#i think that's all of them right? i use bucktommy but other people use tevan? it looks too much like texas to me tho

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can i be honest? i think we deserve an episode of buck and tommy just absolutely going through it. and bear's sitting on his couch working his way through a pint of rocky road and he's sniffling into maddie's shoulder as he alternates between sobbing and bitching about tommy. "he said he couldn't be my last maddie. why cant he be my last?" vs "he's such a fucking bastard. he got me basketball tickets for our anniversary. can you believe it??? like what? he doesn't know me after six months? bitch." and then the scene cuts over to tommy's house and tommy is all alone. there is nobody but him in that house. there is no one to comfort him as he grieves what could have been. there is no one to eat ice cream with and watch shitty action movies. there is just him on his couch, stupid and alone, desperately trying to put his heart back together. and then the scene cuts to morning and maddie is there with a cup of water for buck and smiles at him as jee-yun plays in the background and she makes him breakfast cause she loves him and she knows how he gets after a good cry session and buck's not okay yet, and maybe he'll never really get over tommy, but he can learn to be okay. and then it cuts to tommy waking up on his couch. and it's silent, dead silent. tommy mechanically makes his way through his morning routine. he makes breakfast and accidentally makes two cups of tea instead of one. he leaves it on the table. later, he'll pretend that evan came by. he doesn't talk ever but there are dark circles under his eyes. before he leaves to work, he catches sight of himself in the hallway mirror. evan used to make stupid faces at himself before he left. he looks like hell warmed over. he peels back his lips to smile. it looks like a grimace. he tries crossing his eyes and sticking out his tongue. no that's stupid, evan does it better. slowly puts on his shoes, grabs his keys, and walks out the door. sits in his car. turns on the radio. evan's playlist comes on, sinatra croons about love. slams the radio off. there's nobody in his car and there's nobody in his house. this is what he's good at. this is what he's wanted. the engine roars to life and he pretends like it's loud enough to drown out the sound of his heart shattering.

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This blog is here to stay. It will remain a Tommy Kinard and BuckTommy blog.

I’m pissed. I’m grieving. 9-1-1 is my favorite show and now they’ve pulled this shit.

If Lou had left the show because the death threats were too much, his mental health was suffering, or he just couldn’t take it anymore, I would absolutely understand. I’d blame a certain part of the fandom, but I’d respect his decision. But he didn’t even want this. He loves Tommy and Tevan. I don’t know what Tim is thinking.

I know it all feels like a waste right now, but it’s not. Let me recount really quick:

• Buck is bisexual.

• There have been some really important scenes to come out of his discovering his sexuality, including Josh’s speech and his own lesson in fighting for his relationship.

• Tommy Kinard will be a character you pry from my cold dead hands. A gay man who discovered himself late in life and is still living his life genuinely. A man who made mistakes and acknowledges them, but has grown far past them. What a wonderfully rounded character.

• Excepting the end of 806, the beauty of their relationship. They did so much with so little screen time.

It’s not a waste, even though the ending absolutely trashed the progress made.

Resolutely, I do not believe this is the end. I know, I know, “the interviews”. It’s not out of the realm of possibility that they’re misdirecting. Also, they haven’t even written the rest of the season yet. The storyline is fixable if there’s a make up.

Not telling anyone how to feel about Oliver’s comments, but I would caution about using TVline’s article as the Bible. It was a terribly written, heavily biased interview and frankly it’s an insult that it was even conducted.

Even if it is the end, no one has to stop shipping. No one has to leave the fandom. We did not lose. We still got our canon ship and it will forever be an irrevocable fact that it was canon. BuckTommy is endgame for me. I may be disappointed by expectations, but I will never be in the wrong for sticking by that.

Make your displeasure known to Tim and ABC, but do not lose your dignity doing so. Do not engage with the haters. No harassing Lou. You can hold Oliver accountable for his remarks, but no harassment of him. You can call him out without making him the fandom whipping boy. I’ve seen many people latching onto him as the outlet for their feelings on this. Do not harass or bully the writers or actors, but make sure the producers and showrunners know they fucked up.

And most importantly, look after yourselves and each other. We’re still a community and we’re here to stay. This week is one of the worst ever, but we will come out of it.

Thank you, Tommy Kinard, for the hope you gave us, the representation you presented, and the character you were. Thank you Lou for portraying such a character and being such a sweetheart. BuckTommy will forever be in our hearts, endgame or not.

As a reminder, BuckTommy is not the be all end all of the show for queer rep. Hen and Karen, our fabulous queens, and Josh will still always be there. Buck is still bi, no matter what’s next in store for him. Tommy, even if gone forever, is still a significant moment of gay rep. And that’s not even counting the small characters that come in and out. It’s not always done well, but it’s there.

[tenebrous-academic]

I think starting off with bucktommy having so many scenes focusing on them just made us greedy (Understandable, how could you get enough of them?😭). Like I'm mourning tommy's scene with henren. It's already established that chimney is bucktommy warrior but I really wanted to see how things between hen and tommy are. Like damn, there's no way we're finding out huh?

But considering how short the season is I think tim is doing a good job at establishing bt. We've seen tommy in many 118 important moments (the rescue, madney's wedding, the ceremony, even mentioned in Bobby's goodbye 😭, and the hospital). It's safe to say that tommy is like no other love interest. And buck already knows/feels that much. We only need the little nudge that makes him go: "yes, he's is the one for me". Could be in the hospital scene, could be not.

But the desperation is felt and REAL, like it's our last chance to get any substantial bt scenes to live off during the hiatus. It's gonna be wild out there

Anon, we were given a FEAST at the start of this season. The soft conversations, the chin grabs, the promise of something more beginning to blossom???? We had everything we wanted in the start of their relationship. The queer awakening of Buck was given so much attention and screen time (as it should) and, once the storyline focused on other characters (as it also should because this isn’t just the Buck show), we had to make do with small interactions and background scenes. But oh my, what we were given to begin with was almost too good to be true. It was such an authentic start to a relationship. The chemistry, awkwardness, earnestness, and desire was so amazing to witness because it felt so real and lasting. And it’s created such a believable couple that we’re still here, even though we’ve basically had nothing else to go off of since the kiss in the hospital.

It absolutely makes sense that people are saying it doesn’t feel like we’ve been shown enough of an established relationship because we were given so much of the start of the relationship. There seems to be a disconnect now where, if people aren’t shown it, then it just doesn’t exist. I don’t agree with it, but I understand why some fans are upset or are claiming it’s not there.

And, because this fandom is amazing, we’ve thought of all the scenes and interactions we want to see. Just look at A03 for the sheer untapped potential of Tevan content. But we’re not getting them because this show already has so much to showcase. RIP Hen and Tommy discussion scene, RIP Hen and Buck heart-to-heart over Buck’s newly discovered bisexual identity.

I completely agree that Tim is doing his best to give everyone equal screen time. We already know he’s returned from his Lone Star vacation with a determination to bring Buck back to former glory and I think the journey he’s on now is going to be incredible to witness. Tim is laying a foundation for Tevan in a way that isn’t monopolizing the screen (which we know Buddie fans would also complain about if that were happening) and he’s giving us just enough crumbs to keep us fed. The scenes you highlighted are so important and it’s weaving Tommy into the fabric of the 118. You’re so right that it’s unlike any other love interest. Taylor was there but we know she was there for the stories and the exploitation. Tommy is there for Buck.

Depending on what we get next episode for the finale this hiatus is going to be so wild. If we’re lucky, we’ll get some truly sweet moments between Tommy and Buck. If we’re not lucky, Tommy will only be there briefly (or maybe even only mentioned) and we’ll have to rely on fanfics to sustain us with codas and AUs.

Either way, what a way to go.

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A prompt for BuckTommy/Tevan

"You still owe me a beer, Evan."

"And you still owe me a dance, Tommy."

HAH! Jokes on you… or- or me… or whoever else reads this… it comes across as fluffy right… but I twisted it into ANGST! 😈 (just a little! but it’s fluff at the end) enjoy 💕

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It hasn’t been a full half hour of cooling off and Tommy is already starting to feel the first pangs of guilt creeping in. He knows how things can turn if he turns around now and goes rushing back to fix things himself. That's opening himself up to heartache if Evan just ends up being like all the others; using him for his too soft nature and insane amount of patience. (It’ll be his undoing, friends say. He can’t change the biggest improvement he’s made to himself though.)

There’s also the fact that he wholeheartedly doesn’t think Evan will be like the others. Evan’s heart is massive; it makes Tommy’s own big heart look small in comparison. He is giving and caring and just the sweetest (most adorable) person Tommy has ever met. Truth be told he probably feels just as bad about how they ended the night. A silly fight that pales in comparison to the drama going on in the world around them; hell even compared to the drama going on in the lives of the people close to them.

He turns his car around, and floors it back, passing Evan’s jeep about half way.

Both stop. He pulls off on the shoulder, and the Jeep spins around to park behind him. Evan is out and walking towards him before Tommy can even think of something to say. He gets to Tommy’s door and tugs on the handle; once, because it’s locked… and twice to open it. “I’m so sorry,” Evan says, surging forward and wrapping his arms around Tommy.

“Me too,” Tommy sighs, letting any and all remaining tension roll off his shoulders. Buck squeezes him tighter, using Tommy’s shoulder to wipe his damp eyes against. “Can we just go back to your place and start this whole date over?” Tommy asks. “You do still owe me that beer after all.”

Buck lifts his head to smile that blindingly bright smile at Tommy. “Yeah? Ok, well you still owe me a dance.”

Tommy smiles back at him, pulling him in for a kiss. “Of course.”

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