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swear that if they don’t get a happy ending that i will, personally, break into sony headquarters and Fix it myself
#my kids#my children#PLEASE LET THEM BE HAPPY#gwen stacy#miles morales#spiderman#spider man: across the spider verse#what’s the ship name for these two#i genuinely don’t keep up with anything on the internet im so slow#my art#gwiles#ghostflower#thank u too the person who told me these
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kinktober alex warnings thus far.
small snippet for your enjoyment maybe. as always subject to change still a wip blah blah.
Don’t fucking leave me, I need you, you don’t understand—
“Mate—” he growls at you, chest rumbling with affection, throat tight with choked up lust.
“Alex— w-wait, please—!”
You sound so soft. Scared, like a little animal. A mere pup to his much larger wolf stature. The moon hangs high in the sky for him, whispering sweet nothings down his ear with promises of forever— all it takes is one night to secure his place by your side forever. Forever and ever, his half lidded gaze stuck on your tummy as you attempt once more to flee his bruising grip, though the attempt is pitiful. He could fill you up so well y’know? Give you so many cute little pups— oh, and he just knows with a twitch of his cock that you’d be the best mama in the world. His perfect little mate; don’t you want that as badly as he does? Don’t you wanna be his pretty princess pup forever? The way you’re gasping and shivering from under him tells him so, like you need it. Just like him, right?
Because where you might babble for a break, your body is at least being more honest with him in place of your verbal lies. And he forgives you for that, for letting your inherently needy nature communicate with his own.
#hush⛔️#told u i was working on it :D#gonna answer asks tomorrow apologies im slow at healing#maybe u dont know how debilitating OCD can be#but i have not been alive for like the past week due to it B-)#ty for your patience
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i like ghostflower (hell I draw fanarts for them) but I’ve decided I like the version of them in my head more and will just stay away from the fandom in general cuz I’ve seen some discussion and they just make me go “what on earth are y’all on” 💀💀💀💀
#“miles will immediately forgive gwen when he sees she’s gathered a whole team to save him WHAT#he’ll save himself first then befriend Miles G. and Miles G. will start hissing like the cats when that team comes and Miles looks upset#like I firmly believe miles will only talk to Hobie and Margo after all that cuz they r the two that stand by his side thru whole that#like that take is so insane when Hobie is the reason Miles can run away in the first place and Margo risks everything to allow Miles leaving#AND HE KNOWS#u don’t even need a scale to see who Miles will associate with safety and protection more after atsv#also “miles keep getting up after he’s beaten down cuz that what Gwen told him to do in itsv is ALSO insane cuz WHAT#the thing she said when she and others were berating and crowding Miles for not knowing how to be Spider-Man just FEW DAYS after he’s bitten#??????#THAT THING????#not his mom’s words or his uncle’s or idk THAT’S HOW HE IS???#*walk in the tag* *walk out immediately*#u don’t have to make them the only person in each other’s life to prop the ship up especially in this case cuz it makes no sense 😭#actually the first point srl piss me off cuz that team was only possible in the first place cuz of Hobie and Margo and Miles laying#the groundwork by just being a sweetheart he is#charming and inspiring ppl so ofc these kids will rally behind him and team up to save him#ykno LIKE IN THE COMIC TOO???#ppl just have to take the only thing I don’t like in the movie (miles suddenly obsessed over Gwen when they didn’t even interact that much#in itsv) and magnify it x100 in fandom#if she ain’t a gremlin girl that is trying her best to regain Miles’ trust but it’s a slow process and Miles needs space and time first then#I don’t want it
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One thing that I think we don't talk about enough is that Word Count... is more than words.
Like I can type pretty fast. I've written 1k in under 30 minutes before. When I'm writing a new project or a oneshot, it's often easy for me to write 2k-3k in a day. But typing fast and writing fast are not the same. You have to characterize, pace, add flow, keep with the plot, and think of ideas for the next sentence. If I just had to WRITE my current main project I would have been done months ago, but I would take week to month long breaks just to... think of where to take the story. JUST THINKING! Even writing this post took a great amount consideration. You aren't just spewing words you can remember in a random order, you are CRAFTING. YOU HAVE A SKILL. YOU ARE USING IT AND TRAINING IT!!!
That's why saying "oh if word count doesn't work for you, then use pages!" doesn't work. You're still running into the same problem. The page or thousand words where two characters defeat the big bad are not going to be as hard to write as the page or thousand words of banter. Not all writing is made equal, and to view it completely numerically is a disservice to yourself.
This isn't to say word count is worthless. That is another extreme, and I will not let you go away from this post without nuance. Viewing the progress in your writing by the literal progress of the plot is extremely mentally taxing. Numbers go brrr is a great shorthand, but it is a SHORTHAND. You have to remember that you are an artist. You are a writer. You have the ability to take an idea and make it physical. Don't you DARE water that down! Honor yourself! Take your time, take breaks, amd reward yourself. View this as something of value or SO HELP ME GOD--
#bloody rambles#sometimes i wish that instead of just telling people that they are valid we found ways to EXPLAIN to them why they are valid#like if i was a slower writer and u told me “slow writers are valid” i would simply not listen to you#but if you told me that i was a wood carver and craving slowly means less nips from the knife#i still wouldn't listen to you but i'd try to#/lh
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Its so funny that Makoto gets such an awful rep (usually bc of her treatment of Futaba), but going through the game again, Makoto is the one who leads the conversation into getting her to open up for the palace door. She immediately offers up the idea of just being honest with Futaba; no lies or soft words, just straight facts in a calm voice. She knew Futaba wanted the change of heart, badly enough that shed listen without having to be convinced by force. And when Futaba panics about having to open up, Makoto makes sure she has no chance of backing out (‘give me time to open the door’ ‘ten seconds’ ‘WHAT???!’). Its for her own good!!
I think it can come across as mean and overbearing and even insensitive, especially if you are someone who is sees themself IN Futaba, but Makoto is both incredibly caring, sisterly, and understanding during the entirety of her arc. Like most characters, fandom seems to completely warp and exaggerate very specific moments and traits and sum up entire personalities bc of it. Ryuji and him being stupid; Ann and her being loud and mean; Yusuke being dumb as shit and singleminded for NO discernible reason, etc etc. People took the snooping and her one vaguely insensitive comment (about futaba and her whole Thing) and decided that she was a cunt and a bitch that couldnt be reasoned with.
Its so bizarre. Im aware that every piece of media w vaguely assertive girls has this issue (Sakura, Katara, Aqua, etc etc) but its still crazy that this is prevalent. Shes like the direct mirror of Goro and he does not get this specific kind of hate (usually its ‘he backstabbed and blackmailed us so i hate him’). Sorry. I need to be a Makoto Apologist to protect her from the rest of the world. My girl did nothing wrong shes just weird. She thought she could fight a mafia boss and she was RIGHT! She WON!!!!
#chattin#makoto girl i love yuuuuuuu#makoto doesnt really treat as a younger sister#but she is protective of futaba and i think thats a little sweet. no one else really gets that attention#and she tries to be understanding w some futabas quirks but it confuses and frustrates her#its like two autistic teens on opposite ends of the spectrum trying to interact#‘girl who follows social rules bc her sister and adults told her to’#and#‘girl who follows NONE of those social rules bc shes an outcast and never learned them’#u know makoto has scripts for sooo many things#and she talks extra slow when shes trying to think of something new on the spot for a difficult interaction 😭#BOTH of them have not been socialized in the best way#and are now dealing w having people who care about them and their thoughts and feelings#and theyre BOTH opening up and getting to be more expressive#they do not hate each other they are FRIENDS !!!! SISTERS EVEN…MAYBE!!#AND ANOTHER THING#no way we are calling her a cop when the game was made by ATLUS. certified Boot Lickers 😭😭😭😭😭#same company that made a cop character that said ‘i cant stand the injustice of the police and i hate perpetuating it’#and then made the cop stay a cop. like what.
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do you have any tips for like... paneling? your lil comics, if i could call them that(?) with Dave are well made (to me at least) and I'd like to get into making comics! or if you know any resources that helped you. :') - sincerely, a beginner.
sorry to be answering this so late, wanted to try and give some kinda proper advice haha so what i do is i just make my posts as long as possible so that it takes up like all of ppls dash, this means they are forced to look at it and engage with it! no ok but for real, first off this is just how i do things and by no means any sort of proper tutorial or anything, most of this is prob kinda basic and intuitive stuff, but its good to be reminded of the basics and to notice why you might be doing said things intuitively so you can start doing it intentionally so how i approach things is by picking a focus panel whats the Punchline/Emotional pay off for the page/comic? and then i try and build the rest around that for actual Comics not every page is gonna have one of those ofcourse and thats fine i tend to often have to many focus panels,,,, lmao(which is why my posts end up so long,,,,) i try to group similar panels and make them smaller, it saves space, makes it so the attention goes to the more unique panels and makes things feel more sequential(or u can do like me and have too many similar panels and think, what if i just make it an animation, its just a few extra frames right,,,?<- clueless(i have done this twice now,,, the second is still a wip,,, )) heres one of my posts deconstructed using all this, id do more of them but i dont wanna make this even longer asdsd, but i think its pretty obvious to pick up on once you know the formula lol
after that i think its mostly just clear composition and flow so things dont get confusing(like what panel(also applies to text) youre suppose to read next and such(thats easier with this cus its usually just individual panels and not full pages)) edit: oh and resources that helped me, i mostly just looked at other comics, paying attention to how the paneling was effecting the story and mood! some comics ive looked at for paneling inspo are houseki no kuni, how they play with contrast and stuff, idk theyre all just very striking, i looked at ajin at some point as well for help with some action stuff, most action shonen are also great for that 2 so yeah, just find a comic scene that has the same vibe that youre trying to get and see how they did it, finding a few and comparing and contrasting what you feel works best thats my thought process while doing stuff at least! i hope this helps at least a bit haha
#another thing a teacher told me at some point is to make things Look Intentional? in this case they were referring to comic panels#and how if you have one of those classic slanted dividers(i dont remember what theyre called.. n am 2 lazy to look it up)#make sure its not just slightly slanted as then often gets misread as a mistake like you just messed up a straight line#so basically go big or go home#like art has no rules so u can do whatever you want and different things work better depending on the piece but its advice i try and follow#also paneling for ask blog stuff is a lot easier then actual comics its prob a good place to start to practice this kinda stuff#timing is also important? timing is why im doing 2 animations.......#they just werent working as panels cus they felt too slow? cus it needed 2 many panels that were all quite similar#so they took a lot of space and took 2 long to go through#which is why i was like ill just animate it!<- does not like animating#the things i do for this blog u_u#rambles#advice#anon#art
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#ugh. im so tried. why is crying so exhausting? i havent done anything. this is bullshit#we went from a slow motion breakdown to full on freakout meltdown today#luckily no one was around in the lab this morning bc i couldnt stop crying#so i went to the counseling center and made myself their problem#canceled my committee meeting. which everyone tells me is fine. its all fine#think about going home for a while they say. maybe tell ur dad ur having a bad time thry say#but im so tired. and i dont kno what to do and its all falling apart#i just feel like im brushing up against the limits of what i can do intellectually and its like well where do i go from here?#what do i do with my old data? how do i move my project forward? whats the point of any of this?#why did i put myself in this position? would taking a leave even help? id still have to come back to the same mess#its just so frustrating bc theres no solution ill find satisfying. everything just sucks.#idk what my advisor even told my committee. bc we were supposed to meet tomorrow morning. ugh. it would have been so bad#it also sucks bc im so drained that i can just feel my own weight when im trying to talk to ppl#like u kno when ur being a wet blanket but u dont kno how to fix it. like srry my vibes r wretched. maybe im just stuck like this#i dunno. my dad invited us home for a week in july and also plans to come out to visit me in August. but that seems like a long time away#i dunno what im gonna do. what a disaster#unrelated
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None of u understand how funny emunene is… emu going I’m going to follow you forever and ever you’re so amazing nene chan you’re so pretty and talented let’s hang out all the time & nene going I just don’t think she likes me that way 😔 she’s just being friendly. Also objectively nene realizing she has the same level of denseness as tsukasa wrt rui is hysterical. she goes thru all the stages of grief in a week and contemplates telling nenerobo to kill tsukasa so she doesn’t have to think about it ever again.
#nenerobo aggressively wing manning for nene and she’s like rui why would you program that function…#(rui voice) I would never do that… i would never meddle in such a way… (lying)#thinking abt nene not even realizing emu wanted to be friends with her until emu literally told her point blank. girl.#also thinking abt the scene where tsukasa is like a minute late to meet her and rui when they were gonna talk to emu abt why she’d been#acting so weird and nene is like you slow bitch (with malice) & rui’s like ah ur worried about emu aren’t u#and she’s like obviously why are u even asking#also nenerobo recording nene going ‘I wish I could help her :(‘ and playing it for emu.#the consequences of them being treated like ruikasa accessories 😐#i think ruikasa should be emunene’s accessories. as they deserve.#the fan base does not understand them like I do. they are so deep. to me.#<- that goes for their individual characterizations too.#(nene voice) rui can u program nenerobo to shoot flames at tsukasa. thanks.
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"women want me, bats fear me" aka the tale of how my durge cannot get astarion to like him while shadowheart and lae'zel immediately asked to get some alone time
#told lae'zel sorry i will not sleep with u ive kept u at camp since lvl 1#and caved and told shadowheart to find me later;;; shes too cute i cant#i spent the last hours grinding astarion from 3points to 22;;;#not my fault he hates me#ALL BC I DIDNT SLEEP WITH HIM THE FIRST NIGHT#I DIDNT KNOW U WERE SUPPOSED TO#I TAKE THINGS SLOW OKAY#matt plays bg3#shut up matt
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have i mentioned i finished The Path We Walk here yet?
#critical role fic#this may not be the ideal way to announce it but i enjoy the meme#anyway if u like the crown keepers and were curious how#they got from the end of exu prime#to orym dorian and fearne leaving for marquet#this is the fic for u#featuring dariax being an oblivious himbo with confusing feelings for dorian#opal wrestling with wanting to go home but being soso scared all the time#cursed-by-the-spider-queen dorian (he is having a bad time at the jungle)#fearne honestly straight up vibing mostly#and a very slow burn 'orym tells everybody about will' with (i've been told) a very satisfying emotional payoff#also tetrarch umejii (aabria if ur seeing this. i see ur blorbo who u never got to show us and i have stolen her)#(she's my blorbo now.)#like 98% canon compliant im sure i missed a couple of tiny things#and extrapolated a hell of a lot more#anyway. i worked so fucking hard on this fic and it's really good#if you've ever enjoyed any of my writing and u care abt the crown keepers or even just the exu trio at all#u will enjoy it
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starting the year ✨wrong✨
#(this is about work ok. long rant in the tags bc auauauauauauauuauauauauauauauaaaaaaaa)#i’ve worked for just t h r e e (3!!!!) days this year and i think im already all burned out lmao#first i was stuck doing 2 workstations bc this freakin’ b o z o of a coworker decided to take the week off without prior notice#and *t h e n* the internal components of one of said workstations kicked the bucket and was only replaced today. sads.#rip to our wasted time and futile fixing efforts though. flashtag wetried#that’s not all t h o u g h i was told that i have to jump to the other work shift bc one of my coworkers is resigning#b u t the thing is. all of the other dudes in that shift are from [insert bordering country] and always speak in their nation’s language#so i won’t be able to communicate well with them for the most part esp s o bs#and if [insert country here] has a national holiday and a l l of them decide to take the day off..#well. um. ahahahaha. im ✨screwed✨#(but speaking of taking the day off… one of said guys on that shift has an approved leave for cny. which is funny bc he’s not even chinese)#(rips if the actual other chinese dude on that team has his leave request rejected bc of that guy lol. happy cny to him ig)#a n d also i was made to (sorta) teach these two new coworkers (of sorts) the workstation i’m at for the week#b u t the thing is. i do everything here by left (didn’t receive formal training either lmao sadge)#and i also couldn’t explain anything well in general bc it seems like my flow of thoughts can’t streamline itself ig#so i think i confused the poor guys more than anything. but like. why me??????? aaaauauaaaaaaaaaa#idk why one of them came back for more ‘education’ from me thoughhhhh#i’ve tried teaching ‘em stuff at another workstation before this and my feedback was ‘wait slow down you talk too fast’ s o o o o .#ig i’ll have to guide them though again in the morning though. sighs. this wasnt in my job description :(#speaking of job descriptions though… this h e l l a annoying guy no one likes who resigned a few months ago (to much rejoicing)…#is!!!!! coming!!!! back!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#w h y. like. w h y. why is he so attached to this company he l l o? why is our manager so attached to him helloooooooo????? why him???????#our workloads literally t r i p l e when he’s around bc he’s just the way he is. auauauauauauauauaaaaaaaaaaaa#aaaaaaaaaaa i dont wanna work aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#science industry (derogatory) questionable laboratory conditions (derogatory)#felt cute; thought about retiring early idk
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sigh there's so much stuff i want to write but so little time for it. i think i need 64 hours in a day or something but i get new ideas so often and can't shake them off and the worst part is i never know how the story is supposed to end after the characters colossally fuck each other over LOL! i'd actually like these two to end up together...i guess thats the con to loving writing angst so much fjgdjgk??
anyways apart from this small rant, i wanted to ask which members out of these three coughmybiaslinecough would you guys like me to write about next? i haven't written for yunho much yet but he seems like he wouldn't fit the character i had in mind ORRR maybe he'd fit a little too well im not sure and need help deciding so
#im still writing man with the plan but im not getting much feedback on it so the updates will slow down for now but#this new story......well its going to be angst overload i just made myself sad thinking about it#obv soot is still the main priority i finally got out of my slump and have been gradually writing it and i think u guys will like it#but this new STORY GJKFGDGHD it's like starring role 2.0 but not really as in i feel like its something i have to write ive been thinking a#about the idea for days now so i guess its happening even tho i told myself to NOT start another series but oh well!
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i want to play baldur's gate so bad but i'm scared i'm not going to Play It Right
#im soooo bad at modern games#i do not have the reflexes#the knowledge of typical control for games#im slow and im a slow learner#and i get overwhelmed so quickly#i need to be assured at all times that i'm doing What I'm Supposed To Do#and also i wanna have a cunty ass character and i know my sister told me theres custom shit u can download but i dont even know where#to start 😶#i wanna deserve astarion u feel me#born to fish forced to post
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I actually think. Maybe i Show a lot in writing. Maybe a bit too much even
(Not in the sense its bad to show, but in the sense it takes SO MANY MORE WORDS to write a scene the more u show)
I read some of the nicest advice i ever Actually have seen on show versus tell in writing the other day. Advice that acknowledged there are actually times its better to tell. That all stories do a combo of show and tell. (And that if u really need to lean into the show advice it might be if ur not showing much at All, so the advice gets hammered in extremely instead of tempered).
Anyway. The advice i read recently said: showing in writing allows you to slow the speed of the scene and draw the reader in. (So establishing setting, getting a reader to feel a mood, making a particularly emotional impact alongside a particular dialogue exchange, showing can all help with). Telling in writing helps pick up the pace, move things along. Want something snappier, where a detail doesn't need to be dwelled on and sunken into? If you need to move things along, tell. A snappy quick explanation of some sci fi world's vehicle, a quick "he checked the crime scene and found a note, bringing it back to the team" if the crime scene checking wasnt important but the next scene of team discussion is. I thought it was a great explanation of why 1 its okay to tell rather than show 2 one way to speed up pace/cut down word count (which i desperately needed to hear lol)
#rant#writing advice#ill reblog the big advice on sjowing i found it from#some wonderful person commented that tip#and also they mentioned they often do a SHOW draft and mainly TELL draft then merge the 2 stories#which seems like a great idea. so u have a slow and fast draft and can pick out#which to use based on how fast paced u want a part to be or how slow and sunken in#from experiejce it makes sense. a friend told me to Show/describe a kiss scene more to make the momeht more impactful#meanwhile id originally written it in 1 line to MOVE ALONG#so i think we intuitively know that show and tell influence pacing and attention#but id never heard it clearly explained before!
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I may have gotten basically nothing done today aside from a couple Cloud surveys and some job apps but
It's okay
I will do the dishes after work (aka the one thing i wanted done before work today that my brain did not cooperate with me on at all)
This shift will go...i want to say good. but they're already emailing us abt doing the thing that we found out at the work training got them fined by a major regulatory body and im like. The shift hasn't even started yet. pls. not already im not even clocked in (and can't be until ten mins before anyway). Can u save ur fucking bs for when I'm at least on the clock being underpaid to deal with it lmao
I will get thru my shift tonight. maybe that's the best i can hope for here. I'll take it, and after...dishes and maybe more fic writing if my brain is up to it
#text post#they're somehow both angry the fcc fined them but still want to keep doing how we'd been doing things but like#im not gonna do that again now that i know it's fucking illegal lmao not for this fucking job of all things#but apparently the dialing rates were way lower (shocker if u have to type numbers in vs the illegal copy and paste that slows things down)#and while they'd previously said they were fine with that they clearly very much aren't and that's me and my coworkers problem apparently#despite us just following instructions from them and having zero influence on how they instruct us to do our work#tossed some more applications out today too but. im not getting replies on anything again :(#granted the last few replies i got were rejections but at least they told me#eh. whatever. im tired of this and of my brain not being better at everything that needs doing. c'est la vie
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venting abt unimportant things in da tags ignore me
#yall im gonna vent about a boy#and some other things under here#cause i just made myself sad#anyway yeah idk a couple months ago i matched w this dude who messaged me asking abt my love for e and i was like very open abt it#and he wasn't judgemental at all he was very nice and we just like . talked abt whatever#we were talking for like a month or two nonstop like we messaged every day right#and i even told him it's okay if he doesn't message me everyday i don't mind and he's like but i like talking to you i wanna message u!!#and there was like 3 days i couldn't message him and i came back to see he missed me and he was like soooo sweet#and then he took me to get dinner and we went to his place and we literally hit it off so well??? like the chemistry was THERE#like we kissed and he was sooo sweet to me and then the holidays hit and his messages slowed down#and since then it got slower and slower and now he's just completely ghosted me and it's been a few weeks now#and i should get over it i know like im back to swiping on these stupid apps again but it just makes me so sad#because i really did like him and i don't know what i did wrong or if i scared him away#after leaving me on opened 3 times i just gave up like i got the hint i assumed he doesn't like me like that anymore#i saw something that reminded me of him and i got really sad#so now here i am#anyway i went on for tooooo long let me stop there lol
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