#i wanna see insecure grieving natsume.... i wanna see him cry. i hate this timeline

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You know I really love that in the end Natsume and Mikan met again and stayed together but the part of me that likes to suffer sometimes wonders what would have happened if Mikan had fallen in love with someone else in that period of time. Well, more than anything I wonder if Natsume was ever worried that that would happen.

Honestly that would have been very painful, good thing it never happened.

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i like angst as much as the next person but i dont think mikan could fall in love with someone else. she remembered loving someone (natsume) and comparing to that feeling whenever anybody asked her out. she rejected them because they couldn't make her feel that same way. i hate so many things about the last few chapters, but that was one aspect i liked and wouldn't change.

as for natsume being concerned about it...

HE WOULD. natsume is jealous, as we see all the time in the manga, and he has a terrible self esteem. he barely believed mikan loved him back so the idea that maybe she could love somebody else when he's gone would probably eat away at him...

which brings me to the biggest complaint: why didn't we see more of natsume's grief and misery in mikan's absence? we get one fleeting little panel of waking up without her and that's it! it's awful! everything is so rushed. the story would have benefited from showing us his mental state during that time, so that we could see if he did get jealous or insecure, or how he coped with her gone.

it is good that never happened, but i wouldn't be worried because i don't think it's possible! natsume probably did worry about that, in my opinion, but mikan still loves him, even without her memories, because she promised him "from now until forever, more than anyone else," just like he did.