#i promise the fic is a lot lighter and funnier than this snippet lets on!!

[courfee]

“I know it’s my fault!” James shouts, but Sirius is already leaving. “I know I fucked up, I’m not trying to find excuses, I’m just trying to figure out what went wrong!” And still Sirius doesn’t wait. Just like his brother, he doesn’t want to listen to James. With more force than necessary he throws the door shut after himself and leaves James more alone than he was before. He wants to hate Sirius in this moment. Maybe he does. Hates him for dragging him into this entire dilemma. Hates him for picking Regulus’ side, despite saying he wouldn’t be able to pick sides. Hates him for leaving. He wants to hate Regulus too, a little. For stealing James’ heart and then ensuring that James breaks it himself. But really, mostly James hates himself.

it's the penultimate chapter!! :)