#i probably forget the rp tho just a warning

[thedvilsinthedetails]

Heyyyy…

hey im still figuring out what i wanna be called but for now u can call me Jamie if u want I’m genderfluid as fuck [they/she/he or whatever idegafatp]

some typa aroace spectrum probs grayace & demiromantic also omniromantic - in general I have nothing figured out

so a simp w like a slight preference for men ig but kinda ace most of the time but sometimes very not

neurospicy bitch

writing request status: OPEN FOR MICROFICS RN

I’m a rosekiller loverrr but also a multi shipper so u never know what ur gonna see ig [but probably Rosekiller, Wolfstar, Dorlene, Starchaser maybe some sunkiller if I’m in the mood etc] for the record just bc I don’t ship smth doesn’t mean I support hating it even as a joke [translation: prongsfoot is chill leave them be]

if u don’t like smth, just ignore it, if u send me hate I’ll reply w shitty jokes probs

my dream job is to be an actor [screen actor specifically]

Media I like:

Fav TV stuff: Challengers, Gravity Falls, Cruella, 10 things I hate about you, into the spiderverse

Fav author is @neil-gaiman also that man is my idol so I’ll probs reblog him a shit ton [do u think he’ll like…mind that I tagged him? Sorry if this bothered u Neil!!!] Music [uhhh changes all the time tbh but for rn]: The Neighbourhood, Olivia Rodrigo, Conan Gray [Kid Krow phase rn], Chappell Roan, Renée Rapp, Green day, Ricky Montgomery, NOAHFINNCE, MARINA and Hozier

Spider-Man. Fucking love Spider-Man.

One thing to note about me tho: obvi I love recommendations but I find starting literally any new forms of media really fucking daunting for no reason [this is everything: songs, movies, books etc]

e.g. I fucking love spider verse but I still haven’t watched movie 2, same w latest season of young royals, same with even like ONE song alone I find it rlly hard and really scary

so if u give me recommendations and I don’t get back to u about them for ages it’s not bc I forgot or i was ignoring u but bc I find it scary so pls be patient :)

also same w please don’t like assume I’m knowledgeable about like any of the music artists I named earlier bc tbh I don’t rlly listen to artists I listen to songs [im still a fan of a lot of music artists ofc but the artists I listen to ≠ the artists I’m a fan of]

HI! welcome to my crazy blog, I love making friends im not at all scary I promise :D

Btw my inbox is ALWAYS open for spam, ship ramblings [even if it’s not smth I ship], info dropping about ur hyperfixations, venting, questions etc. [the only thing is no illegal ships bc it will be ignored] also sorry pre warning im shit with the inbox chains [‘send this to ten people who…’] so often I won’t answer those sorry, anything else I will make sure to answer but the chains I sometimes just forget about sorryyy

Barty Crouch Jr & James Potter kinnie

got a FAT crush on Evan Rosier [he’s the loml he just doesn’t know it yet] and also a crush on Dorcas Meadowes

I write sometimes:

I fell for you like glitter on stage - rosekiller band au, this was a microfic series on tumblr that I posted on ao3 for convenience [words: 4548] [this is my fav thing I’ve ever written lol]

we are all just prisoners here of our own device - Jegulus, a oneshot on ao3 based on the song ‘hotel California’ by the eagles. [Words: 6162]

Oh where do we begin? The rubble or our sins? - ON HIATUS. Roman Empire Jegulus au with side Rosekiller, Wolfstar and Pandalily on ao3 [words: 6141] [currently I don’t want to write Jegulus - the hyperfixation hath faded]

also I’m in a marauders RP as Barty and u shld follow it bc we’re all super cool and funny and amazing and awesome and yeah @bartythebabygorljr

tags you’ll see on my page:

me and my old black biro > writing tag

Im in love with that Rosier boy > [this is a new one] me having a massive crush on Evan Rosier

the most boring soap opera > my life tag

I have an online diary called @miseryoforpheus if ur fascinated by my charming and irresistible personality

[The song at the bottom of my intro post changes all the time depending on how I’m feeling]

THIS BLOG SUPPORTS PALESTINE

THIS BLOG STANDS WITH UKRAINE

THIS BLOG THINKS JK ROWLING HAS A NEGATIVE QUANTITY OF BRAINCELLS

[elilian-elkins]

NOTQSMP part 3

Blood, violence, cannibalism and death warning for this one!

After a while, I wanted to chill a bit from the heavy dark lore of my sona, as they were overtaken by Chaos, so the silliness of their personality was pretty locked between its sadism-

So, I introduced Skyriel, my lil alien! Such a silly lil being, kind and trying its best to learn more about its surroundings, including people, a nice way to encourage people to explore more their characters or even create one, if they wanted to ofc: the rp was only between people who wanted to do so, and some prefered to avoid that, completely fine!

It was supposed to be a light-hearted character... listen, their backstory is *not* the best, as they were mutilated by humans (first interaction on Earth, ended up captured, wings cut to prevent him from flying away, one leg lost and one eye slightly injured by a hybrid losing control after spending too much time in there), but they escaped and, like, a century past between then and there, time to rest and be ready to interact with people again, especially as many characters were not very human-like, if at all

He still had phantom pain, ofc, and sometimes flashbacks, but it was mainly manageable!

But uh, something happened, and, by trying to help my sona's blood bro, who was feeling ansty by repressing his needs of violence (cough cough, might have been influenced by Chaos because of how much time they spent with Eli), Sky offered him to kill them, as 1/ death is not permanent in this island 2/ even outside, Sky doesn't die, its body made of energy that will reassemble afterwards (it's a summary of it, it's more complex than that, but it's to be easier to understand)

But um, its blood has different effect depending on the person, and for the cat, it was addiction: it was tasty, made him feel good, forget about his guilt and worries. Let's just say... it did not go well for a month or so

So yeah :D

Anyway, thankfully, he made an underwater base to hide in (as his scent would be lost in the water, when he's not directly using the warpstone put inside)... and his old friend helped!

(Btw, I'm very proud of the two entrances I made for the base: one is an elevator disguised as a sand blood, with sea grass on top, so it would show up instead of the elevator, as we used Jade mod ; one being a 1 block high tunnel, the entrance very hard to spot, and hard to navigate, made purposefully to be hard to find and use, as it was also made to not allow the light from the base to pass)

Am I a simp? Yeah, I admit-

Are they together? No D: not yet, rip, hopefully at some point- even if the notqsmp closed, it doesn't mean the characters are dead: Sky left with Karma, this version of my sona probably is dead tho, or went somewhere else like them, idk.

Anyway! Their story: Karma was a human already trapped in the same place Sky ended up, they were cellmates, became friends and grew close, as people do when they are almost alone in a hostile environment actively harming them where the only comfort they can get is from their cell friend-

But because the scientists grew too bold and tried to fuck with Sky's emotions directly, as in, test tube, probbing its braincells and all, he freaked out and went feral, not recognising anything or anyone, only registering others as threats, and acted accordingly. Sadly, Karma tried to go towards him, and uh, let's say it went very badly, and he only got a second chance in life thanks to Sky's energy vaguely recognising him and bringing him back to life... in a way (man went from human to monster, a creature who takes whatever appearance from the painting he's drawn as, also was trapped in a painting for a long while)

So yeah- *fun*

They met again, as Karma was on the island, and after a bit of a hard time, as Sky wouldn't recognize him due to the highly emotional trauma and blackout that moment was + the realization he killed his closed friend, but after a bit of messing around, which was deserved since it seemed intentional from the demon's pov, plus the suffering from his new life/physical state, but it managed to get its memories back and they became friends again... kinda, it was a start, a yearn for their old, comfortable relation, and missing how they were.

Anyway, lots of angst and fluff, as Sky nails the puppy eyes, a terrifying weapon to convince his friend to cuddle (or forgives him when he makes mistakes, like, idk, leaving the bunker and ending up almost dying from the cat's hands)

Long story short, this mess was resolved, everything was fine and well until my sona convinced the cat to play... "tag" with the alien (as the server had a mod on allowing to be knocked down three times before dying, aka safe-ish to "kill" a few times as long as you help the other up)

And ofc it was going swimmingly until Chaos tped a weak, three-times-downed alien, just to kill it :D

*fun*, imarite.

Moving pattern -> inspired by some animals that do so to warn others to not approach, in a hypnotic, threatening way

Back to a lab they go! Sad alien got new limbs, which they hated, as it helped Chaos influence and control them

But everything is fine now! It took care of the leg (couldn't do the same with the wings... he missed the ability to fly way too much, and Chaos was defeated by Destiny soon after, so the risk of losing control of his own body is very low to non existant now)

He even got a kiss from his friend! (Well, because of the fear of losing him again, especially with the thought of him being experimented on once more, as they suffered through in the lab together already)

He happy now, that's all that matters <:

Not... at its best yet, but, it'll be fine!

[remedyforlove]

| rules |

hi! here are just some general rules/things I stick to when I rp!

Please only interact/write/rp with my stuff if you're over 18! I'm 22 and I'm not comfortable with writing stuff with underage people, I can get into adult or dark topics when I write

I'm a literate style rper, which I define as novel/book style with third person. Length wise I try to write 1-2 paragraphs on average but I can go longer depending on scene/what we're looking for. I am not super picky about matching my length, I just prefer something that's long enough to build off of! Here's an example of some of my writing:

Letting out a huff, Lucah had decided to end the conversation by announcing, "Fuck you Johnny, I need a cigarette." He then stood, snagged the bottle and took a swig before turning to get away from the bassist before things escalated. "Oh yeah— well fuck you Lucah!" An intoxicated Johnny called, but all he got was a dismissive wave from Lucah as he stomped off in search of somewhere hopefully empty.

My schedule can get kinda messy at times but I usually aim for 1-2 replies a day if I can! Life can get in the way so I never expect steady replies. Also I try to send a heads up if it's been a few days but I can forget, feel free to message me!

Please don't control my character! I understand there is leeway with action or moving scenes, I just mean don't directly write about what my guy is doing (tbh tho I haven't met an experienced writer who's straight up controlled my character. This was more of a concern when I was doing instagram rps at 13 years old)

Please let me know about any triggers or dont's you have for writing/rping! I don't have any super strong triggers but I have some stuff I prefer to personally not write which we can get into in a chat. Otherwise I just prefer warnings for strong topics being used in the plot

I'm okay with nsfw in a plot but I prefer it to not be what the whole plot is centered around! I'm okay with writing dom but it's not my strong suit, I prefer switch stuff (or at least equal work in the scene? It just feels weird if I write most of what's going on in the scene lol)

I prefer to write on discord if that's cool! If it's a deal breaker I can probably write on tumblr but I get notifications wayyy better on discord. I also like to use servers for organization sake but I don't require them

Feel free to message me about an rp with any of my guys! (right now I have one guy I'm writing but one day I might have more lol)

[ask-the-best-baldi-basics]

May I roleplay with you?

[ you don't even have to ask.

[melting-for-you]

     ... That feel when you have muse for like three of your verses and have no idea who wants them because they’re literally all villain/evil/probably not nice verses. Oh boy.

[placesyoucallhome]

Unorganized thoughts on Endwalker:

warning- it LONG

I feel there's a far different cadence in story telling than there was in Shadowbringers, not better, or worse, just different. Shb had more highs and lows, it swung between extremely emotional moments and more tedious lulls, but EW was more of a marathon, a few brief spikes of stress or levity but a more consistently tense momentum forward. I sure as hell cried more in Shb, but overall? I actually preferred EW's story beats. EW felt more personal, I felt more connected to the characters, despite how far out there we go it felt more grounded in the emotional inconectivity between the characters you know. And not just between the WoL and npcs, between npcs as well, like when Alisaie puts her pickles on Raha's plate, or Estinien tries to hide that he tried to be presentable meeting' the twin's mom, or Emmanellain and Sicard uselessly throwing hands every time they're within 5 feet of each other.

Asahi showing up to drag Amon to hell was just... it was the funniest shit actually, I loved it, I thought it was hilarious and perfectly in character! Like I hope we never see him again, but fuck I thought it was the best fuckin thing! To be clear: I think Asahi is a terrible person, but he is a perfectly written character. He was exactly who the narrative needed him to be, not all villains are sympathetic, and sometimes making a character everyone hates is just as difficult as making a character people like without either feeling cheap or forced.

Still want to punch Forchenault though. I understand he literally couldn't say anything about Sharlayan's plan, but disowning them and tossing on more stress (and probably abandonment issues, especially from Alisaie) was just cruel and I frankly don't care what his justifications were.

I think G'raha and Vrtra would be interesting to see hang out, they weirdly have rather a bit in common? Mysterious/hidden rulers of cities that have lead people for ages longer than a normal person could. I just thought it was rather interesting. Though Estinien going out to Thavnair again after the credits makes more sense, I want to see him dress like a local at this point hah

Also??? That fucking switch from uwu fanboy to Crystal Exarch Mode, like damn my guy maybe you aren't as much as a sub as I thought! Still short as hell tho, don't worry I understand, why else would I keep a chair near the kitchen cabinets myself?

I am interested in seeing what becomes of Baldesion, and would like to see if more students are found or if they reclaim a bit of the Isle of Val, maybe like how they repurposed Diadem. Have considered a refugee Baldesion student character before, may need to revisit it?

And Garlemald as well actually, I think it's a point a lot of people really don't want to understand. They want to say, 'no they've done terrible things and don't deserve to survive', and I've seen enough of that to make me uncomfortable. Have they done horrific things? Yes. Do they deserve a forgive and forget mindset? No absolutely not. But what they do deserve is a chance to see the destruction and pain they wrought, and understand the absolute brainwashing they've been subject to since the beginning of the empire. That shit can absolutely warp your sense of reality to a breaking point. The people in power I can see being put to the blade (though seems some were keen to do it themselves), but the citizens at least deserve the chance and choice to learn something better. Ala Mhigo was given that chance, they were Garlemald before Garlemald after all.

Maybe that makes me a little bit of a hypocrite for not forgiving Forchenaut after saying all that, but like... well I never said people need to be forgiven. Forchenaut has a long way to go before I'd look at him favorably.

After a certain duty, my first thought was, 'oh boy, WoL-Ruhka needs to find Aymeric and apologize for throwing his shit after their dinner'. Wol-Ruhka isn't too much different in personality from RP-Ruhka, obviously, and his story doesn't wildly diverge from the ff14 plot, but his reactions do deviate pretty hard in some plot points. I know no one would be terribly interested in any of it if I wrote it down, but with this story 'done' it is tempting.

Emet's reaction in Elpis being 'why the hell would I be so blatantly idiotic if I was doing any of that?', is telling enough of Emet in Shb. There was a part of him that wanted the shard of Azem to understand, and a part of him that wanted to fail. Also, the difference between being seen as children in Amaurot and seen as a familiar in Elpis? I think Emet eventually grew to see sundered people as people all the same. But, tempering is as tempering does.

And god DAMN do I love Hythlodaeus. I'm not interested in shipping Ruhka with any npcs, much less Hyth, but Azem and Hyth?? Hell yes. Or, Azem/Hyth/Emet. I liked Emet as a character in Shb, but I wasn't really interested in any deep relationship between him and Ruhka even platonically, I just liked the exasperated dynamic. Pre-ascian Emet though? Far more likely. Even if he looks like a kingdom hearts villain. Or an au where all three get reborn for another life together.

That said, did like, a boatload of unsundered souls just get dumped into the aetherial sea???? Wonder if that'll mean anything later on.

Little sad we didn't see all the ascians/convocation, was hoping to meet Altima at some point. Suppose there's still a bit of a chance to meet the rest even unsundered in the raid.

Also, while there aren't any ascians around anymore, I don't think we're in the clear for calamities, enough imbalance and shit could just happen on it's own. At some point I bet we'll travel to other shards, and hopefully that includes the 13th more in full.

But also, dead curious about Mericydia and the New World, but there were too many mentions of Corvo for them to not take us there at some point (at least, if you talked around enough it was mentioned plenty!).

Well, that's a lot of rambling, hah, congrats if you made it through the whole thing! I just needed to get my thoughts out somewhere, you know?

[islcndxmisfits-a]

i just needed to get some thoughts down since i don’t have anyone around right now to talk to about all this. fair warning, this got longer than i wanted, but if you wanna skip to the bottom, there’s a tldr statement at the very end.

with how things are going on right now in my life. i’m debating if i just wanna quit rp and give up on writing altogether (this might even go as far as my fan fics since i’ve never actually finished one in my damn life). i just feel like i have no motivation or energy to log on anymore. like, i love writing, but....up until now, i rarely get on and rarely have time to get shit done and everything and the only reason i have time right now is because there’s personal stuff going on between me and my boyfriend and so i haven’t really been in the mood to do much of anything else... but like, i don’t know. if things go back to normal, i’m going to fall right back in the routine of work, home, play video games, sleep... and reading / watching stuff in between all that.. i’ve barely written much and i don’t know if i wanna just give up entirely, because EVERY TIME i have given up in the past, i missed it and came right back to it with a new blog.. so i don’t know.

tumblr causes me a lot of stress bc there’s a lot i wanna do because i’m a perfectionist and evreything’s gotta be perfect and i know most people are gonna tell me to do what’s best for me, but the fact of the matter is, tumblr is also where i come to talk to those who i’ve met and now consider friends when i’m in a bad mood or when i’m stressed or anxious. and it’s also something i love wholeheartedly, but i think the overwhelming amount of just everything i have / want to do is just too much. so i’m not sure if i wanna give up 100% or do a purge / start over and try again

or just keep it to discord? or idk.

i’m going to think on this all long & hard... i don’t work until 6 so i have about an hour and i’m probably going to just relax / watch anime or read something

or i might continue some of my fics.

honestly, tho.. if i do give up on rp, i might still try to keep this blog for my fics and things here. maybe, idk. i really like writing them but i also hate not being able to just focus on one all the way through until the end. i always go back and forth and start new ones and forget my old ones ;-;

idk, bc i really only write stories for me and i think right now i have them on my google drive, but... idk. i’m really going to have to figure something out.

if anyone has any suggestions, all will be greatly appreciated.

TLDR: basically, i don’t know if i wanna continue rp / writing fics or not. i don’t wanna say i’m in a weird depressed state where i only wanna really spend time with my bf / friends and play video games / watch anime / read manga / relax... but, i feel like it’s something like that. plus as of late, i’m always stressed out 120% of the time.

[aliwept]

WARNING :     MASSIVE TOKOYAMI HC DUMP AHEAD !  part one of ..... many sldkfjds i gotta transfer a lot from old blogs

triggers:  body talk,  religions mentions,  mentions of binding, self hatred and transitioning.

BELIEFS / MOTIVATION:

tokoyami looks at becoming a hero the “wrong” way — or rather, in a way that cripples his success.he doesn’t want to become a hero in and of itself, but to help as many people as he can.

this is usually a good thing, but it is motivated by his extreme guilt and self doubt rather than pure desire, believing that that is the only way to pay for his “sins.” (i.e., the destruction or potential destruction his quirk as/could cause(d).)

he holds himself up to an extremely high standard, (it is impossible to have a totally “pure” motivation,) one of being perfect and disciplined in every way, but he consistently fails to reach that (as any human being would), making it so that he falls deeper into a circle of self-doubt and pity.

he also tends to idealize his friends for their faults, and when those difficult traits show up he gets extremely bothered, then angry at himself for his idealization, then angry for bothering them, & it escalates until he’s simply angry at himself for being what he believes to be a burden.

this is an extremely deeply rooted process, one that even daily actions contribute to, & while the source isn’t completely his parents, it is certainly reinforced by his mother’s abuse & his guilt relating to his father’s death.

PHYSICAL:

he’s not particularly muscled — well, compared to his more muscular classmates. most of his muscle is in his legs & stomach. he does not have a particular training regimen, typically unmotivated unless prompted.

unlike the majority of his classmates, because a lot of his fighting is done with dark shadow moving him (so that it’s harder to predict movements, as well as going from a large range), the majority of the time he’s not challenged physically.

against close attacks, both attacking which he uses his sword for (seen in his dorm room), when allowed. he inherited that sword from his father after his death. he also feels fatigue easily, not so much due to muscles but because of his exhaustion that is his “normal” state, given that dark shadow is nocturnal. (this & his low work ethic. he works a lot harder when training with friends.)

he doesn’t feel the need to bind more than not, given his skinny physique, with his hips being only a little bit wider than the average cis man’s.most of his scars are on his arms, self inflicted from his talons cutting into his skin. parts of his skin are covered in a gel like skin, clear to see the feathers that poke out from them, going much like arm hair down his sides. these are mostly around his shoulders.

most of the feather is underneath skin (though the skin & the feather both have no nerves), visible with the skin being mostly clear (no muscles adding color, only the natural dark pigment) with the rest of the feaher poking out at a low angle to his arm.

HABITS:

he has a diary that he writes in religiously. it’s kept in a hat box under his bed when he returns to the dorm, along with a collection he’s had since he had been able to write.

at times, in nostalgia, he’ll read through his earlier books. he also tends to doodle his classmates in them ! he’s an incredibly private person — especially because his mother ignored his privacy, refusing to let him keep secrets of any kind in ‘fear that he was hiding something’ — but also enjoys putting his thoughts into words.         

PAST:               

tokoyami was bullied due to his appearance / personality. for someone who was already uncomfortable with his body (not knowing what being trans was at that point) this became the root of deep insecurity regarding his appearance, whether it was as simple as hesitation.

he is autistic !! he stims a lot with his hands, though usually it’s in his hoodie / under his cloak, because he’s very self conscious about it.  he also has adhd: inattentive type, bpd, depression & anxiety!

fantasy verse:  he’s a witch & i will fight you on this fact. my boy loves the occult. he’s also. in generally he tends to be superstitious, & more than that enjoys different rituals! it probably won’t show up in my rp cause i honestly don’t know much about that type of thing but ! he absolutely adores things like that, not necessarily because he fully believes them but because they’re interesting & he believes that they probably stem if only in part from fact.

now im gonna add some notes here.  while he is obviously pretty strong,  he has problems with control, considering that not only does he have to react, he has to communicate those thoughts with dark shadow. speed / offense / defense obviously are enhanced w dark shadow, as well as his own abilities (he would still be able to hold his own if he couldn’t use his quirk).

as well, a lot of his stats are basically his stats + dark shadow, which obv makes them higher than they otherwise would be. he also has really high stamina and working out for a long time doesn’t really. make him tired, nor dark shadow, because dark shadow doesn’t get tired & he’s not the one doing a lot of the actual physical stuff. he’s not good w weapons tho in general. note that these are basically during the daytime w/o a huge light source so things change when it’s darker/lighter.

parents:   tokoyami’s mother had the ability to call spirits of the dead to her and talk to them, & his father’s was to house things, as in objects, so he cld like. store things inside of his body. it’s real wild.

a quirk that combined with another in tokoyami’s lineage, so one of his ancestors had the ability to shapeshift, specifically with birds & banged w someone who has a quirk similar to aizawa’s, where it basically ‘stills’ the action of .someone’s quirk, if that makes sense? so down the line people wld inherit a birds’ features, but it would switch. in his dad’s case, he got a raptors ‘arms’ & eyes.

i am here to inform you that not only is he really short, he’s also chubby! espcially as a child. while he now has muscle! :tm: ive made earlier posts about how he doesn’t have a good. regimen & shit so. yeah. just like deku, while he may be muscled, (though he’s less muscled than. most of his classmates) he still is v chubby on other parts of his body.

also ! he’s trans & he has. a large bust, which he does not bind most of the time due to fear of asphyxiation. being demiboy, he is bothered at it at times, but dislikes tight clothes as a whole (like binders). this is because he is easily overstimulated by excessive contact with his body, causing sensory overload.the exception is his neck, which his choker is a source of comfort. (though, warning, there are scars underneath that the large choker hides!)

tokoyami. will say/do something & then become embarrassed by it, after the act has already been done. he’ll fuckin melt on the spot.

tokoyami is absolutely someone to leave ppl on read. or respond w several paragraphs w ‘K.’ like. that’s just how it is. he’s lowkey an asshole in that way but he just. he has to think a lot before having a response but he gets distracted & just leaves it.

he has dark fucking brown skin !!!!! people who draw tokoyami w light skin cause he’s a ‘pale goth uwu !!!!’ are weak & will be weeded out by natural selection.

people he trains with most are ,,,  mostly kirishima, kaminari, aoyama and momo when they’re available

he’s mix of japanese, native american, and indian!

self knowledge questions:  neediness, independence, shyness.

NEEDINESS: being affirmed & nurtured by others is a central requirement for you to feel safe. this means you can be slow to warm up to other people, which is difficult because what you most need from them is their warmth. yet you know how to be vulnerable: to let down your defenses and accept that you need another person. this lack of pretense is a valuable trait, and ultimately more endearing than the macho efforts others make to deny their childlike sides.

INDEPENDENCE: you don’t set out to be different for its own sake; you are more easily guided by what interests & moves you. you are more concerned about what is right for you than about the pressure to fit in. you know the value of selective irresponsibility, of forgetting occasionally about being ‘good’.

SHYNESS: part of you is gripped by the fear that you’ll launch into something and completely mess it up. the upside of this is wise caution: people are indeed often too rash, whereas you know, by instinct, that holding back can save you. probably, you feel shame and self-disgust a bit too much. but when you do feel in your element, you act with a wisdom and sensitivity never found in people with thicker skins.

there’s an au where he’s tamaki’s half brother tamakis hmu

more ramblings cause i lov him so anw. i figure that like. if he had to have a motivator it would be an outside force but basically he’s riding on the fact that he has more physical ability because he doesn’t perform very well in studies. ( bird brain …… )

getting 14th place out of the class on midterms, he’s aware that he’s not motivated & as well as his migraines & other mental illnesses ( adhd, executive dysfunction, etc. ) this means that he doesn’t really reach his “full potential.”

he’s aware of this, though, which causes him to train physically. physically training also allows him to ( a ) feel proud of himself, something that he struggles with ( b ) help him generally, esp with dysphoria ( c ) get his mind off of other things / points of stress.

i still don’t think he’s like. as buff as shouji for example, though part of that is that he’s naturally lean ! & he has trouble motivating himself sometimes but when he stays up late ( due to dark shadow ) it basically wrecks his sleeping patterns, so this gives him something beneficial to do while also exhausting himself, which he hopes will help him fall asleep.

like i know that i said that . . he was skinny / not v muscled ( when compared to his buffer classmates, rather ) but i guess i’ve been proven wrong because it took both Buff McFuck mina and hagakure 2 push him out of the way ( not tht it took that long but that was w them straining / time skips )

so @ this point i Just Don’t Know. he got 9 in the practical which means he’s obv like ?? p good but that was the entrance exam. ( he got 10 rescue my baby !!!! im so proud of him ) & then w aizawa’s exams he started off at 5 & im tryna find the other thing what it ended up as but @ this point i’m just , pretty divided cause i’m not seeing much reason for him to learn to train w/o proper training ( & we kno that he’s not someone who was trained specially like todoroki / momo tho tht doesnt mean it’s not possible & at this point im just ) ya. he’s gotta be able but from what we know he’s not v motivated ? ausdjkfdsfjk we’ll see ig.

tokoyami is a mix of shinto (where his hero epithet comes from), taoist (due to the values), & hindu (again, values). i think for now it’s going to be some mix of that, though i’m going to do some research on shinto values since i don’t know much about it !!!!!

generally, he’s pretty superstitious, just because he knows many myths are based on facts, & the idea of ‘it doesn’t hurt to watch out for them.’ he prefers to avoid possible things that would make him have bad luck.

[deanxfuckingadorablexwinchester]

Somebody that I used to know

Characters: Dean x Reader Summary: Dean meets an ex Word Count:  1500ish Warning: ALL THE ANGST! Prompt: So my prompt was the song ‘Somebody that I used to know’ A/N: This is an entry for @like-a-bag-of-potatoes challenge and I really hope you like it and I did some justice to it. I would also like to thank @dancing-the-hellfire-rumba and @torn-and-frayed for their opinions and @girl-next-door-writes for beta'ing this for me. Feedback is really appreciated and even encouraged!

MASTERLIST

Dean stood in the gun range staring at the target he had just made a hole in and yet his frustration wasn’t gone. He still could feel it like it was in his blood. Not just frustration but jealous. A feeling he wasn’t used to. Did he even have the right to feel jealous? She wasn’t with him anymore and he was the reason. He had made sure she never comes back, that she would hate him.

His face was scrunched up as he changed the target sheet and picked up his gun again, shooting at the target printed on the sheet, right in his head as he thought about how he had met her and how good  they had been together.

He had met her when they were on a case, helping Sam’s friend with a haunting and y/n happened to be the friend who was there to support the girl. Somehow they ended up bonding during that time and surprisingly, stayed in touch. It was easy to talk to her since she knew about their life. He didn’t have to lie or pretend to be someone he wasn’t. Plus, it was nice to have someone besides his brother.

He didn’t even realise when he fell for her. Texts turned into calls and then they were meeting up as much as they could. She would drive over to the place he was at if he was close by. He would stop by her place if he was crossing her city and that’s how they ended up in bed, High on alcohol and love.

He should have known it was too good to be true. They had been happy for way too long. Two years with her. Two magical years which he could never forget. Then he got the mark and things changed. He changed. She saw him as a demon, she was probably the reason he was able to pull himself out of that but that’s the day he realised how much danger he had put her in. Earlier he could be sure nothing  would happen to her. That he would protect her but he couldn’t trust himself anymore. Not with the mark on his arm and no control over himself. She needed to go. She needed to be safe and away from the life he had dragged her into.

So he did the one thing he could. He started distancing himself, flirting with girls and he hurt her in every way he could. He had to make sure she hated him so he became the kind of douchebag he had always hated. He dumped her.

He dumped her in the worst way imaginable. Him and Sam were on a hunt on new years eve when Dean decided to text her and tell her it’s over. She kept calling but he didn’t answer, she called Sam who at this point wasn’t talking to him as he didn’t agree with him but it was his relationship and Sam had no say in it.

She was gone by the time they got back and he had kept his ears open to see what she was doing. Thankfully she had quit the life and went back to doing what she was earlier. He had kept an eye out for her, making sure she was okay and at times had even been tempted to just go in and apologise, beg and do whatever it took for him to get her back. In those weak moments when he needed her desperately. When amara was there and he didn’t know what was happening. It was her and her memory he held onto keep his sanity.

Now here they were three years later, meeting his stupid faced fiance. Stupid faced fiance with a normal job and he couldn’t help but picture his face as he let it out on another target.

“Impressive,”came her muffled voice and he took off his headphones, smiling a little, a smile that didn’t really reach his eyes. “Who are you aiming for there, Dean?”she asked lightly, her bright eyes never leaving his and he just shrugged in reply, looking away knowing she could see right through him. She had known him better than he knew himself and a really small part of him had never thought or rather hoped she would leave but she did.

“Come on, Winchester. It’s me? Spit it out. What’s going on? What’s with the sour face?”she asked and Dean placed the gun on the counter and took a deep breath. “What are you doing here? After so many fucking years? Why did you come out all the way for this? A reunion?” he asked not able to hide his annoyance.

“Well, Sam wanted to meet him and since he knows about, well, everything, considering he has been through this kind of shit I didn’t see any harm in it. Hell, even he wanted to meet you guys considering I apparently don’t shut up about the time I spent in the bunker. I wanted to share this part of my life with him.”she said shrugging.

“What do you mean by Sam wanted to see him?” he asked in confusion before freezing as realisation set in. “Have you two been in touch?” he asked quietly feeling a slight twinge of jealousy and betrayal.

“Yeah, you didn’t want me in your life but he did. I wasn’t going to give up on his friendship just cause you were being an idiot. I knew you won’t listen to me no matter what I said so I let you hurt me and I moved on.” she said quietly looking up at him, “You think I didn’t see that car of yours outside my place in the middle of the night? I would recognise that sound anywhere. It’s so fucking loud.” she said dryly. “You know what was wrong with your plan? You made sure I move on but you didn’t make an exit strategy for yourself, Dean.” she said softly closing in the distance between them. “I guess that was one of the reasons I came here.” she said softly taking his hand in hers and threading their fingers together smiling at him a fondly.

“You succeeded in what you wanted to do, Dean. You made sure I got out of this life and was safe. A part of me will always love you for everything you are. The good and the bad but that’s just it. I moved on. I am getting married. Now, you are just somebody I used to know. We both have changed. I am happy with Sebastian. He is a good man and I know that because I know both you and Sam ran background checks on him.”she said with a chuckle, “You need to let go of me. You are holding onto a ghost of me, Dean.”she said softly as a tear fell down her face. “Damn you,  Winchester. I promised myself I won’t cry.”she mumbled wiping her eyes with a small smile on her face. “Thank you. For everything. For giving me the life I probably wanted and didn’t even realise it at that time.”she said softly before leaning up and pressing a kiss to his cheek. “Promise me you will just let go of us? I won’t be able to live with that burden Dean. You need to do this one last thing for me.”she said softly, “Consider it my wedding gift. You don’t even have to come if you don’t want to.”she said sniffing a little.

Dean just nodded in reply not sure he could speak just then. “God, You are one annoying son of a bitch, winchester.”she said softly with a chuckle as she hugged him one last time. “You need to open yourself. You never know who you might meet along the way.”she said with a grin and that familiar twinkle in her eyes before turning to leave. “You coming? The pizza I’d almost over and if you don’t hurry your pie would be gone.”she said teasingly and Dean smiled a little, nodding. “I’ll be up in five.”he said waiting for her to leave.

He changed the target sheet again and grabbed his gun again. She was right. Now he was just somebody that she used to know and he started shooting with a blurry vision as his eyes watered up.

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[fmdxjerome]

Heyhey, I’m the memer behind the suave fuckboi Jérôme. The name’s Naomi and if u like rap or just khiphop in general pls hit me up lets talk about my cHILDREN or my actual dad Simon Dominic. Also. Plot page is almost done [check back tomorrow or the day after GMT+1 time] but I’m always open to plot just on the fly, u feel. I’m very excited to finally rp this kid, ugh he’s so beautiful. I don’t even fuck with Got7 that much but Jaebum just works greatly and he’s my small son even though he could break me with his bicep but whatevs.

Ugh, I’m so excited to be here! (/ ‘з’)/

Under the cut you’ll get a “brief” look of his backstory (if you haven’t got the time to read my novel lmao. I do highly recommend it though for more details and such because I suck at summaries) plus some random facts cuz idk yooo

Also his name is technically Jérôme but I’m lazy af so I just write Jerome lol you can just write Jerome too lolol

Trigger Warning: Racism, Yellow Fever type ish, Bad Adoption and Violence kinda? (this shit heavy son :( )

First I want to clarify I’m Biracial (black/white) and I’ve suffered from some gross racist shit in the past but in no way am I trying to speak over Korean struggles regarding the topic. I tried to apply my own experiences to Jerome’s life like struggling with rejecting culture, European beauty standards, internalized colourism and just growing up not being able to talk to people going through the same stuff. My life hasn’t been as crazy as Jerome’s thank god but I just wanted to clarify before you dive into this or his biography. Wow, heavy. I’m sorry lol. Anyway, please enjoy my tiny son and I hope we’ll rp soon!

Mom got persuaded by her family to put him on adoption because she wasn’t married and dead beat dad just left her when it was discovered she was with child. He got adopted at the age of two by a Franco/Anglo couple who reside in France.

Adoptive parents have a bad case of the yellow fever.

Raised in France multilingual (French, English) Also Korean but when he got older he got really reluctant to it. Only when he met Marie he got into it again and then he went to Korea. So he would still make mistakes. 

He was named after his adoptive grandfather Jérôme Gauthier Senior and Leslie Cheung, the singer and actor. His birth name is Jeon Jun-Hoe. (but he doesn’t know his birth name)

When growing up he was often seen as “other” by classmates in a negative racist way and by his parents in a “positive” racist way. (note; positive in this sense doesn’t mean it was good for him, it was terrible for him. What I mean with “positive racism” is instead of viewing a race in a negative light (e.g. black people are all lazy) the subject is seen in a positive light that has negative connotations (e.g. Asian people are all hardworking). Even though hard working is a good attribute, it can cause negative feelings towards the person of that certain race. Fetishizing a culture or a race is never okay and in Jerome’s story he still bares the scars of it. 

Finally didn’t feel like an other when he met his now best friend Freddy who introduced him to his own friends.

Got into Hiphop mostly because of his friend Freddy but started songwriting a year before that. (Outkast is his shit bro)

Started a hiphop trio with Freddy and another friend Khaled called Blanc.

People loved them tbh they were great.

Hiphop gave his life a purpose. An outlet if you will. He was quite the emo little shit when he was younger. (and understandably so. :( my son.)

Had a lot of fights w/ his parents.

Lived with his grandpa for awhile when he couldn’t bare to be in the same room as his parents, let alone the same house.

Eventually moved to Paris to pursue higher education.

Met the love of his life there. (Y O G A P A N T S) 

It was awkward but great.

Marie aka the love of his life went to the same school as him and they dated for a long time before she eventually cheated on him.

Before she cheated on him though she helped him accept his Korean heritage (something his parents stripped away from him due to them forcing it upon him.) 

Went to New York in the summer of 2012 and got offered a job at a major record label when the CEO heard his lyrics. 

His girlfriend cheated on him during that time and found out a few months later after he returned to France. Almost beat the shit out of the dude who she cheated on him with.

Got expelled from school because of that fight. (parents blamed the “violent” rap music) and because life felt meaningless in Paris. He grabbed his bags and moved to Seoul to work under the record label.

Asked his adoptive parents for his adoption papers in that time because he couldn’t find his birth parents without them. Parents basically refused and he just fell head first in work to forget that. He also drank a lot sometimes but only when stress got to him.

Eventually changed companies to write under BC Entertainment before they signed him to BCreate. (his honey voice was too much for KBC lmao no but really though)

Ex girlfriend made an appearance during his debut years. (*writes connection form ;)*) got like really emo and savage during that time. 

Now that he got moved to just the regular BC Entertainment he’s really nervous about the past haunting him. With more fame more eyes are on him and just one slip up could ruin his career. Having almost beaten someone up is a great first scandal. Misogynistic words to his ex is another (I mean he called her a whore tho. like boi.) and being adopted ? oh boi. my poor son. 

PLS LOVE HIM HE NEEDS LOVE HE’S SO EMO DON’T LET HIS FUCKBOY AESTHETIC FOOL YOU ITS JUST PROTECTION. HE HAS DEMONS. PLS HOLD HIM.

Random facts!

I actually got inspired to write Jerome because I was struggling between Jooheon or Namjoon and I randomly started adding on an old muse of mine. 

Is connected to another muse of mine on my indie blog lol I’m like the Disney Channel I like to crossovers.

He has two tattoo’s, one on his right hip of a French Cavalry pistol because his grandfather had one in his antique shop *nudity warning* [x] [x] the model is Julian Schratter btw love him he’s great. And one which I’m still musing about. 

Dyed his hair pink to show support for female rappers as he’s now a producer/judge on Show Me The Money 6. You would think with his fuckboy image he’d be misogynistic but no women are great and he wants more women in the hiphop scene. His princesses are Jessi and Cheetah and his queen is Yoon Mirae tbh. He gets so excited when he hears good female rappers. 

Has a Oriental Short Hair as cat. Her name is Edith or Edi named after Edith Piaf, his grandfathers favourite singer. (here is how I see her [x] its a video) She’s like his true wife. If you ever catch him with her you might be confused at how cute Jerome suddenly is.

Looks down on idol rappers a lot. Not all of them (he’d be cool with rappers like Zico, Rap Monster, etc.), but just the manufactured ones. You know the ones that couldn’t sing so they debuted as a rapper, know nothing about hip hop. Those ones. Hiphop saved him in a way and to see pretty boys disrespect the art like that just rubs him the wrong way. He’s pretty vocal about it too and yo fans of groups drag him for it lol. It’s great I love it. 

The Weeknd is his favourite artist of this time. Like he has that image he tries to emulate. 

Is actually pretty sweet though. Like Marie and his parents fucked him up and with stress consuming him he’s kinda distant but get him comfortable and he’s a really kind soul. The kind of type to have you lay on his lap whilst you rant about your problems and he just listens.

Hates when foreign fans call him “oppa” like boi he will come for you. He once almost called out a girl doing that at the airport. He eventually just “tsk’ed” her as he walked to his car lol. Jerome is my idol. I’m srry KBC He’s not an idol he has a hard time controlling himself.

Has troubles dating so he doesn’t date at all. Like he really needs to fall for you to get him to start a relationship again but lol trust issues and a fucked up view of love kinda ruins him as a partner. I mean if your muse wanna try be my guest but GOOD LUCK lol.

Never dated a guy before because he only realized he was kinda bi when he was 19 and at the time he was in a relationship. And after that ended he went to Korea. So he only ever fucked with girls.

The story behind his “bi discovery” was thanks to the land of the free *eagle screeches in the background* basically he saw a guy and he was like “wow... ? what ?? okay.. ? you’re cute in like a ‘let me hold you and give you kisses’ kinda way ?? but you’re a dude?? o ?” but he never acted upon shit obviously. (COUGH ITS A PLOT COUGH) In hindsight he wishes he did something so he could’ve been like “I CHEATED ON YOU TOO YOU BITCH” but he’s a faithful boi. 

Hates liars. Please don’t lie to him. This isn’t for his sake but for your muses sake lmao he’s awful when he finds out. He holds a grudge.

Has a real bad self image due to years of racism thrown at him. Like complimenting him is like poison to him. Compliment his work not his looks. 

Contrary to popular belief, he doesn’t really sleep around a lot. His last sexual partner was probably before his debut tbh. 

Donates to the orphanage he was from secretly because he cares a lot. If the fame ever runs out he’d probably end up working there. 

Dig hard enough on youtube and you’ll find his old youtube channel where he uploaded covers and original songs together with Khaled and Freddy. It’s really nice. He seemed happy.

Is very suffocating when he cares. Like when he really likes you he’ll REALLY like you. You feel me? (he hasn’t learned from Marie because he never asked why she cheated on him? So IF he eventually becomes close to someone again, he might find himself in the same situation. C R I E S.)

eh eh do i know more little facts? idk it’ll be in his profile when I finally get around to making it (i had a whole week but suddenly everything happened in that week so i couldnt do it. but it’ll be up soon *nodnod*

Okay that’s it for now. Again. I CAN’T WAIT TO RP WITH Y’ALL I hope you’ll enjoy my muse <3

[herkingdomcome]

all the odd numbers :|

honest meme // accepting only the even numbers apparently

What would prevent you from following someone?

Well immediately if they have no rules then I won’t follow unless they’re someone I know or follow on another blog. For oc’s no bio. And if both of those things are there then I really look at the mun’s vibe in the rules. If they post call outs a lot and things like that then I’m not here for it. If I read some of their writing and it feels like we won’t mesh then I won’t follow. 

What current rp trend do you hate?

Uuuuuh I dunno, I’m not a fan of like the super tiny stuff or when the links mesh into the blog to the point where I have to go full Nancy Drew to find them. Or like the super aesthetic writing because sometimes that can be really hard for me to read. But yeah tbh I don’t care much about trends as long as shit is readable and accessible like do whatever makes you happy lol.

Do you prefer interacting with male muses or female more? Why?

I genuinely don’t have a preference. I think all muses can bring something unique and fun to the table regardless of how they identify :3

What’s your opinion on call out posts?

They suck ass. While I do think some can be necessary like warning people about someone who is predatory and genuinely harmful, I think there was a minute there where it just became a way to bitch about people you didn’t get along with. I had one done about me, though it was more of a long vague, but it was like four paragraphs saying I was ungrateful literally because I politely let them know that I wasn’t sure how to reply to their starter but I’d still be happy to write with them. Which was just such a shitty feeling. So really I think a lot of them are just unnecessary. But I am okay with the ones that come with genuine warnings because we all know tumblr won’t do fuck all about reported people lmao.

What is your opinion on exclusivity? Do you practice it? Why / why not?

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with it. Some of my muses just connect so deeply to another one that writing with a duplicate would just feel wrong. It does kind of suck in smaller fandoms. Like I had a muse I wanted to write and legit most of the blogs I found in that fandom were exclusive with the same one of that muse and it was really unwelcoming. But at the same time I can’t fault anyone for doing what they want to make their experience the most fun it can be!

What do you know now about rp that you wish you knew when you first started?

This is a weirdly hard question… I guess…I dunno I can’t remember specifically but I was told by an ex friend all of these etiquette things that really were just kinda bullshit. So it made my initial experience kinda stressful. Sooo yeah I’d just wanna know that it’s not so uptight and rigid lmao.

Have you ever thought about leaving rp? What caused it? What changed your mind?

I actually did leave for a while. Someone decided to be really horrible to me because I wasn’t smiley and friendly to them after they’d mugged me off. That whole experience was so painful and stressful that I couldn’t open tumblr without feeling like I couldn’t breathe. So I left. It wasn’t fun and I no longer felt safe. And it was the best decision I could have made because when I did come back it was on my terms, there was no pressure, and I felt a lot better. I did end up having to leave again though because of real world stuff and I did’t know if I’d be able to come back which sucked. But I was able to and honestly I’m happier than ever and feeling so much better about being here :3 ( mostly thanks to @manichaeisms who’s the fucking best even tho she sent me all of these which is rude af )

How has rp changed you personally?

I don’t know. I mean I think it’s given me a good outlet and space to explore which has made me a happier person. Especially when my mom passed away, the whole world felt broken, but I had a place to turn which was really important. And now it’s still a really good outlet because my life is so weird and I don’t get out much but I have such a lovely place to turn and it’s given me the chance to meet quite a few wonderful people. So yeah, happier, it’s made me happier lol. 

Have you ever sent a message to yourself on anon? Why?

Nah, I can’t even really imagine doing something like that. Plus I think if I did do it I’d then just be so panicked that someone would find out it would just be a stressful ordeal. And like…so embarrassing?? I dunno, seems like a silly thing to do lmao.

Do you delete anon hate or post and address it? Why?

Well thus far I’ve actually been quite lucky not to receive very much. I can’t remember what the first time I got some was, but I’ll never forget someone being a dick to me because I said Lev Grossman isn’t great at writing people. Even though I did say he was great at world building. So I did reply to that mostly because it was like just so ridiculous. And then they forgot to hit anon on their last message and outed themselves which frankly was funny karma. So I guess if it’s something that’s not like just cruel hate I’d probably post and address it. As for cruel hate I’d like to think I would delete it but I guess I won’t really know until faced with it.

Have you ever followed someone because you felt like you had to, not because you wanted to?

Kind of? I mean if it’s a small fandom and I’m writing a main character from it then I’m more likely to follow. But I’m not like that anymore. If I followed you or followed you back it’s because I have a genuine interest in writing with you.

Have you ever stolen something from someone else?

Absolutely not. I’ve had little things taken and that felt like shit I can’t imagine doing that to someone. It’s a shitty practice and I just don’t understand people who do it tbh.

Are you open to duplicates? Why / why not?

I absolutely am! I completely understand why people feel insecure with them, and even I do sometimes as well. But I think it’s so rad how so many people can write the same muse and still bring something different to the table. And I’m 110% here for twin au’s and shit like that because it’s just fun to bond with someone over their good taste.

Do you follow people even if they don’t follow you back?

For a bit. But like I take not following back as a sign that they don’t wanna write with me which it totally fine. I’ll unfollow though because I’m not writing with them which like I would assume people would do the same with me as well so it’s not a big deal at the end of the day.

What is your opinion on “reblog karma” and do you practice it?

I have pretty mixed feelings about it. Personally I believe that if you can send in a meme then you should if you’re gonna reblog it. Otherwise just reblog it from the source. But also it’s not like I’ll unfollow or freak out if someone doesn’t send it in. Though I do follow that, if I can send it in then I will. 

Is there something you don’t know the meaning of but you haven’t asked anyone because you think it’s supposed to be general knowledge? Was there ever something you had to ask someone to explain?

I’m sure there has been but I can’t think of it rn. Most rp terms my friend kind of just laid out for me in the beginning so I wasn’t too lost. And google usually has my back as well. But since nothing has happened super recently I don’t have a proper example lol.

How do you feel about personal blogs following your rp blog?

I don’t love it. But I’ll usually just soft block and move on. It’s nothing against personals, they just don’t know the etiquette usually, and also don’t necessarily think to look at rules or anything like that because most personals don’t have rules the way rp blogs do.

Do you read other people’s threads or do you only read your own?

Sometimes I read other people’s but not all the time cause keeping track of my own threads is hard enough with trying to keep track of other’s to see what’s going on lmao.

How do you feel about tagging triggers? Do you tag them? How do you determine what is triggering content and what isn’t?

I think it’s great. I do my best to tag them but I also don’t think I post too much that’s triggering. The only things I won’t tag are ones that are common to my muse. Like alcohol and drugs wouldn’t get tagged because it’s something that a muse partakes in. But again, I’m not reblogging stuff like that very often. And if someone asked me to tag something specific that doesn’t appear often and I missed then I will happily do my best to do so and remember in the future that someone needs it tagged.

[ask-the-best-baldi-basics]

May I rp with ya?

[ you sure can!!