#i think another part of it is bc i'm someone who fixates so much on soundtrack and plot etc. i Tend to rewatch the movies as opposed to eps

[jimtitkirk]

Hullo! Trying to revive the tried and true tradition of asks!! Do you have a favorite episode or favorite few? (Bonus: please elaborate as much or as little about why you like it depending on your energy levels of course❤️)

Hope you’re having a lovely day!

hihihiii!!!! thank you so much for sending this, and i hope ur ALSO having a fantastic day <333 ohhhh my god it's been a while and im way overdue for a rewatch, but here's what i remember:

for plot reasons, "space seed" is definitely a favorite and my most rewatched!! i'm a sucker for analysis, and ricardo montalban, mexican king, and not only is it an INCREDIBLE setup for TWOK, but i could probably write an essay post on how good of a villain khan is as a foil to kirk. to summarize, it's fascinating seeing two characters (protag-antag) that are genuinely well-matched in terms of wit and motive.

for gay (spirk) reasons, "the city on the edge of forever" always makes me go insane. the aesthetic, the LINES that are dropped ("[as if you have been and always will be by his side]" or however it goes), and... just... the angsty and melancholic YEARNING that radiates from spock, watching him try to support kirk as a friend, but internally being torn apart because he'd rather martyr himself for kirk's happiness and good the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the one than consider his own needs...

i also just wanna put out there that "for the world is hollow and i have touched the sky" as a title, poetically, has made me go apeshit bonkers even before i watched it. like. what the fuck.

[yourstrulyray]

hi do you want to talk abt isaac.

basically i'm writing a cbs ghosts fic with a focus on some original characters but with a lot of nisaac and plenty of the entire cast in general

it'll have a lot of isaac's pov as well, with his thoughts about two people who can be openly queer in the modern era

but. since ive only watched like,, probably less than half of the show. i thought talking to someone else abt it could help me characterise everyone?? i also just want to talk abt it bc it's kind of a fixation right now haha

no pressure though!! hope you have a nice day

AAAAA yes please i would love to talk about my son hehdhd

let me list out some timelines pre-death first :3

isaac's marriage to beatrice: before or during 1773 the american revolutionary war: 1775-1783 nigel's death: 1776 isaac's death: 1777

so since the start of season 1, despite isaac's efforts we could all still see the fact he does not find women attractive (he literally called his wife, beatrice a handsome woman) so we're thinking bad comphet for our guy here.

(this only applies pre-nisaac) there are five male ghosts of the main cast, so when they all collectively agree that one girl is attractive (maybe not pete), isaac naturally plays along with it, but. plays along badly. everyone could tell that he did not find that girl attractive

as during nisaac, he is still obviously hesitant to be open because he had never been in a relationship with another man. a homosexual relationship. but not only is he hesitant, he is scared.

why is he scared? take a guess of what punishment you'd get for being gay in the 1770s (especially 1776).

the death penalty.

and we all know our guy isaac likes to talk about himself, he was so heavily disappointed to see that all he was in history was a footnote, and how he was jealous that his rival, hamilton, got a whole MUSICAL made about him (isaac loves musical theatre so thats twice the angy) so it's reasonable for him to be scared of death.

but hes already dead, why still be scared?

i actually dont know why but it's probably muscle memory for isaac to pretend. maybe he only found out that queerness was legalized/modernized through sam, not even through the recently dead ones. gotta hand it to him though i cant keep up a facade for more than a century XD

anyway, him being hesitant isn't the only problem, it's also the way he handles his relationship with nigel. his only other serious relationship was with a woman he wasn't even romantically interested in, so he has no healthy base to rely his current relationship with. also, his god-forsaken terrible communication skills, bros been pretending so much that even his personal feelings should be hidden 😭🙏 who hurt u man?

honestly his poo communication skills can still be linked back to his marriage with beatrice. maybe he had no problem with her, therefore no feelings were required to be shared, and he didn't have the need to communicate. but with nigel is a whole different situation.

oh yeah speaking of nigel, like isaac he doesn't have a healthy basis for a relationship. in this case, he previously was in a homosexual relationship, but it was only a sexual (?) one (with jenkins, but idk about the sexual part so jenkins fans back me up 🙏🙏).

we do see in the series that isaac is taking baby steps in the relationship, as opposed to nigel who rushes the starting-to-adjust stage, because this isn't his first gay relationship (whos gonna tell him) which then results to isaac having certain feelings about it, which then results to isaac not communicating as to pretend he can manage their relationship.

one thing about isaac's "certain feelings", it's usually about little things not even serious stuff. he had gone on many respites (temporary break up) with nigel because of their political beliefs (TGE WAR FUCKING ENDED GET OVER IT), hobbies, and personal likes. instead of adjusting to each other, they still choose to follow what they want instead of each other's wishes.

so, TLDR; nigel and isaac, despite having been in previous relationships, are doodoo at expressing themselves and adjusting to one another. (boo)

if you'd like the characterization of the other ghosts/sam and jay, my askbox is open at all times!! :3

[forbiddentaako]

Ghostfuckers spoilers ahoy, I have more rambly thoughts like with the Apology Tour post

Forget Stolitz and Blitzo's depression era for a second I need to talk about Blitzo and Millie's friendship bc I'm actually so feral about them its not even funny!!!! Like congrats to Helluva for getting me to care about stolitz and all but hitting me with a best friendship that was deeply important was diabolical and Im gonna get unhinged about their friendship in the same way people are unhinged about stolitz.

Like Millie and Blitzo being close friends didn't come out of nowhere to me because its very clear they are close from their other interactions in other episodes, but a lot of those involved the group dynamic being the focus, so it was really nice getting a look at what Blitzo and millie are like between just the two of them. And like the biggest moments are obviously the 2 conversations they have and the implications of said conversations, but also just the dynamic they have is really cute??? And overall narratively how Blitz and millie's relationship matters so much especially at this point in the story makes me want to bite things the longer I think about it.

With the first convo they have after Blitzo is having a hallucination induced breakdown the sticking point for me was Millie explicitly telling him her life is better with him in it, because first of all I don't think blitzo really ever hears that explicitly even from those he is close with, which must hit even harder at the moment with Blitzo feeling like he makes everyone around him worse without fail. And the fact that this comes after the 'what ifs' of how millie could have died in ways that would have technically been because of him-outcomes in which Blitzo's involvement in her life *did* actively make it worse-feeding into Blitzo's insecurities but simultaneously showing the audience that this is not an objective truth, something that millie reinforced verbally to Blitzo in their conversation?? I just think it was really well done.

Also with Millie it wasn't just that him being a part of her life makes it better, but the things that Millie points to as reasoning are just who Blitz is s a person and are aspects of himself that he doesn't even think about or realize have any affect on others, let alone a positive one. The fact that these are subconscious traits help to catch Blitzo off guard and force him to question his previously held beliefs about how he affects people because every other action we see him fixate on is something he has thought about or is aware of whereas he had never even considered this. They also force Blitzo to acknowledge that he does have good traits and is in fact a complicated person rather than an unequivocally bad one, an important step in actually breaking his cycles.

One thing that stuck out to me so much in this episode too was that Blitzo and Millie have excellent chemistry, which makes their relationship feel very organic and helps us as the audience being able to understand why the episode plays out the way it does.

Blitzo is not actively engaged in his friendship with millie in the same way he is with his other relationships, and thus its harder to pick up on the effects he's having, which in turn makes it much easier for his preconceived notions to be challenged than with a relationship like him and stolas (more on that later if I decide to make another post about it). It's very similar with Millie's side as well in terms of not having to actively engage, and thus its very easy to reassure blitzo the way she does in the episode, because again, it's not a conscious effort to try and make him feel better, it's just her telling the truth from her perspective. Which not only makes their friendship feel so natural but also makes it so much harder for Blitzo to deny what she is telling him, because even if he doesn't want to believe it due to his self hatred he still trusts she's being honest. And the fact that Millie is someone he trusts like this!!! That this is just a part of their relationship!!! Matters so much to me!!

While in most of his relationships the work Blitzo puts in to analyze them would rely on trying to convince himself that he *isn't* a piece of shit, with Millie he would have to work to convince himself that he *is* one, and this shift mentally is gonna force him to re-evaluate what he holds as an unequivocal truth about himself and his relationships. Because he cannot hold onto the idea that he unconsciously ruins those around him when him and millie's relationship exists as it does with him unconsciously improving her life.

The second conversation also showed what I was hoping for coming off of apology tour with Blitzo genuinely wanting to make a change in his relationships with those in his life, and in some ways actually starting to. Ghostfuckers made things pretty clear that Blitzo's deeply rooted insecurities and self hatred are part of the reason he's stuck in these self destructive cycles and why he views his role in his relationships in such a negative light, but his friendship with Millie is the first step in him feeling comfortable enough in the thought that he is even capable of doing good and becoming better to start to correct his thinking. And this is shown at least subtly in the episode with the heart to heart they have at the end of it!

I really hope that going forward Blitzo is going to be leaning more heavily onto this relationship with Millie not only because I love them but also because it is the only relationship in his life currently that he perceives as stable, and the only one where he has been reassured that his presence is wanted and positive. It's very possible that because he hasn't dealt with his deeper issues yet he views his friendship with Millie as just an exception to his beliefs, but its still so important that he now has to acknowledge there are exceptions that he had never considered. Thus to some extent he has to grapple with the fact that he is not viewing himself objectively, and that can be a turning point into improvement because he can no longer belief that the way he is is simply beyond help.

Basically I liked apology tour forcing Blitzo to rock bottom, to have to confront his flaws and face the people he's hurt, and to understand why he needs to change because he can't keep living like this. But I liked Ghostfuckers because it forced Blitzo to acknowledge that he *can* be a better person, that things are more complicated than he was willing to acknowledge, and that he isn't a lost cause because if he dwells on the hopelessness he *still* won't ever be able to change.

Basically I can't believe the show about Blitzo's relationships with others is getting me attached to blitzo's relationships with others, and the fact that a pivotal relationship to both him as a character and his narrative arc is a platonic relationship means the world to me actually.

[allisluv]

hihi! i was wondering if you could maybe take any eddie roundtree requests? like a a fluff and/or smu alphabet? there’s such little content out there for him and it’s killing me bc i’m so fixated on him 😭😭

thank you for your request anon! i’m gonna make a start on the sfw alphabet asap <3

cw: nsfw, fem!reader, not proofread but what’s new

A = aftercare (what they're like after sex):

eddie is spent after sex. he'll wash you down with a warm cloth and thats about as far as he goes. but in saying that, he traces patterns into the skin of your back and whispers sweet nothings until you both doze off.

B= body part (favourite body part of theirs and thei partners):

eddie plays the guitar so i think it's only natural that his favourite body part is his hands. he likes that he has you falling apart on his fingers in a matter of seconds.

eddie is a boob man. whether they're itty bitty or the size of watermelons, he doesnt care. he's constantly squeezing and leaving hickeys there.

C = anything to do with cum:

eddie likes to coat your chest with thick, hot ropes of his cum.

D = dirty secret:

sex is very much about control for eddie. he loves being dominant (which i think stems from how little control he has in the band but that's another issue for another day) and he loves seeing your squirm and beg underneath him.

E = (experience how experienced are they? do they know what they're doing?):

i know eddie acts like a playboy but i honestly think he has his first time pretty late for his age (which is not a bad thing at all!). he fumbles his way through it the first time but your pleasure is always his number one priority, even if he doesn't know what hes doing. he's a quick learner, though. that's all i'm gonna say!

F= favourite position:

eddie likes when you ride him because he has a perfect view of your tits bouncing. he's not picky though— so long as you're close, he doesn't care.

G= goofy (are they more serious or humourous?):

eddie is a sucker for giggly sex and he will do anything he can to make you laugh, even if at times it's at his own expense.

H= hair (how well groomed are they? do the curtains match the drapes?):

eddie's not a fan of shaving down there. call it the rockband lifestyle but he just doesn't strike me as someone who takes time out of his day to do it. he trims it once a month to keep it tamed but that's about it.

I= intimacy (how are they during the moment? romantic aspects):

eddie likes when sex is romantic. on your anniversery or your birthday, he goes all out with rose petals and champagne bottles. he worships you on a daily basis and that extends into the bedroom too.

J= jackoff (masturbation headcanon):

eddie prefers your hald over his own and thats the god honest truth— that’s one of the perks of you coming on tour with him.

K = kinks (one or more of their kinks):

eddie has a breeding kink and no i will not be elaborating. it just makes sense. i think he likes edging you and overstimulation, too, but he's just too soft-hearted to deny you for that long. he likes when you pull on his curls as well.

L= location (where do they like to have sex?):

eddie likes the risk of being caught, so he loves fucking you on the tour bus with the door unlocked and in an empty studio.

M = motivation (what turns them on?):

this is a bit specific but if you're a singer, he finds it super hot how you grip the mic stand between your hands. he can't help but hike your skirt up backstage and shove his tongue down your throat.

N= no (things he won't do):

its cliche but eddie won't do anfthing that hurts you. its just a major turn off for him.

O = oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill etc):

i think eddie has a preference for receiving but he loves loves loves giving as well!! he knows what to do with his tongue too if you know what i mean

P = pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc):

eddie prefers drawing your orgasm out but if he's had a rough or stressful day in work (otherwise known as billy getting on every single one of his nerves) then he'll fuck you into the mattress like it's the last time he's ever going to get to touch you.

Q = quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often etc):

eddie loves quickies. he'll pull your skirt up to your hips and fuck you in an empty closet just to see how quickly he can make you cum. he tries not to make them a regular occurrence but they do happen a couple of times a month.

R = risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks?):

eddie's pretty much open to trying anything within both yours and his boundaries. he's an exhibitionist so he's known for taking risks that could get you caught in the act.

S = stanima (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?):

eddie can go for hours without getting tired. this man is made out of steel when it comes to sex and he can last for just as long.

T = toys (do they use toys? on a partner or on themselves?):

eddie's pretty old school when it comes to toys. he prefers doing everything himself and knowing that he's the one who is making you feel good. he's not opposed to trying new things, though, and i think he'd like it more than he lets on.

U = unfair (how much they like to tease):

eddie loves whispering dirty things in your ear right before you're about to go on stage just because he knows your panties will be sopping wet by the time you're finished your set list. he'll always give you what you want by the end of the night though.

V = volume (how loud are they? what kind of sounds do they make?):

eddie groans and grunts when he's fucking you. he's shameless when it comes to talking you through your orgasm too.

W = wild card (a random headcanon):

he sometimes uses his belt to tie your hands to the headboard

X = x-ray (let's see what's going on under those clothes):

i'd say he's around five inches but he makes up for it in girth

Y = yearning (how high is their sex drive?):

eddie's like a fucking animal when it comes to sex. he could take you a couple times a day and still be hard.

Z = zzz (how quickly do they fall asleep?):

because eddie can last so long, he's typically exhausted after sex. he washes you down and makes sure you're comfortable before the two of you cuddle and fall asleep to a movie playing in the background

[hyunsvngs]

Nervous anon here again...could I please ask for the boys reactions of calling them daddy/mummy for the first time? 🥺

Also you all are so lovely!

ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO BE NERVOUS ABOUT BBY. this has me thinking... mommy minho. mommy lix. MOMMY HYUNE. i have a lot to say.

chan: god, i can imagine you doing it as a joke. he's always caring for you, always looking out for you and he's just such a daddy. one day, he dries your hair for you with a towel and you're grinning, saying "thanks, daddy." oh god, he's instantly hard. he's babbling, blinking at your reflection in the mirror. "you- huh?!" definitely gets you to say it again and he's so blushy, giggling with his awkwardness. he's not so giggly when he fucks into you after tho, pinning you to the bed and making you tell him exactly who's fucking you that good - your daddy.

minho: no bc mommy minho. imagine he spoonfeeds you some of his pudding one day, and it just flies out. "c'mon, eat up for mommy." when he realises what he said, his eyes would go wide, plump lips parting. ears even tinged red with his embarrassment. but you're just grinning, licking your lips of the pudding. "am i mommy's kitty?" god he'd die. he's throwing his prized pudding away immediately, yanking your shorts down. he didn't even realise how much he was into it.

changbin: changbin strikes me as someone who would get SO blushy if you called him daddy. like, he's just fucking into you, and he's such the type to fuck you so good and so sensual you're doing the whole "give it to me, daddy. harder.". his ears are immediately perking up, eyes racking over your body. "yeah? 'm your daddy? god, again." and you'd whine, just repeating the word over and over for him. he'd get off on it SO bad, even though he's the furthest thing from the dom.. would probably ignite a breeding kink

hyunjin: GOD he strikes me as another mommy sort of guy. just imagine him laying there, versace robe and nothing else, hair wet from his shower and dripping little droplets of water down his bare chest.. you'd walk in, eyes raking over him. "god, hyunnie, you look really mommy right now," you'd say, taking in his appearance. he's just scrolling on his phone, legs spread. you can see his cock just existing under there, and all of a sudden, you're fixated on it. "wow, really?" he's giggling, and when you don't respond, eyes fixated on his cock, he's locking his phone and throwing it to the side. "why don't you come and ride your mommy then, darling?" oh my GOd

jisung: my brain immediately went to you calling him daddy and him calling you mommy. you're both making out, and his cock is just about breaching your hole. he's so drippy for you, the lubrication adding to the messy slide between your legs. "daddy, c'mon, fuck your mommy," you find yourself blurting it, and god, jisung's eyes just go WIDE. he's immediately bottoming out inside of you, hips feverishly jerking against yours. "mm- is daddy fucking mommy good? yeah?" and you're nodding, whining against his lips. he's whining himself and its just all hfsgdhjgd desperate for eachother

felix: MOMMY LIXIE AGENDA. mommy lixie who bakes u little treats when you're delirious in bed from the flu or something <3 ur all cosy in ur bed, just a lil burrito and felix brings you some brownies in, still in his apron. he looks so domestic, so malewife, so mommy. you giggle when he hands you a plate of brownies. "yay, mommy brought me treats." n he's IMMEDIATELY blushing, giggling a lil too. "am i mommy, angel?" you nod, thinking you just gotta stick with the part yk. "is my angel too out of it for me to fuck you? i think you need to feel mommy's cock, precious." OHMYGDO

seungmin: oh god so cocky. fucking you from behind, and you're just whining, gripping the sheets. "y-yes, that's it, daddy!" immediately smacking your ass, chuckling behind you. "daddy? seriously? are you that out of it?" you're whimpering, babbling in response. god he'd be all "daddy's fine for now, while you're this dumb. but i'm sir later, got it?" you don't even know what he's said, really, just whining out for your daddy while he makes you cum over and over around him.. oh my god

jeongin: NOOOO BC DADDY INNIE? JESUS. he'd be so fucking elated if you called him that. just imagining him fingering you senseless on the sofa, all the boys are out from the dorm and you're just whining into his shoulder, drooling all over it. all of a sudden, you're rambling, "daddy, your fingers are so long, i- hnng!". and jeongin's immediate reaction is to giggle, kissing your forehead. he's honestly abt to scream bc u finally called him that and he's been WAITING for it. just him going "yeah? are daddy's fingers makin' you feel good?" with a stupid lil smile im gonna die

[minquiec]

A brief intermission as we cut to a bus that has crashed into my life: the bus also known as choso from the Hit Anime And Manga Jujutsu Kaisen

Yyyyyyookkkayyyyy

Yknow the fixation is fixating when you start making ocxccs about it

Off topic but I've actually only ever made two proper ocxcc ships with lore and planning in them (the first being my genshin one and the second being jipunk which was THIS year (had my genshin one for TWO YEARS which is crazy) so the fact I'm making another shows how much this man is affecting my mental state rn

But it also means I still love my other ships very much so 🎉🎉🎉 even if I don't draw it as much cause I can't focus on two things LOLOL

ANYWAYS ONTO THE ACTUAL POST

I said this on my story but the concept was like, a seperate setting bc I'm toooo dumb to understand jjk lore

AND, this is rlly dumb, THE WHOLE REASON BEHIND THIS SHIP IS BC I JUST WANNA CREATE A CHARACTER FOR HIM TO LOVE,,, (CHOSOYUKI IS CUTE BUT I NEED A DIFFERENT VIBE TO SATISFY MY DESIRE TO SEE THIS MAN HAPPY)

but yeah bc of that their dynamic is like

aloof and reserved individual who doesn't quite understand the concept of love outside of the familial one and is actually quite hesitant and shy abt it x a strange but kind person who slowly teaches him the aforementioned concept

Ok so the idea of how it goes is like choso randomly wakes up in a place

And this is highkey spoilers for like the 'endgame' of this but I'm never gonna make an actual plot sooo (plus I need to explain this before I sound insane)

The inspiration is like Elysian Fields (bit obsessed w this recently, I drew a jipunk piece abt this too) and ITS ALL CAUSE OF CHOSOS NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE IN THE MANGA AND WE'RE ALL FREAKING OUT ABT IT

But yes he wakes up in an unfamiliar field in an unfamiliar place but he's strangely calm about it (dunno why he is but I'll get back to thinking abt it later) but he spots this house in the distance and naturally he goes to it

And so he would meet haruko who's a little strange because she has no last name and isn't bothered by the fact that one. She lives in the middle of absolutely nowhere, and two. That he just shows up

She's even like "oh I haven't had visitors in a long while ☺️"

Aaannnd then cue a slow burn slice of life romance im gonna force them to have bc ASHBBENBKKKRMENJ SLOWBURN AGAGG cause there's no way someone like him is falling at first sight (imo anyways)

(Just a fun fact I fell asleep after writing this part and then woke up again HAHDHS it was 2 am.)

But yeah the situation is literally just the forced proximity trope where it's "oh I have to live with this stranger while I try to understand wtf is going but oh no I appear to have slowly fallen in love"

I just want someone to be nice :(( and kind :(( to him :((((( hold his hand pls and be so nice and gentle w his heart cause he's new at this :((((((((

Thinking abt how it's a slow burn is making me crazy rn cause it means we have a lot of stolen glances AHEGGEFGGG and like getting nervous HHHRGGGGRHH and shyness YYYRYYHGGRHHH and it's mostly all from choso cause I love it when a man falls harder 🔥🔥

Anyways I think that's mostly it for now cause I can't remember what else I wanted to say 🧚

[smallraindrops-blog]

I started watching Dungeon meshi a few days ago (and I started the manga), and Hades 2 reawakened my fixation on the games.

(Potential spoilers for Dungeon meshi?)

So seeing the Fanart of Hades characters as Dungeon meshi characters has me gnawing on my enclosure. Falin Hypnos, my beloved.

That's said I keep thinking of an au for WMFTD where Y/n is in Falins' role and Hypnos is in Marcille.

All this boils down to dragon Y/n and necromancer Hypnos being even more obsessed devoted and in love with one another. :) (You brought me back even though the ones we love most told you not to, I came back wrong, but I know I still love you. You did the unthinkable, and now I am forever indebted to you. You are mine, and I am yours.)

As for the other characters, I think Zagreus would be Laois (brotherly bond and instead of food, his thing would be filling Achilles codex and fishing), while not fulling matching characters I think Thanatos would be in Chilchuck role, and for Senshi... I'm not sure. You could put Meg there not because she necessarily fits as Senshi but to keep her with Zagreus and Thanatos, a knight, maybe? I was thinking of putting Achilles in Senshi's place because it just seems fitting. (And the Angst potential)

But aaa, that's all for rambling. I hope you enjoyed it and have a good day!

I enjoyed your rambling! ^-^ also on mobile. sorry for mistakes.

Putting my reply under a readmore.

But yes I love that line between devotion and obsession because that line might be thinner than love/hate. Also don’t cross that stuff out! That is the goooood shit. 🤌

As for the role for people to play:

Zagreus

Zagreus as Laois fits really well, methinks. It works bc part of the reasons Zag left the house was because he felt like he didn’t fit in.

I think with Y/N getting nom on and leaving Zagreus behind would only increase that feeling of isolation for him.

especially if the others kinda blame him for what happened. ( also maybe the dragon could be a hydra? so in place of feathers, y/n ends up with those horns things? And fangs? )

Maybe Achilles’ codex could still be greek monsters along greek gods and Zagreus having his own personal one for all the different kinds of fishes and the many ways to cook them.

If it was up to Zagreus, they would eat fishes for every meal. The others veto it very quickly.

Thanatos

I actually he would be a great fit for the chilchuck role. Both of them would much rather keep work and personal life separate.

also while Thanatos can fight and fairly well, he is not a skilled/trained combatant like Meg or Y/N would be.

so letting him have a role where he focuses on overall safety and solving puzzles would really let his natural skills shine.

also since y/n isn’t a healer, it would help Hypnos to have someone who also has the skills and patience needed for healing spells.

also I think the fights between Zagreus and him about not being reckless and learning to trust the eachother could be interesting.

Megaera

She could fill in for the Namari/Shuro role. She just didn’t leave the group since she had personal reasons to want to stay ( but it could be interesting if she did leave after Y/N became a sandwich bc the whole episode with her was one of my favorite)

especially if she ends up getting her sisters to help find y/n

it would also help bc while Zagreus is learning how to fight, the lost of skills and knowledge of combat after Y/N got nibble on would be huge blow to the group.

It also possible she felt some guilt for what happened to y/n as well but still blames Zag which could have some fun tension/fights.

As for the senshi’s role, I love the idea of it being achilles, but if I may suggest another character, I think Dusa would be a good fit for the role.

She already shown to be super helpful and has skill in domestic tasks along with being an outcast. Like the group find her and she ends up helping out by showing Zagreus how to de-bone and cook the many different fishes. Along with dealing various monster and gods since she lived in the dungeon for so long.

She would also be a friend of Zagreus while being a neutral third party, something the group desperately needs.

Achilles just wouldn’t be able to stay calm or listen if he lost his son. He would likely get everyone killed along with himself before saving Y/N. Especially if Pat is no longer in the picture.

So maybe…

Tall man Pat and Achilles adopted little Y/N, who might have elf or something else in him but no one knows for sure. As y/n get a little older, his parents began working in the dungeon together, leaving him with Persephone and baby zag. Y/n would start studying fighting skills so he could join his parents sooner.

Something happened, monster or demon and it left Y/n alone with baby Zag, hiding until his parents found them.

So Patroclus and Achilles takes Zag in and they grow up as brothers.

Somethings happened to Patroclus and Achilles, the only thing found of them were ruined gear along with Achilles’ bloody and torn codex. maybe that was part of the reasons the brothers decided to go down there. To try get some answers.

I think hypnos would be unsure at first but seeing the deep pain Y/N’s eyes would make him agree. Also only because hypnos totally thought Y/N as a great friend, nothing more. Nope. He definitely doesn’t get jealous when he caught Meg staring at Y/N a few times.

and he totally doesn’t cozy up to y/n whenever he got cold in the dungeon. Or share more snacks with y/n or fuss over Y/N more when he is doing the healing magic.

They formed the group and everything seemed to be going well.

Then y/n became an ‘all you can eat special’ and the journey began.

And like Hypnos might be going a little crazy bc he just lost his best friend, someone he knew as a boy then as a man and he just really wanted his best friend back. That was all.

Then they finally got y/n back and hypnos knew he was being clingy but y/n didn’t to mind, even letting hypnos hold on to him for far longer than appropriate and hypnos just didn’t want to let go. Maybe they share quiet, gentle kisses when alone together, promising to talk more when they got out of the dungeon.

Then shit goes sideway.

Hydra!y/n is huge, powerful, quick moving and terrifying. With dozens of little hydra following him around. ( kinda like the harpies kinda did with Falin.)

But he seemed to recognize Hypnos, he touched Hypnos’ chin like he did before they shared those kisses. And he was able to say Zagreus’ name.

Also lol imagine poor hypnos during that shirt ripping part with y/n.

So Hypnos can totally bring Y/N back to normal. Totally. He is not crying thank you very much. No, he didn’t want a tissue, Dusa but thank you.

And yeah lol. Thanks for letting me ramble lol.

[acourtofthought]

Okay beside the fact that right now Azriel is not an ideal love intrest we can admit that he is loyal to his friends and family? that much is clear.

SO WHY THESE E/RIELS THINK THAT HE WOULD TURN HIS BACK ON HIS FAMILY FOR SOME GIRL WHO HE MET FOR 2 YEARS AND ONLY FEELS LUST FOR!? Like it's some kind of a revenge from IC (specially Rhys) bc they won't let them be together and honestly were did that came from?

It pisses off every time that someone mention it. Like no, trust me he will never do that!! He will never turn his back on his 5 century family to be with her. He gave up after Rhys told him to stop whatever he was about to do and it was never mentioned throughout the story and we know he's a little rebellious towards orders so if he REALLY wanted to be with Elain it would've happened. (And pls don't tell me it was from Nesta's pov it's was from Cassian's too and he knows his brother or sjm wouldve found a way to mention it)

They're so aggressive and embarrassing!! They don't even know the characters they're dealing with. The ONLY thing that they care about is these two characters become a couple... to what end!? For sjm to change her whole plot line and characters!? Will it really be the story yall fell in love with?

Oddly enough I was thinking of this exact thing this morning.

The IC is the only real family Az has really known for the last 500+ years. His mother is still alive but she's not a regular part of his life (from what we've seen so far). But he and his brothers have loved and fought for one another for centuries. Rhys sacrificed his body for them for 50 years. Rhys sacrificed his life for his friends and family by dying for them in ACOWAR. But suddenly Az is going to throw that friendship out the window because Rhys is a big bad meanie who won't let him have Elain after Az's refusal to tell Rhys he's over Mor and doesn't want just to screw Elain?

I think it's an immature mentality that thinks love between two people is all that should matter because when you enter into an actual adult relationship, you do realize that love isn't everything. Your relationships outside your significant other are still just as important and to some extent, the opinions of those that love you and know you best aren't something to ignore.

If your love has to burn every bridge in your life then it's not healthy. I'm not talking about failed relationships that were always toxic and that you learned to walk away from. I'm talking about friends and family who have always supported you but because they sense your fixation on someone isn't healthy you become defiant and oppositional and develop a "screw you! I'll do what I want!" mentality.

I think Rhys only wants happiness for his brothers but he KNOWS that the way Az is behaving is concerning. He KNOWS Az needs to really deal with his feelings for Mor before moving on with anything else. And he KNOWS the things Az is saying about Elain is not the way you're supposed to think about someone you really care for.

The take that Az and Elain will defy everyone and prove their forbidden love is glorious and right is so in the opposite direction of SJMs underlying theme of found family that she puts in all her books. It means that the entire E/riel book will be them lying to everyone around them. It means they don't care about hurting others because they'd rather sneak around than try having conversations with the people that are owed conversation.

[alternativememories]

both sides...

i have a friend who has sucked for a while now. i've been thinking about writing about it for a minute but i've been putting it off like everything with our friendship lately...but part of who i want to be is someone that shows up, even when things fucking suck, and i can't waste any more time. i know what i've got to do and it's time to rip the band-aid off. our friendship is over and i've gotta be real about it.

i'm fucking sad, man. i see him as a younger brother. so much of how we see things and approach things is similar to one another. the ways that he has sucked for some time are really similar to how i struggled when i was younger. he had a breakup recently, which in the big picture i thought would actually end up being good for him. i think both he and his ex have stuff that they need to work on individually and that this would be a good opportunity for him to get himself squared away.

but the spiral continues. the last time i saw him we talked about where he was with things and where he's headed and it was mostly half-assed excuses. it's apparent that he's not showing up for himself, let alone anyone else for that matter. he smokes, which has kept him comfortable in the cycle of not showing up in any meaningful way, and he lacks accountability. he's living with his parents right now and it seems like they're enabling his behavior.

it's shitty. we lived together up until the end of october and to be honest it was toxic as fuck. it came down to money and cleaning. in moving in, we agreed to not have his now-ex on the lease to keep things simple in case they ended up not working out as a couple. however, when she ended up staying at the apartment more than A and i and we wanted her to pay toward the bills, it was an issue *eye roll*. initially, the conversation about contributing was shut down bc homie talked to other roommate and he supposedly said that he didn't care if she paid and that was the end of it...(we'll revisit this)

at one point during this conflict, there was a text about wanting to be friends after the lease would end...i've thought a lot about that since. it took me some time to figure out why i couldn't help but fixate on it, but with where we are now i think i know the answer. the statement operates through an inherent assumption that how things were handled was damaging to our friendship. to be honest, it was. the bills conflict was infuriating bc the argument against contributing was school loan payments being high; meanwhile in watching behavior they ate out all the time. and you know, everyone has bills. but not everyone takes advantage of their friends to pay theirs.

with the cleaning thing, it became clear that he was frustrated by the cleanliness of the apartment but never communicated what those expectations even were. eventually we landed on a chore-board. but this wasn't without its problems bc it just led to them not being accountable for their share of the chores; beyond that, there was noticeable passive-aggressiveness toward the other roommate who tbh idk if he ever even agreed to in the first place. weird to someone to a standard they never agreed to but maybe that's just me...

when he and his ex broke up he told me a very specific story of what led to the fracture. i want to say that i found the specificity odd but dismissed it bc i was excited to have my friend back. when they were dating he was very reclusive and we were barely friends anymore. truthfully, we moved here in a pandemic and while i have loads of coworkers, he's really been my only friend here...but a few weeks ago i found out that it looks like he's lied about those specifics of the story that he told me, knowing that it fundamentally changes the reaction. it's manipulative.

in thinking about it, i've really tried to explain away or excuse the poor behavior...but to be honest, it's inexcusable and with what he's lied about, there's no recourse here...there's no way to police the behavior, and with him lying about it, no way to trust anything he says that it's even stopped. now i'm wondering what else he's lied about to get what he wants. the first thing that comes to mind is the bills conversation. it's a fundamental breach of trust and i don't think our friendship can be repaired. it fucking sucks and this fucking sucks but it is what it is...because he sucks.

[starleska]

girl i am just SO curious since we have the same type and all abt your thoughts on Cagney Carnation from Cuphead 👀

oh hell yes!!! thank you for giving me an excuse to talk about the deranged flower again 😳💖💖💖 i adore Cagney Carnation. who doesn't?? such a captivating design - one part mob boss, one part flower, one part monstrous abomination with some very sexy teeth 🙈🙈 Cuphead is one of those franchises i have a tonne of f/os from: Cagney Carnation, Chef Saltbaker, Werner Werman, King Dice, Baroness Von Bon Bon...and doubtless the next time i revisit the fandom someone else's wonderful fanart will tip me into fixation for another character 😂 but Cagney is special...i totally get why we all went feral for him 😂💖 he's yet another instalment in the 'characters with long supernumerary appendages who could easily rip us apart' roster...the incredible strength, his silly little dance, and how absolutely badass his final form is, it's no wonder he's so beloved!! easily one of the best and most iconic fights in the whole game with a banging song, and so many fun details. i went back and S-ranked him recently and felt on top of the world 🙈

listen, i am down so bad it's not funny 😂 Cuphead really does lend itself to so much creativity and fandom fun...feels very much like Don't Hug Me I'm Scared in that way. whether folks are drawing him as a grumpy lil flower, an Eldritch abomination or a handsome gijinka, there's no version of him i don't like;;; OH!!! have you heard Man on the Internet's lyric cover of Floral Fury? he'll forever be my headcanon voice for Cagney (until we get an official one, of course 😉). for now, all we have to go off of is his laugh, which is...um...🥴 i even made a little Cuphead OC to ship with him!! their name's Aster, and they're a star from Hilda Berg's moon phase 🥰 it's been a while since i made them, and i'd love to revisit the universe and make more OCs...i think everyone should try their hand at making one for Cuphead selfship purposes, it's great 🙈 i am still devastated that we didn't get him in the previous 'season' of The Cuphead Show. Netflix fuckery continues to blight us, but i'm still holding out hope!! did you know that storyboard artist Karl Hadrika shared a still from a current 'lost episode' of the show, showing Cagney with his tommy gun? 👀 i'm still very hopeful that bc The Cuphead Show is so staggeringly popular that we will get another season...but until then, we gotta sit tight and gush about Cagney amongst ourselves 🥺💖

[xfindingtrouble]

after percy meets pelor, he cries. in private, of course - it's not something he wants to do in the face of the potential end of the world. there is more to worry about than his own baggage, there is more to focus on than his Beef with the almighty. but there is something surreal about facing the dawnfather.

though percy claims he's never prayed much [ & i think, for the most part that's true ] I'm sure he has when things were darkest. he probably prayed that someone would come save & cass, that they would both survive it, that he may be forgiven by the end of it all... but there was never an answer. in fact, the only reason they got whitestone back at all was because they did it them damn selves. sarenrae had a hand in it via pike but the dawnfather didn't help them.

i'm sure in hindsight, he'd see that pelor had a hand in saving his people. pelor wasn't absent, not by any means, vox machina cold just handle their own problems. he & cass survived it on their own, they grow on their own terms, but not without suffering. but there were other lives in the balance! but percy is just a single perspective in the greater picture. he is mortal, he is selfish, he is petty [ i say with love ] & as much as he likes to think he knows it all, he doesn't. he can't.

but there is still this resentment that lingers forever. because percy asked for help when he needed it most & was failed by the gods again & again. i think this is also partially because the gods work with people who are willing to meet them halfway & percy spent so long looking for a sign that he never took that leap of faith necessary? in fact, Cassandra was the one who finally trusted the gods with her fate & then paid a very expensive price for it.

but anyways there is something so visceral about facing any god, let alone the one you begged for mercy & never delivered it. the god who knows who they are, greets them as vox machina. proof that he'd been paying attention. also sarenrae saying that she hears every prayer is like salt in the wound for percy because it leaves this question of what would happen if he had prayed to her? what would have been different? would he be kinder, better, more consistent? he'll never know! it's soo much worse when pelor claims that whitestone is under his watch & keep. it's honest, yes, but it's so personal.

of course he would never want to change the journey he's taken to try & heal but i feel like it poses this question of ' what if i didn't have to take that journey at all ' which of course he would have... but percy deals in a lot of extremes, especially revolving around guilt & sense of self. he wants to say he wouldn't change anything he'd been through but there's so much he would undo if he had the chance. he's plagued by regret his whole life, he just learns how to manage it. though the feeling lingers, he learns how to forgive himself & the person that was even he wished he never had to become that person to survive.

also it's worth noting that this is like the straw that breaks the camels back. he'd just fought & killed delilah, vax died & came back to life, he'd faced another god only hours before. what they're dealing with is bigger than any single perspective.

he thought that maybe his role as a hero was over, though he knew better. all while he wonders in the back of his head whether or not whitestone is safe & when vecna is going to target it because he knows it's coming. there wouldnt be a ziggeraut under his home if it wasn't. delilah would have never chosen whitestone as her base of operations if it wasn't important. There would be a big, ugly cry at some point but it just makes him sick!

especially bcs he wants to believe. it feels like he wants to say he does, but this is something he knows he can't lie about. he sees vex, finding faith, right before his eyes & there's still this bit of him that remembers. that fixates on his unanswered prayers as a scared child. he trusts her, he's happy for her, he loves her... & maybe he's jealous. just a little bit, hidden beneath the rest of it.

also it is sooo worth noting that percy is not a crier. he's cried enough, there aren't many tears left for him that he hasn't already shed. but sometimes he can't help it.

[1d1195]

I've never seen the show Glimore Girls! Ive heard good things about it though so i'll add it to my list to watch! I'm not a coffee drinker because it just makes my anxiety hell lol I wish I could though sometimes its SO tempting. The tea leaves are very common in Mexico and are even used in some dishes but personally I think it tastes so gross lol

NOT THE DOGGY PADDLE BAHHAH i chose to do that one too lol

15 MINUTES!? THE WHOLE LENGTH OF THE CAMPUS!? that sounds like a dream😭 Yeah no my campus cannot be walked in 15 minutes lol I think we all makes those jokes haha and what's wild is that I know someone who DID get hit by a student driven bus and she did not get that free tuition lol We have access to campus owned buses and regular city buses/trolley so there's a lot of movement going on which make it insane trying to get to class! Also who doesn't love carbs?! I LOVE pasta and for the past few months garlic bread has been the food i've been hyper fixating on lol The one place i do frequent a lot is the Target that my campus has solely because they have this Kombucha brand that I like. Plus I love target so any little in convince that happens on campus I go straight there hahah

Take your time with Ding! If your still in a place where you need backstory and just setting up the overall story THAT'S OKAY! It makes it so much better when there's build up and tension! I love when stories are a bit of a slow burn, it makes all the action very satisfying to see and there so much character development involved! I know it can be scary to post anything on here but this your blog Sam! You are in control of this and you can do whatever you like!

I've already read part two but im gonna give my thoughts in another ask bc it will be a long one lol so you don't have to respond to this one if you don't want too!-💜

I should NOT drink coffee for the anxiety reason but caffeine dependency is NOT a joke. I don't even feel the caffeine anymore. I love Gilmore Girls some of the jokes haven't aged well at all so please ignore those.

I would fill a swimming pool of alfredo sauce and I would eat garlic bread morning noon and night. I think about Target like once an hour. I think that my longest Target drought was two weeks (I don't even remember why I didn't go).

I'm so glad you mentioned it, because I REALLY am trying to do a slow-burn but I fear I will not be able to make it burn long enough. I am itching for them to smooch already which might be a record. I appreciate your kind thoughts! I think part of me forgets that it's not real life and I can make them literally do whatever I want? Like I don't have to explain the time it takes for them to fall in love if I don't really feel like it 😭💕😍 (I peeked ahead and saw your 2 months comment hehehehe) It was a choice but I needed a bit of time to space some things out. I don't think you'll see a time jump like that again in this one. Or at least not pointed out like that.

CAN'T WAIT TO DIVE INTO YOUR BRAIN ABOUT PART 2!

xoxo

[mutecrows]

I'm gonna actually do propaganda for real for the first time like I know the TMA fandom is huge, besties I get it, I love Jon too but listen to me… he does not have the autism swag levels of Yoo Joonghyuk especially bc YJH is just Like That as a built in character status not bc of outside forces (yes,yes, infodumping about emulsifiers hush. I was in the trenches too. The Eye had a big part in his statements being a fixation and you know it. That and the Web was there from like,,, young childhood.)

Listen, you should vote Yoo Joonghyuk

So first and foremost homie literally runs his whole life on scripts and with schedules that he doesn't like deviating from even going so far as to consider everything a lost cause because it has gone too far from the plan he had in his head. I'm talking full meltdown buddy. He was NOT happy and is never happy about the things changing too far from what he is planning it to be like when the script fails badly (usually leading to dying) he just edits them a bit and does it again like a trial run over and over until he gets that much of a step closer to perfecting it.

He's a gamer who can minmax his stats in his mind because his brain just clicks with it that well and he applies it to his own life too. Hell, he does it to other people too using the Sage's Eye skill he has. He literally strategizes all of his approaches because he needs to for his scripts to work and it's how he keeps himself stable

He's often blunt and almost crass in a way that is like totally missing social cues from others and he still bulldozes forward with that but since he's attractive the wider world just sees this colder exterior as him being cool or whatever (this happens for a lot of him actually, being attractive does a lot of heavy lifting in life). As a result though people do find him rude or just strange but really he does mean to be doing the best he just doesn't adapt well to deviations from what he is expecting things to be like. He will work HARD to get things back onto familiar tracks too

He's also a minimally verbal KING like yes girl, give us nothing!!! He will say bare minimum and instead just act because it's faster and easier, which his party gets used to eventually and just turn to Kim Dokja (another autism king tbh) to pick up where YJH left off. If he could get away with never talking he absolutely would too. This man does NOT want to talk and explain if he doesn't have to. In fact he repeatedly just thinks his words at KDJ when he suspects mind reading is a skill that Dokja has instead of verbally speaking to him. This isn't to say he doesn't talk and he does show to be good with words when he tries but I will once again point at the script usage I keep mentioning. He absolutely has practiced these speeches a ton by the time you get to them in the book.

When it comes to things he has down pat he is so straight forward with explaining it that he even teaches like the kids things and sees people progress in leaps and bounds from it (although this is arguably also because he redid this over and over as a regressor but we love him for it)

He also has the running theme of not eating food made by other people because it's not delicious' to which i say no! He doesn't want to explain to others his texture sensitivities and to get people off his back he just taught himself to cook. So now he makes bomb ass food that everyone else pines after because this autism king cracked the code on being social. I mean fr people won't treat you as too weird if the food you make is bangin and before someone says he doesn't cook for others, he literally makes a show of having a minor fit over it before he just lets it go and people can try it or 'have the leftovers'. I mean he lets KDJ have bits rather early on and this is someone who regularly ruins the plans he has and frustrates him to no end by having figured out ways to work his scripts into more efficient ways (allegedly)

And don't even get me started on the constant cleaning of his swords and such. Buddy, talk about a stim of fiddling with things he is shown to be messing with his swords so often when they aren't actively completing tasks it's practically his idle animation. The fact that it fits his practical approach to life with his scripts he uses because it means his weapons will be in good condition is just icing on the cake too.

He also straight up has tics that are so consistent people who know what to look for can read his moods off of them which is also iconic tbh… this along with his minimal affecting outside of it, which bc he's handsome people just look at him as being cool again, is something that is pointed out over and over in the novel and is depicted in the webtoon too it's just less evident bc of the visual medium.

When he does have his full meltdowns, blended with his other mental illnesses, they get so bad that he is regularly referred to as a sunfish bastard by KDJ because of how susceptible he is to being overloaded by the stress of big changes

So like i don't know how to avoid getting into spoilers here so don't read the rest of this if you haven't read the novel to completion

YJH really does end up getting pulled out of a number of meltdowns by KDJ and as a result does start to subconsciously rely on him for that and does actually have meltdowns specifically over the fact that KDJ isn't there as an anchor even tho he hadn't had him in any of the prior regressions. Regardless of this he trusts this other (autistic in a similar but more adaptably masking way) dude to edit the script he holds onto so strongly for him. Don't get me wrong he does repeatedly try to get back on familiar ground over and over but he does eventually trust KDJ to the point that when he is told by KDJ that he could rest and it would be handled for him he feels literal relief at being able to just… not have to be in control of himself for a bit.

He is NOT capable of handling losing things well either. This is like his biggest masking point, like he experienced his mentor dying and was like "i'm never coming back" because it was a point that was technically avoidable now that he had already learned the skills. Unlike his core party that he intentionally keeps as small as possible (4 maybe 5 core members, depending on the round) and even with that barrier he still starts masking HARD to avoid letting himself get hurt too badly. AND STILL he absolutely fails at that and it still gets to him over and over to the point of regular nightmares across his regressions and is a huge part of his depression

When he kills the only person that he thought truly understood him on a better level than the rest, not knowing he was just in a different realm bc KDJ is a slippery bastard who knows how to game the system, he continues to pay the subscription for their shared personal chat room for THREE YEARS to keep talking to him about things that were happening on earth. Homie was like "nah nah nah the standard is you die, i get very upset but dont say or show it, and you come back. This was NOT a discussed NOR APPROVED CHANGE to the routine KIM DOKJA." This gets him so keyed up, after watching KDJ die multiple times to keep everyone else alive, and he wants to have control over how things are going around him back SO badly that he was 100% fine with the entire party hating and not trusting him just to have a little bit of control back for his own mental and emotional security.

Hell, a version of YJH has his memories and some of his personality broken up into little kkomas (chibis) that are set up to handle different tasks, which is compartmentalizing tasks to make your brain run better at the most litersl sense, and the fact that the kkoma's themselves have little name tags to help differentiate is also great. They also have routine schedules they follow, which includes daily rotations of tasks like I'm talking "It's 81's day to cook" levels of LITERAL self scheduling to keep a routine. Arguably each of the kkomas could even be seen as different masking fronts too, since the regressions they represent each have different variations that cover a whole spectrum of personalities that work better in different situations, including which ones mesh better with different people. They keep notes that they share with each other.

Also the moment the scenarios were over and he wasn't able to use the scripts he had been fine tuning for hundreds of years, reliving the same years over and over, he stood there and went "I have no idea what to do now that my situation I've learned to handle has changed." Like when the standard for the world finally changed for the first time in (for him) centuries to not be the literal apocalypse he really was so lost he was ready to just quit everything (including living). The plan had been that after the scenarios ended the entire party would get a house with KDJ and all live together but this failed because to get out of the apocalypse for real KDJ did his own sacrificial bs. So now out of the apocalypse he already lost his newly found major anchor point and he wasn't able to ask "so what now" essentially. All he wanted was someone to tell him what he's supposed to do now because he doesn't know how to handle this absolutely massive change. He was so desperate that he literally regressed again, after swearing he wouldn't, to try and just get KDJ back as an anchor so he could have that plan back.

Anyways vote Yoo Joonghyuk, I'm begging

ROUND 2 PART 2

Yoo Joonghyuk X Jonathan Sims

[msookyspooky]

Ms. Spooky, may you spare some HC for the terrible trio (YES, I have named stu, Billy, and us that. What about it???) for us? 🙇🙇🙇

Abso fucking lutely!! I'm just going with this story since a total hc of everyone for all 3 installments feels too broad.

Headcanon's for the Trio for Terrible Trilogy Specifically:

GPS just came out for cars in 01 when this series took place and your Honda definitely didn't have it so you all rely on MapQuest printed out or a good old fashioned map.

Billy is an excellent map reader. If you get lost, give him the map and he will find whatever beaten down road he can to get you all on the right track.

Stu is a landmark guy. Landmarks and directions like 'straight, left, right' sort of thing. Maps are too all over the place for him while Billy's brain cannot remember directions without a visual aid to show him wtf you're talking about. If you lose the map then rely on Stu. "Nope, wrong way." "How do you get that?" "Because it was left, right, left, then that giant rock over there near the road so you made a wrong turn because we should have passed that rock by now."

Stu is a bottomless pit. He has a oral fixation where he has to chew on something and is prone to bored binge eating if you let him. Get that boy snacks and cinnamon gum or he's freaking grumpy enough to rival Billy the whole trip.

Stu was brought up from money and was expected to pursue business like his Dad but always was a "I don't have a dream job who the fuck wants to work?" sort of guy (Same). That's why he's okay with swindling, job hoping or pursuing such a risky job as acting bc he could care less about a career even if he wasn't on the run. Billy on the otherhand was more than willing to have a career as a lawyer to make his Dad proud until this happened.

Your anxious about all of this. Even without the murder, you've been alone isolating for roughly 3 years now just to be thrown into a bustling Hollywood set. (Seriously I relate bc my social skills sucked pre pandemic and now after quarantine; talking to ppl in public feels like pulling teeth oml)

You updated your wardrobe as you got older because you liked how you looked at the party at Windsor. You just didn't have much opportunity to wear leather pants or a lace camisole off your property until now.

Randy went through severe depression when he woke up from his coma and had to have assistance walking the first few months. You and his family comforted him and tried to be there for him but he was still majorly depressed at how his life turned out. He started working out to make it easier along with physical therapy and kept it up as a lifestyle change from then on.

Randy and you went on casual dates here and there after Randy recovered. He rejected it at first thinking you were only doing it out of pity. Both of you soon tried to consider going steady but realized you were better off as friends. It brought you both closer though in a platonic way.

You still wear Sidney's locket when you can.

Dewey and Gale dated and it was hard on Dewey with how much you both dislike one another. He tried to purposely push you two together but gave up when Gale made a remark and it turned into a huge argument there after. Dewey partially blames Gale's hostility towards you, someone he views as a little sister, as part of the reasoning of their break up.

You all argue over the radio. Billy is strictly rock, grunge and heavy metal music (He does like some country and pop but if you found out he'd have to kill you) Stu likes punk rock, nu metal and pop punk but he can just as well jam to rnb, hip hop or pop. He's not nearly as much of a music snob as Billy tries to be.

Billy definitely likes the dark hair on Stu but won't admit it and Stu likes the leather trench coat Billy wore but...Yeah. They're stubborn assholes.

You have ONE pair of sunglasses in your console you all fight over. You remind them the driver gets first dibs and everyone else has to suck it up. (Stu bought some cartoonish dollar tree sunglasses Billy refuses to wear)

Stu has seen all the Stabs, you refuse for obvious reasons and Billy only saw the first one and turned it off when he saw how they portrayed his defeat at the climax. He bitches about the awful wig they gave his actor

Billy is secretly super stoked to see where all his favorite Horror movies took place and how they were made no matter how much he acts like he's not interested. Him and Randy are more alike than they both want to admit as far as interest go.

[mrkis]

another twlg ask from @thetypingpup!!! i had to put your ask in a separate post again bc i didn't want to clog up anyones dash!! ellie.. your essays abt twlg forever make me laugh. i have no fucking comment to this but please i need to show everyone LMAO

Me again with another long ass statement bc I can't shut the fuck up hey 😅😅. I've been doing more thinking (bc ofc I have) and I got fixated on the thought of mc and jaemin being the same, like both being troubled and flawed but having relatively good intentions at the end of the day, and both being shit at communication. I'd agree with that, if there were and equal amount of instances where their shitty communication or shitty actions to damage. So far, based on what we've seen in the text, it has not been equal. It's true that they're in similar boats, but they're definitely not on the same level of flawed.

So far we've seen mc exhibit a lot of care for jaemin (easily read as too much care given their agreed upon arrangement), care that we just haven't seen jaemin exhibit to the same degree. In fact, once we got into Jaemin's head, it recontextualized a lot of the sweet moments between the two (at least sweet from mc's pov) and soured them. One example being that first fingering scene. Mc has already perceived something akin to adoration in jaemin's eyes and already started feeling things. That was her interpretation. Meanwhile with Jaemin his attitude was that mc was just someone willing to let him play with her pussy and had a mouth he could imagine wrapped around his dick. Or another example being when mc got Jaemin the polaroid camera. We have yet to see a "polaroid scene" where Jaemin does something that nice for mc. We've also seen jaemin's actions negatively impact mc and really hurt her, and that just hasn't happened the other way around to the same extent (yet bc idk what's planned for the future), so it seems super one-sided. It's been disproportionate from jump, which makes for nuanced and interesting stories absolutely, but it's still disproportionate nonetheless. Because of this many of mc's shortcomings have been more implict and rely on conjecture in a way that Jaemin's don't, while Jaemin's have been very explicit thus far in both POVs.

But idk if mc's biggest problems are that she cares too much and doesn't speak up enough, then that's not nearly on the same level as Jaemin. With the whole exclusive proposal, that man wanted to completely cross one of mc's main boundaries and misrepresented the reason why to get what he wants. Withholding the whole Mia reason is lowkey giving fraud I cannot lie, bc it was such a material reason as to why he wanted to be exclusive (and from his inner monolouge, it was the main reason). The reason he said out loud, the thing that he actually fixed his mouth to say to mc, equates to him wanting access to mc's body whenever he wants. How nice 😬. And then later when mc apparently "agreed" to become exclusive 1) she never explicitly said that, and 2) she had TAKEN ERIC'S PILL (I'm screaming about this bc i havent seen people point that out on here yet), and you can see she was influenced by it later with the three way kiss. You can't just change the terms of an agreement like that if you're not of sound sober mind, nor without explicit confirmation that's at the very least verbal. And in that public kiss after the whole Eric display, exclusive wasn't even on mc's mind in her pov when she kissed him. But who was thinking about or considering that? Not Jaemin's selfish ass that's for sure. He got what he wanted, and then later he had to walk around telling himself that was some sort of mutual agreement to make himself feel better. Jaemin sir, if you have to convince yourself like that, then your ass knows that was not mutual you're fucking up. Actually i checked all the parts again and mc never actually said they were exclusive. Other people say it, and she considers it,, but she never outright said it. Oh it just keeps getting worse.

And then I just looked again and remembered this too, but the main reason Jaemin made a show of kissing mc at the party, and even went in the first place as Miwoo pointed out (and convinced mc to go bc she didn't want to at first), was to rub their arrangement in Eric's face. In his own words it was all for show, all before she agreed to have public displays like that mind you, so he still crossed the boundary bc she didn't agree to that shit yet. And all of those actions are of course very considerate of him, very not shitty person thing to do, much respectful of the woman he allegedly cares about😬. Has mc done anything like any of that to Jaemin? Or maybe that's coming in part 6.2? And even then I don't think whatever is coming can outweigh what jaemin has already done. So far mc lied to her own detriment (the whole eunbin thing at the party) while jaemin lied to get what he wants.

Ok Cas I swear I won't keep spamming your inbox lol. I wanna feel for his pain, I do, and I wanna believe that he's not a terrible person, but his thoughts and actions thus far prevent that. Everytime I look it just gets worse and worse for this man, and while I can't see any deliberate manipulation or real malice, he is EXCEEDINGLY selfish and VERY much a dumbass and it's manifesting in some truly terrible ways. The sweetness turned sour is turning to bitterness and I'm just sad for mc more and more. I'm excited to see what's to come ofc. I'd love to see if the playing field evens itself out in later parts. But yea I WILL be suing this man I want my punitive damages and pain and suffering compensation. When I catch him in these streets it's on sight 😤.

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YOU LIKE HEDWIG!!! THAT MEANS I GET TO ASK YOU TO TALK ABOUT IT!!! ((i love when you have the long post about what you think a song or action means it's my favorite seriously)) okayyyyyyyyy first, what do you think the ending means?? like midnight radio and hedwig being in just his trousers. second, what do you think the meaning of the whole show is??? also what's your favorite song? this is a lot i'm sorry i'm just so happy to hear you love the show i'm obsessing over!!

I HAVE BEEN LOWKEY WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO ASK ME ABOUT MY NEW FAVE!!

But um, oh where do I begin?? This musical is just like - the absolute best, omg. Just the humor and the catchy songs and the themes and the dramatic scenes and the staging and the overall message, and i love it so much. Oh wow. I had been kinda putting off watching it for the longest time (bc I do that thing where I hyper-fixate on one musical and won’t move on and watch another even though I know for a fact that I’ll like the new one), but I finally watched it like last week and OH BOYYYY. I HAVE WATCHED IT FOUR TIMES ALREADY. I LOVE IT SO MUCH. But um. anyway. back to your questions.

The ending is, like, so so so so so so amazing and fitting?? Like, a major subplot and theme of the show was Hedwig investing so much time and effort and (tangible and intangible) parts of herself into others, trying to find “her other half” to make herself whole. Because with her distant mother and absent father, Hedwig was left mostly to her own devices and so she concocted this mythology that what was missing in her life was someone else, someone to make her “complete.” Her childhood loneliness bred fear and an eagerness to conform and please, but at the end, she realizes that there is no “other half.” She has always been whole and complete, and she doesn’t need that “better half” to make her happy because happiness has to come from within to ever be sustainable long-term. She has spent years trying to find her soul-mate, being bitter about what was done to her, shielding herself from the pain and loneliness with false arrogance and drag. 

Like, Hedwig stripping off her wig and drag costume and smearing her make-up was her stripping off her metaphorical armor. Because really, drag had first just been a means of pleasing others (read: Luther) and then a sort of protection that allowed her to escape from her true self and perpetuate and feed her self-loathing at her true identity (see: Wig in a Box). Hedwig used drag to be someone that she wasn’t, and the stripping of her clothes and wig symbolizes her relinquishing her armor and accepting herself for who she truly is.

There’s a lot of meanings to this show. One of which is just what I explained above: that no one has a “soul mate” and everyone is made complete (there is no “other half.”); it’s that you must find happiness and fulfillment within yourself or you won’t be happy and you’ll live a life for someone else and it will hurt you and leave you broken and full of self-loathing. Another meaning is definitely the blurring of gender lines and what “gender” really consists of - that it’s not just a biological matter but also it’s dependent on the identity and state of mind of that person. Gender is much more complex and layered and multi-facted, and it isn’t black and white. Hatai did such an amazing job at representing the complexity of gender and how society’s rigid definition and parameters placed on such a complex issue can have detriment effects. Another great theme is how music can mean so much to a person - that it can be an escape (of a place and of a state of mind). It paid a lot of homages to famous rock stars, and Hedwig’s re-tellings of how she would listen to the radio in her youth just never fails to get me. But uhhh, I probably missed a lot of meanings BUT those are the main ones that are very pronounced.

MY FAVORITE SONGS (BECAUSE I CANT CHOOSE JUST ONE) ARE:

Wicked Little Town (Reprise)

Midnight Radio

Origin of Love

Hedwig’s Lament

Sugar Daddy