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petrichoraline · 11 months ago

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Thai BL Favorites List Tag Game

i got tagged in the summer lmao i've been struggling cause i simply can't make a completely honest list - my taste is too fluid and the definition of "fave" is a blur to me

thank you to my lovely @tenprem and @littleragondin for tagging me, consider yourselves tagged again in case your answers differ vastly from your previous ones hahah

💓Fave bl: default answer is Bad Buddy, current - Last Twilight and Cherry Magic..and Cooking Crush

👨🏻‍🤝‍👨🏻Favourite pairing: as in actors? if i say GunSing am i gonna get ToddBlack again? (im fine with DrakeSing too y'know, im just being teased atp)

honestly i don't know, i think of actors i really like but i'm not big on their counterparts..? i enjoy it a lot when they mix and match, i don't have anyone i particularly follow.. i will say MaxTul were super powerful, i really appreciate the bonds between a lot of pairs like ForceBook and i think some of them have amazing chemistry like FirstKhao but even though there are a few i would always try to tune in for like OffGun and YinWar, there's no one i can call a fave, i don't think..currently JimmySea are eating it up tho

🎭Most underrated actor: just the Wayufilm crew in general, I see them do fundraiser lives on yt all the time and I don't think they're that well known by the fandom

🧍‍♂️Favorite character: ig it is Karan currently, Tay really made the character shine in a different way than Machida Keita's Kurosawa and i can't get enough of those puppy eyes

🕴Favorite side character: rn it might be Metha from Cooking Crush? he's just a bit too charming for someone i'd punch if i met him irl..or Fire, i think writing about him made me fond, they're both so..this

📽Favorite scene: from all the thai bls i've seen?? there's beauty like THAT ITSAY scene, there's unexpected scenes i come back to like WaanTul in the last episode of Between Us, there's Nuea and Toh finally getting everything out in the open..there's the Kitty Gang in FUTS going up the elevator, the ep.5 KinnPorsche scene..most of PatPran's scenes!! like how am i supposed to even start choosing lmao

i'm gonna say (after i catch up with my shows this whole list would prolly be different, it could be Karan's scream soon) the one from my recent shows is the rooftop scene from LTTS..sue me for being basic, i'll plead guilty

📝Favorite line: nth has ever quite stuck with me as "do you want us to be friends?" "no." so let's go with it

🃏Most anticipated bl and why: let's say Jack and Joker hahah, I hope it works out <3 i want to see a project YinWar have certain freedom over completed successfully - even if it ends up not being my thing, they deserve to share their talents and artistic vision. they are trying something new, maybe there will be a nice balance between comedy and drama and also it seems like those characters are meant to be whipped for each other and YinWar can pull that off splendidly

👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨Healthiest relationship in a bl: PatPran and PuenTalay are the first to come to mind, the communication and conflict resolution skills are on another level

💢Most toxic relationship in a bl: I suppose it would be VeeMark before the end or maybe DimGreen from 2gether? I also personally don't like Mayom and Nadia from My Ride but I can't tell if they're actually toxic 😄 and im reminded of GramBlack cause that friendship sucks imho

OH WAIT PiMork is pretty bad. yeah, maybe not the worst but they've got a spot on the list..and ig TehOhAew but I have not actually seen s2 so overall I don't have a definitive opinion :')

🍿Guilty pleasure series: i guess it would be Cause You're My Boy (My Tee) because everyone hates on it but I binged it and had a good time 🤷‍♀️ also I Will Knock You cause it has some questionable elements but it's also very special

❎Most underrated series: out of what I've seen it would obviously be Rainbow Lagoon but it's two episodes, not sure if it counts as a series.. really sweet short watch though, you should give it a try here 🥰

also maybe The Best Story? I didn't like it that much because of the ending but it's younger YinWar and I never hear anyone talk about it; I'd say they were pretty good at it 😊

i'm tagging @sommmnus @forcebook @catboyjosten @sparklyeyedhimbo @lovesickfolly @sollucets as per usual no pressure and sorry if youve done it ❤

#i look like such a bad buddy fan? which i dont really define myself as #but you gotta understand that was the show that got me into this fandom and its honestly just soo good #also now im aware pairing means like characters but pls dont make me choose im at my wits end hahah cause id have to consider sides as well #and ill straight up postpone this by three more days #i have so many tag games to catch up on that if i start tagging everyone yalls notifs would go crazy #so pls just consider yourselves tagged if you want to participate in smth ill literally add you to the post lmao nobody needs to know shh #ppg #tag game

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send-up-my-heart-to-you · 1 year ago

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sooooo im 75% done w the first book of kotlc, here are some thoughts i had / theories i came up w while reading (the links to my thoughts for 25% and 50% are here and here respectively)

starting off hot, i did not like keefes dad. ik thats like obvious that hes bad, but hes giving lucius malfoy (i can imagine him w the black swan. not theorizing, but saying that i wouldnt be surprised). i swear if i find out hes touched a hair on keefes gorgeous head—

another thing, the pyrokinetics. that book was obviously planted by someone from the black swan, and i think i know who (i say it in one of the next points.) but i wonder what happens if someone is a pyrokinetic ? i think someone mentioned earlier that abilities can form on their own, so what do they do w someone who just like spawns that ability. also wouldnt it be funny if dex or marella was a pyrokinetic.

speaking of dex, can i just say i love him. i feel like hes sidelined by sophie n i know she doesnt mean it n hes her best friend but hes so left out cmon i feel so bad. also the way hes so jealous of fitz "you just like seeing wonderboy. please dont tell me you have some stupid crush on him" JSWJSHSHEHD I CANT

i can also now honestly say that i like sophie as a mc. like. a lot of books have bland mcs but not kotlc, shes a good person, she has a strong moral compass, hates attention cause she gets so much of it (esp sucks since this seems to be a chosen one trope). i wanna see more depth to her character tho cause a lot of this is just surface shit. but then again this is a middle-grade series n im only on the first book, so ill be patient

okay, look. about the black swan. i get that theyre planting information into her head. she knows abt elementine, she knows the word 'suldreen'. but some things i dont get how they planted. its too broad to be planted all at once like. she can understand a whole new language n she doesnt know it ?? she can read a whole new alphabet (the cipher runes) which is extremely rare to be able to read ?? she knows how the eternalia castles look like ?? howd they plant that in her head? might be a plothole but idkkk

the allergy when she was nine HAS GOT TO HAVE SOME SIGNIFICANCE. i mean, it was thrown in n she mentioned that they never discovered what its cause was ??? real suspicious shit im telling you

now, this ones a lil far fetched n it goes off of barely anything except for my writer instinct but bear w me, at first when sophie started getting notes in her locker n they suspected it was someone from the black swan (i suspect the book was also planted by that someone, tho i suppose its kinda obvious), i thought it was a student or teacher who could get easy access. heck, i assumed it might be keefe for a hot sec bc we know he broke into her locker before. but then he said that he found it opened, n alden said it might be a vanisher... and then alvar, a vanisher, showed up during that same conversation. now, i could be wrong, but wouldnt that make for an insane plot twist? esp since sophies gonna move in w the vackers, n itd make for a cool thing to notice if you go for a reread knowing hes the vanisher alden speculated abt. idk, just a thought

thats all i have, the next one is gonna be a post when im 100% done, n ive found a pdf of the second book so imma start reading that prolly immediately after im done w this one. lmk if i should do posts like this for 'exile', too (i wonder why its called that btw?)

tagging: @tastetherainbow290, @that-multi-fandom-hijabi, @aylin-hijabi

#kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #kotlc thoughts #first time read

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satashiiwrites · 3 years ago

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I’m definitely on the whumptober train when it comes to Buddie. Gah. So actually making some headway on the next chapter (prolly? I mean I think this scene will fall in there). I posted the first part of this earlier this week but I’m trying to decide if i’m getting too repetitive or if Buck really just needs to have this chat with Steve to move forward.

Either way, Buck emotional whump ahead. May or may not keep this as i’m still debating. First draft as always.

From: Family, Familia, ‘Ohana, Ch6, Steve POV

Fandoms: 911, H50, SWAT

Pairings: Buddie, McDanno, Hondo/Deacon.

Other tags/warnings: first draft. Buck emotional whump and references to his therapist sleeping with him. Cut put in for length.

Steve hesitated, listening with both his eyes and ears to what Buck was saying.

“—And it’s obvious that something happened. He had these bruises on his face. It was like… he’d been hit and he knew that if he stayed on the call with me I would have asked so he handed me off to Chris as quick as he could.” Buck stared pensively out at the water, longboard hanging loosely from his hand as if he’d forgotten it. The hunch to Buck’s shoulders and the way his spine curled was pure worry and distress which made Steve want to fix it but he wasn’t sure if he would make things better or worse by telling Buck what he’d heard from Hondo.

“The worst thing? He said he owed me an apology—like I hadn’t screwed up.”

“What did you screw up?” Steve asked, wanting to know what was going through the kid’s head so he could understand more.

Buck was silent for a few heartbeats before he took a swig of his beer then wiped his mouth. He turned just enough so he was facing Steve, eyes the color of the ocean at sunset when the light hit it at that low, perfect angle to turn it almost aqua blue. “How much did you look into the lawsuit? I know you talked to people but how much do you really know about it?”

Steve shrugged. “I know that you were suing your captain and the department—you’d passed all your recerts and the docs had cleared you for full duties. That you turned down the money you would have gotten because your case had merits—they should have let you back to work without suing.”

Buck’s mouth twisted unhappily, gaze becoming flinty as they stared through Steve unseeingly. “Bobby’s… he’s been like my dad since I joined the LAFD. Sorta like a more father-like version of you but he’s got… baggage. HIs family died and I think… I almost died twice right in front of him and he was scared because he cares about me. Still is which is why it’s been so hard.” Buck looked away back out over the water, lip trembling just a bit before he bit it.

“He wants to keep you safe?” Steve prodded gently. He could get where Nash was coming from. It was difficult as the team leader to send your men—brothers really—into danger but Steve had been doing it most of his adult life. If he couldn’t do it then he should do everyone a favor and get out of the way because him having feelings about his men didn’t mean there still weren’t going to be terrorist attacks or major crimes in Hawaii. Innocent lives were at stake and while it was difficult to put the people he knew at risk he still had to trust them to do their duties.

Steve really, really understood Captain Robert Nash. However understanding him didn’t mean he agreed with how he’d handled Buck.

“I think… I think that’s why? He recommended that they not reinstate me—it was his recommendation that held me back. The whole reason I sued was because he didn’t tell me it was him. Like how am I supposed to take that?” Buck waved his hand with the beer in it at the waves, eyes glassy with unshed tears. “How am I supposed to take that Steve? Bobby’s like family and he… he did that!”

Steve didn’t know what to tell him. “He shouldn’t have done that,” he finally said. “If you’re responsible for someone like he is you have to pull your personal feelings out of it.”

“I know,” Buck agitatedly took another swig of his beer before repeating himself plaintively. “I know. Why couldn’t he just have talked to me? Being told I was going to be on light duty for god knows how long…. It was like I was being cast out as not good enough.”

“I’m sure that’s not what he was doing,” Steve reached out and pulled Buck to him, the younger man slumping into his side despite being bigger and turning his face into Steve’s shoulder, eyes sad as they met Steve’s.

“Really?”

Steve sighed, tightening his hold on Buck. Danny was so much better at this stuff than him. “I struggled you know—giving you guys orders sometimes when I knew it was going to be bad. Like that time in…. It’s hard. I know I’m putting you in danger and that you’re capable and strong but you—all of you—are my brothers. We eat together. Sleep together. Keep watch over each other. The navy became my family and you’re my kid brother.”

Buck was silent, pressing more into Steve’s side for comfort. He had to pick the right words to make Buck understand what it was like being the one who made decisions. Buck had never had to do that—he’d just thrown himself into whatever needed doing but he’d never had to send someone else in.

“It’s hard to feel like that and not try to stand between you and whatever harm is coming your way. If I could predict it I’d try to make it as safe as possible but I know that’s not always what I should do. You’re capable. You’re a badass motherfuckin’ seal as Hondo would put it,” Steve smiled at the memory of Hondo calling them all that the last time they’d had a mission together.

“I had forgotten about Hondo,” Buck said softly. “It was good to see him.”

Another squeeze. “I get why your captain wrote the recommendation—that doesn’t mean I agree with him. And you should look up people you know—Hondo told me he’s always got an open door for you.”

“I know,” Buck looked away.

“You said that you screwed up—with Eddie?” Steve prodded after a moment.

Buck pulled away, sitting with his arms draped over bent knees looking so young it made Steve’s heart hurt. “Eddie and I… we’re…. He’s my best friend and I’ve never had one like him—either in the Seals, after I got out or before I joined. We’re there for each other always and after the accident he was trying to pull me out of the funk I was in.”

“Sounds like a good man.” The longing in Buck’s voice was palpable and Steve realized that Buck probably didn’t know what he sounded like when he mentioned Eddie.

“He is—one of the best. Eddie trusts me and he gave me Christopher to watch because he knows that I won’t—that I can’t let Christopher see me be like I was. He trusted me with Christopher and that kid is Eddie’s entire world and I… I took him to the pier and then the tsunami hit.”

Steve’s inhale was sharp. He knew this but having Buck tell him all over again. “Danny told me,” he tried to stop Buck from having to repeat the whole story, aware that it hurt Buck to talk about it.

“He did? Of course he did… but you have to understand—Chris is Eddie’s life. I know my father was shit and everything but Eddie’s not one. He lives and breathes for that kid and I’d do the same. He trusted me with him and I lost him and then the next day….”

“What happened?” Buck hadn’t told this part of the story. Steve knew there was something important here.

“The next day he brought Christopher back. He trusted me to watch him again knowing… knowing that I’d lost him in the tsunami. He said…” Buck stumbled on the words before gaining steam, “He said that Christopher didn’t remember it that way. That I’d saved him and that there was nobody else he trusted more with his son than me.”

Steve frowned. “I think I’m missing a few details…”

Buck waved his beer again, this time less agitated and more smooth. “You are but the big thing is that Eddie still let me watch Chris again and I needed that. I needed him to trust me and he still did which… I still can’t believe he did.”

“You’re a good man too—Buck.” Steve needed Buck to believe that.

Buck ignored his comment. “My point is… is that Eddie is a good man and my best friend. He’s had a bad year—his estranged wife Shannon came back into his and Christopher’s life and then she died right in front of him, Eddie almost died in this well rescue that went bad and then I almost got Christopher killed in a tsunami.”

“That does sound like bad luck…” Steve knew there were details Buck was glossing over but the emotion in his voice was wrecked.

“It’s terrible luck but… but Eddie was the only one who really kept reaching out to me through the whole leg injury. Maddie…”

“Your sister? What does she have to do with this?”

“She doesn’t really,” Buck deflected. “She’s had a tough year too with leaving Doug and Chimney getting stabbed and—“

“Yeah but what was she doing when you were struggling? She’s your sister.” Just what had been happening in LA? If Buck ever went home again Steve was going to have to keep a much closer eye on him. Stabbings? Tsunamis? The hell..

Buck shrugged, eyes dimming. “She was supportive but I don’t think she really understands how I’m feeling. She’s been gone for so long and she wants it to be like we were when we were younger and I try to—“

“Okay stop. So Maddie was—is—slightly helpful but Eddie was the one there for you?”

“Yeah.”

“So what happened? You keep saying that he doesn’t owe you an apology but you owe him one?”

“Kinda? I mean…after the tsunami Christopher had been having all these nightmares of being stuck in the water. At first I was like… he’d ask for me and Eddie would call me. He was always so worried waking me up in the middle of the night but it wasn’t like I was sleeping good anyways so—“

“Wait. Back up. You weren’t sleeping? Did you see anyone after all of this?”

“Well no. The last time I went to therapy it didn’t… I don’t want to do that again.”

“Do what again?” The uncomfortable look Buck gave him set off alarms in Steve’s head as he watched Buck almost fold himself into half as he tried to make himself smaller. “Buck—what happened at therapy?”

“I slept with my therapist,” he whispered, eyes downcast as his chin dug into his chest.

“What?” Steve was outraged. What kind of therapist would…

“She said that she would clear me to go back to work if I did. She’d looked me up on social media and—“

“No. Whatever she did was wrong. You know that right?” Steve was about to fly to LA, find this therapist and give her a piece of his mind and maybe put the fear of god into her. Buck didn’t say yes or nod. “Buck—Evan. Did you tell anyone about this? That your therapist made you sleep with her?”

“I just wanted to go back to work,” he said in a small voice. “She was pretty and she wanted me so I did it. I just wanted to go ba-back to wo-work.”

Steve wasn’t sure if it was the right thing but he pulled Buck back to him, fully wrapping himself around him. Buck was shaking and kept repeating, “I just wanted to go back to work,” and it was breaking Steve’s heart. He no longer wanted to just talk to this therapist—shooting her would be too kind and Steve had been trained in other methods of information gathering that were painful and would be more satisfying. “I’ve got you,” he kept repeating, trying to soothe Buck who now was crying, hands running up and down his spine in a soothing motion.

It took a while for Buck to cry himself out and Steve could do nothing except hold him. The entire time he mentally was making a plan for how he was going to take care of this. Danny had said Buck needed therapy but Steve didn’t think Buck would trust a traditional therapist after what had happened with his last one.

Telling Buck to get over it or some such stupid thing wasn’t what he was going to do but how did you help your kid brother who’d had his choices taken away from him? Vengeance would be easy but how did you put Buck back together again?

“Steve?” Buck’s voice was hoarse from crying.

“Yeah?”

“I just want to talk to Eddie again. Like we used to. I want my… partner back.”

Steve swallowed. He still didn’t have the details about what exactly had happened but he knew what it would feel like if he couldn’t talk to Danno and Eddie was Buck’s Danno. There had been so much that had happened to Buck and been done to him that to unravel it all in one conversation wasn’t going to be possible. “Do you want me to…”

“No,” Buck interrupted, voice calm. “I think… I think Eddie and I need to figure this out between us. He’s… he messaged me asking for Chris.”

“I thought you looked better after talking to his son.”

Buck frowned. “It’s always good to talk to Christopher. He’s… he said that he tried to feel sorry for himself one day and it didn’t fix anything so he doesn’t do it any more. I wish I could do that…”

Steve smiled sadly at Buck. “Sounds like he’s a great kid.”

“He is. He’s the best—him and his Dad. They’re…. The lawsuit made me not talk to them because I was suing the department and the lawyers got involved and then it was just silence between us.”

There it was—the reason Eddie Diaz had stopped talking to Buck. Steve’s immediate reaction was to blame Buck’s captain for this whole mess but he knew that he was being uncharitable—both Buck and Eddie could have ignored the lawyers’ advice. “And after the lawsuit?”

Buck’s lower lip trembled. “After I think we’d forgotten how to talk to each other. I wanted… I wanted to just go back to how it was but I…I left Eddie alone. Just like Shannon did and I know how much that hurt him. I hurt him and I knew I had and I tried to just ignore it like we could just go back to being Eddie and Buck…”

“Eddie and Buck?”

The shrug was barely there. “Something the rest of the 118 says—that we’re a pair. BuckandEddie or EddieandBuck. Attached at the hip since the first day. Something happened when we weren’t talking and I… I think Eddie blames me for it.”

“Are you sure?”

Buck sniffled. “No. I mean… I think I want it to be that but he probably doesn’t. Eddie forgives people better than anyone I know. I mean he forgave Shannon for leaving him and I… I don’t know that I did.”

“You didn’t forgive—Shannon’s his estranged wife right? Why would you need to forgive her?”

“She… she twisted Eddie up so much. He wanted to do the right thing for Christopher and what kid should be without their mom? Eddie wanted to let her back in but he was worried that she’d leave again and then she did—permanently. She died just weeks before my accident and Eddie was so stressed with funeral plans and everything and… he was hurting. She hurt him again despite him forgiving her.”

Eddie’s situation was hitting a bit too close to home for Steve. His own relationship with his mother was fraught with pain and abandonment. His father had never been the same after his mom had faked her death—had thought she’d been dead and sent Steve and Mary away to protect them after thinking that it’d been his fault that Doris had died in a car bombing. There were some days Steve wondered why his Mom had never tried to let Dad know she was still alive. It’d been twenty years that John McGarrett had lived with the pain of thinking he’d caused his wife’s death.

Steve would have given anything for a long time to have his mom still alive and finding out she’d been in hiding for so many years hadn’t done good things to his psyche. He was still struggling with his father’s death and it’d been almost four years and that death had happened because of Steve. If he hadn’t let Anton die maybe…

For Eddie to forgive as Buck said… maybe Steve could learn something from Buck’s Eddie. “If you say Eddie has the capacity to forgive his wife for leaving him… perhaps he has the ability to also forgive you Evan… and maybe he seeks the same forgiveness from you.”

Buck stilled as if frozen, his eyes icy blue in the moonlight. “He would do that. Eddie would.”

“Forgiveness—real forgiveness is hard in my experience. It’s even harder to ask for when you don’t think you deserve it.”

Buck’s forehead wrinkled in thought. “I… I’ll message him. He seemed much more comfortable with that then talking to me over FaceTime.”

“It’s a start,” Steve encouraged knowing Buck needed it.

The small smile that Buck sent him in response was sad but Steve liked to think it had some strength to it. Buck was going to be okay—Danny would help Steve with it and he’d figure out someone Buck could talk to about the whole therapist thing tomorrow. Maybe Mamo would have some suggestions.

They sat out on the beach until late, long after the beers had been drank. When Buck’s head began to nod, Steve guided him up and back to the house, tucking him into bed after Buck had sent his message to Eddie that he didn’t reveal to Steve.

Steve left the door open so he could hear if Buck needed him in the night before retreating to his own room.

He wished Danny had stayed over tonight instead of heading home with his kids, afraid of overwhelming Buck. Steve had the feeling that Buck would appreciate having Grace and Charlie around… and he wanted desperately to talk to Danny but it’d have to wait. It was too late and…

Well he’d just keep an ear out for Buck.

He could do that tonight at least. Stand guard against his little brother’s nightmares.

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The next morning, Buck stumbled into the kitchen bleary eyed as Steve made scrambled eggs. “Mornin’,” Steve greeted him.

“You didn’t get me up for our swim,” Buck hiked himself up on the counter exactly like Danny was wont to do and Steve found himself smiling.

“You needed the sleep.”

Buck was silent a moment, eyes focused firmly on the floor. “Do you think less of me?”

Turning the burner off, Steve began plating the eggs. “No.”

“You said that… that you understood why Bobby benched me.”

“Understand it yes.”

“But?”

Steve sighed, dumping the now empty pan in the sink. “I’ve lost men before.”

“Freddie,” Buck interjected with a nod, face sad.

“Yes Freddie. And I had to let others go work with other team leaders or commands that weren’t me and I struggled with it ever time one of you so much as bumped your head or scraped a knee and I wasn’t there.”

“I sense there’s another but here…”

“But I know I have to let you do it. All joking aside you are like my kid brother. Freddie was my best friend and he’d come back and haunt me if I ever let something happen to you and I could have prevented it.”

“Again—but?”

“The key word there is prevented it. I get why your captain-who you refer to as almost like a father to you and I’m assuming he feels the same—did it. I get it but I hope I’d never do it to you but if you almost died in front of me and then I thought by keeping you on light duties for a few more weeks or month might be best? I might have done it.”

“So Bobby was right.”

“No. That’s not what I’m saying.”

“Then what are you saying?”

“He should have sat down and talked with you before making that recommendation. I don’t like that he kept it from you—knowing you as I do.”

Buck’s frown deepened into a scowl. “I was so angry—why wouldn’t he have just told me? Instead I felt like I’d been thrown away. Unworthy.”

“You’re not. Not any of those things,” Steve interrupted before Buck could gain steam.

“I’m not.” Buck said it like he was trying the words out—not as if he fully believed them quite yet.

“Anger is fine. Be angry all you want….”

“But?”

“What do you want to do now?”

Buck’s expression melted into neutral, gaze inward. “What do I want?”

“Do you want to go back? Do you want to stay here? Do you want Eddie?”

Buck’s head went up sharply at the last question. “What do you mean? Do I want Eddie?”

“It seems to me that answering what you want to do with Eddie will answer the other questions.” Steve winced as he said it. Danny was going to have a field day with him going on about having the emotional intelligence of a rock.

While he’d been internally berating himself for asking the question, Buck was in thought and he surprisingly answered Steve—rather quickly even. “You’re right. If… if I can go back to working with my best friend that’s what I want.”

“Did Eddie reply to your message?”

“He read it. No reply.”

“He will,” Steve promised, putting Buck’s plate in front of him and handing him a fork.

Eddie would respond or he’d send Hondo out to shake the man until he did.

#Family familia ‘ohana #911/hawaii 5-0 crossover #navy seal Evan “Buck” Buckley #buddie #mcdanno #first draft #wip wednesday #buck whump #steve pov

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lalaurelia · 3 years ago

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2021 Fic in Review

It's more than a month overdue, but whatever. Getting sick and bonking my head pretty hard ought to give me some leeway.

So, let's see how 2021 was for my writing.

total number of completed stories: 1 game, 5 fics, 3 fics in collab. Game's a collab too, but since all the text and game code in it are mine, I'm counting it.

total word count: 22123 words, not counting the collabs. If we're throwing WIPs into this, that's about 15K more. Oh, and there are also stories I've only written in Russian, that's prolly about 4K more. A lot of writing, and not much to show for it, huh XD

fandoms written in: Gotham and Gobblepot. I've a one-track mind.

looking back, did you expect to write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d expected? I always hope to be writing more. But the past year has been difficult and a little soul-sucking, so I'm counting any writing I've done during it as a major win. And, like, I didn't expect to be making a game, which was a very fun and interesting experience that I really hope to repeat someday.

what’s your own favorite story of the year? I don't have any particularly strong feelings about any of the written ones... except maybe the Halloween WIP. But I'm really happy with how the game turned out.

did you take any writing risks this year? The game, really. I've always loved games, I've always wanted to make one of my own. This one is a bit of a testing sample, seeing what was possible, what I could do with it considering plot/relationship/game mechanics. I now know more and could tackle something bigger and more complex.

As for fics... no. I'm trying ways of writing that are new to me, but I don't consider them risks, that's just experimenting. No one but myself would probably notice anything XD

do you have any fanfic or profit goals for the new year? Finish at least some of the WIPs. Maybe print some of my oldies in a book form, but page layouts and typesetting are very fiddly, so I'm not sure how well that would go.

best story of the year? One day I will figure out what "best" is. If it's best written, I don't have one. It's a WIP. It's prolly always gonna be a WIP lol

most popular story of the year? The game and Nothing But Roses share the top spot~

story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion: To be honest, I expected Swimming Lessons to be accepted a little better. But oh well. It's not like I can affect readers' preferences.

most fun story to write: It's either the game or I'm shutting up about it XD

story with the single sexiest moment: Well, Black and Gold is alright as things go. But you know it by now. It's either the game, or a WIP lol

sweetest story: Stubborn String. It's kind of based on a memory I find sweet, so.

“holy crap, thats wrong, even for you!” story: You know what, I'll never have anything for this one, because there are no wrong things to write about. It's fiction. There may be something wrong about the execution of your theme and the way some things are addressed, but nothing a person with critical thinking can't get over.

story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters & most unintentionally telling story: The Halloween WIP. Funny, how Jim and Oswald still manage to surprise me when I write about them. I love this.

hardest story to write: That's another WIP. I'm not sure I even want to finish it, to be honest, but... I suppose I should, as a challenge, because it expands on the idea that I do not like. I just. I don't see much point to it other than I've promised I would write it. I've somewhat conflicted feelings about it.

biggest disappointment: Wanted to finish WIPs. Ended up too overworked to write consistently.

biggest surprise: The game. I loved it. I'm amazed we made it. It was difficult in a very satisfying way. On the not game-related note, I'm just happy I'm trying new writing things, they do urge me to write a little more.

I'm not sure who to tag, but if you see this and want to give it a go (if you haven't already), do it, and feel free to tag me :) I'd love to see how other writers tackle this stuff.

#writing #gotham #gobblepot #jimwald #oswald cobblepot #jim gordon #otp #dc #fanfic #milestones #fic year in review #lalaurelia writing #genmitsu writing

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Oh dang @killmenowpleaselmao tagged me so now I tag @weirddemigodprincess @spidermanfarfromhome and @theanxiousfander bc all of y'all are precious

Name: I use Cee bc I dont like my actual name that much but it's Majula [ma-ju-la] and its a West African name which is kewl

Star sign; Aries but I'm not a horoscope person lol

Height; 5'4 but still growing so that'll change later lol

Middle Name: Fun fact is that Majula was actually supposed to be my middle name but my dad made a mistake so my first name is actually supposed to be Fatou lol

Shuffle my playlist and the first four songs that pop up: Why You Always Lying by Nicholas Frazier,NERDS by Bo Burnham,School by Bill Wurtz,and Fake Happy by Paramore bc I'm mostly just a meme at this point lol

Grab the closest book to you,flip to page 23 and read line 17: "Anyone with sense should know better than to sing that out loud,tempting fate. I pinched her in the leg to make her stop" from I Am Morgan Le Fay by Nancy Springer (good read if you like medieval times and Arthur's round table type stuff)

Ever had a song/poem written about you?: Well yea actually! But sadly it wasn't a declaration of love lol. My friend wrote a poem about how I deserve better than the family and life in general I have which makes me cry every time I think about it and shite now I'm crying bc it was just so freaking nice of her to do and I just love her sooo much

Last time you played air guitar: Um yesterday when I was watching a guitar hereo playthrough where he did one of the hardest songs BLINDFOLDED and got more than 9000 points like god that was kewl

Celebrity Crush: Welp i think Tom Holland is pretty cool but idk if that counts as a crush

A sound you Hate and a sound you Love: I absolutely despise the sound a broom makes on thicc carpet and I also hate the sound of tissue on teeth,its just a gross sound. I love the sound of rain and nails on hard surfaces like desks.

Do you beleive in ghosts: Well kinda bc your consciousness has to go somewhere right?

How bout Aliens: Um YES bc there is no way we're the only living things in the ENTIRE UNIVERSE bc thats just illogical

Do I drive: Nope cuz I'm not old enough lol

Last book I read: The trials of Apollo book one by Rick Riordan which was pretty good

Do you like the smell of gasoline: Nope

Last movie you saw: I saw Incredibles two against my will at my sis's birthday party but my mum forget about my light sensitivity which made the movie HELL for me to sit through but the short before it was cute

The WORST injury I've ever had: Well i get hurt a lot so I'll just list some v bad ones

Got 30 splinters in feet bc I walked on my balcony without socks and had to get the biggest one taken out with hot wax

Tripped and fell onto a nail and my big toenail LIFTED UP so i had to bandage it up for weeks and had to wear flip flops in fall

Slammed my finger in a car door [that was so fucking PAINFUL] but I didn't even flinch and when I pulled it out the nail was purple and red from the impact [I have pictures] and it was right before school so I was silently suffering all day but the nail was so damaged it literally FELL OFF a few weeks later,it has now grown back but shit dude that hurt

I sliced like three of my fingers open when I was washing the dishes on a knife

And I also slid my ear on a table and the friction made my ear bleed and now it looks like a dog bit it of you look at it

Any Obsessions; Well I'm just obsessed with music in general and always have been,I'm really into studying and things like that atm (follow @tiny-personal-university-thing and @leannstudies if you like studyblrs) and all the fandoms I'm in are

Sanders sides

Voltron Legendary defender

The Rick Riordiverse and prolly a lot more I can't think of right now lol

Do you hold grudges: I try not to but I'm also a petty bitch soooooo

In a relationship: Hun,the closest thing to an SO I've had was someones MOM thinking I was dating her son (my kinda crush) so nah but I have a lotta friends I care about!

Thanks for tagging me but I'm not v interesting lol

RULES: tag ten followers you want to know better

I was tagged by @sprinkle-of-phan919 Thanks for tagging me <3

Tagging: @404-will-to-live-not-found @heyo-its-jasmin @omgbabewiththepower @glitchyxwitchy @killmenowpleaselmao ❤️

Anyone can join in on this!

Name: Aurora (i won’t be revealing my actual name bc i’m not comfy with sharing it)

Star Sign: Aries

Height: 5″1

Middle Name: Shantelle

Put your iTunes on shuffle, and what are the first four songs that popped up?: (Spotify for me cuz I don’t have iTunes)

• Birds - ft Terance Williams Jr, Thomas Sanders

• Hey Look Ma, I Made It - P!ATD

• 4 Seasons - Rex Orange County

• You - Keaton Henson

Grab the nearest book, turn to page 23, and read line 17:

“There were no outer signs of violence except for a few bruises.” (Book is called The Boy In The Suitcase)

Ever had a poem/song written about you?:

Yes for Valentines Day. My (now ex boyfriend) gave me one the day before we started dating. Not sure if I still have it.

Last time you played air guitar?:

I don’t think I have. Maybe when I was little?

Who’s your celebrity crush?:

I don’t have a celebrity crush. I’ve never had one?

A sound you HATE and a sound you LOVE:

• Hate: A baby crying

• Love: The rain or a piano

Do you believing in ghosts?:

Not really… What can I say I’m a Shaniac ;)

And how about aliens?:

No… ^^

Do you drive?:

Nope.

If so, have you crashed before?:

Name the last book you read:

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe. (I loved this book personally. I was crying when I finished it. I highly recommend it!)

Do you like the smell of gasoline?:

Yes! Whenever I’m at a gas station I’ll be in the passenger’s seat and I’ll have the window open to smell the gasoline.

Last movie you saw?:

It was Eighth Grade by Bo Burnham

What’s the WORST injury you’ve ever had?:

When I was in Elementary. It was before class started and me and my friends were at the monkey bars and I like fell of the platform and sprained my arm. Luckily it was my left arm bc I’m a rightie.

I’ve also gotten bitten by my dog on my forehead when I was little and I started oozing blood. I’m typically a clumsy person too.

Do you have any obsessions?:

Obsessions? I mean I’m in some fandoms: Thomas Sanders, Markiplier, Jacksepticeye, vld, Marvel, otgw, bnha p!atd, top, hp, Studio Ghibli, and more that I can’t come up with at the top of my head.

Do you tend to hold grudges against people who wronged you?:

No not really. I don’t really feel that way to anyone.

In a relationship?:

No. Not sure if I want to be in one in a while bc my last one was mentally and emotionally draining and I’m still trying to get over it. But hey who knows, it might change sometime in the future.

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