#i think i might have bpd instead of my diagnosed mdd | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

hop3wrlds · 3 years ago

Text

it’s so pathetic how i do this every single time i experience success — i black out , ruin everything , & by the time i’ve realized what i’ve done it’s already too late . the hole i’ve dug myself is too deep to get out unscathed . & so then i lay for hours & sob & scream & complain as if i didn’t do this to myself . i’m embarrassed & humiliated . what kind of person is so flawed like this ?

#tw vent #i’m actually in AWE of how badly i’ve ruined things this time #i don’t understand wtf is wrong w me #i have no empathy for myself this is so pathetic #you’d think after failing sm times i’d know better atp #and yet here i am again #i think i might have bpd instead of my diagnosed mdd #it doesn’t matter anyways #actually traumatized #actually ptsd #actually dissociative #neurodivergent #actually dpdr #actuallymentallyill #bpd #major depressive disorder #actually cptsd

3 notes · View notes