#i swear i dont draw in school often

[4rackn0]

School doodles!!!

[sharks3ye]

Random ass doodles for today gang

Today you shall receive surgeamy i dont seem them paired together often

Ngl im so tired me omw to sleeepp snooree mimimimimimii

[kestisvrse]

headcanon collection: dating cam cameron

♫ - new romantics by taylor swift

(slightly suggestive at the end?)

· belly or jere introduced the two of you

· instantly drawn to each other (or atleast he is to you.)

· even if you were a party person, if he ever was at the same one as you you found yourself escaping to a quiet place with him

· if you were in the same school i imagine him always leaving little notes in your bag or locker

“you look pretty :)”

“i like that colour on you”

“hang out after school? □ yes □ no”

· study buddy, also how you got to know him better and what led him to even asking you out

· he loves when you talk about your interests, he just stares in awe and nods as you speak

· he goes over to your house one day while you were baking cookies and that just becomes your guys thing, always baking together

· meaning cliche movie flour fights, all. the. time

“we need to start keeping track of the winners”

· STARGAZING.

· like i swear if the skies are clear he is asking you to go on a walk or drive to look at the stars

· as you get closer and he gets a bit more confident he definitely gets touchier

· he doesn’t want to make you uncomfortable or anything so its always subtle

· shoulders pressed together, knees hitting or your fingers interlocking

· you’re cold? he will give you his hoodie

· if he doesn’t have one on him he will immediately go and buy one it doesnt even matter

· i dont see him owning many hoodies, but he definitely owns less when he starts dating you because he keeps giving them to you

· having them returned to him awhile later because they ‘lost their smell’

· he will fall asleep if your hands touch his hair in the SLIGHTEST

· ok exaggeration but seriously playing with his hair is actually his favourite thing ever trust

· not big on nicknames but would probably drop an occasional “babe”, “angel” or “sweetheart”

· but saying that, he loves when you call him nicknames, like will melt at anything you call him

· so if you had asked to call you a nickname he definitely would do it more often

· not big on pda, minimum he has to be standing next to you, holding your hand or resting his hand on your back, he’ll place a quick kiss to your lips or forehead but not often

· he makes up for it when you’re alone, taking every opportunity to show you how much you mean to him

· for some reason i just imagine like, your first kiss being underwater

· like you’re both pushed into the pool and while under the water just say fuck it and lean it

· even if people are around, it’s just so in the moment

· as much as he loves staying in, cuddling and watching a movie, he LOVES taking you out on dates

· it doesn’t have to be public, he likes bike rides or picnics, scenic things he gets to experience with you

· makes you playlists

· like he doesnt just update one, he’ll make a new one every few months, or ones for certain moods

· you’re sad and he can’t be there? he makes you a playlist of songs so you can think of him and hopefully feel better

· the BEST at comforting

· he’ll listen and only give advice if you want it, or even if you don’t want to talk he is there rubbing your back or tracing shapes on your hand to calm you down

· he like is definitely secretly easily jealous

· like you would never be able to tell if he was, and he would never tell you

· unless it’s someone like, touching you or obviously flirting with you, he will immediately have his arm around you hoping they will get the hint

· but usually he hates getting jealous, especially if its just a friend or he is misreading it

· so he stays silent because he trusts you and know you wouldn’t talk to or encourage anyone trying to get with you

· even while dating he still does the note thing, this time scattering them around your room, in your draws, placing them so you could keep finding them for months

· definitely has a million photos of you, and has a problem with printing them off and putting them everywhere around his room

· he’s absolutely WHIPPED for you

· he loves putting his hands under your shirt onto your waist, feeling how warm you are as you blush

· nose kisses.

· i don’t think hickies happen a lot

· like he loves kissing your neck but he never leaves a mark

· but occasionally slip ups happen, and he’ll feel so bad but you don’t even care, because it shows everybody that you’re taken

· i don’t think he would be a huge fan of you kissing his neck

· probably tickleish so he ends up squirming and giggling

· he likes when you kiss his face though, it doesn’t matter where, he just loves it.

[emerxshiu]

i knew i said i would be more active but i was kinda busy with school, but now i've gotten my winter break so i think now i should be able to post more often.

this was a prject for art class where we had to draw what we wanted for christmas, got the highest grade on it!

i was planning to post this earlier but i kinda fell asleep, my sleep schedule is absolute bs at this point but im tryna work on it, kinda.

oh yeah the drawing, gonna talk abt it now, its based on that one kirby twitter image they posted for christmas, i think it was the 2018 one, not sure rn. dedede just put on a belt, thats it, he already looks like santa, bandee is all in spirit with an elf costume and meta had to be begged by bandee to at least put something holiday related on.

sorry its blurry, i couldnt get a better pic no matter how i tried

we also did something similar for halloween

btw marx and mags kissed after this, trust me im the moon.

i dont really have my gijinkas defined aside from kirby, marx and bandee, tho im starting to try to redesing them, but yeah, meta, dedede, and mags could change (i mean, mags already changed here, i used to draw him with short brown hair, but i like this hair better) dunno if it easy to understand, i suck at explaining stuff

i also finished magolor epilogue today at like, 4 am in like 4 or 5 hours and maaannn i loved it, i want to replay it from scratch but i dont wanna delete my save data nor have to replay all of story mode in another save file. i have all stages platinum except hydriath, who is on gold (i swear i'll get you one day!) no matter how i try i can never keep my combo long enough for platinum. when i finished it, i felt kinda empty ngl i wanted more, but didnt feel like trying extra mode or doing the challenges, or really anything i had left to do in krtdldlx

so i checked my ao3 cuz it had been a week since i had and remembered that i had a draft i wanted to post that i only had there

i lost the draft

so i just check my favourite tags and oh look there is another addition to my favourite series there, but i think this is for another time, better when i post a fanart of it

[ndcultureis]

I swear I keep writing these without intent to be vents but it always escalates. Anyway vent warning

ND (ADHD for me, or at least I think this is an ADHD thing?? Might be completely wrong though) culture is needing positive attention more often than you get it. I know I was suppose to do this thing and me actually doing it is "the bare minimum" and "I dont deserve praise for doing what I've been told" but please give me praise I need it if you dont give me praise it feels like you dont recognize this was a hard thing for me to do. Surely you know this was a hard thing for me to do, I've told you it was and you know how this works with executive dysfunction and stuff you're my parent and you've looked into so stuff about ADHD and autism so why are you still not giving me praise? It hurts :(

Also I'm a creative (digital drawing) and i dont mind this if i dont like my art piece but if I do how dare you not tell me my art is the best thing youve ever seen how dare you not scream and shout excitedly about how beautiful my art is. Why arent you giving me attention I need the attention >:(

Why is attention seeker a bad thing? I'm hurt that I didnt get enough attention, it hurts, of course I want attention of course im going to seek for attention of course im gonna fish for compliments its hurts to not get as much attention as i wanted

It hurts so much why arent you giving me attention??? please?? why arent you praising me???

I completed 2 subjects in my online school on monday and i only got told "good job" like??? WHY ISNT ANYONE TELLING ME HOW HAPPY AND PROUD THEY ARE OF ME COMPLETING 2 WHOLE SUBJECTS ON THE FIRST DAY OF THE WEEK??? YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO TELL ME YOU'RE VERY PROUD OF ME YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO SHOW HAPPINESS THAT I DID THIS THING WHY DO YOU NOT CARE WHY DO YOU NOT CARE????

And then I desperately want to ask, beg, for attention when I dont get enough but I stop myself most of the time. Not because I dont think I'm in the right to ask for the attention but because I'm worried others will find me annoying and hate me

(I feel like this might be something more than just ADHD but I cant tell. I dont really fit anything for NPD other than the attention thing and I dont know much about HPD. All I know is people arent giving me the attention I need to be satisfied and it sets off my RSD)

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[brynnterpretations]

came across this blog and felt like i struck gold!! lolol!! anyway so in love with it rn and kindly requesting a bowers gang ship from you.. 5'6 (or around there, or i just say it to make myself look good?) skinny but kinda toned, getting there. brown shitty grown-out wolfcut with blonde highlights. green eyes, i dress like adam sandler because comfort > style i fear. i pretend to be a cocky bitch but im humble and genuine where it matters. laughter is my cope and my purpose, i love making my friends laugh and im not afraid to talk back to somebody if i know nobody else will. i can blurt out things from nowhere and sometimes i talk about people way too loudly when they're in earshot. sometimes i can be overly direct, or come off as overbearing, but i just get anxious and i cant handle what if's. i like drawing, but im a horrible perfectionist and give up too quick; i dont allow myself patience, or the ability to try again. usually in the heat of assignments i just shut down and expect everything to work out. im a clean freak and often clean my house for my own peace of mind. i can appear very frazzled and forget things easily, like printing a sheet twice because i walked away with the first one after swearing i grabbed it. i like video games, writing, and thinking about things way too deeply. i like museums, and quieter places, because people and sound overwhelm me. i like all music that sounds good, but im big on death grips, tyler the creator, kmfdm, deftones, and a bit of weezer from time to time. i have a preference, but i want a surprise!! i hope i didnt write too much, ive never done one of these before >_< thank you

Thank you so much for the request! I'm so happy you enjoy my blog; this made me smile. I hope you like this regardless of preference. ♡

I ship you with...

Victor Criss ♡

Boyfriend

Victor takes notice of you at Derry Public Library. Victor is a big reader, and during the times he's able to slip away from the Bowers Gang and have some time to himself without being called every slur in existence, he heads to Derry Public Library, where you often sit down to write.

Victor had seen you around school, but hadn't known enough about you at that time to start talking to you. He usually has to see someone doing something that catches his eye, and considering you didn't share many classes together during that quarter, he only thought you were attractive from afar.

However, when he first saw you at the library and continued to see you, he decided to take it upon himself to talk to you after the third or fourth time. After you began packing up your art supplies, he decided to come up to you (as an artist himself, he knows how shy people can get about others seeing their work and doesn't want to make you uncomfortable) and spark up a conversation.

Through that, you and Victor get alone very, very naturally. Victor is attracted to rambly, sarcastic, walls-up types, and you fit the bill. Too, you share a similar sense of humor, and it ends very well: not with an outright number-sharing, or date, but a promise to see each other more.

And, you do. Victor tries to keep it private considering his reputation — he doesn't want the Gang giving you grief, or others' perceptions harming you — but he talks to you consistently at school, and loves your sense of humor. He does subtle, but gentlemanly things, like helping carry your books, offering (and letting you keep) his coat in cold weather, so on and so forth.

Two to three weeks later, he asks you on a date to your favorite restaurant and, afterward, the arcade, and you two hit it off well.

Fun fact about Victor: he is abysmally awful at video games. Something about them just don't click for him, so you destroy him in everything you two play (and that does not make him feel emasculated; in fact, it makes him feel proud).

You two date for about a month, going to the library, Derry's very small town museum, and Derry's only café, before he asks to make things official after school one day when you two are alone, as to not pressure you.

Once you two are together, you are definitely one of Derry's cutest couples. It's not in-your-face, but it's not hidden, either, though Victor tries to mediate your interactions with the guys (more on that later). If you're involved in any extracurriculars, Victor will always show up for you, but if not, he'll still show up for you, whether it's in the library, walking you out from class (which he will always do), etc.

Loves your fashion taste. He doesn't really have a "preference" for any fashion tastes, but he does really like the comfy look, since it's not "try-hard" and he tends to dress the same as well. He does like matching vibes, and you two have matching vibes.

Also, considering you like alternative and experimental music, Victor would be very much into whatever canon-period music you're into. Victor himself is attracted to more "boundary-pushing" music, like post-punk and gothic rock, so he'd find your music taste both in-line with his tastes and refreshing. Music is a big part of relationships for Victor, since he likes to enjoy new things, artists, and ideas.

Victor is the calmest of the gang, and, while he does have his struggles with mental health himself, also tends to be a measured and calm person himself. Because of that, he not only understands your feelings, but is able to be there for you and calm you down when you're stressed out.

Unless it's some dire, end-of-the-world situation, he does not get frustrated by any frazzled or type-A behavior (and instead would find it cute in low-stakes, shit-I-forgot-my-mini-paper-clip situations) and is always there to help calm you down.

Victor does have a tendency to "chill out" to the point of not caring anymore (a defense mechanism for him), so he does appreciate that you are always engaged in your life, even if to your own detriment sometimes.

He is very protective of you, and because of that, will try to avoid the Bowers Gang negatively impacting you. However, he won't want to hide aspects of his life from you, so he'll introduce you to them, and invite you to their hang-outs.

That brings us to...

Bowers Gang ☻

Friends

You and Belch are the closest out of the group. Belch started out having a crush on you for the assertive-funny combo as well as your appearance (he actually crushed on you before Victor due to sharing a class with you), but eventually, it waned due to how good of friends you two are.

Belch loves your sense of humor, and does appreciate your sense of music even if he doesn't fully get it (listen, he's a metalhead), and your ability to ramble helps him a lot. He's super shy, so if he's ever left with Patrick (who doesn't like him) or Henry (who cannot keep up a friendly conversation to save his life) you always save his life.

You, Belch, and Victor are the "main gang" during parties while Henry and Patrick fuck off, and hang out together, typically on the porch (you and Victor sharing a blunt, Belch sipping a beer as he does not want to see God again—he does not fuck with weed).

Patrick likes you a lot... but that is not exactly great to deal with (in my humble opinion). Your sense of humor and appearance catches him, but that comes with very unpleasant interactions and sexual harassment.

In the Trans Am, he will consistently try to get you to sit closer to him and feel you up. Victor always stands up for you (once, he told Patrick to "shut the fuck up and stick to himself"), but, still... uncomfortable.

However, you two can have amicable conversations from time to time. Patrick also is a big-thinker, albeit disturbingly, and when you get to certain topics, you two can get along pretty well without Victor wanting to wring Patrick's neck out.

But, as for Henry... you drive him up the wall.

Sorry, please don't take it personally, but the guy is 99% stress, surrounded by other stress-balls, and any human emotion you show to him on a bad day will make him internally lose his shit.

In my interpretations, Victor is his closest friend, so he won't lose his shit on you, but you do piss him off. He's fine with you when you're in a good mood, but the few times you've been anxious, you rubbed off on him in a bad way due to his lack of emotional intelligence.

But, slightly-comforting side note: Henry's a lot more forgiving when he gets drunk, and has a good conversation with you then after a particularly rough night. The next morning, he hopes you forgot, but isn't entirely sure; however, that "what-if" that you save with your tact puts you in good favor with him.

So, while you do irritate him, he does respect you for being quiet about that, and because of that and his relationship with Victor, he will protect you within his personal reasons.

All-in-all: you've got friends, and you've got acquaintances, but they'll always stick up for you (excluding Patrick, who will stick up for you when it benefits him, so... yeah). Have fun with them!

[tanejineri]

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   ABOUT ME

Name - Rosie-Psi (Psi for this account)

DOB (MM/DD/YYYY) - 06/14/2004

Gender - Male

Level of Education - High School Diploma

Occupation - Unemployed

   INTERESTS / FAVORITES

Hobbies - Art (Sketching/Drawing, Animation, Writing), Cooking, uhh i dont fucking know

Books - The Notebook Trilogy (The Notebook, The Proof, The Third Lie [only really on an analysis level]), Warriors (Series), im going to get back to reading i swear

Films - Watership Down (1978), The Prince of Egypt, The Lion King (1994), How To Train Your Dragon [1+2], The End of Evangelion, Hereditary, Spider-Man: [Adjective] the Spiderverse (so all of it), The Fox and the Hound

TV Series - Neon Genesis Evangelion (im not one of those fans i swear), Invincible, Devilman Crybaby, TRON: Uprising, Arcane

Music - MUSE, Radiohead, femtanyl, Periphery, Lapfox Trax/HALLEY LABS, RYUWAVE, RedOgre, Terrorfakt, Converter

Video Games - ULTRAKILL, Rain World, The MOTHER Series (1+2+3), LittleBigPlanet (1+2+3), OFF, Fer.al (R.I.P), Animal Jam, Rhythm Heaven, Needy Streamer Overload

Other - Animals (Mammalia, Reptilia, Aves), Fictional Theology, Music Analysis

   BIO

HI!!! Welcome! I'm quite the nervous wreck sometimes, so I apologize ahead of time if your interactions with me are awkward. I have autism, ADHD, and depression, which can be hard to deal with, and is also often the reason why I am slow on making things. And also why I am so passionate about everything I do. I was also recently diagnosed with OSDD, so if I ever seem off or not myself, then uh. Whoopsies. I am also very jumpy and really suck at reading people I don't feel the vibes with immediately! I apologize for that as well!! AND I APOLOGIZE A LOT-

I got into MOTHER around July of 2019 when I was 15. It has brought out a lot of joy into me and has shaped the way that I am today! I've been creating content for MOTHER since August 2019, but most of it is private and archived. I have gone under multiple aliases, but Tanehineri is the one that has stuck and resonated the most, being the Japanese name for Tanetane island. The 'j' in my name is actually supposed to be pronounced the way you would a 'j' in Spanish, actually!

While MOTHER is no longer a main interest, I am not afraid to say it's my special interest! Whenever I am running out of things to think or create about, the series is there to give me something to occupy my time. I have multiple takes and headcanons, and I'm always open to hear and share my interpretations of these games with other people, so don't be afraid to ask me for my takes on certain aspects!

As an adult, I speak in a manner that wouldn't be very appropriate for a child. So please, if you're speaking with me and you're a minor, let me know! Otherwise I'll be saying vile shit about Pork Trooper or something.

I ran out of things to say, so uh. ENJOY! WELCOME!!! Once again, please don't be afraid to talk with me!

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[vesicapiscean]

oh another thing i remember is telling avery i was so excited to finally be a part of something, and i was like how did i even find this place anyways, i dont remember. and he said i saw it on a flyer on a bulletin board in the shopping district... i wish i could just project mental images so i don't have to go through the work of trying to describe dream shit because i have a perfect idea of my dream world and none of you know what i'm talking about and how one else knows what i'm talking about either. once a long time ago i tried drawing it and the image slipped away from me. the shopping district same place that usually has strange shops and there's a particular clothing store i often find myself in thats like if forever 21 was slightly smaller and more boutique. and there's also a little tchotchke shop with paintings and decorations. and everything in there is gold plated i swear. it's near to the elementary school (?) that i once went to a big procession at, like a graduation or something. apparently i saw a flyer there for this school i was in in my dream last night. and the house/dorms was similar to my typical dream house but i didn't spend a lot of time in it, and the kitchen/living room was in a different formation than im used to. it was kind of jarring. i remember seeing people standing and sitting around a dinner table and to the left of them was the kitchen but right behind them was a huge dark wooden book shelf. and there were no doors or windows to the right. but it had that same open feeling with tall ceilings and white walls in the bedrooms. and i don't remember there being an upstairs or attic area like is often the case in my dreams. i also dont remember the transition from dorm to school, but the classes were not laid out like a typical class. we were all sitting on top of large desks and lazing around while listening rather than seated and taking notes. and what could it mean? what could it possibly all mean?

[the-mozzarella-brothers]

Hello again!! I am quite busy with schoolwork at the moment, so sorry if I won't be sending asks often 🥲

I am Polish btw, so my English is kinda stiff lol. I've seen you're Jewish, and to be honest I don't know much about Jewish culture, so sorry if some stuff might sound offensive to you, it's not on purpose. I know that most Jews don't celebrate Christmas, so I don't know if it'd be proper if I wished you a merry Christmas in some time.

Anyways, I love your music taste! Haven't been listening to the monkees much, but I enjoy classical rock and country, and also Bob Dylan and The Beatles obviously 😁

By the way, I followed you on last.fm, I'm almond_biscuits, I haven't been scrobbling for long though

So, what are your favourite songs of all time? You can list of many as you want to 😊 Do you have any pets? Also, what are your hobbies or interests? I personally like to draw, but I'm morbidly pedantic when it comes to art so yeah, I'm not really a full-fledged artist 😭

Srry if the emotes are cringey, I literally can't write without them lolz ( IM NOT A MILLENNIAL THO I SWEAR IM GEN Z)

oh it's alright if it takes u a while to send asks! it's been taking me a while with the person i'm secret santa-ing and schools over for the year for me (i live in australia) :)

also that's sick that ur polish!!!!!! that's so cool!!! it's alright if you don't know much about jewish culture, im not super religious anyway :) i don't actually celebrate christmas, but in the context of the secret santa it's alright to wish me merry christmas if that's what's easy for you :)

also your music taste looks so good too!!! looking through your last fm i feel like i'm in an old record store or something it's so cool!!

my favourite songs! this'll be hard (i'm indecisive). here goes (no particular order):

- awaiting on you all (early take) - george harrison

- while my guitar gently weeps (live in japan) - george harrison

- איתו לנצח - kerach tesha

יהיה פיצוץ - shabak samech

listen to the band - michael nesmith and the first national band

something (anthology 3 version) - the beatles

and like way more but i'm tired

unfortunately i dont have any pets :( but i would like a cat or a dog one day! or perhaps a lizard.

i also really like drawing sometimes, currently working on a piece, and i also do ballet and contemporary dance :)

the emojis are fine dont worry, i personally dont use them much except 👍 but they do not bother me at all :) my friends and bf use them a lot!

also omg i thought i posted this ages ago i just realised i saved it in my drafts whoops!!! very sorry my heads been everywhere this week

[smileymoth]

Self harm tw

Im not gona do anything rn bc im going home tomorrow and the ones i made last week havent even healed properly but i swear to god one day im going to slice up my wrists just to experience what it looks and feels like because its always been a fucked up fantasy of mine because ive been mentally ill since i was 10 and even without the internet i wouldve lost it some other way. Sometimes i think about going too deep and having to get stitcjes. But if it happened it would be on accident. I woildnt do it on purpose bc im a coward.

I remember in 5th grade we were on a school trip and i lost my mind bc of prohably overstimulation lbr and i started to badly grate away at my wrist witj a plastic knife and that was so cringe i remember feeling cringe immediately since i calmed down and its so embarrassing that i have these thoughts in the first place since youre not supposed to. The next morning i woke up and my dad noticed ky scratched arm and he made a joke about it. It didnt feel too good. Ive never cut too much. I remember in 6tj grade i would cut a small piece of skin off my wrist with scissors and i stkll have a scar from it and it would burn dry to air exposure and id be kinda disturbed bc there was a hole in my skin (go figure) but its so small now. All my sh scars have mostly faded. Ive never done too much because im scared to do too much and go too deep but by god i want to. But i dont want the scars. I dont want my mom to see. I dont want people to see. I just want the feeling it gives. Even if you dont do too much rhe pressure release or adrenaline calmdown after feels so nice and uoi feel so good for like 5 minhtes before you regret what you did. Like its not even a big problem to me lbr i just do a couple to get away iwth saying my cat attacked me and thats why theyre always crooked or i "scratched myself against a screw at school lol" idk if my mom ever really believed me in the first place. Its always awkward when she asks bc i pretend i didnt notjce i have them. And while i dont do it a lot and often ive never cut myself more tjan in the past 2 years. Did my dads death trigger this. I dont know. And i feel like its getting worse slowly. And im just letting it happen because i stopped caring i guess. I dont know. I guess thats why i starved myself in high school bc it was "invisible" and not noticable l. I dont know. I feel so patjetic that i even think about it so often that i do. Like im 22 i should be getting a job and a partner not thinking of which spot on my wrist is most optimal to draw blood with a fucking dirty ass boxcutter that i sprayed a-sept on so if my mom notices it would be least suspicious.

God i cant keep up i cant keep up with life at all im not built for this life it feels like. Im so overwhelmed all the time and i feel disgusting and patjetic and annoying. I dont really care about the things i should i just pretend i care mostly. Thats an autism trait right. Lack of empathy. I feel empathy but sometimes it feels tjat im empathetic just because its right to ne, not tjat i actuallt care. Youd be surprised how little things i acrually care about. Im a little internet attentionwhore who cant kill herself nc her mom and besties would be sad. Im not fucking special for any of this im just pathetic and burnt out and dead on the inside. Im never going to get better am i. Im never going to be what i want to be. Whats the fucking point right. Whats the point of complaining if im not even going to do anything. i wont cut myself open like i want to because its useless and dangerous and doesnt fix anything anyway and i cant kill myself either so ill just complain om tumblr instead and describe in detail how ive cut myself before bc thats entertaining. I feel like im writing a deviantart vent journal

[k-oliveros]

IM NOT DEPRESSED OK?

I was just playing with the "lazo" tool without any care while watching anime. I swear.

Anyways, I realized that I dont draw school girls very often, maybe its because Im not a student anymore IDK, but its soooo easy to draw sailors....

[mouldy-oranges]

the entire summer of 2021 is totally lost to me. i was inside for all of it in my locked depression room and the only thing i would eat is these prepackaged little fruit salad things in a plastic box and ramen, and i would scroll all fucking day and bodycheck. i had no friends, and the only hobby i kept up was some intermittent drawing. i swear i became my disorder; the only parts of me left was my depression and bdd. i would bin my dinners and sometimes the fruit salads, but i could only do it at night when my parents weren't awake, so my room would often smell of the sickly sweet smell of rotting fruit.

the only memories i can recollect were the following:

my dad on the other side of my locked door, asking what was wrong. he sounded teary.

explaining veganism to a young girl (family friend) on an occasion i was taken out to this beach town to see the arcade and the rides, and i had to eat this veggie burger. i was discreetly converting the burger into crumbs and sneaking them into the bin.

had nothing but broccoli on my birthday

eating 500cals of biscoff biscuits while reading truly uniquely strange and unintentionally borderline abusive fanfiction at my grannys one day on a week long birthday visit (mine). i would only eat yellow watermelon, broccoli, biscoff biscuits, and monster energy zero on that trip.

my granny hugged me and she says, "take care of yourself" and i felt my stomach fat pressing against her stomach

going to the playground (coerced) with a girl i knew from school and going to pharmacy after to buy my 1st laxatives as i hadnt shit in two weeks 💀

august was the worst month bc i dont think i binged at all that month and i had horrid brainfog.

coerced into going to family friends barbecue and the father says "youve lost a lot of weight since i last saw you" and then i fucking binged on like a coconut vegan curry the mother made specially for me... fat fuck

i was fucking obsessed with food recipe videos (i did not cook a single recipe) i would stare at them rapt and fantasise about the flavour. it fucking worked too it really helped restrict

i remember watching spirited away and binging on some sweets. it was the start of my pseudo-recovery

[lord-shitbox]

15 questions for 15 mtuasls

are you named after anyone? nah

when was the last time you cried? dont remember when but i did something fucked up & had a breakdown. i dont cry often

do you have kids? na

do you use sarcasm a lot? idk actually. i was a VERY sarcastic young teen and now im more genuine

what sports do you play/have you played? i did gymnastics as a kid & have done a little kendo now nothing much. pedestrian biking

what's the first thing you notice about other people? how introverted/extroverted they are

eye color? brown 👍

scary movies or happy endings? can't say i'm too invested in either, actually....an ending is an ending

any special talents? your mom jokes. its actually a problem.

where were you born? still live here atualy

what are your hobbies? 400hrs/day video gaming + drawing

do you have any pets? dog (small and eyebrowed)

how tall are you? im 5'8 i SWEAR. (like 172cm)

fave subject in school? math. i heart nubers

dream job? blacksmithing...? idk im not big on dreaming i want financial stability more than a specific career

tagging @sweet-milky-tea705 @hatsune-yeetku @egyptianwalk @kinghimst @sableunavailable @charlienemeris @curze @deathbyworm & anyone who wants to participate!!!

Got tagged by @peach-tia to do this and it was fun!!!💗💗💗

15 questions for 15 mutuals

1. are you named after anyone? Not really! My mom just thought Helena was a pretty name 🤭

2. when was the last time you cried? Today 😜

3. do you have kids? Noo but I love them maybe someday 🥰

4. do you use sarcasm a lot? I think I do specially irl!

5. what sports do you play/have you played? None I'm so bad at most of them 😭 except badminton!!!! I won a competition once but nothing serious

6. what's the first thing you notice about other people? I'm not sure I think the kind of fashion style they have???

7. eye color? Brown 😌

8. scary movies or happy endings? Scary movies!!!! I love scary movies 💗

9. any special talents? Drawing I guess 😽

10. where were you born? Spain

11. what are your hobbies? I like reading and writing and drawing and thinking of stories 🥰

12. do you have any pets? Yes, a canary ��

13. how tall are you? 160cm

14. fave subject in school? Art and biology!!!

15. dream job? Ideally, getting paid for doing nothing. Ideally, illustrator

Tagging: @mysandwichranaway @czesca @xywgnyen @futuredaysbycan @rayvven and everyone else that wants to join sorry I'm terrible at tagging people no pressure to do it btw!!!

[soy-luz]

When you don’t have to worry about the tumblr purge cause you rarely post anyways 😎

[yuwumeniji]

Hi hi~! If you’re still taking requests at this time I was wondering: when do you think the Luxiem boys realized that they were truly and deeply in love with reader-Chan? This concept has been on my mind today >w< thank you if you answer this!

Luxiem & Falling in love

WARNING: Please remember that I am writing about Luxiem based on their characters online and not of the people behind their vtuber avatars, thank you!

EXTRA NOTES: request thank you!! and just as a general thing, i've decided to do the requests out of order, so if you sent something earlier, i'll eventually get to yours if inspiration hits ^^

GENERAL

i'll make up different scenarios for each boy! just a short reason (or long idk) as to how you guys met and how they started to develop feelings for the reader

what kind of person they are with a crush/interacting with their crush & how they are when truly in love ^^

i didnt proofread... just dont perceive my mistakes lmao

MORE UNDER THE CUT!

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IKE EVELAND

a school crush

at first, he doesn't think too much of it; maybe it's just a one time thing, maybe once the school day is over, he won't think about it, but then you started to appear in his dreams.

oh boy the dreams - don't get me wrong, they're pure, i swear

he doesn't really go out of his way to interact with you but instead waits for you to come up to him - luckily for ike, you seem to have a lot of questions about studying you'd like to ask him.

the type to be a bit on the quieter side when it comes to having a crush - in fact, he's the kind to quietly suffer from a one-sided crush.

he tends to stay away and avoid the person of his affection while craving your attention. he's very hot-and-cold in that sense

the moment he realized he truly had a crush on one of the top students in his grade (aka you in this scenario), his face flushes red. he starts kicking his feet in the air when thinking of you and draws little hearts around your name in his notebook

LUCA KANESHIRO

The stranger he locked eyes with at a club

he spent all night trying to find you amongst the crowd of drunkards and party-goers like the prince looking for cinderella after the ball.

the moment he finds you, it's like roses filled his field of vision, the birds were chirping and he felt like he was the cleanest man alive (metaphorically speaking, he may be pure of heart but at the end of the day he is a true mafioso ((im not using that word correctly huh lmao)))

you both often meet at the same club every single time - and for every single time, it feels as if he is the only person looking at you amongst the crowd of people

he's the kind to be a little more bold when it comes to confronting his crush - he'll go out of his way to even serenade you

he wants to spend the utmost time with the target of his affection, from inviting you to dinners, taking you to movies, etc, but surprisingly, he's a little shy when it comes to asking the question

he doesn't really realize when he's truly in love with you until you started to take up space in his mind - if you ask him to earn 5 cents for every single time you've been on his mind, he'll only have 5 cents since you were always there

MYSTA RIAS

Accidentally bumping into the reader as he rushes to another crime scene ; it was nearly at first sight

he was dashing around the city, trying to avoid spilling the beans of his latest case until he suddenly runs into the cafe door that you happened to open ‐ papers and other important documents fly through the air and all he could think about was how red and flustered you looked when accidentally hitting him

from that fateful meeting, the two of you would often bump into each other around the city by pure coincidence. they do say that after the third meeting, it must be meant to be.

he's either the kind of person who couldn't shut up about how much he likes this person and when someone asks him "why not ask them out?", he suddenly becomes super bashful and shy and "d'aww!!! do you think they like me too??"

or he's super lowkey about it until the point where you have to ask yourself "does he really have a crush?"

the moment he realizes he has feelings for you was just during an average conversation - you could be talking about your day, complain about other people or whatever, but mysta's mind seems to drift elsewhere ; "ah. i like this person."

SHU YAMINO

The mysterious, but good-looking stranger on the bus you frequent

first it was sneaky glances, then it was taking the seat next to you and asking how are you and where are you going - you later find out that he's in the same school/workplace as you

from there, it started hanging out outside of the bus - taking you to different locations across the city and just spending time with each other

shu seems to be the kind of person who is lowkey about his crush - he just likes to be able to be near you and thinks that if he suddenly starts telling you how much he thinks about you, you could get scared off by that

in fact, he's also the kind to suffer from a one-sided crush as well - he'd rather have you happier with someone else than him sometimes even if it makes his heart hurt a little bit

the moment he realizes he has a crush on you, he says it feels as if something just clicked. like a gear shifted in the right way and a light started appearing around you. in his eyes, the world seemed a lot brighter after this realization.

VOX AKUMA

Switched orders on accident at a local cafe

picture this - you're at your favourite cafe trying to get your favourite drink. you're distracted when suddenly you hear your name get called out to retrieve your order. the second you take a sip from the cup, it isn't yours.

you then meet the light tapping of someone's shoe (or... sandal?) against the cafe's floor and lo-and-behold; the akuma himself, holding your cup

he seems to take a liking to you, especially after you complained about his weird drink and he even gave you his number, strange.

from then, you would meet up often at the same cafe, discussing different culinary techniques and even teaching each other new things

vox seems like he'd be lowkey but very direct if asked about having a crush too, but fortunately for him, not one to suffer from a one-sided one either.

"do i like this person? of course i do."

he realizes he has a crush when he firmly believes that he can truly stay by the side of this person as equals. it's a cozy, warm feeling he feels in his heart when he realizes how much affection he feels for them.

[toxiic-wastee]

hey buddy, I’ve got a request

how does the duwang gang (+Hazamada and Mikitaka and maybe even Yukako 😳😳) react to reader sending dumb shit at 3 AM? like memes or what happened in their dream. modern AU kinda because of textin and all, also gender neutral preferred.

sorry if you’re working on something else, thank you buddyyyyyy 🐎🐎🐎

IM WORKING ON DIFFERENT 7 SMUT REQUESTS BUT THIS IS BETTER. THIS IS FAR MORE IMPORTANT IT IS 3:12 PM AND IM IN THE SHOWER WHILE WRITING THIS ON A TUESDAY SO LETS SEE HOW FAST I CAN WRITE THIS WOOOOOO. Idk who you count as the Duwang but Ik who I count so. Can be read as romantic or platonic (except for Koichi it’s romantic for him)

Josuke

-you remind him of Okuyasu tbh, the memes, the stupid ass dreams, the rants and you being sleepy and dumb.

-it’s so funny to him though.

-Tomoko took away his video game console for 2 weeks because she caught him talking to you at 4am.

-you told him about what happened in your dream and he mentally face Palmed, he gave you a resting bitch face picture once and you saw his hair all messy and you laughed at him so much. (Even going as far to threaten to leak the photo)

-there’s probably a group chat if you and Josuke and Okuyasu and Josuke just has to put up with your guys’ bullshit lmao.

Okuyasu

-what makes you think he isn’t doing the exact same thing to you??

-you guys get no fucking sleep I swear. you both constantly text, and the fact you're just as weird as him makes him so happy, youre his 1st best bud, mans dont even care about Josuke anymore.

-he wakes up early so he can go to your house and walk to school together so instead of texting you abt his dream he can yell it at you.

-he probably sends you old vines.

Koichi

-Ayana found him asleep with his phone buzzing due to you spamming him at 3am.

-he isn’t awake very late, he goes to sleep early. So when you first start spamming him he adjusts his sleep schedule to be able to text you. He probably gets caught talking to you a couple times by Mrs. Hirose, she’s so nice and sweet though. she gives him a warning and invites you over to spend the night and makes you guys food. But Ayana eavesdrops and reports to her mother about your guys’ conversations..

-he genuinely thinks the stuff you send him is funny and he giggles silently at all the stupid shit you send him.

Rohan Kishibabe

-he is so fucking pissed.

-“Y/N why would you interrupt me for your childish stories?”

-he probably blocks you :/ (he unblocks you later tho,, only to block you again the next night, it’s an endless cycle.)

-After a while he enjoys your goofy stories about your dreams, he may smile at your memes sometimes but never to go as far to actually laugh.

-you guys probably call often, Rohan is good at multitasking and can call while drawing his manga.

-as long as you don’t tell anybody your calling him during work hours he doesn’t care. (He doesn’t want the gang calling him while he’s at work, ur the exception)

-if he is up late and texts you it’s probably him giving you a list of shampoo, soaps and cleaning products because he says you stink.

Yukako Yamagashi

-As seen in most of Yukakos episodes she doesn’t enjoy people goofing off a lot, she’s strict and focused. Which is so beautiful I love her-

-She doesn’t mind you going off task and not sleeping though. Mainly because you spend the time texting her. She adores you and the stuff you find funny. She isn’t one for memes but I can see her liking memes after you spam them.

-whenever you tell Yukako about your dreams she always laughs and chuckles, she sends back long detailed paragraphs in response but if she’s too tired she send small paragraphs with poor grammar.

-She probably sends you pictures of herself at night, mainly her getting ready for bed with a smile, to remind you to “Go to sleep, we have a long day ahead of us! ❤️”

Hazamada

-he’s the type to send cursed images, you can expect horrifying shit to look at, I kinda feel like he would send pictures of dead animals with the words “Pablo dead” over them?? If this stuff freaks you out it’s gonna be a fictional animal, probably from a manga he likes.

-he tells you about his dreams too, he usually has nightmares but telling you helps him laugh it off.

-sometimes Surface steals Toshikazu’s phone and texts you, and if he does it means Hazamada is asleep. Toshikazu will take a picture of the sleeping Hazamada and send it to you saying “bitch fell asleep at 9pm.”

Mikitaka

-he doesn’t have a phone, you’d probably have to buy him one. Or he’ll steal one. Either works 🤪

-he is amused by your ranting, he finds it very enjoyable.

-he doesn’t understand many of your memes but he always laughs.