#i promise im working hard rn

[voidzphere]

i desperately need to update my intro that mf is NOT my sona who the hell 😭🙏🙏🙏

[i-am-a-fan]

I love songs that make me feel like i’ve died and have gotten a forehead by the universe only for her to tell me that i have so much left to do and so much love left to give.

[queen0fm0nsterz]

Let's see if I can get chapter 5 of Seafarers out before the year ends here in my timezone

[boxwinebaddie]

hi uncle nina! sorry if this is kinda overbearing, but you havent posted anything today so i just wanna check in and make sure youre doing okay! <3

oh my god, sweetheart!!! this is not overbearing AT ALL! this is extremely thoughtful and makes me feel extremely validated. <3

i'm sorry for causing concern, but ty for being concerned about me.

because the school year is coming to a close, things around me at work have been pretty intense, so i've been tossed around like a ragdoll the past week and haven't had much time to write as a result. i also haven't been sleeping very well and rush a lot in the mornings, so i've forgotten to take my mood stabilizer the past couple of days which makes me v sluggish, zombie-ish and unpleasant in general. :/

...when i am like that, as a weird way of sparing you, i suppose, i try not to post on here too much because it feels quite shitty indeed for you to get a notification for my blog just to watch me bitch n moan.

however, i have taken my medication today and feel bad for fumbling kyle week...as we know i'm not really good at holding myself accountable or making deadlines. oddly enough, it's not that i don't want to answer my questions, it's just that other than not being able to really find the time recently, i just can't find the right...words?

( this ask is long and irrelevant, but read if you wish. ilysm. )

or, rather, i don't feel knowledgeable enough the subjects to answer? specifically in the areas of my tsot/tfbw styles and ncuniverses, i feel a little insecure because i don't know sp or the games as well as many other people do, so i'm trying to speed watch episodes/watch speed runs of the games online so i can at least keep some canon intact?

i also am finding that creating and understanding how high fantasy universes work is...difficult? lmao? also because i did crazy stuff with mutations and science and politics in my tfbw ncuniverse, that's also complicated and out of my wheelhouse...tldr: i have big ideas, but i'm not very good at backing them in fact or doing analytical stuff.

but...iiiiii need to, lmao. mental illness, but if i make a universe it has to be fully realized, it has to all make as much sense as possible, echo the canon, enhance it, feel real and be fluid...so if i'm not around too much it's because i'm trying to bolster myself with my sp knowledge ( ik, i'm a fake fan ) and watch/read/research high fantasy concepts and superhero/scientific fiction/dystopian stuff...so if anyone has any recommendations for me to watch or learn from in those realms, i'd appreciate it. again, this is intense...but i care a lot about my craft.

and specifically crafting something worthy of all of you, that makes sense, lives and breathes, reflects the show we love & is interesting.

ANYWAYS!!!! with that said, i got a cool ask about whether or not i have a gunslinger kyle? which? not yet? BUT YOU'RE A GENIUS BABY I AM SOOOOO ON IT!!! please let me cook and watch some things because actually, oh my god, i am very down. i'll update you. i might make a board to gather ideas, omg, omg, it'll be SPICY.

i got an ask about princess kylie, which, bless you, i am also still developing her character, i am going to pour over the books, watch some GOT, do some mapping out, watch some intricate dnd play throughs...and have some answers for you very soon: hang on, baby.

( she's little, bitchy, prissy and does need to be babysat, i'm afraid. )

got some on jersey i'm excited about! sorry for writing that ask meme about the sour skittles like that, again, writing has been trying for me lately and i had a concept that i wanted to share but wasn't sure how to express that. if you guys are alright with getting my asks in the form of notes some times i would appreciate it! anyways, keep your eyes out for some of those...if kyle week runs into next week, sorry.

idk...this is so long. all this to say...i'm really sorry? i haven't been a very solid creator lately, but i'm a little unstable rn. but i am working on it and i hope to be back on the horse by tonight and share my notes at least and show you guys how my brain is working.

in the mean time, please direct as many questions as you would like in the direction of riley, teri and ana who not only are epic writers but have been an epic support system/helping me get back into things.

thank you for caring, thank you for reading...keeping up with this blog and the questions and creating constantly is sometimes challenging, but very rewarding. i promise that i am not neglecting my asks or all of you because i don't care, its actually because i care very much and only want to give you stuff that is awesome and cool and well researched. so, again, just give me a second to get my barings and while it kind of eats at my bad bpd brain i might try and share stuff with you guys that's half baked because the feedback might help.

tldr: i love you, this made no sense, i'm a mess, but i am fine.

miss you and love you. happy kyle week.

-uncle nina

[lacystar]

genuinely fucking asking . do they sell inhalers for like panic attacks. because every time ive had a panic attack around my asthmatic friend and she gives me her inhaler it deadass helps so fucking much

[moth-yea]

You could say I have plans

[girlwithnoface]

at some point i have to ask if i am just deeply inherently unhireable

[orcelito]

So with me getting a big art commission for ITNL, it makes me think about how I've never gotten any commissions for discacc... and like yes ok I've been neglecting my big baby (I'm Sorry,,,,) but my love for it remains. The 500k word count is testament to my dedication to it, even if it's currently on hiatus.

But for me putting actual real money into ITNL and not discacc...

Well...

It ultimately boils down to the fact that in discacc they still look just like their canon counterparts lol so there's really no point to doing a commission for it. ITNL Vash already looks different from his canon counterpart (due to the lightning scars, which are the main focal point of the commission).

So... no it is NOT me saying I love ITNL more. ITNL and discacc both are very dear to me. I'm just doing objectively crazier stuff in ITNL and Thus, big differences have happened. And so it goes.

[kynrki]

HI KIMMYY 💗💗💗 i’m so glad ur back bae enhablr was miserable without you and ur top tier writing ☹️‼️ I HOPE UR HIATUS WENT WELL AND U TOOK TIME TO URSELF BAE <3 ILYY

HI EMA BOO😘😘😘😘ahh stop im blushin rn… NO WAYS?? ME? NAH I THINK YOU GOT THE WRONG USER BAE…. rlly?🙁im gonna cry.. YES IM DOING SO MUCH BETTER!!💞💞💞 ILYSM AND IM HAPPY TO BE BACK, FIC RELEASING IN A FEW DAYS FOR JAKE TOO🤭🤭🤭🤭

[bubba-draws]

Me: *has like a dozen art requests in my ask box*

Also me: k but what If I made 71848394 unrelated wips

[birbfeeder2artisticboogaloo]

ye baiweek day 2 - spicy/second chance

please allow me to humbly recommend this fic, Falling (With Style) !!

in which ye baiyi does indeed get a second chance, thanks to rong changqing inventing cross-dimensional time travel bc he misses his grumpy old friend so much ;A; it's really funny and sweet and i made a lil fanart for it lol

ANYWAY i'll stop pushing it on u lot now~ but it really is very good so pls do give it a chance!!

[yumenikke]

i need desperately 2 meet more adult xeno in real life. i know 1 (once 2 but not anymore) by pure luck on god.

[gales-boyfriend]

really really need to sleep but i feel so awful about having to go to school :/

[eldritch-nightmare]

some updates uhm. i finished up cody's valentine's day prompt!! i haven't started on bo's or carmina's but hopefully i cant get started on one of them tomorrow if the universe will permit it.

[littlecrittereli]

I very much appreciate the subgenre of guardianship Chris art where its literally just him as the TBH creature

Mini chris robando calor mini chris robando calor

No se que mas dibujar, den ideas

Mini Chris stealing warm mini Chris stealing warm

I don't know what to draw anymore, give ideas

[teamisc]

crying sniveling screaming losing my MIND <<<normal