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love like fools: ava falls in love with Sara in high school (unrequited) and they reconnect as adults when Sara has a child
this city: same universe, but they fall in love earlier in high school and never really move on, they reconnect as adults and fall in love all over again
new fic idea: same universe, but they fall in love much much later, after they reconnect as adults, after oliver leaves again. after jay has already endured oliver's rejection, after sara has actually actually taken him back and almost even married him, and the pain and heartbreak is still raw for the both of them. and ava is still going through life alone, alone, the way ava has always been before them, she's still only talking to her parents once a forthnight, she's still vowing she's leaving star city as soon as she can again, up until she meets the child that they adopt in llf and starts fostering her on her own and everything changes because now she has to grow roots here, she has to stay. and then, of course, fate mocks sara and ava and tells them "no, you silly little things. this is what love is like."
#i know i already have 3 major wips for this ship only your honor#i swear not to start shit again#avalance#my fics
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sleep deprived dust can't recognize what's dream and what's real when he goes in and out of consciousness so i think dust is allowed to be incredibly reckless when he's awake but thinks he's in a dream. he will kill whoever passes by him (or attempt to. for him it's an instict to shoot bones anyways.) he will drink 4 bottles of alcohol just because he thinks its just a lucid dream. have incredibly loud conversations with phantom paps because he's asleep so nobody will hear him talk. or just have loud ass breakdowns because again he thinks he's asleep!!! nobody's gonna know what he gets up to in his dreams. and until someone (probably phantom paps) tells him that he's not asleep and this is reality he won't realize until he's done something really reckless
horror is seconds away from exploding dust's skull open with his magic while dust is trying to strangle him and FINALLY phantom paps tells him he's awake and dust snaps out of it. killer is walking around the house with bones sticking out of him like pins on a sewing pattern (casually too. another day in the life for him) and he just asks dust what that was about. dust just gets off of horror and shrugs his shoulders with an idk. and then walks away. this is the 6th time its happened this month
#horror needs to find a way for him to get back at dust for almost killing him#horror IMMEDIATELY booby traps dust's room's door with several fatal traps. and then dust just teleports away to dodge them#horrors incredibly cool bone manipulation power is incredibly underrated. neither dust nor killer can do what he does#when i say people underestimate just how powerful horror is i mean this#he has MANY shows of power where he summons a shitton of bones. or when he's clever and tricky#using tiny bones so his karma can hit the guards more and kill them faster??? GENIUS#granted kist could definitely think of something like that but that doesn't mean horror's a coughing baby#ok back to my original post. i came up with this after doing my little dusttale translation thing#dust is such a fucking asshole during it all istg and i whooped and cheered every time he was a fucking dick#when he doesn't know what to do when in doubt destroy everything you see. what a guy#he'd definitely be a lot smarter than that in real situations but again#he came up with that strategy while he was under the impression that he was in a dream#so i do think this little prick can be quite an unrestrained destructive force when he doesn't know whats real or not#can i just talk more about translated dust because GODDDD he was SO FUCKING COOL IN MAD TIME SERIES I SWEAR#when he plucked floweys petals off him one by one???? and then berated him??? and the nursing home comment??????? fuck i lov him#can you please unspill the spilled blod??? sick ass line. i think he knew from the start he was gonna betray flowey in that one#god i love canon dust so much he's such a sadistic shit. and he likes it. what a freak. HE LIKES IT#the only person he outwardly expressed regret about killing was papyrus. you'd think he'd care more about everyone else but NOPE#or maybe he did in the earlier runs. still doesn't hide from the fact that he was cruel to everyone else. because thats dusttale 4 you#youre on death row and theyve sentenced you to endless torture and then the mtt pulls up#listen man if i were on death row and they were my torturers id let them do whatever. my babies can get back at me for making them suffer#canon horrordust my beloved i love canon horror and dust#idk if killer in this is like totally canon but idc. it's such a funny idea to make him unbothered when he's injured its hilarious#horror and dust's personal little punching bag āØāØ#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#utmv#tricule hc
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ok i got home and basically spent the entire afternoon thinking about the au. so uhhhh,,, here's some character sketches and notes
(click it for better quality cuz TUMBLR FUCKIN HATES ME OH MY GOD WHY)
btw for context, MePhone gets kicked out of Meeple headquarters for failing a mission near the start of the story. that's basically his drive, he wants to prove he's a good hunter so he'll be let back in and get his old life back. (bad idea lmao) (it does NOT end up going the way he wants to)
#its not their final designs btw#this is just so I have an image of them in my head while I write#I'll go insane if I dont#well. more insane than I currently am#I SWEAR THEYLL LOOK BETTER ONCE I ACTUALLY PUT EFFORT IN#anyways Ive started writing...#mostly just character profiles#but that's step one#next up is plot outline and ideas#were cooking guys#alien hunter au#<- again that's what I'm calling the au#bfdi tpot#tpot au#tpot fanart#two tpot#tpot#two bfdi#tpot two#twophone#ii mephone4#inanimate insanity mephone4#ii au#ii fa#crossover#bfb#ig#its sorta relevent#not yet tho#why do I have a million tags holy shit I'm losing it
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I've blocked the same dude like three times now and for some reason I'm still seeing whenever they reblog one of my posts or whenever they add something to a post I'm subscribed too, what the hell tumblr š©
#this guy is an asshole and gives me cop vibes tumblr why are you making me see this shit#seriously is everyone i've blocked actually unblocked and this dude is just the only one i've discovered#or has tumblr just decided that i have to keep seeing this particular person over and over again?#i'm just starting to crawl out of my latest depression hole and this shit is gonna send me right back in i swear
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finally got around reading the first two stories of Tevinter Nights last night and Down Among the Dead Men by Sylvia Feketekuty kinda made me want to start my first Rook with the Mourn Watch, ngl
#One of my besties lend me the book a while ago and i only now felt kinda ready to start it (im sorry!!)#but the absolute delight I had with that story i swear to god Audric my son my love my boi#also when Manfred was mentioned and i was like ?????? Emmrich??????#i actually didnt want to plan a rook beforehand because as i know myself i will change her up halfway thrpugh the game anyways and start#again but i was kinda already thinking about either making a silly little goose that was kinda a badass but funny (kinda a purple hawke)#or making a stoic and proud woman with her head held high who doesnt take anyones shit (more of a noble woman who knows how to play thegame#theyre both also defo mages because i always play mage except for DAO also the fucking ORB GUYS COME ON#da4#datv#da tevinter nights#tevinter nights#dragon age#dragon age 4#da rook
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I'm not longer sad (lying) so let's go back to AATC
#i erased my old blog and i'll have to start again which is perfect bc i have started to like more the idea of separate my fanarts#so creating a new blog for each fandom is a less messy#i mean... i have already 10 blogs but i swear it's better for me on this way#anyways...#BROTHERS!!! WE LOVE THEM#aatc#alvin and the chipmunks#alsooo i decided to try Ibis paint and im having a pretty good time!#i still draw like shit with just my finger but i promise ill get better!
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biggest complaint about you is your not a big enough hater about kralsei. Get rageful with it. Make a whole rant about how gross it is in canon. Let the rage take over
oh it takes everything i have to not say swears about it like every day trust me. i am kra/lsei number 1 biggest hater
#and number 1 biggest poly scc hater evidently (looks out on the sea of users whoāve blocked me/that Iāve blocked)#i hope Iām not in their thoughts bc theyāre not in mine HDNDNNSNJ#that one Iāve just been louder about bc theyāre my By Far favorite characters#but honestly Iām a lot more vindicated when it comes to My Hate Of K/ralsei#but anyway yeah its fucking weird even with what we see in canon. kris is uncomfortable around ralsei. they donāt want him to hug them aft#after the spam neo fight. ralsei tea heals them the least out of their friends. ralsei is +60 noelle is +70 susie is +120#noelle saying āhey that guy looks like asrielā susie saying āhe kinda looks like your momā (bc sheās never seen asriel)#kris probably looks at him and sees their brother But Not Quite.#AND I SWEAR TO FUCKIMB GOD. āwhuh buh but kris clearly isnāt biological related! and then ralsei clearly isnāt Actually related to the dree#to the dreemurrsā SHUT THE FUCK UP ! shut the entire fuck up ! even so. you donāt know shit actually !#look me in the fucking face and acknowledge. 1 adopted families are real families. donāt fucking start w that shit#2 if you look at someone who looks like your fucking Brother and go āwould.ā thereās no saving you actually#kr/alsei likers are fucking weirdos you can take that one to the bank#not even getting into All the art Iāve seen of ākris Doesnr like ralsei but ralsei likes them and the player wants them together and ral#and ralsie is Using this to his advantage to Be in that relationship even though Kris Doesnāt Like It. fucking nasty.#the monarchās court#stops pacing. smooths my hair. ok Iām normal again
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if they Tamlen solas' ass, that might just be IT for me
#weak! lazy!#o hhe's doomed! he's doomed! death flags all around!#GOD FOR ONCE I WOULD LIKE A GOOD FUCKIGN REDEMPTION ARC#ITS BEEN 16 YEARS SINCE ZUKO#do NOT message me about loghain i swear to GOD#i will be SO pissed if nothing the inquisitor/rook does matters wrt solas' fate#like if he dies no matter what#and the ''good option'' is your inquisitor is just?there? so he's not 'alone'?? bc they want a tear jerker#its like okay so alllll my choices in dai and trespasser didnt matter. again.#like i am just praying they use any of the cool shit available in the narrative#we canonically have time travel. we canonically have been able to the cure the blight. like#are u telling me. dorian pavus. mage who co-invented time travel#wouldn't be able to think of another way to remove the veil safely?#bullshit.#i just have this nagging feeling in my gut#that weekes thinks a 'hopeful romance ending' is akin to like. some stupid dr who shit#like i will also fucking throw my keyboard if its like. 2 solas'.#get out of there w that shit#like what if love changed everything? hmm? what then?#and i KNOW they said they're trying to give closure to all the various attitudes towards solas. problem?#i have never and will never trust a goddmn thing any bioware employee says.#tamlen was my first love so you see this is where the problem started
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The light of the Jedi?
Come on Star Wars give her a break that woman is very tired
Bonus fans under the cut:
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#i spend an ungodly amount of my life thinking about this poor lady#also i love her new look#also i love her#me accidentally rendering the scar nice and deciding I need to render EVERYTHING now#i started drawing this cuz I need to wait for the comic until I can continue my fic#guess which poor idiot thought it will come out tomorrow#me#now I made myself sad#my obsession with this traumatized space wizard is not very good#me and my mommy issues staring at Avar Kriss: well shit#Star wars I swear donāt kill her#i will cry very much#also shadows of starlight 2 preview?#God my angst loving heart#im ranting in the tags again#sorry#the high republic#star wars the high republic#avar kriss
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gang I'm not sure I have the courage to come out to my boxing coach
#I need to do some sort of physical activity and that always felt good#but it has always been deadname and women's locker room#then big hiatus from my part#and now I'm back again. again with the deadname and women's locker room#but it feels so wrong#and today I felt like shit because there was people in the locker room#but what is the solution?#to come out ?#they'll laugh.#I don't pass#I never pass#I think people at university don't misgender me only because they're kind#but I don't pass#maybe they'll even nod solemnly and say ok we accept you#but we all know they'll never not see the hips the chest the face the high pitched voice#and I have been stuck here since forever#everyone I know. EVERYONE#is now either on t or can pass#even people who've idk started after I was already going to the therapist because of it#and yes everyone has their own oath and yadda yadda yadda#but why I'm stuck?#I don't understand why I can't go on.#I feel like shit#and mother is ok with it but I know she still hatesthis whole thing#I gave her time I swear#but I miss her#and I tried telling her this and she. she doesn't want to hear it#because in her mind āif you really want it you do itā#like I could pass by sheer willpower#personal
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okay was i supposed to read the next skully p book? yeah
do i want to? no
it be great if someone could just psychically beam it into my brain please and thank you
#skulduggery pleasant#mind full of murder#sp#I swear im getting to it#and I'll try and start saying funny shit again
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no one really talks about how hard it is to reclaim the things you love once youāve shared them with someone who hurt you.
#Itās been over a year and Iām just now getting back into critical role#my literal comfort show for drawing and it got tainted#Iām glad to be back here and able to watch again#and have started lotr watches with friends to remember how much I loved the trilogy before that person ever came along#but itās such a long road to reclaiming all these things I shared#just as much as my writing#wishing you could take it all back sucks#but all you can do is move forward#anyways#a bit of a personal thing this morning#back to your regular scheduled shit posts soon I swear!!
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tiktokers be like āI am going to create the most beautiful, relaxing, aesthetically pleasing video ever, with gorgeous lighting, and deeply satisfying contentā. ā¦ā¦.. āand then Iām going to cut the video fifty thousand times in thirty seconds-ā
#chatting tag#WHY. WHY. PLEASE.#I swear like every gifset I ever see that comes from tiktok is like the most gorgeous shit Iāve ever seen in my life#(specifically those videos of food that have really sunny lighting. OUGH thatās my SHIT)#but then EVERY TIME thereās like 5 cuts in every single individual gif. and it drives me crazy#donāt get me wrong they are good gifsets and it is not the gif makers fault. and obviously I know why the tiktok makers do that#bc thereās such a short time limit on the videos and they want to keep their attention and what not#but I swear to god they will make cuts that are SO FUCKING UNNECESSARY like just cutting literal milliseconds out of a satisfying shot.#which makes it no longer as satisfying. why. why do you do this to me.#listen I just have this secret rule that I never use gifs that have any cuts in them at all in my boards#unless theyāre like really really nice. but even then like only two cuts max or I go crazy. I donāt like how weird and choppy it looks!!!!#so then like all of the prettiest gifs ever. I canāt use. BC THERES SO MANY GIDDAMN CUTS#like thereās so many videos Iād want to make gifs of but you canāt even get like a millisecond long gif out of it without including cuts šš#ugh. anyways. that was my unnecessarily petty and extensive rant that Iāve just been holding in for a while. sorry.#also sorry but the other thing that bothers me is that stupid logo taking up half the gif.#one of my othe hyper specific secret rules is that I cannot use any gif that has a visible logo or watermark on it bc it drives me nuts#and like. not to rag on gif makers. bc gif makers are the most wondrous thing in the entire world and everything they do is great.#but I DO know a REALLLYYY easy way to download TikTokās without the watermark itās so simple it would take like two seconds. please. for me#just look up tiktok video downloader thereās like four good functional websites immediately. itās so easy#letās all start doing this pls we could make the most perfect gifsets ever without that ugly ass logo#(again not mad at gifmakers. I love u gifmakers. muah.)
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Hello! What about Duke Thomas made you like him so much??
I've been checking out his tag cause I saw some really cool fanart of him, so now I'm curious on what makes his character so appealing
AWHWHW sorry pls bare with me Iām scatterbrained but like. In a sentence I love that Duke is someone who presses forward despite everything! Like this is draft two bc my first answer was just listing character traits which wasnāt the question; but what I personally adore about him is that he just doesnāt stop moving.
It sounds weird but like. To me he gives refusal to die, refusal to settle, refusal to give up. When riddler took Gotham Duke was certain HEāD be the one to save them if he tried hard enough, when Bruce lost his memories Duke tried to get him back and then pushed forward with his own plans with the certainty that Batman would come back - whether through him or not, when his parents went missing he said fuck the system and went after them anyways and thatās just like. Off the top of my head. Like as corny as it sounds Duke lowkey embodies what I love about Batman - the whole indomitable human spirit or however you say that and itās by far my favorite trait bc I donāt even think heās aware of it? Like he actively plays at not caring about the Robin movement and just wanting to find his parents but like 3 hours later heās texting them going ābut like what are the details if I joined lol. Like hypothetically.ā He actively fights Damian until he agrees with him, becomes a leader within the movement until Bruce is back whilst dodging gcpd, and Bruce literally had to dress up as karma for Duke to admit maybe it did fuck him up a little - all for him to still be like āIām not good enough :(ā.
And I know that all seems like shit he just did but I promise his mindset during these things is so fascinating to me bc itās like he simultaneously understands not many others would do this whilst also holding it as bare minimum/base standards. Like I make joke posts about him being a hardass but tbh he doesnt judge anyone half as hard as he judges himself - he understands bad circumstances, plans going left, differing povs - all until he makes a mistake; then he sucks and needs to be better. Heās also just hilarious like I didnāt read him in chrono order so the first thing I saw was him in a fight with some girls brother bc he heard Duke was flirting with her and idk an opening like that just cemented him as cool to me.
ALSO (from the tags!) I ADOREEEEEE HOW MUCH HE LOVES THE ADRENALINE/RUSH OF FIGHTING! Like Duke got in a lot of fights while his parent were missing and besides the obvious acting out bc heās hurt he also just genuinely loves the rush of it - like not my interpretation he outright says it! And i need to do a reread for him bc I feel like it wasnāt mentioned a lot but if the og fight was the hook, the adrenaline line is what reeled me in and keeping it in mind while reading stories of him going off on his own for the good of Gotham adds another layer to it bc itās not SOLEY necessity for him! Like things happened to line up where there was always a void that needed to be filled when he got involved in anything but it genuinely feels like duke wouldve been here no matter the circumstances. like even in civilian aus the way duke as a character is set up makes it so that it feels like - to me anyways- theres no world in which hes not doing or striving towards something! duke isnt the type to just be comfortable, bad wording, but hes just a very hungry character to me - if for an adventure or a solution. Its conveniently been both for most of his career but im very interested for what happens internally when those two clash - which. i personally think the nature of his powers and gnomon could bring that out beautifully!
#Iāve made way too many drafts of this#and they all end in think pieces and fave aus and how I think his character should proceed#which. not the question#so I streamed of consciousnessād it I can elaborate on anything if need be#I kinda picked one trait#like what is THEE thing that draws me to Duke#thereās more but like. again donāt over think shit Ty Kenny beats#THIS IS NOT PERSUASION TO LOVE HIM IF IT WERE ITD BE BETTER I SWEAR#uhm slightly related this got me thinking of mr Bloom Again that guy was crazy#and Gordon Batman mixed thoughts#anyways#uhm.#ALSO#LMG#WAIT I NEED TO PUT THIS IN THE POST#wait I refuse to word it#IGNORE EVERY TAG BUT THIS ONE#no Iām gonna put it in this is important and -turns towards camera- you need to hear this too#ok so I added it from the tags and it got just as rambly as I feared but whatever idc#obligatory fuck WFA#TY FOR THE ASK IVE BEEN THINNJNG ABOUT THIS ALL DAY#and this is all I have to show for itā¦.#WHATEVER THIS IS MY TRUTH#in conclusion I think I hate stagnant characters and any writer worth their salt who knows Duke#again fuck WFA#would have to work HARD to make him so#like. itād be blatantly ooc to have Duke chilling and the amount of trauma and turmoil that can cause is ššš#like joker tried to recreate the Wayne killings but I genuinely donāt think that did anything for Duke#like I think it just added fuel to his fire as opposed to how Bruceās parents dying started the fire for Bruce in the first place#uhm thatās it tyyyy
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I swear if my period doesn't start tomorrow im gonna kill myself (hyperbolic) ā”
#two days ago i was having All the symptoms and was absolutely ready for it to start#now look at me in my clown make up and clown costume still waiting for something to stop the torture#of pms#something that will be Way more painful but still be better than THIS#i swear it's weeks like this that make me think of doing chasteberry again#(yes i like to talk about it like it's a drug habit. i hate chasteberry. it sucks. it leads to other horrors#but it Does kinda alleviate the horrors of pms so i gotta pick my poison i guess. but then again. getting a period Every month seems just#way too excessive. i can't deal with that shit. BUT THEN I'LL HAVE 3 WEEKS OF PRE PERIOD HORRORS AND IDK IF THAT'S BETTER RN)#end me#void screams#tumblr. my personal period tracker app ā”
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holy fucking shit
#yes this is about roots Iām ok Iām ok I just realized something#you know itās bad when I start unapologetically swearing hold on thereās no way#ok so pausing everything immediately. the page Iām missing might actually be incredibly fucking important#and the only way Iāll be able to get it is to ask the author#and I donāt want to fucking bother them AGAIN holy shit#itās really lucky that you guys are here to witness me freaking out abt roots in real time#just a glimpse into my twisted mind#actually trembling this canāt be happening#breaking fucking news local person hyperfixates#I fuckinh think the page Iām missing might have the answer to something I thought was a loose end#gonna throw up holy SHIT this canāt be happening not today#I might be tripping (I probably am) but oh no oh no oh no#I am okay trust me I am just not normal#Iām having a joker moment rn#we live in a society damn it
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