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Is Lawrence a âno Adam, we are not keeping the stray cat you foundâ but then immediately falls in love with the cat type guy. Is he. I need to know
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đĽ Rambling Beast Incoming đĽ Because I will not lie. I've thought about this a lot LMAO
I am also putting a cut. Because this got to be way longer than anticipated, and also slowly pivots into just being a short fic HRKGMGKGK......
But uh I've imagined that the conversation came up during a late night. They'd been staying together, and just being together for a few months now. They have a lot of conversations that revolve around just asking each other about all sorts of things, getting to know one another more and more. And just being able to freely ask things that certainly weren't important during their six hours in hell. 'Getting to know you's in significantly less stressful environments, basically.
At some point that night, Lawrence asks Adam what some things on his bucket list are. Adam gets a little flustered, and sorta mumbles, "I promise it's nothing that exciting."
But of course, Lawrence wants to hear anyway. Doesn't matter if it's 'I want to have a concert on the moon', or 'I want to find a lucky penny on the subway'. He just wants to hear anything and everything from this man, no matter what Adam's harsh inner voice may repeatedly insist.
So Adam begins to explain one of the biggest things on that list, which is that he's just always wanted a pet. A cat, specifically, as they're his favorite. Because even in a world where his parents could have afforded to take care of one, they wouldn't have anyway. They both just did not care for animals, and weren't exactly hesitant to very bluntly express their disdain for them, in far less kind words. And even if Adam had been existing on his own for about 6-7 years now, he certainly wasn't ever in a comfortable enough financial state to take care of a pet. And he could truly never forgive himself if he was the reason for any amount of harm coming to something that was so innocently dependant on him... The man who had struggled to feed even himself.
So, he had just shoved that idea to the back of his mind. But the longing never stopped, of course.
Once he's finished, Lawrence gives a saddened nod, and offers his sympathetic words. But, there's a few moments of silence before he perks up a bit. Why don't they just get one, then.
Adam blinks a few times in surprise, but he can't keep a little smile from creeping up his face.
"Well, you know I'm not going to say no to that," he responds. "But only if you're really okay with having a little bastard running around your place,"
Lawrence first starts with a dry chuckle. "Oh, I don't think I'm a stranger to that anymore, darling. In fact, I'm rather acquainted with the little hellion I've already welcomed into my home. And you know, I am quite fond of him."
Adam's smile only grows larger, and more crooked, as he rolls his eyes. "Yeah okay, whatever, asshole." But it's only a second or two before their shared laughter fills the bedroom.
"Well, it'll certainly be loved." Lawrence remarks in the lull of their banter. "And completely spoiled."
"Oh, abso-fuckin'-lutely." Adam nods, cracking a cocky smirk. "It'll have no idea that I've been waiting 20 some years for this shit. Poor bastard's in for of some of the most obnoxious, sappy, lovey dovey shit ever. It'll hate us so much."
"Oh yes, nothing but malice towards us. It'll want us both dead." Lawrence smiles back. "Well, we can start looking around for our unlucky candidate tomorrow, if you'd like."
"Fuck yeah," Adam grins, curling both hands into eager fists. Really though, on the inside, he was running rapid, ecstatic laps around his brain.
His ass was not going to be able to sleep tonight.
"...And thank you," he quietly adds, highly masking just how much he wanted to repeat his gratitude again, and again, and again, and again- though, he was sure this masking was to limited success, for the shaking of his hands were at least one thing that currently betrayed him-
"Of course, Adam."
Their hands then find one another, and squeeze... One shaking hand unable to keep itself from squeezing down hard.
~~~
AND THEN...... THERE WERE CATS !! >:3
And they are indeed spoiled rotten and deeply loved by the both of them LMAO
#replies#sawposting#saw#saw franchise#sawtism#saw 2004#saw fanfic#chainshipping#lawrence gordon#adam stanheight#adam faulkner stanheight#saw thoughts#sgt pepper#specter#ramblings
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To the Hellfire - chapter 3
[Josh Washington x F! Reader]
5.6k words
masterlist - two - three - four
Chapter wrote by @sharkology & @xghostcr0wx
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[smut, non-con drugging, angst] MDNI
(smut warnings under the cut)
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[switch! josh (mostly dom josh), reader says good boy like once, afab reader, fingering, unprotected sex (don't be silly, wrap your willy), josh is kinda gross (in a hot way), choking, oral fixation, squirting, cumming inside, teasing and taunting, manhandling]
You were right on his trail as he left, his footsteps heavy and loud with frustration and anger. Your timid steps followed behind. You both walked in silence (him mostly just stomping) until he reached the door to his room in the lodge. He stops for a second, looking at you with a glare. Youâve never seen him get so riled up.
âEnjoy the little show?â He mumbled, turning back to the door and opening it-quickly heading in and sitting on his bed with a loud sigh.
You felt a pang of hurt as he treated you a little harshly, but you understood his tone and why he was acting this way; the whole ouija board was a dumb decision in the first place. It was probably embarrassing to him that you had to see him like that. You enter slowly, shutting the door. You keep the main room light off and walk over to the lamp on his bedside table to turn on the dim light, before sitting next to him and giving him enough space for his comfort.
âJosh..I understand why youâre upset. But, you donât need to act like this towards me. Iâm here to help you. Not to get this cold behavior.â He looks over at you, his face contorted with anger and confusion. But it gradually fades as he lets your words sink in. He looks more like heâs just regretful and sad now at how he was being towards you.
He groans, looking away as he rubs his head anxiously. âI know I know, Iâm..Iâm sorry [Y/n], I justâŚI feel like I was getting messed with, ya know? Like..I know how much we love playing tricks on each other, but this feels a little overkill..â
You listen to his words, nodding along. âI donât think they were messing with you, Josh. Especially knowing how sensitive the topic of your sisters is for you. And, to be frank, messing with ouija boards is not something to treat like a childrens board game. Those things are real, and have scary consequences. Nonetheless being on Native American grounds. This is why I was so against it, because I knew something like this would happen.â Josh just looks down to the ground, his expression looking like he has a lot on his mind. Like he was getting ready to say or do something. After what feels like an eternity, Josh speaks up.
âYeah, you're right. It doesn't really matter anyway. I'm over it.â Josh deflects but you can clearly tell that it's quite the opposite.
âJosh, you don't have to pretend to be fine. I would be just as upset if I were in your shoes. If anything, I wouldn't be able to carry myself as well as you do.â You assure him and put a hand on his warm back. Josh's gaze is still on the ground and the room falls silent for a second. You can tell Josh is looking for the right words to say.
âThank you, [Y/n]. I appreciate it, I really do.. No one's ever-â Joshâs mouth slightly hangs open as he tries to find his words. âI just don't want to think about it right now. I just don't want to think at all right now.â He admits, rubbing his temples with one hand. You watch, silently. Chewing your bottom lip anxiously as you two sit there in awkward silence.
You knew Josh was going through a lot right now, and you could only imagine what was going on inside his head. You knew you couldn't do much to ease his pain, but the most you could do was be there for him. Over the months you've known Josh, you've learned that his biggest working coping mechanism so far is distractions. There were times where he had a shitty day and called you up just to talk, play video games, and distract him from whatever terrible emotion he's feeling. And you're more than happy to do that.
You take a deep breath in and prepare yourself as you firmly take his hands into yours, putting them on each side of your waist, and embracing him into a gentle hug.
â[Y/n]?..â Josh whispers at the side of your head. He was taken aback a bit, but definitely wasnât opposed to this affectionate action.
âJust, let me do this for you.â You murmur, tightening your grip around his back. âLet me be here for you..â You rest your chin in the crook of his neck, the scent of his cologne filling your nostrils. He sighs, a small smile forming on his lips.
âThank you.â He whispers. He rests his head against yours, quietly inhaling your scent and hair. His large and rough hands gripping your soft flesh against your clothes. The clothes that he couldnât help but want to rip off of you the moment his hands were on your waist. The hug lasted longer than just a friendly one, and you knew he noticed that too. There was no questioning it; you both wanted each other in one way or another. The tension filled balloon that's lasted over the 8 months since you met is about to pop.
As the hug continued, Josh tested the waters by lightly rubbing his hands up and down your sides, his grip getting a bit more confident. You began feeling some type of way, getting more bold with the newfound wave of arousal, sexual tension, and energy. Your fingers delicately and playfully travel down from his back, to his chest, and down his semi-toned body in a painfully slow way, making sure to tease him with every soft stroke. You take a gamble by hooking your fingers underneath his pants and boxers, but only on the hem which drove him absolutely mad.
Your thumbs caress his v-line, enhancing the sexual atmosphere. Josh was loving every bit of this, and he started to nuzzle into your neck-leaving light kisses against your warm and soft skin; eventually turning into rough ones with a few bites here and there as your hands began to unbutton his pants while your lips placed hungry kisses against his shoulder.
âLet me take care of you, yeah? Iâll give you something else to think about..â Josh leans away to look you in the eyes, a smirk on his lips as he raises a brow at you.
âYeah? What did you have in mind, Marbles?â He asked in a lighthearted tone. You smile, a seductive glint in your [e/c] eyes. You firmly push him back against his bed, and start sensually stripping off your sweater and leggings in front of him, leaving you in your skirt and undershirt. After placing yourself in between his thighs, he bit his lip and looked at you with adoration and excitement, ready for whatever you were about to do to him.
âLetâs just say, something Iâve wanted to do for a long, long time.â You reply back, giving him a not so innocent smile.
Josh bit his lip in anticipation from your words as he looked you up and down. âOh? Well, Iâm all yours to handle~â And with that, you begin to undo his pants further, pulling up his shirt and leaning over to his stomach as you plant kisses of appreciation all over his skin-pulling down his pants in the process. Josh sighs, and his eyelids lower. His heart rate picks up as he watches you, your beautiful figure treating him like his body was the most precious and delicate thing in the world.
Once his pants were low enough, you rise a bit and look down at his bulging boxers. He looked absolutely delicious, in this view, just for you. You look up at his lust filled eyes and bring your face closer to his-a soft gasp escaping his lips as you slowly bring his boxers down next. The intense eye contact had his head spinning and he needed to do something with these overwhelming emotions.
He grabbed a fist full of your hair, not too rough though, and crashed his lips onto yours in a heated kiss. You both hungrily consume each other while you take his pulsating and thick cock into your hand and begin to stroke him. Thankfully it was already soaked in precum, making it easier to rub him up and down at the speed you were going.
Through the kiss, you could feel his whole body stutter and tense with pleasure as you continued to stroke him. His hips slightly raised off the bed, chasing for more. You could tell Josh was slowly losing his composure as he started to let out small broken moans, while trying his absolute best to continue the kiss.
âNgh~ Fuck..â Josh whimpers out as he turns his head away from your intense and lustful gaze, maybe in embarrassment? You didn't expect him to start whimpering and falling apart this early, not that you're complaining, you actually want to keep pulling these delicious sounds from him.
Joshâs neck is exposed to you, so you take the liberty to start kissing it and leave small marks. You slowed the pace of your hand down to a more sensual one while making sure to never stop sucking on his neck. Joshâs senses were going into overdrive and he definitely felt like he was going to cum soon, but he didn't want it to end. This caused his thighs to tense under you from the stimulation, and he put his hand on your wrist that's stroking his length to anchor himself. Which you found to be one of the hottest things ever.
Josh puts the back of his other hand on his mouth, clearly trying to muffle the beautiful sounds he's giving you.
âDon't be shy, I want to hear you~â You say in a sultry tone while grabbing his hand from his mouth and bringing it to your clothed breast. Instinctively, Josh whips his head at you; those beautiful green sex glazed eyes fixated on you. His hand started to massage your breast under your grip, using his thumb to stroke against your nipple from under your bra that was growing harder from the stimulation.
Your eyes start to flutter and you lean into his ear, âThaaatâs it, thereâs a good boy. Youâre doing so well for me.â You whisper. The praise lit something inside him and he needed more of you. As youâre continuing to stroke him, Josh removes his hands from you and to your shirt-damn near ripping it off and tosses it aside. His fingers go straight to your ribs and grips you for dear life. His half-lidded eyes soak up every inch of you with lust and adoration.
âWow..â He whispers breathlessly in between moans. â..Youâre so fucking beautiful [Y/n].â His hands dart to the back of your bra and unhooks it, letting your tits out into his view. He was basically drooling from the sight, immediately taking action. He leans up and captured one of your nipples into his mouth and swirls his tongue around it like it was the most delicious thing heâs ever tasted, while using his hands to hold you in place and to pleasure your other nipple with his fingers; pinching and circling with his thumb at an unbelievably delectable pace that had you heating up to the core.
âFuck, Josh..â You whimper out, unable to control your voice. Your hand strokes his dick sporadically, unable to contain your focus. This pushes Josh to go further as he moves a free hand under your skirt, and starts stroking your already damp underwear. Josh hums at the feeling, circling a finger on your clit-causing you to suck in a sharp breath of air and buck into his hand. âOh, someone seems to be desperate for more, huh?â He mumbles against your breast. You roll your eyes, âYouâre one to talk. Youâre practically using my hand to fuck yourself.â You make an emphasis as you squeeze his cock that was frantically rubbing against your hand.
He hums, in a somewhat defeated tone. âI guess Iâll take a loss on this one then, hm?â He guided your hand away from his cock, clearly wanting to let you have all the attention right now. You didn't know what he had in store for you, but you were excited for it.
His index and middle fingers rub circles over your clothed hole, before pushing past the boundaries of your underwear, in between your coated folds, and slowly sink them into your wet pussy-earning a harsh groan from you as you lean your head into the crook of his neck. âA-ah fuck~â is all your able to manage out from the feeling of his thick fingers.
âBut that doesnât mean I wonât take my revenge~â He cooâs into your neck, kissing and biting your skin. He works his fingers into you with such precision, you'd be surprised if he didn't have any experience beforehand. You grind yourself down onto his hand, chasing for more. You could feel your body grow in temperature from the body heat and pleasure. You look down at the sight below you, and what a sight it is; Josh's lidded green eyes intensely gazing up at you, his bottom lip slightly pulled between his teeth. His face clearly searches for any slight reactions you make, almost calculating. You feel your body flush even more just from the way he's looking at you, the intense eye contact making everything feel more passionate. You feel him working you up, getting you close to your peak, but your body feels a small wave of disappointment and confusion once Josh's fingers leave from inside you.
Josh sits up and puts a firm hand on your waist, using it to turn you over on your back so that he's towering over you. The position instantly made you feel submissive, and Josh's eyes never left yours.
âYou look so damn hot underneath me.â Josh declares and all you can do is let out a bashful whine. Josh smirks at your reaction and roughly puts his hand on your jaw, the switch up only turning you on even more as you can feel more slick build up in between your legs. You instinctively put your hand on his wrist that's holding your jaw.
âWhere's all that confidence now?â He smugly asks, feeling as if he won with your silence. Josh uses his hand on your jaw to use his index and middle finger to prod at your lips, parting them. He sticks his fingers into your mouth, pressing down on your tongue causing small strings of saliva to spill out of your mouth. You can taste yourself on the same fingers that were once inside you, only adding to the erotic sensations you're feeling in this moment. And all you can do is look him in his eyes that continue to stare you down with dominance. You didn't expect Josh to have this kinky side, not that you're complaining, it's actually quite the opposite. You're soaking it all up, letting him do as he wishes with you.
Josh moves his fingers out of your mouth and replaces it with his tongue, reaching down to catch you in an almost-rough, passionate kiss. Your hands instantly gravitate towards his hair, gripping at the dark brown tufts to pull him impossibly closer than he already was which earns you a groan from Josh.
His wet fingers trace down your body, passing your nipples and giving it a light pinch, causing you to slightly arch your back, pull your bottom lip between your teeth, and let out a small squeal. You feel him lightly chuckle into this kiss from your reaction, and he continues to rake his saliva coated fingers down your body, only slightly touching you, sending shivers down your spine. His fingers make their way down to your mound, teasing you and caressing you there, making you wiggle around in anticipation. The kisses move from your mouth to your jaw, then to your neck. Josh makes sure to take his time there, sucking more dark marks onto your warm skin. His fingers prod at your entrance, collecting just enough slick to ghost his fingers over your clit.
âJ-Josh..â You say in a strangled voice, his teasing making it hard to find your words. Your hips involuntarily stutter into his fingers.
âYes~?â He replies in a low, sultry teasing tone, urging you to say more. You could feel the bass of his voice vibrate against your neck and it only enhanced all the senses you were feeling. Josh slightly lifts his head from your neck to make eye contact with you. With his eyes dark, lidded, and his hair tousled only enhanced his looks in this moment.
âP-please..â You can feel yourself become bashful under his stare and you find it hard to keep eye contact. It's still hard for you to believe that you're even in this position with Josh right now. All the nights you lay in bed alone imagining what it would feel like to be this close to you in such a state is finally coming to fruition.
Fingers trace their way up your torso, circling around your breast, and tracing back down.
âCâmon. You're a big girl, use your words~â Josh teases. You swallow thickly, your fingers raking up into his brown locks. The smooth strands of his hair being gripped by your hands roughly as you gain your focus to speak.
âPlease, I need you to fuck me. Iâve been needing this for so long..â You whisper breathlessly. Joshâs lips part a bit, and something changed in his eyes. They seemed, hungry. Frantic. Desperate, even. It sent chills through your veins and you found it enticing.
âWell look at that, she CAN speak. Such a good girl~ Your wish is mine to grant..â Josh licks his lips as he makes his hands to your breasts, fingering your nipples sensually. Your back arches, and you can feel your pussy throbbing more for friction. You let out a soft moan, which Josh laps up when he places a rough and hard kiss to your lips. His hands find their way to your waist and up to grip your ribs. His fingers rub against your bones, inciting a welcomed tinge of pain. He breaks the kiss slowly as he leans up and looks at you with a pure sex filled gaze,
âIâm gonna need you to prepare yourself, ok? You think you can handle that?â He whispers.
You give him a confused look. âWhy?â
He smirks, and places his dick at your dripping wet entrance-your body instinctively jerks on his tip. âBecause Iâm gonna rearrange your guts.â
Before you can react, he firmly plunges himself inside you. The amazing stretch of his length inside you makes you whine out, and he quickly covers your mouth. âShh, donât want everyone to hear us now do we?â He mutters into your ear. You shake your head and whimper as he picks up the pace. Your juices coat his dick which makes it easier to adjust around him. The pressure and harshness was so new to you, you didnât know how to cope. Your legs wrapped around his waist and hands gripped his hair more. His pace was fast but also steady-your body was writhing underneath him. Loud moans and gasps were muffled by his hand that was trying to escape. His own breathing was labored but controlled, and his eyes were shut tightly. You could tell he was enjoying this to the fullest.
He pushed two of his thick fingers into your mouth, and your tongue happily licked them up and down. You guys made eye contact as you did so and you could feel his dick twitch inside you from it. âYou have, NO idea how long Iâve wanted this [Y/n]. I fucking missed you so much. Iâve dreamed about this for so long, God you feel incredible.â Josh breathlessly claims, taking his fingers out.
You drink up his praises like a dehydrated pup, and your heart starts to beat faster than it ever had. âI missed you too Josh, Iâve wanted this for so long as well. Iâve wanted to be with you like this since I left the mental ward. Jesus, all Iâve thought about was you.â Joshâs eyes flicker for a moment. Like a deep thought crossed his mind. His expression dropped slightly, but just as quick as it came it was gone. You were gonna ask about it until he pressed his lips on yours and continued to pound into you and it erased any thought you had.
His fingers dig into your flesh, his nails were definitely gonna leave marks. But you didnât care. All you could think about was his dick absolutely demolishing you. The sounds of your guysâ combined moans and his cock fucking your wet cunt was all you could focus on. Josh brings a hand down from your waist to your clit. His finger pads work on it in rough yet gentle circles, coaxing out intense shocks of pleasurable waves through your body. Your hips thrust into his to match his pace as you chase your high. âCâmon baby, you got this. Let yourself unravel. I want to feel you cum on my dick~â Josh coos against your lips. You whine out a moan as you nod, putting your attention on your upcoming orgasm.
The way his cock was rubbing up into your walls, the way his hips were slapping into yours, his groans echoing into your ears; it was all you couldâve asked for and more. You were going crazy. Your hands went to his back, your fingers digging into his toned body. Your nails leave harsh mark lines to show your..Intense actions with each other, you could say. But you didnât care. And Josh was certainly loving it. The pain and pleasure mixed into one was making the euphoric atmosphere between you two, far more enjoyable than you guys would have imagined.
You were almost there, you were almost reaching your peak; everything was building up and up. Josh clasps his free hand around your neck, lightly and effectively choking you while never halting the movement of his fingers on your clit and the pounding of his cock. All you're able to do is arch your back and moan in delight as you instinctively reach to hold onto Josh's hand and wrist that's gripping your neck. Josh's thrusts start pistoning into you with such force and roughness that it deliciously rubbed against your inner walls in all the right spots, his fingers on your clit moving at a rapid pace, and his grip tightening ever so slightly on your neck, you were on cloud nine. You feel the pressure in your lower regions build higher and higher, almost as if it was about to pop. You were so close.
Josh leans in close, his warm panting breath tickling your ear. You're not sure what he's doing and everything is happening too quickly before you can find out. You feel something wet and warm sensually slide from your jaw to your cheekbone, the peculiar feeling sent shivers down your spine. That's when you realize Josh just licked the side of your face, taking you completely off guard in such a pleasurable way. You didn't know Josh could turn you on and heighten this moment more than he already has-
âYouâve earned it. Now fucking cum.â He commands in a stern, dominant tone. This is all it takes to push you over the edge, the pressure finally popping. Your vision fades slightly and you feel your eyes roll. All the muscles in your body tensed and tightened, your back arching. Your mouth opens, probably ready to let out an incredibly loud moan but you can't tell anymore. Josh continues to ride you through your orgasm, never stopping his pace and movements on your clit.
All you feel is wet; so, so wet. Your thighs, the sheets under you-Joshâs hips that were slamming into you; everything felt drenched. You don't find out why until your vision fades back to normal, leaving you to look down where you and Josh were connected. Everything was completely soaked in your cum. You can feel your face burn red as Josh stares at you surprised, his hips stuttering. âFuck, baby- did you justâŚ?â You had squirted for him, because of him, and it was the sexiest thing he's ever seen in his life.
You weren't expecting this to happen, so you do all you can think of, and just nod. This only causes Josh to speed his thrusts, chasing his orgasm and in turn overstimulating you. âShit- you're so fucking dirty, baby.â He accentuates each world with a deep thrust. Watching you squirt for him was all he needed to push himself over the edge, his head rolling back, his grip on your neck tightening and untightening. Josh lets out the most beautiful sounds you've ever heard a man make when his seed spills into you, filling you up. (Thank God you were on birth control though, because if not this moment probably wouldnât have felt like it did). Heavy breaths and broken moans leave both of your guys mouths as Josh slows his pace to a halt, releasing his grasp from your neck and using his hands to hold his weight above you, head dipped catching his breath.
This was the most beautiful and erotic experience to ever happen to you-and Josh as well. You were so overstimulated your body and nerves were literally vibrating inside your skin. You soak up Joshâs form utop; his messy brown locks pulled in all sorts of directions that made him look so sexy, the sweat accumulating on his beautiful olive skin, it was all so intoxicating to see. You look down and huff a small whimper of disappointment when he slowly pulls out of your dripping cunt. He lets out a deep groan when he looks at you, all disheveled and covered in each other's cum. What a gorgeous sight to behold.
âWow, Marbles..â Josh mumbles as he soothingly rubs your thighs to relieve some tension from your muscles. â..Never thought Iâd have a girl squirt for me. What an honor~â You scoff at his teasing comments and use a hand to lazily swat at him.
âOh shut up. You liked it anyway.â You remark. He catches your hand and raises a brow. âLiked it?â He repeated. He uses your hand to travel down to your coated pussy and sticks your two fingers inside you-your body twitching a bit from the contact, and pulls your fingers out and into his mouth.
Your cheeks flush incredibly red at the sight; his eyes close and he moans against your hand as his brows furrowed in pleasure. You can feel his tongue slowly lick up the fluids from your fingers, and GODS was it hot. He pulls your fingers from his mouth and opens his eyes and leans in for a rough kiss. He sticks his tongue into your mouth and forcefully flushes some of the mixed cum into your mouth-earning a surprised muffled gasp from you. But you donât reject it. Instead you allow it and embrace the taste.
It was bitter, sweet, and salty all at the same time. You never thought youâd enjoy this kind of taste before, until now. Because it was with Josh. He leans back a bit, smiling that oh so adorable smirk he always had on, âI donât like it, [Y/n]. I fucking love it.â
You smile weakly, the exhaustion catching up to you. âIs that so? Well I guess we should do this more often then, huh?â
Joshâs eyes sparkle at your words, and nods enthusiastically. âYes PLEASE! I would love a second round of the bone zone with you.â You both laugh at his eager tone and playful words-taking this moment to just relax and be happy with one another.
âOkay you're done.â You smile and mock roll your eyes at him. Josh just stares at you with that stupid-adorable grin and you playfully shove your hand in his face, shielding his eyes from you. Josh just prys your hand away from his face and pins it down beside your head. âCome on don't be like that, you know you love me~â He deeply whispers close to your face and leans in for a sweet kiss, your lips moving against each other's for a few seconds. You stare into eachothers eyes in silence for a little, Josh looking at you with adoration and much more. If only this moment could last forever.
âAlright I gotta go pee.â You break the silence, your bladder crying out to you causing Josh to roll off of you, letting you sit up. âWell, can I watch?â He asks which you take so unseriously and roll your eyes. You start to dress yourself, getting ready to put your panties on your sticky body before Josh stops you, handing you a towel and you thank him.
âIs there anything you need or want me to get while you're in the bathroom?â Josh asks genuinely, and you find it sweet.
âUhmm⌠just a cup of water would be good,â you give him a warm smile while wiping yourself off and changing into your clothes.
âAlright I got ya. The bathroom is the door right across from mine.â Josh informs you, continuing to pull on his boxers and leaving you to take your time to ogle his half naked body. It was still hard for you to believe that you were able to get so close to Josh, see each other again, and then be intimate with each other. You weren't here for a quick fuck and then leave, you wanted to stay for the endgame, to go out on cute dates together, to spend nights in eachotherâs rooms watching stupidly bad horror movies, playing video games, and waking up next to eachother. You just hoped Josh felt the same way, but you think you're confident he likes you.
After changing back into you clothes, minus your sweater, you leave Josh's room. The colder air of the hallway in the lodge wafting in your face. As you open the bathroom door, you could feel the transition from expensive hardwood floor to expensive tiles underneath your feet.
After finishing with the toilet and washing your hands, you take some time to look at yourself in the mirror. It's still so hard for you to wrap your head around what just happened, you feel like a giddy school girl. Months and months of crushing finally lead to something and you can't help but want Josh to be your boyfriend.
Josh was waiting for you back in his room, ready with a cold glass of water for you. You open the door to him sitting on his bed, unfortunately now fully clothed, messing around with something on his phone. Josh's eyes reach yours and he gives you a small smile grabbing the water for you off of his nightstand. You take a seat next to him on the bed, taking the water from his hand, thanking him.
As you raise the glass to your lips, you can feel Joshâs gaze on you, staring, taking glances between his phone and you. As you take a few big gulps, a small voice in the back of your head wonders why Josh is watching so observantly while you drink water. The water's cold, refreshing and you finish about half before you're satiated, reaching over him to set it back on the nightstand.
You and Josh continue to talk with each other for a little bit. During the whole conversation Josh would periodically glance at his phone, checking the time, but you weren't sure why. Only 15 minutes into your conversation you start feeling off. You can't explain the feeling. It's as if your body is slowing down. You've reduced your responses down to nodding along with lidded eyes.
âJosh⌠Iâm- mânot feeling goodâŚâ You manage out that one sentence, hopefully it's enough for Josh to understand.
âHey.. just lay down a bit, yeah?..â You feel a warm hand on your back and another on your shoulder guiding you to lay down the bed.
It doesn't feel right anymore, this doesn't feel right. You don't feel good but it's not like you're sick. It feels like your body's slowly shutting off. You canât really make out what's going on around you. It's like everything is in slow motion. You try to open your mouth, but it suddenly feels dry and your ability to speak goes away. You try to raise a limp arm off the bed, but it doesn't go far; you no longer have control over your own body.
You see Josh's face looking down at you, calculating and watching your every move. You were drugged. You're sure of it. From what, the water? Nothing tasted off, right? Why though? Why would he do this? Why would this happen? Everything was going fine, right? Right..? The only thing you could think about was betrayal and fear you felt in this moment. What was going to happen to you?
The last thing you see is Josh standing above you, peering down at you with a torn look on his face, making no move to help. Many emotions washed over you; hurt, betrayal, and confusion. But you're not able to process them before you let go of consciousness, the world around you fading. And then..It went dark.
[a/n]: here's the long awaited chapter! Sorry for taking so long we got way busier than expected. One of us ended up moving to the next town over so it took a while to get free time to write. All the other chapters should be coming out a lot faster now!
Taglist: @puppygirlella @sigma-alpha-writer-chad
#josh washington smut#josh washington x reader#josh washington#until dawn#until dawn smut#until dawn x reader
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looking at some takes on characters or relationships or scenes in which things happen between them and just thinking,
How in the hell are people interpreting it this way??? But then i step back and realize that the story or character in question is fundamentally and extraordinarily different from the average person's life experience and I go,
ah,
you guys just... don't have a deep enough understanding of trauma responses...
#mine#vagueblogging again i guess but this applies to many things#its honestly okay that the general public doesn't grasp the deeper layers at play because tbh theyre not often explored in media#to that degree at least#ive known someone with deep. Deep. DEEP traumas#shit that no human should ever go through and sounds almost cartoonishly evil#and the truth is#healing from that is UGLY. the impact it has on how a person interacts with their life is unimaginable#and it often makes NO SENSE AT ALL to someone who hasn't experienced the same shit#it's not as simple as 'i'm sad or scared and i cry easily but if youre nice to me and love me it'll go away'#in my own experience of loving someone like that#you sometimes have to work at helping them rewrite their entire philosophies.#things you wouldnt even think of#sometimes expressing sadness or pain is the hardest part about it because they're so used to turning the other cheek to survive#sometimes theyre so used to being manipulated that they reject any kindness you offer in the most viscerally violent way#and it hurts!#communication is HARD!#receiving love is HARD!#i was listening to Raon Lee's cover of Kokoronashi#and thinking about how raw the emotions are in the lyrics#and how so many average joes out there wouldn't be able to make any sense of it but those who do get it really get it#(essentially like... 'i wish you would just get it overwith and tear me apart#bc it would hurt less than the confusion i feel at how you're kind to me and holding me and promising to never let go...#at least i know how to handle the pain of dying#this is so confusing and frightening what youre doing to me. i hate it i hate it but please... don't leave me alone')#(its such a gorgeous song)#sHIT AND THEN 2 SECONDS LATER I FIND KOHANA LAM'S COVER OF IT AND IT'S SO MUCH MOR E#for the love of god look up that song and turn on lyrics captions
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the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.
three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.
two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.
their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.
one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.
i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.
i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.
and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?
you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.
a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.
someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.
#writeblr#warm up#this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru#but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist#ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school.#like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it.#was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes.#but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create''#when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work#part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just#like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent.#speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r#ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week#this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice.#''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism#imagine if we said that about literally any other profession.#''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt?#u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky''#we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY#''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''
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Can i request lnd boys talking it through with us during readers first time 𼰠soft praises and reassurance đĽ°đĽ°
im gonna do a thing where its just. what he's gonna say to you bc the act itself is p standard - def missionary and him being so so so gentle with his movements to prevent hurting you + lets him watch every expression you make - this is also just making me realise how like. my dialogue for smut really doesnt change too much omg they sound so similar erfeafoaf
His focus is primarily on your your face the whole time, looking at you intensely with every movement of his hips. He doesn't want to hurt you so he's going to take it slow, holding your hands as he gently whispers praise at you.
"You're doing perfectly for me. Yes, just like that."
"You feel perfect wrapped around me like that. I don't think I'll be able to last long. Hmm? No, that's a good thing. It means you're doing good."
"Please - just a little longer. I'm almost there."
"Don't hide your noises. I need to know if you feel as good as I do."
Xavier is very hands on. He's holding you tightly, keeping you in place as much as he can despite your squirming. His pace is unintentionally teasing, long slow grinds as he really savours every movement of his body against yours.
"No, I promise I won't hurt you. I'll take good care of you, I promise."
"You're so warm - I don't know how long I can hold back."
"Look at me. I want to see what faces you make."
"Just a little bit more. I know you can do it."
Rafayel is so sensitive to your touch - more than you ever thought he could be. He's always been receptive but the way he's acting right now, face buried in your neck as he slowly fucks you really takes the cake. You can't escape his presence at all - he's holding you tightly as he absolutely devours you.
"Don't look away from me - I've been dreaming of this moment for far too long."
"You - don't do that - I want to take my time with you."
"I need you so bad. Please don't hold back."
"Yes - yes, just like that. Keep going - you feel so good."
Sylus seems like he'd be rough with you but when you finally end up in his bed he's holding onto you tightly, keeping you pressed against his chest as he showers you in kisses. He loves everything about you and he really wants to make sure you know that.
"Yes kitten, just like that. I knew you could do it."
"Don't worry if you get tired. I told you I'll take care of you."
"Just lay back for me. You don't have to do anything - I'll make sure you feel good, I promise."
#love and deepspace x reader#l&ds x reader#l&ds smut#love and deepspace smut#zayne smut#xavier smut#rafayel smut#sylus smut#zayne x reader#xavier x reader#rafayel x reader#sylus x reader#l&ds zayne x reader#l&ds xavier x reader#l&ds rafayel x reader#l&ds sylus x reader#lads zayne x reader#lads xavier x reader#lads rafayel x reader#lads sylus x reader
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Taste Me
virgin!Eddie x fem!reader
summary: Eddie gets a tongue piercing and you give him the opportunity to do something he has never done before
cw: MDNI (18+) oral (f recieving)
This is part two to Touch Me part three
"That's really fucking cool," you told Eddie as you stared at his tongue piercing that he had been excited to show you since he had gotten it done. He had been wanting to get one for a while and your nipple piercings had encouraged him so he went for it.
He was still trying to get used to it but had a newfound confidence because of it. The thing made him feel hot, the shyness he had, the awkwardness, slowly melting away as you stared at him, your eyes darkening.
The two of you had made out a few times since the first time, you always stopping when it got a bit too heated. You were always so kind to him even though they contradicted your kisses. Those were always rough and sloppy, and lazy but that was the way you both liked it.
Eddie would have been lying, though, if he said he didn't want more. He felt like he was finally ready to kick it up a notch. To take things to the next level even though he was scared to. He didn't want to make you uncomfortable and to be honest, he would have even known how to ask.
"You look hot," you told him pulling him out of his thoughts. Really? You thought so? Coming from you, that had to be the highest compliment he had ever received.
"I do?" He asked, suddenly feeling nervous about having your hot gaze on him.
"Of course you do, baby." That nickname always made his heart swell. "Want me to show you how hot I think you are?" You asked, batting your eyelashes and Eddie could already feel his dick getting hard.
"Please." The word came out like a whine and Eddie tried his hardest not to sound desperate but he was. You grabbed onto the back of his neck then pressed your lips to his in a sloppy manner.
You took no time to slip your tongue into his mouth, letting out a moan as you felt the piercing against it. It was cold, but you liked the feeling, immediately imagining what it would have felt like against your hot, wet, cunt. But you knew he had never done anything like that before you so you wanted to treat lightly.
"Do you want to try something new?" You asked and even though Eddie had no idea what you were talking about, he still nodded enthusiastically. Like always, he was down for whatever.
"Something new?" He asked, his eyebrows furrowing. "Like what?" You had done pretty much anything besides penetrative sex so he was wondering what else there could have possibly been.
"Well," you responded, grabbing on to a piece of his hair, twirling it around your finger as you put in a flirty expression. "I was wondering if you wanted to eat me out. I bet your piercing would feel really good against my cunt."
Eddie's eyes went wide as his cheeks turned pink. He had been wanting to do exactly that for weeks, but couldn't get the confidence to ask.
"I'd love to, but I don't know how."
"Just do whatever feels natural and if you're struggling, I'll help."
"Okay," he nodded and followed you to the bed where you went to lie back, making sure that your legs were hanging off the edge, your feet planted on the floor.
Eddie got down on his knees in front of you, spreading your legs wide then putting one over each shoulder just like he had read about so many times. He then turned his head and pressed kisses up your leg, sweet and gentle just like him. He took his time to warm you up even though he was eager to get to it. And so were you, apparently, with the way you were squirming on the bed.
He repeated the same action on your other leg then came face to face with your cunt, still covered by your underwear, but it was clear how wet you were by the very damp spot. He pushed up your skirt to give him so more room then dove in, pressing kiss after kiss to your clothed cunt then introduced his tongue, making sure to apply a good amount of pressure so you would have been able to feel it underneath your underwear.
"Eddie, please," you whined and he was quick to pull the underwear off and toss it across the room before going on again, his lips colliding with your clit, licking and sucking on it as your hands found their way into his hair like they always did.
He didn't really know what he was doing, just trying to figure out what you liked and what you didn't. By the way you were grabbing at his hair, he concluded that he was doing a good job.
His tongue flattened against your slit and you let out a gasp as foreign feeling of the piercing against the sensitive spot. He licked across it slowly so you could feel it and a moan escaped your lips in response.
"So good," you moaned and Eddie just chuckled, feeling more confident in himself.
"Yeah?" He asked, pulling away slightly. "You like that?"
He licked one more time before sucking on the spot, even harder this time to see your reaction. Your heels were digging into his back as you pushed yourself closer to him to the point where his face was fully buried in you. He continued to suck on and kiss the spot, making sure to mix in his tongue every once in a while as your heels dug even further into his back.
He then shoved his tongue inside you, swirling it around and that seemed to cause you to come completely undone as your thighs pressing into the sides of his head as you clenched around him, his tongue hitting that one spot that made you see stars.
Eddie kept going as you reached your orgasm, trying to see how many you could hit as he worked on you, wanting you to be absolutely wrecked once he was done with you.
He removed his tongue then went back to your clit, swirling his tongue around it, wanting you to feel his piercing as much a possible. You were gripping the sheets now, wanting to give his hair a break, feeling for back arch the time.
"Taste so good," he said. "And look at you," he pulled away to get a look at you. "Taking me so well. Got any more left in you, hon?"
You weren't entirely sure where all of this confidence had come from, but it was hot. He was hot. As long as he wanted to keep going, you'd have the energy for it.
"So much," you told him between labored breaths and that seemed like an invitation so Eddie dove in for more, not wanting to taste every inch of you, wondering if it all tasted as good as your cunt.
You both stayed like that for hours, him buried between your thighs while you let him do whatever he wanted to you, orgasm after orgasm rolling through you. You decided that you would have let him do that for as long as he liked, loving the way he was able to know exactly what you wanted without even asking. And you supposed now that you were going to have to return the favor sooner or later.
#stranger things#eddie munson#eddie x y/n#eddie munson x reader#eddie munson x you#eddie munson smut#eddie munson x fem!reader#eddie munson fluff#virgin!eddie munson#virgin!eddie munson x reader#virgin!eddie munson x fem!reader#virgin!eddie munson x y/n#virgin!eddie munson x you
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⥠ââ after an argument
hyung line x fem. reader | what they do to apologise after an argument
genre: fluff, est. relationship | wc. 0.9k ⥠a/n: this is my first writing ever so i'm not sure it's good but support is appreciated!! <3
lee heeseung
"y/n, i'm sorry."
even though it had been your boyfriend's apology you had so desperately wanted, you found yourself tilting your position ever so slightly away from him. you were still not ready to forgive him completely, not after the argument you two had yesterday. it was going to take much more than a simple sorry to win back your heart. the words he had said had been hurtful, and the day had been filled with tension that had only just eased a bit by heeseung's apology. â more under cut!
"y/n, please, i'm sorry for what i said yesterday. i know it was wrong of me. i don't know what i was thinking, saying stuff like that." heeseung tried again, resting his warm hand on your shoulder.
it was the tone of his voice that made you soften. you could tell he truly felt bad for what had happened. when heeseung noticed that you weren't shrugging his hand off, he immediately engulfed you in a hug, giving you soft pecks on your cheek.
"i'm so sorry, baby." he mumbled against the fabric of your hoodie, his chest pressed against your back and his faced buried behind in the crook of your neck. you leaned into his soft touch, smiling despite yourself and he murmured sweet nothings in your ear.
park jongseong
you were startled by the warmth of jay's presence as he stood close behind you, lifting your hair up gently before putting a necklace around your neck without a word.
"jay? what are you doing?" you asked, placing a hand on the necklace he had just clasped on, trying to get a look at it.
"it's a gift for you," jay said quietly, his touch lingering for a few seconds even after he was done with the necklace as if he was scared to let go. "i felt so bad for yelling at you last night. i'm so sorry love, i shouldn't have done that."
you had already forgiven jay for what he had said last night, though you hadnât told him directly. it had mostly been your fault but you had still gotten mad at your boyfriend.
you saw a glimpse of a flash of gold from the reflection of the window, and you turned to face jay. "you didn't have to do that. it was my fault, bringing it up after such a long time when you were tired."
jay bent down to your height, giving you a warm smile before kissing you on the forehead, his hands around your waist.
"anything for my princess."
sim jaeyun
even though you had your back turned to your boyfriend jake, still annoyed about the petty little argument you two had had that morning, jake was clinging onto you more than ever. he had his arms around you, rambling random things and apologies over and over again. the topics varied, from funny anecdotes and random thoughts and he had said at least a million apologies.
âjake, iâm still mad. like really, really mad. and it doesnât matter how many puppy eyes you give me because itâs not going to work.â
jake snuggled up even closer to you, and you tried to push him away, but he persisted. âiâm sorry, y/n, iâm very, very sorry.â
you smiled despite yourself, turning your head away so he wouldnât be able to see the way the corners of your lips were curling up without permission. âiâm still angry.â
you could practically imagine jakeâs pout and the kind of expression he was making.
âcome on y/n, iâm sorry i ate your chocolate ice cream, iâll buy you a new one today, i promise. iâll buy you two.â
when he got no response from you, he hugged you a little bit tighter before tickling you, making you laugh.
"okay," you gasped between laughs, trying to get away from jake. "okay, but you better buy me that ice cream."
park sunghoon
when you arrived home, still upset about the argument you had had with your boyfriend sunghoon last night, you found a small white box waiting for you on your desk. it was carefully wrapped, laced ribbons and all. curious to see what it was, you put down your bag and unravelled the ribbon and gently opened the box lid to find rows of chocolate wrapped in pretty silver wrappers and a little note written in sunghoonâs handwriting.Â
an apology note.
perhaps this was sunghoon's way of saying to sorry to you, your shy yet caring boyfriend. it was rather sweet, and you felt your anger melt away.
you immediately dialled his number on your phone, and it barely rang before he picked up. perhaps he had been waiting for your call, and that made you smile.
âuhm, i got the chocolate you left for me,â you said, reading the note he had written. âthank you, and iâm sorry for getting mad at you yesterday, i know you have a lot going on right now.â
hearing sunghoonâs soft voice at the end of the line was comforting. âyou shouldnât apologise, i yelled at you for no reason. enjoy the chocolates, iâll be back soon. um, i love you.â
you smiled as you bit into the chocolate. "love you too. give me lots of kisses when you come back. i miss you.â
#enhypen#enha#enhypen fanfic#enhypen au#enhypen smau#enhypen fluff#enhypen fic#enhypen soft hours#enhypen imagines#enhypen scenarios#enhypen x reader#enhypen x you#heeseung fanfic#heeseung fluff#heeseung x reader#jay fanfic#jay fluff#jay x reader#jake fanfic#jake fluff#jake x reader#sunghoon fanfic#sunghoon fluff#sunghoon x reader#hyung line#enhypen social media au#enha x reader#enha au#enha soft houra#enha fluff
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⎠tags ; gn! reader, established relationship, fluff, alcohol.
"Shouto,"
"Hm?"
"You're drunk,"
Your boyfriend leans his head on your shoulder and makes a noise in the back of his throat. "A bit."
More than a bit, you think. In actuality, you don't think you've ever seen him this drunk before. He's okay with alcohol, usually - but tends to stay away from drinking too much. You think the last time you saw him get actually drunk at all, you were both twenty and he was barely tipsy then.
He doesn't like getting drunk, he's told you before. A few times. The lack of control and hazy memories make him just slightly anxious, so he's careful around liquor.
You've been dating for years now, and unless he's living some double-life (a different one than being a hero) - you've never seen him get this wasted. Ever. To everyone else in your surroundings, it probably doesn't look that way.
But you've spent enough time to know him, and he's not like this usually. Nowhere near as absent minded he is now, at least. He hasn't been able to sit still since he downed that last bottle of shochu. He went to go play with Bakugou's cat, Momo and you couldn't find him afterwards. You lost sight of him for about half-an-hour until you finally found him in the living room while everyone else was outside, feeding Momo some treat that squeezes from a tube.
(You still don't know where or how he found where Bakugou kept the treats, but you decide it's better you don't ask. Plausible deniability, or something.)
You're both grown-ups, and you're not one to worry about his liquor intake. Still, though - you're worried. Even if it seems like he's not different to everyone else, you can tell. And it's bothering you.
"Shouto," You call out to him, your hands reaching to pet the back of his neck. He's a head taller than you, and a little heavy. Palms smooth against the prickly ends of his hair - tapered and neat. He presses his cheek to your shoulder. "Shouto, love."
"Oh," He says, suddenly remember where he is. He stands up but doesn't back away far enough to give you space. You're in a far off empty corner. Most people are in the backyard but Shouto wanted some air - so you're crowded against a wooden fence and wall with your boyfriend locking you in out by the entrance. He smells nice, you think - clean with a soft touch of aftershave. You look up at him. "Hi,"
"You're drunk," You repeat, watching him blink rapidly - bleary eyes and the faintest line of a smile whenever he glances at you. He's bent over, staring at you hard. "Is something wrong?"
His expression is the same as always. Unchangingly neutral with a strong and uncharacteristic rosiness to it. Your boyfriend is handsome, alarmingly so. You're aware of it constantly, but this new face knocks the air out of your lungs.
He's... pouting you think. But not fully. His lips aren't drawn together, it's subtle like most expressions on him.
But it's...there. You're not imagining it - the soft furrow of his brow, the press of his lips. His expression grows warmer and it only makes you more confused. He shakes it off, all of a sudden, a micro-expression that fades just as quickly as it appears.
"I'm okay."
"Are you?""
He blinks slowly at that. Concern aside, you can't help but think he's cute like this. His ears are pink enough to stick out against his skin, cold air making them flush even darker.
"I'm okay," He says, then looks at you. He sobers up if only for that moment. "Had something on my mind."
"Something you can't tell me?"
"It's supposed to be a secret," He mumbles. He's really drunk. You realize this late. "So I don't know if I can."
"Mm," You reply. You feel like doting on him suddenly, so you do, petting the back of his neck before hugging him a little. "That's okay."
He follows up with a light groan. You've never heard him complain like that, so you laugh. "But I want to tell you."
"I promise I'll keep your secret at least."
He smiles at you more fully that time.
He pauses for a minute, thinking it over. You don't do or say anything in return. A beat passes of you two standing and swaying with silence where Shout to grabs your hands from in front of you. You think he's being affectionate again, wanting to hold them.
He draws your hands to his pocket though. The angle is awkward, makes you bend your wrist on the inside of coat pocket until you feel something hard and square touch your fingers. It's velvet from the material. A box of some kind.
...A box?
Shouto guides your hand again, this time out. When you pull it out, his palm is over yours. It's a jewellery box. You blink a few times, confused. Shouto hasn't let go of your hand.
"I keep missing the timing," He says, hiccuping. The lack of sobriety more clear than ever from the slight slur in his words. "It's been in my pockets for a while."
Your eyes go wide open. You can feel your own confusion and excitement twist and tangle inside of you, frantic to get a better read on the situation. He smiles down at you, disarmingly and then closes his eyes. His forehead is warm as it touches yours.
"...I thought you didn't want to married. Not really, at least." You whisper.
"Me too," He says, a wetness to his laugh that tugs at your heart . "It was on a whim. I wanted to talk to you about it. But." He frowns a little "It's tough."
You chuckle, a sudden wetness to your voice too. "I bet it was,"
He smiles at you, big and stupid. "I love you," He closes is eyes and presses his forehead to yours more. "Thank you for everything."
"Shouto," You repeat, unsure of what else to say. "What brought this up?"
"Mm," He shrugs, getting sleepier by the minute. "I thought giving you my last name would make you suffer." He admits, soft and unsure. "But taking yours. That felt...okay. Felt nice."
"You're silly."
"Yes," He says, not denying it. "And I love you."
"And you love me." You repeat, a grin splitting your face. Big tears at the corner of your eyes, making your vision sting and your cheeks ache. You look up at him again. "Enough to marry me?"
He seems almost sheepish that time. "If you'll have me."
"Are you sober enough to even remember this?"
His embarrassment makes him blush and laugh again. "My heart is beating so loud I'm a little afraid of it. So yes. I'm sure I'll remember." He admits.
"Let's get married, then." You repeat to him, so achingly happy you think you could die. You wonder when to tell your friends. Bakugou will be pissed you did at his place. "If you'll have me."
He smiles. "I'd like too."
You lean up to press a kiss to his mouth, and Shouto holds you there to kiss you longer than you expect. When you're done kissing, he's smiling.
"Anymore secrets?"
He thinks on it, then hums.
"We should get a cat."
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PAC: Romantic Messages from your Lover âĄâĄ
(Please Read My Pinned post *IMPORTANT NOTE* before selecting a Pile)
Pick an Image by meditating and selecting the image you feel called to. You can be attracted towards more than 1 image. If you are not able to select maybe this reading isn't for you.
áśPile 1á¸
Youâre Whiskey in a Teacup.
âYou want me?â I giggled at his bewildered expression. - âThatâs what Iâm sayingâ. He paused a moment. - âHow - but what did I do?â - âI donât know....I just think weâd be a good USâ. He smiled slowly. âWeâd be a wonderful usâ.
âForgive me for the things I did but mostly for the things I did notâ.
âIn the future...if by some miracle you ever find yourself in a position to love again- fall in love with meâ.
Iâm okay with your history. It made you who you are. And I happen to be in love with who you are.
Moreover, perhaps it isnât love when I say you are what I love the most - You are the knife I turn inside myself, this is love.
Your lover thinks that you're unattainable or very far from their reach. They think it is a tough connection which will require a lot of efforts and they do not want to lose you. You scare them. They also think that if you don't like the way they approach you, you'll think they're a creep. So, they keep their distance and stare from far away. If you're already in a relationship with this person, this could've happened in the beginning. They think you're a nice blend of modern and traditional. There is something that you keep hidden but when they get to know it, they will be amazed by you and your abilities. They want you to recognise them and love them and feel as much as they feel for you, listen to their unspoken words. They love you for all that you are and all that you've been.
That's all I got for you, my dear Pile 1.
Love, light, peace and hope to you..đ¸đđťđź
áśPile 2á¸
âMissing you comes in waves. Tonight Iâm drowningâ.
âChances are, Iâll never get a moment like this again, so hereâs everything I ever wanted to tell you. No one has ever gotten me like you; Iâve never found anyone who makes me laugh like you. Youâre the one person who I can honestly see myself happy with; the definition of love to me is youâ.
And one day, She took off her specs. Her eyes got blurred and mine never felt so focused.
God...Youâre actually crazy. I love it.
âThe thing is, jumping off cliffs is kinda my thing. Thatâs the choice. I love him, with all that, because of all that. On purpose. I love him on purpose.â
That is the problem. If she wanted to dance, I would let her wreck the furniture. If she wanted to cook, I would let her burn down the house and if she wanted to scream, I would let her deafen me. Iâve never loved anyone enough to let them destroy me but God, she could take me by the throat and my eyes would sparkle at the mere inches between us.
They think you're smart, cool and confident. You make them laugh, you might have a great sense of humour. They also think that you carry yourself very well and you're an all-rounder. You might be creative and good at different kinds of indoor and outdoor activities. You both could be in a long distance relationship or you guys don't get to hang out much because of work or any other reason. You might have a good physique and they really like it. You might also be good at cooking or dancing(your body could either be very stiff or very flexible). Again, like pile 1, this person expresses very less than how they actually feel. They might be a listener and you might be talkative. They love late night deep conversations with you.
That's all I got for you, my dear Pile 2.
Love, light, peace and hope to you..đ¸đđťđź
áśPile 3á¸
How beautiful to find a heart that loves you, without asking you for anything, but to be okay. - Khalil Gibran
âYou are the finest, loveliest, tenderest, and most beautiful person I have ever known and even that is an understatementâ. - F. Scott Fitzgerald
I like to think of your silence as the love letters you will not write me.
Off topic but youâre the best thing thatâs ever happened to me.
If tomorrow starts without me, I hope it starts with you. You see, there is a little of us in ourselves, and more of me in you. So if tomorrow starts without me, Iâm not dead. Iâm just seeing life differently - through you. - Temitaya_zeblon
Anyone who cares about you has to realize that you need a little looking after, nothing else really matters.
I sense a lot of grief in this pile and also a lot of selflessness. They are your well wisher and they think so highly of you. They wish to see you having great achievements and happiness. They are your biggest cheerleader. They think it's so easy to love and understand you, you're just so simple, so self-satisfied. They love your silence and shyness. You might be a hopeless romantic but you don't express much through words. This person also wants to let you know that they've got your back and they wish the world for you. They might have already made up scenarios in their head, as to what may or may not come ahead in the future, but if something bad happens, they want you to carry on positively and happily. There might be someone here who lost their partner, this person wants to see the world through your eyes, so they want you to put your chin up and smile.
That's all I got for you, my dear Pile 3.
Love, light, peace and hope to you..đ¸đđťđź
áśPile 4á¸
I will choose you. Even on the days we donât understand each other.
He is even better than books. -Fiction has nothing on you.
I wasnât fooled. I knew you at once.
Youâre so special. i hope you know that. Like the universe took itâs time with you.
âYou canât love someone unless you love yourself firstâ Bullsh#t. I have never loved myself. But you...Oh God, I loved you so much I forgot what hating myself felt likeâ.
âWhatâs special about her?â.....âNothing is special without herâ.
You must be someone really special to this person. Your guys' relationship is a roller-coaster ride and you guys never fail to communicate on matters, so it's like, you always come up with a solution together, to somehow figure things out between you rather than going for comfort elsewhere. I'm getting Justin Bieber ft. Big Sean's As Long As You Love Me, the lines where the rap part says
'You're the one that I argue with, feel like I need a new girl to be bothered with, but the grass ain't always greener on the other side, it's greener where you water it, so I know, we got issues baby, true true true but I rather work on this with you than to go ahead and start with someone new.'
You guys can't live without each other, you both think that only the other person can handle you and nobody else. You just know each other so well. You guys' love trope might be friends to lovers.
That's all I got for you, my dear Pile 4.
Love, light, peace and hope to you..đ¸đđťđź
áśPile 5á¸
I will not have you without the darkness that hides within you. I will not let you have me without the madness that makes me. If our demons cannot dance, neither can we. -Nikita Gill
âYou are the finest, loveliest, tenderest, and most beautiful person I have ever known and even that is an understatementâ. - F. Scott Fitzgerald
I wasnât fooled. I knew you at once.
I have two sides: Clown(Intentional) and Clown(Unintentional).
âIâm tough,â I whisper. He nods. âI know you are.â....âI can take care of myself.â....âYou have,â he says. â You still do. You always will. Iâve just joined in, too. Now we take care of each other.â
âI donât want you to fall in love with me, because we fall by accident. I want you to walk towards me, and then sprint towards me, all on purpose, I wanted you to love me on purpose.â
You guys are very different from each other. One is quiet or shy while the other one is full of humor and confidence. You guys just click. Opposites attract. One completes the other. You guys have so much respect for each other. This might be a love at first sight situation for a few of you while for the others of you, you got along well really quickly with each other. The one who is shy or quiet could be the unintentionally funny one(especially when they open up) while the other one is effortlessly funny and is a pro at it. There's a lot of light-hearted energy in this pile. You both are mature but in your own ways. You might think you don't need anyone but you know that your heart needs this person. You might have been through a lot of struggles and you think you'll always be okay being alone, but no, it's not going to feel right everytime. You've always craved this kind of company, deep in your heart. So, when this person comes along, keep them.
That's all I got for you, my dear Pile 5.
Love, light, peace and hope to you..đ¸đđťđź
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Hold My Calls
pairing: leon kennedy x fem!reader
summary: you teasing leon about his flip phone leads to some fun
cw: nsfw (18+), smut, p in v, oral (f receiving), fucking during a phone call, age gap, daddy kink, praise/degradation, over-stimulation
word count: 2.9k
a/n: hey everyone school is kicking my ass rn, but i am back with another one. thank you so much for the support on my last post that meant the world to me. i don't care if this is not technologically accurate or whatever just let me be delusional in peace. as always comments and reblogs are appreciated and i will give you special smooches in return <3 also thank you too my loves @tosuckmyweenis @kaitkatme @chasingkennedy @explorevenus @sleepyluxe @death-paint @petitecolibri for helping me come up with ideas for this one and/or beta reading - ily all sm :)
When you started dating Leon Kennedy, obviously you knew there was an age gap. You figured it wasnât a big deal. Heâs only thirty-six. That isnât that much older. And for the most part, that was true. The difference in years never seemed to play a huge part in how you loved each other. But there was one thing that reminded you of this manâs age.
He had a fucking flip phone.
Honestly, it didnât even say much about his age. It highlighted his stubbornness. He was not incompetent. His job had him working with all kinds of shit that you didnât even try to understand, so itâs not like he canât work a smartphone. He just doesnât want to.
It didnât really matter. If anything, it was kind of cute. The way he fumbled with the buttons that were too small for his fingers. The loud chiming ringtone that he would grumble about yet never turn down. The sight of him trying to find the right distance to hold the phone away from his face so he could read the font. You had heart eyes on your first date when this man popped in a CD because he couldnât use the aux with his flip phone. They were simple quirks, but they were just so endearing to you. Youâd tease him about being outdated, and heâd put up with it cause it was you.
âWhy do I need anything more? This thing can call you, and thatâs all I really need,â heâd say with a teasing expression when youâd crack a joke.
Youâd roll your eyes at the excessive charm, but you couldnât help smiling. âYeah, but-â
And heâd cut you off with a kiss. âTrust me. I like it. Itâs simple. Plus itâs like indestructible. But if I ever want an upgrade, youâll be the first to know.â
The only time Leon ever considered ditching his trusty flip phone and upgrading to something more advanced was when you would send him nudes. Seeing the masterpiece that is your body reduced to a handful of pixels on the tiny screen drove him fucking wild. Upon hearing the chime of his phone and seeing the small image of you gracing his screen, heâd find a moment alone to try and see the details. Heâd hold the phone two inches away from his face trying to make out every last curve. Days when he got those pictures ended with nights where you got fucked on every surface in the house.
Heâd come home from work, his eyes full of lust before he even saw you. Youâd glide into the room with a knowing smile on your face. You wanted him just as bad as he wanted you.
âHi, baby. How was work?â you ask, feigning innocence. You close the distance between the two of you and wrap your arms around him.
âOh, you care about my work now, huh?â he asks, a smirk creeping onto his face as his arms return your embrace, âDoesnât seem like it when you send me those cute pictures during the day, distracting me, making me think about you when I should be focused.â
Your lips part and your eyebrows raise in mock offense. âI only send those to help you, motivate you,â you tease as your fingers coast along his biceps, âMaybe if you had a real phone they wouldnât bother you so much. Youâd be able to see everything clearly and not be left imagining.â
âI donât need to stress about pictures though when I got the real thing waiting at home for me every night,â he purrs as he leans in and starts kissing you.
You return the kiss with the same level of passion, lips moving with his as the two of you stumble over to the couch. You fall back onto the cushions with Leon on top of you. His hands already roam your body and begin removing articles of clothing. He wasnât in the mood to take his time after having that grainy image of you gnawing at his mind all day.
âFuck, baby. Every time⌠I can never get enough,â he grunts as he yanks your top over your head and tosses it to the side. His hands rub up and down your sides, the rough pads of his fingers dragging over your sensitive skin and making you squirm. In no time though, theyâre on your breasts. He kneads the plump flesh as his lips trail down to your neck and collarbone, leaving a trail of saliva-coated skin in their wake.
Heâs all over you all at once it seems. Itâs overwhelming in the best way. Youâre moaning and writhing on the couch, nearly trying to hump his leg while one of your hands tugs at his hair. You bite your lip and whimper as his lips move down over the swell of your chest.
He grabs your hips firmly and presses them down to the couch. His half-lidded eyes look up at you momentarily. âQuit squirming,â he breathes. He gives your chest a few more kisses while keeping his eyes locked with yours. âNeed time with my pretty girl after Iâve been aching for her all day.â
You give a weak nod and focus on controlling your movements as he tugs your shorts off and drops them.
âGood girl,â he mutters before attaching his lips to one of your nipples and swirling his tongue around the peak. He hums in satisfaction as he feels the bud in his mouth. His fingers lazily stroke up and down your folds over your panties. He disconnects his mouth momentarily and looks up at you again with a smirk on his face.
âSo wet already?â he teases, now being his turn to look smug, âYou want me just as bad, donât you? Thatâs why you send those pictures right? Youâre missing Daddy while heâs at work?â
âMhm, miss you so bad. It drives me crazy,â you say. A whimper escapes you as his fingers apply more pressure and his movements more strategically target your clit.
âI can tell. Makes you act like a little slut, huh?â he asks before he kisses down your stomach to the hem of your panties.
You feel your face getting hot at his comment, but you nod anyway. You bite your lip and keep your eyes locked with his.
He chuckles at your timid confirmation. âThatâs ok, honey. Daddyâs here now. Iâm gonna make sure you get all the attention you need. Canât have my girl left wanting,â he says, pulling down your panties and putting them with your other discarded clothes.
He loops his arms around your thighs and pulls you closer so that youâre angled in a way he can reach you from his position on his knees. Your back is flat on the couch, and your legs are held over his shoulders. He doesnât waste time, licking a stripe up your cunt and then delving his tongue inside of you.
Your head falls back onto the cushion in response. A moan escapes your throat at the sensation. Your sounds only increase in frequency and volume as he grips you tighter and fucks his tongue in and out of you. He watches you, relishing how he can pleasure you with so few touches. His tongue laps up your wetness and his mouth finds your clit again, sucking and flicking against the bundle of nerves just how you like.
His name and a variety of expletives leave your mouth while your hand slides into his hair and holds the blonde locks. Your hips twitch from the rising feelings of ecstasy in your tummy, but Leonâs hands keep you firmly in place. He devours you like a starved man, the hours of torture that little picture inflicted on him all paying off right now.
Heâs skillfully swirling patterns onto your clit and occasionally exploring your insides. He knows youâre close because he can feel the way youâre pulsing and hear the way your moans and whines reach that slightly higher pitch. It only makes him work with more dedication.
âThatâs right, sweetheart. Câmon, give it to Daddy. Let me taste it,â he grunts as he continues working you to the edge.
You cry out, your thighs quivering and your hips bucking as you succumb to release. Youâre moaning with abandon, fingers clutching his hair as tight as possible. He groans into you from the sight in front of him.
You ride the high and he continues with his mouth throughout. When you reach the seeming conclusion, your chest is heaving and your limbs feel heavy, but Leon doesnât stop. He continues on as if you were still on the way to your climax instead of coming down.
âToo much,â you whimper as your hips jerk and your hands make a weak attempt to push his head away, âDaddy, please.â
âDaddy, please?â he mocks with a laugh, âBut this is what you wanted, babydoll. You wanted my attention, didnât you?â
You whine, hips still squirming as your retort dies in your throat. It felt euphoric, it was just so much. This was what you wanted though.
âThatâs what I thought,â he says before burying his face between your thighs again.
He continues eating you out until youâre an absolute mess. Your eyes are rolling back, nonstop whimpers fall from your lips, and your twitching thighs are clamped around Leonâs head. It was what heâd been wanting to see since heâd heard that chime in his back pocket.
âIâm gonna cum,â you slur. Your head felt cloudy from the numerous orgasms heâd brought you. A strangled cry tears through you as your body moves like itâs possessed. You convulse on the couch while his mouth makes you see stars for the umpteenth time.
Tears prick at your eyes from the intensity of your release, and finally, he starts easing off of you. He pulls your thighs off of his head and leans back. He wipes his chin thatâs coated in your slick and licks his fingers. Seeing that alone has you clench around nothing which in turn spreads a smirk on his face.
âGood girl, baby,â he coos, planting a kiss on your inner thigh, âYou did so well. Iâm proud of you.â
He stands up from his knees, grunting as he gets to his feet and taking a moment to stretch. You can tell the extended amount of time in the position put some strain on him. Your lips curl into a small smile while adoration fills your hazy eyes.
âYour joints locking up on you, old man?â you tease with a quiet laugh.
âDonât start,â he says, trying to sound stern, but you can see him suppressing his own smile, âEspecially since I know you want more.â
That shuts you up because heâs right. He shakes his head and makes a mock sound of disappointment.
âI know you, baby. My dirty girl. Made you cum how many times, and you still want more,â he says. He begins stripping off his clothes into a pile next to yours. âMy little whore would never turn down a chance to take my cock.â
Once his clothes are off, he languidly strokes himself a few times and climbs on top of you. He peppers some kisses on your face and starts to slide inside you. You were more than ready but still sensitive from the recent series of highs.
âDonât worry, sweet girl. Iâll get you full of my cum in no time. Fuck all that neediness right out,â he murmurs into your ear, his breath on you sending chills down your spine.
You mewl and tighten around him in more ways than one. Your arms cling to his torso that hovers above you while your walls squeeze around him to take him deeper. He grunts and his head falls forward a little as he feels sparks of pleasure in his abdomen.
âThere you go, angel. Taking me so perfect. My pretty girl. Made for me,â he says into your ear as he sinks into you completely.
You nod mindlessly, your head fogging up again as he fills you. He presses sloppy kisses to your neck as he starts pumping in and out. Youâre both breathing heavily and allowing the pleasure to take over. One of your hands slides to his hair to rub his head while his hips snap against you.
Heâs falling into the perfect rhythm with you, one thatâs driving you both toward the goal line, when suddenly you hear a muffled guitar strum coming from the floor. Leon groans and you burst into laughter as you hear the ringtone you had set for him as a joke.
His movements get weaker as his focus is drawn elsewhere, but he doesnât stop rocking his hips. He reaches down to the floor where his phone is ringing in the pocket of his crumpled pants. He fishes it out and shifts so heâs kneeling while drilling into you.
He holds the phone up and squints to read the tiny caller ID on the flip phone which makes you laugh harder through moans. He smirks at your laughter and clamps a hand over your mouth. âShut up, I gotta take this,â he says teasingly.
He whips open the phone, the maneuver causing you to moan and squeeze around him again. He winces at the sensation, nearly unable to restrain himself from giving into his carnal urges to groan and slam into you harder.
Your eyes widen as he brings the phone to his ear without stopping his hips and in the most monotonous voice says âKennedy here.â
Itâs good that his hand is over your mouth to keep you quiet. The contrast of his movements and that voice have the sparks of pleasure igniting into flames in your belly. Seeing how he handles his dumbass flip phone so smoothly has your arousal nearly pooling on the couch.
He listens to the call while grinning at you struggling to keep yourself somewhat under control. âUh-huh. Yeah. Sounds about right,â he drones as the person on the other end goes on and on.
His strokes are just as deep as before, nudging you in the perfect spots repeatedly. Your eyes roll back as you feel yourself getting near the peak. A soft whimper escapes you, loud enough to pierce the barrier of Leonâs hand. His hips sputter at the noise and his face contorts. He lets out a quiet grunt but quickly catches himself before losing it further.
âWhat? Yeah, Iâm listening,â he says, his tone growing a little impatient, âLook, Iâm just wrapped up in something right now. Could you not have just told me this before I left?â
You know heâs getting closer himself and struggling to hold back. You can tell from the way his jaw is clenched and his eyes are projecting his rising frustration he has for the person who made this call.
âYes, I understand. Iâll deal with it tomorrow,â he says, effectively ending the conversation.Â
Then, to hang up, he doesnât press a button. Instead, he flicks his wrist and shuts the flip phone with a clack.
You throw your head back against the couch cushion and a loud moan rips through your throat. You shudder as a wave of pleasure courses through you after witnessing something so unexplainably hot.
His eyebrows raise in amusement, noticing how much you enjoyed that. âHmm, Iâm not hearing any complaints about the phone now,â he says. Heâs trying to tease, but his voice is husky with arousal. He maintains his grin as he drops the phone to the floor again and returns to his previous position which was closer to you.
âCareful, youâre gonna break it,â you whimper.
âNah baby, I told you that thing is indestructible,â he breathes and starts pounding you into the couch mercilessly.
You bite your lip and resume clinging to him, your fingers digging into his back. You both are panting, expressions going lax as you focus on chasing the high.
âDaddy, âm gonna cum,â you mewl, unable to contain yourself for much longer.
âGo ahead, sweetheart,â he says into your ear, his voice taking on more of a growl, âDaddyâs right there with you. You deserve it for being so good for me. Being nice and quiet while I was on the phone.â
As soon as you have permission, you give into another release. Your legs shake and your arms cling to him tighter as the euphoria shoots through you. Youâre gasping for air and whining while squirming beneath him. Soon itâs just too much for Leon. He tightens his grip on you and slams deep before groaning and draining himself inside of you.
He rocks in and out a few more times before slowly pulling out. He then sits up on the couch and sinks back into the cushions. You follow by sitting up as well and curling up against his side. He pulls you into his lap, stroking your hair away from your face and kissing your forehead. The two of you sit in comfortable silence for a while until he gazes down at you with a smug look in his eyes.
âI knew the flip phone was a turn-on,â he says, clearly pleased with himself.
You scoff. âIt is not. It was just⌠it was the situation,â you defend.
âSure, but you were tightest when I was messing with the phone,â he says knowingly.
âThat doesnât mean anything.â
He laughs at your stubbornness and gives you another kiss. âYou can admit it, baby. I wonât judge. Really, if you like it that much, maybe Iâll show you how strong it can vibrate later.â
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â¨ShadowPeach Bio Parents Bio AU Q&A! 20/09â¨
Welcome to the Q&A! A space where I can answer related or similar question about the Shadowpeach Bio Parents AU! If you submitted your ask anonimously, then youâll have to check the whole post if itâs answered here, if itâs not, worry not! Your asks might have been used for a future comic or just in the queue~
@funnybadger868 ha chiesto:wait so if mk can hear macaques past can he hear wukongs for example the circlet and the spell
Yeah he could. It's now just a matter of if he wants to use this power ever again
@cryptic-theseus ha chiesto:you're paying for my therapy btw, the bill is on the way
Blame it on the gay monkies not me. It's bc of them that my life is ruined/hj
@ayrza ha chiesto:Hey!I have an important question, where do you get your sources for the AUđđťđđťp? I mean, I just recently entered the LMK fandom and I see that there are parts that are not mentioned much in the series and it frustrates me because I feel like I only watch the anime but I'm missing the manga đŤ I love your art and your work, it's amazing đŤ°đťâ¨
Hi! Well I' finishing to read Journey to the West (im at chapter 80) and if I need extra info or just check I go to the fandom wiki.
@feyqueen91 feyqueen91 ha chiesto:A question for your Shadowpeach Bio Parent AU (btw, I just saw your recent post for More Than A Successor Arc & I thought something light hearted was needed to even out the Angst), is Macaque able to summon something like what Red Son did with the Samadhi Sprite, and he teaches MK to do it too?
Wait what exactly? I haven't understood what you meant by sprite.
@og-glitch-punk ha chiesto: Honestly I expect this to be hidden but i also love your work on both comics, keep it up!! I forgot their names but dude- how would the lotus prince and our moon chef feels about wukong and Macaque being MK's parents? HELL. WHAT ABOUT THE TRIO? YELLOW TUSK, PENG AND THE LOIN (CANT REMMEBER HIS NAME EVEN IF HE IS TECHNICALLY DEAD/GONE). Hell even this chaotic snake man may even use MK to his advantage with the fact he is the child of Wukong and Macaque. So many possibilities and guesses, so many twists and turns we will never know bro
Oh he absolutely woud. Also about the others. They would probably act like protective aunt/uncles to that poor traumatised boy.
@thenerdnico ha chiesto:Oh my GODS that last bio dad's chapter broke me, your expressions are always amazing. I'm going to assume that at the end of Wukong's and Macaque's fight, Wukong realised Macaque wasn't moving and ran up to him, and ended up sobbing and screaming when he realised he was dead??? If that is the case, do you think MK listened to it long enough to hear that as well?
Oh for angst reason yes. He did.
@shadowpeachera ha chiesto:AHHHH YOUR SHADOWPEACH BIO AU IS SOO GOOD!!!! I SCREAMED AT THE LAST UPDATE!!! I have a question though. You know in the series i think season 3 epsiode 5 where Wukong goes into a deep mystic monkey meditation, yeah. Well i was wondering if Mk has ever tried that but got disrupted and lost his memories or started acting strange infront of his monkey parents. It would be hilarious i can imagine him shouting, âTUDI, TUDI!âKEEP UP THE GOOD WORK, no pressure though! HAVE A GOOD DAY!
Lmaooo ok ok I don't think I'll go witha small amnesia arc in the AU but this doeĂ sound adorable.
@sakuralotus03 ha chiesto:It will probably be quite heavy, but I suggest that after Wukong saw the monkey like that he had a huge attack of guilt and anxiety and ended up injuring his left eye with his claws
Poor baby!! Nono don't worry his eye is fine.
@raylamoongirl ha chiesto:question for macaque: what was the hardest thing to teach Mk?Lmk bio parents Q&A
Mmmm so they tried really hard to teach him shadow teleportation, but he seems to not be able to do it.
@lmkobsessedmoth ha chiesto:For the Shadowpeach Bio Parent AU What if macaque and wukong go on a date and wukong doesnât know itâs a date because heâs as dense as the rock he hatched out of
He truly would be. May the gods give him a clue or smt otherwise we wont end up nowhere here
Anonimo ha chiesto:Hey!I love your Shadowpeach bio Parent's AU But I Wonder,Does Wukong and Macaque already dance together before?
Danced??? I think so?? When they still were lovers friends I think (i think i m missing something)
Anonimo ha chiesto:I am on my knees, heart giving out, HOW IS BABY MK SO CUTE AND SHADOWPEACH SO ALLERGIC TO JUST KISSING ALREADY LIKE COME ON YOU TWO Anonimo ha chiesto:When I read the other part where swk and mac where talking about wanting MK to view them as parents at first I thought swk was proposing having another kid with Mac and I went âWOAH HEY- HOLD UP FOR A SECOND THERE U NEED TO GET UR SHT TOGETHER FIRSTâ and thank god it wasnât that I thought swk was JUMPING AND ACCELERATING THEIR PROGRESS LMAOOOSo Iâm actually glad they are taking baby steps, they need them
This slowburn is gonna be so slow-burning you all are gonna die when they actually kiss (will they kiss? Oh that's just for me to know ahah)
Anonimo ha chiesto:Since macaque is called mama by mk does that mean macaque is like a mother figure to mk in your au mama macaque is adorable and he gives off motherly in his character
Anonimo ha chiesto:Whos mom if there is considered a mom by MK or only dads? Is it Wu or Mac? My headcanons is Wukong basically the mom cuz he gives off mom and dad vibes together and Macaque just gives off dad vibes to me
He gives more motherly vibes, yes (Mamacaque and DadWukong forever)
Anonimo ha chiesto:Hi in you bio parent au for monkie kid how were monkey king and macaque as teenagers when they had a good relationship were like they a romantic couple or had secret crushes on each other and never told each other or were they just friends love this au it's amazing
Oh I think they were definitely lovers once. And that makes their past and what happened even more tragic honestly.
@ayrza ha chiesto:I don't know who is more adorable: Baby MK or Macaque and Wukong blushingPsd. I love your AU and your art đ
Both. Both is good
@diamondwolf23 ha chiesto:THOSE TWO BETTER KISSSSSSSSSSS-Iâm gonna miss Baby Mk ;-
Me too. Me too.
Anonimo ha chiesto:You could say Wukong is a...... simpian?(like simian but yknow >>)
LMAO YES
@scififeather21 ha chiesto:You can't believe how much I love your Shadowpeach AU comic series that last part made me grin so much. Mostly because my husband and I have done that exact thing when our kids were small babies and the looks and smiles were the same too. OMG it such a nice thing to see after a long day at work yesterday. :)
THAT'S THE- SWEETEST THING?????? LIKE IM SO GLAD I WAS ABLE TO MAKE IT A SIMILAR EXPERIENCE???? TO HEAR IT'S THE SAME THAT HAPPENED TO YOU IS THE SWEETEST THING EVER
@snsp6 ha chiesto:I love ur bio dads au! I wanted to ask what would happen if smth similar to the baby mk incident happened to the immortal monkeys.Like either they were de-aged to their youth or had an amnesia rules type of situation!(I am in love w the world building in this!!! And ur art is delectable!)
I don't thing the world would be ready for non-reformed Wukong#like-#not really reformed but the guy killed so many people bc of impulsiveness#until he learned that murder is not fine
Anonimo ha chiesto: This might be a stupid question, but for your bio parents, AU is MK just always in his monkey form, or is this just how he permanently looks now?
He's on his monkey form when he trains / stays at the weekends at FFM or when he friendly duels/train with Mei and Red Son.On weekdays he's constantly in his human form
@meisawkwardashecc ha chiesto:Is Wukong potentially shorter than Macaque? đđĽşAvatar
Yes
@miraclecactus ha chiesto:Can you show us what's going on in the Freenoodles house? I'm looking forward to knowing how they manage to calm MK down :( Puedes mostrarnos que es lo que sucede en la casa de Freenoodles? Estoy ansiosa de conocer como ellos manejan el como calmar a MK :(
They used Wukong and Mac advices until he feel asleep.
Anonimo ha chiesto:I like how Wukong asks Macaque how he knows MK won't hate him after this. Like my guy, you literally killed Macaque, and he still hangs around I think he knows a thing or two
True. Although let Wukong be the dumbass he is.
alizardonfire ha chiesto:I love the idea of macaque being wukongs *rock* if that makes sense? It gives so much character to him.
Aaaahh ty! Yeah I feel like he's pretty good at understanding when he s just out of his mind and bring him back to earth.
Anonimo ha chiesto:If this isn't to much spoiler will the next lmk comic be angsty
This will be answered too late but I will always warn you in advance if there s angst coming.
Anonimo ha chiesto:I love your art! Lighthearted question since your about to bring the pain- do you think Mac and Wu fight over who gets to be little spoon/big spoon or are both of them 100% happy with Mac as big spoon and Wu as little spoon every night
So as for now, they are good with Wukong being the little spoon. Both bc Wukong is the the one who constantly craves for touch amd bc Macaque feels more comfortable in a position of "control" let's say. He can decide how much closer or not to get to Wukong.
Then in the future they would be more comfortable to switch (and the bicker about who should be the big or small)
@sallyvanna ha chiesto:HAIII FIRST OF ALL I LOVE YOUR BIO PARENT AU it makes my day every time I see a new page postedI was just wondering, why was macaque kinda nervous when he summoned rumble and savage? He was like 'ah shit I didn't want that-' đ
It was because the kid would be afraid of them! Of course he wouldn't. But I guess Macaque still feels like his powers are a threat to him.
@redwrathroit ha chiesto:Hey, note this is something you can completely ignore but I wanted to know if you had a ref sheet for your monkey Bois, I'd love to take a try and drawing them plus I had made an Oc character of my own but I did it once and then art block hit me like a train and said; nah, never again. So it would really help me out if you have a ref, if not ignore this and have a nice day/night
Unfortunately I don't. I have a lot of panels where you can see them full body in various stances though.
Anonimo ha chiesto:Wukong being the little spoon is too cute, he spends years being the big spoon platonically to everyone that someone finally gave him what was needed, to be protected instead of being the protector
Yesss he iss!!!!!!
@froggyofdeath ha chiesto:Question abt Shadowpeach bio parents! Sooo, who kills the spiders, who screaming abt them, who the one who picks it up and try to scare the screaming one?đŤ â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸â¨ď¸âď¸âď¸âď¸âď¸
Mk is screaming, Wukong picks it up, Macaque kills it.
Anonimo ha chiesto:Can we see exactly when they decided to prepare the courtnapping room? Like when exactly did they know oh we need to prepare that our son has apparently followed in our footsteps
Unfortunately in this AU for now I don't plan tp draw a full spicynoodle arc as well. There will be moments for the ship as well but more like extras and side stories.
Anonimo ha chiesto:Your shadowpeach bio au reminds me of something..... I remember you saying to someone that they should Read a Son of Two Dad's. Have you read the entire thing? and the sequel?
Yes I did! Also the sequel, but i think it s in hiatus.
Anonimo ha chiesto:In you newest update for the shadowpeach parent au, that one scene of Macaque looking at Wukong as MK holds his finger kind of reminds me those flashback scenes in movies of the dead lover/wife that is looking at the main character from under a flowing blanket. I have no clue why but the image popped up in my head when I read that part of the comic lmao
I bet when they are back together they will re-create this exact image eventually
Anonimo ha chiesto:I love that Macaque is initiating contact with Wukong. Hugging him, holding his hands, cuddling with him. It makes my heart melt đĽšđĽ° And Wukong is giving him opportunities to do so
He is opening the door for Mac to come closer, so that it's his choice how much he can get closer. The last thing Wukong wants is to rush things or do something that would make him more uncomfortable.
Anonimo ha chiesto:Omg! I love your art especially your shadowpeach parent bio au, it's adorable! Although I'm terrified for the next page. Anyway, my question is, why won't you let the monkey trio breathe from the trauma? đ
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hdflkjasdklf i'm just thinking of certain characters n stories hehe
#đ.rambles#no bcs why out of all gbf characters it is Belial that is on my mind lately.. đ he's so sus but there's smth sad abt him to me that i think#uh. makes me. feel drawn. SOMEHOW. charas in general that like i don't like them just bcs they're sad. i just Like them n later realize how#similar i am in a way n huh. maybe part of me. perhaps not really relate but i think i understand ^ him with lucilius. but. nyways#sometimes i find myself having ideas from time to time for. scenarios n stories n maybe not super concrete? even just the idea or the#emotion & sentiment of it. even if it's a mess bcs i just dump phrases n words from time to time.#i really like reading my own words. they remind me a lot of myself n resonate a lot with me.. i wrote them all after all before.#đ ok i just got a notif bcs i have smth due in 24 hours from now.. (-> i ended up venting again but i have no more space to tag it)#there's a lot i'm stressed abt. anxious even. it's not rlly a big deal in the end n eventually the burden of my regrets will hurt less but#noooo i keep on rambling abt that i guess there's rlly just so much weighing me down in my mind But i will persevere!!!!#imagining stuff or wtvr n indulging in. idk any form of self-expression n being creative brings me so much comfort#when the break comes i'll read books i'll write stuff too i'll watch stuff i'll play video games i'll play/listen to music i'll. yeah. Live#like i want. but like success has always still meant a lot to me i'm too strict on myself w that so w school i constantly just feel trapped#even if assignments r easy n i understand all my lessons in general. i'll pass CETs certainly i'll succeed in the future i know that's who#i'll be but every single mistake just tears me apart and makes me forget who i am as a whole. i've always been 'better' in a way than your#average person i've always mostly generally done well & good but never ever quite the 'best'. so while i do love my intelligence n all as#a whole. ffs i know better but i end up being too harsh when it comes to my shortcomings. so. stuff like stories n games n yeah#those allow me to be free in a way. from my own restraints. from my own cage. so to not. be able to do that too rlly makes me forget myself#while w work n personal stuff like that i'm mostly sure of myself but when it comes to. me w ppl in this world. it's so. unpredictable?#that's just how ppl r. it's. intriguing to me definitely but. confusing. i long to belong but it's hard when most of my life i've felt..#i'm not rlly sure how to phrase it. it's in my head but yeah. so.. i'm rlly just a mess w that. i think i tend to isolate n distance myself#so easily bcs i fall far too much w the thought that. nothing much wld change? recently i'm so confused too bcs i'm aware of reality but#then i'm also just so confused n then a mess in general but i'm returning to like my old self when it comes to stories. embracing that agai#understanding myself a bit more while being distant w others but also lost for the very same reason. ITS SO CONFUSING n complex ofc.#which is. v human ig. but i'm not taking care of myself well so ffs it feels like i'm falling behind but i'm technically productive w work?#stuck between remembering. v well. i'm not too brain empty in the present too. n. i've been v keenly aware of the future#it's all going far too fast n i'm not keeping up Well Enough. the helplessness i think i wrote a while back#bcs i want to stop or i want to do smth or just change n get things done but it's not That easy. n it's been like this for so long now#i'll be fine my mind's just a mess rn n i'm just so frustrated w myself but i'm well enough. a bit empty but i'm fine.#there's a lot more to write n i could have done this in my notes but i'll stop anyways i'll work now. i'll try not to stay up Too late đĽšđŤśđź
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The part where's he's disappointed that he can't buy all the stuffiesđĽşđĽşđĽş let me give this man a hug!!! Let me love him!!!! I need to!!đđđ
I love him so much and I love how you write their relationship and it just makes me feel so many things!!!đđđ
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Christmas shopping was a dangerous mistake, Bucky realised, and all he could do was hope that in the end, he could rein you in, and you wouldnât go home with the whole entire store.Â
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âLetâs get out today,â Bucky said earlier that morning, sipping placidly at his extra strong coffee â hair loose down his neck, and warm sweater snug on his broad shoulders. âI want to take you out.â
You looked out from your blanket huddle, eyes curious, and you met his gaze steadily. âWhere?â
âThereâs a stuffie storeââ
Bucky had not even finished his sentence before you threw the blankets off with a flourish, and rushed to your feet. âLetâsâ Whoa.â The blood pooled in your feet and you fell back down onto the couch with an âoof,â before you looked at Bucky, who, to his credit, simply looked unimpressed.Â
âHakuna your tatas, sweetheart.âÂ
You huffed, rolling your eyes. âDonât use Disney puns on me, jerk.âÂ
Bucky shrugged. âPunk.â
With his help, you managed to make it to the bedroom and change your clothes â a favourite Christmas sweater of yours, while Bucky changed into the other of the matching pair.Â
The air outside was chilled when you opened the front door of the apartment, but you dashed towards the passenger side door of Buckyâs car. âCâmon, lazy bones! I wanna go!â
âAlright, alright,â Bucky laughed from the doorway, shaking his head. âHave you got everything? Medications, snacks, all that?â You shook the bag that was strapped over your shoulder, and beamed at him. âGood girl,â he praised, and he shut the front door before he made his way over to kiss you on the forehead. âNow we can go.â
Once Bucky parked his car in a free space at the mall, you rushed out of the passenger seat and bounced on the heels of your feet.Â
âIâm so excited,â you rushed, clapping your hands with uncontained glee. The shop that Bucky mentioned in the car was just visible from where you were standing, and you could see that it was lit up entirely â warm strings of fairy lights coupled with the rainbow bulbs of traditional Christmas lights offset one another perfectly. Two Christmas trees stood either side of the entryway. âIt looks so pretty!â
âNot as pretty as my girl,â Bucky said, his smile soft; eyes even softer.Â
The compliment made you squeak with embarrassment. âBucky!â
âWhat?â he laughed, offering his hand for you to hold. âCâmon.â
You took it and hauled through the parking lot and into the mall. The warmth inside the mall made you sigh with relief. âBetter?â Bucky asked, and you nodded. âItâs over here,â he said, walking sedately towards the entrance of the stuffie store.Â
As the large doorway neared, you struggled to contain your happiness.Â
Bucky noticed as much and gently swung your arm with his, all while grinning at you. âNever seen you so happy, Sugar,â he observed, and he walked closer to kiss your temple. âI love your smile so damn much.âÂ
The sweet action made you scrunch up your nose in embarrassment. âStop.â
âNo.âÂ
There were displays next to the Christmas trees, and you stopped abruptly to take them in. Numerous reindeer, moose, and all manner of creatures were wearing fluffy, red Santa hats. âOh, my gosh, look at them all,â you breathed, âTheyâre so cute!âÂ
Bucky grunted with surprise as you tugged him into the store, your excitement now exceeding your ability to keep any semblance of normalcy. Â
âJust hold on a second, baby,â Bucky rushed, laughing a little at your eagerness. You turned on your heel to look at him, and he hesitated slightly before he said, âRemember I canât buy all of themââÂ
He looked crestfallen â disappointed in his inability to provide all of what you wanted.Â
âI am just excited, Buck,â you said happily. âI get to spend time with you and I get to look at Christmas stuffies, what more could I want?â
You watched as his expression softened into something that resembled relief. âThank you, Sugar.â
âOf course,â you whispered, and you kissed his cheek. âLetâs go look at all the babies.â
The interior of the store was homely and rustic; a sense of whimsical, too, thanks to the use of fairies and mushroom stools dotting the space. Bears and teddies filled the shelves, bursting with soft coats and knitted coats and all manners of materials. It was a sight to behold, given they were all hand made by local crafters.Â
âTheyâre really cute,â Bucky remarked, pointing at the box of cat plushies. All of which had Santa hats or reindeer antlers. He walked over and bent to pick up a fluffy, white cat with a giant set of antlers. âIâll get this one, I think.â
ââCos itâs Alpine?â you wondered aloud. Bucky grinned, nodding enthusiastically. âYouâre such a good dad.â
âWhy thank you, baby,â he teased, winking.Â
You snorted a laugh and walked towards a wall with all kinds of animal stuffies. Bucky came up behind you and rested his chin on your shoulder; his arms cradled you to his chest by wrapping around your waist. âWhatâre you thinkinâ, cutie?â
âIâm thinkinâ,â you parroted, looking at the row of dog stuffies, then the farm animals, then the wild, safari ones. âThat I love them all.â
âYâknow, if I could, I would buy you all of them,â Bucky said wistfully, âbut I also donât think our apartment has the room for all of âem.â
âDetails, shmetails,â you mumbled, waving your hand to dismiss the logic. Bucky laughed and wandered off to the more traditional festive teddies. âWhich of you want to come home with me,â you continued to yourself a little quieter, still gazing up and down the wall. âCanât take all of you home today.â
On the third pass over, you paused upon spotting a family of stuffies. They were reminiscent of the animals in one of your favourite movies, but these ones had an assortment of Santa and elf hats, reindeer antlers, and fluffy winter hats. You moved closer and looked at them, carefully brushing the fabric with a finger tip to feel the softness of the material, and you fell in love.Â
âYou are coming home with me,â you decided aloud.Â
Carefully, you moved the teddies that were in front of the family out of the way, and you bunched them into your arms. They were big â big enough to be from your chest to your hips, and you grinned widely as you tottered off in search of your boyfriend. âBucky? Where are you?â
An answering âOver here, baby,â sounded from the Christmas specialty corner, and you walked over to find him holding a ginormous teddy. He started to turn around as he said, âI thought of youâ Oh, my god, SugarâŚâ
You beamed at him and shook the stuffies in your arms. âLook at them!â
He pointedly glanced at the stuffies, then up to your face. âThose are the ones?â
âThese are the ones,â you affirmed. For added measure, you pouted and widened your eyes a little. âPlease, babe? Please?â
Bucky sighed, shook his head, and then he grinned. âYeah, you can have âem.â He held up the giant teddy he held. âAnd this one, too. He can wear one of my sweaters while Iâm at work.â
You seemed to float to the counter where an elderly lady served you, her motherly smile charming in a way that you could only say reminded you of your own motherly figure. âNow, you dears get home safe, now, yâhear?â she said.
âYou got it,â Bucky replied, and he grabbed the huge bag of stuffies off the counter. âThank youâhave a good Christmas.â
âYou as well, my dears.â
When you finally arrived home, after bouncing in your seat for the entirety of the drive, the first port of call was to grab your new stuffies and bring them inside. Only, Bucky put a halt to that plan. âYouâve had enough excitement for the day,â he insisted sternly, and no amount of pouting changed his mind. âGo sit down on the couch and Iâll bring âem to you, okay?â
A frustrated huff from you, and a cup of hot chocolate later, you sat on the couch in the living room making grabby hands for the big bag the two of you had brought home.Â
Bucky obliged, and he handed you your new family of stuffies, one by one. Each new friend made your smile stretch wider and wider, your heart soaring with the happiness of it all â the day had turned out perfect.Â
The soft, fluffy, white cat Bucky had affectionately called Miffy sat perched on his lap, his hands running over the soft material of their fur.Â
You looked at him, catching his gaze, only to stare into his eyes. They were so, so blue; the depths of them deep and churning with such a softness.Â
âCan we make this a tradition? For usâof our own?â you asked quietly.Â
His eyes lit up. ââCourse we can, baby. I was hoping youâd ask me that.â
And from that day onwards, you made sure to maintain it â even if you snuck in multiple trips per year.
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#look I'm gonna get a bit emotional in the tags please ignore them#I know this reader isn't written as autistic but as an autistic person I just really fucking strongly connect with them and the way#they express their joy and the love for things I just really fucking connect with it#and as someone who as always had to downplay their reactions/expressions and mask them because people are mean and judgemental and#it's never felt safe. so the way you write bucky who not only doesn't try to squash the readers joy and their expression of it but actively#encourages it and loves it. the fact that bucky actively engages in this thing that he knows is going to make his love happy because he#wants to see that joy just makes me so fucking emotional and so fucking happy#and I don't know if any of this made sense but that's honestly why nurse!bucky is one of my favourite aus#I love it so much and I don't think I'll ever truly be able to explain how much it means to me to read this#how much it means to me that you write this the way that you don't I'm not sure I'll ever be able to put properly into words#but I'm sending you all the forehead kisses I possibly can#đđđ#(I also haven't read back through these tags as I don't want to see my own emotions so sorry if it doesn't make sense#rookthorneđ¤#bucky barnes x reader#bucky barnes#nurse!bucky#comfort
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Hello! There's just not so many sub! Kaiser fics and I'm d y i n g to read those đđ
Can I request for a sub! Kaiser x male reader where Kaiser has a praise kink but doesn't ever want to admit it đ
#a.n. :This is so same! Kaiser is such a babygirl, I want to kiss him, eat him, hug him, and then rock him in my arms and let him relax... But no, this bitch is always top, lol. Even funny.
"I don't like your damn praise! Just fuck me alreâ...What?"
!!Warnings: Bottom!Sub!Michael, Dom!Top!Reader, sex on an indoor football field (it's empty, it just seemed interesting to me, imagine the echo there...), praise kink obviously, Michael tries to be dominant, but he's too much of a pillow princess (he came out so gentle... In his own way), in fact everything is quite vanilla, but he kicks you when he's unhappy, also very romantic in general. Ă And the reader is somehow connected with football company. You can be a manager, a football player, or even a cleaner there, honestly.
The football field in the building was closed at night, knowing full well how persistent football players in the leagues can be. Darkness, silence, idyll... Except for the flashlight from the phone somewhere in the middle of the field and quiet groans echoing from the walls.
"Why did you decide to have sex here? Plus, at this time?" You ask, looking over at Michael, who was clutching at the trimmed grass in the lawn as you thrust into him at a careful, almost tremulous pace.
âI think you said yourself that you wanted to experiment... So weâre starting with something easy,â Blonde whispers, wincing from the unpleasant feeling of artificial grass in his hands, so he just hugs your neck lazily.
âWell, yes, but... You obviously have some other reasons. But I wonât push if you donât want to talk,â Michael just sighs at your words, but it immediately turns into a soft moan when your lips touch his neck.
âI just love the atmosphere in here, as weird as it sounds, so shut up and fuck me,â A disgruntled mutter escapes his lips, only to be cut short when he tilts his head back, giving you better access to his neck.
You look over his face, surprisingly too peaceful for him. Maybe this place really brought inner comfort to his soul, erasing all the doubts and burdens that he kept inside and sometimes shared with you. Maybe it was. But your heart broke at the sight of him for some reason, you understood his feelings more than anyone... Because you were probably the only one he was able to open up to so much.
âMicha? Youâre a good boy,â echoes from your lips almost casually, but with a sickly sweet note that you want to listen to forever and drown in these sweet speeches.
"What was it?"
You find yourself torn from examining his face by his question. And really, why did you say that? He didn't do anything special during your entire session, which lasted about half an hour. And you too... But one look at him is enough for you to understand why.
Your attentive gaze glides over his perfect facial features, long eyelashes giving his eyes an unusual softness and warmth. Instantly you feel the desire to say that he is beautiful, extraordinarily beautiful. Faithful hands, strength and tenderness in every touch, sincerity and warmth in every word, just for you. The desire to praise, to say how much love and kindness he has, how he is able to bring a smile even in the most cloudy weather.
His soul shines brighter than the stars in the sky, his smile can melt the heart of icy granite. The desire to praise, express gratitude for all the beauty and kindness that he brings into this world. He is not just a person, he is magic, miracle, a spark that pushes you to move even in your most difficult moments.
The words seem unfair, but the heart is filled with feelings that are impossible to carry on the wind. Praise, approval, love â all these are small before the greatness of his soul and his existence. You really want to tell him about this so that he understands how amazing and significant he is to you. Just as the sun rises every morning, he awakens in you a feeling of awe and admiration that seems endless and will remain so.
âBecause I love you,â You say without thinking, and immediately catch a light, rare blush on his cheeks.
His hand immediately drops down from your shoulder to cover the pink dust on his cheeks, but you intercept his hand, kissing his fingers tenderly, intertwining your fingers together.
"You idiot... Why so suddenly?" He asks, even if he doesn't wait for an answer, lightly kicking you in the side, groaning when you lean over him a little closer, hitting his sweet spot at a pleasant angle.
You find yourself thinking that you would worship him if he were God. Itâs not that you didnât already worship him... But he was definitely the person for whom even an atheist would reconsider their views on the world.
"Why suddenly? I'm always ready to praise you. You are tenacious, driven, incredibly smart, caring for those you care about in your own way... You are simply magnificent."
"Shut up, please shut up. I don't need your praise, just fuck me and..." He trails off, kicking you in the side again as he realizes something, "You didn't say that I'm handsome."
âYour beauty is a fact. But your appearance is far from the main thing that you have, even if you think differently... But if I started to list what I like about you externally, then we would move on to dithyrambs and ballads, and not to the climax."
Michael chuckles, finally distracted from contemplating you in response, realizing that he really feels a knot growing in his stomach. In general, he would never admit that he would be glad to listen to these dithyrambs and ballads and much more if it came from you. He's always taken praise for granted because, yes, he's Michael Kaiser, but now? He's just a puddle in your hands that's trying to look like ice.
âIâm not clenching around your cock right now because...â He cuts himself off, groaning as your mouth sucks on his neck in the area of his tattoo, âItâs not because I liked the praise, is that clear to both of us?â
âOf course, my King, as you say,â You say, biting the skin of his neck, causing him to whimper quietly as one of your hands slides to his cock, stroking it in time with your thrusts.
Your pace gradually picks up as you get closer too. And the sight of Michael, who clearly enjoyed your previous praise, did not at all ease your hard-on, nor did the warm walls around him.
"Call me!" He suddenly shouts, kicking you in the side once again, although you have no idea what he means at first, pulling away from his neck.
"Good boy?" You ask cautiously and to your surprise and pleasure, his cock twitches in your palm, and after a few thrusts he actually comes, squeezing you tighter than usual, which is why you canât help but cum, thrusting into him a couple of times in post-orgasmic bliss, and then laying down on his chest.
The quiet rhythm of his heartbeat calmed you as he lightly ran his hand through your hair. You were both regaining your more than ragged breaths before the comfortable silence was interrupted by a question that made you chuckle hoarsely.
âWhy did you ask this and not state it as a fact?â
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bsf!ellie x reader!!
SUMMARY: You get ready to a party with your best friend, but acting like you don't like her will be more difficult than ever tonight.
CW: r! is afab, r! shows her tits to ellie (?), alcohol game, and I think that´s all.
A/N: This took me forever to write but I really really liked how it turned out
PROMISE OF A DRUNKâ It was kind of difficult to bring Ellie to a party. She would always complain about it being just loud music, alcohol and sex; but what's all that called together if not fun?
Probably what you most liked about parties was that you could get drunk and tell Ellie all you thought about her,how much you liked her, how hot she was, how much you loved seeing her with that reading glasses she wore sometimes... Because you could deny everything the next day. "I said that? what?" "I didn't do that" (whatever it was, yes you did) "Nah I don't trust you. I'm not the type to say that", you would say. It would seem weird for others but only you (and Ellie) knew how difficult it was to not confess to your best friend in the middle of watching a movie, or making bracelets, or having a sleepover. So yeah, sometimes getting drunk was a scape way to all your pretending.
After convincing Ellie to go to tonight's party, as you always did, she came around to you house in black jeans, a white tank top and a black leather jacket thatâyou'd never admit, made you go FERAL. The auburn watched you as you showed her your possible outfits: skirts and going out tops. You kinda noticed how she stared at some part (2 parts, if you want me to specify) of your body. Far from feeling harassed, you kinda enjoyed Ellie's gaze, like... She was just your best friend who liked watching you(r tits) and you were her best friend who liked... Her. So why not enjoying it?
"Oh, and-" you lifted your top, leaving your braless tits exposed to the air. "How are them? Like, they look good?" Her expression was completely shocked and in the matter of seconds her face turned red like a tomato. Completely.
"I, uh... They're good, yeah." She said and immediately covered her face with her hand and looked away, focusing her gaze in the floral pattern of your blanket.
"You didn't even look." You laughed. Then she turned to see your tits and the colour in her face intensified, if that was even possible. After like five seconds of being hypnotised, she finally looked up at your eyes.
"Good." She nodded. "Are you happy now?"
"I think you're the happy one here." You chuckled to yourself and took off the top completely, ready to try another outfit.
With Ellie's help you chose a midnight blue top with some black skirt and boots you didn't put on yet. Now it was makeup time. After less than 10 minutes, she started getting bored.
"When will you finish?"
"Not now."
She whined. Twenty minutes later, your sparkly blue makeup was done and when you turned around, you found Ellie sleeping, spread in your bed and a dumb smile formed in your lips. You sat beside her and looked at her eyelashes for a second, then at her lips. Oh, her lips. Impulsively, you leaned in and kissed her.
Her forehead. Because it didn't matter how bad you wanted to kiss her lips and how you dreamed about it (asleep or not), you couldn't do something she didn't allow you to, you just weren't able to. Maybe you loved her too much. You leaned in, getting your mouth close to her ear. You blew her, causing her to wake up suddenly and to sit up with a little scream.
"Hey! It's not fu- oh" Her almost inexistent amount of annoyance was replaced by... Something? when she saw your makeup. "Woah. You always surprise me." Her lips were parted now.
"I know." you shrugged cockily. "Are my eyelashes symmetrical?" You got closer and blinked a few times, looking at her beautiful green eyes. She couldn't help it and looked down at your tits. She dug her own grave and she knew it but come on, she couldn't help herself. And you obviously noticed this.
"My eyelashes." You repeated to Ellie in a teasing tone.
"I'm looking at your eyelashes!" She protested as her emerald gaze shifted to your eyes again. "They're symmetrical."
"The eyelashes too?" She hit your leg, a slight blush creeping onto her beautiful freckled cheeks.
"Shut up." Her reaction made you chuckle.
"Can i do your makeup?"
"Uh, just nothing weird."
"Just eyeliner?"
"Yeah, that will be good."
"Sit against the headboard please." Ellie obeyed you. She knew that was an excuse to sit on her lap, but she wanted you to so...
You took the bag from your night table, ready to do your job. You sat on her lap, with your legs on each side of that pretty black jeans of hers.
"Look upside." Ellie did as you said and you started doing your job.
You felt your cheeks turning a completely different colour when Ellie placed her hands in your waist. You wouldn't admit how nervous you got because of that, and Ellie wouldn't admit she too even though she was the one who made the move. While you traced small lines all around Ellie's eye line, you couldn't help but notice she had gotten red as well. Crimson red. Even though you would've loved to mock her about that, you were in the same position as her so you shut up, both of you enjoying the closeness and at the same time pretending absolutely nothing was going on between you, even knowing that if one of you pulled the other girl's face closer in a kiss none of you would pull back in a long, long time.
You kept doing her eyeliner, trying to ignore the indecent thoughts of Ellie that crossed your mind, mashing up the images of Ellie when she was changing in the same room as you with right now where you sat on her with some Twitter videos you'd never admit you watched. She's your best friend and just your best friend. She's your best friend and just your best friend. She's your best friend and just your best friend, you repeated mentally trying to sound convincing. After like 5 minutes you were done, and with a phew you announced you were done.
"I thought I was gonna screw it."
"Me too." Ellie received a small hit in her arm.
"Hey!" You complained.
"I was joking, you're incredible." She said as she sobbed her arm.
"Oh, don't flirt with me now."
"You're delusional." You smiled at that.
"Shut up. Are we going to the party now?"
You took an Uber to the house of someone you didn't actually know, but you were invited by some friend anyways.
In the way there, you leaned your head in Ellie's shoulder with tranquility. You thought that maybe, if you had done something impulsive when doing her eyeliner, probably both of you would've been tense now, but that didn't happen and that wasn't even important to you right now because, come on, you were in Ellie's shoulder and her head was leaning on yours. Yeah, you used to do that but that didn't mean you couldn't get nervous, and getting nervous didn't mean Ellie would notice that. (Did it?)
12 pm
Music came from the inside of the luxury building, inviting you to come inside. The night was young and there wasn't any drunk people yet, not enough to notice.
You entered inside the building and in the kitchen you could see one of your friends, Dina, which was Ellie's best friend and when she saw you immediately gestured for the two of you to join the group she was with with a friendly expression.
"We'll have fun." You said and dragged Ellie with you by her hand as if she didn't know how to walk by herself.
2 am.
The vodka bottle, almost in the half now, rested in the middle of the round. If you didn't want to answer a question, two sips. If you didn't want to fulfill the dare, four sips.
"Truth." The blonde named Lacy said tilting her head to the side with a smirk.
"Who do you like?" Jesse asked.
"Oh come on." You complained about the same basic question everyone always make in truth or dare, interrupting; half of your politeness always faded away with a little of alcohol in your system. "Ask something interesting."
"Shut up. It's interesting." Jesse defended himself.
"Sure."
"Well, I like some girl who has short hair and is right here." She answered when your little argument with Jesse finished, looked at Ellie and winking at her.
If Ellie had been sober, she would have frozen and stay awkwardly silent. But she wasn't, so she smirked with a noticeable red face, looking the girl she didn't know down, and scratched her ear. If you had been sober, you would have dissimulated and tease your friend about the situation. But you wasn't, so you glared at the girl with the most pure hatred before shifting your gaze to Ellie. YOUR Ellie.
You placed your hand in the Auburn's thigh casually, something Lacy didn't overlook. And she shouldn't, you were threatening the hell out of her.
Ellie is mine. Stay away. As simple as that. Ellie looked at you with a surprised smile.
"Oh?" She got closer, you were frozen at this and when your soul came back to your body she was whispering in your ear. "Are you jealous baby? Is that why you touch me like that? Because I think she likes me."
She blabbed with a dumb smile. What did she call you? BABY? Your face was burning now and all you hoped (Besides Lacy's death) was that Ellie didn't notice your nervousness, which you were almost 100% sure overflowed your body, being almost palpable.
"I'm not." You said taking credit away from the situation. Your hand still rested in Ellie's thigh, wishing to go up. Now was Lacy's turn, who looked at you like you invented global warming.
"Truth or dare, Els?" Sorry? Els? Come on, only you called her like that. And Dina sometimes. Who the fuck did she think she was? Just going there and calling your girlfriend like that as if-
"Dare." She smirked.
"I dare you to kiss me." OH NO YOU FUCKING-, you shouted in your head as your poor knuckles turned white because of how tight you were clenching your fists. Ellie came closer to... The bottle? She directed it to her mouth and drank four sips, making a disgust expression.
"Sorry girl, I'm taken." She smiled at her before sitting beside you again. Now she was the one touching your thigh, sending shivers all over your leg.
"Taken?" You asked with true curiosity.
"By you." A silly smile appeared on her lips. She got closer in an attempt to kiss you.
"What are you doing?" You giggled at Ellie's interest for you, which she only showed when she was this drunk or talking between dreams, two things you were used to pretend that didn't happen because god it would be so awkward for Ellie to tell her about that, to confront her, to ask her if she had any actual feelings for you. You moved your head to the side so she ended up kissing your cheek. You didn't even perceive if she behaved like this JUST because of the alcohol or if she actually liked you and it was more difficult to hide it after some drinks but you decided to not think about it much, not now. Ellie rand her hand down your thigh slightly, squeezing it a little.
"Truth or dare?" The Auburn asked you.
"Truth."
"Do you like me?"
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Takes practice
Simon 'Ghost' Riley x Reader
Crossposting from AO3.
Part 1 >> Part 2
In my feel-good romance era. Usually more of a slap me pull my hair touch me there, there, there - no more talking. But not today. No SIR.
The bit regarding the satellite phones and telemarketers was inspired by the first chapters of Shadowed by Tarajanee. Absolutely adore that work and I thought those scenes at the beginning were lovely!
Word count: 13k
Summary: Simon is deployed for the first time since the beginning of your relationship. Instead of finding purpose in keeping the world clean, he finds it in keeping himself alive, because he's never been this eager to come home.
18+
CW: smut!!! dry humping, mutual masturbation, thigh fucking, P in V. Fluff, this is very fluffy. Soft Simon Riley, Simon is absolutely fucking whipped. Self-deprecating thoughts, intrusive thoughts, angst if you squint so don't squint and you'll only get yearning and love making.
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Simon doesnât remember your eyes.
Heâs been clawing at his face, both literally and metaphorically, because each time he closes his eyelids to succumb to exhaustion, he sees your face.
And youâre pretty. So much. He envisions the curve of your smile and how your lips part to give way to your teeth. The lines at the corners that scrunch your nose and how it flushes when itâs too cold out. He has memorized the shape of your brows for every expression. Knows the line of your cheekbones and how they swell under your eyes when you smile.
Your face is lovely, even when he conjures it in his head. But when your form breaks through the mist, he gets startled every time. Because he canât see your eyes.
It's like a mock picture of you. A mimicry gone bad. Youâre there, fresh and real, whispering sweet words to him, tossing a quip, or moaning breathlessly as he remembers the way heâs fucked you, but your eyes are carved out. Blank spots instead of the windows to your soul, like everyone always seems to chatter about.
Sure, he remembers the shape of your eyes, and if he takes deep breaths, cancels out Johnnyâs blabber blaring from his cot, and enters a deep meditative state, he might be able to draw their outline.
But itâs the shade he misses. Are they sapphire, dark, and cryptic? Or frostbite blues. Emerald, maybe. He ponders, but heâs not sure. Brown, like his? Chocolate, with swirling hazels like golden speckles. Stormy grey. Charcoal black. Amber. Gold. Fucking crimson.
He doesnât know.
But it's only been three months since he left.
And itâs been six months since Simon has taken you on his bed and fucked his name into you. Six months since heâs finally tasted your skin and imprinted your flavor on his tongue.Â
Itâs your fault, he thinks, if now everything he eats tastes bland. Nothing sweeter than the salt of you. The dichotomy is not lost on him. Heâs a rational man, and figures easily that skin can't be sweet, especially not after he made you sweat by pounding you into the mattress. Yet he might have lost a marble or two after that, because now not even honey can compare.
Which is why heâs moved his things in your room. Just because itâs bigger, he told you. No other reason, really. Â
Fucking liar.Â
But again, youâre as saccharine as you taste. And maybe not as naĂŻve as he thinks. Because ever since that night, six months ago, your hands often intertwine with his own when you guide him to bed â your bed.Â
And thatâs how he found a nightstand full of his things on the side closer to the doorway of the room. Thereâs the book youâve lent him and a re-filled plastic bottle of water right next to it, one that he should probably throw away like you constantly tell him. Something about microplastics, but fuck if he knows. Because ever since that night, heâs lost a bit of his logic, a lot more of his sanity: you can speak for hours on end and he wouldnât hear a damn thing if not for how your voice vibrates against his eardrums, sending tingles down his spine.Â
Surreptitiously, his things have started to appear in your room. He doesnât have much, a phew photos of his family are shuffled with your trinkets. Plain, white frames stuffed in between your smiles on pictures youâve taken with friends.Â
A frame of his medals, the ones you insisted he kept, nailed to the wall next to your PhD certificate.Â
Tidy, onyx wardrobe polluted with pinks and greens. Breathable cotton and faux furs. Fuzzy fabrics that leave a rainbow of synthetic hairs on his clothes. He doesnât bother to pluck them off, itâs just another piece of you heâs lucky to carry around.
His old bedroom turns into a storage room. Filled with boxes of forgotten things and broken appliances you canât be bothered to fix.Â
And he promises to tinker a little with the vacuum, so you wonât have to spend money on a new one and use your savings for your guilty pleasures. That book you saw when you went out together for groceries? Consider it yours. The cooking classes you wanted to attend at that restaurant youâre always raging about? Heâs already bought you a pristine new apron.Â
And maybe heâll take you there, too. Ask for a more secluded table where he can still spot the door, so he can also uncoil the muscles of his back and use his eyes only to look at you, instead of having them dart around for dangers.
But fuck, he canât do any of that now.Â
Itâs his first mission after that night, six months ago, and Simon is already feeling withdrawal symptoms. Youâre worse than morphine on a dying man; you leave him aching for something he knows he can have because you're so obviously there, but heâs so stupidly far away.
And he canât even tell you where he is. Canât even give you some peace of mind. Can barely call you, because Johnnyâs been hogging the satellite phone to talk to Lord-knows-who.
The Scot is not selfish, Simon knows he would only have to ask, and the bulky device would practically materialize in his hand. But Simon also knows that if he dared, he wouldnât hear the end of it. Because in the years spent in the task force, heâs never needed to call anyone.Â
Canât call the dead, now, can you?Â
And now, popping a question like that would only raise suspicions. It would have his mates up his arse until his head would split in half.
But itâs been six months since that night. Three months since he left.Â
And that pocket of time heâs managed to spend with you, uninterrupted, almost made him accustomed to civilian life. To the lack of his mask and the AC of the flat breezing against his face. The taste of homecooked meals. The constant presence of another soul (a beautiful one at that) in his same space.Â
With you, heâs never parched â of anything. You feed him mind, heart and body, showering him with that innocent love you so easily dispense, allowing him to bathe in it.Â
Heâd listen to your never-ending chat for days. His mind has always roared with sounds, yet the more noise you make the more you silence it. Baffling, really, how heâs spent his whole life looking for quiet and found it in the loudest person on earth.
Heâs always sated with your kisses, your words, your quick mind and razor-sharp wit, your moans and your mewls, and God, anything you were willing to give. Your lips, your spit, the juices he makes you drip, and the ones he makes you spray. He dreams of cupping your clit with his mouth as he ravages your cunt with two thick fingers until youâre splashing on his tongue. Heâd drink you dry, if youâd let him.Â
And oh, you have.Â
Thereâs  the wonderful catch. These are not wishes; these are memories. Too real and fresh ones for them to be just another one of his daydreams.
Finally, after three months of pondering â or better, yearning â he realizes that every skin-prickling migraine his mates would induce is worth the sweet, sweet sound of your voice.
Heâs disgustingly sweaty. He tugs at the lip of his collar and grimaces when he feels the cotton unstick from the dampness on his chest.Â
Johnny's sitting idly, enjoying the few days of break from mayhem. Just a handful of hours allowed, really, enough to get them back on their feet â tactical planning, refill of their resources. Boring shite like that. But at least itâs a breather all right.
âGot the phone, Johnny?â He grumbles.
And Johnny would love to act as none the wiser, but his eyes peek from behind the sketchbook he holds in his hand. The smirk that curls at his lips has Simon roll his eyes.Â
He makes a beckoning gesture with his fingers, giving him a pointed look. âJohnny.â
âL.T.â He responds in kind. âCallinâ the landlord?â
Simon levels him with a deadpan look that could freeze the desert theyâre stuck in. âSergeant.â
Bastardâs too cunning for his own good.
Johnny drops the sketchbook immediately, showing the lieutenant his palms in defense. The cheeky bastard that he is doesnât manage to conceal the absolute fascination in his eyes. Heâs studying his superior as if heâs staring at another species.
And Simon doesnât blame him. Heâs like a sock thatâs been turned inside out, the negative image of himself. All that gloomy energy turned blinding light, ever since heâs had a taste of what life could be with you in it.
But alas, no one wants to have the Ghost up their arse, so Johnny looks around the messy area around his cot and plucks the girthy satellite phone out of it.
Simon picks it up by pinching the tiny antenna on its side. It prompts Johnnyâs smirk to broaden.Â
âHavenât done anythinâ with it.â He quips, letting it hang in the air for a second longer. âOr have I.â
Simon grunts a noise of disgust. âSpare me.â
He finds a secluded spot in the area they're occupying. There's nothing around them but the rubble of a city that has been torn by war and time. The sight is dour, and the silence echoes a dark past he hasnât witnessed. Even so, the remains of the buildings are tall enough to offer their lot some cover.Â
He slides with his back against a wall, knees spread wide.Â
He knows your number by heart, his thumb presses each button with newfound resolve. Only when he brings the phone to his ear, does his determination falter. Because he hasn't contacted you in any way, shape, or form for three months. So, what if youâre livid, now? Youâd have every right. Heâd understand if youâd rip him a new one through the receiver. He just hopes you didnât spend these days rethinking your choices.Â
God, youâve infected him with this overthinking bullshit.
âHello?â Your voice breaks through the fog in his brain, like a hand wiping mist from glass, and his own breath threatens to choke him. Heâs speechless for a moment, forgetting how to function properly.
Just your voice has sent his mind into overdrive - burnt his synapses to ashes.Â
He reckons heâs completely fucked.
âHello?â You repeat, sounding a little more annoyed.Â
You grumble something about telemarketers having lost the decency to call at a reasonable hour. And when he doesn't answer again, he hears you sigh. Your voice gets all clinical, then, as if you were trained to repeat the same script over and over. âListen, if youâre trying to sell me somethinâ, my husbandâs not home â he takes care of that stuff.â
He snorts.
âYour husband?â
Silence.
Thereâs a sort of shifting sound, he gathers you might have removed the phone from your ear and checked for the number on the screen. He can practically see your eyes squinting at the phone.
He hears you gasp, and he hints at a smile. Fucking hell, he doesnât remember the last time heâs done that.
âSimon?â You venture.
âHello, love.âÂ
You squeal, and he pulls the phone away from his ear with a grimace. But heâs tired of lying to himself â his heart is soaring.Â
"Christ. Made my ears ring," he deadpans.
You chuckle, sighing afterward, as if a weight has been lifted from your chest. God, youâre a dream to listen to. If only he could also look at your face right now, just bask in the way your smile would light up the room.Â
âServes you right,â you chide him, as if that could ever be a punishment. âCouldâve called a little earlier than three months in. Was already looking for a new flatmate.â
Heâs eternally thankful for the skull mask, even if itâs soddened with his sweat because if anyone were to walk by, they wouldnât see how his face has softened.Â
âYeah?â He sniffs, âMade a new flyer and all thaâ?âÂ
âOh yeah,â You agree flippantly. Thereâs a shuffling sound that reminds him of bedsheets. âMade sure to add my boyfriend left me as a footnote.â
The corners of his lips twitch minutely.Â
âThought it was your husband who wasnât home.â He retorts. âGot a stash of âem, then?â
Your chuckle is a breath of fresh air. He wants to have it imprinted in his eardrums, replacing the aggravating tinnitus.Â
âOh, yâknow,â you sigh dramatically. âBit oâ this, bit oâ that. Keeps things interesting.â
âGotta have a chat with the lad, then.â He taunts, âSet some rules.â
âGood luck with that. He rarely listens.â
He hums fondly. Itâs all he can give you, right now.Â
Heâs new to this, relationships have never been his forte. For the first time in his life, heâs having someone else guide him. Itâs hard, he wonât deny it, having another set of hands grasp the wheel, instead of his own. But heâs letting you, however slowly. Youâre understanding, and youâre allowing him to leave his foot on the brakes. You never push him, you go at his pace â even if itâs blatantly annoying, how sluggish his movements are. Yet you donât seem to mind, and heâs eternally grateful for it.
âHowâŚâ You start. He can tell youâre unsure, whether or not you can ask these things. Whether or not he can answer them. âHow are you?â
His eyes soften.Â
âGood,â he reassures you. ââS hot.â
You hum. âNorth Africa.â
He clicks his tongue. âNo.â
âOkay.â A beat. âMiddle East?â
Eh.  âNo.â
You gasp.Â
âYouâre throwing me off guard, arenât you? You said itâs hot, but it actually isnât.â You say cleverly, even if youâre aware itâs most likely untrue. âNorth America, then. Like - Canada.â
âDrop it, maybe.â He offers gently. âMaking a fool oâ yourself.â
âAlaska.âÂ
âLove.â  He warns, but his voice is kind. âWastinâ time.â
âMh, the script has changed, I see.â You tease him, and he can tell youâre smiling, by the way your voice comes. âThought you were gonna hit me with the classified.â
âLike to keep you on your toes.â
âBeen on my toes for three months.â
His heart clenches a little. He doesnât want that. Doesnât want you to live on the line like that. He wonders if youâve ever felt like this, in the four years heâs lived with you without having anything tethering each other, if not a casual friendship. Were you ever afraid when he left for his deployments? Or is this new to you, like it is for him?
âFixed the vacuum, by the way.â You tell him lightly, as if sensing the tense air your comment has instilled.Â
He silently thanks you for breaking the silence when he couldnât. A gentle huff of relief travels through the receiver.Â
âWhat was the problem?â He asks, even if not really fussed about the state of the thing.
âFuck if I know.â You shrug. âGave it a few whacks and it started working again.â
He fails to keep in a huff of laughter. âFucking hell, âs thaâ what youâve been doing, then? Hitting appliances?â
âFixing appliances.â You correct him. âAnd stress baking. Lots of it.â
âWorkâs botherinâ ya?âÂ
âSâfine.â You sigh sweetly, as though that could give him some peace of mind. âEverythingâs fine over here, you donât have to worry.â
Selfless angel, you are. He would have to be daft not to realize that youâre probably leeching your heart dry at the thought that something might happen to him. He feels like a fool for not having contacted you sooner, even when he had only a minute to spare.
His pride be damned.
ââM sorry I didnât call earlier.â He apologizes, because the least he can do is hope you forgive him for being like a baby deer on ice about all this.Â
âYou called.â Your voice is soft. ââS what matters.â
He knows what you mean. Heâs alive, thatâs what matters. Heâs faring good enough to chat with you, thatâs what matters. Heâs missing you as much as youâre longing for him, thatâs what matters.Â
He leans forward, bracing his elbows on his knees. His offhand runs across his face and he has to rip his own head out of his arse before the thoughts overwhelm him.Â
How can he put you through this?  He shouldâve left three weeks in, four years ago; shouldâve let you share your home with someone more reliable, one who didnât have a blade oscillating above his neck.
And yet at the same time, he can't let go of you.Â
Youâre so good to him, youâre the drop of water in a life thatâs always felt arid. You made his barren heart flourish without even trying â he didnât think anyone could, he thought he was bound to be frozen soil, not a garden. But here you fucking are, with your tiny watering can, nourishing the earth and causing it to sprout.
Heâs selfish. He is. There is no karmic balance in his reasons. The scale tips in his favor through and through, because heâs sure youâre not gaining anything from this relationship, if not a spike in anxiety and its hand around your neck.
âHow long?â You ask, seemingly unable to bear the silence.
"Few weeks." He croaks and clears his throat when he notices how cracked his voice sounds. âBe back in three. Could be two, if things go to plan.â
The silence on your end is deafening. Unwittingly giving him a taste of his own medicine.
âCountdown starts, then.â You reply with that sunshine in your voice. Sunbeams through ominous clouds. âGonna tally the days on the wall with one of your can openers.â
He snorts. âLotta money to fix.â
âWe can put ugly wallpaper over it,â you propose. âSo the next person to rent the place will remove it and a whole kidnapping slash ghost story will spread around the neighborhood.â
Youâre crazy, he thinks, but not unkindly. His heart squeezes in his chest.
âFucking numpty.â
âFucking numpty, or fucking numpty, derogative?â
He smirks. âFormer.â
âWonderful.â You say with a pinch of a smile he canât see, sounding all smug.
However, nothing nice can last forever, not in Simon Rileyâs plane of existence. He spots his captain approaching him, fiddling with the boonie hat in his grasp while his other hand lazily dries droplets of sweat on his forehead.
âGotta go.â He mutters. Waits a bit. Shuffles through his thoughts and decides to swallow his pride, because you deserve at least that much. âMissed you. Still do.â
You're silent for a moment longer before you give him a last glimpse of your voice. The one he'll hold onto like a lifeline for the next three â hopefully two â weeks.Â
âMiss you too.â You say gently. âCome home soon.â
And heâs back suddenly.Â
Earlier than expected, at that â one week only. Price was all business, a few days after he caught him sneaking a phone call. Telling him things like âNeed you at HQ. Work with Laswell, make sure classified intel stays classifiedâ. And when he questioned why would he send his sniper and lieutenant to do a job an analyst should do, Price answered with a curt âBecause I can trust youâ.
Honestly, what could he have said to that? Even if it smelled fishy from afar, his reasoning sounded mostly reliable. Because you would send your most trusted to deal with sensitive information, right? And if Simon were a bit more daft and a bit less intuitive, he would've shrugged it off.Â
But it was plain as day when his boot landed on British soil, duffel bag in hand. When his phone pinged after he turned off airplane mode, and a text popped up:
[Unknown number]: Take a few days off for the jet lag.Â
That he realized the ploy his teammates had concocted. To be honest, he wasnât as resentful as he thought he was going to be. There was lingering thankfulness â somewhere, deep below layers and layers of stoicism.
[You]: Time zones arenât that different.Â
[Unknown number]: Take a few days off to just rest, then.Â
[You]: Not that tired.Â
[Unknown number]: Never took you for one to question orders.Â
[You]: Never took you for one to put personal life before our job.Â
Simon waited patiently under the overhanging lip of the hangar. The Kevlar of his glove crinkled as his fingers curled around the hand of his duffle bag. The rain creates a gentle buzz against the metal.
It took a while for the other bubble to appear, as if the other person â most likely Price, judging by the vocabulary used in the texts â was thinking about the right thing to say.
And the right thing it was, when the words fluttered on Simonâs phone screen.
[Unknown number]: About time you put yours first, though.Â
Simon, for once, agreed.
ââââââââââââ
The keys slide into the keyhole with familiarity. He turns it three times, content to see youâve locked the door all the way. When he steps in, the flat is quiet, but he isnât expecting otherwise. Itâs late at night, the hands of the clock thatâs hanging above the telly mark somewhere around three in the morning, but itâs too dark to be sure.Â
He's ever so gentle when he closes the door and gingerly sets the duffle bag at his feet.Â
The first thought popping in his head itâs you. Youâre not expecting him to be back so soon, and he has this trepidation in him that wants to command his feet to the door of your bedroom only to see how youâd react to his unexpected presence.
But he takes a moment to digest this new feeling.Â
It's hard to realize that, finally, you're not dreading something. For the first time in an excruciatingly long while, Simon isn't afraid. While his brain is rigidly wired in a way that makes him refuse to acknowledge his vulnerabilities, the heart knows best.
And he is scared. Heâs always been scared, ever since his mother granted him the possibility of walking this earth. Being excited to live has never been his strong suit, but heâs learning. Heâs trying.Â
Takes practice, to accept youâre worth your happiness.
So, as a novice learner, itâs a little jarring to realize that when his feet land on the hardwood floors of this house, there's no need for fear. He can tuck the dread away, stuff it in a pocket, and close the flap, all the while being sure no harm will come his way. Certainty that with you thereâs no need for all that, for vigilance â he can unravel the knots, and simply feel what comes, because it's not going to hurt him.Â
You could never.
Hooking a finger under the hem of the balaclava, he snatches it off his head and lays it on the shelf next to the doorway. Itâs soaked in rain, but heâll wash it tomorrow. And heâll use your fabric softener, so itâll smell like your sheets.Â
The flat looks awfully dull with the lights off. The bright colors are mere shades of grey, and while heâll never admit it out loud, he truly thinks the orange of the eastern wall brightens the room as you've told him. The thought itself baffles him â Simon Riley now knows a thing or two about home design. Youâve changed him in ways he never expected.Â
However, the thing that shocks him even more than his newfound knowledge of home interior embellishments, is when the smell of baked goods bullies its way into his nose. His mouth waters in a Pavlovian response.Â
Right. Â
Stress baking.Â
He kneels to unlace his boots, before toeing them off gently, making sure they wonât thud against the floor and disturb your sleep. Then, he practically floats to the kitchen, still unbelieving at the idea that he gets to come home and find delicacies as such ready to eat. Sometimes, in the span of life he decides to call the âBefore youâ, heâd snatch a few MREs from the stash in base and eat them once back in his flat.Â
Easy, quick, and edible. Even if they taste like cardboard.
And now he gets to walk into a kitchen that smells like blueberries and buttercream and black tea. He gets to grab a lumpy muffin from the tray on the kitchen island and sink his teeth in its golden and blue fluff. The flavors erupt on his tongue, from the saccharine spongy cake to the sweet tang of the blueberry juice as the fruit bursts under his teeth.
He selfishly hopes your stress baking will last for a few more days.
Nevertheless, while heâd gladly eat the whole tray if it were up to him, thereâs something he craves more than a full stomach. And you're currently waiting in the other room, probably tucked under the duvet because the British weather tonight is rigidly cold.Â
He shrugs off his wind jacket and drapes it over the backrest of a kitchen chair. He canât afford to take any steps backward. The coat rack is just a few paces back from the kitchen, nailed to the wall near the entrance, but he really doesnât care. That handful of seconds is too precious to waste.
The steps he takes through the dark hallway are measured and silent; years of special forces training have taught a man his size how to be what his callsign implies.
Discreetly, he turns the knob, trying to make sure he wonât wake you with a startle because the door has barged open. However, the one caught by surprise itâs him. Because youâre not asleep, even if itâs three in the morning.Â
Oh, he wants to give you a proper earful â sure, he's not your father, and if you're so keen on staying awake up until this hour on a weekday, then it's your funeral.Â
Does it help school the unruly necessity of keeping you as healthy as can be? Absolutely fucking not. Youâre a heathen and he hates you for it.Â
But now youâre resting your back against the headboard, cross-legged on the bed. Satin blue navy camisole paired with matching shorts, big headphones on your ears, and your laptop on the mattress. Youâre typing away. Heâs sure youâve pushed back an assignment from work and now youâre running out of time.
The room is dark, the only light being the screen of your computer casting your silhouette against the wall behind you. Itâs silent aside from the patter of rain on the windowpane â you havenât closed the blinds because Simon knows you love the moon flooding your room with gentle light. However, tonight the clouds are dominating the night sky, but the lampposts across the street are doing what the moon canât, and you seem to favor that over complete darkness.
Itâs clear you havenât noticed him yet, music blaring in your ears and eyes focused on the monitor. But heâs seen you all right. And your eyes are cast downward, your lashes like annoying curtains depriving him of what he's been missing for the past three months.Â
In spite of how muffled his movements have been, you seem to notice a shift in the air. Something that makes your skin prickle, a pair of eyes that shouldnât be in the same room, nor in the same flat â not now, at least, when he should be mummified in Kevlar and breathable cotton somewhere in the desert. He's secretly proud of how easily you seem to feel fluctuations in the environment. Makes him take a breath of relief, that your reflexes aren't dull even when your senses are already busy.
You lift your head swiftly, and he helps you focus on him by flicking up the light switch. The sudden brightness makes you squint, but you blink it away and finally clock him at the door.Â
And your eyes are the color of the sun, he thinks. How could he forget, that theyâre the color of a bonfire when it's cold out. Of yellows, oranges, and those occasional sparkles of green when the wood is not dry, but still burns to keep him warm.
Realization paints your face with stunning colors: darkening cheeks, eyes shaped like crescent moons under the pressure of rising cheekbones. Mouth curving beautifully, and it seems to catch your teeth. The smile stretches your lips abruptly, morphing your face in spare seconds.
He sees it happen in slow motion. You rip your headphones and carelessly toss them on the bed, your laptop is skewed to the side so quickly that he instinctively reaches out a hand to prevent its fall. Thankfully, the stars are on your side tonight, and the balance tips it on the mattress, instead of the floor.Â
Youâre a little hurricane, scurrying off the bed and kicking off the sheets. Getting on your feet and almost slipping in the attempt to reach him in as little time as possible. A tornado of limbs envelops him in the blink of an eye. He barely has time to react that youâre already coiled around him like ivyâ arms, legs, and all.
Luckily, the doorway is right behind him, and he manages to tumble back and lean against it. Your arms are vines around his neck. Your legs are roots encircling his waist. You seem to grow on him, supplying his wretched heart with the sap of life you carry â symbiotic. He feels like he can breathe again and has been doing it wrong all this time.
He helps your balance by keeping a firm hold around your waist with his arms, encapsulating you in his warmth. Lean fingers spread on your back, yearning to touch as much as he can reach.
âEasy,â he rumbles. His voice is hoarse because whatever reaction he'd imagined, all this fussing surely wasnât it.
Your fingers thread through his hair and tug lightly at his scalp. Heâs silently apologetic because it must be wet with both rain and sweat, and he's sure the smell wafting from him isn't exactly cologne-worthy. But you don't seem to care, because after you've thoroughly inspected the crook of his neck, your face comes back into view.
Your eyes are the color of joy.
âWelcome back.â You whisper, as if itâs a secret between you two. And you kiss him because surely you must want it as much as he does. A flutter of lashes brushes his cheekbone when you tilt your head to deepen the kiss. Nails scrape at his scalp in the gentlest of ways.Â
Simon feels your smile before he sees it. âYou taste like blueberries.â
And he exhales against your lips. âFound âem waiting for me in the kitchen. Baked for an army, yâ have.â
You peck his lips once more, as if you couldnât fathom a second longer without having them on yours. âFigured youâd be hungry. MRIs canât be that tasty.â
"MREs,â he corrects. âAnd youâre right. They ainât.â
Simon is not sure heâs ever received such a warm welcome, or such warmth in general. Heâs not going to complain, of course, but that doesn't mean it leaves him any less rattled each time.
He gently sets you down at the edge of the mattress, standing between your legs â which youâve pliantly spread to make room for him.
You gesture with your hand from left to right, "Potato, Po-tah-to."
"One is food, the other is medical equipment," he deadpans.
You glare up at him, as if to ask what the hell he wants now â it's three in the morning. Canât be arsed to correct vowels at three in the morning.
âPotato.â You enunciate it better now, and it steals a lazy grin from him. âPo-tah-to.â
After having flicked your forehead at your insistence, he reverently lays his hand on your cheek and spreads his fingers into your hair.
âAlright?â You ask him.
âMhmh,â itâs his only reply.
If only to feel you more, he guides your face to his belly. You seem to appreciate the gesture because you're already nuzzling his shirt, fisting it at his back for good measure. Simon feels your back expand and deflate under his palm when you breathe. Feels the rhythmic thump thump of your heart at his fingertips.
Youâre life in its purest form.Â
Face first into his abdomen, your voice is obviously muffled, but he hears it clearly anyway. "You smell like a sewer, mate."
He snorts, and lightly tugs at your hair, enough to make your head tilt back. He squints his eyes at you. âCry âbout it, mate.â
Simon bends at the waist as you chuckle. Places a kiss on the crown of your head. Your eyes flutter closed and so do his.Â
For a moment, thereâs nothing but you two. The world muffles its noise to favor the sound of your breaths. The rain patters against the windowpane. Your laptop has gone into standby mode so now the screen is dark. The mellow light on the ceiling, a pale yellow, is like your discreet personal spotlight.Â
Then, he reluctantly pulls away, and you chase him for more, pouting when he doesnât seem to come back. But when he starts to undress, your scowl is easily replaced by a lazy grin. To increase the dramatics of the moment, you lean back on your elbows and wiggle your brows at him, âWell, well.â
Youâre not subtle at all with the way your eyes follow a trail down his back, how the muscles fold when his hand reaches to the collar of his shirt and pulls it off his head. Curves and muscles and the indent of his spine. Skin freckled with scars you never ask a thing about because you're kind and youâre giving him time to open up on his own.
Heâs put on some weight ever since your relationship has transitioned into something more meaningful, including feelings he still doesnât have the guts to acknowledge. His abs are not as defined as before, theyâre tucked under a layer of fat heâs not really accepting as of lately. The scar running across his stomach and its other companions only add to his self-deprecating streak.
He eyes you briefly as he unbuckles his belt, searching for what heâs sure is going to be a grimace, but he's met instead with the stupidest look heâs ever witnessed. Slow blinking at his form the more he undresses himself. Lips parted as if youâve tried and failed to catch your jaw.
And that gives him the right to take those thoughts and shove them into the fear pocket. Sew it shut. No need to fear a thing, if you look at him that way.
You bite the tip of your tongue between your teeth. "Givin' me a show, lieutenant?"
The corner of Simonâs lips tugs upward and the sudden self-hatred sublimates under the warm adoration in your eyes.
âCheeky little thing,â he rumbles, letting his khakis pool at his ankles. He steps out of them and shrugs them off when they catch his feet.Â
One last step, and heâs already hooking a finger under the hem of your blue camisole, slowly lifting it up. There's an impish gleam in your eyes that promises trouble and he would love nothing more than to drown in whatever disaster you're planning.
He stands between your legs only in his underwear and after youâve shut the laptop and placed it on your nightstand, your hands immediately come to rest on his stomach. Simon sighs at the touch.
âYouâre a menace,â he says gently when you drum your fingers up to his chest.
Honestly, he hopes you donât care if he smells like a cocktail of grime and sweat and rain, because, as much as he wishes for a hot shower, the sight of you melts whatever need away.Â
Your eyes travel downward, taking a generous eyeful of him. However, he knows youâre not just ogling; you're searching him for wounds.Â
Bandages.Â
Sutures.Â
Anything  that might tell you whether he's hurt or not.Â
Obviously, Simon knows you want to ask. But youâre sensible when it comes to his job. In spite of the jabs about all the âClassifiedâ heâs given you as answers, he knows you donât hold a grudge against him. He also doesn't like to bring work at home, taking pains to leave his safe space untainted by it â instead, he lets you do the detective work yourself.Â
A sweet sigh leaves your lips when you settle on the fact that he's unscathed, and you lift your arms up to help him take off your top.
"A menace?" You quip, feigning offense. "Mânot the one looking naked and yummy."
âYouâre about to.â
You donât look away from his eyes when his fingers pull your top up and off. The camisole is gently removed past your head, the satin leaving your hair a little staticky.Â
âA menace,â he murmurs once more, his tone softer now as he tosses the garment in a vague direction.
You wrap your arms around his waist, propping your chin on the hollow between his ribs, taking in his face as the sight that it is to your eyes. He doesnât have the energy to question why, and just basks in the adoring attention and in the well-deserved skin-to-skin contact.
"How was it this time?" You ask gently.
His arm drapes over your shoulders, slowly stroking at your skin. A tender kiss to your hairline has you automatically sighing. You do it every time he kisses your head. He's mentally taken note of how his lips press a button of sorts that makes it all wash away, like suds under the jet of water.
âSame as always,â he murmurs, keeping his tone low and soft for your ears only.Â
You hum in acknowledgment. "So?"
He smirks, a curve hidden in your hair. âClassified.â
You scoff and playfully slap his butt. He pulls back with a newfound glow in his eyes.
âNot Full Metal Jacket, if youâre wondering.âÂ
You hum, deciding to play along. âSpies involved?â
He snorts and tucks a rogue lock behind your ear. âSure.â
You poke his chest as you make your definitive guess. âThree days of the condor!â
His eye twitches when, amongst the myriads of films youâve ever watched in your life, you quote the one with the CIA involved. He has to flatten his face into something more neutral. Surely yours was a clear shot in the dark that somehow hit the right spot â even a broken clock is right, twice a day. Still, your blind guess doesnât leave him any less distressed.
âSorta.â He offers through gritted teeth.
And you donât push any further, sluggishly resting your cheek on his belly.
"Were you more Robert Redford?â You mumble with half-closed eyes, "Or Faye Dunaway?â
Relief washes over him and he canât help but huff. Plops a hand on top of your head and smooths down to the ends of your locks, rolling them between the pads of his fingers.
âFaye Dunaway, love.â He rumbles. âNo question.â
You playfully tighten the hold around his waist, and with a tug, he's pulled down onto the bed. Simon knows he could easily win whichever battle if youâre the opponent, but heâll always pretend to struggle just to humor you. Heâs careful though, so he props himself on his forearms to avoid crushing you with his bulk.Â
Gently, you kiss his nose but he doesnât pull away, instead allowing the kiss to be reciprocated on your cheek. He reaches out for the switch next to the headboard and turns off the lights.Â
Your eyes are the color of a summerâs night.Â
Theyâre dark but twinkle with starlight. Pupils blown and the glowing halo of your irises around them like an eclipsed sun. The light coming from outside seems to favor you, creating shapes around your face able to turn you into a dream made reality.
âIâll call in sick tomorrow.â You tell him, nose to nose.Â
âWon't bother anyone, will it?â He asks mindfully, although he cares very little if your co-workers might get a little miffed about your last-minute call.
You shake your head softly, causing your noses to brush. âNope, theyâll understand.â
And so, he unfolds, rolling onto his back and taking you with him. Your head is guided by a big hand to rest on his chest. He fits you perfectly into his side, making sure every piece of you adheres like glue to his skin.
âYâneed a shower?â You murmur in his skin, eyes fluttering closed. Your fingers are tracing mindless patterns on his chest, skimming over hair and the odd scar here and there.
âTomorrow,â he replies quietly. âSleep now.â
âAlright,â you whisper. âWake me up when you do, yeah?â
âSure.â He says, looking down at the top of your head. He leaves a kiss in its ruffled mess.
âGânight, love.â He breathes.Â
You murmur it back, and fall into your slumber.
ââââââââââââ
Simon opens his eyes with his heart thundering in his chest. He doesnât know why, and likely pegs it to mere habit. Three months stuck in hypervigilance will have your body unconsciously overreact at the most subtle of changes, even if there are none.
Thereâs too much light in the room for it to be night, and a single look at the window tells him the sun is just shy of rising.Â
During the night, you mustâve moved around and he must have followed you, because now he has your back to his chest. An arm slung around your waist, the other tucked beneath your neck.Â
He gently tugs the duvet a little higher, over your shoulder, and spends the next few minutes just looking at how peaceful you look.
Next to a killer.Â
His stomach churns wildly.Â
Youâre home,  his heart says. Youâre not a killer here.Â
A shame, truly, that his brain doesnât agree in the slightest. Two organs fighting like separate entities, and the whole brawl is happening inside of him, mercilessly tearing his flesh apart.Â
But itâs already broken, isnât it? What else is there to shred.Â
Yet heâs home and youâre comfortable next to him. So how broken can he be, really?
Torn. Shredded. Lookinâ like you went through the grinder and barely came out of it alive.Â
He forces his eyes shut and buries his face in your hair, nuzzling your nape.Â
Pretty thing, she is. Who the fuck dâyou think you are, mh?Â
A sharp inhale. Breathing you in. You smell sweet enough for the sounds in his head to buzz out. Not silent yet, but quiet enough for him to have a breather.
You donât know how long it takes for his body to expel the exorbitant amount of adrenaline produced in three months of deployment. How his back cracks when it hits the comfortable mattress of yours and his bedroom, after having spent way too much time packed like a sardine on sordid cots or much-too-small sleeping bags.
How he fucking hates it, when you feel so soft and untouched, while he has more scars than bloody years on his back.Â
Not right. Ainât fucking right to you.Â
His hand snakes from your waist to follow the curve of your arm. He follows the bulge it makes under the comforter. The rain has turned into a light drizzle, allowing the sound of his skin brushing over yours and the shuffle of the blanket to echo in his ears.
He scoots impossibly closer, pressing your back against his chest hoping your skin would mold with his. Nose buried in the crook of your shoulder; kisses light as breeze following the length of it.Â
You smell so good you disarm him. He sighs as if heâs been utterly defeated, lost a battle he didnât even know he was fighting.Â
His mind hushes, finally. His heart unwinds itself â springs let loose, pulse calm.Â
Thereâs you. The way your breaths come. Your limbs stirring at the gooseflesh left by his kisses. The rising sun lapping at your skin. The rise and fall of your back.Â
Itâs calm.
Your head turns slightly, looking over your shoulder. You must only see his eyes, lazily glancing at you through pale lashes.
Yours are a dawning sun.
Theyâre soft and gentle, pale yellows and blues, peeking above the sheer horizon of sleep youâre trying to overcome. Idle, slow, but most welcome.
âHey,â you croak, blinking the drowsiness away. âYou okay?â
He hums a quiet yeah in your skin. Hasnât even noticed his hand returning to your stomach and pulling you in, angling you against his lap.Â
And fuck him, but heâs sporting the hard-on of a lifetime.Â
He knows youâll understand that heâs been deprived of such pleasures for three months, but it doesnât make him any less embarrassed. A hand in his pants, while he hid somewhere more private in the middle of nowhere was a temporary fix that fixed very fucking little. Especially not after having been spoiled by you.
Simon doesnât necessarily want to fuck you, now. Sure, his dick might have a head of its own, and he wouldnât complain against it were it to happen, but he still has control of his actions. And now he just wants to feel you, whether inside or out doesnât matter â as long as itâs you.
Nevertheless, he isnât expecting you to have much different plans. Naturally, he isnât going to protest.
Your ass tentatively presses against his length, the satin of your shorts sliding easily along the cotton of his boxers. Youâre still so sleepy â he sees you digging a knuckle in your eye, nostrils flaring as you let out a big yawn.Â
Were you aware of what you were doing, or were you being a goddamn minx?
âWell, good morninâ,â you murmur, a lick of a smile on your lips. âBrought me a souvenir from bumfuck nowhere?â
Minx it is.Â
He snuffs out a chuckle by harshly pressing his lips against your shoulder, sewing his lips shut. Unfortunately, his chest rumbles against your back and you catch it before he manages to catch himself.Â
Your hand goes to rest above his own on your stomach, fingers intertwining.Â
Soft skin on both sides: palm to your belly, knuckles to your hand. Heâs sandwiched in bliss. Three months away, barely any contact, and all he apparently needed to alleviate some wounds was just a handful of hours spent asleep in your presence.
His lips part slightly. Kisses turn wetter and teeth bite at your neck, his tongue darting out to subsequently soothe the ache. Your hand has already guided his own to your breast, and your mouth is breathing sounds heâs missed.
And he tells you, because why should he hide a thing from you.
âMissed ya,â he croaks, voice a little shaky for reasons unknown. He could look in his head (or his heart) and find them â surely, theyâre there. But he figures the present feels much better than the jumbled mess inside.
Reasons can wait.
âLet me feel you, yeah?âÂ
Your head bending backward to his face is the answer you give him, back pressed flush against his chest. You guide his hand up and squeeze it around the fat of your breast to assert your approval.Â
But heâs not satisfied with that. Needs your voice to tell him itâs alright, that youâre not under some sleep-induced spell. That youâre fine with having him feel you, and youâre not just offering yourself because heâs been away for so long and you want to give him some sort of reward.
Simply, that you want him as much as he wants you.
His voice is raspy and low, âWords, love.â
"Please," you whisper and vigorously grind your ass against his groin. âTouch me.â
He hisses and presses forward too, meeting your movements.Â
Heâs still a little out of it, senses overrun by the general fatigue clinging to his muscles as the aftermath of deployment, his bones weary and getting accustomed once more to the comfort of a bed instead of a cot.Â
Mind absolutely quiet.
He flicks his thumb over your nipple. Rolls it between thumb and forefinger. Your shuddering breath prompts him to pull at it, and it causes you to arch your back off of him, pressing further against his painfully hard cock.Â
He grunts against your shoulder, hand busy teasing your breasts and hips rutting against the plump flesh of your ass. You grind back against him, working in tandem to relieve at least some of that ache.Â
Each movement is a languid stroke of fabric that gives him enough pleasure to cause his resolve to falter. When he turns your head sideways, leaving your tits to grasp your jaw, he loses it. Your flushed cheeks, lower lip trapped between your teeth, the whites of your eyes still a little red from sleep.
Lips on lips, slotting together like magnets.Â
Too long.Â
Too damn long.Â
Sure, he kissed you when he came back, a bunch of hours before. But this is a whole other thing. The connection behind it, the pinch of your brows conveying the same desperation he has. Hands grabbing at flesh, bodies grinding against each other. Tongues dancing privately. Eyes closed to shut the world out. Moans and pants, dotted with the occasional curse slipping from his lips when the length of his cock catches the cleft of your ass.
His palm slides down and crosses the threshold marked by your shorts. Heâs awfully delighted to find out you have nothing underneath them. Feels blessed when his middle finger slides down your cunt to find it impossibly wet.Â
âOh - Simon,â He hears you whimper, and he almost comes in his briefs then and there because he has no right to hear you say his sullied name with such devotion behind it.Â
Seemingly feeling the need to respond in kind, your arm blindly reaches behind, and you slip it between your butt and his groin. Your hand is soft as it palms his cock, the cotton of his boxers an annoying barrier.Â
The tip is leaking tremendously, and he should be embarrassed about the obvious wet spot he must be sporting on his briefs. However, he canât even manage to concoct the thought that your fingers are already fumbling with the elastic band of his underwear and finding their way in.
Simon shudders when your warm hand curls around his shaft.Â
You glide your hand up, collecting precum on your palm, before sliding back down again â velvet skin being pulled over the head to steer clear of overstimulation, and then down once more. Similarly, he crooks his finger to gather your wetness and uses it to roll idle circles around your clit.Â
And it goes on, and on, and on, and on. Itâs slow and drawn out, both of you wanting to reach that high but at the same time donât â cutting off pleasure doesnât seem fitting, when both of you have been starved of one another.
He bends the arm beneath your neck to pull your head back, next to his own, cheek to cheek. Simonâs hips jerk to blatantly fuck your fist, yours flow with the movement of his fingers circling your clit, stroking yourself against his hand.
He starts getting antsy, however, when he notices that he canât properly reach you. Canât have you unravel on his fingers like heâs done so many times before. Simon wants â needs â to see you unfold and squirm under the pressure of his hand. Needs to have you cream on his fingers â as simple as itâs primal.
He murmurs against the shell of your ear, âNeed to stretch you out, love.â
And â goddamn you, you whine. Your hand doesnât stop its languid movements, but it further slows down, as if you needed all of yourself to cooperate and form a single thought.
âJusâ do it, I missed you.â You whimper, breathy and high-pitched. âWonât hurt much, I promise.â
Simon sucks in a sharp breath, closing his eyes because your voice has gone straight to his cock and he needs to disassociate for a second to recollect himself.
Youâre a temptress, even in your loving, tender desperation. And how sweet it is to know that he isnât the only one craving those intimate touches he can only give you. Youâve had your fair share of relationships and lovers, but has he? Some quick ones, enough to get rid of natural aches. Definitely not with a connection so deeply ingrained.Â
And he tastes, then, the beauty of mutuality. Of giving and receiving.Â
He retreats his hand and prompts you to do the same. Helps you take off your shorts and pulls his cock out of his underwear. He holds you still with one arm around your waist, palm flat against your lower belly to angle you better.Â
Gingerly, he guides the tip to your slit, dragging it upward until it catches your clit and you hiss, and then down to your hole. Back and forth, happily realizing that he has, in fact, made you wet enough to make it hurt less. And while he tends to be open to many requests made under the bedsheets, anything that causes you pain is a huge, firm no in his book.Â
Which is why heâs a bit hesitant now, pressing chaste kisses against your shoulder, trying to soften the ache that will inevitably come. A juxtaposition, really, to his cock dragging a raw, slow dance down your cunt.
Itâs then that you turn your head in the pillow to groan against the fabric, and your legs clamp together and essentially choke him between the plush of your thighs.
The sensation is initially a sharp jolt that makes him spout a series of curses under his breath. But then the glisten of your cunt mixed with the precum youâve diligently smeared all over him, with your folds and your plump thighs wrapped around him in a warm, wet hug â he sees the appeal.Â
And thrusts. Shamelessly â once, twice, thrice. Snapping harshly, only to draw back slowly. Grunting to your skin. Chest vibrating against your back.
âF â fuck,â he manages to choke out, wringing his eyes closed to regain some control over his actions and failing spectacularly.
Your moans donât help. They perfectly align with the slap of his hips against your ass, with the wet noises of your sodden cunt against his cock. Itâs as filthy as itâs fucking wonderful, and heâs terribly afraid heâll finish before he can even fit the head inside of you.Â
The grip he has around your waist only tightens, leaving you breathless by the second. Simon has his mouth next to your ear, giving you the privilege of hearing even the smallest breaths he exhales.Â
âYouâre so fuckinâ soft,â he whispers, panting from the effort.Â
Curiously, he takes a peek over your shoulder as he fucks your thighs, catching the flushed head of his cock stroking your clit and appearing each time he thrusts in. Itâs fucking debauched and he loves it to bits. So much that he groans and rolls his eyes, struggling not to paint your thighs with his spend.
âNeed to fuck you,â he hurries, choking on the words. âNow, love.â
Rapidly (and reluctantly), he pulls out of the pillowy, snug space your thighs had inadvertently created for him, almost hissing when the cold air hits the sensitive skin of his cock, coated in yours and his arousal.Â
âOn your back, sweeâheart,â he gently guides you down, adding a brisk yet tender âCâmon.â
And you comply, feeling almost like a ragdoll in his hands. Lips parted and slick as they form small Yesâs to convey the same ache he feels. It takes him less than a breath to place his mouth over yours again.Â
As he hovers above you, thick arms on each side of your head and chapped lips crashing against your own, he slots his hips between your legs. The softer flesh of the inside of your thighs is still wet from when heâs buried his cock between them. He feels the fluids stick to the skin of his hips.
Taking his time, he lets a hand wander down your chest, flowing to your belly until his fingers reach your core â where youâre wet, and warm, and still pressing up against his cock, searching for friction.
He plunges a finger inside, making the movement of your hips stutter and your mouth gasp at the sudden intrusion.
âGotta stretch you out," he repeats languidly, because he cannot - for the life of him - put words into sentences without thinking about the structure beforehand.
Heâs aware heâs big. It used to chub up his ego when he was younger and brash, but now he canât be arsed about it. Big or small, heâs learned that itâs how you use it â and to be frank, he hasnât used it much before you.
But he knows itâs going to hurt if he just puts it in with little to no preparation. He hasnât seen you in three months, and you can trust him when he says heâs as ravenous as you are and canât bloody wait to be inside you where heâs warm and blessed â but causing you pain? When it can be avoided so easily (and he can make it feel good, too)?
Absolutely not. Categorical.Â
He wants you to indulge in the blissful touches and the highs he can bring. Needs you to associate him to kindness and soft breaths and how much he hungers for you â he'll gladly eat you up, but only if you say so.Â
ââS not gonna hurt,â you mumble again, sounding a little drunk in the effort to convince him. âPlease.â
Your eyes flutter to him, and theyâre this dark pool he canât seem to navigate. Lust overflowing like fat, miry tears that canât fit in the space of your sockets, and then something even darker â longing. Youâre looking at him as if it's the first time youâre seeing him.
He gets it, then, how good youâve been at hiding it so he wouldnât hurt at the thought of hurting you. He must've unconsciously taught you a thing or two, by wearing stoicism, neutrality, and more tangible skull masks.Â
Youâve missed him body and soul.Â
Youâre there, eyes heavy and full, begging for him to come back to you.Â
How long have you been waiting for me like this?Â
âOh, love,â  he breathes and kisses you again.
A long finger inside, pushing against the place he knows makes your eyes water.
âMâsorry,â he whispers, thumb steadfast on your clit, as if he could apologize just by using his fingers because words tend to fail him when he needs them the most.
And so, he slides in his ring finger too, feeling the momentarily tight fit and the subsequent way you relax to welcome him. Your lips part to sharply breathe in, eyes scrunching close at the stretch. He can feel your hands stiffen against his back until they travel up his spine and tangle through shorn blond hair.Â
Youâre keeping him close, with your forehead pressed to his almost to the point of pain. Your noses are in the way of the onslaught youâre causing on his mouth. Strained, heavy pants brush his lips when you part from him to breathe, before lavishing him with attention again.
Youâre always good with words. You always know what to say, and yet youâre being extremely quiet â it worries him more than the look you have in your eyes.Â
âMâsorry.â
For being away.Â
For not telling you where I was.Â
For leaving you to wonder whether Iâd come back, or not.Â
For not calling.Â
Iâm sorry.Â
âMâso sorry.â
My girl. Â
His hand cradles the back of your head as if he could get you any closer, and he fucks you with his fingers.
âDonât be,â you reply, your voice so faint and lost in the sounds of your bodies he has to perk his ears for it. âYouâre home.â
My sweet, sweet girl.Â
And he buries his face in your neck, leaving wanton kisses that have very little erotic power to them. Heâs just trying to taste you, really. Trying to commit you to memory again, conveying fierce apologies to your skin.Â
He can feel you clench around him, almost sucking him in, each time his fingers reach deep.
âFuck, need to see you come.â He murmurs to the skin of your neck.
Thumb aching, he replaces it with the heel of his hand. A continuous and tortuous curl of his fingers inside of you, palm cupping your cunt and rolling against your clit. His cock aches when you whimper and stifle it by biting into his shoulder. A sharp exhale. Skin sweaty and pressed against his chest. Hands tugging at his hair.Â
âDonât-â You croak. âJust- just fuck me, Si.â
He groans because stop being stubborn, will ya?
âIâll cum the moment I get in, sweeâheart.â He tries to reason and almost loses it at the raunchy, squelching sounds caused by his fingers between your legs. "Lemme take care of you before tha'."
But it's like talking to a wall.
"'s fine, love. IÂ don't care, yeah?" Your hips move against his hand, but at this point, he gathers it's just a natural body response to pleasure. âYouâll take care of me tomorrow, and the days after that.â
Just when heâs about to rebut, you sandwich an arm between your bodies and curl soft fingers around his cock. The simple act makes him stop his motions, and he feels you pulse and clench around his fingers.
âPlease.â You whisper, voice like silk.Â
He crumbles, then, at the sight of your eyes. Watery and glossy and wide â lust a long-forgotten thing.Â
He nods briefly when he surrenders. A jerky movement of his jaw as he swallows thickly. Doesnât dare to avert his gaze from yours when he retrieves his hand and loves to catch how your brows pinch at the sudden emptiness inside. Sloppily, he coats his stiff cock with your wetness with a few weak pumps.
His eyes stay on you, as he goes in blindly, guided by touch only, and drives the tip to your hole. Tries to gauge your thoughts by the expressions on your face, and fails miserably, for once, at keeping his own concealed.
Barely aware and in control of what his face is conveying, he gathers you must appreciate it because you shift your palms to cradle his cheeks. He doesnât know why you do it because thereâs nothing on this godforsaken planet that could make his attention swerve to any thoughts but how beautiful you look when your lips stroke his own with featherlight pressure.
And he slides in, comfortably easy. Feels your puffy lips stretch to welcome him whole, inch by inch. Piece by piece of him, in every way you want to interpret it.Â
His jaw is locked tight because as soon as your walls envelop the head of his cock, he already feels himself shutting down. His eyes close â he canât afford to look at how you morph for him. How your pussy swallows the first inches of his cock, puffy clit begging to be touched and lavished. How your mouth parts against his own to yield soft moans and breathy whispers that encourage him to please, please, please go deeper.Â
He canât. Stubbornly thinking he must last long enough to give you some pleasure or it will all be worthless. And so, itâs a repetitive dance: an inch in, and a full pull out. Stop. Another inch, and pull out.Â
Itâs driving him fucking mental.
âLet go,â you say, tearing his head out of the gutter. âLook at me, and let go.â
He canât exactly decide whether youâre being the devil on his shoulder, or an angel sent from heaven â either way, the aim is to ruin him. Yet it doesnât matter when he opens his eyes, and you look so beautiful his heart cracks, with a thin layer of sweat on your brow and the sheen of his spit on bitten lips.Â
You don't have to tell him twice at this point, because the way your hands force his face steady so he keeps his eyes on you does most of the trick. His resolve crumbles at breakneck speed.
He bottoms out, pushing his pelvis flush against yours. Your eyes roll back at the same time, legs going stiff and tight around his hips. He does a tentative roll that causes the coarse hair on his groin to press against your bundle of nerves.
"Fuck," you breathe, your voice cracking at the edges. He echoes it right after you, or at the same time â he's not sure, but in his defense, he's not confident about a single thing right now.
If not how absurdly scorching you are, all wrapped around him.
With that, he hooks one arm around your waist and tucks his other hand behind your head. He holds you close like you might slip away, and heâs sure as hell not taking any chances.
He fucks you slowly, deep thrusts that fill you up all the way, and greedy love bites on your neck. Open-mouthed kisses at your throat, sliding up to your jaw and cheeks, all the way to your lips. Truthfully, heâs both trying to get his senses chock full of you, and keep his mouth shut so no words spoken while in ecstasy escape.
The slap of his hips against yours drowns the taps of the morning drizzle against the windowpane. Heâs got your face buried in the crook of his neck, and your pants echo in his ears like a fucking promise that threatens to unravel him.
Each thrust has him fully sheathed inside of you. It fills him with primal pride and fuels his pleasure, because you take him so fucking well he can't help but think he's modeled you in his perfect image. He grunts against you and tugs at your hair out of sheer desperation to hold on â just a little longer.
But youâre swearing in his ear. Breathless fuckâs whispered like a curse and a vow at the same time. You shift your hips to change the angle and that makes him hit even deeper and he swears he hears you whimper in that telltale way he knows well.
He lifts your hips up and hooks your legs over his shoulders.
And he absolutely rams into you.
âChrist I missed you.â He rumbles and his voice cracks while your moans rise in pitch and your nails scratch his back. âFuckinâ thought of you,"Â Thrust. "Every bleedinâ day.â
Heâs rambling now, intoxicated on the feeling of you. His words are slurred and strained and, deep down, thereâs a more sober version of Simon Riley cursing at himself for speaking his heart out.
Luckily, itâs drowned by the slap of flesh against flesh and the wet sounds of your cunt milking him dry.Â
Finally, he thinks, he's using his strength not to wield a heavy M4 or to ram against hostiles, but to fuck you on his cock â knee-deep in the mattress for leverage.
He lets go, like you asked.
He murmurs in your ear (Fuckinâ beautiful), words alternated with heavy pants (Anâ all mine) and the animalistic grunts of a man cocooned in bliss (All fuckinâ mine).
His hips stutter and he knows heâs close, but youâre not even nearby, in spite of how he can feel you clench around him, sucking him in. And God, the guilt that fills him almost makes him stop even if he has that sweet, sweet release just around the bend.
But you wonât have that, naturally.Â
Your fingers thread through his hair, clammy and sticking out weirdly because heâs sweaty and hot. He feels his head being shifted to the side, so you can look into his eyes.
And oh, how can you look at him like that? How is he even deserving of it â fuck you and your relentless ways to crawl under his skin and make him feel like heâs worth a damn, with your eyes glossy and hooded. A thick veil of admiration, fondness, and you.Â
You, you, you.Â
Where have you been all his life, with this color in your eyes?
âCome inside.â You plead tenderly, breathless and raspy, as he pounds you into your own bed. Your fingers smooth back rogue strands that are sticking to his forehead. âPlease come inside.â
And you crush his mouth to yours in a searing kiss. One that marks his demise. Heâs falling hard into your embrace, figuratively and literally, too.
He uses whatever shreds of strength he has left to ram into you as if his life depended on it, punching gasp after heaving gasp out of your beautiful lips into his hungry mouth.
It works like a spell because he feels the familiar pressure building at the base of his cock. Syrupy hot warmth runs down his legs to the tips of his toes. Tingling. Tightening. Burning so good he thinks he's melting within you.
Suddenly, his head spins, and he groans in your parted lips as he ruts into you one last time â until he has you filled to the brim. His eyes slam shut as he spills inside of you â cock pulsating and hot.Â
His high takes its sweet time, canceling out all background noises and only leaving your sweet breaths to fill in his ears, and the pounding of his heart.Â
Simon unceremoniously drops on you like dead weight, allowing your legs to return around his waist. His lips slide off yours until his head is tucked in the crook of your neck. Heâs absolutely spent, but there isnât enough fatigue in this world that could keep him away from you. Youâre sweaty and heâs worse, but he doesnât see why, in the haze of his orgasm, he shouldnât have his lips reach every inch of skin he can.
His kisses are lazy â a stark contrast from the desperation heâs displayed until now.Â
He feels safe. He feels at home, still buried deep inside of you, feeling the come that couldnât fit inside ooze out and onto the bedsheets. A bummer to clean, heâll realize when heâll get his sanity back.
And he wants to tell you so many things when he feels your hands skimming down his back in a soothing dance. Wants to tell you how youâve flipped his life, with the ease of tossing a coin â heads and tails. Opposites so striking you should be deemed a witch.Â
He was in deep fucking shit before you offered your smile. Inching closer and closer to dead-ended alleys and dark, murky thoughts that could only lead to dreadful places.
You gave him something to yearn for, something to miss when he's away, and something to cherish when he's here.Â
Thereâs nothing he can do to return the favor but love you in equal measure.Â
Itâs not the first time the word love has come up in his head when his mind was lost in memories of you. And while heâd rather not dwell on it now, while you hold him to your chest as he comes back to his senses, he knows the time will eventually come.
Yet he doesnât dread it. Not one bit.
Fear pocket sewn shut. Finally.Â
He lifts his head to look up at you and finds you doing the same â heâs sure heâs thoroughly fucked in the best way imaginable.Â
âIâll take care of everything later,â you say, reading his thoughts. âYou okay?â
It takes him a while to respond. Mental gymnastics to reawaken the parts of his brain that are still tingling in the afterglow.Â
âNever better, love.âÂ
âSleep?â You offer, as if he isnât still buried inside of you and effectively crushing you under his weight.Â
You donât seem to mind, and so he trusts you and doesnât either.
His eyes are half closed as he slides down to rest his head in the valley of your breasts. "Y' didn't cum," he mumbles, leaving an open mouthed kiss on the fat of your tits.
Your fingers brush through his hair to keep him close, and when your nails scrape at his scalp he feels gooseflesh rise along his arms.Â
"'S fine," you whisper gently, and he's struck by the earnestness in your tone. But then you quip, "I'll have ya on your knees tomorrow."
And he scoffs. "Makin' it sound like a punishment."
You purse your lips and land a kiss on the crown of his head. "Then stop complaining."
He grunts something he himself can't even discern.Â
âYâneed to piss first.â He grumbles mindlessly, as if the thought of you standing up annoys him but he knows a UTI is even more aggravating.
You snort. âCharming."
And he responds in kind. "Chivalry's dead anyway."
There's a few seconds of silence only broken by your quiet chuckle. "Iâll wait for you to fall asleep, then âm off to the loo. Deal?â
He grunts in agreement, liking the compromise youâre offering. âDeal.âÂ
And his head stays quiet. Sleazy hands and raging voices cease, silenced under the thunder of your heartbeat.
âI missed you.â He thinks he hears you whisper, your voice thick and wet. He closes his eyes with his head on your chest. ââM so happy youâre home.â
ââââââââââââ
Simon wakes up with shy sunbeams peeking through the blinds and brushing his brow. You mustâve closed them when you woke up, to shield him from the sun.
He blinks idly, momentarily lost in that phase between sleep and waking life, still unsure of where he is. His mouth is pasty, and his eyes struggle against sunlight. The duvet is up to his chin, and it smells of grapefruit-scented softener, and of you. The pillow is a little wet, and he embarrassingly notices that itâs because heâs drooled on it â he smacks his lips once, twice, but his tongue might as well be a dried-up cinderblock.
It has been a long time since heâs slept like this. Since his mind has shut down and left him alone. Since his night has gone smoothly, sleep comatose and dreamless â nightmare-less.
And youâre not there, but thatâs okay.
Because he hears your music from the kitchen, kept at a low volume so you wonât wake him up. The clanking of utensils frames the beat, pans and pots being moved around as you hum to yourself following the melody. The smell of eggs, sausages, potatoes, and fresh veggies â a full English. Wafts of that disgusting coffee you drink in the morning intertwined with the softer notes of the tea youâre brewing for him.
You were right: he is home.
And he canât see your eyes, but thatâs okay too.
He guesses heâll never remember their exact shade, Simonâs fine with it. No better thing than to discover you once more, each time he gets to come home.
They change with you, following the flow of whatever you allow to show, and of what heâs learned to read. Theyâre the color of that life heâs unwittingly always looked for. That life promising a pocket of peace for himself. Chock full of love and nice things heâs always been deprived of.
A balm to both his ancient and newest wounds.
He has never shared a single story about his past, never told you why his body is like a tattered book whose tale is as horrific as it looks. But you donât mind, and he doesnât know why because heâs firmly set on the idea that you must know someone inside out to be sure you care.
And itâs then that it hits him, that you do know him â better than anyone. You know the man he is. You want the man he is now, the man he will be one day â as mental as it sounds to him. His present, and his future. And sure, his past might have made this man you know, but heâs not the same Simon under his father's thumb or the one felled by Robaâs tortures.
Although heâs not sure he can reopen certain sutures without the wounds bleeding all over the floor, he'll try. Heâll clean up, if he must, knowing that youâll help him have each injury scab over again.Â
What baffles him is that youâre not saying he has to. Youâre saying he can. And this choice youâre giving him is a privilege heâs never had the chance to bear.
He can tell you everything, and youâll listen. He can keep it to himself, and youâll stay, accepting that there will be places of him youâll never venture â and to you, that is fine.
As long as he stays, too.
There are no words he can use to express his gratitude. He can only love you â and it might take him a while to acknowledge that heâs capable, but he already does love you.
You appear at the door as heâs lost in his own head, still tucked under the duvet. Strips of sunlight cross your form, curving around the beautiful shape of you.
âGood morning, you.â You say, with a smile that reminds him of the sun.
Lazily, he offers one of his own to you. Itâs lopsided and he thinks not quite as beautiful.Â
He hopes you forgive him for it: takes practice to be happy, and heâs still learning.
And so, he smiles, and looks at you like you're the most tangible form of joy he's ever witnessed.Â
His voice is raspy from sleep, and soft from you.
âMorninâ, love.â
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