#i think I do

[high-queen-of-the-court]

a peace offering to the people in my screen

[theemosiders]

curtis bros full sketch page!!! ☆

[cloudywoodland]

@ya_ariart on instagram

If you look closely you can see me 🤤ing in the background

[angels-wantme-dead]

It is my personal philosophy that individualistic identity is an illusion. We're bred and raised as people to value one true identity, but I don't believe identity is a single point you can put your finger on.

It is my belief that not only are we as people ever changing, but that we all have multiple selves. Let me explain.

The body theory states that personal identity is tied specifically to your body. But if this is the case, it begs a similar question to the ship of Theseus. Cells are born, they grow, they contribute to our living body, and they die. We are still us.

Is it such a stretch to suggest that identity is not a solid object but far more akin to a more abstract concept?

Another example;

Are you the same person you are when you were 5 years old? 10? 15? 20 even? I severely doubt it. Change is a part of human nature in the sense that we are living beings. Beings that grow. Beings made up of cells that are born, they live, they die. Much like we do collectively.

So why are we as people so focused on a single minded identity? The very concept of an alter ego is a rarity, something you only see in comic books. Even dissociative identity disorder, (which has more symptoms than just plurality and thus is not exclusively defined by it) is very often relegated to a Hollywood horror stereotype.

The alternate identity is shunned. Is encouraged to be kept secret. To be controlled. To be silenced. When the truth of the matter is that while many of us thrive in this single identity centric society, many of us struggle within it as well.

Those of us drawn to define ourselves as plural, our mindset is different. We see between the cracks that make us ourselves.

Think of a gemstone. A gemstone is composed of many things. Pressures and minerals that form faceted sides. Sides that shape to a point and become the whole; a gemstone.

We as people are the same. Our cells make our organs, our organs make our bodies, our bodies make us.

But who are we?

Are we the person we become at work when we talk to our boss? Are we the person we become around our partners? Our closest friends? Or are we our 'true' selves around our family? Do you have a twin? Are you your true self around them?

Now again, this isn't to say that all people suffer from dissociative disabilities. This isn't the case. What I'm discussing with you now is not the diagnosis of DID/OSDD but rather the philosophy of multiple identities.

Because plurality, or multiple identities, are not the only symptoms of these disabilities. Many are very content in their singular identity.

But why is it such a crime for a person to indulge in the philosophy of multiple identities if that is what they're drawn to?

Who is to say what part of this plural is their 'true' self.

All in all, what I mean to say is that I reject the idea of 'true' self.

Because it's my philosophy, my personal belief, that we are all like the ship of Theseus. We are all gemstones.

And in the end there is no higher authority that falls onto you that makes your thoughts on the matter any more real than mine. Because I am not arguing the science. Science is irrelevant here.

I am arguing self determination. I am arguing for the rights of others to be who they are drawn to be. And if that identity is multiple, then so be it.

[malnivia]

Hi!!!

I've decided to change my life and let me tell you why and how

My beautiful friend @soonysy had a challenge where they spend 299 days drawing stuff (of course, that didn't happen EVERY day) which I think is very awesome and cool!! And I'm very happy for them and how their skill and confidence grew thanks to those days of drawing!!!

That's why I feel inspired to start my own challenge!!!

Now, I love writing! But oh boy, do I hate writing! Haha, I have so many thoughts and it feels very good seeing them written in a document. I even laugh at my own jokes hard! (It's a very healthy thing to do, trust me)

I want to write everyday! Doesn't matter if it's much, but like... at least some interesting prompt or an interpretation of the day I had. Literally anything!!!

Now, because I am VERY adhd, the very fact of starting this great (hopefully) habit might pop right out of my head and I'll move on like nothing happened... That's where you enter the game!!

Scrolling through tumblr and not being able to find my day #? Throw that in my ask! You are also very welcome to throw your ideas (even long ones), as long as you don't demand a whole novel about it!

You could also give me ideas from a fandom! If I get hyperfixated, I will totally do something about that!!!

I might also post it on ao3 if it's good enough.

Yeah, that sounds like a good idea.

[secretlytranced]

ok but do I NEED a sexy Santa nightie?

[jazzzzzzhands]

ooh take some doodles!! Wawwy wizard but FLUFFY!! Feeling veryyyy fluffy lately!! and a FURBY!! i love them!! God i wish that was meeeee laying so calmly in some warm soft grass Oh! excuse the random ascot study! i'm not erasing it! I don't wanna!

[faeriefully]

what’s horrible is that there’s a perfectly eligible and interest aligned guy at my church now who just became a member after two years and my mother wants me to ask out and I can’t tell if I like him or not

[ego-osbourne]

2023 Art Roundup

JAN - FEB - MAR - APR - MAY - JUN - JUL - AUG - SEP - OCT - NOV - DEC

(These aren’t entirely indicative of when I posted them, but when I actually finished them.)

These are some of my biggest/favorite projects through each month!

Piece details + Mod-posting below!

JAN - Asteía ; This was one of my first projects of the year that dealt with lighting, and additionally light from multiple sources! I also remember experimenting with backgrounds and how to make a character pop against a semi-detailed background without making them get lost in the piece.

FEB - Mora and Ego ; This was a good project on figuring out how to fill empty space while still keeping the atmosphere of a piece. It was also good perspective practice!

MAR - Sanguine and Ego ; Though I’m no longer too happy with the proportions or lighting of this piece, I still remember having a blast with it. Hearing feedback about them holding hands and Sanguine’s ear getting squished are very fun memories for me.

APR - Miraak and Ego ; This might be my favorite project of the whole year! Though I know I can do backgrounds better now, I remember being pretty confident and happy during the whole process! I think the motion/lighting/effects all came out very well :] ALSO it was the first piece I did with expressive masks for Miraak and Ego! Wahoo!

MAY - Mora and Ego (again) ; Though the last one was my personal favorite, I heard from a couple of friends that THIS was their favorite. Though a pain in the ASS to do, I’m especially happy with all the texture effects. This was also me experimenting with Mora’s design!

JUN - Erandur ; Not a particularly complicated/difficult piece, but one that was simply pure fun. Had a blast with lighting effects and atmosphere. It was also a good break from the family trip I was taking at the same time ,:]

JUL - Dagon ; Specifically his revamp! This was my first successful attempt at a (very) muscular body type that I liked! In fact, over the course of the year I’ve been pretty proud of my progress of expanding on body types. This one especially, though, was just very fun!

AUG - Iren and Rakell ; My first dive into a colored + shaded animatic (animation? It’s awful choppy lol)! FAR from perfect, but I was (and still am) so happy with the outcome. I particularly remember enjoying figuring out lines of movement and sound effects for the video.

SEP - Sanguine ; My first (and still only, though hopefully not for long) attempt at making Sanguine intimidating. I think this one is going in the right direction! As far as effects go, I actually had a very tough time with things because of a few layer-merging mishaps, but the final product was well-received!

OCT - The Warden ; After many-a night on Minecraft with friends, I realized just how much I loved the warden, and HAD to draw them. Redesigning characters is one of my absolute favorite things to do, especially when taking minimal details and expanding on them! They were super fun all around.

NOV - Miraak, Serana, Ego, and Ancano ; I’d been meaning to draw the siblings being siblings for a while now, but putting them all on one canvas was more than a little intimidating. I was so happy to have it done, though, and I kinda love seeing their colors clash together.

DEC - Sanguine (again) ; After not drawing him for so long, it was a blast doing so. The moment I was back home for winter break, I was ECSTATIC to get to work on this piece. #1 blorbo

~

This year has been an absolute ride.

I became a mod and then co-owner of the TES server that got me into making TDI and have made some really tight friendships over there (genuinely, anyone reading this who is/was in the cult server, I’m so damn happy to know you).

I’ve done some intense progress on TDI, and even though I didn’t QUITE accomplish my New Years Resolution of posting Ch. 1 this year, hopefully you can understand the drawbacks considering I am… //checks notes/// 70+ chapters in and still going.

I’m in college! Have been for a hot second now, but I’ve been working towards a ministry degree, and have future plans of getting a PhD after my bachelor’s so I can teach at a college level! I don’t think I talk a lot about my irl happenings, but hopefully that gives you an idea of why I might be a liiittle busy when it comes to writing. Ministry is an unforgiving degree when it comes to papers and meetings.

As earlier mentioned, I’ve learned how to do different body types, and am trying to find a good balance between shape language and inclusivity when it comes to bodies! I am… still struggling with feminine anatomy! Admittedly! But I’m willing to keep trying ,:]

And, overall, I (certainly hope I have) improved on my art. I have a much better sense of face shapes, line weights, and consistent details than I did at the beginning of the year. Always learning, but always improving, too!

I hope your year has gone well! Thank you so very much for checking out my blog. Tumblr has been a wonderful thing to get into and has led me to a lot of wonderful people. See you in the new year!

[fidgetwitch]

Testing whether I want a fringe or not...

[alea-says]

Finally watching Hawaii Five-O and... I guess I'll be here for a while....

[loserstripes]

kills bites kills

[shepherdfeathers]

Something I shouldn’t admit cause I’m high af but the 1992 X-men Animated Series Nightcrawler episodes are actually reviving a positive association with god and prayer like god damn why am I regaining my faith in religion because of an animated x-men cartoon???

[draagu]

i know its not Christmas yet, but how about a candy cane ship request?

christmas, just a week away