#i rlly havent been all that active because of it :/

[dullahandyke]

didnt even touch on the sandra lynn stuff int he tags of the last post bcos if i talk about her im liable to explode. get behind me, middle-aged divorced woman proficient in archery

[si0writes]

just updated my dni/byf for my 'normal' account (which just so happens to be my art account that I've had since 2018) to include to dni if you attack ppl over fictional content including proshippers, selfshippers etc. so nervous to possibly lose mutuals over this, wish me luck when I officially announce the changes tomorrow so that those who already follow me can see it :((

in saying this, if any proshippers/comshippers want a new art account to follow... (cobrartss.carrd.co) i would love to have some new mutals over there!!

[cynicalundead]

it's lowkey kinda hard to deal with being the host of my system ngl

like before when I was I was kinda in my element yk? most of my existence was protecting us from my stepmom and dissociating. but now I'm a whole ass adult? and I have to manage a job? and a life?? and my SYSTEM??? WHICH IS A MESS BTW??

it's so hard I'm honestly kinda exhausted. thank god for escapism and women. don't know where I'd be without either. as much as it's cool to not be preoccupied with survival all the time it's kinda hard to do stressful adult stuff that takes considerably more effort than just sitting around being mistreated. can't wait for my vacation at the end of this month so I can actually relax for a few days

[damagedcoda6669]

Hey Lucifer, i'm sorry I am telling you this since ik you and Al are close, but that's exactly why i'm telling you this...

As you know, Al used to be in birdie drama spaces, and he still is, but just under an alt.

Remember the borderline 12 drama? Al made that happen to see how the public would react since he is planning bigger things. He wants to see how fast your "fans" will turn on you, and he wanted to see how many would defend you. He knew doing the borderline 12 thing would get you in trouble, he even was surprised with how well it went considering YOU posted it when he actually wanted to post it on his account and mention you drew it.

I know this since i'm also in birder drama servers, but I just think Al is taking it too far...

He is truly playing the long game and trying to solidify your trust within him so that those leaks that are happening cannot be traced back to him. Al has truly formed an attachment to you, but not in a good way.

That borderline 12 drama was also to test your loyalty to him and it worked since you believed that he meant no harm when all he truly did mean was to harm you. You may think Al is genuine and would never, but just try to analyze a few of his messages pertaining to birder drama.... that's all i'm going to allude to because I don't want him to know who i am. I don't want him to doxx me.

I will say, Al does share a lot of interests with you and he does find you fun to be around, but that's because he sees you as a toy instead of a person.

Just- please be careful with Al, he is betraying you behind closed doors and PLEASE don't listen to him when he says all the anon's are lying, they are just scared of him finding out because right now he is really favored in birdie drama spaces since he infiltrated you so well.

Ik you might not believe me since i said I was in birdie drama spaces and i will admit, i do talk bad about you.... However, I never leaked anything nor have I been involved in what Al has been doing. I am mainly a lurker and to gain trust in the birder servers I just regurgitate the hate everyone else has for you. I feel really guilty, which is why i'm writing you this.

Other's have spoken out in anon asks on your moraltonz account, and Al was really upset with them and tried doxxing them to get them out of the birdie servers he's in so his plans don't get foiled by them, since he knows you get paranoid easily. Al is really worried about you finding out about him, so I'm hoping you get to this ask.

You may believe it's people trying to ruin you Lucifer, but other asks that pretty much imply it's birdie haters was just a tactic used to try to get the people truly coming forward to be discreditable.

Also, read my username and think back to all the birdie drama and all the people involved. I won't say too much, but I hope you can get what I am alluding to. If not, it's ok.

TLDR;

PLEASE BE CAREFUL WITH AL, LUCIFER. Please.

It's disheartening what Al is doing to you, with all the leaks, with the ploys, with how he talks about you, and just with everything he is doing.

Al has not stopped interacting in birdie drama spaces, he lied to you.

I truly think Synni is your only friend, because even though she used to be in birdie spaces, I don't think she has an alt.

I'm sorry i'm telling you all of this considering how close you and Al are, I really am sorry he is doing this to you. /gen

the lengths u guys go 2 2 try 2 induce my paranoia/delusions n turn me against ppl u dont know is crazy. if this is true, if u actually cared abt me, use ur main. say it 2 my face. give me evidence. ALSO ADMITTING U SHITTALK ME AND ACTIVELY PARTICIPATE IN BIRDIE DRAMA SERVERS IS CRAAAZY. I AM NOT GOING 2 LISTEN 2 A WORD U SAY, U R JUST ADMITTING 2 BEING A BAD PERSON. if u feel sooooo guilty, why r u still there? if al was rlly leaking shit in these spaces, scs and evidence wouldve gotten back 2 me by now. itd have spread online and id be able 2 see artwork n images that i havent sent 2 anyone besides them. also??? stop misgendering them??? weird ass

anyway yeah, good lie, u fabricated an interesting story, but gimme some proof. gimme gimme i want those discord scs that dont exist *rubs my hands 2gether nefariously*

heh u dont know this but.. jotaro is leaking everything

[kisscara]

dewd i wasnt planning on coming back today i was just looking for a pfp HELP um saur hii... i think the fandom on tumblr is pretty dead idek myself bcs i havent been on here in ages. but i am okay !!! (hopefully el oh el)

it doesn't matter if ppl see this or not i js wanted to let u guys knowww. (more utc)

i miss writing like a lot. it js sucks because smut gets all the recognition 24/7 so yaa... i stick to google docs lately n lowkey forgot abt tumblr. but i'll see if i make a writing comeback xx

sorry to all of the mutuals i abandoned asw :c my mental n physical health has been on and off. plus im a high school freshman neow. its second semester atm. but sigh. this makes me nostalgic n sad im nglll

i love u guys always !!!

until then, idk if i'll come back on this platform to post my works. it's kind of like wattpad for me. i wrote on wattpad for a few years, gave up on it and migrated to tumblr. except this time i didn't write anywhere else besides google docs lolll

so yh. :( i love u all sosososo much. thank u for making my tumblr experience super welcoming and amazing overall. u guys helped me cope through more than u know. thank u for appreciating my writing.

rn, i don't think i'll return to writing. it rlly depends on how i feel about how active the fandom for scara is bcs its a little draining to be constantly writing for barely anybody anymore.

i know most authors write for themselves, but i like doing it for myself as well as others so that they also get to enjoy my interests; iykyk.

but i write a ton on my own time, and it's so nice to have it to myself asw. besides that, thanks to all of u 1.2k so much.

hearts, myst.

[yenqa]

10 QUESTIONS FOR U - enhablrinas edition get it bc tumblrina + enhablr

favorite color of themes?

moot with best theme?

you can send a love letter to anyone. fictional/idols/celebs. who?

which moot is most active? which moot do you barely ever run into but LOVE?

most rizzful mutual? do you flirt with ur moots?

favorite petnames/nicknames? giving or recieving?

have you ever had an online crush? (or on a moot GASP)

ever been involved in drama?

do u keep up with tumblr drama?

be honest. how many times have u swapped biases? no judgement here :D

were u here for the insaneness that was lockdown enhablr?

MIA moot u want to comeback?

ur fave fic or smau that gagged u when u read it? seungstarss BET was the end of the fucking world for me I WAS DISTRAUGHT oddeonu too grrrr the ptsd fuckkkk too there was someone m1ngh8o or smtg idk w this jungwon smau and it KILLLED MEEE he was yns roommate and always so fucking rude and his gf was legit cheating on him but he didn't leave her. gf made moves on his bff jake too who liked reader. slowburns where the main lead is an ass rlly annoy me but i also will them the shit up bc i luv angst and toxicity :DDD

are you close w ur moots? do u have any on socials?

what is ur biggest ick to see on tumblr?

words u find urself repeating too much? words u love using?

any enhablr inside jokes ur part of?

ever been featured in a moots fic?

have u ever dreamt of enhypen?

ur favorite enha pc u want rlly badly?

DRINK WATER + YOU ARE LOVED <3

thank you so much for sending an ask!! i love these weirdly specific questions! moots so sorry if youre tagged multiple times

1. i lovee pink or like neutral colored themes because i love when themes are super minimalistic !!

2. i love @okwonyo @byhees and @soov ‘s themes!! they always eat down and i use them for inspo sometimes ^_^

3. obviously, would send a love letter to my beautiful boyfriend park jongseong

4. okay idrk most active but i see @flwrstqr on my feed a bunch!! and i lovee talking to @boyfhee on the rare occasion we do talk T^T

5. guys this is all about mutuals but i literally have like two i talk to 😭 but most rizzful is @voikiraz my queen mari <3

6. my name “yen” is a nickname that just stuck with me for tumblr so probably that! but i love saying babe but i can only say that online

7. no 😭 i honestly dont think i could ever have an online crush

8. in real life no! on tumblr…

9. i want to but im so out of the loop 😭😭 @yeokii keeps me up to date though!

10. for enhypen,,, like three times… at first it was heeseung, then sunghoon, then jay!!

11. sadly no!! i joined in like summer of 2022 (happy two year anniversary!)

12. i actually am so bad at remembering my moots. like i have to interact with them to remember them so no so sorry 😭

13. OH MY GOD ODDEONUS SMAUS. but theres this one heeseung smau called “reality check!” i forgot the author, ALSO @amakumos go figure! OH MY GODD STUCK WITH ME FOREVER I DONT CARE ITS DISCONTINUED. also one more. “the language of flowers” by @soobnny GOD KILL ME NOW I LOVE THAT SMAU.

14. i am close with a couple of them!! i have @yeokii @wvnkoi and @jennaissantes on insta and a bunch of moots on discord!

15. people who dont reblog about gaza.. no matter the account size..

16. i use “LMFAO” a lot because its the only way i laugh ERMM and recently ive been calling people just “boy” or “girl” LMFAO

17. uh none! its okay though i am #antisocial girl

18. i have!! check out @yeokii ‘s upcoming smau “love glitch” guys (and upcoming maybe @soov smau *cough* tdwp *cough*🤫)

19. thank GOD i havent 🙏

20. JAY PEACH PC ONE DAY I WILL GET MY HANDS ON U. also sunghoon glasses pc in romance untold 😵‍💫😵‍💫

anyways… thank u so much for sending me these questions!!

[cwcthzl]

codependent stozier. not ‘they always hang out’ codependency,, like actual toxic codependency. they havent been apart for more than twenty four hours in years and when they r their mental state deteriorates. they keep their distinctive personalities but they know each other so well that they become two halves of one person. if one isnt there the other is incomplete. they never even start dating bc it doesnt seem like ‘the next step’ , by the time they would start dating they r alr much past that point.

when they r still in school living w their parents the nights that werent predestined sleepovers somehow became mornings w both of them waking up in the same bed , getting ready together , going to school together.

facetime is like a saving grace when they have to be apart. their longest streak is like 51 hours or something,, like they leave it on overnight and sneak it into events they shouldnt. whenever one of them gets in trouble and gets their phone taken away they use one of the other losers phones and drains their battery.

they r each others main source of self control esp concerning their self destructive tendencies,, and like facetime cant rlly do much for that when they r apart so. mostly bc richie is clingy as hell he loves physical touch. stan also finds touch super comforting but he is v picky w the ppl he lets touch him otherwise he freaks out. i think all the losers r on his list but richie is like i said a clingy bitch so usually its just richie sprawled all over him constantly.

soz i turn all my favorite relationships obsessive and codependent idk what that says about me. im just in general a fan of codependent losers but i feel like stozier is just a tiny bit closer than the rest of them. also im a serial fem stozier fem losers girl so i usually picture this w them as girls

sorry it took long to rely i just had so much to say!!!

getting to end and finding out you were imagining them as girls was the best of this because oh my GOD stacy and rachel were attached at the hip and no one can tell me otherwise

they are so dependent on each other it's insane. they have each other's clothes, blankets, plushies, toothbrushes and cds at both houses. they basically live with each other without moving out, and it became such a normal thing that they don't even need to text their parents to inform them they're gonna sleep over at the other's. they need to be in each other's presence, they need to because no one else can balance them like they balance each other. if one of them is inhaling, the other is exhaling in exchange because they're like that. they are the same breath, same mind and without the other it's almost like missing an arm and a leg.

they didn't feel the need to date, because they were already something more fucked up than that, not friends or lovers but more of a secret third thing.

they just have to feel the other in any type of way, whether it's by facetime, call, in person, anything. they will fuck up others' phones if they have to, if it means getting to talk to each other.

because they're mostly opposites in every way and they just can't it without the other. stan lets richie know when to shut up and richie urges stan to talk when it's the moment, stan notifying richie when he's about to go too far for a joke and richie cackling every time stan does one to encourage him and because it's funny, stan getting richie to get used to quiet times and richie getting stan to open up to more energy required activities. they just- ugh they

BEING EACH OTHER'S SELF CONTROL. YES. they understand each other so well that they can tell when the other is gonna get triggered, or gonna trigger themselves, and they just soothe each other before that happens. richie is a sucker for physical touch, and stan knows how and where to touch him to make him feel safer. he will push richie's hands in his hair because he knows richie likes the feeling and softness of them as he wraps his arms around richie and let him lay on his chest. richie knows when to not touch stan, but sometimes it's best to hold him close and just ramble in his ear about his favorite birds.

GAJSHJAS yeah richie is touching him all the time. in one way or another.

and sigh.... me too chat me too..... there's jst something abt them......

[gayspock]

SORRY MY READ MORE DIDNTWORK

so heres the thing yeah

ive been wanting more civilian content. however with this ep i feel like... whenever bsg does actually DO try to do it... i dont like it. LOL.

granted, its not often enough for me to really make a call on it ubt like- i dont know. im thinking of this instance, and the other instances they've involved civilian issues and like... i just have always kinda not vibed with it and..

honestly? you KNOW what i think it might be. i think it might be a case of like... i just feel like the show itself ironically has a bit of a disdain for them. do you know what i mean? i feel like when we do get to see the civilian side of things, its always as either as an a) aside to the main show or b) an inconvenience, and rarely an interesting one - not something it actually wants to explore in much depth. all the people that show up are kind of weird caricatures. the problems they bring up are kind of belittled - and not just by ppl like tigh, but kind of written off by the show itself.

which again- i call ironic because half the time theyre trying to emphasise the importance of the civilian fleet and their rights. but like... the show doesnt really take them that seriously? or present them as such???? like i think zarek is also kind of like the bigger example im thinking of here, and one of the weaker parts of the show. he's pretty much representative of all of the issues with them.

though granted OMG that- that fr sounds like im being negative as hell but gosh it might just be this episode because real talk i havent rlly actively disliked any (i found that one where ellen was introduced weird, but i didnt hate it) but oh this one sucks LOL

and again going back to that thing i said- its not even about the damn civilians. this is like.... all about apollo, really?? and going on a little side quest with him that hardly makes sense?? and can i be real? i dont HATE him i dont but like... i just dont give a shit about him. LOL. SORRY. i think i liked him in the miniseries but since then i havent really cared. he's boring me. and shit- i thought maybe, after he was vented into space, i might kind of develop an interest in him as he struggled with the fallout from that but like uhm

no ... sorry...... this is not how you endear me to him. LOL.

like what even is this... why are we giving him all these women to screw & screw over... i dont care.... and again this whole civilian plot is stupid as helllllll... like. i BELIEVE fully there's horrible shit going on in the civilian fleet- and i wanna see it properly, and explore that not like.. go on some weird murder mystery, involved with the mob... 😭and why did you kill the other pegasus bloke. i kinda liked him . THIS IS SUCH A SHAME I USUALLY LOVE IT WHEN A SHOW LIKE THIS TRIES TO GENREBEND . AND AGAIN WHY IS LEE EVEN THE ONE DOING THIS HELP THIS IS SO MESSY

especiaalllyyyy with the dodgy attempts at flash forward/flash backwards and the filters. sorry i HATE poorly used flash sequences like that - they for real give me the ick... theyre sooo clumsy even normally but here it's like 100x worse bc half of them are about nothinggggggggggg .... stop trying to be cleverrr come on you dont have to do that. kiss me instead?

bu tbh i feel like bsg might just not have the flexibility to genre bend like this. going back to that other episode i didnt like (tigh me up, tigh me down? i think?) i remember i felt like they were trying to be funny but it just came off as weird LOL and poorly done

and thats fine tbh it doesnt have to beit can just do what it does best and do it well but omg help... guyyssssss, get a grip!

anyway im gonna go finih the spidoe i just couldnt not say anything help. honestly. i cant even fault it though because like this is the first one i havent rlly liked at all . and tbh most other shows ive watched will have a load of clunkers so eh. shrug.

i will say i do hope they properly explore lee more after this bc like i said i was kinda interested in really honing in his mental state so we can get #real with the guy but i also hope we dont have to carry too much of whatever the hell else is going on here forward bc its like i dont careeee about his women why on earth

like also yeah why on earth has none of this ever come up like ok granted we dont just sit everyone down and chat like that but it just feels weird like im not talking abt his sudden shift in attitude like fuck.again i'd be ok with them exploring like. onset depression or whateber the issues are post being vented from the blackbird .BUT his girlies im so confused like if he has such a significant relationship whys it just never...... ok whatever....... ok

[weaponsdrawn]

hi all i havent been active on tumblrm uch because im tired and sometimes tumblr is rlly bad for my mental health sorry moots but i just wont be logging on a lot and again sorry abouth that so yea 

[carnivorouslove]

For the F/Os you've been reblogging recently! 💖 - Does your f/o have any artistic talents? 🍌 - What is your f/o’s favourite snack? 🧡 - How long have you known your f/o? How close are you both? 💛 - Does your f/o have any special activities they do with you?

idk anything about them so also feel free to thrown in some fun facts too if you want ^^

this is probably gonna be rlly long but omg thank you for sending this 💕

💖 - they all do in different ways which is very fun!!!! charlie draws and makes music, so hes by far the most artistic out of the bunch bc hes pretty much always drawing. mac also makes music!!! but his is guitar while charlies is piano. and dennis writes!!!! he writes uhhh weird ass stories tbh akdjskdjjdjd but i love him for it

🍌 - this is SO funny because charlies favorite snacks, canonly, are paint and chalk. hes so fucking strange i love him so much. macs favorite is probably like, protein bars or something, and i dont think dennis has one...? unless alcohol counts aksjskdjjd

🧡- ive known them for years!!! i started watching their show (its always sunny in philadelphia) in like 2017, but i havent known i was ficto and considered them fos until like mid to late 2022!!!! i consider myself very close with all three of them because ive known them for so long and i really really adore them!!!

💛- yes!!! me and charlie like to draw together for sure. mac tries to get me to work out but i cant due to disability so he settles for having me talk with him while He works out (kinda weird but kinda cute!!!) and dennis and i love to play games of any kind together. hes not competitive with me like he usually is so its a rare moment of authenticity for him, and a rare moment of vulnerability whenever i win.

[999moreyears]

ok so when did chip become a corpse. what even happened in riptide after like epidisode 80

so basically after goobleck/the doctor shit they turn apple back into her normal form it was actually finn tidestrider but hes asleep for like forevwr so they put him in a bathtub!

then felipe pulls out a card from the deck of many things and it makes him hate gillion, and actively try and kill/harm him but its magic shit so he dosent rlly wanna.. then he pulls a card that gives him a shit load of money and then he pulls a card that sends him to hell. like actual hell.

then theyre like "eh well find him later"(they still havent yet) and chip pulls a card that gives him money and like basically a house. (or that might have been earlier that he got it? idk) anddd chip and gillion take out 10000000 loans from the . sea bank or whatever they were called and they fight them so they keep the money but either way they lost a shit load of it.

then they meet the jazz pirates and they get some funky shit from them . as in an allarm thong for when gillion throws their money into the sea.

then they go to the sea mart and get kick ass new gear and they made jay put her hair down :( then they go find old man earl making sooo much money has he has bitches like crazy on his juice business but hes bored so he joins the crew again to find the one peice fruit lol

then they make their way to bead bath and beyond . and start making their way to the black sea and take a reast at a . fuckin island but gillion gets scratched by kuba kenta . and jays navy school buddy Kira is there.

THEN because finn is back they start trying to wake him up and gillion goes into his mind and its bubbles and hes in like. a loop or whatever but he starts waking up because the fucking. sleepy bubble curse is broken. idk i forget

THEN they go back to Zero(the island it started on and where they got ollie) and then they bring him home but his mom is in a hospital thats being tormented by a gang and they start fucking them up to leave them alone but . actually i forget the plotline of that part in particular..

then they meet ensa whos fighting chips house that he got from the deck of many things. and they all fight the house and its like wiw it's his !! he lets her stay and she nakes a teleporter from between the ship and the house . they leave ollie with his mom and ensa then they gooooo to help gillion.

then gillion has a freaky nightmare that lasts a whole episode..

then they make their way to jays mom she helps them but the tree that her familys magic is based on is like fading and jays mom and dad have marrige issues and they hide in her attack while a navy search goes through. then they leave.

then jays dad is there and they fight or whatever and they find lizzie and such and she and jay talk and lizzie saw ava killed by the navy and that they were kinda like friends and one sided romance core... idk. jays like "wtf." and chip is like the man in the middle trying to settle their argument. then they leave and its like Woah.

then they make their way back to where the bed bath and beyond was so they can go to the black sea and thats why slimecicle made jort storm .(song) and ..... yeahthen they see chips wife but she dosent know its him cuz of the crews disguises...

then theyre in the black sea and shit then they go to thos big . castle whatevwr and theres Lore and shit over how the black sea was before. then they fight this crew and chip gets killed by this captian spider woman whatever . but hes still alive but she takes his heart out and she Still Has It. btw.

then she becomes a cocoon or smrhn like that and chip goes in and then niklaus is there and takes chips heart.

then theres gay marrige and then they find out that caspian probably works for the navy or at least someone on lizzies crew and so jay goes back because theyre getting ready to hold a big surprise attack against the navy except the navy knows.

thats the very summerized version. it all hurts. i have a headache. my hand is asleep. i almostcried while writing this cuz theres so much. my eyes hurt.

[jewpacabruhs]

I genuinely wish it were possible to scroll through the kyman tag for more than five minutes without encountering hate. Like, I hey people being uncomfortable with the ship and disliking it, but they don't have to go out of their way to be mean and tag their hate? I find it kind of funny when it's people like the guys who made the microceleb au who say the most demented vile shit on a daily basis (cool, it's south park) but are so childishly malicious and prudish about kyman? Like, this is south park tumblr, we are all in the circus together

i know right :( honestly... i dont wanna get into ship morality discourse, but my general thought on that is we've strayed far too far from a good ol 'this thing squicks me out, im gonna avoid it and focus on what i like' mentality. remember 'dont like, dont read' from the fanfic dot net days? we need that back. i have a handful of ships that make me very deeply uncomfortable - yknow what i do? i block the tag and i dont think about it ever bc its not worth my time. maybe if i run into smth ill complain in private, but im not gonna waste time policing other ppl's fandom experience when there's much more important stuff going on in the world. i think problematic ship discourse is one of the silliest, most chronically online things in the world. like you said - it's south park, greg. fandom is meant to be a fun hobby, and a lot of people have turned it into a miserable and extremely puritan lifestyle. curate ur fandom experience, keep it fun, dont dwell on negative bullshit . best advice i can give.

as for this microceleb au thing, i had to google it cuz i have no idea what the hell ur talkin abt fsdjkfd. i am so fantastically out of loop w the sp fandom - and thank g-d, honestly. im still fond of south park and cartman & kyman are still in my all-time fav characters + ships, but as a south park fandom veteran, lemme tell you - this is one of the most... bizarre fandoms ive been in, let's say that. i was gonna say worst, but that's simply not true, because there's a lot of really great talent and i have a tremendous amount of respect and fondness for a lot of rlly wonderful creative artists n writers ive had the pleasure of knowing. but there's like... a culture thats specific to the sp fandom, thats just a bit... rancid. my sp fixation seems to be recurrent, but if i ever come back im gonna tread the fandom carefully cuz its just very easy to get sucked into nonsense. but that being said, i havent been active in it for a few years now. might be totally different now. doesnt fully sound like it, though

[elaichoi]

the v v v first time i saw ur acct was when u had the yeonjun prive alliance layout ^3^ those reincarnation aus made me saur emo T^T

i luv that for u agghh<3 not that there's anything wrong w it,but i find it most satisfying when ppl get into kpop from kpop-genre songs rather than western-sounding kpop songs lol my first kpop artists were b2st (highlight) and t-ara hehe

mhm yea mayybbe! i know 100% why i don't post them and its cos i used to be consistent w posting on both kpop & personal socmed accts but mental health happens and i kinda stopped bc numbers make me want 2 cry lmfao

except im slightly less mentally ill since that time now and yk i actually genuinely do rlly want to start all my socmed accts up again but im putting it off bc im a bit of a perfectionist and so im lazy to be doing all dat... all of nothin :D don't call the orderly i'm fine ^_^ /lh

2019-21? ah probably not then i'm pretty sure i was in and out of the school roster (pls tell me if i am oversharing/trauma dumping/crossing any boundaries bc i genuinely do not know i no longer have any social skills T_T /gen /srs)

hm i'm not sure tbh i only followed the one 😭😭 i haven't been on wattpad in a long ass time and i remember i tried seeing what wattpad was like nowadays and was v disappointed w the ads and paid stuff (i think i don't remember). booooo 👎👎

omg wait that's so cool aaaaah!!! i changed my user a lot so i honestly could not tell u bc i have goldfish memory ;__; i do remember i had a user like taempons(_) i think it had an underscore idk don't remember but i changed it (kinda wish i saved it ngl) and oh one i do remember was peachyjihoons (my wannaone phase lmao) but yeah im pretty sure my most recent user was some based on some tumblr shit like svnshine or something idfk 💀��

u are already a talented writer save some for the rest of us 👺 /j if u could also draw u would be too powerful 👁️👄👁️

omg THAT WAS MY FIRST LAYOUT TOO!! this account isn't that old tbh i still haven't gotten the feel of writing smuts as of yet that's why i havent been much active on it BUT WAIT REINCARNATION AU?!? from my main???

DUDE I LOVE B2ST!!!! and t-ara!!!!!!!! i really got into kpop slowly because i fell for kdrama at first (found replay in one of the kdrama edit lmao) so like my music journey has been very, very kpop ish. i think the global influence in most of kpop songs started to become mroe prominent during 2018?

bro i get you like the fear of starting the stuff you love because you feel like you won't be able to give it all and starting it and feeling it like you're gonna disappoint yourself. i hadn't started anything since like 2017 until recently because i was scared i was gonna stumble, or it won't be good ( well mostly that) or i won't be able to finish that. me and my bff still has this one project we started around like 2018 lmao we both still haven't finished it or picked it up bc we developed the idea sm and got so close to it that we fear writing it now.

not OVERSHARINH I WANNA KNOW!!! NO but like FR wattpad went through the biggest glow down IVE EVer seen like. it's legit LEGIT inhabitable. like at first you take away the newsfeed?!? like how am i gonna pine over other accounts now?!? and then everything became paid and shit like wtf is that?!

omg i wonder if I ever saw you on my explore page or tags bro fr this is so interesting my ig handle has always been one tbh it's @celestialsoo ( my intense love affair with kyungsoo era) like since the dawn of the day.

YOU LIE!!!!! i wish i could fr draw tho i want to draw my muses :///

[rrxnjun]

CONGRATS ON UR MILESTONE U DESERVE IT SO MUCH🥳🥳🥳

oh my u got me blushing with that🥹🤭 but thank u for understanding💕 but i wish i wasnt this busy that i can barely open an app and just reply to someone🥲🥲

OH GOD IM READY TO CRY!! WILL GET SOME TISSUES WHEN U POST IT!!! although i'm kind of happy about it cuz i think i'm due to a good cry (also started to write my reply the day before u posted the fic and i couldn't finish writing it☹️ so now that i probs failed my exam this will be an amazing remedy)

OH MY LIEBESTRAUM MY BELOVEDDDD U JUST MADE MY DAY WITH SAYING THAT IM SO HAPPY OH MY GOD!!!!!🥳🥳🥳

im sure u did justice to them!!! but thats for sure that it was like 19736474 times better than the ones online cuz i actually understood ur one😵‍💫so thank u again!!!! and simple songs are the best i love them so muchhhh

THAT KINDA SOUNDS FUN BUT I UNDERSTAND THE ANXIETY PART CUZ I COULD NEVER DO THAT!!! the fact that u got so stressed u started to use german must have been a crazy amount of stress dude😧 LMAO IM GLAD IT MADE U MORE COMFORTABLE THO AND I HOPE U WILL ENJOY HUNGARY THEN🥳🥳 well there are definitely people who speak english and there are also many things written in english and if u need help with travel/public transport i can recommend u an app that u can set to english!! but the people are well kinda rude most of the times☹️ but my exchange student friend didn't really have any problems with anything!! she could only speak english and thai so she only used the app and in shops there is most likely a person with basic english knowledge and she didn't have a problem at all!! SO I HOPE I DIDNT CHANGE UR MIND ABOUT COMING HERE CUZ ITS VERY PRETTY AND STUFF!!!

GOOD LUCK FOR THE REST!!!! I HOPE IT WILL STAY STRESSLESS!! WELL MINE IS DEFINITELY GOING! CANT SAY ITS GOOD CANT SAY ITS BAD ITS JUST GOING🥲

oh my u are not annoying at all!!! i understand that so much daniel is such a lovely guy!!!

U SHOULD ADMIT IT TO URSLEF ITS FUN🫡 damnnn tbh very understandable jikjin is such a good song so ur spotify wrapped is going to be amazing😌 TREASURE MAP IS SO FUNNY!! although i don't think i ever finished it .-. but all of the ones i saw were so fun!!! AND ADMITTING TO BEING IN LOVE WITH MY BF JIHOON IN BROAD DAYLIGHT IS CRIMINAL /j also about the posts i saw u make about jihoon, i understand u so much dude🤭 that guy is just so amazing and cool and everything🥲

thank u for not minding them what u wrote means a lot;-;💕💕I HOPE UR DAYS A FILLED WITH JOY TOO U ARE AMAZING!!!!💖💓💝

(and also expect another ask about me yelling how much i love ur new chenle fic sorry not sorry🫣) (liebestraum anon💕💕)

THANK U SM!!!! ❤🤍 it means a lot🥺🥺 awh i wish u werent so busy either bc it must be stressful. i do have a lot on my plate too but im still on this app more than i should be so props to u i think😭😭😭

omg noOO ☹☹ i really did activate my inner john green at the last two scenes because of the looking for alaska reread but hopefully it doesnt bring tears altho it was a cathartic write for me bc i resonate w chenle sm 😭😭 (not on the rich part im very much broke). and noo ☹☹ i hope the exam went better than u anticipated,, however it really do be like that sometimes and remember that one failed exam doesnt define u and you'll do better next time!!!

havent made any progress w liebestraum since my last reply bUT the outline is all finished and i have a little something in my drafts to tease it however im saving it until im at least done w 3/4 of the fic to post it bc we both know how it went the last time i posted a teaser for it 🤡

DHSJSK im glad to hear that also i think it may be bc im the first slovak person actually fluent in english to try to translate the song 😭😭😭 (yael is popular w the younger generation i think)

I mean i was stressed BECAUSE of the german i didnt just randomly bust it out bc of stress 😭😭 the lady at mcdonalds understood eng thank god but the other one did not and was rlly rude abt it telling me to get german lessons ☹ first of all i DID,,, for 6 years‼‼ second of all do i gotta learn the language of every country i visit now??? U WORK AT THE MAIN STATION OFC TOURISTS WILL BE THERE. the only german words that left my mouth that day were hallo, winston blau bitte, danke and auf wiedersehen 😭😭😭😭😭😭 i was less anxious abt vienna bc i was like i mean i learned german so i cant be THAT lost but i dont know a single word in hungarian so that might be difficult- DJSJS however if those plans do come true i will hit u up and u can send me all the tips and tricks (and also your address so we can hang out /j)

"ITS GOING" GIRLIE THE WAY I FELT THAT

not admitting yet i need a week or two more and to actually learn their names bc i still struggle with jeongwoo junghwan and jaehyuk for some reason. DO THEY HAVE TO ALL HAVE J NAMES ????? i saw only a few treasure map eps but once i stan someone new i tend to go obsessive and watch most of the stuff thats out so pray for me 😭😭😭😭 also im happy to announce to you that your boyfriend is now OUR boyfriend !!!!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳 hope u dont mind sharing ❤❤❤❤ you cant just expect me to see a guy with painted nails and not fall in love with him like. come on. this was given.

hope u enjoy my fic and that i dont disappoint, im def looking forward to hearing your thoughts!! also i hope u have a nice evening and weekend, love you lots xx

[you-can-face-this]

its anon friend!!!! i am so so so sorry for taking so long to reply to you! i havent forgotten about you, things have just been absolutely insane! how are you?! im proud of you for trying to invest more in your friendships, im at the same point. im actively trying to see my friends more which is huge for me. ive seen people 2 days in a row which doesnt really happen for me anymore! how is college going for you?

i am SO heartbroken to hear you didnt get tickets 💔 im praying that youve either manage to get them since then or that you do eventually manage to!!! youll get them because im manifesting it for you 🩷

ahhh thats so sweet that your friend invited you over for thanksgiving - did you have a nice time? i know it probably seems like forever ago now (im so sorry 😭)

i hope everything is going well for you and that youre taking extra care of yourself, i know this time of year is stressful with school sometimes and i hope that youre doing okay 🩷🩷🩷 sending lots of love 💌

omg anon friend i missed u! also no worries - senior yr rlly is so chaotic & overwhelming ahh

i'm actually doing pretty well! I started seeing a psychiatrist and got started on antidepressants! it's still too soon for the positive effects to kick in but i think it's already at least helping with my anxiety. otherwise, i'm graduating in a few months so i'm just getting everything sorted out for that. i'm planning on moving to nyc, which was always a dream of mine, but also it's expensive af so i'm having to do a lot of planning to make it happen.

also!! my friend got a code to buy tickets after the sales got canceled so now we're going to opening night!! which is so crazy??? i still can't believe that i'll finally be able to see taylor after 10+ years of stanning online lol have you seen her in concert before? i hope u got tickets too!

thanksgiving went well with my friend and she & her family actually invited me back for christmas & we traveled out of state to visit her extended family! they had a lot of pets & good food so it was super fun. my friend & her family even surprised me with christmas presents?! my own family could never LMAO now that i've experienced traveling with friends (i've never done it before), i found that it's actually not as scary as my anxiety had made it seem so i've been planning little day trips here & there and also a group trip to yosemite before i graduate!

a bunch of friends & i got caught some illness recently (not covid thankfully) lol probs a cold or sth so we've all been taking it easy & asking for a lot of extensions for assignments hehe i hope you're taking care of your self too! <3

[maiverie]

*cough* hi...uh THIS IS MY FIRST TIME INTERACTING WITH ANYONE ON TUMBLR BUT I JUST WANTED TO UH COMMEND YOU FOR YOUR WORK AND ALSO ASK IF YOU'RE OKAY BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T BEEN HERE FOR A WHILE. SORRY FOR DISTURBING HAVE A LOVELY DAY-( ALSO- I've been waiting for Months for an update on triage so I was wondering if you'll be completing it? Anyway stupid dumb question sorry bye!)

OMGGG YOOO HIII ANON IM SO HONOURED TO BE UR FIRST 😭 but THANK U SOOO MUCH for sending this thru wth u made me smile sm 😭 AND AAHHH yes omg thank u sm for checking in w me!!! im doing good!! i'm not super active on blr anymore just bc i dont rlly have much time these days :(( BUT NE WAYS NOOO U HAVENT’ BOTHERED ME AT ALL I APPRECIATE U SM !!! it's literally been Months™ since triage has been updated aND IM SOSOSOOS SORRY i literally keep promising an update and then i get like a few hundred words into the chapter before losing my drive again :''’)))) but REST ASSURED EVEN IF IT KILLS ME IMMA FINISH THAT MF STORY BAFIJWEIAFJS