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ko-eko-ev-go-ms · 4 years ago

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Why does this feel oddly relevant and like a callout post

Someone with a brain cell: hey you should talk to someone you are scared of talking to sometimes you just gotta have an open conversation and communicate

Me with my brain on fire: ABSOLUTELY NOT

#thoughts #oni talks #oni vents #once again i am back on my bullshit lmfao #its not quite the same scenario nor anywhere near the high intensity panic or like #its not even completely in the same emotional realm #its like ik i gotta talk but like how and abt what and what do i even want and like idk anything really #and its more frustrating bc idk if theres a point #and im not sure im ready for consequences but at the same time consequences will happen regardless #but also how do i do the talk tho and like idk wtf im doing lmfao #and like clearly other human(s) wont do anything themselves so like #ig its 100% on me again so like idk what to do #i should really be writing this stuff as notes for therapy but thts more work #and therapy weird man idk #i jst like what am i supposed to do lmfao like i dont fuckin know bro #i just know im getting saltier and saltier #and nothing resolves magically so like more things pile yp #leaving nothing able to truly resolve individually since theres so much #but also im just like idk im still worried id just make things worse ig #and i have lost so much trust tht even if they said i wouldnt idk if id really believe them tbh #idk why im even writing all this im just procrastinating getting up and prepping for therapy #and also reading through stuff in hopes i get an epiphany or smth and figure out what to do #ive had a couple of oh ya this is prob why this is fucked huh #but idk if ive got anything really usable yet man #idk life messy and hard and communication is complicated and messy

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