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petalmrk · 7 years ago

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Exo Reaction: To you both regretting the break up

Hey anon :) thanks for requesting , hope you like it !!

Also sorry If I changed it up a bit with some members just cos I didnt want it to get repetitive :)

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Baekhyun

He would probably call you as soon as he started to feel lonely, would probably feel sad if he went to certain parts of the house/dorm that you both shared good memories in. He would probably call you late at night, if he missed you too much

“ Jagi, well I am not sure if Im still allowed to call you that. But the reason why I’m calling you is because well .. I really miss you, can you come over?”

“ By the way .. do you miss me too ?”

Chanyeol

He would overthink the reason why you suddenly decided to break up with him, he would get even more sad about it every time he thought about your breakup. After lots of thinking he would probably call you, but would get surprised if you suddenly visited him

“ Y/N what are you doing here, I thought you wanted some time alone”

“ Look Yeol, the truth is I regret the breakup, I guess I cant stay away from for that long, so can we talk about it , if you want”

“ Aww I missed you too , Im glad you came back”

Would probably give you a massive hug on the doorway

Sehun

When you decided to go visit him to talk things over again, you would probably find him layed on the couch ( vivi would probably be with him tbh) scrolling on his phone with a pouty expression, he would be thinking on what caused you to suddenly break up with him. He would get really happy when you said that you regretted the breakup

“ Ah I knew my baby would come back to me”

“ Stop lying, you looked like you were about to cry”

“ No I wasnt”

“ Yes you were”

“ Okay maybe I was, so what can I not express my love for you”

Jongdae

He would be confused about why you suddenly decided to break up, he would probably not be his loud self for a few days, but would be hopeful that you would change your mind. When you suddenly told him that you wanted to continue dating he would soon start to be his loud self again

“ Jagi, if we are going to get back together again, lets not have this weird breakup things again, if something is bothering you talk to me okay, by the way I missed you”

Kyungsoo

He might call you if he cant stop thinking about the breakup, but he will probably want to give you some space. if you suddenly called him because you regretted the breakup he would probably be happy to get back together, but would like to talk about what caused you to break up in the first place.

“ I am glad you came back jagi but before we settle back in our relationship again, I think we should talk about what caused the issue in the first place”

Yixing

Would give you space for a while if you asked. Would keep thinking about you though, probably would send in some cute messages in the morning to show that he was still thinking of you.

“ Baobei, I miss you, I need you by my side , if you decide to come back just know that I am waiting for you”

Jongin

He would probably be a bit down for a while, would also try to avoid things that reminded him of you. I feel like as soon as you called him he would probably answer on the first ring if he was at home.

“ Why are you asking permisssion to come back, if this is your home too, you are my home Y/N”

Junmyeon

I think that he would be the first one to go to your place, if he missed you too much or if you called him first. He would be so happy, and would probably call it a new begginning in the relationship.

“Jagiya I missed you too much, lets spend lots of time together so we can catch up on lost time”

Minseok

He would get worried about you for the time that you have been broken up. Even though he wanted to call you to tell you how much he missed you, he decided to give you space. When you suddenly apperead on his doorstep and wanting to talk things out, he would probably want to make sure that you were sure that you wanted to continue the relationship.

“ I dont want us, expecially you to be unhappy in our relationship again, I promise that I will try my best to be there for you and to not repeat the same mistakes again, because I dont want to be separated from my love”

Luhan

He would probably leave voice mails when he had free time fom schedules, to express how much he missed you. Would also leave cute messages at night before he went to sleep, so that when you wake up that would be one of the first things you see.

“ I miss you lots, please come back to me. Take care of yourself for me, when you are ready to talk to me again, just give me a call”

Yifan

Would give you as much space as you wanted, but wouldnt stop checking up on you from time to time. To be honest would be with open arms if you decided to come back.

“ You can come back any time you want to, I hope you accept me into your heart again”

Zitao

He would go to you first if you suddenly regretted the breakup. Would be relieved that you didnt want to let go of the relationship he couldn’t move on from.

“My precious baobei, I am glad you are back into my life”

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Hello everyone, hope you all enjoyed this reaction :)

Sorry it took such a long time to upload, tumblr was not letting me add the gifs in for certain members

By the way, I changed my url , so if some of you dont find me its because I changed it :)

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kunlluv · 7 years ago

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Rules: Answer 30 questions then tag 20 blogs Tagged by @mx-fxxkboys 💞 I was a bit extra and detailed, so it’s a tad bit long. 1. nicknames: Mimi, Queen, princess (two of my friends refused to stop calling me queen/princess and ion know why they started) anyways feel free to call me nice nicknames 2. gender: Female 3. star sign: Pisces 4. height: 5'4 ½ (somewhere around there) 5. time: 7:03 am 6. birthday: Feb 22nd !! 7. favorite bands: 방탄소년단, NCT, Monsta x, Hyukoh, got7, shinee, topp dogg, wonder girls, red velvet, gfriend, afterschool, sf9, pentagon, wanna one, knk, b.a.p, exo, seventeen, nu'est, pristin, astro, hotshot, brockhamptom, ayabie, sadie, royz, the gazette, artic monekys, K.I.D, aomg (do some of these even count?) i have a ton but here are some 8. favorite solo artists: SZA, Dean, Jessi, Sunmi,Hayley Kiyoko, Homeshake, Daniel Caesar, Jorja smith, ztao, king krule, rex orange county, lana, kris wu, H.E.R, LuHan (yesss), cupcakKe, gallant, earl sweatshirt, syd, heize, sik-k, dpr live, jooyoung, sam kim, suran. Theres sooooo manyy 9. song stuck in my head: Jelly by Hotshot 10. last movie watched: Silence(i think its a korean/Japanese (they use both)) film i crossed on netflix 11. last show watched: Steven Universe 12. when did i create my blog: Technically I had this type of blog like idk two years ago or so but i re made like 5 times. I’ve had this one sometime last year and just recently started being as active as possible 13. what do i post: music recommendations (kind of) my personal aesthetic, My favorite artist, various things. 14. last thing googled: holika holika: Gudetama products (those mini shadow palettes are extremely cute and the lip tints !) 15. do you have other blogs: Yeah 16. do you get asks: A little bit 17. why did u choose your url: If you know who mkitrain is then you know there’s a rapper apart of the group who’s name is bloo. His IG is @/badboyloo and i love him so so much, and decided I wanted a bloo url, i don’t plan on changing it anytime soon 18. following: a tonnnn, 777 (i tend to follow blogs on tumblr on impulse, like, i just click follow after seeing 5 photos that match what im looking for) 19. followers: 85 (hopefully it grows i have more on my other blog but im pretty content if people at least see what I’m posting :)) 20. favorite colors: black, salmon, various light/pastel pinks (i don’t like hot pink or any dark pinks), various blues (deep) gold, peachpuff !!! (it has a cute nake too), bisque, almost all the tans and beiges 21. average hours of sleep: uhhhhhh sometimes less than 6, sometimes more than 9. 22. lucky number: Ion know? 23. instruments: NONE! I wanna learn bass guitar, piano, maybe violin. 24. what am I wearing: right now? My school uniform. 25. how many blankets I sleep with: 1-2. My top comforter is weird. 26. dream job: I have like 4 so sit tight. - Animator. I wanna make cool cartoons and animations - Film. I also really want to make cool artistic videos - I was thinking of airforce at one point and still am but I don’t think I will. - I actually like the idea of owning a really cute cafe in the future ! 27. dream trip: Japan, Korea, Italy, Finland (as far as i know) 28. favorite food: Ice cream !! Sushi !! 29. nationality: American 30. favorite song now: Junky - Brockhamptom I don’t know if I have 20 but i can tag some

@j-ihun @taompon @smolnctfan

@latteseokjin @kyunnie-o @milkyelite @hwif9 @haze-ily

You don’t have to do it 💕

#question tag

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alien-origins · 8 years ago

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Since school is over now and exo are gonna kill us soon with a comeback I thought why not do a follow forever and appreciate some people I think everyone should check out!

Idk if there are any rules for this but yeah I’ve been a kpop(exo) blog for probably a year or less but i’ve had this godforsaken blog for years. I have done a lot of dumb tag yourself memes and dumb edits that resulted in 1.8k followers. I’ve also met and talked to a whole lot of amazing people and I did want to shine some light on these people that make my life a little less horrible and never fails to make me smile! 💞 (this may or may not also be a huge post of me telling ppl how much i love them) 💞

First things first my one and only bro @slavemin ! like bro you always make me laugh with our dumb convos on messenger ily 💓💗💞💞 if you like Junmyeon and cool exo stans then you should really follow. And bro you’re like so soft and amazing can’t wait to die with you @ MAMA 2k17. I also want to do a shout out and tell y’all to check out his youtube channel because wow it’s pure gold and the video he made for me for my bday is like a daily routine at this point it was the best gift I’ve ever gotten. Ily bro, no homo.

@1adyluck my wife, the mother to my future puppers. 💞💓💗💖 You’re probably one of the first people I actually like got to know and I will never forget the drunk asks about daddy Kris like damn I loved you at first sight baby and you kept tagging me in pics of him and I look forward to raise 12 dogs with you. I really love talking to you and you put such a bright smile on my lips and i feel all bubbly and soft. 💘💘💘 literally you’re soooo wonderful I’m so lucky ??? wouldn’t even trade you for yifan’s dick and you know how big that it of me to say.

@04gf girl, I went through our old messages before and we’ve really talked about a lot? We’ve gone through so many topics and I’m really glad we talk because baby you’re so amazing and such a good person. It feels secure to talk to you and you’re literally so cute and i want to make sure you’re happy💞💓💗💖 thank you for being there.

@ohunshine my baby girl, my child... first things first i don’t deserve your love you’re so soft and pure 💕💝💖 I really love talking to you (and I’m really happy you found nu’est I’m such a proud mother like wow) and I hope you will come to me whenever you need to talk because I want to help you out. never stop being yourself and don’t listen to any snakes trying to ruin your day. You deserve the world and keep working hard and it’ll be yours! But don’t forget to take breaks and take care of yourself, I don’t want you to be sad or to hurt so remember to sit back and take a few deep breaths. Ily darling💖💖 @crownkingzyx idk for how long we’ve been mutuals but I remember @/yixingshome tipped me about your blog and I was not disappointed !! and really you’re amzingly chill and I was kinda scared at first because I thought you were cool and I was nervous like always! You’re still cool and you boosted my embroidery self esteem a lot and I want to say thank you x17836 for that ily! 💝💝 ily girl and dang I love talking to you (I’m however sorry for dumping au ideas @ you all the time please don’t leave me) 💕💗💗💞💘 @swaggyt-enthusiast you need to stop with all the zitao before I die I’m a soft swaggy T stan and you’re ruining it :/// (lol but no never stop he’s so beautiful i love the both of you) girl you’re so fun to talk to I never not laugh unless we talk abt more serious things but you’re really amazing don’t forget that. Like you’re huang zitao level amazing 💖💓💞💞 thank you for making my dash a little better and that you make me smile 💖💞💞💘 @kai-aaah sis !!!!!!! I remember I was like really scared of talking to you god I wanted to talk to you but it took some time until we did finally talk and I don’t regret a thing because now I have a wonderful friend and sis :((( 💓💓 it’s always good t hear that you’re doing okay and it makes me happy talking to you and I remember when you sent that “happy best friends day” message I cried it was so cute and god I wish I could’ve hugged you and given you like flowers and braid your hair ily so much 💕💗💞💞💖 @chogiwapark I remember the day we started talking very clearly because I was stuck in school since there was a snowstorm and I thought you were so funny and your love for Luhan is amazing. I enjoy talking to you like I remember after watching the great wall and I was high key a mess and it was nice to yell abt him for a while with you darling ily 💘💘💗💖💞 @bunmyun we haven’t been mutuals for that long either but i still love you and I was so hyped finding out you lived in the nordics. And you’re a beautiful soft suho stan and that’s itself is amazing 💘💗💞 you’re like really funny as well and a hella nice person to have a conversation with! @bulba-suho-r girl, first of all I’m sorry for dumping shit loads of au idea’s @ you and I still remember that dream where the government told you you had to change your url it was really weird actually i think an ostrich was there as well I never mentioned that detail. ily and i love our talks 💗💓💓💝💖 you provide me of junmyeon and I go through that giant krisho post you sent me now and then and cry. You’re fantastic and never stop being your beautiful funny self 💘💘💘 @princeksoo you’re my beloved child and even if we don’t talk that often it’s really nice talking to you and ily honey so a special shout out to you as well! 💕💘💗💗💞

💘 and now for general blogs I love seeing on my dash💘

another special shout out to @deathbykaisoo we just started talking but damn I’ve seen you on my dash for so long and your blog is so beautiful and you’re really relatable ily 💕💗💞

123: @4-velvets | @7deer-ofthe-dawn7 |

#it feels like i'm forgetitng ppl aaaaaaah #anyways i like only follow junmyeon blogs #but there are less than i thought when making this though #but yes these are ppl y'all should check out they are amazing and fun #and for those under the general blogs they are also really good blogs like????? my dash would be tragic without them #thank all of you and im so sos ooooo sorry if i've missed anyone #i've gone through it three times now though and i can't notice anyone missing so i hope i'm right now #follow forever #also do you like my edit???? beautiful isn't it #made it in photoshop in 5 minutes #also check out my bro's videos #i also don't like remember anyones name and if i do i'm scared of spelling it wrong sorry :(((#💓💘💞💞🐰✨💖💝💓💓��🐰💘💘💕💞💞💝💗💓🐰🐰🌈✨💗

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baekdaedream · 8 years ago

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Get to know me tag

Tagged by @puppyeoll and @achenlove, thank you! (Actually they weren’t exactly the same tag thing because achenlove’s had more questions, but puppyeoll’s had all the same questions so I’m merging them together)

Rules: answer the questions in a new post and then tag other blogs you wanna get to know better.

Nickname: Shy (although there’s a couple other cute ones that aren’t used much)

Gender: Female

Star Sign: Gemini

Height: Okay my friend said I was 5′1 but my mom says I’m definitely under 5′ :/

Time right now: 5:36pm (May 10th, I’ll probably post this later)

Last thing I googled: fighter of the destiny episode 23 eng sub

Favorite bands: EXO (my one and only)

Favorite solo artists: Luhan?

Song stuck in your head: The intro OST to Fighter of the Destiny

Last movie you watched: My sister and I looked through netflix for at least twenty minutes last night to find something to watch, we’re not so great at deciding together hahah. I usually prefer Disney or Dreamworks when we’re watching stuff together? We almost went with Tangled but it was a bit recent, then it could have been The Scorch Trials (she hasn’t seen it yet) but it’s over two hours which she thinks is too long. We almost went with Clueless, but we didn’t go with any of the above hahah

Last TV show you watched: Fighter of the Destiny!

When did you create your blog: Uh, May 2014 wow

What kind of stuff do you post: Mostly EXO ♥ then there’s some Luhan lately (and FOTD), some photography, that’s about it

Did your blog reach it’s peak?: Not quite yet, I don’t think? Maybe

Do you have any other blogs: No

Do you get asks regularly: No, just occasionally

Why did you choose your url: It’s a baekchen url, which I had one before, and then She’s Dreaming came out and so, baekdaedream :)

Following: Currently 72

Posts: 73,172 with this one

Hogwarts house: The first time I got Pottermore I was sorted into Ravenclaw, the second (I had to remake my account because the site changed), Gryffindor. One of those cases where Hogwarts sorts too soon, huh? Because it’s about what you personally value, when you’re being sorted, rather than what you’re like - and those values change over time. It was a few years between those two sortings. I actually thought I might get Hufflepuff? Although my sister sees me as a Ravenclaw, I can see the Gryffindor now. (If you don’t know, I very much love Harry Potter. I used to be a multifandom/Harry Potter blog for awhile)

Pokemon team: Don’t have one

Favorite colors: Green and purple :)

Average hours of sleep: 6-8

Lucky number: 7? 3?

Favorite characters: CHEN CHANGSHENG from Fighter of the Destiny, and that’s all I’m going to say because if we get into my favourite characters from the books I’ve read, that’s going to get long. Like, really long.

What are you wearing now: Comfy clothes :) my usual soft fuzzy slightly big sweater (oh my gosh okay so there’s four colours of this sweater. A couple December’s ago, when I was still at university, my mom got my sister and I one each as an early Christmas present, and two for herself. I kept borrowing her burgundy one (I wore my blue and white one a lot as well, and then... as well, her black and white one, since she hardly wore it either. I’ve worn my sister’s cream one a couple times and yesterday she just gave it to me! So now I have the whole batch (I’m rereading through this I think I forgot to mention my mom gave hers to me because she hardly ever wore them). Because they hardly ever wore them, and I always do hahah. It’s going to get too warm to wear them soon though), leggings (grey, also used to be my mom’s... my sister gave me grey leggings of hers yesterday too!), and socks that today are matching my sisters. It’s also the shirt she gave me that I’m wearing hahah. I never have to buy clothes because I’m just given them, for now. My sister went through her closet before she went to university in the fall so

How many blankets do you sleep with: Two, a comforter/throw blanket, and the actual main blanket that is apparently called a comforter as well? But it’s not as soft.

Dream Job: I’m going to be an author :) I really need to spend more time working on my books though... well, writing, I’ve been working on them enough.

Dream trip: There’s a couple, both with my friend I tag as My Aries. We’ve decided that we’re going to go to Japan for a month one summer, and we’re also going to travel the world together :) a couple years ago, in our last year of high school, we would spend one of our classes together (we had three, not including concert band which was out of the time table, this one was sort of a spare/working block) looking at the map behind our back table and picking cities and countries we wanted to go to. It would be amazing to go and do that all with her one day

I’m tagging: @sehunsbichon @my-bobohu @mochibaeks @sunshiningdae @chenbaekery @chandelions @jongdaesbeautifuleyelashes @byunchen @baekhyunsama @chaichanyeol / @taemcin (not sure which blog to tag?)

#tag games #puppyeoll #achenlove #I have a few more of these tag games to do #I will get to them! at some point #and of course you don't have to do it if you wouldn't like to #anyways it's like 6:17pm now

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chogiwa-for-life · 8 years ago

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aLL

Thank you! and omg thats a lot of questions but I did it yeyy

Favorite EXO album? ex’act

Favorite title song? monster

Best Era? lotto

Favorite b-side song? lightsaber

Who’s your bias? kyungsoo

Who’s your bias wrecker? lay

Favorite choreography? monster

Favorite MV? lotto

Favorite EXO Showtime episode? I think that one in which they went in a haunted house

EXO K or EXO M? both

OT12 or OT9? ot12

Dance-line or Vocal-line? vocal line

Vocal-line or Rap-line? vocal line

Favorite Vocalist? kyungsoo

Favorite Dancer? lay

Favorite Rapper? chanyeol

EXO First Box or Second Box? second

Miracles in December or Sing For You? sing for u

Wolf or Growl? wolf

Is EXO your bias group? yes

MAMA superpowers or WOLF werewolves? mama

Favorite Friendship? kaisoo, sesoo,sexing, chansoo, chanbaek

Favorite Ship? kaisoo, sesoo

Favorite China-line member? lay

Aegyo Xiumin or Abs Xiumin? aegyo

Do you own the EXO Lightsick? no T^T

Lucky One or Monster? monster

XOXO or EXODUS? exodus

EXODUS or EX’ACT? ax’act

Favorite OT12 moment? …this is hard…everything lol

Call Me Baby or Love Me Right? call me baby

Favorite EXODUS song? el dorado/ playboy/ call me baby

Favorite Beagle-line member? baekhyun

Favorite EXO superpower? strength

As vocalists, Luhan or Chen? chen

Drop That or Lightsaber? lighsaber

EXOLU’XION or The Lost Planet? exolu’tion

How long did it take you to learn all their names? …..idk a month

Favorite ballad? sing for u

El Dorado or Black Pearl? el dorado

Least favorite ship? idk

Kai or Jongin? jongin

Favorite EXOMENTARY video? chef kyungsoos

Favorite EXO K member? kyungsoo

Favorite EXO M member? lay

As vocalists, D.O. or Baekhyun? D.O

As rappers, Sehun or Tao? sehun

Do you actually like Wolf? yes my url is chogiwa lol

Favorite OTP moment? there are too many I cant pick

Have you ever seen EXO live? no T^T

Moment that made you cry? sometimes when I listen to songs like el dorado and hurt and more bc they sing so beautiful and when i look at exo showtime and remember ot12

Most handsome member? lay

Do you still watch EXO Showtime occasionally? no but I watched it a lot of times

Cutest member? kyungsoo

First bias? chanyeol

Favorite XOXO song? black pearl/ heart attack/ baby dont cry

Favorite Baekhyun era? overdose/lotto

SatanSoo or SquishySoo? squishysoo

Xiuhan or Hunhan? hunhan

Favorite EXO photocard? all

Sehun’s eyebrows or Sehun’s legs? legs

Favorite EXO pet? vivi

Hyung-line or Maknae-line? …both

Favorite EXODUS song? el dorado

Favorite movie with an EXO member in it? hyung

How did you get into EXO? well its thanks to my sister she showed me the kpop life

Mom!Suho or Sexy!Suho? momsuho

Promise or Heaven? heaven

Tao’s Z.TAO or Luhan’s Reloaded? Z.TAO

Favorite EX’ACT song? monster

Xiumin bun or Luhan bun? luhan

Have you ever not liked a member? no

Favorite Chen solo song? best luck

Baekyeol or Baekyeon? idk

Cold city guy Kris or Dorky Kris? dorky

Favorite EXO Cover song? it’s still a dark night, I cry when I listen to this.

Did you cry when listening to Promise? yes

EXO song that you do not like? ….I like all of them

Favorite Couple Talk (from EXO first box)? kaisoo

Favorite Kai era? monster

As dancers, Kai, Sehun, or Lay? lay

Baekhyun’s (ft. Suzy) Dream or Baekhyun’s (ft. K. Will) The Day? dream

Favorite EXO member IG account? sehun

Favorite award performance? mama 2015/2016

If you could get any of the MID gifts, what would you get? idk

Kaisoo or TaeKai? kaisoo

Favorite Chanyeol gif? …I can’t find it

MAMA or History? mama

Favorite lyrics? Lipstick, ChateauWine color (La La La La)White ChampagneShower in the bubbles (La La La La) and 넌 아름다워 나의 Goddess

Favorite Suho era? mama and monster era

Red haired D.O., yes or no? YESS!!

Favorite Chanyeol Rap? baby dont cry

Favorite fanfiction? anterograde tomorrow… I read a lot but I dont remember their names

Lay’s Hurry Up, Brother! Or Luhan’s Running Man? lays hurry up

Pathcodes or Wolf Drama? pathcodes

Taohun or Taoris? taohun

EXO Showtime or EXO Next Door? exo showtime bc there were all of them

Most significant song for you? this is a hard one….el dorado/ monster/ heart attack

Who are your top 3 members? kyungsoo, lay and cant choose from these 3suho/sehun/baekhyun

Why do you like EXO? bc they make me happy. I like them and listening to their music

#thank u for asking me #i thought no ones gonna ask me #nonopinopi #my answers #replies

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mestos · 7 years ago

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“I’m thankful to God, I see an angel and tears come to my eyes, Hallelujah”

--Jonghyun’s “Hallelujah”, my favourite song.

I want to send him off well, so I apologize in beforehand for this long post.

If you were one of my long-term followers, I assume you know of the time my url was locket-mesti, or locktae, right?

Yeah, there was that time. During early 2014, that was my url instead of what it currently is, mestos. It was a fusion of both the fandom names for a Key Stan and a Taemin stan - locket, and taemint respectively. When I first got into Shinee, I fell in love with Key, but the more I got into it I fell for Taemin as well. During that time I usually changed my url to what fandom I was in, and as I have been in actively in the shinee fandom, that was my url.

I first got into KPOP through SHINee. One of my close friends used to always be on her phone, and because we were allowed to listen to music in class, I always reprimanded her to do her work because I didn’t want to lose that privilege. Then she let me listen to some KPOP songs - introduced me to what I refer to as the “cursed” song because it was too catchy, T-ARA’s Bo Peep Bo Peep - such as SISTAR19′s Ma Boy, Wheesung’s UUU, Super Junior’s Sorry Sorry, etc.

Then she let me listen to SHINee’s songs.

We watched a couple of their lives together, and I was pretty entranced with the way they danced. Lucifer was perhaps my favourite at the time because it was so catchy. After a time where I came over to her house I decided to look into SHINee, and I was absolutely in love with Jonghyun’s voice. I loved the way he carried those high notes so well, and his vocal range truly astounded me. Although he wasn’t my type at the time, he really stood out with the way he presented himself as a singer. It made him so memorable.

During that time - even I cringe at the memory - I decided to dwelve into the fandom. I read lots of RPF, had my own share of OTPs, I was just so into Shawol hell. I listened to all their albums, watched all their variety show appearances, kept my favourites on repeat during my tough and hard moments. Eventually, it became a point where I just really loved all five of them equally, and I just say a name if I had to choose. Taemin’s solo got me sold on him, which is why I would say “Taemin” if I were asked to choose a bias, but even so, I loved all of them.

Then Jonghyun’s solo was announced!! I was so happy and proud because in my honest opinion, while Taemin’s was great, Jonghyun was the real singer. His ability to sing will always be at the top and no one will ever surpass his level out of the ones that I love now. I respect him as a musician because of his ability to compose and create songs with lots of feeling as well as showcase them in the greatest way possible. His looks weren’t bad either; after a while, I realized he was the most handsome in the band, with Minho coming second in my opinion.

Then I listened to the album medley. I knew instantly that all of the tracks would be a massive hit. Hallelujah stood out to me the most, but literally every song was amazing. I highly encourage all of you to listen to it because it was the very first time I’ve ever loved every single song in an album. Not only the music, the music video’s aesthetic was so good - I remember being destroyed when his shirtless scenes came on haha - but in overall; I was just so proud of how far he came. I know I hadn’t been there in the fandom since he debuted, but I did my own backtracking and watched so many appearances and tv variety and interviews and concerts that they held over the years to keep up to date, and really; you’re able to really see how he grew.

The album also holds some sentimental value to me. A friend of mine who had returned to South Korea had bought me the physical copy, and it was during a time where there was a bit of rift between my friendship circle, so I felt truly blessed when I was able to hold it in my hands. I was so happy, I made a scene in school - I’m embarrassed of it now - when I saw. When I was finally able to look at his photoshoots with my own eyes, in person, and listen to the full version of the bonus track he had for the physical-only copy, I realized that yeah, perhaps Jonghyun would be the man I’d stan after all.

So from that day, I became a bling bling stan. His stans have a funny name, but its catchy, and I’ll never forget it. I’ll always be a bling bling stan forever even if he is no longer here.

Needless to say, my interest in SHINee gradually declined which I’m sadly guilty of. I returned back to them when they released their beautiful hit comeback “View”, and I loved “Odd Eye” so much. I’m actually listening to it as I type this. It’s definitely one of my most TOP FAVOURITE SONGS in all of the songs I’ve listened to. Watching their promotions, I just grew to love Jonghyun so much. I listened to his Blue Night Radio broadcasts from time to time and I truly admired his character and his overall niceness. I just loved him so much.

And because of that...I also knew he was going through a tough time.

I’m ashamed of...of forgetting.

During that time I was more conflicted because I was going through my own rough edges. I wasn’t able to get over Kris, Luhan and Tao leaving EXO, and I was generally unable to think of any other band than EXO. I became a full EXO-L at the time and arrogantly said “I actually don’t care about SHINee all that much anymore” at some point. Which was dumb, because I also at the time said “I wish I had just stayed in SHINee World so I don’t have to feel this pain”.

As my eventual KPOP frenzy toned down over the years, I still never stopped listening to KJH’s songs. I listened to them wherever I went, because they were always like an angel’s singing to my ears. Hallelujah most especially. I often listened to it as I walked home and tried to clear my thoughts or get them straight. The song got me through my rough times ; when I was at the lowest of the low ; and became one of my saving graces because of how beautiful it sounded. How Jonghyun’s voice sounded.

Just recently, I hadn’t really been into KPOP as much as before...then I hear the news.

It felt like my whole world just broke.

With no exaggeration, I didn’t feel anything at first. Literally. I skimmed through the internet, twitter especially, for anything that would claim this as fake. I literally could not believe that the man with the heavenly voice was gone.

Then I moved from my chair, opened my light, and picked up the album that I stored away for safe keeping. My hands were shaking as I flicked through the images, took a picture, posted it on Instagram as a tribute, but at that moment I was still in numbing shock.

When I turned off the light, I fell to my knees and hugged the album tightly. My tears just poured out of me as if everything that had been weighing me down was finally being released. I cried for so long, on the floor amid a mess of a room I have, just holding his album tightly. Through the darkness I searched for his face in the posters of SHINee I hung up my wall, through the faintness of the light from the laptop screen, I just stared at his face, unable to face the truth.

I then decided to bite my tears down and found some strength. I put myself back on my chair and took out the CD from the album and opened it on my laptop. I hadn’t listened to Hallelujah in months - perhaps not even this entire year. When I clicked it and I heard his lines,

“I’m thankful to God, I see an angel and tears come to my eyes, Hallelujah”

I really couldn’t stop myself. I weeped, I sobbed, I couldn’t do anything except cry as the album played. I really didn’t know what else I could do.

After some time, I found some strength, in the darkness with nothing but the computer screen’s brightness as my light.

After that, it was a bit of a blur. I spoke to a friend, but I forced myself to draw something as I thought it would get my mind busy. Which is why this picture exists; I was projecting my feelings through Illium.

Eventually the official statement came by and I just couldn’t take it anymore. I shut everything off at around 4:30am, and in the dawn with the skies brightening up to signify a new day, I felt nothing but despair.

At night, I had no dreams. I usually have one, but this time, I had no dreams.

When I woke up in the afternoon I felt like I hadn’t slept. I felt nauseous, as per usual. I skimmed through twitter feed and there was nothing but tributes. My eyes were swollen, and my friend came over to stay the night, and the two of us just talked and talked about it.

The day was enjoyable because the two of us were able to comfort each other, but I often cried. Can I just admit I really hate crying? Because contrary to what people say, it doesn’t make me feel better. It makes me feel pathetic. It makes me feel stupid. It makes me feel like I could be using my time doing something else instead of feeling these stupid things spill from my eyes and ruin my face.

Since then, I’ve been empty. Illium and MapleStory have been helping me get my mind busy, but all I was doing was ignoring the problem, which I’m facing now.

One of the reasons why I was so affected by this one celebrity death is because I know how he feels.

My parents tell me I’m not depressed because I have no reason to be. I tell myself I’m not depressed because I have no reason to be.

But do you know how it feels, when nothing in your life is wrong, things are fine, but yet you can’t help but feel empty all the time?

Everything you see is grey. Everything you feel is grey. When you think you’re happy, you can’t tell if you really are or if you’re forcing yourself to be. You feel “fine”, but what is “fine”? You don’t know the definition of happiness. You’re always tired, you always constantly feel like anything you do doesn’t amount to anything. You can’t seem to remember what it feels like to be happy for a long time. Everything you do is sluggish.

But you’re trying.

I read his suicide note, and I understood.

I was never angry at Jonghyun.

Not once.

Because I know how it feels to fight your way through the darkness. I know how it feels to constantly keep trying to find things to fill the void in your heart that for some reason keeps growing the more you find. I know how it feels to fight the demons within you. I know how it feels to feel like you aren’t living up to expectations.

Which is why I just want to say, like what everyone else is saying, “You did well.”

You did so well Jonghyun-oppa.

You must’ve been so tired. So, so tired. I’m tired too, everyday, I open my eyes and wonder if today is going to be another grey day or if its going to be blue, because my life doesn’t feel like it has any other colour. Any day you think you’re happy doesn’t last long, any day you feel like it has other colours disappear back into grey.

I’m so glad you can rest now. I’m so glad you can just lay back and finally, the demons within you won’t bother you anymore. This isn’t a battle lost. This is a battle won, just not in the best of ways, because you can lay back in the heavens like a hero.

You did so well. Your music will forever be my inspiration, your songs will always flow through my ears all the way into my soul.

You did so well. The smiles you put into my face, into everyone’s faces, will never be forgotten.

You did so well.

You did so, so well.

Although I can never ever see you in person, you’ve imprinted yourself into the net and the world in a way that you can never be forgotten.

I love you, Kim Jonghyun. Thank you for being the best Bling Bling is Jonghyun.

Thank you so much.

Rest in Peace.

#neesan texto #ugh i didnt want to cry while writing this but I did #im glad you were in my life #im so so glad

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sehanniedew · 8 years ago

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heeeeyo I'm getting a new puppy soon and I was thinking to call her something hunhan related... hunhan or selu semm just.. too easy. I want it to be something meaningful. I already thought about their superpowers combined but that didn't really make sense. Or promise/약속 but that's hard to call. can you think of anything?

I actually really like promise ^^ “come here promise, come here girl” (if it’s a girl) 🐶🎀 but tbh I’m really bad at coming up with names I mean, look at my URL lol but I’m thinking of Sehun’s Vivi…

you can replace the first V for an L (Luhan) then you’d have Livi, or Liv Liv which is super cute ^^ I’m still assuming your puppy is a girl 😅 if you can’t come up with anything don’t worry, Luhan has two pets and till this day I don’t think either one has an actual name, unless master cat and yellow hair count lol! That boy is so hopeless 😍

Sorry I wasn’t much help love ;; but keep me updated on what you choose ok! 💕also if any of my followers has a cute idea for a name, I can pass it on ✨

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kimgothic · 8 years ago

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get to know me tag!!

tagged by: @springdaes (thank u sweetie!!)

Rules: Answer the 20 questions in a new post and tag 20 blogs you would like to get to know better.

Nickname: Kris, nena, Jaz.. no one has really given me a nickname?? except for maybe tia LOL Gender: i’m not nonbinary, i AM the binary. Star Sign: Virgo sun (leo cusp) libra moon leo mercury, venus, mars/leo dominant Height: 5′6??? 5′7??? Time right now: 7:35 PM Last thing I googled: “k2nblog you never walk alone” Favorite Bands: EXO/BTS, winner, b1a4, bulldok, blackpink, mamamoo, streetlight manifesto, nell, radwimps, linkin park, mumford nd sons Favorite Solo Artists: wyf, luhan, tao, crucial star, i really like kanye’s old stuff, akiakane, nd i’ve been really liking j.cole Song stuck in your head: “how to love” - lil wayne lmao Last movie I watched: i’m not even sure??? i think it was that gay movie that harry potter dude was in bc i remember watching that with my gf after we watched “the king nd the clown” Last TV Show I watched: lie to me, but the last one i watched to completion was young justice //cries When did you create your blog: may in 2014??? or march???? (i jst looked it up nd apparently it was may 22nd 2014 nd my first reblog was namjoon.. amazing..) What kind of stuff do you post: bts!!!! nd i try to frequently queue positive posts bc i want my followers/mutuals/myself to be happy nd get reminders about shit, nd then i often post personal posts in tags, and occassionaly you’ll get an exo or another group post but it’s usually an edit/gif i made or a psa about them or something When did your blog reach its peak: well it’s had like one memorable peak when i posted this nd i gained like a couple hundred followers.. this was lit the first popular post i ever got, nd it started peaking again rn bc i made like a couple spring day gifs/edit that are gaining traction lmao Do you have any other blogs: i have too many!! @byxnggk (my bap blog), @suhopsd (my exo blog), @krstljpg (girl group blog), @sxntmntl (boy group blog), nd @mxnsk (aesthetic blog) like i’m gonna make a bad decision nd make another account for an ask blog to hopefully better my art so if you see a photographer yoongi ask blog soon das most likely me Do you get asks regularly: i hardly ever get asks LOL nd when i do it’s usually thea sending me chain asks (which i keep bc i like smiling at them when i’m sad LOL) Why you chose your URL: I REMEMBER OK SO LIKE!!!!!! god i don’t remember how long ago i think it was in like 2015 when i settled for this url but like i was getting really tired of agxstd nd this was when namjoon was like barely beginning to be my bias nd he would release #kimgothic pics frequently so i was like “hey.. i wonder if this is taken???” so i looked nd i saw @/kimgothic was taken but you could ask for the url nd i had (still have) bad anxiety when it comes to sending asks so i was like “fuck no” nd checked if kimgoth was taken nd i settled for kimgoth lmAO (i actually looked it up nd it was 2k15 nd this is literally the longest i’ve ever stuck with a url i don’t think i’m gonna change it) Following: 809! Posts: 25,235 ho l y shit Hogwarts House: i’m not too sure actually!! the first time i took it i got slytherin but my friend (who actually read hp nd has seen the movies) said i wasn’t slytherin bc i wasn’t a snake nd i took it again nd i got ravenclaw so i’m not sure bc i get both pretty evenly whenever i take the quiz Pokémon Team: instinct! Favorite colours: i fucking love pastels but i fucking hate most yellows and oranges, i love black nd white nd light grays too Average hours of sleep: i’m trying to fix my sleep schedule so i’ve been getting 6-9 hours lately Lucky Numbers: i don’t think i have any but my fave numbers are 7 nd 21 Favorite Characters: wally west, dick grayson, artemis, masaomi kida, shinra kishitani, literally all the black rock shooter characters (esp yomi/dead master), karamatsu/jyushimatsu, epsilon/church, griff, the freelancers (esp tex, carolina, north, nd york), amagi yukiko, rock lee, shikamaru nara, asuma, poussey, soso, red, lolly, gloria, sophia, claudette, tricia, nicky, frieda, nd many others that are escaping me atm What are you wearing right now: blue pjs How many blankets do you sleep with: usually 2 Dream job: it changes every once in a while, but atm i’d want like a roosterteeth-esque type of job!! or a famous movie director/producer/cinematographer/writer Dream vacation: going to a korean bts/exo concert to see them in their element

i tag whoever wants to do this!!! (mutuals nd followers alike)

#tagged #thank you sm~~!!#i don't talk to anyone on here really so i never know who to tag #bc the only people i can think of tagging are people i talk to on the daily or near daily so i already know them p well #but these are fun to do so i like being tagged

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alien-origins · 8 years ago

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azalea, begonia, bleeding heart, buttercup, carnation, chrysanthemum, daffodil, dahlia, dandelion, geranium, hydrngea, iris, lavender, lily, marigold, moonflower, morning glory, orchid, pansy, peony, periwinkle, petunia, poinsettia, poppy, primrose, rose, snapdragon, sunflower, tulip, violet, zinnia (some are probably spelt wrong oops) 💗 Have fun answering 💗💗

aaaah this is a lot!! i already answered one i think but i’ll answer with something else instead ! 💗💗💗 thank you for asking though 💗💗

since this got pretty long i’ll put it under a read more!

azalea : what’s one word that describes you ?

bunny

begonia : are you a messy or clean person ?

i am messy but i can’t function in messes and i love cleaning. i guess i just can’t do it at home bc it stresses me out a lot.

bleeding heart : has your heart ever been broken ?

not really? maybe by friends but not by a lover or so. i’ve had a few shitty people breaking my trust

buttercup : what are five things that make you apologetically happy ?

carnation : what are your five most played songs ?

she’s dreaming by exo, get out of my house by hyuna, time boils the rain by kris wu, love in colour by taeyeon (which always makes me think of @chogiwapark) and it was love by zico ft. luna

chrysanthemum : what are you afraid of ?

pretty much everything tbh, a lot of things scare me, casually sudden or loud noises scare me.

daffodil : what’s your astrological sign ?

aquarius and i’m pretty stereotypically an aqua so if you ever want to know abt me read abt them !! however i don’t do drugs :/// stop tumblr from stereotypically assume all aquas smoke weed.

dahlia : what’s your favorite band ?

ummmmmmm obviously bts ???? in case no one gets it i’m sarcastic i think we all know i would die for exo

dandelion : are you an extrovert or an introvert ?

neither, i’m a mix of both i guess. i like being around people and getting to know new people but i’m emotionally dead (typical aqua!) so i just don’t really know.

geranium : how has your day been ?

it’s been okay! mostly sleeping and eating, catching up from the weekend of pride. i also got the notice i won’t be doing military service so that was good! i haven’t done much though, watching a lot of youtube.

hydrangea : what’s your dream job ?

being a fashion designer ! or a housewife to a rich man or woman, like i wanna be a pretty house wife that is really sweet and has my dog dressed in cute sweaters during winter. preferably being both!

iris : who’s your celebrity crush ?

kris wu yifan ooooh daddy

lavender : what’s one of the best gifts you’ve ever received ?

i got a jade bracelet by my bff and it was really great and i just felt so happy receiving something that i wanted a lot and that meant a lot to me

lily : what’s something you’ve achieved that you’re really proud of ?

my small collection of clothes i did last semester, it felt great to create something and put it out on a catwalk. and the praise of my work afterwards was really great and i felt like i was on cloud nine !

marigold : what would you like to do more of, but don’t ?

sports, i would love to go back to doing badminton or jujitsu, i was good at it and i really enjoyed doing those things but i feel kind of…like it’s too late to pick it up again and there are other family stuff that’s in the way

moonflower : who inspires you ?

lee chaerin, kris wu and bea szenfeld. bea i’ve met and worked with for two months (if not more) and she’s a large inspo when it comes to wanting to make it as a designer. chaerin has always been a huge role model for me and i’ve looked up to her since maybe 2010?? and kris, daddy, he just shows that even if you’ve been at the bottom and you want to change something in your life you can. you can break away from something toxic and bad and still come out on top.

morning glory : are you an early bird or a night owl ?

early bird for sure, if i get up after 9am i feel anxious all day bc i loose so many hours of the day.

orchid : what’s the last movie you saw ?

a animated dc movie with batman, don’t remember the name

pansy : do you believe in love at first sight ?

not really, i’m not so sure abt romantic love and i still d on’t reaaaally believe in it so like nah m8. but idk maybe it’ll happen to me and i’ll change my mind!

peony : what does your url mean ?

i’m kai’s mother ( daddy)

periwinkle : what are you thankful for ?

life, i love living even if the world is shit and i’ve been through a lot of hard times and i have realized that i want to see as much as possible and love as much as i can, i just want to be happy ya know

petunia : where were you ten years ago ?

well i was 8 so like i was probably playing with friends, but i was also an 8 year old with anxiety and depression :))

poinsettia : where would you like to be in ten years ?

waking up in a large soft bed with yifan next to me :(((

poppy : what’s your online persona ?

i don’t have one, like, i think i’m way tougher online bc i start crying when i encounter any conflict irl

primrose : if you could share one message with the world, what would it be ?

stop being assholes i want to see children all over the world being happy and being able to walk out and play without being scared

rose : who’s the last person you spent quality time with ?

my two friends yesterday when we had dinner after the pride parade!

snapdragon : what are your goals ?

to become rich, live by the ocean, sit on yifan’s dick at least once and like be remembered when i’m gone

sunflower : what’s your favorite quote ?

the one where luhan says “is there anything better than living” it still makes me so happy and i feel amazing, i’d tattoo it

tulip : if you had three wishes, what would you wish for ?

world peace, infinite money and eternal life !

violet : what’s one thing most people don’t know about you ?

i’ve done a lot of things for money

zinnia : do you believe in magic ?

i mean, what’s the fun totally denying there is no magic at all in the world? something has to be magical, for me it’s watching the stars and watching the waves

#anon #ask

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