#i promise im so normal about this (liar

[thundersarts]

aster. aster please. know that you could literally write whole entire essayS about your thoughts on my writing and i would not be upset or annoyed. in fact, if you have more to say PLEASE do i am. so insanely in love with your comments. i literally went to both mar and fen afterwards to gush about it and they both were like yeah!!! aster comments!!! we love them!!!!! i want all of your thoughts i'm begging you, never shut up

fra. what do you mean. hello. hi? what. i'm still riding the high of the last update and i have NOT been able to turn my mind off of it yet. i had to go to my friend who's not even in this fandom to ramble about regulus and sirius' conversation.

i’m usually a bit worried about just how much i end up saying sometimes because then i finish it and press comment and. uh. did i write all that. that could literally be a oneshot. i'm infinitely pleased to know u enjoy them though <333 expect them always <3333 not a chapter has gone by that i didn't feel like i could write a bible about it. but jsyk if you don't find me insufferable now then i recommend you absolutely do not open your inbox after you finish your fic. i have a habit of rereading works as soon as they get completed and i get finished with reading the last chapter and, let me tell u, there's so much to be said when you read stuff knowing all that comes after. the commentaries are endless (and the characters count.... well....... they can be endless as well if i try really hard 🙂‍↕️)

that being said i literally called you mar and fen my holy trinity so. um. i'm shy? i feel like i short-circuited a little bit here. hi? thank you? you're welcome? i'm glad to leave comments worthy of being gushed about !! i'm a professional yapper and the three of you give me SO much to yap about with your works. there's literally not a single day that goes by that i don't have at least one of them going through my mind. leave me unattended for a little while and there might be a shrine coming out of nowhere for u to put them in it (i had nothing to do with it tho (i swear (me? what? (a shrine? where?

promising i will not be shutting up for the foreseeable future. sending u so!! much!!! love!!!! kissing your forehead as we speak MWAH 💗💗💗💗

[agoist]

Yk whats really funny. People have always told me they admire my honesty and stuff, especially since i “seem like a bad liar” and then as soon as The Circumstances im better than the fbi

[goldthorn-archive]

https://www.tumblr.com/c-goldthorn/758581826792095744?source=share

PLS we're the official TAS cheerleaders lmao we should try to beta at the same time someday to lose our mind together lmao

WE SHOULD!! and we are lol

[lapogus]

✨-🍀 🧊🎓 for BUG!! :D

my bug !! thank you for the ask!

✨: how did you come up with the oc's name?

i couldn't think of a good name for her so i just shortened bugbear to bug.. fits as a cute nickname especially since she can't remember what she used to be named :o

🍀: what originally inspired the oc?

ohh.. despite bug not having a story or any major development compared to my other ocs, she's deeply personal to me because of how i made her.

at first, i read about how broken a bugbear barbarian/rogue multiclass can be in dnd. i came up with her initial concept- an outcast that set out adventuring in search of someplace she'd belong.

that idea somehow became the question "what if bugbears were physical manifestations of emotion?" i chose loneliness for bug because it was the emotion i felt most at the time and felt the need to direct it somewhere. she embodies the despair and fatigue that constant isolation brings. she wants to break out of it, but can't bring herself to do it since self-isolation is part of her core being. she's basically the dog behind the fence in that art by anna haifisch:

but lately i've found out that shit really does get better, so maybe it'll get better for bug, too... :> !!

🧊: is their current design the first one?

yep! tbh i've drawn her twice and. haven't drawn her since oops. i think when i draw her again someday i'll use the gift art a friend made of her as a ref, i love how he drew her ^^

🎓: how long have you had the oc?

since july 2023!

[regularshcw]

ok well hopefully i'll force myself to be active and get to drafts soon now that i have new material to feast upon /SILLY

[starfilled-galaxy]

SOOO autistic about this game

[obxsummer]

Im rewatching OBX again and when John b said im only using her when he said another thing to Sarah and then kie told Sarah you said you were using her I would of been like uhhh what I lowkey would of been pissed and walked off to see if John b would of chased after me kinda want this made into a fic if you want if not please ignore it LOL

pairing: john b routledge x kook!reader

a/n: sarah's better than me bc i would've cried over this scene lol

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This was a bad idea. You told yourself it was a bad idea and still went through with it, so you only had to blame yourself. 

Your whole life you had seen the Pogue versus Kook dynamic for yourself; you just never thought you’d become a piece of it.

John B gave you a sense of adventure, of something new. Running to Chapel Hill with him had been so easy. You were usually a ball of anxiety, but he made everything seem like it would be okay, no matter the outcome. 

Which led you here, walking your bike through the wooded area of The Cut with John B by your side. You knew it wouldn’t be easy to try and get along with his friend group, but unfortunately, where John B went, JJ, Kie, and Pope weren’t far behind. 

“I’m really nervous about this, John B,” You admitted as the Chateau came into view. “She’s not gonna be happy.”

John B shrugged slightly, apparently not realizing the bomb he was about to implode in his own house, “She’ll be fine. It’ll be cool, I promise.”

You shook your head, not really convinced but also not wanting to cause a scene over it. “So you guys found the gold, but under an axe murderer’s house?”

“Well, yeah. Kind of. I mean, the only thing is the well is super sketchy deep.”

You looked over at him, the excitement in his eyes making you slightly jealous that you’d missed out. Normally, you’d run at the idea of half the shit they got themselves into, but John B’s presence was almost addicting.

“Wish I was there,” You joked, leaning into him slightly as he took the bike from your hold so you could walk closer to him. 

“You will be, tonight,” He smiled at you, warmth taking over as you blushed. John B had managed to make it feel like you guys had been close friends your whole life, and you were slowly falling in love with that feeling.

“Is um… is that okay?” You knew it wasn’t, but you had to ask. 

John B shifted the bike into his casted hand, reaching the other one over for you to grab so he could squeeze it. “Yeah, it will be. And if they push back, we’ll figure something out. Vlad and Val gotta stick together, right?”

You nodded, but John B could tell you weren’t convinced and it was a little bit of a hit to your confidence. Kiara had never really liked you, instantly envious of your life and the way John B, JJ, and Pope always had heart eyes when they saw you. She saw you as a threat and that meant she wouldn’t be happy about your involvement in the slightest, especially when she put together that you were more than friends with John B.

“You’re a bad liar, but I’ll go with it,” You teased quietly, “If she’s gonna get territorial, I’m not fighting her, John B.”

“Hey, hey, just listen.” John B tugged on your hand so you’d stop walking and face him. “You’re a part of this too, okay? You got us the plat map. You got me into Chapel Hill. Your dad offered to cover for me. Once we get with everybody, they’re gonna be excited.”

You tried to let his enthusiasm sway you, but it wasn’t working well. And as Kiara walked out of the Chateau to see you on the couch next to John B, you knew you were right. 

“No fucking way. You brought her here? So what? She’s in on this now?” Annoyance and anger were evident in her voice and you shrunk back into the couch as she practically bitched at you. 

Pope shrugged. He had always thought you were super nice. He delivered groceries to your home and you’d overtipped each time, knowing the money was needed more in his pocket than yours. 

“Look, all I care about is her cut comes out of your share,” JJ pointed toward the boy sitting next to you. “No offense.”

You shook your head at JJ, a small smile on your face. A winky response told you he was kidding. Similar to Pope, you’d seen JJ plenty at the country club when he played server for a few hours.  You tried to request him each time you and Sarah visited, keeping him away from Rafe, Topper, and Kelce as best as possible. And you didn’t do it to prove a point, you did it because you cared. You’d watched some of the best people in your life get treated so poorly just for living on the other half of the island. 

“You know, I don’t remember taking a vote,” Kiara continued, “This is our thing. A Pogue thing. We were all extremely comfortable until you brought her.”

You tried to refrain from rolling your eyes at her unnecessary anger. “Stop talking about me like I’m not here!” You defended.

“Then leave.”

JJ coughed on his weed pen from the chair next to you, obviously uncomfortable with the growing tension. “I… am remaining indifferent.”

“Do you even know what that means?”

“Of course, I know what that means, Pope, I-”

Kiara glared at both boys, upset that it seemed nobody was taking her side. 

You shook your head, realizing this was causing more trouble than you intended. “I told you,” You mumbled to John B.

“Told him what, exactly? That you’re a liar?”

All niceties went out the window at the accusation and you faced Kiara with an anger you’d hidden for a while. “No, that you’re a shit-talking bitch! You know nothing about me, Kiara. And you just hate me for no reason, so-”

“Everybody shut up!” John B yelling had you flinching back into your seat, the emotions overwhelming as silence fell around you. He looked at the curly-haired girl standing in front of you. “Kie, you are my best friend, right? And Y/N, you’re…”

The hesitation in his voice made your heart skip but you nodded in agreement, wanting nothing more than to push past the friendship boundary into something bigger. 

“...You’re my girlfriend.”

Kiara crossed her arms over her chest. “She’s your girlfriend now? What was all that talk about you were just using her for information? Get a map, cut her loose.”

The snide comment hit you like a smack in the face as you glanced over at John B. The way he refused to look at you told you it was true and you frowned. “You said you were using me?”

“No?”

“Yeah, you did.” Three voices agreed in return and you closed your eyes in frustration. 

Another strike to the heart. Shaking your head to yourself, you got up off the couch. “I’m just gonna go. Thanks for ruining another good thing for me, Kiara. Always appreciated.”

Without another word, you shoved open the screen door and let it slam behind you. Tears blurred your vision as you grabbed your bike from its spot against the house and started walking.

John B was yelling your name behind you, but you refused to stop. The back of your hand brushed away tears as fast as they came. You knew, you knew this was a bad idea. You were so quick to trust someone with your feelings and it always bit you in the ass.

“Hey, hey!” His Converse crunched leaves on the ground as he tried to catch up to you.

You tossed your bike aside when he grabbed your shoulder and you turned to him to let him see the full result of his comment. “Why did you lie to me?” You asked, voice cracking against your wishes. “John B, I told you I was already nervous to get involved with her, and then you… you just used me?”

“I’m sorry! That- it wasn’t like that! At first, yeah it started off that way, but love walked in, okay? I didn’t expect it, but I’m not gonna act like it isn’t true,” He defended.

You laughed and looked away from him. “God, I know better. I know better and I still let you walk in my life and take what you needed because I wanted you. I still want you, even knowing you just used me to your benefit. That’s not love.”

John B opened his mouth to argue but apparently couldn’t find the words. You shook your head and pulled your bike up from the ground, shrugging out of his grip as you climbed on. “Hope it was worth it, John B. Tell Kiara she won, again.”

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[lesbomaticlove]

watching opla again for the first time since getting pretty far in the anime (i watched opla first) and i was not prepared for my own reaction to nami reading noland the liar to zoro while hes unconscious like. god. the fucking- im so normal about this show i promise

[maze-of-my-design]

i am going to be so normal about this song rn and what it (could've) meant to Marjorie herself, s2ep5 spoilers (and spoilers to Rhonda's death) below the cut

Okay i am going to try a shot at breaking down the lyrics within the context of the show, so bear with me and do correct me if i got something wrong (like the lyrics, for example, since there aren't any official ones as of writing this i'll be transcribing them by ear) and keep in mind, this is all my speculation, dont take this as bible. (and take a shot every time i say "maybe" lmao)

The first verse or so of the song is (intentionally, by meta standards) written in such a way that it is plausible for Rhonda to think it was a mockery of her, and I won't be talking about this with mockery in mind, obviously. But it could actually give us insight on who Marjorie could've been as a person in highschool!

" Foolish Girl, talk of town, how could you let your guard down? Fell into the fire, looks like everyone's talking. "

" Foolish Girl, believing lies, how could you be so blinded by [the?] promise of a liar? No one's picking up the pieces "

Marjorie, as per the next lyrics, was a naive sort of person. She trusted Rhonda as her friend, perhaps managing to get past Rhonda's abrasiveness back then, and remained loyal to her til the end, and even beyond that.

That fateful day that Rhonda went to the guidance counselor, Rhonda may have told her that she'll be back, promising that she'd be okay, even if the counselor was... a weird guy. That she and Marjorie would stay together (in whichever way you wanna perceive that lol) no matter what. And Marjorie believed her - why wouldn't she? - to her own detriment. And now she is left alone. She had no other people to trust, at least to the same extent as Rhonda, and she's left alone to pick up the pieces (perhaps, of her broken heart) with naught but whispers and rumors of her beloved friend drowning her ears.

Maybe there's some initial resentment towards Rhonda, by the given name of "a liar". Anger is one of the stages of grief, after all.

" Ooh, you were to blame. "

" Ooh, it's[/that's] what you'll say "

Pretty self explanatory (so much so that i dont have to dance around with possibilities) Marjorie, at one point or another, blamed herself for what happened, more on that in a bit.

" Foolish Girl, so naive, watched it all so carelessly. You left your heart wide open, now you're lost in the shadows. "

Marjorie believed she should've been more cautious with her love, more protective of her friend, or maybe that she should've never become so close with Rhonda in the first place. Because now, she's:

" All alone, in this cold world, it's me who was the Foolish Girl. You slipped right through my fingers, so I miss you to pieces. "

She held Rhonda so close to her. She loved her, platonically or otherwise. And she misses her with all of her broken heart. She felt alone without her, felt it was her fault. Marjorie felt she was a complete Fool for letting her friend down like this.

" Time slipped away. You didn't know your place. You didn't know the place you held in my heart. "

Life went on without Rhonda, reckless as it was. Marjorie grew old, and Rhonda stayed in Highschool. Rhonda died without ever knowing how much she meant to Marjorie. How beloved she was in the eyes of her friend.

Marjorie wrote songs with Rhonda for hours on end in the music room, it was The Thing they shared with one another. Marjorie ended up becoming a musician (a semi famous one? Im unsure) but, by the looks of her releasing this song, she would've wanted most to share the space with Rhonda. This was her obituary for Rhonda. The last piece of music she got to write that had her friend's influence in mind.

She didn't tell her how much she loved her, it was too late for that now; all she can do now is apologise. Apologise in the one way she knew how to. If she could've said something to Rhonda before she was murdered, she would've said "im sorry. I was foolish to not care enough. You were the world to me. I'll always miss you"

[in tears] I am okay i promise

[sentience-if]

#i'm a bit surprised no one's been upset at val

oh i can talk about how mine for sure is

Val leaving Io made my MC feel so hurt, especially since she also doesn't like the Religious and didn't want to come here but made to anyway. she doesnt see why he could not have ran out with her hand in his. as a result, once she found him and got say her accusatory "You left me", she left. and she wanted to Val to follow her or stop her or something, but Val didn't (for justified reasons, i wouldnt have stopped Io in Val's place either)

i think something between them has been broken now, likely irreversibly. she might grow to like him again and even have some trust, eventually, but i think Val has been labeled as "would leave you" forever in her mind. i dont think she'd trust Val with her life anymore. i think anytime Val might joke "Have I steered you wrong before?" that there will be a sour, accusatory silence. my Io went from "shame there's no Connie-Val poly in addition to the Klaus-Val poly, because i camt imagine her ever NOT loving Val" into, "well, it's a good thing theres a Klaus-solo route and also that Connie's route never had an option to be poly with Val, bc idk if Val can get Io to that point of love again"

which i do wonder if that makes my Io especially vulnerable, in the sense that someone else can now step into Val's "place" and be a lot less good-intentioned about it. bc my Io had been nigh co-dependent, had been "I don't exist without Val", and now something has just shattered where my Io has now very rapidly developed abandonment issues

and the realization that Val does know where Io came from in the sense of the ending revealing Val saw who Io was before Io's current form?? that is not helping. that is making things actively worse. that is now "oh. so you didnt tell me, so you kept me at arm's length in a way i didnt see that you were, because you were scared of me. you didnt take me with you because you were scared of me. like all the stuff in-between where i was Becoming A Human Being didnt matter, even when i didnt remember what i used to be, because you DID remember. and you kept it from me. because you were scared of me." in a very.......... uhhhhhhhh

have you ever seen Fruits Basket?? im internally comparing Val to Kyo's mom. that's how my Io sees Val now, basically. albeit Val is less extreme than Kyo's mom, obviously

if youve never seen Fruits Basket, this is a spoiler, for sure, but it would also give context(?). Fruits Basket has a scene where Kyo can turn into this monstrous creature anytime he takes off this bracelet. and his mom was ashamed that he could do that, that he could transform like that, but she didnt want him to know that (but he did) so she kept saying stuff like "You're so adorable, I have to keep you all to myself" and "It's okay. It'll all be okay because I love you. That's why I don't want anyone else to see you, to look at you. Nobody look at my son, he's all mine. You're just so cute. I can't help it" and "I'm so proud to have you as my son" while also never letting him go outside or be around others, and even said "No, honey, you're as human as anyone else. You turn into the form sometimes because of evil magic. Not because there's anything wrong with you. You turn back to normal soon after, right? That proves you aren't a monster. It's okay, I promise, I'm not scared at all" and he would think back in recollection and go "Liar. You were scared, weren't you? That's why you checked dozens of times a day to make sure my bracelet was still on". she used love to be in denial of what was happening. eventually, the denial and unspoken shame and self-silenced fear and whatnot became so bad, she "unalived herself". and Kyo's dad blamed Kyo for that (like a dickhead) while also saying "She loved you. Your mother loved you more than anything else in the world". Kyo would come to say (to himself, to the memories of this) "Stop it! Stop it, you're wrong! Don't force that kind of 'love' on me, I don't need it, I don't!". and when he remembered that his mom would say "Sweetheart, I love you. I would die for you, you know that, right?" his internal response to that memory was "Why did you always say stuff like that? How can you love someone when you never acknowledge who they really are?"

now, years later, this gets further addressed via Tohru. as Kyo meets this girl named Tohru, and has a real connection with her but is hesitant about getting closer even though they already are close. because Tohru doesnt know about Kyo's monstrous form. his mother's death impacts his need to keep Tohru in the dark, but other people know Kyo's secret form and force him to reveal it to Tohru without her havung any idea of what is happening and without his consent. he runs away, and Tohru ends up following him. he tries to push her away, even causing her shoulder to bleed because of his claws, and she does initially walk away before realizing, if Kyo didn't come back with her, she'd probably never see or hear from him again; and then turning around and hugging his arm as he thrashes around for her to let go and run already. she begs him "Let's go home, please! We have to go home, right now!" to which he replies "No! Just go away!" and she says "No!" back and he yells "Don't you get it?!" and she says "No, I don't!". she continues, "I'm scared. Even though I know that's your voice, it doesn't sound like you. You're in a form I've never seen before. It scares me. But scared or not, I want to understand. If you need to talk, I'll listen. If you need to be selfish, I'll let you. I want to help you, the way you've helped me. If you're feeling hurt or scared or weak, tell me. I want you to tell me so I can face it with you. Because I want us to keep living together. I want to eat with you, study with you, worry with you. I just want to stay with you, Kyo." to which Kyo replied, transformed back to his human self again, in a mix of words to Tohru and internal monolog "The thing is, if she didn't love all of me, my mom, that would've been fine. Or, even if she were scared, I would get that. Because being scared would've meant she was looking at the ugly part of me. But she never did. My mom used 'love' as a way of avoiding seeing the truth, to avoid even thinking about it. But, I wanted her to understand. I just wanted her to say 'We'd face it together', I just wanted her to say she wanted to stay. Even back then, I knew it was stupid. A kid's dream that would never come true. Because who would ever say something like that to me? That's what I thought, until... Tohru." and he goes back home with Tohru to face everyone again, and keeps Tohru a close part of his life

so, my Io sees Val now as more of a Kyo's mom than she does a Tohru. obviously Val isn't AS BAD as Kyo's mom, vut i think you see my point?? and so now my Io is looking for "her Tohru", so to speak, albeit not conciously. and she no longer sees Val capable of being that. so her love for Val can only go as far as, well, as far as Val can, really. it doesn't bridge the gap between them. no matter how badly Val might insist their own love can bridge it (but it isn't, maybe it can't) or how much Val wishes my Io's love could bridge it (but it won't. it used to. but now she's too scared of being abandoned again after getting her hopes up). and so my Io's every route has Io and Val being "almost"-in a relationship, as close to being in love as two people refusing to label it can be, before this effectively ends the romantic side of their relationship. i guess that means Val is her situationship? that feels weird to put on Val, but yeah. and maybe Val can turn this into a "second chance romance" and "be her Tohru" and bridge the gap, in the sense that idk how you plan to progress and am not a mind-reader and therefore cannot say "never again" because "never say never" and whatnot

but yeah. that's where my Io is right now. very upset and feeling very unlovable. and maybe Connie or Klaus can fix that (i do also love Kat and Ira, but i dont think my Io does, so im currently not playing either's route but maybe that'll change! thatd be nice!!) or maybe Val can fix it. but not right away

but yeah!! cant wait to see how the story goes. im in shock at how damaged my Io and Val's relationship is, how my Io is basically scared of Val and sees them as.... "a flake" feels inaccurate but that kind of same "dont buy into Val's promises so much, you'll only get disappointed. Val means well. but Val still left me behind when push came to shove, Val still omitted all this from me" of self-restraint. she feels very much like a kid who got her hopes up only to be let down, kind of like a kid with a deadbeat dad who promised Disneyland but he never shows up to take her and instead he stays at the bar(?) but not quite. but does that make sense?? not angry, not resentful, just feeling very stupid

but, yeah, add another tally in the "Ios who are upset with Val" box for me lol

ohoho the ANGST the DRAMA this is good food thank you. I've seen parts of Fruits Basket in that I had a roommate that watched it a lot but yeah I can definitely see the parallels

Val will get a chance to fix it but I think I'm definitely going to have to write a route where Io does not forgive them. And for an Io who turns to Connie or Klaus instead- that would sting Val so much, in equal but opposite ways. It's probably a very good thing that Klaus wouldn't want to hurt Val because you're right, it would be really easy to take advantage of Io's emotions right now, and I wouldn't put it past him

oh and as to your second ask re: not gendering Val- genuinely don't worry about it haha. I just use they/them for Val (and Connie) in asks because i don't want one to seem more canon than the others. I don't mind if readers pick one

[ilikehfjone]

more bezel

oooh you little fucker i just want to gnaw on your limbs /pos

this expression rgraghhhhhhhrrrrrrrrr

ooooh someone is jealous of other's happiness

so soft and round looking boy you are not beating my desire to gnaw

top ten grumpy bears i want to gnaw number one you guessed it

nervous little teddy bear haha

THIS EXPRESSION ARUGHHHHHHRAGHHH "what about doomsday" you have no more power here fool (future finn here THE WAY HIS PUPILS QUIVERED???? HELLO???)

chikn really just said nuh uh LOL

FOUL BEAST. YGRAHHHH

oooo boy the gnawing desire is back

" i am so done "

JOY!!! JOY AND WHIMSY!!!

TUMBLR SEXYMAN FORM IS BACK

"eh it's fine" *LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER* LIAR!!! ME WHEN I LIEE!!

ok bye i promise im normal guys i promise i-

[gojos-fr-bae]

Stay

Pairing: Levi x fem!reader

Warnings: Angst...Death, mentions of war. Cussing, shouting, crying

Word Count: 649 (AAAHHH, It's short)

A/N: Two in one day AGAIN, damnnn

(Requests open)

You hated fights with Levi, especially before expeditions. You two loved each other deeply however just like in any relationship, you had your good days and bad days and boy were your bad days BAD.

And today was one of those days.

“WHY CAN’T I GO, IM A FUCKING CAPTAIN JUST LIKE YOU LEVI!” YOU YELLED

“BECAUSE UNLIKE ME, YOU ARE COMPLETELY INCOMPETENT AND IF YOU GO OUT THERE YOU WILL DO NOTHING BUT TAKE UP SPACE AND CAUSE EVERYONE ISSUES!!” He yelled just as loud

“LEVI I AM DAMN FUCKING GOOD AT MY JOB AND YOU KNOW IT!”

“The only thing you are is delusional and you know it. So please, stop being a headache and listen for once.” He said in a chilling low tone. 

He didn’t actually think that you couldn’t handle it, if anything, you were more skilled than any other member of the army. But that’s when It’s Titans. The war you were going to fight was against humans and they were unpredictable. He was just worried about you. If anything were to happen to you, it would ruin him. He just didn’t have the best way of communicating that.

“Well fuck that Levi. I’m a grown woman and I can do whatever I want, and I’m not going to sit here at home while people are going to be out there fighting for their lives and that’s final!” You walked out and slammed the door behind you and that was that.

*** 

He knew he shouldn’t have let you come. He knew he should have made you stay but you just wouldn't listen.

He was using his 3DMG to get to the medics tent as fast as he could. You were okay. Oh gosh you are going to be okay. He can’t lose you. He needs you. You’re his everything and he wouldn’t be able to survive without you.

Running through the tent flaps. His blood ran cold as he looked down at you in your bed with a bullet wound right in the center of your chest.

He knelt right next to your bed and held your cold palm on his own. Gosh, you felt so cold. Too cold.

“Darling, hey, hey, I’m right here. Look at me, look at me.” He said frantically, trying to grab your attention.

You slowly turned your head to face him, Smiling softly at him when your eyes met.

“Hey sweety.”you responded, although your voice is extremely soft as you’ve run out of energy.

“Hi, look, everything’s going to be okay, just stay with me, you’re going to be okay, I promise.”

“Levi, I’m sorry, I should’ve listened” you said sadly, a stray tear running down your cheek.

“No, no, no, please don’t be sorry, it wasn’t your fault.”

“Remember to take care of yourself.” You said, voice fading slowly

“Y/N please-” he responded, voice breaking ever so slightly as he placed one palm against your cheek, brushing away your tears. Gosh, you were bleeding so much…too much.

“And don’t overwork yourself”

“My love please, don’t do this to me.”

“And you dare, ever, forget that I love you.”

“Also, remember that I just want you to be happy, okay.?” “Y-Y/N I’m begging you-”

“And you dare, ever, forget that I love you.” You said, and then your chest stopped rising and your body went limp.

“Y/N, Y/N please, wake up. Darling, wake up. Don’t go, please please please don’t go. My love, don’t do this to me. I can’t live without you, please. Please.”

He was trembling as tears streamed down his face. You were gone. No matter how much he denied it or how much he prayed to all that was good and just, You are gone. You are gone and there was nothing he could do to change that.

He didn’t even get to tell you he loved you.

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© gojos-fr-bae

I Always mix up liar tags and normal tags, sry if that's the case rn.

[erenevune]

Looks at today's tsams episode

Fucks sake Im so tired of this. I knew I had lost faith in the writing the moment this "Nexus" bullshit started but now I don't even have a sliver. I miss Moon. He doesn't deserve to be thrown away just because the story has arbitrarily decided he's completely replaceable with Old Moon when he's not and Old Moon has done NOTHING to deserve his spot back. Moon did all the work by existing then Old Moon comes in and slots himself into place with no effort or apology on his part. If they don't pull a plot twist out of this I don't know what I'll do. Sun doesn't deserve this, Moon doesn't deserve this. I would have rathered a merge or OM dying again or Sun saying fuck you I'm not killing either of my brothers. Nothing about these past months have been fun. All the bonding moments should have been Moon's, not old moons. Old Moon doesn't deserve to just slot himself in and take over and go back on his word with no push back. Sun deserves better. Moon deserves better. Moon was his own person and the only person telling him to be like OM was himself, and then they pulled this bullshit arc out and completely destroyed his character for no fucking reason just so they could bring old moon back also for no fucking reason. They put zero effort into justifying anything that was happening or any of the characters overreaction to the situation because they pulled it out of their ass and just wanted to force it in no matter how much it didnt work or make sense. Oh and now dark sun "didn't have anything to do with it"? Yeah sure, fucking liar. And so many people are taking that at face value like dude. The guy lies and manipulates constantly. The only reason any of this happened is directly because of dark Sun. All of it. Way back from before whatever he did to eclipse and Ruin and when he copied Moon's code. Didn't have anything to do with it my fucking ass.

Anyway so I'll be continuing on like normal and be writing my fics with Moon in them like this stupid arc never happened because it's pointless and makes zero fucking sense. Sun and Moon were doing so well, aside from Sun getting sidelined a lot because Moon and Solar were off doing their own thing and leaving him out intentionally (after Moon promised he wouldn't) but whatever. I miss them so much. I miss Sun and Moon together, I miss Moon. "Nexus" doesn't exist because he's just Moon because that whole plot doesn't make a lick of sense so i refuse to acknowledge it. Fuck the writing man. I'm so done. I love this show and it has a lot of flaws that I can forgive or even like the show for but this is way past too far because it's so out of place and lacking any reason or logic backing it. I've hated the Nexus thing from day one and nothing about it has made me change my mind.

[emoflutterguy]

jesus fucking christ growing up and finding out the people who were shitty to u are massive hypocrites is . insane

TRIGGER WARNING FOR LIKE ABUSIVE FRIENDSHIP??? this is a little bit of a ventpost about how my shitty best friend in freshman year forced his transmedicalist idea of masculinity onto me only to grow up a little bit and start dating a cis guy and fall into the trap that most of us trans guys also fall into with cis guys of “oh hes cis so i obviously need to be Girly now”

thats ur tl;dr, read on if ure interested in the juicy details below the cut

so when i was in freshman year i met a kid who was supposedly a year older than me (he wasnt) but he was also a freshman because he got held back a year (he didn’t) (he was a filthy liar)

anyways he just so happens to be a trans guy and thats not where my problem lies with this guy . i wish it was that simple .

now im also a trans guy, and i had just come out at that point when we had met, like im talking i had just freshly come out as a trans man a month before we had met. i had no idea what i was doing or how to act or dress or how to be masculine, and he was like oh let me coach u on how to be a trans man The Right Way

and his “coaching” was terrible advice that literally any trans man whos been trans for more than 5 seconds would tell u is terrible advice;

he told me to eat, sleep and shit in my binder, he told me to abandon all girly clothing and only wear HIS clothes because HIS clothes were cool and masculine and would make me pass better (they didn’t), he told me not to wear makeup unless he was the one who did it, he shamed me for not passing well enough (i was 15 and had a baby face, as well as having big ass man biddies and also being chubby) and he gave me the worlds worst first masculine haircut and dyed it an eye bleeding orange in his kitchen. he forced me to listen to his music only because my music taste was supposedly terrible and he was the one who could drive so he got to choose the playlist (spoiler alert he wasnt legally supposed to be driving without an adult over the age of 25 but that was unbeknownst to me)

basically he told me that fundamentally, i was wrong because i wasn’t him

and any ounce of femininity i dared to show and be comfortable with was also fundamentally wrong

one time while we were all hanging out at my house (him, me, my mom and her boyfriend at the time) and i was talking about how bad i wanted to get on testosterone because i just wanted to feel like a normal teenage boy.

.and get this.

he told me i was “too girly” and “not manly enough” and i “didn��t pass well enough” to go on testosterone

and he told me he thought i was faking being trans for attention and he didnt think i was actually trans because i “wasnt trying hard enough” like he was

i promise this is relevant later im not just saying this to vent

he was also a horrendously shitty person to me and everyone else at the time, and im not saying this because im still salty, no bitch i was 15 he was 15 we were both kids kids are gonna be weird and mean sometimes, but “kids being kids” is not supposed to leave u with trauma that u may never heal from . and he did that to me . but thats irrelevant

anyways, now onto the part thats kind of funny in a fucked up way

so me and his ex boyfriend are best friends now because we both survived the fucked up shit he put us both through, at the same time might i add, and we often talk about how our respective relationships with him still affect us to this day

and today we were talking about going to a concert for a band we both really like that was introduced to us by our mutual enemy, the guy this post is about

and naturally the conversation turned to what hes up to now because my bestie likes to sometimes look at his social media out of curiosity and he told me

that evil bad guy mc bad

is now in a relationship with a cis biker guy

and dresses in crop tops and mini skirts and thigh highs and wears wigs and makeup now

and good for him if he genuinely just enjoys dressing like that now, if thats all it is then im glad hes finally had some character development

but i just have a feeling thats not what this is, that hes doing this solely for the validation of his fuck ass boyfriend

and the thing is, i would feel bad if it was literally Anyone Else going through that, but he did the same thing to me, to his ex who is now my bestie, to my other friends who used to be friends with him, to anyone who’s ever known him honestly.

and i dont wish him ill anymore. i really dont, i could not care less, and this post will probably be the last time i ever think about him because i really could not care about him less at this point, but its insane to me that he used to be so like firm in his opinion that men who were feminine werent real men, and he actively enjoyed making me feel like shit for being too feminine, and now he’s doing the same thing he used to make fun of me for.

maybe im just salty because i never got a real apology from him, but at this point i dont even want an apology from him because i know that it would be more akin to colleen ballinger’s “toxic gossip train” video than a real apology

well i think ive yapped on about this enough if u read all the way here thanks lol

[joshenstein]

❤️💔💘 malcom…. Sorry i just love that guy

❤️ RED HEART — what are three of your oc's positive traits?

THIS MADE ME THINK REALLY HARD BECAUSE WHEN I THINK I GOT AN ANSWER I REMEMBER THAT ITS JUST A TRAIT HE THINKS HE HAS BUT DOESNT ACTUALLY POSSESS ... BUT HMMM ... PERHAPS THE FACT HE IS VERY DEDICATED , HES PRETTY HUMBLE I GUESS ... AND HES A FAST LEARNER ... IM SORRY MALCOM , I CANT THINK OF MANY POSITIVE TRAITS ABOUT U

💔 BROKEN HEART — what are three of your oc's negative traits?

HES DISORGANIZED , IRRESPONSIBLE ( WHEN IT COMES TO HIS LIVING SITUATIONS / PROMISES / PERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS / WELL BEING ) AND SUCH A BIG LIAR .... HES GOT LIKE 90 MORE NEGATIVE TRAITS BUT THESE ARE THE ONES THAT POP UP IN MY HEAD ...

💘 HEART WITH ARROW — what and/or who do(es) your oc consider the most important to them?

HIS JOB !!! HE LOVES GETTING MONEY AND USING SAID MONEY TO BUY THINGS THAT MAKE HIM HAPPY . BUT IF WE WANT TO GET ALL PSYCHOLOGICAL ... THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO HIM IS THE ABILITY TO FEEL ' NORMAL ' HE DOES NOT WANT TO BE DIFFERENT OR STAND OUT TOO MUCH . HIS SENSE OF NORMALCY IS SO IMPORTANT TO HIM AND HE DOES EVERYTHING HE CAN TO APPEAR THAT WAY !!!

SEND ME AN EMOJI + AN OC

[corvusblackk]

help please is it really real do you promise ur not joking or its not a rllly big inside joke or just a bunch of pathological liars on the internet conspiring on a big big lie :((( im pretty stupid and i feel like im getting deceived again but seeing all your posts you seem so genuine about it all i just need more confirmation that its not all a fraud because your descriptions are so vivid?! same goes with other peoples experiences from my researching like is it actually real?!?

Hey, I promise it’s all real. Think about it, thousands of people claimed that they shifted, do you think everyone of them lied? That’s unlikely. You have to put trust into this, I know you can do this. Maybe try doing psych k to change your beliefs, use an affirmation such as “I believe in shifting and I know I can do it too”. And you’re not stupid at all! It’s normal to doubt this, especially since we were raised in a logical world.