#i think it’s cuz i have hyperfixations and special interests and i don’t wanna talk abt other stuff

[ghosthart]

my bf keeps trying to invite me to hang out with his dnd friends and i’m just like. i have years ago multiple times and every single time it’s not fun cuz literally all they talk about in dnd or anime or some video game that came out recently or something and i’m just sitting there like 🧍‍♀️ cuz i don’t have any interest in those things like i can’t understand the hype around dnd but to each their own i just have no input on it and then anime i only like very specific ones but even then i didn’t finish them and i have bad memory with details that happen in shows so i can’t talk much abt it i mostly just obsess over the art style and characters themselves but they don’t talk abt anime that i like they only watch the angsty action kind where i’m like i wanna talk about fruits basket or something lol and the only video games i like are miku project diva and idk fuckin stardew valley even tho i haven’t played it in ages cuz it’s too stressful sometimes for me i hate the caves and fishing like can i have a group of friends that only wanna talk abt kpop but like only the groups i like 🤨

[vhbutter]

Intro post, REJOICE

Hello friend, IM VINNY RAGHHH

Im a minor, and preferably would prefer if people under 13 didn’t contact me, cuz im not for that kinda life.

Im am Trans FTM, but I’m also not? Im just Vinny and that’s all that counts, any pronouns are fine, but I mainly go by he/him.

Im gay and somewhere on the aromantic spec, I am often told my taste in men is appalling.

I have autism so a lot of my posts will be about my hyperfixations or interests

Hyperfixations (might miss some mb)

Doctor who

Little Nightmares

Bendy and the ink machine

Zelda

Hollow Knight

Elden ring

Magnus Archives

ENA

Deltarune/Undertale

Ultrakill

Spiderverse

Gotham

DFTM

Mr robot

Until Dawn

Portal

HLVRAI

Arcane

My special interests are essentially just: the ocean, space, computers and philosophy.

SORRY THERES LIKE A FUCKTON OF INTERESTS MB MB

Okay so, I make art, that’s a plus right? Maybe I’ll say something funny once in a while, joy. These are the benefits of being my friend, that’s sad.

THINGS TO KNOW

I never contact first, that shit terrifies me. So if you wanna talk, just say and I’ll be more than happy.

Forgot to mention I’m British, that can be a bit of a dealbreaker for some, I’ll admit.

I type how I talk, which is pretty flatly. Pray to god someone finds that charming.

I like friendship magic and fun, gang I promise.

KINS

Im gonna make a kinlist now, as cringy as that may be and stuff. But I want to.

Kris Dreemurr

Because I don’t say much unless I feel all cool and jolly and that. Also I eat glass, which is fairly similar to moss.

Elliot Alderson

Internal monologues and wide stares.

Viktor (Arcane)

I struggle with disability, it’s shit. Makes me feel like shit but we are thriving.

Edward Nygma (Gotham)

Autism, “hey wanna hear this nerdy fact” all that stuff.

12th Doctor

I’ll be fr I can come across as a prick, that’s my bad and also not going to change. Constantly questioning if you’re a good person or not is a good way to pass time.

Edward Teach (OFMD)

Mood swings! Hell yeah!

Herbert West

Not good with talking to people, my own mind means a lot to me. Arrogant, I’m not making myself sound the best.

Papyrus

HERES A GOOD ONE, finally! I too, wish to wear four pairs of hotpants, it’s great to see a guy with priorities.

Outro

Okay I’m Vinny I like stuff I do stuff please think I’m cool.

Goodbye

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

I vibe with hyperfixating w/ characters. To varying degrees I’ve fixated on: Armin from AOT for a while, 1D had a DEATH GRIP on me for a few years, (SEVEAL book characters through my teen years)I had an Alucard from castlevania fixation for maybe 3 ish years (‘ending’ only recently) and now Hobes lives in my head rent free ngl.

I get the “being sad cuz you can’t meet them�� part, I’ve felt it. I try to not daydream TOO much cuz otherwise it takes over my life and I’m doing a considerable effort to live OUT of my own head, but BOI do I LOVE just daydreaming about my blorbos of choice.

I don’t speak too much about it (mostly the daydreaming) cuz to an extent it feels like a “me thing” (like something I don’t wanna share with anyone cuz it’s special to me), but if given the chance I DO info dump on my fixations.

I don’t think it’s cringe, not at all. These things are stuff that helps us process the world and our experiences with it. I believe everyone has sensitive weird shit that they don’t talk about, but if there’s something Ive learned is that we hardly ever have completely unique experiences. Most people just hide their oddness. Fandom being a prime example of how much our blorbos can mean to us. I think it’s okay and normal. (Until it goes overboard and people send idk violent messages to others because they headcanon something differently idk, the unreasonable stuff imo)

Can’t believe our of everything people would dare to make JOY and INTEREST the things with negative connotations. Being mean should be cringe, being a bully should be embarrassing. But unashamedly enjoying stuff?? That’s wonderful.

Anyone too embarrassed of their own vulnerability that they deal with it by making others feel bad about their interests are the most immature out if all of us.

Joy is everything that’s good with the world.

Even just seeing the letter 1D makes me wanna scream (in a good way!!) cause it takes me back to high school lol 1D was a bit older than me so my grade had Mindless Behaviour (does anyone remember them, where they even popular) but I remember the days where 1D was like the definition of summer songs

And I can totally understand the 'me thing'. Like I never really spoke about it but I felt like I knew my daydreams were more substantial or vivid than the 'average person' so to say.

Or when I spoke about characters to other people, I understood that neurotypicals likes characters, but they often didn't see them as fully formed 'persons' in the way I do - as to say, they didn't speculate or see emotional backstory, connections, or their behavior the way I did.

I never really shared any of my daydreams because like - I can't even get into it that's like asking someone to explain Star Wars to someone who doesn't even know space travel exists.

I grew up in a time on the internet where self-inserts and OC were seen as cringe, and someone would be very quick to call out 'Mary-Sue's (or flawless OCs) whenever they could.

It's not like that now - but in juxtaposition to canon x canon shipping, that bias is still there I feel like. Like it, as a work of fandom art has less 'value' that art or fics of canon only characters

It kinda bums me out still.

I think OC and daydreams and self-indulgent inserts are all the best part of fandom because it's the purest way of fans connecting with content on a personal level.

I'm happy that I see more people pushing back on that lately. Like after years of seeing people viciously hate furries when most of them seem like very nice, fun people, it's refreshing for people to be like 'nah, actually this thing is cool. and im gonna spend of time and/or money on this thing cause i makes me happy;

like you remember when the new Star Wars movie trailers came out and that dude reacted to it and he was moved to tears and people made fun of him??

yeah fuck everyone else that dude knows whats up.

Like yes, openly cry to your faves. Fantasize deep meaningful daydreams that help you process your feelings. Draw your OC with them, or learn every single thing their is to know about them.

That's why I wanted to talk about this. Because I've never heard it spoken about before. Maladaptive daydreaming, yes - and that can be harmful. But I hardly ever hear people talk about the basic mundane experience of it - or even how it can enrich our lives and help us emotionally develop of neurodivergent people.

When I think of it that way, it's something that makes me happy. I don't think I'll ever be able to describe it fully, and that's the point. Our stories are private to us, not because theyre embarrassing, but because they're so us that to even describe it would like describing a new world top to bottom

I love it. It's what makes humans humans.

[the-glade-backrooms]

hi. we read your opinion post on why adhd/autistic systems splut fictives so easily, and we have a question. what about autistics who don't mask? i never learned to mask. i tried learning in middle school, but i gave up after a week cuz it was too tiring.

in our system of 9(or 10. one alter may be dormant/fused) we have 4 introjects and 5(or 6) originals.

we just wanna hear your opinion, since your post was surrounded on neurodivergent introject heavy systems who mask their nd-ness.

no pressure to answer btw. feel free to delete it if you want to lol

Post is question

I went back and read the post and wow we really did lay heavily into masking. Our mistake, we mask almost all the time and sometimes forget not everyone does. (Before I go any farther I just want to remind people that this is our own personal opinion, not fact. It’s simply based on personal experience or things we’ve seen several other systems talk about. Also, we are currently running off of very little sleep when writing this so we’re sorry if it’s written or conveyed in a weird way.)

I’m going to point at the spot where we explained that all alters are formed through introjection. Even singlets have their fair share of introjection. It’s not just a system trait. The things with systems is that sometimes our traits don’t come from several different sources, it can come from one or a few very specific sources. People who hyperfixate or have special interests tend to be hot wired to one source of entertainment to begin with, so ADHD/Autistic system brains probably don’t think to look for traits outside of their current constant intake from one source. There’s also the fact that people with ADHD/Autism usually find comfort in their current hyperfixations or special interests, so a system might decided comfort is the best way to handle a situation and split an comfort introject.

Splitting a “comfort” introject is 100% a plausible thing that happens. If a system is under stress or is going through trauma, it’s possible that the brain decides comfort is the best way to handle it and splits an alter specifically for that. As an AuDHD system, we’ve had personal experience with comfort splits. We have a very bad habit of using our hyperfixations as escape mechanisms so when we get overly stressed or go through something traumatic our brain handles it by trying to make our hyperfixations real. Our problem with this is that our introjects then tend to be very connected to their source and it’s hard to get them source separated, but that’s for a different post.

[cosmic0dust]

we doin an intro post thing finally

hi

You can call me cosmic I use any pronouns (she/her mainly) I’m 19 and nonbinary and have a special interest in pokemon and a little bit in jujutsu kaisen

I’m also a furry, I draw a lot, but mostly just post stuff about me fan girling over chars I like or random content related to games/jjk

Current Character Hyperfixations

I’m making a list cuz my ass lovesss lists (I’ll try and update it when I can teehee)

• silver from pokemon hgss/masters ex

• Yuta okkotsu from jujutsu kaisen

• Kieran from Pokémon’s Gen 9 dlc the teal mask / indigo disc

Fave Characters

These are characters I LOVE but aren’t hyperfixated on

• N from pokemon black white/masters ex

• megumi from jujutsu kaisen

• Red from pokemon (he’s in sm media but mainly him in masters ex rn and HGSS)

• Beru from solo leveling

• Ingo from pokemon black white/legends Arceus

• Arven from pokemon scarlet and violet

• Shane from stardew valley

Other interests/things I like!

mostly games and other media

• pokemon adventures (just started reading tho)

• solo leveling

• ouran highschool host club

• chainsaw man

• Sanrio

• stardew valley

• animal crossing

• Legend of Zelda

• plushies (I collect em, specifically beanie babies, poke plushies, and jellycats)

Other Important Info

I don’t have a strict DNI as long as ur not the basic DNI criteria (trans/homophobic, map/zoo, etc) idm!!

Also if we have similar interests or you just wanna talk, my dms are always open! (For people 16+)

Might add more to this post later but that’s all I can think of rn 🤧

[northlight14]

✨Intro post✨

Hey, welcome to my blog! You can call me North. My blog is mainly me rambling about anime and reblogging stuff. I also wanna start writing fanfiction again once I get the chance. Anyway, if you decide to stay, I really appreciate you being here :)))

All religions, ethnicities, members of the lgbtqia+ community, etc are welcome!

Feel free to talk to me via asks. I’m also cool about DM’s as long as we’re mutuals and you’re 18+. MINORS DO NOT MESSAGE ME PRIVATELY. I’m happy to talk to you via asks but talking to a minor via DM’s just makes me uncomfortable. Plz understand and respect this

If you like danganronpa, hermitcraft and/or my hero academia, consider following my queer platonic partner @iridescentsky29 cuz they’re really cool

😜Facts about me!

- I’m an INFP

- I’m a Scorpio

- I’m aro/ace but I’m still simping

-I’m neurodivergent

- I have a lot of dnd characters. Masterpost for their bio's in the links section of this post

- I’m British

😍Special interests and hyperfixations:

-My dnd OC’s

-Ace Attorney

-Danganronpa (only played first 2 games so far tho)

-Dazai Osamu (the irl author, not the bsd character. Though that character is my fav character in that show lol)

📎Links

Pronoun card: here

Anime watch list: here

D&D character bios: here

Kin list: here

Fan fiction: here

Aro/ace headcanon’s: here

Trans/nonbinary headcanon’s: here

#️⃣Tags

#spoiler demon- something that would be a spoiler for my partner that I don’t want them seeing yet

#north writes- my writing

#northsky- me and my partner

#multishipper moment- rambling about a ship that probably doesn’t make much sense

#tw cursing (I cuss a lot tho and may sometimes forget to tag so feel free to remind me if that happens cuz the last thing I want is to upset anyone)

#tw vent

#Norths ocs (my OC’s, dnd or otherwise)

#Darling Trouble (the ship name between my dnd OC’s Leucis and Greyson)

#Necrotic Music (the ship name between my dnd OC's Warryn and Hecate)

(If I don’t tag anything that’s triggering please tell me and I’ll tag it straight away cuz I want my blog to be a safe and comfortable place for people)

🚫DNI

Trump supporters

Homophobes/transphobes/TERFS/super straights/aphobes

Racists

Sexists

MAPs/p3dophiles

Pro shippers

People who think it’s ok under any circumstances to tell someone to k*ll themselves

Anti vaxxers

(You get the gist. Just don’t be a dick)

🤓Non anime fandoms/interests

���Avatar the last airbender

🎢Dead end: paranormal park

📚Anything by Alice Oseman

👩‍❤️‍👨Pride and Prejudice

🌌Arcane

🙉Triggers

S*lf h*rm

Hair pulling (specifically someone pulling their own hair)

👎Don’t tag me in

Discourse, fandom related or otherwise

Anything character critical

Stuff containing spoilers

[eduards-stuff]

Welcome to eduard 1 am ramblings

I was recently watching videos on YouTube and seeing a video of a couple meeting through vr and all the struggles they been through and just meeting people in vr.

I started to thin the line between reality and virtuality is cuz as technology progresses and people have like full body tracking with haptic feedback so you can feel peoples touching you and who poked your back the line really starts to blur.

You meet all of these people you interacts with them and some you may start to connect and start a bond with or a date as some do.

And the more you spend time the morr you get attached to things.

At some point I could see people get possibly more attached to the avatar than the real life if there are maybe huge differences because we start associating that imagine or avatar as the person we are everyday and see laugh and act and speak so i could totally see someone get attached that way.

If you have a tiny stylised girl with like ears of a fox and a tail in a specific outfit like a leotard or something aesthetically pleasing and after like months of speaking to her like that you transition to the real life or on a discord call and she's not the "image" you imagined I can kind of see a sort of disconnect between perceived desire of what youd like she to look like and the reality as there is no way the certain avatars to exist so there could definitely be anxiety about it and confusion.

The more vr becomes morr used in gaming and hanging out especially in quarantine I could totally see how it will be used as escapism cuz you can touch people in vr without having to worry about distancing and so much more especially bond intimally.

There are people Who post as girls and try to make it as realistically as possible even with voice modulators it seems.

Imagine the hurt if you had someone you were very interested in and it turned out not only they lied to you but also played along and could maybe discard it all once the facade is up.

Especially in the times of corona losing that type of deep emotional connection in times of need can really mess someone up.

As on the virtual reality it seems we are somehow more vulnerable as some of the social bariers are down as we aren't exactly at shame and at risk with some anonymity but somehow the connection people do are a lot deeper

Been single for a while and wirh the quarantine had been a lot of things that I though of . Soft things, things to do to experience and share wirh someone I really liked and do all sorts of cheesy things too.

I would actually enjoy a candle lit and full moon dinner or something cuz I'm that kind of soft weak bitch whose thst extra

Or something simple or special at home as I also enjoy cooking but and if it makes someone feeling happy would feel like the effort is worth it.

Another thing that would be really nice to do is go to the bitch and have a picnic there bring some food some blankets and pillows in a rent pick up truck

And see the sea/ocean have some food and some drink if the situation call for it and have a projector and warch a movie or some pictures collage that can be set up between the 2 of them.

And then look for a star shower or some kind of cosmic event cuz space is cool!!

While writing like stories and role-playing as specific characters I definitely thought of and found out a lot of these amazing scenarios that I could totally make if the right opportunity arises all in a notebook for like date ideas but thise never really came to be used as I never found someone interested to share these in real life so there' are just bubbles of hope that is like one day to materialise

Maybe some of these some peoppe can do in the virtual reality but then the parting becomes even more painful and the disconnect between reality and fiction becomes even more as we spend more time and are engaged in vr

So would it be worth it ?

To see it possibly be ruined?

What is reality more than just a lot if facts and observations we do for ourselves

I know right I'm 14 and this is deep shit but it does feel kind of true

As at some point you will be able to have full dive vr and actually live 2 totally different lives and possibly love the ability to differentials it anymore

As you start to wonder does your love for someone connected to them or the avatar thay they are acting as ?

As avatars don't really have flaws or imperfections and can be meticulously designed to look like the person you wanna appear as.

You still made those choices and hard work to appear as that thing and the choices of designs you did are yours but the imagine may not always correlate to you when someone looks at them.

Really odd thing how the human psychology does that thing of bonding to ideas an perceptions.

I sure hope a lot of people got what they deserved and wished for cuz it seems like the level of deep hurt not a lot of places can reach

I think this is it for now quite a long ramblings that I've been doing by myself or just spewing to a friend about and left it in the ether but I thought would be maybe healthier to try to find another way of channelling my thought

Or some kind of fixation right now through this writing and sort some of process what i am thinking right now cuz sometimes it is a mistery to me even what i am about to type next as it Jus r flows one word after another without much in mind .

My mind being very empty right now but yeah I should end my ramblings here and scream them into he good and find a different kind of coping mechanics and not rely on someone listening and Just continue screaming into the anonymous void and hope someone understands what I'm saying and I'm not try my insane as I think I am.

Sometimes I have the feeling I really am just predictable and the 1 note but sometimes I surprise myself with emotions being complex and not knowing what to do but to just I guess pine for someone to do amazing things wirh but I know that may or may not come and I'll just have to accept that as it is or try to change that myself in some way

But as far as I'm aware there are a lot of way to do that and find a way to find comfort on someone as social standards and pressure don't let you just walk up to people and say hi or much.

If someone's reading this as I'm screaming into the void you can always reach put and talk and have actual deep conversation.

I think what i may be feeling is what a lot of people have been feeling but more accentuated as I didn't had a place to go in my town as there literally not much to do than go to my library and read a book or take a walk but now not even being able to go there even the rare times I went still affects me and feeling isolated and alone on an island with no one next to them.

I think we all felt like that over the course of 2020 which really sucks the more it goes especially with school starting

I really hate that corona csme exactly when I has hope and plans to go in exchange wirh another person in uni and life somewhere else and meet new people tried so hard at exams to be sure I will be able to go only to be slowly crushed ad corona changed it all and into rejected by then and not being able to join to other places so i just lost the train.

These are the moments I overfixated on things and can talk about them for like 20.000 words before crashing and ssying words like they are knives of sharp air going out of my throat for the next 8 hours after this extensive monologue.

Monologue which seemed to go for ages but we all need a place and a way to express whatever you feeling cuz we all need therapy in 2020 I needed way before that in 2012 but only realised like 2 years ago .

So there we go we all need help and it's okay to just talk about it and just get lost in the sea of posts that hopefully somehow won't end up biting me in the ass somehow back.

If someone was interested enough to psychoanalyse this sheet of had the patience please tell me cuz I'm also dieing to know what made you so bored to do this and what you can interpret from this rambling at what guess what now I've been typing for like 15 minutes quite a feat .

I wonder if Tumblr posts have a limit in character usage I don't know I guess will find out soon shouldn't we at some point well reach it . I should probably go to bed now my moms keep nagging me to go to bed I should finish this and go good night thank you if you somehow got to this 10 k word essay rambling and go to the end I don't know how you had the patience to read though my possibly adhd and hyperfixation ass you're a dsmn legend.

Well see ya good night

[somelazyassartist]

Haha, that's awesome. You're kind of eccentric, but it's something I relate to. Growing up and having people not care at all about hearing me talk about weird historical facts or whatever book I was reading makes me like...want to be very supportive of other people with their interests. Sadly I still haven't found someone who cares about filmmaking or old literature as much as I do, Haha.;-; But for real tell me more Lapis Interests. :D

I understand,, the reason I'm so eccentric on here is cuz in person nobody seems to really care about what I have to say or they tend to get annoyed at my hyperfixations, online really feels like the only place I'm allowed to talk about my interests,,,, so I understand how it feels to have nobody listen to you. I don't know much about filmmaking but I know a lot about acting and they sorta go hand in hand!! If you ever wanna talk about it I'm more than happy to listen, even if I don't understand everything about it!! I love to learn about other people's interests =^v^= but I love old literature!! I don't know how much I've read of old books, but I like the ones I have read!! Like any Shakespeare plays or Of Mice and Men or To Kill a Mockingbird to name a few I really like!! Uh, some of my interests? Well, for quite a long time I was an expert on the Titanic, I had at least 13 books I had read front to back, 4 documentaries, special edition vhs package of the movie, both the soundtracks to the movie and the musical, and probably over 20 pieces of memorabilia,,,, by now I've forgotten a lot but when I was 12 that was all I would talk about! I'm also really into the founding fathers because I really love the musical Hamilton and decided to study it further ((Peggy deserved so much more,, she was a badass irl)) and now I can rap the entire musical too ((though I'm a tenor so some songs can be hard to sing if they're too high/low pitched. I found out the hard way that many songs are not made for tenors to sing. Luckily since it's mostly rap I don't have to worry as much)) I also LOVE ballet!! I used to be a ballerina, but I left because even though they had air conditioning they didn't use it and I got sick of nearly passing out and because people puked a few times- once on me. That was my last straw. But god I loved performing, the Nutcracker was my favorite to do!! I played one of the tin soldiers and I had a candy cane "gun" where I'd hold this giant candy cane and pretend to shoot at the rats,, but the costume was sorta painful so that sucked. But I think the biggest thing I'm into is Steven Universe,, I could practically tell you anything you wanted to know about it lmao, but it's not that much of a secret that I'm into it lol. Jghkljk sorry for rambling so much,,,, thank you. But yeah,, what about you? I'd love to hear about your interests if you wanna talk about them!! I'm always happy to listen :3