#i truly cant conceptualize this

[bella-the-fella]

I really cannot believe this bunny. He's some divine gift. That's the only conclusion I can come to. How did he bounce back from struggling so much to breathe??? I thought I was going to say goodbye to him at any second and now he's back to causing problems like nothing happened.

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My friend said it's the Bun Gods.

[bunnyboy-juice]

NO MORE ASSOCIATING THINGS WITH FEMMES ONLY BECAUSE THEY ARE PINK!HYPERFEM FEMMES ARE GREAT AND I LOVE YOU CAMPY FEMMES WHO EMBODY PINK BUT ALSO JESUS CHRIST CAN YOU GUYS NOT GO MORE THAN ONE DAY W/O TRYING TO SHOEHORN FEMMES INTO BEING ONLY PINK UWU BABIES. I AM FEMME AS IN GRASS AS IN DIRT AS IN TREE BARK AS IN WEEDS SPROUTING THROUGH THE SIDEWALK CEMENT. FEMME AS IN GENDER NONCONFORMITY AS IN FUCK YOU MY FEMININITY IS WHAT *I* SAY IT IS. FEMME AS IN DEPTH AND DARKNESS AND WARMTH AND TERROR. FEMME AS IN CAVES. FEMME AS IN LIGHTNING. FEMME AS IN AN AMALGAMATION OF TRAITS THAT I HAVE DECIDED ARE FEMININE REGARDLESS OF WHAT SOCIETY SAYS. FUCK IS IT THAT HARD TO UNDERSTAND?!???

[herbfort]

if thistle has zero haters that means I Have Won

[plaguery]

sorry im going to be annoying about my relationship to romantic/sexual desire. im only conflating these here because theyre so often socially conflated. but like. i feel so removed from the mere concept of desire because desire from myself to others always feels shameful and i end up mentally torturing myself over it if not outright hurting myself so i think ive just learned to shut it off for the most part. and then desire from others towards myself feels. not real. because its only ever from strangers or very light acquaintances like a coworker i barely talk to. i never really feel anything about it because i dont conceptualize it as a real thing towards myself because they dont really know me, they only have this vague idea of me so its not Really me if that makes sense. ive never had someone show attraction to me that actually Knew me (at least not that ive been aware of), so i dont really know how i would feel in that case. i would assume i would probably disconnect from it too because at this point its become this fundamental belief in my psyche that no one can truly desire me as a full person (except maybe in some fucked up stalker way. but that also naturally excludes the "full person" aspect of the statement). like i just cant conceptualize someone loving me (which is a general problem) and that extends into romantic/sexual desire. i feel like... a statue that people can venerate and maybe even admire but cannot truly desire and seek deep connection with. i feel like something that memorializes sensuality but is fundamentally cold to it. even if theres a mark on the statue from where people always touch it, it cannot feel it. not that the touch would even signify deeper feelings than fascination or curiosity. and it certainly cant move to seek its own. i dont know, again, i just feel more like. a concept than a person. i feel like the deepest feeling someone could have toward me is some kind of spiritual devotion, which can still run extremely deep, but that wouldnt make me a person. i would still be.. an idea. maybe thats inescapable. i am so disconnected from the world and people and have been for so long that i dont know how to mend the rift. "my soul shattered with the strain of trying to belong to earth" "earth asks us to deny this rift" but i cant deny it because it feels like the rift is all i am. i am not in heaven or hell or earth i am all rift and break and tear between them. i am some inaccessible thing. and god even if someone wanted me they couldnt even have me.

[moonshynecybin]

bc you asked for it: what happens in the same age au when they get to the premier class?

YESSSSS OKAY. so the thing is. in this scenario they are MUCHHH more codependent right out of the gate. truly like you are the only bitch i can relate to and understand and ALSO the only person i can use as a yardstick for how actually good at this sport i am. and my entire life is about discovering how good at this sport i am. like they both think they’re weird fucked up soulmates created in a lab to complement and destroy each other. and they’ve held the other’s hair back after they puked when they were teenagers AND they’ve been inside each other. WEIRD shit sublimating into their egos and sense of selves.

which means ego really changes here! because if they went up against each other in their primes i’m not sure they would be as dominant as they were in real life… if vale didn’t win 9 titles without going to the gym that would change him as a person. and he’s reacting to MARC as his main rival here so he CANT win at those mind-game psychological warfare tactics he used as a little guy because marc is simply matching him in levels of crazy… idk it has interesting implications top to botttom for how these guys fundamentally view themselves and their lives!! i like to think about it!!!

but. basically. i think the main friction in their relationship, ESPECIALLY when they get to the premiere class, is the injury thing. even more so than normal. it’s not just i love you i’m scared that you aren’t taking care of yourself. it’s I DONT KNOW WHO I AM WITHOUT YOU please take care of yourself because i can’t race when i’m WORRIED about you (we see also how marc gets about alex) and racing is the MOST IMPORTANT THING!!! this goes both ways but vale is notably more anxious about it. like this scenario would add vale to the list of people who can make marc stop racing injured (and who are COMFORTABLE asking him to stop) BUT it also makes him a direct competitor to marc. and his oldest friend. and largest enemy. with no added hero worship BUT a big dose of first-love/situationship naïveté for them both. like knowing how they get on track together, how do they even begin to resolve thatttttt… contradictions on contradictions….. so marc doesn’t race injured as often, but maybe learns to protect himself independently even LESS (he doesn’t have to think about it, that’s what vale’s for !) and it reallyyyyy tears into their relationship because vale cannot be the entire scaffolding for marc’s ability to protect himself (he is also i think not protecting himself so well from injury. anything to beat marc, don’t know where or if sic fits here etc)

ANOTHER BIG TENSION. i also think that vale would NOT be one to want to settle down that young, whereas marc would wanna get soulbonded about it… so even while vale in this au has an easier time conceptualizing how important marc is to him, i think he imposes some distance in order to go out and like. process his parents divorcing/remarrying (SIDE NOTE 2: PIC OF MARC WITH BABY LUCA. THANK YOU.), sow his wild oats, hit up the club and be a little slutty etc (SIDE NOTE 3: UCCIO AND MARC BEEF WOULD GO FUCKING CRAZYYYY HERE) and marc is down to tag along for a lot of that stuff but at the same time. they’re teens/young men living in different countries so it’s not like they’ve ever talked about what they are or asked to be exclusive… and it’s not gonna feel great when vale disappears with a girl or marc has some fling with someone back home! and it’s not like they can come out so i actually think the on again off again vibes get TURBOCHARGED. the jealousy and angst is ratchet up to ten… maybe they don’t get sepang level divorced bc ego is different and they’ve known each other longer, but the little stuff digs more… they break up a lot they make up a lot…. they eventually get resolve it after marc’s arm injury i think… puts some stuff into perspective…

[slycecaik]

right now theres various things i don't understand from people regarding AI in creative spaces.

- people claiming AI "cannot create X or Y" (yes it can..? you just need the right data fed into it.)

- digital painters getting accused of using AI by artists and moderators (no, you cant always tell. furaffinity is already under fire for staff being adamant despite proof being shown.)

- artists completely wiping their galleries due to sites changing their terms and whatnot (this isnt protecting anyone. anything already on the internet RARELY truly leaves and is still subject to scrapers because its just there.)

- people using resource intensive and time consuming tools and noise layers to "protect" their art and "poison" datasets (...what exactly is stopping these tools from bypassing these? wasnt glaze and nightshade already proven to be ineffective? at this point its a PR stunt to me, not worth my investment.)

this isnt meant to be a downer but theres fundamental misunderstandings of these circumstances, resulting in people being quick to cannibalize each other instead of focusing on the real issue behind it all: capitalism.

theres no doubt theres gonna be a shift as far as the profit incentive for art is concerned, but with how the hype is dying down, and more people are getting irritated at the mere mention of AI, i doubt its going to change enough to be unadaptable.

others ive talked to have said that AI would meet the same fate as fast food: being the quick and cheap option for whoever can afford it instead of being the "death" of art and i absolutely see it. this same attitude was directed towards digital creative tools in their infancy and look at where we are now. what exactly is this "human touch" if its not just your bias thats ever so present in how you draw, write, build, etc.

i still stand by the argument that generative AI tools work similarly to human imagination: you cannot create new concepts in a vacuum, everything is derivative of what came before it. what you experience just from being alive is essentially what your "dataset" is, which will influence your creative output more than you realize. you are FAR less likely to conceptualize an EDM album if you lived in the 1600s and not the 2000s.

as a creative, im not scared of AI and i dont think others should be. ive been an artist since toddlerhood and i dont plan to give into this doomerism and hysteria anymore. i cant say what the solution to such a complex issue is, but it certainly isnt the kneejerk reactions im seeing everywhere.

[lovelyrotter]

i am curiose 👁️ abt the equius -> lil cal -> striders theories

oh shit aight [cracks knuckles] im not as good as others at organizing this stuff but imma do my best

so basically in terms of classpecting Lil Cal is ridiculous. dude has a lord of time, bard of rage, AND a prince of heart all mixed up together. however you wanna interpret caliborn, gamzee, and hal existing inside lil cal is up to you but for this theory we're lookin at them as separate entities kind of like system members in a plural way cause thats just what makes the most sense to me conceptually. but ANYWAY thats three powerful classpects all running around butting up against each other. time rage and heart is an insane combination so why is lil cal not greating a passive AOE type gravity well of destruction just by sitting there? my partner and i think its because of equius being an heir of void. this classpect has always fuckin fascinated me cause like, he basically inherits nothing right? thats a literal read of it at least. void is fuckin weird and my autistic brain no matter how many wrinkles it has just cant grasp it which is, yknow, what void is and does

Heir of Void: One who Invites Manipulation of Void or one who Invites Manipulation through Void

take a look at the above blog cause its really well put imo. there are so many ways to interpret void in general and heirs are also kind of a funky class, but we believe that inside lil cal, equius has been using his void powers as a shock absorber. equius IS a shock absorber. what do you do with all that power but you cant let it get out? you try to keep it caged. the heir of void acts like a blackout blind inside lil cal whether equius is concious of it or not, whether hes an active separate conciousness who still identifies as equius or not. lil cal is also an heir of void purely because equius is there. void just kinda naturally cancels out the other more active/destructive classpects. hes the base to caliborn, gamzee, and hals acid

which then makes me go crazy thinking about beta dirk again like ive talked about before. i truly believe that lil cal had a major hand in making bro strider as abusive as we see in hs1. i believe that any dirk is capable of slipping into abusive/toxic behaviours. AR for instance maniplulated dirk and others almost every time we see him but thats also complicated as fuck, because i think that was him being backed into a corner. he had no other choice in terms of holding onto his automity basically. not excusing orchestrating dirks first decapitation but its a fascinating reason. i think Hal/AR is what Beta Dirk could have been like without lil cal's interference. the sexual abuse and throwing dave down the stairs? thats lil cal's work.

lil cal has 3 extremely violent people floatin around inside him (caliborn, gamzee, equius), two of them having intense and poorly managed fixations on intimacy/tenderness and sex/kink in general, and one deeply scared, angry, and traumatized splinter of Dirk himself. an absolutely toxic combination and one that set Bro up for failure since he was sent into the beta timeline. Bro Strider is absolutely a Doomed Dirk. i do not count AR as being a violent person, at least compared to the others, but if while in Lil Cal he's still angry at Dirk then who knows what their interactions wouldve been like while Beta Dirk grows up. We do get to see a window into what AR couldve been like inside Lil Cal when we get into the Doc Stratch stuff because Doc Stratch is basically AR but creepier, which... actually leads me to believe way more that by the time Doc Scratch is A Thing, AR's personality has been melded into something/someone else entirely. but they talk + type pretty much exactly the same. its absolutely crazy i hadnt noticed that until recently. everyone wondering what AR would be like if Bro Strider made him? points to Doc Scratch unfortunately

but comin back from the inevitable Hal Tangent(tm), like its fuckin fascinating because while i do count Equius as contributing to Lil Cal's general toxicity (mostly through his learned caste bullshit) i also think, again, that hes the only reason why we never actually saw Bro draw Dave's blood. not even a drop. he cut his shirt symbol yeah but his shirt was intact.

we see Equius getting stressed over breaking shit accidentally basically the whole time hes alive. i mean fuck the whole glass of milk gag in one of the final alterniabounds while you play him. its pretty easy for me to read that as him being generally anxious about being too strong for his enviornment, especially too strong to touch anyone he cares about, and that when he does eventually end up breaking smth/hurting someone, it impacts him. like a lot. he could easily hurt Nep if hes not careful so hes gotta pull back and be suuuper gentle like all the time. and him having that kinda temperament combined with his classpect makes me think that he'd use his void powers to protect and cloak and supress. he embodies the void. he becomes 'nothing' and therefore he becomes anything he wants.

basically, Equius is a tempering force inside Lil Cal and thus a tempering force over Bro too because hes constantly scared of and stressed over breaking shit and hurting his friends. he knows how dangerous Caliborn and Gamzee are. Gamzee killed him easily after all. So he can't let Bro actually touch Dave. Bro might not want to touch dave anyway with how Caliborn sexualizes platonic touch. but Bro still needs to make Dave STRONG enough to survive the game, Eq can help with that at least

[mehoymalloy]

I’ve been thinking about sending you an anon for awhile! I wanted to say that when I first say your Otohan/Imogen fics i was really confused on why- but then one night I was bored so I began reading them and absolutely fell in love with your writing. The way you write Otohan to begin with and the relationship you’ve conjured up is kind of insane in a really good way. I don’t know what I was expecting, but I’m very happy I gave a ship I was very against a shot because you are very incredible.

I’m looking forward to more information on the judicator au! I know you’re working on it with someone else (I’m pretty sure I remember seeing that) so I wish you both the best with it. And cant wait for any updates you have on… like… anything. (No but seriously I really am stoked for the judicator au anything you say about it I will eat up like someone starved in the desert please feel free to share more- :) if you want to ofc)

Wow, talk about making my morning (day, week, month, year)! I honestly cannot thank you enough for not only giving my writing and this ship a chance, but also taking the time to send me such a kind and wonderful message to let me know. Messages like this seriously mean the world to me, so genuinely, thank you so much.

The one thing about planning a fic in full like this before publishing it is that every snippet I could share feels like a spoiler. So instead, please accept these random scraps of worldbuilding details and tidbits!

First and foremost, I truly would not be writing this AU without @inomakani. She encouraged me to go wild in our DMs talking about it, helped me solidify a lot of the plot details, and offered her own ideas whenever I got stuck deep-diving into the nitty gritty details (as I so often do). For example, she helped conceptualize Imogen's pseudo-permanent dorm room with a very cool and cozy layout. Here's just a tiny piece of the amazing floorplan she made that she'll likely post in full when the fic is published.

To further emphasize how awesome this whole project of hers was (because she really did plan ALL of Imogen's room; I simply gave the final 'ok'), here's my far simpler layout of the Aydinlan Seminary's campus:

Furthermore, Ino has contributed immensely to the wider worldbuilding (something she truly excels at). As a sort of silly but no less brilliant example, here's one of the cantrips she came up with for the in-universe encyclopedia of kink, Mistress' Magical Manual of Kink (mentioned in this snippet of how Imogen finds the book to begin with):

Conceptus Interruptus Level:: Cantrip Casting Time:: 1 Action Range/Area:: Touch Components:: S Duration:: 7 days School:: Abjuration Attack/Save:: CON Save Source:: Apocryphal Reproduced In:: Maya's Magic, Maladies, and Medicine Reproduced In:: Mistress' Magical Manual of Kink Reproduced In:: Wizard Sex-Ed at the Aydinlan Seminary A spell seemingly as old as time itself, this cantrip has no confirmed source. Rumors abound that it originated in the days before the calamity in the once-great city of Aeor, but nearly as many claim it came from the earliest days of the plane-hopping elven city of Syngorn. Considered to be a crucial part of any sex-education course, it is taught to magic practitioners as a matter of practice. Similarly, magical items with the spell cast on them can be found in most self-respecting magic shops. The spell subtly changes the recipient's physiology to destroy gametes in the body for the duration of the spell. This makes it an effective form of period protection as well, though this was not discovered until the sexual health work done by Maya Ayad in Maya's Magic, Maladies, and Medicine. The spell may be dismissed by the caster at any time, but gametes must subsequently be regenerated by the body, which may take up to a month.

I would also absolutely be remiss if I didn't give Imogen glasses in the "Imogen is a Huge Nerd AU" (they're round, bronze-colored, and wire-framed, attached to a matching chain she wears around her neck because the bridge is just a little too wide and frequently slips down her nose; Professor Kai gave her his old pair when her and Liliana first arrived at the Seminary, and at this point it's a sentimental quirk Imogen can't bring herself to fix). The frames and temples are etched with teeny glyphs that provide Darkvision as well as the ability to magnify (and yes, please imagine that Imogen's eyeballs appear comically large when that spell is activated lol).

And finally, while I can't share much about Otohan themself and all the theorizing we've done on judicators in general, I can share this little detail about one of the more passive abilities they have, since it's mentioned in the opening of the fic.

Again, thanks so much for sending me such a kind message! I hope this absolute overload of random headcanons can feed you while we work on the main course!

[koifsssh]

HIHIHI KOI!!!!

Got any new lore on Danny's sister? (Or was it cousin I cant remember-)

Hehe! Jessie! It was supposed to be a secret, but it is rather obvious when they're both colored! I should probably change her design eventually...

Jessie was conceptualized in the mob au! As she was just meant to be one of Rainy's friends he makes during disguises!

So what I say is in this context! Of course, she does exist in the greaser au, but I haven't really thought out much about it, so I can't say a lot!

In Mob, she attends a yoga class with her best friend Vicky! (Rainys Mob disguise is a yoga instructor, for context!) They're truly a pair, as opposite as they may seem at first, but they are actually rather similar!

But anyways in the Mob au Jessie runs a car dealership, owns the business actually!

Vicky had recommended the class to release stress, as Jessie has the tendency to be a workaholic. Very much a career woman at her core, hustle, hustle, hustle...

Always doing something!

Also! She owns a motorcycle! Hehe!

She can be a bit rough around the edges when you first meet her but she does have a very big heart, I assure you!

Hehe, as for more... secretive lore... I can only say she's not entirely related to Danny in this one... hehehe...

Also, also!

She has a silly boyfriend named Damien! (He's the loml...)

They are very silly together! Bwah!

(Damien belongs to @thatthirstyweirdo !)

[djsangos]

do every prime number on the list

2. how often do you question your reality? uhhhh more often than id like to admit i guess

3. if you could conceptualize a new color, what would it look like? like when you go to sleep and have a really good dream idk

5. how would you feel if the sky wasnt blue? i mean if it was just retconned to have never been blue i guess i wouldnt notice or feel anything about it but if just one day i went outside and the sky was fucking neon purple or some shit id be pretty coddamn freaked out

7. what color do you associate with the stars? white?

11. have you ever lucid dreamed? iiii dont think so?

13. do you have any regrets? plenty

17. would you be surprised if this was a dream? dude if the whole past like almost decade has been a dream and i woke up back in my bed at 14 at my family house id have a real fucking actual breakdown right there you dont even wanna know

19. do you like keeping secrets? not really

23. would those around you notice if you dissappeared? yeah they would like almost instantly dont get any funny ideas

29. do you like the taste of water? yeah? its just water

31. how would you feel if you found out you werent alive? hey did you see the answer to question 17 yeah itd be that again probably

37. have you ever been in love? im Currently In Love and its fucking great

41. is this real? it better fucking be or im gonna say it with me ~have a fucking breakdown~

43. how do you think society would be different if gender norms were, and had always been, swapped? gender norms? uhhhhhhhhhhh maybe this is more of a question for a human i cant really think of any strict gender norms we have at least not in recent history were pretty lax about gender here theres ways people of certain genders tend to like to act and dress and stuff if thats what you mean and in that case it wouldnt be that much different tbh

53. what do you think you are best known for? depends on who you ask tbh i guess its kind of an open secret that i was The Agent 3 (now captain) of the nss that invaded octo valley and fought dj octavio for the first time mostly because octarians who fought me (and also four later) and made it to the surface had Stories To Tell but for those who havent heard THAT im best known as SANGO the best dj in inkopolis according to yours truly

59. have you ever broken a bone? ohhhhhhhh yeah ive broken way more than just that

61. are you intimidating? some people say i am

[rollercoasterwords]

i was so so so excited to read this, for a lot of reasons but mostly because i was So curious to read how you would write the spell, how it changes someone, the extension throughout the brain… he doesn’t have the memory but he still has the felling. how much memories and feelings depend in one another?!!??. is like when you don’t remember what you read, you can’t quote it, but you can remember how it felt. or like when you try to remember a song and for however reason you just CANT but its there, and your mind feels like its hollow, and it creeps on you, to feel like that for the memory of two whole years… it must be so deeply sickening. is a little like murder.

also i’m glad dorcas is with him, so they can share the grief, and just for understanding, even though they’re both so miserable they cant be a good company even for each other. and anddd sirius destroying the wall he used to hide for be able to torture, i don’t know if he meant to destroy it or if that was just a side effect of being truly happy and in love and free but anyway im glad he cant do the things his pre-obliviated self wouldn’t like to. great ch as always rae, if you like, please share a spoiler, snippet, anything.

thank u!! yeah i really wanted 2 explore the idea of memory, again, as not just something stored in like ur brain/consciousness whatever…or i suppose more accurately stored across different parts of ur brain? basically exploring the idea that ur brain is ur body & so the whole mind/body platonic dualism doesn’t really hold true etc…so like. how do we conceptualize memory loss when we think of ourselves not as mind-within-body but body-minds, what forms of memory persist even in ways we don’t usually consider ‘memory,’ etc—like the example u gave of still knowing how something made u feel without really being conscious of why, or physical habits & muscle memory, or triggers that invoke physical reactions without full understanding of why ur body is kicking in w that response, etc.

& yeah also did want 2 explore the idea that it’s a bit like murder!! like our experiences shape who we are, & removing those makes us different people in some ways…he hasn’t and can’t go back to being the person he was before, but he’s also never going to be the person he was/would have been w those memories—he’s someone different now, someone who is being shaped by the very experience of memory loss.

& also i like having dorcas back as well she’s fun 2 write <3 anyway glad ur enjoying the fic & sure i will share a spoiler abt the next ch lol:

the next ch is mostly sex. so! i am actually currently debating whether i’ll bump the rating from M to E 🤧

[alstroemerian-dragon]

izuru is so interesting to me conceptually. like i know in canon he’s kind of nothing unfortunately. at least in game canon, he shows up right at the end, says some eugenics-y shit, voices hajimes intrusive thoughts, and then hes gone, but. the concept of him, as hajime, but with everything that made him Hajime Hinata stripped away and buried under so much conditioning and bullshit that he cant reach it, is so. its SO. yknow.

its the whole argument about what makes us the people we are, right? if you take a person, and then erase literally all the memories they have of their own identity, are they still that person? have you taken away everything that makes them Them and made them a completely different one? how does that change, and pardon the philosophical question, their soul?

and the thing about izuru is that you can not tell me the memory repression was perfect. you can not tell me that hopes peak academy perfected the art of lobotomy so well that they completely erased every speck of hajime hinata that existed inside izuru kamukura. that boy felt what was missing he knew there was a hole the size of the fucking ocean in his head and he felt every centimeter of it. did he care? up for debate. izuru didnt seem to care about anything, really (which… i have some thoughts about his eugenics conditioning by the academy in regards to that but thats maybe another post). but i definitely think given enough time, some of that would have started to come back. maybe even after the events of the first game, when the school was open again, and junko was dead, and izuru was able to actually explore the place he was held and experimented in and look at the files, and discover his old name. something like that would definitely trigger some memory recovery, or at least a moderate breakdown of some kind.

i dont know. people have said before that izuru is kind of an interesting metaphor for depression if you think about it, and theyre right, he is. he doesnt care enough about anything in life, he doesnt care about hygiene, nothing is going to catch and hold his attention because he thinks he knows how everything in the world works so whats the point in even trying? but he isnt just a metaphor. thats who hajime was during that time. now im definitely one of the people who thinks hajime was a pretty depressed kid anyway, unable to fulfill what he thought he needed to be, constantly pressured to be something he wasnt and couldnt be. but izuru was so much worse. they gave that boy fucking. ultimate depression. super high school level depression. i definitely think the only reason izuru didnt ever do anything drastic about how utterly miserable he was is because. a lot of it was background noise to him? his brain was just blocked off so those triggers were unable to fire? and because. to be honest. thats truly so much work. especially with the reflexes and instincts and empowerment the experiments gave him. and junko’s despair was just intriguing enough to keep him moving

its just something i think about. if someone had been willing or able to just. talk to izuru and offer him a hand. understand that he was hurting and that he didnt have to be. that just because there were holes in his identity didnt mean he couldnt create his own pieces to fit into them. i truly think that if he’d had that kind of presence during the tragedy his brain would have unlocked itself. maybe not all the memories would come back, but he’d be able to feel stuff again at least. and thats… something.

[ghoulodont]

supplemental material for this ghoul lore exploratory fic. conceptual rendering above, more details below the readmore.

first of all i want to say that i am by no means a dental professional, but i do have exposure to a lot of tooth images and tooth anatomy terms at my job. so while i cant tolerate any logical implausibilities for any topic, im extra picky about teeth. here is my reasoning for all of my decisions:

i think its not possible for anyone with human teeth and fangs (ghoul, vampire, etc) to have them on the lower arch without a diastema to fit them in on the upper arch (like a dog). so all of my modifications are on the upper arch, and assume ghouls have a mostly human occlusion.

fangs on the upper arch are probably fine in a standard occlusion because upper teeth are outside of the lower teeth, so making them longer and/or pointier wont make them hit anything. the standard fang is of course the canine, but premolars are pretty similar, at least the buccal aspect, so i wanted to include them too. it seems dangerous to have sharp lingual cusps (way too close to the tongue) and they could interfere with the occlusion, so only the buccal cusps are longer and sharper.

i also think it seems dangerous to have any truly sharp teeth mesial of the canine, because, again, your tongue goes there. humans have very mobile tongues compared to anything else with sharp teeth so any fangs seem kind of dangerous regardless. anyway, i love the look of lateral incisor fangs, so i decided to add them but not make them inhumanly sharp.

and then all the other teeth are regular human teeth. i came up with all of this primarily based on what i think is plausible and not anything symbolic, but i really like the metaphor potential here. from mesial to distal, the teeth are: human, inhuman in appearance only, really inhuman, inhuman, and human. you could say something about how ghouls (at least mine) are human at first glance, have inhuman traits, but are like humans deep down... etc etc. more to explore.

and finally, do ghouls have wisdom teeth? i think mine do not.

[jokerlennon]

tumblr isnt letting me post my musings about how nicky would fare if he was gallifreyan sooo im retyping it and praying. im thinking part of the Problem Loom Generation and joined house paradox early on - except i cant remember how that worked and the book of the war is unnavigable so im going to hope that they were actually recruiting people from other houses . he can start out as a cia agent as a treat but normal nicky is obviously in it for the intrigue and glamour not out of a love for his country and as such i truly don't think he'd give too many shits about the web of time either he sees the weird goth guy calling himself grandfather paradox experiment with rituals and bones and goes well that seems more exciting and fucks the fuck off. also he'd make a terrible conceptual entity can you fucking imagine

[all-doggirls-go-to-heaven-2]

Maybe im happier without them, maybe im not. Truly no way to tell. But I have to think I do, right? I have to conceptualize everything as if I'm the one that was improved by what was done to me. I cant start to think that I was used because then it loses what was special about it. Then its just another fucking person that used Lena for fun and help and then tossed her when she wasnt convenient. And that sucks, right? Because even after its not a thing if it was just me being used then every fond memory that pinches my heart at night is me being weak.

And I couldnt think of myself like that

[acreaturecalledgreed]

yall know that its possible to express sexual attraction towards a character And Also still have a deep invested thoughts on them and the media they pertain from right

you do know that being horny over a character doesnt magically make someone some stupid airhead who cant appreciate or analyse media right.

please tell me yall know that.

and youre Definitely not going to use being ace as an excuse to justify being an asshat about this, right? because youre not saying shit like this bc youre ace, youre saying it bc you cant conceptualize that other ppl can have indepth feelings And Also experience sexual attraction.

like dont say its bc youre ace and make the rest of us look like jackasses just bc youre being kind of a cunt.

i understand fully the irritation of constant bombardment of sex all the goddamn time. a lot of the culture were exposed to is in this bizarro death-lock bc being absolutely terrified of sex and also constantly dehumanizing and shaming people for not wanting sex.

i am a mostly sex repulsed, romance repulsed aroace. i truly hate that i had to start engaging with shipping in order for people to give a single fuck about anything i had to say in fandom. i Hate when im trying to share an idea or analysis or thought and all ppl can respond with is how it pertains to their ships.

but im also not enough of a jackass to think that that means people being horny or invested in shipping makes vapid and thoughtless and you can talk about this without framing it as "people are so stupid and annoying and dumb for liking sex" you are Literally just parroting the extremely abusive culture we live in

id be equally pissed if i read someone say "youre cold and weird if you dont want to fuck"

and i did not sit through a decade of losing friends and being gaslit constantly over acephobia from everyone around me to the extent that it became a panic inducing trigger for yall to sit there and unironically say that you think people are bad and gross and stupid for wanting to jump a characters bones holy fuck i am so tired ive been up since five and all i want is for people in general to just stop being cunts for ten goddamn minutes do you all seriously not think AT ALL about the shit you say