#i try to take them as little as possible bc my mum instilled a fear in me of taking them too much while growing up…

[i-say-stupid-things]

me: tells a friend about my chronic pain to explain why i don’t do something

them: “oh? so how often a day do you take painkillers?”

me: “a day??”

[nightglider124]

this is gonna sound really random haha but just curious, are you a religious person?

That’s completely fine! I don’t mind random questions; in fact, I love them!

To answer the question… nope. Not even a little. I don’t believe in God and I never will.

I wouldn’t say I’m completely atheist though, I think there is every possibility that there is something greater than all of us. But, thinking that it’s God? No. I don’t believe that.

I mean, it’s funny. I was raised and baptised as Roman Catholic and I have a very Irish-Religious type of family but my mum never agreed with “basically shoving it down a kid’s throat” as she so fondly puts it. She had it her whole life, having God and religion pushed on her so she didn’t want that for me and my siblings; letting us choose what we wanted to believe in.

I just feel, and this isn’t up for discussion like if someone comments and tries to undermine my opinion or be a dick about it, you won’t be getting a response. I’m open to think what I want, as is anyone else.

However, I just feel that if he is real, he isn’t the good and loving being that everyone perceives him to be. He’s supposedly omnibenevolent, beyond all else and yet, he tests his people and their faith, which I feel is wrong. If such a god existed, why would he put people through such tragedies and hardships. Like, when little kids get cancer or some god-awful disease. Is that God testing this child? In my eyes, that’s sick. I just… don’t see how he is all-loving when he lets things like that happen to people? And good people too. Where the fuck is his justice for bad people like murderers and rapists?

Idk, perhaps I’m biased. I don’t think “God” has ever really helped me out or heard my suffering in life. I’ve made good things happen myself, not by waiting on some prayer that may or may not ever get answered.

I also just can’t see why some people put so much faith in something they know might not even be real. Like, yes, I understand the logic if you’re scared or unsure, then of course you want to put your beliefs and hope into something like religion. It makes you feel better, which I completely respect. But, what I don’t, is when you see old ladies in their beds, clutching at their rosary beads and crying because they are so scared of death. Not because they stop living, no, because they’ve been trying so hard to be good their entire life to ensure they don’t go to “Hell”. No one should have that kind of fear when they’re on their deathbed? Oh, and I’m not making that scenario up, that genuinely happened when my mum worked in an old peoples home and it broke my mum’s heart that someone could be so frightened just because they may not go to “Heaven”.

That’s the thing I probably hate most about religion, well, Christianity anyway. I can’t speak for other religions. It’s the fact that it’s pushed on people that it ends up instilling fear into a person, rather than comforting belief. I don’t like when certain catholic or Christian schools force it and are ignorant of other religions. I am beyond thankful that I was sent to a non-religious school; where we got to explore all kinds of religions, rather than being ignorant and pretending that there’ s just the one religion.

However, before I get nuns and priests coming after me with pitchforks… I completely respect people who do believe in religion and God and all that goes with it. I would never judge someone for what they believe, as I hope others wouldn’t with me either. If you find comfort and happiness in believing in a faith, then you frickin’ rock that. I admire people who can place their faith in something like religion too. It kinda shows this risk of, I don’t know if it’s real but I support it anyway because I’m willing to take that leap of faith. Like, seriously, bravo if you believe in any kind of religion or any form of God.

The only thing that rubs me the wrong way is if you try and force your religion on another person. That’s not right. Just because you take comfort and calm in believing in a God, doesn’t mean it’s the same for someone else. It doesn’t work that way. And that, is something I cannot stand; when people are rude and obnoxious, trying to shove their religion in someone’s face. If someone doesn’t want to or can’t believe in it, never force them. It is not your place to do that. Don’t be an ass.

Anyway, to tie this up… I don’t believe in God, no. I think there may be something but not this being of God that everyone depicts. Religious peeps out there, keep doing your thing and praying and going to Church (or your preferred house of prayer).