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guy who is so not worried n just goofin
#beatneku#neku sakuraba#daisukenojo bito#dork art#drawing ryoji was giving me beat thoughts bc those were my number ones as a kid sigh#there was more sketches but i frankly dont feel like redrawing them rn bc the file crashing was not a joke lol#i was gonna keep this as flats bc of that too n also bc i need to be comfortable not finishing stuff but then i had to. sigh#actually im changing the caption: this file crashed badly a few nughts ago n deleted Everything it was agonizing lol#remember to save ur stuff even if u thought u did#sidenote i still refuse to believe these two are 18-19 n not 25-26
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Hi guys. Still haven't found it. I'm starting to lose feeling in my left pinkie toe and sight in my right ear.
Can someone help me find a gojo/reader fanfic??
All I remember is the first chapter starts off soft with reader being pregnant and megumi accompanying her to walk around the jujutsu tech campus.
#HELP ME#FIND THE FANFIC#gojo x reader#ao3#fanfiction#LOST FANFIC#PLEASE RETURN TO A DESPERATE READER#satoru gojo#GOJO SATORU#FANFICTION READER#JJK FANFICTION#GOJO X READER FANFIC#gojo x reader fanfiction#reader x gojo#reader x satoru#i refuse to believe it was deleted
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This is my first holiday season since going low-contact with my family and Thanksgiving was harder than I expected. Thankfully we're spending Christmas with a friend's family and they've been so warm and welcoming, but it still hard for me to get into the spirit.
But as much as I'm mourning, I also appreciate that this Christmas I don't have to half-closet myself or feel pressured to hide my queerness as much as possible to keep the peace. As much as things suck, that tension had become unbearable and I'm glad I've absolved myself of doing it anymore
#theyd tell me that it was fine and we were getting along just fine by politely ignoring im queer#which is just untrue and i refuse to believe they thought that would be sustainable for the rest of our lives#but then i guess they didnt think it would need to because i would see the light eventually#i also dont believe that they didnt feel any of that tension when i visited#and if they didnt#why is it on me to be uncomfortable and make myself small when theyre the ones with the problem#anywayyyyy this is more personal than i usually get but i needed to vent a little#will probably delete later if i remember
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#7, 13, and 22 for the Psych ask game?
7. Favorite Gus moment?
ooooh this one is so hard! burton guster my forevergirl ... he has so many iconic and Big Ticket moments that stand on their own and aren't related to other characters, but the biggest hallmark of gus's character to me will always be how good of a friend he is -- and so all of the scenes that popped into my head are a bit more subtle. it's a tie between the scene in the thornburg virus episode where gus bursts into the hospital room to make sure shawn doesn't confess his feelings to juliet for the wrong reasons, and the scene in "one, maybe two ways out" when gus immediately calls shawn out for being unfair when shawn says its bothering him that juliet is with declan. something about those two scenes really exemplifies why i appreciate gus so much; he's not here to be nice, he's here to be a good and honest friend who values the people he cares about three dimensionally, and sometimes that means not giving them the easy way out. that's not an easy thing to do. for all that gus runs away when the murder and chaos gets too much, he's incredibly brave and forthright when it comes to his personal relationships, more so than any other character on the show. he's the kind of friend i always try to be, and so those moments always stick out to me the most.
an honourable mention to the entire cold open of "office space", though. also the line "goldilocks was a crazy blonde shorty shawn", which makes me fall to pieces laughing every time
13. Favorite secondary character?
who counts as a secondary character??? can i say henry?? can i please say henry??? henrys secondary enough right??? my henry apologia knows no bounds. favorite disaster father in the history of television, no question
22. How did you get into the show?
good question!!! its a very convoluted story lol so i;ll try to speedrun it. also sorry because this is going to get a little bit sentimental and possibly too sincere
i very much subscribe to the "sometimes you encounter a story when you Need It Most" theory and i think my relationship w psych really exemplifies that idea. so once upon a time, years ago, i tried starting it when i was still into brooklyn nine nine -- this was like, 2017 i want to say? and i was kind of immediately put off and never got past episode 1. because i was expecting b99, which psych is absolutely not. its characters are a lot more morally gray and the show's narrative structure isn't a sitcom -- it's a parody of a crime procedural, which i wasn't used to. lucky enough for me, the beloved people in my life made me sit and watch the highlight episodes a few years later, and of course i was charmed, because psych is nothing if not charming and i grew up reading sherlock holmes mysteries as a kid. holmes and watson are kind of inherently a hit. but i think i never really saw it as it was meant to be watched: gradually, and with the breathing room to really understand the characters in the subtle way the show reveals them to you. i also don't think -- and this may sound weird -- i was old enough to appreciate the Point of the show
when i saw it for the first time, the main characters were still Adults to me -- a nebulous concept for sure, because i was just 22 and they technically weren't that much older than me, but it didn't feel that way at all. they looked like grown ups, especially because i was mainly watching later seasons. i was also stuck at home, with my whole family surrounding me, and hadn't really faced the question of "well what the fuck am i supposed to do with my life now?" yet
this last year, i moved really far from home, permanently, for the first time. i am very close with my brother, and for the last 2 years had been lucky enough to be roommates with one of my best friends, who in turn had basically become like a sister to me. in the first few months after moving, i did live with family, but because i was working remotely from a house in the suburbs without a car, i was alone in the house all day. i started putting psych on as background noise because i remembered enjoying it, and it was something the two people i missed most loved ... and i very quickly realized that shawn and gus were 1) basically the same age as me, and 2) one of the few dynamics i'd ever seen on tv that accurately reflected what it felt like for your Person in life to be a sibling.
it was so comforting to have on in the background. it felt like my own siblings were in the room with me, trying their best and making me laugh! and the more i watched, the more i realized that psych, at its core, is a coming of age show .... about what to do when you hit your late twenties, look up, and realize you have no idea what you're supposed to do next. and it takes your hand, and says gently, "well, it's ok. you have time. you don't have to leave what's familiar behind, but you also need to be brave enough to go after something new. it'll be hard, but you'll figure it out with the people you already love, and meet new people you'll love on the way, too."
that oversimplifies it for sure -- but something about that just hit home so unexpectedly. its been so strange moving into this new phase in my life and feeling terrified that i'll be forced to leave the people most important to me behind because Thats Just What Happens When You Grow Up. to encounter this story that was so fun and clever and sincere that showed again and again the opposite of that sentiment was such a balm to my homesickness and truly made moving away a lot easier than i ever expected.
and its just good -- well written and funny and extremely creative, and while it has its imperfections, it sticks the landing at the end, which has always been the most important thing to me, really. so anyway. now im here 5 months later and i think ive dragged like 6 people down with me in the last month, lol. theres probably more to say here but suffice it to say that because of all that, there will always be something very special about this show to me
#i cant BELIEVE i had to put that under a read more#but i refuse to delete all of that after writing it all out so you'll all just gave to deal#its just one of those formative Life Moment stories!#i have one for every era of my life#anne of green gables star wars lord of the rings ... there are others that are more Embarrassing so i wont call myself out#but you know#psych ask game#phil.txt#psych
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whats ur favorite fitzier au (written or not. just the general idea of it)
oh my god. i went looking for the modern au where fitzier(divorced) go on a pacific northwest roadtrip together and now i cant find it. fucking defcon 1 literally thats like my favorite fic
#i cant keep living like this i need to bookmark stuff better#IT WAS NOT DELETED. I REFUSE TO BELIEVE ITS DELETED. but the stress until ik for sure………..#the terror#thanks for the ask i feel sick <3#hsg
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I feel so heartbroken right now my favorite merthur fic EVER has been deleted oh my god please, merlin fandom, I summon you, if you have I Love You by evokingmemories in pdf, please please PLEASE send it to me, I need it so bad, please I'm beggin y'all I can't with this shit, I'm crying so hard right now no kidding, please, anyone???? 😭💔
#merlin#merthur#merlin fandom#fanfic#deleted fanfic#ao3#evokingmemories#i need you to reupload your ff please#i'm begging you#i love you was the best merthur fic out there#how has it been deleted?#why?#oh my god this is the worst day ever#i'm so sad right now#i've been crying for the past 30 min#somebody help me please#i need the pdf of the fic#i need that fic in my life#THIS IS NOT HAPPENING I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THIS IS TRUE
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If they really did wipe the whole server, I can't believe the last part of the original Island Bad and several others saw was the Furrest Club 😆
#i refuse to believe they'd just delete it all#Foolish's dragon is like part of QSMP marketing at this point they would never#i am choosing to believe
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i love how everyone tends to assume i'm this sweet loving quiet little thing, then they get to meet me and realize. nope, i'm just a very snarky introvert and will bully my friends like its my job
#this came about bc my d&d group was discussing hogwarts houses#and refused to believe im actually a slytherin ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#like yeah im kind doesnt mean im not ambitious or cant be cut throat if needed#kindness isnt a weakness it actually takes a lot of gall to be kind in this day and age ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#burrito talks#which may be why i adore characters like L Viktor etc lol#delete later
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ak jason would not rail you, bro is a traumatized virgin and that's that on that
#i don't read x reader fics but sometimes they're on my dash or in a tag#and it's always like HE FUCKS YOU SPITS ON YOU CALLS YOU NAMES#I KNOW I KNOW people are allowed to imagine whatever they want and i support that#but like im over here editing the scenes over and over again from AK and he's so broken#he probably flinches from being touched#bro has never been with a person either i refuse to believe that ak jason is anything but a virgin#im deleting this later :D
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maturing is deleting the locked notes
#rambles#omg…. i just went through my notes app and it was crazy 😭#i refuse to believe im the same person who wrote all that a year ago…#ok but to be fair the only thing going through my mind last year was spm sooooo#ive deleted the crazy ones so when i die ppl wont actually think im thay crazy!#i lowkey should’ve invested in a journal but given how i’d curse every five words that won’t be very journal aesthetic of me 😔
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tw in the tags and stuff
#one time my ex had me pinned to the ground while holding a 20lb metal dumbbell over my face#he was screaming at me and calling me names while i was crying and begging for him to get off of me#i remember the taste of blood in my mouth and wishing i was physically strong enough to scare him#it was one of 3 times i legitimately thought he might kill me#but he still thinks we belong together he still thinks i’ll forgive him#he still calls despite being blocked#i think i still think about this sometimes because i still can’t believe someone can change after being together for so long#but what it really is was i just refused to see it and now i’m all messed up because of that#how do i forgive myself#anyways i’ll delete this very soon but i literally talk to no one about this stuff and just wanted to vent or something
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|| I find amusement in the little things but anon who made the 'babygirl' thing happen,, you're something else
#|| behind the scenes#ooc#I don't remember when it started sjjskdjs but I keep getting those type asks that I refuse to believe it's just one person#but if it is I applaud you#I'll do it for u boo#delete later#rambles#he was once a empire inventing war crimes now he's my bby g#pos la vida es así
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I alr kinda knew a Massive part of my family is lgbtphobic but it just pisses me off to know how easily they're willing to admit it to my face when I'm like . so visibly queer 💀💀💀 they KNOW I'm queer . like.....?
#kiln talks#non horror / slasher#personal posting lately which I'll probs delete later I'm just annoyed bc my sister refuses to fully side w me#like she knows my family targets me when it comes to that n she claims she loves me but the first thing she'll fucking do is#try and explain to me that that's just how their generation was raaaised n that they're fine with me blah blah blah#like yea I know I'm not stupid. do u believe them? do u think I deserve to live? do u think I should change? do u thunk.#whatever I'm gonna go eat bread
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#Zionists in my inbox again 🥱#I have been arguing against your tired points and brainwashed views for YEARS okay I’m not new to this#according to yall the whole world is lying except y’all#at this point believe what you want to believe it’s not my job to educate you#I look at your messages and I want to laugh bc of how the Israeli propaganda machine has brainwashed you#and then I delete them lol#when y’all refuse to look at cold hard facts and history then I’m sorry but I cannot help you#unfollow me and block me bc I don’t want you here#and you shouldn’t waste your time typing up essays to send me bc they get deleted in 0.02 seconds
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The groomer you were warned about is now posting in the safeutdr tags with triggering content and using alts to invade anti-proship spaces. Still support them? tumblr(.)com/snowcollector/713865354217144320/
hey can you not fucking accuse me of supporting anyone. good that you made your callout post but dont send me asks about this anymore and especially PHRASED like this??
"Still support them?" I care about the issues. I made my stances about these topics already. Do you care about this problem at all or do you want to point the finger at me now just to get me to reblog your post? For context this makes you sound smug. and i dont appreciate that if you actually want to give me new info to educate me (see what its like to be accused of.)
yeah i agree you shouldnt post unsafe/mature shit in safeutdr. but wow you dont make it any better either. I dont want to be involved in this and I never did so stop sending me anything related to this anymore. Why do you accuse me of being friends with ANY OF THEM I have no idea who they are!!!!!
#get fucking away from me i already had a had a whole episode because of the grooming issue. READ MY POSTS OR GET OFF MY FUCKING PAGE#also yeah letting this ask be published because. rubs my fucking temples. if anyone wants to see the link there it fucking is i guess#might as well let yall judge on your own this fucking shit motherfuckign i hate everyth hashtag emo hashtag scene hashtag anger hashtag die#im mostly just angry about the 'still support them?' get off anon right now. get off anon you coward. why are you afraid?#and putting ME on the line?#might delete later (never does)#ask#anon#grooming#I hate grooming and groomers i hate incest what do you want me to fucking say#fuck everyone who does#and the reason i refuse to reblog callouts is because ive been on tumblr since 2014 and sometimes they go south so fast in MANY different w#ways. pulls at my hair#i dont want my name associated with ANYTHING. FUCK INCEST FUCK GROOMING is that what you want because i DO Believe that
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how. literally how
#i refuse to believe that there’s only 3k adventure time fics on ao3#what happened#is there a secret fandom tag i don’t know?#did almost everyone delete their fics a few years ago#does this fandom mostly use wattpad?#i genuinely cannot believe there r so little fics#ao3#adventure time
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