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iampikachuhearmeroar · 3 years ago

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sometime in this last week, or this week coming, my blog has turned/turns 10. god. a decade old. a whole ass chunk of my life i’ve spent on this hellsite. when i began on here, i was a kid. a lost, lonely, depressed and anxious 15/16 year old kid. a kid scared of her future. a kid confused about her future. what to do for uni. to change schools or not??? to do drama/acting at uni or english/philosophy or to move 8hrs away to another regional uni to “escape” her “washed up, dead end hometown” that was so typical of all the pop-punk music that she was listening to at the time.

she was a tad overdramatic, loud, “funny” (as described by her school friends) and terribly forgetful in regards to homework and school assignments. she was angry at the world, most especially the catholic school she was fucking sick and tired of attending. but she was convinced that since she was the so-called “funny girl”, that she simply couldn’t be depressed or anxious. she believed herself unloveable because she didn’t look like a weird mixture of hayley williams and emo-pop queen lights. but now, i no longer believe that i have to look like the women that i looked up to in the ~emo scene~. fuck beauty standards. i am loveable.

in the years since joining tumblr, i’ve managed to get through business college, my undergrad degree and, well, failed out of postgrad due to obvious burnout and health issues amongst other things. although i’ve lost many friends irl and many followers/mutuals online on here. for those who’ve stuck around to see me get through all of this, thank you. to all the friends/casual mutuals that have since deactivated or only followed me for a short time then unfollowed; thank you.

like obviously i was never/have never been a massive popular blog on here, like thebootydiaries or vampireapologist (who has since deactivated a couple of months ago) with tens of thousands of followers. my follower count is still close to the 8,000 range at 7,892. obviously that’s still a lot of people (and of course, porn bots lmao and many, many non-active blogs), enough like one super old post from like 2012 tumblr pointed out, enough for a small to medium sized city or town, or something like that. i don’t know how many people i’ve really reached. i really don’t know how i actually amassed this small army of people.

i am aware though, that on other platforms like snapchat (lmao does anyone even use it anymore in 2021???)/instagram/youtube/tiktok etc, i’d PROBABLY be considered as some type of ~micro influencer (🤮🤮)~. hell, i actually had a bot slide into my notes about being one on here on this hellsite back in 2019. i don’t know if i’ve ever actually ~influenced~ anyone on here with my shitposts (when i started making some) or my personal posts. i don’t know my reach. even though, now, i do occasionally get featured on buzzfeed listicles (although pay me buzzfeed along with the OPs of those original embedded posts), i still don’t know how many people i’ve reached… and even with my very occasional checks of google analytics lmao. on top of this, grappling with the loss of followers at times is much, much easier than it was when i began on here and the first few years following that. i know that my follower count doesn’t determine my worth and stuff.

but over these 10 years, i have grown. i turn 26 this year. back in 2011, 15/16yo me never thought she’d be here. she was partially down the suicidal thoughts hole, with things about ~picturing her funeral and wondering who’d bother to turn up. if only she could pretend to be dead for a day to see who’d give a fuck~ and 16-18yo me was defs down it with her HSC hellscape thoughts in 2012/2013. that 3rd floor tafe/tech women’s bathroom window drop and the thought of scarring her class for life (and that cool dude from catholic school that she crushed on who ended up at tafe with her) with jumping out of it onto the concrete below. instead, she just posted on fb about ~being a failure~ etc which ultimately did lose her a bunch of facebook friends lmao. it was practically the same thing. her mental breakdown after the end of her hsc, where she let her earrings go green and get infected in her ears because “fuck self care, bc what the fuck is it??? i’ll never get better! let me fucking wallow in my self loathing bc it’s the only thing that i’m fucking good at!!!” so i no longer have my ears pierced. oh! it was just all too fucking much!!

i am happier today. i no longer have those semi-suicidal thoughts. hell, i almost died in 2020 from a fucking bowel aneurysm, after my stomach tumour excision surgery. that forced me to put things into perspective. i appreciate the little things . i appreciate the very few friends that i actually have. yes. i’m still depressed and anxious. some days are still shitty and hard. but nowhere as hard and shitty as they were back when i began on here 10 years ago.

how the fuck last 10 years have gone past, with my ass on here; clearing out my blog and caring more about doing that than my uni work (lmao whoops); having made some lifelong friends both internationally (from the US) and long distance domestically in australia, it’s been a long ride; i honestly have no fucking idea. obviously over these past 10 years, i’ve debated with myself over and over and over again whether i should delete/deactivate this account or not. would it make me healthier??? more than likely. but then when i have meltdowns or just inner ramblings i have to get out somewhere, where else to post??? on fb?? obvs not. it’s “attention seeking” or the like on there. no one will read them. no one will resonate. but on here??? even if i got/get one “like” in the notes or one “yo i feel this” response in the tags or replies, it feels like i’ve reached someone??? okay yeah. i know this place IS NOT therapy and i’m not using my followers as amateur (or probs even actual professional) armchair psychologists…. which is a thing i think people need to stop doing internet-wide: but that’s a whole other post that i reblogged a few days ago lmao. i really need to get another therapist, actually lmao.

but it’s the community i’ve found hard to leave. i have what feel like friends, when i’ve never been employed (still as of yet); and when all of my irl friends/acquaintances are working and doing the whole ~adulting~ and ~grown up life~ thing right. it’s also the frenzied rabidness of spite with hating staff’s godawful ideas. the memes. oh the memes. and also the RaWrInG 20s XD emo scene reemergence on here that’s kept me here. the messy petty drama from time to time of big blogs fighting it out.

this place really is bizarre and fun sometimes. and also the fact that i can still hide behind the ridiculous “roaring pikachu” URL that i made all those years ago. i am anonymous. it’s freeing. but on fb it’s all like “WHY WONT YOU ADD A BANNER IMAGE AND TELL US 20 FUN FACTS ABOUT YOU!!!!!???? LET PEOPLE WHO HAVENT SPOKEN TO YOU IN 10 YEARS KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU BECAUSE WE’RE ALL FRIENDS HERE!!!” and the same goes for Corporate Hellscape Facebook™️ (linkedin) but in the professional sense instead. y’all know fuck all about me really. besides my posts. and i love that and live for that. okay yeah. y’all know more about my mental health than my fb feed obvs… which is probably a terribly unfortunate thing. but still.

over the last 10 years then, my superiority complex for being ~so original and intelligent~ or whatever the fuck i had in high school, has all but ebbed away. i’m not that smart just because i went to uni. hell, i literally did NONE of my in-class work and none of my philosophy readings in uni….. so i have fuck all idea of how i got through undergrad like that lmao. i’m not original when so many people can articulate the same thoughts that i have, but like, sometimes better, on a post (even though sometimes/most of the time the Tumblr User Hot Takes Tuesday™️ takes on here are fucking awful lmao). but still. originality is not something i really have anymore. or really had in the first place lmao.

so will i deactivate after these 10 years, like i’ve been saying for so, so long??? i honestly have no idea. but just know. thanks guise. have a nice gpoy selfie day XD. grab your wands. your tardises. grab your war paint. grab your whatever the fuck other fandom specific stuff that was one that hella cringe post from 2011 til 2015 random tumblr. that relic is as old as time itself. just as this mysterious roaring pikachu is for someone whose too loyal to leave this W E B B E D H E L L S I T E that’s just as much of a train wreck as she is. lmao.

#life #about me #shut up ilona #tumblr is legit my fucking life now #motivate me to deactivate this blog to leave the hellsite forever 2021 #trigger warning: suicide mention #tw: suicide mention

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lebrookestore · 3 years ago

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hello, sorry for replying 8 years later I'm very fucking lazy and also went to my relatives' place to get annoyed by my shit ass aunt but it was worth it because of the dog lol

about falling back last year, same lol, but I stopped really giving a shit about it because covid just a slapped a reality check onto my family's face back in the first half of the year and they no longer have the audacity to bring up academic performance for my final exam that happened in March which btw we were forced to give offline and everybody is aware of what happened after that, we had a lot of losses much like everyone else unfortunately and of all things, that seemed to beat some sense into them about what their priorities should be 🗿

sorry if this got a bit dark but covid has just taught me a lot about how fucking stupid people, esp my relatives are and it's pretty pathetic

so I really blame covid and an inflexible curriculum + education system that doesn't give a shit for falling behind last year (which most kids did considering the amount of kids that straight up failed certain subjects in my batch), I mean holy shit, they really expected their low effort budget curriculum to make kids focus during online, bro I have a hard time focussing while I'm SITTING IN THE ClASSROOM because this shit is so boring, I wouldn't blame the kids if they fucked up even these board exams because honestly when these people keep changing stuff and passing around different circulars everyday and their plans are so badly thought out, how does one expect kids to not get caught up in all the confusion and speculation and get anxiety

speaking of board exams, I absolutely abhore how obsessed these people are with these shitty exams. I have heard several teachers say that they're "training" us for them and I think that wording says enough. what this does is so harmful because it legitimately makes kids feel like all they should do is continuously grind for it even though in reality we know that the result wouldn't really be different if they just chilled out and that it absolutely wouldn't be bad if they just took time to do other stuff and rest but in place of that grinding is encouraged but when a someone gets anxiety and panic they go like "lmfao it's just an exam, don't be so nervous kekw"

as someone who really would get caught up in the moment when it came to exams and school and then stopped, there really is no difference in the result, I feel better and and also feel like I have been scammed so badly until 8th grd

I would study so much back then and it didn't even matter, I could have fucked around and done more art etc but no, I was doing some stupid notebook work so that I would get A+ and not A and some stupid 60 year old entitled bitch wouldn't give me the "I'm disappointed in you" stare

anyway, thanks for complimenting my blog! I'm still experimenting with how I can customise it and looking for different themes (so if you have any, please recommend)

and as for the fanart, it's gonna be for summer of seven years ! (sorry if you were expecting a taeyong or ten fic, jaehyun simp here 🌜, we live in a society and also I don't need ref to draw him so it's easier) prob the first fic I read from you and I really liked it and I'm a sucker for pointlessly connected stories that overlap in certain parts, I might make something for another fic too, been experimenting with blender on my eXTrRemEly HIGh SpEcS pc and might make a certain miniature something from favourite crime

random nct song for this ask is !!! firetruck because I love the mv, really charming and makes me wanna write something (I'm being unecessarily mean but unecessarily decorated performance videos for music videos are just not for me unless done very differently, the tax evasion milestone uncle Lee soo man and his gang really pissing me off) lol and a free picture of my other cousin's dog

also a request, please add me to the tag list for rhyme scheme ! <3

have a good night 🌞

dude. don't even apologize because i took another 8 years to respond to this 🤡 we stan a procrastinating bitch👍 but yes the dog makes everything worth it (she/he's SO CUTE GBYE I WANT TO PET)

bro frfr except my parents just became worse with how I did and I just ✨suffer✨now lmfao, our boards are offline and I'm just :///// HELLO?? they're not taking into consideration that hey! kids can't take the vaccine, you don't know if someone at home has covid and they're sending their kid, what if they're asymptomatic?? what if they're carriers?? brains? none. hotel? trivago.

and yes! our Indian educational system is BEYOND unreasonable and does not benefit the student in any which way! When everything keeps changing it's only harder on us and we've literally been through HELL as a batch.

board exams are harmful, because they don't prepare for the real world in any which way and tells us that 'oH if you don't do well, you're a failure.' i told this to my mother who was like "oH nO yOu'e NoT A fAIlUrE (mind you this woman is the same one who flat out told me I was going to be a failure if I didn't do well) and its honestly one the reasons I get so stressed and agitated.

Yes! themes there are several blogs for such like @/glenthemes and @/seyche and many more!! honestly thinking about changing mine too soon haha

AND OMG i can't wait to see the art ahh as long as you're good with the fic you chose I'm ecstatic because holy shit someone wants to make art of what I've written?? INSANE fjdfjfjk and I'm happy it was your first fic from me!! yes, i too am also a hoe for hopelessly connected stories (writing the last part of the series rn!!!) so make sure to tag me<3

👏FIRETRUCK 👏SUPREMACY👏 i love that song and mv no matter how odd lmao I go back a lot of times just to vibe yk??

and yes I shall add you to the taglist bby, have a great day<3

#asks—◌

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kae-karo · 5 years ago

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Since you mentioned being in the mood for asks: I think I like my best friend. She knows I'm not straight. But has never actually said she's not straight but has discussed possibility of her sexuality being fluid? She doesn't open up to anyone. And so it's really hard to understand her feelings and I am always afraid of crossing the line by asking her too many questions? So I just avoid asking a question twice. I know our friendship will be ruined if I let her know about my feelings ( 1/2 )

But idk what to do with all these pent up feelings :( she gets close to me but then seems to be very distant after a while. Back and forth. Idk what to do. Especially with all this time in my hand during quarantine all I do is overthink about everything in my life including her. Oh no I'm ranting. Sorry have a great day !!! Love you Katie !!! 🖤🖤🖤 :) ( 2/2 )

hello dear!! 💜💜💜 okay first and foremost never never feel like you have to apologize for sending long/multi-part asks/rambling/etc i adore getting asks and it is never something you should feel bad about!!

now, onto advice here...there are a lot of different options ofc for what you could do, and i won’t say that there’s one right answer or one thing that’s better than another. i am and always will be an advocate for communication and honesty in relationships/friendships/etc, but i think the first thing that needs to happen is you need to decide what route you want to go

the kind of key directions would ofc be to 1. explain your feelings and see if she feels the same 2. decide that you do Not want your current friendship with her to change and that you would rather move on from being interested in her without mentioning that you have feelings or 3. keep on the same path you’re currently on and sort of just...wait it out

uhhh i will say that option 3 is usually...one to avoid, if you can. specifically bc this will probably leave you feeling Bad and that’d be something that’s uhhh not good lmao

so say you want to try telling her how you feel, naturally this comes with the risk (as you mentioned) that she might not feel the same/that you might ruin the friendship by saying something about it, but unfortunately...there’s not really much of a way around that risk. that said, and keeping in mind that idk her or how she tends to act/react to certain situations, there are probably ways to go about this that mitigate some of the risks

if i were in your shoes and decided i wanted to go this route, i might genuinely try to keep it as lowkey and casual as possible, and try to avoid making it some Big Thing™. i’d probs just say smth like ‘hey y’know i think i might have feelings for u beyond just friendship, i wanted to just let you know in case you felt the same, but if not, no worries! it doesn’t change that i still want to be friends with you, and i obviously am not gonna act any differently toward you if you don’t feel the same.’ like. i would try to make it clear that 1. i wouldn’t want anything to change if she didn’t feel the same and 2. that i have no expectations of her

especially since it sounds like she’s still figuring out who she might be into, i might also add something like ‘i totally understand you’re still figuring stuff out, i don’t want you to feel any added pressure, just wanted to be open and honest with you’ (sometimes being open can help others open up too!)

now, that said, it sounds like you might be erring more on the side of wanting to move on and get over your feelings for her - which is totally valid! or, ofc, if you tell her and she’s like ‘yeah man sorry i’m just not into you!’ then u would naturally want to move on without making things uncomfy. in that event, i have one very major recommendation: distractions

i get it! it’s hard with quarantine to keep your mind occupied with other things/people/etc, but unfortunately, moving on isn’t something that can just be done, it requires practice and patience and time

one thing you can try is choosing something you already enjoy and finding an aspect of that to dive deeper into. for example, fan of a show/book? go search for fanart or fanfic if you’re into that! come up with an oc just for fun in whatever universe that piece of media is in, even if u never show it to anyone. pick a few blogs you’ve seen who post a lot and check them out, maybe follow if they seem cool! write fic or draw art, whether it be of an oc or existing characters or even just scenes or something! especially try this out even if you’ve never done either of those things before - and don’t get discouraged if those things aren’t perfect, just give them a shot and you might find something you really enjoy! grab a character or ship you usually don’t give much attention to/haven’t seen before and go check out their tag!

along this route, i speak a lot about fandom/fictional media bc that is what i personally use as an escape, but the same goes for activism/politics/languages/animals/other subjects/literally anything that is of interest to you! there is almost always an unexplored aspect of something that you can dive into. but! in the event that you can’t or don’t find anything interesting...

another thing is to find something new! a show you’ve heard about but never watched (or a show you’ve literally never heard of before but like just keeps popping up on ur netflix page), a book you’ve been putting off reading, a youtuber that seems p cool, a skill or language or craft or really, literally anything you haven’t done, and trying it. invest a bit of time and energy and just see where it takes you, let yourself think about this new thing and follow your line of curiosity. some of the best (and worst/dumbest/most cursed) ideas i’ve ever had came from just. randomly following the line of curiosity in my head and seeing where it takes me. hell, that’s what led to me writing fic in the first place!

and be forgiving of yourself too, don’t associate thoughts about this person with any kind of ‘oh shit i’m not supposed to be thinking about her’ kind of reactions, just gently redirect your thoughts to that one episode you just watched, or the question you have about the universe it exists in, or what crocheting pattern you want to try out first, etc etc etc. again, this kind of thing takes time and patience and won’t happen overnight, but you absolutely can get there!

the last ‘distraction’ i tend to go for is revisiting old interests! that fic or book you read a long time ago but still have/still have bookmarked as a fave? pick it back up and give it a reread - the cool thing about stories is that, over time, our perspectives change, and the way we experience the story and the emotions we feel over it change as well. same goes for old shows, esp if it’s been a minute! you can even do this in tandem with the first distraction type and dig back into fandoms you haven’t seen in a while!

it can be hard to remember sometimes - esp while we’re in quarantine! - that worlds exist outside our current interests and spheres of influence. whatever you decide to do, dear, just remember that things will be okay in the end (even if they’re not okay at first) so long as you try to do what’s right for you and be thoughtful and caring along the way. i hope this helped at least a little!

#advice #anon #ask #kt

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readingisthenewcool · 6 years ago

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A mutuals (<3) masterlist (aka: I rant about my mutuals for way too long)

Definitely follow of of these blogs because they are almost as amazing as the people that run them!! I have so many amazing mutuals but these are just the ones that I have talked to the most and for the longest, sorry if I missed you, know that I still love you the same <<33

@a-stitch-in-timey-wimey - PROBABLY MY BEST FRIEND ON HERE, SHE'S SO BEAUTIFUL AND SO FUNNY AND I CAN TELL HER LITERALLY ANYTHING. She's such a babe, I met her through one of my posts I made agesssss ago (yeah that’s right, she’s and OG) where I was like "like and reblog this post if you like any of these fandoms and I'll dm you" and our friendship grew from there!! We both love Voltron, Klance and pasta and one of our first interactions and inside jokes was when she told me when she dropped toothpaste down her sock lol cause how do you even manage to do that (do you even remember that jess???) and idk it’s just such a fond memory even though it’s so random. I fucking live for when she rants/tells me stories on snapchat, I was actually watching one of her ‘storytime’ vids that she sent me and like 5 minutes into her story (when we were getting the climax!!) my phone died and now I’m stuck on this cliffhanger until my phone recharges (so imma write all this while I wait lol). She also didn’t murder me when I broke our 105 day streak (I”M SORRY) in fact she wasn’t even mad!! If that’s not the sign of a true goddess I don’t know what is! ALSO, she's SUPER pretty and inspired me to cut my hair, I'd been think about cutting my hair short(er) for a while and after she cut hers and I saw how pretty she looked, I thought I must do it I must be like Jess. I love her so much from the bottom of my heart and I'm so glad that we're friends <3

@galacticpandasstuff - JADEEEEEE MY SWEET BBY I HOPE YOU GET SOME SLEEP. I always love my deep chats with Jade, we've been mutuals for a while but didn't start talking until recently, we often talk in the afternoon for me and when it's like 4am for her. She def needs to sleep more but we all still love her anyway! Despite her not sleeping that much, she’s still drop dead gorgeous and handles tough situations like a fucking champ wtf, I wish I was even just half as strong as her. I’m very proud that my networking skills have really risen up to the challenge and have paid off because and I’ve connected Jade to a couple of my mutuals and they all love her nearly as much as I do!! She's always so kind to me and I'm sure she'll be kind to you too, she has a relatively small blog and it definitely should be bigger so highkey recommend giving her a follow and maybe even a dm too because she's v nice!!

@repetitive-tautology - JAMES OMG WHAT A FUNNY GUY HE’S AND ACTUAL LAD OMG. I actually love James so much and despite me always feeling inferior to his Top Notch (TM) wittiness and intellect, we manage to have an excellent friendship. We also met through that post I made (about liking certain fandoms and then I would dm you!!) but we never really ended up talking about any of the fandoms lol, our conversation (and friendship!!) just immediately took off. I absolutely love his blog and he's such a funny guy, I've met a lot of great mutuals and friends from him (vague crusade!!!). We unfortunately don’t talk as much as we used to (I’M SORRY BUT DISCORD REALLY SCARES ME, OKAY) and I hope that after this post is... posted it’ll prompt us to talk again! He's one of the actual OG's of my blog and played a vital role in my pasta brand becoming a thing! He also came up with funky spaghet and sinful noodle (if you remember those names lol). Anyway, if you're looking for a laugh, definitely hit him up and follow his blog!!

@raging-chaotic-bisexual - DFGHJKLLKJHGFDSDFGH SOHIE AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY!! Half of our interactions are are sdfghjkjgfd I love *insert something* so much dfghjhgfdedfgh. Yep, we use keysmashes arguably too much but I literally don’t even care. I can talk to Sophie about whatever I’m excited and no matter what the subject is, she’ll match my enthusiasm and that’s one of my favourite things about her. She’s excellent if you wanna talk about literally whatever you want and I feel as if she’d be an amazing hype woman. (also another one of my Australian bby’s!!)

@hudusello - Dakota is the motorbike bitch (well, more cars now lol) and a future lesbian biker gang member. I always feel hella stupid talking to Dakota cause shes got a shit ton of knowledge on pretty much all mechanical vehicles and before we met I knew approximately zero (0) things about cars and stuff and despite feeling like the inside of my skull feeling as empty as the middle of a balloon, I love learning all this cool new stuff that she teaches me! I love having a good old chat no matter the subject and Dakota is such an OG on my blog. Despite having lots of different interests, I’m really glad that we bonded over a few things that we have in common (like she-ra and minecraft!! [WHICH I WILL REDOWNLOAD SOON AHHHHH]) cause I really enjoy talking. So definitely follow Dakota cause once again, a relatively small blog and also great for a fun chat if you like cars and/or are willing to learn about them

@carry-on-wayward-birbs - I LOVE THIS DUDE OML WE ALWAYS CHAT ABOUT WHERE THEY’RE UP TO ON BROOKLYN NINE-NINE CAUSE THEY’RE SUPER BEHIND BUT I LOVE HEARING THEIR REACTIONS TO EVERYTHING LOL. Even though our chats are almost strictly b99 related, we do get personal sometimes and I’m very glad that we can balance out our good and bad experiences in our friendship and help and support each other but also get so fucking pumped over brooklyn nine nine too. But yeah we have great chats and would definitely would recommend giving their blog a look <3 (ALSO THEY ALSO SEEM EQUALLY CONFUSED ABOUT THE CONCEPT OF TIME AND THE YEARS THAT PASS AND THAT’S GOOD (kinda??) CAUSE THAT MEANS THAT I’M NOT ALONE AND I’M VERY GRATEFUL FOR THAT)

@everyoneprotector - mm yes, Alex, my dude you’re such a legend, you’re my aussie mate!! Very cool spider person ::::) and I enjoy our food debates (whether they’re civil or it’s just us screaming at each other in the reblogs for like an hour). You’re an ace-mazing legend that we all stan, I’m very glad we starting interacting, my only regret is that we didn’t start sooner!! 100% recommend Alex’s blog if you’re Ausralian cause they’ve got some top notch Australian content (They’re posting about the election rn lol) but even if you’re not Australian, you can still enjoy their posts cause they’ve got a bunch of funny stuff on there (including funny fandom stuff!! I’m not even in a lot of the fandoms that Alex posts about BUT THE POSTS ARE STILL GREAT)

@ihateitwhenyourejustvague - ABSOLOUTELY WONDERFUL AND BRITISH. Peppa pig wishes she was vague. Our vague crusade champion queen, all hail vague. I actually had to leave the group discord cause the power from it was too strong for my poor mortal body to handle (nah, it was actually because I’m really scared of discord and being in a voice chat with more than one person is so frightening but IT’S NOT ABOUT ME IT’S ABOUT SPREADING THE LOVE) So definitely go follow vague!! They’re the best!! Also!! A very good writer!! I always reblog the writing posts but I highly recommend asking to be added to the writing tag list so that you make sure you see every single writing post!

@bakugou-klancey-lance - We pretty much never talk but they add a cheeky lil “uwuuuuu <3” in my inbox every now and again and I think that that’s really sweet (also very funny blog!! 10/10 would recommend!!)

I WOULD DO MORE OF MY MUTUALS BUT I HAVE TO DO SOME MATHEMATICAL METHODS HOMEWORK ::::((((((

probs won’t do it lol but I’ll damn well try

#im the op #mutuals <3 #this is v long hehe #we love you all sm #pls follow them all #they're all amazing hfjkwjshdgfhdjs

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mikkock · 5 years ago

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HELLO I ADORE YOUR OCS SO MUCH WILL YOU TELL ME ABOUT KAI HE LOOKS LIKE A TOTAL "YOUR DAUGHTER CALLS ME DADDY TOO" DOUCHEBAG AND I FUCKING LOVE HIM AND WANNA KNOW MORE ABOUT HIM

LBLMVBGK THANK U OMG love it when ppl like my kids, im a proud dad rn

ALSO wrow congrats on ur on point analysis, cause, that’s the Essence Of His Being (fun fact since i got two characters who go by the name of kai -cause fuck that basic writing tip that says ‘dont have two characters named the same thing- i usually refer to him as The Bad Kai cuz he a bad bitch)

so lets unwrap that dude shall we uwu

SO this dude was created when i realised my story didnt have antagonists so i made a bunch of Bad People and then they all became good people after i started giving them more personnality somehow eXCEPt him for some reason, the only survivor of the “everyone will be baby” plague, the only rude bitch in this house, the only guy who’s still on the dark grey side of morally grey...but tbh im in love with him cause he’s an asshole and im an idiot so like.

His base concept was basically something along the lines of “fuckboy but make it Couture”, like douchebag indeed But Gotta Be Fancy at being one, gotta add a pinch of Sneaky Bitch in the pot. His aesthetic is Chillin, gettin in ur pants, then moving on for some more chillin and more pants. So if you’re into some funky sexy time with no pressure and no ties, ya gon get along, your goals meet, time to have fun.

All that is supported by his charisma, cause unless ya got some nasty history, he’ll just look like that charming bad-boy “oho hot dude with a dangerous but not agressive” vibed person, and he’s quite a sweet-talker. He’s probs not only the ‘your daughter calls me daddy’ kind but also ‘and so will YOU, i’m scoring with the whole family and you wont stop me (and you wont WANT to stop me)’

He got that handsome ppl priviledge ya feel

but also, he wouldnt be a rude guy if he was just the ‘i enjoy chill frick-fracking and im just so sexy that no one can say no to that booty’ guy

Dude got quiiite some spite-fueled ego and Does Not Take losing well, and will not, in fact, let himself lose on any objective he has, and when that objective is A Person, he gets ugly. Being good at sweet talking also means being good at small stuff like “not saying exactly the truth always when it would be more beneficial not to”, “deliberately using euphemistic, ambiguous or obscure language so to mask wrong doings and technically saying the truth but in such a way that it becomes completely masked by a thick fog of bullshit”, and “use words and behaviour in general to influence others unscrupulously so to get something in return”. Even a little “playing with their perception in order to make them doubt in their thoughts and selves”. In short dude got no qualms about using all the tools of manipulation available if it means that he comes on top (or on bottom if the goal was getting an assful eeeeeey we’re masters of comedy here) It tends to be all for short term results tho, so not much your ‘boyfriend who convinces you you’re nothing without him” and more of a “you thought you were dating but only you were thinking that as he always kept it just vague enough to have you not official yet convinced of his and now you’re blaming yourself for believing you were together”

master of getting ass, also master of Ugly Ass Breakups, and master of suddenly dissapearing from your life so hard that you wonder if it was just your imagination all along (he got ugly past with a bunch of other ocs especially he’s ex boyfriend with two that are now together cause i dig that sort of drama the sAME dUDe gave u the trust issues that held u from going full lovey dovey ? i fucking lIVE off that kinda shit wait until he pops back like ‘oho hello fancy seeing YOU TWO here my two fave exes together incredible what a small world”)

Though I have to rework on all that cause that backstory is oLD AS SHIT (like prolly i built it in what, 2016? ew ugly) I had that stem from some sort of neglect-fueled inferiority complex. I had given him a kinda cold family with a bunch of siblings who got Way More Nurtured due to their respective talents and achievements, having him left behind and feeling like he got nothing. SO that’s basically the explanation as of today but i dont like iiiiit anymooooore so I’ll have to work on it to make it something i dig, cause idk, bitch feels flat so far.

BUT i do intend on keeping the whole concept of ~Loneliness~, and of him working alone and quite hard for anything he gets. And the general need of proving himself that had come from the WIP backstory. I don’t exactly see him as an overachiever at all, but definitly as an obstinate and persevering hardworking guy, because “Look YALL I WAS aBLE TO DO THIS YALL THOUGHT I COULDNT HUH YALL LOOK DOWN ON ME well fuck u cause idc im better than u now also ur mum’s into bondage i kno from experience bye”. So tbh pair up with him for group projects, you’ll be sure his share of the work will be done (but also if you dont do yours then he’s probably going to be a bITCh about it, no remorse in leaving blank slides in the middle of the powerpoint and then loudly proclaiming ‘OH RIGHT This was supposed to be Kevin’s part but I suppose he never sent it to me, despite the numerous reminders i sent him, no big deal, no hard feelings, its ok sweetie we all sometimes feel too lazy i forgive u :)” )

Also he’d be Chill to hang out with for like, parties, nights out at the bar, that kinda shit. He definetly has some beans to spill about quite some people, he gathers the goss as he gathers lovers (i was gonna end that in “as he spreads legs” but it sounded too PG-18 for this good Well Behaved family friendly blog) and Will Not stay tight lipped, and Will be a bitch when trashtalking people, and It Will Be Entertaining as it always is when you’re hearing about crazy exes and you’ve had some beers.

Now trivia that idk where else to write cause idk i stupid or more like disorganised :

- he digs red ale beer like if ya wanna win him over with the appropriate alcohol offer there u go

- he’s a fake blonde (cause my hobby is painting regrowth roots on hair)

- his design is a mixture of those 3dgy denim boys u see on pinterest and the specific brand of fuckboys that are french-L-section-chic-grunge-hipster-fuckboys (L section is like a branch of highschool)(that word combo is a so specific kinda guy)(its kinda like a softboi but more arrogant but in a lowkey way)(also they rich)(but he’s not rich so guess that should make him Less Arrogant)

-im constantly dead afraid of giving him more characteristics and story or whatveer cause he’s the only meanie i got left and i do Not want him to stop being an asshole but everytime i develop a character they end up nice or redeemed or whatever and i wanna keep him a bitch so i neglect him (just like his parents in his 2016 version wow)

he smokes (prolly started quite early to Be Kool and now relies on it for stress relief)

he’s outspoken and extraverted and prolly the guy who had a lot to say when you were doing debates in class (there’s always that person who has a Lot to argument about)(its him) but outside of a Set and Defined debate structure he probably doesnt give his mind voraciously

he’s a law student and despite saying he’s the one bad guy left he probably wont be a corrupt lawyer or judge or whatever like come on he will do his job properly he worked hARD FOR THIS justice may be served

he’s not the kind to openly hate or even dislike anyone cause what’s the point of wasting your energy on that? its much funnier to him to be obnoxiously Neutral with someone and basically ignore them but still strike them with some Spikes of passive-agressive comments, let them be Mad at your calmness

he’s 177cm tall (that’s like 5.8 according to google)

honestly if you’re bros with him he’s fun to be with the being a jerk is completly coincidental

he probably ranks high in the list of “those criminals who steal big lighters from their friends”

i think at a point his design had tattoos but i forgot the designs of those so now he doesnt anymore

a dog person

i think ive run out of facts (or my brain dead) so im leavin with a shirtless pic cause my hobby is drawing tits

in short, charming asshole who can get ugly, secretly feels lonely and small, works hard for himself, better have him as a friend than as a foe though probably not the most frontally agressive enemy, and also, your booty, hand it over.

#people probably excuse his naughty behaviour bc of his looks and that's the fact

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aceyanaheim · 5 years ago

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I got this from Mary P. Sue’s blog. It looked like fun so I took her invite to any followers who wanted to do it.

Author Name: AceyAnaheim

Fandoms You Write For: Multifandom

Where You Post: Here mostly. I have an AO3 but I haven’t used it much.

Most Popular One-shot: On Clarity And Promises ( The Originals)

Most Popular Multi-chapter Story: I haven’t….posted any. >.>

Favorite Story You Wrote: Cake and Everything.

Story You Were Nervous To Post: Each and every one of them.

I have very high anxiety about sharing my writing. I’ve only shared it with a few close friends and even that took a while.

I think Cake and Everything was a lil bit more nerve-wracking just because I have very dear friends I look up to who write Seto already so well and its hard not to think i need to....do it as good as them I guess.

Also my Stanuary fic ( no link bc Im not...particularly proud of it) for similar reasons. I know people in the GF fandom that are like uber talented and that I also look up to as artists..and as people since they were super welcoming and nice and GF was my starting thing on tumblr. I was super nervous that compared to their work..it just wasn’t good enough to share.

When I look up to and/or care about people..I tend to want everything I share with them to be good. It’s..it’s a bit of a mind trap I’ll admit. I’m trying to work on it.

But also ( for the stanuary fic) I just spent way too little time on it and compromised quality over meeting the prompt list/deadline and it.. I knew it wasn’t something I wanted to share which..made me more nervous about sharing it.

It’s interesting that Cake and Everything was the first fic I shared on tumblr since the Stanuary fic. I’m thinking that first thing you share ( either the first fic you share period or the first fic you feel like it’s good enough to share with people) also adds nervousness.

But I’m workin on gettin over all of that.

How Do You Choose Your Titles: Very Randomly. I don’t put as much thought into it as I probably should. It’s often the last thing I do and usually I’m just looking to fill in the bar. I know its important and I’m tryin to work on puttin more thought on it but...yeah.

Do You Outline: I used to. But not as much lately. I suspect I will have to for multi-chapter works.

Complete: >.> Oneshots count right?

In Progress: Tales of The Clans. ( Anne B Walsh’s Dangerverse)

Coming Soon/Not Yet Started: I really wanna get into the Trancendence AU and write something about Toby Pines and Alcor because Begrudging Promotion To Parent is my jam. A fic about what happens when Laura Kinney becomes Seto Kaiba’s bodyguard. Mayyybe a Supernatural Next Gen fic if I can get myself into it again. Other stuff I’m not sure I’m ready to share yet but include Marvel’s Runaways, X Men First Class, and Disney’s Descendants as well as an OC centered fic set in The Nightworld Series’ world that is way too long and someone should talk me out of tackling but I have the most amazing friends and instead it’s being encouraged and oh gosh if I could show yall the outline.Its a freakin Huge multichapter multi character behemoth looking thing. I dont know what i was thinking.

Anyways.

I have some DDADS ideas both for fic proper and a Crossover with In The Heights.

Oh and sometimes I entertain the thought of Movie!Laura being found/adopted by Seto because self indulgence is a powerful beast but thats a bit trickier to mesh together into a fic so it’ll probs take a bit of a backburner to the comic!LauraxYGO crossovers.

Do You Accept Prompts: Not usually only because I have so much anxiety with sharing works. I have no problems writing around a prompt ( and have done it in multiple occasions) but sharing the end result is quite hard for me.

Upcoming Story You Are Most Excited To Write: The Laura Kinney and Seto Kaiba story. I think I hit on how all the dynamics are gonna work and how the character plots might or might not change so I’m already having fun with it. Even if I never write it down and instead daydream a lot about it bc...Reasons.

I’m still not sure which verse ( between Laura coming in when Seto is still under Gozaburo’s guardianship, or Laura gets hired by Seto to bodyguard Mokuba) I’ll follow first but I’m still very excited.

I’ve got a plot bunny or something in the back of my mind where Jubilee uses her Stubbornness and sway with Logan to make Laura, her, and Logan and Gambit resemble a family and stay together.

A Boy Meet World/Percy Jackson crossover fic tha may or may not happen. A Boy Meets World fic where i claim an old OT3 and it rewrites certain parts of Girl Meets World.

There’s also an MCUxHeroesOfTomorrow crossover where the kids Tony raised in Earth-55326 land on the MCU world and basically swarm around him ( and their parents) and Peter and Harley are not jealous okay shut up. that may or may not include comic verse characters.

It’s mostly fluff and silliness Ngl

I.I have a hard time not taking on too much..if you can’t tell.

Gonna tag @queen-of-carven-stone @alexseanchai @useless-protagonist @kohakuhime and @rscoil if they're okay with it of course >.>

And of course anyone who wants to do it is welcomed to.

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lesbian-octoling · 6 years ago

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just want some more clarification... in your reply to all the stuff going around, you mentioned how that picture of headphones WASN'T ahegao. But.. what was it though? What was the context???? You didn't explain what the actual context was, because it looks AWFULLY like ahegao. And the discord server being "coroika 18+" is.. really suspicious in itself in my opinion. Also with the gore stuff, it's cool that it's helpful towards your mental health! but just don't draw it with kids characters

Ah, no prob!

She was supposed to be lovestruck- yes. But.. looking back at it, it does look a lot more… suggestive than intended. One of Phone’s traits in the chat is that she just has a lot of love, and when she falls, she falls hard. The specific scene was when she was home alone, after getting a kiss from one of her crushes (Full Moon Glasses, i should add). More of a ‘lovesick/dreamy’ sort of thing than a sexy thing. Though, yeah! it kinda did turn out like that but i didn’t mean for it to, and it was just a little tiny doodle in the corner of a page, so i didn’t think it mattered too much to get it accurate so i didn’t give it a second thought.

And the whole server isn’t 18+, but Headphones is. Along with quite a few others. The timeframe takes place about a year after the latest chapter, so the requirements when making the HCs for your character (since they don’t have confirmed ages) is anywhere from 16-21 if they appeared in the splat1 volume, since in splat 1 they had to be at LEAST 14, and splat2 takes place two years later. Thats the minimum. Other characters that only appeared in the splat2 volume can be 14-21. All of blue team is 18-19 in the chat, but others are younger, or older. For example, Clip is 15, and Aloha is 21. And, as I’ve explained before, there is a VERY strict no-nsfw-RP enforced, since there are underaged people in the chatroom and underage characters.

If you don’t believe me, there are several others in this chat with me who can back up my claims.

And yes, it does help me! Therapeutic, in a sense- to get all the nasty thoughts and things I sometimes wish i could to to myself drawn out on canvas instead of bottled up inside, I suppose. And… why not? Not only kids can enjoy them. The characters themselves are all over 19. Plus, ‘kids characters’ is subjective. If I remember correctly, there was an interview that stated that Splatoon wasn’t actually geared towards younger kids, it was geared towards teens and young adults who wanted a multiplayer shooter game without it being generic and boring, Call of Duty kind of thing. Thats why I like it, at least! Ive never liked generic shooters, but Splatoon is so neat. Its way too hard for little kids to play? My brother- who’s a fuckin whiz at video games, he beat BOTW before I could- is 10, and absolutely abysmal at it. He just.. can’t play.

TDLR, not only is it subjective that it’s a kid game, but what’s bad about it anyway? If you don’t like my content, I’m not forcing you to stay here and look at it. Everything is tagged repeatedly and extensively, and if you’re old enough to be on tumblr, you’re old enough to learn how to blacklist or only follow those who’s content you want to see. Hell, it’s in my blog description. You can’t say you’re surprised. Not only that- but I don’t even put extreme gore in the main tag, so if you search ‘splatoon’ or whatnot, it won’t come up. I’m very careful with this (though i may have made a few mistakes in the past).

#ask #Anonymous

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coffeeandcalligraphy · 7 years ago

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Things to try when doubting my words | Doing the Write Thing #74

Back at it again for a super quick DtWT update y’alls, holla at ya boi.

(Quite possibly my worst intro??)

Today was a lil bit of an exhausting day, ha. I’ve been strangely tired all week, but I’m super relieved to say hellooo to the weekend. This writing session was rather short (hence this update’s length), but I thought I’d share some Friday night progress!

Daily word count goal: 250

Words written: 360

Total word count: 39 844

(incessantly worrying bout the fact that this book is already 40k words and nothing has happened, OH my)

Total page count: 70

Songs played: No music today, but I did spend a solid 30 mins downloading all of The Nicholas Project’s music (aka Current Joys before the name change to TELE/VISIONS and then to Current Joys, ha) because oh boi did I find a gold MINE:

(if you’re down for some litttt lo-fi [and sometimes beachy] music, Nick kills it with this and I’m v/ shook for not discovering this sooner [also they’re all free downloads except 2008-2010, which is pay what you can])

I’ve yet to make a full listen through of all of these, since this is a solid 35 songs, and ya girl discovered this today, lol. Old Shit is blowing me away, my fave from that is Exit Music (For A Short Film), and is a go to rec for my indie friends, along with TV LUV SONG (wavves cover) off The Basement Tapes, and Bride of Frank also off Old Shit. I’ll get back to you with more favourites in the future, ha, but I’m digging these quite a lot, and listening to younger Nick is an experienceeeee.

Things to know: I was having a bit of trouble getting into writing, but wanted to write, although I knew I was hella tired. I think I was a smidge fearful going into this writing session, just because eh, I’m about to get into writing something really emotional, and ayyyy, not prepared to feel those. So I kinda quit before the emotional part, lol, but still got stuff done!

Speaking of fear!

I spoke with my psychologist earlier this week about this super demotivating fear in my writing, and we spent some time brainstorming ways to get over that hump! I’m going to share the list of five (she added a sixth) we came up with, in case it could help one of you!

1. Look for an awesome word or sentence I love in my writing.

So we talked a bit about how much of a word junkie I am, so this was my suggestion for what I can do when fear is taking over and being like yooo run away from the computer and hide on tumblrrrrr my dude. I like weird, cool words, so this one is fun for me.

The point of this suggestion (and all of these actually) is for if I’m about to run away from writing, and want to not do that. She made it clear though that these should be methods to guide me back to my writing, so no breaks on YouTube as a suggestion, writing a blog post, etc. Something I can do in the bubble of my words, you feel? I should also elaborate on this one: I suggested that I look for a word I could find an even better/quirkier word for in a passage, for example, so you can also do that!

2. Read the dictionary.

Ya girl is a word junkie, my dudes. I love learning new words, and improving my vocabulary. Something I really enjoy doing is inputting a word I like through a thesaurus, and from there, click on synonyms of synonyms to find new words/be inspired by the definitions of words. Ooooh this is geeky as fuuuuh. I actually do this regularly, lolz.

3. Look at my printed quotes

So this was also my suggestion! Sometimes when writing got me down, and I need a lil inspo, I’ll go through quotes from Virginia Woolf’s The Waves because the book’s themes/tone is in the vein of where I’m at for this particular book, and ma girl Virginia always brings me the inspiration. I also suggested I print these and keep ‘em near me when working so I don't have to get caught up on the internet! I’ll probs add some quotes from The Girls in the compilation because Emma Cline is top notchhhh and her writing is also inspo for dayz?

4. Face the blank page

So this was a super cool suggestion my doctor suggested! I have yet to try it, but the gist is, to open a blank page, and write exactly how I feel. For example, if I’m nervous about writing, or insecure about writing, the first thing I’d do is open a new Word doc and write ‘I’m afraid and insecure’, and from there, write line-by-line how I feel. Kind of journal style, but I happen to be hella poetic and dramatic when writing about my feelings, so I often do find gems to put in my writing through my journalling process lol. I thought this was super cool, since it’s a bit of a spin on freewriting! Basically, the point is to write a bit of an instructional on my thoughts, like I’m afraid and insecure. I will mess up this scene if I write it. I feel emotionally disconnected from this scene, etc etc, until the words start flowing, and some of that anxiety/emotion expels!

#5 is a super personal one, so I’m going move on to the last one, which was:

Bonus: Process the emotion, identify the feeling, and pay attention to it.

I didn’t know she wrote this one, and it made me smile when she printed this out and handed it to me, lol.

So maybe these can potentially help other people who deal with fear/doubt in their work! Being stuck suuucks, but these were a couple solutions I’ll definitely try!

back to ze update

How I felt: ehhh. very ehhh.

Bad haiku to describe writing session: Ehhh is a good word / To describe this one session / Ehhh it was a lot

Rating of writing session out of 10 and why: It actually wasn’t that bad, I think I was just foreseeing the disaster that could potentially come, so wasn’t very rooted in what I was writing. I’m going to say a 7?

On a scale from 1-10 my level of stoked-ness is: Uh. Maybe also a 7, lol. Mostly because I’m a bit nervous (I’m writing with Foster who I haven’t written with in like three months ahh), but uh, yeah, hopefully I can channel my inner human sadness tomorrow.

Lyrics to describe writing session: 'Cause in my waking mind / Oh, I feel so far away / 'Cause in my mind these nights / Are more beautiful than your days

--My Nights Are More Beautiful Than Your Days, Current Joys (A Different Age)

#relevant

GIF to describe writing session:

yikersss

Excerpt:

short line but mood all week:

Lonan looks ill.

Here’s a short description ft. my expedition in verbifying the entire world:

The bed is hotel ready, set with frilly throw pillows, and a silk sheeted duvet. The accent wall is tethered with gingham wallpaper and tetris’d picture frames.

I actually decided to google images of master bedrooms in case I wanted to describe more things and have a visual aid, and that came in handy for the picture frame thing, of which I used this pic as inspo for:

my inner home reno show lover was coming out with these descriptions, catch me being like look at that fully functioning ensuite tho, the open concept design

This isn’t my favourite thing but it’s about Lonan and his angstiness:

I don’t know what it’s like to be forgotten like this. Still alive and obvious in the real world, but painfully erased from the mind.

I wrote this bit a couple days ago, sharing because I made up a word (glosh wtf is a glosh) and mentioned salty beaches, and s-curves which is another photography thing, someone take away my camera bag and lenses pls:

At first it was cloudy memories. A house, not a basement. The unfamiliar glosh of water on the drive up. And on his stumble back to my place, remembered the beach five minutes from the residence, salty and buzzing with tourists. Faint sights and smells and sounds, creating the map of his s-curved route.

(by glosh I mean the sound of water hitting water, it’s a very particular sound reminiscent of GLOSH, not gloop, not wash, there’s probs a word that fits this that I’m not remembering, but lol, for now it be glosh).

So that’s it for now! This update was supposed to be short, but, ha. I had fun writing this, and I hope you had fun reading it/found something helpful/enjoyed it!

--Rachel

#writing #writerblr #doingthewritething #amwriting

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yousafejaz · 4 years ago

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Change the process, change the outcome.

I feel like my production is getting kinda stale at this point. It’s so easy to grab a loop, mess with it, throw on some drums, add variation, and arrange it. Or even if I’m making my own melody, it’s usually created in the style of a “trap beat”.

I’ve been listening to MF DOOM a lot since yesterday, and it’s a nice reminder that hip hop can be as abstract and nonlinear as you want it to be. The past year I’ve been distracted by the idea of the singer / songwriter approach and how I can’t really sing so it’s hard for me to do that. But, I fail to realize how the fact that I can’t take that approach has such a silver lining. It kind of forces to be more creative, it’s something I should be and will be more grateful of. That traditional approach to songwriting can be boring, it’s like you know what to expect when listening to a “song”. But a “rap song” could be anything, with any kind of structure because it’s possible to rap over anything.

I’m listening to this DOOM interview, which I’ll link as a separate post, but he was talking about the “audio collages” in his music and I really like that idea a lot, I’m going to start experiment with that much more. Duane sampled some old magic shit in the beat he made for the demo “daydreams”. And i continued to sample stuff like that in the beat for, “what if”. But I’m going to take the old samples to the next level moving forward. I’m going to make more of an effort to use my midi keybaord instead of the step sequencer. I love the step sequencer in Logic I’m so glad they added it this past year, I’ve used it literally everyday since then, but if I change the process, it’ll change the outcome. Shaking things up in the process will keep things fun and refreshing.

I’ve been going back and forth about keeping my senior thesis as rollout for my first song (which I still don’t have) or to pivot it to something like selling beats. I feel like if I pivot my thesis it’s like I’m too scared to try but on the other hand it’s like why should I rush my first song when I genuinely feel like I’m not ready yet.

Maybe, I’ll never feel ready so maybe that’s why I should do it. My gut feeling from my heart tells me I should do it, but my brain tells me it would be smarter to try selling beats so that by the time I graduate college this May, I’m making a living as my own boss and will be in control of my own time so I’ll have more time to dedicate to my real music. But that path isn’t guaranteed. No path really is. On one hand it makes a lot of sense because I could use it as an opportunity to hit multiple birds with one stone. I could make it my thesis as an “entrepreneurship venture”, I could improve my production skills, and hopefully make that my primary source of income even though that could take a lot of patience and hard work. On the other hand, it could be seen as the “easier” path because at some level I know I could do it (much easier than releasing a first song), it could make me hate producing or get bored of it because I’d end up making a bunch of beats in the easiest way possible. Or I could use it as a way to make a bunch of different kinds of music and “master all the elements”. Regardless, I feel like pivoting may make sense but it also feels like me getting in my own way because of fear. Getting in my own way of doing what I actually want to do. Getting in the my own way of being who I really am. Clearly, I don’t know, I have a gut feeling drawing me to both. One from the heart and one from the mind, idk which one to listen to. Writing this all out kinda helps me collect all my thoughts but I still don’t have an answer.

Anyways, to tie things back around, I’ve been kind of scared of releasing my first song because I don’t have one yet. But I also haven’t tried to make the “first song” yet. I’ve been kinda waiting for it organically come to me but I keep getting things that in my opinion would work better for projects. But in today’s time, “singles” don’t have to be “singles”. So, I’m going to stop waiting for a traditional single to come to me, maybe I don’t have one in me yet. But what I do have is a very very unfinished beat with a whole outline for what I want that song to be. It would be the first song on my first EP, “Appearing”. I think I’m going to really try to make that song. I’ve had the initial idea since end of November but haven’t executed it yet, just been waiting I guess. But i think i should just make that my first song, because I have it and i really love the ideas attached to it.

Alright I’m done brain dumping on here for now, I’m going to keep doing it this year. I wanted to start the YouTube component of Diary this year to document my last semester of college but I won’t have time to film and edit videos. Plain old words will do the trick though. Writing “blog “style like this is underrated, I wish more artists did it.

Well, I should prob go to sleep, it’s 3AM and I have work tomorrow from 12-9, first in person shift in a minute. My foot hurts.

Ima fall asleep to this MF DOOM interview, peace.

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briteboy · 7 years ago

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(circumstantial name by @earnoodle)

IT’S FINALLY TIME FOR THE POST YOU’VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR (or maybe just that one anon)

there’s a LOT in here, newer questions are generally first so if you asked something a while ago and you’re only interested in that, scroll towards the bottom. also doing wcifs separately (errr i’m gonna try my hardest to ok don’t crucify me)

this mass anons post includes topics ranging from Very Sweet Things Said To Me That I Don’t Deserve, nitpicking stranger things, crying over ramona, lou theories, Cillian Is A Fucking Creep theories (true), and completely unhelpful reshade advice

let’s f0cking do this

You're right, apart from carrying his stupid brain, Santi's head didn't do anything to any of us. I apologize for anon.

I'm pretty sure I said that already but I love Rooney and Santi's relationship so much I literally have no words for it

ME TOO LIKE IT’S JUST SO PURE TWO NOT-KIDS SCARED OF THE ADULT WORLD TRYING TO FIGURE THINGS OUT WITH THEIR WEIRD BRAINS TOGETHER ;__; i love them

YO i didnt know u were a demigirl!! im a demiboy nb Buddies

hell fuckin yeah dude!! we are starting a demi club

Ok but like I really want werewolves. Like I know it sounds stupid but we have vampire and while yes I love my bat babes, I want a giant pupper friend. I have story written out and plans for a cabin to build. Now I’m waiting for EA to give me my big hairy babes.

DUDE i want more supernatural stuff too, mostly witches like I NEED MY WITCHES AGAIN!!! ts3 witches were so good. i didn’t like ts3 werewolves much but i feel like they’d be super cool in ts4, knowing how the vampires came out. i NEED it

hihi! i've been very quietly (??) following your blog for some time now and i just fawn over your characters way too much ?? anywho, i've been wanting to start my own little simblr story but ,, i'm not entirely sure where to even start? i have so many stories that i'd love to get out there, and i have the means.. butt, how did you go about starting out?? so sorry this is so long but i look up to you a whole ton!!! ty ily! :-)

i’m the (??) lmao that’s me always but ahdhghdfkshg thank you so much!!!!! i’m so glad you love them, it means the world to me ;-; and listen, that was me, i had no idea how i was going to do it because i’d only seen ts3 stories up to that point and i thought there was like a set Way to tell stories but i had no idea what i was doing so i was like y’know what...i’m just gonna do it how i feel comfortable doing it and i’m gonna figure it out as i go along. so honestly try to roughly plan out what your stor(ies) will entail and if you get stuck on planning and can’t figure it out, just jump right into it, try to make a few scenes or get the ball rolling somehow, even if it’s just random posts (i mean that’s all my blog was until i decided to commit to santi’s story.) it’s always gonna feel weird and awkward at first, but you’ll get comfortable the more you do it and it’ll figure itself out, trust me!

I read through most of your story posts the other day and now I’m rereading it again just to torture myself some more (and maybe catch up on some posts I may have missed). I honestly don’t think I’ve come across a sims story that’s so beautifully written & includes such evocative pictures as yours. I’m really at a loss for words, it’s all so stunning. & after a nearly two-month long creative block, it’s planted the smallest seed of inspiration in the back of my mind, so thank you for your art.

AHHHH AHSDHKGKDSJG WHAT!!!!! it’s always crazy hearing that 1) people actually care about my stuff, and 2) that it inspires them. like i really cannot believe that, stilL!! thank you so so much, i’m so happy you enjoyed it (as torturous as it was, lmao) it seriously warms my heart that you’re getting your groove back in the creative world, that means more to me than ANYTHING!! good luck with your art or whatever you decide to do with that inspiration!

can i pls have your editing skill please and thank you

i owe most my editing at this point to reshade so honestly get reshade and u will probably become better than me

o added u on animal crossing and when you added me back i was so happy,, your little person is sooo adorable ((:

OMG!! thank you!! everyone’s person on there is adorable i cry i love them all so much i’m so mad tho it won’t let me add any more friends!!! it probably cuts off at like 100 friends or something STUPID

First of all, I love you. Secondly, I love your photos so much. I'm legit about to just ditch sims 3 for 4 now because of your amazing posts. 😖

LMFAO no but really THANK YOU I LOVE YOU!!! if you can manage playing both i admire u, i’ve invested too much time and effort into ts4 to ever fully go back to any other sims games tbh

The new patch made my game unplayable! I'm crying, I miss my doggos...

NOOOOO!!! hopefully by now you’ve found a fix, i’m prayin for u

long time listener, first time caller yoooo. i like everyone love your stories and your sim aesthetic so so so much and just tbh i was offended on your behalf about that ask from that person wanting to novelize your stories. like you were way too nice. this is your intellectual property and it's fucked up that someone would think it'd be okay to duplicate it as long as they used a different medium. this is prob a bad one to repost just wanted to you to know you're an awesome, singular voice

omfg lmao this is a radio show now *z100 voice* tellem why ya mad euhhh first of all i can’t believe someone even ASKED that, i’m in shock because like what this is so foreign to me. people want to write about MY characters WHAT! like that alone...takes a long time to process. and like i know i should say no but then i feel mean but they’re also my creations so like idk. it warms my heart that you feel so strongly and would stand up for me like that i’m cryin thank u for calling in i love u

I JUST FINISHED YOUR ENTIRE STORY AND I'M NOT OK WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE PUTTING ME THROUGH THAT SHIT IT'S AN EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER AND I FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE ABUSED MY (NON EXISTENT) INNOCENCE WOW

I’M SO SORRY U HAD TO GO THROUGH THAT ALSO I APOLOGIZE FOR STEALING YOUR INNOCENCE I NEVER MEANT FOR THIS TO HAPPEN OSDAFKJDSK BUT THANK YOU FOR READING I’M GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT EVEN IF IT HURT YOU!!!

I've been up all night and it's now 11am. I'm completely binging on your stories bc I am in LOVE and need a Molly in my game asap. Do you think you'll ever upload her?

omG my freaking story inciting insomnia i’m so sorry for ur sleep schedule first of all, but at least that makes you identify with santi even more omg tho ;___; (how many times will i say ‘omg’ i wonder) i don’t think so because she is so dear to me and makes my heart ache, she is just so special, i dunno if i could ever release her into the wild like that lmao. i haven’t even shared her with my friends (not that i really ever had a reason to) but like yeah. maybe in the future that’ll change but right now, no, i’m sorry <3

To change the topic: Idk if you watch stranger things but I only managed to get to episode 3 of season 2 before I stopped watching lmao it was so bad and Billy (a certified Cunt) ruined the whole show for me

YEAH I DID! omg. i have a LOT of issues with this season (mostly in how badly they tried to retcon nancy and everyone else not caring about barb’s death, how bad the writing was in the realm of nancy and steve breaking up and then her and jonathan getting together...holy fuck it was so uncomfortable with that 40 yr old conspiracy theorist guy i couldn’t even enjoy my ship getting together lmao) also ur right, max and billy honestly did not offer anything to the story...like i loved max too but what was the point...billy acted like their presence and the reason they had to move was so dramatic when it was really nothing...unless they’re saving that for season 3 but like. the whole situation with billy was so anticlimactic. he was like a walmart version of henry from IT. like boohoo ur dad’s an asshole and then he beat up steve. good character arc. i liked max standing up for herself but really...that whole thing was so lackluster, i didn’t care about it at all. ALSO I HATED THAT THEY DIDN’T LET MAX AND ELEVEN BE FRIENDS!! i’m sure it’ll happen in season 3 but like c’mon...that would’ve made the max character feel a little more important to the story. anyway yeah fuck billy and i don’t get why everyone is lusting after him or his actor they’re both ugly! thanks for listening

I just got the sims 4 + city living and I’m so excited! I was really inspired by your stories and style in general... I was wondering what packs do you have and also what are your favourite sims 4 hairs? I’m having trouble finding ones and I love your style!

YAY I’M EXCITED FOR YOU!!! omg aww it warms my heart so much when people say i inspire them because i never anticipated that kind of response, thank you so much <3 hmmm i think i have all of them except glamour stuff and fitness stuff. and pretty much all the hairs i download are here or here. (or the subsequent ‘tf’, ‘cf’, ‘tm’ and ‘cm’ tags as well, according to age)

UHM a 19 year old and a 13 year old? Poor baby Lou... Also youre a brilliant writer i cant

😬😬😬 stay tuned ajasdhjhjsahd thank you so much!!!

My stan levels for you have increased so much? like thanks for being a good ally, clAps for femmesim!

lmao thank you, i don’t really deserve praise tho i’m just passing on the knowledge of those patient enough to teach me. just trying to do what i can with my privilege u know. ily

How do you have teeth showing in so many of your pictures of Lou and Molly, do you PS them in?

i’ve gotten this question before and it’s usually just the poses used! i do have some lipsticks that have teeth on them but i mostly use them for just rooney.

Honestly, a fight between Santi and that new guy (srry, forgot his name while typing this) would be so hot. Like, I hope Santi would win but like just watching Santi fight him for Lou would make me happy!! Also, I live for your stories💞

omG i’m about to call up vince mcmahon they both need to fight on smackdown it’s gonna happen. they’ll both be shirtless too ok and THANK YOU ILY

boi poc can be PREJUDICED against white people but there is no such thing as reverse racIIIIIIiiiiIIIIIiiiIIIIsm

Lemme just say that you must be feeling so stressed rn. I love you and your simblr!!! Your posts light up my day!! <3333

OMg kind of. this week has taken A Lot out of me and i really just want to chill at home and play my freaking GAME but obligations. u know. here’s hoping i get a day off this week. i’m mad i’m probably gonna miss gianni’s birthday too (it’s on tuesday) and i wanted to do something for it!! i’ll probably do it late like i did last year too lmao i’m so sorry baby g ANYWAY u didn’t ask to hear about any of this...thank you for this sweet message i love you <3

why,,,, are people... coming to your blog to discuss race you are a fucking simblr WHAT

the real question is why do people go to you like its your job to educate them lmao like theres so many resources out there

SHAWDY u aint wrong reverse racism is literally a joke i am so sorry you have to go through all of this keep stepping on white feelings we deserve it

I was wondering would u consider Asians to be POC?

yes

I just finished Strange the Dreamer and it was fucking amazing. I cried so much and I laughed and I sat in absolute amazement at the world Laini Taylor has created. 100/10 would recommend

ahhhh i really need to read it apparently!! i’m like 10% away from being done with a dance with dragons (and then i have to wait for the next book like a peasant HURRY UP KING GEORGE) anyway this one is definitely on my list!

omgomg!! I just met this girl in my class who has eyes just like ramona's!!! But like instead of being brown w/ a little bit of blue, they were blue w/ a little bit of brown!!! Dude I was so shook I rlly didn't think ppl had eyes like that!

OMG!!!! that’s amazing! and yes heterochromia is a real thing haha. i’ve only met one person with it and he had the same color combo as ramona too, only his was full heterochromia, not sectoral.

*me in the background screaming* nO yOU LEAVE HER ALoNE baD-DAD-MaN!

ME TF TOO

every time i read some of your stories i get an ache in my heart that doesn't go away until i either cry or sleep so interpret that as you like

OMG ;_____; ok me too tho my heart literally hurts thinking about my characters sometimes...mostly santi...i hate him (no i don’t :{ )

hey uhh idk if you've answered something like this before but do you have a spotify or something bc your music taste is GOLD

THANK YOU!! you were the first person to ask about this haha and hopefully you saw my answer to the other question about it! i just made one and it’s here!

hi hi ! i’m seeing all the drama on da blog and i really want to read the whole story but i can’t get to it on mobile so i was wondering if you could link the beginning and tell me what the best order to read it in is ( i’m so confused because i’ve seen sm people y’all about a parallel story so idk if i’m being dumb !! ) i hope this isn’t any inconvenience also your sims are so beautiful sjajsjajs

hey on mobile the link is just: http://femmesim.tumblr.com/tagged/story/chrono i would honestly just recommend that order haha, it makes things simpler and it encompasses ALL story posts, or posts that give context. there are parallels in my story, lou’s is kind of a parallel of santi’s, only different...well...you’ll see. but yeah sorry this is so late! and thank you!!!

TU HISTORIA ES TAAAAAN BUENA POR DIOOOOS (YOURE STORY IS SOOOOO GOOD OMG) <3 <3 *OO* *cries in spanish*

MUCHAS GRACIAS ENCANTADORA PERSONAAAA <333

lou is wendy right? i mean, a wendy complex is someone who is overly mothering to partners, and lou is already a mother and ik that doesn't really count as foreshadowing but it seems like it could be a link to me. it'd make sense too, considering guys that go after younger girls (ew) are usually immature ie peter pan complex. it'd make the most sense that those two go together then.

heheheheh that is a VERY good observation...that’s all i’m gonna say!!

This has nothing to do with what's happening in the story rn, but whatever. I was wondering if you were going to mention lou's struggles with being a single mom and the stigma surrounding single motherhood? As a single mother myself I'd really enjoy seeing you take on the issue. Personally, my biggest problem was overcoming the generalizations people put on you when you're a single mom. People always assumed that I that I was stupid and uneducated because I had my son when I was 17.

yes! that will definitely come up. i will focus a lot on her struggles as a single mom. so far i’ve mostly just peppered in some stuff about money troubles, and that will come up again, and the issues you mention will be pretty central to her character as well. i’m sorry you have to endure that, it’s not fair. people don’t even realize how strong and dedicated single mothers are.

when you say Peter Pan, do you mean the Disney stuff or the og creepy stuff?

i mean the general themes of the story and how that translates into a peter pan complex: boy who never grows up, feels like he fits in more with younger people (haha...yikes), read the message above because that anon described the other half of the equation better than i could

Wait, hold up. That dude is cute but I feel like he’s coming onto Lou way too strong. I have a bad feeling.. Lou is like 13 there and he is 19 I mean I’ve seen bigger gaps between people, but she is not legal yet.. Where are you going with this? 🤨😅

yyyyyyep that feeling is warranted! i am going a way i don’t think you guys expect me to go...i think you’ll be very confused at the end of this part lmao. that being said, i’m not putting any of this in for shock value or to romanticize inappropriate relationships like this. (i’m probably going to be repeating that a LOT for this story but please just keep that in mind)

Hey mom wanna hear a fun as hell story? I just got back from the ER bc I fell on my razor after showering, and practically cut my nipple in half. (I am in so much pain hELP)

OMFG NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR POOR NIPPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’M SO SORRY I HOPE IT FEELS BETTER PLEASE UPDATE ME ON THE NIPPLE STATUS

U gotta watch sense8!!! Apart from the v awkward sex scenes it's v good, has a lot of representation and shit Just watch that shit show, u won't regret it (And if you do I cut your throat oops)

i’ve heard it’s good! i remember when it first came out and everyone was like Wow The Representation so honestly anything with diversity has already got me hooked pls don’t murder me.

I'm calling it now. He's Fi's dad. and he's a FUCKING CREEP!! Bitch you are 19!! LOU IS 13!! BACK THE FUCK OFF YOU PERV!!

no spoilers or anything but honestly i’m with you @ cillian die

Are they gonna fucc, o no

right now? no. that would be Very Bad

bABY ITS COLD OUTSIDE

oh same

Hi ! Your lastest edit (graveyard girl) is truly amazing, how did you make that bokeh behind her ? 😱😍

thank you so much!!! it’s reshade (with matso DOF)!

You've probably got this question a lot of times but i can't find the answer for it. What reshade do you use?

i gotta add this to my faq, it’s one i created myself but i started out with this one (it totally doesn’t resemble that one anymore but i think it’s a good starting point)

how do you make good looking male sims? mine always look the same and kinda girly..

hmmm longer faces, prominent chins and jaws, smaller eyes, bigger noses...generally yeah

What do you mean 9 + alt?

you gotta turn bb.moveobjects on and then press alt + 9 when an object is selected to move it upward. so what i did with those poses i made was, i selected a teleporter and pressed alt + 9 until it was at a spot i liked on the roof. that’s why releasing those poses would be tricky, ‘cause every build is different so there’s no set way to place them, you just kinda have to play around with them

You mentioned GoT so naturally, I have to chime in and express my love for Jon. Honestly, he won me over ever since the first season? I'm at season 5 now and people have already warned me so now i'm silently weeping, waiting for something to happen to my precious bby help

JONNY BOY!!!!!!!!!!! i loved his emo ass since the beginning but his arc with qorin halfhand (was he in the show??) was probably the best arc in book 2 and then his book 3 arc was just...SO GOOD, SO MUCH happens to him and i just felt like i was watching my son go through it all...i love that boy so much ;-; i’m almost at the end of the last book and i’m scared for him because of the one spoiler i know lmao and you’re at that point too so GET READY we’ll go through it together ok

So there's this game I'm playing where someone talking about another character says 'maybe you can break him from his ouroboros of self-fladulation' (I know I probably butchered those spellings but I'm not a bright egg and autocorrect isn't helping rip) and tbh it made me think of Santi. (Also I'mma scream of you get this reference jsyk)

OMG THE FACT THAT YOU THOUGHT OF HIM ;-; and it’s okay u are the brightest egg in the bunch to me. I’M SORRY I DON’T GET THIS REFERENCE BECAUSE I’M NOT A VIDEO GAME PERSON BUT I’LL PRETEND I DO KNOW WHAT UR TALKING ABOUT anyway yes santi is currently in the process of breaking his self-flagellation and embracing the oneness of the ouroboros (as opposed to letting the cycle repeat itself until he’s worn down to nothing)

do you have any favorite pose creators?

answered

do you have any tips for taking good screenshots in game? like how to get the good angles and good quality? i play on ultra but i think when i zoom in and then use the arrows on my keyboard to move around, the pictures gets less clear and looks kinda blurry. how should i do this?

well if you’re already using ultra, there’s not much you can do lmao. sims 4 is just bad with textures in general. it also depends on the objects as well, some are better quality than others. if i zoom in far on a sim’s face, i generally know there will be some pixelation and i can clean that up in photoshop with topaz clean and the smudge tool. i am very reliant on photoshop sometimes lmao. it sounds like you already have the basics of taking good screenshots, it’s just sometimes you have to fight and work with sims 4′s less-than-hd quality.

burn it down by daughter reminds me of santi & i'm in pain

ouroboros!!! death! birth! death again! birth again rinse repeat! also santi breaking the cycle because third time's the charm

The tattoo is an Ouroboros. It originated in Egyptian iconography, and it symbolizes recreation. My boy's recreating himself, I'm so proud.

ouroboros, the dragon eating its own tail. it's a sign of eternal renewal

i saw the post of child molly and just started BAWLING i miss her what the fuck she's my fave character i'M CRYING

ME TOO BICH!! ME FUCKIN TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just read all of A Serious Case Of The Novembers so far and theres still tears on my face. some of the best stuff ive read in a while, great job on everything

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! ALSO I’M SORRY FOR MAKING YOU CRY

every time you write about molly and her in heaven it makes my heart swell, like the characters were answering asks and someone asked her what heaven was like and even though it was so small short lil answer it still pulls at the heart strings, basically what im trying to say is that your writing is so good! <3

omg ;_______; me too, i feel like she has such a simple way with words and although her descriptions of heaven are brief, they are also complex and beautiful, and even just writing it chokes me up ;-; thank you so much tho i’m so glad you like it!!

Molly: out Molly tatto: also out

why did this remind me of this post:

How did you edit in the fire in the last post? Looks cool

i searched things like “bonfire” and pasted parts of it that i wanted on the pic to make it look more realistic, then put a layer mask on the pasted pic and erased the edges and stuff to make it blend in better. the sparks and stuff i added by pasting it onto a new layer and changing the blending mode to screen!

idk if you have every watched grey anatomy but Lou's backstory is starting to remind me of Jo (Jo is a character from the show) like Jo was in a abusive relationship and she is married to the guy but she cant get divorced or he will come and find her. So like if Lou didn't tell Fiona's dad he was a dad and Lou was married to him and cant escape the marriage (cause abuse), plus it would explain Lou's kink with being choked ;) full circle *god-like heaven music with tiniest violin is playing now*

ooh no i don’t but that’s interesting and i’m excited you even made a connection like that! i will say that it’s not lou who likes to be choked (the very opposite actually lmao) but otherwise the situation does kinda fit. i’m the violin

I have a freakin bio pre ap test tomorrow on photosynthesis and i have no idea what it is im going to fail save me

I’M ANSWERING THIS VERY LATE BUT I HOPE YOUR TEST WENT WELL!!!!!! *spongebob voice* photosynthesis

last time I installed reshade I couldn't get it to open the controls or shaders or anything in game :///// any tips?? I love they way reshade looks too!!

hmmmmm well i know the control panel opens when you press shift + f2, and then you check the boxes of the effects you want on them. i haven’t heard of this problem so i dunno what other advice to give i’m sorry :{ if it’s your first time installing it, you might have to wait a little to get it to load up.

Da puppy is so cute!!!

That dog and Romona are so adorable, I might cry

Ramona's cheeks are so big im in love

NAJKSDJGKJSD THANK YOU i love her and her chubby cheeks ;-;

OMG TOTORO IS SO BEAUTIFUL I LOVE GHIBLI UGH FKSJFJANFB

SAME!!!!!!! if i could only watch ghibli movies for the rest of my life i’d be totally fine with that

THE DOGGIE HAS EYES JUST LIKE RAMONAS IM GONNA FUCKIGN CRY

ME FUCKGN TOO!!!!!!!!!! it was fate (aka me creating the wolf pup to look just like her shh i am fate)

Hope I'm not bothering you but i wondered if you knew how to make Tamo sims eyebags work on a toddler? Do I just click in s4s to work for toddler on the "age and gender flags" when looking in My CC or do I have to do something a little more than that please? Thank you.

for any skin detail or makeup, you have to go into s4s and open the package up, go to one of the tabs (honestly i don’t remember which one because i don’t have it open rn lmao) and you’ll see the different age groups and you check the box for toddler. and then save it of course. (there’s probably a better guide on how to do this somewhere lmao)

Hey :) Sorry to take up your time, I was wondering if you use win7, win8 or win10? I'm trying to decide on one and people seem to have very strong feelings about it. Also what web browser do you use? I've used Firefox, but I had some problems on CC websites. Thanks<3

i use windows 10 because it came with my laptop lmao i honestly don’t know much about windows systems at all!! and i use google chrome because it’s never failed me (even though windows keeps pressuring me to use the new internet explorer called “edge”)

i just finished all of novembers in a sitting and 1. i'm Sobbing, 2. your music taste is bomb

THANK YOU!!! my music taste is like one part indie shit, one part rap and hip-hop, twelve parts emo middle school bands

what is the size of the original unedited screenshot?

1920x1080

For reshade when your first install and select the reshade you want to use do you have to edit the settings? Cause last time I tried to (I didn’t know what most of the things meant lmao) but it kept saying error or something so I couldn’t play the game so I ended up taking out reshade

do you mean the preset you want to use? i mean no you can just play with that preset, you don’t have to change anything about it. i’m not sure what you mean but i followed this guide for setting it up

Will you ever share your preset?? Or maybe a preset made be you??

i’ve answered this before but the answer is Maybe

Hi!!!! How do you make the rays of light you have in your photos?? THANK U BBY <3333

that’s actually in my editing tutorial but here you go <3

is reshade only available on windows + do we need to pay for it

yes and no

Hello love! I was wondering (and maybe it's a dumb question, idk) but what life span setting do you use? I would assume you turned off aging for your story but maybe I'm wrong ;w; Thank you!!

i do actually have aging off ‘cause i’m a coward lmao even in the ts3 days when i wasn’t doing story stuff and literally just playing i had it off for the most part and just aged sims up when i wanted because i like to be in control of Everything (aries)

I really just wanted to say that I’m new I your tumblr but your stories are amazing and I love them so much!!! Keep doing what you’re doing💞👏🏼

hey thank you!!! you are so kind and i’m glad you’re enjoying everything!!

In your reshade settings where have you set it to save your SS's to and which key please? I can't find mine after setting it to desktop/screenshots :(

i just set mine to ts4′s screenshots folder because it’s what i was used to and it works for me haha. hmmmmmm did you copy the exact address or whatever it’s called of your folder’s location and then paste it into the reshade box? try doing that with another location and see if it works. if anything you can do what i did ‘cause it worked for me

ok SO i came across this music video for this like spanish/english speaking indie band called The Marías and the song was déjate llevar and literally everything about the music video reminded me of rooney and gianni

OMMMGGG i love this so much, i cry @ music suggestions and this is so them ;-; i think i’ve heard of this band before actually!!

a little life is going to fucking ruin you,,, just a warning

great! i look forward to it

can a steal ur talent

have it i don’t need it

What app are you using to make them cool edit things??

i tagged it but it was doodle face

omg Strange the Dreamer is so freaking amazing! It’s literally one of my favorite books of all time; You’ll love it. The writing is absolutely delightful

you guys are really singin the praises for this book!! i have so many dang books to read i swear

#nonsims #saviorhide #anonymous #sunny answers #it is done and i never want to see another anon message again #i retire

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Tagged by: @nin-tinuga Name: Agnès Nicknames: Gnessou, Gender: she Star Sign: Leo Birthday: July 28th Height: 5'3, probably Age: 20 years old Sexual Orientation: pan ? lesbian ? asexual ? who the fuck knows, not me Relationship Status: Intergalactic vacuum Hogwarts House : a mix of them all ? But I guess mostly Ravenclaw, Hufflepuff (but I have Slytherin tendencies, and probably Gryffindor traits as well... tf is wrong with me) Favorite Color: maroon, green, blue... So many of them ! Time Right Now: 10:02 pm What Are You Reading: “La Mythologie” by Edith Hamilton, “Interview with the Vampire” by Anne Rice, a lot of fanfictions Last Movie You Watched: .... Probaby was Reality High on Netflix, but I’m gonna say @tincanbros livestream on the 23rd-24th was way more enjoyable Average Hours of Sleep: err... lately, 5, but i actually need around 9 or 10 to livre properly so i’ve been a sleepy mess lately Lucky Number: don’t have one ! Last thing You Googled: ... Buffy Favorite Fictional Characters: Ellana, Hermione Granger, Elizabeth Bennet, Fred&Georges Weasley (and their long lost brother John), also PHRYNE FISHER DETECTIVE INSPECTOR JACK ROBINSON DOT HUGH EVERY FREAKING ONE OF THEM, Aragorn, Ned, Chuck, Olive & everyone on Pushing Daisies, SUN OF SENSE8 BUT ALSO EVERY ONE OF THEM, also prob a bunch more Number of Blankets You Sleep With: 2 to 3 (one fleece blanket so soft it just made me start sleeping naked in it) Favorite Singer/Band: i’ve been listening to @postmodernjukebox lately and i love what they do !! and then my forever favourite, @teamstarkid and also @tincanbros again, super talented people they do musicals and stuff go and check them out ! Dream Trip: mh... probably visit old sites in the UK, and Ireland ? i love those green parts Dream Job: being paid to do as i please, is that an option ? Current Job: student (foreign languages, boring buisness and also history) When This Blog Was Created: idk ? where do you see that ? probably 2 or 3 years ago Current Number of Followers: 138, wow, thanks guys, i don’t even know that many people irl What Do You Post: funny stuff, stylish stuff, nature stuff, also fandom related stuff? i don’t create a lot of posts Who Are Your Most Active Followers: the one and only amazing author @abadmeanman , @nin-tinuga, @dorklightwood, @ughjpeg thanks guys, when i get notes it’s from one of you :’) When Did Your Blog Reach Its Peak: uh... I posted one Drarry enthousiast post and it got like 150 notes What Made You Decide to Get a Tumblr: Me bro @hackthepatriarchy Why Did You Choose Your URL: i’ve been compared to a panda cause i’m fat, i stink and i eat all the time. this was a bully speaking BUT the panda thing was about my eye makeup, and it is true that i eat a lot, and 24...... well i was a diehard fan of teen wolf Do You Run Any Other Blogs: nope, although i should probably make an arty one What Are You Doing Tomorrow: ... classes (spanish class, then grammar and traduction in english and spanish)

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Are you okay: ... not really What do you create: .... not enough (i draw and i used to make fimo clay stuff) What do you like to touch: fleece, myself, soft things, animals, the inside of almond shells are super smooth, What smells make you nostalgic: a specific smell of a sunscreen tube i sitll have that belonged to my godmother, the smell of rain in the country, the smell of burning firewood in my parent’s house in winter when it’s cold, gingerbread spice, the smell of hay cats have when they’ve been sleeping in it Hood, umbrella or nothing when it’s raining: nothing if i can take a shower after... i don’t have an umbrella so i’ll just be wearing a wood anyway Do you like to add uppercase letters everywhere: ... it is Quality Writting

@hackthepatriarchy @pingwyyy @supermegafoxyawesomehot182 @sketchshark @karamelsucree @abadmeanman @garrulus @rejectedprincesses @floccinaucinihilipilificationa @bullysquadess @newtmas-is-good @nathsketch

#answer questions #about me #hungrypanda24

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stormfang-gnash · 6 years ago

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A few things, but please don't take this as a callout or smth, i just have strong feelings about this:

I concur with the inconsistent tagging system and porn bots, BUT the latter half is something tumblr itself is at fault for (and some of the tagging stuff is prob tumblrs fault too tbh). I've been on this site since I was 13 or 14 myself, and Ive had porn bot followers since day one. But the users have bitched and moaned about the bots for YEARS. Most legit porn blogs actually do tag their shit so its not too hard to filter (its usually reblogs that don't tag shit, and if this was the problem, make the algorithm fix that). I havent seen any porn on my dash without actively looking for it at all really, beyond the bots that follow me at least. I don't have any tags blacklisted either. I'd be okay with like the sensitive content filter (like that thing where it just says "this post contains sensitive content" and you can't click on it) being applied to those with underaged birthdates, but kids lie about their age online all the time, and I don't like that it forces *everyone* to not be able to see it because of a handful of young teens. I don't even use tumblr for porn, but it's just silly imo.

At 13, you already know about porn and sex man. I know when I was that age (actually, i was 12), shit like 2 girls 1 cup (pun intended), 1 man 1 horse, etc were being shared around and watching them was some sort of feat. Even though it's not porn in the typical sense, it's still something you know about in 8th grade. They arent the innocent sweet dovies we wanna believe they are. Not saying I think all teens are horny deviants bc they aren't, but thinking that they don't get up to stuff is false. They are too young to engage in it, yes, but you're misguided if you don't think teens browse porn (and personally i dont see the big deal with teens browsing porn, so long as they dont engage in the act of creating it themselves and dont like/rb/follow); there is an overwhelming number of teens that do start looking at porn, particularly around 14 or 15. If it isn't on tumblr, it'll be pornhub or xtube or whatever the hell else. The good thing about tumblr is that there are actual communities that promote engagement in safe practices, esp in kink communities, so teens might actually *learn* something about both their sexuality and how to be safe.

"Surrounded by inappropriate content"? Yes I understand that it exists on this site, but beyond the porn bots, which i've already stated is tumblrs fault and shouldve been fixed long ago, you really have to actively look for porn, or follow blogs that reblog it. I only ever saw porn in ship tags, and even then it was almost always tagged as nsfw. In a lot of ways I will vehemently argue tumblr was the best place for teens to browse(but not engage), esp if they were a minority, bc of all the positivity and community on this site. Teens that wished to keep themselves distant from the sex craze could by blocking the tags and unfollowing people known to reblog untagged nsfw. Not to mention the features tumblr put in place (safe mode + this blog is explicit. They werent perfect but I'm saying that if tumblr honed their craft and were fucking competent itd be fine). I can agree that perhaps the age limit should be raised to 17 or at least 15/16 though, since that's mostly whos all on here, older teens and adults.

All of tumblr is a bug/mistake. Idk how old this is even cause this blogging site somehow doesn't have a date system, but i just saw it in the tags and lemme say this. As of 4, Jan, 2019, the pornbots haven't gone anywhere. They're out of the notes, but they still reblog posts and add their pieces, they actually delete every part of the text post now so its a 4k note post with nothing but their "cl1ck h3r3 f0r tr0j4n" bullshit, they tag shit as sfw to circumvent the flagging algorithm, and I have gained at least ten pornbot followers post-female presenting nipple. And this is exactly what I foresaw in the onset; the ban didnt fix the initial problem of porn bots, it just completely silenced normal content creators, stripped them of their fanbases, and kicked them to the curb. Do they have the right to do this as a private company? Yeah. But my issue with it is that they did this and the problem is *still here.* meaning all this flexing was moot and just for show. Plus, porn is NOT the most detrimental thing on this platform for teens. That'd be "MAPs" and nazis. And at the very least, I know the nazis are still here, so I don't know how much "better and more positive" this hellscape is.

I get where you're coming from w/ a lot of your points, and I agree with some of them! Namely increasing the age limit some, that would have been a very simple fix that wouldn't have ruffled as many feathers. I also can agree that this algorithm COULD have been good if it was used better and not like the giant blanket it has been used as, cause yeah, it could've been a good thing. It could've helped sort out untagged porn, help w/ the removal of pornbots and pedophiles, it couldve blocked underaged people from viewing flagged content like age restriction on youtube, etc etc. But instead they mass deleted NSFW and have been incorrectly flagging stuff that is even remotely flesh toned as inappropriate.

I'm not giving tumblr time to make this work because quite frankly, they've HAD their time - people have been calling out @staff on their bullshit for years about the child porn, the pedophiles, and the bots. Action should have been taken then, when the wound was fresh. It could have been contained and cleaned up fairly nicely, and by now we would have a good system in place, possibly akin to the one I mentioned above. But they did not. They did nothing. They heard us screaming and closed the shutters. And in doing so, they showed us that they didn't care, not until it affected them and their livelihood directly. Not to mention that their response was one that demonized a group that was unrelated to the main issue. But now it is too late. Their time is up. I am not waiting, nor are those who have already left. I'm on this hellsite for now because it's the one I know, but I do plan to migrate to twitter once i learn to deliver responses in under 200 characters.

Tldr, the ban solved nothing and i dont think any amount of time will see it fix anything because this website is so grossly incompetent, they cant pour piss out of a boot.

What really bothers me is that staff thinks it needs to make this site “safe for children” like have you seen this place? Get rid of the pedophiles and child porn by all means please, make it safe for teens sure, but no 9 year old should be using tumblr so I think you’re in the clear there. I don’t get it like what did staff just wake up one morning, and look at this site like

“…Hmm…”

#i respect your opinions! im mostly just mad at staff #jobean rambles #tumblrpocalypse #yes im still mad about this shit

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