cause). It just seems so stupid that they’d withhold those two things since they’re so minor compared to the bonus scene.

they sure as hell is still be talking and hinting at this series from time to time especially for their most fav characters

Coming from a writer’s perspective, it’s hard to let your favs go. Long after the other characters stop “speaking” to you, your favs come back. You still see them doing stuff. And PD is proud of the series, so of course they’re not going to bury it.

But yes, I agree that the fandom has been pretty loud about wanting some more willemmy content for some closure, and it shouldn’t be this hard to sit and think about the characters and deliver something, just to be kind to your readers and fans. I can’t say why PD is so resistant to it, but that’s for them to know.

i heard that series by Monty Jay was giving DN, so i might check it out, and i really hope it's better.

I had to look it up, and I’m assuming you’re speaking about the hollow boys? I haven’t read it, but if you do get around to it, I hope you enjoy it.

Regarding PD, I hardly ever look into the background of an author or give them a second thought. I also have never had the desire to contact an author, or do meet and greets or anything, that’s just me. So, I’ve never had the issue of needing to detach a work from an author, but I can see the struggle.

+ when you get a reach of the bonus materials, will you be sharing them here and share your thoughts and opinions about them? I'm a big yapper and i just wanna yap with somebody about it frfr.

I absolutely will share my thoughts, of course! I might do a reading react, or just a summary of my thoughts, whatever feels right. Again, I feel for your frustration and disappointment. The let down is never easy, but you'll read better books in the future. This isn't the last of it for you. So look forward to finding your next favorite read.

-KO

[ari-the-rockstar]

i wanna cry so bad

i wanna d13 so bad too

ugh fuck me

i am good for nothing all i do is cause pain and suffering i can't do this anymore

i'm always ina fucking crisis just kill me alriready

i can't do this i can't do this i can't do this ic anujs

i ust

i jut

i sjdk

fucking k!11 me already i'm so fucking done with lifr ufkc ufkc ufkc

UGH

yesterday i cried so much, cried and cried and cried as well as the first half of today

i'm just numb at this poitn

k!11 me k!11 me k!11 me PLEASE

i can't do this anymore i'm so fucking tired i

i need to talk to him i need to talk to him i

sorry sorry sorry alli ever do is either cause problems or apolgize unnecsietrlray

i cjdnsj

i nee dn k

i jsut

i jsut wantt to end

PLEASE

and i couldn't help trying to be your best fucking american white girl who did everything so whitely and prefectly because that's so much of what i want

look yes i know it's wrong and ik it's r4c!5t towards myself but fuck i wish i was born in a regular ameircn white family

i don't belong anywhere

i hate this i hate this i hate this so fucking much i jsut want to end

i'm ins o much pain but i'll alwasy be selfish RIGHT

i can't i cant' i can't incj

i can't handle change i can't i realyl can't please just let me go i'm in so much fuckign agony

i fdsUGH

i HATE THOIS

I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE HTIS

I HAT EHWEOTPPPPPPPPPPOJNFSKNJSKR

I JGS DJVK

I CAN'T DO THIS ANYRMORE

I CAN'T GOODBYE

I ANOETL;S

JDDKJSK FUCKING MJEHKE

I NEED TO LEAVE

GREAT

THE FUCKING FOOD I DONT FUCKING KNOW FRYER????? NO GRINDDER IS ON

AND THE TIMERS GOING OFF TOO I HATE THSI I THTJEL

I WANNA D13 SO BAD JSUT JNJFKNJI9 RJAWGDSNLDGOI

NOTHING I DO IS EVER GOOD ENOUGH I WANNA K111 MYSELF SO FUCKING BAD I HATE THIS I AHTE THIS I HATE MY LIFE I HATE LVIIGN I HATE IT IT'S SO PAINFUL I WANNA LEAVE I WANNA ELAVE I EAWNANNDKKJ

IE ENJ

IE JS

WHY WON'T ANYTJING HELP

WY CNA'T I JUST BE B E NT T ER

I NEED ACTUAL FUCKING HELP I NEED MEDS BUT I'D NEVER BE ABLE TO FUCINGGET THEM I HATE HTIS

jsut leave me alone NO don't stay here pplease

:(

God i just wanna d13 so bad please God take me away already i'm so done i've done so much i've tried so hard pls ea spleaes pleas

i can't do this anymore :(

[the-firebird69]

Aerosmith - I Don't Want to Miss a Thing (Official HD Video)

and they are saying this. and constantly no.  but are. and we fight to defend ourselves. adn we see ok. and they go on an on no.  but this is heavy need it. and it is vs trump. and his now too. and tons are at it trying to slow hims shrink need ot and steven tyler said today...

Thor freya

I need out of this shit.  i saidit. f this guy trump. we are all in this together have to be we are persacuted by the same people. need it now. this guy too.  we need him bg and we know need you. this blows.and he wont stop s an ass and intends to ruin our cities. this sucks.  he needs out the macs planned it bg says.  we need t o stop them and or him.  and now yes

steven tyler and thank you for the audience and i mean it ok get them all the time ok ahahahah lol

we use this needed it tons hate me even my own.  true too i am bad. need out but cant leave.

trump

we see when you hang too.  it is a cheeseman movie no you are hung in It chapter 2.  and real.  and got out. but still did so in the revelutionary war by reletives who cared for you and you hurt them then not like now your aweful budddy need you gone now

steven tyler

we care about us and ours you dont he does more for us than you you suck.   go build your car and get an earful make it worse you oaf.  need you to seeit we do this needed this and steven says thank yoiu we do thank him he and i the big fell ahahah not really that big now no but bigger than us lol

gaga

we use him to go downt here and must he will wants in first. has tobe same with nagaski and iroshima and ppl blow his stuff nd the ships might be there and it remnidns him saw it and burnd for it.  and still does.  dn goes now we see it too 

bja

and he is off good and good work gag i  see it. is real.

and i did not harm your brother haha tons made a big deal of it. and joel.  we see ehy. horrid tlaks and maean.  weaponry ok

steven tyler

and we work need thiss wr tostop are not this way

stan ama  giant

me too but out. and our friend said ittoday.  some macs are cut loose and have seen it and they do it to us we are big sstill and we hear them ok

mac dddy

we heard it too

bill will about us and him too we say no way and he does the ybalk and tyr to take it back we say forgeienrs and they back off wont forever but yeh they suck at this

bill wi

Olympus

[eyecicles]

just wanted to say i agree so much with your post on why near is a good character! i read death note pretty recently and i was super surprised to find out that so many people dislike him when i thought he was so likeable... but maybe in retrospect i shouldnt have been.

L and near were my favorites by far but i do think that near is a much more complex character, which isnt a knock on L at all! in order for L to work as a character from our pov, he has to be mysterious and somewhat vaguely defined--if we knew what his deal was hed become predictable, which is kind of the last thing you want from that sort of antagonist. im not sure if id go so far as to say that light was the underdog in terms of power, but id say that narratively, both in-universe and out of it, he definitely is. you expect the worlds greatest detective to get all the clues and the clearly bad guy (as opposed to all the only sort-of bad guys) to be defeated, which is why even though i was spoiled for L's death, when it actually happened it still felt shocking and emotional. its a good writing choice! but if we got to see too much of an inner world for L, it would kinda fall apart.

but in order for near (and lights defeat) to work we DO need that complexity BECAUSE it makes the audience and his fellow characters doubt him. it works with his role in the story instead of against it! (plus i think he also needed to be more philosophically inclined than L was bc on a meta level lights defeat hinged more on being told why his worldview sucks than any plot stuff so he could *only* be defeated by someone who wanted to coherently tell him off with something more than just "killing bad" and deliver some kind of general thesis statement instead of just own him with facts and logic)

sorry im probably just restating things you said but. near is such a good character and i cant believe so many people dont see it!! near and L both need to be gatekept from allistics /j (/srs)

Hey, I really appreciate this ask! It's always nice to know that people agree with me on this, haha. So thank you for taking the time to write and send this.

To me, there's a huge difference between killing characters off for cheap shock value and killing them off to make a point, to advance the plot in a certain direction, and/or because it makes sense narrative-wise. I actually don't think I would have loved L as much as I do now if he'd survived until the end.

There certainly are things you could criticise DN for, but yes, I believe that how they handled L's death, as well as his and Near's characterisation, are among the things they did right.  

I’m not even sure how much of that was intentional, but I don’t think it matters much (if at all).

[queersturbate]

"o&o are the dumbest motherfuckers too" why?? what did they say? spill the tea

hello anon! i sound bitchy in this but it's just because im ranting i dont want you to think im being bitchy towards you!

disclaimer everyone <3 dont try to debate me

i do not know to which post you are referring to but i have no doubt i said this because they are the dumbest people. Did they make one of my favorite pieces of media of all time? yeah. Did they write beautiful complex characters? yeah. Am I jealous of the artstyle and wish so bad for it to be mine? yeah. Did they write a incredibly interesting and intense story with so many little details and plots that I'm still talking about it 15 years later? yeah.

But they are dumb. Now, again, idk what post you're referring to so idk what i'm calling them dumb about. But one, they're homophobic. they've made several homophobic remarks (which i don't have specific evidence of rn so i wont say anymore about that) and even had a bunch of homophobic elements in the death note draft, one that I can think of off the top of my head is the one where aizawa tells them to stop being gay and obsessing over misa or something. I have a screenshot lemme find it.

love it. I've had this screenshot for a long time, so i forgot where I found it. Anyway, they're also misogynistic. The evidence is how the women in the show were treated.

But if we disregard all that, there are so many annoying IMPORTANT plot holes (I can excuse misogyny and homophobia but i draw the line at plot holes/ you can excuse misogyny and homophobia?) And im not one of those people that are like wow they said this [irrelevant detail] in episode 2 and now they said [different irrelevant detail] in episode 30, this show sucks. No. I mean when Light and L were literally chained together and L told him he wouldn't let him out of his sight (which btw people need to stop whining and crying over lol Light literally had 0 issues with it. the only people not accepting of it were soichiro and misa- Light literally was like alright sure...anyway-)

there's just things that they didnt need to necessarily show, i understand. Like bathing, pissing, private stuff. A thing like this wouldn't show us that type of scene unless it was relevant. I could argue that it was relevant though lol. So it was left up to the viewer to guess what happened with those scenarios. Because must i remind you, L and Light were chained together for around 3 months. These scenarios had to have happened. and with the emphasis on L not wanting Light to leave his side I, and everyone else, assumed that L wouldn't just unlock the cuff and be like pee break! So what happened during those scenarios? Well, people, including me when I was 12, were like "Ahh gay things happened during those scenes" which is just what happens. If you have a public fictional world, people are going to ship the characters. Lawlight was one of the most popular ships. Ik young and new fans of dn dont know that but it was up there in popularity. Not even in anime circles. Just popular all around.

But o&o heard of this and they decided it was their right to disprove every gay scenario people were coming up with. Which is why you see L in the washing machine drawing. Because how can they shower together if L takes baths in a washing machine huh? checkmate you can't make my character gay! even though it's physically impossible and even if it wasn't, Light, again, would be out of his sight because he'd be in a fucking washing machine. Anyway, they also come up with the solution to using the restroom together, which is just L sits weird. Which honestly isnt bad like it's kind of funny and i get that. But when I known it's just a retaliation against people shipping them it's annoying. (how can peeing being sexy if he pees like this? like peeing together is ever sexy ??:&:!/@!::&) and then the sleeping together bit! o&o had a perfect plan for this...which is L does in fact sleep. But he and his chair fall sideways and that's how he sleeps. and he needs watari to come pick him up. it's just annoying. you can't not show these scenes and basically leave it up for interpretation and then when people are using it gayly you retaliate with childish workarounds.

not to mention the little comics in the back of how to read 13 when they made them so impossibly straight it's hard to read. Like it's embarrassing to read. okay...okay... i didnt know i had this much to say about o&o. i'll be done now.

[willwoodimagines]

helo  frine ds! apoologies for my  absen se!! i loev you!!!

firtly thakn ou all for your supootrt thorugh this! it has bmade some of the things much easier to deal with . this goes doubly for amandien ! who is my best friend and has helped me in here ofor 5 years. which is a lot of years ! i am sorry i couldnt do more to help you whwen you needed me  and i wish i was better at underwstaning you. i hope oncee we are out of here we can stil be friends. i say once but really i should say if because truly i do not know if we wil get out of here alive but i sincerely hope that we  do.  im not one to be scared of d eath, ive seen a lot o f it in my lifevtime but this scares me more tha anyything i dont care about myself dying but i do not want my friends to be hurt. we have all missed d so many things and opportunities while weve been in here i know ive mised a lot because i was only out of the woods for a little bit but enouhgh to know now what i am missing g. i bnever go to go ina ball pit i ony every saw ONE cat and he  ran awya from me  a  dn ive been eating sslop for  5 years now  i ahve never had  good food all ive eaten is raw meat and plants and bugs and hospital food and slop and none of that is very good ! i only got to eat from mcdonalds and i want to go back to mdcdonalds  but maybei never will and tbats oen if the things iw ill miss the most except fro my ffiendsif we don et out of here. spendning so much of my life completely free to be sudently put in a tiny cellar  was extremly jarring! funnily enough i am more scared of what it will be like to go back to freedom after suc h a long time away from it, if i ever can. i hope we will all be ok i want us to all be ok i dont want anyone to get urt anymore i hope amandine and steve can be a band and make lots of music and take me to mcdonalds and we can have a sleep over like a REAL slleepver and we orddrer pizza and have a pilow fiht i hope we do that i hope amandine knows i care about him i love him a lot hes my friend i feel bad i couldn t save him but i tireed my best and i hope he kwnows that i want himt o be ok i want us to get out of here realy bad i hope we are ok . i love my friends

[thisisgracetrying]

A little about me!

So uh... hi! 

I've been thinking about how much I want to meet @taylorswift and Swifites all around dn the world but I never really post anything here about me, so why would she or anyone be like "oh yes, i want to meet her too" I mean for all we know I could be a crazy person right? (I've watched way too many crime-drama shows, I'm so sorry, DUN DUN). Well here I go. 

My name is Grace, I was born and raised in Venezuela. I'm 27 years old. I graduated from Law school when I was 24 and that same year I moved out of my home country, I've lived in Buenos Aires, Argentina and I'm currently living in Medellín, Colombia. Buenos Aires is so pretty I loved it there, I learned so much about myself, but I think I like Medellín better because it reminds me a lot of Venezuela, plus the weather is lovely.

I'm married (got married this year, I've posted a few pictures about it lol) my wedding song was Lover, other songs that define my relationship would be, stay, stay, stay, starlight, daylight, mary's song (one of my favorites lol), crazier, you are in love, this love, fearless, call it what you want... so basically any love song Taylor has ever written lol. I need to mention this because before I started dating my husband I thought I would NEVER relate to these songs, so if you're thinking love is not for you and heart break is all there is, TRUST ME, it is not. 

I became a Swiftie back in 2008, I was about to turn 16. I heard Love Story somewhere and I got obsessed, then I found out she was dating Joe Jonas, and that she was about to release her 2nd album, so I was like WAIT THERE'S ONE ALBUM ALREADY? HOW COME I HAVENT LISTENED IT YET? and that was it, I was hooked, playing her first album on repeat everyday... however that did not prepare me for what was coming up next. 

As soon as I listened to Fearless, I just knew I would stan Taylor my whole life. I was going thro some stuffs back then, I was heart broken for the first time, a good friend of my had died and I felt like i just hated everything, but deep down I was just very very sad. When I look back at who I was back then it makes me wanna cry because I felt so alone... and then this album came out. She shook my world, took my hand and walked me thro all of it. And for that @taylorswift I'm eternally grateful. 

The rest is history. 

Now because I am a Latin Swifite I was not able to see her live until I was living in Buenos Aires and I was financially independent. I had a good life in Venezuela but my parents couldn't afford a trip to the US for a concert, it is really sad to love someone and their work so much and not being able to see them perform live, but I've sworn to myself that it wont happen again, as long as I'm alive (and im not broke of course lol) I will go to every tour of every era. 

I'm not going to lie, sometimes I feel like an outsider in the fandom, most of the time is because I feel old? lol but I dont have like fan accounts, I just have my personal accounts and I'm always spamming them with Taylor lol because I dont feel like I need to separe being a Swiftie from who I am because thats such an important part of my life, however I do get why people do it. I lover her with all my heart and will always support her in the ways I can, but sometimes it does feel like I dont do enough compare to others, I know comparison is poison but i cant help it. I just want to point that out in case someone else feels this way, you're not alone. 

The Reputation tour was truly something else. I cried, laughed, danced, sang all the songs like a lunatic and I was able to enjoy all that with 2 of my best friends. 

I've always dealt with body issues, I was a gymnast for the majority of my childhood and adolescent years and there was a lot of pressure to be thin and maintaining that weight, by the time I was 9 I was counting calories and by the time I was 11 I knew what an eating disorder was. So when Taylor talked about her struggle with her body my heart felt for her but i was also very proud, it takes a lot of strength to do that. Sometimes we are making excuses because we dont wanna face the truth, or we are thinking "Oh no I dont really have an issue" but every so often once someone we look up to does it, it makes us realize that it is ok to seek help. 

Right now I feel a little lost because we are in the middle of this global pandemic and I'm not as happy with my job as i was before (I work remote and have been doing the same thing for 5 years now) I thought 2020 was the year of changes and me finally going out there and finding a new job and maybe study something or learn something new. But I'm working on not being so hard on myself, stop overthinking (but damn its so difficult lol, I always picture the worst case scenario) and just be grateful for what I do have right now. I know there are a lot of people struggling right now and I'm very privileged just to have a roof over my hand, a full stomach, a healthy body and a lovely family. So if youre feeling off right now, its a global thing, we are all in this together, and I feel like this will be over sooner than our crazy minds thing (or at least I HOPE SO lol).

So last but not least a few random facts about me: (cause I dont want to make this already long ass post even longer) 

 I really enjoy dancing, writing, going to the movies, cooking and everything that is make up related. 

I wish i could paint but I think I'd suck. I should give it a try lol.

 I like perfumes that smell like flowers and candy.

i love rainy days when I have nothing to do and sunny days when I'm in a bad mood lol. 

I have a 3 year old dog, his name is Brooklyn and I love him with ALL MY HEART, hes my baby. 

When I moved to Argentina, my bff friend since i was 15 and I lived together, I treasure the moments we shared and I miss him a lot, so as soon as I knew i was moving to Colombia we decided to get a matching tattoo, we got "Cornelia St" because its out favorite song out of Lover and I hope I never lose him. 

And that is it for now! if anyone read this, THANK YOU and feel free to comment anything about yourself! I love to read and learn about other people! 

Have a wonderful day. 

Hey if youre reading this! find me on twitter: graceohmymymy lets be friends!

[emmiri-bumble]

since my online origin is actually tumblr i feel a bit more open with like.. being unhinged about Dotty and her DN rewrite timeline and endorsing the fact that Naomi/Noddy, L's daughter, and Natsuki/Nat, Light's daughter, are absolutely some of my all time favorite characters that ive written (largely based on funnee family videos)

(please accept the crungled quality im working with scraps) And if youre not familiar with my DN rewritten; In short the synopsis is "What if L always had a friend from the start?", " What if people were allowed to be lgbt+?", and "What if i spat in the face of the god of all death itself?"

Anyways Dot has a kid with L and Light. Thats how it be. Here's a bunch of the greatest hits of Nat and Noddy

~ Someone's filming L L knocks on Naomi's bedroom door Baby Naomi opens it Naomi: ba? L: hello miss I'm selling girl guide cookies, are you interested in buying a box? They're £2.75 each. Naomi: uuuh- L: I have all the kinds. Thin mints… Shortbreads… Samoas Naomi: no no bah bah L: ok thank you byyye -Naomi closes the door- Mello, loudly, inside that room: Naomi did you seriously just send that poor scout away without buying me nothin??? L starts giggling quietly so hard that he has to brace himself against the wall. Mello, play yelling: WHAT THE FUCK, DUDE??? Naomi: BABABABAGHAA!!!!!!!! L practically collapses ~ L gently feeding months old Naomi her first lemon slice while out to dinner. Naomi: gbbh. She sucks on it. Naomi: buh…gaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! L: yeah it's bad without sugar, isn't it?

L feeds months old Nat her first lemon slice while out at dinner. Nat: ubbu? Nat suckles on it longer than Noddy and L takes it away. Nat: eeehehehe!! She leans in for more. L: weird. Light: ….weird.

~

Naomi: What game you playin, Lollie? Ollie, too focused: hm? Near: he's playing "paying the bills" Naomi: is he winning? Ollie: no.

~ BB: don't you want to get a job someday? Naomi: no because i don't want to be sad.

~ Mello: have fun at school! Naomi: that's not how school works.

~ Naomi: Beebee tell me which hand has a sock in it!!!! B looks and sees Naomi holding out two hands, palm up. With one hand that's clearly clenched around a sock. B: you're the child of the smartest people i know. Naomi: i know that thank you! B: and you're stupid if you think I'm fooled. Naomi: don't… Don't be naughty :' 0

~ Isaiah: what do you have there? Naomi: butter knife. Isaiah: for…what? You're not cooking. I am. Ollie: we are. Naomi: for..buttering things. Ollie: in your bedroom? Naomi backs away quickly Isaiah: .. there better be butter in that fridge. ~

Naomi: YALL ARE A NIGHTMARE!!!!!! Naomi runs up the stairs on all fours to go sulk in her room

B: SHES RIGHT. IM GONNA GO COMFORT THE BUGBEAR!!! B storms up after her in much the same way ~

Matt: okay kids! Sandwich dinner time! Naomi: i did TOO MUCH homework to be getting LOUSY SAMMIES for dinners!! Nat: YAH. Matt: OH~ SORRY IM NOT UNCLE OLLIE~!! ~

Nats at a play place in a childrens museum trying to draw at a station. One little insufferable boy keeps tugging her paper. Over and over. Nat keeps yelling at him to stop. Light and Dot are both there intensely watching her. His parents are nowhere to be seen. Maybe. Nat: stoop!!! Boy: ~stooop~ Nat: i mean it dude!! Boy: i don't care, your drawing sucks. Nat: ugh- She throws down her pencil and stands up. Nat: OH IF YOU WANT TO TALK TO SOMEONE WHY DONT YOU JUST GO VISIT YOUR DAD PICKING UP TRASH ON THE SIDE OF THE HIGHWAY WITH THE OTHER INMATES!?? Dot: oop-! Too real!! She scuttles over to disarm her kid

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Naomi: Daddy up!!!! L: ok, nugget. He picks her up into his chair Naomi: I'm gonna be mommy now. L: haha, fine by me. Naomi reaches for the computer and points at it Naomi: aw shit! She pulls over a stack of documents and pretends to look through them. Naomi: Aw mother fucker! Oh, L, you idiot! Neenee you bastard you bought- you- you did all the spending for the whole three years! God damn it!! L: ….we need to have a talk with mommy about swearing.

~

Jules: take this biscuit. She drops toddler Naomi off at Nears side. Naomi: nee nee. Jules: she developed a new hobby and i don't admire that shit in my kitchen. Near: what….did she do? Jules: she took a bite out of every piece of produce on the counter. Every. Single. One.

~ Dot: baby, you have to slow down and breathe in and out. Nat: IIIIIIII DONTTT WAAAAAAANNNAAAAAA Near: I'll breathe with you, let's follow mommy. Dot: ok breathe in. Deeep. They both breath in. Dot: breathe outtttttt. They both breathe out. They do this a few more times. Naomi in another room: NAAAASUGII! Nat stops breathing Nat: HOL ON IM BREATHING HERE!! Nat goes back to her deep breathing Near starts giggling, ruining it.

~ Video of Mello pointing at a smudge on the wall. Interrogating Naomi. Mello: what is it? Naomi: ….. knowledge. Mello: knowledge?? Naomi: yeah cause i squished the bug. Mello: and all his knowledge came out? Naomi: it's sad. Mello: it is. Mello: stop slamming bugs on the wall.

~ Shows baby Naomi a picture of Mello Dot: who's that?? Naomi starts smiling and giggling uncontrollably. Dot: who is it?? Naomi screams in delight. Mello, in the distance: I've never felt more validated in my life. L: every day my approval becomes more and more like chopped liver to him.

~ Video of Mello standing in the doorway, 8 month old Naomi is outside and soaking wet, its been raining. Naomi, with gusto: ghgbgbyeeey byteeebyeeee ghggugugus ddaddbaba!!! Mello: I dont think so Naomi Gage, get in here. Naomi, more angry, arguing even harder: gagabgaasusbufusubuuuru!!!!! Mello: No means no, young lady, youre coming in before you catch your death. Naomi: NAANANANA lebeebesbsbe guggugddaaa!!!!! L, behind the camera: try this -he holds out his hand, theres a snickerdoodle cookie in it- L: Nooooddy, come inside and share a biscuit with daddy. Naomi, nodding: ba. -naomi walks in, ignoring mello-

~ Video of Naomi (1 ish) picking up her toys and aggressively explaining them to Near Naomi: gughghgd babaaab gagaaaa huhuhbuuububu bbb!! Near: ….okay.. -Naomi tosses that one down and picks up another- Naomi: BABABABABABABA aababagsgugugu gugugugugbebemmmmmmmba! Near: ………………. Dot, filming: oh lord we gon' have our hands real full… -Dot holds up the positive pregnancy test that no ones seen yet- Naomi: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAABABABABAB GUGUGUGUGUGSSSSAAAAAAAAA Near: I get it, Naomi. i get it -Naomi takes a step closer and shakes the train in her hand- Naomi: AAABABA bublblblblblbblblblbblblbllll!!!!! Naomi: MAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Dot: wha? Naomi: AAABABABABABABABABAB! She's waving the train Dot: yeah it is! Naomi: ( : !

~ Video of Baby Nat proudly sitting on top of an overturned plastic tub. muffled sounds in tub B: Natsuki Nat: ba? B: get off the tub. Nat: waaaa?? B: whats in the tub? Naomi, muffled: Get off, Stinksuki!! Nat: uhh gggbhbg. B: is that your big sister? Nat: noh. B: well get off the tub and let me see. Naomi: Im loosing air you big jerk! -Nat crawls off the tub and Naomi immediately bursts out- Naomi, 3: She twied to Kill ME!!! B: eh it runs in the family

~ Nat, 5 months. Sitting in Matt's lap. Matt, pointing: are you gonna smile at NeeNee? Matt: is she smiling? Near: yes she is. Hello Natsuki. Nat: Baaa!! Matt, pointing again: smile at Uncle B? B gives her a crazy grin back. Matt points once more: smile at papa? Nat wriggles. Light: what? No smile for your father? Nat: bbbbb noh. Everyone: HER FIRST WORD!!! ~

video of Nat, 3, outside and holding a stick Nat: is this a bug? Dot: no. Its a stick. Nat: hm. Dot: its a stick bug!! -nat drops the stick like mid sentence- Nat: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

~

Video of Natsuki's first steps -She takes two shaky steps towards Ryuk and then falls and starts crying.- Ryuk: that didnt hurt, i know that didnt. stop crying. Ollie: shes crying because shes upset that she couldnt walk up to you on her own. Ryuk: :0 Ryuk: oh, it's ok Natsuki. -Ryuk picks her up and slings her over his shoulder like she likes- Nat: bbbbbbbbbrrrrr Ryuk: she weirds me out sometimes… Ollie: humans are weird. Jules, filming this: fuck we cant show Grandma Yagami this one. Light: NO I NEED A VIDEO TO SHOW MOM AND SAYU, WE HAVE TO STAGE A NEW ONE

~

Dot: Yeah. they came out of me She points at her kids Naomi: I WAS IN HER POCKET

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Natsuki, 3, in the car. Nat: I will get a biscuit. Wight. Now. This. Minnite. Ollie: how about you ask for one. Nat: a. Biscuit. Now. Ollie: no, you gotta ask and say please too. Nat: I can get a biscuit, peas. Nat, quieter: wight now.

~

- A series of short videos consisting of Naomi and Natsuki throwing a slice of cheese on an unsuspecting family member

Eventually Jules joins their fun with them. She was never cheesed.

Starts with them throwing a slice on a quietly snoring Light. Hes spooked awake and stares at them with rage.

Cuts to them throwing one on Near from behind. He dosent react, he just picks the slice out of his hair and starts pulling off pieces to pop in his mouth.

Cuts to them throwing the slice on Dot as she walks into the room. Dot: -SHRIEK- Dot: oh hey, is this muenster? score.

Cuts to them throwing a slice on Mello, slapping it right over his scar. Mello flinches, looks at the girls (Now featuring Jules!) and deadpan goes Mello: am i pretty now?

Cuts to them throwing a slice onto L from behind but they miss his head and slam his back audibly L: -Shrieks and jumps- Light, barreling for them: WHAT DID I TELL YOU ABOUT THROWING CHEESE AND SURPRISE ATTACKING YOUR FATHER!? The gals: -Shrieks- L, softly in the background: oh, cheese.

Cuts to video of them walking up to Matt as he gets out of his car and slapping the cheese over his goggles Matt: -shrieks- Matt: oh hey, muenster. Score.

Cuts to them throwing a slice on Ollie while hes standing at the kitchen counter distracted. He effortlessly slaps the cheese away before it even hits him. Girls: HOW?

Cuts to them throwing a slice on an unsuspecting B who immediately turns around and SLAMS it back onto Naomi's face.

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Nat, 5 ish. Sliding down a slide on a wet autumn day Nat dismounts Nat: woh. Light: what is it? Nat: my bum jus got all wet. Nat stands and stares a little awkwardly, reaches back and wipes leaves off her butt, and then skitters off Dot: …………… Light: ………………. Dot, whispering aggressively: the ultimate fusion of meee and youuuuuuuu

~

Ollie takes a pic of the fam sitting on the couch after taking Nat home from the hospital. Naomi in L's lap. L clearly with red all around his eyes from crying. Nat is swaddled in Light's arms. Dot in the middle pointing at both kids. Ollie: saaay uhhh. Near behind him: death of the american dream. Ollie: no, say siblinghood Them: Siblinghood! Naomi: Iiiblin!!

~

Video of Near holding baby Nat in the garage. Nats screaming with delight while Mello repeatedly revs his motorcycle's engine. Near: this is hell on my ears but it's doing wonders for my heart. Nat: AAAAA! AAAHAHAHEHEHEHEHE!!!

~

Naomi, 10: UNCLE NEE LOOK AT THIS SHIRT WE FOUND AT THE MALL Near shuffles up to read the girls matching shirts It says "love is always near" Near: i- may cry a little. Nat, 8: do it.

~

Naomi, 1 ish and sitting on the counter in the kitchen Mr. W: are you filming? L: yeah. Mr. W: hands out, please Mr. W pops a raspberry on a finger. and proceeds to do that with all the rest on that hand Mr. W: and there is, what my Nan used to call, "The bum handimans fingers" -Naomi opens wide and pops one in her mouth- L: that sounds unsavory Mr.W: i never said my Nan was a refined lady.

~

Near: hello Odette, would you like to see why I don't like being in charge of the kids? -Dot turns around- Dot: huh? Near, in a tee-shirt, holding up his pj shirt to show Dot the damage. Dot: ah. Near: your's and L's crotch dumpling intentionally, and quite gently may I add- Dot: got spaghetti on you… Near, gritting teeth: -pushed the bowl against my back while I was turned away Dot: you didn't try to watch her do her spaghetti slurpini. That's why she did that.

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-distant sound of a recorder playing "Hot Crossed Buns"- Dot: ohh Noddy youre practicing and i didnt even have to ask! Naomi turns around to reveal shes playing it through her nostril Dot: why can't you do anything normal? Naomi: Because im your daughter, BAyBEE! Dot: i can respect that Naomi goes back to playing via nose

~

Mello taking a selfie video while laying down. 3 year old Naomi is lightly tracing his burn scars with her finger. Mello, to the camera: hey Nods, I thought we were napping. Naomi, sleepily: I gotta touch the bumps. Mello: you gotta touch the bumps? Why? Naomi: cos I love them. Mello somewhat starts cracking up and tearing up at the same time and he frantically ends the video there

~

Mello: i can count on one hand how many times ive cried. Matt: no you cant Mello: every time was for either my momma or for L Matt: bullshit Mello: i, however, have absolutely lost count of the amount of times Naomi has made me cry this week Naomi: is ok lello is okaaay!! Mello: you want up? Naomi: is ok lello i make it bettur -Mello picks her up- Naomi: you gonna b okay, misturr Mello, tearing up: ah here i go again

~

PawPaw with a giant wad of bills in one hand and Baby Naomi resting in the nook of the other. He hands the money to Naomi. Isaiah: here's your allowance. Dot: Professor Dad, She's one. Isaiah: yeah? And she's my granddaughter. Isaiah: Here's your allowance, baby

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Mello: oh no why's Nat crying today? Naomi, trudging out of Wammys with a weepy Nat in tow Nat: MY NuH NoH AAAAADDAAA Naomi: hhhh her substitute teacher kept hearing everyone call her Nat and she kept calling her "Natalie" all day long Mello: ohhhh. Hey Nat, Nat: HUUUWAaaa muh muhh meeewwooooo -Mello crouches down and picks the poor little thing up- Mello: all my teachers kept on calling me "Michael" when i went here. Nat: aaaaahaaaa---mmmmmm Mello: isnt that silly? we have the same problem. Nat, calming down: hehe

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Naomi to L: Papa wouldnt let me be you for halloween. L: oh no thats terrible. Naomi: Cause Nat wanted to be Kira. L: ohh…no thats terrible. Naomi: so.. can you be you and Papa be Kira for halloween, pleeeas? L: no. Naomi: bu- L: No. its my birthday. I will be a vampire again end of story.

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1st time trick or treating with Naomi and newbie Nat Naomi in a grim reaper costume. Nats… in a sling and Ollies carrying her Neighbor: ohh hello! Are you here for candy little reaper? Naomi: uh. Trikkortreat! Neighbor: here you go little reaper. Naomi: thank you -naomi starts walking off- -Naomi turns right back around- Naomi: Hey- didju know um. Is my daddys birthday? Neighbor: Oh? well. Naomi: he- hes the vampire! Neighbor squinting at L who is meekly waving Neighbor: Happy birthday Mr. Vampire! L, barely audible to her: Thank you Madame! Beyond: ITS THEIR WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TOO!

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Naomi: WAAAAAhaaha- SHE ATE MY CAKE. Mello: she ate your cake? i didnt get you two any cake out of the fridge. Naomi: Sh- SHE ATE -cough- MY IMAGINARY CAKE N CAUS I-T ITS MY PLAY BIRTHDAY WAAAAA SHE ATE ALL IT Mello: hhhh… Mello walks into Nat hiding in another room Mello: Nat, did you eat Noddy's cake Nat: no i dinnit is in ma haand. Mello: the imaginary cake is still in your hand? Naomi: SHE. ATE. IT. ALL. Mello: ok go give it back to Nods, shes very sad you took it. Nat: is.. ok. iss imma hand see? Mello: yes i see it, lets go back and make things right. Nat: Okie lello, Noddie is ok is in mah hand still i got cake for you!

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Baby naomi in her walker toddles into the kitchen while Ollie's cooking. Naomi: Guh. Near, on the counter doing jack shit: Guh! Naomi: nn guh. guh guh bububububuh bbbbb Naomi walks out like they just had a good talk Near: she has things to do, Ollie. So cook faster.

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Naomi, barely able to talk: daddy birdy ..-inaudible- oh heeahd signs for poop and head Dot: a bird pooped on dads head on your walk? namoi nods solemly Dot: oh thats terrible im so sorry for daddy. Dot pans camera over to L, hanging up his coat and shaking his head, clearly no bird poo on him Dot: oh no thats terrible, daddy. im sorry.

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Ollie: you can't make Nat open your present, Nods! Naomi: yes I can! Ollie: Nooo! Just because it's not Natsuki's Christmas gifts it doesn't mean you won't get in trouble for using Nat to ruin your surprise! Naomi: yeah buh daddy said- daddy.. he said if I open my present early it turns to underwear. Ollie: oh he did? Naomi: so.. so if you open yours it's not a toy anymore but if .. if uhh if you get your sister to open it it won't turn to nothing cause sh- cause Natsuki isn't me so the gift stays a good one! Ollie: so you think you found a loophole? Naomi: yes. Ollie: fair enough. Go tell your Dad, he'll be so pissed that he didn't see that.

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Dot: when you give a mouse a cookie… Naomi: he chokes on it and dies. She shoves the toy she was chewing on back in her mouth

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Nat sitting on Ollie's lap as usual Light: ok Nat, tell me again for the camera.. why do you think youre growing body hair? Nat: cos… i give Ollie too many hugs. Nat flops her body down onto Ollie in a big hug. Ollie: 🥺 💕

~

And my all time favorite:

Mello: look, look, Nat there's a lady bug on the walkway. Nat: a ladeebog? Nat toddles up and stomps on it several times Nat: buh byeee. Near: buh bye bug. Mello: tch- you're surely your dad's daughter.

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And uh. wow you read all this? thenks

[away-ward]

Hi, i dont know if youve mentioned this before, but out of all the couples in DN, why is willemmy your fav? I love willemmy too and i love your fics, especially No Apologies and Hell Yeah. In fact, i found you from ao3 actually, but i only found out through your tumblr account here that there's a part 4 to No Apologies and then read the rest. Hope you day was amazing!

Hey! I really didn't think anyone would find me from ao3. I thought it would always happen in reverse, but it's good to know that my fics are reaching people that way too. Hell Yeah was my first willemmy, so I have a special soft spot for it. Really happy that others like it as well.

I have answered your question in another post, but it was a longer response and a bit towards the bottom. Basically, willemmy hit a lot of my favorite tropes and I feel that their past scenes are the most... romantic? There's just so many moments that make my heart bleed for these two. In fact, I didn't even like the present scenes at first and was joking with a friend that I was going to find a way to get just the past scenes on a pdf so that I didn't have to deal with skipping around. That's all I wanted. Eventually, I developed an... I'm not sure "appreciation" is the right word, but a tolerance the other parts of the book and the series as a whole.

For others who are interested, I read the whole series last year...

I started with corrupt from the library (before KU made it against their policy... this becomes important later), and really enjoyed the past scenes there. I like friendships and in fiction and heist stories (and a little mystery and a little crime), and the guys sort of pranking the town felt similar in a way, just lower stakes. I really liked Thunder Bay, which felt like it had a life and personality all it's own. The mystery of who set them to prison was... well, I questioned why Rika didn't seem to know why they were angry which tipped me off early that she wasn't the one who did it but I never predicted what the twist was. I really liked the gazebo scene. Will's determination to burn it was interesting, as was the conversation between Rika and Michael about the little nerd he loved. It made me want to peek behind the current of his mind a little to see what was going on in there.

As far as the horsemen, in corrupt, my favorite was Kai. He seemed intelligent and mysterious, which I really like in a character. I went into Hideaway eagerly, but was a little disappointed with how much he complained about stuff. And I liked Banks well enough, but I wasn't as interested in the mystery of the pope or their past scenes. But I like them together and they seem like a good match, which was fine.

I wasn't interested in reading about Damon and Winter, and their book was a bit of a drag for me. I felt bad for Damon and what he went through, but I also understood Winter's anger. For the most part, I thought Damon's healing... felt a bit rushed. I understand that a lot is probably going on behind the scenes now that we're not in his POV, but he seemed to bounce back really quickly from angry little gremlin dude to suave bad boy with a dark past (I liked the little gremlin dude. he was fun). I didn't like that Winter's love healed him. Why do we put that on female characters? I really didn't like that Rika and Damon were related. But Gabriel died and that was cool, I guess. Damon deserved that victory, in the very least.

Up to this point, I kept expecting we'd get even more hints about Will's past love. He's the last, so it had to be good right? Worth waiting for? Since a year goes by between each book, and with Conclave we learned that Will's been gone longer than a year, so with all that time, Will's reason for being angry with this girl was going to need to be good... right??? But the build up in the other books was nonexistent. The hints were so nonexistent that I actually read past Hideaway's the first time and had to go back to Kill Switch to understand that 'oh... it's about Emory. Got it.' I had lost a lot of interest and almost didn't care about Will at all. Plus, his reactions and way of interacting with the other girls was beginning to be a huge turn off. Who cares if he loves the little nerd, I'm so bored with this guy, was my feeling. In addition to all of that, it had been removed from my library's ebook catalogue. The audiobook was still there and I gave it a shot, but it was a quick no-go for me. I'm not one for audiobooks, anyway.

I threw my hands up and was ready to walk away. The series had bored me, the friendships weren't developed in a way that I would have liked. I saw the potential there and could push through a lot of my own HCs about how things were supposed to be, but I wanted a free way to spend my time with low effort. Enjoying this series was becoming a lot of work.

Around this time, tumblr was also pushing their 2 months of kindle unlimited ad. And it took me about one month of wondering about the little nerd to finally buy in.

It took me another four months to finally get angry enough to write Hell Yeah and then create this blog. The rest is history.

So you'll notice that most of my writings are an attempt to answer or fill in problems or holes I saw in their story.

Hell Yeah was an attempt to see how Emory would eventually work into the group, and recover for the truly stupid things said to her by these people before that. I understand she forgave them. But did they apologize?????

See You Around was my way of guess how they first met. I was super mad that we got a flashback to when Michael was three so we can see how he met Rika - a girl he literally knew since she was born. Did we need to see it? I guess, to understand his anger with Trevor, it was necessary (no it wasn't. We got it. At least I did.) We saw Banks and Kai meet in the confession booth and we saw Damon and Winter as children in the fountain.

What did we get for Willemmy? I loved her since I was fourteen and saw her through a fence. - not a direct quote. But I was mad.

It grew from there.

Anyway, I'm really happy that the fics are filling voids for others as well, and that I get to have these kinds of discussions with people. At least out of the grief this series as caused me, we found something to enjoy.

Sorry for babbling. But thanks for the question. And I did have a really good day on the day you asked. I hope you're having a wonderful day too!

[onlywayleftisup]

today on: i think the most about DN and my DNkids when i am away from the actual game i think its my body’s way of coping with being away from its children LMAO but eh just rambles about how pvp/pve works in my storyworld, weapons, and how lei is not op :c

.. in my DN story, or universe, or storyworld, i like to think that adventurers, though maybe skilled in fighting monsters, are mostly not that skilled in fighting against people. because the way you handle your weapons, and analyse situations, plan strategies, and use your skills greatly differs when you fight mobs vs fighting actual people. its also why my blade dancer, laythe, has an edge to him whereby he has never lost his battles and ends up killing every single person he wins against.

its like... uh.. i imagine its because adventurers are brought up and mainly trained to fight, kill and protect against monsters, not people? mind you that that is how i see DN adventurers in my storyworld. typical mmorpg setting.

the colosseum is not entirely different in that concept. you could be the no 1 pvp player (colosseum fighter), and be absolutely shit at fighting mobs. i got this idea from the game itself; how purely PVP people are sometimes ungeared bc why would they be if they only fight comp on, so if they go PVEing theyd prolly have a really hard time grasping mechs. and purely PVE people themselves would have a hard time with PVP as well. of course there still would be the occasional people who are both God in pve and pve; i still dont have a DNkid representing that category yet... hm.

to add into my “people dont rly know how to effectively fight other people!” thing, well, in my storyworld too, you CANNOT simply unsheathe your weapon in town. you’d get caught by the royal guards or idk if they have police in SH or anything and get sued. we have civilians in the town guys!! you cant just pull out your mace!! there are serious repercussions..!! if you fight in town thats even worse (esp if u use your weapons)- you can get jail time. and the highest crime of it all is if you kill a person. big no-no. just no. i got this idea from the fact that towns are a no-skill zone. :thonk: so ya people fighting isnt the norm here. you go to the colosseum for that.

heck i even thought of how people have like.. licenses to carry their weapons. like when you graduate from your base classes you go through this formal.. registration.. thingy... idk what its called im not educated enough to know what this is but yea adventurers do go through a formal system whereby they register themselves, their classes, their weapons... etcetc. like uh, bjolne. first class chaser, second class raven. weapons: scimitar, a pair of crooks, shurikens, smoke bombs, small daggers, (lists all his gazillion weapons here). and everytime they change their weapons or upgrade their gears they have to also update the... people.. in charge of that department..? they probably have a form for this or something. and i thought about how most weapons would be made in town (see: blacksmithes) and so would have their own unique trait that therefore would differentiate it as being the only one? like how guns have their serial numbers or something like that. so that if the owner shoots someone the police can track it back to them? again, not knowledgeable enough to explain it sufficiently or attach proper terms for this. but theyd use this system too because i like to think that sometimes adventurers lose their weapons in dungeons or anywhere due to being injured and having to leave immediately, or for whatever reason, so if anyone found that weapon you can trace it back to the owner. also like the gun example, if a weapon was used as a crime tool then it can also be tracked to the adventurer. its why saints (or just normal doctors) are quite important in this aspect, because well, finn, at least, knows to look for these kind of stuff when hes working with injured patients. hes trained to recognize wounds made by mobs and those made by other people, aka other adventurers, or other weapon-wielding people. if its true they were inflicted by other adventurers then he has the rights to notify the authorities for an investigation, because harming another person is illegal >:c!!! 

all in all i am just saying this because i thought about how people might think that my blade dancer, laythe is way overpowered or some gary sue because i always emphasize on the fact that he has.. never lost. hes not overpowered. its just that in my DN storyworld, the setting just so happens that people are not used to fighting other people, especially with the intent to kill. sure they have the colosseum to brawl it out, but the way i set my DN storyworld colosseum is that you absolutely cannot kill a person in there. its simply a place to fight to your heart’s contents but you cant kill or be killed there. kinda like real world boxing matches. can you punch and beat the shit outta people without getting sued? hell yes! can you kill them? bloody hell no!!

in colosseum your damage input and output is controlled by idk some unseen power and also rules (see: compensation on pvp) and though you can get quite seriously injured, you cannot die in the colosseum. if a battle gets too bad the match gets stopped. heck, i even made an entire batch of OCs to be colosseum medics (fantasia c’esthall and her party) on standby to show how much i want people to know that HELLO IN MY DN WORLD YOU CANT DIE IN THE COLOSSEUM

so if you think of how my storyworld was set, it makes sense a bit. you have laythe, who is very proficient in using his class skills for murdering people bc hes... laythe, and most unlucky adventurers who comes across him simply just doesnt know how to... counter that. people are nothing like dungeon monsters. you need to have a very specific skillset for those two entirely different things. you put a Moonlord who his entire life has been training and fighting minotaurs and suddenly hes pitted off against an insanely fast and ruthless Blade Dancer who likely stabs and strangles people for a living. that moonlord, though he might be a very strong moonlord, has no chance. he’ll literally be a moonlord because his soul would be dancing in the moon when half his head gets sliced from laythe’s chakrams.

(also i should probably mention that both laythe and raythe dont live in town. they live deep in the forest/dungeon. raythe chose the place bc its quite secluded... so theyre not really adventurers, theyre just weapon-wielding people... in a way.. neither of them have registered weapons too. illegal kids.)

[the-firebird69]

and they are like this and he says not me and i iknow it is to s only.  theyare hienous and my work is for us and amazing still seeing her crawl and the lookk on her face...it is fear and anquish and saw it for years it coming.  i dont ever want to be like that and we need to make a statement as women, i hereby declare today national womens day no...we need it emboldened, and engrained.  now too. on all. for our safety and to not be insecure ever. especially now they are violent towards women...and we see him it is a team we work as one still surrounded or not we protect you a lot and you help us work but you are right he says you need to protect you too and fiercely and  i appreciate it it is raw thinking and pure and real and we shall. firing all missiles and i too made tons and we hit and special and tons to  us and for cork and macs and those who kidnap and cloning and all the targetgts are hit now. tons of them. huge hits coming now s here rejoice you will be poor as you wisha dn screaming bums for real..a.nd we inercetped mr handchette and he lambasted himself and was a drunk and mean.  tons say it out you idiot. and true too off it or else.  and woould not doug was upset angry was bja too.  and said you fn suck your no fun too onl business and mean and it doesnt work you push it braeks and he is gone his clan erased. thankfully. Thor Freya we use this we need our statement heard not written over.  and mr handchette  a good example and he said it on puprse and mrs H said ok i wait and out and then did. she was mrs paris. left too and is around. no. died in pittiful tears over her hated lover.  saw it too. he is hated.  did not want to leave had to he beat her.  and it ws over they lost.  fully.  and i dont want to be in that positoin iether but he says thre are a ton of positions s are in not us.  and i am in a very bad spot but i will never have their dispositioin nor demeanor nor behavior and really, there are some women who tak the cake here are s. and i see it are damned mean. regardless. trump is a man but seems like lori a bit... jenna is an ass and is mean. very mean. is out now we hate her nad bja is out..hateful jerk. now we use this they are up they say. we send them the message and others shall see our might. we can aim and get er done ok Hera  Zues though welcome his thoughts are blistering at times. why why cant we...and then i see why oh ok and it is huge his work is massive but he is not abusive we want it to stay that way we hit you here now you are out leave or die now we say it but only as we hate you. we needyou in our pocket. Olympus and we have an announcemtn to you panzies wholost ppl to the Pyramids. it is s a special day... only original brains are in the Pyramids, we can have accessed them they nee d to be interogated at that level by us personally.  here on earth no. and all are up this is it we go there now they say. Predators drop it and depart...we send messages, out stay past this marker now.  or be fired upon and scanning commences.  it is amazing we are so damned pushy cant push in here Hera Zues wow wow wow we see it a connecion rd and wow is right we do this and go there wow mac daddy adn holy cow his is it we see and run there now like corky,and thank you caa for my bath robe bja would well.... thrym hahaah me too need my robe preston and ok a joke due to....oh bja and shut up ok  you liek it you saw it and liked it. jenna nah. your wrong.  it is a personality conflict.  severe. Zues Hera what conflict... jenna i dont like being abused, i will show you what i have done toppl if it persissts, and i do not ave any interst in you as a consort or otehr Zues  Hera we see it nw dont and i wont and so on and i will damnit i paid for it jenna oh ok you paid for it with what you tortured himthen and me you fag bja and ok you now want some you gt some jenna fine you farts.  this isit and your farts threaten with thsi and he hits you with it ok trouble in paradise im a blonde i ht you both...and wamo ronald hits. and has a blonde mop on his head mac oh boy mop  oh girl lol Zues shutup fatass is on the line dont attract her she may fall oover she is too tall ahahah lol ok ok ill shutup and do the job right Hera whoah pyramdis adn then this talk shit you shits suck and he said earlier yeh my kin all the kaiju and you sit. liek a dolt daniel

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bvp45eE5dSM&t=429s

[shoplifting]

So I found a Google survey from like 5th grade and some of the responses were fucking LIT

Not gonna filter out the bad ones but here are all of them

1. Give me a reason you are awesome.

*Looks in a mirror*

Because my name is ZTG and it is awesome.

because

REASONS

I'm sofia. Of course I'm awesome.

I woke up like this

im batman

Because I am 

thank you, I am farkle

CUZ IM ME

Just cuz

I'm not...

I understand Vine references

2. Give me a reason you are evil.

My brother would say: cause you are breathing

My name is ZTG and i am an evil sorceress.

because

REASONS

People insult me, so I hurt them.

it's a secret

im evil

Because I killed a snail

I bit someone once...

I dismember tiny animals in my head until every last one in my brain land is in the underworld

Cuz I am

MUAHHAHHAHUAUHAHHAHAH

I hate dogs

3. Give me a reason you are annoying. (Don't deny it. Everyone is.)

cause nobody likes me

I talk a lot.

because

REASONS

I like to annoy people.

it depends on who you are, it's probably different for everyone. probably my voice.

i am a boy

Because I terrorize david and ben and alec and nick and matthew and taddeus and charles and every other boy in the class

thank you, i am farkle

Because of this: foijasdflkasnfclkszfdjaqiorwywaiuerhansijlfksdfghawufjnaks,dn.

I am

My brother is annoying. It's my duty to pay him back.

I am Sam

I exist

4. Give me a reason you are human.

How do you know I am?

I was created by humans, so therefore I am one.

because

REASONS

Cuz my mom and dad are humans. Not aliens. 

DOES ANYONE THINK THAT?!?!?!?!?!?

I have EXTREMELY strong opinions about people.

i am a boy

Im not human--Im a time lord!

farkle is not human

I have human DNA

Cuz

Wait...I'm...I'm a...a HUMAN??!?!?!?!

Am I?

5. Give me a reason you ate your hamster.

I dont have no hamsta

Because it tasted like chicken.

because

REASONS

I don't have hamsters.

he tried to eat me

i didn't

Becuase i'm a cat

farkle needed food

Cuz i wanted food

It looked tasty

HUNGER

6. Give me a reason you didn't. 

Cause I liked timmy

Because it is adorable.

because

REASONS

I dont have hamsters

I didn't feel like it.

no really, i didn't

Because Crookshanks ate it instead

why would farkle?

Cuz I wasn't hungry

It looked gross

Not

FULL

7. Give me a reason you did.

WUT

Because it is horrific

because

REASONS

Cuz

I didn’t I don’t have hamsters

I DIDN’T

because i’m a cat

why wouldn’t farkle?

????

I thought, why not,

Give me a reason you did.

????

8. Give me a reason you can fly.

Because I can manipulate gravity

Because i am magical.

because

REASONS

Im superman

there are too many

swing set

Because There's airplanes

farkle is not human

I think I'l try defying gravity

I can

I BELIEVE I CAN FLT

bitch i can't

9. Give me a reason you can fall.

I dont do all that fallin biz

WILL FALL

because

REASONS

I have anti gravity shoes

because I can fly.

swing set

Becuase the airplanes dont work

thank you, I am farkle

Because no matter how long they hold on, even the strongest leaves on the autumn trees have fallen by the middle of winter.

cuz

I am not Will

into THESE ARMS BECAUSE I LOVE HUGS

10. Give me a reason this quiz is awesome.

because reasons

because

REASONS

It isnt

it's actually pretty interesting

That is impossible

It isn't

FARKLE

Because it distracted me from stuff

nope

I got to say my brother is annoying....

clickbait.

memes?

11. Give me a reason this quiz is terrible.

Option 1

SO MANY PERSONAL QUESTIONS, LIKE WHY I ATE MY HAMSTER. I CAN HAVE SOME PRIVACY, CAN'T I????

because

REASONS

you think i had and ate a hamster

I don't know who made it

It just is.

Becuase Im a cat

"it is not!" farkle said

Because it distracted me from goofing off

yup

You made me think of my brother. You truly are terrible.

ok. I will give you a reason.

it shit, yo

What a wild fucking ride

[selfmadetorturedsadnessetc]

4-16-2021

You know this has been on my mind for awhile. How can you tell me you don't want to be friends with me or talk to me ever again, and date my sister? It makes no sense to me. I also want to ask my sister so bad what he has told her, like the things I've said about her and such! Only problem is, I feel she will lie to me! Bc I dont really know what he has told her. I just assume the worst. Also how can you sit there and let someone go on and on about sex and lust with your bf!!!!!! We are acting normal i guess. Mainly bc she supplies me with adds. Which once again I've become addicted to. But of course it is just to try and keep me awake for work. Tho sometimes I fall asleep on them and actually sleep well.

Im so stupid. Srd didn't come see me not once last night. He texted but that was it. Asked if I was here but never came to see me. He finally got my jealously last night and didn't like it.

I just watched DN leave from next door. I dont want him to come talk to me bc I dont know what to say. But to see he makes no effort to explain or talk to me is awful. Like I asked how can you not talk to me if you are dating my sister and also living at my moms when you aren't working.

My sister is once again job jumping. The place she is at now is awful and disgusting. She is the only white girl. And they said her needing to leave early to get her child isnt going to work out. I think she has an interview today with holiday Inn. But why try really if you have a bf who works for an energy company and makes alot of money.

[juunshua]

No pls I love rants on music, especially vocal techniques (had a couple of classes, quit because of life in general, most of my expertise is on the piano side anyway), and would really, seriously love to hear your thoughts on the members vocals (although I do understand that this is time consuming to do) just wanted to say that there's no need to apologise for ranting, we all wanna hear you speak anyways :)

sorry this took forever to respond to! akdjf youve went to more vocal technique classes than i have so maybe you might know more than me ahaha! tbh i really want to formally learn vocal pedagogy so i know what im listening for and what im not. like having that professional opinion alongside telling me ‘ur wrong’ or ‘ur right’ i really want that so i can solidify my learning in a sense…ive been doing that kind of through youtube videos and stuff but still idk. omg ur a pianist? please i love you automatically now so idk why but i’ll probably just summarize in units? and like maybe short comments about each member or more than one member or something idk. under a readmore bc it got longwarning: i am no way, shape and or form a professional. 

hht: im going to start with hht…tbh i have another name for hht haha its called ‘baritone team’ alsdkjf isnt it a coincidence (not really) that all of svts baritones ended up in hht…thus is the fate of most baritones in kpop sadly :( they either get pushed to subvocal or to the rapper position even if its not what they want initially bc of their like natural (basically) biological disposition of not being able to hit, with the same kind of ease, high notes that tenors can…like tbh tenors cant hit those notes ½ the time either but its less obvious bc theyre tenors…that made no sense lasdj…in relating to current events though heres a classic example of baritone (vn) vs tenor (sk) singing in basically the same high note range but vn has to go into falsetto while sk is trying to mix up there…both of them arent really singing it well (laskdj fmaybe sk is a bad example bc he has a good approach to his voice…but like nonetheless that isnt a healthy sounding note from either of them) but its less obvious with sk bc hes a tenor and more obvious with vn (well maybe the falsetto vs mix also had to do with it but like idk a bari who would want to mix that high ljldkajf). anyways in terms of technique, no one in hht team particularly stands out. All of them tend to either sing with their throat or sing with lots of air in their voice, which isn’t particularly healthy but also to be expected from rappers. tbh rappers i find tend to be more throaty, i think why in this group they also are airy is because of wz lol and his vocal directing. within the entire group though (like not just hht), ww has my fav vocal color and i tend to think from within hht, he has the most potential to become a decent vocalist. its mostly (like 95%) because of his continual expressed desire in singing (it makes me think that when he does actually get proper vocal lessons he would take them very seriously and be very disciplined about it and tbh that just goes above everything else) but also because of that one performance of city escape (here) ? and it sounds really pretty and the range that he’s singing in that song is starting to be in the higher part of a baritones register too. and in some of his other vocal performances too, whenever he is in the range where he doesn’t have to mix, his approach to his voice really isnt bad at all. i say he has the most potential but that doesnt mean the other hht members cant become awesome vocalists they can if they put the right time and effort into it. pt:the rest of the units are composed of all tenors (at least from what i know) btw so yeah all of pt are tenors. again in terms of technique no one particularly stands out. they all seem to approach singing similarly but with putting emphasis on different things which makes them sound different….actually upon closer inspection most of the members of the entire group (not just pt) are like that laksjdl….well maybe with the exception of sk. anywho…jh pushes air a lot which is why you get those like ‘hiccups’?? idk how else to describe it but an example is here. like do u hear how his voice rises at the end of a lot of those notes? hs also gets those same hiccups. jh is also quite nasal, and probably the most nasally member within the 13 members when it comes to singing. nasally voices are my number one pet peeve rip thats why my fav jh singing moments is when hes singing in his comfortable range and esp when its words/syllables that force him to place his voice not so much in his nose (ie this part in my i). being nasal is not really as damaging for the vocal chords as much as it is the individual not really placing the voice in the correct, most optimal place. he also gets really tight on higher notes esp when hes trying to mix that high. same with hs (you can hear the both of them sounding tight in the habit perf i linked to earlier). also jh has tongue tension but im not sure if thats a reflection of him trying to sing in kr…him and hao are probably at a disadvantage when it comes to singing because of the fact that they aren’t singing in a language that theyre comfortable in/fluent in. when it comes to hao, when he said in the seasons greetings video that he was working on singing but no matter how much he practiced, he couldnt improve, that made me really sad :( because that basically means is that the vocal lessons he is getting arent actually good vocal lessons…unless he expects results to happen in a week (which sadly no it takes months upon months). ur vocal chords are a muscle so they take time to develop (like when u first go to the gym u arent going to try and lift the heaviest weight right? or run at the fastest speed or whatever u have to build urself up to that slowly). and then he also compared that to his dancing which he said he could get better at by doing over and over? but its the same when it comes to dancing like u cant be improving dancing if u learn the wrong choreo or the wrong ways to dance a specific type of dance right? like no matter how much u practice a wrong choreo its still going to be that wrong choreo…so if u sing with bad technique no matter how much u practice u arent going to get better u’ll just develop bad technique. but yeah singing with correct technique should yield some results eventually (i can attest to that). anyways im biased and i really want to hear hs get proper vocal lessons bc i find his vocal color sooo pretty i literally listen to campfire like 90%for his part in the chorus (and the other 10% is cheols rap aldjsf)….i also think he hovers around being able to support or maybe its my biased ears talking who knwos… i didnt really talk about dn but hes kind of along the same lines…maybe a bit more dependent on his throat than some of the other members in pt…which kind of makes sense bc thats what rappers tend to dovt: ok js and wz are both similar in how they approach singing i think its kind of obvious too with how much they sound alike at times. oh yeah wz probably has the highest vocal range within the group idt anyone in the group can go higher than him (not that it really matters when it comes to vocal technique but its a neat tidbit of info). jh for one has a lot of tongue tension (just like jn) when he sings and is kinda nasal (not as much as jn but still there). just like the rest of the other members in the other units, these three dont support either. we can finally talk about support when we talk about sm…although his supported range isnt too much he does have that basic down…he gets super throaty though when hes outside his supported range. he does that same hiccup thing that hs/jn do. he hasn’t shown the ability to resonate but at least he can support.  despite singing a lot of the groups high notes, he hasnt developed a connected head voice, as far as im aware of. technique wise hes really similar to a lot of the main vocalists in groups that debut these days. but ok NOW SK aka the member who has the best vocal technique. he supports consistently and he has resonance too its so beautiful and wonderful to listen to like esp since a lot of kpop group vocalists that debut these days for some reason dont really want to resonate. its so nice to listen to his voice. like hes fooling around here but still manages (what i think is) a resonant F#4? (not the high note he holds out, its like the note he sings before he slides up) and if that note isnt resonant then it is at the very least supported very very very nicely. heres a really pretty g4. tbh i really want to hear him start trying to conquer the fourth octave like what a good day itd be if i could say ‘yeah sk can sing up to b4s with good technique’ like thats kind of hard to do but definitely attainable! and he has the potential for sure! i think within the fandom hes really quite overlooked for some odd reason that i cant seem to figure out why. he definitely has the healthiest voice, at least his mixed register for sure. he seems to prefer mixing over head voice for whatever reason when it comes to high notes so honestly speaking i havent paid much attention to his head voice but i wouldnt be surprised if it wasnt connected considering how much he doesnt sing in it…but tbh the fact that he mixes pretty decently is amazing in it of itself. CONCLUSION: with proper vocal guidance and technique ANYONE can become a decent singer. 

[hyucksbf]

I'm so glad there's a bunch of us who love the moles,,, they're just so pretty, which is unsurprising cuz like, what about Hyuck isn't pretty?? And on top of that he's so cuddly? Everytime I see an video of him I just feel the need to know he is being given endless love and affection,,, that someone in nct isn't denying his kisses,,, -the first freckle anon (also the nail art anon from a bit ago, I still want to paint his nails so bad,,, neons for Go!!!)

wowowow ok First of All dont get the idea of neon nails for the go concept in my head bc im literally gonna,, combust,,,,oh my GO D that would be the best thing 2 ever bless this earth @ sm let them paint neon nails u COWARDS

and yes i agree hyuck is literally the definition of pretty hes so ethereal like every angle ??? absolutely gorgeous, he has the cutest face nd the cutest cheeks nd the prettiest moles an dthe prettiest hair and the prettiest eyes DID I MENTION I LOVE HIS E Y E S oh my GOD i could stare at his eyes for days theyre so softa dn pretty and just. wow.

also !!!!! hes literally so cuddly nd its jst so endearing like not 2 be extra soft but when ithink abt him in like an oversize hoodie w like messy hair nd sweatpants nd ur jst sitting on the couch w him late at night watching movies nd snuggling in w each other like,, that shit makes me cri ok