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That one room in shaded
#SH_C05 my beloathed#that room scared me so fucking bad in my first playthrough#didnt know what a monster kelp was and the few times i managed to go through there without dying it was always empty#then BOOM#MONSTER KELP JUMPSCARE#i remember i had to stop for like#5?? 10?? minutes just bc i got jumpscared so fucking hard#anyways now i never go through that room#rwartmonth#rain world#tamyart#rwartmonth2024 day 18#monster kelp
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Something about Viktor and Jayce waking up and cuddling in bed idk. I was sleep deprived and finished this at 6am in the morning after being up all night. So that’s why the lighting doesn’t make the most sense.
#jayvik#arcane#jayce talis#arcane jayce#viktor arcane#and they’re t4t bc why not#I loves them so much im sending pipe bombs to their residence as we speak /j#no but fr I love them so much they’re so special to me#fun fact this was gonna be no beard Jayce and uhh normal hair Viktor but my hands had other plans lol#idk how the hell I did this#ngl I’m embarrassed about posting this cause I literally JUST drew it this morning and I feel like I’m asking for attention#which is exactly what I’m doing I wanna show it off and that’s okay#be cringe be free#my art#also this is uhh relatively low effort I cleaned it up as much I could before I didn’t want to anymore#bc remember I was very sleepy when I made this#okay im gonna stop adding tags bc now im just stalling bye
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how do lighting and shading work
#ok so remember that tag on my last post where i said i didnt feel like drawing drones#i lied the motivation to do it manifested out of literally nowhere#i saw the quote written down and knew i had to do something with j and tessa#just colored and whatchamacallit'd the first panel cause i felt like it#ive been trying to figure out how lighting and all that works#cause ive been focusing on like. exclusively lineart for the past 2 years#my skills at the other parts of art are kinda lagging behind#second panel was drawn in like 5 minutes cause i wanted to use the second half of the quote#dont think too hard about the implications of the scenario just roll with it#im slightly improving at drawing j#stupid haircut is so difficult to stylize for No Reason but i think i got a handle on it#for now#the first panel is looking off the more i look at it so im going to stop doing that and wrap this up#art#murder drones#murder drones j#serial designation j#murder drones uzi#uzi doorman#crowzi#im including that one#flesha technically#cynessa#whatever you wanna call her#tesscyn#shes got too many names
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Steve loves comic books. He’s obsessed with them and one of the worst days in all of his seven years of life is finding out that Hopper’s stupid sidekick also likes comic books.
“You broke your arm this summer,” Callahan points out, “But me liking comics is the worst thing that’s ever happened to you?”
“Yes.”
“Right now,” He continues. “Right now, we are waiting for Hopper to come back with a first aid kit because you wrecked your bike and your knee looks like minced meat, but the fact that I like Spider-Man is worse than that?”
“You like Spider-Man?” He despairs. “Ughhh, you ruin everything!”
#Tommy: okay cool…you can stop liking comic books now. they’re for nerds anyways#Steve: That’s not true cause I like them and I’m not a nerd#Tommy: The dumb cop likes them too#Steve: he’s lying so we think he’s cool#Callahan: …#also:#Steve: …do you have the new Spider-Man issue?#Callahan: not yet#Steve: I have it…you can’t borrow it because I hate you#steve harrington#tommy hagan#phil callahan#had to edit the year bc I just remembered that Steve broke his arm getting a bike for his birthday in a dif post of mine
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so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.
first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.
it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.
and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.
you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.
and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.
your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.
in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.
in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.
so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.
you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.
once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.
and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"
you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?
hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!
you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.
we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?
#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck#good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen#im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3#writeblr#the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this''#and like also#''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist#i was <3 punctured <3 during mine#and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion''#so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3#she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh#ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance#i'd crash on the table#like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it#and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop!#and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just#woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes#she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room#from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing#and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying#and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap#with this terrible memory#i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like#that was too many liters#and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home#i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after#that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty#you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it#while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED#and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.
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Cryptic Radio Host Billy Batson
Billy would make the prefect cryptic radio host. Maybe he is from ancient Greece, cursed to be the Champion he is stuck in the body he had when he first transformed.
Billy has walked this Earth for millenniums, he was seen the rise and fall of empires. He has witnessed the mindless slaughter of man over and over again. He continues to watch as the world rots around him due to pollution. But he has also seen good, and has done his best to spread good. Even if that means being with left with the pain of watching the ones he loves die and knowing he will always be alone.
At some point Billy makes his own radio show, I think he would still be called Whiz Kid. It is on a frequency not many can reach, only pure luck will allow you find it. Billy's radio station is in the middle of nowhere, practically a wasteland. It is where he spends his time when he is not wondering or saving the world from impending doom.
Billy uses his shows to reveal things long forgotten. Historical conversations that hadn't been recorded or kept behind closed doors. He shares the Earth's secrets, unveils what lurks in the deepest depths of our seas, boasts of the mysteries within our universe. Most people think the Whiz Kid isn't real. But it's said if you do find it, the information told rattles the listeners to their core.
#i remembered this little story of someone chasing some radio frequency#they like chased it into the middle of a desert i think#the moment they had opened the door i think the show had stopped#and when they looked inside the found all the equipment for a radio show but no host#that person ended up becoming the host of this radio show#i think billy would be perfect for the role of mysterious radio show host#the all knowing billy batson#an immortal trapped in the body of a kid#forced to witness the horrors of humanity#billy batson#captain marvel#dc
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one more batch of doodles from my PIDW fic because i finally finished it recently so of course silly doodles were a must.







also these are silly but the overall tone of the fic is more melancholic btw but i cant help drawing funny little guys you know me
#this mqf is slightly different from how i usually draw him cuz its pidw au#as some of you remember of my other post in the past about it#anyway do NOT be fooled this is a mujiu batch yes but thats because the last few final chapters finally had mujiu content#but like 50% of the fic is just mqf on his misadventures alone you know how i roll hjfkhd#but i decided to give him whimsy and a buddy so that he stops being so sad and bitter lol#mu qingfang#shen jiu#mujiu#anyway shitty lighting quality brought to you by my table lamp and me taking pics of it rn which means at midnight lmaoo
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day 6 || this era lasted like 2 minutes but i love it anyway
#daily gi-hun#art post#redhead gi-hun my beloved#i know i barely ever draw him w/ red hair its not on purpose i swear#god this era of gi-hun in general is just so. hes exquisite to me okay#all eras of gi-hun are exquisite jsyk but while we r on the topic of this one#ppl kinda misunderstand this gi-hun lots i think. it was esp bad in 2021 i remember when he turned around before getting on the plane#hes not healed. like. At All.#if im being honest i dont even think this couldve been the START of a healing journey for him#other people have pointed this out before but like. what was he gonna do in america#that guilt would still follow him there. the trauma and ptsd would still be a huge part of his life#and its not like there are readily available resources for dealing with the trauma of going thru a death game#yeah he'd get to be with his daughter but ga-yeong is very perceptive and i think she'd notice the changes within her dads personality#which could even put a different kind of strain on their relationship thats different from the kind that existed before#gi-hun could only rlly distract himself for so long. i feel like even if he did go to america it'd just be a matter of time before he >#> couldnt take it anymore and went back to stop the games OR. something.. Worse.#its just not the kind of person gi-hun is. to forget like people want him to. thats just not him im sorry#there was never a world where he got on that plane and left it behind for good#anyway whatever i dont think we should shame a guy for trying to stop mass murder#yea we can debate all day about the effects his self isolation had on other people but i will NOT back down on him being right for TRYING#(side note: you can acknowledge gi-huns isolation had negative effects on other people [ie his daughter] WITHOUT VICTIM BLAMING HIM)#squid game#seong gihun#seong gi hun#squid game fanart#my art#doodle
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Hi! I saw a tiktok the other day and thought that it'd fit Nimona and Baby :]
It was the mom going 'say I love you :D' and the baby answering with papa, and a comment said that it was as if the baby was completing the sentence, and I found that thing really cute sjdkf
#nimona#ballister boldheart#goldenheart baby#my art#i had remembered that I had a hc of baby calling nimona 'moma' before he started calling her mimona or smth#and the other three being like ?? what#then they realized that he was saying nimona's name#in the same way he said dadada for ambrosius and ababa for ballister#oh also that thing of Ballister only saying nimona's name at the end of the movie when he stops her from the sword and the 'i see you' thin#hc that now he says her name anytime as in like#yeah you're nimona#i think i always write him saying her name anytime but i hadn't thought about the hc itself until now sjdkf#anyways i love them#baby watching and catching anything that his dads and nimona do and learning everything#no wait a sec#did he actually just say her name at the end of the movie or am i remembering wrong or remembering just a post or fic ajskd#aaa#anyways it stands
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My brain malfunctioned and I was digging in MTMTE the whole day, forgot to blink, kicked pillow 8 times and was talking with my reflection 6 times
Ended up with 60+ screenshots of nerds being socially awkward/abnormal/straightforward because we use books to talk, not people, silly, cool or sweet, or just facts ahah






























#Man I remembered again how much I love Mega and Rodimus duo I wonder how they would react to each other#If they met as their younger versions untouched by war#Swerve literally can quote every of Blurr's races#Cried again when Ratchet left his words are some poetry that doesn't need to sound like one#Whirl Cyclonus and Tailgate ? EHEHEH#Scavengers are unhinged hobos ahaha#I want to put them in one story with Sixshot and Terrorcons#NICKEL MY SWEET GIRL#Looked at Sunder and thought of how damn well he would look if to make him even more and scarier#First Aid acting immediately and giving orders what to do in emergency situation? Yes please#Functions is universe with their ���you are our eyes” plot twist YESSS#Functionists giving Rung a fake wheel to make at least a little sense of him and call him ornament? Pfffht#SWERVE IS SO F**KING COOL WITH THIS WHOLE HOLOMATTER ABILITY#Yeah no I hate Getaway.#Senator Shockwave giving an order to stop forced change of brain until two in charge agree on this?#And this way saving Megatron#Whirl saving Megatron because functionists are WORSE#Functionists invented empurata and all universities#Trailbracker... Would have loved to see more of him and Rodimus. His attempt to save him hit hard#Rung having a claustrophobia? Matter of fact I saw no angst of him that I would have found angsty XDD Somehow him getting forgotten#is the worst I saw#Necrobot is a crush. Hear me out he is a crush and very cool. I wish he had more time with Nightbeat.
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flowers blooming in such heft and numbers they bend the plant over and plants bearing fruit so hard they shower everything under it in fruits or make the very branches bend…. creatures are just experiencing vast bounty and good fortune out there fr fr
#this is a vague post about some hydrangeas I saw and also about our neighbor’s blackberry bush just going ham#blackberries all over the hostas in the grass in the wood chips no sign of stopping#thinking about those trees that experience superfruiting events en masse on purpose to such numbers#that it just satiates all predators / threats to the seeds being sewn. so much that it is literally impossible for none to be successful#we watched a video about it in a bio lecture once in college and I cannot remember which species it was#but it was so much that the squirrel population had like. circular boom/bust years where way too many squirrels would be born#but the trees wouldn’t do another superfruit for years. which then created squirrel bust years#creatures just experiencing stuff I guess
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i just wanna paint them looking nice 😁😁
#mine#dgs#ryuunosuke naruhodou#kazuma asougi#dgs spoilers#im gonna be honest i don't remember the perfume scents they had#I THINK IT HAD hints of citrus and lavender and pepper.#IF IT'S WRONG IDGAF hashtag drawing aesthetic pics <3#i spent a lot of time on this even if it looks messy af but 😡😠😠😡#the crazy part about me is that i really do love rendering and painting for hours. just listening to my fav tunes#but then it's like. i NEED TO STOP OR ILL GO INSANE.
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one small step for. kitties
#mine#cats#i was gna share th process vid of this but its just 90% drawing little dots not thrilling#anyway i had a Day today but we live we go forth !!#i am going to try a new journal thing bc th hobonichi hasnt been slaying ngl . i might b a filofax girlie#ive bought a 2nd hand one off ebay for 12£ which will Do For Now to see if actually like it#i need to figure out th sizing of my pages im gna make my own....brain is so so small#i was gna do mini pages for daily journaling but i think ive excepted i am not. gna journal everyday like thats not happening#n then what happens when im then using dated journals is i fall behind n then i hve such an atrocious memory i cant remember what i did#like 3 days prior to back fill so its lots of empty pages and AAAA#ironic that i am journaling to help my symptoms but my symptoms r stopping me from journaling. can i win once#anyway i think this system will be better yes yes
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if i have to see another book review containing anything remotely similar to a "spice rating" im gonna do something that will put me in the news
#anyone remember when i posted about how ppl should stop limiting themselves to booktok-esque YA & romance#& about thousands of people reacted like i had murdered their dog#dante.txt
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You think they don't understand, but sometimes, only sometimes mind, they do. // I hate you
Emmerdale | 18th March 2007
#Emmerdale#Classic Emmerdale#victoria sugden#Jack sugden#Daz Eden#Diane Sugden#Billy Hopwood#Ededit#emmerdaleedit#*ed#I have been fighting this set for days#Colouring. Caption colours. Making it fit. But it is done.#Jack Sugden I could never like you#Your 12 year old daughter misses her mother; her mother she barely remembers; and you have to make it all about you#this is why i hate the 'jack would never! stop this retcon!" crowd bc Jack was a bad dad. Not always#but enough#Vic and billy had some really good scenes together during this era#Taking Billy's story and doing something nice for Diane as her gift? Cute
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i refuse to touch the ground so have a v2
#ULTRAKILL#v2 ultrakill#ultrakill v2#PROCREATE#ALL ART#FANDOM ART#DOODLE#NO COLOUR#THE GEIGER COUNTER#SMALL CAPTION#TAG YAP#moderators !!!! kill this machine with hammers immediately !!!!! /ref#i dangle her around like a mii /aff#man. if i knew who v2 was prior to getting into ultrakill like#the whole reason i got into ultrakill would have been entirely v2#thats because im gay#this is technically how i got hooked on portal.... giant robot ceiling lady.... hi......#“its been 15 years can i please stop liking robots” i asks my brain#“fuck you” says my brain (comma) which was actually the 'fuck you' organ /ref#i dont actually remember why i started playing ultrakill#just thought it was cool looking#best decision of my life. havent had robot yaouri like this in ages. thank you hakita#man..... i............ i need to learn how to paint#dude my mat i need it my body hates the floor#like that one dog online who cant walk on normal floors because of the texture and only walks on mats/rugs/carpet#please. mat. come back to me
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