#i try not to be too. idk egotistical? abt my writing but like Genuinely. genuinely fucking anything would be better than thislkfjdsklf

[anxiously-awaiting]

unironically thank god for the grail concert event for reminding me fate writing can be Fun

[tojikai]

it was the way i hoped for toji and then rubbed my hands cackling when my wish came true and then instantly started squealing and kicking my feet for me 🥹😈

i liked seeing gojo’s perspective and while i can see now what the mind process was i still felt like he’s so dense and egotistical. i felt a little bad but it lasted about 2 minutes and then said fuck it we ball not enough to root for him so he can choke 🥰🫶🏽

baby megs putting naohoemi (i know what i said in the first ask about her being nice to yui but i was trying to be positive lmao but i couldn’t do it after reading it a second time) in her place and toji dealing the finishing blow had me smiling like the grinch and me monologuing about giving that man the sloppiest toppiest guack guack 9000 at the house 😤🤣

when n**mi said we can all fix it together i said out loud “i think tf not you trick ass bitch” bc i’m just so tired of her lmao pls exit stage left and stop inserting yourself the martyr complex is irking me

also wanted to mention that toji having money and being a present dad is so heartwarming and i love that despite mamaguro there’s room in his heart for reader (fix you put me through it at the time lmao) and the sims are so cute 🥰 since i’m a woc (black) i already imagined yui to look like the sim except for my skin and hair texture so seeing it had me like kai, your mind ☺️ but also imagining braiding her hair and putting beads in them 🥹😭

me 🤝 kai = same brain

i am highkey rooting for toji bc despite maybe seeing him as ooc may be a thought for others some part of me likes to think that he could have had that in canonverse had things been different which is why the characterization feels right for me. he’s so sweet to reader but also nasty 🤪😂 and the kids get along too so i am heavily invested in that. also when it was mentioned reader wanted three kids she already has yui and if toji is endgame then megumi is added. would she want more kids even if she had one with toji? i also want to see megumi accidentally call reader mom (despite mothergate with “n***mi”) but at the same time have both megs and toji being shocked but liking the new dynamic since reader isn’t taking anyone’s spot or icing out others

now idk if you’re going to do an epilogue for sundered or a different piece set in the au (and honestly i’m just down for the ride either way) but the way you explore the family dynamics and reveal the psychological aspects just tickles my brain so i’d like to see yui’s thoughts and perspective and just her being mommy’s little angel menace to society and delivering the karma to both of them. whether its naomi and satoru and his mom being ripped a third buttcheck bc she’s over it or just her reading them all for filth bc she knows the truth

i think to make it easier for my thoughts on each chapter i will do separate ones with slight commentary that way i don’t spam your ask box lmao (meaning i will redo reviews on each chapter bc i genuinely love talking about the fics with you! you make it fun and also you don’t get annoyed when i’m constantly standing outside your askbox or when i’m cussing out the characters on main lmfao 😂💕

i also think that ill do it for the rest of the series i’ve read from you just bc i know you’re an author im comfortable with talking to and ive been around even before permanent mark despite that being the start of reaching out. i think it’ll be fun for me and maybe to you but honestly maybe its just bc i talk a lot lmao and that we both are down bad astronomically for toji. also off topic bc this was a review and turned into a platonic confession/appreciation post but i saw you are a leo and it made my heart feel full bc my mom is a leo too lmao

- paragraph/theory aka paratheory anon

that statement abt how you feel abt satoru is just the way i feel abt him whenever i write. i just start scolding him like im not the one making him say or do those things, it's funny when i think abt it now LMAO and toji being ooc JDKSLSL that's true😭 but for me, it's bc i headcanon him as being really good w kids and family stuff. his life in jjk's just ...not the right place to show that side of him and it makes me hurt for him so bad bc where is he gonna put that soft side now😭 i enjoy writing him like that, ngl. and yui's pov would be so interesting and cute😭 depending on how it'll end, it'd be fun to see what she thinks and how she acts abt it as she grows !! anwww omg yess im a leo, that made me feel warm, paratheory anon, thanks so much 🥺♥️ your asks are always great reads<33

[charmixpower]

Tbh in terms of rivusa and winx as a whole I refuse to acknowledge anything past season 5 like season 5 was crap but tbh the small rivusa moments like in ep 1 when they both made fun of skys awful hair or when she teased him Abt being a show off or like in that dragon taming episode where he was teasing her and she eventually managed to tame the dragon and he said “that’s my girl” (ok first of all If Anyone I was involved In romantically said that to me I wpuld fold immediately and secondly he said it in front of his professor😭😭😭 was gonna say he has balls of steel but honestly I’ll take it as he loves his gf a lot🗿) and of course the song writing a as cute and it’s the only time I’ll ever let a man getaway with public singing dedicated to his partner cause it’s so cringe for me but idk why for them i thought it was cute hahaha they honestly saved season 5 for me like I was eating up every crumb and interaction between them

OMG OMG OMG YEAHHHHHHH

Literally one of the saving graces of season 5 eat your fucking heart out season 4, and behold a season that actually understands Musa's personality

Tbh while I do like "getting together" stories, my favorite part of couples is seeing how they act when their together and established and s5 is FEEDING ME WELL WITH ALL THESE FUCKING ADORABLE RIVUSA MOMENTS

When Riven literally drove around to make sure that Musa could see that he saved the guy just like he asked her to do in the first episode, I'm still not over it. He was all like "!!!! Look I did the thing!!!" I am obsessed with him, and Musa teasing him for it by calling him a show off, I'll never recover

Riven just listing to Musa play the guitar with hearts in his eyes in s5 got me ok, and the way they snugly when up to each other and started flirting!!!!! Like yes their not suddenly going to super easily express their emotions over night, but their clearly TRYING and you have got me SOBBING ABOUT IT

Seeing Rivusa just getting to act like an established couple has reversed all the horrific damage s4 did to me mentally and emotionally with that horrible plot line. I genuinely want to know who in the writing room was stupid enough to think the girls would suddenly be super egotistical about their powers (interesting plot point when their mostly dating the nonmagical, but handled terribly) and Musa would mad at Riven for his actions. Not only would Musa and her actual standoffish personality never even give Andy the time of day, s3 confirmed that she isn't bothered by jealously just Riven not giving her attention/listening to her, and the way she was so mean about his gifts??? Like I can understand not liking or wanting them but she acted like Riven was giving her gifts to make her day worse, or was trying to intentionally make her upset, when it was clearly the opposite and I am quite annoyed. Musa would never. She go "awwww, you fucking idiot. He's allergic to those flowers, come here dumbass"

And the drama this season??? Makes SOOOOOO much more sense. Riven in s2 SENT people who had a crush on her to Musa. There's no way he couldn't of not known that Jared had a small crush on the Winx, and he intentionally sent him to Musa. Maybe because he thought he wouldn't be as good of a boyfriend to her, so he was trying to help in his own Riven way. And MUSA GOT PISSED!!!! Like she was so mad that Riven did that, and that combined with the fact that she smacked the shit out of Icy in s1 over a guy she wasn't even fucking dating, makes it pretty clear that Musa was originally the one more prone to jealously (until s3 when the writers begun falling on their one arc for Riven writing crutch and never got off of it) compared to Riven and I'm SO DELIGHTED TO SEE IT COME BACK

Usually it's the guys being the dumbasses and fucking up and it's just so lovely to see my favourite girl struggle with something I struggle with too!!! Like yeah!!!! Musa definitely has some major abandonment issues, if the way she pushes people away is any indication, some major trust issues in general, her bitey demeanor towards Stella and her tendency to expect people to read her mind makes me imagine she often thinks people know how she's feeling and are intentionally trying to hurt her when that's not the case. It's just so relatable!!!!!!

God I love seeing the girls fuck up and do stupid shit and make mistakes!!! Like YES, give me the GOOD SHIT!!!! Tecna's arc and Aisha's arc in s2 we're some of the best arcs in the show, watching them learn to be kinder and stuff 🥹🥹🥹 I am literally on the floor SOBBING this is why I love them so much, anyone who doesn't like them is WRONGGGF 😭😭😭

I love it when ANY character fucks up and makes mistakes, see: Riven is my favorite specialist, but there's been too much focus on the boys problems to the point where it just seems like they should break up and it's not mutual. But it is!!!! Sure Sky is over protective to a extreme, but Bloom is flighty and avoidant to an extreme. Riven and Musa have the same amount of abandonment issues, they both get jealous, they both struggle to communicate, they both can't control their emotions, ect (which is part of the reason they'd work so well together, and not so well with other people. Take it from someone with jealousy born of fear and very bad abandonment issues, there's NOTHING like seeing someone finally care about you the same amount you do when your expecting them to drop your ass at any moment. Like I know it's wrong but I can see where Musa is coming from in s3, the situation was extreme but pretending it wasn't, someone acting jealous over me immediately calms down my fears that they'll abandon me because they wouldn't do this if they were. Listen, I could write a whole essay about how well Musa and Riven's issues fit together from experience, but for now I'll let you know really well. Like they'll both have to put in the work to make their demons play nice but someone having the same issues as you, as they obviously do, is extremely comforting offering a level of understanding no one else can offer and they ABSOLUTELY PUT IN THE WORK!!! Musa would actually be the one more stubborn about it did you see Riven getting better in s2???? A TEAR TO MY EYE) Timmy has a cowardice problem and Tecna is way too aggressive and doesn't believe in silly things like "not sacrificing yourself for nothing", and they way s2 had them meeting in the middle 😭😭😭😭 how do more people not love s2??? Nabu and Aisha have NO FUCKING SOCIAL SKILLS, IN COMPLETELY OPPOSITE DIRECTIONS. Nabu is way too friendly, while Aisha is standoffish, and they both try to prove themselves by acting independently and hoping it helps like idiots shut up I'm in LOVE

Stella working on her issues with Brandon, sobbing, crying, I love s3. Want to see more of Brandon's issues please, and not that bullshit from later seasons where he's also stupid for some reason. Brandon has the most emotional intelligence of the guys and he's using it to hide his emotions, change my mind. Not to mention the way neither Helia or Flora could express their feelings without Chatta getting involved 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

For all of its stupid S5 has SUCH AMAZING MOMENTS

Like I get to see my favourite ship in this show act as a established couple and see Musa struggle with something that's been established since s1???? I'm in hysterics this is amazing

The only thing I want to take from s4 is characters and their motivations, Harmonix > Believix, every couple of episodes I see something new in s5 that's an amazing concept I want to use NOW!!! S5 is just peppered with all these amazing moments and for what???? How do you make the worst age changer sub plot I've ever seen in my fucking LIFE, right after one the best quest plot line with the test of confidence, one of the best written songs in ruby reef, and the superior Stella and Aisha are fighting subplot (looking at YOU s4); And right before one of the worst but adorable episode with one of the hands down BEST Trix spells, getting to see the boys be useful again, and THE BEST S5 FIGHT IN THE RAVINE

Do you see that??? Do you see how for every like, two god awful episodes that make me wanna scream with one or two fun things in them, there's an episode that ruins my life with amazing and interesting concepts that I am legally required to scream about???? Do you see that??? Why is s5 like this omgg, I never know if I'm going to get amazing or terrible. It's like Russian roulette

Anyways I'm obsessed with how hit and miss this season is, I'll defend it till I die but also it's awful and terrible and if you don't acknowledge all of it's crimes it will never be forgiven for weee r going to have to fight. Complexities

[datastate]

thoughts on lurien the watcher

[points] gay gay homosexual gay

okay. wow. i will spare you a long-worded thing on him (i’m still saving up the energy to actually answer the other ‘thoughts on’ that were actually. prompted from some ask meme a while back) but wow! he sure is. one of the most. characters of all time. yeah. in return for it not being an analysis this is going to be a bit rambly though, multiple points, not really in depth but. heart emoji. thanks for the ask regardless. hope some of this satisfies

i think this applies to all the dreamers, that their resting places are interesting - lurien’s is an especially interesting case though due to how it reflects the build up to the king, who he explicitly speaks of as his reason for becoming a seal (first read as love, later read as faith... i imagine if it were any other than his king he would be speaking of hallownest’s value, but w his faith in his king he harbored little doubt w how thorough pk typically is)

why are there statues of him leading up? previous watchers? previous iterations of his own public figure? just a mistake on the crafter’s part? is he just that egotistical (joking i promise) ?

fun fact! his butler was what actually got me attached to him. beforehand i was in the same boat where i was only ever interested in content where he was taken as a joke for how the others had more ‘reasonable’ meanings behind becoming dreamers while he was like yes sire right away my king, but then. Just. idk. his connection to someone like that, their faith in him and the assumption from the corpses below that he was kind to them and they wished to return it... his image is built from those few who knew him, in contrast to how pk’s image was built from those detached from who he truly was, which makes it fitting to play as someone who witnessed the worst of him... this is not abt pk however. it’s really weird not being able to really touch on lurien w/o that immediate association to pk, seeing as he’s someone in charge of hallownest’s (pk & wl) heart AND his few lines are mentioning the king... his position is important when considering how those around him interpreted him, though i imagine it’d be so much more difficult to hide who you really are around people who are around you for way too long.. you’d slip at one point. no, his care for them is genuine and so is theirs in turn.

i think more people need to stop making his only character trait as someone subservient to the king. he’s allowed to feel conflicted abt pk, even if he ultimately does trust pk enough to follow through w what is presented. something something, lurien values hallownest’s people while the pale beings value hallownest (idea)

lurien is so much more similar to herrah than either would care to admit. or the hk fans, apparently.

also i think he and his butler had something going on but almost every time i see a fic from them i have to like. spend some time screaming into my hands because no one knows how to write him, especially not in a manner where he’s interacting w those w a ‘lower rank’ than him. w how he does care abt those of his spire and likely rightfully earns the care in turn, it’s fucking absurd to me to see people who think he’s ... cruel? or otherwise takes advantage of this? as if he wouldn’t allow at least his butler to drop titles while they’re in private, though whether or not they believe they’re worthy to address him by name is another issue. the fact of it is that he wouldn’t and shouldn’t ever use his position to get a step up on someone who people try to convince their audience he cares for. if he did care for them as a friend or something else interpersonal, he would do so as equals.

+ like? a bit unrelated but while i’m on dynamics, out of all the dreamers he’s the “meanest.” this is fact, based in his stubborn personality it’s likely he’s the sort to initiate arguments because he will refuse to fold his opinions so easily. people often infantilize him but like. this dude’s a whole adult and he’s wealthy. i promise you can make him an ass sometimes.

also also i need to know how he’d interact w thk after etv considering their similar search for pk and how they both valued hallownest team cherry if you see this please i am on my knees please pl

[astronomical-bagel]

I'm really interested about the angst you see in ATHD, because I'm sure I've missed out on a lot of it because it wasn't obvious sjsbsjsk - 🕊

Oh hey dove!! And thanks for asking about it! I have like a lot of disjointed thoughts on it so I’ll just kinda write down my thoughts as I rewatch it again!

• So, when Patton tells Roman to be nice (2:20), Roman IMMEDIATELY apologizes and rectified his mistake—despite no knowing what he did was wrong in the first place. This moment actually kills me because you can just ~hear~ the uncertainty and insecurity in his voice, and when he stutters when trying to apologize?? Good shit.

Also you seen those posts talking about how Roman literally apologizes for everything now, and how no one really appreciates how much he’s trying and still sees him as really mean and egotistical?? This moment shows that perfectly, from Roman rushing to fix his mistake so they won’t be mad at him, Patton calling Roman mean in the first place (I’m still having trouble seeing what he did wrong lmao), to Virgil making faces at Roman after he apologizes. It just stands out to me, idk.

• at 5:00, Roman says, ““he just needs something to look forward to.” And hhhh you can Tell that he’s thinking about the callback. Thomas may be watching this to distract himself from the party but Roman is distracting himself from the fact that he voluntarily flushed his dreams down the metaphorical ice toilet 

 •not quite angst but Roman’s “Oh.” Face at 6:30 when he realized he misinterpreted what Virgil said.

•the “Hans evil plotting face” part at 7:30 always kinda confused me, although it could just be because my personal interpretation of the movie. Like,,, I personally think that, at first, Hans didn’t have any evil plans. Like—he didn’t even know who Anna was at first. I just find it interesting that Roman ““the romantic”  Sanders didn’t really think that Hans’s smile wasn’t genuine. Is it bc of his black and white mentality of am I reading too into it?

•I’ve already mentioned the “the first person to give her attention was taking advantage of her” part (around 8:15) part in another post, so I won’t go into that rn

•okay this isn’t Roman angst BUT CAN I POINT OUT THAT PATTON “REPRESSION” SANDERS WAS THE ONE TO SING “DONT LET THEM IN DONT LET THEM SEE” BECAUSE THAT IS AN AMAZING DETAIL

•Roman’s ““bridge speech” at 9:20 kinda seems like it could apply to him, somehow? Like,,,if the “storm” was missing the callback? It it seems important. Also the, ““lie low in our kingdom of isolation” part  I can’t believe that Thomas predicted quarantine , like...hmmmm ....it just sticks out to me for some reason

•10:12 ““if only there was someone out there who loves you” *blinks rapidly* 

^^Okay, despite that being as funny as shit, I can’t??? Interpret expressions??? very well?? But like, this seems like another one of Roman’s ““cry for help”s that everyone ignores for some reason?? Hmmm.

•10:35, ive already made a post about Roman idealizing and (I think) romanticizing sacrifice (just another thing to ad to the list of Roman’s self-destructive thinking), so I won’t go over it here 

•13:44 when Logan says “both of which take place elsewhere”, the camera goes to Roman for a sec?? He looks like that line kinda,,, meant something to him?? In the negative way?? Like I said, I’m shit at interpreting expressions, but that part really stuck out to me for some reason.  fixer upper: throw a little love their way and you’ll bring out their best!!

Me, crying: Please give Roman love I’m begging you

Roman glaring at Janus hits different after pof 

 • Hey you know how I said that Roman was idealizing and romanticizing Olaf’s (almost) sacrifice??? Well, in Roman’s fanfiction, Olaf ACTUALLY dies :))

OKAY now that I’ve got the actual episode out of the way, can I just talk about Roman’s onsie for a sec??? I was looking up different types of horns (for my ef!roman), and then I started wondering,,, why did roman choose the Beast?? I heard it was because Thomas was doing a play like that at the time, but I’m not sure if that’s true or not.  In Dark Side of Disney, even Roman doesn’t really like beauty and the beast. Virgil calls the movie  out abt Stockholm syndrome, but Roman defends it saying, “It’s about a love that transcends outward appearances”, but im thinking....in Roman’s situation, what if it’s inner appearances, instead?

I mean, we’ve all seen he’s starved for love and complements, to feel like he’s wanted and worthy— heck, in this episode alone there are like three instances where this showed, and this is only like twenty minutes long— so like,,, I feel like his onsie would reflect that? He doesn’t think berry highly of himself, either. He feels guilty about the smallest things and he probably feels like hes shit rn. It’d make sense for him to project onto the “unlovable, horrible beast” that was cursed for being too mean and self-centered.

Anyways, that’s all I got, and it’s like five twenty five and the birds are starting to chirp, so I’ll go the bed now. Thanks for asking about the Roman angst tho! It was really fun to write all my thoughts and theories down!