#i wanna keep my sisters ipad

[deckoftrickcards]

made a lil thing on my sisters ipad

[hearts4leeknow]

memories || Bangchan X Reader

Warning(s): none(?)

Genre: FLUFFFF

idol!Bangchan X pregnant!Reader

Summary: After lunch you find your beloved husband, Bangchan and child upstairs in your shared bedroom watching videos on their ipad along side Chan. You admire them standing in the door way until you see your kid look over to Chans phone in interest, Channie seems to notice and he starts explaining what hes looking at. You look at them in awe, it was such a cute moment you had to snap a photo. And so you did!! You and him knew he would be the perfect father, what he didn’t know was he would be a father of 2 in a few months.

!!LOWERCASE INTENDED!!

a/n: got the idea from some friends while they were commenting on my baby photos iwth my dad! (guys i was gonna make this a new years post but ig nvm)

“baby” chan hums hugging your waist

“yes?” you smile while you finish up washing the dishes.

“me and naomi (ur child’s name) will go up stairs” he mumbled quietly resting his head on your shoulder.

“okay! ill come up soon” you kissed him on the cheek.

you then heard naomi run up stairs with chan giggling trying to catch her. oh how you loved them. a while later you decide to go upstairs to join them. You took your time walking up the stairs to your shared bedroom, you grabbed your phone from the counter then entering the bedroom. Suddenly you stopped in your tracks when you saw naomi smiling while your beloved husband was talking about what he was doing at on his computer. You couldn’t help but smile at the scene happening in front of you. You were quick to open your phone snapping a photo as a memory, they looked adorable and you adored both of them oh so much. naomi was your first child and you had yet to tell chan you were carrying their second child. You were surprised he hadn’t notice your stomach grow in size, you were 1 month and you had found out 2 weeks ago.

“baby!” Chan exclaimed, with a bright smile pulling you out of your thoughts.

“mama, look at what daddy’s doing!!” naomi called you over, you walked over looking at chans laptop screen. He was making a song.

“wanna listen to it?” he pinched you cheek.

“I wanna!!” she jumped on the bed.

“sure” you giggled at naomi’s behaviour. bangchan then played the song, it was beautiful, so beautiful you teared up a little. when the demo of the song ended he had then mentioned it would be releasing in an upcoming straykids album.

“waah!! dadas song is so cool!! i wanna be like dada!!” naomi exclaimed obviously showing her enthusiasm for chans song.

“thank you omi” bangchan smiled giving a kiss on the cheek to your daughter. you were in awe about the moment unfolding in front of you, you also wondered if it was a good time to chan that naomi will soon be a big sister. suddenly you were pulled out of your thoughts when chan asked; “baby, whats up? i can tell you’re spacing out there” you contemplated for a second before responding.

“naomi is going to be a big sister soon” you had a faint smile staring into bangchans now widened eyes.

“actually?” chan gasped in disbelief.

“yes” you looked at him with the most loving eyes as his eyes started forming tears.

“mama why is dada crying?” naomi had asked with concern written all over her face.

“omi, baby, your going to be a big sister” chan gave a bright smile lightly holding naomi’s shoulders.

“really? mama is this true??” she asked you jumping up and down holding your arm.

“yes omi, it is” as soon as you told her that she jumped onto to you hugging your arm. this time. it was chans turn to watch in awe, he took out his phone and took a picture of the two of you laying down as naomi was hugging your arm. this was a memory he wanted to keep forever;

“channie come join, its a group hug!” you waved your hand inviting him to join the cuddles. bangchan hugged your waist and you played with his hair, at this moment you two knew this is what you both wanted, a happy and loving family of your own.

FIN !!

a/n: FINALLY THE FIC IS OUT enjoy bbys!!

[deathtastegirl]

i love u millennials but i really hate how millennials just gave their kids unrestricted access to the entire internet just bcuz they did as kids also. im a teenager with elder millennial parents and they let me see everything at the ripe age of 5. the ipad baby phenomenon was started by them in the mid 2010s bcuz they honestly had no clue what to do with their kid which i understand but u dont just? give a kid a phone the second they start talking? there's a reason why cybersecurity for minors has gone so much bigger and its bcuz these ppl keep giving their 6 year olds ipads and doing nothing with them. i remember going to my friends house and her little sister got a chromebook for christmas. shes 6. the entire time we were there she was just scrolling on youtube shorts. btw can we talk about youtube shorts? make fun of gen alpha brain rot all yall want but that stuffs genuinely serious. brainrot at 5 isnt okay! i had 5 year old brainrot and that isn't okay! and i know that its not only millennials but have you SEEN how many of them post on tiktok saying 'my 7 year old is addicted to their phone they never wanna go outside😫😫😫' ....and whos fault is that? YEAH BITCH!!!! YOURS!!!! do me a favor and dont let ur kids on the internet until they're around 13 or so. its much more serious than a simple 'dont let ur kids on tiktok ehehehhe'

tl:dr; im tired of ppl (millennials mostly) giving their child unrestricted internet access just bcuz they did also.

[pttwice]

may I request a baby SMC reqressing while on the tour bus with the group in America and fighting like siblings do and CG MiSaMo needs to scold them and put them in timeout

hi hi :) i know that little SMC would all be such troublemakers. they'd be so sweet but a handful when they're all regressed at the same time

timeout

|| little!dahyun, little!chaeyoung, little!tzuyu, cg!mina, cg!sana, cg!momo ||

"Mama, wanna watch movie." Chaeyoung leaned over in her seat and laid her head down in Momo's lap. She used her best puppy dog eyes on the older girl. Momo tried not to look down, but it was just too hard to resist a little Chaeng in her lap. Momo sighed and nodded. She pulled her iPad out of her backpack and pulled up Disney+.

"If you watch a movie now, then no iPad when we get to the hotel, okay? Straight to bath and then bed." Momo held her tablet above Chaeyoung who huffed but nodded, holding her hands out.

Once Chaeyoung leaned back in her seat to pick a movie, Sana pulled a headphone out, turning to look at Momo.

"What's that look for?" Momo squinted her eyes a bit, knowing fully well why Sana was looking at her like she had just made a huge mistake.

"You know that giving them your iPad was a terrible choice, right?" Mina chimed in from her seat beside Jeongyeon. She paused the YouTube video she was watching and Momo just playfully rolled her eyes.

"What was I supposed to do? If I didn't give her my iPad, then she was just going to keep looking at me like that. You two can't say no to that face either!"

Sana just sighed and shook her head, putting her headphone back in. "You're dealing with this if they get out of control."

//

Chaeyoung held Momo's iPad in her lap, scrolling through all the movies on Disney+. She had seen most of them at least twice, but there were a few she always went back to no matter how many there were she hadn't seen.

Dahyun and Tzuyu leaned against Chaeyoung's shoulders and watched as Chaeyoung endlessly scrolled. There were a few movies they each liked, but they knew that Chaeyoung wouldn't want to pick the ones they wanted.

"Doggies! Doggies!" Tzuyu got excited and pointed to 101 Dalmatians, but Chaeyoung just shook her head and scrolled past it.

"We watched dat yesterday, Tzu."

Tzuyu pouted and crossed her arms over her chest. Just because they watched it yesterday, that didn't mean they couldn't watch it again today.

"Oooh Pooh!" Dahyun excitedly pointed out The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh, but Chaeyoung shook her head again and continued her search.

"No. Pooh too boring."

Dahyun just glared at her little sister and groaned. "You never wanna watch what we wanna watch, Chaeng."

Chaeyoung just shrugged her shoulders in indifference. After a few more rows of movies, she finally picked one she knew she'd never get tired of watching. "Cindewella!" She excitedly shouted the name out and bounced a little in her seat.

Dahyun and Tzuyu looked at each other and shook their heads. They had seen Cinderella with Chaeyoung and without her at least a bajillion times. They liked the movie enough, but with the amount of times they'd each seen it, it had gotten boring. There were so many more movies that were so much more fun!

//

Tzuyu only watched Cinderella for about five minutes before she got tired of it. She tried to exit out of the movie to try and force Chaeyoung to watch something else, but this only frustrated her older sister.

"No, Tzu! Wanna watch Cindewella!" Chaeyoung pulled the iPad away from Tzuyu, turning so her back was facing the youngest. Dahyun frowned at the action and tried to pull the iPad out of Chaeyoung's hand.

"Ya! You have to share!" Dahyun tugged at the iPad, accidentally changing the language to French from how she was grabbing it.

"Hyun! Stop!" Chaeyoung was more than frustrated now. She just wanted to watch her movie, but now she couldn't even understand what they were saying and she didn't know how to change the settings.

"Don' wanna watch!" Tzuyu started to pull on Chaeyoung's shirt, trying to get the older girl to turn around. She didn't even care about what movie they watched at this point as long as it wasn't Cinderella. She had seen it too many times and she was tired of Chaeyoung always picking the movies they watched.

//

Most of the girls had fallen asleep. The ride to the hotel was fairly long so they had more than enough time to catch up on sleep.

Mina, Sana, and Momo were fast asleep. They were enjoying the rare time to rest and relax before they had to get ready for the concert tomorrow.

As soon as the littles started to argue, Sana's eyes shot open. She pulled one of her headphones out and groaned. She threw her head against the back of her seat and rubbed her eyes. She did not want to be dealing with this right now. Especially not by herself.

"Ya you gotta deal with them." Sana smacked Momo on the arm a few times, successfully waking the older girl up. Momo groaned and opened one eye. She didn't know what Sana was talking about until she heard Chaeyoung's all too familiar whines.

"Why do I have to deal with them?" Momo rubbed her hands over her face and sat up a bit.

"You're the one who gave them the iPad in the first place!" Sana laughed in disbelief as she turned her body towards Momo. At this, Momo just gave her a guilty smile.

"Oh. Right." Momo sighed and threw her blanket off. She got up and stood beside Dahyun's seat. The three littles were too invested in arguing with each other that they didn't even realize that Momo had gotten up.

"I wanna watch Cindewella!" Chaeyoung was full on yelling at this point and Momo was afraid it was going to wake the rest of the sleeping members up or at least annoy the crap out of them.

"No! Tzu doesn't want to and we-"

"Ya! Why are you three yelling? I didn't give you the iPad just so you could fight over it."

They finally noticed Momo standing over them, three heads turning to look at their mama all at once. There was perfectly beautiful silence for about five seconds until all three of them decided to start talking all at once.

"What-hold on. I can't understand a single thing any of you are trying to tell me." Momo sighed and pinched the bridge of her nose. She was in no way equipped to deal with three screaming littles, especially not when she had just woken up.

//

Sana turned around once they all started talking over each other and rolled her eyes. She got up and stood beside Momo, her hands on her hips. Her usually sweet and happy face was extremely annoyed.

"Hey! Please. One at a time. We can't figure out what's going on unless you go one at a time."

Dahyun grumbled but stopped talking. She crossed her arms and just pointed to Chaeyoung and then the iPad. Chaeyoung wasn't much help either as she just mocked what Dahyun was doing. Tzuyu... well, Tzuyu was just pouting. She turned so her face was against the window, eyes closed as she mumbled to herself.

"Okay, one at a time doesn't mean saying nothing. Chaengie did you share the iPad?" Sana sighed, trying a lighter approach to see if they would respond any better, but this just caused them to all start talking again even louder.

At this point, most of the bus was woken up, including Mina. The littles we well as Momo and Sana didn't notice as Mina sat up, turning to the noise that had drawn her away from her peaceful sleep. She stretched and got up, taking her headphones out before setting everything on her seat.

By the time the littles had finally gone quiet, Momo and Sana thought they had just gotten tired of talking over each other. They turned and high-fived each other, immediately jumping once they saw Mina standing behind them. The look the girl had on her face was far from pleasant as she stood there, arms crossed.

"You three. One, you're going to give me the iPad." Mina held her hand out and Chaeyoung gave it to Mina with a slightly shaky hand. "Two, you're going to stop arguing and apologize to each other and the rest of the bus." Mina waited until they said sorry to each other and everyone else. "Three, you're going to sit away from each other. No phones, no iPads, nothing. You're going to sit there and think about the commotion you just caused until we get to the hotel. Once we get to the hotel, you're taking a bath and going straight to bed. Understand?"

It wasn't often that Mina got upset, but when she did, it was scary. She didn't raise her voice, but her tone was so stern and commanding that it even struck fear into Sana and Momo who silently stood beside each other.

The littles grumbled but didn't dare do or say anything as they sat far away from each other. Dahyun sat at the front of the bus, Chaeyoung in the middle, and Tzuyu in the back beside Jeongyeon who had somehow stayed asleep through it all.

//

Once peace had been restored and the littles were in timeout, the three caregivers sat back down. Sana leaned over to Momo and whispered, "Remind me to never make Mina mad."

Momo just looked at Sana and nodded in agreement. Although she was scary, they couldn't deny that she got the job done. By the time the bus made it to the hotel, the littles had apologized to each other again and were happy enough to take a bath and go to sleep.

Too exhausted to continue their fighting at the hotel — too scared of Mina getting angry again as well — they all ended up wrapped up in each other, somehow squeezed into one bed.

[askstevella]

Can we keep him? 🐶🐾🥺

“Mom.”

She was cooking.

“Ma.”

She raised an eyebrow.

“Mother of our—”

“Yes, Kendall.” She responded.

“Can I keep Astro? Please.” He asked for the second time that week.

“What did your father say?”

“Uh, he said yes.”

Kendall had a similar look on his face, a puppy dog look that he earned from his father. It was scary how even though Kendall Rogers wasn’t their son biologically (that they know of 👀), he had traits that were similar to his father in more ways than one.

This was one of them.

She and Steve talked the night before about this topic…

….Stella had entered the bedroom after tucking in little Sarah Marianna Rogers in bed and kissing both of their kids goodnight. Steve sat under the covers scrolling through his iPad as he heard Astro in the living room barking softly.

He knew his wife was on the fence about getting—or in this case, keeping a dog but she let him stay for a while now. But she hasn’t said yes to the whole plan.

Their children were thrilled about the possibility, meanwhile she was still very upset with her brother about what happened. He thought he would try to convince her otherwise. She climbed into bed beside him, flipped on her phone as she smiled at him.

“Heyyyy.” He said with a sweet grin.

“Hi?” She replied.

“We’re alone.”

“Yes we are. No one to bother us.”

“You wanna, you know?”

“Who are you and what have you done to my husband?”

Before she can even say anything about his actions, he snaked an entire arm around her and flipped his wife onto her back as he was on top of her. She giggled and yelped at his quick moves.

“Wh-what are you doing?” She asked mid laugh.

“Showing you that I am still Captain America and you’re my best girl.” He said smiling.

“Lady Strange. What are you getting at, mister Rogers?”

“That our family should grow. I always wanted a big family.”

“Honey we have two kids. Isn’t that enough?”

“Of course. But I mean, how about we officially add that little furry guy to our family.”

“Steven Grant.”

“Estella Elizabeth. You let that dog stay here for a little bit, why not make it official? Kendall named him for god’s sakes honey.”

“But..it’s a lot of money for a dog, you have to pay attention to them and—“

“Our son has proven himself worthy of him. I always wanted a dog too.”

“I..Theigo never once thought of telling me first.”

“Stell, you can be mad at your brother all you want but he must’ve done it for him a reason. He loves his nephew.”

“Next thing he knows he buys Mary a bunny…”

“Then we will have our own animal circus. Listen, you may not be on board with this kind of thing but it’s happening sweetheart. Our kids deserve a dog.”

“Damn it.”

….which leads them back to this point. Kendall looked at his mother waiting for an answer in hope it will be a solid yes.

Stella sighed deeply and looked at her son with a smile.

“Okay, fine, you can keep Astronaut Rogers.” She says chuckling.

“You’re serious? I can keep Astro? You’re not joking right?” Kendall asked, wondering if this was a trick.

“No, I’m not. Baby, your father was..right about this. And yes your uncle was an idiot for not telling me first..but I can’t lie, I love how he meets you happy.”

“He does mom. He really does! I promise to take care of him, he can stay in my room during the colder months and—”

“Hold it right there blondie, he will be sleeping in my living room with a bed and blanket. He’s not sleeping outside unless he wants to. And you have to promise me, you won’t get Astro lost in the woods or something.”

“I promise. I totally understand and I would never do that.”

Kendall rushed into his mother’s arm hugging her tightly and repeating soft ‘thank you’ for a moment. She hugged him back and kissed his hair before watching him go off to the front yard to take Astro on a walk.

“He better not pee or shit on my favorite chair, like Rick did!” She yelled from the dishwasher.

“No promises!” He yelled back.

“Take your sister with you!”

“Okay!”

She rolled her eyes smiling to herself.

————

Tags: @rooster-84 @missstrawbs2001 @purpleprincessonfyre @meiramel @gcthvile @rickb-chaos @gaminggirlsstuff @wizzzardofoz @cherrysft @thechoooooosenone @luna-d-marsh @sherloquestea and etc

[thestraggletag]

Stragg, I know you had a horrible year, and I seem to recall you also struggle with depression and maybe ADHD too (I do, with both, it also had been the most hellish year ever), and I was wondering... How do you keep up with news and what is going on in the world when you have hard times? I myself have such a difficulty with keeping up with stuff when things get hard (but bc of ADHD some other times too), but I still want to be well informed. How do you do it? Do you have a rutine you can share?

Sorry for any weird format, anon, because I’m on holiday (hi from Barcelona!) and all I got with me is my iPad and my Bluetooth keyboard (because what if I NEED to write fic on my vacation??????). So, as far as I go, yep, 2023 (more precisely the last half of 2023) was the worst, including stuff I don’t wanna share on the internet, and yep, I got depression (not ADHD tho, not as far as I know), which meant I got myself into preemptive therapy, lets say, a couple of weeks after my dad died in September. I felt I was coping, but I wanted to make sure I was processing my grief in the healthiest way possible. So therapy is a big thing for me. Not all the time, but when I need it.

As far as anything else, I suppose is to make sure I have interests and hobbies that make me happy AND help calm me down and also, hopefully, things that make me hopeful about the future. Currently I’m studying data science, for example, that both highly interests me and also gives me hope that I could turn it into a possible better job in the future. But it doesn’t have to be a work thing, any project that makes you happy or hopeful about your future (my sister got a cat, for example!) helps.

And you also need to pace yourself. You don’t NEED to be informed of everything all the time. I live in Argentina, where fucked up shit happens ALL the time (mostly financial) so I’m kinda used to daily fucked up shit and literally expecting the worse every day. So I know when I’ve reached my limit, when to focus on myself. You gotta try and find yours. Also I have several apps downloaded onto my phone that have urgent notifications set in with the most important news (mostly Reuters, The Guardian and La Nación, which is a local newspaper) so I know I don’t HAVE to be watching the news to be informed, if something important happens I’ll hear about it.

But mostly what I’ve done since September is put things in perspective and realise that, given what I was going through, I had no space or energy for anything else. Like, I barely paid attention to the news and it was a fucking election year, so things were SPICY. But I told myself I had no energy for it, that I was keeping my energy in working, going to school and processing my grief and to ask more of myself would be stupid. I was already at capacity.

I hope this helps, sorry if it doesn’t. Try to put yourself first when things are tough. Concentrate on doing what is important to you or what you NEED to do (like work) and let everything else fall to the side. It is valid to not be up to date with all that’s going on in the world because you’re trying to keep up to date with what’s going on with you.

[araisbored]

Temporary bliss.

So, how do we do this again?

There is too much pressure after writing that Niki piece. My brain can only handle much.

It’s always like this, the feeling of being unwary but at the same time unsure when I first write something for a long time. We are not new to a long hiatus. And definitely not new to this kind of pattern. It actually becomes uncanny when I post often. So how’s everybody doing?

I am writing because I’m avoiding work again and I have time to kill. Well, life is still the same here. Busy and sometimes I still don’t have enough time to do things here at work and yet here I am killing my time with my nonsense blog. Why would I prepare for the things I need to  do in the future with the time I have today? That’s one of the wonders of my life as well. And what’s funny is no one probably cares what I write here but when you actually checked me out and found out this cute blog or simply just found this by accident. I would like to say thank you.

My life has been (it always was) chaotic. Family moved back here in our hometown. (Is it still called hometown if they moved back here?) The first few months of April was busy unpacking and it actually last until the first few weeks of May. I have been driving to work now. Which is a gift and a curse at the same time. A gift considering and comparing the time I woke up now and before. (From 5am to 6am.) And a curse with the amount of maintenance and bills you pay when you use a car on a daily basis.

I impulsively bought an iPad and wow. It is a fucking life changer. The girls on tiktok are not lying when they say it was their life. I use it mainly as my planner and some PPT work here and there. And it was AMAZING. I wanna share here how I use my planner and what template I use for those. Probably on the next post. I wanna boast to all of you that I actually make my own template. So if you find that ugly, let’s keep it to ourselves.

No updates on love life. I wanted to but it is still dry AF. Although relations at work have improved a little compared to what I had last year. I am enjoying the bliss of having my mom around. But also living the pain and endless responsibility of having my sister. But when good things happen, for instance when she plays a clarinet in front of her school, I feel somewhat fulfilled as if I’m the one who performed and blew that thing. All of the mornings during Saturdays, (which I plan to rest) dropping her for her practice was all paid off.

I also enjoy dressing up these days. There were days before that I did love dressing up. Then it died down because I got bored and there was no one to impress. But hey, new people came to my workplace and I started making myself pretty again. What's funny is there is a competition now here. But still now digits from my crush. So what is the point really?

I am not new in my work and now really getting the hang of it. Actually I shouldn’t be saying that I am getting the hang of it when I’ve been around the block. I live in the block. Not to spoil my temporary seventh heaven, but I’m getting bored.

There are unfortunate things that happened but why would I share it with you? I won’t let you know the places I am wounded and you won’t see me bleed. Or in this case you will not know I’m bleeding. I cannot say that I have a lot in store for you but I have some things kept on my sleeve. 

That's it for the Ara mini-update.

I will try to post something but wouldn't that be an out of character thing for me? hehe.

Ttyl,

A.

[thepinkpetalpages]

Jan 16/2025

bro why did i think that tdy is friday like im telling u this week has been so hectic that i cant even get my days of the week in order. man at least i can say thank you to mlk for getting me monday off even tho next week i gotta take my english and wold history regnets. i got that world history shit down pact, but english.... its ok tho cause they said if i dont do the best in jan i can always take it in june but i typeshit dont want to cause like i got softball season, and then evryone keeps on talking about the "junior jitters" like bro i alr got the case of "sophmore slump" i dead dont need to add "junior jitters" to the flipping mix like for once can i js get a school yr where i dont go through like 10 diffrent character develpment plots in one month??? idk if ya seen that like new tiktok trend where like they be gripping the door but its FRYINGGG me. like how do u as a gown adult mange to hang on the door without falling more importantly the door crashing on you. anyway tdy in school it was chill for my first two class (history n english) we did test prep for the regents so that was like some calm shit, then in geomtry my teacher told us we got a test tmrw so i was like wait i thought u wasnt going to be here, she said that we having a sub and she making it open note so i was hype cause i can remember (my meomory is actually horrendious) the formulas if my life depended on it. italian man that was also light work cause i was rehersening for my speeking project, my partner wasnt here so im js by myslef n playing games on my ipad. tell me why i proced to see her in gym which we have tg like ho i didnt really wanna work with u, do most of the work and u decide to skip the day before?? i should deadass rip up the script but thats lowkey risking my own grade and im not down with that. i was in chem and we had a quiz but she told us she was switching it friday so tell me why im lost asf but i still got a 100 on it so im balling. bussnies was missing work day so evreyone in my class trynna get that work in for bussnies and im chilling playing cooking feaver on my ipad, tell me why someone deadass asked my teacher if they could use chatgt and got upset when they said no, i was dyingggg like damn i knew ya was stupid but aint no way. even worse when i see a whole table of ppl who never pay atttenion shocked that they got points docked off for it. my bestfriends who go to a diffrent scool came to pick me up, we got food and then took the train. our train convo always go crazyy and i make sure to speak up so evryone can hear the tea cause no man left behind. bro i got home only to find out my wole family but me sick (must have a top teir immune system or its all the frozen fruit i be eating) so i start eating my food. like a good 45 minutes after i get home i fall asleep and wake up to me and my sister in the same bed MIND you she has her own bed so how tf... now im in her bed and she in mines but i lowkey might js sleep here tonight and let her have my bed for the night cause i dont feel like arguing with a 4 yr old. my sister gotta be the hulk or sum cause she like twice the size of the kids in her class and then she be manging to push me down (im 5"3) like girl calm down and she dont even be meaning to do it. i cant wait for tmr cause our school buying us food so im bout to be the biggest of backs tmrw cause not only that but my dad always order out on fridays ayeeeeee.

xoxo,

the pink petal

[blackasmyhangryfurrybrokensoul]

It hurts to realize all those times you tried to voice your pain, nothing was heard. It hurts to be told you don't ever express yourself, when you have been but nobody is listening.

Does my mom know how much she's hurting me? I don't even feel like a daughter to her. I don't feel like she cares if I'm around, except to have someone to be there for her. I don't feel like she cares about what I'm feeling, or going through, how I'm doing. She doesn't bother to ask. She says that I don't tell her but she never asks and isn't even listening when I speak.

I don't want to speak anymore. I don't want to fight or try to get people to listen when they are adamant that they are right. I don't see the point in trying to get someone who is so in denial about their own failures and incompetence to try to admit even the smallest of mistakes without finding a way to make me feel guilty for taking issue with anything.

She says she's doing stuff to keep herself alive. If she admits she's as flawed as I say she wants to kill herself. She makes a point of it. I can't say anything against her and expect her to take the criticism without her expressing how she should off herself. And she says she's trying to keep my sister alive... by what? Allowing her to remain in harmful relationships that are the reason her whole life is going to shit? LIke damn be a parent. Care a little. She's 14, she's not gonna know what's the best choice to make. Don't expect that talking to her will fix things, do something. Take away her iPad, don't let her use social media if she can't make smart choices about who she chooses to keep in her life.

But who am I to tell her how to parent? I'm just a 20 year old that lived through all her crap and knows every flaw of hers.

I am so fucking sick of it all. If they wanna rot in that house, in their own shit and misery they can choose to do that but I choose to live, I choose to love and spend my energy on people that are worth it. I choose to spend my energy on myself and those who've shown me through their actions that they are worth spending energy on. I am not going to keep fighting pointless battles in the name of a family. I am not going to be dragged down with them just because they can't muster up the courage to get themselves out.

I have a future. I have an amazing person standing next to me. I have dreams. I have places I wanna go. I have things I wanna do. I have a person I need to become. And I'm perfectly fine with keeping my family in my life if they can respect me and care about me, but if all they wanna do is throw their misery at each other I have no interest in maintaining my relationships with them. At this rate, sooner or later, they will all be strangers. I made the choice to not engage in pointless battles for appreciation I would never get, it's on them to make the choice to show me they want to stay in my life. If they don't care enough to make the effort to fix things, then yeah I guess I don't want them in my life. I don't want to be surrounded by people that oblige me to care about them without giving a single damn about me. I could die for all they know and it'd take a week for them to realize anything is wrong.

[palletteofhyperfixations]

This is all my internal thoughts cause I need to vent about this.

Me when my mom trusts me to go outside to Main Street on your own: Yay! but your siblings won’t enjoy it because “it’s too hot” and keep bothering mother(she has a crazy deadline): Bitch what the FU

you go to library: Yay! they still complain and your brother just wanders around complaining: BOY WHAT THE ACTUAL

you mention the books: See this is called “book” it’s meant for R E A D I N G he says he will only read books like Percy Jackson: just…look around. He refuses, so you sign up for an art gallery to pass the time and take a look at numerous free stuffs: :) you go to bathroom to wash the sweat off face, no one else does: ??? they still complain: I am gonna stab someone I SWEAR TO GOD STOP TEXTING MOM

mom arrives: HERE SINCE YOU WANNA LEAVE LETS JUST GO CMON GET YOUR ASSES UP

mom is upset cause she couldn’t get any work done: I hate you guys. everyone is sentenced to bedrooms.

Brother gets in argument with twin sister: BROTHER SHE WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO DIDNT COMPLAIN

I type this in fury. Ipad at 10 percent, now 2. Now one.

[kin-the-muffin]

haha soooo many things happening rn and i feel like i have so much time to do nothing like i used to but when i take a step back sure i have less but i still have a lot but then i remember that theres homework im already ignoring in my classes and new friends to know and be known by and old friends to either dump cuz theyre toxic and i never realized or try in vain to keep ahold of a slipping relationship and im in my senior year now hahahaaaaa

vent below

i auditioned for my school’s musical and i finally got a speaking part and im also technically a lead and that rly cool but it also means im going to have to stay at school for twelve hours almost every day until the second week of march when the play ends

im in my school’s honor choir and its a zero hour so i have to wake up at unheavenly times to get there and sing for two and a half hours

i get to be in a rly big state choir too and thats coming up in february and i havent looked at the music yet and i cant get the remind to work and all the emails are so long-winded and badly-formatted and confusing

and my english class is nearly full of students so thats fun and my school has zero, count em, Z E R O good senior english teachers but im pretty sure i have the better of two devils and i had her last semester so i know her and she knows me but i also know the kinda bs shes gonna throw at us and i just have to hope that she wasnt lying when she said that this semester would be easier because we’re not working on senior papers this time (mine was about mental health in schools not that anyone asked lolll)

i also have the same government teacher as last semester which is both a blessing and a curse because i know what to expect but like none of it is good and he makes us do these stupid unnecessary tiny group projects and why tf cant i just work alone i only know one person in the class and his lectures are so pointless and please just let me take all the tests and be done with this heaven-forsaken class already

then im in studio art which is basically the highest level art class at my school and you have to get permission from an art teacher to be in one of their hours then you work on one huge independent project the whole semester and my art teacher knows i draw on my ipad and said i could make a comic so now i have to figure out what its about then i can hopefully start the ball rolling from there but i have too many ideas and not enough at the same time and none of them are developed enough to make a 22-page, fully edited-and-colored comic

and my choir director is so incredibly passive aggressive but not really on purpose, he just knows he has a rbf and so he overcompensates to make himself more friendly but then when his patience runs thin he yells and i wanna cry and die and quit high school and cry some more

and im trying so hard not to stress over college because i know im gonna take a gap year so i can think about it then but two of my sisters have offered their homes to me and i love them both so much and ive been thinking about just getting an apartment and a roommate but i have to tell them that because one of them is going to renovate their basement with my potential living there in mind and then i end up stressing about college anyways like what major and what minor and what school and what even is my endgoal???? i dont know?!?!??!?!! i dont know what i want to do with my life, not specifically! my biggest dream rn is to be an mc streamer and thats just cuz im back in my mcyt phase and the old pipe dream from my childhood has returned but i know it cant actually work out btu the dreamer in me says it can but i know it realistically has like a .000002% chance of actually happening

and thats all i have the energy to say rn

sorry for the rant

sorry for not posting

ty and goodnight

[steviespookiee]

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17 / She!her / RadFem / Bisexual 🎀

Joe keery ML♡♪ Sabrina Carpenter always `02.10`

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Hi, my names Strawbunni! (Or Strawb for short!)

(Like strawberry bunny🐰)

And this is my about me - some information about who I am and what I wanna post here on Tumblr!

I’ve been on Tumblr for half a year now, (Thanks to my best friend🩷) and the community is amazing! I’ve always been too scared to post or interact with people, but I want to start making friends and building a community of my own.

What will I post?

For now I will just post random thoughts I have, updates on certain celebrities (like new photos being posted, concerts ect.) Maybe some art projects, The Sims 4 content, Royale High stuff and reposting anything I find hilariously funny.

Eventually I want to start writing and posting my own fan fiction! Mostly Stranger Things! (it’s a special interest of mine.) some Supernatural, The Walking dead, POSSIBLY The Last Of Us if I can bring myself to play the game. (I’m too scared.) and a few other TV shows! So feel free to give me suggestions or requests for any fics you’d wanna see in the future, don’t be shy!

What are my interests/hobbies?

My BIGGEST hobby is gaming! As a kid I always played on my mums iPad, or my dad’s PS3, eventually my sister got an Xbox that I started using, and then I eventually got my own laptop! Which then for me into getting my own gaming computer. Here are a list of games I love and currently play! VVV

• Dead By Daylight

• The Sims 4

• VALORANT

• Overwatch

• Roblox

• Disney Dreamlight Valley

• Minecraft

• Resident Evil. (Leon Scott Kennedy😍).

Some other interests I have! VVV STRANGER THINGS! Like I previously said before stranger things is my special interest, i love it with all my heart, my room is CONSUMED by it and my life revolves around it and Steve Harrington. I love collecting funko pops, I have a shelf in my room that’s almost full of funkos! Most of them being stranger things!🤭 I have vinyls of the ST sound track, posters, framed photos, plushes. I recently went to Stranger things: The First Shadow - so I got a lot of merch and momentum’s from that. I also like Supernatual, Riverdale, Heartstopper B99, Dynasty, H20: Just Add Water, And so many more! 🎀 ———————— 🎀

Writing! 📝

I’ve always had a nack for writing and creative stories, that’s why I want to write fan fiction so much, combining two things I love, writing and imagination! Taking a TV show or a game and making it a world that exists and heals people, giving them happiness reading about their favourite characters and feeling a connection with them! It’s helped me through a lot and brings me a happiness I don’t get from anything else, what can I say? I’m delulu🤭. 🎀 ———————— 🎀

Guitar! 🎸

I’m currently learning how to play guitar, my friend is generously giving me free lessons, she’s also let me borrow her acoustic and electric guitar! I 100% prefer electric and want one of my own, I currently know TWO MITSKI songs that I learnt within my first lesson, in 4 hours. I’ve always wanted to learn to play but it looked so hard and I doubted myself, but once I gave it a go I realised I just have to try and keep going, and that beginning lesson was what I needed to jump start this hobby! :) 🎀 ———————— 🎀

Acting! 🎭

I’ve always loved acting, when I was 13 I used to do a lot of roleplay online, it’s not acting but it made me realise that I actually have an interest in that kind of stuff! I’m currently doing a Performing Arts course in college, which is going so well! I’m in the highest level and I got the lead in the Christmas musical! Sadly I had to give the role to someone else because I had too much course work to be able to learn the script in time, but it made me so happy knowing my skills were good enough and that I wasn’t wasting my time! Maybe I’ll get a job working on a movie and Joe Keery will be my characters love interest🤭! A girl can dream, right? 🤷‍♀️

If you made it this far, thank you for reading and I hope we get along well! Feel free to drop me a message, I don’t bite!😊 I hope that some of you stick around and help me work my way through the community, until next time, bye! 🩷

My bestie: @daryldixonsbub Go follow her! She’s supported me through so much and I absolutely love her to bits🩷

!DISCLAIMER! PHOTOS ARE NOT MINE, I GOT THEM OFF PINTEREST.

And thank you too @arson-fox, ML<3 for helping me edit the photos🐰

[gaybd1]

You have 8 tattoos? I love tattoos! Can you tell us about them?

hahahahaha will i ever! us gays, we love talkin bout our tattoos!

lmk if you wanna see pictures of any of them!!

My first tattoo was on my left ribs when i was like 19. it says something in hebrew and was a religious thing but i want to get it covered up

I have a compass on my left wrist. I had a VERY thought-out plan of what it was supposed to look like and its basically a reminder to me to keep moving forward in life but the artist really just did his own thing for it and it's ugly but i dont really mind

same artist for the compass did a really cool pointillism succulent on my right ankle but it just looks like a flower and healed pretty bad so it's real faded. but it looks fine i guess and i also dont really mind that it doesnt

i drew a picture of like a heartbeat monitor line that looked like mountains on a napkin at gay brunch in boystown in chicago when i was in college and took it to the tattoo place next door for the guy to put on my left bicep in the trans flag colors. he... tattooed exactly what i drew lol and didn't make it look cooler or anything but still charged me like $200 us for it. and this was like ten years ago so who knows what that is with inflation

i got a really cool koi fish on my upper left arm. i think its really beautiful and it symbolizes like overcoming adversity. an artist in taiwan did it and shes really amazing, but she works in amsterdam now so if i have any followers around there lmk bc you NEED a tattoo from this lady

the same artist did a pirate ship on my upper left arm, it says "know no shame" bc i like pirates and that was a beautiful plot line in black sails and yeah it reminds me not to be ashamed of my identity

I have a pine tree on my upper left arm bc two of my siblings and i wanted to get matching tattoos and they all got trees that meant something to them (tree of life, tree of gondor) so i picked a pine tree bc it looked cool and also my moms side of the family is scottish and theres a pine tree on our clan crest

when i went home to visit my family last summer my grandpa had just passed away. i wasnt super close with him but my sister had him draw a flower on his ipad before he died and she wanted to get a tattoo of it, so i did too bc i thought it was sweet

I want to finish up this little half sleeve ive got going on my arm. my next thing i want is a phoenix on my shoulder, and its tail can kind of come down the arm and kind of bring all the pieces together?

i also one day want to shave my head, get a tattoo on my scalp, and then grow my hair back out so i have like a secret tattoo there? not sure what id get though

when i finally get my top surgery i might do a big chest tattoo over those scars. maybe some vines? i wont need to bc surgery scars heal real nicely on me but i might just want something on my chest u know?

[vanessagable]

As much as Van had been trying to enjoy her night out for dinner and drinks with her former sister-in-law (and she had been really trying, and making a good effort at seeming carefree), she'd been itching to check her phone every five minutes like some toddler that was being deprived of their iPad time.

She knew she shouldn't worry about him -- she knew that he could survive a night on his own without her, especially if Gideon was coming over to hang out -- it was just that she hadn't fully gotten over her guilt that she hadn't been home when he'd found out about his dad.

And now her worst fear was coming back home and seeing that broken look on his face ever again.

Not to mention that Lorelai was being more -- what was a kind word for it? -- micro-managy than usual as they had sat through dinner and drinks. (Getting their check had also seemed extremely urgent?)

Van hadn't dwelled on it much until Lor had driven past the driveway to her and X's house -- leading them further down the beach and parking alongside of the road without any explanation. She's about to question out loud if they're having car trouble or if she's being kidnapped -- and then she looks out the window.

The sun is hanging low over the beach -- perfectly lighting a floral heart, flickering candles, and the familiar shape of the love of her life standing in the middle.

"Oh, fuck."

For the first time in the evening, her phone is completely forgotten along with her purse as she scrambles to open the passenger door and jumps out without closing it behind her.

She's only a couple of feet into the sand before she's cursing the heels she'd worn -- bending down enough to urgently free herself from the straps and the shoes altogether so she can make better time as she sprints down the beach towards him with the hem of her dress in one hand to keep it from getting tangled between her legs.

Van only slows just short of the tableau -- out of breath and taking the moment in before locking eyes with Xavier.

"God, I wanna kiss you so fucking bad right now," she tells him through a ragged breath before she points a half-accusing finger at him.

"But I've never known you to not have anything to say so you'd better get to talking, cowboy, because I'm ready with my answer."

@xaviermattthews

closed for: @vanessagable

where: the beach, august 24th

With NDA's in place and a solid team of assistants appointed by his band's manager Dalton, the set up for his beach proposal looked exactly how he had envisioned it. Another pat of his jacket pocket and he verified again that he hadn't fucked up and forgotten the ring, along with Van's allergy meds that were in the pocket of his trousers.

The latter was half out of necessity for the floral arrangement that surrounded him in the shape of a heart, the other half being for himself. She had asked him to carry the very same for her at the flower fest sixteen months prior, where they had ended up on that very same beach instead and shared their first kiss in three years.

( That had been all it had taken for him to know he wanted her to be his last kiss too. )

His sureness that Vanessa Gable was it for him had never wavered, all that had stood between him and what he intended to do was life and it's intricacies. He wanted the right time, right place and exact right moment -- now that all seemed trivial to him in the wake of his father's death.

The right time was any time with her, the right place was wherever she was and the right moment would be any they spent together.

Despite being certain that he knew what the answer would be -- she certainly hadn't expressed anything other than a potential yes when he had told her at the New Years masquerade that she would be his wife before the next New Years Eve -- rare nerves grip him. He never experienced those when he performed on stage no matter how large the crowd, a frontman by nature, but this was a crowd of one made up of the one.

One and Dayne, their bandmate and Submergence's lead guitar player, armed with an acoustic one rather than the electric one that was usually found in his hands on stage. After a pep talk and a relight of the candles that illuminated the flowers around him in the same shape, their drummer Bowie was supposed to clear out, though X had a sneaking suspicion that he was still nearby but out of sight.

After nearly a decade and a half together as a band, it felt right to have them there when he and Van cemented the next chapter of their life, one they would both be heavily involved in no matter what Submergence's recording or touring schedule looked like.

He glances over at Dayne as he exhales, getting a thumbs up of encouragement from the brunette that does actually manage to settle his nerves some, until the real concern rises again as the sun began to set -- had Lori pulled off the sole task he had given her?

[whimsyprinx]

Gonna eat some cookies

[whatohitsonfirewelp]

Psh not me leaning my iPhone is just not gonna b duo dated by Apple after a certain amount of years and 2022 is the year they stop