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maretriarch · 12 days ago

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its been like over a year since ive gotten my period and ive been weight restored on and off within that time and you think it would eventually just come back but damn i really think its gone for good. i know i SHOULD like be bothered by it and it does add to my constant health anxiety but i dont know....i don't really want to go to a doctor...im saving at least ten dollars a month on tampons right now....think about the economy....

#its like if one day the bottom of your feet turned purple or something like damn thats weird and not good it doesnt hurt or anything and i #cant see it constantly so i keep forgetting about it but every time i remember it it stresses me tf out #im pretty sure the only thing the doctors can do is put you on hormonal birth control or tell you to just gain (arbitrary) amount of weight #and neither of those things seem foolproof or like consequence free......and its probably for the best i definitely don't need to reproduce #but im worried losing period permanently is step one and step two my eyeballs are gonna fall out #actually my vision HAS been getting worse and i do wonder if its ed related ....just overall poor nutrition #consequences...#i really am trying to get better and thihgs are so much better than the last couple years its just a....#slow army crawl thru the mud.......aaaaaauaghhrghhhrghhhhghh #i wish i could literally just wake up like ok i eat normal now and its so stupid because i know the only thing stopping it is my brain #its literally like a gambling addiction where its all mental #its a pretend problem to have Bitch What You Sitting There looking Crazy For Eat Your Damn Food

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