#i pray they look better on pc but I don't have a lot of hope

[mango-ti]

Why did no one tell me Tumblr absolutely destroys the image quality on my art

[heartsremedy]

Date?

September 15

Beetlejuice 2 was already showing when I saw its trailer. I sent it to him last Saturday and I got a reply. He said he wants to watch it but he's scared haha cuz he be reading a lot of online reviews before he watches the movie that's he's usual thing every time he wants to watch movies. So I told him lets watch it together when we have free time from work. He immediately said yes and he's excited.

It was actually me who initiated the movie date, I guess? Oh Lord, the things I'd do for Doni. Haaaayyy. Honestly it was my first time asking someone out. Its meee, huhu I initiated a date? Almighty Cristalyn? Egoistic Lhing? Yeah damn it not so lady-like but yeah it was me.

It will be our first date ever... i think? I don't know! HAHAHAHA. He's excited, me too but I'm nervous i dont know why but i had a feeling 3days before 14th. FYI!!!! He's the only guy bestfriend that i can date others? ugh.. nope.

We've been bestloverfriendsenemy for 3years and we both love Tim Burton's movies (the only similarity we have) thats why i decided to come with me and watch it. We have difference and disagreements most of the times. We are Black/White, Good/Bad, Cat/Dog, Husband/Wife and Ying&Yang you can't say the word partners if the other half is missing.

We were supposed to go out yesterday 14SEP2024 but due to our problems at work (internet) we decided to reschedule it cuz we both know its not gonna be a quick fix. So yeah we stayed late til we fix 5th office.

As I was shutting down everyone's pc my curiosity was bothering me so much that i cant help but read messages.

I hope he won't get me wrong, out of curiosity I checked his and his ex conversations on skype. I don't know if that was curiosity or my instinct screaming so loud at me if there's something in there: I wanna save you Lhing. I looked at it and read it, if I'm gonna read it like how my mind wants to read it the sweetness was still there but if I read it like i don't care its still sweet. I know it was jealousy, but I'm okay. I'll get by, I told him its okay to still keep in touch. I can feel the crack in my heart is getting longer.. I know there's a lot of sweet conversation that I haven't seen or read yet cuz i know they still treat each other boyfriend-girlfriend because of the baby dog planning to go out and whatever health problems they have.

I hope this time he better be not lying to me.. I may not destroy them both in front of everyone but I'll be praying so hard and make them both feel the pain I've felt thrice and even add it to their life tribulation.

[thecuriouseyes]

2024 (To The Fools who Dream)

Today, I got up at 5am. I ran 10km. I got home, grabbed breakfast, and then I showered. Sit down in front of my PC and Code for 3 hours. Took a little break, and I continued with designing. Had lunch, and I prayed. Sit down and study Dutch. Now it's 4am. I've prayed again. Tonight, I'd like to clear my mind off a little bit before I do it all over again tomorrow. 

Yeah, that's pretty much how I started 2024. Not too bad, I guess. I hated it in reality, but I cannot neglect it. It is a must for me to maintain discipline

My life is about to change.

So you're wondering where those gifs are from? Those are from a film called Tenet. It's quite a film, should I say. Not really my favorite film, but that bit up there? That's my favorite part.

No more New Year's resolutions for me. I'm done. Today (well, 3 days ago), I decided to restart my whole life. I wanted to write it on day 1, but the beginning is always the hardest. I'm trying to get the hang of it again, like I was back then, still full of hopes and dreams. So it feels foreign, and it turned out to be very challenging for me to maintain a desirable pace.

*Yeah, that's me. This morning, I decided to write down the numbers on my palm instead of putting them on my phone or PC. Those things distract me a lot. It's better for me to just look at my working hand. * 

Actually, I said I'm restarting my whole life but, the routine I'm doing right now? It isn't new. I started doing it last year September. After many heartbreaks, I decided to stand up again. As always, the beginning is always the hardest

"So what's up with the whole life restart?" This is probably what you guys are asking. I'm not happy with my current performance. I feel too sloppy and stagnant. It changes so little, and it made me upset. I've been doing it for quite some time. I just wanted to push myself a lot more.

I started doing mental training, memorizing, and number crunching. I can't just work on my body; my mind needs to work as well. I think I get the hang of it. I can memorize a lot better now, and my mind can operate a lot better. I used to zone out a lot, but it's been a lot less lately. I think this is good. Which means I'm starting to live in the moment. No longer do I dwell on the future and the past. It's okay to think about the future once in a while, and it's also okay to reminisce about the past. Just don't overdo it. It'll make you restless.

I had a weird dream last night. I found myself staring at me when I was a lot younger. He was just looking at me, not saying a single word. One thing is crystal clear. He looks disappointed. I got up and noticed the call to morning prayers.

Heh... I must have been thinking about myself too much. My old self. Yeah, you, Jade, that young, daring teenager with much passion and determination in his eyes. You would have challenged the whole world bare-handed. Where did it go wrong? I miss you, and I miss me. So let me do it right this time. Let me just... make peace with you, and let's try and get our lives back together.

That's why I think that Tenet gif sorta fits what I'm feeling right now. I'm just imagining the two characters as me. Talking to myself. The old me is just that, an old distant memory. Once I'm out there, leaving this place. It's a new life a new beginning. For the old me, it is the end of a beautiful friendship. The current me, it's just the beginning.

I wanted to write this once I'm out of here. I thought that it would be more meaningful, but I do not know what the future holds, and I would rather just live in this moment. I want to write what I feel. There are so many things I wanted to write here, but I'll share them with you all some other time.

I started talking with someone. Now my life is in full motion. I do not know where "this" will go. I promised this someone a lot of things. So I'm going to try my best. This too; I'll tell you some other time.

One last message for myself.

I'm getting there again, kiddo, don't you worry. Just like the old times, I started swinging both my fists again. I will not lose this time. For now, I have to let you go. I'll see you in the beginning.

To all the fools who dreams. The world cannot stop us. The world will never take our hearts!

I do not know how to end this.. I guess I'll end it by saying..

Peace.

[tomura-complex]

hi there! would you mind to write some headcanons about shigaraki and reader?

A/N: Sure, no problem :)) Hope you like it <3 And I'm sorry it took me so long TwT

Pairing: Shigaraki x fem!reader

Warning: ✨Horny Shigaraki✨ (that's all I have to say)

SFW headcanons

You are the only person, that can see his soft side

He likes being dominated, when you're alone

Just take care of him, pray him, bath him, cook him food, make him drinks, cuddle him, make him your baby and he will be melting

First time you took care of him, he started crying and he fell really strange, but he loved it

He is touch starved af, so after your first cuddles he became clingy

He's not experienced in this kind of things

So first kiss is really awkward and rough

But he learns quickly

At first he's scared to touch you

After some time he will be always touching you, he can't stop it, don't blame him

When you are around other people he will be always by your side

He likes to make you embarrassed in front of everyone, cause you're cute

He is overprotective

If someone looks at you with bad expression, you will never see him again

He doesn't send you on missions, cause he is scared, that you will get injured

At first he didn't want to sleep with you in one bed

He has a lot of nightmares and he's afraid, that he will hurt you in his sleep

When you finally started sleeping together in one bed, he must tell you one secret

He likes falling asleep while is Minecraft music playing (it's so relaxing :3)

He has a really good memory

He likes giving you gifts, you mention about some manga? Boom, next morning it will be laying on the table next to your bed

He will always secretly checks, if you enjoy your gifts

He is jealous, like a lot

He will get mad, if he sees you talking with another guy

When you're not paying attention to him, he will fake an injury, so you must take care of him

He loves playing games with you, especially, when you sit in his lap

He loves snuggling in your chest, he always feels safe

He is really insecure

He is scared of you leaving

He will give you everything and he will do whatever you want, so you won't leave

NSFW headcanons

He is a switch

First time he was shy and didn't want to undress in front of you, because of scars

He is... He is BIG (like 8 inches)

He is a virgin

When he first saw your chest, he was hypnotized

He loves groping your breasts

First time, you must learn him everything

After your first time, you couldn't walk for three days

He have a big amount of porn in his PC, but in reality he can't do anything

Sometimes he can be rough, but mostly he is gentle and caring while doing it

He always asks you, if you're okay with anything

He likes to try new things

So you two find out, that you became an openly kinky couple

Every evening he asks you about something and asks you, if you can try it in bed

If you delete the leader site, you will have a kinky, horny teenager, that can't get enough of you

After your first time, when he gets in the mood, he just drags you in your room, he doesn't care about some meeting or a little mission

He loves overstimulating you, you always look so cute, when you can't even use your brain properly

He has a mommy kink (that includes pegging too :>)

He loves marking you, because you're only his and he wants everyone to know it

He loves choking you, you look so beautiful with his hands around your throat

He loves face sitting and if you have big ass it's even better! He loves it that much, that if he drowned in your juices, he would be so fcking happy

He has a big amount of his semen, you can't blame him

He loves seeing you with his kids semen on your face, breasts, tummy or everywhere else

He loves breeding, you just look so cute, when you're full of his love

So here it is, hope you like it <3

[kazumaple]

can i request a cute? maybe steamy? optional bias scenario where theyre gamers hehe ur writing is v cute btw! <3

cherry ♥ optional bias

description: gamer!au, highschool!au, enemies!au word count: approx 1.6k (1,597) warnings: mentions of food, cursing.

i'm glad you like it! thanks for the request.

(p.s: clicky switch enjoyers please don’t hate me/hj)

link to masterlist. click here to make a request!

sighing in frustration, you gripped the steel bars of the door to the pc room, hoping to relieve some stress from the day through your favourite game.

it had been a rough day, with three tests to sit, and frankly, you didn't think you did particularly well on any of them, despite the hours of intense studying you had done in preparation.

the one thing that would make every thing worse was seeing him.

you prayed that for some reason he was busy, or was unable to attend today, but no. there he sat, eyes trained on the screen, focussed on winning his game. his usual smug smile gone, replaced with a serious scowl, you could only assume he was losing said game.

you took your usual seat, adjacent to his, and turned on the pc.

just as you did, he let out an anguished scream.

"can you shut up," you requested, "i'm not having the best day, and hearing your voice makes it a whole lot worse."

"the world doesn't revolve around you, so suck it." he retorted, not even sparing a glance at you.

the nerve on this guy. you thought.

"i can't deal with this today, just be a nice person for once, i'm sure everyone would appreciate it."

"excuse me?" he sat back in shock, looking at you for the first time, “you were the one telling me to shut up seconds ago, so don't try to lecture me about being nice."

just as you were about to say something in response, you stopped yourself, getting out your headset from your bag and choosing to use games as the outlet for your anger instead of him.

he was stupid anyway, there was no point in arguing.

rolling your eyes at him one last time, you focussed on the game.

---

the next day, you assumed it would be better.

and for a while, it was.

you had your favourite breakfast, picked out a hairstyle that you thought was cute, and managed to finish all of the homework you had the night before.

but, the universe chose violence today.

because when your teacher walked in that morning, they brought devastating news.

"students!" they shouted, "we have someone new today. his name is h/n."

at the sound of his name, your eyes perked immediately to the front of the classroom. usually, you didn't care about new students. but, this time, you had no choice. because there he was, in all his glory, l/n h/n. and for some reason, he looked disgustingly good in the school uniform.

banging your head on the desk, you screamed internally.

what did i do to deserve this? whatever, i can ignore him during class.

unfortunately for you, however, you could not ignore him during class. because the teacher had decided to sit him next to you.

"wait, how do i do this question?" he whispered.

"i don't know," you lied, "i wasn't even listening just now."

frowning at you, he gave up. he had reluctantly been making contact with you to grasp the lesson more, but you weren't of any use.

soon enough, it was lunch time.

joyfully, you grabbed your food and made your way to the lunch hall. finally, you would get the much-desired alone-time you had deserved. sitting with h/n was tiring, due to his constant questions. you hated hearing his voice even briefly in the pc room, it was unbearable at school. how were you going to last with him sitting next to you for the rest of the school year?

running a hand through your hair, you opened your lunch to find a sandwich and a container of cherries.

you plopped one of the cherries in your mouth, savouring the explosion of flavour on your tastebuds.

you noticed how when you picked one up, it had left its red juice on your finger, as a reminder of the warm feeling you had when eating it.

just as you were about to bite into another, you heard a deep thud.

looking up, you were met with the annoyingly chocolatey-brown eyes of h/n.

"why are you here?" you asked, ready to snap at him.

"i have literally no friends here, where else would i sit?"

"you had like 10 million girls throwing heart eyes at you when you arrived, i'm sure they'd enjoy your presence."

he was genuinely taken aback, "i did?"

"yeah, you did. do you not have the capacity to interpret social queues?"

"no i just," he whispered, embarrassed, "never really had that many people like me that way before."

"likewise," you snorted, "now, let me eat my lunch in peace."

and he did as you asked.

the two of you sat, in dead silence, eating your food. anything you may have said would have been drowned out by the loudness of the rest of the students anyways, so, it was best not to make conversation.

after concluding your meal, you wordlessly left him and went to the bathroom.

"where are you going?" he stopped you.

"the jungle."

and you left.

your trip to the bathroom was as usual. until it was not.

two girls came up to you, hands on their hips. it was quite amusing, actually, they looked like monkeys.

"what's with you and the new kid?" one of them questioned.

you started at them blankly. were they serious? this wasn't some kdrama, they couldn't stop you from spending time with him.

well, it's not like you wanted to anyways.

you tried to leave, but they stopped you.

"you sit alone until today, but when h/n comes you act all nice?"

"listen here you bit-"

you were about to teach them a lesson when you heard a familiar voice calling out your name.

"y/n- oh hey." he greeted, sheepishly, "i need your help, where's the biology room? i don't know my way around school yet-"

"i'll show you." you replied, begrudgingly.

great, now these stupid girls thought you and h/n had something going on. how could they have it so backwards?

you grabbed his arm roughly, already fuming in anger as you strutted down the halls, leading him to the biology classroom.

"there? you happy now?"

"um- yeah?" he tilted his head in confusion, "so uh, why are you so angry all of a sudden?"

"i don't want to talk about it." you grit you teeth.

"alright." h/n squeaked.

the rest of the day was fine, h/n didn't try to talk to you once, which was nice. not having to deal with him certainly brought down your stress levels. maybe you had scared him off with the anger.

you sat in class, extremely bored, waiting for the bell to ring so that you could finally evacuate this stupid school building and head to the pc room, your current safe haven.

sure, h/n was there, but at least, if you put on headphones, you could ignore him.

and there it was, the glorious sound of the bell.

it was like the sound of victory when you won a race in kart rider, and it was like the sensation when you had finally defeated that one annoying opponent in overwatch.

it felt like freedom. and frankly, that's exactly what it was.

getting up from your seat excitedly, you speed-walked in the direction of the pc room, longing to play the games you had yearned for during the course of the tiring school day.

hearing something shuffle behind you, you tensed.

was something there? you couldn't help but wonder.

slyly pretending to have dropped something, you took a glance behind you as you bent to pick it up, finding only h/n.

wait, h/n?

"why are you following me?" you interrogated.

"following you? i think you've forgotten we share the exact same evening routine."

oh, right.

sighing in defeat, you walked beside him this time, hoping that if there actually was anyone following you, he would be kind enough to help you if there was a crisis.

and what seemed like hours of walking, you had finally arrived.

rushing to your spot, you turned on the pc, wanting to escape from this reality as fast as possible. but unfortunately, h/n was apparently determined to ruin your day.

"play games with me."

you couldn't believe your ears.

"y-you want me to what?" you sat back in shock.

"you heard me."

you shook your head in disbelief, "look here, just because i put up with you for a day doesn't mean we're friends or anything-"

"no, it's not that, you narcissist, i'm bored, play games with me."

"no."

"y/n, please." he begged.

you looked into his eyes. you didn't know why, but he looked strangely cute? no. that couldn't be. you found him repulsive, right?

"fine," you begrudgingly agreed, "just this one time."

he smiled in delight and dragged you over to his pc.

you joined the game, and it was surprisingly more fun than you had thought.

you heard him laugh for the first time, which was new, but strange. strange in a good way, somehow.

"you're not so bad when you're not being a dickhead." you admitted.

"shut the fuck up and play your game."

"how can i when you use cherry mx blues?"

he turned in his chair.

"are you insulting my switches?" he choked, mouth agape.

"yes," you acknowledged, "mx blues are trash, use a good switch like a linear? have you ever heard of nk creams? gateron ink blacks? mx browns even??"

he looked as if you had just hurt him in the worst way possible, which, you really had.

"i'm not talking to you anymore."

you laughed at him warmly. the more time you spent with him, the nicer he seemed to get. and if that was true, you'd be willing to spend all the time in the world with him.

[angrelysimpping]

LIs react to Whitney/bullies beating up the PC badly and them being hospitalized, maybe even broken bones. I wonder how they'd take care of the PC or deal with their bullies.

Alex wants you to stay at the cottage. They're more than capable of keeping you there by force. It's for your protection! They can't have you getting hurt like that again. They can't!

Avery is initially upset with you. They don't know why you're avoiding them. Then, they see you walking around town with crutches and they understand. And they're furious. You're Avery's trophy and someone broke you. They're borderline interrogating you about who hurt you. They don't want you hanging around culprit, obviously. You avoid that person, all right? Avery will drive you to and from school so you don't have to worry about that.

Hope you're okay with Eden keeping you in the cabin for the rest of forever. They let you go to town, and look what happened! You ended up in the fucking hospital! Do you know what it was like, knowing you were in there and all Eden could do was wait? They're never going to let that happen again and the easiest way to ensure that is to keep you from going into town. Also, whoever hurt you better watch their fucking back.

Kylar's in hysterics. The only reason whoever put you in the hospital isn't also in the hospital is because Kylar doesn't want to leave your side. You thought Kylar followed you around a lot before? You haven't seen anything yet.

Robin is just as bad as Kylar in staying right next to you. They don't want to be away from you for any reason. Takes care of you as much as possible. Will try to keep the person who hurt you away from you as much as they can.

Sydney is finding a way to visit you once a day without neglecting any of their other duties. Has people at the temple pray for you. Whoever put you in the hospital is never going to be able to use the library again.

If Whitney is the reason you're in the hospital, they refuse to show concern. They say you deserved it, that you had been acting up and that they needed to put you in your place. They then sneak into the hospital at night to visit you. They hate the hospital but fuck man, they didn't mean for this to happen. They really didn't. If Whitney's father is an abusive asshole, Whitney is freaking out about how much like their father they are. If Whitney isn't the reason you're in the hospital, then Whitney is on the warpath. You're their toy, no one else can hurt you. Whoever put you in the hospital is going to join you there, soon.

[nctwlove]

𝐀𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐏𝐂 𝐖𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐗𝐢𝐚𝐨𝐣𝐮𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐘𝐚𝐧𝐟𝐞𝐢!

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓.

"I'm bringing out the stuff." Xiaojun said, picking up the dismantled PC parts and placing them on the floor. "Wow, I finally took it out." He took a deep breath and looked at Yanfei, who was sitting on his bed playing with Bella. "Thanks for the help, Mei Mei." Xiaojun said, teasing her, a little jealous to see Bella with her. "Your welcome, Ben Ben."

"So guys, I have to record in an hour, Mei Mei will stay with Bella for the afternoon and help me set this up quickly." Dejun was sitting on the floor with Yanfei beside him, the two of them looked at the camera and began to mount the PC. "Have you ever done this before?" Yanfei asked him, picking up a piece and throwing it up, catching it in the air. "Of course, I've done this several times, but I don't quite remember how to start..." Yanfei sighed and looked at Bella who was lying on the bed. "Is that what you call a father?"

"Come on, baby!" Xiaojun unpacked the parts and opened the main part of the PC. "You are so beautiful." Yanfei was pretending to tidy something up while looking at him. "Ben Ben, she's not your girlfriend." Yanfei said, teasing him, making Xiaojun pick up a tool and approach Yanfei, pretending to attack her. "Don't you dare talk about my girl." "...I'll kill you."

—

"Okay, I got back home after recording, I moved the computer to the desk. I was sitting for a long time so my back hurts a lot." Xiaojun was standing in front of the desk where the computer was, as Yanfei walked into the room holding Bella in her arms. "Bella told me she thinks I'm a better father than you." Yanfei carefully placed the dog on the ground and looked at Xiaojun, touching his nose with her finger. "Bop." – "You dream of being a better father than me."

( One day later. )

"Okay! I spent the half of the day assembling it, Mei Mei are here again, I think I assamble all the parts I have. Thers's still a lot of left to connect though, I'll turn on the power first, and press the power button, It won't explode right?" Xiaojun said, holding the camera and looking at Yanfei then she pulled away and took cover behind a pillow. "Mei Mei, don't you trust in my abilities?" "I don'tknow.."

"I hope everything functions properly, so Mei Mei and I are not going to die, let's pray. Come on." Xiaojun held Yanfei in his lap pulling her out of bed while the girl tried to run away, he put her on the ground beside him so they could turn on the computer on. "Look Mei Mei, the light of the main board is on, where's the button..." Xiaojun pressed the button and counted to three with Yanfei, when the computer turned on and didn't explode, they were very happy. "Wow, Ben Ben we did it." yelled Yanfei, making a "🤜🤛" with Xiaojun.

—

"Okay guys, I'm going to finish my vlog assembling a PC, I need to go after Mei Mei because she kidnapped Bella."

[jennibeultimate]

Personal recap Worlds 2021 - Ladies FS

And of course I am doing one for the ladies. I am just fuming with anger right now. So this might get harsh and salty. Just a warning. I go down from place 1.

I like Anna's skating and musicality and I am actually glad that even if this was neither her best performance nor a performance that touched me it was still the best of those Russians on the podium. If Trusova would have won with her skates I would be even more mad. So congrats little fairy you did it. ❤️ She is a sweet person and she deserves the world. The scoring is not in the skaters hands, but her scoring was...a choice but still a lot more reasonable than Trusova's....

Liza's story is amazing. Just from this point of view it's an amazing achievement. A rolemodel for all figure skaters that they have a chance after their puberty. Her tears when she found out she won over Trusova touched me. So congratulations from the bottom of my heart. 🎉 BUT this was not a silver medal winners performance. Too many mistakes, too little program. One 3A was fantastic but the rest was so and so. I am glad she got ahead of Trusova but it's not a performance I would remember and 69 PCS is questionable at best, compared to Loena, Kaori and Karen it's not right.

Alexandra Trusova...where to start? It would be called a major downmelt if she wouldn't jump quads. Her TES shoot her up high and looking at the protocol technically calls look ok, I would have lowered some GOEs but the TES are hardly my problem. The PCS are atrocious. There was no choreography, no interpretation, nothing left of what seemed to be improvements in the SP in the season. The PCS were way too high. 10 points should go down at least. 56 was what Eva Lotta got and sorry this was worse than her by a lot. And I am sure without quads and without being from Russia, she wouldn't have gotten those PCS. And that's my big fat problem. This was rigged and corrupted PCS scoring at its best. And this program won the free skate??? Wtf. If that's the future I won't watch skating any longer...nothing against Trusova herself but judges are setting the wrong example here. And no I cannot say congrats from my heart because I would have not put her on the podium. It's clear she also benefitted from a lot of the last group skaters not doing well and her high PCS from the SP. I mean everyone trains hard, so not deserved would be wrong to say but just I am not good with this. So still...

Congratulations to the medalists! You fought hard!

Karen Chen is probably the most underestimated of this competition. She came through with two beautiful programs and showed everyone that she was the right choice for this team. I can only applaud👏👏👏 She was imo robbed of the Bronze here. Her PCS are too low compared to Trusova and Liza and others. 4th place is still a very good result for her and saves USA 3 spots for teh Olympics. (wouldn't it be the biggest joke if ladies have 3 spots but the men don't? Not that I wish for it but that's a still a possibility) Her spirals are just A+! 😍 One of the only programs of today worth rewatching.

Loena Hendricks just did that!!! 🔥 🔥 🔥 🔥The underdog of this comp just did that! She was the best today. World champion material. Ofc others may have stronger technical content but the cleaness and presentation was the best of everyone today imo. Even if I am not even a big fan of the program but so well suited to her. Really happy for her. 😊

Kaori Sakamoto is the loser of the day. I am still fuming on Kaori's behalf. Yes there was a mistake and yes she has a Flutz but again if everyone gets a pass on edge calls so should Kaori. Edge calls seem only to exist for Kaori. 🙄 She was lowballed in PCS. An almost clean program and 1 point more PCS than the 2 falls skate of Trusova? Sure...🤮 I probably wouldn't fume so much about Trusova's PCS if others like Kaori and Loena would have scored in the 70s but no...admittedly I don't think this was the best version of Matrix...anyway Kaori deserved better. Love you Kaori! ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

Rika was extremely hard to watch. Heartbroken for her. 💔💔💔She seems to still deal with her ligament injury, still looking at the trainings I thought she would do well. I think not competing and being in such a good position to win this made it mentally tough on her here. I like this lovely program a lot but for today's program 69 PCS was friendly but not when I look at Trusova though...this were just a couple too much mistakes sadly. I hope she can rest well. She will come back stronger! ❤️

I am including Satoko here because she is the other heartbreak for me. 💔 Nothing worked. She was totally out of everything. She is such a magical skater. 63 PCS are just horrid for a skater of her caliber. Puh...I am sad...love you Satoko and happy birthday 🎂 ❤️

I am so heartbroken for Team Japan in general💔😭😭😭😭

Olga Mikutina was my surprise of this competition. When I watched her live at Euros 2020 she fell all over the place, this was such an improvement. Impressive! 👏👏👏Lovely! You got yourself a fan. 😍

Bradie Tennell - I read that her skates broke prior to the SP so that hindered her here. Still I think Bradie did fairly well but too many little errors that lowered TES and PCS are a big joke anyway. Normally I would say those PCS were fair but then we have Trusova and that's where the sense stops for me...

Haein Lee - she is a lovely skater. She is young but a very committed skater to presentation etc. I like her a lot. Not a bad result for a first World Championship. Ofc they were hoping for a 3rd spot but this wasn't a given from the start.

Yelim Kim - my other fairy just dropped a whole lot. 😭 Not much worked like usual. I am so sorry. Such a perfect SP and now this free skate to drop her even behind her teammate. Maybe she wanted too much starting in the last group? The pressure is huge. Haein Lee and Yelim Kim just have the best dresses of this competition! Korean ladies costumes are always A+++❤️ ❤️ ❤️

Lastly I just mention those I liked in the earlier groups:

Josefin Taljegard 🔥 🔥 🔥 She was on fire. Interpretation A+++ her skating and technical content in general are too low to be competitive but I would rather rewatch her a 1000 times than watch Trusova or some of today's other performances ever again. Also I would rather gladly take 24 programs with less technical content and performances like hers than this diaster free in general from today. In other words stan Josefin! ❤️

Eva Lotta Kiibus - her program is well made. Her technical content is good. Her costume is a dream. She can show more of her personality during the program but the basics are great. Love her. 😍

Lindsay Van Zundert - delivered again a wonderful clean program. Very positively surprised with this young lady. 😊

Overall this event was a disappointment. Scoring wise it should not have surprised me. Performance wise it was disappointing as well.

No not a competition worth rewatching. If this is the ladies figure skating of the future then I quit watching ladies. I hate the uneven apply of rules and the playing favorites of the Russians. And also JSF should finally start backing their skaters or Japan will drown in the end.

Sorry for the on going ranting about Trusova's PCS but this is the main problem for me why nothing of everyone else makes sense. And just a clarification, it's not against Trusova, it's the judging and the way this kind of skating gets more reward than ppl with actual programs. It must be disheartening for a lot of skaters.

Bye.

Praying for a better men free skate. 🙏

[madfantasy]

Dear Blogging

Hello, dears, been awhile. Hope this finds you well~

A lot have happened/ still happening, I think it's going to be a long one and probably be all over the place because God I'm sorely tired.

★-I was getting ready to leave drawing for a good chunk of time, a month was what I plan to spend away from everything that had to do with it— including social media. But luckily for drawing I found a mystifying ad that spoke directly to me. " Are you an artist that creates characters and uses digital media? Join this local contest that is looking for talents to support! And guess what! We added extra time just because we believe you can do more, people!". So you can imagine me slumped on my bed, in my worst cases ever, barely awake, eyes sore from lack of sleep raising slowly as I read and reread it to make sure it wasn't a mirage. Suddenly I had a reason to live, apparently.

So I spent the last 10 days drawing like Mad, I wasn't ready, I didn't have ideas and certainly wasn't in any fitting state to do anything. But time was running, alongside it was my motivation, thankfully. I desperately needed a new pc, a reliable one. I have a couple of hundred saved up from commissions but they are hardly enough to buy a better quality than the one I already have.

I even did this excuse of a portfolio that took me ages for the contest:

https://madfantasy.wixsite.com/portfolio

Eventually, I made this; my precious Qarqa'ah and his precious Ghalli.

I sent it and finally breathed deeply. Not until I reread their rules I was a bit concerned. They say the prize is a support plan for the winner, so there aren't any actual specifications. Besides that, by applying I give away the rights for my piece, they can do anything with it basically, and it has to meet their standards, etc. They said the judging will start next month and they'll contact me if I got qualified. If I did, another month of voting than after another to declare the winners. It's a fairly big contest..

Pray for me :'

★-I was feeling detached from Severus, the last drawing of him hugging Harry and crying was a direct junction from how I was feeling in general... And one can possibly say it could have acted as an end to my Sevy art, as a goodbye.. but happy to say it's not going to be. I wasn't able to draw him at all recently. And seeing my older art of him made it worse, to be honest. I was feeling I ruined him and constantly reading around that the fandom is dying, and not seeing my favorite people around anymore was solidifying that feeling. So trying hard to fix him and sharing sketches didn't seem to have a point anymore, considering it takes me so much time to make art and my speed can’t keep up.. not to mention my seemingly unprogressive artistic direction that keeps peering at me from every angle..

But I had a dream of Severus one day, as odd and incomprehensible as dreams can be, it was amazing to see him again. He was chewing gum, that all I can safely say 😹 I can't stress how weird it was, I woke up feeling like Alice in Wonderland. I love it.

I thought maybe I should visit him where I first met him, so I watched a play-through of HP 1 PS1, it was everything I ever loved. I reread the book, & was so happy to have felt exactly the same as the very first time I wanted to get to know Sevy. Even more thrilled that I started to draw him naturally on the side of reading, without even thinking. I have a habit of pausing to draw my reaction on things I read or draw the scene I liked itself. At that moment, nothing seems to matter but putting those wonderful words I just read into a viewable form.

This, this captured moment of timeless pleasure, this what matters to me. To make these little moments to vibrate as candles, lighting in a row, one by one along the pathway, uplifting and even musing the spirit to do anything, even just to dwell in the blissful nothing, away from what heavies the hearts. Even if nobody found it so, even me. I still want to make them.

Just for funsies, I like to show you how much construction lines I need on Sevy compared to the ones on Harrison, alot. Also, you can check those doodles and more I did last night  (here) 🙊

★-On a more silly note; I have matched my medical glasses to sunglass's general shape that I like to wear- round. I don't wear them unless I absolutely have to, so it was a bit of a surprising luxury to do so. I come to quickly find that red glasses frames are unbelievably rare, leaving alone that I wanted them round. So we settled on the lighter shade— pinkish gold.

The minute I wore them, Mother started to call me Harry Potter Harbi* (My last name*), which was amusing considering that I wore round shaped glasses all the time anyway— but not transparent.

The guy who made the lenses must have showered with his perfume before, because I couldn't get the scent out of my glasses, as if it was impeded in the frame. That fondly reminded me of the times I used to make sure to spray my perfume on a tissue and slide it into the file containing my drawings. Because my favorite person at the time did showered with her perfume and every time I got her file— when we secretly switched, and she noted it felt like I was actually there with her, it was nice. (We were in different schools and whatever)

Let us hope for the best, my thoughts always my dears, with you. And thank you.

Bless your days⭐

[time-is-standing]

day #8

this is exactly why I decided to make my tumblr.

yesterday and today I was feeling so bad, I had a mental breakdown (usually a few days before them I can't sleep, or if I can I have nightmares and dreams about a boy I lost a while ago - for several days)

I needed to go to the place I will work in next month because of some paperwork and I met one of my friends too. We drank coffee and talked about a lot of things, I was feeling a lot better. I came home with a bus that arrived here at about 13:45 and as I got off the bus I met an old friend who I sometimes talk to but only in person. We talked for more than an hour before I left, and I was really happy about it.

When I got home I felt so much worse I can't even describe with words. I laid down in bed and did absolutely nothing for two hours straight.

After that I forced myself to go to the nearest village to meet my other friend who studies in the capital (2 hours away, so we see each other very rarely) and her family.

It was really great, we had a deep conversation about our beliefs and prayed together, ate dinner and after that we played some table games. I'm really bad at these kind of games so I was stressed about it but it was fun.

But before I even came home, at their house I started being so sad and depressed that I couldn't even stay there for one moment and I just left.

I felt that I found something in my day that I can be grateful for, look forward to meet them again soon and was unbeliveably happy about it but now I'm kind of angry and sad because I found out that I lost at least one of my stories written on my pc, I panicked and got really nervous and now it's past 1 AM (I didn't even post this yesterday...), I'm crying in the bathroom and can't even think about sleeping.

My life is just an emotional rollercoaster and I don't think I can ever be mentally stabile, but let's hope for the best.

[pjihoon]

Hi~~ I'm really sorry to bother you! But I saw your gifs in my dash and they're so pretty! I don't even stan wanna one but I just went through your gif tag for so long cause they're so nice 😍 Would you ever share your sharpen / action / topaz or coloring settings or tips? 😊

ahh omg anon thank you so much for your kind words! you’re so sweet

i think i’ll just share generic tips! From each stage of the giffing process. i still have so much i can improve with in giffing, so i’m sorry if i give you super wrong advice ahhh but i hope this helps a little?it got super long so it’s under the read more!!

Downloading Videos

make sure it’s the highest quality video you can get. 1080p is your friend. ok honestly, when i’ve giffed, i havent really noticed a difference in quality between 2k/4k and 1080p? maybe im doing it wrong but honestly the only thing ive noticed is that 2k/4k just slows down my computer drastically and takes up way too much space on a computer that already has like zero space to begin with. so i tend to stick with 1080p. 

Also! if you can get 60fps, thats also nice bc it helps your gifs look smoother.

yaknow how i said 1080p is your friend? well ts files are your best friends/family. if you can torrent them or download the, your gifs will look super pretty. i highly recommend this for live performance gifs. you can find ts files for a lot of shows, but again, since my computer has

kpop24hrs and kpopexciting are two places i go for those live perf ts files! kpop24hrs tends to have more i feel (it’s where i go when i want to gif my rookie groups that dont have too much attention on them)

you can also find torrents on twitter, if you search the right things

Extracting Videos

ok for this, if you have a pc (so like not a mac) i HIGHLY recommend looking into avisynth. there’s this tumblr account named brandinator who i’ve heard gives really awesome tips for avisynth and made it really easy for people to get avisnyth.if youre like me and your stuck with a mac, or if you just want to stick with photoshop then you can read the rest of this

i have photoshop cs5? so my tips are generally based around that. 

for youtube videos (so basically mp4/avi format) i use photoshop’s video extraction feature. file—>import–>video frames to layersif your photoshop is like mine for whatever reason and it doesnt want to recognize mp4 files, then what i do is changed the .mp4 extension to a .avi extension (and its super easy to do on mac….i dont have a pc so idk how different that is) the quality doesnt really change either with that simple changing of the ending it sorta just tricks photoshop i guess lol idunno

when youre on the ‘video frames to layers’ window, make sure you don’t hit the ‘limit to every _____ frames’ bc that makes it lose the smoothness quality of gifs. maybe back when the gif limit was like 1mb that would have been important, but we live in a world of luxury now. so for smoother looking gifs, make sure that box is unchecked. other ppl (pc users i think) tend to use other video extraction softwares. i cant remember the name, but all i remember is that for macs, that software cant extract frames so its useless for us. i think it was kmplayer? not sure. like you can download kmplayer on mac but it doesnt have the same features rip.for ts files, i use vlc player (since ps can’t open it) and sit there and capture each and every frame lol. 

Actually Giffing

here’s where things get a bit interpretive

(im assuming you know how to make a gif since you’ve asked for specific things like sharpening and stuff)

for coloring, 

ive found that not changing the lighting too much of the video youre giffing leads to higher quality stuff…but i also hate not changing the lighting too much which is why a lot of my gifs turn out grainy hahah (my coloring is really centered around how to make the person in the gifs look the most ‘natural’? so that usually involves trying to take out video filters). but yea the gifs in which i didnt change too much with coloring, tended to be my most high quality gifs. 

i don’t use other peoples psds and make my own everytime for each gif, and i only usually just adjust ‘curves’ and ‘exposure’ yea.

if there’s an ugly color background that you want to make look more white, when youre in ‘curve’s, go to each color (red green and blue) and drag the little line thing in the top right corner a little to the left. idk what is actually happening there and why it only really addresses the bg but thats a good way to try to make your bg whiter without actually whitewashing the gif. 

for sharpening

lol sharpening, my enemy. its what i struggle with the most

i use .4 at 500% for smart sharpen

and then for topaz i make sure clean color is at 0 first of all, and i mess around with ‘overall strength’ and ‘reduce blur’ until i get the quality that i wanted. i nvr go higher than .07 strength. 

but an important thing for sharpening i think is deciding when you want to crop the picture? do you crop it before or after the sharpening/topaz? i dunno honestly, but for me ive found that cropping first, and then applying sharpening settings leads to the highest quality (or maybe thats what im used to so it turns out better). 

oh yea i dont resize, i crop instead. i’m not sure if that does anything but when i was first starting i found that resizing made my gifs look more blurry…? and that cropping was nicer to my gifs? i’m not sure if that does anything though lol maybe cropping is worse who knows, but its something ive stuck with ever since ive started

save settings

i’ve recently switched over to diffusion! but sometimes that doenst work out so i use the pattern one. i play around with adaptive/selective to see which one looks better or takes up less space haha

last but not least: pray

i spend a lot of my time praying that my gif will come out good haha bc even if you think you did everything right, once you hit that ‘save for web’ button, it’ll look like the ugliest thing in the world it’s really frustrating. like even when i make a gifset from the same video using the same everything (coloring, sharpening, save settings) one gif will look like trash and the other one will be like the best thing ive ever giffed so its like?? pray