#i used to be obsessed with boybands too

[chuluoyi]

Ah! That's so me!! Haha I love giving dramas a try by watching the first episode, if it doesn't catch my attention then I drop it, which is more common that I'd like to admit 🤭 AAAH YOU SAID DOCTOR DRAMA? IN SWEET HOME? ok I'm invested now, anything that's medical related gets me all excited so I might as well try and watch it!!

Ah! Well, for example, some of my favorite dramas are 'while you were sleeping', 'the glory' and 'w: two worlds', I'm telling you dramas I've watched more than once and everytime I see those I get all giggly and excited as if it's the first time 👀👀 I know it's something that changes with time but right now, which ones you could say that are your favorites?

which is more common—same!!🥹 honestly i watch them periodically at this point bcs i think kdramas aren’t as good as they used to be🥲

the glory!!! omg that was so good but it got me so MAD LIKE 🤬 so many times oh lord 🤯 but song hye kyo is so badass and murdering with poisonous flower is soooo 😫 i was like “finally!!”

my comfort dramas are honestly hospital playlist and dr romantic 2🥹 like not many drama and more to realistic side but that’s what i need nowadays aaa and fight for my way is also good!! park seo joon’s dramas are usually great so i love them too ehe🫶🏻

[mentally-gone002]

pretty genius boy

summary: spencer gets a haircut!

a/n: i am obsessed with jesus spencer and boyband spencer so… i decided to do a little fic abt him because he’s my husband (im delulu)

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the front door to mine and spencer’s apartment opened, signaling that he was home. 

he was earlier than expected. 

and so was i. 

i kept washing the few dishes that were left in the sink, blowing at a strand of hair that tickled my face when it grazed my cheek with my lips drawn to the side without looking up as spencer wandered into my line of sight, greeting me with a quick “hey” that caught my attention. he wasn’t looking at me, but at a file from work in his hands.

when i looked up i dropped the glass in my hand and then flinched when it hit the sink basin with a loud thud. “oh, my god!” i raised my voice is shock. “your hair!” 

he flinched at the glass thudding into the sink and then pursed his lips into a smile. “yeah,” he nodded. “what about it?” 

i scoffed, abandoning my chore with soap still clinging and dripping from my hands. “what about it?” i reiterated. “spencer… you chopped it all off!” i reached him and we stood toe to toe and i was craning my neck to see his new haircut. he looked very different. 

he frowned a little. “is that bad?” 

i shook my head quickly to make his frown disappear. “no, no, it’s just… i thought someone broke in at first glance.” i stifled a laugh, reaching a soapy hand to his hair. “give me an hour and i’ll tell you how i feel about it.” 

spencer nodded, laughing gently to himself at how i was looking at him. “okay.” he leaned down to my height and kissed my forehead. “i missed you.” 

“i missed you too.” i smiled into the second long contact. “and i miss your hair!” i frowned. 

he smiled. “it was too hot.” 

“you’re right.” i agreed with my arms crossing over my chest.

“i think you misunderstood the correct meaning of the word ‘hot’ in this context.” spencer told me.

i whined. “stop being so… genius. let me mourn the loss of your beautiful hair.” 

spencer rolled his eyes. “okay. you mourn, i’m gonna go shower.” 

i nodded and watched him disappear into our bedroom before walking back to the kitchen. i dried my hands and grabbed my phone, dialing penelope’s number. 

“hello my lovely!” she answered the phone in the same cheerful manner she always does. “what’s up?”

“spencer got a haircut.” i told her. 

she gasped, already intrigued. “what’s it look like? please tell me it’s not bad.”

i laughed. “it’s not bad it’s just… i wasn’t expecting it at all when he came home. it’s so short.” 

“how short are we talking?” she asked. 

i hummed. “think like… harry styles from one direction, but less fluffy.” 

the woman squealed over the phone. “oh, reid has a boyband haircut!” i could hear her typing quickly before she stopped, there was silence and then she giggled. 

“what’s so funny?” 

“i can’t wait to see his hair! he always has good haircuts. and if it’s anything like harry styles i’m going to go insane.” 

i laughed. “i told him to give me an hour to get used to it. i like it when it’s long because i can braid it.” 

she gave me a pitiful ‘awe’ and then asked, “do you think he’ll grow it back out?”

i hummed. “have you seen all the haircuts he’s had over the last few years? he never sticks to one for too long.” 

penelope agreed with a simple hum as i started walking towards our bedroom. “i’m gonna go, just wanted to update you on the ever changing plot of my life.” i chuckled, seeing the bathroom door adjoined to our bedroom open slightly. 

“i enjoy the updates. say hi to boy genius for me!” 

“i will.” i laughed and then hung up the phone prior to pulling the bathroom door wider for my entrance and then pushing it partially closed again. spencer was hidden behind the dark olive green shower curtain but that didn’t stop me from peeking around it to stare at him. 

his back was to me but i still focused on his wet hair that was a few shades darker and the smallest sight of muscle definition over his back. 

maybe i didn’t need an hour for his short hair to grow on me. 

i withdrew my head from the shower curtain and left the bathroom, smiling to myself with the fond thought of him in my head. 

i went back to the kitchen to finish the dishes and by the time i was done spencer was back in the room with me, a tee shirt covering his chest and sweatpants covered his legs. 

“hi.” he rounded the island in the kitchen to stand beside me at the sink, back to the counter. he looked down at me with the same kind eyes he always had. 

i smiled and shut off the running water so that i could move and stand between spencer’s legs. “hi.” i studied his messy towel dried hair prior to reaching up and touching some of the strands, twirling them between my fingers, then letting my hand slide down to touch his face. i looked into his eyes before saying, “i know it hasn’t been an hour, but it’s grown on me.” a smirk slipped over my lips as he grinned as well. 

“i knew you wouldn’t need an hour.” he teased lightly, leaning down to capture my lips with his for a brief second. 

i scoffed. “how did you know?”

“i’m a profiler, honey.” he reminded. 

i nodded gently, sighing contently. “ah, yes. i forgot.” my smile reflected my teasingly feigned innocence that spencer smiled at. “but seriously, i love it. it suits you, and you’re as handsome as ever.” i winked, smiling widely. spencer kissed me again. i could feel how his lips curled into a grin. “pretty genius boy.”

spencer tucked his head into my neck. i knew he was smiling.

i put my fingers in his now short hair, loving how easy it was to comb my fingers through it now.

[relentlessconqueror]

sylus is so incredibly sebastian-coded. here's a list of the things i think they have in common lol (disclaimer: i haven't read black butler in a hot minute)

sylus' photobooth preset called "demon butler" complete with the tutor!sebastian glasses that have the cord on them. and sebastian is literally THEE demon butler, like come on (this has the honor of going first on the list because it's what made me realize their similarity)

air of perpetual smugness and confidence

red eyes

turtle smile

gourmand (see sylus' cafe interactions about going to new restaurants. sebastian starves until he finds a particularly tormented soul). related: sylus feels life to be banal but says that MC is interesting to him, and iirc sebastian purposefully seeks out high-quality souls whose owners can amuse/entertain him for the duration of the contract

making deals duh

multilingual

tells the truth (in their own way) — sebastian is bound by the contract, sylus is just Like That (and insanely forward...)

cool, composed, competent 🙄

sebastian helps ciel rule over the underworld of victorian england, sylus rules the n109 zone. related: they both stalk people as a part of their job descriptions

a stretch: i can't help drawing a comparison between sylus' love for antiques/classical music and sebastian dressing sieglinde in old-fashioned girls' clothing

looks intimidating (at least one of the phantomhive servants said this about sebastian because of how capable he is at managing the household. and obviously sylus is terrifying) but has incredibly goofy ass moments (that time in boyband arc where sebastian performed a part of the starlight four's song, dance and all. and sylus loves to sing. only one of them belongs on a stage though. sorry sylus)

the common theme of devouring the other person. obviously sebastian wants to eat ciel's soul, but this point is reversed in the sylusMC dynamic because she's the one hearing whispers about him belonging to her and to eat him lol

a stretch: ok this isn't about sebastian but ciel has the contract mark in his right eye, which is where sylus' aether core is. sylus also mentioned him and MC being kindred spirits and while i don't think ciel and sebastian's dynamic is like that, it is true that ciel's goals are, by virtue of the contract, sebastian's goals (in a sense sebastian is an extension of ciel)

sebastian wishes to draw out the worst parts of ciel to make his soul more delicious which i can't help but connect to sylus mentioning "all the crimes you'll inevitably commit." there's the assumption of hidden darkness in ciel/MC that will be revealed in time

likes cats (sylus likes small animals in general, but he's obsessed with calling MC kitten, so i say it counts)

sylus saying, "even if you wanted to sell your soul, you still have to find someone who can pay the price" and "there's a price you have to pay when you make a wish to a demon" which speaks for itself. like this is just all of black butler chapter 138

both ciel and MC wanted revengejusticewhatever for their families' deaths, and both sylus and sebastian "grant" their wish — sylus lets MC shoot him, sebastian helps ciel on his journey of revenge (AND it looks like caleb is coming back which is VERY real!ciel phantomhive of him. he even has the (pseudo-)incest thing going on LMAO though of course it's not the same as ciel and real!ciel's dynamic as blood brothers)

sylus' "don't be shy about using me" and sebastian being literally owned by ciel. it's also reciprocal: sylus' "after all, i want to use you too" and sebastian is promised ciel's soul after the contract is fulfilled

sylus' wanderer form vs sebastian's monstrous true form

(this doesn't count but i'll still put it anyway) because of a localization/translation issue (i think?), there was a time that a lot of people thought sylus made his body SPECIFICALLY to benefit/seduce/whatever MC because of him saying, "it's just there to make you feel better. i don't need it" (homescreen interaction iirc) and "they're not real but they can move" [lost oasis] about his abs. sebastian exists in his form because ciel requested it. there's also the moment in sylus' anecdote where he asks a man what's fashionable in n109 and he just chooses to dress like whatever was on the billboard that the man pointed to, which reinforces how sylus is an outsider much like sebastian, who isn't human

ciel and MC are both understandably put off by them due to their first meeting. sylus assaulted MC, and she falls back on viewing him through the lens of his reputation as onychinus' leader a few times in memories. sebastian appears to ciel in the traumatic event of losing his brother, and as a result ciel is unable to see that sebastian harbors at least SOME fondness for him at this point (though honestly the existence of that fondness is just my opinion, which is something not everybody shares. because i know every person who's read black butler feels differently about the question of sebastian's feelings for ciel, outside of wanting his soul). as of now, ciel and MC (in the main story?) are still unable to trust sebastian/sylus completely

that one moment in [radiant brilliance] where sylus tugs off his gloves with his teeth which is a Signature Sebastian Move

sylus telling MC that he won't lose the match because she told him not to, and something similar happened between ciel and sebastian during book of the atlantic (i made a post about this before). sebastian is also often ciel's champion in fights or contests both personal and business-related

[l-in-the-light]

Some thoughts on the relationship between Law and Corazon? Is Law obsessed with Cora? Are there romantic vibes (maybe Law would chose a partner that reminds him of Cora 🤔)? Sometimes I have the impression he values him more than his dead family🙄 I mean we never hear him saying he wants revenge for Flevance.

Tbh I see why you would think that, because I also used to think this way. Like everything Law does is for Cora-san, but never for Flevance, for his parents or his sister. This won't be the usual analysis post, but more like me trying to put everything Law did so far into a bigger picture, to reveal what his actual, longterm goals might be. But first, let's start with Law's love for Corazon.

Who is Cora-san to Law? Many people say a parent, a sibling, a religious figure (because of his devotion and obsession), but I think it's actually none of these. I think Corazon is for Law what Oden is for Yamato. Yamato idolizes Oden, wants to be like Oden, but Oden also gave him hope, a dream, a heart (you could say), because before Oden all Yamato had was Kaido and Kaido took away Yamato's freedom long before Oden even happened. He expected Yamato to be the next ruler of Wano for him, to continue in his footsteps, ever since Yamato was born. Yamato's own wishes didn't matter. But the moment Yamato saw Oden everything changed. It's exactly how Ace says it "you're imprisoned by cuffs, but why would you let him cage your heart as well?". Oden was that light for Yamato he finally saw in the darkness, passion, love for the country and people in it, freedom. And he wanted that too, probably for the very first time, for himself. That's why Yamato carries Oden in his heart wherever he goes. Because Oden just by existing and loving his country gives Yamato hope and strength to keep going. Just like Law carries Cora-san in his heart wherever he goes as well.

Cora-san is his saviour, without him, Law would not be alive anymore. But more importantly he saved Law's heart, he showed him love, compassion, he treated him like a person, not a monster. And he gave him all that when Law needed it the most, literally like a hand of salvation. In that case it indeed feels a bit religious. Does it mean Cora-san is more important for Law than his parents? Not neccessarily, let's not forget Law still has at least one tattoo in memory of Flevance, also he still keeps his hat with him at all times and that's his only memento of his family, most likely. But Cora-san is the one who gave Law a "new life", the same way Yamato received "new life" from Oden, even though they didn't even talk once. And that new life is definitely like a new (re)birth for both of them, that's why Cora-san and Oden will never get replaced in their hearts. Taking away Oden from Yamato will leave him with nothing, and while maybe it wouldn't be as drastic for Law, it would still remove the core of who he believes himself to be and cause a major inner crisis.

In another translation of this line, Law says "It's thanks to Cora I'm what I am now". Cora-san is indeed always on Law's mind, just like Oden is always on Yamato's mind. They both try to live like their idols, Law even called his crew the Heart Pirates in honour of Cora-san, but he also mimicks Cora in many ways: how he walks, how he sits, not to mention that silencing spell he used in battle. Yamato as well, even to the point of him changing his gender and wearing Oden-like clothes. Those hearts on Law's clothes also resemble a bit Cora-san's clothes that always had some heart-like motifs. Would you call it idolatry to the point of obsession? Personally, it reminds me of fans behaviour towards their boyband/girlband idols, especially in Japan. I know it, because I'm also part of that fandom. One of my idols has a special place in his hometown and he talked about it in one of his concerts. Next time he knows he hears from his friend reporting him that fans are now flooding that spot, because they all want to see it. They all want to experience that special connection and treasure it inside their hearts. That's devotion and obsession, sure, but you know, I also think it's really beautiful when the love you have for someone expands to places and things they love, cherishing them like they're special now to you as well. And it doesn't matter if that love is romantic, platonic, family-like, worshipping, because love is just love. If you feel it, you get it. It's that special feeling, the warmth, you carry with you everywhere you go and want to share with the world (or keep it close to your heart, or, sometimes, even both?).

So do I think Law has romantic feelings for Corazon? Nope. But he does love him the most in the world. Would Law want his partner to remind him of Corazon? That's a tricky one though. I basically think Law has a thing for cheerful people (Heart Pirates are cheerful, Bepo is joyful, Luffy is also full of smiles and joy), because he surrounds himself with them. But then one thing doesn't really leave my thoughts: why is Sanji the only one who is called by his title "Blackleg-ya" besides "Strawhat-ya"? Zoro, Nami, Chopper, they're all called by their names or surnames, not counting the few exceptions who get no name/title at all. I can understand why Luffy is privileaged considering the importance of their Sabaody meeting, but why is Sanji? They seem to have no connection. And then I realized what LawSan shippers probably did forever ago already: Sanji is a caring blond guy who smokes like crazy. And that must remind Law of Corazon. And that's the only reason why Sanji gets the extra respect (the onigiri though probably helped as well, ngl!). So I guess I have to reluctantly agree that maybe he has a soft spot for smoking blond guys, because they remind him of his beloved Cora-san. Law seems to be a pretty sentimental guy, so it does make sense.

Now let's move on to the question you didn't ask but sort of asked: does it all mean Flevance or his family doesn't matter to Law anymore?

For starters, Law's goals are very obscure and not really explained well in the plot. But let's look at "waves" that are the result of his plan to defeat Kaido and Mingo. Just the news of Doflamingo quitting warlords put the whole New World in a state of panic. It kickstarted rebellion in Dressrosa. Rulers of kingdoms in the middle of wars started to feel anxious, because they got their weapons from Doflamingo. Kaido was also in trouble, ofc. But it's not just that: right after Dressrosa Big Mom suddenly became interested in Germa... seems she was also benefitting from her deals with Doffy (it shouldn't surprise us, he did say he was holding reins to every emperor and monster there is in the new world!) and with Doffy out of the picture, she was in emergency to find a new business partner. Why Germa? Because of his scientifical research. Many of those kids of Big Mom might also not have been "naturally" born, who knows.

In the end those who benefitted the most from Law's plan were Revolutionary Army (they gained weapons, many nations stopped wars and they could instead influence them for rebellion), Blackbeard (unfortunately) and Buggy (his business was suddenly flourishing). After Wano repercussions for the world grew even bigger, but especially in one direction: World Government. We were told Kaido and Orochi did business with World Government, that's how they got their weapons. Now they're kinda in a pinch, aren't they? They can't get them from Kaido, they can't get them from Doflamingo. This was a huge blow to the Government.

And then we also have Sword, which is rumoured to aim it's blade against World Government or at least Marines in some way. Law clearly has some connections to Drake, whether we believe he's part of Sword himself or not doesn't matter (I know those theories are floating around, and I personally think they're just scratching the tip of the iceberg).

Now let's go back to Flevance. Who was responsible for the tragedy?

World Government. And let's not forget for Law World Government means also Navy. They're both guilty. Taking down Kaido helped Wano, ofc, but it also hugely impacted World Government's sources for supplies of weapons. Taking down Doflamingo freed Dressrosa, sure, but it also eliminated a person that was Government's errand boy, basically. That's another blow aimed at Government. It's all about weakening them, they're extremely strong enemy that no one can take on alone, overpowered, cutting them off from supplies sounds like a good first step towards taking them down, wouldn't you agree? That's a similar thing to what Revolutionary Army did to Marie Geoise, btw.

But then, Law said he only cared for taking revenge on Doflamingo, didn't he? That he has been living only for that purpose. Actually... that's not true, he says some really contradictionary things about his own goal:

Let's sum it up: his goal is to fullfill Cora-san's wish, to free himself (because that's what Cora-san wanted for him, to be free), to pull the trigger Cora-san couldn't on that day 13 years ago. If he thinks Cora-san wanted to pull that trigger himself but couldn't then that would make sense. But that's disregarding the fact that Corazon probably never wanted to kill Doffy, he even said it himself that dying is the only option for him. Law knows it. When he says the line about the "trigger" it's about Law's own wish, he thinks Doflamingo should have died instead of Corazon after all. Cora-san's actual wish was for Law to be free, but Law thinks it was something else: stopping Doflamingo. There are like multiple different wishes clashing here, obscuring the truth from us. And let's not forget the most crucial information: Law never planned to take down Doflamingo by himself! The whole plan was about making Doflamingo resign from warlords so he leaves Dressrosa. Law didn't even care what will happen afterwards to him (though it's clear he wished Navy would take care of him, more so than he cared for Kaido to take care of Doflamingo).

And then we have this:

"I've lived the past 13 years so I could strike Doflamingo down" which sounds suspiciously close to what Kyros was saying before and Law was there to hear it. Yeah, I think he "borrowed" that reason from Kyros, because he didn't actually want to voice his real intention here. We never doubt Law in this scene, because later on he repeats the same thing to Sengoku, and we don't expect him to lie to Sengoku, right? But I think what Law said was aimed just to make Sengoku feel better (he can relate to that, Sengoku is just mourning Rosinante!), and Law keeps quiet and hesitating what to say before Sengoku literally pushes an answer out of him. Law is hiding things from us, many many things, and most important one of all: what's his ultimate objective.

Whatever Law's true goal is, it must be related to this conversation he has with Cavendish. "You will be in the eye of a storm", and Law's answer: "That's my intention".

Of course as we learn from his conversation with Sengoku, Law has perhaps some doubts whether going around and causing chaos (and perhaps aiming for Government's neck) is the thing he should be doing, and he voices his concern like this:

Is this what a D. should be doing? Is this what Law should be doing?

And then in Wano we learn that his next goal is, curiously, to find out the meaning of the D. He still wants the answer to this question (is this what he should be doing?), that's why. But I believe Law is already setting a plan in motion to take down the Government somehow. That plan is very dangerous and can swallow his life in the process. He never told Luffy about it, because he wants to keep him out and away from it, not to "drag him down" together with Law (trying to finish alliance early was probably also partially a prevention of this). I wouldn't say what Law is aiming for is suicidal, but he is ready to put his life on the line and die if that's what it takes. And I hope we will finally find out the full scale of this and his ultimate objective, before this guy does something extremely stupid and reckless.

Last, but not least: Law is basically the person pushing the new era (after Whitebeard's death) forward: he destroyed the gears in Punk Hazard, he announced the deaths of the emperors, all those moments carry symbolic meaning. But is Law trying to make a world a better place or is he just trying to get revenge on World Government? I guess only time will tell us. I have faith in him and I think he cares more about the world and people than it seems. But he definitely also wants to give them a payback, for Flevance, for his parents, and also for himself. And now that he's free, truly free (in his own words: he stopped Doflamingo so he's free to do whatever he wants now), what's stopping him? Probably his own heartbroken ass at the moment, because of what happened to Heart Pirates, but ugh. I really think it won't stop him for long. We will get that revenge, Law will be the vigilante we hoped he will be and it might break us.

I could ramble more about Law's plans, but it would enter highly speculative territory and basically I would be grasping at straws at every corner. But I think I did catch on to some obscure foreshadowing, once again. Anyway, anon, not sure if this is the answer you hoped for, but those are my honest thoughts based on overthinking a lot about plot, story and stuff like that, as well as about Law, like always.

[thelesbianpoirot]

i don't really care about taylor swift one way or the other, but i love the fact the biggest celeb on earth rn is a woman who overwhelmingly dresses "comfortably" (outside of her dancing leotards you rarely if ever see her in something skin-tight or lowcut/etc, if you get me) and wears only "normal" makeup as opposed to drag queen makeup, etc. she's just a celeb to us, but to little girls growing up and seeing her that's GOT to have a mental impact. when i was growing up it was heroin chic kate moss super skinny, and it's never left me, the idea that i need to be under 100lb to have worth. i really hope all those millions of 8yo's looking at taylor singing her lil songs looking human have that imprinted on their psyche forever too.

I agree. I couldn't even pretend to give a fuck about Taylor, but the way people are obsessed with painting her like she's the devil, or that she is uniquely untalented has a lot to do with her image. For all the shaming they try to do with her dating life, she is pretty clean cut. They complain she is for basic white b*tches or say they hate her because of her carbon foot print, ignoring beyonce has sweatshops making her clothing for her fashion line or the impact of fenti. She is no different than any other wealthy celebrity. She's still very feminine, but in a closer to natural than the beauty standards of today. She's like 90s celebrity feminine, and she still has to diet, exercise, wear makeup, go to stylists, have micro procedures etc. I think it's one of the reasons people hate her. In a few ways she won't changed for them. She looks older, but generally the same as the day she entered the industry. This is quite the feat. I notice she is one of the few big named female popstars that gay men don't worship. Too many men say how much they hate her and how mediocre she is. And this is coming from men who worship Charlie XCX. And a large amount of libfem women hate her with a childish unfounded passion, while licking the boot of any untalented man or popstar sing explicitly about dick loving. Little girls and young women being obsessed with Taylor Swift isn't a problem, it's an improvement, just a few years ago they would be obsessed with a boyband, Justin Bieber or one direction. Swiftees aren't more unhinged or annoying than biebers, directioners or the beehive were/are.

However, I have to say, She isn't gay, people who think she is a closet lesbian are delusion on the level of flat earthers. That is my only beef with swifties.

It is hard to recover from the desire to be sickly skinny because it never really goes out of style. People are enamored with women looking like we're on the verge of dying, the only difference today is they want you to get a butt implant attached to your withering frame. People are going to the surgeon for hollowed out cheeks. Dickensian Orphan aesthetics pop back up every few years.

[montypythonswine]

Today, Liam Payne from One Direction has died 💔. If you've been on my account for a while, you would know about how Take Me Home is one of my favourite albums and is a childhood comfort. I was in complete shock when I found out and I still can't believe it. I thought this wouldn't happen for a long long time.

One Direction was my favourite band growing up, they are my childhood. They were the first band that I liked and introduced me other boybands, like; the Vamps, Union J, JLS and Big Time Rush. I can't remember how I found out about them but my dad said I watched them on X-factor and it kind of started from there. I always wanted to go to one of their concerts, me and my best friend at the time (who was also obsessed with one direction) planned to go to their concerts unfortunately both of us were too young and by the time I was old enough they had broken up and I pretended to not like one direction as I thought it wasn't 'cool'. I know it's probably unlikely that they will reunite now but I hope that they would do like a memorial concert or something.

It is so sad that someone so young has died. My heart goes out to Liam's family, the other One Direction members and fellow 1D fans, this is a sad day for all of us.

[sanrioomiku]

Tobidei week day 1: fanboy

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I feel bad i don’t have anything to post so here’s a draft of a fanfic i wrote when i was 15-16. I still think it’s kinda cute lol and i think younger me was pretty funny for coming up with this.

Content warning: not established tobidei…yet. Other ships mentioned, cliffhanger

Obito glanced to the digital clock on his desk. Six minutes to the show, and here he was stuck in his office. He nearly begged his boss, Madara to let him go early but Madara deemed watching a livestream of your favorite boyband wasn’t a good enough reason to leave work early. In fact he called him pathetic. Obito inwardly sighed as he typed away on his computer. His eyes drooped. What a miserable job. Typing away for eight hours. He glanced at his clock again. Two more minutes. He glanced around his office. He then peeked over his cubicle. Everyone was hunched over their desktops. The pile of paperwork stood menacingly in the corner of his eye. Of course he ignored it.

He’d do it…later. He pulled out his phone, typing in the exact url to the website where their dedicated fans uploaded photos, videos, and even live-streamed for the ones who couldn’t make it to the actual concert. Obito had made a vow to himself that one day before he died, he’d go and actually see them perform, too bad his job was the only barrier keeping him from achieving that dream. There were already four hundred viewers when he clicked on the icon. Obito’s heart jumped seeing the members on the stage. He ignored Sasuke, Sai, and Hidan and only focused on his bias, Deidara. 

He cringed as the man started screaming Deidara’s name when the pop star blew a kiss to the crowd. Obito had to turn down his volume as the man behind the camera wouldn’t stop screaming. The guy was totally incompetent. The man was too busy jumping up and down and waving his light stick that Obito couldn’t even see the stage for more than half of the time. At one point the guy even dropped his camera. When he picked up the camera Obito nearly jumped in fear seeing the man’s face. He was one of the top contributors to the website. Calling himself Randamuna kashu’s biggest fan.

Though Obito had seen his face several times he could still never get used to it. It made Obito feel a little better about himself. The guy clearly didn’t take care of himself, with the greasy skin and pimples. Obito couldn’t imagine the smell of the guy. This guy was a different level of degenerate. He was in his late thirties and had an odd obsession with band members, even making pillows of them. He had posted a picture to one of the forums of his bedroom where it was just filled with 4star’s merch and their pictures plastered on his walls. Obito liked the band too but he wasn’t that crazy over them. He shut off the stream. 

‘How useless’. He thought. He couldn’t see the band members or hear them from the guys' loud antics. Hopefully in a few hours more videos will be uploaded plus it was time for him to checkout. He grabbed his briefcase, stuffing in the work that he didn’t do. He stepped out his cuticle happy to finally go home and be able to watch the reruns of the show. If he hurried he might be able to watch the last few minutes.

“Obito!” He turned to see Konan waving at him. 

“Ah, Konan,” he greeted. She fixed her purse on her shoulder. 

“Hey. Me and a few coworkers were going to go for a drink. Want to come?” Obito couldn’t stand his colleagues nor did he want to spend his evening drinking with them when he could be watching 4star’s show. But he also didn’t want his colleagues to think he was a hikikomori. He couldn’t ignore their invitations for much longer. One hour then he’ll head home. He forced a smile.

“Sure.” 

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 The table was raucous. The mix of alcohol the cheerfulness of it being Friday made the unusual stoic group buzz with excitement. Konan’s blouse was unbuckled and her usual crisp bun had fallen apart. Kisame and Obito had their ties either heads. The only one who remained put together was Sasori and Itachi who stayed quiet sipping their drink. From what he observed, Itachi and sasori could handle their alcohol while Konan and Kisame couldn’t. Konan draped her around Obito’s shoulders pulling him closer.

“Say, you’re not as bad as I thought,” she slurred. She poked his chest. “I thought you were some weird degenerate like Kabuto.” Obito’s face flushed redder than it already was from the several shots of sake he took before as her breasts pressed into his arm.

“Why would you think that?” Kisame barked out a laugh. He pointed at Obito with his cup. It sloshed around dangerously as he moved recklessly. Sasori eyed the larger man warily, even scooting a bit to the wall. 

“Don’t take this personal, but you like the type of guy who watches perverted shit and has a collection of anime figurines.” Obito frowned. It sounded more like the guy with 4star obsession. He respected Deidara enough to not beat off- what the hell was he thinking?

“I’m not perverted and I’m not one of those otaku’s,” he protested. Konan giggled.

“Oh come on, you can admit it. We don’t judge. Sasori collects anime figures too.” Sasori set down his drink. 

“It’s not anime, they’re Rushton dolls. Antique,” he said matter of factly. Konan scratched her ear.

“Still weird. Aren’t you like almost thirty?” Sasori sucked his teeth.

“Says the one who’s almost thirty and still unmarried.” Konan turned bright red.

“That’s so impolite! Don’t you know you should never talk to a woman like that?” Obito nervously laughed as Konan and Sasori continued to bicker. Obito looked over to Itachi who was nibbling at a chicken skewer seemingly to be unbothered by the entire ordeal. 

“Gah! Whatever.” Konan turned to Obito again. “Obito, are you married?” 

“Ah, no.” 

“How about talking to someone,” Kisame wiggled his eyebrows. Obito took another sip of his drink. He only left his house to work and the only people he talked to were the people on the 4star’s forum. He didn’t put himself out there nor did he make the effort to talk to others. The last time he tried to put himself out there he was rejected. He’d rather be alone anyways. Alone in his sad apartment watching reruns of his favorite concerts. 

“No,” he eventually said. Konan nudged him.

“Aww why not? You’re handsome enough.” 

“Probably because he’s too busy watching hentai,” Kisame snorted. 

“I’m not a pervert!” His slurred words made his voice sound even more pathetic. Kisame howled with laughter slamming his cup onto the table. Konan glared at the broad man.

“Kisame stop. We just got him out of the office. You’re going to scare him away,” she frowned. 

“Looks like we’re all in the same boat,” Sasori muttered. 

“Single and overworked,” Konan hiccuped. “Gah! Madara has us working twenty four seven. I have zero time to even go on some blind dates. Goddammit! I should be married by now!” she shouted.

Obito took another swig. It seemed his colleagues were going through the same problems as him. All being in their mid and late twenties spending most of their time in work with little time for relationships. Konan nudged him.

“Hey, maybe we should hookup?” Obito choked on his sake. A woman suggesting such things to him was the first. Konan giggled.

“Awwww! He’s shy!” Sasori picked up a chicken skewer.

“Konan, do you have to flirt with every man you see?” Konan pulled Obito into a tighter hug.

“We’re just joking. Aren’t we Obi?” Obito flushed at the nickname.

“Yeah, just jokes,” he coughed. Konan smiled with a flirty tint.

“Good, now hand me your phone.” Without much thought, he gave her his phone. The moment it landed in her manicured hand he froze. Life seemed to go in slow motion as his phone turned on revealing his 4star wallpaper. He shut his eyes. No way this was happening. Konan stared at the phone for a second before she burst into laughter. She turned the phone to the rest of the table.

“Obito likes boy bands!” Obito covered his face as his coworkers heckled at him. 

“I knew he was one of those otaku’s!” Kisame banged his fist against the table. Obito peeked through his hands. Even Itachi was smiling. Itachi, of all people, was laughing at him. In fact the entire izakaya seemed to be laughing at the humiliating situation.

“My cousin did that!” He tried to argue. 

“Oh please. Let’s not blame it on your innocent cousins,” Sasori snorted. Konan typed away at his phone.

“Ah hah! I got it!” Obito’s eyes widened seeing that Konan had successfully gotten into his phone. 

“Hand it back!” He tried to reach over her but his coordination was off from the past drinks, instead knocking over the pitcher of beer onto his lap. 

“Shit!” He desperately tried to wipe the stain off his crotch. Sasori rested his face in his hands.

“So which member are you in love with?” Obito opened his mouth but closed it. 

“It’s obviously this blond,” Konan spoke up. Konan scrolled through his phone then showed it to the others. Kisame awed.

“Oh, so you like blonds?” Obito nearly died. He quickly grabbed his phone from Konan.

“I like brunettes,” he mumbled. He didn’t really have a specific preference but it made sense to say at the moment. Konan giggled.

“It’s okay. I agree he’s a cutie.” Kisame leaned back in his chair.

“Yeah, I mean I like chicks but he’s definitely attractive. It’s no wonder they’re so popular.” Sasori nodded his head. Obito couldn’t believe what he was thinking. Did they think he liked men? He shook his head.

“That’s not! I just like their music.” Konan took a deep drink.

“You know what the issue is? Everyone is obsessed with pop stars while us normal people rot! I mean what’s the point of obsessing over someone you’ll never be with when you can be a real woman!” She looked over to Obito. “Or man.” Obito put his face into his hands. This was humiliating. He should’ve stayed home and watched the reruns of the concert. Itachi sighed but remained silent as Konan drunkenly ranted about her failing love life. 

“Like am I not beautiful enough?” She pushed her boobs up with her hands. Kisame’s eyes bugged out his head while Sasori looked embarrassed. Of course Itachi seemed indifferent as he poured himself another drink.

“Hey guys!” Rin stood in front of their table still dressed in her work attire. Obito’s mouth went dry. He cut a glance to himself. His crotch was wet. His face was flushed and in general looked like a mess. Rin made eye contact with him. They both looked away at the same time. Obito mentally prayed that she didn’t notice the spot on his pants.

Konan picked up a half full cup.

“Hey! Come sit with us!” Rin glanced at Obito who still had his eyes glued on his lap then back at the rest of the drunken crew.

“Um, I don’t know.” Her eyes kept glancing at Obito. Konan reached across the table and pulled Rin in to sit beside Itachi, directly across from Obito.

“Oh come on! Let’s celebrate! Join the single club! konan slurred while pushing a cup of beer towards Rin. Rin nervously laugh but took the cup.

“Well, I guess I can stay for a bit. My friends will here in a bit though.” Obito gripped his knees under the booth. Rin was staying and he still hadn’t found a good excuse to get himself out of this awkward situation. The beer soaked pants didn’t help either. At least the topic of his weird hobby of liking boy bands. Still, he felt stuck. If he got up now, she would most definitely see the stain. The table went into their conversations while Rin and Obito sat quiet with them occasionally distracting themselves with their drinks. Obito had gotten over the rejection from a few weeks ago but seeing her in front of him was anything then pleasant.

“Hey, I hope things aren’t awkward between us,” Rin started. Obito rubbed the back of his head.

“It’s not. No worries.”

“Oh good.” They both looked away clearly lying to one another. Rin opened her mouth to say something else but Obito felt his phone buzz against his thigh. A notification of the forum caught his attention. A fan meet up. He opened the notification to see a girl posed in front of a stage with the members in the background. Obito narrowed his eyes. One of the buildings looked familiar. He paused. They were his city.

Obito abruptly stood up, completely forgetting about the wet spot on his pants. The rest of the table looked up in shock.

“I have to go.” Konan stood up also.

“Wait! Give me your number before you go!” Sasori pulled her back into the seat. Rin watched as Obito rushed out the bar, her eyebrows furrowed.

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Rereading this. I can’t help but laugh. Obito/ Tobi is such a degenerate! I will come back and post the second chapter where he finally gets to meet his idol 👀🤭🩷 anyways happy tobidei week! Hope everyone has fun! :p

[isakyakihasmyheart]

Mind Dump 5 years on...

This is the first time I've logged into this account since 2019(ish) so I'm pretty sure there's going to be no one left here but if you are, Hi! I'm just going to dump this post here because I am a tumblr girl at heart and laying my most deepest thoughts to strangers on the internet is all I've ever known...

After the recent news of the death of Liam Payne 2 days ago I've been thinking about this website non-stop. Like many people, this news hit me so unexpectedly emotionally. Grieving someone I never knew, but also grieving a time in my life I can never ever experience again.

My life has changed so much since I last logged into this account, and yet so little at the same time. I started this account in early 2017 after I got into SKAM back in 2016, abandoning a previous Dan and Phil centred account I had from 2014. I was still in school, the last season of SKAM lining up with my own life of leaving school and starting university. I remember thinking that was so cool, watching these characters I grew to adore also experiencing their last year alongside me. I started university in late 2018, studying to become a nurse but yet never got over SKAM. Instead, I became obsessed DRUCK and connected to Matteo in a way I haven't ever experienced with another fictional character since (the only close match being Connell from Normal People in that one uni scene iykyk). However, I ultimately ended up abandoning this account in 2019.

I don't actually know why I stopped coming on this website. Because since I was 14 this website was all I could ever think about. Me and best friend in 2014 were absolutely obsessed with tubmlr. We would literally spend hours on this website reblogging the most random things, and things that at that point in our lives meant so much to us. And with this recent news, I've felt this strong tsunami of nostalgia for that period of my life.

I was never a 1D blog, but I loved 1D. Not very openly as I had older sisters who made fun of me for it. I squashed any outwardly expression of my love for them to avoid this at all costs. A major cost being turning down to go and see them in concert in 2014/2015 when my friend (mentioned above) had an extra ticket. I think about that often and regret it every time. When covid came around and we were in lockdown I was in the mid/end of my 2nd year of uni, 20 years of age. I know a lot of people talk of how they regressed back to their younger passions, and so did I. I had the full 1D experience I never let myself have, not caring about others' opinions on it (mainly my older sister). I listened to their music nonstop every single day, watching so many edits and even reading fan fics. I truly felt like I was 14 again. But there was always that voice in the back of my head saying, "you're too late, it's not the same, you've missed out on it all." I yearned with everything in me to be that teenage girl again. It was during this period in 2020 that my family relationships also became very volatile and dysfunctional, meaning 1D became an even bigger safe space for me.

I've always been a nostalgic person in the worst way possible. I can't help but let the regrets of things I never did consume me. The thoughts of how different my life could be, how different I could be, it always plagues me. I know this sounds dramatic because I'm talking about a 2010s boyband, believe me I know it does.

But I was 14 when my life started to go to shit, when my mental health first started to decline and truthfully it has never recovered. Maybe because in the back of my mind, I always felt like that 14 year old girl, scared and alone and hurting so bad with no one to help her. And the unbelievable shocking news of Liam Payne dying, it's just transporting me back to that period of my life. Even more so as I lost my dad very unexpectedly and traumaticly in March this year.

I just feel so full of grief for so many things all at once, all separate yet all so intertwined. I would truly give anything and everything I have to just relive being that teenage girl, even the unspeakable bad parts. And it makes me so angry to know I can't. And of course, I can't, because that's not how time works! Yet it feels like I can't breathe when I come to that realisation. In all its dramatic flare, it genuinely feels like it's killing me that I can't ever experience that life again.

All in all, I'll never truly forget this website. Especially not this account, I loved this account! Maybe this is just the part of growing up I'm currently struggling with. I'm 24 now, which in itself is scary because no matter what I am and always will be that 14 year old girl.

Girlhood is forever and always xx

[orangemocharaktajino]

For a show that was bad pretty much from the beginning, Beyond the Star really outdid themselves by making the final episode so much worse than the rest. This was probably the worst final episode I've ever seen (other than MODC) and that's kinda impressive.

My toxic trait is if the NC scenes are good enough, I can forgive plot holes big enough to drive a bus through.

I loved Tonnam and Phupha, especially in episodes 6 and 7. And unfortunately that's where the fun ends because this bus is just too big.

I have been known to obsess over objectively bad shows before because my main goal as a viewer is entertainment. Sometimes bad writing and ridiculousness can be their own type of fun, imo.

I initially started watching Beyond the Star only because of Willi (Kita) who I loved in another high heat show with very questionable writing, Till the World Ends.

From the initial trailer of Beyond the Star, it seemed like the main storyline would be about twins Tin and Tul (played by actual twins and not simply one actor!) fighting over a man. Now, when I say man, I mean it because another thing that I was excited about initially was this cast's ages. The average age of the main cast is just shy of thirty years old which is something I would frankly love to see more of. Kind of weird for this to happen with a story about a new boyband, but hey.

The main characters and the ages of the actors who play them:

Kita - 34

Nathee - 27

Kengkla - 27

Namo - 26

Tonnam - 27

Phupha - 29

Trin - 30

Tul - 30 (obviously)

Copper - 30

Dance instructor Kawi - 30

CEO Araya - 33

CEO Kiat - 35

I didn't include the babies of the group Mawin (20) and Mangkorn (20) in this because I feel like we got more scenes of other characters explaining away their absence than we got scenes of them. They weren't even in the last two episodes at all so their story had absolutely no resolution.

Unfortunately that's kind of the case for most of the plot lines in this show. We had way too many characters with simultaneously too much going on and not enough going on. Way too much of the CEOs plotting only for them to inexplicably team up at the end. And way too much dance rehearsal footage that apparently needed to be shown instead. The last episode was chock full of loose threads.

I have so many questions

Why so many scenes of Nathee talking about how hot Kita's dad was when he was younger?

Why did they do Willi like this with this wig?

What happened with Kita and Nathee's relationship? Why did they have zero scenes in the finale?

What happened with Film's blackmail plot?

Why wasn't Nathee in the group at the end yet and previously disgraced Kita was?

What happened with Kita and Kawi being pissed about Kita's song being stolen?

Narrator: He did not deal with anything

Why wait until the very last episode to do anything with Tul and Tin and Copper? Okay, so Tul told Tin early on that he liked Copper. Tin agreed not to pursue Copper only to then immediately fuck him the very first chance he got? They decided to have a quickie in the bathtub while Tul was running a simple errand that he would be back from very soon? Not only did they not hurry, they didn't even close the fucking bathroom door????? Tul and Tin almost immediately made up after this even though apparently they already fought over a guy in the past?

Why did Kengkla even like Namo? Bro straight up told him his religious beliefs were stupid and they never really addressed this?

Did they break Namo's glasses during their sex scene? They showed Kengkla taking off Namo's glasses and putting them on the bed beside them and then a few seconds later they seemingly rolled over on them?

What was with Kengkla's pained expressions during their NC scene in the finale? Between that and Namo's unhinged smiling paired with the throat grabbing I couldn't tell what was supposed to be happening there. Kinky shit? Does Namo use cosmopolitan magazine's 2004 indian burn handie technique? Too much teeth? The possibilities are endless

Tell me this man isn't Bajoran though with his religious devotion, nose bridge wrinkles, and dangly earrings

Why even include the suicide attempt plot line? The whole thing was infuriating but especially them patting themselves on the back for solving Tonnam's suicidal tendencies by comforting him in the hospital?

You don't have to be sad buddy, you've improved as a dancer!

Narrator: It was not resolved

Also, here's where I have to admit I gave the writing team too much credit. I repeatedly thought that scenes were surely included for a bigger narrative purpose but that was overwhelmingly not the case.

In earlier episodes they showed a hidden camera in one of the rehearsal rooms at the agency that was, unbeknownst to the boys, streaming online. When they showed Phupha and Tonnam about to get it on at the agency and Tonnam specifically said he was worried about being seen, I thought that they were maybe going to be unknowingly exposed online and cause a huge scandal. When I saw the promo for the finale where it showed Tonnam on the ground with pills all around him, I thought for sure that was where they were going. I thought it was a little late for a big plot point like that but oh, how little I knew.

Why have Kengkla asking repeatedly why they're focusing so much on singing and dancing when he wants to be an actor only to have him turn down the acting job so he can be in a different boyband at the end?

Bad writing, bad directing, bad editing, bad pacing, bad dancing (perplexingly shown in slow motion which only exacerbated the lack of sync), bad singing, no character development, way too much focus on the two rival CEOs who are the producers of the show which explains so much.

The workshops must have been good though because the chemistry was the rare positive. Kita and Nathee had a few good scenes and I loved Tonnam and Phupha (except in the finale which I'm going to forget I ever watched). The kissing in the NC scenes was good all around but the lack of direction was pretty apparent. Lots of up and down and back up kind of aimlessness with too much position switching. It seemed like the actors were giving it their best but weren't given any specific instructions and were just kind of stalling until they heard cut.

The intro was catchy but I can't say the actual group they apparently built this show around promoting (in the most roundabout weird way) doesn't leave a bad taste in my mouth because of this mess.

Don't watch this unless you want to try your hand at the world's least efficient way to learn the numbers 1-8 in Thai

Or you know, maybe you could just skip around to the good parts

May these guys find better writing in their next projects

Sadhu

[blossoms-phan]

im trying desperately not to look at too many snippets/clips of the song all while I engage with spoilers bc that’s the part I lowkey want to be the most like surprised by/just taking it all in for the first time irl but i can’t help myself it’s so fucking cool and camp and they just know us and themselves so well im literally obsessed with it 😭😭 the choreo, the lyrics, how it’s just so fun the little moves they do with each other, the way it goes from like fun boyband to a whole ass fuckin rave that’s going to be going on in like beautiful historical theatre type venues and just a building beside someone’s college campus is so special to me

[miseria-fortes-viros]

(brings microphone to your face) tell us abt ur au!!!! whatever you're willing to share, i love hearing abt wips.

OOHOOHOO OK!! so i have talked abt this before but i don’t think i have a tag for it however im going to go back thru and tag ALL of it bc well. i like all of my things in one place. ANYWAY. i’m going to put this under a cut bc it will be LONG because i cannot help myself ever. so, i present: trc rival bands au!

this is the pinterest board i’ve made for the au that i cannot stop adding to. i’m refraining from sharing my spotify playlists because uh. those are a major part of the story and i don’t want to take that away from it 😭 BUT trust me they are SO good. im obsessed.

anyway. rival bands au LETS GO!!

gansey, ronan, henry, and noah make up the (pop punk?/alt rock?) band Kings of Henrietta.

ronan plays lead guitar. he’s the son of legendary irish rockstar niall lynch and also ex lead guitarist of the boyband the lynch brothers. he plays a seven-string ibanez xiphos in black flat (VERY sexy guitar VERY difficult). its name is chainsaw. he has perfect pitch. he’s also very, very irish

gansey’s lead vocals and rhythm guitar. he grew up hollywood royalty but was never really interested in acting, just did it because it was expected of him. his exodus from the film industry in order to be in a band was originally widely considered a long shot but now. well. one of the most famous bands in the world and all that. he plays an obnoxiously orange gretsch jet that fans have dubbed “the pig”.

henry’s bass and backup vocals. he’s the heir to two tech fortunes but ran off to be a musician and was a solo artist for a few years before the formation of KOH (think yungblud). he has a classic rocker haircut, he’s openly queer, he’s a weirdgirl fashion icon. he plays a custom made electric blue fender precision with lightning detailing. he calls it “madonna” but this name has yet to catch on

noah plays drums (and also provides vocals on occasion if the occasion is screaming). his parents are music producers, his sister adele is also in the industry. he breaks at least one drum stick per show and tosses it into the pit. hardcore fans can and will fight for it.

they are SO fucking famous. like taylor swift 95m monthly spotify listeners famous. like people recognize ronan just from his hair like eminem famous. about to leave on one of the longest world tours ever famous. it is INSANE how famous they are.

they all met at aglionby and often played together but didn’t form a band until after niall lynch’s murder and the disbanding of the lynch brothers. there’s a few years gap between graduating aglionby and the formation of KOH

some circles still believe ronan killed his own father however they are very few and far between. WHATEVER

blue grew up in a house full of musicians. she can play pretty much anything under the sun but prefers drums and guitar. she went to juilliard on scholarship, which is where she met adam

adam did not grow up playing music with his family. he grew up learning it in secret. he cannot play everything however he is a VERY quick learner out of sheer willpower. he graduated high school as valedictorian and immediately got the fuck out of there to go to juilliard (also on scholarship). he and blue were inseparable almost immediately

they moved in together after graduation and blue took him home to henrietta when the rent started to get a little too high. they officially formed their band page of wands in blue’s room at 300 fox way

“page of wands” merges both of their symbolic tarot cards together (page of cups + magician). did i mention blue was raised pagan? she was. as to be expected. anyways.

virtually unknown indie rock band page of wands posts a cover of a KOH song. they do not expect KOH to see it. they also do not expect KOH to return the favor in front of tens of thousands of people. KOH does it anyways. because gansey is ENAMORED. he is SO FAR GONE.

blue hates this. she hates it so much. unfortunately POW’s sudden success is now irreversibly tied to KOH and there’s nothing she can do about it. or is there

their record labels agree to a rivalry. success! this is what she wanted

except it’s not. but she doesn’t know why

cue enemies to lovers. and long distance pining. mutual destruction. the entire music industry watching this all unfold. bluesey. pynch. way too many spotify links. you get the picture

guys i literally CANNOT stop thinking about this i don’t know what to do. what do i do. i am so lost. please help me

[gracefullou]

thank you for tagging me @berlinini and thank you for the person who created this lovely game ❤️

when did you become a louie?

Around January 2019. I watched the X-factor uk and after it was over, i missed the pretty blue eyed ex-boybander (sorry for this dull description of him 😬 but that's all I knew about him from the show, they never mentioned his solo music) so i decided to check him out, i found back to you and the rest of his solo work and fell more in love 🥹.

your earliest fandom memory?

I don't really remmember tbh and tbf i was a very laid back fan before walls. At the top of my head, i remmember the two of us release and the interviews he did for it and all

your favourite song (one off walls, one off fitf)?

It changes from time to time but right now i'd say always you from walls and all this time from fitf.

your favourite music video?

Walls mv. It's a masterpiece 😌

favourite gig?

From ltwt, i'll never get over the Austin show it's so special to me idk. And from fitfwt the London and New York shows. Special mention to the Scala show that he did in 2019, i've always loved this show and after aotv i love it even more 🥹

favourite louis hair?

The first Afhf hair and cinammon roll

favourite louis interview?

Both Zach Sang interviews. I also adore the Wired video where he answers Internet questions (he was absolutely lovely in it like that's the loml 🫶🏽) and that actually me segment for GQ

suit louis or tank top louis?

I love both but suit Louis supremacy 🫡

favourite louis tattoo?

I'm obsessed with his it is what it is and far away tattoo (and almost all of his tattoos they're so aesthetically pleasing tbf)

favourite louis bodypart? (c'mon we all have one!)

I'm obsessed with too many 🫣 but especially his beautiful shiny hair, his pretty blue eyes, and of course his waist (and 🍑 of course).

[nightswithkookmin]

I'm inactive from twitter nowadays so am always somehow behind the new updates,but always catch up when I can.about jimin going to newyork for work I heard no one knew about it? But been noticing jm pulls off this crazy crowd at the airport everytime hes alone.but I don't see this crowd for others?..it looks like jimin has his own solo huge fanbase in his country? this also after jm being barely active on social media but seems fans and kmedia really love jimin.,the first time he went to us and stayed for two weeks the crowd was insane too and some said he paid kmedia to bring fans in which is ridiculous.

He paid to get fans to the airport?????

I mean if he was gonna pay anyone it would be me and I'm not seeing any check in the mail🤷🏾‍♂️

People can be so corny 🙄

BTS is the most influential boyband in the world and people marvel when the one member people have always been curious about attracts attention whenever he steps out- never mind that he's also been the most inaccessible scarce member following the announcement of their solo careers.

All this talk about jikook going private-

It's such a wonder to see their brains at work

Not even gonna lie I would pay with my own money to rally up the hoes at his front door so I'm in no position to Judge let alone condemn anyone who does this too.

If anyone is paying the media to be anywhere it is his fans. It is me. I did it. Jimin has nothing to do with it. They should leave him alone.

We gonna get him the crown, the trophies, the streams, the plays, the clout, the attention, higher ratings, play his soft core PR managers, manage his brand- if we could post and curate his IG ourselves we would. If we could pay for his flights so he flies private or 1st class all the time we would, if we could choose which programs he should be on we would, if we could be his agents we would, if we could create a whole new planet for himWE WOULD.

People underestimate just how obsessed his fans and detractors alike are with him. I tell you his haters are his biggest promoters and we thank them.

We mean business out here darling. Other stans are just lazy. Look at what they doing to RM!!! They not even giving him the clicks!it's been four days and still life isn't even clocking 10m- they should stop worrying about Jimin and go stream like the bitches they are

JM stans want to see him do better and that motivates everyone in one way or the other no matter their reach. PJMs are resourceful. It's why fake woke OT7s cancel them a lot💀

They spend so much time and energy abusing others they reserve no energy to support their faves.

He has in us a ride or die and people are just jealous.

Jimin stans we are dedicated🙃

Look at me. I've been through the wood chip, lived through several moments of BTS droughts- I should hang my coat and retire yet I'm still here💀

Had friends who've told me to give all this up and live my life- I'm no longer friends with them🙂

I'll give you up before I give Jimin up

I am here till the final curtain call🙂

On a serious note, guys go watch Still life MV and let's push it to at least 10m damn

[instantartific]

I was joking about making a beta10 oc but now I kind of like the thought of it.

The thought of the original prototype that Neon brought in being so... so damaged, so hurt from the war that the bot never truly recovered from it. And it fought him tooth and nail when he tried restoring it, too; whatever prior identity it was given didn't take well to realizing it'd been "captured" and is now being "held hostage" when it needs to be out on the battlefield. The thought of it possibly growing aggressive at first and warning to use force (before again realizing it can't. That time is really J's doing.) And all of this because it doesn't recognize who J is, because:

You are not the man I am meant to command to. Where is he?

And it takes a while. It takes a good while for it to finally adjust to this new situation and its new chain of command as it seemed. (When it finally accepts that J and its former Captain were one in the same, or that J was a renowned Captain in and of itself, it would gladly offer to dismiss itself for such horrible behavior. J heavily refused, of course.)

And something about the thought of this original, this prototype, eventually being rehabilitated enough to help J around the mansion and monitor him as it is but never being able to accept that the war truly ended, no matter how many times J tells it. Something about the thought of J finding letters written to someone who's passed or was never alive to begin with or was a serial number all along. Near obsessive amounts of writing in the beginning that eventually die off to twice a year: an anniversary and a birthday. J helps it 'mail them' to an address that doesn't exist. In reality, he still has them.

The new 1010 end up being made / repurposed in lieu of it, essentially. It gets all the tweaking and upgrades as practice before it gets distributed to the rest. And they end up being far more "personable" than it will ever be, but it is still raw. It still knows everything they've forgotten.

If it's still functioning after all this time... it helps J around with more technical things behind the scenes. It monitors security. It even can work as a body double for one of the others, should an absolute emergency occur.

I don't know, man. Just the thought of the first bot J works with since his recovery never being able to be in their little cool sexy boyband or whatever because it still can't move past the war, the same way J himself can't.

But the difference is one of them was born, not made.

[alarrytale]

Hope it´s not just me but Louis´ shorter haircut looks so good on him and he should keep it like this imo. Also idk what gifts dedicated to F he got lately on the airport and I even don´t care because it gives me creeps in general (I never saw any fans being so obsessed with their idols kids and idk it just proves how fake dad he is that he endorses it but whatever....anyway, he looks so great since his performance in Finland and especially after Berlin with his shorter hair and now even freshly shaved and hopefully well rested and I´m so in love with him and hope it´s all because H takes care of him in between his festival shows because maybe there are rumours about where he is, with no actual proof so.... Don´t know if anyone noticed these funny coincidences lately so let me point to them

in Finland Louis wore that black sweater vest by the same brand H wore his blue vest when went to football in March (ig it was march)

them both using their opportunity on stage to tell everyone "It´s coming home" like a signal they will get together in couple of days, ofc it´s plausible because every english football fan is yelling this

H and his bluegreen songbird

HL in Berlin and their synced outfits

Louis bluegreening since Berlin

Maybe it´s all only a coincidences or maybe it´s just them telling us that they are very happy together right now. Oh and Louis also wore kind of a rainbow vest recently so I take it as a coded clothing.

Hi, anon!

I like the shorter hair too! It looks much better on him. And i love the clean shaven look also, though i don't mind the beard. I should also appreciate the boyband shirt he's wearing, but i very famously hate the Bea*les lol.

I see the coding and the "coincidences" too. Louis has worn that green and blue PAL hoodie three times now. He can't love it that badly haha. I hope it continues!

[mynameisnotthepoint]

Ossan no pantsu EP 1

First of all: thank you to @isaksbestpillow for providing us with excellent subs for this drama :)

Second of all: This is a disclaimer that I have watched this drama with subs that were mostly machine translated, so this is less of a first time reaction and more of an "i finally have the whole picture now".

The first episode sets up the premise of the show quite well. Our main character, Okita Makoto, is a man who has no respect from his family (his wife Mika who is a stan of a boyband, his daughter Moe who makes doujinshi and his son Kakeru who is a recluse and experiments with cute clothes and make-up) and his subordinates at work. His world views are of decades past, he even seems to live in the past sometimes.

Makoto is obsessed with doing things in the patterns expected from society, at least as he has internalised them. This manifests at work in the fact that his subordinates want more of a work-life balance, do not contact coworkers on holiday for a work-related matter and think Makoto is strange for insisting they should work until the job is finished, no matter what. It also shows with his male subordinate who wears a bra. He sees the outline of it, convinces himself that it can't be, and then gets proud confirmation that it is, in fact, a bra. He cannot handle it - and this will be a storyline that continues in the next episodes. BUT! For the enjoyment of his family, he is willing to go into a cake shop where there are only girls - a scene that made me nostalgic for Old fashion cupcake, one of my favourite bls of all time (I even own the manga).

Then there is Igarashi Daichi, the gay son of Mika's friend, who Makoto encounters several times during the episode. The first one is when Makoto is walking down the street, encounters a young man who clicks his tongue at him (again no respect from the younger generation), then almost falls down the stairs and is saved by Daichi. He encounters Daichi again when he learns that his son Kakeru is having a guest who happens to be a gay man. Despite the positive interaction he had with Daichi earlier, Makoto throws stereotypes of gayness at Daichi. During this conversation, which is more of an accusation by Makoto, Daichi stands his ground and explains that if society could really change him, he would have been straight. Kakeru screams at Makoto to leave. Before his last encounter with Daichi, Makoto realises he must change his ways in order to find a connection again with the people around him. Daichi offers to help him "update" himself.

What I also found interesting is that Makoto said that he never learned about these things in school. Makoto is my parents' age, and I see in him a lot of the behaviors of them reflected. Insisting on formal training for learning about queerness and other societal issues, when the time they went to school was very different from today.

What I think this show does well (from the first episode) is not to villainize any of the characters. Nor does it get too preachy or educational. Makoto is an ass, but the seeds of him that can be updated, can flourish into a more tolerant and nicer human, are already there.