#i played a bit i liked dva

[panicbones]

didnt expexct thoughtful discussion on what was just a shouting at a wall post. but im a guy who loves talking and engaging everyone can say hi always and forever

[godblooded]

sup insomnia gang gimme a ❤️

[supernova41st]

ok but like I loved ur mercy!reader post and considering my love for crossovers ESPECIALLY character interactions I was wondering if u could do more???

Nerf this! ₍ᐢ..ᐢ₎

Tf2 x Dva!Reader

A/n: If you’re not familiar with Dva then I suggest watching the Dva Cinematic. It’ll sum her character up and she’s a fun one at that ^^. A lot of my tf2 x ow fics are platonic so unless I outright say that it’s romantic you can imagine it however you’d like, enjoy <33

Warnings: None

Divider creds: Sister-Lucifer on Tumblr

Engineer

Since you guys were forced to share a workshop it looks pretty similar to the bedroom from Sam and Cat, one side being dull and grey with little to no decorations while the other is pink with cute plushies/figurines around the place.

After a bit you grew closer, sitting around in silence while working on your projects got pretty awkward so it was about time before someone broke the ice.

“You ever name your bots?”

“Huh, don’t think so.. you?”

“Yes! I call her Tokki, she’s cute isn’t she?”

“And one hell of a shade of pink”

Engineer is really competitive when it comes to you, being that you both are engineers/inventors. You guys have fun 🫶

“That’s 10 kills! Can you do that grandpa?”

“Haha! Just wait til’ you see what my other babies can do”

Will gladly show you some old tricks that he’s learned over the years since he’s more experienced. Plus he’s the only person you’ll ever trust your dear Tokki with.

Speaking of which-your self destruct sequence is always done by him, any of the other mercs will FUMBLEEE

“how do I friggin do this?? Is there like a joystick I can move around?”

•

“Too many dæm buttons on this zing! I zon’t know what I’m doing”

•

“pulls out glasses your mouse controls the small pointer on ze screen, use it to-WHAT DOES ANY OF THIS MEAN?”

“IT MEANS YOU’RE STUPID HEAVY.”

Interactions/Voicelines 🎤

Team kill with Self Destruct

“How’s that for a shade of pink?”

•

“Definitely haven’t seen somethin’ like that in my years.”

•

“Thanks Tae-I mean!-Engie!!”

Domination

“Too slow, peepaw!”

•

“Hope that wasn’t hard on your arthritis -3-“

Medic

Medic gets so excited when you’re on a mission with him. Loves pocketing you, partly because you’re the nicest when it comes to asking for help

“CMON THEN DOCTOR”

“heal me pussy.”

“DOCTOR, HEAL NOW”

“heals plss 😚”

He also enjoys how you’re full of surprises, he thought you were gonna die when your mech broke down but no! You jumped out that thing and pistol whipped the whole team’s faces off like the diva you are.

“PISTOL TO THE FACE!!”

“Y/n slow down 🙂”

He loves you but you overstimulate him.

Interactions/Voicelines 🎤

Ubering

“LETS GO!”

•

“RAHHH!! GET OUTTA MY GAME!”

Spawn Interactions

“Vill you surprise me out there, Hase?”

“Of course! You know I always do ^.^”

•

“Nett mech”

“Nett coat!!”

“Aw, vy thank you”

Spy

This ho won’t stop talking shit. Every time he opens his mouth about you it’s him complaining about how “you’re too young to be on this team” or “your ‘experience’ with video games doesn’t serve a war” or “stop playing video games y/n we’re in the middle of battle”.

He avoided you for the most part until you decided to make some small talk while you both awkwardly stood in an elevator, big mistake 😬

“I bet your gun does a ton of DPS”

“Must you always muster up your video game vocabulary with reality?”

“Must you always be so petty?? 😒 old Frenchie fuck you and your dps gun”

Clearly he’s not fond of youngin’s joining the team. Though he does find you more “tolerable” than scout since you at least have some experience with fighting in a war (kinda)

He hates that he has to crawl to you for tech help, he doesn’t know what he’s doing-you’re the tech expert!!

“Y/n.. something is wrong with the radio.”

“..oookkayyy??”

“Can you help?”

“LOL!!”

Meetings with you always end up in him taking your game console away, he just won’t leave you alone 🙄

“Hey! I was in the middle of beating a boss!!”

“You’ll have it back once you listen to what I have to say, girl.”

“Ughh fine”

Interactions/Voicelines 🎤

Spawn interactions

“Don’t you think your little pink robot will be a distraction?”

“That’s.. just the way I like it!”

Blaster light gun kill

“See that, Spy? Pure skill.”

Spy callout

“Ping!Ping!Ping! Spy around here!!”

[enderwolf91]

overwatch x mha collab and juno is getting a legendary skin before venture... 🙂 this is a but of a long one chat

I'm a fucking nerd when it comes to mha, I know the plot forwards and backwards, all the characters inside and out (and yes, practically all of the characters), I've read the manga and watched the anime in both sub and dub multiple times. I'm a nerd for my her academia.

I lowkey kinda predicted this collab when I was thinking about what the next anime collab overwatch was gonna do, and my top two were My Hero Academia and Jujutsu Kaisen.

All this being said, the skins look good. Genuinely, they look incredible and it'll be jarring to see Shigaraki and All Might in my games.

Reinhardt is getting his 3rd collab skin in 3 months, on top of his weapon mythic skin (I hope they chill on the Reinhardt skins after this collab cause there are other tanks who need love too. ie Winston, Ball, Zarya).

Kiriko is getting another legendary skin on top of getting skins every season, including this current season (This I have such major beef with. I know she's easy to make skins for, and those skins look good but out the focus you out into making those skins into skins for other heroes, Blizzard).

Reaper is getting a collab skin the same season he got his mythic skin (which I don't have a big problem with cause he hasn't been getting much recently).

Juno is getting a legendary skin before Venture does... months before Venture gets a skin that isn't even confirmed to be legendary and for all we know could be an epic or lower tier. Juno has the same body type as Kiriko, as does Dva and Mercy mind do who also get a lot of skins, so they're easy to make skins for, put that energy used for making them skins into figuring out good skin for other heroes.

I promise you, Blizzard, the skinny girls and picture perfect boys can have a break for a season or two from playing dress up, give your other dolls a chance to play and you'll find another pool of fans enjoying the game. Be inclusive, stop giving us the same five heroes with different outfits just because they're easier to dress up when you have 35 other heroes who want to play. You tailor the clothes, sew them onto other heroes and you'll find new and more profits.

I don't know what to say about Tracer other than, to me, the Deku skin looks... off. Like they really forced the skin onto Tracer when it didn't fit. Personally, I think Deku could've fit Venture. They have similar hair and body builds (Deku is a bit smaller but it's better than trying to fit a muscular, masculine body onto a petite, skinny girl). Plus then Juno and Venture would be getting legendary skins at the same time, so then Blizzard wouldn't be getting riots for the fact that Juno is getting a skin before Venture.

Also, this collab is gonna be gooner bait. My Hero Academia and Overwatch? They're like the two biggest 3D p*rn producers and they're coming cumming together? Lord have mercy it's gonna break p*rnhub with the degenerates

[mspaintbrush]

Lucio thoughts

Sleeps in a hammock (he needs this weight of sinking into the cloth and the whole thing still moving slightly)

Topless with baggy comfy pants, hair cap to protect braids

Morning routine: wake up, clean face, moisturize skin and hair, trim beard, put hair up, go into kitchen, brew coffee (black, pure, raw energy - Overwatch coffee isnt as strong as the brazilian coffee he is used to, so as a treat he gets some imported), lil bit of breadrolls/toast with butter

Dog person, spoiling Murphy

Still gets along fine with cats though, Mitzi likes to chill in his room (Mitzi lives at the base in my head because yes)

Owns several pairs of heelies

If he doesnt wear skates he wears heelies

Would put rolls on patent shoes to wear with a suit

Skates in the halls and gets flamed by Phara for it (continues to do it, nothing will stop the rio drift)

Would be great at skateboarding but never actually tried it even though its on his bucket list (Genji was a skateboard kid for sure, he would definitely love to teach him)

Can play guitar and ukulele

Strumming a little tune helps him calm down and keep his fingers and head occupied

Regularily carries both his instruments around the base and forgets where they are (lore behind the guitar in helicarrier spawn)

Baggy comfy clothes for the win, comfort over style

Used to casually wear a lot of sports team shirts and still does

Gets cold quickly (brazil curse) so often wearing more layers than others (bro is already complaining at around 25°C/77°F)

Saw snow for the first time in his life just one year ago and still gets all bubbly and excited when Mei tells him its going to be snowing during a mission/at the base

Desperately needs social contact and feels anxiously lonely very quickly

Charges up by being around people and just enjoying their company, even if everyone is kinda doing their own thing

Often hangs around DVa, Bap or Brig since they are very cheerful and fun to be around

They play videogames together (Im sure DVa owns a retro game collection so they play wii sports or guitar hero or smth)

Eats burger with knife and fork and gets laughed at for it

Good cook! Likes veggies :)

Dont look at the state of the kitchen after he is done though

Not the most organized or tidiest person, proud owner of a clothing pile in the corner of his room

That clothing pile is Mitzi's favourite spot

Honestly I see him having his hammock hung up over his normal bed. And he uses the bed as a couch or storage room even when Winston offered him multiple times to take it out of the room.

When you visit his room you just hear "oh wait I'll make some space" and the noise of a bunch of stuff being "moved" to the floor before he offers you to sit on the bed

One of the people you'd hear roaming through the base at 2am looking for food or his guitar he left somewhere

At the same time very concerned about other people's sleep schedule (DVa will not know peace)

Responsible for the music playing during helicarrier flights, master of the aux cord

Custom mixtapes based on destination (he takes it very serious)

Has playlists set up for each Overwatch Agent and carefully builds them up as he tries to figure out everyone's music taste

this started because Reinhardt asked him about David Hasselhoff

not everyone knows about their playlists yet, Lucio himself decides when the time is right to solemnly present it

[redpenship]

10 bloggers you'd like to know better challenge/prompt. tagged by @comphetkoncass <333 (ty ty ily)

last song: supernova by aespa

favorite color: light/pale pink

last book: last fiction book ive read is moon of the crusted snow by waubgeshig rice and the last non-fiction book ive read is how states think: the rationality of foreign policy by jj mearsheimer. not his best book but not a terrible read either!

last movie: i think it might be the wild robot. i thought the bit where all the animals were forced to get along was really stupid, also very noncredible depictions of a moose. 2/5.

last tv show: house md! recently finished the penguin and im also caught up with arcane

sweet/savory/spicy: savoury for sure, unless it's crêpes in which case sweet every time. i dont understand people who put ham and cheese or whatever in those like at that point just eat a sandwich or a burrito.

relationship status: with my gf for almost a year!

last thing I searched: "how to do accent circumflex on mac keyboard". otherwise i just spent a lot of time looking up articles about warfare in video games for a research paper proposal. i want to write about WMDs in sonic but there are so few game studies about anti-war themes in video games that i'm struggling and will need to use less direct sources.

current obsession: always thinking about my wip. am i writing it? well...

looking forward to: graduating university

bonus topics

favorite drink: double gin and tonic. i also raise you chugging half a wine cooler and then filling it up with like 5 shots of vodka, but im banned from doing that now. i also love sangria and jaeger bombs. non alc is DR. PEPPER

song playing on a loop in your head: in my bag by flo and glorilla.

current favorite character: im not the kind of person who really obsesses over characters, but ive been loving knuckles a lot lately so maybe him.

fun activity you would like to get into: im easing back into it but higher level DDR/pump it up

last video game: overwatch. im cracked at dva

last comic/graphic novel: im behind on DC and havent read any manga lately so probably IDW sonic.

tagging (no pressure tho fr): @onesecretperson @khalewren @dreaminginmysoup @rooftop--runner @whisper-and-tangle @dablaanash @lunapegasus @teemdark @the-avr-dude @hishighnesstheprincess

[phonkscribes]

Strange critter is WILD

He's a odd little fellow

A mischievous little lad

Also give me more thoughts about loser Wesker because I'm thirsty for dva main Wesker- I mean loser wesker

Ofc bestie!

I think he'd be the type to not really talk about his interest between his younger siblings(Alex & Alexia), while also hiding in his room all day and all night, the only time that anyone ever sees him if he's off at school, work, or coming out to make food. At least he's not a gross fan to the point where he doesn't shower, but he probably does stink a little bit. He's just too preoccupied with his job and his little side hobby to take care of himself sometimes and it shows.

When he's playing any game that has the reader in it, he definitely starts to fanboy to himself or if he's on calls with Chris or William he's definitely raving to them.

"Who's the killer?"

"Oh I see a... cover your ears"

"IT'S THEM", to which he proceeds to run off to go and find the poor player that chose to log on and play as you while the others suffer with objectives. I can see him ratting out Chris or Claire to killer while they complain over mics.

"God you're such a simp...", and Jill is the only other person who also simps for you like Wesker does.

As fanon as it is, this is such a silly AU and it's so funny to try and imagine.

[freakingoutthesquares]

The Herald 10 December 2015

"I'd run out of juice and judging by the album sales the rest had too after I left."

Russell Senior on life in and out of Pulp

By Teddy Jamieson

RUSSELL Senior has written a book about Britpop. He wasn't sure he wanted to or even knew how to for a long time. But then the former Pulp guitarist and violinist watched all the 20th anniversary Britpop documentaries on the TV and they contrived to make Britpop look as dull as a Menswear B side.

"They all looked very flat and stilted and not very exciting," he recalls. "And you see punk documentaries and there's fantastic footage of the Pistols and the 100 Club. " But that doesn't seem to be the case with Britpop. "There isn't great footage for some reason. It all seems mannered. And yet it was a very exciting time. So I thought, 'well, you've been an explorer in that jungle and you should catalogue what you've seen."

And so welcome Freak Out the Squares, a guide to Britpop wildlife. Think of it as a northern, working class alternative to Alex James's Bit of a Blur. So there's no exact equivalent of James's five naked girls and a jereboam of champagne birthday celebrations but there is a bit of sex, drugs and rock and roll. With a spot of gratuitous tree burning thrown in for good measure. It's not a revenge on his former band mates by the way. He's actually quite circumspect. "I was in Pulp for 13 years the first time and most of that was either boredom or hatred. The fun bits are what make a book. 'He said to me in 1993' and 'I hated this trousers' is not worth writing down, is it?"

This morning I've interrupted Senior's computer game playing (Counter-Strike, if you must know) to ask him about the book, life in Sheffield at the start of the eighties, Pulp's years (and years) of struggle and his short experience of success before he left the band in the late nineties to start a career in antiques. I'm disappointed he doesn't go into that latter part of his life in the book, I tell him. "Of all the things people have said you ought to have more of, you're the first person to ever say you need anecdotes about antiques. It was more like 'can we have more about what Liam said.'"

Senior was Pulp's most gratuitous sunglass-wearer and, it would seem, from reading Freak Out the Squares, the grown-up of the band. Or maybe wrangler might be a better description. "Oh definitely the herder of cats. And they weren't easy to herd either. Artists, they're buggers really. They don't take kindly to organisation. Or getting up."

"So yeah, they called me the headmaster. It was supposed to be an insult but I was quite complimented by it."

Pulp emerged in the early eighties just as Sheffield began to slip off the cultural radar. At the start of that decade Senior says it was the most exciting place to be on Earth, home to a thrilling, innovative electronic scene that gave the world Cabaret Voltaire, Clock DVA, the Human League and Vice Versa (later to reposition themselves as new popsters ABC).

Even though the nascent Pulp were hardly musical fellow travellers it did give the band the belief that Sheffield was a place to make music. "It was exciting that there was this secret underbelly to the city and then I watched it collapse as well. You see your punk rock heroes begging in the streets, literally; people you were clapping on stage now trying to ponce 10 pence off you for a bottle of cheap cider. There were fantastically successful figures and there were casualties. I knew both, so it was like death or glory, being in a band."

The reality proved to be more of a long, dreary slog. Senior, singer Jarvis Cocker and the rest of them spent the best part of a decade getting nowhere fast. And then at the start of the nineties they finally became an overnight success. Jarvis became an unlikely sex symbol and the band got to appear on Top of the Pops which was, Senior suggests, pure validation. That and later hearing Disco 2000 on the Waltzer in Cleethorpes.

Still, he left in 1997. "Personally I'd run out of juice and judging by the album sales the rest had too after I left. I thought I'd said what I wanted to say in music. Move on."

And yet he was thrilled to come back in 2011 and tour with the band again. Was there a sense of closure? "Yeah definitely. It felt kind of unfinished in a way. It kind of had to be done." His diary of the tour also gave him the basis for the book.

These days Russell Senior likes foraging (but worries that it makes him sound like a hipster: "I've been doing it all my life," he points out) and thinks that Britpop was more fun than people give it credit for ("if it's reduced to Blur v Oasis then it's certainly done down.")

He is proud of his past but he's always kept it in perspective. When John Peel announced on radio that Pulp at Glastonbury was the best gig ever Senior was cleaning the toilet at the time. "It can't go to your head. It doesn't give me a discount at Asda or anything."

Freak Out the Squares by Russell Senior is published by Aurum Press, priced £18.99.

[nevercured]

Ohh I’ve never gotten around to elder scrolls but I’ve heard a lot of good stuff about it! I was planning on getting into elden ring once my holidays starts though, since lore and open world is something that appeals to me

Personally I’m more for quaint and chill games like stardew valley, maybe the occasional minecraft! I play some FPS too, and I used to play COD! But i started on console and haven’t gotten around to transitioning on pc. I do play over watch, and I wanted to get into rainbow 6 though!

Do you have a favourite COD franchise?? I was really big into COD ghost, but I know it’s got an awful rep :(

Also how was your day!! :)

-🦭

Hey 🦭,

Elden ring is a great game. I've only played a bit of it myself, but I've gotten platinum trophies for Bloodborne and DS2 so I definitely need to finish it at some point.

I've played Stardew Valley before, but none of the love interests really captured my attention.

Coming from COD where the soldiers are pretty basic, I enjoy Overwatch for the unique characters. Mercy and DVA are pretty cute. I mostly played Hanzo-- considered cosplaying him at one point.

As for my favorite COD, I really enjoyed Black Ops Cold War but the subsequent titles haven't lived up to my expectations.

I could discuss video games endlessly.

-

You sent this a couple days ago, but I'm still getting through a backlog of letters so I'll have to tell you about my day today haha. It's been a nice morning. I'm working from home and I bought a new Keurig so I've had two coffees already.

How was your weekend?

-Never🗡️

[throughconflict]

five things you find interesting about Doom? Go!

Rubs grubby hands together...........

☆ I absolutely adore the fact he has a good relationship with his family and that they understand/support his point of view. It's so refreshing to have a villain with a pretty good upbringing. The interaction between him and Ashe really speaks to me because of two reasons:

One-- the fact that Ashe speaks to him first. To me it reads as her trying to gain some kind of explanation for his destructive actions. After all, she has a shitty family and likely reckons most those in Talon have similar paths/backstories. It's like she's asking as if to just make sense of him and categorize him as another tragically lead ~villain~. And that's immediately shot down when he answers pretty flat-out that they're supportive of him.

Two-- The TONES. I may be reading way too much into this but the way they speak to each other speaks volumes about what they were feeling in that conversation. The lighter tone Akande uses shows how fond he is of his family, and indicates a level of care he holds for his parents. Meanwhile Ashe's initial tone is jabbing and almost sarcastic, like she knows the answer already. Then it immediately swaps to jealousy in her second line. It's so good and speaks so much about their family dynamics.

☆ The respect he holds for a good handful of the others regardless of their alignment. Apart from Baptiste, he doesn't show malice to most Overwatch heroes. He speaks to 76 and Cassidy like they were having small talk or a business proposal. And while he is technically their enemy, he acknowledges their strengths and for some characters he offers a job position.

☆ AKANDE'S SPORTSMANSHIP LEAKS INTO HIS PERSONALITY. Not a lot of people play Doom so the dialogue is often missed, but he is a pretty good sport when it comes to losing!! If he's wiped out by a Talon member, he commends them as he responds! The tone Akande uses is formidable; he's no sore loser. Man takes L's as lessons and improves himself with them. He's also respectful and somewhat guiding with heroes like Brig and Dva-- admiring their strength and offering his perspective on life... Whether or not they care to hear his opinions is not important. XD

I ALSO WANT TO SAY I LOVE THAT HE TAKES BEING DEFEATED BY KIRIKO WITHOUT ANY BITTERNESS TOO-- He loses like a CHAMP.

☆ Hear me out-- He's a fucking goober. Not in a comic-relief type of way, either. Doom's just got a hint of playfulness in his personality that I think really rounds his character. Some of his lines are so unnecessary when he fights (ie. "Selsmic Slam! Rocket Punch!") that while may be used for gameplay ...... I'd argue that it does something else; it shows him being a bit of a silly nerd because he sometimes acts like a comic book character. Especially with the line "Face my burning fist!" Like..... That's so silly.

☆ The way he dismisses anger as a motivator for so many of the characters is incredibly interesting. It can be assumed that when he killed his mentor the thing that fueled him was rage and such... But if you hear him talk to other characters he condemns characters for using anger as a motivator. Well, correction-- Akande seems to have issue with people who have anger as their only driving force to fight. He doesn't hold back from anyone, chastising Winston the same way he does Reaper when eliminating them.

But yes........ OwO he is fascinating and 100% a fan of Hatsune Miku (trust me I asked him myself)

[probably-neurodivergent-idk]

It's 00:47 am as I'm beginning to write this typing and oh boy I'm gonna stay here a while cause I posted a comment on this

fucking thing

and it was too long and it didn't post and now I'm angry and I wanna vent but idk if it's gonna be ultimately sad or happy so uhhhh be ready for a ride if you wanna read this. tw suicide and sh!! I know it sounds sad but stay with me

so. me 2 years ago, fell in love with the appearance of a girl, as an aromantic. at this point I'm questioning wether FINALLY, AFTER ALL THIS FUCKING TIME. ahahah. no. she was just very fucking pretty. and, pulling the agreste, just a friend. except this one is for real just a friend. this isn't really important to the plot other than the fact that this was my last straw in my identity crisis and I just cried in my bedroom realising I'm aro ace. It's not so bad currently lowkey. I must have been a tiny bit dramatic.

Not the actual story: ALSO about 2 years ago, I was 1. really fucking suicidal and 2. getting into twitch streamers (mostly because I heard how the dsmp fans stayed alive, and basically was looking for life support in something different than minecraft because I don't really care for it. I think this was wayyy before clay and will were outed, not gonna go into detail with that one) . they're pretty fun, but the only aspect that I don't like is that they don't really seem like people, more like clowns that are only there to make people laugh. Which, cool I guess? obviously I respected their privacy and all that shit, but they didn't seem like humans.

fast forward like 4 months I think. I lost motivation to play my at the time favourite games, so I did what was only natural, searched for new ones. Oomf (streamer) was friends with this other friend, and they linked them to their twitch reccommended shit, like the "check this out while I'm offline!!!" page, and this person is live. They're playing overwatch??? wtf is that. oh. it's that game with the Mercy girl. OHHHH THE MERCY GIRL IS THE SAME FROM THE LIVING TOMBSTONE SONG. OH. MY. GOD. WDYM IT'S ALSO FROM THE SAVING THE LITTLE GIRL MEME??? I love this game. (I won't main mercy tho thats literally the embodiment of femininity and hell no I don't wanna go back there)

(this meme btw)

(actually now that I think about it it might be my favourite meme now. I love it.)

And so we became friends. They taught me shit about overwatch and I.. actually I think I was a horrible friend cause I didn't do anything in return, but ANYWAY. So yeah. friends. until one of their streams they feel different. this person begins randomly crying and talking about them harming themselves and suicide?? while live?? and I'm like holy shit wait this guy is lonely as fuck. I wanna help them. and I got their discord the same day and asked them if they were okay. Surprise!! They're not. They start venting to me regularly, and I just sit there and listen. It genuinely feels hopeless cause I can't help them in any way, but I don't tell them that because wtf are you thinking if you tell a suicidal person it's hopeless. But I did believe in them and I know theyre strong enough to push through, so THAT'S what I told them. Obviously they disagreed but what am I supposed to do, continue to tell them that everyday until they finally feel loved and appreciated by people in their lives? Oh wait.

At some point, I think the same day they had the Doom Stream, I know that they said "why would you care about me?? why would YOU, a COMPLETE FUCKING STRANGER?? care about ME?? a STUPID MISTAKE OF A STREAMER that you only started watching 2 AND A HALF MINUTES AGO" or whatever they said, something along those lines, and I (in the context where at the time I am cringing at my own emotions, blocking any shade of emotion feeling or opinion from my body and throwing them in a fucking black hole) say "I care!! because!! this whole fucking day I waited for you to stream so I can tell you I got dva!! and (insert other moments we had fun together in as friends and not viewer-streamer) and I love and appreciate you for who you really are!!! and I geniuenly want to cry in this moment!!" (I never cry) And they're like "woah.. I didn't know you thought of me like that. You actually appreciate me?? What?? Thats crazy". And that made me smile cause it calmed them down. Lesson learned: tell your friends to appreciate them regularly. You never know.

My vision of them has changed. This streamer is not like a clown for entertainment. This is actually a human, and a really good one too. Life was a fucking bitch for giving them a hard one, actually multiple hard ones. I'm atheist but if I was christian like in the bad ol' days I'm sure I would have became an atheist right now because no deity would watch what that person is going through and not find the empathy to help. You believe in whatever you want, I don't really care, but this is just my opinion.

I remember at some point we were playing overwatch, a round of 1v1 together, they're WAY better than me at the game so obviously I lost. I was mad at myself and was pulling my hair and was red in the face from anger and was angrily mumbling some bullshit that I don't even remember but suddenly this absolutely fucker just said "I love you" (we agreed that, since they're straight and I'm aro we can tell eachother "I love you" platonically) and I instantly cooled. Calm. I've never felt that way before. If you play overwatch, honestly it felt like a kiriko suzu. Cleansed. I stood there shocked because I OBVIOUSLY didn't expect them to just say it randomly after a lost game of mine, especially because THEY beat me. but hey, not complaining. it felt nice. I felt loved for who I truly am for the first time in my life.

fast forward to now,

They said that they wanted to commit suicide. Had a date planned and all. They didn't want to tell me what was wrong, and I didn't want to push them to tell me, but obviously there was something wrong. I was so stressed and cried for nights on end, but I didn't tell them that so they don't think they're a burden, I would have worsened everything.

The date passed.

THEY'RE ALIVE.

OH MY GOD.

THEY GAVE UP ON IT.

In the moment I realised they were really alive, the moment I heard their wonderful beyond words voice I was holding myself back from crying. Of course I couldn't cry on the fucking call!!!! That's cringe!!!!

At some point they said, although idk if still valid, that they would have been long gone if they didn't have our groupchat, which are people who regularly check on their stream. We're all pretty close to eachother, and I'm glad I have them more than I can begin to describe. I love them all.

The word "cringe" almost stopped me from telling my friend the words that saved his life. Never, I repeat, NEVER let the word "cringe" stop you from saying anything about your feelings!!!! Please!!!!!

Life lessons aside, theres this other thing that I wanna say. See how I have explicitly said that I am aro this WHOLE post?? Like, I'm "the literal embodiment of aromanticism", as they themselves said. copy and pasted it. well uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeah im confused now

My whole life I have lived in an environment where my feelings were ignored and I wasn't allowed to have my own opinions unless they alligned to the people around me (hi mom) but, when I'm with them? I felt and feel like I can be myself with no consequences. I am free to be whoever and they will not laugh that I cringe whenever I compliment somebody or that my interests are childish or that I am genuinely just fucking crazy like I would go to hell just to take a selfie with satan type of crazy. They obviously find it funny, but it doesn't feel like bullying. It feels home. They're my home.

So. What's this??????? Like I can't fucking figure it out. Overall it doesn't really matter, because at the end of the day, it's night (I stole it from Da Vinkis im sorry) but I'm just really curious. It's a feeling I've never witness form in my tiny little brain. I hope I make sense because this certainly doesn't.

I genuinely would go till the ends of the world for this individual. This absolute son of a bitch grabbed a brush and painted on my expressionless face a smile, a tear, anything but numbness, the thing I felt my whole life. I don't remember how it felt anymore. I care what happens to me now. I do. I want to stay alive. I want to live. For them. Fuck suicide, I want to sit in the rain, make my parents mad, dye my hair magenta, draw 2 meter tall canvases with elves that secretly represent our groupchat, and most importantly? I wanna hear their voice. Yes, I am talking about the whole groupchat, but also just about Them at the same time. I like their voice. It makes me excided and calm at the same time. It makes my day.

Wether it's actually romantic love or not, it ultimately does not matter though. Why? cause 1. They won't like me back, they're straight and I'm enby, and they also think that I am the literal embodiment of aromanticism. so yeah. 2. I won't tell them no matter what cause what happens when they say they don't love me back? Yes, obviously I get hurt but more importantly, THEY get hurt because they'll feel bad, or even worse, it's gonna get awkward and we won't ever talk again!!! that would be the LAST wanted scenario I would ever want to experience right now.

And also, the only reason that keeps me from thinking it is, in fact, NOT platonic is because in the scenario that they will get a lover, I would be SO SO SO INCREDIBLY PROUD AND HAPPY FOR THEM AAAAAA. not a HINT of jealousy. Lucky fucking lover. They got the jackpot. I would hope they're happy forever and would actually give my life to make their relationship work, wether thats financial aid, advice, support, any skill that they need me to do and I am relatively good at, or even, in a hypothetical scenario, LITERALLY my life. When they find a lover, I only wish them the best.

So with all of that said

You know how I said I would describe myself to be the person that would go to hell to take a selfie with satan?

Here's my future plan, might sound a bit childish but I don't give a shit this is Tumblr I can say Whatever Whenever and any money making tips for making this happen are absolutely fucking welcome bring it on:

I want to get an apartment in another country. I have estimated prices of everything and I plan on preparing for the worst case scenario financially-wise, which is the equivalent of about $120 000, and thats a LOT for somebody who's planning to get this money by working part-time no-experience jobs for at least 2 years, which will only get me around 13k in the best scenario. Why would I need this kind of money? Ahahah. lets just say. from their pov, I wanted to move to America because I hate my country. and WOW!!! that apartment will """accidentally""" have EXACTLY 2 bedrooms. What a surprise!!!!! They want to get out of their family's house ASAP, but they don't know I'm actually fucking nuts and instantly said "alright bet" .

Ahaha now I'm begging they don't find this cause I can't possibly begin explaining to them wtf is going on through my mind right now. They're still very fucking suicidal even if they don't have a plan or a date, and I gotta be REALLY careful w this.

My last option would be, instead of BUYING an apartment, to RENT it instead, which would bring the monthly costs of said thing to about 4k a month, first month 5k, furniture for the bedrooms in the first month as well as groceries and a few treats in here and there included, but I REALLY don't wanna rent it cause 1. I will most DEFINETLY forget to pay it in time, 2. I will most DEFINITELY forget that it's not actually my room and will paint it however I want and WILL Fuck It Up 3. I will most DEFINITELY not find a job for whatever the fuck I wanna do there, so uhhhhh no more money = homeless and I guess I could live on the streets or even go back to my home country with the money that wasn't enough for a rent but enough for a ticket but I CAN'T JUST LET THEM BE HOMELESS BRUH I WOULD BE THE WORST FRIEND EVERRRRRR. and 4. it will probably cost more in the long run. thats a plan b, and a really bad one really.

I promised them I would see them in 2 years, and I was hoping that's when I'm gonna try to move in, but AHAHAH SILLY ME MONEY IS ACTUALLY A PROBLEM IN THIS ECONOMY and I don't wanna ask my parents for shit because they will most certainly scream at me. So. It's only gonna be a visit. I'm gonna have to look into the price of that one. I will probably have enough for a week trip, but idk about LIVING there with that kind of money. but it's okay. I'll finish a college, which will be THANKFULLY paid by my parents. (why would they fund my college but NOT my dream future? ahahah they have other plans for me they don't want me to leave the country but uhhhh I will anyway. dw I'll still keep contact. I love them.) I'll work full time while in college, will pull all nighters to do homework and sleep 4 hours a day and eat instant noodles and skip classes to work and wash my clothes, hair and forks in the sink and live with the worst roommate ever for the rest of my college life if I have to, but I WILL. I repeat I WILL. do it. May I be with myself cause god certainly won't be.

Clock check!! 03:38 am. oh!

[dnfnoodles]

The 'mercy hides for big mass rez' is so dumb because ive had so many games where my mcree/cassidy and reapers threw because they had ult and wanted the big potg moment😭😭

While some changes make sense mercy's rework will never be one that i will understand 😭

Now characters who def needed a rework after playing both versions for a bit are dva and sym becaus le WHAT IS THAT BULLSHIT SHIELD😭😭 they did symm dirty with that one naaahhhh

And dva just feels too slow in everything, im glad they reworked her a bit

yeah exactly like it’s not only a mercy problem with hiding for the big ult so it’s a stupid argument. and omg yeah symm needed a rework, but damn they reworked her so many times too😭 current dva needs nerfs though but yeah she’s pretty good in this state, just like change some cooldowns or something

but also I played some hanzo and damn I missed scatter arrow, it was so fun

[leaky-pen]

we out here losing today. absolutely no one cares about my opinions but my sis isnt home so i have no one to complain to.

Mercy got a damage boost nerf, which was fair. But like revert all the other nerfs u guys have made to her over time while yall were sidestepping touching her damage boost. pls. the only good thing left in her kit was damage boost.

Protection suzu got chnged. which idk how to feel about that

i just started using ana and sombra and guess who both got nerfed

kiriko no longer has a 3x multiplier to crits.... so sad. how am i supposed to absolutely bully widowmakers now? i hope 2.5x is still enough to handle them cuz i gotta sy 70% of the time my teammates seem to just ignore widow and let her kill them. AND I CANT OUT HEAL A ONE SHOT. so the solution i always went with was to just kill widows/hanzos every time i saw them so they couldnt do much and/or were forced to switch.

they did not just buff bastion. i do not approve. (but my opinion may be invalid as i have a deep rooted hatred for that character. well, ppl who play him. i think design/story wise hes cute)

Brigitte got nerfed. which i dont play her. but my sis does and i adore having a decent brig as my second support. just makes me feel so much secure. (also if our tank is being a coward i will just pocket her playing brig and make her the tank for a bit so we can clear some space. this has like a 75% success rate. which actually maybe stuff like that is why she got nerfed... oh well)

We do have some good news at least.

Lifeweaver got buffed. he needed it. and i love having a lifeweaver on my team (especially when i play dva)

Dva got her booster cooldown reduced. which im gonna say is the bestthing ever. bcuz dva is the only tank i play since i dont rlly like the rest of the tanks playstyles. and the only thing i would change about her is make the booster cool down a tiny bit shorter. there are just some scenarios where i need it to be off cooldown just a smidge faster so i think this will be good

NEW SUPPORT NEW SUPPORT NEW SUPPORT NEW SUPP0RT NEW- ahem. as you can tell. i am excited. i am not gonna spend money on this game so im only getting her when i unlock her instead of right away, but im still excited to try her out.

[shot-by-cupid]

Hey Staci! I'm curious, who do you ship with from Overwatch? My number one ultimate F/O is Roadhog! And then I also ship with Junkrat and Sigma!

Hiii

Okay so. Quite a few. I am incredibly greedy all of the time 😔 I’ve always been a bit embarrassed about having such a large list from like. Every media I’m into and OW is no exception.

my main f/o would probably be Cassidy, he was the whole reason I got into overwatch to begin with and he is very dear to me 🤕 I’ve been shipping with him for like. 3 years (which isn’t a LONG time but I got into overwatch late T-T)

There’s also Hanzo, Widow, Ashe and Genji who is are close seconds who you probably see me post about very often.

And even after that there’s Lucio, Zenyatta, Baptiste, Ramattra, Moira, Junkerqueen and Junkrat too! :0 I don’t post about these guys AS often but I care them just as much (I’ve also got a bit of a thing for Sojourn and Zarya but I haven’t decided if I wanna make them like. Official Y’know? Im still testing the waters >_>)

Other than romantic I’ve got a few close platonic f/os like Mei, Bastion, Dva, Kiriko and roadhog, but i consider MOST characters platonic just by extension Y’know??

Like I said, the list is long and I am a bit embarrassed but every character in this game is so interesting and and cool, I find myself enjoying a little bit of every character weather it be their play style or their lore or whatever I love them all so much !!!!

[lucky--owl]

anyways more thoughts about ow2

doomfist being a tank is still the worst thing ever and it wouldn't be nearly as bad if there were still 2 tanks.

I miss voting at the end of games mainly because I miss the post games being long so I could have time to get mad at people who were being assholes :(

[sasuketheenegro]

yeah dva in her in game dynasty skin is cool, but also consider: she’d be player of the match everytime