#i should have stayed home

[nyashykyunnie]

Don't you just hate the feeling where you feel like you're brain is being eaten alive every moment you spend on your papers and table and you can't jus stop because it's exams tomorrow and your grades aren't even on the passing shit because the course has been brutal on you as a fucking foreign student? Yeah. that's me rn The only thing actually keeping me from 'doing' something is that I want to see Jinwoo flourish more as a beloved character and Zayne. I need to listen to Zayne's heartbeat asap before I combust and have a mental breakdown

[fanfictasia]

Sicktember Day 28

“I should have stayed home”

Spoiler: This is an excerpt from The Mushroom Strikes Back

Anakin never felt like he belonged with them, and the more times goes on, the more it feels like it. He doesn’t know the clones well, but he feels like he fits in with them better far more than he ever has at the Temple. Like there’s a chance they could actually understand each other, even if they were raised entirely differently.

“You were still a… Jedi cadet then,” Cody says, blinking.

Anakin can’t help laughing at the unexpectedness of the term. “We call it padawan.”

“Still. Close to being a shiny.”

A shiny? Right. He’s… heard some of the clones sent out first calling the newest recruits joining them that. “Yes…?” he asks, uncertainly.

“Always wanted to see a Jedi,” the commander goes on, “Never thought they would be so… cool.”

He has no idea how to respond to that, to the clones practically worshiping him because of his abilities.

But at the end of the day, they’re only ten or younger. Barely older than when Anakin first came to the Temple. Even if they’re physically older, they really are children, and… of course, they would find it enthralling. He finds the fascination they have for anything Jedi a little adorable, if he’s being honest.

They feel like his age so he doesn’t exactly see them as children, but at the same time, he… kind of does.

“I had much more time to train than any of you,” Anakin points out.

“Then should’ve avoided those… mushrooms,” Cody says, blinking up at the top of the tent, gaze momentarily distant. “I won’t risk that again,” he assures. Not if he has a choice, anyway. Being this sick is very annoying.

[this-is-wilhom]

My brain is so "I left my pasta cooking on the stove for 6 hours on accident" but the pasta is charred and pulsing slowly in the pot and the noodles gently bubbling in their own vile juices, each rise and fall a deep sign from within. I uh psat was a few hours ago

[lunarlegend]

pre-Thanksgiving family dinner at my aunt's house and all i can think is that Ignis can cook better and wouldn't misname me :)

[pose4photoml]

Not having such a great morning ~ my shoulder hurts like a bitch… of course it’s my right one and I’m right handed so even using the mouse at work today hurts.

Then of course I’m working on billing (always a fun time) certain coworker who must not be named is giving me a headache going over her tickets she added. Keep having to remind her clients see the notes section!! 😉

All of this fun time and I’m just now having my coffee ☕️ mental note- don’t talk to coworkers before having my coffee ~ lol…

[unjust-dust]

Pluto 👀

Pluto - tell us about a supernatural event that happened to you?

So I read tarot, which some people could say is supernatural in itself, but this is just for some context in the story.

Anyhoo, I used to work in an Amazon warehouse so I worked with some heavy machinery from time to time, and every shift was almost the same bc I was seen as one of the best people for sorting unusually shaped packages.

I was reading some tarot before my shift and I thought, I'll ask about my upcoming shift and see if anything interesting happens. I pull a card, and I shit you not, it was the 10 of Swords. Basically this meant disaster something bad is going to happen. Now I'm not one to tempt fate so I didn't ask any follow-up questions because the 10 of Swords might not even concern myself, it could be something about the warehouse etc. I swiftly forget about the card and I go to my shift.

That shift I got reassigned to a different department. It's nothing unusual, sometimes they're a worker down and need someone who's trained there (I was the unlucky soul who was). This time I was working in Problem Solving where you have to grab packages off a roller conveyor belt and fix broken labels etc. I lower my hand to the belt, and one of my fingers deadass gets STUCK in the conveyor. I am in severe pain and panic, I shout "Help!" and I'm trying to say 'turn off the machine!' but I am frozen in panic. My hand frees itself eventually but I am a blubbering mess, I'm sent to first aid and my finger is fine but I go home because I'm traumatised.

I'm in the car on my way home and it hits me. 10 of fucking Swords.

[queerstudiesnatural]

seeing both of my parents in one day is wayyyy too much for my weak little brain and health rn i'm not strong enough for this

[mrd-gvf]

We’re at the part of the family gathering where the old people are yelling about politics

[sialiaaaa]

nope nope nope nope don't like it here

[malachitezmeyka]

I just cannot catch a break today can I

[plesiosaurys]

getting emotional over footage of an amateur scuba diver interacting with a coelacanth. they are hunted by large deepwater predators, and here comes a large creature bearing the brightest lights it's ever seen, making strange noises, but it does not shy away. it hovers, calmly, as the diver reaches out and trails a hand down its back. im strongly against the anthropomorphizing of real life animals but the stupid emotional part of me loudly insists this is because it recognizes us, the alternating movements of its four paired limbs matching the diver's four paired limbs, & it is thinking, "hello, cousins, we missed you these 66 million years, it's so good to see you again. welcome back, welcome home."

[ilysmjihyo]

Someone put me out of my misery I can’t take this anymore I’m gonna rip my ovaries out myself if this continues

[naamahdarling]

You know what? You know what I think?

I think that if we lived as we were meant to, in larger intimate ("extended family") groups and with more shared labor and time to do it (UBI NOW) people like me would not feel so useless and burdensome because there would be people around to help and to do what neurodivergent people can't while making valuable space for the neurodivergent to do what they ARE good at.

The way we live right now, all right, the way we live right now forces units of two adults to be able to do EVERYTHING or PAY to have someone come do it for them. I have to do the housework. I have to do it! But I am having to do a million different things and most of them I am not good at. I suck at them.

I wouldn't feel like shit, okay, if I had more than one other person around who was not a child and who could do the things I can't, like do the yard and cook and do repairs and basic maintenance; and someone else to split everything else that I like but is too much for me. It would free me to do what I am good at and enjoy. Cleaning, as in the sink and toilet, the windows, the blinds. Taking out trash. Folding, hanging, and sorting laundry.

But because all the shit I can do often relies on other shit being done first, and I can't do or have trouble doing those things, the shit I can do often can't be done. And even the shit I can do, I can't do ALL of it. So I can't keep up, and things get very bad.

We aren't meant to live like this. We are not meant to live like this.

That thought hurts so much because being able to flee the birth family is integral to survival for so many people. I'm so afraid that living in larger family groups would create more opportunities for, say, queer kids to be isolated, rejected, bullied, and abused. But if we gave people enough money to survive, and stopped considering children the property of their parents with no system in place to help them escape bad situations except a system that is often just as bad, just different.

I'm aware that communes and collectives aren't all that successful and are kind of a joke. I don't mean that. I mean a fundamental shift to multigenerational families where taking in "strays" (which my family did) is also normalized so people escaping abuse into existing households was accepted, with these families centered in maybe a couple of different larger residences so not everyone has to buy and maintain their own fucking washing machine and vacuum cleaner, and so people can benefit from large group meals that yield leftovers, and so child and elder care can also be centralized.

Then disabled people and the neurodivergent and sick and injured people, and pregnant people, and grieving people, would not have to either labor through all those stressors or consign themselves to living off an unlivable pittance or being put under legal guardianship.

I'm not saying anything new. People live like this in other parts of the world and maybe it sucks and I am wrong. But I'm just really mad right now because I can either do laundry or clean the sink but not both, and I really think we could improve society somewhat by making it so I did not have to choose one without sacrificing the other.

[l3irdl3rain]

trying desperately to show off how teeny tiny she is

[pose4photoml]

This morning I was going to call out at work because some thing wasn’t feeling right when I woke up…. Fast forward to 1pm…. 3 clients beyond annoying over email and phone calls about how they need help ASAP… then the coworker who must not be named CAME in the office so…Moral of the story you ask??!!

I SHOULD HAVE STAYED HOME!!!

Now ~ I need chocolate and my music 🎵… 2.5 hours till I can leave…. 😒

[mush-dooms]

update the bluetooth is simply not working and idk how to fix it. fun!

ah yes, nothing like getting to work only to discover that both your mouse AND your keyboard are dead 👍 and because apple hates their customers the charging port is on the bottom of the mouse making it completely nonfunctional