#i try not to be a hater too often because it can be exhausting but sometimes things stick in my head. [redacted] is among them

[inky-snowdrop]

Christmas with the Lin Kuei 🎄

(NOTE: I don't personally believe that the Lin Kuei celebrate Christmas because I headcanon that religion isn't allowed within the clan. The mindset of clan before blood also negates the whole family aspect of Christmas. HOWEVER I am making an exception for this list 🤍)

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❄️ Bi-Han ❄️

Y'all... this man is not a Christmas hater (LET ME EXPLAIN)

Does he love Christmas? No. The fact of the matter is that Christmas happens during his favorite time of year: winter. Anything that happens in cold weather is decent in his eyes

He enjoys gift giving, especially when it's for Sektor and Sareena. Naturally he is a very observant person, so seeing the look of excitement on his significant others' faces when he gets them exactly what they wanted makes him happy

He's not really into all the family fun that's supposed to occur during the Christmas season (this man is NOT making a gingerbread house). He'd rather curl up near the fire and read a Christmas book (he enjoys A Christmas Carol because of the ghosts) with the people he cares about

DO NOT sing Christmas carols around him. DO NOT ask him to make it snow inside. He will actually lose his mind.

🔥 Kuai Liang 🔥

Kuai Liang is a Christmas enjoyer. He has a lot of positive memories associated with the holidays from when he was younger (playing with Harumi Shirai in the snow, decorating the Lin Kuei Palace with colorful candles)

Baking is one of his favorite Christmas traditions... Though he is an absolute fire hazard in the kitchen. He always ends up with burnt Christmas tree cookies that he absolutely smothers in frosting

Since Tomás has difficulties around the holidays, Kuai Liang goes out of his way to help him feel cheerful by including him in activities. They've spent lots of time doing childish things like building snowmen or decorating a tree in the forest with homemade decorations

Last minute wrapper. Motherfucker is awake the entire night on Christmas Eve trying to wrap all the gifts he got. He is often exhausted on Christmas morning... And some Christmas' he doesn't wake up before noon

When he moved to Japan to establish the Shirai Ryu, he took several of his old Christmas decorations with him. He hasn't touched them since

💨 Tomás Vrbada 💨

Tomás has... a complicated relationship with Christmas

On one hand, he has so many positive memories (both secular and religious) with his birth parents and sister during Christmas time... On the other hand he has so many positive memories of people that are no longer in his life

Regardless of how he feels, he tries really hard not to let his upsetment show. Whenever Kuai Liang asks him to bake with him or to build a snowman, Tomás always says yes. He doesn't want to bring anyone else down because of him

Tomás likes to watch Christmas cartoons like Frosty the Snowman and Rudolph the Red Noses Reindeer. His absolute favorite Christmas cartoon is The Year Without A Santa Claus. He relates to how depressed Santa is.

Though he typically tries to avoid Bi-Han during the holiday season (why get kicked while he's already down?), sometimes he'll ask if he can sit with Bi-Han while he's watching a Christmas movie. That's the most time that they spend with each other without yelling at each other the whole year

⚙️ Sektor ⚙️

CHRISTMAS. HATER. An absolute Scrooge

There were too many times in the past where she was let down by her mother and father during Christmas time, so now she just hates everything associated with the season

She locks herself in the Armory, working on things she doesn't need to be working on in order to distract herself. She barely sleeps, she barely eats, it's mildly concerning how consumed she is by her work

Bi-Han recognizes that Sektor needs her space and tries to respect that as much as possible, but he still gets worried when she doesn't leave the shop for more than a week. Sareena will go into the Armory and pester Sektor all day, asking questions about different Christmas things until Sektor kicks her out

The only day that Sektor is somewhat present is Christmas Day. She will go sit with everyone while they open gifts, sipping her coffee as she soaks in as much of the moment as she is emotionally able to

🐝 Cyrax 🐝

Cyrax likes both the religious and secular aspects of Christmas. She is a Catholic, so she sets up a little nativity scene in her room every year

Being from Nigeria, she has a lot of traditions that she brings into the Lin Kuei from the Zaki. One such tradition is going on an annual hunt and competing to see who can kill the largest animal within an allotted time. The winner is blessed with good luck for the upcoming year and their catch is served at Christmas dinner

Kuai Liang LOVES this tradition and competes with Cyrax yearly. He has yet to beat her. In fact the only person that was able to beat Cyrax's time and kill was Sareena, who managed to bring down an Ice Beast within ten minutes

When Cyrax and Kuai Liang dated, they spent a lot of time walking in the woods and looking at all the tracks in the snow. This was also an excuse for Cyrax to cuddle close to Kuai to stave off the cold

Will often join Kuai Liang in his quest to cheer up Tomás, but she is also very aware of if Tomás is not in the mood and will back away. She often has to remind Kuai Liang to not be too forceful when he's trying to help

😈 Sareena 😈

LOVES CHRISTMAS!!! I mean, who wouldn't after being trapped in the NetherRealm with a perverted old Sorcerer for centuries?

She especially loves to decorate the palace in bright lights. Instead of using candles, she wants to go to the store and buy actual electric bulbs (not realizing that the Lin Kuei palace doesn't have electricity... But Sektor would figure out a way to make them work). She spends time untangling the lights every year and gets tangled up every time

She has a lot of questions about Christmas. "Who is Santa Claus? How does he see us when we're sleeping? Is he a sorcerer? How does he fit down the chimney? How does he not set himself on fire when he's in the chimney and the fire is lit?..." Bi-Han started ignoring her after continuously answering her questions for three hours

Is addicted to eggnog and actually enjoys Kuai Liang's burnt cookies

She's very bad at gift giving. One year she gave Bi-Han and Sektor each a dead rabbit. She didn't wrap them either, so their chamber smelled really bad for a couple of days and Sektor and Bi-Han had no idea what was causing the smell. Meanwhile, Sareena's looking mischievous in the corner and thinking "Hehehe they'll never guess what their gifts are! ;)"

[felineverdure]

I don't mean any hate but I don't think it's true that Jean isn't emotional or isn't a crier. He was crying >>and<< emotional for so many important scenes. When he joined the SC he was literally crying there and made an entire emotional speech that got other people to join. After he beat up Reiner he ran to the forest crying. He was crying when Sasha's apparition showed in the finale. He was screaming and crying (literally) when he detonated the bomb to kill off Eren.

Jean has >>never<< been a stoic character. I would say he maybe >>tries<< to be but he isn't, not in the way actual stoic characters are (like Levi). Jean is the opposite of stoic. He always shows his emotions tenfold. When he's angry, he's shouting more than he has to. When he's sad, he curls up into a ball and holds his hands against his ears. When he's happy or amused he laughs like a maniac. Even when he's excited about little things he's scurrying around like a golden retriever, like when he discovered ice cream and rushed to buy one for Armin and Mikasa. He's a highly emotional person.

As for him not having a reaction to Bertholt dying, I don't think that was OOC. Sorry for any Bert fans, no hate because this is just the truth, but I don't think Jean cared enough about Bert to be screaming and crying when he got killed. They were never that close, so why would he cry? And, Jean didn't know about the Marley-Eldia history back then, so I'm sure like the other SC he just felt betrayed by Bert and that's why it makes no sense for Jean to cry over him.

As for his lack of reaction to Armin's "death", I think that was just a combo of shock and defeatism. They lost a lot of people in Shiganshina. He didn't have time to react. I think it was also a creative choice by Isayama to not have other characters react as emotiomally as Eren and Mikasa, because I'm sure he wanted to highlight EMA's bond in Armin's "death" scene.

I don't know why this is such a big deal hahaha but I'm bored. Thank you for this. (sincere)

Comparing Jean to the other remaining 104th scouts: Eren, Mikasa, Armin, Connie, Sasha (like they're crying every few chapters), Jean doesn't cry as often as them in front of the others. Even Flochie was crying a lot (Haha loser) . That's why I felt like crying isn't really his thing or he just doesn't like crying in front of people. Plus this smartpass of him where Hange questions his lack of crying. And it's fine? Okay, I agree emotional was the wrong word to use because Jean is emotional but emotional expressions isn’t always synonymous with crying. Some people just hate crying, doesn't cry as much or only tear up for a moment and it is fine, it doesn't mean we're acting tough or we're heartless!!! It could also just be an unconscious thing, exhaustion or feeling like you need to be the one who hold things together. (I would know I'm some people!!!)

"When he joined the SC he was literally crying there and made an entire emotional speech that got other people to join" You're right! I could only think of this moment where he broke down completely in front of the others. (I can only find the dubbed version lmao)

In the other instances, it's more of him on the verge of crying or stressing out privately or trying his best not to let the tears spill:

Anon, I just think Jean doesn’t have as big a reaction when he cries compared to when he gets excited or angry. This page is a good one because look!! even Annie has tears streaming down her face vs Jean & Reiner who are teary.

And here too, the moment that fuels the haters. You’re right, Jean probably wasn’t that close to Bertolt, or maybe he was just too exhausted to react. I’d also like to point out that he had already gone through the emotional turmoil of dealing with traitorous ex-comrades when he confronted Reiner moments earlier. That encounter cost him and the Scouts dearly, leading to a huge mistake. Crying over Bertolt at that point wouldn’t have made sense.

And then there’s the huge controversial moment where people think Jean was OOC. I think the backlash stems from the fact that even Connie (aside from Eren and Mikasa) was visibly crying, which led some to label Jean as “heartless” by comparison. But at that point, Armin was burned beyond recognition and unlikely to survive. Jean understood that reviving Erwin was the more logical choice, he didn't outrightly say so but he didn't outrightly defend Armin too. (People often forget that Jean is just as practical as he is emotional, why do you think he succeed in leading the other cadets to safety back in Trost)

"I think that was just a combo of shock and defeatism." 100%. That has always been his reaction to death and one of the few consistent thing about him throughout the whole series. I'd also like to point out that Jean didn’t cry when Sasha was killed and had to get over it quickly. As a CO, I think he felt the need to put up a front for his squad. If you rewatch the whole scene, you can see that Connie still looked somewhat hopeful when the medics were attending to Sasha (telling her to hold on and such), but Jean was already visibly distraught. He even told the others later on that Sasha wouldn’t make it, showing he had already processed the reality of the situation much faster than the others. Lmaooo, I'm sorry this had turn into a Jean Kirstein crying analysis breakdown. But honestly, I think it’s fair to say that while Jean is definitely emotional (ANGRY BOY CODED), he also unconsciously tries his best not to cry excessively. Or maybe he’s just too tired and not that emotional to cry every single time. Just because Jean doesn’t show a big reaction to death doesn’t mean he’s out of character or less emotional. His way of processing grief and loss is just different from others. He may not always cry or react outwardly, but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t feel it deeply.

[altocat]

Yeah, just go into a youtube comment section under a video with Lucrecia and you will see countless people making hateful (and often extremely misogynistic) comments about her. Her looks don’t save her from tons of hate and this actually extremely common with female characters in other fandoms too, no matter how pretty they are. I could list countless examples. People that try to actually analyze them always get called simps who are in it for “looks” only, which is yet another frustrating assumption.

Hojo gets loads of hate but there are also firm believers in writing and show-casing his humanity. Genesis, the red pretty boy, is widely hated in general by the fandom. Sephiroth fans still get a huge amount of hate from “OG” fans for trying to empathize with him. This is a huge debate on twitter currently, especially after EC. Every time someone considers Sephiroth’s humanity, there is a hater accusing them of “ruining” him and just trying to sympathize because he looks nice.

Almost everyone is FF is pretty, so it’s a given that there will be simps everywhere, but you guys would be surprised how little people who just focus on these visual things care about the deeper characters. There are people who can do both, and people who start with caring about the character, but simping is its own thing.

It's...pretty exhausting sometimes. I won't lie.

I'm just here to have fun and feel things.

[genxnarumi]

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i know that i often think i’m a terribly shitty person whose entire existence is a waste of the oxygen on this planet, and i do truly sometimes feel that much is true; but then the fog clears and i realise that, as much self-hatred as i feel for my behaviour, i’m simply ill. it’s not an excuse for my behaviour (rather, my inner beliefs, i suppose, as i am capable of controlling myself outwardly on most days) but it is an explanation.

it also gives me hope that people have recovered from worse cases. if they can do it, i’m sure, if i just push through, i can recover too. i say this as i’ve only just started my journey. by the way, this made me realise i forgot my meds, hold on—

but still, splitting fucking sucks. the world isn’t black and white. i know this. but i don’t know this. it still happens too often that i can’t help but hate something. or someone.

the latter is the worst. i don’t want to be angry with people. i don’t want to dislike anyone. especially not people who have done nothing to deserve this. i don’t want to idolise someone either, and i hate the obsessive kind of fixation i feel towards someone at times. sitting around, waiting for them to message back at all times. craving any form of attention from that person, even if it is a negative one. neither is good.

i’ve been splitting really hard the past few days. honestly, i am starting to notice a pattern too. my mood swings also get noticeably worse, not only during stressful periods, but also during times i’m particularly exhausted. right now, i’m running on fumes. i need to take a day off soon and recharge the battery a little bit, because i don’t like the person i become when i’m running on a caffeine overdose and too little sleep to remember the date today.

i feel ugly and mean. and, to some degree, i really am. even just today, i’ve (inwardly) felt rage at three people that are close to me, for completely unwarranted reasons. i’m thankful that i am a milder case. or at least, i’m very self aware. over the years, i’ve learned to internalise my rage a lot. it was fucking hard. and it’s still not good, because to avoid lashing out at those near me, i lash out on myself. my self-destruction becomes the most lethal. even today, i’ve made a series of terrible choices. my friend says being aware of it is half the work, but is it really?

but seriously, i don’t want to feel this way towards anyone. i feel like crying (and probably angrily clawing my own eyes out while i’m at it). i love people. i love people, even when i know there are many ugly sides to society. i still want to believe in the good. rational!nini does believe in the good, she does love everyone. but there is someone else inside me, who is just an ugly hater, tbh.

i felt it again just now—someone says something i don’t like, and right away, i can feel the anger flare up.

ugh, i don’t like you. (please. you love them to death.)

i wish i never befriended you. (you thank the heavens every day for your friends.)

they think i’m a bitch, don’t they? i fucking knew it. (they love you, flaws and all.)

everyone always lets me down. (everyone is still here. your friends still stick around.)

sometimes i’m just really unsure who i am anymore. i want to be fun, chaotic, kind. understanding. loving. helpful.

i know i have it in me somewhere, because i do genuinely feel care for people. i have lots of love to give. introverted as i may be, i do love socialising, and i live by the more the merrier.

or do i…? what if that ugly side is really all there is to me? is this how people see me? am i okay with being seen that way? no. of course i’m not.

i’m just. who even am i? i don’t know. i hope my friends still see the good in me. i guess, not voicing or acting on these uncompromising feelings helps…?

i’m seriously lost. and so scared. i don’t want to be like this. can i still be saved? is it not too late? i’m trying so hard, but what if i’ve already lost?

by the way, if anyone read this all (it’s fine if no one did—i’m just getting it off my chest) i’m sorry. i know this is truly a bad look on me, and i would so get it if people hate me for it. but alas. i need it out somewhere. i feel suffocated and i want to cry and you know what… this is just the ugly truth i guess. i’m sorry

[askgothamshitty]

Spreading negativity this holiday weekend.

I hate galentines. I hate it. i hate it i hate it. It's pointless and just irritates me in so many personal ways.

On principle, I love the idea of reclaiming a romance centric holiday that is often used to sort of reaffirm patriarchal beliefs and heteronormativity etc etc. Redefining love and focusing on the multilateral ways (that's the wrong word, my god) it can manifest is something I personally believe in.

However, I don't like feeling like an afterthought. Or compensation. Or you just trying to make a point.

I have never been in a relationship, nor have I ever really tried to be in one. Not really interested in it or anything. And I'll admit sometimes I do be a lil sad that I'm not get a bouquet from my boyfriend but it's more of a fomo feeling like I want to feel included but I'm OK with it.

But it's so obvious that a lot of women do care. Like they would rather be with a man, and they feel as if they're failing because they're not. So the entire event is still so centered around men, the absence of men, and the rejection of men. And it all just feels insulting. You're not with me because you want to be with me. You're with me because you don't want to be with him. Or you're with me to beat the male centric allegations.

Like this performative girls solidarity thing. Idk maybe it's a femcel thing but just leave me out of the pitiful celebrations. Like I would love to go out for dinner with you but can we not just make about how you're here instead of with your boyfriend especially when you do have plans with your boyfriend.

Its the weird modern trend where everyone is sudden, so feminist and girl power and misandrist, but they're not, and it's all so surface level and just tiresome. Because now I have to partake in this because it's what we girls do but honestly I don't hate men (well I do but that's by accident kinda) and I would honestly rather do nothing for valentines.

I have just never cared about men at all and that's why I can't get into a relationship and stuff. I'm not gay or asexual they just bore me.

I'm just not one of those girls. I don't wanna put on pink lingerie drink wine and talk shit about men.

I'm just vent atp I can't get a coherent thought out. I know it's so negative and bitchy but it really is exhausting after a while. I have some points with regard to like community and stuff but.

I guess I just don't find female friendships as fun as people make them out to be. They're too dependent on men and getting in relationships and stuff. Doesn't take long for me to just check out when the topics goes to men in any capacity so a whole day about men shoot me now

You are totally valid. Male centered-ness can really dampen friendship between women. It can affect the dynamic in so many different ways, and be so exhausting. It can make things feel artificial and frivolous.

I support all Valentine’s Day haterism! Destroy this culture’s fixation on het romance!

[songouda]

just putting down some thoughts for my db s/i, mozzarella (i don't really feel comfortable posting any artwork yet, so i figured i would try to put it in words first !!)

head's up, this is a really long post!

tw // brief mention of sex

backstory ig idk lol:

i don't really have much in the lines of backstory (this is mostly because i haven't finished DB Super yet and i'm not that knowledgeable of how DB's world works lol). but i do like the idea of mozzarella just being a homebody that has a garden and makes a living by selling their fruits n veggies. they met goku at a farmer's market and really hit it off from there !! it was love at first sight with goku ^-^ they are also a shapeshifter and just kind of. exist ! (i looked up shapeshifting on the db wiki and apparently there was a shapeshifting school ? i might incorporate that when i do my full db watch !) one idea that i have is that mozzarella had a previous form but eventually chose to stay permanently in their rat form. it's the form that makes them most comfortable. it took them a while to get used to their current form, but after a while, it became their default form. they aren't opposed to taking other forms for fun ! there is no limits to their shapeshifting ability, but bigger and more complex forms can be very exhausting. still, their shapeshifting isn't 100 perfect either; sometimes, if they aren't focused (which is often), the form they take will sometimes have large rat ears, a long rat tail, or huge whiskers ! typically, mozz will only shapeshift certain parts of their body for convenience's sake. for example, they'll transform their arms into huge bat wings in order to fly around quickly. this doesn't take up more energy to do.

design:

i don't think there's any design variations from my actual sona. mozz will still be relatively average height (shorter than goku but taller than vegeta). they might be a little bit furrier and have a longer tail, but that's about it. oh, and they'll probably fit more into the style of DB/DBZ.

personality:

personality wise will be very consistent with my sona (and myself too). ditzy and easily confused but kind-hearted. does their best to be a good person but worries excessively about how people perceive them. a little weirdo for sure lmfao. the only interesting thing i might have to think about is the idea that saiyans are wired to be attracted to "strong" partners (vegeta said 'women' specifically but i'm just gonna say that gender doesn't matter here shhhhh). i don't know if mozzarella is particularly "strong" or "hot-headed" in the same why bulma and chichi and videl is (or, in videl's case, used to be). i'm leaning towards "no, they aren't;" they're probably pretty passive and typically go with the flow. still, they can be incredibly snarky at times and can come off as a bit of a know-it-all (intentionally or not). i think there is an inner strength there but it doesn't manifest in the same way that it does for the main DB girlies. still, mozzarella will throw hands if needed and does not take shit from anyone LMFAO. bascially "i'm not a fighter but don't test me." even if goku is the strongest in the universe, mozz will be more than ready to beat a mf up to defend him (they fucking HATEEE it when people disrespect goku, it's like their no. 1 pet peeve. they'd probably start crying but will still beat a mf up if needed.)

changes to the canon:

this is gonna be difficult to touch on because i haven't really figured it out in my head yet. the main difficulty is gonna stem from chichi. i love chichi to pieces (all chichi haters will die by my blade), so i don't want her to like. not exist LOL. i also don't want them to have gotten a divorce around the time that goku and mozzarella meet. my solution is that chichi and goku just never got together. basically, the "promise" that goku made to chichi was that they would meet again in the future (not that he would marry her) and that promise was fulfilled when they fought at the 23rd Tenkaichi Budokai. they're just good friends and sparring partners. ofc, there's the question of gohan and goten existing, and i want them to exist !! an idea that i have is that goku and chichi slept together a few times in the past and thus, gohan and goten. i haven't decided why yet (failed relationship that ended amicably ? maybe chichi or goku or both wanted kids and they trusted each other enough to want to have children with each other ? they were just fooling around ?), but regardless, gohan and goten DO exist, and all of the events in DB and DBZ/Kai did happen as they normally would, just less gochi (i still <3 gochi tho). oh, and i imagine goku just has his own separate place and doesn't live with chichi. goten lives with her (gohan is grown and already left), and goku lives nearby so he can help out whenever he can. (mozz thinks he's a really good dad ^o^)

mozzarella's inclusion in the canon:

so my idea is that mozzarella and goku met sometimes during Super. the idea is that goku is a farmer (i think this concept was introduced in super) and uses the money for himself and for chichi and goten (both he and chichi work). considering both he and mozz sell their crops at the farmer's market, my idea is that they met here. basically, mozz was not involved in any of the crazy shit goku got up to prior to Super. after meeting, mozz was quickly introduced to goku's main circle of friends and was quickly swept up into all of the craziness goku got himself into. this includes meeting beerus and whis, golden freiza, universe 6, etc. also, bulma quickly ran mozz up to speed on everything that has ever happened to them pre-Super, so while they were pretty skeptical at first, they quickly believed her (mostly due to bulma's birthday party fiasco).

i'll stop this post here since it's getting pretty long, but the reblog is gonna focus on mozz's relationships with everyone else, including goku !!

[fourteentheight-blog]

hey, i was perusing the anti taylor swift tag (not an intense fan or an intense hater, just enjoy the drama lol), came across your blog, scrolled while eating breakfast, then i came across some personal posts. first i want to say congratulations on your baby! secondly, i'm so glad you're trying to eat well for the baby, i'm proud of you. i hope you can continue to heal and be healthy after the baby is born too, as someone who used to see myself as fat when i was around your weight and now look back at photos and realise i was actually UNDERweight (and i'm really short! 5'3, so if you're taller you might be even more underweight), i know it's hard to let go of this image of ourselves but it's important to realise skinny does not equal healthy. eating well, eating often, and exercising is healthy; and if you're discontent in yourself, you always will be, no matter how much weight you lose; it's more important to feel happy in your own skin. and hey, if the baby is what's keeping you eating healthy, use that! think about how when he's a bit older and running around, you want the energy to keep up with him right? you don't want to be exhausted and irritable, which comes with not eating? if you're comfortable with the doctor you go to for your pregnancy, maybe you could bring this up to them too and see if they have any advice? anyway i know i'm just a stranger who came across your blog accidentally, you don't have to reply to this, but i felt like i had to reach out <3 i wish all the best for you in the future!

okay this is literally the sweetest thing I've read all week, thank you so much 😭💚 and I hope my healing from the eating disorder I developed also continues because you're right, I'm gonna need to be healthy for my child in all the years to come. oh and great idea, I think I will talk to my OB about it, but so far she hasn't had any reason to worry about my weight because my weight gain has been pretty stable and healthy all throughout. this was seriously so sweet of you anon, and I wish you all the best as well 💕

[byl4biu]

for everyone who is offended by biu for the fact that he rarely appears on social media, remember more often what hell he went through and is still going through and try to put yourself in his place. and if your love for him is so easily shaken by the fact that he didn't wish you good night or didn't post his photos, then think about whether you love him at all or are you selfishly craving for him to entertain you? yes, he is an artist, but his position in the entertainment industry is not the same as everyone else. he works to the point of exhaustion every day (he often says that he doesn’t get enough sleep), unlike those who are given work on a silver platter by their companies. he tries to the best of his ability to make everyone happy, he was even able to organize a series for himself, because everyone wanted to see new acting work from him, but it’s not enough for you all. instead of hyping his series, you whine that he doesn’t entertain you enough and envy other artists, for whom their companies do most of the work: they find work for them, organize projects, promote them on social media and through mass media. these companies have a large staff and have money for all this, but biu doesn't have this. he has a small staff, not much money because he has no sponsors, little experience as a ceo and a huge traumatic experience that is not allowed to heal, because those who want to destroy him every day continue to do this by paying money for hate posts and spreading rumors about him. oh, and have you already forgotten that he is suing for leaking his personal information for which he was dragged through all the circles of hell just because people hate him for no reason for the rumors that are spread about him? no one knows how much of what was leaked is true, everything was taken out of context and incorrectly translated, haters spread it by twisting everything written and exaggerating. you as fans should be on his side and not cause him more problems with your lack of empathy. i understand that fandoms are supposed to be fun and we are constantly at war with antis and fake fans, but have some shame and stop blaming him for your choice to be on his side. if you need a break from all the negativity or you are completely tired of it all, leave, but stop blaming him for the fact that your expectations weren't met. this world is a rotten place, there is too much injustice around, especially aimed at good people. don’t become another stick that gets stuck in his wheels. rest and come back or leave completely, but do it quietly without pointing your finger at him "you owe me for what i suffered because of you." it doesn’t work this way, you made this choice yourself, he never asked anyone to stay on his side, on the contrary, he is always surprised that we are still here and continue to love him. so stfu everyone and decide why you are here, to love him or constantly blame him for everything that you don’t like. he is also a human being and every human has limits to what he can endure. a year ago you were afraid that he might commit su!c!de and now you bark at him as if you're his haters and not his fans. i'm so done with this sh!t

[peculiarxafternoon]

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𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙨 𝙖 𝙘𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙗𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙮

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hello, darlings. before we start anything, i would like to warn you that this reading is not going to be as detailed as my other ones. it will not have any sections, for one, and it will generally be more low energy (not in vibration just,, in effort? i guess?). for the past couple of months ive been struggling with my motivation, mood, and mental state, so i hope for this reading to act as a warm up of sorts, a way to dip my toes into this again and start over. thank you for your patience, and for the people who still like to listen to what i say, i appreciate you lots!

still, i like this question and this concept a lot, and i hope it resonates with you! it was definitely nice for me to do, anyway.

take a deep breath and focus on your ideal life as a celebrity. then, pick a pile intuitively.

! for entertainment purposes only!

! constructive criticism and feedback are welcome!

! decks used: rider waite tarot deck, mermaid tarot, astrological oracle cards!

pile 1

(cards: the sun, the empress, the lovers, nine of cups rx, two of cups rx, the hanged man rx, strength rx, three of pentacles rx, sagittarius)

before i even started shuffling i got major jisoo vibes for you all, and honestly that seems to be the case here. when i think about jisoo, class, femininity and elegance come into my mind, and with the empress and the lovers here, that seems to be the case for you too. you would definitely be extremely famous (like, to a concerning degree for your safety and privacy) since most of your cards are major arcana. i see you doing brand deals left and right for brands like dior, channel, and vivienne westwood, and being really popular for simply knowing how to sell a product, even as an affiliate.

something that's also really interesting is that you would probably get into a lot of dating scandals, or people would try to dig up secrets and end up making things up about you. it would get to the point where you wouldn't even be able to look at people for too long, because everyone would go crazy over a possible spark between you two. that would get you down tbh, like i just see you looking at the headlines with a frown, wondering how on earth people come up with these things.

still, i feel like a major part of your brand would be your ability to be happy on your own and your confidence. even your haters would be amazed at how you carry yourself, and how you manage to always look and feel good. even if that isn't how you would truly feel, you would surely come off as someone who has their shit together, who is determined to achieve whatever they want, and who knows that they can get whatever they set their mind to. it would be so inspiring to see you emerge victorious after being wronged again, especially since i sense you would have an underdog backstory. people would root for you, because they can see themselves and their struggles in you. and if you can achieve so much, then so can they, right?

i see you having a very clear goal in your mind, of where you want to get, but it would often get you to be more stubborn and grumpy than normal. while you would be known as a sunshine of sorts, it could get pretty exhausting for your team when all you can focus on is one specific deal, reward, or result. no matter how much you would achieve, you would have this need to go further, experience more things, create more art, get out there more. that, if you started in a music group or band of sorts, would make you step away quickly after you achieved fame. some would think it's for the best, others would think the opposite. i don't see it affecting you much, though, because you would realise that the support is much greater than the disdain, and that you work much better alone, anyway.

thank you for reading!

pile 2

(cards: the moon, nine of cups rx, seven of pentacles, the hierophant rx, seven of wands, strength rx, king of swords, queen of swords rx, mars)

this pile gives off a very introverted vibe – for a celebrity, at least. you guys may have gotten famous accidentally or under weird circumstances (like taehyung going to the audition to support his friend, or people being casted while walking down the street), so it would take a while for you to get used to the popularity, along with your new lifestyle. it wouldn't be too hectic, though , i don't see you being extremely famous, just enough for you to be recognised on the street but not stalked, you know?

still, it would often feel draining, especially if you surround yourself with others a lot for your job. it would physically tire you out, i see fatigue being a big issue you would have to deal with, and it honestly could show on your face, but you would keep it under control more often than not.

you would come off as very generous, probably doing charity work, volunteering, or raising awareness for special causes. you would also leave the impression of someone witty, who knows how to manage and advertise themselves. you and your team would make very smart moves that would make your popularity skyrocket, and you would play a big part of it too. if your job involves some sort of writing – whether that means you would be an author, lyricist, rapper or poet – you would be extremely well-known for your unique style and smart lyrics.

i also see you being extremely unique in the projects you take on, your style and execution would differ greatly from other people in your field. naturally, that would attract a lot of opposing opinions and impressions, but i don't think you'd care about what others would have to say. like, you got famous by chance, the best you can do is enjoy it while it lasts, right? if you're a woman, or someone who is more feminine in their ways, some people may find you aloof, cold and unapproachable, but they would just be intimidated by you (as people are when they see a successful, decisive woman, heaven forbid) so, again, nothing to really worry about. i also sense that you most likely don't conform to gender norms, anyway, and would ride your own wave, expressing yourself the way you want to and living your life to the fullest.

thank you for reading!

pile 3

(cards: the hermit, seven of pentacles, the lovers rx, two of cups, ace of cups rx, then of pentacles rx, six of pentacles, king of pentacles, jupiter)

you guys would be the type to get. shit. done. no matter your field or experience, you would see projects through and deliver your 110% while you're at it. I'm definitely getting some sort of perfectionism from you, though, like you would often feel dissatisfied with your work because, even if you gave all you had, there is still something you could have done better. it seems that it would be pretty well known, too, that tendency of yours, so people would want to work with you even more because you would never slack off.

you may also go on hiatuses often? like you would take big breaks to isolate yourself from everyone and everything and just,,, focus on bettering yourself? it reminds me of tyler from twenty one pilots, when he literally disappeared off the face of the earth for almost two years and then released a full length album with fully developed lore behind it. or taehyn from txt who admitted to locking himself in the recording booth until he gets some sort of progress. you get the vibe. while behaviours like that may seem a little extreme to some, i get the feeling that you would be completely self made, and kind of an underdog for the first years of your career, so it would make sense that you go to such lengths to achieve good results and somewhat satisfy your perfectionism and survival instincts.

i see you being a very comforting presence for your fans, and sharing your life advice with them. some may even fantasise about being your friend or dating you, because you would seem like such a great person to have around. i keep thinking of suga from bts, so it's likely that you would give off the same aura. also, very ambitious, you would be known as someone with a lot of potential and a bright future ahead of you.

you would also be very well known for your pr management and relationships with people within your field (or just other celebrities). i don't think that your love life specifically would be broadcasted, but people would be very invested in your friendships and the people you hang out with. you left a recording studio with a coworker late at night? headline. you hung out with a director and posted a story about it? headline. you laugh at a friend's joke while walking down the street? headline. you would just have some really good friendships, possibly with other famous people, and maybe some romantic relationships as well. still, people would be mostly supportive of them, since they know that you always prioritise your art and work, and since they want the best for you.

thank you for reading!

! do not copy or repost my work !

[margarethx]

Sambucky writing prompts

Because I have a lot of ideas and no ability to focus on writing any of them right now... so I might as well share. Feel free to use any of these. You can tag me or send a link if you want to. (Unless it's ”a story about poor, sad Bucky... and Sam is kinda there to help” type of fanfiction, bacause I love Sam too much to read something like that.)

Let's go!

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1. Both Sam and Bucky are trained to be Winter Soldiers at the same time. On one of the shared missions they accidentally form a connection which helps them with slowly getting their memories back, so they can escape together.

2. The Winter Soldier is sent to kill one Samuel Thomas Wilson, but for some reason he just cannot do it. (Or he almost did and regrets it immediately.)

3. Bucky's a mechanic that Sam called to help with repairing the boat and he works very slowly on purpose to have an excuse to see Sam more often.

4. Sam can actually talk to birds (as he should!) and they start to be annoying always asking about his dating life.

5. Sam is a literal angel. That's the prompt. (And canon.)

6. Sam and Bucky go on long, separate vacation. But they somehow end up in the same country, the same town, and the same hotel. Probably the same room too. What a surprise...

7. Bucky knows a lot of things about Sam and Sam is sure he never told him about any of that. Turns out Bucky migh have done some research between 2014 and 2016 when Sam was looking for him.

8. Sam discovers that Bucky had something to do with picking the designs for his new superhero suit.

9. Bucky finally tries to bond with Redwing and Sam does a very bad job at pretending he’s not amused.

10. Bucky has to deal with a painful realisation that Sam is not a supersoldier and that no matter how strong he is he'll always be more likely to get seriously hurt on their missions.

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11. When they are frustrated Bucky starts to speak Russian and Sam responds to him in Arabic which doesn't solve the initial problem, but at least it's funny. (Bonus points if one of them - or both - pretends to not now the language the other one's speaking.)

12. Bucky has a terrible reputation and looks dangerous, so everyone prefers to avoid him, but then he meets Sam who just makes fun of his edgy persona all the time... and Bucky for some gay reason lets him. Everyone else is just very confused and worried about Sam’s safety. (Probably some University/High School AU.)

13. [It’s more like an art prompt, but whatever.] They both have long hair now. No plot. Just both of them being in love and appreciating how handsome the other one looks.

14. Since both Anthony Mackie and Sebastian Stan exist in the MCU canon I’d love to see Sam and Bucky’s reactions to their actors being on screen when they watch movies together.

15. Bucky didn’t have much experience with dating since 1940s and he thought he’d be the awkward one once he and Sam get together, but it turns out Sam was never in any relationship, because he was too busy and neglected that part of his life.

16. They both have the canon skills/powers, but only one of them is a superhero. The other is “their” villain. So still enemies to lovers, but a different flavour.

17. Sam always had the ability to talk to birds. He just... forgot to mention it before to other people, including Bucky. So the power-reveal is quite unexpected.

18. Sam and Bucky literally hate each other – it’s not just their canon-like amused annoyance. But then they start to learn what happened to the other one in the past and the feelings slowly shift from hatered into something else. (Might be a No Powers AU)

19. Sam thinks that Bucky misses the 40s. Well, he’s wrong.

20. Sam is a regular civilian (who never met Steve). He finds Bucky right after he escaped HYDRA and helps him go back to normal life. (He might know who he’s helping or not.)

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21. Bucky learns about Riley, but he doesn’t learn it directly from Sam.

22. Sam and Bucky come back after the Blip, see each other, and try to deal with the situation together, no knowing what has just happened.

23. Bucky explains to Steve why he won’t go back to the past with him. It’s  mostly because of Sam, obviously.

24. A story about Sam and Bucky growing apart between Endgame and tfatws and how they dealt with feeling like they’re losing yet another person so soon. (And about them coming bact to each other again.)

25. Sam and Bucky learn how other people around them see their relationship. It doesn’t really mirror how they see this partnership themselves.

26. A classic role-swap. Sam is the Winter Soldier. Bucky’s the Falcon. Their personalities stay exactly the same.

27. Sam and Bucky try to tell someone who knows almost nothing about them how they met. (They lie or they don’t.)

28. Bucky deals with people who are openly against Sam as the new Captain. Sam deals with people who think Bucky should be locked up for being “with” HYDRA in the past.

29. Sam is still The Falcon and later Captain America, but Bucky’s a regular person who also happens to be Sam’s huge fan.

30. Dr. Raynor said she heard a lot about Sam (presumably from Bucky). But what exactly did Bucky tell her?

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31. Only one of them died after the Snap. The other one has to live for five years, hoping they’ll be able to reverse it.

32. The first time Sam and Bucky saw each other: scared, feeling exhausted, really happy, genuinely laughing, truly angry, crying, completely resigned, flustered, shy.

33. After being frozen in Wakanda Bucky lost all memories related to Sam. Sam has to decide whether he should use the opportunity to start the relationship over or let Bucky know about their less-than-ideal beginnings.

34. Sam accidentally gets super-serum. Bucky helps him with adjusting.

35. Bucky accidentally loses super-serum. Sam helps him with adjusting.

36. Sam used to visit Wakanda when Bucky was frozen and talked to him a lot, even when Bucky couldn’t hear him. (Well, couldn’t he?)

37. They have a conversation about Steve, but it’s Sam telling Bucky stories from their friendship (how they met, what they did as fugatives, how Sam feels about Steve leaving without saying goodbye).

38. Sam and Bucky use time travel (because they survived the Snap or for other reasons) and they see the past versions of themselves alone or interacting with each other.

39. Sam and Bucky are stuck in Soul Stone together. The problem is that they cannot really hide their emotions or memories as well as they would be able to as real people.

40. After disappearing in the Snap Sam gets a chance to talk to Riley. They know Sam will eventually come back to life, but they still can spend time together and get some closure that will help with moving Sam’s relationship with Bucky forward.

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[cosmicjoke]

I can't with Levi haters. They say that he's a bad character because he's overpowered(the stupidest argument ever), and then turn around and say something like "booo he's not that perfect. He fucks up all the time." Just saw both of these arguments in a single tweet 🤦‍♀️

lol, people really can be ridiculously stupid without realizing it. They contradict themselves in one breath, saying he's too good or too perfect, and then turn around in the same moment and talk about him being a loser who makes bad choices. They accuse him of being not complex enough, but anyone who actually tries to claim that about Levi exposes their own, simplistic mindset and inability to understand the core of his character. I'm telling you, it's just pure jealousy. They contradict themselves because they don't actually have a real reason or argument for why they think he's a "bad" character. The actual reason is that they hate that he's so well loved because they want it to be whoever their favorite character is. But that reason is pathetic and petty and they know it, so they try instead to make some reason up for why they hate him, often having to resort to twisting his words and actions and motivations into something they very explicitly AREN'T in order to make their reasoning work. I mean, who cares? Just because you like one character more than another doesn't mean you have to go around shitting on other people's favs. It's exhausting. I mean, just admit you don't like Levi because he's more popular than x, y, or z, and move on. When you try to say you don't like Levi because he's "too simplistic" or "he makes bad choices" or "he only cared about revenge against Zeke, he never cared about humanity", you just expose yourself for a fool and a liar.

[transmasc-wizard]

Are we allowed to hear the rant on A Tale of Magic? I hate it as well and wanna hear more opinions on it

FELLOW ATOM HATER HELLO FRIEND

You can indeed hear the rant! Word of warning: i was up till midnight last night and am a bit scattered, and i have not read the book in awhile, so this may be slightly incomprehensible. I'll be pulling some stuff from my actual review, too.

Disclaimer: it's fine if you like it, good for you, now please go away. this will only upset you and i don't want to upset people.

So, let's get this out of the way first: Colfer abuses italics. Like, i love italics, and i still wanted to rip my eyes out by the third chapter. Instead of using emotional description and tags, he emphazies every other word, even when characters are having normal conversations. He also uses italics to represent it when people are yelling, and people yell quite a lot in his book.

Ok, i'll stop with the italicizing now, but that's what the book is like, right???

next: the magic system is shit! total shit! there is not a single part of it that makes sense! it is never once explained in any way, shape, or form other than "fairies have magic, humans dont, witches are evil fairies". I am fairly lenient with magic systems; they don't have to make total sense or make sense right away, but i think it's fair of me to... yknow... want even a little bit of context. A Tale of Magic is the seventh book in the LOS universe, and i still dont know what the fuck is going on with the magic.

Example of well-done vague magic: The Raven Cycle.

Example of well-done explained magic: Six of Crows.

Example of a shitshow of magic that makes no fucking sense in any singular way: A Tale of Magic!

next next: i hate the main character so fucking much, why couldn't Lucy have narrated, Bristol Board is--i dont use this term often but she is--a total mary sue chosen one Not Like Other Girls protagonist, i hate her, that is all i feel the need to say over this aspect

NEXT next next, i am quite upset with Bristol Board's "magiclexia" thing. For starters... "Colfer learn what words mean" challenge. Clearly it was supposed to be based on dyslexia, but the dys is "not" (e.g. disability, dysfunction) and the lexia is relating to words and reading. magiclexia is "magic reading", basically. He should have done literally anything else. fuck, "dysmagica" would have been better than this (though that makes my eyes bleed a little).

NEXT NEXT NEXT NEXT, this is the most exhaustingly heavy-handed metaphor for homophobia ever. I'm gay and i got sick of it within a few chapters. It's all "magic's not a choice, hate is! people are born with magic! magic isn't moral or immoral!" and the anti-magic people are like "magic is against god! magic is a choice! you can be a fairy, but only if you never use your magic!" it's exhausting and not subtle in the slightest. (Plus, there's no gay people in this homophobia metaphor??? thats. hm. not great). Also, his metaphor for gay people... are fairies... you see why having your gay metaphor be called fairies is bad, right...?

next next next next NEXT, Colfer has never in his life been taught "show, don't tell". Every single fucking event and emotion is expressly told, you never once have to use your own brain because he'll go like "she cast her eyes to the floor, blushing, and mumbled, 'sorry'", and then immediately add "she was embarrassed" NO SHIT SHERLOCK!

finally (not really but if i keep going i'll probably drive everyone insane with the length of this post) i don't know whomst the fuck this book is for, and that is a problem. It's content and character ages suggest it's YA, but the reading level, character simplicity, and humour is more suited for MG. It's not the weird space between YA/MG, either; i've seen books do that, and this is not the same place. Colfer's LOS series is middle grade, which moves into YA-MG for the last book, and this isn't even that; it's very obviously trying to be YA, but it has way too many immature, childish moments in places that don't seem to be on purpose.

Anyway, i told you i hate this book! this is just the one book! i didn't even mention the 6 LOS books or this book's sequel! do you understand the amount of wrath i have toward this book? because it's a lot!

ty for the ask and have a great day!

[wishingstarinajar]

I am going to ramble a bit but I will hide it under a cut because it's a bit long. It will be about the previous fandom I was active in around two years ago and how it affects me to this day. It's also about popularity and putting others on a pedestal.

If this sort of ramble isn't up your alley then feel very free to skip over this post! I don't mind. If you want to read more about it, just check under the cut.

The Franchise And Its Creators

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THE FRANCHISE AND ITS CREATORS Around mid-2014, I joined the Wakfu and Dofus fandoms, a small-ish fandom as a whole but popular in certain circles.

For those who don't know, Wakfu and Dofus are (online, console, mobile, figurine, card and board) games, comics, animated series, specials and movies created by a French studio named Ankama. These two franchises are intertwined with each other as they play out in the same universe but in different timelines. I myself dabbled around in the animated part of the fandom; I was a huge fan of the two series and the Dofus movie.

There was very little catering to the international part of the fandom when it came to the studio's attention and interactions. There were no English dubs or subtitles; international fans had to rely on English fan subtitles on ripped/pirated episodes of the show and movie, same for the franga/comics. Merch was hard to get. A lot of articles related to the shows and whatnot were in French only, which is understandable because it is a French-made product. But there's no denying that the international fanbase felt a little neglected back then.

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MY FANDOM JOURNEY

Because I was very interested in the lore of both franchises, I had to do a lot of digging and translating to be able to fully indulge in it all. I went full in! I dug deep, created OCs, art and also tried to write fanfiction. I also shared news and info about the series and movie; I ran a fan blog dedicated to sharing things with the international part of the fandom. I was also often approached about lore, particularly for a few of the canon characters and one of the races that play a role in the Wakfu franchise; the Eliatropes. It was fun, it felt good to help other fans out, it was nice to make friends and be creative with others about similar things.

Eventually, the character and art theft began. We all know this is a 'normal' part of fandoms, so I won't hammer too long on it. My issue with it was the fact that my main OC, a female Eliatrope, gathered a lot of attention because female Eliatropes were a rarity in the Wakfu franchise. They existed but didn't get a moment in the limelight, except for one that even received her own game (Islands of Wakfu) but it was so obscure that a lot of fans didn't know about its existence. My OC was somehow mistaken as canon by plenty of folks and many others started to use her as a template to create their own (female) Eliatrope OC. I didn't mind, as long as they weren't straight-up copies and I tried to be supportive by answering lore questions and give feedback whenever it was asked for it (which happened a lot). Of course, copying and theft happened more often than not; over the five years I was part of the fandom, I sent out almost a hundred DMCA reports for art and character theft (like true theft; I could handle some similarities or one-time occurrences). One particular case went to the extreme but I won't beat that dead horse any further; it brought me enough misery to last me half a lifetime, that's all I'll say on it. I kept a lot of the negative experiences behind closed doors and dealt with a lot of it quietly to not bother, worry or burden anyone else with any of it. I wanted a positive and supporting environment for my followers, even if the truth wasn't as pretty.

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ANKAMA'S STRUGGLE

Over the years, studio Ankama increased attempts to cater more to the international fanbase of its animated properties (articles in English, English dubs and subtitles, etc). However, the studio's struggle to garner the attention of international supporters (aka companies and sponsors) didn't go too smoothly, and to make matters worse, they were also struggling with finding a platform in France to broadcast the Wakfu series on after wishing to take a different and more mature direction. Ankama wanted more freedom with the Wakfu show, like less censorship, a serial rather than episodic, and it not being aimed at a young audience like its previous contractor demanded Wakfu to be. Ankama even turned to crowdfunding to get certain projects (like new Wakfu seasons) off the ground and let's just say that those crowdfunding projects are best described as tiny dumpster fires; they weren't pretty to watch. The first one was a disaster with plenty of displeased backers and the following crowdfunding attempts often didn't meet the end goal due to bad past experiences or the lack of interest.

Luckily, Netflix breathed some life into the international Wakfu fandom, which was great! But it was still received badly (mostly due to the awful English dub and sound mixing of the first two seasons and special) that the third season Netflix made possible was not getting the attention it deserved. It was also a rushed product due to financial and time constraints on Ankama's part. Netflix eventually declined a fourth season and it all fell a bit apart from there. Ankama turned to crowdfunding once more to try and make season 4 a reality. Last time I checked (which was quite a while ago), it did decently enough to make season 4 a reality. (Please don't ask me about it, I don't know anything about it.)

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THE PEDESTAL

While all this was happening behind the scenes, I was starting to struggle with the reputation I built up in the Wakfu and Dofus fandom over the few years I was a part of it. The best way to describe it is that I had grown exhausted.

Aside from dealing with the theft and answering people's questions daily, I wanted to be treated as an average fan but I kept getting put on a pedestal. People went as far as to call me by titles (like lady Wish and miss Wish) more often than not. To be called and treated as such made me feel alienated, like as if I wasn't considered real. I often asked to just be called Wish, no titles/formalities required, and that I wasn't as 'popular' as they believed, but the majority of the people didn't seem to listen. People were either afraid or refused to interact with me because they considered me 'too popular', or simply wanted nothing but my validation, feedback and/or free art. I also had my fair share of haters and people that didn't approve of my 'status' in the fandom. Join the club xD I wasn't very happy with it either.

I really started to dislike being called 'popular' because it had such a bad impact on the people around me (and my own mental wellbeing). Friends started to become jealous of the attention I garnered and it dragged me down every time. At times, it would turn toxic. It was never my intention to make my friends feel like they meant less because they surely didn't. To learn that they believed others were only friends with them or only looked at their art/writing because they were good friends with me hurt so much. It still does. I refuse to believe that was fully true because I was (and still am!) surrounded by very creative people and they all deserved as much attention as I was getting, at times more. I wish others saw it that way too.

I was also heavily chained down thanks to the role (model) I played in the fandom. Too many people (especially young ones) looked up to me and there were a lot of expectations that I felt forced to meet. I started to lose the energy for it, but if I dared to stray a little from the path, the pitchforks and torches would come out. It was very restricting.

In the end, I felt stuck. Things started to grow toxic. There was a point where I began to dislike the franchise because of the bad feelings it brought me. I couldn't even get myself to watch the series or movie anymore. I focused less and less on the canon side of things and more on my own ideas, which was one of the only comforts I really had left in the fandom. I started to shut myself off, which upset a lot of people. I am sorry for that, I wish it didn't happen that way but I was at my wits' end.

When I realized and also accepted that I was no longer enjoying myself with canon or fanon, I knew I had to move on or stuff would end badly. It was a very tough realization and decision to accept and make; I literally dedicated five years of my life to the fandom. I spent hours a day digging for info and news to translate and share, doing 'research' for my fanfics, answering questions, and whatnot. I truly lived the fandom day in and out. It was the first fandom I ever actively participated in to this degree. What the heck was I going to do without that?

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THE NOW

Abandoning the fandom was a scary step to take but not one I regret. I left the Wakfu and Dofus fandom behind me in late 2019. I feel freer now and so much happier. I no longer have the burden of expectations, being a lore guide or be forced to portray a certain role model weighing me down. I am no longer on that f*cking pedestal. I can finally explore interests that aren't exactly child-friendly without a big part of my following pummeling me down for it. (Don't worry, I always try my best to keep it in the appropriate places.)

Do I still like Wakfu/Dofus and all the stuff I've created with it? Yes, I do but I also want nothing more to do with it. Aside from the friends I've made there and also stuck around on my new adventures, I left the fandom behind me.

I still get approached at times about how my Wakfu OC, art and writing inspired someone and ask me if I could give them feedback for their own ideas or give them advice/information on Wakfu/lore. I am extremely humbled by it every time. It's great to see someone feeling inspired and be creative. However, I've moved on. I've left interacting with the Wakfu/Dofus fandom and fan-made stuff far behind me. I haven't touched it for almost two years and it shows on all the social media I share my art and writing on. I at times wish people could be considerate about the fact that I moved on but I also know and understand that not everyone knows my reasoning or my side of the story. I try not to be too harsh on it.

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MY ADVICE

I don't hate anyone for how things turned out; a lot of it was my own doing by not saying no or taking a stronger stand.

It did teach me a lot of things, especially about caring for my own well-being and putting others on pedestals. Please be mindful when you treat someone like others treated me before; it's not healthy, for yourself and the person you put on that high pedestal. Take everything in moderation and consideration, that's all. Everyone's human, everyone has feelings, and everyone deserves a sense of being. Even your favorite artists and content creators. Don't treat them like an otherwordly being that you have to worship.

In turn, if a fandom or something you enjoyed is making you unhappy nowadays, you owe it to yourself to make or find a change. Be good to yourself, always!

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Thanks to anyone who read through this ramble. I needed to get this off my chest. I am not asking for advice, neither pity or whatever else. I just wanted to share my thoughts on past experiences because I have a feeling others might be going through something similar.

Thank you again, please take care.

[hello-im-not-a-possum]

" Leave! Me! Alone! " (for the prompt thing :3)

*Fully dusts off BATIM Monster AU due to it being the spooky month* You know, I don't think I've pinned down what type of monster Thomas was when I started this...

And I recently realized that I have a strong lack of vampires in this AU.

The GENT Mechanic wasn't a full-on monster hater. He had no interest in joining any monster-hunting group that sniffed him out, he often rolled his eyes at small-town preachers who looked down at them, and he mostly minded his own business when it came to the tricky relationship between humans and monsters.

But he also wasn't anywhere as enthusiastic about the studio as Joey and Allison were. He was a sensible man, he knew that monsters were dangerous and that it was stupid not to only trust them at an arm's length.

He could admit that he admired that his client could go as far as to start an entire animation empire just to ensure that his friend (and many others he had met along the way) would be in a place where they weren't seen as outcasts and wouldn't stop doing what they loved because of their circumstances, but he couldn't help but feel... wary of the majority of the studio's strange inhabitants.

Nobody would blame the human mechanic for avoiding the music department as often as he could, knowing the Music Director and how he viewed humans, it would be like blaming a mouse for avoiding a lion's den.

At the same time, he would get funny looks from others as he never went near the studio without a silver cross, an iron ring, a small bag of mixed herbs that was dubbed 'monster bane' due to it being a mix of various monster-repelling plants, and a bag of salt. Because of this, Thomas was not a popular person in the mostly-monster populated studio, but that didn't matter to him.

This wasn't his circus, it wasn't his monkeys, and once his contract ended, he'd probably never go there again. At least, that's what he would tell himself until the day wearing his cross started to burn himself.

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"It's a good thing that Allison found you in this state and threw your... wards away imminently." Dr. Hackenbush sighed as he continued to apply the numbing paste to his still twitching patient's neck. "Due to the secrecy surrounding vampire covens, their reluctance to talk about their various races' weaknesses as they're a monster hunter's favorite prey, and the many different types of vampires in the world, it's actually hard to determine what can and can't kill a recently turned vamp. Especially when one can't remember the circumstances of their change."

Tom was partly focusing on what the doctor was telling him, partly freaking himself out by trying and failing to remember how and why he had turned, and mostly keeping an eye out on the entrance to the infirmary as if he expected something to fly in and finish him off.

"Vampires in general might be notoriously hard to keep down for the count, but the process of the metamorphosis from human to vampire is extremely exhausting on the newly made fledgling." The doctor stated as he moved on to put more of the paste on Tom's other injured areas. "While this wouldn't be lethal to an older vamp, it's still extremely painful to them and considered to be torture among many of their races. In your current state and judging based off of the traits I've seen so far... ...I strongly suspect that the cross would've eventually burnt your head clean off your neck if you had not been found in time."

Thomas absentmindedly put his hand where his cross would normally be and gritted his teeth.

Nobody visited him yet, nobody aside from Allison even approached the door before the doctor shooed her out. He wasn't in the state to receive visitors yet, but he could already feel the parade of smug monsters gawking at him. He could already hear them laughing at the loss of his humanity, he could already picture several of them sticking their noses up at his misery declaring 'serves you right!' at him.

"...Could you open your mouth for me Mr. Conner?"

"Huh?" The mechanic snapped out of his day-nightmare and acknowledged the doctor's request. "Oh yeah, sure."

"Thank goodness, it seems that you've been brought in just at the cusp of changing..." While Tom didn't close his mouth on the doctor, he did look at him funny when he began to paint a different paste in his mouth, specifically, on his gums and teeth. The stuff made his mouth feel strongly like static in a matter of seconds. "Comment all you want, but you'd be thanking me if you knew exactly how much of a bitch it would hurt if you had to go through this without the strongest painkillers mankind could make."

"Well I ned mure af ha stuff if I turn inta a baht manstah?"

The mechanic half sarcastically asked through an extremely numb mouth as soon as the doctor was done putting the paste in there.

"No, unlike a werewolf who will transform based on the position of the moon, a vampire's ability to turn into a bat is normally rooted in the said vampire's willpower and or their mental and emotional state. It will not hurt unless you will it to. But turning into a bat and back again will use up a lot of energy and burn a ton of calories, so I don't recommend it as of right now. For similar reasons, I also wouldn't recommend swimming twenty miles and running a marathon back to back either."

The doctor did a once-over on his patient's treated injuries and checked his vitals before giving him his normal clothes back.

"Alright, it seems that everything's up to order..." The doctor proceeded to write down a list that he handed to Thomas. "Don't eat anything until after you can fully feel your mouth again, otherwise you might accidentally cut out your own tongue. If you have any questions or concerns, feel free to either come to me about it or ask around the studio for either werewolf packs or vampire covens. The latter's rarer than the former but werewolves and vampires have been known to get along well due to the pair often engaging in a symbiotic relationship."

"I thawt tat Wahwoles an vamhires hated each other..?"

He was internally grateful that the staticky feeling of his mouth was subsiding just enough for him to be able to talk normally again.

"That's a common misconception that came from World War II I'm afraid; American soldiers who happen to be vampires hate Nazis who happen to be werewolves and vice versa."

Thomas frowned as he stopped to read the list, it was basically a bunch of common vampire dos and don'ts, mostly don'ts; avoid sunlight, religious symbols and texts, mirrors in public areas, etc. He ran his tongue against his top and bottom canine teeth and while his tongue still felt off from the medicine, he could tell that those teeth were longer and sharper.

He knew that with each passing second, he was becoming more and more like one of the studio's many monsters that he was wary of, and he felt gutted because of it.

"...Thanks for everything, doc. I... I'll go ask Joey for some time off to adjust to all of... this."

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Instead of going to Joey, Tom had spent the rest of the day trying to carry on with his daily tasks and work as usual, fixing up the pipes, checking on the Ink machine, mostly just trying to bury the knowledge of his vampirism in work.

Thankfully he was unbothered by the studio's workers, so it mostly worked out fine for him. Until he got to his least favorite part of the studio to work in: The music department.

Part of him was tempted to just make Wally do this, but as a werewolf, Wally would sense that he wasn't wearing silver or wolf's bane anymore and would be curious as to why he wasn't wearing any. He didn't want to lie to him but he also didn't want the Janitor to find out about his ...condition, he wasn't ready for that yet. In fact, he didn't want anyone in the studio's wolf pack to find out about this. He had goosebumps on the outside and inside just thinking about how they'd react.

He knew that they wouldn't be smug about it like how he assumed other monsters would, even worse than that. They'd know that he didn't have a coven as he was only recently turned, so they'd probably welcome him into the pack with open arms, especially if he was one of those vampires that was able to turn into a wolf too. They'd freely and willingly accept them as one of their own, a monster.

He tried to shake those thoughts away and continue to work on pipes that had been bitten into by the godforsaken raven monster. He cursed about Sammy under his breath as he fixed them as usual. He could feel the music director's presence as he did so, but unlike how this normally went, he didn't sense any hostility or hunger coming from the looming shadow of the beast in human's clothing.

Thomas had his back turned away from the normally wrathful monster, he wasn't seeing what the man's expression was. He didn't know if the damned bird was proud of his lost humanity, looking at him like he was now worthy of being an underling of his, or if the musician simply pitied him for god knows why.

But the mere presence of the beast alone was driving him crazy.

"Leave! Me! ALONE!" The vampire mechanic spun around and half-shouted half-hissed at the confused looking music director. "I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT ME, BUT I DON'T NEED YOU TO LOOM OVER MY WORK AND RUB IN WITH YOUR PRESENCE THAT I'M A FUCKING UNDEAD, BLOOD-SUCKING, FANGED FREAK!"

Thomas wasn't sure which reaction he was excepting from the beast, but he felt a mixture of goosebumps and anger as the director stepped forward and looked at him with intrigue.

"...Do you mean a vampire?"

"Yes, of course I do." The mechanic rolled his eyes as he fought back the urge to fight the raven. "What gave it away?"

Sammy smiled at him, not in that hungry 'I want to eat you but know that I can't' kind of smile, but also not a smug 'haha! you're a monster too now!' way. Before today, Thomas wasn't sure that Sammy was physically capable of smiling like that and it both creeped him out and made him angrier about this situation.

"Nothing, you simply told me that yourself."

"...Then why were you starring at me like that?"

The Bird monster shrugged.

"I was just wondering why your presence didn't seem to harm anyone anymore." He stated as he turned to leave Tom to do his work. "I guess I know why now."

[miggydiaz]

For the salty ask 1, 4, 5, 6, 9, 10, 14, 16, 20, 22, 23 and 26 for cobra kai pretty please

My answers are so long, so I am putting this under the cut @wonderwolfballoon! Also I just noticed your Daniel icon I SWEAR I’M NOT DRAGGING HIM TO BE MEAN!!!

1. What OTPs in your fandom(s) do you just not get?* My biggest IDGI ships for CK are probably Elimetri or Kiaz. I’m not here to yuck other people’s yums or anything, but I do think there is something to the idea that Migueli isn’t popular because it’s a ship predicated on mutual respect for one another. Kiaz has the obvious enemies to lovers vibe and I just generally don’t sail those ships. Elimetri has... its problems, IMO, most especially around the idea that Demetri has to like... save Hawk from himself? Idk. I just like romances that I feel are based on love and mutual respect and not ...tropes.

 I am also not a Lawrusso shipper although I have a lot of those on my dash and you all are great! Again, not yucking yums! Daniel just makes me want to head butt him too much to pair him romantically with anyone 😂 I don’t even want his wife with him. He needs to self reflect~ 

4. Do you have a NoTP in your fandom? Are they a popular OTP?* 

I once saw someone ship Amanda and Anoush and I noped out of that so fucking fast I almost tripped over myself. I’m not sure if they’re popular. I just think some people feel the need to get Amanda out of the way to sail their ship and stuck her with Anoush which... no. Just no. Let Amanda be a messy single queen with a martini hobby, thanks! 

5. Has fandom ever ruined a pairing for you?* 

Not in CK. I’m lucky because I pretty much stick to my little Migueli bubble and I’m okay with that? Lmao lord knows the Squad on my dash is all about the DISCOURSE™️ so idk if I just don’t feel the need to get sucked into the wider ship wars because we have good healthy debates, but so far, so good. 

6. Has fandom ever made you enjoy a pairing you previously hated?* 

I never hated it... I just didn’t have many feelings on shipping with this show in general at first. Then I was in the CK tag one day and I saw Migueli fan art. Then I discovered @afurioushawk‘s falconry series and it was all over for me after that! So fandom DID make me love a ship, just not one I hated.

9. Most disliked character(s)? Why? Oh boy. How much time do you have? In some instances, it’s a good thing season 3 happened because otherwise, this would be a multi-page essay on the problems with race and class privilege as it pertains to Sam LaRusso and just some... generally not nice comments about Demetri that I’m conflicted about because I’m not sure if the writers are intentionally trying to write him a specific way and it’s just not translating to me or what. But season 3 revamped both of their images with me a lot. I’m way more flexible in terms of Demetri, but lmao I was the number one Sam LaRusso hater for a minute there (or maybe number 2, I can think of at least 1 other person who was in that boat with me back in like... August/September, but I won’t call them out because I don’t want them to get hate...) However, I have grown a bit in my opinions of Sam, and even though I still think she’s responsible  for a lot of shit she NEVER gets held accountable for, I also think that’s a reflection of the adults around her too, and this includes my otherwise unproblematic queen, Amanda.

But honestly, my most hated character (other than the obvious villain that is Kreese) is Daniel. No matter how handsome Ralph Macchio looks in cable-knits, because Daniel has always been a sanctimonious, shit starting drama king and I say that about KK Daniel too. I’m not saying Daniel was the ~true villain~ or anything, or that Johnny was innocent -- I can only drink so much Red and Yellow Kool-Aid -- but Daniel’s always been annoying to me as a protagonist, and turning him into a smarmy wealthy car salesman who is also a class traitor did not do him any favors in my book. I will say, I also like Daniel more in season 3 than I have in previous season, but since he is the adult, I will be mad at him longer than I will be at the kids, ya feel?

10. Most disliked arc? Why?

 Johnny’s entire season 3 storyline. The sheer level of REGRESSION at every turn drives me bonkers. It’s like watching him go through all of the stumbling blocks of season 1 all over again, but without the “he’s learning! He’s going to make mistakes!” free pass that I was willing to give him the first time around. He regularly jeopardizes Miguel’s recovery and it’s played for laughs. He fucks up on every level with Robby. He spends most of his time running away when things get hard or too real. He drops the ball completely with Hawk, and like, not to put too fine a point on it, but a lot of Hawk’s issues are because Johnny put Hawk on this ‘flip the script and be a badass’ path and then offered him no guidance for how to walk that path and instead left him in the hands of Kreese. And then he has the nerve to go to Hawk and basically be like “I made you what you are!” lmao yeah Johnny, you sure did, that’s why he’s breaking peoples arms, hoss. And then all of the nonsense with Ali and Carmen, like... if you were planning on teasing KK fans with Ali and him getting back together, why write her as married in the first place? Why even tease the idea of Carmen and Johnny until after you were sure what you were going to do with Ali as a character? Instead, they do what they did in season 3 and it makes him look like a colossal jerk. So yeah. Literally every choice they made with Johnny this season, I hated.

14. Unpopular opinion about your fandom? People who hate Tory are not valid, sorry not sorry.

16. If you could change anything in the show, what would you change? I would have kept Miguel entirely out of Tory and Sam’s beef. Or at least not directly inserted him into it like he was with the kiss. I know the writers thought it was necessary to push Tory to the point of inciting a fight at school, but I am just so exhausted over girls being unable to fight about anything but boys. Also I would bring Aisha back.

20. What is the purest ship in the fandom? 

I am probably biased, but I still maintain it’s Migueli. Look, Miguel stood up to Kyler for Eli and Demetri both. Hawk joined CK because he saw what it could do for some skinny nerd who was getting his ass kicked. And he took to CK, really took to it! Even flourished before he started getting mixed messages. And he and Miguel were pretty much inseparable after that. They coordinated their wardrobes ffs. Hawk dubbed him El Serpiente and no one else calls him that — it’s Hawk’s nickname for him. Miguel confides in Hawk only secondary to Johnny, who is like a father to him. The entire Coyote Creek exchange shows they can fight and disagree but... well, to use the cliche, they don’t go to bed angry, you know? They’re square the very next day. Hawk is the first person at Miguel’s side when he gets kicked over the balcony and the LOOK he gives the second floor where Robby is? That boy is out for blood immediately to avenge Miguel. So much of his s3 behavior is fueled by that need for vengeance because MD is wholly responsible for what happened to Miguel. And Miguel is so confused and betrayed by Hawk’s shift in behavior, and yet still holds out hope that Hawk will see through Kreese’s BS and come with him to The Dojo I Refuse to Name. And when Hawk does make that deflection finally, he shows up at MD with Miguel. There’s so much more that I know I’m missing but whether someone ships them or not, that is a tried and true love and respect for one another, a willingness to fight for and defend one another that you don’t often see in TV friendships... or even in most tv relationships. And I just think that’s the best ❤️

22. Popular character you hate?

 Daniel, hands down. I mean... I don’t even necessarily hate Daniel, you know? I just think it’s really, pardon the pun, rich that a guy of immense wealth and privilege can’t get a therapist or turn to his far too patient wife for help with his existential crisis over his high school bully opening up a karate dojo to make some money and help a kid who is getting the crap kicked out of him. I get that Daniel’s narrative is necessary for the rivalry, but it does nothing to make him sympathetic as a character.

23. Unpopular character you love?

 Tory, definitely! Everyone hates her and then there’s me and the Squad over here banging away on our Coors Banquet cans yelling TORY RIGHTS! Seriously she catches so much flack for a teenage girl who is... the sole income provider for her family? At 17? While caring for a sick mom and a little brother? And fending off a creepy landlord? Tory has it so rough and then she meets a cool girl at her dojo who asks her to hang out at some fancy ass country club which is probably the nicest place Tory has ever been in, and then she gets talked down to and accused of being a thief and has another girl lay hands on her, only to find out that same girl is her new boyfriend’s ex and... ugh. I HATE that Tory gets shit all over when Tory and Sam wouldn’t even have beef if Sam had apologized to Tory as she SHOULD have. Tory isn’t innocent, but damn, I’d be pressed too.

 My other unpopular character I love? Nathaniel. Seriously that kid is THE best. He’s a literal child but is out there like I WILL FUCK YOU UP, even though he’s MD. Honestly, his Cobra Kai energy is so ferocious I won’t be surprised if he moves back to CK eventually. Anyway, I love him.


26. Most shippable character?

 Miguel, hands down. It’s because he’s so affable and sweet overall. And because his hair is so fluffy and pettable that no one can resist touching it. I like to imagine that one day he and Hawk are talking about their hair and Hawk makes a joke about how Miguel’s mane is getting so long that it’s going to be bigger than his own, and then he reaches out to ruffle it and internally has a bisexual meltdown because oh no IT’S SO SOFT AND NICE. But uh... anyway, yes. Definitely Miguel.

[handonhaven]

Its weird that the show keeps pushing the idea that Hope is too wrapped up in Landon when she's been shown to do basically nothing but sacrifice herself for the school and her friends, but regardless, now that they've had Landon tell her to work on her other relationships and are fixing that aspect, do you think people will calm down in hating them? Or just find something new to use to call them toxic? 🙄

It’s very weird, and I think I may be the only person who didn’t like Landon’s speech at the end because of that. It just wasn’t necessary? Because she literally has been sacrificing herself for her friends and putting them first this entire time. She puts Landon first one time and suddenly it’s a big issue, as if it’s been happening this whole time? She did it this one time because she thought he had died and he was trapped in a hell dimension while everyone else was safe and carrying on with their lives. It was a very extreme situation and suddenly it’s turned into this issue where she needs to balance her relationships, like, what? I mean, of course that’s very important and I don’t disagree with that, but I don’t think it should’ve been applied to their current situation when it was a matter of life and death. The context and the timing was just weird to me. After going through the grief of losing him and then realizing he’s alive and she can save him, of course she’s gonna be more worried about him than everyone else and she’s allowed to feel that way? If she hadn’t been more worried about him than her friends, he’d probably still be trapped. We basically saw this in 3x05, she put her friends first when, if she had kept looking for Landon, she probably would have found out how to get him back sooner, or a safer way to get him back. But she decided to be there for her friends instead. Then she barely gets him back and they both spend the whole day helping their friends again, and hardly have any time together except to lie down for a few minutes because they’re exhausted. And then she’s told she’s gotta be there for their friends who are never there for them and have not treated either of them well. It’s just ridiculous, and there were other reasons why that scene hit me wrong, but the fact that the writers were basically validating the way that the haters have been saying that Hope is too involved with Landon, and having Landon himself say it was just...no. No.

I’m not even sure what there is to fix on Hope’s side of things regarding her relationships. She apologized for what she did to Lizzie and Josie, but besides that, she’s not been doing anything wrong. Besides trying to save Landon when he was in horrible danger, it’s not like she spends that much time with him unless they’re in a crisis. They’re both usually involved in whatever is going on with school. And even then, why is it so wrong for her to want to spend more time with someone she loves and is infinitely more close to than the other people at the school who haven’t been there for her? There’s no comparison, so why is anyone trying to compare them? It’s her friends that need to start being actual friends to both her and Landon. So I’m not sure what the writers are gonna do with that. I won’t be surprised if they put everything on Hope and it’ll be her responsibility to put even more effort into her other relationships. Or they may have added that scene solely to get people to calm down and it might be forgotten within the next few episodes and things could continue on as usual (whether that means Hope prioritizing Landon more or going back to feeling like she always has to put her friends first, idk), which is often something that happens with this show. But I’m not sure if they could ever change enough to get these fans to calm down and stop hating on Handon, unless they had them break up or just never spend any time together and never acknowledge each other’s existence. Maybe it could lessen the hate? Maybe. But I think as long as Hope and Landon are together, people are gonna find reasons to hate on them. They have plenty of other reasons for calling them “toxic” as well and I’m sure they’ll find new ones too. But I also won’t be surprised if they keep saying Hope is too involved with Landon as long as they’re together. And I guess I can’t blame the writers for trying to stop the hate, but it’s sad because I doubt it will work. And I think it’d be best to just tell the story and stay consistent and have it make sense rather than trying to placate these fans.