bonfires-beers-backroads

[serkonans]

so frustrated bc I need to break up w my personal trainer fr But he's experienced w helping people recover from injury and I want him to coach me through getting back into lifting after top surgery

[thenakedgingerwrites]

My Personal Trainer

I met Nick five months ago when he became my personal trainer. I joined the gym in the summer to finally work my body towards my personal goals. I had been skinny all my life and knew that if I wanted to change it I would have to get serious. Five months of 3-5 workouts a week and heavy carb/protein loading I was pushing towards my goal. I was up 20 pounds of muscle and my progress pics were really showing obvious changes. I of course had taken photos every step of the way, but hadn't really shared them with anyone until recently. Nick and I had our weekly Monday appointment scheduled. Today was chest day for me and he pushed me hard through it. I was actually pretty lucky getting Nick as my trainer. He was attractive but not instantly my type. It was easier to get a solid workout in if I wasn't drooling over my trainer the entire time. Nick was probably 5'11. He had a lot of muscle but was rounded since bulking season had set in. His arms were massive, chest was broad, and butt (from what I could tell) was quite a bubble. His legs were probably the most underdeveloped part of him but they weren't thin by any means. Definitely thicker than mine. Nick was pale but had clear, unblemished skin. His hair was dark and kept short. In fact sometimes his beard would get longer than his hair before he trimmed everything up. He was one of the few trainers that didn't seem to shave everything. His legs and arms had a nice layer of thick dark hair.

I tried not to fantasize about him but couldn't help the occasional naughty thought, especially when he would demonstrate squat formations or anything that popped his butt. However, I really tried to keep things professional. No harmless flirting or ogles were done by this guy. Nick figured out I was gay probably 2 months into our routine. It didn't phase him at all and things continued as normal. He would occasionally ask about my personal life, if I was seeing anyone, and I'd ask the same. We were both helplessly single but he was straight so there were no possibilities there. I didn't shower at the gym since I lived so close and Nick always did his workouts in the afternoon before I arrived. What this meant is that I'd never even seen the guy shirtless. The most skin I'd ever seen on the man was his calves, arms, and occasional upper thigh depending on the workout. His body was still a mystery, and that was probably a good thing for me. That all changed in the 4 month mark. We were talking after my workout and just shooting the shit. He asked if I had taken progress pictures and I explained I had, but wasn't quite ready to share. Maybe one day, I told him. He understood, but offered up his own. He flipped through his phone and then handed it to me. "Don't flip too much though," Nick said with a nervous laugh. He obviously had nudes on his phone. Of him or of someone else I wondered? The screen was zoomed in to a 3 picture side-by-side, each 6 months apart. I should probably mention that it was his neck down in nothing but some tight underwear. My eyes must have bulged. His body was amazing. I mean he definitely was a 'round' muscled guy but that was absolutely my type. His chest had a light dusting of dark hair which picked back up around his belly button and continued south, growing in intensity until it was hidden below his waistband. He kept his body hair trimmed but definitely all there. I couldn't help but focus on his package. Fuck keeping things personal, I thought. The pictures weren't amazingly lit, but I could easily see the large bulge in his briefs. Whether it was cock, balls, or both I couldn't tell. Whatever it was though, it was hefty. "... and if you blend that all together, it makes a wicked easy meal with tons of calories." Oh shit! I had completely zoned out while looking at his pictures. Quick, say something. "Well it's working out really well for you Nick. This is great progress. I'd be happy with any of them, honestly." Nick laughed. "Like, for your own body or as in your boyfriend?" It had seemed innocent enough but a million thoughts were running through my head. "Umm, well I meant for my own body, but if I was lucky enough to snatch someone up with a body like yours, I'd hold on tight." Nick just gave a cheesy grin and said thanks. We talked for a few more minutes about our weeks and what I would focus on while at the gym. Unfortunately, that night I jacked off thinking about those photos. The next night, I texted Nick telling him how raw I was from the workout yesterday and he responded with the picture he showed me. "Pain builds progress" he wrote with it. That week I did nothing but masturbate to that photo. The slippery slope had started and there was no turning back. Another month went by without much significance except how I looked at Nick. He was no longer just my personal trainer, he was now an object of my lust. Every workout he showed me I couldn't help but turn it dirty in my mind. I was losing it. We had hung out a few times outside of the gym. It had always been with a bunch of the gym staff for a game or just a night out in downtown. I got a text on Saturday morning asking if I wanted to hang out and drink some beers. His roommate was out of town and he wanted to enjoy the apartment to himself while watching the football game. I agreed, trying not to fantasize about unrealistic outcomes. When I got there he was basically in gym attire. I felt a bit dressed up in my nice jeans and button up shirt but oh well. We drank while watching the game, Nick drinking much faster than me. Near the end of the 3rd quarter, it was obvious our home team was going to win and interest in the game subsided. We talked about the gym, work, girls, guys, and continued to drink. I was getting tipsy at this point but Nick was sufficiently drunk. "When are you gonna show me your progress photos, man?" Nick asked me. He actually didn't need to beg much. The alcohol helped, but it only felt fair knowing how much I'd stared at his almost naked body. "Eh, I'll show you. Remember, I was SKINNY. Don't make fun." "I would never! Plus you've grown so much. I'm so proud!" He was smiling ear to ear. It made me swoon a little. I flipped through my phone to get the most recent. It was my 5 month comparison photo. Nothing too crazy. Just standing in front of the mirror flexing one arm in my underwear. I wore skimpy briefs but it was nothing x-rated. I had clearly changed. My ribs were no longer visible and every muscle and it's own definition. Where a flat chest had been there were now pecs. Where a stick arm was there was muscled girth. "Wow! I'm so impressed; you've changed more than I imagined." "Thanks Nick." I was genuinely appreciative of his compliments. "Although, you need to get better at posing." "What?" Nick continued, "You're not showing off the right muscles in these. Like, you've grown a lot in your back but you can't tell in these." "Oh, haha. I didn't realize there was an art to gym selfies." I chastised him a little sarcastically. "There is!!" Nick was drunkenly serious. This was clearly a subject he was passionate about. "Okay, how do you feel about practicing some?" "Sure, that's fine." I said. "You'd have to take off those clothes though to see what I mean." Nick was very direct. I played along, my mind secretly hoping for something like this or more. "That's fine. You would too, right? To show me?" "Yeah, yeah. Obviously." With that Nick stripped. There was no romantic tease to it. This was clearly just what Nick said it was and nothing more. In a few seconds he had peeled out to just his tight boxer briefs. I stood there for longer than I should have because he cleared his throat and said, "you're turn." I quickly snapped back to reality and disrobed as well. I wore my tight AussieBum red briefs tonight just in case something like this happened. What can I say, I'm a planner. "Nice briefs man." Nick offered. "Nice body." He laughed. "Okay, so the first pose is really to show off your Lats and all the work you've been doing on your back." He walked through a couple poses and I imitated him. He would correct me a few times and move my arms or body in the right way. I was really proud of myself for not popping an erection at all with the contact. Minutes passed and things started to get warm in the living room from all our flexing and holding poses. Nick offered to take some photos for me on my phone and I happily agreed. They would be much better than selfies. After taking some photos Nick asked if I would do the same. I obviously agreed. We got to a pose that Nick wanted to try to accentuate his butt. He stood sideways to the camera and twisted his torso towards the lens to accentuate the roundness of his bubble butt. I took a few photos, wishing they were on my phone instead. "Does it look good? Does my butt look good?" He asked me. "It looks incredible Nick. Easily one of the hottest asses I've ever seen." I didn't really think about what I was saying anymore. We were both getting drunk by this time. "Coming from you that means a lot, thanks!" Nick replied with a cheesy smile. "Hey, I kind of want to get some more but without my briefs. Is that okay?" "You want me to take your nudes for you?" I sarcastically asked. Probably should have played that differently. He laughed loudly, "No! I can take my own dick pics thank you. I'll still cover the goods up, I just want some sexier ones without underwear." "Sure, why would I mind?" Nick shrugged, "I dunno, just wanted to make sure, ya know?" He turned around to slip his briefs off. His butt, was amazing. Two large globes of muscle sat atop his legs. They were dusted in his dark fur but he kept his butt trimmed as well. He went through the same poses but was really good at covering up his cock with either his legs or his hands. As much as I wanted to, I never actually saw what he was packing other than some heavy pubes. When Nick felt he had enough shots, he plopped down onto the couch. He grabbed his briefs and placed them over this crotch but didn't actually put them on. He asked for his phone and flipped through the photos when I handed it to him. He was clearly pleased with the photos. "Is it bad that I find myself hot?" he asked. I laughed, still standing there in my underwear. "No. Is it bad if I do?" Oops. He looked up at me. "You think I'm hot?" I didn't know what to do. I scrambled to find words that would make this alright but the drunken haze was cast over my thoughts. "Well, never mind. That answers that question." Nick was looking down on me. I followed his eyes to see my obvious erection in my briefs. Shit!! I covered up quickly and turned from him. That's when he started laughing. "Don't worry about it dude. I'm flattered. Can't say I've given a guy a hard on before. Nice to know I can." "Ha, ha" I said sarcastically, still trying to will my cock to shrink. "Really, it's not a big deal. Come'on. Come here and help me figure out what shots are the best. You'll clearly have an eye for what looks good here." I looked over my shoulder and he was patting the seat of the couch beside him. I said Fuck it in my head and went to sit by him. My erection wasn't gone at all, but at this point in my life I wasn't really that shy about nudity anymore. A few minutes of flipping through shots and adding filters here and there, Nick asked me a question out of the blue. "So you really like cocks? Like, they look good to you?" "Yeah. Don't you like the look of your dick?" I replied. "Well yeah, but that's mine, ya know. I've never thought any other dick was nice." "I guess that's the difference in being gay," i laughed at that. Nick laughed too. "I guess you're right. But like, what exactly do you like about them?" I couldn't really explain it well after I thought for a moment. "I'm not really sure there's specific things or features I like about dicks and balls. It's just linked so closely with arousal that even seeing one triggers so much sexual endorphin release in me. And it's a muscle that can't hide sexual feelings, as we've clearly seen tonight. I like how honest cocks are." Nick lost it at that. "Hahaha, you like how 'honest' cocks are! That's a new one." "I'm a sucker for an honest dick, what can I say?" I laughed with him. Nick put his phone down. "Okay, then tell me. Do I have an honest dick?" He pulled his briefs off his cock. I stared without caring how obvious I was being, plus I assumed that's what he wanted. His cock was awesome. It was still pretty soft, cut, and pretty thick from what I could tell. However, it was his balls that was giving the bulging briefs in his photos. They were massive. He kept almost all his hair closely trimmed but Nick shaved his balls. "It's um... it's... honestly awesome. Nick, your balls are huge!" was all I could put together. "Haha, yeah. They've been big since I was a teenager." He handled them with palm and moved them around a bit. I swore I saw his cock twitch a bit too. "So, this is hot to you? Like, you actually think my cock and my balls are sexy?" "Do you need reassurance?" "No, no. It's just, I'm trying to figure it out. I'm.. I just can't believe someone would find someone else's dick hot." "Well, I could prove it to you." I offered. "Oh yeah? How?" Nick said. He's not a very good actor and it seemed obvious where this was going. I played it safe though and went with another slow tell. I moved my hand to his thigh. "I could show you how much I like your cock." Nick smiled. "You may have to. I still think you're fibbin'" "I would never lie," I joked. I moved my hand the extra few inches to his soft package. It felt even bigger in my hands. I had to skip to his balls first though since they were so incredibly. I moved them around and massaged them with my fingers. I would pull on them a little bit and stretch the skin which elicited light moans from Nick. I felt adventurous for a few reasons and leaned in. I kissed his balls, first lightly, and then heavier with some wet tongue. Nick moaned more. I continued to kiss and lick his balls while loosely gripping his cock. It was filling up quickly. A few seconds later, he was hard in my hand. I backed up from his balls to take a look at his meat. It was thicker than I thought. Probably 6 inches or so in length but probably the same around. It was the hottest cock I'd ever seen. I looked up to Nick just to reassure myself it was him and that this was honestly happening. He caught my eyes and just whispered, "Please don't stop." Oh that made me wet. I got down onto the floor and moved in between his legs. I took hold of his shaft and licked that cock from base to head like a popsicle. It was delicious. He had already started to precum a little for me. I wasn't in the mood to tease and went right into it. I took as much of Nick's cock into my mouth as I could. He wasn't super long but the girth prevented me from taking him all in on the first go. As I sucked with his member filling my mouth, Nick's light moans evolved to deep rumbling groans. He was loving this which made me even hornier. A couple of bobs was all it took for me to get most of him in my throat. After that I could try my different techniques (which were admittedly rusty). I swiveled my tongue around his head, used my hand to match pace with my mouth, and used a little teeth on the retract. Nick was loving each skill and would buck uncontrollably at some. I was surprised what a gentleman he was. He didn't try and grab my head to face fuck me (although I would have been fine with it) and made it very audible how much he appreciated what I was doing. "Fuck yes. That feels so good. You're amazing. You're incredible. Please don't stop." were the only things he could muster between groans. It only took a couple of minutes before Nick's balls began to tighten. I knew he was getting close. He finally did take hold of my head, but to remove it and saying, "I"m about to cum, man." What a fucking knight. "Good," I said and fought against his grip to latch back onto his cock. He tried to pull me off him again, "No, you really don't have to do that. I don't want you to feel like you do." I continued to stroke him with my hands as I popped off to say, "You don't know what it's like to be gay, but fact one, I WANT to do this." I batted his hands away and took his cock back into my wanting mouth. He just said, "oh god, oh god." over and over as he edged towards the finish line. Nick tried to hold back his orgasm as long as he could but finally he couldn't fight anymore. I took hold of his balls with a free hand as he erupted into me. His tank had definitely been full and I almost struggled to get it all down. Jet after jet of warm seed filled my mouth and was swallowed down. Nick tried to remain still but was bucking and shaking uncontrollably between his heavy breathing. When I was sure he was done, I milked him dry with a last squeeze and popped off his still hard cock. "So," I said, "believe me now that I actually like cock?" He tried to laugh but didn't have the energy. "That. Was. Amazing. I've never gotten head like that before. You're a master." I laughed. "Stand up," Nick said. I did as commanded and rose before him. I was still rock hard in my briefs, and had actually popped out a little on top. He put his hands on my ass and pulled me in closer. I had no words for what was happening, so I just went with it. He fondled me through my briefs for a bit, getting used to the feeling of a hard cock in close proximity to his body. He swallowed, and shucked my briefs to the floor. My cock sprang out and almost hit him in the face which he wasn't expecting and jumped back a bit. I couldn't help but laugh, "You're right to be scared. He bites." "You're huge, dude!" I was definitely longer than Nick. Around 8 inches, but not near as thick. And my balls were only average compared to his massive globes a few feet below. He hesitantly took hold of my cock with one hand and slowly stroked it. This was clearly more for him than it was for me. He was exploring what another man's cock was like and I didn't want to rush him through that. Plus it was incredibly hot to see him oaf around it like a foreign object. After giving me a slow, steady hand job for a few minutes he swallowed again and licked his lips. He inched closer and closed his eyes. I was now feeling bad about this. "Nick, stop. You don't have to do this. You don't owe me anything." He finally looked up at me. "No, I know. I just, I want to see what it's like." "Okay, but go slow. Don't do anything that makes you uncomfortable and you can stop anytime." He was looking at my dick again and nodded. He inched close again and closed his eyes to lick my cock head. Once he had a taste he moved his tongue around in his mouth to figure out if he liked it or not. "It just tastes like, skin?" I laughed, "yeah, they don't come in different flavors." "I guess I just, I thought it would taste different." I explained to him that it can if a guy precums a lot, but that I didn't. My cock was a great 'beginners' cock. We both laughed a bit. He then took hold with one hand and tried to wrap his lips around my cock. He could, but didn't take too much into his mouth. He bobbed on my cock like he thought he should but only took an inch or two in at a time and without any suction. What should I have expected from a straight guy. However poor the actual blow job was going, it was Nick who was giving it and that was incredibly hot. I was loving every second of it regardless. I must have began to leak a bit because Nick pulled away with a slight disgust taste on his mouth.

"That's what I expected they tasted like." Nick said with some nervous laughter.

"Yeah, if you don't like that you definitely won't like the ending."

He looked visibly nervous. I leaned down and pushed him away from my cock. "You're done. I'm not letting you go any further. Thanks for trying."

He sighed some relief, "Thanks for letting me try. And for that amazing blow job you gave me. I just wish I could return the favor."

"Trust me Nick, I loved every minute of that probably as much as you did." We both smiled.

"Well, do you wanna shoot on my chest?" Nick said.

I froze for a second and then began dying of laughter.

"What? People do that right?" Nick looked at my confused.

"Hahahaha, sure Nick, sure they do. But rarely does a straight guy just go, 'hey wanna cum on my chest?' It was just too funny."

He leaned back and rubbed his chest seductively, playing with himself a bit too. His cock had softened up almost entirely. "Do you wanna cum on this hot piece of man or not?"

I did.

I leaned into him and put one arm on his shoulder and the other on my cock. Nick just stared at the barrel of the gun in somewhat excited anticipation actually. Having this hunk below me, wanting my cum all over him, was enough to help me finish quickly. My balls tightened as the first blast shot forward onto his pecs. 8 steams of hot spunk fell onto Nick, coating his chest, abs, and cock in my cum. I sighed in relief.

"Hot." was all Nick had to say before we both started laughing.

We stayed there for a minute while I got my breath back and then he offered we take a shower. I rubbed his back, he rubbed mine. I probably washed his ass more than I had to but he didn't stop me or protest. By the end of the shower we both had erections again but heading into the living room he put on his briefs which signaled the nights fun was over.

We both fell asleep on the couch that night and I woke up spooning him in the morning. He was snoring. I got off of him and got the rest of my clothes on to leave. Before I left I looked back at this amazing, delicious man I had known for the past few months. He was sprawled out, chest up, almost naked in his tight white briefs. He had a serious case of morning wood going on that was clearly visible.

I felt naughty and probably was risking more than I should have, but I gave into the momentary idea. I got down on my knees and fished his cock and balls out of his briefs and gave them some light kisses. Nick continued to snore obliviously.

I took a step back to admire the view. I decided to take a picture of him like this for later use. I was going to put his junk back in but last minute decided instead to bob on it a couple times for one last taste and leave.

When I got home I felt guilty about the picture. I didn't want to delete it for obvious reasons but felt like I crossed a line. I decided to text him the photo with the caption "Had a great night. Took this souvenir. Hope you don't mind ;)"

That way if he wanted me to delete it he could tell me, but at least he would know that I had it.

I woke up from a nap to a response from Nick. "Likewise"

A few seconds later a video came through. I opened it and saw myself giving Nick head, his loud moans were close to the speaker. That little shit took a video of me blowing him without me knowing. The anger was only a reflex and I quickly found it hilarious that he captured that moment.

I texted him back, "That's blackmail!"

"Maybe it is. I need something to hold onto to remember last night."

"You could always just get the real thing again if you needed a reminder."

"Deal! Deleted."

"You don't really have to delete it, you can keep it for your own spank bank."

"haha good. I wasn't actually going to delete it anyway."

"lol, dick."

....

Bling. A picture of his hard cock and balls came through.

"This one?? ;P"

I was definitely jacking off today. "Tease!"

He replied, "I think we need to have a special work out session each week after our gym sessions. There are some special muscles we need to work out."

"Deal, see you Monday."

My training sessions had become something more, and I was absolutely, fucking floored about it.

[greeneyed-introvert]

I put a service vest on my dog today. Something I swore I’d never do.

You see, I’m a dog trainer. I’m also a dog trainer with a severe high functioning anxiety disorder.

I’ve had panic attacks for as long as I can remember. I have a deep rooted need for control & perfectionism (my therapist once told me I was one of the highest perfectionism driven patients he’d ever seen). Panic attacks become worse because I hate hate hate how I can’t control them. I kept them hidden for years because I didn’t want anyone within my family or small town to know. Kind of hard to do when the attacks lead you so physically & mentally exhausted that you pass out for hours afterward. I used to try to control my panic attacks by pinching or even biting hand or arm - pain always gave me something to focus on. I’ve tried meds, but they’re something else I couldn’t control, my mood wasn’t my own. And for better or worse - high functioning anxiety is what makes me, well, me. It’s what drove me through 6 years of college and why I have 3 degrees & I’m working on a 4th. It’s why I run my own business & why I’m so organzied. I’ve had unnaturally high anxiety since As far back as being in 3rd grade. I really don’t know what it’s like to not have it.

With that being said, the only time my anxiety has ever mellowed out to a somewhat normal level has been when I was training and competing with my show dogs. It’s one reason why I left Vet School to start my own dog training business.

As a dog trainer, I when decided to get my English Springer Spaniel and train her as a “demo” dog for my business last year I decided I’d train her for everything I could think of. She’s only 9 months now & knows an insane amount for a dog her age. She goes everywhere with me as feesably possible (as long as dogs are allowed, of course). Early on, she picked up on my anxiety & moods. The first time she saw a panic attack, she immediately came to me, put her front paws on my chest & licked my face. My dog trainer brain clicked that this could be modified for a deep pressure task and a tactile simulation task. So I encouraged it. For the first few months my panic attacks stayed the same, but I noticed they became less frequent, less intense. I taught my “demo” dog everything a service dog requires, and while she was performing tasks to help me - I never planned to make her a service dog. Service dogs are for people who need them - I don’t need one, right? It’s kind of like a case of imposter syndrome along with the fear of being different because nothing screams “hey I have a mental problem” like walking into Walmart with a dog in a neon vest. In a world - my own, made up one - where I demanded perfection & cared about image more than I ever had my mental health...there was no way I would do such a thing.

But that changed today. Today my Mom started Chemotherapy. Today I was a mess.

Imaging having Need for Control as an anxiety trigger when you find out your mom - your absolute world - needs toxic drugs to stop a mass on her lungs? That they may or may not work. That the cancer may spread or it may stop; they have no clue & have told us little more than she needs Chemotherapy immediately. She could die in a year. Or 5 or 10 or 20.

My parents are one of the lucky few to find their absolute soulmates. My father is devestated. I’ve never seen him so visibly shaken & scared in my life. My mom is trying to stay as optimistic as possible, which I’m grateful for. But they are both very lost. I’m lost too, but I can’t let them know that. In a way I have to be the adult - I’m the one who really understands how cancer works - thanks to my education. I’m the one with the understanding that at least one of us needs to be calm & collected during all of this. So I’m picking up slack while my parents emotionally deal with everything. Slack includes doing errands, meeting with people and helping with the family business. But all of those things involves stress & being in public, around people.

We’re not telling anyone, not even my aunts & uncles what’s wrong rn. I can’t tell my best friends, I can’t tell anyone. I certainly can’t tell my parents how this is bothering me, because they’re already living it. So today I needed my dog. So I put on that damn neon vest. I went out & got shit done. And when someone asked about my mom - everyone thinks she’s just down with a case of pneumonia atm - I about lost it. But Emmy was there to lean on me. After my dad called from the treatment center, she laid on my chest in my car while I took deep breaths. Now instead of hurting myself to focus, I rub her ears. I’ve rubbed her ears a lot today. Right now she’s laying on top of me as if she can will away all the fear & worry.

I don’t know if I’ll keep that vest on her in the future, but today I needed help.

[hodgeofthepodge-blog]

Ok, so today I FINALLY saw Teen titans go to the movies and I have to say... I really enjoyed it. 😊😊 Whilst waiting for this movie to start playing, I decided to start essentially, blogging my current situation to pass the time and Well...here's the results:

Ok so I need to find a way to distract myself so I’m gonna talk about how I am currently waiting to watch teen titans go to the movies... yeah. This is my life. Judge me. I honestly deserve it XD. See the thing is Tara strong, the voice of raven on both teen titans and teen titans Go, tweeted over a month ago about how if this does well enough at the box office, they will make a season 6 of the original teen titans alongside teen titans go. Upon reading this I was sceptical at first but over time my ecstasy grew as more and more of the main cast of both shows would further confirm this as fact and so this is why I have come to see this film...to help ‘fund' a possible season 6 of the original teen titans as I love it so dearly.

I’d make the joke that I have to barge through loads of children to get to my seat but...yeah nobody's here...yet ‘:D then again this has been screening here since the 3rd of August as opposed to my normal cinema which decided to wait to screen it on the 17th...to then not screen it... yeah... /:(

Luckily I found out they were screening it here last night and so I gave myself a task for today: get here in time to see this movie as tomorrow is the last screening they have for it... at 9:40 in the morning no less...

Deciding I didn’t want to die yet, I decided to pull an all-nighter and have a lovely cold coffee to keep me alive AND afloat (trust me, BOTH are required) and see this movie which has been getting surprisingly good reviews. I love teen titans and while I’m not the biggest fan of teen titans Go, I must admit they do have the occasional really funny joke. XD

So with the positive reviews and fairly good jokes on occasion in mind...I’m hoping this movie is funny and that I enjoy it...and if I don’t... then that’s ok too because I already feel as though I’ve done my bit towards supporting a possible season 6 and the return of one of my favourite animated shows ever... scratch favourite SHOWS ever, period.

UPDATE: There's an awful lot of children now...not going to see this movie apparently... ’XD

My seat, according to my ticket at least, is L9. As I have never been to this cinema before we can only pray that I battle my way through the vast sea of seats (sea-ts?) And live to see this film.

I hope for bbrae. Both in this film and in the possible season 6, I just...really need it ok. I can feel you judging me...stop it... Please?

UPDATE: My god...more Children

UPDATE: There is a woman sat in front of me outside the screening rooms, eating nachos rather loudly...she is slurping while she chews...I question how this is even possible, will have to research further.

UPDATE: whilst writing the previous UPDATE, the woman has left. The only logical conclusion is that she has sensed my...’bad vibes’ as people now say.

Teen titans is so damn good man, I forget how good it is everyone I watch it and then I’m just like “aaaaagh yusss, inject it into my soul Please!” As you do...

Yesterday my mother was very kind to order me a teen titans t shirt from redbubble. It was very kind and generous of her, and it is an odd coincidence that I checked out this cinema last night because of it, if it weren’t for her generosity, I may not have seen and or supported this film at all. Perhaps some things were just destined to occur?

UPDATE: 15 minutes now until the film starts, I grow excited and also gratitude that my time if waiting and writing about my current situation in life draws closer to an end. Having no mobile data can be quite a pain when you need something to pass the time and have no other options of entertainment available to you. I shall enter the room when the clock on my phone strike 12:10. I am hesitant however, as the rooms are in very close proximity and I can hear one of the many films currently playing, I hope that one of them is not in screen 5 as this is my screening room

UPDATE: I hear adverts coming from what I believe is my screening room. This makes me feel slightly better. 2 minutes remain and I shall enter the room. I have evacuated my bladder and am glad because of this. I was reminded by this by a father reminding his young son to urinate before observing this motion picture. I hear his squeaky trainers. Oddly squeaky indeed. Yes it is a toilet...fascinating.

UPDATE: Whilst writing this update my phone clock has struck 12:10. I shall now enter room5... I shall see you on the other side...wish me luck. X

UPDATE: I am now in the screening room and they have not started screening any adverts yet and the only other people in here is a family of 4, a mother, father, a boy and I think a girl but I’m not sure. There's a distinctly sweaty smell in the air, I hope it’s not me. XD

UPDATE: I’m not sure where I’m meant to be sat as row L is not highlighted.

UPDATE: omg...dude please don’t rest your balls on someone’s face...(yep I’ll have to explain that one later...) (that was really funny though and I almost burst out laughing and that would have sounded really weird...WAS AND SOMEONE JUST SAT IN FRONT OF HIM AS I WAS WRITING THIS AAAAAGGH. What are the odds? Basically the father guy started slouching in his seat to a point where his crotch was overhanging the seat in front of him and he said "if anyone sits in front of me,I'm gonna have to rest my balls on their face!"...and as if on queue... someone sat in front of him...

Lucky justice league shirt on!

UPDATE: the lights have dimmed and the screen is on.

UPDATE: I have now seen the movie. Verdict: it was good. I laughed quite a bit. There were quite a lot of poop and fart jokes though, maybe a few too many. Loved the dc and marvel references though. I did my part and I enjoyed it... and now to go home...in an hour.

[urwendii]

ask meme

Everything you didn’t need to know about me: blame @aearyn

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

— what was your last…

1. drink: champagne rosé  2. phone call: my mom  3. text message: my mom following sais phone call 4. song you listened to: G-Eazy & Halsey - Him & I 5. time you cried: I was at funerals all day so ... 

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: my Ex(tm).  7. kissed someone and regretted it: Not really the kind of girl to regret kissing people. even if perhaps some times I should have :’) 8. been cheated on: Yes. The other girl never saw my vengeance coming though :)  9. lost someone special: let’s not go down that road 10. been depressed: I had hard times, the last 2 years havent been easy but I feel way much better lately.  11. gotten drunk and thrown up: looks at my college years...

— fave colours

12. baby blue 13. royal purple 14. gold

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: plenty. i’ve resurrected my social life  16. fallen out of love: Haven’t been in love since the 90′s 17. laughed until you cried: yes 18. found out someone was talking about you: yes, people should be more discreet by the way... 19. met someone who changed you: My oncologist ? LOL 20. found out who your friends are: I know who Daearpyn is. 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: ... no and I should fix this.

— general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: I don’t add online friends on facebook. I have tumblr and whatsapp for this. 23. do you have any pets: no 24. do you want to change your name: yes to Regina Phalange.  25. what did you do for your last birthday: drank champagne 26. what time did you wake up today: 7 am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: in my bed messaging Aearyn about our otps 28. what is something you can’t wait for: Healing from cancer once and for fucking all. Meeting Lukan and becoming a Queen.  30. what are you listening to right now:  The Weeknd - I Feel It Coming ft. Daft Punk 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes  32. something that’s getting on your nerves:  the newly cold war american propaganda europe is being targeted with ;)  33. most visited website: the one i’m coding 34. hair colour: light brown 35. long or short hair: chemo state                                                    36. do you have a crush on someone: my manager. unfortunately he’s married. sighs.  37. what do you like about yourself: i’m smart and funny.  38. want any piercings: i kinda want more piercings on my ears, like 2nd and 3rd 39. blood type: A+  40. nicknames: no one gives me nicknames :(  41. relationship status: single (unless i get my manager to divorce...im a terrible person)  42. sign: sagittarius 43. pronouns: she/her 44. fave tv show: Doctor Who / The Crown. 45. tattoos: 3 46. right or left handed: ambidextrous 47: ever had surgery: so far the count is at 10. I have one planned next month 48. piercings: ears 49. sport: I used to. I’d like to go back to the gym  50. vacation: I alternate between spain and beach house in french.  51. trainers: pokemon ? 

— more general

52. eating: fried rice 53. drinking: just allow me to drink champagne for the rest of my life 54. i’m about to watch: nothing. I have work stuff to do 55. waiting for: life to finally be kinder with me. Also to finish my internship then get a real job 56. want: money to live like the princess I deserve to be  57. get married: to Lukan yes please 58. career: used to work in urban law. currently intern as web developer. 

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses: kisses while hugging  60. lips or eyes: blue blue eyes 61. shorter or taller: taller 62. older or younger: older 63. nice arms or stomach: just give me the damn V hips and toned stomach 64. hookup or relationships: I could do some hook ups lately...but relationships are end game 65. troublemaker or hesitant: Just someone who knows what they wants.

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: yes 67. drank hard liquor: yes 68. turned someone down: yes (that dude was a 3. i dont date 3 wtf)  69. sex on first date: yes but to be fair it was my ex. 70: broken someone’s heart: I don’t think I have 71. had your heart broken: pls see question 8 72. been arrested: no 73. cried when someone died: funerals today so  74. fallen for a friend: i’m bi and I have cute friends but never been IN love with them. Simply a physical attraction. 

— do you believe in

75. yourself: as a matter of fact I think I do 76. miracles: snorts 77. love at first sight: no 78. santa claus: LOL 79. angels: I’m not christian. 

— misc

80. eye colour: brown 81. best friend’s name: Daearpyn 82. favourite movie: The Theory Of Everything 83. favourite actor: I don’t really know 84. favourite cartoon: does Ghibli movies count ?  85. favourite teacher’s name: my thesis supervisor, Phil 

[lilmamaash]

1. Last beverage:

water

2. Last phone call:

my best friend hehe

3. Last song you listened to:

All I want - Kodaline

4. Last time you cried:

last night, because i’m simpin lmao

5. Have you dated someone twice:

yes, kinda

6. Have you ever been cheated on:

yes

7. Kissed someone & regretted it:

yessss

8. Have you lost someone special:

yes

9. What are your three favorite colors:

pink, mauve, dusty rose/nude, lilac, white, black

10. Met someone who changed you in the past month:

yes, a boy on tinder lol

11. Kissed anyone on your friends list:

yes

12. How many kids do you want:

4-6 LOL

13. Do you want any pets:

yessss, dogs forsure

14. Do you want to change your name:

yes, my last name when i get married

15. What did you do for your last birthday:

went to soju belly LOL

16. What time did you wake up today:

i can’t remember, i sleep throughout the day.

17. Name something you CANNOT wait for:

to love and finally have that love reciprocated

18. Last time you saw your mother:

earlier before i went to target

19. Most visited webpage:

snapchat or insta

20. Nicknames:

ash

21. Relationship status:

single as fuck

22. Zodiac sign:

capricorn

23. Male or female:

f

24. Height:

4"11

25. Do you have a crush on someone:

yes, i do lolol

26. Piercings:

like 13? some are taken out though.

27. Tattoos:

7!

28. Strong or Weak:

depends on the situation

FIRSTS

29. First surgery:

kindergarten, i broke my arm lmao

30. First best friend:

jenn, nika, tiff, kat, etc

31. First sport you joined:

ballet, if that counts

32. First vacation:

prob vegas for my 10th bday lmao

33. First school:

post elementary

34. First pair of trainers:

i wore my first training bra in like 3rd grade LMAO and i got made fun of and i cried.

WHICH IS BETTER

35. Lips or eyes:

eyes

36. Hugs or kisses:

depends on which person LMAO

37. Shorter or taller:

taller, but i’m short so it doesn’t really matter.

38. Older or younger:

older preferably, but if younger by maybe 1-2 years but not any younger.

39. Romantic or spontaneous:

doesn’t matter as long as i’m with who i wanna be with

40. Sensitive or loud:

sensitive

41. Hook-up or relationship:

relationship

42. Shy or outgoing:

doesn’t matter, as long as we vibe

HAVE YOU EVER

43. Kissed a stranger:

yes, when i was drunk lmao

44. Gotten a speeding ticket:

yes smh LOL

45. Lost glasses/contacts:

contacts forsure, they get stuck on my acrylics without me knowing LOL

46. Sex on first date:

no

47. Broken someone's heart:

doubtful

48. Been arrested:

no

49. Have you turned someone down:

yes

50. Fallen for a friend:

nooo

51. Moved out of town:

not yet, maybe in the future

BELIEVE IN

52. Miracles:

yesssss, i do believe in them

53. Love at first sight:

i believe that a person can fall in love with the connection at first sight, yes lol living it firsthand right now

54. Heaven:

yes

55. Santa Claus:

no, my family was too poor for that lmao

56. Kiss on the first date:

i don’t see anything wrong with it, as long as you feel like there’s a second date too!!!

57. Angels:

yes, my denise esp <3

58. Yourself:

learning

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

59. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time:

nope

60. Been in love with someone you couldn't be with?:

def lmao

61. Ever cheated on somebody:

nooo

62. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?:

childhood, i would try to remember more of it

63. Are you afraid of falling in love:

never, only afraid of not being loved back

64. Was your last relationship a mistake?

like bf/gf? or just interest in someone? cause if so, no. just wish things could’ve been different. wish we could start over.

65. Do you miss your last relationship?

i miss the last guy i was interested in, yes.

66. Who did you last say “i love you” to?

my best friend, jenn hehe

67. Have you ever been depressed?

basically my whole life

68. Are you insecure?

def, isn’t everyone

69. How do you want to die?

peacefully and painlessly lol

70. Do you bite your nails?

if i don’t have acrylics, cause i have anxiety, thats why i have fake nails to prevent it

71. When was your last physical fight?

it’s been a while LOL

72. Do you have an attitude?

guilty

73. Twirl or cut your spaghetti?

twirl

74. Do you tan a lot?

i used to lol

75. Ever eaten food in a car while someone or you are driving?

yessss lol

76. Ever made out in a bathroom?

noooo hahah

77. Would you take any of your exes back?

the last guy i was interested in, yes.

78. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

yes

79. What are your plans for this weekend?

bitch, we in quarantine.

80. Do you type fast?

yes

81. Can you spell well?

yes, most times.

82: What are you craving right now?

someone’s attention

83. Have you ever been on a horse?

nooo lol

84. Would you live with someone without marrying them?

yes

85. What’s irritating you right now?

i miss someone a lot but i’m too stupid and emotional and i fucked it up

86. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?

yes

87. Does somebody love you?

hopefully lmao my friends and family

88. Have you ever changed clothes in a car?

yes hahaha

89. Milk chocolate or white chocolate?

milk!

90. Do you have trust issues?

no, and i think that’s my problem. but i also do get defensive if someone doesn’t text me back/open my snaps but their score is going up lolol so take it as you will

91. Longest relationship?

n/a

92: Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?

a don’t have an ex

93. Have you ever walked outside in your PJs?

always LMAO idgaf

94. Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

i try to

95. Did you have dream last night?

yeah and i cried cause it felt so real

96. Have you ever been out of state?

yes

97. Do you play the Wii?

i used to have one!

98. Do you like Chinese food?

yesssss

99. Are you afraid of the dark?

YES LOL

100. Is cheating ever okay?

never wtf

101. What year has been your best?

i can’t even remember, but maybe 2017

102. Do you believe in true love?

yes, i think so.

103. Favorite weather?

cold cold cold, winter forever pls

104. Do you like the snow?

love it

105. Do you like the outside?

depends lmao

106. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

love ittttt

107. Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?

with breaks in between

108. What makes you happy?

my loved ones

109. Ever been to Alaska?

no, but maybe one day!

110. Ever been to Hawaii?

no :(

111. Do you watch the news?

no, i don’t lol i prob should

112. Do you love MTV?

back in the day LMAO

113. Do you like subway?

yessss, i love sammiches

114 Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

no, but i wouldn’t care to

115. Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

been there, done that, we’re still friends

116. Why did you decide to do this quiz?

because i’m bored as fuck in quarantine and i miss this shit lowkey LMAO

117. Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided them?

always, i’m very shy and weird like that

118. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

yesssss, i’m v grateful

119. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

the guy that i miss lmfao

120. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

my best friends, myself lol

121. Ever bought condoms?

no haha

122. Ever gotten pregnant?

never

123. Have you ever slipped on ice?

yessss, at work being a bobarista LMAO

124 Have you ever missed the bus?

yessss, in eighth grade, i had to take naother bus home, it was fucking scary LOL

125. Have you left the house without money?

yessss

126. Have you ever smoked cigarettes?

used to :(

127. Have you ever smoked a cigar?

noooo, sounds gross

128. Did you ever drink alcohol?

bitch plssssss

129. Did you ever watch “The Breakfast Club”?

yes!

130. Have you ever been overweight?

all my lifeeee, 4″11 gang

131. Ever been to a wedding?

yes, i fucking love weddings!!

132. Ever been in a wedding?

yes, kinda lol i was shy tho as the flowergirl

133. Have you ever been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

yesss, more so back then.

134. Did you ever watch TV for 5 hours straight?

yessss, binge watching everything.

135. Ever kissed in the rain?

yesss, it’s not as romantic as you’d think LMAO

136. Did you ever shower with someone else?

as kids, not w a lover

137. Did you ever fail a driver’s test?

nope, never

138. Ever been outside your home country?

no

139. Ever been on a road trip longer than 5 hours?

yesss, lake tahoe

140. Ever been to a professional sports game?

i don’t think so

141. Have you ever broken a bone?

yesss, my arm in kindergarten

142. Did you ever win a trophy in your life?

like a medal LOL

143. Ever get engaged?

nope, hopefully one day

144. Have you ever been on a diet?

i’ve tried many times

145. Have you ever been on TV?

no

146. Ever ridden in a taxi?

yessss, vegas baby

147. Ever been to prom?

yesss, junior and senior year hehe

148. Ever stayed up for 24 hours or more?

yesss crack head hours

149 Have you ever been to a concert?

so manyyyyy

150. Have you ever had a crush on someone at work?

never LMAO

151. Have you ever been in a car accident?

yes, i wasn’t driving tho

152. Ever had braces?

never 

153. Did you ever learn another language?

nope

154. Do you wear make-up?

usually every day LOL

155. Did you ever have your wisdom teeth taken out?

neverrrr

156. Did you ever kiss someone a different race than yourself?

yesss lol 

157. Ever dyed your hair?

too many times

158. Did you ever wear someone else’s clothes?

yessss

159. Ever ridden in an ambulance?

no

160. Ever ridden in a helicopter?

no

161. Ever caught the stove on fire?

no

162. Ever meet someone famous?

many people

163. Ever been on an airplane?

never

164. Ever been on a boat?

yes and i get seasick as fuck

165. Ever broken something expensive?

LOL, i’m sure of it

166. Did you ever kiss someone before you were 14?

no, my first kiss was at 15 i believe

167. Did you ever find something valuable on the ground?

a pack of cigs LMAO or the $100 bill my friend accidentally dropped and we finally found it like an hour later

[carmenlire]

I saw @champagnemagnus did this and thought it looked fun!!

rules: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

the last…

1. drink: water

2. phone call: work

3. text message: SAME

4. song you listened to: Moondust by Jaymes Young

5. time you cried: I honestly have no idea

6. dated someone twice: girl i’m still trying to snag a first time (same Lyd!!)

7. kissed someone and regretted it: haven’t had one to regret yet–see above

8. been cheated on: at the risk of sounding redundant…

9. lost someone special: uhh. . .never

10. been depressed: oh boy ya

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: a time or three

list 3 favorite colors

12. green

13. silver

14. grey

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yes

16. fallen out of love: no

17. laughed until you cried: yes

18. found out someone was talking about you: yes

19. met someone who changed you: no

20. found out who your friends are: yes

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: …………………………….

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: like 90%

23. do you have any pets: no:(

24. do you want to change your name: nah

25.  what did you do for your last birthday: dinner and bowling!

26. what time did you wake up: 7:10am

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping

28. name something you can’t wait for: shadowhunters 2x15 (asdsdfghlk I’m going through my likes and this post is 6 months old) But for me, I’m excited for.....the new Waterparks

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: last night

31. what are you listening to right now: Jingle bells (They’re already playing Christmas music at work)

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah like 6 years ago

33. something that is getting on your nerves: library visitors

34. most visited website: tumblr or ao3 lately lmao

35 - 37 lost questions

38. hair color: dark brown

39. long or short hair: long hair, I wish I could pull off short

40. do you have a crush on someone: nope

41. what do you like about yourself: my eyes and my wisdom (same lyd)

42. piercings: conventional ear lobes

43. blood type: O neg

44. nickname: Bri

45. relationship status: single af

46. zodiac: cancer

47. pronouns: she/her

48. favorite tv show: one tree hill, golden girls, peaky blinders

49. tattoos: nah

50. right or left handed: right

51. surgery: in 3rd grade to 

52. piercing (repeat)

53. sport: volleyball

55. vacation: england and ireland

56. pair of trainers: black and white Nike

more general

57. eating: feta and crackers

58. drinking: water

59. i’m about to: die from annoyance and exhaustion

61. waiting for: this printer to fucking work

62. want: sushi

63. get married: absolutely, that’s one of the most important things to me

64. career: Librarian!

which is better

65. hugs or kisses: hugs

66. lips or eyes: eyes

67. shorter or taller: taller

68. older or younger: older

70. nice arms or nice stomach: idc

72. hook up or relationship: relationship

73. trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker

have you ever

74. kissed a stranger: no

75. drank hard liquor: yes

76. lost glasses/contact lenses: never like permanently lost but i’ve misplaced my glasses a few times

77. turned someone down: once for a second date

78. sex on the first date: nope

79. broken someone’s heart: no

80. had your heart broken: nope

81. been arrested: no

82. cried when someone died: yes

83. fallen for a friend: nope

do you believe in…

84. yourself: i’m working on it

85. miracles: yes

86. love at first sight: no

87. santa claus: no

88. kiss on the first date: sure, if you’re both feeling it!

89. angels: yes

other

90. current best friend’s name: Pumpkin

91. eye color: brown

92. favorite movie: Titanic

[inthelapofthegods74]

I was tagged by @vivi-ntvg thank you :D

Rules: Answer the 92 statements and tag 20 people

LAST:

1. Drink: Water

2. Phone call: My mother

3. Text message: A friend

4. Song: Wham Rap by Wham! and Princess Of The Night by Modern Talking I’m obesessed with these

5. Time you cried: I can’t remember

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: No

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: No

8. Been cheated on: No

9. Lost someone special: Yes

10. Been depressed: Sad but not depressed

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: No

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Blue

13. Green

14. Purple

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes, I think

16. Fallen out of love: No

17. Laughed until you cried: Almost everyday

18. Found out someone was talking about you: I don’t care if they do

19. Met someone who changed you: No

20. Found out who your friends are: I found this a long while ago. I have the same best friends since 3rd or 4th grade

21. Kissed someone on you Facebook list: No

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life?: Most of them

23. Do you have any pets?: No

24. Do you want to change your name?: I like my name

25. What did you do for your last birthday?: I went out with my friends 

26. What time did you wake up?: 9am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night?: Sleeping

28. Name something you can’t wait for: To start university next week

29. When was the last time you saw your mom?: An hour ago

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life?: my shyness

31. What are you listening to right now: I’m watching SpongeBob :))

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Mess

34. Most visited website: Tumblr, Youtube

?????? MORE QUESTIONS

35. Mole/s: No

36. Mark/s: I have one on the back of my knee

37. Childhood dream: To play an instrument (I kind of fullfilled this dream)

38. Haircolor: Brown

39. Long or short hair: Short

40. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes

41. What do you like about yourself?: I’m calm 

43. Bloodtype: I don’t know

44: Nicknames: None

45. Relationship status: Single

46. Zodiac: Virgo

47. Pronouns: She/her

48. Favorite TV show: -

49. Tattoos: None

50. Right or Left hand?: Right

51: Surgery: On my knee

52. Hair dyed a different color: No

53. Sport: I like watching tennis, football(soccer) and bascketball but I never practiced a sport

54. Vacation: At mountain

55. Pair of trainers: I mostly wear sport shoes because they’re comfortable

MORE??

56. Eating: What am I supposed to say here? I love eating:))

57. Drinking: I don’t like fizzy drinks

59. I’m about to: -

61. Waiting for: Lunch lol

62. Want: To many things to mention

63. Get married: Maybe

64. Career: Translator or something to do with foreign languages

65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs

66. Lips or eyes: Eyes

67. Shorter or taller: Taller

68. Older or younger: Older

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: I don’t care, I don’t have neither

71. Sensitive or loud: Both

72. Hookup or relationship: Realtionship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant

74. Kissed a stranger: No

75. Drank hard liquor: No

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I don’t wear any

77. Turned someone down: No

78. Sex on the first date: No

79. Broken someone’s heart: Maybe

80. Had your heart broken: Yes

81. Been arrested: No

82. Cried when someone died: Yes

83. Fallen for a friend: No

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: Yes. I’m more confident than I was a few months ago I don’t know how this happened.

85. Miracles: Not really

86. Love at first sight: I don’t think you can love someone from the first time you see them

87. Santa Clause: No

88. Kiss on the first date: No

89. Angels: Not really

Other:

90. Current best friend’s name: Ali

91. Eye color: Green/Hazel it depends on the light

92. Favorite movie: Gone with the wind, Phantom of the opera and a series of romanian old comedy movies

I was tagged a while ago so I won’t tag anyone. But be free to do this if you want to.

[noble-pro]

The London Triathlon 2019

On the 17th July 2019 I took part in the London Triathlon 2019. This was the first time I have taken part in this event, in its 22 years of existence. To be honest, I don’t consider myself a triathlete, not a serious one anyway. I am a runner, I enjoy running, but I like to take part in Ironman for the challenge. I don’t plan on taking part in lots of triathlons, but it would be nice to improve, and alas the only way I’m going to do that is by taking part in more. After the swim was cancelled in Ironman Hamburg last year (see full review HERE) I decided to enter Ironman Vichy. I had been concerned in Hamburg about the possibility of a non wetsuit swim, so in order to face my fear I booked Ironman Vichy knowing full well it’s been non wetsuit for the last 4 years. I consider the best way to overcome a fear is to face it. Once again I have done lots of running over the last 12 months, but I haven’t trained adequately in any other discipline. I’ve actually cycled more than ever in terms of miles, but that’s because I’m commuting to work, but this is only a total of 13 miles a day. In fact I’ve not ridden further than 7 miles in one go this year. I had also been making many excuses about swimming, and until last month hadn’t swam at all in 2019. With this in mind I was looking for a bit of motivation, and that is when I decided to enter the London Triathlon. I decided to enter the Olympic distance on the Saturday. I decided on the Olympic for a nice training session for Ironman Vichy, and I picked the Saturday because it is a slightly later start than the Sunday. On all accounts Sunday is more scenic as you go into London, but I would have struggled to get in early enough. Off to the Start I was nervous about getting to the start, as I didn’t want to have to drag my wife and kids with me, and I dont drive, so was relying on public transport. I had a bad start having cycled to the underground and being told that I wasn’t allowed on that line with my bike. So I had to cycle to another line. To make matters worse, I had prepared two bottles of water, one with electrolytes, and left them in my kitchen. I tried not to stress about it, and I actually got to the Expo in plenty of time. I arrived and racked my bikes and prepared my kit, I then had a quick look around. There wasn’t much there to be honest, but I picked up a bottle of water for my bike, and a can of Tenzing. I then had a bit of time to chill out in advance of my swim start. Everything was relaxed and friendly, and it was good seeing other waves start. The Swim The swim is where I’m most nervous, and this is the first time I’ve put my wetsuit on in over a year (fortunately it still fits). We all got together and the race briefing was fantastic. The brief was delivered in an energetic and enthusiastic way, which built lots of confidence.

We then went and got into the water where we had a 5 minute wait before the start. At 22 degrees the water temperature was good. I had set my watch to Triathlon mode, looking forward to using this for the first time, unfortunately my GPS was lost when I was waiting to start, and when I got out the water I realised no distance had been recorded. I kept my watch going in transition and then on the bike it continued to not record distance, and wouldn't pick up GPS for some reason. So I stopped the activity and started a bike ride, which worked. I decided to stay to the side to stay away from the hustle and bustle. This was actually the most civilised open water swim I’ve ever done, and I didn’t get hit once. Perhaps this is because I swam really wide. When I started I seemed to be heavy breathing and struggled with breath, so I took some time to control my breathing Once I got to half way I was in a better rhythm that I could have sustained for longer. I wasn't the quickest, but I’m happy enough with my performance, I felt comfortable. I was really impressed with the number of kayaks out in the water, I felt a sense of safety, and this would be a great event for even a nervous swimmer, with confidence of support on the course. Although they kept coming really close to me, but in fairness I was too wide, and they were trying to keep me on course. I finished, and felt ok actually. T1 is fairly long. As you get out you have to take off your wetsuit before you go in transition. Volunteers hand you a plastic bag and even help undress you, it’s all very supportive. It’s then a fairly long transition up stairs and around the racking before getting your bike. The stairs were a bit hazardous as they were wet, and this should be looked at for health and safety reasons. The bike & troubles... I didn’t take much time once I got to my bike, just put on my socks and cycle shoes, had a bit of nutrition and water, then was off again. Again I was impressed with the bike course. Yes it’s not the most scenic course in the world, being 4 out and back laps, but it was relatively flat, and although there were lots of waves, and busy, I never felt like I was held up by anyone. The roads were not great in places, and the rain water, mixed with lots of loose stones, meant I saw a lot of riders trying to fix punctures, or walking back to transition. What I did like was all the support around the course, and marshals helping people fix punctures. A lot of events don’t allow outside assistance, but this will put new triathletes off. Seeing people being helped and supported was great. My ride was going really well. Again, I wasn't breaking any records, but was happy to be averaging about 18 miles and hour. There are a few bends that zapped pace, but other than that the only bad bit was a particularly bumpy section a few hundred metres before lap point. As I was approaching the end of my 3rd lap I was thinking how well it was going, and how glad I wasn’t one of the poor people I had passed fixing a puncture. I went over the bumpy section and just then my tyre pressure felt off, I carried on riding as I wasn’t sure, but I wanted to test it so I pushed down hard on the front wheel and it was clear I had a puncture, great. I pulled over to fix my puncture and this took me about 18 minutes, I’m not the quickest, but changing the tyre is fine. What I struggle with is getting the last bit of the tyre back on, and this took about 10 minutes.

Once I fixed my tyre I was a little more cautious for the last lap. For one I had lost my group from my wave, but most importantly I only had one spare inner tube, and if I had another puncture that would have been the end of my ride. I had a good ride, and finished strong, the turn into transition was a steep finally. Now no my feet The T2 was straight forward, and I didn’t spend much time. I just racked my bike and put my trainers on. A quick sip of water and some more nutrition, and I was off. I’m not going to lie, my low back was agony and it took me a while to stand up straight, so I went to the railings to try and stretch off a little. By the time I got to the Run Out section I was feeling fine. I started off at around 7:05 min miles and it felt comfortable. The run route is 4 laps, a simple, mostly flat out and back. Again not the most scenic runs, but for a 10k it’s not to bad. There are two aid stations on each lap, and although the course isn’t wide, I wasn’t really delayed at any point. It can get busy as there are numerous waves, and I had to weave a lot around people. The run is my strongest point, and I spent the whole run over taking people, which gives a bit of a boost. There were only a couple of runners who overtook me, and I was able to maintain my pace throughout. I only slowed coming into each lap as there was an incline Overall the run was really good apart from one incident. As I was coming in to get water on the second lap I was behind another runner, I grabbed water and then he immediately stopped, with no warning. I managed to stop myself from running into him, and put my hands on his shoulders as I stopped momentum. It wasn’t a big collision, it could have been a lot worse. Although it was annoying, it is just one of those things, so I carried on. About a minute later I heard “oi”, I thought nothing of it, and then I was pushed hard from behind. I turned and he pushed me again, and said I pushed him. I couldn’t believe what was happening, this is not what I expect from this sport. Perception is a curious thing, he chased me and tried starting a fight, because he thought I pushed him, when in fact I stopped myself from running him over, based on his actions. I barely even touched him and it was certainly an accident, the briefest of encounters. He pushed me for a third time so I pushed him back and told him very firmly not to touch me again, he seemed to get the message, so I carried on running. The final two laps went well, and I didn’t feel tempted to #pickupthepace. I was happy maintaining the pace, and finished feeling good. Final thoughts... What a fantastic Triathlon. The London Triathlon is a great event for everyone. There are lots of distances to choose from, and in every category there were first timers, club triathletes and age groupers. There were people turning up with bikes worth more than cars, and others ranged from midrange to very basic, there was even one guy on a Boris Bike. It is nice to see such an inclusive event. At the end you receive a nice medal and finishers tee. I also grabbed a couple of cans of Tenzing and some water. Overall a successful training session for Ironman Vichy, which is my next planned event. Read the full article

[imaginaryowl]

Rules: answer the statements, then tag someone!

I was tagged by @sheistherainbow, thank you so much ♡

The last… Drink: redcurrant juice Phone call: my aunt & I accidentally hung up, maybe I should call her back Text message: “All right, thank you anyway!” to a landlord Song I listened to: Red Hot Chili Peppers - The Zephyr Song Time I cried: almost yesterday when I got yelled at (that was a close one, but luckily I didn’t)

Dated someone twice: no Kissed someone and regretted it: nope Been cheated on: noo Lost someone special: yes Been depressed: once in a while but aren’t we all? Gotten drunk and thrown up: yes, a couple of times 3 favorite colors: electric blue, turquoise, dark red

In the last year, have I… Made new friends? no, ‘cause I’m unable to form social relationships w/ my unbelievably introverted mind 🙂 haha, well I’ve met few new acquaintances but I wouldn’t count that Fallen out of love? umm, not really Laughed until I cried? yeah, many times Found out someone was talking about me? yesss ugh just remembered that & not in a positive way, it wasn’t nice to hear really... Met someone who changed me? yes, I’m changing all the time ‘cause I’m not sure about anything & worry too much about what others think of me Found out who my friends are? haha yeah, I’ve known quite a while now who my friends are (a friend is such a strong expression, I guess a pal/buddy would be more suitable) Kissed someone on my Facebook list? yup

General How many Facebook friends do I know in real life? all of them Do I have any pets? a dog & 2 cats ♡ we’ve had an aquarium for 14 years now but we’re going to give it away next month Do I want to change my name? I’ve actually been thinking about changing my forename which is technically my 3rd given name at the moment, & I don’t really care about my surname, it’s ok & can change someday What did I do for my last birthday? it was so beautiful day, the sky was clear & the snow glistened in the sun ✨ I went for a long walk w/ Dessa & made a mud cake 😋 What time did I wake up? about 9:30 am What was I doing at midnight last night? watched Skam on TV 😁 Name something I can’t wait for? getting into university When was the last time I saw my mom? 5 minutes ago What am I listening to right now? Linkin Park - Halfway Right Have I ever talked to a person named Tom? no, as far as I know Something that is getting on my nerves? my family every now & then Most visited website? tys.fi seemingly (apartment search) Hair color: I dye my hair from light brown/gray to auburn (I’ve planned to dye back to dark brown though) Long or short hair: medium-length Do I have a crush on someone? a little 👀 What do I like about myself? I always try to understand others from their point of view, I’m also quite adventurous & willing to gain new experiences Piercings: a tragus, a rook, 5 lobes & 2 helix piercings Blood type: O + Nickname: only my family calls me Elli, my uncle used to call me Lispetti 😝 Relationship status: ☑️ poured 2 glasses of wine, drank them both Zodiac: Aquarius ♒️ Pronouns: she/her Favorite tv shows: Psych, Supernatural, Friends, That ‘70s Show, Skam Tattoos: none, but I’d love to have one of Alfred Basha’s drawings inked on my skin ♡ also if I ever get children, it’d be so cute to have their little artworks as tattoos 💭 Right/left handed: right Surgery: when I was a small kid, I had a hernia that was repaired Sports: walking my dog 🐶 I’ll start playing badminton/volleyball regularly someday! Vacations: well, I’m either spending time w/ my family at home (almost always) or travelling abroad/to Helsinki w/ my aunt (🇬🇧🇪🇪🇩🇰🇩🇪🇸🇪) I took my 1st road trip by myself last summer & it was amazing 💯 I stayed at my friend’s in Savonlinna & at my cousin’s in Kuopio for a week in total Pair of trainers: finally got 1 on sale, Chucks aren’t so good for running no shit

More general Eating: vanilla yoghurt 💕 Drinking: nothing I’m about to: read some biology Waiting for: sunny days 🌞 Want: feel like I belong somewhere Get married: maybe sometimes, not really looking forward to Career: what now?

Which is better… Hugs or kisses? hugs Lips or eyes? eyes Shorter or taller? taller Older or younger? older, but it's not about the (physical) age usually Nice arms or nice stomach? whatever Hook up or relationship? relationship Troublemaker or hesitant? trouble making tendencies might be slightly better than hesitating, just maybe

Have you ever… Kissed a stranger? no Drank hard liquor? yes Lost glasses/contact lenses? nope Turned someone down? yeah Sex on the first date? no Broken someone’s heart? hope not Had my heart broken? well, yes Been arrested? noo Cried when someone died? yup Fallen for a friend? no, I don’t fall in love so easily

Do you believe in… Myself? occasionally, I try my best Miracles? yes Love at first sight? umm not sure, isn't it more like a crush? Santa? no Kiss on the first date: why not Angels: yeah 😇

Other Eye color: blue/gray Favorite movie: there're so many good movies I can't decide only one! I love Benny & Joon, A Long Way Down, Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas, Hot Fuzz, Corpse Bride, Coraline, Fantastic Mr. Fox, Girl, Interrupted...

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[suhyunggeun]

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tagging: @daesungs-creek @snupersmashbros and @letsanghosing ♡ (if you want to…?)

THE LAST:

1. drink: water 2. phone call: mom 3. text message: my friend Anna 4. song you listened to: My Chemical Romance - Disenchanted 5. time you cried: uh…? I don’t really know… maybe a few months ago with a friend? It was really weird ^^’

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice: no (not even once ha ha) 7. kissed someone and regretted it: no 8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: no 10. been depressed: yes 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: no (I don’t really drink)

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: 12-14. white, black and I’m tempted to write gray but let me be extremely colorful and say red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. made new friends: yes! 16. fallen out of love: no 17. laughed until you cried: yes 18. found out someone was talking about you: yes mom thank you 19. met someone who changed you: well not radically but I’ve met some interesting people at uni who have influenced me 20. found out who your friends are: still don’t know them 100% but yes 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: no

GENERAL: 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all 23. do you have any pets: not right now 24. do you want to change your name: not really, I think it’s cool 25. what did you do for your last birthday: Celebrated my nephew’s birthday… unfortunately I’m the only family member who doesn’t think he’s the cutest existence in the world. 26. what time did you wake up: about 7 am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: washing my work uniform 28. name something you can’t wait for: to live alone 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: she’s here with me right now 30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: Hmm I’m not sure but I REALLY wanna live alone. Or without my mom at least. 31. what are you listening to right now: My Chemical Romance - Destroya (yeah my MCR playlist is on) 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: don’t think so 33. something that is getting on your nerves: my mom (ok this is like the 3rd time I mention her, I know, we’re just really different and don’t get along, long story short) 34. most visited website: I think Youtube and Tumblr are tied 35. moles: I have a few, the biggest one is on my back 36. marks: strech marks on my back bc I’m a 187cm giant who’ve grown too suddenly 38. hair colour: light brown 39. long or short hair: long 40. do you have a crush on someone: nope 41. what do you like about yourself: if I want something, I work really hard to make sure I’ll get it 42. piercings: just ears 43. blood type: B maybe? 44. nickname: the most common is Anni (you pronunce it like 언니 which has caused some funny situations in the past…) but I also like Annie 45. relationship status: sexy free and single 46. zodiac: Leo 47. pronouns: she/her 48. favourite tv show: Hmmit I’ll say Hannibal even though it most definitely wasn’t perfect. Nowadays I’ve been also thinking about rewatching Utopia. 49. tattoos: none (yet) 50. right or left handed: right 51. surgery: no 52. hair dyed in different color: no 53. sport: Everyone wanted me to play basketball just because I’m tall but I hated it and decided to dance instead which I did for about 11 years but I sprained my knee multiple times so I had to stop. Which sucks. Haha. 55. vacation: Uhm… I’ve been on a few… I’ll try to list where I’ve travelled abroad: Egypt, Croatia, UK, Germany, Greece, Austria, Switzerland, Italy, Slovakia 56. pair of trainers: I don’t know the brand, some cheap black ones

MORE GENERAL 57. eating: right now? bread roll 58. drinking: water 59. i’m about to: wash my uniform again yeah 61. waiting for: to have some free time and be able to translate some articles 62. want: Snuper to do well and hear/see/feel/experience B.A.P’s comeback right now 63. get married: yeah sure why not 64. career: uhhhhhhhhh 65. hugs or kisses: hugs 66. lips or eyes: eyes 67. shorter or taller: taller 68. older or younger: older 70. nice arms or nice stomach: nice arms 71. sensitive or loud: sensitive 72. hook up or relationship: relationship 73. troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. kissed a stranger: no 75. drank hard liquor: yes 76. lost glasses/contact lenses: no 77. turned someone down: yes 78. sex on the first date: no 79. broken someone’s heart: there is a small chance but I don’t think so 80. had your heart broken: no (Without a heart by 8eight plays in the background) 81. been arrested: no 82. cried when someone died: yes 83. fallen for a friend: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. yourself: compared to other people: definitely, compared to how much I could believe in myself: not always 85. miracles: not really 86. love at first sight: you see, I never know what to answer to this, like I believe in inmediate attraction that can turn into love sooner or later but you won’t fall wholly in love in 0.001 second when you meet someone for the first time 87. santa claus: no 88. kiss on the first date: yes 89. angels: no

OTHER: 90. current best friend’s name:  don’t have one 91. eye colour: green 92. favourite movie: I really like Cloud Atlas (the book is great too) or basically anything from Danny Boyle. My favourite actor is James McAvoy so Trance was a blessing for me but I love Sunshine too (unlike all of my friends lol)

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Mystic Messenger Fanfiction | JuminxMC Good Ending Continued | Ch. 5 Commoner’s Date

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The helicopter ride was exhilarating. Even though it was incredibly noisy, the view was so beautiful. Jumin was watching me more than the view, having probably seen things like this before, but I was so fascinated by all the lights below. It was a pitch black night, so all the building with the lights in their windows created what was like a man-made sky. My new husband took my hand, kissing my knuckles gently to get my attention. He was even more handsome in the light from inside the helicopter than I thought could be possible, his sharp features only further defined.

It was impossible to hear each other over the noise of the helicopter, but thanks to the headsets we each had on, we were able to talk. "We're going to a vacation house of mine near the beach. Elizabeth the 3rd and our luggage is already there." I nodded along as he talked, running my thumb over his hand as he held it. Jumin was far more into these little moments and touching than I'd ever expected he would be. The love of my life was a sweetheart. "I'd like to...swim with you in the private pool tonight."

Oh, that was a little bit of a gear shift. I'd thought he would...want to...Well it was our wedding night, and he'd been holding it in for our entire engagement, but maybe he was as nervous about it now as I was? That wasn't likely. There were still several hours of our wedding tonight to enjoy and that was probably all that was going on. Jumin had never really expressed an interest in going swimming with me before, so I was just a little thrown off as to why that would be the activity he chose rather than doing a jigsaw puzzle together or something of the like, but I wasn't going to say no to spending more time with my husband.

As I was getting ready in our honeymoon suite, I couldn't stop thinking how surreal it was. I'd been Mrs. Han for approximately four hours, and now we were spending our first night together as husband and wife. Jumin had thought of everything, my bag was packed with all new outfits he'd chosen for me and I found a beautiful swimsuit that fit just perfectly. He'd had my measurements for some time now, and he did love giving gifts, even if it made me slightly uncomfortable to accept so many extravagant things. It made him happy, though, and that was what mattered.

I wrapped a towel around myself, feeling just a little exposed in the revealing swim suit when Jumin had never seen me in anything less than a shirt and a skirt. Elizabeth the 3rd greeted me from the couch in the living room of this amazing almost glass house. The living areas really were made up of glass walls, and the ceiling in the bedroom was one-sided glass so you could look up at the stars. I was amazed by everything, but there wasn't time to marvel about that now, my husband was waiting for me in the pool.

Jumin had decided to allow me to change by myself in the bedroom, wanting to let me be comfortable, and I could see his tux tossed onto one of the chairs near the pool. He really wasn't as neat as I'd been led to believe at one point. Things tended to go in their place, but that was mostly because a maid would put them there. His back was turned to me as he was at the edge of the infinity pool, seemingly lost in thought. It was such a rare occurrence to see him not bustling around with work or other matters, so I didn't want to disturb him.

His back was well sculpted and muscled, thanks to the time he spent with his personal trainer as directed by his nutritionist, and I couldn't help but stop to admire him before I dropped my towel and carefully stepped into the pool. The water was a comfortable temperature, and I could reach the bottom with the water rising to my chest height, so I was able to move quietly. As I made my way towards my husband, I found myself wondering what his own swimsuit looked like, because as I peered into the water there didn't seem to be any color and then a ripple passed by and I saw...He wasn't wearing anything.

The gasp that left my throat had my husband turning around, gray eyes quickly taking in my shocked expression. "What's wrong my darling? Is the water too cold? Has something frightened you?" In just a moment he was there, wrapping his arms around me, and I was internally screeching as my heart pounded in my chest and my entire body turned red. Jumin was hugging me, and he was completely nude. He seemed to be doing a bit of a double-take as he let go of me, his hand having come in contact with my swimsuit.

"Why are you wearing your suit? Did you think I wouldn't observe your commoner wedding custom? Seven informed me about your 'skinny-dipping' traditions and provided me with a number of articles on the matter." It only made so much sense that Seven would have something to do with this. That redhead loved to mess around and he was probably going to be teasing us both incredibly once we next logged into the chatroom. Jumin seemed so confused and somewhat offended that I would doubt him. "Of course I wouldn't ignore my wife's customs, although I know it will be hard to keep my hands to myself; I do no longer have to as you're now my wife." That did nothing to help the blush at all.

"Jumin...um...Skinny-dipping isn't a commoner custom..." I watched as what I'd said sunk in, the moment he realized he'd been tricked. His expression went somewhat cold, and I shrank away slightly only to have him bow his head to me. "I apologize, my love. It seems I have been tricked. I'll have to find a way to punish Seven for his ridiculous actions."

So now what? "Y-you're forgiven." Here I was, standing with my naked husband, myself in a rather revealing swimsuit, and I had no idea what to do. The good news was, that when I didn't know how to act, Jumin certainly did. My husband approached me again, gently pulling me into his arms once more. I hadn't even had time to cool down my blush yet, and it seemed it was actually getting worse, which I hadn't thought was possible. Jumin lightly rested his chin on the top of my head as his hands traveled along my back, finding the strings to my top. "Although...it's not so bad of a trick. I would like to skinny-dip with you, if that's to my wife's satisfaction?"

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Jumin pulled away to curl up with me, wrapping me up in his arms and pressing featherlight kisses everywhere that he could. "MC...my beautiful wife." I certainly felt beautiful with all of his praises even if I also felt incredibly worn out. As I nuzzled into my husband's chest he managed to find a blanket that wasn't soaked with pool water, pulling it over us. My eyelids were incredibly heavy, it had been such a long day, but I wanted to stay awake as long as possible to soak in this moment and our love for each other.

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[nyangibun]

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the last…  

1. drink: lemon soda 

2. phone call: my brother

3. text message: my boss u_u 

4. song you listened to: umbrella by far east movement ft. hyolyn and gill chang

5. time you cried: when i had an anxiety attack earlier this month. 

6. dated someone twice: when i was 18-19 (and more like three, four times. >_<) 

7. kissed someone and regretted it: 2 months ago lol 

8. been cheated on: when i was 18

9. lost someone special: when i was 22

10. been depressed: all the damn time lol. it just ranges for manageable to crippling. 

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: does the next day count? because that would be in may but otherwise... like a year or so ago. 

favourite colours


12. pink

13. purple

14. aquamarine

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yessss

16. fallen out of love: nope. 

17. laughed until you cried: yesss

18. found out someone was talking about you: uh no i dont think so

19. met someone who changed you: yesss my soul twin! <3 

20. found out who your friends are: figured that out a couple years back xD

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: no way

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: 80-90% i think 

23. do you have any pets: too many. 2 dogs 4 cats. 


24. do you want to change your name: not really. maybe when i’m married.

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i had japanese food and ice cream cake.

26. what time did you wake up: today? about 5 something in the morning then officially at 6:30am for work

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: on tumblr on my phone.

28. name something you can’t wait for: moving to new zealand. finally getting the fuck out of here. 

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: last night

31. what are you listening to right now: umbrella by far east movement ft hyolyn and gill chang. it’s literally on repeat right now. 

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah an old fling named tom literally just messaged me out of the blue a day ago, which reminds me i need to reply

33. something that is getting on your nerves: ignorance and indifference. 

34. most visited website: tumblr and ao3 

35. hair colour: dark brown

36. long or short hair: long hair

37. do you have a crush on someone: nah. unless you count fictional characters.

38. what do you like about yourself: my sense of humour. i make myself laugh.

39. piercings: i have 7 piercings (2 on each side, a tragus piercing, a cartilage piercing and navel piercing) 

40. blood type: i actually dont know. that’s bad right? 

41. nickname: supreme overlord. or you know, i dont have one.

42. relationship status: single and not really ready to mingle. 

43. zodiac: aquarius

44. pronouns: she/her

45. favourite tv show: uhhh... netflix’s daredevil season 1. 

46. tattoos: one day

47. right or left handed: right

48. surgery: never.

49. piercing: uhhh??? 

50. sport: softball and touch rugby competitively in high school. volleyball competitively since i was 12 up until i graduated university (so roughly 12 years altogether).

51. vacation: i want to go to the amazon!!!! or iceland! 

52. pair of trainers: my adidas ones with the all black stripes. 

more general

53. eating: nothing. 

54. drinking: water

55. i’m about to: get off work!

56. waiting for: the clock to strike 5pm

57. want: to get out of this country and start living my life again

58. get married: once i have my shit together. oh and once i meet bob morley.

59. career: novelist, screenwriter, something along those lines. 

60. hugs or kisses: kiss me, you fool! 

61. lips or eyes: eyes for sure.

62. shorter or taller: i’m short. i want someone taller. idk what this question is asking. 

63. older or younger: older. i like older people. 

64. nice arms or nice stomach: arms jfc. always arms.

65. hook up or relationship: terrifyingly, a relationship

66. troublemaker or hesitant: is there an option for broody with a heart of gold?

67. kissed a stranger: hahaha 

68. drank hard liquor: hahahahahahaha

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: never glasses but yes contacts

70. turned someone down: yeah :/ 

71. sex on the first date: depends. i mean as a rule of thumb, no, but if it’s bob morley, hell yeah. 

72. broken someone’s heart: unfortunately :( 

73. had your heart broken: unfortunately :( 

74. been arrested: nah

75. cried when someone died: no. i completely shut down when bad things happen.

76. fallen for a friend: un-fucking-fortunately. what a time that was

do you believe in …

77. yourself: i believe in my desperation to feel free again to get shit done. 

78. miracles: i don’t know. 

79. love at first sight: not a chance.

80. santa claus: sure why not 

81. kiss on the first date: yes, absolutely. a kiss says so much about a person.

82. angels: not really. 

other

83. current best friend’s name: bob morley. or you know, dinithi. 

84. eye colour: dark brown

85. favourite movie: uhh.... the lotr trilogy? (minus frodo’s bits in the 2nd and 3rd)

[kingwitchofangmar]

Tagged by @ddraconian-love​

thank you ;)

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

THE LAST:

1. Drink: Black cofee

2. Phone call: my mom

3. Text message: a good frend

4. Song you listened to: 3rd Testament - SepticFlesh

5. Time you cried: I can’t remember

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: No

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: No

8. Been cheated on: No

9. Lost someone special: Yes

10. Been depressed: Yes

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Never

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Black

13. Carmine 

14. Navy blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes

16. Fallen out of love: No

17. Laughed until you cried: Yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you: No

19. Met someone who changed you: I don’t think so

20. Found out who your friends are: Kind of

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: No

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: All of them

23. Do you have any pets: No :’(

24. Do you want to change your name: No

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: Nothing at all

26. What time did you wake up: 9am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: talking with a friend

28. Name something you can’t wait for: going to college

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: 20 minutes ago

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: have the ability to play instruments

31. What are you listening right now: the ominous and overwhelming silence

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes (most random question ever)

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my lack of social skills

34. Most visited Website: Tumblr

LOST QUESTIONS. (I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME)

35. Mole/s: one on my head

36. Mark/s: a scar on my eyebrow

37. Childhood dream: be a paleontologist

38. Haircolor: brown

39. Long or short hair: Short

40. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes :(

41. What do you like about yourself: My music taste

42. Piercings: No

43. Bloodtype: O- I think

44. Nickname: Zuli

45. Relationship status: single (alone as fucking hell)

46. Zodiac: capricorn

47. Pronouns: ?

48. Favorite TV Show: Stranger Things, Fiends, How I Met Your Mother, Penny Dreadful

49. Tattoos: No :(

50. Right or left hand: Right handed

51. Surgery: None

52. Hair dyed in different color: No

53. Sport: football all the way

55. Vacation: I spent a month in San Francisco once

56. Pair of trainers: 0

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: salad

58. Drinking: coffee

59. I’m about to: go to bed

61. Waiting for: death (?)

62. Want: a long term, meaningful, supportive, beautiful relationship

63. Get married: yes

64. Career: historian

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. Hugs or kisses: kisses

66. Lips or eyes: tough one... lips

67. Shorter or taller: shorter

68. Older or younger: doesn’t matter

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: stomach

71. Sensitive or loud: both

72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Bit of both

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: No

75. Drank hard liquor: Yes

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: No

77. Turned someone down: not that I remember

78. Sex in the first date: No

79. Broken someone’s heart: probably

80. Had your heart broken: Yes :(

81. Been arrested: No

82. Cried when someone died: Yes

83. Fallen for a friend: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: kind of

85. Miracles: no

86. Love at first sight: no

87. Santa Claus: no

88. Kiss on the first date: yes

89. Angels: yes

OTHER:

90. Current best friends name: Melissa

91. Eyecolor: shit brown

92. Favorite movie: LOTR FUCK YEAH

I tag: @kawaiichurchburner @n-nazgul @thecolombianviking @dethernal @youwillneverbeoneofus @betteroffdead @vothari

[lighteningmccain]

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I got tagged by @pollypeaches to do this ask meme so here we go

Your last 1. drink: some flat dr pepper I had in the fridge >__> 2. phone call: Mom, but it turned out she was home so I hung up and went and spoke to her in person 3. text message: If messaging counts, Krista. If only texting texting counts, then I don’t have a clue 4. song you listened to: Merry-Go-Round of Life from Howl’s Moving Castle 5. time you cried: I think Monday? I was having a disagreement with my mom and I was crying out of a mixture of frustration and feelings of inadequacy

Have you ever 6. dated someone twice: Yes 7. kissed someone and regretted it: Yes 8. been cheated on: Nope 9. lost someone special: Yes. I’ve had people walk out of my life who I thought would stay forever but w/e, nothing lasts forever 10. been depressed: I have anxiety issues if that counts 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: Nooooooooope and I never plan to

3 favourite colours: Silver, light blue, lavander

In the last year have you 15. made new friends: Yes 16. fallen out of love: Not romantic love, no.  17. laughed until you cried: Yes 18. found out someone was talking about you: No, but I’m sure people have. That’s just the way the friend group is? It’s no skin off my teeth 19. met someone who changed you: No 20. found out who your friends are: I mean I think I already knew? Who the real MVPs of my life are? Though I guess I’ve been proven wrong before? 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: Does my mom count? I give her forehead and cheek kisses all the time lmao and my boyfriend doesn’t use facebook

General 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I only add people who 1. I know and 2. I like enough to see their posts 23. do you have any pets: I have four cats! Annie, Callie, Bernie, and Shadow. They’re all girls, even Bernie who my dad named after Bernie Sanders.  24. do you want to change your name: Idk, I’ve never actually liked my name or felt like it fits me? and I sorta hate when people say it to me? but I have no idea what might fit me better so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 25. what did you do for your last birthday: It was my 21st so my parents took me out to a reaaaaaally nice bar/restaurant and I had a drink that the bartender said was one of her own custom drinks and it tasted like strawberry lemonade kinda? and she said it had honey and mint in it too? and then she bought me my 2nd drink and it was a Perfect Lady and I was pretty buzzed at this point so I was really excited about it and it was really good but I couldn’t drink it all (I didn’t wanna get like. Drunk Drunk.) and we had popcorn made with pig fat for the oil and sea salt and brown sugar and I was Skeptical at first but it ended up tasting really good? It wasn’t greasy at all like I had expected. And my mom and I split the biggest steak I have ever seen in my life and even between the both of us we still only ate like half so I took it home. It was really nice. My hair was freshly done pink (which was my Big present) and then my mom gave me a necklace and an urban decay eyeshadow palate (and was Thoroughly Miffed that I was more excited about the eyeshadow than the jewelry) and my dad gave me lights for my tires??????? that I don’t even know if they are legal??????? I’ve never used them. And I bought an Urban Decay lipstick I had my eye on for a few months at Sephora so I could get my birthday gift. It was a nice day 26. what time did you wake up: Today? My sleep schedule is Fucked Up right now but I woke up at 9:00, went back to bed at like 10:30, and woke up again at 1:30 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Sleeping 28. name something you can’t wait for: School to start tbh so I can throw myself into it and Forgetti my Regretti 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: Like half an hour ago. I’m holed up in the quiet safety of my room. 31. what are you listening to right now: The sweet sound of silence 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I’m sure I’ve met a Tom somewhere? I think I have a guy on snapchat named Tim but tbh I don’t actually know him? He is/was? the friend of a friend and he asked me to add him so I did 33. something that is getting on your nerves: noise gets on my nerves real fast and my mom has been watching some stupid comedy show in the living room lately so I’ve been holed up in my room most of the summer, which she’s not happy about? She’s also been nagging me to get a job, but I’m going to try to get a position on campus when school starts and I’m not gonna get a job for a month and then quit? and I’m not gonna have two jobs and go to school full time if I don’t have to bc having one job + school is hard enough. So instead of spending money and going out, I’ve been chilling at home. But now she’s upset that I’m “living in my room” and not getting out and doing things? but it’s not like, a huge deal or anything. 34. most visited website: Tumblr 35. hair colour: Pink, but it’s pretty faded and my roots are growing in. I’m either gonna dye the already-bleached parts pink again or maybe just dye the whole thing black so I can get that Emo Kid Aesthetic. In the year 2017. 36. long or short hair: Short 37. do you have a crush on someone: Nope 38. what do you like about yourself: I’m pretty considerate and compassionate to others (though it might be to a bit of an unhealthy degree bc I tend to be a People Pleaser at my own expense but yanno) 39. piercings: Noooooooooooooooooo. No. Not happening. 40. blood type: I actually don’t know 41.nickname: Partybus 42. relationship status: Taken ;0 43. zodiac: Taurus 44. pronouns: She/Her 45. favourite tv show: I liked Death Parade a lot? and I love nostalgic shows like InuYasha and Yu-Gi-Oh 47. right or left handed: Right 48. surgery: Only minor ones 49. sport: I have the coordination of an intoxicated newborn giraffe on ice skates, but I run pretty fast and I’ve always liked Baseball? 50. vacation: I’d like to go to Las Vegas again, the last time my family went was a lot of fun. I’m not particularly interested in gambling but I like walking around all the casinos and seeing the sights. I especially love the mall in Ceaser’s Palace where it looks outdoor? I could spend hours in that mall 51. pair of trainers: What

More General 53. eating: I just finished a grilled cheese :0 54. drinking: <__< I should probably get some more water but I’m lazy af 55. i’m about to: t b h keep scrolling tumblr, but I need to reply to a rp and finish an art collab that I’m 2/3rds done lining 57. want: The end of suffering, but yanno, that’s not gonna happen. 58. get married: Someday I’d like to 59. career: I want to go into research

Which is Better 60. hugs or kisses: Hugs 61. lips or eyes: Eyes 62. shorter or taller: Doesn’t matter to me 63. older or younger: I’d prefer right about my age but if I had to pick I’d pick older 64. nice arms or nice stomach: Does it really matter? But I guess if I had to pick one I’d say nice arms 65. hook up or relationship: Relationship. I’ve got Anxiety regarding relationships and intimacy and if someone wants to hook up with me, they need to know me well enough to understand that and work with me while I beat my brain into submission with a wooden rod, and at that point they’re probably already Relationship Compatible with me, you know? 66. troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant

Have You Ever 67. kissed a stranger: No 68. drank hard liquor: Yes 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: Do sunglasses count? 70. turned someone down: Yep. 71. sex on the first date: No 72. broken someone’s heart: Yes .-. Several people’s. I’m good at that 73. had your heart broken: Only by close friends, but it still stings the same 74. been arrested: No. I’m a good noodle 75. cried when someone died: Yes 76. fallen for a friend: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 77. yourself: Most of the time 78. miracles: I really want to believe 79. love at first sight: NO NOPE NO love at first sight is a Giant Red Flag if you ask me 80. santa claus: I want to believe LMAO 81. kiss on the first date: Yes 82. angels: I’m not sure

OTHER: 83. current best friend’s name: Sandi :0 we’ve been best friends for a looong time? I think we met in Freshman year? 84. eye colour: Blue 85. favourite movie: I’m still a sucker for the Iron Man movies ugh I love them

I’m gonna tag @randomhatthief @chloekat1things @dontdropthe27 @d4zed-dre4mer and @sweetc0re if she ever comes online again lmao

[heungtanbts]

re·al·i·za·tion

noun

The moment of sudden clarity when feelings are finally recognized, or are made aware for the first time.

It hit you on a Wednesday evening while you were at the gym as per usual. School was killing you, but you were determined to stick with your workout schedule, even if it meant sleeping an hour less or watching one less episode of your current favorite kdrama. Just exactly why were you so passionate about working out?

Ding!

[7:33PM] Jeon: If you’re not here in 5 minutes then YOU owe ME all you can eat KBBQ. 

Ding! 

[7:33PM] Jeon: AND ice cream.

It was as simple as that – you just couldn’t, wouldn’t, lose this bet with Jeon Jungkook. 

It was dumb how this all even started. It was during the most recent New Year’s party where you unknowingly vowed for the 3rd year in a row that your new year’s resolution would be to get fit. Everyone held their glasses up to that with encouraging shouts and cheers, except for one individual, who instead, just scoffed openly, shaking his head at you.

“Y/N, this is literally the 3rd year in a row you’ve made that same resolution. Either pick a new one or actually stick with it this time." 

You let out an offended gasp, slamming your champagne glass down on the table as you drunkenly waggled a finger at him, nearly sticking your finger up his nose. 

"Now ho-hold on just a s-second there, Jeon.” You drunkenly spat, “I could- I can totally stick to my resolution this year.”

“I’d like to see you try.” He rolled his eyes, taking another sip of his beer as he casually leaned against the kitchen countertop. 

“Wanna bet?" 

The rest was history.

It was only by some sort of supernatural phenomenon that you and Jungkook had grown up as childhood friends, seeing as though the two of you were nearly polar opposites. But you and Jungkook had at least one thing in common – you both hated losing. You’d make bets on everything, like who could bike to the end of the block the fastest, or how long it’d take for the traffic light to turn green, or how many steps it’d take to get from the dining hall to the library. But one of the many things you didn’t have in common was fitness level. He wasn’t called the muscle pig for nothing, and his dedication to his one true love aka the gym truly showed in his impressively toned and muscular physique. But you weren’t about to let his perfectly developed muscles deter you from taking on this bet, even with your complete lack of stamina and coordination. You just had to prove to him that this time would be different.

[7:35PM] You: I’ve been here waiting for YOU, you brat. You should owe me KBBQ just for being late.

"I’ve definitely been waiting here longer than you have.”

Hearing that familiarly annoying voice of his, you turned around with a automatic eye roll, your hands resting on your hips in disapproval. He stood there in his typical white cut out muscle tank and black adidas track pants, his body already covered in a light sheen of sweat from his warm up, bits of his dark locks sticking to his glistening forehead and the sides of his face. The girls nearby were probably drooling over him from a distance and whining about your presence next to him. But you didn’t care, he was just your dumb best friend and personal trainer, aka the person who made sure you stuck to your resolution and wasn’t afraid to call you out if you didn’t. 

“Yeah yeah, whatever you say Jeon. Let’s just get to it already, I have a new episode of Goblin waiting for me at home.” You waved a hand at him carelessly.

He flashed that trademark smirk of his at you, “Man, those are some wild plans you’ve got later tonight.” 

"Just shut up and help me set up the squat rack.” You grumbled, storming over to the weights closely followed by Jungkook’s haughty laughter. It was obvious just how much joy it brought him to piss you off, so much in fact that it made a lot of people to think that you two were a thing. But you were certain that the both of you knew that that would never happen. It was Jeon Jungkook for crying out loud, the infamous muscle pig, that dumb 3rd grader who pulled your hair until you agreed to become friends with him and still bugs you to this day – freaking Jeon Jungkook.

“You know, I’m impressed.” Jungkook mused while setting up the weights on the bar, “It’s been 3 months already and you’ve actually been consistent with working out the whole time." 

"Damn straight I have,” You asserted, beaming proudly. “You better get your wallet ready ‘cause I’m about to eat my body weight in KBBQ.”

Jungkook scrunched his nose in disgust, “So ladylike. Also, it’s all you can eat so I only have to pay once, dummy.”

“Whatever,” You shooed him away, setting yourself up in front of the bar, “I’ll make sure to pick the nicest, most expensive place to eat at then. Now let me squat in peace so I can hurry up and go see my husband at home." 

"Who, Gong Yoo?" 

"Who else?”

Jungkook just snorted and shook his head again, giving your cheek a playful pinch as he swiftly dodged your slap and made his way to the free weights nearby. At least now you were at the point where you could workout by yourself without him watching your every move like he used to at the beginning. When you had started out 3 months ago, you had no clue how to squat with proper form, how to rack the weights, or even how to open your locker in the locker room. It was a rough first month of him breathing down your neck (quite literally at times), counting out each rep and each set with that drill sergeant voice of his that you were beginning to despise. But even though you hated to admit it, Jungkook turned out to be a much better teacher than you had expected. That normally impatient muscle pig was actually very patient with you and gave you a lot of helpful constructive criticism, not counting the snarky jokes about your form he’d crack every now and then. It was easy to hate him whenever he made you do an extra set of abs or was super nitpicky about your squatting form. But without him, you definitely wouldn’t have been able to make it this far in the past 3 months and seen these kinds of results. He was your annoying best friend and personal trainer, but still surprisingly helpful and encouraging.

You began your normal rep of squats as per usual, having increased your weights since your last workout. And of course it was hard, but you were beginning to see why people like Jungkook were so obsessed with exercising. There was something so accomplishing about being able to lift heavier weights or squeeze in one more set you used to not be able to even imagine doing. Plus it wasn’t too bad of a feeling to hear Jungkook shouting across from the gym “Ayo, look at her go! Come on Y/N!” After all, even though both of you would never admit it to the other, you both knew that as your best friend, he wanted you to not only win this bet, but also become healthier. That twerp actually cared about you and your well-being, he’d just rather die than admit it.

“Come on now, lower, lower. Atta girl.” A voice in your ear chanted, bringing you out of your thoughts and back to reality. With a grunt, you straightened your knees and placed the bar back onto its rack, shaking out each one of your legs as Jungkook stepped around the bar to face you.

“Well damn, your form is nearly perfect now, if I do say so myself.”

“You say that as if you were the one squatting.” You scoffed back at him.

“Hey, don’t forget, I made you,” He jutted a thumb at his chest cockily, “Your form would be nothing without your number 1 personal trainer by your side.”

You barked out a laugh of disbelief, “You’re being just a bit too modest here. Why don’t you correct my form just a little more, hmm?" 

He cheekily grinned at you, "Why, it’d be my pleasure.”

“What about my form?" 

Both of your heads turned in the direction of the high-pitched voice that interrupted your conversation, coming from the squat rack next to the one you were using. All you saw was a pair of hot pink yoga capris, a tight black workout tank, long straight hair tied up in a perfectly smooth ponytail, and a pair of large doe-like eyes blinking innocently at the both of you. She had a toned, lean body and stood confidently with her hands on her hips, her eyes completely glued to the tall male hovering next to you.

"Are you talking to me?” Jungkook pointed his thumb at himself again, only this time, without the slightest hint of cockiness. He was in utter shock, and you were right with him. Though he was popular among the ladies, he was always too afraid to interact with them and they also almost never approached him first either. You’d always tease him about this, given that he was literally almost twice their size more than half the time, and he’d just get super embarrassed and tell you to shut up. But this time, with a coy nod of her head in reply, he hesitantly made his way over to her, somehow looking both confident and terrified at the same time. But you knew he was definitely panicking on the inside.

You just shrugged it all off with a small chuckle at the thought of him inwardly freaking out about this whole situation, and instead, set up for your next rep of squats. But just as you lifted the bar onto your shoulders, ready to bend your knees and engage those thighs, his voice had you frozen in your position.

“You feel it where when you squat? No no, you should be feeling it in these areas.” You looked over and watched as Jungkook carefully explained to the girl the different muscle groups used during squats. But that wasn’t what had you cemented in your place. He looked so serious and focused as he continued to explain, like the gym rat and nerdy coach he was, but your eyes were focused on the way his fingers slightly brushed over the tops of her thighs and then made their way to the back of her thighs where he gently poked at her muscles there. His hand then trailed up her thigh to her lower back where it paused for a second, only to make its way to the front of her hip where he discussed the importance of keeping a neutral back. 

“So you want to engage your hamstrings, quads, and gluts without straining your back. Does that make sense?" 

She nodded but still had a perplexed look on her perfectly made-up face, "Can you check to see if I’m doing this right?”

With just the bar and no weights, she performed a squat, sticking her butt out in a slow, exaggerated motion. It was so slow and exaggerated that you couldn’t take it anymore. You knew when someone had a legitimate question about form and this definitely wasn’t one. Not when she was asking him to physically point out the muscle groups on her body again, and not when she clearly looked like she knew what she was doing. The fact that she would pretend to be a beginner just to get Jungkook’s attention was so absurd, so petty, and without even realizing it, it had your blood boiling. You didn’t even know why you wanted to rip his hands off of her and drag him back to your squat rack but you just did.

Suddenly the sound of metal weights clanking onto the floor had you squealing and jumping back in surprise, only for you to realize that you were the one that dropped the weights. The entire gym suddenly stopped what they were doing to stare at you and your predicament, including Jungkook and the stupid hot pink yoga pants girl. Embarrassment began to settle as a pink flush on your cheeks, but it only took Jungkook half a second to completely forget about the girl and rush over to your squat rack, grabbing onto your forearms with urgency.

“Holy crap, are you ok?!” He abruptly pulled you towards him, his eyes frantically scanning your entire body for any injuries, “Y/N, you know better than to just let go of weights like that. Hell, you even increased weights since the last workout! You seriously could’ve broken your foot or something! Are you stupid?!” The usual playfulness in his eyes was no longer there, completely replaced with concern and simmering anger bursting from within his irises, so intense it was almost more startling than the piercing sound of the weights crashing on the ground.

Dazed and disoriented, you stared up at him, your lips trembling, “I-I’m fine, really. I’m sorry, I just zoned out for a second and I-I don’t even know what happened-" 

"Jungkook-sshi?" 

The same girl called to him, subtly trying to get his attention again, but just the sound of her voice was enough to make your stomach churn. Why were you feeling this way? Why did his name leaving her lips make you feel so sick to the stomach? Why did the thought of him turning around at this very moment to go back to her side make you want to crawl into a hole and bury yourself alive?

But surprisingly enough and to your utter relief, he did the complete opposite. Taking your hand into his, he suddenly pulled you in the other direction, leaving the girl to call out to him again, only for him to ignore her completely.

"Whoa,” You nearly tripped over your own foot but he didn’t let up in speed, “Where are you taking me?”

“To the mats so you can lie down and I can check your body more thoroughly.” He mumbled in a low voice, never once turning around to face you, “Freaking idiot, you could’ve really hurt yourself, you know that? God, that scared me so bad. Like what if something actually happened to you? I swear, you’re going to be the death of me…”

It hit you on a Wednesday evening while you were at the gym as per usual. Seeing him with another girl, dropping the weights as a result, and scaring the life out of both you and Jungkook was definitely not a normal part of your workout schedule. But you also hadn’t expected to be hit with such a huge revelation on such a random, ordinary day like this. With Jungkook pulling you along and muttering profanities under his breath to hide the concern in his voice, you realized something that was both petrifying and eye opening.

Jeon Jungkook meant more to you than you had thought – so much more than you had thought.