#i still think she’s put in a pedestal but def not as bad as before

[padfootastic]

hi pen! although this will be a little bit different from your usual opinion, BUT listen, as a sirius stan, actually i prefer nowadays’ fandom’s jegulus obsession to the old days’ fandom’s jily + wolfstar trend. for sirius. because, when the fandom trend was wolfstar + jily, they made remus & lily the saints in the marauders group and made lily remus’ guardian angel who beat the rich handsome arrogant himbo jocks sirius & james for smol bean remus, and made remus effeminate and meek. but after jegulus, and atyd, the fandom started to really think remus could be strong not meek, so sirius got to be able to be protected as much as remus in fics, and the fandom, which used to be so obsessed with remus’ trauma, now at least pay attention on how the blacks were horrible to sirius, since they have paid lots of attention about how the blacks were horrible to regulus.

gosh, this is so so old and idek if the anon who sent this is still here but im so sorry 😭😭 i went off tumblr for a few months and my inbox is. cluttered. it’s a bit overwhelming lmao.

but! i really appreciate this input <3

i totally see where ur coming from too; i don’t think this is applicable for like, early 2000s remus/sirius depictions bc that was a different ballgame altogether but like. 2010s? definitely. and perhaps in that way, u could say there’s a definitely improvement.

i just think i’m personally way too biased and picky to ever truly be happy about how sirius is written tho 🙈🙈 it’s entirely a me problem, i admit it, but i see him in a very particular way and i have no patience for anything else lol

[rey-jake-therapist]

I don't if this is allowed but I kinda want to vent a bit after seeing all this drama today, and I've sent an ask before about theories. I'm hoping since they blocked me they won't see this I'm kind of neutral to all of this and there's some points on both sides that I agree, as well as disagree with. But the one thing that really kind of feels depressing is... seeing that those people in that discord are writers that I really liked. It's like, seeing someone I admired and a source of aspiration for me turn out to be unapproachable and not who I thought they were. I guess it's also my bad for putting people on a pedestal just because I admire what they do. In the end it hurt me in the end I think that more than anything made me sad. It's one of those kind of things where you saw something and you wish you never discovered it. I felt like Eve after she bit the apple and it's an awful feeling. Also for the record, when I saw that post about the 'antis' disguised as fake shippers, it never occurred to me that it is the people who's stories I was enjoying. That's why I was able to scroll past it without really thinking about it. I just thought it was one of those blogs that ship haladriel AND sauron with brimby/another male character (cause I've been in fandoms where a female character is absolutely hated because she 'got in the way'). I never even thought it had to do with her canon husband. I don't really care about him this way or another (hence why I didn't even know it was about him), I don't check his tag even though I don't have the word blocked (since it's not a trigger like bl00d or g0re). But I guess someone did see the post about antis and the one about him and it caused a visceral reaction? Usually when I see something like that that I feel 'ok i must say something i need to' i just make my own post. I already struggle with being assertive so it's eye-opening for me when I see other people have no problem going onto other blogs just to say something. In the end, I feel like the best course of action is to not interact with posts that trigger you. I don't feel like that's the right move. Even if you have something to say that is true and reasonable, it's very hard to change people's minds in their space. Also, I won't say that I think it's right to paint haladriels one way or another, or to assume something because they like x or y character, or are not opposed to it. <-- I'm not preaching just kind of typing out my own thoughts cause this is how I work out my feelings. I feel like the part that got some people upset is when the line is crossed between talking about a ship/character to the people behind it. I feel like that's what rubbed them the wrong way, and I do agree a bit. It makes me mad when I see poeple on reddit dismiss haladriels as 'teenage hormonal girls who just want the hot bad guy to screw them so they can project their fantasies onto tolkien's work' because that's def not what we are. Anyway, my vent got really long and I'm apologizing because I don't mean cry ugly on anyone's shoulder. I feel better now after typing all this. I hope I don't piss anyone off, and.. while I said what I said about the writers, I'm still choosing to read and review and show support for their stories as a fellow haladriel. I just wish we could all do better and find other outlets for frustration that doesn't involve talking about people and their opinions (this goes both ways). In the same vein, I'm still going to show support and like meta stuff that I find interesting and be supportive of haladriel content creators. Much love, peace! Thanks for listening to me an keeping your inbox open on anon! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

Hey ! Thank you for choosing me, anon, it means that you probably trust me not to be rude or judgemental, and it means a lot :) I must say I was a bit afraid to let my inbox opened for anon messages at the beginning, but except for a few bad apples it's nothing but a lovely experience so far.

Yeah today's events were... something. I usually stay away from fandom dramas, whenever I see a fight over fictional characters I look away and mind my own business tbh. It just seems very silly to me to attack someone over their opinion on fiction, when it's so easy to just block or mute.

Yesterday, I made an exception to my rule because I saw a fellow shipper, who happens to be one of my favorite Tumblr persons as well, getting ganged by people who attacked her like a bunch of hyenas. And it was happening because she said something about a character which made them feel personnally attacked, while it was (presumably) not about them. It was straight out bullying, and all this drama could have been avoided if they had just clicked on the "block" button. You don't like a person's tone ? Just block, it's not even worth spending more than 0.1 second on it ! Launching a bullying campaign over one person is not the way. At least, that's my personal opinion on this matter, I'm sure it's not that popular otherwise we wouldn't be having this conversation...

Now I'm not going to tell you or anyone else, "don't read their fics !", "don't talk to them !", "block them all !". I personally choose to do that, because they personnally attacked me as well in their little group chats, and I don't want to have anything to do with them anymore. But I'm not the fandom police, and I'm the mother of only one child who doesn't even grasp what a fandom and Tumblr are. I wouldn't even fathom telling anyone how they should feel about this whole thing.

In other words, you do you. At the end, it was just a silly drama over nothing. It makes me sad, because I blocked people who I know ship Haladriel. It's a small fandom already and since yesterday, it got even smaller for me :(

[superfluouskeys]

@menzosarres​ apparently i desperately wanted to talk about this so akjsndkjasnd thg reread reactions under the cut

like—I started rewatching the movies bc I had a desire to revisit the franchise, but quickly realized what I actually wanted was the books I was just being lazy lol.  I never had any great love for the movies, but the first two are okay--I’ve never seen the last movie because I couldn’t get past the *katniss hysterically screaming peeta’s name for 45 uninterrupted minutes* section.  Generally there’s a lot of screaming and hysteria in the movies, where in the books there’s a huge emphasis for Katniss on not showing anyone how hurt/upset she is, and it makes the moments when she does break down much more impactful.

the writing style is very particular? which is interesting.  idk how to really describe it except to compare it to a few bad knockoffs I read (i’ve read SO many knockoffs if you like formulaic ya dystopia hit me UP) that tried to copy it but infinitely worse, because there are some odd word/phrasing choices that work fine in thg but the knockoffs completely botched.  You will def feel that you are reading a YA novel sometimes.

general story holds up really well so far, but I’m only halfway through the second one, and I remember a lot of mockingjay being unpleasant to read for multiple reasons. it still bothers me a lot how much the narrative puts peeta on a pedestal, often to the detriment of showing compassion to katniss; I think I’d like him better if anyone were allowed to dislike him or point out his flaws.  the movies made him a lot nicer which I think might be part of why there are so many rabid shippers in the tags now?  a few years back it felt like there was more of a mix of ppl who did and didn’t like peeta.

also on this point ig the author was like PEETA AND GALE ARE A METAPHOR and that setup is v clear to me already where I am now, where I think the obvious deterioration of their character arcs into pure metaphor didn’t hit me before until mockingjay.  From my perspective at least currently it’s weird that she’s trying to set up a metaphorical contrast between them as there’s no clear delineation between how violent/peaceful/willing to rebel Gale and Peeta are.  Oh and this is weird—in the movies Peeta says something like “if you die I won’t have anyone left that I love” and in the books he’s like “yo I have friends and family too that will be just as dead as yours if we fail [to convince ppl we’re in love]” which was an odd change to make I think lol.

A lot has been said about how that whole thing turns out and I’ll reserve judgement until I reread it but it’s just a shame that the author seems to abandon all this excellent showing of how these people process their grief and trauma in favour of the peeta metaphor, like idk how to tell you that katniss is never going to move on from what she’s experienced if she’s forced to raise children she didn’t want with the boy she didn’t choose in the bombed-out remains of her home where the only ppl she cared about are dead or gone, but yeah sure choosing peeta is choosing life and peace over war and violence.  I’m more of a Gale fan in terms of the love triangle bc Katniss actually shows real interest in and camaraderie with him that isn’t motivated by ptsd, but I think a much better epilogue would have been letting Katniss rebuild her life and have some real peace and security before she even thinks about romance, as she repeatedly states she needs in the books.

SO much of the best stuff is left out especially of the second movie I feel, esp with the other victors, and I had completely forgotten the detail that Haymitch won the year of the last quarter quell when there were twice the number of tributes.  I also think the part about them training like careers before the reaping is really important and idk why they left that out of the movie—it’s the reason their strategy is so different, eg. going for the cornucopia and basically becoming the dominant alliance when the game starts.

idk clearly I still have a lot of feelings about this series, and it’s a shame that when I went looking for some good meta posts all I found was pro-peeta/katniss drivel and sort of weird broad strokes designations about what this or that element of the book represented with no real nuance or evidence cited.  maybe a solid feminist analysis of thg is too much to hope for in this hell world, but I feel there’s a lot to say there, and I used to love reading breakdowns esp of the love triangle metaphor—I’m a simple idiot and love a good stupid love triangle you see LOL.

but overall I’m very much enjoying rereading it and would recommend!  it’s a pretty quick/easy read with cliffhanger chapter endings to keep you interested--if you do end up revisiting it would be VERY interested to hear your thoughts!

[katierosefun]

okay y’all i re-listened to the entirety of evermore at like 2 am and went to bed at 3 am so this isn’t really coherent but here we are, qeued up to go,,,so here are my thoughts w/ evermore + tcw because y’all k n o w 

1. willow -- strong anidala vibes. taylor swift herself said something about how this song is all about the complexities of desire and. yeah. it shows. // “wherever you stray, i follow” and “i know my train could take you home” and “the more that you say the less i know” and “wherever you stray i follow” and “that’s my man ;)” 

2. champagne problems -- strong sad obitine vibes, which @kckenobi screamed about to me last night and i wholeheartedly agree. big vibes of having to leave a relationship because you have to and also...just sad. might have made me cry and my heart feel empty. def. something on repeat. // “your heart was glass, i dropped it” and “your hometown skeptics called it champagne problems” and “you had a speech, you’re speechless” and “how evergreen our group of friends, don’t think we’ll say that word again” and “one for the money, two for the show, i never was ready, so i watched you go” 

3. gold rush -- okay big anakin or obi-wan vibes. both? both. this is kinda a stretch but. just the feeling of watching these big heroic figures walk around and quietly wonder about huh. who are they anyways. // “everybody wonders what it would be like to love you” and “i don’t like slow motion, double vision in rose blush” and “my mind turns your life into folklore” 

4. ‘tis the damn season -- big anakin and ahsoka vibes, esp. during season 7 help. all about going back to your hometown and kinda wanting to reunite with someone but also knowing that is a bad idea. yes i am sad. // “and it always leads to you and my hometown” and “i won’t ask you to wake if you don’t ask me to stay” and “and wonder about the only soul who can tell which smiles i’m faking” and “we could call it even, even though i’m leaving” yeah i’m not okay either 

5. tolerate it -- big sad anakin and obi-wan vibes, and i’ll explain. idk. vibes of just. anakin mayhaps thinking that obi-wan doesn’t care/love him to the same extent anakin thinks he himself does. help. don’t talk to me about this this is my new exile and it shows because i’ve been listening to this on repeat. // “i wake and watch you breathing with your eyes closed” and “you’re so much older and wiser” and “i wait by the door like i’m just a kid, use my best colors for your portrait” and “tell me i got it wrong somehow” and “i know my love should be celebrated, but you tolerate it” and “always taking up too much space or time”, and @kckenobi pointed out that the bridge onwards is from obi-wan’s perspective after rots help “leave us in ruins, take this dagger in me and removed it” and “gained the weight of you and lose it, believe me i could do it” no i’m not okay

6. no body, no crime -- ngl this is a tricky one. this probably belongs in some convoluted au in which padme and ahsoka snap and murder palpatine or something which. you know. i’m kinda down for that. // “i’ve cleaned up enough houses to cover up a scene” that’s all you need to know *aggressive side-eye*

7. happiness -- big, big, big disaster lineage vibes. anakin and obi-wan, anakin and ahsoka, whichever. big sad. all about having really bittersweet memories. “i hurt you, you hurt me, but we had good memories”. // “haunted by the look in my eyes that would have loved you for a lifetime” and “tell me when your winning smile began to look like a smirk?” and “when did all our lessons start to look like weapons pointed at my deepest hurt?” and “there’ll be happiness after me, but there was happiness because of me” and “i can’t make it go away by making you a villain” and “in our history, across our great divide, there is a great sunrise” gives me so much hope??? mayhaps our tcw trio could....could reunite and have a happy ending please 

8. dorothea -- this is also kinda a reach, but i see this is like the other side of anakin and ahsoka vibes in ‘tis the damn season. kind of seen from the perspective of someone who’s seeing someone come back to the hometown and ‘oh huh she’s different’ but like. still cares about you, you know? which is very anakin and ahsoka vibes season 7. // “it’s never too late to come back to my side” and “you know, you’ll always know me” and “but are you still the same soul i met under the bleachers?” 

9. coney island -- honestly about anyone with anakin. :( it’s just. really sad. destroying something delicate vibes. // “did i shatter you?” and “sorry for not making you my centerfold” and “disappointments, close your eyes” and “but you were too polite to leave me” 

10. ivy -- more anidala vibes, tbh? again, stuff about illicit affairs kinda. cheerful but lyrics are not, actually. idk the metaphorical thing that both anakin and padme are already married to are the order and the senate, obvs. // “i’d live and die for moments that we stole on begged and borrowed time” and “it’s a war, it’s the goddamn fight of my life, and you started it” and “i can’t stop you putting roots in my dreamland” 

11. cowboy like me -- obitine and/or anidala vibes, i know. never thought i would talk about cowboys to them,,,but the vibes. // “you had some tricks up your sleeves” and “takes one to know one” and “we could be the way forward and i know i’ll pay for it” and “and the skeletons in both our closets plotted hard to fuck this up” 

12. long story short -- big obi-wan vibes, also big ahsoka vibes. // “pushed off the precipice, clung to the nearest lips” and “long story short, it was the wrong guy” and “no more tug of war, now i just know there’s more” and “past me, i wanna tell you not to get lost in these petty things” and “your nemeses will defeat themselves before you get the chance to swing” and “i fell from the pedestal” and the transition from “long story short, it was a bad time” to “long story short, i survived” 

13. marjorie -- big obi-wan and anakin vibes. i think this song is actually about taylor’s grandmother but right now all i could think of bittersweet anakin and obi-wan help // “if i didn’t know better, i’d think you were still around” and “what died didn’t stay dead” and “you’re alive, you’re alive in my head” and “i should’ve asked you questions” 

14. closure -- big anakin vibes w/ lineage fam. just. angry ex vibes. of someone who just doesn’t want anything to do with you anymore. asdfsdfs this is ironic but like. yeah. that was the closest i could think of. mayhaps a stretch but there’s some connecting lyrics. // “don’t treat me like a situation that needs to be handled” and “i’m fine with my spite and my tears” and “i know i’m just a wrinkle in your new life” and “guilty, guilty reaching across the sea that you put between you and me” (this is gonna hit hard if kenobi series speculation is correct and we get obi-wan trying to bring anakin back for one last time)

15. evermore -- honestly gives me obi-wan vibes. // “i replay my footsteps on each stepping stone, trying to find the one where i went wrong” and “this pain would be for evermore” and “can’t remember what i used to fight for” and “i thought of you in the cracks of light, i dreamed of you” but then it transitions from “this pain would be for evermore” to “this pain wouldn’t be for evermore” and ladies and gentlemen, we call that growth and hope!!!

[sukirichi]

ahhhh sukiii i love love love the recent chapter!! as the story slowly unfolds, we can see that both y/n and suna have that connection that cannot be severed that easily. which really made mari jealous but her breaking up with suna before going abroad still has another tale to reveal. especially she knew that lover boy was gonna propose to her. makes me think that’s one of the reasons why she’s brave enough to get back to suna, as she may think that he’s one-hundred percent sure to spend life with her despite her doubts that suna still has lingering feelings of love to y/n. but oh boy, if she only knew 💔

and to our lover boy, sure he and y/n are that it couple that almost everyone ravages about, but this may be my overthinking mind but what if suna, of the present time, only loves y/n because he keeps reminiscing the old times and is hanging on to the 'what if we never broke up?’🧐 that’s why he’s ready to settle with mari because she somehow fills the void y/n left to somewhat satisfaction. is that also why he called y/n to 'see' him because for the second time, an important person disposed him out of their life in which he has no say in it, and this time around, he needed answers from the unsettled question. to assess what went wrong. with that, i rest my case, your honor 😞

but i can’t really blame y/n for putting up boundaries when it comes to romantic relationships. i mean, relationships are scary lol her backstory on her familial issues did do numbers on her. ooh and i can see the familiarity how y/n and her mom handled when another woman is involved in their relationship, her mom telling her dad to go back to his first family to fix what they ruined, and y/n being upset that when suna said that he’ll be fine if he never met mari in the condition that they have never broken up in the first place. it’s not really the reputation or boundaries they’ve put up per se, but the thought that innocent people will be hurt for them to be happy is what makes them reluctant to ever entertain the love that someone will happily give to them.

we haven’t seen any interactions with nagisa and y/n that much from that disastrous night. aside from that, mr. kita though!!👀 i’m excited to see more of them and the roles they will play in the future chapters. meanwhile, i’ll just happily anticipate how the story develops😊

i really love the story suki!! aaaafhksd thank you for allowing us to have a glimpse what that beautiful mind of yours has. don’t forget to take care of yourself either! luv u~😚💕💕

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MY EGG ANON OMG HI YOU’RE BACK PLS I REMEMBER U ALL THE WAY FROM RECKLESS ERA AND YOU’VE ALWAYS BEEN SO SWEET OMG HI ASJAKAHAJK

you’re reading broken records too oh my you’re gonna make me sob fr. suna and yn do have a connection that’s special and exclusive only between the two of them !! i think more than the chemistry, they will always have a silent understanding where they’re attuned to one another hehehe. yeah, you see, mari is an annoying character but homegirl knows what’s up. she could detect from miles away that yn wasn’t “just a friend” LMAOOO. ‘she may think that he’s one-hundred percent sure to spend life with her despite her doubts that suna still has lingering feelings of love to y/n. but oh boy, if she only knew’ – BABE this made me laugh ashjaka yeah mari is embarrassing ngl ahsjkala

hmm that theory about suna holding onto the past along with the possibility he only thinks he’s in love because he never really got proper closure. it’s sorta similar to zeigarnik effect bcos there were things suna wanted to do for yn, such as his proposal etc, but he never got to do it. also MMHHHH yes that theory where he’s ready to settle down with mari bcos yn left with him a void that needs to be filled SHAKAASHAK yeah yeah I mean…I’m all down for these ideas tbh. BUT, I can confidently say, that you def got that last part right. the reason why suna called YN in the first chapter when he got dumped by mari was because he was frustrated the same thing happened again. suna was actually more frustrated that both of them didn’t give them a chance to say what he wanted to more than he was ‘hurt’ over the breakup, since it’s already clear suna would’ve been fine if he never met mari as long as he had YN

I love how you got these all little details and pieced them together omg I love u sm

also yeah totally, the boundaries in relationships are necessary !! and again you got it all right like omg you really saw the pieces of the puzzle and formed them coherently together IM CRYING bcos I really did put effort in weaving them together and I’m so happy you understood it <33 it was foreshadowed in the scenes where yn and suna are in the swings when she got mad suna was saying bad stuff about mari because it triggered her trauma of her mom as the ‘mistress.’ like, suna and mari are definitely the couple, so when suna said he’d have been happier with yn while being ready to propose to mari, she definitely hated it. to her, it’s like suna is placing her in the same pedestal as her dad did to her mom. she knows how much it ruined everybody so she never ever wants to be involved in a couple’s relationship.

‘the thought that innocent people will be hurt for them to be happy is what makes them reluctant to ever entertain the love that someone will happily give to them.’ – THIS OMG. YES. 100% YES. that’s why yn is always harsh to herself, because she knows she’s hurt people and she doesn’t want to do that ever again. to her, it doesn’t matter that she may not be happy, as long as she’s not the cause of someone’s demise.

ALSO YES MR KITA URGHH IM IN LOVE WITH HIM EHEHEHE. thank you for taking the time to send this my sweetheart, it really means a lot to me and I’m smiling so hard in my seat rn because I feel like…the messages I’ve been sharing on broken records have been heard and understood. and I’m always so so appreciative of everyone’s support for this so yeah IM SOFT, thank YOU and thank you to everyone else aaaah. please take care of yourself too bb I love you !!

[fangirleaconmigo]

Ok ok I can’t get it out of my brain so I’m sharing.

But first a content warning….

CW explicit and BDSM dynamics as a way of healing from trauma also cw Yen’s trauma

Alright so you know how 99.999% of Yennskier fics with BDSM dynamics of any kind have top/dom Yen and sub/bottom Jaskier?

I love that. I am a big fan of the Jaskier gets pegged cinematic universe.

However, I also compulsively play with tropes and trends and flip them. And I have this thing where I like to challenge the idea that personalities are one-to-one matches with sexual preferences.

It is COMMON that the people who have the most responsibility and pressure irl like to get a break from that in the bedroom. And sexual submissiveness is not a sign of weakness. So, strong women OFTEN enjoy being submissive sexually.

So it got me to thinking. What would be the perfect concept for sub!Yen x dom!Jaskier? And I had this idea I can’t get rid of (because I like it too much)

Now this is all TWN based. You know how Yen lost her magic S2? I imagine after S2 she has a lot of trauma from that, especially after what Stregobor did to her. Her biggest existing trauma and fear was being powerless. Then all that happened? Her worst nightmare? In a place with no therapy? In a woman who is on the outs with Geralt and far far from her mentor and friends? (Such that they are?)

So I picture Yen having some major psychological distress and feeling very alone. And she finds herself toying a lot with dimeritium. She has her magic back, and that is all she ever wanted. Yet, perversely, she cannot stop dwelling on before. She can’t stop having nightmares. And she starts sleeping with dimeritium cuffs. (We’re gonna ignore any canon that dimeritium causes pain or harm, I don’t really remember but I don’t think just touching it does anything other than take magic and either way, def in my story that is all it does.)

She starts touching them for short period and feeling some of her power drain away. She feels tremendous relief when her magic rushes back in and she sees that nothing bad happened to her. It is her little secret. She hides it from everyone. And yet, she feels like it’s helping.

But not enough.

She can’t fully close them because she’s afraid she wouldn’t be able to get them off by herself. And she’s too embarrassed to ask for help. She is supposed to be strong. She is not supposed to want to be helpless. And she would definitely rather die than ask for help.

But her distress grows and grows and she starts thinking of self harm. And it turns out, she wouldn’t rather die than ask for help after all. She wants to live. If not for herself, for Ciri.

But who can she go to? Geralt has shut her out. And anyway, she needs him to think of her as strong and capable. He still has a pedestal for her and she wouldn’t want to fall off of it.

There is no one else in Kaer Morhen she can go to.

Unless.

She shows up slightly tipsy at Jaskier’s door in the middle of the night. He answers the door half asleep. When he sees her he hastens to wake himself. He invites her inside with concern evident on his face. He asks her what is wrong, and there is naked kindness in his voice.

She does not cry.

She doesn’t let him hug her either because she knows she will cry if he does.

With halting words she explains what she wants. Just. Put them on her. Lock them. And come back to her room in an hour.

He looks at her with compassion and it is unbearable. She curses him and gets up to leave. He calls after her, saying that his relationship with fire has been a bit too intense lately.

She stops. She comes back.

They work out a compromise. He refuses to do it if he has to leave her alone like that, vulnerable. She agrees to stay in his room. She sits on a chair and he locks them on.

She feels a surge of fear. More than before. It’s different when it is complete. It is different when someone else is there. Her heart thuds, her pulse races, and her face must also tense.

He asks her if she would like him to take them off.

No. No. She is desperate. No more self harm. This will help.

He asks her if she would like him to hold her.

She says yes. It is the most frightening thing she has ever done. And when it is over, the minute the cuffs fall off and she sees that she is safe, she sobs. He doesn’t stop holding her.

It starts like that. She visits him. He cuffs her. She lays quietly in his arms. He uncuffs her. Soon she can do this and she doesn’t cry. Soon they spend her “magic less” time talking.

They don’t talk about anything important.

They don’t talk about Ciri or Geralt or Sodden or Nilfgaard or anything like that.

They talk about what she named her pigs when she was little. They talk about their favorite meals. They talk about all the places Jaskier still wants to visit. They talk about pranks she played in courts when she was an advisor that she never told anyone. He laughs heartily, his head thrown back.

She notices his neck is so graceful. She touches it and feels his throat vibrate.

His eyes widen and he looks at her, and he looks surprised but very pleased.

Suddenly the warmth of his arms feel more than safe. They feel provocative. She realizes how his body has changed. How it is even more solid now. She realizes that seeing him at rest, in his nightclothes, feels quite intimate. There is so much more skin.

When she begins responding to his body, he notices.

“Fuck, Yen.”

She swiftly comes up with her most frightening idea yet. Frightening in that the idea makes her pulse race again. But it is in thrill and anticipation.

While his eyes are wide and eager, she kisses him. His lips, his passion, his warmth, it is all intoxicating. He breathlessly asks if this is ok.

She tells him what she wants. They come to an agreement. They come up with a language. With words that will help them know when to start and stop.

The next time she comes to his room, he asks her to remove her clothes. She does so, and she kneels.

He puts on the cuffs. Her heart has never raced like this. It feels like the ultimate risk, like diving from a cliff into the sea.

But she knows the water will catch her.

She kneels before him naked and vulnerable in every sense of the word. Jaskier caresses her face, cradles her jaw, and calls her things like petal and darling. He tells her the things he wants her to do. He feeds her his cock with a gentle but firm hand cradling her head.

He picks her up and squeezes her tight and fucks her senseless, murmuring the filthiest things anyone has ever said to her softly in her ear, using the gentlest most tender voice.

He says she is a good girl.

He says she is beautiful.

He applies the exact amount of pressure and pain that she asks him to and she does exactly as she is told.

When they are done she cries again, but they feel like tears of relief and catharsis and maybe happiness too.

They only have one major misstep. One night, he is uncharacteristically quiet. When she asks him what is wrong (she could read his mind but she has promised not to) he asks her why? Why she chose him? Why she asks this of him?

She doesn’t think for very long. She knew the bard was promiscuous and had a reputation as a good lover. So she had assumed he would be adventurous and have a wide repertoire. So she says…

“Because this is nothing to you.”

He looks so wounded. His eyes begin to well and he turns away.

So she tells him the truth.

“At first, I thought it was because i didn’t care what you thought of me. But the truth is…I feel safe with you.”

She doesn’t know why or how it came to that but it is the truth.

He smiles softly. “You are.”

They come up with silent ways of communicating so she doesn’t have to openly ask every time she wants this. And it is something she wants. Her want grows more ferocious every time he touches her. Every time he makes her cum.

They even begin to forget the cuffs and just fall into each other’s arms and do whatever occurs to them that night. It becomes something else. Something more complete.

In public they still banter. They still argue. But it grows playful and warm. She doesn’t think anyone else notices the difference.

And when she is not in his room, when she is going about her daily life in Kaer Morhen, people start asking what has her in such a good mood.

She doesn’t answer them. She just smiles mysteriously.

That is between her and the bard.

Oh no, I have another Yennskier concept.

[drdelphinecormigay]

(you defs won’t agree with this but it’s okay, and it’s just harmless discussion. i still love and admire your writing a ton <3):

i guess i don’t blame callie for the custody battle bc i can put it down to her being impulsive, but i blame her for what she said about arizona and the fact that she was super vindictive. like how she played into arizona’s insecurities about being sofia’s mom, implying that she’s a bad mother, and slut shaming her, etc. that will forever be entirely out of line and totally ooc

similarly i don’t blame her for the divorce. like at all. in fact i think it was necessary for the two of them to cool off and find themselves as individuals again before reconciling. but in that same vein, i think day 29 was cruel. i’ll always think it was cruel and i can’t come up with a justification for it (though i’ve tried very hard)

i don’t blame her for trying to move on with penny, in fact it was the healthy thing for her to do at that point. i was proud of her! but i can’t understand (again super ooc) her moving to ny with penny and taking their daughter from arizona without actually speaking to her prior (like checking out schools etc, which essentially left arizona with no choice because callie basically said: u know what, my kid is moving with me. sorry not sorry). i just imagine that if my partner did that to myself and my child i would be furious. and i particularly felt for arziona who already had a complex about being sofia’s “real mom.” callie imo bailed when she left seattle, and don’t think i’ll ever be able to reconcile that

but yeah, the anon really opened up a can of worms for me haha. at the end of the day they are both flawed, which is what makes them such interesting characters. i think callie needs to be taken off her pedestal, though, bc she has made her share of mistakes. but we love her for it ofc. and it’s totally chill if u don’t agree, just thought i’d share!

Hey, not only am I very open to other peoples thoughts and opinions so yours are very welcome here, but I also agree with this. I don’t necessarily blame Callie for any of these things, and I don’t think that the actions themselves were indicative of her being an inherently bad person, but she still definitely made mistakes and bad calls and did mean things and that should be acknowledged!

I honestly block out the stuff that was said in the custody battle bc it was just so ooc and so horrid and mean but it should be said that even though Callie was scared, that was an awful thing to do and like Arizona said - she’d never have let them say those things about Callie.

The way I reason the day 29 thing is that Callie didn’t necessarily come to the conclusion that she was going to file for divorce until after the fact. Though, that’s not a solid argument really as the way she was all ‘I’m the happiest I’ve been in ages’ thing gave the impression she’d come to the decision over a longer period. But like, you’re right, whatever the reasoning it was a cruel thing to do, to string Arizona along like that and give her hope in such an intimate way, just to ditch her the next day. It’s just straight awful and I hated it!

And yeah the last one you said was the pissing off to New York and assuming Sofia would come with her, feeding into the ‘you’re not her real mum’ complex she was so worried about was also just so incredibly presumptuous and also cruel! I can’t imagine how it must have made Arizona feel!

Essentially the conclusion here is that I agree with you, Callie shouldn’t be held on a pedestal because she did also do things wrong. Though I don’t think the intent behind any of it was to be cruel or mean, the actions still were. It’s easy to pin the blame on Arizona for everything that happened (which I also blame on bad writing for not exploring her and her psychology more post-plane crash) but the divorce and everything that came after it ultimately wasn’t all her fault. (I also just feel like Callie was written badly in season 10 becuase so much of what she does is ooc)

But yes, thank you for sharing!! And even if I didn’t agree with you, I love reading peoples thoughts so they’d be very welcome here!

[saintcheryl]

i listened to the podcast too & i do agree with the things you say. however, i wasn't really enraged by what he or alyssa said bcos it's just really what i.. expect from 2 white celebs? like they both were on the biden-team (or adjacent), so they are gonna push him up now that he won and push msgs of unity too. what i did like abt the podcast was alyssa milano pointing out that she didn't start the metoo movement (though so many think so) and amplified tarana burke's voice to get the msg across.

yeah good points!! i wasn't followin what any of the spn cast was doing before like, this year, so im not super familiar w the other stuff so a lot of this is me learning about the Takes and how far they go for the first time? or like. i knew in theory but this was when i was rly faced with it 😔 like i expected this ofc but hearin it was still rough

the podcast did have some good points, i saw a few threads goin around of the specific things they said that r cool!! also i COMPLETELY missed the dig at jared at first LMFAO but that is. hilarious love it

but ya it makes sense that theyre backing joe so much it still just feels.....excessive? like its one thing to support administration esp when ur doing work in the political field but it feels like another to put them on a pedestal like that. ig its a publicity thing maybe like when ur in that much of the public eye it makes things easier but it still just doesnt feel right to me. he doesnt have integrity hes not someone we can rly trust!!! and they dont have to SAY critical things of him but they can just not say as many....untrue praises, i guess. feels like they arent holding any room for the very very real and tangible bad decisions that r being made. i cant know what theyre thinking but ya def extremely predictable white celebrity liberal stuff

[thisnerdblog]

12, 13, 21

For the salty asks:12. Is there an unpopular arc that you like that the fandom doesn’t? Why?People really seem to hate on AoU, and I didn't think it was so bad. It def suffers from middle Movie syndrome and too many cooks in the kitchen, but I don't think it didn't do any characters justice. People got pissy about Clint's secret family, I love them. People got up in arms about Tony diving right into creating Ultron, I thought it was a great lesson for him to learn. People hated how Natasha was treated in this, and I'm sitting over here confused because AoU gave us the deepest Natasha we have gotten so far. People rioted and dragged the director over BruceNat, and I those people are crazy. Yes it was a tad rushed and could have been better, but the idea was solid and the actors really sold it, and out of all the current avengers why wouldn't Nat dig Bruce. And why wouldn't she? He's the only one on the team who can remotely relate to her¯\_(ツ)_/¯. I think people give AoU waaaaayyyy to much hate when it was a really decent movie.13. Unpopular opinion about XXX character?Ummmm, since no specific character was given, I'm going to take this as a sign to go off the rails with the rants and the salt.Steve Rogers: Fuck him with his stupid shield. He lives in the past and that makes me furious! He puts his past friends up on this pedestal and puts them before the "friends" he has now. I really hate how he refuses to try and make a new life for himself, he refuses to move forward, he refuses to put the needs of the modern people before preserving his past. He wants to wallow in the past and any time he seems to be ready to move forward, something with Bucky seems to rear it's head and he will regress in an instant, and that's what pisses me off the most about Steve, it's his inability to move on.And because of this inability to move on and think straight when Bucky is involved, he keeps on ducking over the people who choose to follow him. Steve is supposed to be this good leader, he is supposed to have this magnetic presence that pulls people too him, yet what we have been presented with is something quite the opposite and I can't wrap my head around why Sam and the others follow him blindly?MCU Steve is such a disappointment and they expect me to suck his taint with everyone else because he's captain America. ಠ_ಠ Bucky Barnes: ugggggggfhhhhhhhghng. Sooooooooooooo boringgggggggg. Bucky was cool in the first Avenger, he was sassy and had a personality! But when he became the winter soldier I was out sooo fast you have no idea! Being the blank brainwashed slate that is slowly kinda getting memories back is such a boring overused trope, especially when they don't bring any hint of his old personality back. Like, I understand he has gone through extreme horrible trauma and that is enough to change parts of a persons personality, but like it would be sooo much better and heart breaking if you could have a hint of that previous personality. I dunno, I just think MCU Bucky is to bland and boring and doesn't deserve the amount of love and adoration he gets. (Buts it's because the actor is "hot" and people love a hot woobie character.)Loki: THE ULTIMATE WOOBIED CHARACTER EVER!!He is a dick, his moral compass is not pointing in a good direction, he is all about himself. He is a good VILLIAN! He does have a sad backstory, but as you all know "cool motive, still murder" is a thing. He doesn't have a heart of gold deep down inside, Loki works for Lokie and nobody else. I HATE with the passion of five thousands sun that people woobify Loki (and other "hot" villains), and the biggest slap in the face is when people put him on the Avengers team.Sam Wilson: I love Sam, Sam is such a darling baby and he deserves so much better than what he gets, but I just don't get why he just FOLLOWS Steve. Branch out my love! Be your own super hero!!! Wanda Maximoff: THERE HAS BEEN NO REPERCUSSIONS FOR HER SHITTY ACTIONS IN AOU!!!!!Yes she has been imprisoned, yes she is on the run, but like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What about while she was living with all the people she mind fucked!!!!!!!! They don't mind living with her???? Was there no conversation? The Avengers didn't like sit her down and expressed how she hurt them????? I dunno, she needs a slap to the wrist specifically for her actions in AoU.Tony Stark: has done so much wrong, but still strives to be a hero! THIS IS HIS STORY, HE IS THE HERO!!Fight me about this!Natasha Romanoff: I love how she was portrayed in AoU, I love that they made her three dimensional instead of generic badass fight girl. She has fears, she has faults, she has hope, she has morals, and she will put others happiness above her own. She is part hot mess part avenging Angel, she is complex and wonderful! Plus I love that she is respected by the boys and not the "girl" but a fucking core member and is friendly/friends with the guys.Bruce Banner: I just love this asshole, ok.Like this is how you woobify a character, bad shit has happened to him, and you feel sorry for him, but he's still a prickly asshole, he's self deprecating and KNOWS how dangerous he can be and his friends aren't fawning over him saying "no you aren't" instead his friends are saying "yeah, you could be, but you have the power not to be, you can control your anger!" The beauty I love about Bruce is that he COULD have been a bad guy, but made the important choice not to.Thor: Thor is smart! Thor is intelligent, he is sweet and patient, but he runs hot and has a short temper and is gullible. Like I love that Thor is gullible, he believes the best in people and it's sad when he is proven wrong.21. What are your thoughts on crack ships?They are good! Have fun you guys! Do your thing!

[child-of-hurin]

unpop opinion: Niënor, Aredhel, Galadriel, Ancalimë?

Oooh this is difficult because I’m not sure what the popular opinions are hahaha, here goes nothing:

Ancalimë: I think Erendis’s suicide hit her very hard and was very baffling, and created a weird space between her and her father that didn’t exist before. I think she’s aro/ace and not into sex at all, but flirty. I see her as both a competent ruler, responsible for a period of centralization of power, and petty, enjoying outsmarting Soronto or just disregarding his advice on purpose :) Similarly I think her bad treatment of Hallacar was at the same time a political move, to discourage any attempts to give him more power than she was comfortable with him having, and a petty exercise of power, taking some of her frustrating over having to marry out on him... Oh also, this one is probably unpopular only in the sense that people don’t really think about it, but I really think she was into early Edain culture (because she was so into Hallacar’s songs) and I like to think she backed up cultural research related to that :) (also I think some folklore were developed in Mittalmar based on the idea of a disguised princess!)

Galadriel: metanarrative unpop opinion: I don’t think her character suffered from whitewashing, or was put on a narrative pedestal by Tolkien (sure, in his old age he entertained the idea of disengaging her completely from Feanor’s rebellion, which might be an attempt to make her more “pure” or whatever, but it literally doesn’t change a single thing about her character arc otherwise, and her proud denial of the valar’s pardon is still there, and she still ends up humbling herself and accepting it, soooo I don’t really care enough to have an emotional reaction to it lmao) I don’t think she is saintly, and at the same time I don’t think she has terrible character flaws. She’s a very proud character and I rather like her development from the early silm to the lotr exactly as it is. I like the relationship between her and Celebrimbor a LOT just as it is and I don’t think there’s anything cynical or ugly about it just because it’s unrequited love. Galadriel/Celeborn is a major otp for me, but I really like them going separate ways at the end and never truly getting over each other. 

Niënor: She’s not particularly cheerful and she’s not just a female Húrin in personality, and she wanted to marry Túrin and wasn’t coerced/manipulated into it or whatever. I can’t think of anything else sbnagshssja the general opinion on Nienor seems pretty positive and my opinion on her is super positive as well!

Aredhel: Man, I love her and I think everyone does too, so.... another metanarrative position: the narrative of the silm never implies she was responsible for what happened to her in Nan Elmoth. The words used to describe her temper are either neutral or positive, and the onus of the bad things that happen to her are always put either on Eol or on general misfortune/ bad luck. There aren’t passages dedicated to any “if only” on her part. It definitely is a narrative defined by her own gender, since the particular brand of tragedy that befalls her is gendered, and it sucks big time, but her own actions are not put at fault, the fault is always on the one coercing her. Though I def think her situation with Eol was both as simple as, and more complicated and nuanced than, captive/captor... Also!! I think when the text says she wore only white and silver, I really take that very seriously!