#i seriously didnt think i drew him that much but damn!! okay girl!!

[asooffa]

dumping pt 2

[soopest]

SO GUYS. I FINISHED III

GOD DAMN DO I HAVE THOUGHTS GUYS. but i'll just cover things i think are relevant to the doodles i made afterwards. if you have any questions on my thoughts on things i wouldn't be impartial to asks or replies to the post :3 i just need to rant for a minute im so mentally ill please

knife is only there because my friend watched ii s2 and he LOVES knife and i was like. word. hes awesome so i drew knife for him

HOOO BOY OKAY nickel and balloon. it was a bumpy ride fellas. going immediately from s2 where nickel was kinda a POS to s3 where they suddenly became acquaintances was a little weird to me. (especially in that one episode where silver & candle interrogate nickel about baseball. no suitcase mention?? huh???) but it was cool to see their journey! the buddy-buddy thing seemed weird throughout earlier episodes because in s2 balloon and nickel kinda hated each other's guts so i'm glad that was covered in a later episode and that their friendship was actually solidified. BUT that doesn't leave nickel off the hook if he dont march his ass up to suitcase and say sorry the minute they go back to season 2 i'm gonna have a WORD with that boy

BOT!!! OH BABY BOT they are SO adorable and i loved the reveal that they were a robot! i was so mystified on how bow was magically alive at the beginning and seeing that it was just a product of tt and fan's grief was very heartbreaking... but seeing bot evolve into their own person was genuinely so so so beautiful and the representation for queer folks is done very gracefully and it's very wholesome. seriously im not even trans and i was tearing up like a little bitch y'all. fan and test tube are the parents ever it's so cute and they are the cutest fam ever

silver spoon and candle.... hrrrmmm you are certainly funny little guys.... i would like to put you in a jar and study you.... their sudden intense craving for winning was a little jarring but their dynamic is funny. i didn't like silver much at first but he def grew on me especially in the finals, and candle's friendship with yinyang was really cute too (still bawling he got out i really grew to love him.) AND dont think i didnt see ur blushing in ep 17 silver. im onto you

i already covered bot but i just needed to say their friendship with painty is the BEST THING and for some reason painty just stating they were nonbinary made me unnecessarily happy like YES KING (NONGENDERED) GO LIVE UR TRUTH WE LOVE YOU

cabby... oh you are an interesting little gal. i saw her design before ever watching iii and i was like wow! what a critter! but i'll be so honest at first i didn't like her because her information obsessed demeanor seemed very cold and calculating to me (and i'm so biased for fan and tt so when she got them out i was like. Girl.) but now that i understand her whole character arc, how she learned that its not always about the "facts" and how to lean on people, it was really heartwarming and shes rly grown on me. im a cabby appreciator

blueberry's whole fiasco was interesting. errrrrm u tried buddy that's all i gotta say. respect the hustle man

AND FLOORY IS THERE TOO i love him he's in the club of my favorite brits he's a silly guy

okay. if you read this far i'm so proud of you. also the whiteboard doodle was before i finished the series LMAOOOO um hope u enjoy that. thanks for reading my insane ramblings it might happen again i am not sorry

[gale-gentlepenguin]

Gale Reviews: ML Season 5 episode 16 Protection

(This review is conducted without all episodes being released. So be warned that if you want to view the episodes in order. Avoid reading until caught up.)

-Still wish I understood how Lila tricked Kagami into friendship. It feels wrong

-I will give Lila credit on her manipulative words. She still horrible tho

-How dare she trick Kagami like this

-So the whole class just decided to dedicate themselves completely to hooking these two up?

-I love how everyone is like "Since you two are Awkward af, we are here to assist"

-I love the manga they drew for it. Its very shojo

-These plans are amazing. They basically recruiting Paris to handle this

-I love how Adrien and Marinette are reading this like a script and asking questions

-Did they seriously draw the wedding and them having kids? My gravy these kids ship these two almost as much as I do... ALMOST

-I love the Adrien with mustache bits

-As someone who has been in middle school and helps teach Middle schoolers in his volunteer hours. I can attest that this is basically how cringe middle schoolers are

-I like how this is based off Manga, fairy tales and hollywood. And they are cutting to asking questions that the other is asking

-I want this framed so when ever I see a bad and stupid take about adrien being awful I cant simply link this image.

-"If you expect him to do something, you are mistaken" Kagami out here calling adrien out. Damn

-I love that it turned out to be as cringey as it sounded.

-What do they mean replace luka @is-nino-actually-luka how can Nino not play guitar? I need to know the truth

-Also Adrien and Marinette are just sitting and listening to all of this fall apart, even both in sync about wanting to leave.

-Marinette sweetie, it isnt your fault. The situation was just REALLY CRINGE

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-Gabriel and Tomoe talking about the Diamond ball

-Gabriel admitting that he is dying

-Kagami and Adrien talking

-Adrien feels bad about not noticing Marinette's feelings and doesnt know how to make her feel less self conscious about it

-Seriously how can people hate adrien, boy is like cinnamon butter

-The parents walking in thinking Adrien is being passionate about him and Kagami. But thats not the case at all

-"Perfection for perfection" Me talking about my ships

-Oh no, they heard the Marinette part, so much for the happiness of an arranged dynamic

-Kagami looking at adrien acting all determined and forward and is like "Man, now this is the type of adrien I wanted"

-Marinette expecting the worst and tikki is like "Girl, Calm yo tits its fine"

-Marinette is like "Your right Tikki, no more complicated plans. I am not even gonna change."

-"You dumb ho You are in pjs"

-You know what, I respect Marinette. Girl didnt even freak out. She is like "You know what. I am going in Pjs"

-Ah yes, Gabriel and Tomoe arguing that their Children creation arent obeying them

-Tomoe basically saying "Solve this before you die bitch"

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-Gorrilla just eating a bowl of fruit

-"You and Kagami are... of the same design." Either this is some sort of elitist Bulls*** or implication of Sentimonsters

-Okay I am ready to throw hands at Gabriel

-Adrien dropping in a Mom reference to dismiss his father's claims. Good on him

-He did the ring thing! How DARE!!! Gabriel you have SUCH a punchable face

-Adrien NO! DONT DO IT

-Wow... I did not see that coming. Marinette reasoned that it was Gabriel and didnt even bat an eye. I am impressed

-Nathalie listening to Adrien vent about not having a relationship with Marinette and is like "Bitch WHAT?!"

-Nathalie using the OTHER control ring to tell adrien "F*** what your dad thinks, Go kiss that girl"

-I love how Marinette is just being ridiculously adamant about wearing PJs today. She is an inspiration

-Adrien helped her sneak in? Adrien sneaking in girls? My how the angel has become a badboy.

-AND G packed them a picnic. I love it

-Adrien realized she is wearing PJs.

-HE WENT TO CHANGE INTO PJS TOO! That is love right there

-Adrien really be bringing the romance

-I love it

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-Gabriel knows he cant take Nathalie in a fight and thats the reason he just accepts it and walks away. But yea the wording of this does not help but say "Sentimonster"

-Kagami, baby girl... of all the people you could vent to... You picked the WORST PERSON

-Lila f***ing knows Gabriel is Monarch, because thats the only explaination as to why she is telling Gabriel all this crap

-Thats RIGHT Kagami. Marinette is a good girl. Dont believe her lies

-Lila really out here acting like a Marinette salter.

-You know what? This is the type of Manipulation I want to see from Lila. Little twists of things to make it seem true. This is what Lila should have been in season 3

-Irony

-Lila twisted the knife enough for Monarch to act

-Wait why did the red face thing appear BEFORE the akuma showed up?

-And Lila does nothing to stop the akumatization because thats what she wanted

-Oh so thats why its called protection. She gets a sword AND Shield... Pokemon is now available near you

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-Back to the Adrinette. Daww they cloud watching now. This is cute

-Oh my, that cloud was kissing which means...

-We are about to get an ALMOST KISS!

-Omg its so f***ing cute you guys.

-WAIT! Are they holding hands... before marriage? and no protection? Scandalous

-Gabriel can see this you know...

-Yo this music is pretty choice. Hopefully nothing ruins this moment

-Kagami. COULD YOU NOT

-Adrien put in so much effort for this. and Marinette was trying really hard. Kagami doesnt understand

-G COMING IN CLUTCH

-Oh thank goodness, I thought she was gonna skewer him

-Marinette trying to reach out and help but is denied because Lila and akuma twisting the emotional knife

-Adrien really being on the ball today. PROTECT YO GIRL!

-Oh so its one per person.

-Chat noir. I too would be happy to see him

-Adrien trying to talk no jutsu out of this

-She is hoping he uses cataclysm before he thinks

-Thank goodness it isnt awkward between them after Elation... I kind of wish it was. Because it would have been funny

-The charm is Olive oil

-Gonna be honest, that seemed a bit too easy to break

-But it was funny

-So Ladybug tried to give her the charm, but Kagami wont take it, so she left to become Marinette. Then chat noir did the same

-Adrien complimenting another girl, great for my ship but not good for Kagami's heart right now

-NO BABY GIRL DONT CRY

-Oh kagami dear. She needs 100 hugs.

-She loves them both! I also would settle on Adrigaminette

-Adrien complimenting another girl, great for

-Now their picnic is sad now

-But yea the mood kind of got ruined after that. Dont blame them

-Lila once again slid past Kagami. I really do want Kagami to find out the truth

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Overall I liked the fluff.

But the more episodes I see the more I am convinced the sentimonster bulls*** is real

I REALLY want to be wrong. And I know we probably arent going to get a full on 100% confirmation on if they are or arent sentimonsters because if in season 6 they want to back pedal they can

The music in this episode was really good (the ost not the band playing)

I also really like Kagami's development and my heart breaks for her

8/10

I still have some problems with this but the Adrinette is on point and the character development was on point.

Though I swear if Gabriel gets a redemption I will manifest into the show an kill him with my bare hands

[sargentsnowy-blog]

Max paced the waiting tent on the beach same, sweatting nervously. "What if she says no..." He mumbled, Neil and Preston watching him in concern. "Oh my god what if she just...leaves?!"

"Max she's Nikki. She'd never run from her own wedding. Plus your best man is her sister so she'd be hearing a mouthful if she did," Neil says in a gentle tone, trying to calm down the groom before he sweated out his suit. "Chill."

"DUDE I CAN'T." He turned to him in panic, his eyes wide. "Seriously Neil, what if she just...puts it off..? I've been planning this shit for months."

"Don't think too low of her, Maxwell," Preston says with a snicker and straightening his bowtie.

Funny thing is, Max was looking great even tho he was panicked. He had on a dark midnight blue suit with a white shirt underneath. His bangs were pinned out his face so his forehead was showing and two stray curls were free. Great.

He growled and kept pacing.At the same time, Nikki was literally walking in circles while ranting. She wore the same color of Max's suit except her dress was specked with white glitter so it looked like stars.

Her three brides maids, Nerris, Ered, and since she asked Max to find one, his ex Sasha, just watched her. They glanced at each other as they watched.

"Max is a good guy but how would he react to what I have to tell him....?" She looked to the three girls for support.

None of them said anything.

"Uh...you're right! Max is a good guy I'm sure he'd be fine," Sasha cut in awkwardly, looking at Ered and Nerris who kinda just winced at her. "...."

"Haha yeah you're right," Nikki says, a little more confident. "I'll give it to him."

Nerris smirked at her and looked to Sasha who sighed in relief.

Then the music started. Neil and Preston had to practically push Max to his place by the beach water, taking their own places after calming him down a little.

Luckily since it was night, no one could see him sweating. Even with the lights on. So he was fine. This is fine.

His breath caught in his throat when he saw Astria, Nerris and Harrison's tiny child, skipping down the isle with a basket of blue rose petals in her hand and spilling over the white carpet.

Then the brides maids walked out, bright smiles on their faces as they got to the end and stood on Nikki's side. 'oh god oh god...' Max gulped as Nikki walked out her tent, a sparkly dark blue veil covering her face. 'Dammit Nikki walk slower-' But she was walking quickly, stepping onto the platform and across from him.

'Okay Max, calm your ass down.' He slowly lifted her veil and saw her bright pretty face, a wide smile on her red lips. Her makeup was clearly done by Sasha cause it was perfect. Also Nikki didnt really know how to do it.

"...damn..." Max muttered softly, his eyes wide in awe. "You're fine-"

Nikki snorted and laughed, shaking her head. "Thanks Maxie."

"AHEM stop flirting," Gwen says from beside them, her face in a smirk. "Haha sorry," Max apologized sheepishly, looking to Nikki with a more confident smile. He grabs her hands and waited for Gwen to start.

All was going well until they got to the vows.

And when Max opened his mouth, his mind drew a goddamn blank. "Uh..." His eyes widened. "Uhm....I..."

Nikki tilts her head in confusion, raising her eyebrows. "What's wrong?"

"I forgot my vows—"

She winced. "Oof-"

"I'll just wing it." He clears his throat. "So Nikki as you see I forgot my vows and I'm just gonna say it right here right now that I fucking love you and always will. Why? You're perfect to be honest. Everything you do is just...great. You're pretty, funny, amazing, stupidly smart, I don't even know if I'm in your league. Still don't. And this got very cheesy let me just." He coughs. "Anyways I'm pretty sure I'd be a fucking dumbass alone and not talking to anyone if you'd just not gotten off that bus. Can I stop...?" Nikki laughs and nods “yeah you can”

“Anyways!" Nikki smirked. "Its my turn." "Ahem! Max you're really nice when you want to be and a soft cunt to me and me only and I love it. Especially how you're just yelling at someone then turn to me in the sweetest tone cause you know I hate people yelling at me! Hence why my mom wasn't invited!" Her grip tightened on his hands. "You're a smart idiot, pretty cute...wait thats an understatement. You're pretty damn hot ahem. And I'll never freaking forget..." She smiled softly, looking up to him with soft and watery eyes. "...how you let me move into your apartment when you found out what my mom was doing to me. That was honestly the best day of my life besides you proposing to me." Max's eyes widened and he tilted his head with a grin. "It was nothing..."

"We weren't even dating!" She laughs. "And you know exactly how to cheer me up! And..." She sniffed slightly. "F r i c k. Gwen stop crying your emotions are spreading."

She looks to Gwen who was actually sobbing. "S-sorry--" Nikki sighs and sniffs. Then she started crying. "DANGIT." Max snickered and wiped her tears. "Pfft keep it together Nik."

Nikki nods and sniffles again. "Max I really...really love you you don't even know how much...to be honest I started liking you when we cracked that egg...haha and then...you big wimp you asked me out in freshman year of college!"

Max gasped playfully. "Not the point."

"You never break a promise...right?"

"Nope."Nikki looks to Gwen with a small smile, nodding.

"Ahem...Maxwell Greenwood...do you take Nikki Skyler as your wedded wife, to spend your life with her until your dying ages?"

“I do," Max responds confidently, his anxiety fading.

"And do you, Nik-"

"I do I do I DO."

Gwen laughed and looked to Preston who walked up, holding two golden rings on a velvet pillow.

Max and Nikki took one and pushed it up each others right middle fingers before looking up at each other excitedly.

"You may now, k-"

Before Gwen could even finish, Nikki was in Max's grip and he was kissing her happily. Nikki snickered and wrapped her arms around his neck, kissing back just as happy and excited.

They break away with bright eyes and smiles before running down the isle. Nikki tossed her bouquet into the hair with a laugh and Preston shoved the girls out the way, catching it and shouting, "NEIL GAY MARRIAGE IS LEGAL AND I CAUGHT IT!" Neil gulped and sighed softly.

-AT THE AFTER PARTY-

The clinking of wine glasses echoed around the party as everyone celebrated the marriage.

Max and Nikki were sitting beside each other and chatting with everyone about how Max was taking her on a cruise for their honeymoon.

A very expensive one that David totally helped him book.Speaking of David, he was sobbing into Gwen's shirt, just so happy that his SON finally got married to her and kept that promise he made years ago."Pfft David...calm down..." Gwen patted her HUSBAND'S head and stood up, clinking her glass with a smirk. "Everyone! Hey listen up!"

The crowd goes silent and everyone looks over to her, curious and surprised.

"Toasts you assholes to the newly weds!""Oh! Oh! Oh!" Sasha jumps up. "I have one!"

Max and Nikki look to each other in surprise before looking back at his ex.

-SKIP AFTER THE TOASTS TO THE WEDDING PRESENTS WHERE I'LL MAKE ALL OF YOU SOB-

"A new TV for the apartment!" Nikki says excitedly, opening Nerris' and Harrison's present. "It has a sound bar!"

"Neil gave us a new PlayStation. Playstation 7." Max looked to Neil and smirked, Neil grinning and shrugging."Open ours," Gwen says excitedly, grinning.

Max took their present and opened it, finding a vacation pass to france. "Why don't you guys take this?"

"Well we think you guys might need it later." Gwen looks to Nikki with a small smile.Nikki gulped nervously and started to fidget in her seat. 'Crap.' "Uhhhh Max?"

Max turns to her. "Yeah Nik?"

She smiles anxiously. "I have a present for you." She picks up a small box. It was wrapped with a red bow on top.

Max shrugs and takes it, tearing the paper open while humming.

She looked over at him, sweating.

David hurried and grabbed his camera, turning it on.

Max opens the box and his breath caught as he pulled out two pacifiers. One was blue. One was pink. He lifted his head slowly and looked to Nikki with wide eyes.

Nikki looked over at him with an anxious smile, saying, "Maxie...we're having twins.." Max stayed silent for a while, just staring at her. Then tears streaked down his face. "..."

"Ah- Max!" Nikki tried to wipe his tears but he just hugged her tightly, sobbing into her shoulder.

"...haha h-how long..h-have yo-you known..?"

She hugs him back. "2 months.." He sits up, wiping eyes only for more tears tears to fall down. "Fuck fuck fUCK...Nikki ima be a dad. A fucking...dad."

She laughs and nods. "A great one too. You're probably gonna be crying when they go off to preschool."

Max blinked and nodded. "Yeahhhhh you're probably right." He then stood up and stood Nikki up too.

"Max what're y-"

Max pecks her lips and said, "you have to dance with my dad, idiot."

...

@jennythemagicbear requested this sorry its in this format I wrote it on discord.

[writingismyhappytime]

Dauntless: Caffeine, Baby?

Eric x OC

Warnings: language

Wow, Eric was being more of an asshole then usual. I leaned against the wall with crossed arms as the new initiates filed past sleepily, hardly able to even hold their eyes open.

Poor babies, Eric was going to rip their heads off.

Not that it was my problem.

I technically didn't have to work the babies this morning, I'd just stopped by to see how grouchy Eric was.

Off the charts.

Not that that was my fault or anything, either.

I mean, it wasn't like we'd had a knock out, drag out fight last night because I was slightly pregnant and hormonal and I couldn't stop talking when I should. We'd established that I, the female version of asshole Eric, was going to be a complete and utter bitch for the next six months.

No lie.

I was bitchier then usual.

Also a little round; okay, so technically I suppose I wasn't even supposed to be training anyone, or fighting, and there was something about heavy lifting too....

Whatever.

Didn't matter much to me.

I could do whatever I wanted.

Like leave before Eric noticed I was spying on him.

I quickly slipped out of the room, heading out into the compound. I kind of felt bad about last night, I'd lost my temper over something stupid and it had ended in a screaming match.

Eric never shut his mouth though, even when I was being irrational he felt the need to put me in my place, and I wasn't sure if that was a good thing or a bad thing.

Probably a bad thing on his end, it always made me worse.

Sometimes I even cried and then literally neither of us knew what to do then.

Horrifying.

I sighed.

Maybe I could offer him some kind of peace offering?

I mean, neither of us had wanted a baby, it had quite literally just happened. All of a sudden, out of the blue, unfortunately, without either of our fucking permission.

Surprise motherfuckers.

I wouldn't have expected any less of a child of mine and Eric's.

It better kick ass too!

It would be the best soldier Dauntless has ever seen; Eric and I are both in leadership, excellent soldiers, although our personalities are shit. Which is probably what drew the two of us together, we were intolerable to other people.

Hell, we could barely stand each other half the time, and I know he absolutely hated me right now.

I felt bad about it.

I should get him some coffee.

Would that be nice?

I could do nice things, even if he said I couldn't! I was fucking thoughtful, you arrogant pretzel!

Ugh!

I was going to put arsenic in his damned coffee if I had my way.

Okay no, I wouldn't. I wasn't going to raise a baby by myself, and I wasn't going to allow Eric to die and get away with it either.

So, he lived another day.

I pressed a hand against my stomach with a grimace. I was already getting that baby bump or swell or whatever it is.

Eric seemed to always want to touch my stomach, and I couldn't wait until she or he started kicking and he could feel it. He was going to be a great dad, and I knew that. Already he was excited about it.

I wanted a boy, myself. I figured a little Eric running around would be cute, and Eric would absolutely love and adore him so much. I mean, he probably be that way with a girl too, but I still wanted a boy.

Eric had never said his preference,not that I cared anyway .

Okay, I cared a little.

I wanted him to be happy.

I didn't want him to be like my dad, knock someone up and stick around long enough to have a second kid before bailing and getting himself killed. I'm sure that last part wasn't intentional but karma's a bitch after all.

Eric was loyal, though. He might be a pig sometimes, but he would never be with someone else while he was in a relationship with me. Single, he could sleep with as many women as he wanted. In a relationship, I'd bust his balls so hard he'd never be able to produce anything else but white powder.

...

Yeah, I was definitely a little edgy right now.

But I had a thing growing inside of me and taking up space! My back and feet hurt now more then ever and I wasn't even fighting. Hell, I was barely doing anything right now!

Which also got on my nerves .

But, I digress.

Now where was some coffee? Maybe with some caffeine in his system he wouldn't be such an arrogant prick.

Although... I did kind of love him. He was sweet when it mattered, and he always tended to take care of me. He was doing his best under the circumstances, so that's what mattered . The fact he was with me after I'd been so awful showed that much.

Why did I have to be such an ass!?

I wasn't going to apologize, but.... Well, I guess I could.

It wouldn't kill me this time.

I grabbed a cup of coffee from one of the many break rooms throughout Dauntless before making my way back to the training center. I could hear Eric traumatizing the poor students from out in the hall, and I couldn't help but chuckle.

No doubt he was running them ragged, I'm quite proud of him. You had to be rough in the beginning, it was the only way to make them into good soldiers. They had to lose that pride, learn to become soldiers, follow and take orders. That's what mattered in war anyway, or even just policing.

It's how we took care of each other and kept the city safe.

I'd heard a lot of the time I was too rough, even for Dauntless, but I didn't think so. We couldn't have any weakness here, we couldn't have anyone who would jeopardize the missions and cause someone to die.

So, I was harsh, I was tough, and I didn't give any mercy in training. If you couldn't follow the most basic order, couldn't so the simplest task, then dauntless didn't need you.

Apparently I was also rubbing off on Eric .

Who would've thought?

I slipped silently into the training area, holding the warm cup in my hand as I walked towards Eric . We hadn't publicly announced I was pregnant, and I doubt we would. I'm sure when everyone noticed I was the size of a watermelon they'd make their own conclusions.

So none of the initiates knew, and very few others did either unless they'd already guessed. This black t shirt was already getting sort of tight on my abdomen anyway, so it wouldn't be long until I needed new clothes.

Or took Eric's .

No shame.

He had his back to me, tattooed arms crossed over that buff chest of his as he faced the blue mats. He cut his eyes as I stepped to his side, my black hair loose around my shoulders. I glanced at him, then offered him the coffee.

"Caffeine, baby?"

His lips twitched, but he kept a sour expression on his face as he took the steaming cup. "Is this your way of saying sorry?" He muttered.

"No. Maybe. You're just grouchy this morning, I thought you could use some coffee," I shrugged, crossing my arms. "Or  I could take it back."

Eric raised a brow, merely sipping the coffee I'd given him. So I guess I wasn't getting it back then.

"Better?" I asked, looking up at him. "Are you still mad at me for being psychotic last night?"

"I was never mad at you."

"You were pretty mad, Eric. We didn't even have angry sex afterwards, you were all sullen."

"You said you didnt want me to ever touch you again."

"I was exaggerating."

"Didn't sound like it to me."

I rolled my eyes.

He was mad.

"Can we just forget about last night?" I sighed, tired already. "I was obviously just throwing a bitch fit for no reason. You should have just told me to shut the hell up and left, I would have cooled off."

"I told you before, I'm not going to leave you when you need me," he replied, and my eyes rose to his. The bright blues were gazing down at me, full of seriousness and warmth. I liked that look. "Even if you're being a crazy bitch."

Well, there went the warm fuzzy feeling.

"You were doing so well for a moment there," I grumbled. Eric chuckled,lightly bumping my shoulder with his.

"You know what I mean, Camille ."

Yeah, I suppose I did.

We'd been through a lot together, and never once had Eric abandoned or left me behind. He knew I had asked about family, considering my brother had stabbed me years ago and I'd ended up killing him a few months back to save Eric's life. Some could show I probably had some abandonment issues , but hey, it was no question that I was damaged goods.

Most of us were.

Eric wasn't any better, to do the dark things he did for the Dauntless leaders, he must have been born twisted. Still, killer or not, I loved him, and I knew he did me . Otherwise we would have already parted ways and gone back to hating each other.

We were an unlikely couple in my eyes, but really, I could see how no one else questioned us being together. Our personalities were similar, we were loyal soldiers who didn't deal with bullshit, hard on the people we trained because we expected nothing less then excellence.

So yeah, maybe us getting together was inevitable.

Either way, I'd like to think we were happy, and that's what mattered in the long run.  

I think.

Right?

Hell if I knew.

"How about we abandon our jobs right now and disppear to the roof for an hour?" I suggested suddenly, nudging Eric . I hope he appreciated me bringing him coffee and that he wasn't going to be expecting it very often. I wasn't that nice.

"So just leave all these initiates running around unsupervised?" Eric quirked a brow. "Yes." I didn't care about them.

They already looked exhausted anyway.

"Alright," Eric agreed, and I perked up immediately.

Yay!

I smiled at him, then grabbed his hand , pulling.

"Then let's go! We need some sun anyway!"

"Did you drink some of this coffee before you gave it to me?" He grinned as he turned his back on the initiates.

"No, but I did think about it. I'm not a coffee person though."

"You have enough energy as it is."

"Well I  wouldn't say that," I clucked in disagreement . "I always feel so tired."

"Well, you're kind of growing something right now. Of course you're tired. " He told me, squeezing my hand.

I guessed.

I wasn't exactly chipper either.

I wasn't sure how Eric lived with me.

Hell, I could barely stand myself!

"I'm sorry I've been such a crazy person lately," I finally said as we entered the hall, sheepishly glancing up at him. "I don't see how you stand me right now."

"Practice makes perfect," Eric replied , slipping his arm around my shoulder and dragging me to his side. "It'll be alright. Everything is going to work out for us."

I hoped so.

I slipped my arm around his waist, feeling a little more content. When I was around Eric , and I wasn't mad at him, he tended to calm me down, make me feel safe. This was a scary time for me admittedly. I had no fucking clue what I was doing.

Of course, neither did Eric , but at least we were together.

Being together made it a little better.

[survivornavarino]

Episode #9: I’m A Fighter -Jake

*loud screeching noise* AHHHHHHHHHH omfg i cant believe we just did that #beam 4 life ok so like i feel horrible because i love drew but he was trying to make an alliance and it didnt include me and i had to take him out before it was too late because while it wouldnt be me this vote it probably would next time so like sorry drew i love u im sure this doesnt help my case for like why u should b my friend but like i rlly am sorry.  also i feel bad for lying to jake but it just wouldve gotten back to drew and i didnt want to risk that.  im hoping he doesnt hate me too much for blindsiding his ally but like again, they were trying to have a majority alliance that i wasnt a part of and i just didn't want to deal with it tbh.  maybe jake and i are just doomed to eternally be on separate sides in games idk (sad music plays) umm trixie idk we dont really talk we just kind of coexist UM HOLDUP JESUS CHRIST WE JUST FUCKING MERGED WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WIG ON PLUTO WHAT TO HECK ????? im off to plot heathers demise xoxo gossip beckka

Woot Woot its merge loves. Time to be a complete mess and be first merge boot. Hehehe

I MADE IT, MY SECOND ATHENA GAME AND I MADE IT TO MERGE AGAIN IM INCREDIBLEY HAPPY. Let’s hope I don’t get eighth place again, and if I’m gonna be honest I need Drew gone if I’m gonna win. He’s so fucking good at challenges. So eliminating him would mainly be out of fear.

Remember how I’m a dumbass? Me too ok so Drew was eliminated already.

Excuse me I am stupid and don't get letters are better as numbers... and also reversed. I would like an explanation plzz

words tried in number form and reversed so far that have not worked. Emily-Amanda-Abbey-Francie, Navarino, Survivor, Athena. Im gonna cry I cant find it yet.

Oh yeah tea, I ended up finding a secret advantage called the deja vote which means I can steal someone’s vote from a tribal and re-use it at a later tribal 

This was originally going to me a vlog of me screaming after tribal but I busy last night and fell asleep before doing it so now I'm more calm and just gonna type out. Okay so looking back at my last confessional, bitch I'm boo boo the fool. I seriously thought Eddie and Autumn were being honest with me because I trust(ed) them sooo much, but it turns out they were playing me and orchestrating a Drew blindside behind my back. So before I went out last night, EVERYONE told me they were voting Matt. Then two minutes before the vote, Eddie and Autumn message me like "JAKE! Are you here??? SOMETHING is happening" like bitch shut the fuck up something is not happening don't act like this shit just happened last minute. Then they say "Drew is getting voted out tonight!" So...I went to Drew and told him to play the idol if he had it. Because I didn't want Matt staying if I was voting for him. But Drew said he didn't have an idol, and Eddie found out that I told Drew and told Autumn. So after I got home I messaged the group chat with Eddie and Autumn and told them that I was upset by them lying to me bc I did trust them the most. Then Autumn decided to get ballsy and reply "I don't buy that at all since you told Drew to play his idol, you were more loyal to him than me." GIRL STFU yes the fuck I did tell Drew because you told me TWO MINS BEFORE TRIBAL - MEANING YOU KEPT THE VOTE HIDDEN FROM ME ALL DAY. DON'T SAY IM DISLOYAL WHEN YOU WERE THE BIGGEST MFING SNAKE THIS ROUND! ...Anyways. Autumn then tries to come for me by saying "So tell, what's with this alliance between you, Eddie, Drew, and Trixie." And this is when I got more mad. BC Drew proposed this alliance to me, but it was never made, hell I didn't even tell Trixie about it. And when I told Eddie about it I told him I think we should tell Autumn about the alliance (Since he wanted to as well) So it became clear that Autumn was spreading to rebecka and matt that I was in an actual alliance with them to get them all to turn on us. So um Autumn, I wanted to trust you and go far with you in this game, but you're dead to me in this game now and I want you GONE. Autumn has the most connections here. She has Eddie, Rebecka, Matt, Ben, and I've heard that she has Mitch as well. She is a huge threat and if I can find a way to take her out, I will. But right now I need to focus on surviving. After the vote, Trixie added me to a call with Julia. Julia told us all of the alliances she's in (and she's in a damn lot) and said she basically likes Trixie more so she's working with us. Umm okay that's cool. I hope she's being serious because my life in this game is in Julia's hands now. She has all these connections and I need to get her to gun for someone that isn't me, Trixie, or Shoib. I've decided that my ideal final 3 would be with Trixie and Shoib because I trust them the most now, we've been together since day one, and we're all fans. It would be perfect. Sooo yeah. I also talked to Heather and basically blamed Tyler for all the animosity between us. I am trying to repair relationships and hopefully push the target off my back because I am worried about being targeted for 12th. IDK WHAT ELSE TO DO! I am in SUCH a bad position right now and it's so annoying. At the start of this game I had a lot of allies and the two people who trusted me the most (Tyler and Drew) are gone. But I'm a FIGHTER. I will NOT give up! I was in the minority at merge in crossroads and turned it around and made it to FTC so I just have to keep pushing and hopefully I'll get the same results! Woo wig! This was originally going to me a vlog of me screaming after tribal but I busy last night and fell asleep before doing it so now I'm more calm and just gonna type out.

https://youtu.be/iUDlOxxgtz0 my face in the thumbnail for this video is so funny cause it's when i found out of another to do the idol search. Obviously we know it didn't work adhshjks

I am pumped for this merge, I feel like I am playing a really under the radar game and it will make people come to me and ask me to vote with them if the game does break down into two sides, which I think it will. I trust Julia and Trixie the most right now and Trixie has two FREAKING idols omg. I also trust Mitch and Autumn but they are my secondary alliance which I will fall back on if I lose Trixie and Julia

Ok so no one is really messaging me about the vote, which is scary. I don't want to be first merge boot. The only people who have spoke to me are Matt, which he is confused, and Jake, which says no one really spoke to him about the vote yet. I did hear that people thought Ben and I were close, which like we have voted together, but aren't to close. I know now that Trixie has an idol and someone found the merge idol so FUN. I CAN'T WAIT TO BE FIRST MERGE BOOT.

Me starting a grassroots movement of Ben vs Heather cause I'm not aligned with either? Yep. Me forcing people to show their hands and make choices? Absolutely https://68.media.tumblr.com/41399c7dcc99b69388de05d609f7323c/tumblr_inline_o6ola1oDhw1sso1z7_500.gif Look none of these votes will be easy cause I like everyone and I'm aligned with almost everyone but it's Survivor I ain't scurd. I neeevvveerrr talk to Ben or Heather so I'm just gonna be a swing vote in the mess I created. Also feel free to give me the villain edit that's the one thing I haven't accomplished in Athena, besides winning or beating my placement. If not that's cool too I'll just continue to be my messy antihero self. Ok bye! Time to disappear and let the drama fester while I'm at work

You know what would be great, if more people would know who the vote is gonna be. Won't be surprised if that is me to be quite honest. Right now I hear Ben and if that is the only name I hear, I'll do it.

i never thought i'd say this but I WANNA HEX JULIA THE WITCH. okay not really bc i dont want her to read this and think im actually mad. but im wary of what i say to her now considering she told heather about my idol hehe

The votes for me cuz Beckka is bitter over another game. At least in that game I didn't isolate her. I'm prob just gonna cry in a corner.

This is a mess

this round has been a fucking mess and a half and im too busy rn trying to save my ass to make it all sophisticated i have a lot to say so if i stay ill explain everything later but basically autumn came to me today saying she wants to flip on ben so im trying to rally eddie trixie shoib julia and heather to get 7 on ben but apparently ben is throwing my name out bc he doesnt want to vote heathwr and immm fucking nervous idek if heather will wanna vote ben now if hes trying to save her what if she flips like this is bad help

The first merge vote is stressful as fuck cus there’s 12 people. I’m fine as long as it’s not me.

Don't know what's going on. Voting heather and hoping it works!!!!!

Good god am I glad I'm immune for this bullshit Let's start with merge. Woo merge! The idol system is announced. I actually make progress on the advantage hunt! Then I finish it. And someone already has it. GREAT So then I try the idol hunt and someone ALSO has it! GREATER. So now I have to worry about that shit. So I won immunity somehow because I guess preparing was a good idea since I blew through the second round. I won't be first merge boot in Athena woo!!! But now the vote is fucking crazy. I want to vote out Heather because, as sweet as she is, she's got a lot of ears listening for info for her and it's better to get someone like that out early before it's too late. But people don't want to because they're the ears! Big surprise. People are between Jake and Ben and Heather and honestly? I want to keep Ben around a little more. My plan for now is to not have one big alliance, but rather to be a part of small trio alliances so people can have my back without the worry of a huge alliance fracturing. I just have to keep the trio members safe. My planned trios are as follows: Ben, Mo, myself Shoib, Autumn, myself Rebecka, Julia, myself (WIP) That's 7 people who have my back in varying circumstances, as long as they're being truthful. I've also been alerted to a greater alliance of Matt, Ben, Julia, Mo, and Rebecka. Hopefully this trio plan will help me get in with those people more, and perhaps in the close future I can take out Matt and get rid of that variable.

i made merge!! its lit!! there hasnt been a lot going on so far. nobodys really reached out to me and ive been so busy so im just going with what rebecka wants, which is heather. i’m not sure voting heather is a good move for me, in fact i know its not, but unfortunatelt i dont have the time to make another move and im just tryin to survive

What is going on here on this day? This is a mess and i'm just on the train a long for the ride. I'm hearing Ben, Jake, and Heather, but I wouldn't be surprised if it's me tonight. Like I'm sure they're afraid of Jake having an idol, so why not throw their votes on someone who's irrelevant at the moment and who probably wouldn't see it coming? Anyway, I HIGHLY doubt Ben is leaving tonight, and I don't really believe that the votes are going on Heather or Jake, idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk. I really hope Jake stays, and I really hope Ben goes or I am probably screwed af.

[4swearitsight]

Ok so I stayed up until like 3 am yesterday (today?) finally reading live free, and it started to get intense so I decided to liveblog it like a third of the way in. So, @livelivefastfree​, hope my slow descent into incoherence makes you smile a bit, because the fic is really really awesome (X)

-why these father daughter feels rn ;_______; - Chuck u anxious bean ily - I LOVE THIS WORLDBUILDING I LOVE TEXAS KNOWING THINGS I LOVE NATIVE MOTORCITIAN TEXAS - ;___________; even I miss him at this point pls - Can the Duke even fight??? Foxy is going to knock him out in 3 seconds istg - OOOOOOOH SICK BURNS OOOOOOOOH - good to know I'm not the only one thinking that the duke is going to get wasted - duke u shitbag - tHAT ESCALATED RATHER QUICKLY DAMN FOXY - :O!!!!!! Mike!!!!! - oh bby noooooooooooooo - I'm yellign save him pls - BBY NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO - /planning montage/ jfc Texas I love u - Those colours :O sick art toasty wow - more art wowowow honestly this whole thing is just 👌🏼 - AAAAAAART I love splickedylits chuck ahhh c: - // T E X A S  P L S // - TBH I'm feeling blessed w all this art rn you go Dutch four for you Dutch - hahaha he said traps - tag urself I'm chuck having a mental breakdown - is this foreshadowing. Are we going to see chuck and mike Vulcan mind melding. - FUKFULFYLFRICKFRICKSHIT - KICK HIS ASS BBY - nooooooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOO - NO NOT HIM PLS NO ;;______;; - I haven't breathed in 5 minutes and my friend just texted me with my alert on full volume I think I just had a minor heart attack - OOHHHHHHHHHH YOU SMART BOYS - same Texas - SAME TEXAS - Texas deadass has no idea how he's going to survive this and he's still laughing JFC this boy - //DUTCH CONTINUES TO BE RELATABLE PLANNING ART PROJECTS IN THE FACE OF IMMINENT DEATH// - I miss mike :'( - SHIT I MISS MIKE D': - I love this censorship TBH. Who's going to get the PG 13 one allowed f bomb? Pls let it be chuck. - K A N E C R O C S - It's mike motherdumptruckfuckshit it's MIKE OH MY GOD YOU KNOW I CALLED IT BUT THEN I DIDNT AND NOW I FEEL DUMB AAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!! AAAA SHIT JULES JULES IMMA CRY RN - no legit I'm going to cry - *screeching* - THERE HE IS THERES MY BOY OH MY GOD OH MY GOD - I'm trying to figure out who drew that last one and drawing blanks but my point is *leans in so lips touch mic* how dare you - mikes story uptown fuck me up man - I'm not emotionally prepared for this - YOU LIL SHIT I MISSED YOUUU - shiiiiiiiiiittt - SHIIIIIIITTTT - this hurts me A Lot Okay - OHHHHHG MY GOD IM GOING TO DIE - ;______________; he's so pure literally end me - CHUUUUUUCCCCKKKKK IM MCFREAKING LOSING IT Mike loves him so muchhhh - MIKE 👏🏼 LOVES 👏🏼 CHUCK 👏🏼 SO 👏🏼 MUCH 👏🏼 - hahaha lmao tfw you accidentally set up your science guy w your daughter - hella art hella hella hella - it's 3 am I've been reading for 2 hours holy shit - IT LITERALLY JUST CLICKED TO ME THAT MIKE WAS THERE WHEN THEY BROKE IN OH MY GOD IM SO SLOW THAT WAS HIM - yay buicks. Love buicks. - Mike, on a super serious first mission: time for some parkour flirt with Alex and give a girl a bandaid (real talk tho you pulling on my heartstrings here :'( ITS WORTH IT) - Alex and Mike are both puppies and deserve better - hm... I'm worried about chuck, but this guy's messed up too he'll do in a pinch - ;__________; Mike bby - Shoot me directly in my entire face Mike did not fight his friends after a building fell on him are you serious rn - Seriously Dutch lmao - LET HIM REST - Go Harley....... He's so positive and happy....... Someone help him - my son ;_____; - AND THE AWARD FOR MOST RELATABLE LINE IS "He’s never met Julie before. Mike would die for Julie." LIKE SAME DUDE - where's that Martin freeman gif of him screaming I AM IN HELL, STOP - y done hecked up Alex - Oh My Lord No I did not Ask For This - another Martin freeman gif here too - I've been reading for 2 and a half hours I can feel my coherence slipping - MY GOD SERIOUSLY MY HEART FEELS LIKE ITS IN A SLAPCHOP - I'm going to Cry - NVRM I AM CRYING - OK SO I JUST ASSUMED THEY MADE HIM GIVE THAT CALL I AWAIT DEATH - fuk u Jenzen - HIS 👏🏼 BEST 👏🏼 FRIEND👏🏼 - RAD ART RAD ART - omfg same Julie - I ran intO MIKE WITH MY CAR - CHUCK DRIVING my god - julie is like 3 seconds from having a breakdown - I DREAM THAT TOO SOMETIME S - he's literally a puppy omg who's a good boy you are - if you're going to die tomorrow have pizza for every meal - tag yourself im the artist that made a giant mural to Mike showing off his cheekbones - wow Julie not softening the blow at all here wow Jesus - cHUCK JESUS CHRIST - if he thinks,,, he can hurt my kid,,,, D': - I can't believe Julie is going to kidnap Alex - *screaming* - *LOUDER MORE URGENT SCREAMING* - *SCREAMING REACHING ITS PEAK URGECY* - AAAAAAAAHHHHHH KANE JFC - NOOOOOOOOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE SCREW THIS - throat punch!!!! Hell yeah - OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! Plot twistz - I want to give Alex a hug - OOOOOH Mike nice clapback bby - red is like "no one can kill him but me wth" - Dutch honey ilysm kick his ass baby - MIKE IS WINNING - Why didn't they figure out how take off the collars before all this..... YALL THINK AHEAD - I love how everyone in motorcity thinks of the burners as kids like, shit, the stupid kids are here hold up or we're going to shoot one of these idiots and I don't want that on my conscious - Mike wtf man come on seriously - is chuck just screaming and clinging to Mike? Bc same - IM NOT OK WITH THIS ENTIRE SITUATION - Texas........ Daddy, why - HE KNOOOOWWWSSS - AAALEXXXXXXXXXXX YEEESSSSSS - jfc red come on Alex is trying to be a good person rn - JULIE HOLY SHIT THATS METAL AS HELL - good decision Alex - aaaaaand that was the last chapter. Hhhhhnngggg ok I can be patient it's cool I'm cool - rad art tho

[hos18greenhouse]

Exit Interview - Trixie, Winner

Brett : Congratulations on your win! How did you feel about your chances with the jury upon arriving to the finale with QuilLynn?

Trixie : Thank ya! I felt like I was pretty solid with the jury going against Quillynn. She told me she thought her best chance was going against me, which did have me a little worried if she managed to pull in some votes at finale, but overall I felt confident that enough people on jury would vote for me.

Brett : When did she tell you that?

Trixie : I believe it was during final 4 where she was debating whether to take me or Linus going forward. She explained that taking Linus would most likely guarantee her third, while taking me she realized she’d place second, or even win. There was also the issue of whether Scott would have taken Linus or her to the end. In the end, whatever she chose I would have respected — although I can’t deny it feels nice to win over her again ;)

Brett : I have such a strong disagreement with this, but we've been over that

Trixie : Yeah I really don’t know, this is just from my perspective. I figured it would have been pretty close between Quil x Linus

Brett : You were a nominee as early as Week 2, by Scott's hand. He nominated you three times during the course of the season. Describe what your relationship with Brick Face was like and why you kept making appearances in his nominations--beginning, middle, and end?

Trixie : I could NOT stop lying to Scott in the early game. Just about nonsense stuff in hopes he’d think I’m dumb and innocent and keep me around. Obviously he saw right through that and it was a battle ever since. Things turned around for us when he nominated both Quil and I. Quil popped off (as her usual self) and I approached him with a very genuine and detailed disclaimer that just because she’s my roommate it doesn’t mean I need to work with her. I was really trying to distance myself from Quil and let Scott know that I’m here, I wanna stay, and more importantly, I wanted to stay and work with him. I don’t think we ever trusted each other, but I think we came to an understanding at least. I remember lying to him about curling, which I know absolutely nothing about and then I had to google some random curler’s name because he asked me my favourite

Brett : You also were a nominee under the HOH reigns of Ruthie and Trevor. In fact, with 6 times on the block, you are the most nominated HouseGuest of the season. How much did being a target affect your gameplay?

Trixie : It was definitely different for me because I had just gone from being in a game where I was nominating people left and right, and then suddenly I was the one on the block every week. Being Nomination Queen really helped me out in the long run. I didn’t do much challenge-wise, so it showed that I would do whatever I could to ensure that the person next to me was the one leaving. And I think because of this, it’s made me a better player. Woo!

Brett : With QuilLynn on the block against Julia in Week 6, did you do any campaigning to help your roommate? How involved were you?

Trixie : I did campaign for her. I think it would have been heartless if I hadn’t considering the only reason why she was nominated was because of something we couldn’t help. That week I was in a pretty bad position because if I voted her off, I felt like I’d lose her jury vote, and at the time I thought Julia would be mad if I voted her. In the end, yes I campaigned to some people I was already working with, but I did it in a way I thought would benefit me later in the game.

Brett : You received one of the luckiest breaks in the game when Aras' personal life took a turn for the worse and Trevor's HOH was used to backdoor him as a mercy maneuver. What was going through your head during this time?

Trixie : I know that people think of that week as a mercy killing for Aras, but I do feel somewhat discredited because I was in Trevor’s ear that whole time, trying to say whatever I could to convince him to keep me, and lying to him about how Aras thought it was sketchy that he put me up considering I was his alliance member. Was he listening to me? I don’t know. And then I learned about the Aras thing and it just made me feel kind of bummed out. I didn’t want to stay because Aras’s personal life gave me a free pass. I wanted to stay because I earned it.

Brett : He 100% wasn't going to backdoor Aras as a strategic move. He definitely felt his hand was forced by the situation.

Trixie : Imagine how the game would have turned out? It’d have been interesting

Brett : You then found yourself nominated against Zakriah the following round. How did you manage to wriggle out of that tight spot?

Trixie : Obviously Zakriah was someone I wanted to work with and it sucked being against him. I also knew that I had a better social game than his, and this is where that really helped me out! Also at the time I think I had shown enough people that I was completely alone in the game, and that I only had an ally in them. I feel like this was the point I started gaining a lot more trust with people. They saw Zak as being Scott’s number one ally, and I tried to make some other people see that I could be theirs.

Brett : When QuilLynn returned to the game, did your strategy shift at all?

Trixie : When Quil came back I was simultaneously grinning and groaning. I felt like I’d be an automatic target again, but this time it’d be me who draws the unlucky “random.org” fate. But then she came and flipped the house upside down, and I couldn’t have been happier! She took the target off me, backdoored the person who brought her back, and became this beacon of bitchiness ;) At that point, I felt like I had to take anybody I could get. I wanted to unite Quil and Ci’ere because I knew that’d be a pretty solid three. So yeah, I think her coming back definitely opened up my options and finally gave me a chance to crawl back into the shadows like the gremlin I am.

Brett : How about your working relationship with Linus? Where did that fit into everything?

Trixie : Linus and I hadn’t exchanged a single word up until right before Touchy Subjects (sorry I don’t remember the week. Maybe 7?). We were actually in another game together and I was a finalist and we had the same relationship there as we did here, so I decided to fix that and we finally got to talking. I think it was great because we had a lot in common, both UTR players (well, me TRYING to be) and we both were kind of on the outs.  Linus was the one I thought I could count on to do what he actually said, which was great when working with him. There was a lot of tension between him and Scott/sorta Ci'ere and that helped me sneak by for another week.

Trixie : oh also what other potential seed advantages did you have in plan for the game?

Brett : The other seed advantages were Hidden Power of Veto, Diamond Power of Veto, Mandatory Comp. Ineligibility for the Player of Your Choice, and Extra Eviction Vote. 4 of 8 advantages were grown.

Brett : You ended up growing your seed into a coup d'Etat and had no reason to use it. How conflicted were you to potentially use a major game advantage when you didn't necessarily need it?

Trixie : Not at all! It would have been a very dumb and wasted move to use it with no purpose, and would only have served in putting a target on me. At first I was going to use it if either Linus or Ci’ere tried to pull a backdoor move on me, but thankfully Linus went through and put Ruthie up. At that point, the coup was pretty, but useless! Rip Brett Seedling. I was just happy that I finally was able to make the damn thing sprout

Brett : You get down to the Final 5 and Linus is the new HOH with you and QuilLynn still intact. How worried were you that you would be targeted at that point?

Trixie : At that time, Linus had it out for Ci’ere and Scott, so I was sitting there that week feeling pretty comfortable. Obviously, anything can happen in Big Brother so there was always that thought. I knew Linus could have betrayed us and it would have been a good game move in the eyes of the jury. But I was very happy he didn’t, and that he was still wanting to work with us despite being viewed as a pair.

Brett : And going into Final 4, you felt pretty easy in regards to QuilLynn taking you forward?

Trixie : Well, like I said in the beginning, Quil was weighing her options going forward. I think she was pretty split on who she’d take between Linus or I. Scott would have won against any of us, hands down. So I was trying to put myself in her 8 inch high heels and see what I’d do if I was her. In the end, I think she chose the right decision.

Brett : She really didn't, but it is A-OK with me if you two feel that way.

Trixie : okay well i had  “I think she chose the right decision -for me-“ but i didnt wanna be bitchy. and in the house at the time, she felt hated by the jury and figured that linus would have won

Brett : A lot of people drew co-dependency parallels between you and QuilLynn early on despite the both of you being willing to venture down other avenues. Did you get frustrated at all with having to develop your own identity completely separate from QuilLynn while the majority of the cast would never acknowledge either of you as standalone entities?

Trixie : I get frustrated a lot working with her in games. Nobody will take my word seriously when I say I’d make moves against her, and it’s hard to gain people’s full trust. Was I wanting to work with her this game? Not all all. I believe I only made one alliance with her, the girl’s alliance, and obviously she was only in there by necessity. I would have loved to have made a move against her to show everybody that I really, truly was wanting to work against her, but when she came back that’s just not how it worked out, and it would have been a foolish move to target her on my part when there were already so many out to get us. I feel like I was kind of shoehorned into working with her because of everybody viewing us as a pair.

Brett : Going into the finals, were there certain votes that you expected? Was the end result what you had envisioned?

Trixie : I hate assuming people’s votes, but I figured I’d have Zak and Trevor on lock. Ci’ere I was flip floppy about because I was the one that voted him out, and I didn’t know if he’d be a bitter juror or not. I knew that she had Ruthie and Julia for sure, and maybe Linus’s (rip her second vote). Everybody else’s vote was pretty up in the air for me. I did expect to win to her, but certainly not 7-1.

Brett : What game qualities did you have that pushed your game to surpass QuilLynn's in the eyes of the jury?

Trixie : I believe I set up stronger connections early on in the game than she did and was able to talk my way out of certain situations when I needed to. I think her biggest flaw was jury management. Plus, she obviously doesn’t have the Furby Gods looking out for her.

Brett : Talk to me about the whole furby thing. Where did that come from?

Trixie : The furby thing came from my first ever game I played where I wanted to catfish as someone obsessed with something stupid. I ended up fake fighting with my friend nicholas about burning furbies and ever since then I can’t shake them off. In my other BB game I used this fake furby obsession as something that people would think endearing, creating videos and pictures for my “furby-fied” houseguests. It was a complete joke at first, but I can’t deny it’s helped me greatly in some games.

Brett : Now that the game is over, what are your next plans?

Trixie : Well, this is such a great transition to plug in a game I’m hosting: BB Furby! It’s not as ridiculous as it sounds, I promise! Besides that, a nice looooooooong break from playing orgs. I never wanna see your face again Brett!

Brett : Hahah thank you so much for playing

Trixie : It’s been a (dis)pleasure!