#i thought it maybe said JB and Papa

[petit-papillion]

Charles adding his non-Ferrari-employees emotional support system to the list on his helmet. 🥹😭🥰

Abu Dhabi Grand Prix Media Day | 23 November 2023

[protegetapaix]

4/10/23

1.20pm - morning,i woke up with puffy eyes,ikutkan hati nak duduk rumah nangis je but okaylah kuatkan diri,i deserve this trip. Im sti angry,hurt. I feel like you chose this trip over me by not even coming for me while youre still here. But part of me understands why ypu want it so bad,just that you couldnt understand on my end that,i let you go on the trip,but at that exact moment my emotions took over me my overthinking god. and you didnt came for me,you didnt understood me. im sorry for the hurtful words i said,but on my end i can still be angry,because you didnt came for me,you always do,you promised the lasy fallout we had would be the last where you didnt come for me.In the end i still came for you,i waited hours. I have to shower now bye

2.34pm - i reach jb alr sayang,so funny i uldated the gc i alr at checkpoint and they wtf and insisted to follow,tbh idw them fllw bcs got nad n ipan gf but im like wtv,part of me also thought if they came maybe youd come at night but my bad your bus is the next morning..

2.54pm - baru lepas custom sg now in bus to go jb

3.18pm - baru lepas custom jb now changing money den grab to sogo,our fav place

3.35pm - i reached sogo and bought my contact lenses alr rm500 worth of it wtfwtf hahahahah. I miss you

3.45pm - im at popular now to buy stationaries for my book hehe

4.33pm - idk how long i spent in there but damn i was pretty long your friends all waiting for me alr but idc. I didnt know which colours were nice,if you were here youd probably knew which one suits me right.. but i bought the rare beauty blusher ive always wanted and their lipstick too,i picked a pinkish shade smth i would nvr go for but the pink is quite subtle,cant waitt to show you hehe hopefully.

4.44pm - eventho da lambat.. i bought coffee HAHHAAHHAHA the one we bought at angsana but i bought the spanish latte yumyum

9.19pm - we reached the ikan bakar olace alr,the whole time we always infer about you here and there wishing you were here and allsz mostly me eh,cfm they annoyed sia lowkey but we hoping can come w youu.

Also ipan gf syirah spill sm tea sia.. even about nad…. HAHAHAHAHAHA

11.23pm - ok we at pasar karat now

1.13am - ok we home bebs i bought so much thrift shirt and i even bought for afiya n dania bubble bubblleee gun sehhhh HAHAHAH cant wait to show u,i walk around alone while they see see here there hehe healing siot

1.30am ok now i just at balcony smoking they karaoke all

1.50am im with them kat sofa they singing sad songs for me cb we even recorded a vid for u so u can watch when we go here tht next time. Why never see this airbnb sooner seh cfm fun sia with jusy you got board games ,karaoke projector all ohmyyy cant waitbfor your bday also seh

6/10/23

12.20am - im finally in sg sayang,my heart felt so heavy otw home knowing when i reach home i would break down god i miss you my amsyar

1.11am - i reached home idk what time im sorry for not updating,but i cleaned my thrash all to keep my mind off things,you specifically. Yet i still cried when i did all that.

3.28am - i love how im dking this,helps me cope seh its as though im talking to you but i have so much tea to tell you sia abiiii

11.50am - i in 187 now,i hope you enjoy your day today with your friends,jangan buat bukan2… i had major diarrhea jn damn and i also asked rusyd for off alr.

4.16 - i ended break already,i ate tangled hehehehe ok ttyl

8.48pm- I was smoking when she textsd me ,you broke my fucking heart. My love and trust for you. I ended things off with mama papa for real already,they kept asking convincing my heart couldnt take it in anymore i felt so numb till they just said,sarah sayang amsyar kan ? Sabar lah sikit ,sikit je insyaallah. I just teared and gave my salam and ended. I felt so bad they had so much more to say they kept saying eh eh dengar ni hahahaha,my heart cant.

i hope it was worth it my amsyar :)

[malfoyfarms]

St. Christopher

Pairing: JJ Maybank x Fem!Reader

Word Count: 2.2

Triggers: drowning, domestic abuse/violence, regular violence, alcoholism, manipulation

A/N: hi lovelies, this was written for you because my page hit 350+ followers and “Sleepy Girl” received over 2,100 notes <3 u all

Christopher was a man who carried a child for many many miles even as the child grew heavy, never giving up. This man became a saint, and his image was plastered across items worn by travelers in all forms. Rings, necklaces, bracelets, anklets, pins, sashes and even clothing.

The tales of St. Christopher necklaces were told in your family for ages. All surfers and adventurers who wore those necklaces were protected, always returning home. You wore one, both your parents wore one, and your grandfather wore one as well. It had become a right of passage, one that you intended to carry on with your children as well. 

You were on your way to meet JJ at one of the abandoned lookouts on the island, nervous as all can be. The blonde boy had been in your life for a while now, and had been your boyfriend for almost ten months. Your grandfather had brought up the idea of giving JJ a St. Christopher necklace, as he had become part of the family. 

‘Pumpkin, I see the way he looks at you. That’s the same way I looked at your grandmother.’ Those words echoed over and over in your head. The wise man had always been your favorite, and when he suggested it, there was no way you could disagree. You had saved up enough money over the course of the next several weeks and went with the old gentleman to the mainland to pick out a pendant for your boyfriend. At that moment in time you thought the hardest task would be picking out the jewelry, but now you realized explaining the family history and actually passing over the necklace was the hardest part. 

The pendant itself was silver with a gray-blue border, with a long leather chain, knowing JJ wouldn’t like the metal look. Something silly about it looking too kook-ish. The colored rim complemented your own peach hued one. 

You saw the love of your life standing at the edge of the cliff, looking out into the ocean. You took a minute to regain composure and breathe. The leather chain was weaved into your now clammy hand, the pendant leaving an impression on your palm. 

“Hey J, I’m glad you made it,” he turned around to greet you.

“You said it was important, and I wouldn’t miss it for the world.” A smile spread across your face, appreciating how considerate he could be. 

He could tell you were nervous. The shifting of weight from leg to leg, avoiding eye contact, and most importantly, the hiding of hands behind your back. You plopped down next to him, feet dangling off the edge just as he did. 

“Alright, spill, you look like you’re going to explode,” he chuckled. You looked up with nervous eyes, hoping that he wouldn’t run away when he realized what the token meant. 

“So, you know how in my family we have the tradition of the St. Christopher necklace? Well, it’s like a right of passage, or an induction I guess to our family itself.” As you rambled JJ went into thought. He had heard many stories from your grandpa about how he believed the spirit had saved him. “And I was talking with Papa about mine, when he said that it’s time that I gave you one.”

With that last statement, you jutted your right hand forward, opening your palm to present him with the necklace. A blank expression washed over his face as he looked at the object. 

“I figured since adventurers and surfers tend to wear them, you being both, it would keep you safe. Especially now that we’re on some treasure hunt,” you spoke as you looked away. 

JJ gently took the charm out of your palm and placed it on his neck, lying just below the shark tooth. He smiled, looking into your eyes. The gray-blue that lined the man’s imprint matched is eyes.

“Is this your formal way of accepting me into your family?” He asked. You simply nodded, pulling him to kiss your lips. 

Over the next few months the tale around the necklace seemed to have proved its purpose.

                                                          ~~~

When John B proposed the idea of surfing the surge there was no way JJ could decline. With the rare amount of storms, the thought of multiple good waves was too appealing. Of course you would have loved to join the duo, but you were out cold on JJ’s bed at the chateau. He just couldn’t bring himself to wake you up. 

They made their way to the beach, dropping all their stuff on the sand and taking off towards the water. The waves were angry, almost as if they were trying to knock the boys off their boards. JJ being the daring bastard he is, he kept going out farther from the shore each time. 

“Dude, be careful, it's getting really rough out here!” John B yelled out to his friend. JJ simply ignored him and kept swimming. 

Once he was satisfied with his location, he turned around ready to ride the wave back to shore. The surf didn’t go as planned as he was quickly knocked off the board by a huge gust of wind and spray. 

He felt his body scrape the ocean floor, while the current kept him tumbling like dirty clothes. No matter how hard he tried to swim up, he was sloshed around underneath. JJ could feel his lungs burning, dying for air. 

During JJ’s fight to resurface, John B sat at the edge of the beach looking for his blonde friend. He began to panic when his board washed back to shore without its owner. Trying to explain to you how he lost your boyfriend in a surge was going to be a nightmare. How would he tell you? ‘Oh hey Y/n, I uh, couldn’t find JJ after he went down in the surge.’ That was definitely not going to cut it.  

Next thing he knew JJ was washed up, coughing with a slight gash above his eyebrow, two yards away from his board. Relief and color flooded JB’s face. 

“Dude, thank god you’re alive. We’re done for the day.” JJ simply nodded as they made their way back to the Chateau. 

You hadn’t woken up yet, still in a deep sleep, when the two entered the house once again. They quickly agreed not to tell you about the little incident that had just occurred, and go take a nap.

As JJ peeled off his wet bottoms and replaced them with sweatpants, he noticed the pendant on his neck. St. Christopher. He owed the legend big time. He turned to you, chuckling at how you slept. He tried to squeeze in around your body, but since you currently resembled a crumpled piece of paper, he lifted you up a tad to allow him to slip next to you. You barely woke up, but you stirred enough to realize who was underneath you. Your fingers brushed his necklace and you instantly nuzzled to the boy next to you.

                                                       ~~~

The second time the necklace seemed to be looking out for JJ was when he had a run in with his father. JJ had loudly stumbled into the house, causing Luke to wake up. The man’s footsteps came barreling through the house to meet the intruder. When he saw it was his son, he was livid. 

The alcohol induced rage made Luke only see red. He littered blow after blow to his son, not hearing the screams coming out of JJ’s mouth.

“You stupid motherfucker, coming into my house, loud as all can be, especially when I have to work tomorrow,” JJ knew working was a lie, his father gambled on Tuesdays. “I do nothing but provide for your lazy ass and this is how you repay me?” 

JJ prepared himself for another kick or punch or slap, but it never came. He opened his eyes to see his father lying on the ground. 

He quickly picked himself up, grabbed a few things from his room and exited the house, making his way back to the chateau. The entire walk back he played with the necklace he had removed from his neck. The cold metal in his hand was the only thing keeping him semi-relaxed as he made his way to your house. 

   He bound through the front door, marching directly to your room, catching you off guard as you were reading a book. The marks that tracked his body were fresh, and so was the emotional turmoil. JJ threw himself on to your bed, dying to find comfort in something that smelled like you. 

You tended to his physical and emotional wounds as best as you could, desperately trying to provide as much security as you could. The boy looked so young and vulnerable as his wet hair clung to his face and he was wrapped in a quilt. You held him close to your chest, swaying gently.

“He brought me home,” his voice crackled. You let out a noise of confusion. “St. Christopher, he brought me home. Maybe not scratch-free, but he made sure I made it.”

The size of your heart had grown four times in size. The small necklace was wrapped around his hand, sitting in between his pointer and middle finger. 

“St. Christopher knows right where you belong.”

                                                         ~~~

The third, and hopefully not last, time St. Christopher had brought JJ back to you was the most defining. 

Each pogue member had their own intricate tasks on how to get John B and Sarah off the island, your’s being a distraction for the police force. The only specific detail you had to follow was the timing. You needed to capture an audience after dark when the lovers would try to exit island waters. The larger the distraction the better, but you may have overdid it this time. 

While JJ, Kie and Pope had been prepping the boat all day for the escape, you had been wandering the island looking for trouble. Within the time period of you being MIA, you managed to stumble upon Rafe Cameron looking as cracked out as ever. Bingo, you thought, time to light the fuse. 

Walking up to Rafe, you began to pester him. Talking about Sarah, cocaine, and how his dad wasn’t happy that he killed the Sheriff. Telling him he never would live up to the kook expectations. You tried to pull out every card you could to infuriate him. 

Now, hours later, and many many provoking conversations with Rafe later, it was dark and your time to shine, or die.

The police officers were trying to negotiate with Sarah and John B, but were at a complete halt when they saw you were being held with a knife to your throat. You were bloodied and cut as his knife hadn’t been an empty threat

“If-if you don’t stop all of this nonsense about finding my sister, I-I will slit her throat,” Rafe screamed. 

The attention attracted the cameras, Ward, all the deputies and even your friends who were waiting in the tent next to the police. Your panicked face had everyone forgetting about the two escapees. 

“Rafe, son, please put the knife down,” Ward tried to coax him. You instantly felt the blade tighten against your throat. Tears ran down your face, small cries floated from your lips. Rafe’s dirty fingernails dug into your hips causing you to drop to one side in pain. 

“NO! She knows the truth Dad! We need to silence her! I managed to capture her, aren’t you proud Dad?” You pressed your head back into him, trying to get away from the knife, but that action had backfired. He pressed his face against yours, getting spit and tears on your cheek. 

Something must have clicked in Ward’s head because his next statement saved your life. “Of course Rafe, I’m so proud of you.” 

As you dropped to the ground, you were surrounded by an officer, carrying you over to the group of kids who you loved most of all. You could only pick out one voice though, JJ. 

“Y/n, don’t you ever do that again!” he scolded while pulling you against his body. “I can’t lose JB and you on the same night.”

You gently giggled against his chest, trying to stop the tears and from flowing. You were too happy to be pressed up against his chest, smelling the faint scent of weed, deodorant and salt. 

“Don’t be mad, I had to go that far, it was the only way,” you wailed. The grip on you tightened as you felt Kiara and Pope hug you as well. 

It was hours after your parents and grandpa had come to retrieve you and JJ from the beach, and the two of you laid in your bed, refusing to be further than three feet away. Your stomach was pressed against JJ’s as you ran your fingers around his collar bone. His lips sat on the crown of your forehead. 

You broke the silence with words that echoed JJ’s from a few months before. “I did it because I knew he would bring me home to you. No matter how big the adventure, he’d bring me home. One day he’ll bring us home to our biggest adventure, but today was not the day. He knew we were still needed.”

[fieryfairie]

Colors (A Jackbeom AU)

“Jack Jack, she said yes. I finally have her as my girlfriend.” Jackson Wang stared at the messages that his bestfriend JB sent him. He tried to process everything, but his mind still can’t catch with the news. Yes, Jackson did advise JB to tell Yeri how he felt. But, he did it as a joke. Now, Jackson must revise his plan that took him days to plan. How would he tell his bestfriend about how he felt especially now that a deadline has been set? The deadline is getting near. His leg started bouncing up and down. This has always been his mannerism when he is anxious. Being broken-hearted is the least of his concern. He needs to tell JB about everything bef— while he still can.

“Sweetie, are you okay? We need to go now so that we won’t be late for our appointment.” Mama Wang gently sat beside her sweet son. She brushed some hair away from eyes and his son rewarded her with a wide smile. “I’m alright, Mama! Let’s go.” They stood up together and went to the car where Papa Wang is waiting. “Hyung, meet me in our usual place. Be there by 5.” Jackson quickly hid his phone after sending the text to JB. He closed his eyes and decided to take a short nap to stop himself from thinking about everything. Besides, the piercing headache he has is definitely not helping.

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           Lim Jaebom frowned. This is the first time that he received a serious message from Jackson. Usually, the other boy’s message would be full of emojis. This is not the reaction that he expected to get after dropping the bomb to his favorite dongsaeng and bestfriend. “Maybe he just wants to congratulate me in person and catch up with what happened at summer camp.” He sighed. He remembered being in shock when Jackson told him that he will not be able to join the summer camp. He felt betrayed. They have been planning to go since they entered college. It was their promise. A promise that Jackson was not able to keep. JB lets out another sigh. He’s sure that Jackson has his reasons. “Hey babe, what’s with the long face? Did your boyfriend Jackson take the news badly?” Yeri laughed and sat next to her boyfriend. Jaebum continued pouting. He smirked and jokingly said, “He’s mad that someone else caught my eye”. JB leaned his head on Yeri’s shoulder. He held her hand and silently fiddled with the bracelet that he got her on their first day as a couple. He’s delighted to final date his long-time crush, but he seriously misses his best buddy. He thought that Jackson would get in touch with him while he is on summer camp. Wrong. The last message that he received from the guy was the day before the start of summer camp. The message was : “Have fun JB! Enjoy every moment for me. PS maybe it is time to confess haha”. Typical Jackson. However, JB can’t shake the ominous feeling that he got from the message.

           “Yeri” Jaebeom gripped his girlfriend’s hand. Yeri mumbled a silent yes. “I’ll be meeting Jackson later. For some reason, it feels like he needs to tell me something serious.” Yeri giggled. “Maybe he just misses his favorite hyung.” Jaebeom did not reply. He closed his eyes. His thoughts immediately went to Jackson.

           The two met when they got paired on a group project on their Song Writing class. JB was a bit overwhelmed by Jackson’s energy but they got a long fine. He admired Jackson’s perseverance. Not many people know that JB was able to find his song-writing muse through Jackson. “You can be whatever color you want to be, Hyung!” They were able to produce a song that JB can call his own. They got so closed to the point that they were able to share dreams and aspiration with each other. Jackson became a valuable existence to Jaebum. They promised that they would debut in one group. Both held on this promise strongly. This is the reason why Jackson not attending the summer camp came as a big surprise to Jaebum. They both are looking forward to attending the camp because some agency scouts would come and spot potential talents. The other lad has also been ignoring the older man’s messages. “I’ll get my answers later.” Jaebum tried to reassure himself. In the meantime, he would enjoy his girlfriend’s company first. He’ll interrogate Jackson later.

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Now Playing: Let Me – Got7

           It’s a nice spring afternoon and the waves are lazily splashing on the sand. A young can be seen sitting on the sand by himself. It looks like a sad painting with gray clouds hovering over the setting sun.

Jackson has his eyes closed as he takes in the sound of the waves. “Are you sure you’re pushing through with the operation?” “We can not guarantee anything at this point.” Jackson tried to block his thoughts by increasing the volume of his phone. It’s too late now to go back on his decision. Besides, he is here to talk to his JB. How would his hyung react on all the things that he says to say, all the things that he must confess? The song changed to the one that the two of them wrote together. Jackson enjoyed the time that they had writing the song. He smiled at the memory of JB pouting because they had a writer’s block. This was also the time when Jackson started developing feelings for the older man. It started with a little crush. God knows he tried everything to erase his feelings for JB. He’s perfectly fine with the relationship that they have. He doesn’t want his selfishness to ruin their closeness.  He promised himself that he will keep his feelings a secret. He wants JB to continue smiling. Even if it is because of a different person. He would kill just so JB can keep his smile.

But everything has change. One cold February morning, his parents rushed him to the hospital after failing to wake him up after multiple attempts. The results showed the worst. He remembered waking up and seeing both his parents crying on the foot of his hospital bed. The feeling of pain and anguish surged in his whole being. “This cannot be happening!” Jackson thought to himself. He did not shed any tear. Crying would only further break his parents’ hearts. “I’ll get better, Mama. Trust Me!” Jackson comforted his mother. He did his best fake smile. “Don’t break down. Don’t let them see you crying. Be strong.” The poor boy kept on repeating this to himself.

Jackson broke out of his trance when he heard footsteps approaching. He turned around and saw Jaebeom waving goodbye at Yeri. His eyes met with Yeri’s. They exchanged a small smile before Jackson turned back to return his gaze on the sea. A few seconds later, he felt JB sitting next to him while wrapping his arms around the younger man’s shoulder. “So, ready to tell me everything?” Jackson froze. He let out a small sigh. He gathered up his courage and turned his head to look at his hyung.

This time, it was Jaebeom’s turn to freeze. Jackson looks different. The Jackson beside him lost weight and dark circles covered his eyes. His lips are pale, and his complexion looks sickly. His eyes. Especially his eyes. Jackson’s eyes lost the warmth and brightness that they used to have. The eyes that JB have grown to love because they can always see through him. One look at Jackson’s eyes and he can have the courage to pursue his own color. His eyes gave JB the assurance that atleast one person in the world knows the real him. He unconsciously caressed Jackson’s cheeks. “Jackson. Please tell me everything.” It sounded more as a sorrowful plea than a demand.

A thousand years started to play in Jackson’s song.

Heart beats fast. Colors and promises. How to be brave? How can I love when I’m afraid to fall? But watching you stand alone; all of my doubts suddenly goes away somehow. One step closer.

“Hyung” Jackson let out a bitter laugh. He once again looked straight at JB’s eyes. With lips trembling, he started to pour out his heart out. “I’m sorry if it’s a little too late to say this. I have loved you since we were paired in our Song Writing class. My admiration for you turned into something more intimate. Honestly, I tried everything to erase my feelings for you. I don’t want my petty feeling to destroy what we have. I know it is selfish, but I want to see you smiling all the time. Even if those smiles are not for me anymore. Even if I am no longer by your side.” Jackson stopped. He closed his eyes as he gathered his remaining courage to tell JB that he might be leaving. Permanently.  “I have cancer. My operation in two days cannot guarantee my survival.”

I have died everyday waiting for you. Darling don’t be afraid. I have loved you for a thousand years. I loved you for a thousand more.

The sea breeze blows colder. Jackson opened his eyes slowly, afraid to see the reaction on his hyung’s face. A small tear silently ran down Jaebum’s face. JB was not able to hold in his sadness. He’s in shock. The feeling of anguish and betrayal burst out of him. He doesn’t know how to react at all. How would a normal person respond to the love confession of his bestfriend and the fact that he might be die soon? Yes, he felt betrayed. How can Jackson hide this from him? Did he not trust JB? He would easily choose Jackson more than the summer camp. More than everything that happened in the summer camp. He would let it all go in exchange of being with Jackson when he needed JB the most. Jaebum’s body betrayed him. Tears continuously to flow down his face with his mouth agape. If he would have only known earlier…

Time stands still. Beauty in all he is. I will be brave. I will not let anything take away what standing in front of me. Every breathe, every hour has come to this. One step closer.

Jaebum pulled Jackson into a tight hug. “I don’t know the reason why you are just telling me all of these important things a bit too late.” He stammered. “I’m sorry hyung”, Jackson choked unable to stop himself from crying. He’s always vulnerable infront of Jaebum. “This time, please allow me to stay by your side. I’ll forgive you with this.” Jaebum broke the hug and cupped Jackson’s face with his hands. Jackson nodded continuously like a scolded puppy. “Promise me you’ll not leave me. After everything is over, I’ll give you a proper reply to your confession.” He helped Jackson stand up and tried to wipe the tears off the younger boy’s face. “Stop crying now, Jack Jack. Mama Wang might think that I made you cry.” JB teased. He grabbed Jackson’s shoulder so that they are walking side by side. After they had one last look at the beach where they usually hang out, they both headed to the Wang’s residence.

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           After a week.

           A young man in a suit can be seen standing in the beach for God knows how long. He looks to be in deep thought as if remembering something or someone precious. He is holding a bouquet of white roses. He smiled when he heard someone approaching.

           “Im Jaebum!”

[emeraldbabygirl]

Who’s Manns am I?

Nowadays I feel like I can’t have a bias at all because it seems all the biases I have everyone else has. The biggest example is Namjoon and I’m not even gonna explain it cause I don’t want to but we’ll do this, my biases are Shownu, Jian, Heecheon, Jeonghan, Dongwoo, N JB, Sunwoo and many more. A lot of people would probably think my biases are ugly because they aren’t the standard or they don’t have that common look like Jungkook or Mark (Got7) or whatever. Sometimes I even think they’re ugly. I think my biggest problem is that I don’t want to share my bias because I think I’m the only one that has that person as a bias, the biggest example being Namjoon.

Let’s not let this make any sense, there’s a person on YouTube that makes Imfact videos and I could not be more grateful to them because they are introducing me into Imfact more. Their bias happens to be Jian. Since I never stanned Imfact before I wouldn’t know. They’re like the only other person I know online that is Jian biased so I’m okay with it. Heecheon, I find out, has a lot more fans than I thought. I’ve seen maybe five other people that are Heecheon biased thanks to an amazing unhelpful guide to Halo that this person made, bless them. But I’m honestly kinda jealous with this person, I feel like there could be competition as to who loves Heecheon more but it’s not as big as Namjoon; it doesn’t throw me in a depressing state for weeks like Namjoon. Shownu is my papa bear, my giant baby, my precious baby uwu, my Shownuwu. (Let’s talk about nicknames sometimes.)

Anyway, people, mostly on Tumblr will be like “so-n-so come get your man” and I’d be like I don’t have a man. I just have biases, some I feel very strongly towards, I’m still trying to figure out this “connection” thing. So, even if I found a “man” they would probably be too young like, I love Woojin, Sanha, Samuel. Woojin is my baby and Sanha and Samuel are my children, don’t confuse baby with children as they are extremely different in this case. They can’t be my mans because even tho Woojin is probably older than me, because of him being in Stray Kids and because of me discovering or stanning them now, them being 3rd gen idols, to me they can’t be my mans. They are too young in my eyes, they’re babies.

Let’s get this straight right now: Pentagon, SF9, Golden Child, Stray Kids, NCTDream, Astro, Seventeen, BlackPink, Weki Meki, Yeri, and Samuel are babies. I don’t care how old they are, I don’t care if most of them are older than me because of their place as an idol and where they stand on my timeline they are babies. I respect the members that are older than me, like all of Astro minus Sanha and Twice, BlackPink and Red Velvet minus Tzuyu and Yeri as young men and women but in my eyes since they are all so young. They debuted so young so I will always see them as children. I’m not saying I don’t respect the younger members because I do, way more than anyone else but I’m respecting the idols that are older than me or the same age as me, like Dino (Seventeen) and Mark (NCT), while still calling them babies. I might make a post about Jisung and the rest of the Dreamies as well as Felix, Yeri, Sanha, Tzuyu, Dino (Seventeen), and other idols that are my age or younger because of what they’re doing at their age, I have an overwhelming amount of respect and appreciation for them because of what I’m doing in my life at my age.

So my bias in SF9 is Zuho and Wooseok is my bias in Pentagon with Jinho being very close second, but they can’t be my mans because they are too young for me. I’ll say right now as a 19 year old that makes me sound dumb but like I said above, it’s the way I see it. It’s quite complicated this brain of mine. So many thoughts, a lot are actually very interesting and blog worthy if I do say so myself. So Wooseok and Zuho are too young for me. Like, let’s say I had the chance to be their gf, I would probably say no because of the way I see them. Yes they are both in their twenties but in my mind they are Sanha and Felix’s age. The twenty age is strange because Jian, Heecheon, Dongwoo, Shownu and definitely Namjoon are all in their twenties and I would be fine being with any of them. I’m comfortable saying ‘Shownu’s my mann’ (even tho he isn’t) because of the way I see him. He’s older than me true, like Zuho and Wooseok but Monsta-X is not a rookie group. All these new groups debuting are babies. Even if they’re in their twenties, babies. Like Noir and D-Crunch, most of the members of D-Crunch are older than me aside from Dylan who is younger than me. Some members of Noir are my age which is in fact spooky but they are babies. Saturday, GWSN, Neon Punch they’re babies too. Because they are new groups they are babies. That’s a clearer way of looking at it. Another way to see it is I see Shownu or Namjoon and think, they are big and mature so I’m ok with that. Like, Hakyeon, and JB but Dylan, Woojin, Wooseok and Zuho are smol. Yes I know Wooseok is like 7 feet, it’s like giant maknae Zelo all over again, but they are smol and maybe not as mature as they are rookies.

Honestly I’m not only confusing myself but also boring myself wowie. Jian and Heecheon are in between Dongwoo and Jeonghan. Dongwoo I can see as my mans or whatever, Jeonghan is young, not super young but he’s still a baby and let’s think of it like this, it would be weird to date him. Zuho would be really weird to date but not as weird as Sanha so he can’t be my mans. However Jian and Heecheon even tho they are babies, not baby Woojin babies but Shownu babies I would be okay with dating either one of them as well as calling them my mans, but are they my man? Maybe I don’t need a mans, I already have lots of baby daddies. I don’t to be like everyone else and say “look at my mans KyuKyu” and honestly as Namjoon is my ub Shownu is definitely my everything right now and I’m not that person that has only one bias and that’s it. I’ve got a lot so maybe I don’t need “a mans” I want one tho, I want people to be like “Willow come get your mans” I’m complicated but not basic.

(Btw I’m not talking about my biases like I will ever get the chance to date them because I’m not an idiot ok. I know what I am and I know my status in life, ain’t nobody datin me, idol or otherwise but this is just my nicknames for them. Woojin isn’t actually my baby and Shownu isn’t either. Also using “my mans” is obviously a joke no one’s claiming anybody as theirs. Certainly not me cause I’m not delusional but I can call them what I do if I want. Yeet.

And also stan Imfact, Halo, Infinite, Seventeen, Monsta-X, Noir, D-Crunch, Saturday, Neon Punch, GWSN, B.I.G, Bigflo, Astro, NU’EST, Hello Venus, Weki Meki, Cross Gene, Boys Republic, Boyfriend and Fx.

ShowhejihanwooCha out ��💜

[moonmoonbiin]

Bam Bam’s Twin Sister part 16!

                                                                                                                                 As soon as we're off the Ferris Wheel, Jackson takes off running and giggling. Mark, who's blushing slightly, takes off right after him.

"Whatever you're going to do, don't do it!" I can hear Mark yelling to Jackson.

Jaebum lets out a soft sigh, "Sorry to tell you this, Y/N, but Jackson's probably going to tease you and Mark forever about this."

"I wouldn't put it past him," I admit with a soft chuckle.

I hold Tai tightly as we walk, quickly catching up to Jackson, who found Papa and Mama Tuan. He was out of breath, but giggling like mad. Mark was standing beside him, just out of breath and trying with all his might to get him to be quite. But to make the one and only Jackson Wang shut up, is a hard task.

"You should have seen them!" Jackson wheeze to Papa Tuan, who was smiling in amusement. He held up his thumb and pointer finger, having them externally close, "they were this close to kissing! And they would have, if Youngjae hadn't ruined it!"

"Who almost kissed?" Bam Bam asked, walking up with Yugyeom.

My eyes widen slightly, a light blush tinting to my face.

"Mark and Y/N almost kissed," Jinyoung spoke up like it was nothing and I heard Mark let out a small whine. I glared at Jinyoung, but he seemed unfazed and smiled back at me.

Bam Bam on the other hand, almost choked. "W-What," he sputtered. "Are you guys joking?"

"No we're not joking!" Jackson declared. "I've worked my butt off all this week to push them two together and just when it was getting good, Youngjae ruins it!"

Mark slaps his face with his hand and Youngjae pouts as he speaks, "I said I was sorry!"

Yugyeom is snickering, "way to go, Mark," he nudges his side. But Mark looks beyond done with them (and so am I at this point) and swats Yugyeom away with a huff.

"Pebbles, this is a joke, right?" Bam Bam asks in confusion. "I mean, I thought you had a crush on Jb Hyung?"

There's a small gasp and I find myself wanting to do nothing more than to hide in the nearest hole- that is, right after I strangle Bam Bam!

Jaebum's eyes are wide in surprise, and so is Mark's and I feel so guilty.

"I did," I admit.

"Oh snap," Jackson mutters, but I ignore him.

"It was a little crush," I say, looking at Jaebum. "And you're still very cute and sweet, but this past week, I've come to realize that much like Jackson and the others, you're more of a brother figure to me."

Jaebum smiles softly, "you're like a little sis, too," he nods.

"And Mark..." I glance at him and immediately my face is warm. "Who I thought was like a brother to me... Turned out to be so much more..."

Mark beams at that, his smile is so wide, that I can't help but smile with him. It's hard to believe I just realized how sweet and wonderful he is, and that he thinks the same way of me.

"So what does this mean?!" Bam asks, looking between me and Mark quickly.

"It means," Papa Tuan cuts in. "That it's time to go. Come on, everyone into the van."

I find myself in the back of the van, stationed between Mark and Bam Bam. Bam hasn't taken his glare off Mark since we've started driving and I'm close to punching him.

"Bam, stop glaring at me!" Mark finally huffs.

I can hear Jackson and Yugyeom snickering.

"This is going to be entertaining," Jinyoung comments.

"Okay, Mark," Bam says, trying to be intimidating. "If that's even you're real name-"

"For crying out loud," Mark grumbles.

"Maybe Mark will hit him when we get back," Youngjae giggled.

"What are your intentions with my Y/N?" Bam asks.

"Bam, shut up," I groan. "Please..."

"It's my job as the big brother to protect you!" He says stubbornly.

"But you're acting ridiculous," I huff at him. "You know Mark! It's the same Mark who's room you used to sneak into and cuddle with when you had a bad dream!"

"I-I didn't do that!" Bam sputters as the rest of He boys burst out laughing.

"Yeah you did, Dad has pictures of it," Mark tells him.

"That I do," Papa Tuan smiles proudly.

"Please show us them when we get back," Jaebum laughs. "These are things we've got to see."

Thankfully, that turned the chatter away from Mark and I, and more towards teasing Bam Bam. Mark's hand slid down and found my hand, giving it a gentle squeeze. I couldn't help but think about how nice it felt.

By the time we arrived back to the Tuan's, almost everyone was exhausted. I settled Tai on my bed and as Bam went to go shower, I changed into some simple pajamas. It wasn't long before he came back, and sighed as he fell onto his bed.

"Pebbles," he muttered against his sheets.

"Yeah?" I glance up from my phone to look at him.

"You and Mark... Are you two really a thing?"

I swallowed at the question, my cheeks heating slightly. "I hope we are..." I tell him honestly. "Are you mad?"

"No," he yawns. "Just kinda surprised, is all."

"My feelings for him came as a surprise to me too," I admitted with a small laugh.

Bam Bam chuckles softly as he adjusts himself into a more comfortable position. It's only a few minutes later when I hear him snoring softly. I shake my head gently, that boy had always been able to fall asleep at the drop of the hat.

My phone buzzing catches my attention and I smile when I see who it's from.

Markie: If you're still awake, please come downstairs.

I set my phone back down before quietly slipping off the bed. I tip-toe towards the door, being careful not to wake Bam before I open it and creak it closed as quietly as I can. I make my way down the stairs as carefully as I could before reaching the living room. It's dim, mostly everyone is asleep, but the kitchen's light is still on. I smile to myself and head that way.

Mark is sitting at the island, eating chocolate ice cream straight from the carton. "That's probably not the best midnight snack," I tease him as I sat on a stool beside him.

He just grins and hands me an extra spoon that he had got out. Who am I to turn down ice cream? We eat in comfortable silence for a few minutes before I break it.

"So..." I start. "When did you first start liking me?" I ask curiously. "Like, you know..." I blush slightly.

"A few months ago," he tells me with a small smile. "You remember when you and Bam did FaceTime for your birthday?"

I nod with a smile, because I remember it clearly. All the guys were there and they sung Happy Birthday to both me and Bam.

"It was then that I realized how much you had really grown, I guess," he shrugs. "I mean, you had always been cute, but suddenly you weren't this little girl anymore and you're a young woman and a really cute young woman at that."

By the heat I can feel on my cheeks, I'm sure that my blush won't be leaving anytime soon.  

"So Jaebum, hm?" Mark asks and I feel my eyes widening. At seeing his teasing smirk, I groan.

I nudged him slightly, "he is very cute," I tease back.

"Oh most definitely," Mark snickers, turning his attention back to the ice cream.

Now's my chance! I lean up, and kiss his cheek quickly, causing his eyes to go wide and I can see his cheeks reddening slightly. I smile at him as he looks me, "you're the cutest, though."

"Gah..." he lets out a small sigh. "You make me a mess..." he murmurs.

I can't help but feel proud of myself and I grin cheekily. "Now I know your weakness," I tease.

"Oh?" He raises an amused eyebrow before he leans down and kisses my nose, and suddenly I can't breathe!

Mark leans back, his eyes sparkling in amusement as mine widen. I stare at him, my lips parting slightly as he watches me. We don't say anything, but with the way my heart is beating, I feel as if we don't need words at the moment. Mark starts to lean in and my eyes close before he even reaches me. His lips are firm, yet soft and they send a flutter of butterflies off in my stomach. My mind swirls and as he leans back, my lips are buzzing.

"Mark..." I whisper as he leans back. I feel as if my cheeks are on fire, but I also feel externally giddy.

Mark grins, and leans down to kiss me once again.  

AND THERE’S THE KISS WE’VE BEEN WAITING FOR 

[Part fifteen] // [Part seventeen] 

Next part- The finale :( :( :(  

I was going to post this earlier, but BTS’ comeback wrecked me 

[the-goddesswrites]

Genesis | Chapter 1

[Prologue]

Twenty five weeks and three days - you’d never felt so exhausted, between work and taking care of everything in the house to prepare for the baby had taken its toll on you. Your body had changed in ways you could have never expected, the first sign was the obvious - you missed your period, you chalked it up to stress from the work load you’d taken on once your internship at a modeling agency started. When the doctor told you that you were in fact pregnant it took everything in you not to break whatever bit of sanity you had claim to - there was hesitation then acceptance. Telling your family had been harder than you had thought it would be, seeing the look of disappointment spread across the face of people you loved made your heart sink but the unwavering affection of your mother never ceased to amaze you. There was a period of time where they would consistently ask you to bring the father over so they could meet him, and once again the look of shame spread on face after face once they realized that he wouldn’t be around and you’d been knocked up by some guy who wanted nothing to do with you.

“Paisley c’mon, girl,” you smiled then you cooed to your Yorkie who was seemingly always staring into space, you heard her little feet pad on the floor as she came onto the couch next to you.

Taking a deep breath you laid on your side, and she took the opportunity to curl up on the side of your stomach quickly dozing off. The moment was pretty common since your stomach was now bigger than you had thought it would be, she often sought out comfort - she’d be sorely disappointed once the baby was born. Taking out your phone you took several pictures, deciding you would update everyone on how things were going - seeing as how most of your family lived out of state it seemed only right to keep them informed. Your social media account had been pretty quiet when it came to the announcement of your pregnancy - you’d posted a few vague posts about new changes and something life changing morphing into your life or even becoming a whole new person. However, you’d never really let out exactly what was changing in your life, keeping things private had always been a common place for you. Especially after the fling you’d had when Mark and his friends came to visit.

Your mind wandered to him the one who’d seemingly nestled his way into your heart without actually meaning to, his face flashed through your mind and you closed your eyes. The images of him smiling when you two had your late night talks after hours of falling over the edge again and again. The memory was bittersweet, and part of you felt like you’d never feel that kind of connection again because when he touched you there was no right or wrong; you hadn’t even realized it till so much later that the two of you hadn’t used protection. The stupidity of the situation you were in now was all because the neither of you were smart enough to buy condoms, albeit you’d never trade your daughter for the world - your life could be easier if you had been smarter.

The day had passed quickly, you found that when you enjoyed your days at work everything felt as if it were on fast forward - you had assisted on two photoshoots today. Standing in with the lighting equipment as well as helping with the makeup and wardrobe changes since you were very short staffed. You were more than happy when you walked walked into the house, your feet ached as you kicked your shoes off not feeling bothered to bend over, these days it tended to make it hard to breathe. You were about to go to the kitchen to make yourself something to eat when your phone buzzed from inside your purse. There was a notification from instagram - no one ever messaged your or liked your posts but your mom saw them so that was all that mattered, however this notification made your heart stop; bambam1a liked your image!

And when it buzzed again you thought you might throw up but you closed your eyes taking a deep breath before reading the message as it appeared on your screen; bambam1a commented on your image! A part of you wanted to fly to Korea just to smack the crap out of him, his feed would show him liking and commenting on her post - worst was yet to come and it scared you.

bambam1a: ?????????

Of course he was confused, he and everyone else knew you and Jaebum had hooked up almost every night he was in LA - they’d have to be deaf and blind not to know what was going on. You knew he was far from stupid, and you also had a feeling he would tell Jaebum when he had the chance to - unless he already knew. Suddenly your phone was buzzing non-stop, it froze you in fear as you stared at it as if it had become some possessed entity all on its own. Comment after comment asking who the hell you were, to stay away from their bammie, to downright terrifying threatening your child - you did the only thing you could do; disabled comments and made your profile private. You spent the next hour just staring at your phone, how had this happened? When had Bam Bam gotten ahold of your SNS? Did he have your twitter too?

There were too many questions you didn't have answers to, but all you could really think of was what was Jaebum thinking if he knew? The anxiety that thrummed through you for the next couple of days had you on edge, everyone at work could tell but they hadn't said anything; maybe a joking comment about 'cut back on the caffeine' or two but never anything that suggested genuine worry. Today being your day off you’d spent most of it sleeping, if there was one thing pregnancy did to you it was making you extra tired - sleep was like second nature to you now and before all this you had swore cats just weren’t you but now you were thinking you were more like a cat than you’d ever thought before. As you were about to settle on the couch, relax into the cushions for another nap your phone ‘quacked’ making you groan before picking it up, when you saw who messaged you let out a deep breath.

[Papa Tuan: you never come over anymore, we’re having a bbq tonight - you should come. ] [[Y/N]: I can’t I have a lot of stuff to do for work - maybe some other time?]

You were pretty good at avoiding questions, but you knew you couldn’t avoid your extended family for long. Having grown up right down the street from them you played outside with Mark on more than one occasion. In fact there was a time when you two were connected at the hip, many people assumed you two would end up together but the thought just plain disturbed you both. When he’d moved to Korea to begin training to become a musician you were sad, not only was your best friend gone but now you had no one to really lean on. Sure, you had a couple friends from work but they had their own families or they didn’t feel like doing anything that didn’t have alcohol involved which left you out, not that you liked drinking all too much anyway.

[Papa Tuan: come on - please? We miss you, and you never told us anything about your being pregnant…]

Your breath caught in your throat, of course he knew - there was no way he couldn’t have known. In fact you were surprised he hadn’t found out sooner, your mother really didn’t know when to stop talking and your father just complained about you doing this alone more often that he actually spoke about the baby itself. It didn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out that Bam Bam had probably spoken to him about your condition out of confusion and when he didn’t know about it there was even more of it to go around for everyone. It took you ten minutes to reply but you didn’t know what to say, you couldn’t not say anything, that’d be rude. He was like a second father to you, and he’d give you an ear full if you didn’t talk to him that much you had learned when you were in high school.

[[Y/N]: I’m kind of busy with work though…] [Papa Tuan: I kind of already promised Mark you would be here? He missed you,]

It was as if your entire body was thrown into the air, you felt as if you were free falling right now - how had you not know that Mark was in LA? Usually he texted you as soon as he landed, but this time; he hadn’t said a word. The only thing that crossed your mind was that the others were with him, but there’d been no news of a concert - and he never came home unless it was urgent. Right now the only thing that you could think of to bring him back to LA on such short notice would be you, so out of curiosity you grabbed your laptop off the table then began to scroll through your twitter feed looking for pictures of him at the airport.

He was alone? It felt almost too good to be true, taking a deep breath you typed in got7lax into the search bar, but still only Mark appeared in the pictures even the fans were confused as to why he had come home. They’d just been here about six and half months ago, a lot of fans expressed their concerns but he didn’t look upset he looked happy just like he always did when he was home. Picking up your phone you sighed slowly typing in the message you didn’t really want to send, but knew that you’d have to because it wasn’t below Mark to come to your house if you refused.

[[Y/N]: Alright - I’ll be over around 5?] [Papa Tuan: Good, we’ve got a lot to talk about kiddo - we’ve missed you..] [[Y/N]: I’ve missed you guys too, tell Mark to get some rest and I’ll be there eventually,]

There was no reply after that, sitting on the couch you knew if you didn’t move to get ready you never would ut the thought that JB knew about the baby still scared you; you did all this for a reason to make your life and his a whole lot easier. His career could end because of this pregnancy and that was not something you wanted to even think about, he’d worked so hard to get where he was - Got7 was finally getting recognition they deserved. This was the last thing he needed, but there was a part of you that doubted every conviction you had against telling him. Another part of you wanted to message him and tell him everything, but at the same time you knew better - you knew he’d never want to talk to you again after you had kept so much from him. Begrudgingly you got up off the couch heading to your bedroom to change into something suitable to visit with a friend, sliding on your shoes you picked up Paisley and walked out the door with your purse in your other hand.

Rent in LA was crazy, and you lived there for a while but it came down to being practical, with a baby on the way you knew that living outside the city would save you more in the long run. As it turned out a friend of your sister’s was renting out a small two bedroom in a decent neighborhood, and because she knew you she didn’t charge a deposit or pet fee like she would anyone else. Rent was manageable and you didn’t feel like you were going to end up broke at the end of every check. It felt like entire drive flew by, and before you knew it you were parked in front of the house that you’d been to so many times before. Nothing had really changed - the grass looked better kept and there were a few more flowers than when you’d been there earlier in the year.

Climbing out of the car you called Paisley behind you and smiled as she ran to the door staying by your feet, you felt lucky she listened well because you were in no shape to go chasing after her. The front door opened and you were greeted by Mark who had a wide smile on his face; the familiarity brought a sense of comfort as he brought you into his arms. You buried your face into his shoulder then pulled back when you felt his hands rest on your stomach, he rubbed it lightly the pulled back when he felt the baby kick.

“Holy shit,” he murmured lightly moving his hand back onto your stomach “I didn’t think it was true,”

You hummed in agreement, “me either,” you murmured then laughed a little, “How’ve you been?”

He rocked his head back forth, the motioned for you to come into the house with him, ”I’ve been pretty good, we’re all really tired but it’s good to be home for a while, we all really missed you when we left, some more than others,” he said with a knowing expression as he pulled out a chair for you to sit down at then grabbed two glasses filling them both with water.  

“What about you? Dad said you got the internship at that agency, how's that going?” he asked as he set the classes down in front of you then sat down.

You nodded a little, “It’s going alright, I’m tired more often than not and I’m working about fifty hours a week but it’s okay. I have a decent sized savings account right now so that's good - I am looking into buying a crib soon but I don’t even know where to start,” you sighed as she chewed on in the side of your cheek, and you knew he wanted to ask just by how he was looking at you. You’d known him for over twelve years now, and there wasn’t much you couldn’t read from an expression on his face.

“Is it Jaebum’s?” Seeing Mark be serious was something that was rare, while he was often quiet, seriousness just wasn’t something he was unless he had to be. Being the oldest in the group you knew he would take it seriously when it came to the fact that their lives would be changing in such a drastic way.

You exhaled then ran a hand over your face “That's the million dollar question, isn’t it?” you whispered delicately then nodded, “yeah its his,”

Mark looked shocked for a moment, but you could tell it had been the answer he was expecting ,”You should have told him,” he exclaimed, his voice was a little louder, there had only been a couple of times when he had gotten angry with you. You hadn’t expected any less when you met him today, of course he’d be angry with you - his best friend had gotten you pregnant and you’d neglected to tell anyone. “He has the right to know, [Y/N],” his voice was quiet but you couldn’t bring yourself to say anything until you were sure he was done.

“I couldn’t damage his career like this, no matter how tired I am or how hard this is I can do this… I don’t want him to end up in some huge scandal because he..” closing your eyes you trailed off, this was the first time you’d thought about him this much in ages. Of course there’d been times when you’d cried so hard you couldn’t breathe. Simply thinking about when he’d hold you as you dozed off in his arms, or when he’d place a soft kiss at the side of your neck as a greeting.  The memories were painful at best, and soul killing at the worst. Most times just seeing his face on your computer made your heart stop, seeing him smile only made it worse. People say love takes time to develop but you didn’t think so, love happens when it wants to and you loved Jaebum.

Mark eyed you carefully before nodding, he understood at least you hoped but before he could speak someone cleared their throat from behind you. Slowly you turned around then immediately stood up, his eyes flashed to your stomach and you saw him inhale his jaw clenched as he shook his head. “Why did you tell him?!” you spoke frantically your voice cracking as you felt the panic creep up your throat. Your heart rate had to be triple the normal right now and all you could do to keep yourself from crying was taking deep breaths.

“He found out on his own, Bam and I were going to wait till I could confirm it with my dad but he got anxious - used the manager's phone,” he said as he looked you with an unsure expression then stood up, “I’ll let you two talk,”

Mark was out of the room before you could even manage to get a word in, you didn’t want to be alone with him not with how he was looking at you; despite missing him and wanting nothing more than to be in his arms - you felt like bolting for the door.  “Why didn’t you tell me?” he asked a he took a step closer to you, you didn’t move away because being closer to him had been the one thing you’d wanted since you stared at the pregnancy test that turned positive so quickly.

“Jaebum, you know why,” you murmured and he sighed as he shook his head - obviously that answer wasn’t good enough for him, “I don’t know what you want me to say,”

“I could have been there through the whole beginning of it then you could have come back with me, and it would have worked fine - it’s going to work fine,” he said seriously as he looked at you. You’d never seen him this way before, he was always smiling or making some sort of weird face at one of the members. When he was with you he seemed at peace, no talking was really necessary just lacing your finger was enough communication to keep you both sated for a while.

“That's not true and you know it, if this gets out your career could be over,” you spoke to him as you wet your lips, “there is so much more at stake,”

Before you knew it he was in front of you cupping your face in his hands resting his forehead on yours, “I’m not letting you raise our baby without me, I will be there every step of the way; you can be upset about it that's fine but I’m not leaving here without you. Let me finish,”  his hands moved from your face to your hands then laced his fingers with yours and your heart was singing then he brought your hands up kissing the backs of them. “We’re going to get through this together, me, you and got7. We’re going to make it just fine,”

The burning in your eyes began and you knew once you started crying you couldn’t stop so you buried your face into the nape of his neck before letting out a choked sob, your hands removing themselves from his only to clutch onto the fabric of his shirt, “I missed you so much,” you cried softly as he wrapped his arms around you burying his face into your shoulder - you felt warm tears fall onto your skin.

“I missed you too - so much,” he whispered, his voice cracked and he inhaled before speaking again, “but I’m here now,”

[summersnowdrops]

GOT7 Flight Log: Turbulence in LA Recap

So where do I even start because this honestly was a really really good experience

So first off, for the first time in all the concerts I’ve been to, there was no security check? Which was great because we actually all got into the venue and our seats within 10 minutes max of being in line! But at the same time I feel like it could be potentially dangerous because you never know what might happen. 

So I got into the venue pretty early so I went to go find where my seat was and then went to go wait in the insane bathroom line so I wouldn’t have to go during the actual fm. While I was waiting in line, this girl in front of me asked if we were allowed to bring in water bottles because she thought we weren’t allowed to and was super thirsty so I offered her some of mine and she thanked to me and told me papa tuan had arrived outside and was taking pics with people outside but I was already inside so I couldn’t go back outside.

But anyways so after the bathroom I went back into the venue and as I was entering I heard all these screams and people waving and a mob in my aisle and thought got7 was here but there was mob so I couldn’t see. I went to sit down and asked the girls next to me what happened (I was sitting second from the aisle on the right) and they told me that Papa Tuan was actually sitting right across the aisle from us, hence the huge mob. The whole two rows were full of Mark’s family and they were sooo nice and sweet and patient even when hordes of fans were asking for a picture with them. Eventually a security guard had to step in and literally stand in front of Mark’s dad and physically prevent people from asking him for pictures. The whole time he was super nice to the fans and indulged them and it was also really cute because they received a lot of goodie bags and gifts from fans and also had a light up board for Mark that had ‘Tuan” on it in Chinese. We (the girl sitting next to me that I made friends with) also wanted to go up and ask for a picture but didn’t want to be annoying or rude and crowd them too so we held ourselves back haha. But we did get a picture at the end and Mark’s dad was so nice he even asked if we wanted to take a video which we did but neither of us were prepared for a video so it’s really just a super awk video of us smiling in the camera for 5 seconds haha. I really wanted to say something to them but I blanked and also my Mandarin isn’t good enough to say anything substantial unfortunately.

But moving on to the fanmeet itself, IT WAS SO GREAT. I think they performed like 5 songs - Hard Carry at the end, Just Right, Prove It, Boomx3 (Jinyoung asked Double Bam to introduce the song lol), Fly (THIS WAS SO GOOD LIVE), and other songs which I totally blanked on, also I think No Jam ?? also maybe home run?

But in between they had like a Q&A questions with questions from fans written on post-its and each member picked one.

The first one was Jackson’s question and it was for all the members - “What is your ideal type?”

He made Yugyeom go first lol the poor baby who says his type was a cutie sexy igot7 I think, and bam bam says his was similar, mark says his was igot7, jaebum said he has none, jinyoung was like ‘just one word. you!’, and youngjae pointed at a girl in the crowd and said you and she cried and the mcs were like dude you made her cry and yj was like half laughing but also felt bad so he told her not to cry which tbh I’m sure made her cry more hahaha. But jackson said his ideal type was a girl who only loves him because ‘you can’t share girls you know???’ and said he’d see those who were interested after the show. Most of the members tried to speak in English most of the time which I appreciate but I could see them struggling but still trying which was super cute. 

They also asked for their favorite disney movies to which jinyoung answered toy story and mark said storks? and also dumbo I think which is really a great movie I am also a fan. And Jaebum really likes La La Land and the members made fun of him saying he also knew the OST lol and they made him sing a couple lines from it.

Jinyoung’s question was his first impression of the members lol and he said he first impression of jackson was that he was a hk actor lol, mark was darker than he is now, youngjae was really cute, bambam was TINY like 3 ft tall and jackson being jackson was like no like THIS tall and gestured like 1 ft above the ground and eventually got on the ground pretending to look for bambam cus he was so small haha. jaebum he said he knew jaebum for 7 years and he used to be more quiet and stuff and yugyeom he thought was older than him lol. 

Jaebum’s question was what inspires him when he writes/makes music I think and he said that like it comes from his imagination but also the fact that people are listening to what he creates gives him the motivation and moves him to keep doing it and thanked us for being the reason (he said it almost all in korean and mumbled a lot so sorry if I missed something).

There was also a question to JB about why he likes or what he likes most about RnB and he said he liked that the beat isn’t that strong but chill so he can jam and also he just likes it lol.

It was a little awk because some of the members picked questions directed towards other members but it all worked out so it was okay.

There was also a question asking for bambam and yugyeom to do juju on that beat and they did and it was so cute and everyone went crazy.

After they did another song and then was the game time !! They passed out raffle tickets when you first came in and drew them and if you won you would be paired with a member for a game of like korean hacky sack they called it and I guess there were two rolls of tickets they used - one started with 264 or 294 and another roll started with 918 (my type) and obv no one shuffled the tickets or mixed them because 6/7 members picked a ticket starting with 2 and I died because why why why did no one shuffle but jackson got a 918 at the end and was confused and asked if all the tickets were supposed to start with 2 because his didn’t and he was confused and half the place screamed because FINALLY we had a chance which I guess jackson took as a cue that nope there was nothing wrong with the ticket. obv I didn’t get to go on stage but tbh with only 1/7 even picking a 918 ticket, I literally had probably a 1/600 chance so yeah.

But anyways while the fans who got picked were lining up, got7 played the guess the song game and were very into it but also very bad lol. jinyoung like gave up halfway and put his head on top of the speaker to hear better but i was like woah kid calm down are you trying to go deaf please be careful. but eventually even the mc felt bad for him and gave him a chance and i think (?) whispered the answer to Jinyoung but he either didn’t hear it or what because he still answered wrong lol and was like he (the mc) told me! youngjae was very good at this game and jackson and everyone else was a mess lol. and bambam had the most dramatic baaaaaaammmm when he wanted to answer. the punishment if you got the answer wrong was to to ahgase (basically a baby bird squat thingy and flap their arms it was so cute) 

next was the fan game where they had to hacky sack and everyone introduced their partners and asked their favorite song and bambam called his partner noona after he found out her age and jackson was really happy because his partner was from china but also lw salty because her bias was jinyoung haha everyone was kinda bad at this besides jinyoung and his partner who got like 15?? and everyone was like woaahhh and they had really good chemi and did like a little pose and when he asked what her favorite song was he whispered to her so she said her favorite song was his song lol. and youngjae’s asked her age and she answered who’s that and he was like wait what oh okay what’s your favorite song and she said who’s that and he was like YOU DON’T LIKE REWIND?????? but anyways mark ending up beating jinyoung and his partner and was so happy he hugged his partner and picked her up (she was this small cute girl with light up green shoes) and everyone SCREAMED lol. jaebum’s partner got one and he was like YES to be supportive and then he got one lol and was like YES to save face it was great. bambam let his partner go first and was like ‘my queen go first’ and i died it was so cheesy and yugyeon went last and accidentally hit his partner with the thing they were kicking and she played along and pretended to fall down and he fell down and they hugged after and it was so cute she was nice and funny.

Hmm after this I don’t really remember what else happened besides more songs during which I screamed my lungs out and probably creeped out and annoyed the people next to me with my screaming. 

During the ending speeches, yugyeom thanked all the fans for their burning passion and love, bambam said la felt like a second home and really really liked it and would come back soon and cooler and shock us?? i forgot what jaebum said but mark spoke in english and said he really appreciated la fans because it was because of us that he could come back to see his family and said they counted on us every time they came to the us and maybe they would come back for kcon or some other time this year?? his family next to me cheered a lot during this and the crowd awww’ed a lot. i also don’t exactly remember what jinyoung said but i’m sure it was along the lines of thank you and i love you and we’ll be back soon. jackson also spoke in english and basically said happy new year and that haters will never be satisfied so to live doing what you like and what you want to do because it’s your life. and last but not least youngjae was the cutest little thing he thanked us and said la made him happy but also he was really happy because someone he really liked was here (elliot yamin) and the mc asked who it was and youngjae was like please turn on the lights where is he and the lights above the balcony turned on and everyone pointed to elliot yamina and sanjoy and their other friend and people screamed and the mc/members got youngjae to sing ‘wait for you’ to elliot yamin and it was so cute he was so happy. 

and then the members waved and left but there was an encore and everyone ran down to the stage for the encore and originally the security guard wouldn’t let people pass and was like physically pulling people back but eventually let us go and i found out later that mark’s dad was the one who walked up and asked the security guard to let us go but she said no and he said just let them go up and she let us go PAPA TUAN IS SO NICE HOW but anyways it was very squished and hot up front and a girl idk used me as an armrest to record ?? i didn’t even know her and another girl had her arm like pushing against my face and pushing my head out of the way trying to record. but the members were taking fan’s phones and taking selfies of themselves and members and the crowd and taking videos and i saw jaebum up close and jinyoung they’re so so goodlooking and yugyeom paid a lot of attention to our side of the stage and they sang no jam and it was so great. after the encore, i went back to my seat and we asked mark’s dad for a picture and he literally looked so HAPPY when we were the ones who were asking for a picture not him but he was so nice.

and then they asked everyone who wasn’t p1 or p2 to leave and checked wristbands and p1 went first with the group photo and it was so different from normal group photos where it’s like just the members standing and fans sitting and just a simple picture. everyone was back hugging or holding hands with the fans except jaebum the awk child who held thumbs up signs or made faces but literally did not touch the fans and i regret not doing p1 because it was just advertised as a group photo but literally the chairs are all in a line so as you leave the stage you also get a hitouch. but halfway through the staff realized their mistake and put staff members in between the chairs and got7 (who i am now gonna call gotsob (shout out to arandelly for this) because they make me sob with happiness/they’re so kind/goodlooking/talented/what is wrong with them sometimes)

anyways for the the hitouch my friend and i were originally really close the front of the line but we got so nervous because we didn’t know what to say to the members or even if we should say anything and who should we talk to so we stepped out of line to brainstorm and all of the sudden the members were gone and we were like what?? but then the mc was like people have been doing hitouch and getting back in line so we’re gonna figure it out and bring them back out after but if we catch another person doing that we will cancel the whole thing so during the wait the best thing i could think of was to tell jaebum i love him (typical but all i could think of) and jackson to come back soon in canto (because i personally get excited just hearing cantonese spoken at school (i got to ucla so its lot of koreans and not a lot of canto people so i imagined jackson would be even happier hearing canto because hk and he lives in korea) but they rearranged the order of members after they came back out (it used to be jaebum second from the front and jackson at the end of the line but now it was jackson first then jaebum right after) so i was too nervous to say anything to jackson because he was first and then it was jaebum but jackson was so nice and smiley and jaebum had a slight smile but still a little awk and youngjae was super super sunshiney so that made me less nervous and bambam was also very smiley and all the members made eye contact when you passed by which was really sweet and for yugyeom i had to reorient myself and look up because he was so tall and mark was like saying bye to everyone as they passed by and jinyoung was last but he didn’t really make eye contact because he was looking at the next person behind me so basically i highfived him while staring at his side profile lol and awk saying bye to all of them. there was actually enough time for me to say something to all the members but i had no idea what to say so i literally just stared at them and smiled as i walked by so i’m pretty sure they thought i was unenthusiastic and awk and gah i am ashamed

also one thing I noticed was jaebum kept putting on his hood during the songs??? I’m not sure if it was too bright or he was trying to focus or the lights hurt his eyes?? or if that’s what he normally does?? It was the first time I’ve seen him do that so I wasn’t sure. Like i understand people put up their hoods when they’re dancing but he just did it for like the whole song??? even fly which is kind of an upbeat song? 

also during the song game jaebum said his name really cute so everyone was making fun of him like jaebeom ! jaebom!

so that was basically my recap of the fanmeeting, hopefully it was slightly interesting??

[kethwithlove]

KWENTONG JOLLIBEE

I did get my first “real job” when I was 16 and I called it my “gateway to adulthood”.

I was 4th year college when I joined Jollibee. I applied as a Service Crew because I wanted to experience how to earn money and sustain my needs in school without a help from my parents. I submitted my application in Jollibee-JP Laurel, Davao which is near to my school (USeP-Obrero). I was told to wait for a text or call for an interview. I received a message from Jollibee 2 weeks after I submitted my resume. “Gikulbaan ko nga wa ko kasabot nga feeling.”

The day of my Interview

Ma’am Anne. Fierce, beautiful and cool. She asked me a lot about my skills, talents and my attitude towards customers. Purely situational questions. I was nervous and a bit excited. Ma’am Anne endorsed me to the next phase of the interview.

Ma’am Diane. She was pregnant that time. A little moody but soft-hearted. She doesn’t like the smell of my perfume (Vanilla scent) but she managed to have a conversation with me. She was wearing a hanky-mask when she interviewed me.

When she asked me “Keth, how do you see yourself in Jollibee?” I said, “Honestly, I don’t know yet, Ma’am since this is my first ever job. Maybe this is my gateway to adulthood.” She laughed. I was fragile that time, an innocent girl without any idea what future brings. Ma’am Diane told me to wait for a text with a big smile on her lovely face.

I GOT THE JOB!

I received an SMS that I needed to attend the orientation. I was in awe! To my surprise, I was hired and became part of the pioneer team of Jollibee-Buhangin. A perfect timing, indeed.

  Orientation Day. Ma’am Diane (Store Manager) holding the mic. Sir Jerzon (ICT expert and Singer) and my co-trainees.

TRAINING

We had our training at Jollibee-JP Laurel, Buhangin. It’s not a simple training BUT a very challenging yet rewarding training.

Ma’am Yen. Witty, pretty and jolly. She was my mentor. She trained me a lot. I thought I only needed to learn on how to host a party, fix the mascot and assist customers BUT to my surprise, I needed to LEARN everything in JOLLIBEE. I’m obliged to passed the certification before they endorsed me from a crew trainee to a full-fledged Service Crew.

I had one memorable experience with Mama Yen. My FIRST task as the Store Marketing Officer.

The client booked for a 3-hour seminar. As the assigned crew, I reminded the client that she only had 30min left. 3hrs beyond is subject for an additional fee. She did not listen to me. She consumed 4hrs already. When she asked for the bill, she was so mad that she needed to pay for an additional hour. She scolded me. I was trained by Mama Yen to empathize and to stay calm whenever I encounter an irate customer. I explained the excess charges but she was furious. Mama Yen rescued me. Phew!

Another palpak day. I booked a wrong date for a children’s party. Kitchen crew prepared the ordered food based on the booking. Feel nako palayason nako ni Mama Yen.🤣 Ratol na pud ko. But, Mama Yen is professional. She just told me “Ketch, lesson learned. Next time, tan-awa jud ang kalendaryo.” Thanks to my katangahan, the food they prepared turned out to be our CREW MEAL.

Ketch. Mama Yen’s endearment. I love her so much. She’s now in Canada with her family. I missed her a lot!

Ground ZERO

  I experienced the following training: The “ACKNOWLEDGE” word, order-taking, cashier station, drive-thru cashier, customer service, POS machine training, kitchen, fry, inventory of stocks, sanitation, proper calling of orders (PC for POS 1 spag 1 to go please), and a lot more! Imagine how difficult it was for a first timer. But, I was happy. Tired but rewarding.

My FIRST HOSTING career in Jollibee

I was still a TRAINEE when I experienced my first hosting career in Jollibee.

We had the chance to visit the House of Hope Foundation for Kids with Cancer Inc. located inside SPMC (Southern Philippines Medical Center). We had an outreach program sponsored by two Jollibee stores (JP Laurel and Buhangin).

I was a bit scared but somehow excited because that was my first time to host an event outside the store’s premises. Looking on the face of the children with Cancer made me brave. I needed to do well.

Ma’am Diane tapped my shoulder and said, “Kaya mo yan, Keth!” Sir Jerzon wished me luck as well. Sir Lan helped me with the mascot.

From the Left: Ma’am Diane, Me, Ma’am Jinggay, Sir Yan, crew mates, Sir Lan, Sir Jerzon and the rest of the team.

OPENING OF JOLLIBEE BUHANGIN

Jollibee BUHANGIN Grand Opening

The Management Team

From the Left: Ma’am Diane (Store Manager), Sir Jerzon, Ma’am Anne, Sir Yan, Sir Lan, JB Staff and Ma’am Jinggay

Sir Jerzon. Famous line: Oooh Yeah! Sir Jerzon was the coolest among them. He loves singing. The most memorable day I had with Sir Jerzon was during my birthday. He was with us ALL DAY (til’ dawn). We had Karaoke sesh, too!

Hi, Sir Jerzon!

One day, we received a letter (memo). It was gloomy. Everything went dull. There was a directive to transfer Sir Jerzon to another Jollibee branch. I was in pain. I cried like a baby. Begged Sir Jerzon to stay. But, we had no choice. Sir Jerzon left a little scar in our hearts that time.

It’s been 14 years, nothing has changed. Sir Jerzon is still HIM. Idol! He is now a successful Broker. If you guys are looking for a House and Lot or Condominium, Sir Jerzon can help you.

Sir Jerzon, THANK YOU! You taught me a lot of things. You are not just the PCQ Manager but our Big Brother.

Ma’am Jinggay. She was my confidant. I was with her during her Ups and Downs. There have been many hardships and struggles, but through it all, Ma’am Jinggay tried to remain grateful and focused on the positives along the way. She was a strong woman.

Ma’am Jinggay hired me as a Tutor to her Kids – Ena and Patty. How can I not love you, Ma’am Jinggay? I will never forget your kindness. I will always treasure you, Ma’am Jing.

Ma’am Jinggay and Me

  Ma’am Anne. Soft-spoken and sweet. She always got my back. I loved how she treated me since day one. She never scolded me (ever). My crewmate always thought that I am Ma’am Anne’s fave because I can talk to her confidently without hesitation.  There was one time that my crewmate accidentally forgot to turn off the electric deep fryer during the opening shift. From french fries to “burnt fries”. That was the first time I saw a dragon that has awakened from her deep slumber. Hahaha! Everyone was afraid to Ma’am Anne. They even asked me to collect their DTRs to be signed by Ma’am Anne. They didn’t know that Ma’am Anne was also preoccupied that time. His son was sick and she needed to go to work early because she was the Manager (Opener) for the week.

“What time na, Keths?”, “nag inom na ba kaya sya ug tambal karon noh…”, “Keths, ikaw na bahala arrange sa bookings ha?”, “Ang drive thru, Keths palihog ko ikaw salo ug absent ang naka assign.”, “Keths, thank you kaayo ha sa pagsabot nako.”

The sad part. When I decided to resign, I handed her my resignation letter. She was teary-eyed. I gave her a puppy stuff toy for her to remember me. 🙂 She asked me multiple times if I’m 100% sure. Dili jud siguro gusto ni M’Anne nga mulakaw ko. 

Ma’am Anne, you know how much I love and respect you.

  Sir Lan. “Boy Astig” with a Heart. I hated him sometimes. Why? He always assigned me as the ASSEMBLER. He wanted me to run and lose weight. HAHAHA! 

“Kethelle! Ayaw sigeg petiks diha. Dagan kung kailangan.”

“Kethelle! Hustle!”

“Kethelle! Second TC. Abtik!”

“Kethelle! Kuha ug tissue and ketchup sa stock room! Hustle!”

You see. I can’t make him smile but when I got an accident, he laughed so hard! The floor was slippery. Sir Lan lend me his hands. He said, “Kethelle, pag amping sunod. Pero mu bounce ra man ka ba. Hahahaha!” 

There was one time that our PC (Product Control) crew got a flu. Sir Lan took over the PC station. I witnessed his dedication towards his job as a Manager. He did not left the Kitchen until the end of mid-shift. I was like “WOW! Wa ko magtuo nga ingon ana ka paspas si Sir Lan ma PC, han-ay kaayo ang Kitchen!”.

Sir Lan, how’s Canada? I hope to see you ONE DAY kay gimingaw nako sa imong kasaba. HAHAHA!

  Sir Yan. I have my Mama Yen, and I also have Papa Yan. 🙂

He loves LECHON. Hahaha!

This man has a GENUINE HEART. He’s really fun and likes to joke around, and he loves sarcasm (sometimes). I think he we just trying to figure out to make a balance from being a Manager and a friend. 🙂

The telephone number (the digits) of Jollibee Buhangin was his birthday. He was the OPENING MANAGER. I don’t know the exact designation but his job is to OPEN A NEW JOLLIBEE BRANCH. He loves to stay at the rooftop of JB-Buhangin store. He loved it there.

He is still connected with Jollibee until now. ISA KANG ALAMAT SIR YAN! Ginabaligyaan ko niya ug Valentus Coffee para mupayat na daw ko. Haha!

FRIENDSHIP

I met a lot of people working in Jollibee. My co-trainees and the Regular (Tekton) crews. No guts, no glory – that was our motto. Amidst the challenging training, we were happy. We enjoyed every bonding and the journey we had in Jollibee. I miss them.

  Your Jollibee Store Marketing Officer is now a Public School Teacher. I am who I am now because of Jollibee. 

Daghang Salamat, Jollibee!

  My Jollibee Story KWENTONG JOLLIBEE I did get my first “real job” when I was 16 and I called it my “gateway to adulthood”.

[weasterned]

@CHRlSTIAN_YU

1. my ex mafia boss, really kind and friendly, crazy , yayayayaa 2. nope hahaha 3. Happy New Year, IAN ! (2)

- (2)

aye lori papa, we just met few days ago and already have continuous convos and i hope it continues. i found you such a greatly amiable man, so kind and not typical cold city guy that most of ian's rper have. and u're such a convo builder too. let's build another convos lori papa!

1. ngeselin, receh, caring, understanding, prudential

2. jangan sering main sama jo nanti pingsan

3. belum sempat bilang ini, remember when i said "i'm gonna leave" it was actually supposed to be a prank but keterusan since kebetulan i was so busy that time and pas aku balik kktmu ilang, your reaction was so funny, it made my day, Thank you so much, ian! You were there for me during my gloomy days. i hope you will cheer up soon! don't be gloomy and always happy, ian.

1. Galawers, Cool, Almost Decent-- tapi gajadi heuheu.

2. Abah kabayan. don't touch my abah bcs he is precious. at first ya I thought abah were decent even gabisa ngomong bahasa tapi ternyata sunkpiece ugha aigu, , , , tebak ini syp?! kalo bener nanti dikasih ulekan gosong!! what should I say? I'm thanking God the most for your existence. you're my best listener, sempet menghilang karena ngopi sma genderuwo, ternyata abah galaw. bah, don't be galaw anymore ya? don't leave me ugha!! I love you, abah.

3. 2017 will be end very soon, what's your thoughts on mine within 2017? hehehhe. I hope we can be more closer ampe dempet in 2018.

1) cool?, kind, friendly, funny, potray his chara well 2) no need to, i guess 3) let's talk more in the future and get along well! + i hope 2018 will be much much better year for you!✨

1. humble, warm, kind, daddy vibes 2. please dont change your chara! I like Ian mhehe 3. Enjoy your christmas and happy new year!

1. Brotherable, abangable, kind, sometimes mean, sometimes handsome. 2. I hope you can be a better person in the future, I said this doesnt mean you are not better for this present. When you inactive I feeli I lost one of my best brother, but finally you back and I'm happy. 3. Hello Ian oppa, I really really we can get along well again, next year should be better than this year. Be happy, abangku. You are precious, brother!

1. kind, oppaable, murah senyum WKWKWKKWKWK. gatau lg ah.

2. we haven’t talk much, but i hope you’ll always be happy no matter what and be a better person.

3. . i just wanna say, thank you for staying in WST. i’m happy that i have such a kind and caring members here. it might be pretty hard when you feel left out in agency, but i didn’t feel like this here. thank you ♡

Coooooool ! Eum . . . how should i say this . . .

Kind of . . . orang yang keren gitu/? muehehe

Calem pasti nih o.o we didn't talked a lot last time . . . let's talk next time okaaay !

#1 - Gentle man 👍 - Kind hearted - Warm guy - Cool - Sometimes cute? lol

#2 I hope you can be more happier and please keep it up, your kind and warm side! 헤헤

#3 Hello, Ian Oppa. I'm so glad to know you and get closer to you. I can't even believe that we can be this closer haha. But still, It's a good things for me to have meet you in this year. Thank you for your good words since we first meet until now. You're really a good guy, a gentle man. You deserve to be happy, so I hope you can be more happier in the next year. Let the past become our lesson, and let's keep moving forward. Oh, and please don't get too closer with hot girls, because they're dangerous 😊 I hope you can find your kind of hot girl who can treat you better. Well, I hope you can find your own happiness so that you can put your sadness away.

Anyway, I hope we can stay being close like this and keep take care of each other too! :)

1. Handsome, good, friendly, awesome, /coughs/ your new chara is sexy 2. None none 3. Hello, Ian! I'm forget who you are before but your new chara is sexy and swag. How's your 2017? I hope your 2017 is good and so does 2018. Happy new year!

1. Mature, nice, warm, kind, cool 2. I think you have side that not everyone expect will come from you haha and thats good actually 3. Hello ian hyung, i remember once youre concerned about me being gloomy haha that shows how warm and nice person you are! I wish i can be closer with you

Kind, calm but humorous, friendly, nice. I know I rarely active so I don't really know about the members, but sometimes you still do jb jb on me while I'm trying to be active.

my bae joo mean jual mahal sama saya moody? scary at first,

1. So brother-able, indeed ! Ayah-able, bahkan ! Caring with his surroundings, sho warmhearted— well sometimes I feel like want to make you as my Unnie sighs—

2. Nothing more, he has been done good at updating his chara too!

3. Hewwo Ian Sunbae ! Since 2018 is nearly neaar, I hope you will always be fulfilled with haffiness, find your new hobbies, experiences new things and smiiile more ! People loves you, remember that. ♡

CHRlSTIAN_YU 1. Baik, lucu (gak sih), always on mia, ramah, kocak and  unpredictable.. (loh) 2. sesungguhnya kita berdua gak pernah ngomong pake  bahasa kan semenjak kenal? so gue lagi males pake  english jd gue tulis bahasa aja ya :p. Rome... gue tau  kalau lo bisa nebak gue ini siapa. pleaseeee if you have  a burden you feel free share it with me or maybe to  someone that you trust. Gue tau lo sempet deactivated  your account and back with a new one. karena ketika  gue mau mention lo, gue gak dapet username lo. bener  gak sih? Syukur deh lo udah balik lagi. I'm glad to see  you back! Pokoknya..... Don't feel you are alone. I know  we aint close enough, maybe bcs chara kita deket jd  kita berasa deket juga. but the owner kan bisa say  different yaa? Heheh. You're still my friend and please  don't change your chara. Ian is quite mainstream lately,  but it's really suitable for you. 3. stay healthy bro! and do whatever you want ...  remember YOLO! hhahhaa

1. imma admit, this obba so handsome. typical obba who can make your knees got weak 2. this obba also humble and easy going, i usually scared when im talking to other rp who has the same fc as him, and i could say he's the first ian rp i got close with beside my own rl friend who ever using ian as his fc 3. dear ian obba, imma snatch xiao from you. she's mine now. bye

1. funny, great taste of humor, great taste of music, chatty, convobuilder. 2. I already am liking how he reply to my mention, it does bring out positivity whenever he talks to someone. I do respect him. Just, I hope he will be more positive and not to burden himself with such sadness alone. be happy oppanim, we got your back. 3. It's almost 2018, days counting and I do hope you will have a great great year in 2018. It might be suck, might. But still, you will have good daysssss and bad dayss, but don't worry.

1. Ramah 2. Sangat baik hati 3. Caring (I think?) 4. In-character 5. Organized

Hyung-ah, the only think I think that you need to improve on is to be a lot more happier than you are before. Please do not be galau anymore!

Ian hyung, the year is ending very soon. I hope you will have a great year next year and please do, because that will definitely be awesome. Have a great 2018, hyung.

1. cool, fun, not so calm, kind, weird. 2. for me, Ian hyong is the onw who talk to me often too, he was cool at first time but look at him jigeum 8 " ) well, at first time I got awkward towards him but not already because lues already lmao jk. i need to stop online at midnight because timeline became lapaknya Ian hyong and SOngso unnie 8 ") take times to online more, hyong! 3. hi, Ian hyog one of weast brother. I wish you an unlimited happiness, you'll passed rude or even rough things this year. congratulation for being together with SOngso unnie I'm happy for you two! I wish many good things happen right after. fighting! loves.

1. Fun, joyful, smart, receh, gloomy 2. Stop being nyebelin juseyo :D 3. It seems like something happen to you, I hope you will find a way to solve it. God bless you!

1. Receh-able, funny, cool, apalagi ya... 2. Please always be who you are! I will always support you! 3. Please always be happy and healthy! May 2018 become a year that bring a lot of luck for you! And long last for you and xiao.

1. KIM JENNIE ENTHUSIAST. BUT HE'S TAKEN NOW. GLAD. 2. IDK WHAT TO SAY NO MORE, BUT KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK. 3. Uh, I still feel so dumb while sent you a dm on another account of yours and shouting, 'WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN". Yet the fault is on me who was so outdated because of that. Ah, I'm so embarassed. Let's talk more and get closer in the future. Take a good care of yourself, keep smiling widely, and be happy as always.