#i think it's really impactful truly
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vaguely-concerned Ā· 2 months ago
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on the one hand I think inner demons could stand to have a bit more romanced rook specific content, but on the other hand the underlying in-built implication that 'yours is the one true voice of comfort and safety in my inner world' is a sentiment and intimacy so way beyond the romantic or the platonic or any secret third thing you could care to name that it makes me lose my entire poor little mind a bit. it's so big and fundamental ā€” near-existential ā€” that in that exact moment at least the distinctions kind of seem irrelevant.
all the people lucanis' mind conjures up along the way are relationships he has that are unavoidably mixed and fraught in some ways even when they're also full of love (they are fraught BECAUSE they're full of love) ā€” the good in them inseparable from things that hurt him at the same time. (it's about: the basic disorganized attachment patterns this poor guy is dragging around with him. careful with those, they're dellamorte heirlooms. what you love also inevitably hurts you and you won't be allowed to have one without the other, you have to surrender parts of your soul to hold on to what little you have left: this is the story up until now.) and the idea that rook isn't that to him ā€” that beneath the fear of wanting them when romanced (which is more its own separate thing because within this psychology, actively wanting something and not just clinging on for dear life to even a meager status quo lest you lose it is in itself dangerous bordering on catastrophic), this is a relationship where there isn't resentment, or guilt, or shame, or dread, or rage, or self-hate, or any of the other emotions that keep him paralyzed, unable to move this way or that. no debts, nothing owed of yourself and your soul's substance except what you can freely and safely and happily give. love and freedom don't coexist ā€” but, I mean, you're almost starting to make me think........... unless...šŸ‘€šŸ‘€šŸ‘€. the unconditional and undramatic 'you are here and I am here with you, you can be exactly how you are right now with me and it's safe for us both even though you're afraid it won't be, I'm not going anywhere' acceptance rook shows him here that he returns to them in the big romance scene, when it's rook who needs it. the way he's just. standing there in the center of it all, like a child desperately helplessly waiting to be found, hiding in the place he hopes you'll know to look first. (rook does know. it's one of the first things they say in there.)
in short the most important room in his little mind palace for the romance is the very first room ā€” the one where rook isn't. where, in fact, rook cannot be, because they disprove the entire structure of the place with their existence and presence in his life. with everyone else he's putting words in their mouths about what they think of him, and rook is the one who actually gets to come in to speak their own words to him ā€” and have him listen. ('he'll listen to you, he always listens to you', 'your voice is a comfort'.) of course rook isn't present anywhere else in there ā€” at the risk of stating the obvious to a tedious degree, they aren't one of the locks, they're bringing the key. in the very finest 'the messenger and the message' sort of way.
#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#rook x lucanis#rookanis#dragon age meta#rook is his first brush with actual safe attachment. and to me and because of who I am as a person#nothing could be more romantically devastating or impactful fhdsjkfhs that's literally the unreachable wistful dream the pie in the sky#the garrus romance echoes too. some of the same stuff going on under the hood here#you know who else he's sneakily like too actually? iron bull. the 'no matter where I turn I'll hurt someone I love' and dissociation stuff#there's that whole line about 'walking close to the edge or whatever'#which is masterful as a diversion b/c what this romance is really about is feeling truly safe with someone#in a sort of weirdly realistic way that makes it struggle with the conventions of video game romance but sure is Doing something!#and I unwittingly made a rook who also is on that specific arc so it's working out just devastating for me thanks for asking#the part in andrea gibson's 'prism' that's like. there is no shelter in the womb it's where you learn the cord that feeds you#could at any moment wrap around your neck. I think that's the initial understanding of love here. which is not good. if you think about it.#I don't think I really write these kinds of posts btw I just black out for a while and when I wake up from the trance I too#get to read what the fuck I've been thinking about finally. corralling that raging electric storm#that keeps overtaking my neurons at regular intervals and translating it into if not sense then certainly words. lots of words#no one is ever more surprised than me to find out what i'm thinking and feeling
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huiyi07 Ā· 8 months ago
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hey so do you guys ever think about how often Diluc is referred to as the ā€˜uncrowned king of Mondstadtā€™ since heā€™s like the only male heir to the noble families and like it or not, where Jean is the authority of the nation, heā€™s pretty much the symbolic face of Mondstadt and the values the nation projectsā€” and despite his temperament, Diluc has learned to embrace it wholeheartedly. Heā€™s charismatic, extremely righteous, and he blazes bright and gives the people of Mondstadt a fire that guides them in the dark, quite literally. Like heā€™s literally Bruce Wayne lmao
But he doesnā€™t want this, no, and hereā€™s the proof- maybe he did, once upon a time, before everything happenedā€” but he doesnā€™t really care about wine, he only cares about the winery because of the people in it and his father. Heā€™s righteous but doesnā€™t give a damn about the rules and the knights of favonius. After what happened to him, heā€™s clearly a rebel at heart now, not some charming superhero who does everything expected of him, unlike before. In summary, Diluc was someone who was quite literally ready to become an (uncrowned) prince, pretty much royalty in every way except title- and on surface level, he still is, but he throws that mantle away in secret whenever he can.
And then look at Kaeya, his brother whoā€™s always lived in his shadow. Itā€™s easy to see that now, people donā€™t really project Mondstadtā€™s values onto Kaeya the same way they do onto Diluc, since lots of people hardly even remember that theyā€™re brothers. And yeah people still think kaeya is reliable and nice, but also because of how Kaeya built his image after Diluc leftā€” an excessively over the top personality that pretends to be sadistic, mean, and at the same time dripping with false charm. So despite that people still find him approachable and nice as expected of a knight, hardly anyone would call him befitting of a prince.
But Kaeya is actually so painfully and authentically ā€˜princelyā€™ and kind, deep downā€” the way he deals with children, his fierce loyalty and willingness to protect people at all costs, his self sacrificial tendencies that most often appear for Dilucā€™s sake. Even the tidbits of lore we get about him scream aristocracy- his ā€˜ceremonialā€™ bladework, Alberich family secrets that reveal just how central they are to the kingdom of khaenriah. This is kinda obvious to any player whoā€™s bothered to learn anything about kaeya, but to the characters in game, there are very few that know that side of him.
And whereas Diluc is forcibly projected the title of royalty and secretly rejects it, Kaeya was actually born into it- his family is very important to Khaenriah, and much like how he does with anything related to his past and heritage, he loudly and outwardly rejects anything to do with ā€˜royaltyā€™. Diluc outwardly rejects what Kaeya shows (a darker, more ā€˜means justify the endā€™ nature), and Kaeya tries to hide what Diluc projects (a sophisticated and aristocratic upbringing).
Honestly? Itā€™s as if they were swapped at birth. Kaeyaā€™s real hidden nature, even after everything that happened to him, remains to be so unwavering and people-oriented, while Dilucā€™s true personality changed drastically over time. Not that Diluc isnā€™t unwavering or whatever, but Diluc mostly actively rejects relationships and prefers to do everything alone, obsessed with the idea that he doesnā€™t want anyone to get hurt, whereas Kaeya always, always yearns for companionship and for people to be by his side- solidarity.
Diluc is the poster image of royalty, but his brother who hides in the shadows is a real king. They complete each other, balance each other out, represent the parts that the other hides. I donā€™t know if hoyoverse always meant them to be that way, but damn they basically represent each otherā€™s parts of themselves that they lost. Yin and Yang, two halves of the same whole.
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markantonys Ā· 10 months ago
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the music in WOT is never random. even if it's just very soft background music, it's relevant to the scene. practically every time there's music playing while egwene is onscreen during s2, the tune is egwene's theme, rearranged and reinstrumentated in dozens of different ways to match the tone of the particular scene. mat has quick little snippets of his theme tune play during various scenes of his, often mixed with the old blood theme from s1, and it finally blares out in full glory for the first time during the horn of valere scene, to parallel how mat is truly finding himself for the first time. even secondary characters like liandrin, siuan, and aviendha have their own dedicated theme tunes that play during their scenes and are never repurposed as background music in other characters' scenes. and all the themes have lyrics in the old tongue that suit the character or concept the theme is about! in conclusion, lorne balfe is truly doing the Most, and i'm so grateful he's the composer for WOT and i hope he'll return for every season the show goes for.
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evelynpr Ā· 10 months ago
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I think 4ggravate is already quite popular and many have explored their dynamics, but I think there is a lack of Alhaitham x Tighnari which is a miss.
Like come on, none of these guys can immediately humble and talk down Alhaitham except Tighnari and I think that's hot. Go knock some sense into this man you sassy fox.
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huldrabitch Ā· 8 months ago
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I know a lot of people don't want Cullen brought back for various reasons, BUT it would be really satisfying to have just a minor voice acted appearance of Cullen done by anyone else than Gregg Ellis to distance the character from him.
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gummi-ships Ā· 2 years ago
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Kingdom Hearts Re:coded - Finish Commands - Spinner Ray
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dazais-guardian-angel Ā· 10 months ago
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kinda wild to me that one of the most compelling aspects of both Chuuya and Kunikida's characters to me, that I never really see talked about, is how they're heavily set on a doomed crash course towards complete and utter destruction, and how I am so, so worried for them both.....
#bungou stray dogs#been thinking a lot about chuuya lately (shocking for me i know (said with no sarcasm truly lmao it is rare for me))#cause of the 15 manga and also playing the fucking jeht quest in genshin impact ugh (where's the one dual genshin bsd fan who Understands)#but like this pressure has been building up for chuuya for so long due to being used and manipulated by all these people#first the sheep then mori then verlaine then still mori now#he was groomed since childhood just like dazai#but unlike dazai he didn't have an oda to help him get out of the mafia........ he's still stuck there#and his personality is different from dazai's. dazai was more self-aware imo (but still a groomed emotionally abused kid don't get me wrong#but chuuya's whole thing is needing to belong and wanting a leader to be loyal to but ending up in positions of leadership himself#which makes him feel pressured but he accepts and stifles any negative feelings just because he wants to belong#and all this crushed him with the events in the light novels and yeah he went through character growth but he's...... Still In The Mafia...#and that fucking scene asagiri added to the cannibalism stage play i don't think hardly anyone even knows about bc IT'S NOT DISCUSSED ANYMO#where mori emotionally manipulates him with the flags!!! and it deeply hurts him!!! and he presumably deals with that shit all the time!!!#it is WORRISOME. it WORRIES ME okay.#chuuya doesn't have anyone who can save him from the mafia (dazai is in no position to okay; it's all he can do just to try to save himself#and it's so so scary. it spells awful things for him.#didn't asagiri say he'd have a rough path or something??? and he added that fucking scene in the play!!! it haunts me!!#i fully expected this shit to hit a turning point in the meursault arc but we can't have nice things i guess#and as for kunikida a;lskdfl (took me this long to get to him oop) literally the ending of Entrance Exam (the novel) is just#One Big Foreshadowing for Kunikida's downfall#he's compared to the azure king for a reason. Sasaki saw the azure king in him for a reason. it's fucking worrying!!!!!#there hasn't really been anything like that since in the manga (just like for chuuya lol ugh) but he's TERRIBLE at coping with his trauma#and it only gets more apparent once shit hit the fan in the doa/hunting dogs/meursault arc#it's not good!!! i'm worried for kunikida too!!!!#even if the manga isn't focusing on this these worries are always in the back of my mind man#both kunikida and chuuya are doomed to hit some kind of breaking point eventually and i await those moments with dread yet anticipation#i want dazai to be able to save kunikida from the despair being too good a person brings the way he couldn't save oda#and chuuya.... if we get a scene with him & mori mirroring the one in dark era where dazai finds out that mori orchestrated the kids' death#oh man i think i'll fucking die (give it to me i need to cry)
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bonefall Ā· 1 year ago
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Voted for Bumble bc of course but also if you think Alex would not pspsps Bumble you are wrong. If they could communicate they would go to therapy together /s
If then could communicate they would go to therapy together
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Kyle/Green Lantern resurrects her but then he becomes convinced that she's not the same person she was before the incident, OR SOMETHING SOMETHING Black Lanterns aren't ACTUALLY bad they're just misunderstood Grim Reaper types, in either case Alex ends up breaking it off with Kyle because they've become very different people.
And then Bumble's there
And then they go to therapy or Alex adopts Bumble, and then uhhh Bumble's like one of the superpets. Like Krypto the Superdog. Free premise go forth and play with it if ur a DC fan
#bone babble#Again I don't actually know a lot about the DC universe besides what my friend tells me#But also from reading into the Black Lanterns having them be evil sound like a WHOLE wasted opportunity#Lanterns are supposed to be emotions yeah? so why the hell are we downplaying the emotion of GRIEF?#There's a whole lot you could do with that actually. Death doesn't deserve to just be a villain of the week#And hell. You could explore some WILD emotions here about Alex becoming so much more than Kyle's tragedy#Can I still mourn you when you aren't dead?#What does it mean for me that the worst thing that ever happened to me has become an opportunity for her?#And... does this make me selfish for not being happy for her?#For not trying to understand the person she has become? for only thinking of how this impacts myself#RE: THIS IS NOT A DIG AT DC FANS#BUT I want to share that like... a reason I've kinda had a hard time getting into comics is because like... really interesting premises--#like that often get turned into Monster-of-the-Week struggles for the heroes to punch into submission#I've probably just seen really bad summaries or not found the editions that would appeal to me specifically#But it's kinda why the only DC hero I'm really interested in is Superman#Because a lot of his thing is that he's a good GUY#And that creates a lot of interesting moral questions#Like YES he's a good guy. YES he has no ulterior motive. But what if he DID?-- how can EVERYONE ELSE in the universe truly know that-#for sure?#And that's cool and I really like the snippets I've seen especially between him and batman#But anyway. so much fridging and misogyny in the world of comics has kinda turned me away from getting into it#because. VERY often. Misogyny can be... *tied* to a bit of a lack of imagination. Or empathy on behalf of a particular writer#RE: There is good stuff in DC PLEASE understand im not trying to be insulting
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lesbiansplaining Ā· 4 months ago
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not to bring tiktok drama on tumblr but like every time a ā€˜scandalā€™ comes out with one of these ā€˜production companiesā€™ that make fan films i always hope weā€™re finally gonna discuss how they professionalize something that should be an hobbyist endeavorā€¦ and yet every single time iā€™m disappointed.
#like I know weā€™ve been talking about it here on tumblr and i remember seeing like one or two videos on tt about it#but other than that creators really donā€™t seem to be engaging critically with the impact that the very nature of what theyā€™re doing has#and look i truly do love the art that some of the people involved in the project make#like arone is truly one of the most talented cosplayers i know#ethan is an amazing actor and Iā€™ve followed him since before he was even in the marauders#dorian is a great writer and idk the others as well but Iā€™m sure they are all great artists#((naming the just cause i feel like being vague would be worse in this case))#and i do believe they engaged with the project with the best of intentions#without knowing or trying to afford grace on past controversy#and it truly is a horrible predicament to have your work be tainted like that for something you had no control over#but like i do think we should be questioning the very idea of how this fanfilms have been made is inherently a problem#like fanfilms are essentially fanfiction on camera#so as long as a few cosplayers want to get together with their iphones write a script and shoot at the local park I donā€™t have a problem#but if you are putting in place a product that somehow requires you to fundraise consistently for two years then I have a problem with it#ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE SELLING THE SCRIPT TO DO SO#cause even if that script hadnā€™t been ai generated#that script is fanfiction and you do. not. sell. fanfiction.#seriously likeā€¦ do we need to go over our abc again?#like fanart and cosplayers are a bit different in the sense that people sell fanart/do commissions and they can be professional cosplayers#but for any other fanmade project that requires you to put pen to paper (or keyboard to chatgpt ig)#you need to be engaging with several ethical questions regarding any exchange of money#and personally i donā€™t think that thereā€™s been engagement with those ethical reflections#and this isnā€™t about any of the people involved and not even about mischief productions specifically#itā€™s about a wider issue in how we have been collectively normalizing a way of doing things that should not be normal#and like yes star using ai and being overall not good is bad but like can we talk about EVERYTHING ELSE please
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little-piece-of-tamlin Ā· 1 month ago
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finished unfinished comedy five hours ago and had to just sit down and draw for three hours straight because what the fuck hoyo. anyways have this wip of my boy caterpillar so i actually feel pressured to finish this tomorrow lol
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algrenion Ā· 5 months ago
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notoriously awful at remaining up to speed on current events and trends
worse still at keeping in touch with my friends and my loved ones
had to ask my partner if it was me who cleaned the dishes or him
dissociation is so exhausting, dudeā€¦ it just gets worse as you get older and take on more responsibility
i kind of hate thinking about the people i care aboutā€¦ they must think that i donā€™t give a fuck about them, but i doā€¦ im just in a constant state of confusion
i donā€™t know what to say to people directly, other than saying sorry and slinking away
always in apology to others and confusion to myself
thatā€™s not a good friend to have, is it?
the reality is iā€™m living moment to moment, confused, a little scared, a bit excited
youā€™ll see me online but not quite presentā€¦ if thereā€™s one constant here, itā€™s that im sorryā€¦
im sorry
im sorry all the time
i wish I could be better to my friends
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spaceratprodigy Ā· 10 months ago
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY @fairymistrose !! ily ily ily šŸ’•
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bibleofficial Ā· 3 months ago
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so i finally learned the beautiful man i met in may w the cancer, wasnā€™t away / busy bc of treatment like i thought he just. decided it was his time to go
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deus-ex-mona Ā· 3 months ago
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the nghy sendoff scene is super cute!!
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from hiyoriā€™s confident smile and ā€œjust you wait! iā€™ll definitely report back with good news (about the track meet)!ā€ and nagisaā€™s ā€œyeah, iā€™m looking forward to it.ā€, showing his support and faith in her running abilitiesā€¦
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to their promise to keep in contactā€¦
justā€¦ the contrast between nagisaā€™s slightly lonely look as he tells her ā€œā€¦keep in touch, ā€˜kay?ā€ and hiyoriā€™s bright smile as she agrees with a ā€œyup! see ya!ā€ā€¦
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and it seems like hiyoriā€™s going to leave just like that, but t h e n
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ā€¦she abruptly turns around to give nagisa an especially adorable angelic smile and wave and!!!!!!!!!
nghy are just so precious guysā€¦ they deserve all the happiness in the worldā€¦
live laugh love nghy!!!
#theyā€™re just sosososososososososooooooooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!#look at how far these two have come since their farewell scene in heroika!!!!!!!#never getting over how funny it is that nagisaā€™s just there in his wearable merch while seeing a fashionably dressed hiyori off#but well. hoodie x hoodie couple amirite?#though hiyori is getting better dressed as of lateā€¦ nagisa had better step up his wardrobe game before he wears ft4 merch to his wedding#my hot take is that ā€‹kimikawaii mv shouldā€™ve been 10 minutes long#we need to see more of hiyori in fashionable outfits and nagisa being just there in hoodies and ft4 wearable merch#we havenā€™t even gotten to see him in that lame ft4 bucket hat yet#but. well. that too is part of nagisaā€™s charm#i do think itā€™s adorable that sheā€™s grown more confident in wearing cute clothes though#especially since sheā€™s wearing them around nagisa: the guy who made her grow wary of wearing cute clothes (like she wanted to) as kids#it really shows that acknowledging your mistakes instead of brushing them off/denying them/minimising the impact/harm they have caused#does wonders for the recovery of the one who was wrongedā€¦ i love that for nghy. truly.#guys who acknowledge their mistakes and grow from them are justā€¦ sweet in their own way. yā€™know?#ā€¦but i digress!!!!!!!!! in any case live laugh love nghy!!!!!#(ā€‹aaaaa i s w e a r i could talk about kimikawaii for hours on endā€¦ theyā€™re just so cuteā€¦ā€¦ā€¦)#i wonder what their next song together would be thoughhhhhā€¦ i hope they get a duet next!!!!!!#the dude from gamushara
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good-to-drive Ā· 4 months ago
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i used to fucking hate paul but i now realise thanks to your beautiful insight hes by far the most pathetic and miserable beatle
like i still hate him but in a much gayer, lustful way
ajdkhagstw well at least I'm having an impact
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spacedlexi Ā· 2 years ago
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these 3 make me so Sillay i cant think about them for too long lest i succumb to my little thoughts
#violentine#twdg#the way these 3 entwine narratively....ough#trying to learn as much about minnie (and sophie) as i can theres not much its a lot of puzzle piecing#most of minnies character comes from her being clems foil#its hard to figure out what kind of person she truly was before being taken#i need to like write a breakdown or something she is so nebulous to me (oops i wrote the breakdown)#the minnie we see in the cells has Definitely been broken. but i think a lot of aspects about her personality arent all that changed#all of her actions come from fear so its warped her. but her motivations i think are still the same as they were. protect the ericson kids#part of me thinks she mightve agreed with marlons decision to give them up. sacrificing herself to keep tenn and the rest safe#like i wonder if thats something she would be strong enough to do but she also kills her sister so..she def has the ability to do hard stuf#but now she believes that the best way to keep them safe is to bring them to the delta. as long as you obey youll be fine..so they say...OR#shes a coward who murdered her twin sister to save herself and now she needs to justify her actions by bringing the others to the delta#maybe thats the change. her perception of saving the others has been warped. she saved herself by giving up#and is trying to force the others to do the same#clems 'you gave up minerva. i never will' pretty much exemplifies this idea#pre delta minnie was probably even more like clem than she already is. but vi's line about her not liking killing walkers stands out to me#like..was she afraid? i wouldnt think so. did she have some james-esque philosophy of them? ehh. was she just That Nice or whatever?#wouldnt hurt a fly? i can see it. the twins brought the kids a lot of joy and peace and it really impacted all of them when they 'died'#but we also know there existed Some level of tension in her and violets relationship so things werent Perfect. they never danced...#'couldnt stand to talk to people let alone play class president' to me sounds like minnie didnt like violets withdrawn attitude#and probably wanted her to step up more. be more active in the group. the animosity coming from her just not believing vi could change#minnie says she knows vi wouldve come for her if she knew what really happened so its not like she had Zero faith in her#im under the suspicion that violet graffitid the fishing shack. 'listen before its too late' makes me šŸ‘€ i think minnie wanted her to change#and instead vi withdrew out of guilt. blaming herself for their deaths...until clem showed up..minnies foil....#and clem DOES inspire change in violet. so much so she quickly slips into the empty leadership position. keeping them in line in the chaos#its too late to save minnie but she can still try to save the others.. saved vi agreeing with clems goals but taken vi agreeing with minnie#whoops i hit the 30 tags limit.........................#wip
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