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SO SCARLET (IT WAS MAROON)
CHAPTER FIVE: HOLY GROUND
I LEFT A NOTE ON THE DOOR WITH THE JOKE WE MADE, AND THAT WAS THE FIRST DAY. AND DARLING, IT WAS GOOD NEVER LOOKING DOWN.
☆ pairings: rockstar!eddie munson x fem!reader
☆ warnings: no use of y/n, strong language, angst, minors dni
☆ WC: 8K+
☆ A/N: trying something new in the formating here amongst the chapter - please bear with me <3
thank you to my love @hellfire--cult for the divider!
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“I’m sure you’ll find a way.”
Oh, how you realize you’ll come to regret that taunt.
The first week of working on organizing Corroded Coffin’s single release party is easy enough. Most of the communication is restricted to Matt and vendors, beginning the process of assessing venues as you start your list of all that will be needed for the party. An actual location, an open bar, entire stage crews. Matt is able to provide a few connections here and there, people in the live music industry that owe him a favor as he had so kindly put it. You had your spreadsheet of contacts that was growing with each passing day, you had several venues that looked as though they would work well for the occasion — the only thing you had yet to do was go over options with the band or properly reach out for their list of requirements for their night of celebration.
You had tried to be sneaky about it. Get around asking for any of their emails, continue living comfortably in the radio silence of not hearing from Eddie. And then you’d made the fatal mistake of asking Matt if he could gather the list of things the boys may want.
And of course, as any sane person would do, he had only forwarded the email to all of the boys’ professional emails and replied: I’ve CC’d our rockstars. I’ve instructed them to personally send you any requests they may have.
Fuck.
Eddie’s email sat at the lead of the list of CC’d emails, almost teasing you as it stared back at you from your laptop screen. A full week, you had avoided this. Even if he could have gotten your email from Matt, he hadn’t, and like a fool, you’d assumed that meant you were in the clear.
So much for that.
You compose and erase multiple emails until you decide that if the boys want to reach out, they can. There was no need for you to make first contact; they now had your email, a bait set for them to initiate a conversation by sending you their lists. If Eddie wanted to reach out to you, he had the perfect excuse to do so.
For a few hours, you don’t hear anything, and instead of sighing in relief, it only puts you further on edge. You want him to just get it over with. To send you an email, preferably an impersonal list that allows you to continue your job. No relations, no interferences. You didn’t know it, but the Universe was already laughing in your face.
The first email from any of the boys comes from Jeff.
A simple list, just as you’d requested. There was nothing outrageous; he’d recommended an open bar, asked for a specific brand of whiskey if possible, and thanked you for all you were doing. Simple, kind, appreciative. Jeff, it seemed, had stayed as humble as you remembered him.
The next email came from Gareth. Less simple, but still just as expected.
Nerds (the CANDY) of any kind. That vodka infused whipped cream (does it even get you drunk?), the softest robe money can buy. Actually, can I get matching house shoes with that robe? Can we also have some cigars in the dressing room? (We are getting a dressing room… right?)
You’re so busy snorting at his requests, rolling your eyes but also losing yourself in the warmth to know he also hadn’t changed much, you don’t see the next email come through.
It was comforting. You knew Eddie had changed — more than you could ever wrap your head around — but these boys you once knew seemed to still be connected to their roots. You read the requests and recall the times you’d spent in Gareth’s hot garage over the summer, sitting on warm concrete as you cheered overly excited, even occasionally standing up to jokingly mosh to their rehearsals. Sweltering summer nights between friends and beers that lost their chill far too quickly, laughter that echoed down the driveway and out into the empty streets of Hawkins. Nostalgia burns away at you, sitting restlessly in your chest as you let yourself simmer in it for the first time since…. since moving to New York, really. Even in that first year, life had moved so quickly, you and Eddie never took the time to ruminate in your past too often. If you did, it had caught you off guard, always fleeting to make room for the next uncertain experience.
You two had been so busy running away from your hometown, you’d never stopped to consider what you had given up in the process.
A soft sigh escapes your lips, and you swear you can still taste the shitty Miller Lite, the only brand that seemed to occupy the Emerson’s fridge, on your tongue as you exit the email and scribble on the notepad before you. Even if Gareth had been joking around with some of his requests, you’d take them seriously — besides, the mental image of Gareth in a plush robe and fluffy slippers to match made you laugh. You were thinking about your past, and for once, you were laughing. This part wasn’t a stain, wasn’t something you had scrubbed away at in a haste to make it fade from your ledger. This was the part you should have been lingering on.
And linger you did until you glanced up to find the next unread email.
Eddie.
[email protected]. You could fool yourself, tell yourself that email is from anyone else, but you know it isn’t. It isn’t even the email that had been CC’d. It’s his personal email.
Your mouse hovers over the highlighted and unopened message, heart dropping with each passing second. There’s a small preview of his message, but your vision blurs just enough that you can’t make out the small words.
Is this how you were always doomed to live out the rest of your days? To freeze, to panic, to malfunction at every slightest thing that has to do with the man you left to begin with? Would he always pull such visceral reactions from you?
In an act of bravery, you press the tip of your finger against the smooth mouse pad, a muted click that doesn’t reach your ears signaling the official opening of the email. All of your hopes are shattered as you realize it’s clearly too short to be a list similar to the other boys, a simple response that you could acknowledge and move on from.
No, he sends something that specifically calls for you to play with him. To reply and interact, to give him what he wants. To talk.
Two fucking words. Two loaded, vexing, provocative words that call to you with the titillating grin you imagine he wore as he typed them.
Your fingers work faster than your brain, slamming away at the keys hurriedly without thought as you type your least professional email to date.
The bottom of the email is automatically signed off with your work signature, including your direct personal line. If you had half the mind, you would have erased that bit of information to keep it from Eddie. It even has your actual signature, a mature one that differs from how you used to scrawl your name atop of schoolwork in high school, that you had scanned into your computer after having gone through the painful process of rewriting it what must have been a thousand times. No one had let you in on the fact that most other corporate monsters and coworkers just used one of the sloping fonts available to them. No one had shown you the ropes – you’d just assumed that it was the normal, to go so above and beyond.
Another brick in the foundation you’d built for yourself, separate from Eddie. Another attempt to change from the girl he’d once loved.
You’re shocked when a reply comes very quickly. You hadn’t even clicked out of the thread before it entered your inbox.
You try to channel fury, years of irritation and calluses you’d built up against him. But your chest has been weakened by that brief moment of nostalgia that Jeff and Gareth had triggered, and it’s a fruitless battle when he sends another message rapidly. He’s treating it like casual texting rather than stiff business interactions.
Your entire body flushes, a shock to your system coming that brings you out of the allusive hypnosis easily.
My emails are monitored. They’re going to see that we know each other. I’m going to get fucking fired.
You steady your breathing and try to stave off the anxiety. It’ll be fine; Lydia has no reason to comb through your emails at this time. Nothing said would trigger any bells or whistles to cause concern. It’s fine. It’ll be fine. It has to be.
You wish you had it in you to see red. He had an incomprehensible amount of nerve to be asking for your personal email all because he refused to use his professional email.
Soft. You’d worked on becoming a hardened version of your old self for two years, and all hard work was quickly going down the drain as you remained too soft for him. It was easy, too. All the rough edges had melted so discreetly somewhere amongst the in between.
You think he’s dropped the topic of your personal email, but you should know better. Not even mere seconds after you receive the first email, brimming with nonchalance and a teasing tone that has no room between the two of you, another message comes through.
Good to see he’s still annoying and persistent as ever, I suppose.
He’s all bark, no bite. That’s what you convince yourself. There’s no way he could find your personal email, a plethora of power and connections at his fingertips or not. Even if he could, it would take him ages and more effort than it would be worth.
All bark. No bite.
You hadn’t realized just how quick and consistent his replies had maintained until you’re met with silence. You wait impatiently, biting at your fingernails as you await for another one of his responses. The more the time passes, the excessive minutes piling up in the quiet midday hum of your midtown apartment, the more noticeable Eddie’s online silence becomes.
No, you think suddenly and strongly. No, I am not doing this.
You refuse to sit around like this and succumb so easily. All your half-healed scars thrum with aches deep-rooted within the skin you’ve grown over the last two years, screaming out in phantom pains with a reminder of what happened to you the last time you’d let yourself sit around and wait on the boy on the end of the line. Every lonely night, every tear shed, every beat of your bleeding heart — you cannot be doing this again, and not so soon.
Quickly, you click out of your email tab and back onto the list of vendors you needed to contact for the bar commodities. Distract, distract, distract. You comb through your list. Some vendors seemed to hold more potential than others, more attainable in the grand scheme of it all. For the first time ever in your very short career of event planning, budget wasn’t the issue.
Eddie’s reputation was.
But you’re not thinking about Eddie. No, your focus was anywhere but him right now. You weren’t thinking about him, or his new cologne, or his new rings, or his new life-
Just as you pick up your cell phone to start your calls down the list, a notification pings.
Only seven minutes had passed. Seven minutes, and your phone is suddenly alight with a small but terrifying notification from your personal email.
New email from [email protected]!
Oh, fuck.
Your thumb hesitates over the tiny banner before you release the breath you were sure you’d been holding the entire seven minutes. It shouldn’t have taken him such little time. You expected it to realistically take him a few hours, all your anxious waiting aside.
There had been only one fatal flaw in your taunting — well, technically there were several becoming more apparent as the seconds ticked by, but only one so glaringly obvious. Your personal email address. You had forgotten.
You hadn’t changed it since high school, since moving to New York, since meeting and since leaving Eddie.
The stupid inside joke haunts you.
“Why does your email even matter?” Eddie huffed from where he was sprawled out on your bed, tossing around some bouncy ball he’d acquired a few nights before during dinner at a local pizza joint, “No one even uses email anymore.”
He tossed the ball of rubber into the air once more, a blur of the rainbow swirl pattern whirring too close to your ceiling for comfort. Your focus waned from your laptop for just a moment as you suddenly shot out a hand, attempting to intercept the ball.
No use. Eddie used one hand to swat yours away, the other happily capturing the toy in his palm with a muted thud.
“Nuh, uh, uh,” he drawled as he looked at you with his boyish grin, eyes sparkling as his fingers closed loosely around his prize, “If you wanted one so badly the other night, you should have also coughed up a quarter.”
You snorted, “Are you really proud of that? You spent a whole twenty five cents on a hunk of rubber, Rockstar.”
“A hunk of rubber you’re now trying to steal from me.”
“I’m not trying to steal it,” you scowled, “I’m trying to focus here. Emails are important, despite your pessimism. Something my English teacher said about professionalism.”
“You’re really going to listen to that dinosaur? The old O’Donnel-saurus?” Eddie mused, chuckling beneath his breath at his own joke.
You refused to crack a smile in return, or show any recognition at the awful joke, but your chest still warmed. The smoke of your affection for the boy in front of you unfurled, thick enough to choke you up a few extra seconds but thin enough to not suffocate. Never suffocate — it was a time in which you could never imagine your love for Eddie Munson being your downfall. It was a wispy and adaptable type of adoration, just like the smoke that flows off of the end of the incense you’d taken to burning in your room lately in lieu of candles.
“It’d do you well to also come up with a professional sounding email, you know,” you hummed. You were mere seconds away from shoving your laptop away and joining Eddie in his relaxed position, maybe even laying your head on his chest or shoulder and bringing up the idea of a late afternoon nap you knew he’d never turn down, “Can’t go around emailing important people when you’re a rockstar with your Dungeons & Dragons nickname.”
“One,” he held up a stern finger, “Like I said — I don’t use email. And two, I’m very happy with my email, sweetheart. I’ll probably email the damn President with that name. Life’s too short and we’re too young to get a stick up our ass about shit like that.”
You reached out and wrapped your palm around his finger, tugging it down. Unlike with the ball, he let you capture him in your grasp, “I don’t have a stick up my ass about it.”
“Yes, you do.”
“No, I don’t.”
“Then make it something funny,” he wiggled his brows, “Make your email something stupid and live a little.”
“A little?” you scoffed, “I think I live plenty for the both of us. You’ve put me through at least three lifetimes worth of stress before I’ve hit twenty. I probably have grey hairs already.”
Your hand curled around his pointer finger drops to your thigh, but doesn’t release him. The touch remained, ever constant, now more for comfort rather than defiance. And he let you continue to hold him, as if your touch was a luxury he was indulging in just as much as you were his.
“Wanna check?” he taunted. He lifted up off his back for a microsecond, tugging your arm with his before the roll of your eyes had him falling back flat once more.
It was a losing battle, arguing with Eddie.
Your conjoined hands settled back atop your thigh as you sighed. Maybe Eddie had been right, and you were stressing out too much about this. He was right; you were young, and having a dumb email was a right of passage. Something to giggle at in your maturity when you’d provide it later down the road, a flash of your youth to keep close.
Fuck professionalism, or whatever high horse O’Donnel had been on.
“Fine,” you huffed, “What do you suggest?”
“… To check for grey hairs?”
“For my email, you idiot.”
A bit more back and forth, a bit too raunchy of ideas that passed Eddie’s lips only to be rejected quickly with rough shakes of your head. His finger remained locked in your palm, at some point his knuckle wiggling between suggestions to stroke at your skin.
“Sweetheart, you’re being too picky,” Eddie finally whined as you shot down yet another one of his ideas, “At this point, just make it something related to the band. You’ll probably be Corroded Coffin’s manager when we make it big, anyways.”
“That sounds like a nightmare,” you murmured, even if you enjoyed the thought. You already had started to get a hang of wrangling the boys in your small town for menial tasks and day-to-day activities. But on a wider, professional scale? You could already feel the headache pressing into your temples. If they ever offered you the proposition, you wouldn’t have said no, but you certainly would have complained to no end. And definitely got grey hairs.
“Sweetheart.”
The repetition of the nickname froze you. Your eyebrows furrowed as the wheels in your brain turned and you looked down at your boy, the formulation of an idea that was combining both of Eddie’s suggestions suddenly.
“Why do you call me sweetheart?”
Eddie was taken back by your question, face crumpling with confusion, “What?”
“Why do you call me sweetheart?” you repeated yourself as you finally let go of his finger and twisted to face him fully, laptop momentarily forgotten as your legs folded beneath you and pressed into your worn mattress, “Like, I call you Rockstar because I know you’ll be a rockstar someday. Already are technically, to me, but don’t let that go to your head,” you explained, smiling shyly as Eddie narrowed his eyes and shined his dimples at you, “So why do you call me sweetheart?”
He hardly had to think about it, although his answer came out as more of a question, “Because you’re my sweetheart?”
“That’s all?”
“Is this a trick question?”
You nearly cackled at his hesitation, “It isn’t, I swear. Just… humor me.”
This time, he took his time to carefully deliberate his answer, “Well, I guess because it just fits,” he paused, wide eyes catching yours as you lifted your brows in question, “You know? Cause you’re sweet like sugar, and you’ve got a heart of gold,” he grabbed up the hand that once held him and drew it into his lips, peppering kisses across your knuckles and fingertips, fighting a grin as he groveled, “There. Is that romantic enough to humor you?”
“Almost.”
You pulled your hand away despite the fact that you wanted to let him continue his display of affection. You would have laid around all day, letting Eddie Munson shower you in all the affection he had to give. But you really needed to create this email.
And now, you had the perfect name.
CORRODEDSUGAR.
You created the account quickly. Set everything up with ease before you proudly turned your screen to Eddie.
“Corroded sugar?” he read outloud in a murmur as a smile twitched at the corner of his mouth, “Cute. But also, very metal. Very badass. I approve, Sugar.”
A new nickname was born that day, to haunt you and taunt you at every corner. In soft mornings when he woke before you, his voice softly cooing ‘wake up, Sugar’ as he’d brush his nose along your jaw and attempt to awaken you with needy nuzzling. Amidst heated and passionate arguments had all in good fun while out with friends, where he knew you were right but the closest he’d come to admitting it would simply be ‘whatever you say, Sugar!’. He’d even once weaponized it against you during sacred moments, where his lips worshiped you as they trailed leisurely down the skin of your torso until he’d settled between your thighs, humming as he wrapped ringed fingers around your hips and whispered nothing more than the nickname. ‘Sugar’. He had sighed as if he were a starving man, and you were the plate of sweetness that would bring him back to life.
Sugar. A prayer, a promise, a reminder.
You couldn’t remember the last time he’d called you that. Until now.
When you’d tried to reset, rebuild, remake yourself, it had been hard to figure out a new email address. Amongst all the changes and all the decisions to be made, choosing a new email just felt overwhelming. And you’d been foolish, clung to one last relic of your past like an estranged child fisting a blanket to sleep.
The seven minutes suddenly makes crystal clear sense.
Whether it had really been Eddie’s rockstar connections from his fame, or simply recalling a far away memory, you hadn’t made yourself a very hard person to find. And you never considered that your laziness would have a consequence like this.
You don’t know what else to say. Your mind keeps reading over that silly five letter word, the bold lettering jumping off the page at you. All recollections of every time he’d ever called you that slip into the forefront of your brain, slapping away any concentrated thought.
You’d had dreams of him calling you that again. A mixture of memories and fantasies that would wake you up in the months following your departure. Compared to the other dreams you’d had amongst those, they had been a sweet reprieve. Not a nightmare of Eddie with his lips pressed to another, or mournful dreams where you reached out to him only for him to become intangible smoke where your hand should have connected with his torso. They were one of your only dreams you had awoken from without immediate tears.
They were the type of dreams where you’d awake, and for just a moment, you’d forgotten all that had happened. They’d twist you up in a blissful blanket of delusion that he was still yours, that you were still laying in a shared bed in that small apartment, that there was still a calendar on the wall with the date of his return marked with a scarlet heart.
The tears would come later. Once the dreamy fog cleared, and your eyes opened up to see the unfamiliar space you had taken to calling home instead.
The two of you should be discussing the release party. He should be handing over a list of requests and you should be adding them to the same page that you’d copied down Gareth’s.
You shouldn’t be doing this.
Talking, like nothing happened. Having a playful conversation over email that reeked of the same make-believe that had clung to your dreams of Sugar.
He won’t break the illusion, so you do.
Messaging him from this contact only reminds you of all that could have been. All the joking conversations back in Hawkins of your involvement with the band once they inevitably blew up, all the late nights where you’d been privy to a private show as he hunched over his guitar and hummed out melodies to new songs, all the bruises those once familiar hands had left and then caressed in the afterglow.
For just a moment, you miss it all.
For only a second, you wish he wore the same cologne and you wish you still signed your name as you had when you first met him. You wish for days of instability and the solid touch of his shoulders beneath your palms as you convince him to take a leap of faith on himself and the band. Dancing in a small apartment, falling asleep on the phone while he was a world away, quiet confessions of love to soothe the wound that distance made grow larger — for just a moment, you want it all back. Even the pain. Even the hurt you’d been burying alive for years.
Silence. Once again, he’s left you with static lines as the minutes pass and no new message is received.
You think you liked it better when he was being inappropriately playful.
At least then, he was saying something. Now, as he says nothing, you have to resort back to doing your job. You bring up a knee to rest your chin on as you adjust in your home office chair, clicking over to tabs of information on a physically small but well-known venue that had several different capacity options. Ranging from a small room that could hardly fit twenty five people to a rooftop set up with the ability to entertain several hundred people. Something about it had felt very Eddie to you; reclusive, with opportunity for an afterparty. Some odd mixture of who you once knew and who you’d seen flashes of through headlines and brief encounters. You hadn’t been given many guidelines from Matt to go off of, and when you’d questioned capacity size, he’d only brushed it off.
Just something smaller than the venues they play on tour.
Would Eddie even want this small of a venue? Looking over the venue’s website, you catch sight of the approximate occupancy limit for the “largest” stage room — 750 standing. What was Corroded Coffin’s new normal? Once upon a time, you were amongst a crowd that couldn’t even break double digits. But now, a show like this might sell out for them in five minutes flat. Hell, they could probably even sell out a thousand person capacity room.
A ding sounds to signify a new email.
For a second, you’re nonsensically relieved when you see it’s from Eddie. You find yourself blindly hopeful for a continuation of banter, another message solely trying to get on your nerves – something to satiate that stubborn need to slip back into old habits, even if for only just today.
It’s not. It’s a stale list of requests. Sent to your work email, this time.
No sight of his playfulness between the words. No beckoning of him taunting you, teasing you, whispering for you to just give in and play pretend with him one last time.
It’s probably for the best.
—
Have Mondays always been this hectic?
Week two of working on Corroded Coffin’s album release was starting off very differently from the first week. It seemed every corner you turned, you were faced with a new challenge that only made the headache behind your temples pound more relentlessly. Denial from venues, cold calls being forwarded to voicemail when you’d reach out to vendors, and Matt being impossibly busy with the band to get back to any of your emails in a timely manner.
If you had to hear one more venue representative turn down your business proposition with a “Sorry, but we’ve heard about Eddie’s reputation…”, you might make a detour to go jump off the Empire State Building.
Had he really been that awful to venue properties?
“You look stressed,” Romina notes when you hang up on your third unsuccessful call of the day, slamming the phone down more violently than you should.
“Who, me?” you bitterly reply, looking over your shoulder to where she leans in her chair, turned entirely from her desk to watch you with gentle amusement, “Never. I have never been stressed a day in my life.”
She quirks an eyebrow, “And before this new secret project of yours, I would have agreed.”
“Every venue is shooting me down.”
“It happens,” you yearn to feel the nonchalance that flows through the shrug of her shoulders, as if she’s now the one without a worry in the world, “Are they giving reasons?”
You open your mouth, but your tongue stops short. Because yes, they were each giving the same resounding, completely valid reason. But to admit this is to inform Romina what your secret project really is – something that a certain NDA strictly prohibits for the time being.
“Conflict of schedules,” you tightly lie as your glare diverts to your computer screen, still open on a mostly empty inbox.
Eddie hadn’t emailed you since last week.
Somewhere amongst your frustration, there was a sore disappointment lying in patient wait. You have not a single doubt that once the storm of the task at hand passes, once you finally secure a venue, that you’ll be forced to deal with it. But for now, a boy not emailing you after being so insistent for your personal contact was the least of your worries.
Romina’s voice draws you back in, “Really? How far out are you trying to book for?”
“Three months.”
The squeak of her chair pauses abruptly. Your eyes shift and you catch the way all her mindless swaying has ceased, mouth flat with eyes widened in disbelief.
“Three months?”
“What?” you finally spin your chair to face her, playing off nonchalance. You know why she’s reacting so dramatically, “Should I not be booking that far in advan-”
“I- No, no. You absolutely should be. It should actually be making it easier to book,” she leans forward in her seat, squinting at you, “Is that really the only reason they’re giving?”
You get it. Because she’s right; giving such fair notice should be making your job easier. But you can’t defend yourself and explain how the client you’re representing is the real issue.
“Yeah,” you force a forlorn sigh.
“Jesus,” she whistles out, “Well, that’s just… Fuck. I’m sorry, babe. That’s rough. What types of venues are you even trying for? Wait - didn’t you say you were arranging for a grand opening of a bakery? Wouldn’t they already have their shop set up-”
“Hello ladies.”
Thank fucking God for Lydia.
“Lydia!” you sit up just a little bit straighter, nearly leaping out of your seat with relief as your boss approaches. You knew exactly where Romina’s train of thought was heading, and you wouldn’t have been able to come up with a single pitiful excuse to keep up with your little white lie, “How are you today?”
Romina is still perched in her chair with a confused look, but Lydia doesn’t even glance her way, looking just as concerned as she looks down at you, “I’m… fine. There’s a client for you in the conference room.”
Straight to the point. Except, you didn’t have a meeting scheduled today.
“A client?” you echo, shrinking down a bit. You only have one client, technically, at this moment, “I didn’t have anything on my calendar.”
“Apparently, they were just on this side of town. Said you’d left a few voicemails and he thought it’d be easier to just pop in to discuss things.”
It had to be Matt. He must have gotten one of your frantic voicemails you’d left over the weekend, the ones you’d instantly regretted and worried had lacked in professionalism.
It has to be Matt.
“Oh,” Romina’s eyes are burning holes in the back of your chair as you fumble to lock your computer screen, scrambling to gather anything you might need. The notebook you’d been using to keep track of the entire ordeal crinkles slightly in your grip, “Yeah, of course, that- I’ll go straight there. Are they in one of the smaller conference rooms or the-”
“The main one,” Lydia interrupts you, and her tone makes you pause.
She sounds as if Matt’s arrival is the largest inconvenience she had experienced in the last month.
Why would Matt popping in to talk to me be such a big deal?
She’s clearly not in the mood for questions, so you only nod as you stand up, “Got it.”
And then she’s gone. No interest in joining you, or to question what could be going wrong. No sign of involvement like the day you’d originally met with the band and Matt to sign all documentation.
Your gut twists in knots that not even boy scout’s have discovered yet.
And they only worsen when Romina calls after your retreating figure, “Good luck with your baker!”
You’re kind of fucked. It’s clear she’s no longer buying into your lie of your client, and the thought of facing her after Matt is nausea-inducing. What if you just came clean? Would they sue you for telling Romina? Would Romina tell anyone else if you confided in her? Your thoughts race with question after question as you quickly make your way through the maze of cubicles, taking lefts and rights far too fast as you worry about making Matt wait much longer.
It was just stupid. Because amongst the questions, one rings out that’s insane enough to make the rest of them actually sound reasonable.
If you did manage to fuck this up in any way, would Eddie protect you?
Whether it be because you couldn’t complete the task at hand that was beginning to look impossible, or if it was because you couldn’t keep your mouth shut, would he defend you?
You’d figured you’d lost his servitude and protection long ago, back when you’d first left that apartment and ignored every attempt at contact. But if it came down to it, would he offer you one last privilege of his defense? Probably not. Which — fair enough. You hadn’t done anything in the last week to have already earned that back. You hadn’t wanted to earn that privilege back, either. No matter how badly you found yourself wanting a new email from him in your inbox, there was a clear line in the sand drawn by your own stick, and you had to stay to your side of it.
You were a big girl. You could handle it.
Just as you finally approach the conference room, eyes trained to the ground and brows tightly furrowed in careful consideration (definitely not frustration, because the thought of Eddie surely couldn’t frustrate you), you make a fatal mistake. It’s a small detail you’d never paid much mind to prior — a stain on the carpet just outside the doorway, subtle yet large once the shadowy shifting of the carpet’s color caught your eyes. You’re so busy letting your eyes trail the perimeter of it, trying to focus on the threaded shades rather than the shade of Eddie’s dark eyes in the hallway the week before, that you aren’t prepared when the toe of your shoe catches against the said carpet.
You should have ate shit, to put it plainly.
One quick fumble, and you’re flying forward, hardly thinking as you throw out your hands to brace for impact. Foolish, considering the fall would have left you with severely aching wrists, or a bruised face. But it never arrives.
Large hands suddenly appear to grab you, catching you halfway through the sudden fall, and the unfamiliar cologne that’s plagued your waking thoughts for a week now overtakes your senses.
You thought it was Matt waiting for you.
“Woah!” his voice echoes easily in the empty hallway, “Shit, are you okay?”
You swore it was Matt waiting for you.
“Fine,” you strangle out, pulling away from that touch as quickly as possible. Like he’s burned you. Like those hands that once knew you all too well held your entire demise in their palms.
And they might.
It wasn’t Matt waiting for you.
Eddie doesn’t seem shocked by your retreat, only watching with a blank face as you regain your balance on your own and avoid eye contact. He looks nice – a leather jacket too shiny to be the one he wore when you wore together, a faded band t-shirt beneath you can’t fully see the logo of but know was bought that distressed just for looks due to the familiar unfamiliarity that has begun to cloud around the man you once knew, heavy boots planted right on the stain in the carpet that had distracted you.
“What did you even trip on?” he finally questions, looking curiously behind you as he retraces your path, “Was it-”
“Air,” you cut him off, “Save me the embarrassment, but I tripped on air.”
If you had half a mind, you would have interrupted with something more useful. Maybe demanded to know why he was here in your office. Questioned his intentions of showing up unannounced. Asked why he never emailed again.
Okay, maybe not that last one.
He lets out a short chuckle, more a breath than anything else as his face finally cracks and he almost grins, “I see. To be fair, it’s an easy thing to trip on. Very hard to see. Almost as if it’s invisible.”
He gauges your reaction, but you don’t let yourself so much as smile at his awkward attempt at a joke.
You can’t. You can’t casually joke with him, you can’t laugh and pretend like there isn’t an elephant sitting on your chest every time you occupy the same space as him. There’s no magic eraser to everything between you two; no amount of emails, no amount of bad jokes that can vanish all that has transpired. Your past and the carpet, it seems, have something in common.
Never thought you’d say that about the ugly threads you only look at to disassociate during particularly long days.
“What are you doing here?” you finally whisper out the right question, and internally cringe as your mouth keeps moving only to tack on a completely unnecessary addition of, “I didn’t receive any emails about a meeting-”
“Matt sent me,” Eddie shrugs. You watch the way the leather creases and fits his wide shoulders, catch yourself studying to see if there’s any new muscle beneath the layers to further estrange you further from him, “He’s been stuck in meetings for the album and single, and said you’d left him a few voice mails so… I’m the rescue team, I guess.”
You finally look him in his eyes, jaw dropping ever so slightly, “You?”
“What about me?”
“You’re my ‘rescue team’?” the words are bitter on your tongue, his presence anything but a relief of rescue, “No offense, but how can you possibly help me?”
And then he smiles. And, oh Lord, you’ve forgotten how nice of a smile he has. It’s painful – a sharp reminder of the past that you just can’t shake. He’s an old photograph that never quite burns, a stain on your favorite article of clothing you’ll never wear again. For a moment, it doesn’t matter how many parts of him he’s replaced, how many pieces of him have been turned over brand new and unfamiliar, because he looks just like the boy you left behind. A relic you can mourn for once you return to your apartment all alone. A whisper you’ll exchange with your children about someday, as you tell them all about the boy who changed you for the worse.
“You’d be surprised,” he muses, reaching a hand up to drag over a chin shadowed over in faint facial hair, “Apparently, once you make it big, you have to learn about more things than just how to play an A chord on a guitar or sing in tune. Business, for example. That’s what you’ve been struggling with, yeah? The business aspect of it all?”
You kind of want to walk away from him. To go and eat shit in a different hallway, on your way to tell Lydia you can’t do this anymore.
“I’m not struggling,” you snap.
He’s quick to lift his hands in surrender, “Don’t shoot the messenger. Those were Matt’s words, not mine.”
“Yeah, well, tell Matt I’m fine,” you huff indignantly, “I’m a professional who can handle myself. I can figure this out on my own.”
You’re turning your back to him, ready to storm off dramatically for your own sanity, when he clears his throat.
You pause. You don’t turn to look, but you halt mid-step.
“Humor me, for a second,” he begins, “What exactly are you fully capable of figuring out on your own?”
“The planning,” you state the obvious, staring at an odd piece of art on the office wall to your left. Not quite turning your head to him, but angling so your voice carries.
“Yeah, no shit,” his words spark a little more anger, a little more rage, “I mean what part of the planning? You’ve left Matt at least two voicemails. Probably more, if he’s resorted to sending me.”
More like five. Possibly seven, but you’d indulged in more wine than would be wise to admitting this weekend after receiving your third venue rejection.
“Maybe he just got tired of babysitting you. Decided to make you someone else’s problem.”
“Maybe,” Eddie hums, and you can hear his slow footsteps as he slowly walks to block your vision of the abstract artwork. Your gaze is cut off from the silvery lines splattered across a black background and forced upon brown eyes that are more lively than you remember from the previous week, “But I already made the trip all the way down here. Might as well make myself useful to you.”
He’s still wearing that smile. The one that belongs captured in a polaroid at the back of your closet. The one frozen in a time that was so much simpler than this.
The kind that leaves a mark – a stain.
“You want to make yourself useful to me?” you narrow your eyes, straighten your shoulders, prepare for battle, “Then leave. That is the most useful thing you can do for me right now – walk out of this building, and leave me to figure this out without being a pest.”
Your words should hurt him, but they only seem to fuel him. It’s the exact same reaction you’d imagined on the other side of all the emails. A pep to his step and a perk in his posture that elicits unhinged annoyance from deep within you.
“No can do,” he smirks, “Sorry, I’m on Matt’s orders to not leave until we figure this out. Together.”
You don’t care how nice Matt is – you decidedly hate him at this moment.
“Eddie,” you don’t notice the way his chest catches when you say his name, even in your defiant tone, “I am telling you right now, there is nothing you can do to help.”
And then he takes you off guard, breathing still not quite steady as he breathes out, “Let’s go get coffee.”
“I already told you, I have no interest in getting coffee or lunch with yo-”
“Not like that,” he waves off, finally slipping back into his casual demeanor, “Just- throw me a bone here, Sugar. We don’t even have to talk. You can bring your laptop and phone, focus on work and pretend I don’t exist the entire time. But I have to stick around long enough to get Matt off my ass, and you clearly have been stuck in this stuffy ass building for too long.”
Sugar.
Your breath catches at the nickname, just as his had when you said his name.
Shakily, you exhale, “No, I-”
“Funny thing,” he shoves both hands in the pockets of his jeans. Well-fitted, fairly new. No signs of distress like he preferred in his youth. Just starch black that clings to skin you once knew, “I’m not asking. Technically, I’m your boss. And as your boss, I’m instructing you to join me for nothing more than a free coffee and change of scenery. Like I said, it’ll be as if I’m not even there. I’ll keep my mouth shut the entire time – strictly business.”
You nearly slip up and inform him that it doesn’t matter if he doesn’t talk – if he’s near you, your body always seems to know. Your body, your senses, your soul. Any time he occupies the same room as you, his vicinity lights something in you impossible to ignore. It had been that way since the first day you met him. And would probably continue to be that way until the day you were buried six feet under.
Even in death, his soul would probably haunt yours. You would never know another day of peace since meeting Eddie Munson.
“You’re not my boss,” you argue, crossing your arms, “You’re my client. Lydia is my boss.”
“And would Lydia appreciate you arguing with a client like this?”
“What do you want from me?”
The question falls from your lips with unexpected weight and exasperation.
Your arms fall down from your chest just as quickly as they’d risen, the two of you encased in silence as you both realize the implication behind the question. It’s about more than just the coffee, more than just his impromptu visit to your work. It’s the heaviest question you could have asked at this moment; and one that neither of you were ready to hear the answer to quite yet.
There’s a million unsaid words swirling behind whiskey irises. A hundred and one conversations never had, a thousand and one battles never witnessed on both ends of this war. Something in them whispers you might not be the only one haunted.
Maybe, just maybe, his soul will only haunt yours for as long as yours haunts his. A haunted house, a ghastly gallery. Two ghosts always meant to hang up parallel to each other in crooked frames, in an empty hallway.
“Just a coffee,” he whispers, and something in you cracks quietly, “Just one cup of coffee, for now.”
With all things considered, it’s not asking that much of you.
You don’t have any fight left in you. Whether he’s here, whether he’s a world away, you’re still destined to be stuck across from him in the damn hallway. Always staring, always drawn. There might not be a single corner of this world far enough away to break whatever thread ties you to the man before you, whether you still know him or not.
After a pregnant pause, you sigh, “Let me grab my purse.”
With all things considered, he probably should be asking more of you.
But you’re grateful he isn’t as you retreat and do exactly as promised, not looking Romina in her eyes before you begin your doomsday march for just one cup of coffee.
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Landduo_One-shot fanfic
Here's a little one-shot fanfic about landduo(Foolish and Badboyhalo). Characters maybe a little bit or very much OOC but I wanted to give it a shot and make one anyways. I'm not really a writer nor am I good at writing the characters personality's right but feel free to make your own twist on this or build upon it if you want.
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-Landduo: The funeral-
Bad's POV:
Despite it being such a beautiful day everyone is in a melancholy mood and the tension is high. War might any moment, but we all were able to set aside a day to host a funeral for the king.
Bad sits on the roof of the bell tower at his cathedral, staring up at the vibrant sky in thought.
Immortality. A gift for some...and a curse for others. for me it's both. A gift that allows me to keep seeing new things...and meet new people but a curse that leaves me alone...watching everything that was created, whether it be by me or someone else get destroyed...or have me leading the dead to their afterlife.
I. A being that's been there since the beginning, that saw the start and end of the dinosaurs to the rise of civilizations. A being that started as a spectator now a pawn in the narrator's game have lived long enough to become...indifferent to my immortality.
However, there's been one constant in my life in every universe. another immortal being that always seem to come into my life. A totem shark hybrid by the name of Foolish.
A soft smile graces bad's face as he thinks of Foolish.
We've known each other for what feels like eternity...In every universe me and him. We always end up together. Either as friends, frenemies, enemies, acquaintances or whatever the narration wants us to be. He's always there, fate is funny like that.
Two sides of the same coin, yet we treat immorality different. I guess that's what lead us to this point. In every universe, even if one of us or both of us die. It takes a long time for rebirth...to reform. at least, that's what I assume. it could be different for each of us.
This time however it's different. This universe has us on three lives. three lives and then you reset. A 24 hour wait until you come back, either a new person or the same person yet changed forever by the death you've just experienced. A few people have already lost 3 lives and came back...I'm on my last life and it's made me wary. I don't want to lose this last life. I've lost a life before; I remember it a little bit...dying slowly in a flower field alone, feeling death consume me and then starting over again. My memory of that time is fuzzy, and I rather not go through that again especially if each death is 24 hours...each reset for me, might bring a different me...and it'll be an endless cycle that I rather not repeat.
Foolish on the other hand had all his lives...
Bad's eyes narrow in guilt and frustration
He had all his lives but I... I took two of them. not realizing how strong the blows my weapons would deal, would be fatal...and that brought about Foolish's idea to jump the broom and end his last life. We could've had one life together but NO. he suggested we both do it together, obviously I was against it, and I tried to talk him out of it, but he still went with it anyways. It eventually led to him being killed by Pili, a cat hybrid who was part of the hostile faction, who needed to kill someone, or they all lose a life.
I hate the fact that I couldn't kill him with an elaborate plan, both lives taken accidentally and the last life taken by someone other than me is frustrating. then another life was taken accidentally a day later by me... Maybe my immorality isn't a mixture of a gift or curse...maybe I'm just cursed to take lives and lead them on. to repeat the cycle, in a never-ending loop...
A voice from below interrupts bad's train of thoughts and as the "demon" looks down to see, the cat hybrid Pili shouting for him to come down. With a sigh Bad stands up, dusting himself off before shooting a teleportation arrow near Pili.
Pili: Bad, the funerals about to begin...are you ready?
Bad: Yea, I'm ready.
They both walk side by side as they enter the cathedral. neither of them says a word even as they walk by all the other members of the community who came to the funeral. Bad takes a seat near the front as he stares at the coffin in silence and Pili takes the stand to start the reception. Once everyone takes there turn to say a few words about King Foolish and had a moment of silence at the coffin to say they're finally goodbyes it finally became Bad's turn. As he stood up to walk towards the coffin, He thought of everything he wanted to say and everything he couldn't. He stops in front of the coffin staring at Foolish's body for a minute. taking in every detail for a minute before turning to the audience and begin to give his finally words.
Bad: My beloved...Our beloved king was a selfish tyrant who...died unrighteously by an unknown assassinator...and even though he has died...he will not be missed.
He gives a humorless laugh before continuing, unaware of the murmurs that begin to fill the crowd.
Bad: But make no mistake he will be back...
Pili speaks from the crowd.
Pili: Um bad behind you...
Bad: Yes, yes...I know my beloved king lays behind me but fear not he may not arise from the dead today, but he will...
Foolish: Um, what's going on? Who are you people?
Bad swipes a fake tear from his eyes.
Bad: you know...it's kind of crazy, but it's like I can still hear his voice...right behind me...
A hand drops onto his shoulder startling the "demon" out of his "Monologuing" and he turns to the owner of the hand with wide eyes.
Bad: What the fudge! Foolish you're alive!
The demon exclaims before pulling the totem into a hug, forgetting all about the audience behind them. Bad pulls back to look at the totem with a smile but the totem only stares at bad in confusion.
Foolish: Um I'm sorry but do I know you...?
The question freezes the "demon" to his core and his expression drops as he pulls back from the totem fully. His expression tight as he answers the question.
Bad: ...You did...I guess you're a blank slate this time around...
The expression the totem gives bad remains confused but before he could question it any further a cry from the audience catches his attention and then he's being pulled into another hug by Ros and any other member that was a part of his faction. Bad seeing the opportunity decides to give them all space and leave the cathedral for some alone time.
-Time skip later, that night-
Bad finds himself at the King's bridge. sitting on the edge as he stares up at the night sky, the stars shining bright, the fish making ripples in the water and the cold night air causing a slight shiver to run up bad's spine. Bad knows Foolish has long since retired to his bed chambers and he knows other people have done the same. He however couldn't help but want to watch over the king and the kingdom's grounds for a bit.
He sits out there for a few hours before he here silent footsteps approach and a familiar voice speaking up behind him.
Foolish: Couldn't sleep?
Bad turns to him with a slight smile. Bad: I suppose not...what about you?
Foolish walks closer to bad before leaning against the railing besides bad and looking up at the sky aswell, mirroring bad.
Foolish: You can say something like that...or you could say I had a feeling that made me want to take a stroll.
Bad glances to Foolish with a huff.
Bad: A feeling?
Foolish lips pull into a smirk as he meets his gaze.
Foolish: Yup! A feeling.
Bad: ...right? you mind sharing what that feeling is?
Foolish: Maybe, but I'm sure you may already know. After all you are the one who took both my lives.
Bad scoffs as he turns fully to Foolish.
Bad: First, they were accidents and...wait...you remember?
Foolish's smirk turns into a full-blown grin as he turns Bad, crossing his arms.
Foolish: Maybe...
Bad exclaims in fake annoyance as he slaps the other man's arms in turn Foolish puts his hands up in a placating manner.
Bad: You ragga-muffin! When did you get your memories back!?
Foolish: hmm, around evening, but I wanted to let you sit in the guilty for a little while...you know to think about your actions.
Bad's shoulder's start to shake from annoyance, anger and maybe a little bit of happiness as he stares at Foolish in silence, deep in thought. Annoyance that Foolish would take a chance to pull something like this (Even though he should've seen it coming) and happy that he didn't have to start over on rebuilding their complicated relationship. It was hard to figure out what exactly made him angry he figures that maybe it's just the entire situation itself, but he could dwell on that later for now things would go back to normal or at least as normal as it could be with the two of them.
Foolish watches Bad, watches the emotions flickering in his eyes and he can practically feel and hear his thoughts but before he could speak again Bad lets out a sniffle and as Foolish looks closer, he can see the beginning of tears form in Bad's eyes. With a sigh Foolish pulls Bad into a hug and they sit in silence in each other embrace.
Neither know how long they stayed like that, in each other's embrace, letting the small amount of vulnerability show in each other's presence before Bad speaks up.
Bad: You had me worried...You raggamuffin.
Foolish lets out a small snort before responding.
Foolish: In every universe, right?
Bad hums before pulling back away and staring at the stars again, two stars shine the brightest and Bad smiles before responding.
In every universe.
The End.
or is it?
Anyways um...I put too much effort into this.... I might make more...I might make shorter ones...this one shot been on my mind since 7am and ...idk...but like if you like it feel free to make something similar to this, build upon it or take inspiration. there isn't a lot of landduo Fics, and I felt like making one after reading one that someone posted on twitter the other day. It was really good to read, it's called no universe. Every universe by (cereuleanskies). They inspired this Fics and inspired me to actually go through with making it. Along with what some people have been saying on twitter about Foolish coming back with amnesia.
Anyways Thanks to anyone who read this, and I appreciate feedback lol!
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DPXDC Social Media AU
Fic below!
The video started, the camera focusing on the scene before it. A teenager’s bedroom was shown, decorated with posters of space and model rockets. It was deceptively normal, had it not been for fans pointing out that they weren’t labeled LexCorp, Wayne, or any of the other leading names in aerospace.
“Hey everyone!” The teen in question greeted, smiling at the camera as he waved. “Danny here! Sorry for the radio silence—two of my rogues decided to do a collaboration and kidnapped a bunch of people. My parents grounded me and took all my video games since I kinda trashed a bunch of their equipment saving them, so I finally had enough time to record this. Again, grabbing a smartphone from you guys’ dimension was absolutely the right call. Looking forward to when the ones here will get to that level and I can use mine in public.”
Sitting back in his seat, Danny waved his hands. Papers from around the room were pulled up in the air, showing a variety of news clippings, report cards, and event flyers from the last year. “Sweet, that worked! I know it’s been a year, but I’m still getting used to these powers. Anyway, today’s topic is: secret identities! Specifically how much they can suck sometimes.”
The papers drop as he spins in his chair and folds his arms.
“Okay, so I’m gonna start this by saying I only speak for myself. Your dimension has a ton of other heroes who have all kinds of perspectives on this kind of thing. It’s also not an invitation to start harassing your friends and coworkers if they pull any stunts like the ones I’m gonna talk about. Some people are just flaky, some have other things in their life going on that they don’t want to talk to you about. In the extremely unlikely chance that you’re right and the friend who keeps bailing on you is a vigilante, you should leave that shit alone. No matter how justified you are in getting upset that they don’t have the time for you, trying to expose them can kill not only them, but everyone they want to protect. Don’t do it.”
Clapping his hands Danny tilts his head to listen for something before continuing. “With that out of the way and my whole family leaving the house, let’s get to it. Going ghost!”
A flash of light marks the transformation, revealing Phantom at the end. He adjusts the camera so that he remains in frame as he now floats in his room.
“So if you’re new here, let me run through the basics. When I was fourteen, I died and came back wrong. No, I won’t go into the details—I don’t need any of you getting any ideas. I can appear as human, so me and my two best friends decided to keep it a secret from my parents, who are ghost hunters. The current arrangement is that I go out as Phantom to fight off aggressive ghosts when they attack, and the rest of time I try to lead a somewhat abnormal civilian life.”
“Onto the topic. Now, the main reason people keep their identity secret is so that their enemies can’t use it to hurt them. I…sorta do that? I mean I’d be in a lot of trouble if ghost hunters figured me out, and the government here kinda revoked my human rights so there’s that. But there’s no hiding from other ghosts. Not when we can sense each other. I’m just lucky for the anti-ghost hunter solidarity, it’s probably the only reason my rogues haven’t revealed my human identity to the world.”
He shivered dramatically.
“So, humans. People. Being a superpowered vigilante is all fun and games except when an attack happens during class. I don’t even ask to go to the bathroom anymore, the teachers gave up on stopping me,” He rubbed the back of his neck sheepishly. “Don’t get me started on how many times I’ve gotten grounded or given extra detentions because I was busy stopping someone from torching a building or possessing someone to ruin their life in creative ways. I can’t just tell them why I wasn’t there, so I either have to act like an idiot who forgot that I have classes to attend or pretend like I was skipping on purpose. Which I was, but not like that, ya know?”
“Another thing! My grades have completely tanked. I used to be a straight A student, I needed to be if I wanted to be an astronaut. But no, I had to go and get myself killed, and now my biology is all messed up so I can’t even qualify for the physical if my grades were good enough. Which they aren’t, because now I spend most of my time brawling whatever ghost of the day. And like, sure. I could do my homework and study in the rest of the time I have that’s not spent sleeping. But that’s exhausting, and honestly I’d rather take the F than spend all my time working.”
He sighed, slumping down a bit in his chair.
“It just sucks. My sister is setting records on her exams, and I’m a few pity-grades away from being held back a year. At least now I can handle most of the regulars by myself, so I’m not dragging my friends down with me. They deserve better.”
Danny opened his mouth to continue, but was cut off by mist escaping his lungs. He groaned, using his telekinesis to put his room back in order (notably cramming his graded assignments behind his dresser) and reaching for the camera.
“That’s my cue. Here’s hoping I can handle whoever’s out there fast enough so I have time to get started on my book report. Over and out.”
The video ended there. For many, that would be the last they’d hear of what was speculated to be the best performance-style LARP series for a while. Fans would start analyzing the footage not in the comments section, which was disabled, but in a separate online forum.
However, there was one place, albeit less well known, that one Danny Phantom would respond in.
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Anonymous said
its good to see yuo posting again, but you looked really stressed. are you ok?
phantompaining
lol no
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metwise said
I completely agree with you on your recent video. Vigilante work is hard; I was lucky when I started out, and I still nearly died many times over. Don’t let your grades get to you, if your school system is anything like this world’s equivalent then it is based heavily on busywork. Next time you’re visiting this world, try looking into online schooling. There should be free resources online you can download and follow along at your own pace to supplement the classes you miss. So long as you score well on tests, you can make up for the homework grades.
phantompaining
oh ill have to look into that, sounds neat. not sure if ill get around to actually studying any of it, but its better than nothing. i cant wait for my earth to catch up with yours, online school sounds so much better
gottabeoakin
Ayo is that Red Robin? Why tf is he takin some kids larp so seriously
implusivefruit
bold words from the deathnote rp acc
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phantompaining
shoutout to my rogues, who beat the shit out of me, dropped some new ghost lore, then backed me up in fighting an army of the undead
also mech suits hurt like hell how does skulker do it
beetletakethewheel
Mech suits shouldn’t hurt??
phantompaining
my parents’ one runs on lifeforce
anyway if i had a dollar for every time i woke up somewhere i didn’t pass out in these last few days i’d have enough money to buy a burger
killmetwise
How much do your burgers cost
phantompaining
(:
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phantompaining
when the hell did so many supers start following me where are you people coming from
superttk
‘why r there so many heroes’ says the hero on the hero site
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its like the only anonymous platform left that doesnt suck
totallynotharleyquinn
Free entertainment <3
phantompaining
ok fair
phantompaining
wait a second
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coalminesinger said
Hello Phantom! I just wanted to check in on you after your last few posts. Did you enjoy your weekend off?
phantompaining
nope lol, technus escaped and I used one of my parents inventions to split myself to try and relax while handling the ghost issue and just made more work for myself
metwise
#on the plus side my house is now on the beach #just in time for summer
You live in the middle of town???
phantompaining
yea putting it back is gonna be a pain
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phantompaining
ok this is gonna be a heavy one folks. like arkham asylum levels of shit. i just spent the last week with my family convinced i was going insane, and i need to vent
:readmore:
discowinginginging
That really really sucks, and I’m so sorry you had to go through that.
I went through a similar experience (only I was under the influence of a hallucinogenic drug that made me see, hear, and feel the villain in question, who wasn’t actually there). I was lucky enough to be on a team with someone who could read my mind and figure out what was happening, but if you can’t do that the next best thing is figuring out code words with anyone in the know. Obviously it’s not perfect, but some kind of word indicating that you feel like something is very wrong could save you a lot of trouble.
More under the cut.
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phantompaining
…that could work? ill have to talk to my friends about it, but it sounds good
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As per what's customary with my blorbos:
Of course I get fic ideas for them. Anyways, I really want to make this into a proper oneshot but apparently my brain doesn't want to work with me rn (wrote three lines, two of them I don't like)
So I decided to (for now) make a rough timeline of events of what would happen in the fic
Hopefully I actually write this soon or else I just spent 24 minutes of my life for nothing but this
#“writer's fanfic ideas”#wind breaker#wind breaker x reader#haruka sakura#haruka sakura x reader#meme#do it for him#DO IT FOR HIM!!!!#legit spent 24 minutes of my life to make a subpar meme#i dunno if i should be proud or ashamed#i put too much effort into this#but it's worth it actually#i mean. it's sakura. of course it's worth it
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I was so caught up in the euphoria of making shit up, I forgot I wasn't uncontested. Wild that canon exists and is ongoing. Wild.
#this can to applicable to so much but its jjk#the new issue leaks reminded me that my initial headcanon is looking to be correct#even though I ignored every implication of it when I dived into my new fic#i'm 45k deep sukuna is stuck with this backstory no matter what canon says#but#jjk spoilers#ill tag that so my blabbing doesn't ruin anything#i DID forget it was implied he had a brother#completely forgot#i gave him nameless siblings to kill but I very much forgot that canon bit#hm maybe whatever they throw out me this weekend will not change anything#also Jin I put too much effort into this loving malewife he's mine now#i did always think he was related somehow because of resemblance#but I was so lost in the fanfic sauce it was unimportant#eh its an au anyways#i'll subject yall to it soon enough#just had to meme and make fun of myself for a sec
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When all of you read my writing that is, in fact, very good, just remember that I have constant voice cracks and my voice is a different pitch every time I open my mouth to speak and I'm usually hoarse and I have a teenage boy mustache and beard hair that's growing in pretty well on the right side of my chin but not the left and even though I know that looks terrible I absolutely will not shave it. Just remember that the reason I'm allowed to be so good at writing is because even though I have a full time job and pay rent on a one bedroom apartment and pay taxes, I am a teenage boy in every way. Except with tits. Please just realize that I write really smooth prose but I am in fact horrifically awkward due to having to look like this despite being an adult
#it is very strange being the only fanfic writer who actually thinks I'm a good writer#but i do in fact know i am#i put way way too much effort into getting good at writing as a teenager#and now i get to sit back and reap the benefits and only have to improve a little bit with each piece
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ao3 you're my babygirl but god do i not read anything nowadays <//3 the things i want to read simply do not exist and once i'm like "okay i won't find what i want anyway, what else is there" my standards are still too high to actually read anything
And like. I would, will and DO write the stuff i actually want to read, issue is just that i don't always have the energy to and would rather just calmly read :[[
I'm really not in the fandom position to be any sorts of goddamn picky but if i look for one more skizztek fanfic and get met with ranchers i WILL lose it <3
#rambles#ao3 fanfic#writers on tumblr#or smth like that#idk but i'm just#SIGHSSSS SO MUCHHHH#i don't want to have to put so much effort into being creative sometimes#so sometimes i really just want to read smth and not think too much about it#but then whenever i DO give in and move on from what i /want/ to read#then I get met with the worst formatting ever or something else that's an immediate no#slash dramatic but my god <//3
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hmmm i've been thinking about the fact that so many of the fic authors that i read and liveblog will never see my live blogging of their fics and how much i enjoy reading them! and i don't usually leave comments on fics but i feel like i should so they can understand how much i love their fics! would it be weird to leave a link to my live blogging of their fic??? would an author even want to see that???
#i honestly have no idea lol but i usually put so much time and effort into the live blogging that i dont really have the energy to leave#a good comment on the fic. but i could totally tell them i loved the fic and link to the live blogging so they could see it#i have no idea if that would just be weird tho lol#i do feel like the live blogging is super helpful tho because it does usually seem to bring at least a few more readers to the fic#but i would also like to let the author know that i enjoyed the fic too!#fanfic
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sometimes i am reminded about this fic in particular and wish I had all the time in the world to go back and finish it :/
there's something so special about Platinum Clan!Gingko Guild and the way I spun the world-building and honestly im really proud of this fic even if the likelihood of me continuing it is probably realistically next to none
i'm giving up writing fandom stuff unless a fandom genuinely catches my interest enough to write one-shots for it but if there's any story i'd like to come back to one day it's def this one,,,
#going through my swsh fics landed me here lol#this one and my Apotheosis fanfic are my favorite fanfics ive written ngl#trencher fed and scatter is probs up there too bc i remember it very fondly but am kind of afraid my writing's aged too much for me now lol#with my limited Adult Life Time TM im prioritizing making my own original content over anything else so i have no hope of going back but#idk the amount of time and effort i put into this fic really shows despite being only 2 chapters/50k in#and i hope to put forth that much effort in my own works lol
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Me: All fanfiction is valid!
Also me, gripping my bejeweled chalice in rage: Character x reader is a pox upon the land
#HOT TAKE ALERT#i don't wanna yuck people's yum but i hate that shit#it is fundamentally bad writing because y/n is not a character to be developed#i am also just generally in favor of putting at least *some* veneer of creativity on your wank fantasy#cxr is just mask off fapping#and it feels weirdly low effort compared to the alternatives#i don't think you can really improve very much as a writer if you exclusively write character x reader#it's too awkward to sustain a plot so you just get oneshots and pwp#which have their purpose but you don't want those to be the only tools in your toolbox#not to mention that a lot of the characters read as OOC since we can't see their development of their relationship with y/n#on a personal level it doesn't appeal to me because i don't want to fuck the characters#idk i wonder if cxr is the new mary sue self insert but if so it's less creative than develping an OC!#i'd rather see a million obnoxiously perfect mary sue OCs than a single y/n#fanfic is a labor of love and i wanna see that WORK
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You Like Superheroes, Don’t you, Marinette?
AN: Hope you enjoy reading this short crack fic. This is probably one of my first time writing a crack fic and first time posting a fic here. If you want to read my other works please check me out in AO3
Marinette is currently minding her own business. Her kwami, Tikki is currently munching on a cookie as usual.
The calm didn’t last long when Alya slammed her trapdoor wide open which sent Marinette stumbling out of her seat.
“You!” Alya pointed an accusatory finger at her.
Marinette pointed to herself, numbly. “Me?”
That only seemed to provoke Alya as she began walking towards her as Marinette stood up and sat her down on the chair. “I know your secret!”
“My secret?” Marinette asked, completely confused as to what the heck was she talking about. Alya knows almost everything about her, especially that she is Ladybug and the guardian.
“I figured it out!” Alya exclaimed. “You like superheroes!”
Marinette tilted her head in response, she honestly has no idea where this conversation is heading at this point.
“Do you remember when you swapped miraculous with Chat Noir the first time?” Alya asked. Marinette hummed in agreement, how could she forget that moment? “You named yourself Lady Noire, right?” She made sure to enunciate the ‘right.’
“I did, where are you going with this?” Marinette said, looking confused despite the twinkle in Alya’s eyes which spelled mischief.
“Do you remember that LadyNoir is a ship name between you and Chat?” Alya wiggled her eyebrows in emphasis.
Marinette blushed, she instantly realized what this was about. The name was a spur of the moment when she fought Reflekdoll with Mr. Bug. It didn’t mean anything at the time but now that she thought about it, it was quite the slip and she couldn’t help but facepalm.
“And when you fought Monarch on your own, you named yourself Bug Noire, huh?” Alya asked, completely shoving her face closer to Marinette and she blushed even deeper. Okay, she has got to stop telling Alya everything.
“You shipped yourself with Chat twice! I can’t believe it!” Alya began laughing like a mad woman as if she had said a very funny joke. “I should give you a shirt that says, ‘I ship LadyNoir and BugNoire!’”
Marinette groaned and buried her face into her hands. Sure, she was with Adrien and happy but that didn’t help with the fact that she slipped up on the idea of her being with Chat by naming her hero identity close to the ship name between them, twice!
Alya kept laughing till she was on the floor and even Tikki began chuckling. Traitor.
Marinette knew her best friend would never let her live it down.
Bonus:
A week after the incident, Marinette received a package from Alya. Opening it, she pulled out a shirt that had a man with glasses wearing a tuxedo with the words:
You only ship LadyNoir
I ship LadyNoir and BugNoire
We are not the same
Marinette decided to think about her revenge for this betrayal after storing the shirt away. Too bad her best friend will lose pastry privileges for a month.
Tikki was cackling at her misery.
Marinette could only give a long suffering groan.
#miraculous ladybug#marinette dupain cheng#alya cesaire#ml fic#ml crack#mlb fic#ml fanfic#ml meme#i put too much effort into this#please laugh
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Ogaki even gave Cutthroat tits, it's canon now because I say so
#akudama drive#those are some big knockers too#swindler sized even (Ogaki's version of swindler...not anime swindler. he loves disgracing flat chested girls)#new selfship fanfic idea. Koro-kun x Satsujinki-chan <3#i love how much effort he put into this joke though#it looks like he traced most of the original image. but there's a lot of redrawing too
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The Day Bleeds
“I hate you.” He whispered as he turned his face into Will’s shoulder, squeezing his eyes shut as Will draped his arm around him tiredly.
“Don’t I know it.” He replied, letting his fingertips brush lightly at the stitching of Nico’s aviator jacket.
“I’m serious, you’re the stupidest man I’ve met in my life.” Nico murmured, turning his head so only his temple rested against his boyfriend's arm.
Will laughed, “Weird way to thank me for saving your life, but I’ll take it.”
At that, Nico pulled back indignantly, eyes narrowed, “I had him. It was fine.”
Raising an eyebrow, Will fixed him with a hard stare, “You were cornered.”
“I had it.” Nico snapped, unable to reign in his frustration. It wasn’t a rare occurrence, Nico getting angry, and Will knew that the anger at their situation was simply misdirected back at him. They’d had more than one fight about it over the course of their friendship and then later relationship as well. Eventually they’d reached common ground about how Nico should be allowed to be a dick sometimes because the world was a shit-hole, even if Will refused to see it that way.
But there was something different about the understanding on his face this time, something off about the way Will’s eyes softened to scan Nico’s face, the way he brought up his hand to thread through the black strands of Nico’s hair.
“Not a chance I was willing to take.” Will murmured, eyes full of the strangest kind of sadness.
Nico frowned, eyes squinting suspiciously, “Are you sure you’re…” he let his voice trail out as his eye caught on the edge of the scratch ending on the other side of his neck. He pursed his lips and downcast his eyes. “Let’s get that cleaned.” Not that it would really do much to stall the infection.
He started to reach for his small camping backpack with the sparse emergency first-aid materials when Will caught his hand.
“Save it.” Was all he said as he laced their fingers.
Nico blinked at their hands, flicking his eyes up to the blond’s face who was very intently studying Nico’s hand. “Will,” He started uncertainly, it wasn’t like the boy to deny anyone basic medical treatment, even if it was ultimately useless.
He just shook his head without looking up, “Honestly, it’d just be a waste.”
Nico stared at him in disbelief for a second before he yanked his hand away, going for the pack again. “Yeah, fuck that,” the zipper slid open without much of a fight, “It’ll help with the stinging.”
He reached into the bag and rooted around for the slim bandage roll and travel tissue pack. It wasn’t much but there was always the risk of having to abandon the bag so Nico always felt better if nothing valuable was tucked away inside. With the other hand he pulled the plastic water bottle out. It was only half way full and the label had long since been torn off, but the water was fresh and clean.
He hadn’t even started to unscrew the cap before Will protested again.
“It’s not worth it, really.” He tried and Nico rolled his eyes. Doctors made the worst patients. He dampened the tissue with some of the water and tried to keep his dirty fingers from contaminating the wet splotch as he adjusted it in his grip.
“Turn your head,” he demanded, gesturing with the tissue. When Will made no effort to move, Nico huffed and gripped his chin with his other hand to do it himself.
He brought up the wet tissue to the side of the shallow scratch and started to dab at it carefully, “Seriously, Will, we can spare one-”
“I got bit.” Will cut him off bluntly, twisting to face him and grabbing his wrist in one motion.
Nico glared at him, letting his hand be stopped to give him the full extent of his glower, “That’s not funny.” Will didn’t break his gaze and his jaw didn’t unclench for a single moment under Nico’s scrutiny. He tore his wrist away from the medic for the second time, “Don’t fucking joke about that.” He said lowly.
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Here’s a sneak peak at the rewriting of my Solangelo apocalypse au. I think it’s pretty funky. I can link it for anyone interested when it’s finished :)
Update: https://archiveofourown.org/works/29969520/chapters/73778298
#nico di angelo#will solace#solangelo#fanfic#percy jackson#a03#im putting way too much effort into this by the way#i was just supposed to fix a few scenes but now it's a whole new fic#apocalyptic fiction#nico is an angst king#does nico know how to be happy?#probably not#ok thanks
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NEW CHAPTER OUT GO READ IT!! THEY FINALLY KISS
#rhack#handsome jack#rhys strongfork#they kiss#fanfic#pls read#im begging yall#i put too much effort into this
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Reminding everyone that reblogs are better than likes
Especially on tumblr
#look#i know consuming content is different for everyone#writing is in general from what I've seen harder to consume than art#or people are less likely to consume writing/more likely to just scroll pass it on their dash#but yknow#we writers put a lot of effort in as well#this is actually something i think about a lot#and i always feel terrible for thinking it#like “oh I'm guilt tripping people” or “oh I'm saying artists get too many reblogs” but no im not saying that#artists are amazing#and i love them all dearly#their content is incredible and i wish i could do what they do#i just in general dont see as much appreciation for writers? if that makes sense#i was told its because it takes longer/more effort to read fanfic than it does to look at art#and yeah thats true#but still#idk#zera rambles#just writer thoughts
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#i just noticed that i've been suuuper inactive on this blog#for which i'm sorry#but also uni has been hell#one of my professors has decided that we should do two courses worth of reading for her seminar every week#and i've been stuck in group project planning hell for like three weeks now#i also might have put a bit too much pressure on myself when it comes to project so besides correcting the new Hot Mess chpt#i've also been working on three other projects and still need to do work for my uni classes#i really wanted to put out the new chapter this week but that has.... left the realm of possibility#i want to write so so badly but i have to finish like 30 stickers/ finish 2 other chapters/ knit 2 scarves/ hand in 3 more projects#all before christmas#i read a post yesterday that was like name one thing that you're gonna do for yourself this week#and i came up blank#eveything i'm currently doing is either for class or for other people so they're happy#don't get me wrong i enjoy writing/ drawing/ knitting but...#i don't know#Hot Mess used to be my self-indulgent project but now#the seasonal mentol illness hasn't been helping either#all my friends are miserable and all i do is either drown myself in work or be miserable too#my last short story made my bff tell me to go talk to my therapist about it#so that's how my non-fanfic efforts have been going#there's another story i need to write a date chapter for but I haven't been able to write actual romance for about a year now#idk what's wrong#maybe nothing is wrong and this is just what i'm like when i'm off my meds and i simply forgot#i've been forgetting a lot of things
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