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hate how much of a pussy i still am about certain foods
#dreaded eating my fucking lunch today because i had a grain bowl with apples and kale and celery in it and i thought i'd fucking hate it#but it's fine#it's a little bit crunchy. but it's fine#i probably won't get it again still but#well. actually maybe i will. idk#i wanna talk about me#for an annoying pretentious foodie fuck i sure am a pussy about eating food sometimes.
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i think you guys are onto smth..
i unironically got invested in this HELP
#WHERES THE FIC AT IF SOMEONE WRITES THIS I WILL PAY THEM A HUNDRED DOLLARS😭😭#kunikida serving the country while dazai's serving cunt😔#dazai was born to malewife but forced to manipulate and i think that's the greatest tragedy of bsd#anyway some facts i would like to share abt this au thay i came up w while drawing!!#takes place in 1939 (start of wwii) and there was a mandatory draft that required one male over eighteen from each house to serve#both of them are still twenty two and had been engaged for abt two years before getting married that year#newlyweds! unfortunately kuni had to go fight and they were seperated :(#before the war kunikida was a math teacher at the local high school and dazai obviously managed the household and didn't work#he's hopeless at cooking and meal prep even w recipie books so they either get those prepackaged meals or kuni makes dinner when he gets ba#so like when he's making lunch for kunikida he normally just packs a basic sandwich w raw fruit#kunikida always appreciates the effort even tho hes probably sick of having the same thing everyday but he won't complain abt it#when kunikida joined the army he was relieved that the mess hall had better food than dazai#he was the only one in his platoon that never complained abt the food so his fellow soldiers assumed it was bc he came from a tough bg#when in reality he was just used to being poisoned on a daily basis from his dumbass husbands cooking and was hardly fazed from army ration#they write to each other although its more dazai sending and kuni receiving bc hes off fighting and doesnt have time to write back#dazai talks abt life on the homefront and how he has to grow a victory garden (everything is DYING HE CANT EVEN RAISE TOMATOES)#and kuni writes abt his fellow soldiers and how the war is going and when he thinks he'll be home and how he misses sleeping in a bed#ANYWAY yea thought i'd share sry for infodumping in the tags again#this post is for like the four ppl that care abt this specific flavor of knkdz so hopefully this gets four notes at least#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#kunikida doppo#doppo kunikida#kunikidazai#knkdz#lotus draws#bro sry for posting at two in the morning i couldnt sleep until i got this out of my head they have infested my brain
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New fanart of the new Deadpool Film. Enjoy '~'
#digital art#art#fanart#deadpool#illustration#artwork#Ngl the new Deadpool dance intro triggered my simp mode pretty hard#drawing#film#film fanart#digital drawing#deadpool and wolverine#dont get comfortable with the little spic in the drawing#cause i probably won't do that again#so enjoy it while it's still hot
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guys please pray for me
#I don't know how to explain what's going on but I'm struggling and don't know how to get a handle on it#I think that there's two issues going on that are probably somewhat intertwined because I'm fixating on them as such#so maybe I need to separate out the one that is stupid and I shouldn't be fixating on it#and then just focus on the other thing as it is and not as a symptom of whatever else#idk but it's so weird and complicated that I just can't figure out how to explain it#and I've gone to my mom over stuff related to this enough lately so I won't again#idk I'm just. maybe I'm having a hard time because I'm so tired. I've been getting up early every day this week#and yet still can't fall asleep earlier so I'm not getting enough sleep I don't think.#I haven't had a break since friday#maybe that's part of it#bc I was fine for a while and then this week I'm fixating on what ifs and my own failures (that are somewhat out of my control#because I... don't know how to capture my thoughts while I'm literally mostly asleep? probably habit when I'm awake lol)#so i think there's a level of spiritual attack making me fixate and also just#tiredness#yeah.#anyway.#prayer request
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❗️Important announcement❗️
Hello everyone! 😁 January is finally here, and this is very exciting news for me because I'm going to New Zealand!!! 🤩✈️ It's a huge trip that I've been planning for a whole year now. It will be the first time I ever take the plane. The first time I visit another country in years. The first time I travel so far away from home! And what's more, this will be the longest trip in my life. Over a month. I can hardly wrap my head around it still! 🤯🗓
I've also had some time to reflect, and... I've decided to use this opportunity to step back and go offline for a bit. 🌱 I wanted to tell you about this sooner, and I apologize for how sudden this probably is for most of you. I promise that I'm alright and doing this with a peaceful mindset! Although- I'm a bit sad at the thought that we won't see or hear from each other for a while. 🥺 It's a bittersweet feeling, but at the same time, I'm sure the temporary change of pace will be a good thing. Lately I've been feeling the need to take a break from social media again, and the timing is perfect. I'm ready. 🤲💫
To my lovely friends and followers here: I hope you will all have a great time these next few weeks. I hope the beginning of 2024 will treat you well and that you will get to experience new and exciting things. Wishing you lots of inspiration, fun projects and plenty of fascinating conversations until I return. 🙏🥰
Take care, everyone! I will miss you dearly. 🫂💗 Thank you, and I love you all,
- elita 🌸
#Even though I probably won't see my notifs until I get back- don't hesitate to tag me or message me anytime 🥲#I promise I'll do my best to catch up once I get back! 👀 x3#It may take me longer to respond... But you can be sure I will nonetheless ��️#And don't worry: I still very much intend to share those next few pieces as well! 🤭🖼#Thank you in advance for your patience and understanding^^#See you all again soon!! 💕#personal message#elitadream
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Draw more terrorbeak wilson 🔫
idk what you're talking about, I still am drawing him I think
#dst#wilson#dst wilson#Terrorbeak Wilson AU#mobs AU#yet again asking for help naming that AU plz#this is obviously a joke because the saladmander wilson is just wilson but as a saladmander while terrorbeak was some werewolf type bullshi#i still doodle terrorbeak wilson but just never post it... because these doodles don't look interesting to me...#maybe one day i'll post a doodle dump of shit i don't find interesting enough to post but eh i probably won't#the only real thing these AUs have in common are that i post about it a bit then never again#at least these gets posted publicly
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Hello! I just discovered your blog and I immediately became captivated by your webcomic, but I'm unsure where to read all of it. I know it's on Webtoons, but I can see it hasn't been updated for a while, and you still post about it.
Are your physical novels just prints of the webcomic? Are they a continuation? Is the story complete? Thanks in advance!
Hi there!
Glad you found me and are enjoying my comic!
It's only on webtoons, and the story is not complete yet! We're 2/3 of the way through right now. It's currently on hiatus, and it's scheduled to come back in about 2 months!
I'll explain why it's been so long if you're curious, but also for my followers who might also be wondering about it under the cut. Sorry, it's pretty much just me complaining haha
I took a month off I took 2 months to get the books printed I took a month to prepare my next comic and I took 2 months to write the rest of the series (I knew the character arcs I wanted, but not the time periods or mysteries!!!) I've been working on actual episodes since then
I had to take some time off because of some pretty extreme burnout due to the sheer amount of work it was to draw over 800 pages and write 6 complete stories in a year and a half... I was getting sick almost weekly due to the overwork, it was really really bad honestly. I was having to work 60+ hours every week just to keep up...
The nature of the comic itself is also difficult... Each of the arcs is a complete, self contained story which can be read (ideally) without context, and my arcs need to be about 10-13 episodes each... And since I have an exact number of episodes to work with, it's even harder.
It takes a ton of planning and a ton of refinement, and working week to week with no breaks I was forced to put out second or even first drafts, so I just wasn't happy with the work I was doing... And to do that for the rest of the series? I wouldn't be proud of the work I did.
Plus... To be entirely honest, webtoon has treated me quite badly IN MY OPINION... They deprioritized me before I launched (I had to beg for more promotion, I'm not exaggerating), they outright denied me the opportunity to even ask for a raise, I don't make any money on fast pass and they pay me less than my partner makes working at trader joes. My first editor left me completely hanging, my second editor (who I loved) was fired... And they told me I wouldn't get a third season before my first season even finished. So it was just repeatedly completely demoralizing.
I'm sorry it has taken so long, it'll have been 10 months by the time I come back. But I realized... I won't get promotion either way. I won't get more episodes either way. I won't get more money either way. So to finish everything, to make it feel good, to make it something I'm proud of, I chose to take longer to make it better.
I am fully aware I will lose a significant amount of my readership for this and it might genuinely affect my career moving forward. But it's what I had to do! So I'm sticking to my guns on it, and I'm confident long term it'll be worth it. It never could have been this good if I didn't take this much time.
#asks#steakandpeanutbuttersandwiches#I'm SO sorry youre new and you asked me such a benign question and I responded with... this... LMAO#I swear to god I tried to make it as short as possible#theres just a lot auauuaghkhgjk#basically. way too much work. not enough money.#so it either is gonna be good and take longer or be worse but come back faster#and I chose to take longer#so.#I'm really sorry and I wish that this decision didn't also come with the... pretty much guarantee that it will negatively impact my career.#I will lose readers. I will lose potential readers for my future work. it looks bad on me as a creator to take such a big break. etc. etc.#but it's good. it's so good. you have to trust me it's like the best stuff Ive ever written#it. ok well to be honest#it'll probably feel extremely simple and extremely natural#but it's been SO much work LMAO#I am not exaggerating I have written over 200 pages of scapped ideas to get to where it is#I'm sure it won't make sense why it took so long while reading but you gotta trust me LMAO#ideally it doesnt even 'feel' different right. cause its gotta be cohesive with the whole thing#but there is SO MUCH TO WRAP UP#THERES SO MUCH#and to make that feel natural in this little space oh my GOD it is so hard#ok omfg I'm doing it again I'm going on way too long again IM SO SORRY#YOURE NEW HERE AND IM DOING THIS IMMEDIATELy#this is like 90% for my followers who I know are curious about this and I'm just using you as a jumping off point to talk about it#cause I don't really like to make standalone posts very often#I likely will make some kind of official announcement about it when the date is extremely set in stone#right now I think it's still only tentatively scheduled so it could still change#and I'll say something more... refined and restrained... then.#but for now this is like. actually everything. I think#I'm sure I forgot something but whatever lmfao
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"I hope you get to heal enough to experience final fusion someday" sorry but that's like actually not possible. yeah. sorry
#🦅.txt#final fusion is a pipe dream and quite honestly it's probably rooted in ableism#even if you *do* manage to get your headcount back to one#you're still gonna have all the other symptoms like dissociation and flashbacks and so on#and you'll still be able to split#so even if you *do* get back to just one alter#you won't stay that way for long#and the idea that traumatized people#(especially people who are traumatized to the extent of having fucking alters)#the idea that we need to make ourselves smaller and more “manageable” and “simple” is unfair#systems should heal however they feel they need to#making yourself more convenient isn't healing#I think people just can't seem to understand that some people are never normal again#hence the ableism#but yeah no fuck you we're not doing final fusion
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Sparkstember Day 10: Whomp That Sucker (Where's My Girl)
A good time!!! That's the first thing I associate with this album. It's one of the earlier ones I've heard too and I was certainly a big fan of it from the very start. Not only that, but I think it was a bit of a groundbreaking point in my experience as a new Sparks fan, since I was trying to figure out where to go next and this was a good plunge somewhere in the midst of it all that proved that no matter where you go, you're going to get something special! And after a couple more months (I mean, it's been a bit over a year since that first listen already! How time flies) it still holds up in my personal rankings. Soooo well. Definitely very special to me!
I think it's safe to say by now that between the pair of Whomp and Angst I'll always stay partial to Whomp. The latter seems to be much more popular among fans, and I can understand that, but something about Whomp speaks to me much more. Both are fun, energetic new-wavey albums, still in the realm of rock but with some cool use of synths that would soon become even more important and a core element of the music. Still though, I think Whomp is more PURE fun - between many hilarious lyrics and the overall playful and lighthearted nature of it, I don't think it's possible to listen to this one and not feel even a little bit happier afterwards.
I especially love the whole atmosphere of it, what I call the spacey / sparkly synth, that gives it a little bit of an outer space feel, much moreso than the actual album called In Outer Space (but i'd better not get ahead of myself yet when it comes to that one, lol). This album really feels sparkly and even glittery to me in a weird way, and unexplainably, this all reminds me of like, sweets and chocolates like those cosmic brownies or daim candy?? That's what this album would taste like to me! Sweet and a little extra and always a good little treat. Damn, and now I want to try a cosmic brownie.
Favourite songs (and other highlights):
I don't even have that many personal favourites from this album even though I really really love it as a whole!! I guess it's a bit of a Propaganda situation, where there isn't that many super big standouts compared to the rest of the tracks, they're all just very cool and I mostly don't have that much to say about them individually, they're all just!! So fun!! (I mean, ok, Suzie Safety might be the only one here that I don't care about all that much. I'm sorry, Suzie.) So this is more of a Moments list than anything
I Married A Martian: mostly I'm just incredibly charmed by the story here
Where's My Girl: AARGHHH!!! WAAUUGHGH!!! I LOVE THIS SONG!!!! SO MUCH!!!! The closest I can come to describing the feeling here is something like... song you heard a couple times when you were very young, enough that you remember how it goes when you hear it again, but can't recall it on the spot otherwise, and you forget about the song's existence until you hear it again after all those years and are hit by the biggest wave of nostalgia and longing for the past that you've ever experienced in your life. All that despite me never hearing this song until last year. Or is there just something I'm not aware of... Anyway, this was one of those rare and treasured moments of THIS IS WHAT I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR!! *MY* MUSIC!! Needless to say, this song stayed on repeat countless of times and I will never get over how awesome this guitar solo is. And again, the spacey synth!!
Upstairs: upstAAAAAAirs!!! upstAAAAAAirs!!!
Don't Shoot Me: big fan of the whole thing but I'm especially charmed by the little high-pitched "shoot!"s and such in the background, and "WHO'S HEEE???"
The Willys: the song itself isn't even my fav but the PHYSICALLY! MENTALLY! MORALLY! part is always very chuckle-worthy. That's the wondrous humour I'm talking about here
That's Not Nastassia: Sparks songs with uncomfortably long endings my beloved... can also be pretty hilarious under the right circumstances (like listening to the vinyl of this album with my dad and watching his reaction). And can't forget how cool the transition into the last song is
#sorry for the legth of this post. it will most definitely happen again#ok i can't even tell if it's that much longer than the rest. sorry either way#(for the length of them all. they WILL get longer still. that i'm sure of)#i actually scrapped the previous sketch for today last minute because i felt like something was off about it!!#and i wanted something cooler for one of my favourite songs and albums#so i experimented a bit with more detail and a ton of filters on the layers in this one#and i probably won't go that extra for any future drawings lol#a bit too demanding to me still at this moment. i don't want to die from too much screentime doing this#sparkstember 2024#my art#goose monologues
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oh my... I forgot that the new WBK chapter is going to be released on Wednesday, August 14th @ 12 AM (JST) so that means, I will come back later with the complete pages, then continue resting until JJK leaks day ✌🏻
side note: stay tuned, Umemiya and Chika stans 😭
#unfortunately the coughs aren't getting well and my nose is still clogging but as long as I can be active again I won't mind#glad that my fever has subsided and can now do my works properly but after (probably) talking about this chapter I'll continue resting#until this thursday for jjk leaks#wind breaker#wind breaker chapter 151#wbk 151#wind breaker (satoru nii)#wind breaker spoilers#wbk spoilers
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Was dead for a while there. oops.
I was away because of some health/family/work reasons, then kept forgetting to check back in on social media when I got used to not using any. I also wasn't doing art while away, so I felt weird about coming back without any. I have a couple now though - will space those out
Anyway, thanks to anyone still sticking around
#my art#hypnosis#one off characters#though the tail is from Frenze#I still probably won't post regularly since I've been too busy to do art as much as before#but I'll try getting something out every now and again
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ugh. some thoughts.
really been trying to find the joy in drawing/writing again and honestly it's been such a challenge. friends have told me it's most likely depression that's making it hard to feel motivated and tbh they're probably right.
hoping to get back into being creative in the way I Want to be at some point tho. I miss it. there's still so much with my stories and characters that I haven't been able to share or explain and I wish I knew how without it feeling like this daunting, impossible task.
I don't know when I'll get around to actually sharing art again (or writing, if ever). was hoping that I'd manage to get some of my mental and physical issues in check recently for just long enough to get back into the swing of being creative, but that hasn't seemed to work. everything feels bad, both artistically and physically. I'm struggling to keep up with the frantic pace at which my brain comes up with story concepts and intriguing character interactions, even tho everything in me wishes I could turn it into tangible artistic expression so I can get it out of my head and share it. it used to be easy. I don't know why it's not now.
I'm just . tired, I guess.
#spectre says#text post#negative#vent post#delete later#sorry#i probably shouldn't post this idk#tbh i know i've said this a million times but. even if i'm struggling to draw or whatever#i'm still open for asks. i want so badly to talk about my characters and the things i've been unable to explain through art#but i can't get my own thoughts together enough to know where to start with that in like. just a random post#and asks would be a great way for me to actually focus on one concept at a time based on whatever you guys are curious about#but i hate sounding like i'm begging for attention/interaction i just. genuinely don't know if anyone is interested otherwise#and if you guys do want to know more you HAVE to tell me directly#because vague forms of engagement are difficult for me to comprehend or read between the lines of#i can't read minds obviously ><;;#i know ask culture has changed a lot over the years tho and a lot of ppl don't like sending them out of being shy or whatever#which i understand#it's kind of an awkward form of engagement that no other site really has#so no pressure i'm just letting you know that I won't know if any of you guys are interested in learning more about my stuff#if i'm not told directly is all#anyway. tangent aside#its just been rough mentally my dudes. hopefully things clear up at some point and i won't feel so dead all the time#and actually have the mental clarity to continue drawing/writing like i used to again;;; God willing;;
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There was a murmur of assent from a small cluster of hobgoblins round them, which was broken by a high, thin laugh from the other side of the circle, and the cold air which followed the sound drove the hobgoblins into a tighter bunch. The wandering Will-o'-the-Wisps which had been straying dispersedly among the stones drew to-gether and moved toward the hobgoblins, who were on the south side of the circle, but the north side was not therefore dark; it began to shine with the blurred radiance of touchwood and corpse lights. From among the stones slipped queer, plasmic, shapeless forms, not unlike dis-torted shadows of the hobgoblins themselves, and the more dreadful to them for that. In ordinary times they would have trusted to their simple counter-charms and stood firm, but few, dispirited and war-weary as they now were, they drew back from the circle, and the corpse lights grew from a crescent to a horseshoe, and then closed into a ring. The thin laughter rose higher, and was answered from the sky by a distant droning sound, the whiffle of wind through the dry twigs of broomsticks. The whole air hummed with the sound, so that panic came upon the little bunch of good fellows, and they broke and ran helter-skelter in twos and threes. It was well for them that the things in the circle were waiting to greet the broomsticks, or they would have had little chance of escape.
~ Katharine M. Briggs, Hobberdy Dick (1955)
#OH MY GOD I COOKED INSANELY HARD AND PROBABLY NEVER AGAIN#THIS IS MY MAGNUM OPUS#...that will probably won't get more than 3 notes given that it's fanart from something obscure#speaking of which... context: this is fanart of a lost 90s anime adaptation based on a kids fantasy book called hobberdy dick#(keyword: kids fantasy. so please don't make fun of the name there's nothing inappropriate that's just the name for the green guy)#BUT STILL I'M SUPER PROUD ON HOW IT TURNED OUT#now gonna use literally any popular tag i can think of i typically don't use much but gotta get that reach#artists on tumblr#art#fanart#hobberdy dick#妖精ディック#digital art#digital watercolor#watercolor#fairy#fairycore#house elf#hobgoblin#goblincore#90s anime#anime fanart#fairy art#fantasy#fantasy illustration#illustration#fantasy art#pink octodoodles#will o wisp#book fanart
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Stobotnik Holo Double-Sided Charms!!
Get one on Etsy or DM me if you're interested in old man yaoi charms! There are only a few left, so grab one before they're gone!
My Etsy | My Carrd
#stobotnik#agent stone#dr. robotnik#jimbotnik#dr. eggman#sonic movies#sonic the hedgehog#posting this again because I only have a few left!!!#I probably won't be ordering more so get one while I still have em!! <3
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sure sucks that faucet doesn't like people talking about [ ] because [ ] has the objectively coolest pronouns out of all of us hkjgh
#i mean yeah not [ ] fault [ ]'s a faucet but [ ] pronouns are fun to use hkjggh#redacted ass gender#anyway we. oh goddamnit.#SHOVING EVERYONE ASIDE YOOOOOO YEARNING TIME HELLO ALL!! WE'RE GETTING BOBA TEA [SCREAMS EXCITEDLY!!!!!!!!]#STIMMING INTERNALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YIPPEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sugar treats will solve all our problems forever :33#<- that's not true. they're likely to cause more problems actually. (IRRELEVANT!!! JUMPS UP AND DOWN!!!!!!!)#anyway we're setting up our pluralkit and wow. this is exhausting hkjh how does anyone do this hkjhg#we're likely not going to use all of these. in fact i doubt Lookout's and Ceres's will get any use at all?#and the ones who like hiding and/or don't like talking probably won't see much use either. and we still all like talking together like this#its likely just gonna be for if we know who's talking. otherwise we're all INCREDIBLY BLURRY and trying to pry us apart is Bad for us.#on the plus side me n julibelle can call each others names over and over again in a different medium LMAO HKJHG :P#if you do that i'm making you both a new spam channel for containment purposes.#hahakjh wowww a channel just for ussss? maestro u shouldnt have~ :'3 <333#you are incorrigible.#[okay that's enough. everyone be quiet now.]#💫#🌻#🏹#🍱#🌫️
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#I've read some of you talking about your irls reaching out#Positive and negative thinga#And I'm... In the middle#I haven't hidden my love for 1D since it took over my life 3 years ago#So the people that know me know this about me#Granted they probably know more about Louis but still#One of my closest friends was a bit insensitive at first and I just couldn't reply#She then sort of came through and has been checking in#I don't think she realized how much it mattered to me#Then I told my best friend who's still back home#I also don't think she understood how important they are to me#She hasn't checked in again but she has sooo much shit on her plate that I don't even blame her although it still... A little bit#But I'm also like trying not to think they actually knew how seriously important these bois are to me#Anyway. Another friend... I saw him right after I found so I was still very much in shock and he knows about them and my deep connection#Saw him the next day he hugged me and asked me how I was and this was after the shock wore off and I had cried all night#I almost broke down again... But he hasn't checked in again and I'm a bit sad about it#Someone I met briefly in the summer and got to talking about the bois reached out and asked and I was glad they did#My sister has been checking in which has been very nice#Again... Idk... I don't need them to understand or be all over me asking or anything#It's just... Yeah.#And it just reinforces my gratitude for this space and the friends I've made the past couple of years#I have no idea where I'd be if I didn't have this and you all#But then again... The biggest reason I'm still in this community is the people I've met#So of course I would always have you here#Understanding something that outsiders could never#It's like trying to explain why Louis is so important to me... If you don't feel you won't get it#Rambles ramble#My eyes hurt
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