#i stg theyre all out to get us

[monotonous-minutia]

essential track on my "trying not to bang my head on the wall while figuring out next year's health insurance" playlist

[aahsoka]

i know teaching kids is hard but i kinda dont like seeing ur video content about the kid in class who always ‘acts like you’re picking on them’ like i know ur tired but maybe you should figure out why they feel singled out like that idk man.

[unnonexistence]

friendship ended with phillips-head screw. now robertson-head screw is my best friend.

really fun to be able to put "drill holes in wall" on your to do list sincerely

[thatdeadaquarius]

I have so many ideas but none of them can be put into words, all I can do is just wheeze as they come along🤣

Also remember how wordy and flowery Teyvat speech/dialogue is? ADD THAT TO THE FACT THAT TEYVAT HAS ITS OWN LANGUAGE---

Reader can understand the basic speech which is why they are so blunt (I love this idea so much 🤣) and can piece together an idea what the person is talking about.

*insert random person talking about a commission with a long ass backstory*

Traveller & Co.: *understands completely and making plans to retrieve said commission*

C!Reader: (They said they had a cart.... a bunch of hilichurls appeared... dancing?.... they want us to dance fight the hilichurls???? Dance off???)

Actual story->The person's cart got ambushed by a group of hilichurls and taunted them by dancing around it.

....... it doesnt always translate well

Also imagine Reader heaeing random names and overthinks it as a word instead of a name.

Example: Pantalone means pants in Philippine English (sorry not sorry Pantalone)

Tsaritsa??? Oh do they speak russian there??? - reader

Capitano -> captain in some countries

(I once mistake Sandrone as Sandalone and I just went "... ehh??? Standalone? Sandalone as in Sand Alone???? Sandal (Flip flops)????

Oh wait its Sandrone" ".... as in Sand and Drone??--)

-Vine Boom

VINE BOOM ANON MY BELOVED 💖❤🧡💛💚💙💜✨️✨️

Gif is me writing u anything ever:

AHFLALA FERRRALLL I STG I ALSO THOUGHT ABT THIS!! WHY U COULD ALSO BE BLUNT BC U ONLY GOT THE BASICS 💀 RIP

Man theyre written language looks so scary to learn, kinda like when I looked into trying to learn Mandarin/Japanese (and even Korean), the letters r just inherently so different i was so intimidated

And u dont even read it like left -> right like English

Omg i tried to reply to a arabic comment on my art post once, and i felt so acommplished when i finally was able to type "اشكرك (thanks)" but like, i had to put it on the OTHER SIDE OF THE TEXT BOX, LIKE ALIGN IT TO THE RIGHT INSTEAD OF HOW U KNOW ENGLISH IS INHERENTLY ALIGNED LEFT, IT WAS SO TRIPPY-

Going thru genshin life only understanding minimal words of anything anyone says is honestly how i feel like ive been playing Genshin LMAO

Those analysis videos/lore are saving a bitch's life out here

PANTALONE IS ALSO RLLY CLOSE TO SPANISH FOR PANTS I KNOW WHAT U MEANNN LOL

UR ENDLESS CONFUSION FOR SANDRONE PLEASE ANON U DIDNT EVEN GET IT RIGHT THE FIRST CORRECTION IT JUST KEPT GETTING WORSEEE 😂😭 SAME THO

That would literally be you in genshin tho, like i could easily see it being like, back to back misunderstandings 😭😭

Like u think u got it right (Oh so his name is Rex Lapis, wait what? Morax? Ok his name is Morax...?? What??? Zhongli??? WHO IS THIS MAN-)

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JFC first they gotta have a whole different language (like u saw in game)

And ON TOP OF THAT THEY CAN TALK FOR 10 MIN STRAIGHT ABT THE WEATHER OR SOME SHIT??

No... just, no.

U quickly decide u like what little bits of language u could pick up so far, which just results in,

U guessed it, simple speech and short fragmented sentences (or broken Teyvatian)

U cant even bring urself to care when u give half the characters a heart attack and send the rest into laughing fits

No fucks given, they wanna make this extra hard on u by being wordy on top of a new language,

Yeah u dont care what comes out of ur mouth anymore

Also, since everybody is raised in Teyvat very few ppl dont know the language, which once again brings us back to ancient/older deities/creatures who have a more simplistic version/outdated version of modern language

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Omg getting stuff mistranslated bc u cant understand it all/only keywords sounds like hell but also rlly funny

Traveler/Paimon: "Alright, yes, all is well. We will accept this comission, and depart soon."

You: "...they want us to?? Dance fight?? Hilichurls...???"

Traveler just stares at u half in pity, half trying to hide their amused smile, Paimon is giggling

The commissioner is shook bc a supposed ancient creature?? Just accepted?? Their simple commission?? And u think they want u to dance battle???

.

PLEASE U MISTRANSLATE THE HARBINGERS NAMES RIGHT TO THEIR FACES

Signora: "You shall rue the day you crossed the Fatui mortals!"

You: "Lady we don't care, just fight us."

(Signora just means 'Lady')

Signora: *offended gasp*

Traveler/Paimon trying to stifle laughter

Raiden Shogun jaw dropped a little

.

Pantalone: "What a pleasure to finally meet you traveler, and thine wonderful companions!" *little bastard smile*

You: "And it was awful to meet you, Pants."

Pantalone: 😶😧😡 "Pants?! HOW DARE YOU NOT EVEN GIVE ME THE MOST BASE RESPECT, AFTER I GREETED THEE SO KINDLY-"

.

Oh its so funny, everytime you talk about Childe you always phrase it like he's an actual child bc u thought everyone was just calling him a little kid for some reason (u dont know how Teyvat ages work, he could be for all you know!)

Not very long, but Vine Boom anon your brain >>>>

Ur ideas r so on point, i love them sm

That makes perfect sense why u could be talking blunt too, like an in world explanation really

For you, all the desserts🥰 🤲🍪🍨🍰🍮🧋🍦🍡

Cheers,

🌒🌊🌧Aquarius♒️🌌🌘

[fitzrove]

Every time i look at 1992 uwe tod i come away thinking that tod just..... should be weird. We can't be having normie tods running around... I want him to be this completely inhuman figure who tries to get close to humanity (because how do you personify death??) but deeply misunderstands some things, especially things like human behaviour and emotions. Máté is good at this too, he just did it in a different way, but after those two the effect is never really potent enough again. I mean, there is something to say for prods with humanized or gentle etc tods, at least theyre doing something else than mrak seiber, but it's not quite it for me at least. He needs to be weird because Elisabeth is weird and, dissatisfied with her life, craves a poem in the flesh.

And for me personally (this is not me saying gender non conformity is weird or inhuman btw, it's not, it's just hot and looks good) i want back the mayerling dress and all that, and the actors should be styled accordingly, if he's not going to put on eyeshadow and blush and get dolled up to kill rudolf then don't fucking cast him?? There are enough musical actors out there who like straying from the mold, the overlap between drag performers and musical artists is not insignificant. Hell, if despite your best attempts macho guys are still the only guys you can find, then cast a woman (trans or cis - for a trans woman the role might be easier/not require rewrites, because of vocal range), cast a nonbinary performer. You don't really have to change stuff in the script, someone who's not a man can still be a "prince" if the styling is androgynous. It really is that simple...

also this should maybe be a separate post but 1992 is so iconic for portraying mayerling as a romance, rudolf running to embrace tod, twirly dancing, Big Damn Kiss (rudolf barely notices the actual act of shooting himself, he's so busy making out) - up until the very end, when rudolf is dumped unceremoniously on the floor. symbolism. It's such a better deeper way to tackle the subject. Suicidal ideation doesn't just beat you over the head violently, mental illness/depression lures you in with promises of a "solution" but actually only offers a miserable nothing.

This is also why it's so important for Elisabeth to get dumped on the floor as well - there's more care in that than in how Rudolf is treated, Tod is obviously distraught, but that's the point and the tragedy of the show!!!! Freedom is fleeting, dreams are fleeting, emotion is fleeting, but yearning for them is what makes us human!!

If he carries her away the moral of the story becomes "if you die you get a hot supernatural partner that's obsessed with you!!!" No!!!!!!! The romance narrative is a big lie, suicidal ideation is a big lie, history is a big lie, it's all connected, but we always cover shit up with kitsch because some people prefer a simple romantic reading to the degree that they warp the rest of the story around it. I stg people have just replaced sissi movie trilogy fairytale prince FJ (1950s) with elisabethdasmusical fairytale prince modern peugeot king mark seibert leather tod (2020s) or insert whatever other boyfriend death you prefer

[uniformbravo]

since i've spent the past few days essentially staring at nothing but natsuyuu volume covers i thought it'd be so fun and silly to try and redraw them all from memory tee hee. all 30 (thirty) (三十) of them!!! wheee!!!!

i haven't actually looked at them next to the originals yet so guess what time it is!!!! LET'S COMPARE

starting with volume 1. iconic. show stopping. masterpiece. the mona lisa of natsuyuu SURELY i reproduced every single detail perfectly such that it kickstarts my career as a forgery artist RIGHT

well feast ur eyes

(im using the english volumes for comparison btw they have a good clear view of the art)

CAN U TELL WHICH IS WHICH OOO THEYRE SO ALIKE BET U CANT!!! SPOT THE DIFFERENCE LEVEL 1000 WHICH ONE DO U SHOOT

all i remembered for this one was GREEN and it's not even the right shade of green ajgosugdjfkdgj i even made the fuckin. what do u call it. i'll just say yukata??? I MADE IT GREEN AND ITS SUPPOSED TO BE RED i stg if u held a gun to my head & asked if there was any red on vol 1 i'd be DEAD

but i remembered the book of friends is like. weirdly purple? ok well in this pic it looks p gray BUT ON OTHER COPIES...... IF U UP THE SATURATION GKSJKDNFKDG

why is nyanko sensei smack dab in the middle HUH i couldve sworn he was bottom left this is so fucked up and scary. haunted manga volume??????? i bought it from a grarage sale idk you guys-

at least natsume's pose is like kind of right but also that's most definitely a complete accident i can ASSURE u (im rereading this the next day and the pose isnt even CLOSE what are u TALKING ABOUT)

anyway can i just fucking point out the kanji on the book of friends bc that is from MEMORY YEEHAW here's what it's Supposed to look like: 友人帳

LIKE even tho i got the last one wrong ITS LIKE STILL PRETTY CLOSE??? i think i deserve 100 points for this objectively

MOVING ON THO....

OK NOT AS BAD AS I THOUGHT SURPRISINGLY im actually like. i thought i bombed this one completely but liKE THE COMPOSITION??? KIND OF ON POINT. KIND OF GENIUS TBH

i remembered Blue and Madara and like what else do u need rly. butterflies are optional in all scenarios imo

also i NEVER have any idea what natsume's wearing in any of these so i always just like default throw him into his school uniform LMAO u will see a pattern

why is the book of friends burgundy in this one btw. it was GRAY i mean purple definitely purple aha

ok volume 3 im actually scared for i know i fucked up SOMETHING

HGLKFKGLKFKGFN OK!!!!! OK NOT SUPER AWFUL!!!! just noticed i forgor to color the book of friends fukg

main thing i remembered abt this one was the color of natsume's... attire.... and which characters were present. whats sensei doing all the way up in the top corner tho 0/10

return of the school uniform lmaooooo hm. irrelevant who cares plus didnt ask. all things considered this wasn't as bad as i thought. THE NEXT ONE HOWEVER,

hsngjfgnfjn okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

sensei's way cuter in this one than i realized wait wtf this cover's cute af how did i never notice. underrated cover -10 @ me. look at his lil BLEP >:O!!!!!!!

i knew there was some fuckshit going on w the yukata in this one ourhg i was just like hehe greeennnn also sensei's there. my work here is done

what is natsume's pose even hgnkg i was straight up making shit up at this point LIKE the first 6 or so covers are SO hard for me to distinguish in my head i should get a free pass for the poses in all of them like i can do whatever i want IM the artist now

oh god whats next vol 5

OK!!!! like a straight 5/10 TBH i literally forgot i was planning on rating these LMAO

i remembered the like white v-neck shirt thing and his pose kind of??? i had NO idea what to do for the yukata tho i just made it orange and u know what?? close enough. my rule of thumb is just like pick a color and then throw flowers all over it u cant go wrong

taki looks so much more mysterious on the original and also wearing a skirt. i gave her a big stick bc i thought i remembered her having one in general but i think i made that up tbh wouldn't put it past me. got her hat right tho hee haw

cant believe i didn't get natsume's beautiful artwork tho look at that little shit sensei up there god hes so ROUMD literally moma material

PROBABLY my best one yet uhhhh but i maybe cheated JUST a little for this one ITS LIKE BARELY CHEATING STOP BOOING ME

as i was toying w the idea of doing this redraw thing i was still working on collecting my Images and Pictures so i kinda started taking note of a few small things here & there and one of them was just. the general gist of this cover SO LIKE that's why it's so good LOL

forgor the flowers tho. i literally forget everything that isn't a character like immediately BUT OK CUT ME SOME SLACK like after a point the covers start being whole ass scenes which are SO much easier to remember shit abt than the fuckin Green Void (p sure this is the last green void cover tho)

8/10 composition is gr8 but details like the shirt & the yellow flowers are wrong, also the stick is backwards. i literally looked up what that thing is called and forgot already tee hee

OK WE'RE NOT DONE W THE GREEN VOID I REPEAT-

fuck dude. fuck. i rly thought vol 6 was the last one LOL not to spoil but as i was grabbing these images i saw a Preview of what's to come and the green void lasts until fuckign volume TEN LOL collapses onto the ground and dies

so erhermrm this is vol 7 lolllll i remembered the bg flowers this time can u believe hahaha distracts u from the fact that LITERALLY everything else is wrong auhghg

u know what the green void turned into bushes and i think that's beautiful.... like points for creativity on my part tbh. like to be completely honest. 3/10 i got the characters right

YO????? GATE CONFIRMED LET'S GO?????? it's definitely the school gate but i choose to believe natsume & tanuma r in jail for crimes and u should too

actually this is shockingly accurate for how much i goddamn struggled w this one gkjsldkg the CHARACTERS are right the OUTFITS are right SENSEI'S THERE urgh i knew one of these covers had tanuma holding sensei like that but i couldn't remember Which

i can't believe i actually got tanuma's pose that close i rly thought i was bullshitting w that one wtf. +5 points instantly

do u like how i just scribbled sensei wherever lmaoooo i drew natsume & tanuma & went like. i think sensei's in this one. PLOP

6/10 honestly closer than i thought

OK........ I SEE........ literally dies

this one i was getting MASSIVELY confused w vol 4 bc i could remember nothing distinct abt either of them except Green and natsume w Big Doggie

i remembered the BARE essentials of the composition but not much else... since i thought the green void was gone i put the green i remembered into natsume's yukata (and then put him in the school uniform again LOL) and went WELP. GUESS I'LL DIE NOW

2/10 honestly one of the worst fucking ones lskdjflsdkg

OK THIS ONE.... i almost died irl trying to remember this shit, even before i started and i was still viewing the covers i was like there is no way in HELL im remembering this shit for vol 10. and i was right

like. Purple. White Mask. Antlers. WILD layered clothing. at first i drew the mask as an actual deer skull but later had a straight up epiphany and redrew it like that which... still not correct but I MEAN.... IT'S PRETTY GOOD

i cant believe most of the purple is the bg oughgh his clothes are WHITE..... this is fucked up. i DID remember the stick tho, bells and everything!! actually bells and nothing else!!!

7/10 ok it might seem high but CONSIDERING this design..... i think i did shockingly well TBH

NOT...... the worst...... one....... i could've sworn he was sitting on a pile of books this is so sad that woulda been so cute 😭

for a second when i saw the real cover again i thought he was sitting ON the bookshelf and i was about to RIOT but its okay it's a step stool. still physically possible

my version of natsume here is so much more like Proper gksld he looks like a school boy... studying in the academy's library... hardworking student.... but no the real one is just sitting there like a wet puppy orz he's not even READING i rly thought he was reading. this is such a huge L

cannot fucking believe i was right abt the window tho. like wrong shape but the fact that it's even there.... giving myself a whole ass point for that one

5/10 i rly thought i nailed this one gksgndfkj

also RIP TO THE GREEN VOID U WILL NOT BE MISSED o7

ah shit ok. well one of them was in the school uniform at least fjgugjdkf

why is my natsume lying there like hes abt to start a therapy session, boy would NEVER-

also the plushie hmnmhnmhngnf i dont KNOW i knew there was some kind of prop there but like gun to my head i woulda died again. main colors that stood out to me for this were green and that bluish purple so i got those into mine but i mean. well u can see

once again a random window in the bg i got correct let's gooooo 5/10

LMAO SPITS OUT MY DRINK WHOOPSIE!!!!!!

this is so fucking bad im choking im gurgling LOLLLL i was SO sure natsume's paper had an eye on it i was POSITIVE this is so fucked up. i mean obvs i picked that up from sensei but like i didn't even KNOW sensei was there. or that there were bg characters at all uuuuuououohghh (matoba ignored +5)

i was like. black yukata red flowers CHECK piece of paper w eye CHECK horns CHECK i even went back and edited the horns to be more accurate i was so proud of myself sobs

ok but i knew it was shit trasjh when those were the ONLY details i could remember bc obviously there was gonna be more going on I JUST DIDN'T REALIZE HOW MUCH MORE.....

straight up dookie/10 no jk fr like 3/10 @ me u need to use ur EYES

OK..... I WAS VERY CONFIDENT ABT THIS ONE..... except for his outfit i knew i was bullshitting that BUT I THOUGHT I NAILED THIS ONE....... the one fucking time i didn't just default to his uniform LMFAO

even remembered the pink flower ball smh and for WHAT. i knew he was sitting in a pile of plushies & blankets or smth but no way in HELL was i even gonna attempt to draw them with a speck of detail. but HEY the plushie i drew for vol 12!!! i knew he existed Somewhere. he doesn't even have a horn tho thats so fucked up i thought he did

obviously the most striking thing abt this cover is the bg w that deep burgundy & the circular window so that was the main thing i nailed down right away (my palette was more muted tho). also natsume sitting there w paper in his mouth but i thought he was mid return when rly hes playing like keep-the-balloon-off-the-floor or whatever the fuck he's doing. i love u natsume

(if i thought he was in the middle of returning a name WHY didn't i include the actual book of friends flksglkd automatic fake fan/10)

8/10 this was like my ace in the hole i was like if i got nothing else i got U volume 14!!! and then

NOT THE FAMILY PHOTO......... FUCKING DIES

man idk shit just end me. whats even going on in this cover im gonna deck u natori. dont ask why this makes me want to commit violence hes just so. URHGHGHnH

i dont know whats happening to me rn looking at this im losing my fucking grip dude who let this happen im gonna hurl this volume into the sun??? i think???

why did i add the other two youkai i just thought they should be included but i played myself i had to draw them from memory and for WHAT. pls tell me i got them at least a little bit right i stg

it's the crossed legts dude if he was just sitting there like a board the way i drew him id be like ah shit it was just natori sitting not natsume too but he just HAS to cross his legs and the fucing elbow propped up holding the glasses im S MAD IM SO MADdestroy him

it's 1am i gotta go. i have to go. right now my mom is calling me i have to fukcng. 4/10 i got the couch colorr right. bye

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tumglr...... only allows 30 pictures per post..... bc im not on desktop? or is that a site-wide thing now. in any case this is getting long so i think im gonna split it right down the middle into 2 posts so there u go, first 15 volumes. so far my score is ermmm

well i didn't rate the first few volumes.

vol 1: 6/10 decent

vol 2: 6/10 also decent

vol 3: 5/10 composition is Scramboled

vol 4: 2/10 it's SO BAD

so now my overall score is 74/150 fjggudjofjdkgjk doing gr8!!!!!!!!!

ok bye for real ✌️

[alastair-1205]

Episode 14 reactions

FALSHBACK 2

WITH KAI AND JAY

Damn this is just mean to Cole sepcifically lol

LMAO THE SHOW AGREES

I mean he’s not wrong but why are we seeing this I wonder?

Awwwwww 

CAN SHE PLZ BE LIKE A LITTLE MORE SAD??? I LOVE THIS SHOW BUT I NEED NYA TO BE AS AGONIZED AS JAY ONCE WAS MAN 

Yea I don’t think to was the real him. But someone might be messing with Nya

Arin :(

I still think it was Ras

FLASHBACK 3 WITH PARENTS

He misses his mom man :(

Oh that looks like a trap

…did Frack do it? Is Frack evil? Or is he a red hearing 

I’m probably getting played but I don’t trust Frack man

Lmaoooo she has a crush what a nerd

I think Robie likes her back. It’s kinda cute lol

LMAO ARIN. True tho

THEY ARE GAY

I want them to be married so fucking and man

WHO’S WATCHING UR CHILDREN GUYS 

They’re on a dateeeeee

LILY MENTION I CAN DIE HAPPY 

LOOK AT HOW THEY LOOK AT EACH OTHERRRRR

AND THE MOTM THEME PLAYING TOO 

I’m normal I swear 

More Jordana!

She’s got issuesssss

OH I FUCKING KNEW IT 

“I wouldn’t lie to you Arin” IS A CRAZYYYY LINE MAN 

Ok Nya praying is a cool detail to add actually 

KAI AND BONZEL

Ooooooo possession mechanics my beloved 

That’s so interesting actually I wanna see more of them

FUCK YOU CINDER

No pressure to anything lmao

Idk man I think Wyldfyre has a point here. It’s not like it’d be cheating….

ZANE MY BELOVED

Lmao I love him sm

Zane you have saved the world like 16 times you’ll be fine 

He better not get out first I stg-

Beckt is so fucking done lmao

BOOOOOOOOOO

Zane’s having flashbacks rn 

Zane I love you, but excessive force is kinda ur guys’ whole thing. I respect the sentiment tho.

I DIDNT THINK THEY’D ACTUALLY DO IT

THE TOX CARD WAS A MISDIRECT THOSE BASTARDS 

EVEN GEO’S FUCKING CONFUSED 

Lloyd is remarkably shill about this

YEA THATS UR BESTIE COLE

Geo is lowkey more devastated than the ninja lmaooooo

He relates to the lovers agony ig

Oh this is still actually sad man

NOT JAY ROASTING HER TECHNIQUE LMAO

Rip to the audience watching this fucking soap opera

YES HE IS AGENT WALKER 

So I’m guessing that convo with Bonzel inspired him to escape 

Holy fuck they actually did that to him

BADASS JAY FOR LIKE 1 MINUTE I CONSIDER THIS A WIN

I like how only the kids are cheering :(

Making Nya use lighting is actually so tragic I fucking love it 

OH THE WAY JAYS VOICE SOUNDED ON THAT LINE

I’m normal and not at all deranged about Jay Walker. Not at all

OH SHIT

RIYU POSSESION TIME? LOL??

THEYRE GONNA KNOW BONZELS ALIVE YAY

[sunlightandsuffering]

lys random sharing lol so i had a gender & sex class today for a gig at a catholic university lol and i could just see that the kids were getting squeamish about all that talk

we were at the point of discussing how gendered roles in reproductive work are often used against women and well, how protection is so fucking important for the matter...ik nothing was sinking in their heads

so i said something like '...if you we do that, how can we embody being a smart hot girl? and hot girls are smart, so we should make smarter decisions!' aaaand i got their attention and then they became more participative in discourse 😭

i talk like that with friends and ig it just slipped out...and it just sunk in while i waz preparing for bed tonight like oml how cringy was that!!! in front of college freshmen nonetheless! they're a different breed because it's a catholic school and all, but im comforting myself with the fact that im just a few years older than them 😂

im so embarrassed now lmao anything to help them review for midterms ig

A CATHOLIC SCHOOL IS LIKE VERY BOLD OF U

I will never get over that the tampon is modelled after a penis not bc it’s like better functionality wise or bc they put any thought at all into the design but purely bc they were like yeah OBVIOUSLY it should be modelled after a penis.

BABE BE MORE CONFIDENT IN URSELF!! If u can get them to relate that’s what’s most important especially for catholic kids like out of everyone they’re most vulnerable bc they don’t believe in abortion and that stuff so it’s important they’re informed!! U did them a favour!! Bruh don’t worry tho I work with chaotic children and like THEYRE AO SAVAGE AND I STG SOMETIMES THEY HATE ME!! But u just gotta roll with it lmfao who gives a fuck what they think of u, ur not there to be their friend ur there to help them out!!

IM PROUD OF U KEEP USING THE HOT GIRL ANALOGY LOL!! Honestly I’m at the point where I love giving wisdom to the kids 😂😂 and stealing their vocabulary and using it incorrectly. Like if you don’t use protection and end up with a baby you don’t want… you’re cooked bruh

[estbela]

@moonstone-vibe

Wellllll...I do have some thoughts about them(since I think that's what you're asking?) but theyre all very rambley and subject to change as I learn more etc etc etc (and this period of history is not one I'm very familiar with, I know a basic summary of stuff and some specific events, but not everything).

Alright, since we have gotten the (really long) disclaimer out of the way, I'm gonna ramble on a bit about these thoughts of mine.

(This took so much to write i stg)

anyway!

I think they met during the 14th century, the late 14th century to be precise, while the Ottoman Empire was expanding through Europe.

Apparently the first confrontation they had was during the rule of Vladislav I , a ruler of Wallachia, who was allied at the time with Ivan Shishman , the emperor of the Bulgaria in Tarnovo, who was not doing very well at the time btw, partly because of the Ottoman Empire lol.

Bulgaria is gonna be mentioned a lot during this, I fear, because I think he does play some role in their dynamic.

Ro, or well as he would have been called at the time, Wallachia, had been part of the Second Bulgarian Empire for a pretty long time, though eventually gaining more and more autonomy, and sort of becoming a vassal state of sorts for a time(basically still kinda being part of Bulgaria, but nominally really), still having to pay tribute to Bul tho. (Also for some time Hungary & Bul basically had a dispute over some part of Wallachia, but as Hungary was weakening due to Mongol attacks, it paved the way to Wallachia being established)

Although that's not important and Im kinda getting sidetracked. Anyway Wallachia does kinda get it's independence, altho it's more like Bul not being able to control it anymore due to the weakening of his empire (before becoming a vassal of the Otttoman Empire, which we'll get to shortly!)

I think they heard of eachoter before meeting, thought. Probably good and bad things, but mostly bad. For Wallachia, Ottoman was the guy that was going around conquering the lands of his friends, including Bulgaria & Serbia, and she...was not really happy about this, obviously. He was actually often allied with Bul, to fight him off(altho not always, relationships between Bul & Wallachia were not always good). For the Ottoman Empire, Wallachia was a thorn in his plans, Bulgaria's even more annoying other half.

Similar to the Byzantine Empire, the Ottoman Empire considered itself the successor to Ancient Rome, which really annoyed Wallachia, because he really didn't want to deal with another annoying guy who considered himself as great as the Roman Empire (Wallachia did not have a good relationship with the Eastern Roman Empire, but he would pick him over the Ottoman Empire surely).

And so, Ro did not see Ottoman as anything other than another empire trying to claim the glory of Rome, that would probably not last very long until the next one came. Simply a flicker in mankind's history. He had done and seen this before many times, just another nation that would try to claim her land and people. He was not scared of him, didn't feel much for him besides annoyance at first.

But I do think, over the years, they gained some respect for eachoter, for their skills in battle and outside of that.

Also annoyance eventually turned into anger at him, because how dare he take his friends away from him and hurt them! How dare he take Wallachia's independence away, too!

And so he became even more annoying. His plans were basically to not make it worthwhile to conquer his lands, to make the cost of a battle unjustifiable.

And they did fight, but Wallachia always somehow managed to keep being a vassal state, part of the reason because he was a buffer zone for a lot of european powers and stuff.

And like...I think this fighting of theirs became some sort of "dance" for them, something they were used to. Their own game of chess, if you will. Turk would make a move, then Ro, and it kept going, none of them ever truly changing the status quo, Wallachia remaining a vassal but never truly part of the Ottoman Empire, always slightly out of reach, never his.

It probably drove Turkey a little mad, but he also kinda liked it. I think when they weren't enemies they could get along pretty great, but both of them would rather eat knives than admit that (especially Ro :]]] )

I'll be honest, i think there were moments when Wallachia scared the crap out of Turkey, not that he'd admit it, of course, but little Ro could be really creepy.

The Ottoman Empire didn't scare Ro much, more like the reminder of what he could do to Ro and his loved ones(and what he already did) scared her, and his people also. Specifically that if Wallachia wasn't careful, the little freedom & independence he has could be taken away.

So Wallachia when he'd interact with him during times of peace ig, would always be careful to not actually get attached to the guy, constantly reminding herself of what he could be like. He always treaded lightly around him. Constantly telling herself that he's the enemy!!!

As time went on however, their relations got more...tense then they already were. Wallachia wanted independence and later a union with Moldavia and the Ottoman Empire did not want this to happen.

And of course, I ought to mention the Phanariots. God, save for maybe a few of them, Wallachia hated them so much! And sometimes it wasn't anything they did, it was more that they weren't his own people, and paying to get to rule over him and his people and lands. Definitely not happy about this was he.

Anyway eventually the whole thing happens when Moldavia & Wallachia elect the same guy (Alexandru Ioan Cuza) yada yada yada they unite and Turkey is probably not really happy (random, but apparently Austria was actually the main opposer of this while Prussia supported the union, and really not happy but was caught in the austro-prussian war do couldn't do much about it.)

And eventually Romania gains his independence, fighting alongside the Russian Empire, Bulgaria, and also Serbia & Montenegro I think? Anyway Romania gets her independence, and he & the Ottoman Empire are on pretty bad terms.

But after Romania became independent; things actually, slowly, started to improve between the two. They became...friends of a sort. Although they both wouldn't admit it obviously, they are fond od eachoter. They probably even look fondly back on some of their memories and shit.

But they don't have the best relationship either. That perhaps, there is still some resentment and hurt there, just a little, that neither is keen on adressing ever.

Anyway I don't particulary see them as romantic but I can imagine Ro getting probably mad at Bulgaria or something, feeling hurt and probably flirting with Turkey to piss him off.

I can see Ro kissing Turkey but like, to surprise him in order to fight him or something. Kiss him then surprise punch him while he's trying to process it haha.

Also I basically have my physical age headcanons written for Ro here but I basically see Turkey as being always a few years older than Ro historically, like 2, or 3 at most? (which is probably way younger than in canon, but then again, canon is dead and we do what we want.) I see Turkey as being in modern times in his mid to late 20s, at most, early 30s (I see him being called an "old man" but he doesn't look that old to me AT ALL so I'm really confused, plus it wouldn't make sense for him to be way older than the main cast for a lot of reasons etc etc. But maybe it's just me idk)

So yeah, I don't see turkro romantically, I guess? Nonetheless they have the potential of a very interesting and fun(and perhaps a little fucked up :] ) dynamic. Perhaps a little romance here and there, maybe in the current era, but they'd both have to go through a lot of character development for that :]]]

These days, they probably hang out sometimes, do stupid shit together, and actually have a really fun time. They probably recall some of their more fun memories, talk about the times they won in a conflict with the other, argue about something then get drunk and laugh with eachoter.

also a lot of these things also apply to my Moldavia OC and her relationship with Turkey, altho not all cause her personality is different from Romania's obviously.

[seased]

7 movies 7 tags!

was tagged by @clannfearrunt hello con! i honestly watch a lot of movies, i have that kind of brain worm that needs a constant stream of input, but i feel like most of them just bounce off my skull...

Close Encounters of the Third Kind (1977) - this one pretty much traumatized me as a kid but it's been on my mind again. guy gets alien visions & makes a big pile of dirt in his living room... big enough his wife wants a divorce. what more do you need?

Apollo 18 (2011) - one of my favorites of all time. i just think they did a stellar job using the NASA footage gimmick for found footage horror.

Evangelion rebuild original trilogy (07, 09, 12) - most recent movies i watched (today). i still think theyre neat but im one of those eva meta text freaks sooooo... watched em with a friend whos never seen eva before lol.

The Black Hole (1979) - "In! Through! And beyond!". another childhood brain worm... but this one SUCKS. theres a spaceship on the edge of a black hole, and you just wont believe what the megalomaniacal robot obsessed captain has done to his crew.

Bladerunner 2049 (2017) - has just been on my mind. i think they did a decent job making a sequel to bladerunner that doesnt feel like a hollow pander-fest.

The Creator (2023) - most recent movie i saw in theaters. oh my god if youve seen the trailers and thought it looked BAD. im here to tell you. it was. i was head in hands for half the thing stg.

Dinosaur (2000) - i always put dinosaur on lists like this bc it was the one i was MOST obsessed with as a kid. i wore that vhs OUT. and yet i cannot for the life of me remember how that movie ends.

i think the original intent of this game was like "list 7 movies" lmao but do whatever... idk if yall like memes like this but opportunity to talk about movies! @yardsard666 @neozoid @inkysquabble @kiwigreenie @bloodsbane @the-ideaist and i dont have a 7th person

[saetoshis]

OK WE GOT THE MOST DRIEST TEXTERS BUT WHO R THE MOST FUNNIEST OR LIKE “non-driest” TEXTERS OF BLLK

OMG THE FUNNIEST??? oh shit mmmm lemme think …

number 1 - karasu / otoya : both of them… def have rizz. that word is lowkey cringe but like it fits yk?? otoya is such a ladies man as we all know but … i think theyre both rlly flirty n i couldnt pick btw the two so they both get the no. 1 spot !! they r lowkey players so b aware snifle !! 🥲

number 2 - chris prince : im ngl to you… i think that man is secretly so funny like hes such an extrovert ! i just KNOW hes the center of attention n loves lovess talking to ppl on the phone. also has a lot of ‘rizz’ LMFOAKA hes def a snapchat kinda guy i can feel it. always sending shirtless pics tho like ok we get it 🤨

number 3 - oliver : oliver is ALWAYS ON THAT DAMN PHONE i stg hes like. out places w friends in the corner laughing at smth a friend said .. or texting multiple girls at once (bc as we know .. oliver isnt like ahem faithful?? sobs) but i think oliver is actually prob rlly funny w his friends n def uses cringe pickup lines tho i can feel it in my bones .. what a loser 🥲

[lqfiles]

THE BOOKMARKING EVERY TWEET NAURRRRRR WHEN UR FOMO JUST HIT TOO HARD LIKE THAT😭😭😭😭😭😭 ok literally the exact same thing when they went to LA for that starstruck thing but we had no idea wtf they were doing so ppl kept posting such random clips like guys... that should be me... Oh dont even worry about me its like impossible (riize mentioned?👀) for me to go go tds FOR THIS YEAR AT LEAST. I gotta lock in school like ive never locked in before so sadly i am retiring from being dreamzen daughter for a bit 🥹🥹

OH THEYRE NOT READY INDEED WE'RE ABT TO TERRORIZE THE STREETS WITH OUR HATER TWEETS AND BRAINROT THOUGHTS 🤫🤫 plzzz make a main ill deadass follow even if im the only follower #loyalty also im not sure if ure okay with receiving dms but if u are and u give me the green light.. i might hit u up 👀 stay tuned 👀

AUGJDHEHDH ALSO GHE NEW PROFILES AND DESCS ARE SOOOO CUTESY AND PERFY I LOVE IT SM IM LOWK GETTING LIT but im like here from the beginning of the smau ik im gonna dai waiting for updates. Like with stg i came across it and got hooked AF so it was chill... but now ig we gotta play the nonchalancy 🚬

LOOKING FORWARD TO THE AU THO EEEKK i be checking ur active status like every once in a while and be like Damn i wonder what lqfilesnim up to rn?🤔

- 🍮 (ur fav)

DOMT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE STARSTRUCK CONTENT ISTG WHAT HAS LA DONE FOR THEM TO DESERVE RHAT PRIVILEGE……. they got to dance with them got to hug them got to play with them got to talk to them, should i just kill myself? starstruck preparations was so funny tho because they announced it like 4 months before the actual thing came out 😭😭😭 we all thought we got lied to they were playing too much istg, i loved that content tho it was fun to see them interact with strangers and get admired from afar (tho some moments were a bit errrr… that girl who acted like she knew mark and mistook him for got7 mark like oh that’s not???)

I CANF LIE THATS THE BOTH OF US HDHSJDHSK it’s just that i rlly wanna go at least once 😭😭 i should be focusing on studies fr but the fomo is tooo big and i heard they’re gonna perform bungee THATS MY TOP 3 SONGS I HAVE TO BE THERE OR I WILL DIE. i hope you still get to somehow go tho, the both of us should be able to experience such a fun moment 🥹

when yoy and me become mutuals and you find out just how hateful i can get like daaaamn you really negative that much..? but DONT WORRY YOU CAN BE ONE OF MY FIRST MUTUALS IF RHAT HAPPENS #LOYALCHINGU. tbh i hate the dming on here a lot but you can 100% message me i swear!! i feel like people are intimidated by me but i swear i’m so approachable and down to earth yall 💔 i need friends on here anyways because i swear it’s hard to make friends on here (i normally immediately log out of here and go to my other account after i post tho so be warned if i respond late hshdksj also i’m a bad texter.. confession..)

WE GETTING LITTY ASF IKTRRR i kinda can’t wait to post the rest i already got chaps ready and a good chunk of the plot too. I WILL TRY TO UODATE REGULARLY!!! i updated every other day with stg you guys will survive i’m sure, hang in there aegi, lqfilesnim is cooking🙏🏽

[the-blaze-empress]

i think TECHNICALLY i started out on the specific site for fanfic of the 'School for Good and Evil' book series. cant remember the name of it, not sure it counts

surprisingly no. i was a pinterest girlie (slash gender neutral)

hahahahah yes. of course.

nop not rlly smth im that interested in tbh

i am literally starting another rp in between writing these bullet points ive been rping for so many fucking years oh my god i got discord because of rp

yah ive beta read fics, original work, school work, all sorts. less in recent years but still yes

i havent had a fic beta'd for uhhhhhh two years!! yah since i got into the myct fandom space properly its all been fresh straight from the google doc baybee

i am writing like two self indulgent fics rn. i have written so many self indulgent fics. theyre the best

look sometimes a keysmash is the best way to get ur thoughts across bc sometimes it do just b like 'SJKDFHDSJKF' yknow?

literally all the time i am so forgetful of what i have or havent left kudos on

i love fluff yes but its best when paired with a good amount of hurt

used to be like. 90% a ship writer (against my actual desires, i always liked exploring gen relationships n shit more than writing pure romance)

i wouldnt call it a genre, id call it a format. i can and will write an essay on this

currently only actively writing for mcyt but have written and will continue to write for other fandoms. am spinning ruthari around in my head soooo fast. also sorvus.

FUCK researching im literally gonna avoid it as much as i can i stg

i didnt used to but i started doing it a few years ago and now i live by it. sometimes i do chapter by chapter and sometimes just the key points to hit

yeah literally always. i often intentionally distract myself with smth else for a while

a few times yeah!! i treasure ALL OF IT SO MUCH!!!!

hahahahhhhhh yeah so many. so so many. rip enderdragon tubbo thats the best beeduo i will ever write

editing? whos she? i barely edit after finishing smth (i tend to edit as i go along) but formatting my BELOATHED

'i dont need to write this down ill remember it in the morning' *does not remember it in the morning*

never been drunk so no

also dont drink tea or coffee so another no

nuclear winter series you are beloved in my heart <33

ehhh no i wanna be a professional filmmaker. ill still write but i dont want to make it my Whole Thing yknow?

tagging anyone who wants to do this!!

Fanfiction Writer Bingo

I was tagged by @backwardshirt in this post!

Ooooh I got a Bingo! I got TWO bingos! THREE!!!

Couple Clarifications:

oh yeah I had a wattpad phase. No, you won't find anything written by me currently on wattpad.

Good luck finding my smut content; it's a secret ;) (if you're under 18, do not ask me for it at all, please)

I never get anything I write beta-read before posting. I don't have that kind of restraint, I want to post when I want to post and I don't want to wait for someone else to read it over (and I am really my own hardest editor anyway; always have been).

"Fanfiction is an actual genre" - I did not mark this one because it's not true? Fanfiction has many genres within it. It is Actual Writing, most definitely, but it isn't it's own genre. It spans across all genres. (it's like saying "novellas are a genre" or "comics are a genre"; no. They are a Form of Media, and very valid, but not a genre)

Yeah, someday I would love to publish original works and be able to make a living doing what I love. I even have some original stuff in the works to hopefully publish, but sometimes I go back and forth with the idea, unsure if I really wanna go down the money route. Yes I know professional writers should have editors and alpha readers and beta readers. But it's different than fanfic. I don't feel like it's the same, so therefore for me it is not and I can justify it. Like how I don't mind being told what to do at work but I will fight anyone who tries to tell me how to live my personal life. :D

Fandoms I (currently) write for:

Bleach, Blue Exorcist, Twisted Wonderland, JJK, Fire Force, BNHA (sort of)

Tagging: @kimium; @azurexsnake; @filipinoizukuu; @kamikazequail; @moonlarked; @sithmonarch

No pressure to participate, but feel free and have fun! (if I tagged you and you don't write/don't currently write, don't sweat it, seriously there's no pressure 💜💜💜. If you write but don't post/haven't posted yet, that's fine too and you can still participate! All fanfic writing counts!!)

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[wishful-soda]

⚠️!!SPOILERS TO ANYONE WHO HASN'T READ CHAPTER THIRTEEN OF "SPEAK OF THE DEVIL" (but if you haven't read it...what're you doing, go and read it!!)⚠️

OKAY THIS IS NOT A DRILL, CHAPTER 13 IS UP!! Literally I was in english class and the notification popped up and I sent the screenshot to my bestie like "AAAAHHH HERE IT IS!!!" she was very excited for me 😌

Ms. Soda, bestie, bro, dear...buckle up cause we gotta talk about this (all good things, I promise!)

But before I get into it, did tumblr eat my ask again?? I sent one uhhh two days ago I think...did it just not show up? this is so sad! 😭

Anyway! here we go...

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Thank GOD that the reader said "charlie" earlier after leaving Danny's room bc...it just makes things make so much more sense. Did you plan that or was it just a happy accident?

The whole breakfast scene was so like "is Maxy gonna sus them out??" to "awww, theyre like a couple and she can't have this with Danny bc nobody supports ittttt" to general wholesomeness and fluff. I loved it so much!

I love love love LOVE the thought that Daniel is late so often that people tell him to get to places half an hour early hahahah! Some family friends of ours are usually told to get to an event two hours early because they're fashionably late...*always*. but we love 'em for it.

DANIEL! DON'T LEAVE YOUR PHONE! YOU LOVABLE DORKY BEAUTIFUL IDIOT WHYYYYYY. I face palm. I love him, but he's so....ugh, ya know??

"Max laughed, shaking his head like whatever it was a doozy. " boy...if only he knewwwww!!! It was. And he would've known about it if hE REMEMBERED HIS GODDAMN PHONE. It's so daniel-core to be a complete grownass man child. (God these sound so mean, I swear i love him 😂)

It's also just the best thing that he's too busy ogling the reader to even notice Charles' presence. my guy. keep your dick calm please and thank you<3

I must say, when you wrote about him standing outside the restroom with his arms crossed and hands in fists I could only imagine like...a child in a temper tantrum trying not to explode. which is just perfect for him. on the one hand, I live and breathe for the miscommunication trope between two characters, on the other hand I just wanna smack them upside the head like "what're you thinking??" and I must thank you for evoking this emotion out of me.

But then Charles comes up all concerned! he truly is baby and i love him. He's all innocent and just playing along. Except for that smirk when they're at the table. I love it! (and later when he knows what daniel means with the cheesecake comment 👀)

Charles, Charles, Charles....that jealousy comment? I was fully expecting fisticuffs from Daniel. And I mean we got pretty closeeee

...okay i'm just gonna say it now....thank god for tablecloths because what fun would we have without them 😏

BUT AGAIN CHARLES THE BABY WAS LIKE "r u ok??"

Ms. Soda,

I nearly started squealing when I noticed that the chapter was over. Thank you for this masterpiece and I can't wait for the next one!(hopefully no migraine bc Ik that sucked for you)

Sincerely, 💜

P.S. this was an amazing read, thank you for pushing through and getting it to us ASAP, it means a lot to us<3

I so appreciate the spoiler warning, that is wonderful. 🤣 Also I love that you told your best friend, I'm so flattered! I don't have another ask from you from a few days ago, no! 😭

I did plan the 'Charlie' incident! Our reader didn't plan it however, it was a happy accident in her world!

I have no idea why but I just get that vibe from Daniel, that he's one of those dudes who is always late. Maybe I'm just projecting that on to him, but I just feel it okay 😅 Also; TWO HOURS?! that's next level late, what a life they're living.

Literally the entire situation could have be avoided if the idiot remembered his phone. I love him but omfg he really is walnut sometimes.

I feel like the chaos is just next level in this chapter and I stg I didn't plan it that way when I started it, it just got outta control which is the vibe of the chapter so full circle?

Also Charles just slid into the role so well and was so precious and I didn't even expect that, but I'm digging it.

Drink,

I'm so thrilled that you loved it and I can't even tell you how much I appreciate this download of thoughts, I live for asks like this and they just make my day. THANK YOU. ILY BBY!!!! 🥰

[mispronouncing-michaelangelo]

cw: vent, im talking about my mum and escaping her

its been 4 years (as of tomorrow) since i was able to get out of my mothers house, and i,, i dont really know how i feel about that,,, im still so angry at so many people, and im still so lost and so detatched from the whole family because of what she did, and those are bonds im truely starting to believe i will never be able to rebuild even though i left that place when i was 18,, and im just, im so upset that even now shes still taking my impotant things from me, and i cant have back all the things ive lost,,, and ive come to terms with some things,, i never experienced most of my teenage years due to her, i still struggle with things that should be easy, i had to drop out of uni before i even started,, but its the family that hurts the most,, cause theyre thinking feeling people who could just,, look inwards, and the fog might clear,,, i might just be able to be seen as just another bistander and not some horific accomplise they think i was,, i plauge the family and they can see the blood on my hands but i didnt do anything wrong!!! i just had to survive, i didn't hurt anyone t-t i made so sure i didnt t-t the only person i hurt was my brother and i did that on purpose because he left me alone in that house knowing full well what would happen to me,, when i was already down and alone he walked out too and then i couldnt escape and im so angry at him but hes a part of all i have left and i love him so much and he did nothing wrong and i know he needed to protect him and his partner,, but i stg he could've warned me,, mum was always going to be as she was and he knew t-t thats why he had to leave, so why couldnt he tell me,, why did they all believe i was on her side, why do they still believe that,, and how do i tell them im not?? how do i rebuild the trust?? i cant undig myself and everyone around me from the years of gaslighting and manipulation,, i literally cannot tell whats true about those years and what isnt and i dont know if i was bad but i didnt try to be, i tried so hard to care for those i loved and i dont think i hurt them, i didnt try to i didnt want to, i dont know why they think i did and i cant ask, theres too much to unpack, none of us can ask,, talking about it calls it back, mentioning our mother sparks her interest back into all of us, i will say something to my brother and it will slip through the grapevine till shes messaging me, and theres no level of secrecy we can keep that will stop her, i cannot fix it, i can never fix it, i just need to accept it, i just need to remember the family i have and love, and its just,,, its all so much and it feels so heavy and so alone and i didn't want any of this to happen, i just wanted to survive,, but pray tell why some of my brothers still speak to her,,, but not me?? what did i do?? what have they been told ive done?? do they blame me for choosing to live? i just need them to say it, to say they hate me for breaking her pathetic heart more then they wanted to see me alive and happy,, just give me the statement and the closure to leave them behind too,, i will,, if i have too,,, ill keep myself safe, tucked away in my dark little den when she cant find me,, ill be okay i just need to know,,, i just want to know,,

[pyrodigy]

recap of all the good food act III provided us with:

venti casually summoning dvalin to send some mondstadters on a vacation. again.

kaeya acting like he doesnt know venti is barbatos (whether its true or not, its funny)

albedo and razor both going out of concern for klee

klee being delighted to know they’re here

jean having utmost trust in lisa and wanting to get her a gift for all that lisa’s done so they could be here (thats her gf ur honor)

kaeya fucking bringing up his grandfather’s eyepatch again i stg

albedo rightfully fucking off as soon as diluc and kaeya started bickering

diluc knowing razor well enough to figure he’s not gonna return to them if something caught his interest and they ought to look for him

KAEYAKING CANON

diluc melting the ice trying to use kaeya’s bridges LMAO diluc is a walking furnace confirmed

kaeya being gay af for albedo

kaeya sarcastically complaining to albedo abt him abandoning him and diluc on an island

albedo being 100% immune to kaeya’s sarcasm and responding in kind abt them needing time alone (he’s right tho)

kaeya throwing jabs at diluc Literally Non-Stop even though diluc barely says anything

the only time diluc smiled throughout the entire thing being when klee insisted that dodo-king is real and he amusedly replied ‘if you say so’

albedo singlehandedly carrying the entire research

everyone agreeing that jean is klee’s mom

diluc and albedo both getting as far away from everyone as possible when they call it a night because theyre introverts confirmed

klee asked diluc to participate in the fish blasting and apparently he didnt have the heart to say no

jean finally understanding what everyone means when they ask her to loosen up/take a rest

kaeya telling you that diluc is just a big kid who internalizes all of his feelings

kaeya’s inherent love for summer and sun and warmth. im devastated

diluc remembering how much his brother loved said summers

kaeya asking him to collect seashells like they did when they were young to pass the time

diluc admitting he didnt think kaeya still cherished those memories